I think this is the proper tag for this question/post? I’m about ten chapters deep into writing a fan book based around slayers and some internal questions or fantasies I had maintained through reading gotrek and Felix and running campaigns set around the books, I was wondering if this subreddit might be a medium people would like to read the rough drafts. I don’t know if that works within the subs rules or copyrights but I’d love to share this passion project that has essentially overtaken my life for the last two weeks.

Hi guys, I'm having problems with setting cookies, When I log in, jwt tokens are created and saved in cookies, but when I access a route that needs the tokens, they are not sent, I don't think they are even being saved
this is my server.ts

import http from "node:http" import { routes } from "./routes/routes"; import { config } from "dotenv"; config() const server = http.createServer((request, response) => { response.setHeader('Access-Control-Allow-Origin', 'http://localhost:5173'); response.setHeader('Access-Control-Allow-Methods', 'GET, POST, OPTIONS, PUT, PATCH, DELETE'); response.setHeader('Access-Control-Allow-Headers', 'X-Requested-With,content-type'); response.setHeader('Access-Control-Allow-Credentials', 'true'); if (request.method === 'OPTIONS') { response.writeHead(200); response.end(); return; } const route = routes.find(routeToBeFinded => routeToBeFinded.method === request.method && routeToBeFinded.path === request.url ) if (route) { route.handler(request, response) } else { response.statusCode = 404; response.setHeader('Content-Type', 'application/json'); response.end(JSON.stringify({ error: 'Rota não encontrada' })); } }) const PORT = process.env.API_PORT server.listen(PORT, () => { console.log(`Server running on port ${PORT}`) }) 

this is an excerpt from the login controller that creates the tokens:

 const secretKey = process.env.JWT_SECRET const accessToken = jwt.sign({ sub: user.id }, secretKey, { expiresIn: '30m' }) const refreshToken = jwt.sign({ sub: user.id }, secretKey, { expiresIn: '7d' }) response.statusCode = 200 response .setHeader('Content-type', 'application/json') .setHeader('Set-Cookie', [ `accessToken=${accessToken}; Path=/; Domain=localhost; SameSite='None';`, `refreshToken=${refreshToken}; Path=/; Domain=localhost; SameSite='None';` ]) .end(JSON.stringify({ message: 'Login realizado com sucesso', })) 

This is an excerpt from devtools after logging in:

Access-Control-Allow-Credentials:true Access-Control-Allow-Headers:X-Requested-With,content-type Access-Control-Allow-Methods:GET, POST, OPTIONS, PUT, PATCH, DELETE Access-Control-Allow-Origin:http://localhost:5173 Connection:keep-alive Content-Length:41 Content-Type:application/jsonDate:Tue, 21 May 2024 11:49:14 GMT Keep-Alive:timeout=5 SetCookie:accessToken=eyJhbGciOiJIUzI1NiIsInR5cCI6IkpXVCJ9.eyJzdWIiOiIyNjkxYWFhNS1lNDc4LTRjNDctYTQyZi02Mzk3OGNkZDRkZDgiLCJpYXQiOjE3MTYyOTIxNTQsImV4cCI6MTcxNjI5Mzk1NH0.vJIgscqKNB2Xwpaci7GmhE5XL0w6WPIPsLqsH6GfheE; Path=/; Domain=localhost; SameSite='None'; SetCookie:refreshToken=eyJhbGciOiJIUzI1NiIsInR5cCI6IkpXVCJ9.eyJzdWIiOiIyNjkxYWFhNS1lNDc4LTRjNDctYTQyZi02Mzk3OGNkZDRkZDgiLCJpYXQiOjE3MTYyOTIxNTQsImV4cCI6MTcxNjg5Njk1NH0.B185Tdux5DVMkpxfgLMGtzqWd8Axot0la4hRZwXj_VY; Path=/; Domain=localhost; SameSite='None'; 

This is an excerpt from the code for a favorite button:

const response = await fetch('http://localhost:3333/favorite', { method: 'POST', credentials: 'include', body: JSON.stringify({ mediaId: mediaId, mediaType: mediaType, nameOrTitle: nameOrTitle, voteAverage: voteAverage, posterPath: posterPath }), }) 

This is an excerpt from the favorites controller code:

export async function FavoritesController( request: IncomingMessage, response: ServerResponse ) { console.log(request.headers) const token = request.headers.cookie ?.split(';') .find(cookie => { return cookie.includes('accessToken=') }) ?.trim() ?.split('=')[1] 

console.log(request.headers) shows undefined

Hey WebDevMauritius community,
I want to spark a discussion on a topic that often comes up among web developers and designers: WordPress vs. Webflow. Both platforms have their strengths and weaknesses, and choosing the right one can significantly impact the success of your project. Let’s dive into the pros and cons of each to help you decide which might be the better fit for your next website.

WordPress

Pros:

1. Flexibility and Customization: WordPress is incredibly versatile. With thousands of themes and plugins available, you can customize your site to fit almost any need, from blogs and portfolios to e-commerce stores and membership sites.
2. Large Community and Support: Being one of the most popular CMS platforms, WordPress has a vast community. This means plenty of tutorials, forums, and third-party support to help you solve any issues you might encounter.
3. SEO-Friendly: WordPress is built with SEO in mind. Plugins like Yoast SEO make it easy to optimize your content and improve your site’s search engine rankings.
4. Cost-Effective: WordPress itself is free, and many themes and plugins are available at no cost. Even with premium options, it’s generally more affordable than many other platforms.

Cons:

1. Learning Curve: While powerful, WordPress can be daunting for beginners. Understanding how to effectively use themes, plugins, and manage updates requires some learning.
2. Maintenance: Regular updates and maintenance are essential to keep your site secure and running smoothly. This can be time-consuming, especially if you’re managing multiple sites.
3. Performance: Depending on your theme and plugins, WordPress sites can sometimes suffer from performance issues. Optimizing for speed and performance often requires additional effort.

Webflow

Pros:

1. Design Freedom: Webflow offers a visual, drag-and-drop interface that allows for precise control over the design. It’s great for designers who want to create visually stunning websites without writing code.
2. Built-In Hosting: Webflow includes fast and secure hosting as part of its service. This eliminates the need to find and manage a separate hosting provider.
3. No Plugins Required: Many features that require plugins in WordPress are built directly into Webflow. This can simplify the development process and reduce potential security vulnerabilities.
4. CMS Capabilities: Webflow’s CMS is user-friendly and flexible, allowing you to create custom content structures that can be easily managed by clients.

Cons:

1. Cost: Webflow’s pricing can be higher compared to WordPress, especially for larger projects or e-commerce sites. While it offers a lot of value, the cost might be a consideration for budget-conscious projects.
2. Learning Curve: While Webflow’s interface is intuitive for designers, it still has a learning curve, particularly for those not familiar with web design principles.
3. Limited Community: While growing, Webflow’s community and support resources are not as extensive as WordPress's. Finding specific solutions or custom integrations might be more challenging.

Conclusion

Choosing between WordPress and Webflow largely depends on your specific project needs and your personal or team’s skill set. If you need a highly customizable, scalable platform with a vast array of plugins, WordPress might be the way to go. If you’re a designer looking for maximum control over your site’s design without diving deep into code, Webflow could be the better choice.
Have you used WordPress, Webflow, or both? What has your experience been like? Let’s discuss the pros and cons, share tips, and help each other make the best choice for our projects!
Looking forward to your insights!

Ok so ... People compain about gold issues and low number of temperings they can do
SO MY TAKE ON THE GAME SO FAR: For leveling do Helltides, After that do Nightmare dungeons to level glyphs and to finish leveling to a 100 As you progressand change gear always put the aspects you need for your build, dont wait for perfect items, also do tempering to improve your build (you have 7 chances tbh , 2 for choosing the stats and the. 5 rerolls) if you hit 1/2 temperings it its good enough for a startup , after that enchant the item if it even has 1/3 stats you need , its perfect if it has 2/3 since the lacking stat you can reroll... LACK OF GOLD: Do the Tree of Whispers ez Gold And finally: The Pit for Masterworking
(Also a small tip or a thing i do when i am strong enough to run the pit, i gather enough mats to upgrade items i own that have perfect stats at least once, in both tempering and basic stats, so that when looking through the items i get after i dknt bother looking at those types of gear and focus on what i m lacking, unless it has a Star or greater affix)
The game so far is set up in such a way that depending on what you are lacking, you have a way to get it, and people want it to be even easier
Min/maxing issues: I understand people saying i have a perfect items but tempering gave me the lowest % omg no more rerolls, if that is a problem , blizzard could do it similar yo gambling and enchanting for example: Damage to close enemies effect 38%-55% is the range and you hit 38%, then at an Npc maybe spend gold to try and score the max roll of 55% (But make it a must do thing before masterworking the stats for example,similar how you cant masterwork without tempering first) or close to it, like we do with enchanting and with gold spent increase or even a fixed price would be better..
It was a long writing but i am interested in your take on the season so far and the things i mentioned?

Hello i am writing to ask for your opinion on which distro should i use. For the last 2 months i been running ubuntu(which is the first linux distro i tried) via Virtual machine. My hardware is nothing new compared to whats available today.(i5 9400f/r7 370)
I want to fully switch my OS to linux rather than using it on a VM. I saw people criticize Ubuntu rather harsly and recommend other distros like Fedora, Arch.
Should i stick to Ubuntu or try to adapt to any other distro you could recommend?

What do they teach where you come from?

It's no secret that Zen culture is far more tolerant than Western Immigrant-based culture or cultures "of Christian origin". And while the reasons vary, the end result can be a very combustible combination of long overused self-restraint and turning a blind eye.
We are seeing this in the West now in the protests over the war crimes against Palestinians, the protest against terrorist crimes against Israelis, We are seeing this in the surge in Ttump fundraising and the economic warning signs of the collapse of the American Dream due to a steady erosion of the middle class.
Who would have thought that a Tool Belt Generation was coming?
When is enough going to be enough for someone?

Dongshan reaches his limit

https://www.reddit.com/zen/wiki/famous_cases#wiki_dongshan_questions_to_death

When Dongshan was in Leh-t'an, he met Head Monk Ch'u, who said, "How amazing, how amazing, the realm of the Buddha and the realm of the Path! How unimaginable!"
Accordingly, Master Dongshan said, "I don't inquire about the realm of the Buddha or the realm of the Path; rather, what kind of person is he who talks thus about the realm of the Buddha and the realm of the Path?"
When, after a long time, Ch'u had not responded, the Master said, "Why don't you answer more quickly?"
Ch'u said, "Such aggressiveness will not do."
"You haven't even answered what you were asked, so how can you say that such aggressiveness will not do?" said the Master.

When you travel a long way to meet a famous Master and they can't answer questions publicly? And then they try to tell you how to behave after choking in public? Dongshan had enough.
The focus on Dongshan as He-who-questions-to-death runs the danger of missing what it means to his community that he won't tolerate insincerity, won't tolerate double talk. Dongshan can be trusted to not pull punches.

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Welcome! ewk comment: As the world increasingly finds itself in socio-political-economies where you pay for telling the truth, civility slowly erodes. But why were we ever civil in the first place? It's because honesty had a value. And when honesty is something many people can no longer afford? It becomes easier to see why Dongshan's intolerance was a gift.

Hi folks
I’m new to e-ink e-readers. Now I am in confusion just like most of you.
I really like kobo Clara colour because of the device size and colourful e e-ink display, but also I do not want to compromise the brightness of regular BW e-ink display because normal books and fonts look sharp and crisp on BW screen where the colour e-ink has the darker matte type of finish because of the kaleido filter as you all know.
Now Amazon is selling kindle 11th gen BW (used) for CAD$97.49+tax here where Clara colour is $179.99+tax. with taxes the price difference is nearly 92 bucks (which is the price of another BW kindle)
I’m a university student. So, saving money is always the most preference. (in the long run)
I have a lot of docs and pdf to read as well so I will need to sideload a lot.
I have Libby too so this might help to borrow books but there is an option “send to kindle” which can be used for kindles too.
Now should I get a Clara colour or Kindle 11th gen?
(Used market such as fb marketplace etc. here in my town sucks because people asking CAD$80-90 bucks for older generation of basic kindles with lower storage. So, that’s not a reliable option here.)

Hi all - I've been running a home game for the last year set in and around Bremervoord, including characters from the short story "A Little Sacrifice" along with sub-plots involving the Rangers of the Forest and Nilfgaardian spies who are working to undermine the local duke's authority ahead of the Empire's invasion in the Third Northern War. I'm looking to turn it into an adventure which I'll publish here for free in line with R Talsorian's Homebrew Content Policy.
I'm fairly new to this community, can anyone point me at any guidance for writing these things? And also, am I free to use or refer to other homebrew materials that have already been shared on here? (I'm thinking specifically of the absolutely brilliant Unofficial Monster Book that u/thehuntedsnark put together, as I'd love to include their rusalki and nereids)
This is the adventure outline:
A curse has afflicted Bremervoord and the harbour has silted up - ships haven't been able to sail for months and the town's fishing and trading economy has collapsed. Angry townsfolk are demanding answers from Duke Agloval - he has hired a team of investigators to uncover the cause of this curse, and deal with whoever is responsible. That's where you come in...

So, over the weekend I finally decided to bite the bullet and take part in my first Muay Thai interclub.
Long story short, I've been training Muay Thai for over 3 years now, initially started training just to to lose some weight. I was 152 kg when I first started and I'm now around 70kg.
I trained in Thailand for a month a couple of years back but no fights. Instead I launched a clothing brand that I'm building up and thought I speak about Muay Thai so much so why not jump in myself.
I did a full write up here including the full video of my interclub: https://gymnasty.world/blogs/news/first-muay-thai-interclub-experience
Well aware of what I need to work on but this is just to show those that are considering competing that they can. I'm only 5ft3 so I'm always at a disadvantage but I always try and make it into a positive. It's all a learning experience and you can't pick and choose your opponents.
For those who'd rather not leave reddit, I'm dropping the full blog here:
Video: https://youtu.be/4NHImbqMJWc?si=I0V6xiPOKdOETmoa
After training Muay Thai for around three years, I finally decided to step into the ring.
On the 19th of May, 2024 I took part in my first inter club. Quite a big leap for me after losing over 88kg in weight, it was time to really put myself to the test.

My Training over the years

For over 3 years now I have trained consistently and had little breaks here and there. Even when I’m having a break, I’m not really having a break, I’m still doing some form of training or exercise.
I’ve always trained as though I’m going to compete, even though when I first started, I had no visions of actually competing. It was all just for fitness in the start.
Throughout consistent training and just naturally getting better, the goals had shifted.
First I just wanted to get fit, and I did. Then I wanted to start a business to inspire others to take up Muay Thai or martial arts training in general. I launched GYM NASTY.
So, what’s the new goal?
Well, it’s to have GYM NASTY shorts be worn in a fight at Rajadamnern or Lumpini, inspiring people along the way.
Now I’ve lost over 88kg in weight, my injuries had been all cleared. I took it upon myself to start taking my training a bit more seriously.

Training for a Muay Thai Interclub

It might sound a bit excessive but I was training for my Muay Thai interclub like it was an actual fight.
Running before pads and sparring, weights, strength and conditioning. To be fair this is how I usually train, but I wanted to get in the right mindset and prepare as best as I could so I stepped up the intensity a little bit more. There’s no point signing up if your head isn’t fully focussed on competing.
I didn’t focus on anything specifically but I upped my running and skipping to help with footwork, cardio and conditioning.

The day of my Interclub

On the day of my interclub I weighed myself again, only to find out that I was .8kg lighter than I had entered. I wasn’t too fussed about this, I spar a lot of bigger and taller opponents quite regularly. Being 5ft3 it’s something I’ve had to get used to over the years.
The interclub was held at Kiatphontip in Leeds, a very highly respected gym around the world, especially in the UK Muay Thai scene.
Believe it or not, I actually knew who my opponent was as he’d spoken to me through GYM NASTY before and had shown a lot of support for my journey so it was really nice to share my first interclub with him.
I had warmed up around the ring ready to go in, I felt quite sharp and very energetic. Wasn’t nervous at all which came as a surprise.
Once I’d stepped in the ring my mind went blank, it felt as though I’d just gone into auto pilot and everything was just going at 1,000 mph.

My first interclub

It was such a good feeling to finally get in the ring and compete. After training for over 3 years, it’s nice to see what level I’m at.
With it being my first time competing, I didn’t fully expect my mind to go as blank as it did. I kind of zoned out and could only hear faint voices from my coaches.
In the second round I relaxed a bit more and felt more comfortable. I wasn’t throwing as many fancy techniques as I usually experiment with in sparring, I was just trying to keep it basic without using too much energy.
It just goes to show, you definitely do fight how you train. Even though I wasn’t fully comfortable, I resorted to what I knew best and just kept it basic without trying risky techniques.
My first interclub was a really good experience, I wasn’t really worried at all and I handled it really well. I spent some time speaking with fighters and reading people’s interclub experiences online, just to get a feel of what I was letting myself in for.
Having competed now I can say it’s one of the best things I’ve ever done and I can’t wait to fight again.
If you’re considering competing and it’s your first time, here are some of my key takeaways.

• Focus on cardio: Your adrenalin is going to kick in and sap your energy. It’s a bit more intense than usual sparring.
• Don’t worry: Everything is safe and controlled, you’re not meant to be putting all of your power into your shots.
• Enjoy the experience: Take everything in, once you’re settled start to enjoy it and have some fun.
• Warm up beforehand: Make sure you’re warmed up and you feel loose. You don’t want to cause yourself every injuries.
• Listen to your coaches: They’re there to help you, they will see things that you can’t see when you’re in there so make sure you keep an ear out for your corner once you’re settled.

What’s next for me competing?

Well, now I’ve got a taste for it, I most definitely want to go again.
I plan on competing in a few more interclubs this year to gain more experience and hopefully move up to fighting different classes.

I am a lesbian, but I’ve never come out to anyone. Lately, I’ve found myself in a complicated situation. I have developed feelings for my male friend’s girlfriend. I know it’s wrong, but I can’t help it. She’s so adorable, sweet, and full of joy, like a little happy puppy. I just want to be around her all the time.
I’ve been unconsciously inserting myself into situations where I know she will be. However, she seems to dislike me, and I never understood why until today.
Today, the three of us had plans to meet up: me, her, and her boyfriend. Her boyfriend was running late, so she and I were waiting for him at a coffee shop. While we were waiting, she finally told me how she felt. She said she really doesn’t like how I’m always clinging to her boyfriend.
Oh my gosh! What a huge misunderstanding. She thinks I’m interested in her boyfriend when, in reality, I have feelings for her. I was completely taken aback. I don’t know what to do now.
I feel so embarrassed and confused. I never wanted to make her uncomfortable or upset her in any way. How do I fix this? Should I tell her the truth about my feelings, or should I just back off completely? This situation feels like such a mess, and I’m at a loss for the right thing to do.
I just needed to get all this off my chest. I hope that by writing it down, I can find some clarity.

Had my PC for about 3 years and have never run into a problem. For a few weeks it has been shutting down randomly (usually while playing rocket league but sometimes when I’m watching YouTube or writing a word document). I’ve reapplied thermal paste, cleaned the pc and removed any dust, taken out my RAM and cleaned it, turned the fans to turbo and made my room well ventilated. Nothing seems to be working. At this point I’m not even trying to fix it but I just want to identify the problem.

Writer's Block? Befriend the Beast: Pro Tips to Turn Blockades into Bestsellers (With Prompts So Crazy They Might Work)

Ah, writer's block. That ever-present nemesis, the blank page's evil twin, the creativity-sucking gremlin that haunts every writer's dreams (or lack thereof). But what if I told you writer's block isn't your enemy, but a misunderstood ally? A twisted muse, a forced sabbatical from the mundane, a chance to shake things up and unleash your inner writing gremlin in the most productive way possible?
Befriending the Block:
Professional authors know the struggle is real. Here's what they say about turning blockades into stepping stones:

• Embrace the Pause: Jodi Picoult: "Writer's block is a sign that something isn't working. Step away, recharge, and come back with fresh eyes."
• Declutter Your Mind: Neil Gaiman: "Sometimes you have to let go of an idea to make space for a better one."
• Experiment, Even If It's Weird: Haruki Murakami: "Don't be afraid to try something strange. The most original ideas often come from unexpected places."

Now, let's get insane with prompts that will have your muse doing a double take:
1. Genre Blender: Combine two wildly different genres. Write a historical romance with zombies, a cyberpunk detective novel set in ancient Rome, or a space opera with a grumpy cat detective as the protagonist.
2. Alternate Reality: Imagine your story taking place in a world obsessed with something ridiculous. Think "everyone communicates only through emojis" or "unicorns are the primary mode of transportation."
3. Flash Forward, Way Forward: Skip to the very end of your story. Write the final scene, then work your way back, filling in the gaps with the most outrageous plot twists imaginable.
4. Dream Weaver: Describe a bizarre dream in excruciating detail. Then, analyze it like a cryptic message from your subconscious, using it as the foundation for your story.
5. Character Chaos: Write a scene where your characters are forced to switch bodies (think Freaky Friday, but with your characters). How does it change their perspectives? What hilarious misunderstandings ensue?
6. Found Object Frenzy: Grab the weirdest thing you can find (rusty spork, deflated balloon animal, taxidermied squirrel) and write a story centered around it. Bonus points for incorporating its bizarre history.
7. Unsolved Mystery: Choose a real-life unsolved mystery (Jack the Ripper, the Bermuda Triangle) and write a fictional account from the perspective of the perpetrator or a hidden witness.
8. Headline Hijinks: Rip a random headline from the news and turn it into the most outlandish story you can imagine. Aliens behind the stock market crash? Sentient self-driving cars waging war on pigeons? Go wild!
9. Animal Antics: Write your story entirely from the perspective of an animal character. A grumpy cat narrates a love triangle, a wise old owl dispenses philosophical advice, a hyperactive squirrel chronicles a daring heist.
10. Time Travel Tango: Send your characters on a time travel adventure with a twist. They can't change the past, but their actions have unforeseen consequences in the present. Think butterfly effect on steroids.
Remember, these prompts are just springboards. Let your imagination run wild, embrace the absurd, and don't be afraid to delve into the depths of your weirdness. You never know what hidden gem you might unearth from the rubble of writer's block. So, unleash your inner gremlin, write with abandon, and remember: sometimes, the best stories are born from the most unexpected places. Now get writing, you beautiful block-busting wordsmiths!

Hi, I have enabled terminator in my home.nix and I am trying to configure it. The problem I am having is this:
"↪ terminator
Unable to open ‘/home/dav/.config/terminatoconfig’ for reading and/or writing.
([Errno 13] Permission denied: '/home/dav/.config/terminatoconfig')"
they were created by home-manager, if I delete them and re-run home-manager it re-creates them but with the same issue. Does anyoneknow what the issue is?
Cheers

Hey guys, I need your help regarding my issue. I'm gonna start with a little intro about me...
So, I am a freelance content writer with over a year of experience writing for different niches in the field and I have been trying my best to land international clients for some time now.
I also do prefer to work with clients who are active in the mental health niche since I have started to become passionate about this field, and do plan on starting a business related to it, once I get my money right.
However, currently I do find that all odds are against me because I try my best everyday to secure a client through cold outreach or on platforms like linkedin, Twitter, discord, upwork, freelancer and even did try my luck with reddit to no avail.
Either way, the results are quiet disappointing as I don't seem to get a response or they aren't just hiring as of yet.
Like, what am I supposed to do now? Cuz I keep failing on a daily and I really do want to land myself a suitable gig that I am comfortable with on the long run.

Alrighty, I’ve made a post similar when I first enlisted back in October. Basic Training, what to expect? I know there’s phases in which towards the end it’s easy running. My main questions consist of: What’s the chonies situation? Do you bring your own underwear? What’s the general rundown of reception? How’s the peanut butter shot. How does PG work in basic? How frequently do you have to recite the general orders or the soldiers creed out loud? Shoes? Can you bring your own? I’ve heard you get a small amount of cash when you get there to get some shitty ones. Phone usage? What’s that like. Letter writing? Hows that work. Downtime? I’m assuming there’s little to none and the downtime you do get you’d wanna use to sleep right? And finally, I’ve seen my peers in RSP drill who are in between BCT and AIT and I’ve noticed that hey, if they’ve gotten through it, I sure as hell can. So, is the difficulty sourced from how much effort you put? Like outdoing your platoon? Running farther than the rest? Speaking louder? Yelling louder? I’ve heard of trophies at the end. How can I get those

Not sure if I'll even post this, but I thought it would be good to write down my feelings and vent a bit about this day. So much was written yet so little about the magical little cat named Luna. Sorry about the long text and the jumpiness.
Yesterday(Monday) around 2 in the morning my cat came home after been missing since Wednesday (most she's been gone was 3 days up until that point). She came and woke me, telling me as per usual that she's back. Went to the kitchen, but didn't come to bed. I checked when she didn't return and notice her laying on her back on one of my backpacks. She lifts her hind leg and Its dark so I only see a really big dark spot where there shouldn't be one. I get my glasses and notice there is a big chunk of skin missing and a hole the size of 1-2 fingers. I check for bleeding and see no traces.
I quickly google vets around and see if there is anything I should be doing.
Then there is this look... It's so serene. She's calm and she's happy. She was not much of a purrerr but she purred like never before when I was trying to comfort her.
I got my blankets and spent that night on the floor checking her breathing and petting her.
In the morning 8-10ish, we went to the vet clinic and they admitted her and told me that if they didn't call I would be able to pick her up around 16.
Around 14 I got a call saying that the muscle has been torn more than they can manage and the hole is 7cm deep so they felt inadequate to help and told me, that he called a former colleague to see if they could admit her at another, bigger vet hospital. He told me that it didn't look good and that the use of her muscle might/probably can't be fully restored. I went to pick her up, talked to the vet and explained options. I told him that this cat lives for the outdoors and she's already small and a target as it is. Without the full use of her legs to escape it just seems cruel. A life needs living in my opinion and becoming and inside cat was not an option for her.
My friend offered to pick me up and take me to the bigger vet, which meant so much. Needless to say I've been ugly crying alot during the talk with the vet, but I broke down again straight away when he gave me a hug.
I asked to talk about anything else. It became silent and he broke it with "kinda tense don't know what to come up with". Got me good with a laugh, it is one of those situations where nothing seems good enough to say. We small talked and stayed clear of the situation until we arrived. Hugged goodbye and off, me and Luna went to the last place she would ever be...
There were some dogs there in the waitroom, happy and seemingly healthy. I did my best not to breakdown in front of them and this one dog... Think it knew because he tried to come over with a comforting look. The owner held it back, which in retrospect was good, I wouldn't have been able to hold back if it reached me.
I came in to the room and had to wait a bit more to talk to a nurse. Luna was starting to come out of her drowsiness and I got her out of her bag.
She was visibly getting a bit worried so I put my chin on the top of her head and scratched her with my stubby beard (she always loved that) and it calmed her down.
The nurse came in and told me that they had to redo a check because it was hard to estimate the damage. But she was positive that she would be able to "walk" again. I broke down again.
Now I've lived 35 years without a diagnosis, and my masking is through the roof, but I was recently diagnosed with ADD and Autism. Reason for telling this is the fact that my analytical skills of words being used and body language needs to be top notch for my life in the society (and a hellish upbringing, but that's another story).
The words she used were those of "she can be alive, but probably not fully restored". I stressed that Luna is a outdoors cat and is not meant for the indoor life. She was a cautious explorer. Once she felt the outdoors, I knew it would never be possible to keep her indoors.
I told her that I need an expert opinion of the surgeon on the odds of being fully restored so there is no pain and no lingering effect.
The other issue was that since we didn't know the time of the damage, the wound was so close to the abdomen that it was possible that an infection could have gotten in but closed up.
She told me that once they sedate her and check, there won't be much time to talk, but that she would tell the surgeon the importance of her leg for the outdoors.
We came to an agreement that after the check, she would immediately call and give me some odds to decide.
I gave my cat all my love and scratched her in all the places she always loved. They took her to the surgery.
I was walking outside the hospital and called my mom. Thing is, these past 6 months have already been kind of hell (with the two upsides of finding a gf and getting diagnosed with medication). I had been unemployed at the worst timing and economically I am in a bad spot. Luna was uninsured and the costs was already above 1000euros at this point. And the surgery was gonna cost 2-4k more. My mom reinsured me that money is not a problem and to make my decision for the love of my cat and not the need to have her in my life nor money. This was so important because it was with out of doubt on my mind as well.
I went to the store nearby after a while to get something to drink and then the call comes in.
She told me that the muscle is torn off and will be hard to reattach properly, the wound was too big to stitch up in one go, which meant that she would have to be back again for more surgery. Maybe transplanting skin as well. I stopped her and asked, what percentage do you give her to be back to full health and be able to use her leg like before. I told her that I understand that it's an estimate and I can't count It as a guarantee. She told me that she was positive that she would be "ok"... Again I understood that we had a different opinion in what ok means. She said that she can give 70-80% that she will be "ok" with using it... My heart dropped... My cat won't survive the outdoors on "ok". She is already tiny and has a disadvantage, and to add the "without full use of her ability to run or jump" to that... The exactness is a bit hazy, but the jist for me was that there was a lower % of her being happy and fully restored.
"The only thing equal is that we are born unequal" My entire life I've lived in those 20% of bad luck. I remember when I met and got Luna, 2019. I remember the thought of things turning out "exactly" as they had unfolded now. I believe firmly in the thought of risking a short lifespan for a great life, rather than long but alive.
I thought about the fact of the unknown infection that could be in her abdomen. The possiblity of her not being able to regain full use of her leg. The infection risks of going back and forth at least two more times after this. The fact that even if, and it's a big if, things work out great, the healing process would be a long one.
I thought about all of these things and decided that I wouldn't let her experience all that hell. I asked them to put her to sleep for good.
I call it a "video graphic" memory and I will always be able to playback the loving times I had with her... The one that owned my entire heart. The cat that chose me as her human...
I feel bad that I killed my cat. I feel bad that I feel at ease. I feel bad that I didn't take the risk. I feel bad because I now don't have to worry evey time she is out longer than usual. I feel bad because now I don't have to check for her everytime she doesn't show up at regular hours.
I hate the paradoxal feelings of wanting my cat to be alive and thinking of the perks of not being responsible for another life.
I don't believe in good or evil. But I do believe in human selfishness... Did I just kill my cat because I couldn't bear the burden of her recouperation and the thought of having to go through that again? Did the fact that money was going to put me in even more stress than I'm already in sway me? Did my experience in the 20% decide her fate? Why did I only get literally 5minutes to calculate life vs death?
There is so much more in my mind and memory, so much of dots missing to connect everything and for anyone actually reading, I'm sorry for that.
This was written more for me than anything else. My acceptance of killing my cat.
Thank you for coming home one last time to say everything will be ok. You meant the world to me.

I'm experiencing a weird problem with Accelstepper. I'm sending a command through MQTT which is accepted, the server stops as it's supposed to but still goes in the wrong direction until it hits the endgoal. Then it proceeds to go the right direction.
checkStep() is being called from the main loop.
Code and logs included...
CODE:

#include  // TMCstepper - https://github.com/teemuatlut/TMCStepper #include  // #include  // Software serial for the UART to TMC2209 - https://www.arduino.cc/en/Reference/softwareSerial // #include  // For serial debugging output - https://www.arduino.cc/reference/en/libraries/streaming/ #define EN_PIN 5 // Enable - PURPLE #define DIR_PIN 4 // Direction - WHITE #define STEP_PIN 2 // Step - ORANGE // #define SW_SCK 5 // Software Slave Clock (SCK) - BLUE // #define SW_TX 17 // SoftwareSerial receive pin - BROWN // #define SW_RX 16 // SoftwareSerial transmit pin - YELLOW #define SERIAL_PORT Serial2 #define DRIVER_ADDRESS 0b00 // TMC2209 Driver address according to MS1 and MS2 #define R_SENSE 0.11f // SilentStepStick series use 0.11 ...and so does my fysetc TMC2209 (?) #define STALL_VALUE 30 // [0..255] // TMC2209Stepper TMCdriver(&SoftSerial, R_SENSE, DRIVER_ADDRESS); // Create TMC driver TMC2209Stepper TMCdriver(&SERIAL_PORT, R_SENSE, DRIVER_ADDRESS); AccelStepper stepper = AccelStepper(stepper.DRIVER, STEP_PIN, DIR_PIN); int accel; long maxSpeed; int speedChangeDelay; constexpr uint32_t steps_per_mm = 80; String stepState = "STOP"; //== Setup =============================================================================== void stepperSetState(String state) { stepper.stop(); delay(250); Serial.println(state); stepState = state; if (state == "STEP_FORWARD") { stepper.moveTo(10000); stepper.setSpeed(2000); } else if (state == "STEP_STOP") { stepper.stop(); stepper.setCurrentPosition(0); stepper.setSpeed(0); } else if (state == "STEP_BACKWARD") { stepper.moveTo(-10000); stepper.setSpeed(2000); } } int currentSpeed() { return stepper.speed(); } String stepperGetState(){ return "state: " + stepState + " target" + stepper.targetPosition(); } int stepperCurrentPos() { return stepper.currentPosition(); } void initStep() { SERIAL_PORT.begin(115200); // HW UART drivers TMCdriver.begin(); // Initialize UART pinMode(EN_PIN, OUTPUT); // Set pinmodes pinMode(STEP_PIN, OUTPUT); pinMode(DIR_PIN, OUTPUT); digitalWrite(EN_PIN, LOW); // Enable TMC2209 board // UART: Init SW UART (if selected) with default 115200 baudrate TMCdriver.toff(5); // Enables driver in software // TMCdriver.rms_current(500); // Set motor RMS current TMCdriver.microsteps(2); // Set microsteps TMCdriver.SGTHRS(STALL_VALUE); stepper.setSpeed(1000); stepper.setMaxSpeed(30000); stepper.setAcceleration(5000); // stepper.setMaxSpeed(100*steps_per_mm); // 100mm/s @ 80 steps/mm // stepper.setAcceleration(100*steps_per_mm); // 2000mm/s^2 // stepper.setEnablePin(EN_PIN); stepper.setPinsInverted(false, false, true); stepper.enableOutputs(); } //== Loop ================================================================================= void checkStallGuard() { Serial.print("0 "); Serial.print(TMCdriver.SG_RESULT(), DEC); Serial.print(" "); Serial.println(TMCdriver.cs2rms(TMCdriver.cs_actual()), DEC); }; void checkStep() { if (stepState != "STEP_STOP"){ stepper.run(); } } 

LOGS:
STEP
Stepper Command:
STEP_FORWARD
1
state: STEP_FORWARD target10000
857
state: STEP_FORWARD target10000
1858
state: STEP_FORWARD target10000
STEP_BACKWARD
STEP
Stepper Command:
STEP_BACKWARD
2607
state: STEP_BACKWARD target-10000
3608
state: STEP_BACKWARD target-10000
4609
state: STEP_BACKWARD target-10000
4980
state: STEP_BACKWARD target-10000
3980
state: STEP_BACKWARD target-10000
2979
state: STEP_BACKWARD target-10000
1978
state: STEP_BACKWARD target-10000
977
state: STEP_BACKWARD target-10000
-24
state: STEP_BACKWARD target-10000
-1024
state: STEP_BACKWARD target-10000
-2025
state: STEP_BACKWARD target-10000
-3026
state: STEP_BACKWARD target-10000
-4027
state: STEP_BACKWARD target-10000
-5028
state: STEP_BACKWARD target-10000
-6029
state: STEP_BACKWARD target-10000
-7030
state: STEP_BACKWARD target-10000
-8031
state: STEP_BACKWARD target-10000
-9032
state: STEP_BACKWARD target-10000
-9964
state: STEP_BACKWARD target-10000
-10000
state: STEP_BACKWARD target-10000

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Account requirements:
Country: any countries.
Costs: from $25.
Age: from 2 months.
Not blocked.
Why do we need accounts? - for traffic arbitration. It's easier and faster to run ads on old accounts with expenses.
Is it safe to sell your Google Ads accounts?
The transfer of the Google Ads account occurs through a change of owner (administrator) in the Google Ads advertising cabinet itself. We do not touch and do not need your Gmail mail, logins and passwords, Google Analytics, Merchant Center, etc.
In the Google Ads account, we change the payer (payment profile) to our data through the support service. Therefore, your current payment profile is not used in any way and is completely safe.
Before transferring your account, you can export all your campaigns, ads, keywords, statistics, etc. from your account. You can save them in Excel files or transfer them to another Google Ads account.
Guaranteed payment for the account in any convenient way for you: by bank card or cryptocurrency.
The following accounts are also suitable for us:
— closed due to inactivity;
— with expired advertiser confirmation;
— after promotional codes;
— with deleted advertising campaigns;
— without access to the payment profile (depending on the account);
— with a closed (deleted) payment profile.
To evaluate and sell your Google Ads accounts, write in private messages here
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