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2024.05.21 16:22 Kitchen-Block7848 My opinion on the transgender versus femboy issue as a transgender person

My opinion on the transgender versus femboy issue as a transgender person
Hi! I am Aidan, a transgender man who is also a femboy. It’s been a while since I browsed Reddit, and when I got into my favorite communities again to get to know what’s going on… Kaboom! A big amount of Femboy subreddits are annoyed, pissed and tired of something: seeing breasts and female genitals in subreddits that are supposed to let only feminine men post pictures. I thought it was only occurring in this subreddit, but discussions are occurring in other subreddits too. The FemBoys subreddit seems to be the main topic of these discussions. This subreddit is a +18 place where you can find pornography of feminine men. If you know, you know. However, you can find explicit content of transexual women too. The femboy subreddit, a family friendly community where you can find pictures of feminine guys, and where +18 posts are strictly banned, you can find pictures and stories about transexual women too. Entire communities of femboys are standing up against these situations, and since I’ve seen people who are not transgender saying what is transphobic, and what should be transphobic, I decided to post my opinion in these controversies as a transgender man who likes being feminine sometimes. With that being said, let’s get into this post.
  1. Are transexual women the same thing as femboys?
Short answer: no. Femboy is a term commonly used on the internet to describe a guy who acts, dresses, and talks in a way that is culturally feminine. In the real world, “Cross-dresser” is the most used term to describe feminine men.
Transgender men can be feminine too, but maybe not in the same way a common male is, because the vast majority of our clothing choices are driven by gender dysphoria. I’ve always liked mini skirts, but my gender dysphoria didn’t let me use them, due to mini skirts highlighting the female characteristics I was born with. Let’s be real: skirts are designed to fit and highlight women’s bodies, but that doesn’t mean men and transgender men can’t use them too, of course. After four years of physically modifying my body to obtain a masculine shape, my gender dysphoria reduced to the point I can wear mini skirts without wanting to squeeze my hips to make them less noticeable, lol.
I forgot to say gender dysphoria is the distress we, transgender people, feel due to the incongruence of our biological sex and the sex we self-identify with. It goes beyond not liking our sexual characteristics, and it can manifest through wanting to change our IDs as soon as possible, wanting to be treated and recognized as the sex we self-identify with, and a strong conviction that we think and act the same as a person of our self-identified sex.
Being masculine, as a female, doesn’t mean you must be a transgender man; and being feminine, as a male, doesn’t mean you must be a transgender woman, because clothing comes and goes, but our gender identity remains the same throughout our lives. Gender and gender identity are biological, because it is in the brain. Female brains and masculine brains aren’t the same. The principal hypothesis to the reason behind transexuality is that we, transgender people, are the result of an anomaly during gestation. Transgender women have female brains and male bodies, while transgender men have male brains and female bodies. This incongruence makes us transition in the first place, due to, in my case, my brain knows it’s male, and can’t comprehend why my body is female. So, my brain craves certain physical and medical changes to adjust my body to a male sex. Transgender people probably are the product of an anomaly during sexual development during gestation, but it is what it is. We are born this way and we will die this way. However, it is important to clarify transexuality isn’t a mental disorder, in fact, it can be considered a medical condition due to its biological origin, and we need social and medical support to cope with the difficulties of our transition.
Once I explained how gender can’t be changed and how clothing can’t determine gender identity, I can clarify the difference between a femboy and a transgender woman. A femboy can be as feminine as a transgender woman, but he doesn’t change his ID, doesn’t modify his body to obtain sexually female features, and he always sees himself as a man in the mirror, even when he is dressing up all feminine. Femboys are men, and transgender women are not men. Yes, transgender women have a sexually male body, but they transition in order to make their male characteristics less noticeable and to obtain female features. Transgender women are not Cross-dressers, because crossdressers don’t medically change their whole body to appear feminine, and don’t want to do so.
Genuinely, I don’t understand why transexual women post in femboy subreddits. I hope they know being transexual and being a cross-dresser are two different things, otherwise, they may regret the medical changes they did to their bodies. Transgender women decide voluntarily to post these images in femboy subreddits, so it isn’t like someone is calling them boys or men. As a transgender man, I am not the same as a tomboy (masculine girl/woman), and I would never post any picture in a subreddit dedicated to tomboys, because that isn’t my place. These are the situations in SFW subreddits.
In NSFW subreddits the things are more controversial. There are a lot of transexual women publishing their content while the subreddit is literally called “FemBoys”. To be honest, I feel I can't judge them, at least not completely. “Transexual” is one of the most viewed porn categories worldwide (people like seeing breasts and a penis in the same person) and transexual women usually, for lack of better job opportunities, recur to sexual work. Because that’s how it is called. Selling explicit images on the internet is sexual work. They usually have to deal with misgendering (not referring to someone as the real gender he/she is) to gain money, or to refer to themselves as a lot of slurs to catch the attention of a potential client. I think transexual women publishing their content in femboy subreddits is another strategy to sell their images and videos. However, I don’t think that’s okay, because there are plenty of NSFW subreddits dedicated to transexual women.
So, that’s all for today, fellas. I hope this little post gave you a better understanding of this situation from a feminine transgender man’s perspective. Despite this community’s focus isn’t transexuality, I really appreciate the effort from moderators to make this place free of any type of discrimination. I thought of adding more points to this post, but that would make it incredibly wrong. Let me know in the comments if you want me to speak about another points. With that being said, bye bye <3
Random Hideri Kanzaki image because this guy is genuinely one of my comfort characters. Artwork by Nakayama Miyuki
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2024.05.21 16:21 Fat_Guy_IT Tuesday Content Creator Roundup Post Videos, Blog Posts, Resources, & Podcasts Here!

Welcome to the Tuesday content creator roundup on a Wednesday!
This thread will feature some noteworthy contributions from Flesh & Blood content creators. Lots of gameplay, box openings, discussions etc. Catch up on content by reviewing the links below!
Videos
Blogposts & Other Resource
Podcasts
This was another long one! We know this can never be an exhaustive list and many of the creators listed above put out more than one video just this week so feel free to peruse and view past content as well.
Did I miss some great FaB content from last week? Share links and details in the comments below!
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2024.05.21 16:18 IlovePeace2250 What if part of the pain we are feeling, comes from a false Owning Idea we have over our ex? 🤔Like the atatchment part. (Specially in the sexual part)

What if we see the root of it instead of focusing on the pain on the surface.
maybe the pain of us imagining our ex with someone else comes from a false base of ideas made of attatchment, desire to obtain what our ex gave us (love, attention, sexual stuff, protection, way of being), High Idealization, fear to lose something that we think we cant find again in other individual with similar features, and some Owning ideas that we have over our ex? 🤔
What if also we put ourselves on their feet and see things from their point of view? 🤔
what if we look for opinions of how dumpers and dumpees have seen it afterwards, after long time, and even after multiple relationships over the years. how we arent actually losing anything and how actually they just repeat and reboot their cycle of (Getting exited - idealizing - Gettting bored - Getting bored) new people and just doing and saying literally the same over and over with each new person they like?
Could thinking on that help us feel diferent about it? 🤔
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2024.05.21 16:09 graywolt Total Flipped World Tour - African Lying Safari

Total Flipped World Tour - African Lying Safari

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In a 9-5-4-3-1 vote, Staci & Sugar are eliminated, while Max wins immunity in a 3-3-2-1-1 vote, as Sugar is eliminated.
After the challenge, Topher and Scott are in first class, waiting for Sugar. Sugar finally shows up and says that she would’ve been here sooner had someone not barfed all over her, which Topher apologizes for. Scott then tells everyone to get down to business. Scott asks who they should try to eliminate, and Topher suggests Staci, as she’s a bigger threat than Cameron & that she’s also level-headed, something that most of everyone else is struggling with. Scott agrees with this, as he believes that it should be easy to convince Max to vote for her. Scott tells Topher to do this and adjourns the meeting.
Max is walking around the plane, and Topher finds him in the dining cabin. Topher asks him to sit down, and Max does so. Topher then asks Max who he’s voting for, and Max says Sugar. Topher then asks if Max will forget what Staci had done to him in Niagara Falls, and for a moment, it looks as if Max is truly convinced. We then get a flashback of the things Staci has done to help Max, and in the confessional, Max rhetorically says that he can’t believe that he was that close to believing Topher’s lies. Back with Topher though, Max puts on a facade of agreement, telling Topher that he’s in. Over the P.A, Chris tells the contestants to go vote.
At the elimination ceremony, Sugar & Staci are the last ones not safe. Sugar, Scott, & Topher look smug, and everyone else looks worried. When Chris announces a tie though, this shocks everyone. Scott angrily says to Topher that he thought Topher had it under control, and Max just realized that he forgot to ask Staci & Anne Maria to vote for Scott, making them all facepalm angrily.
While this is going on, Chris is on the phone with the producers, who are hounding him. Sugar then confidently says that she can take down Staci in a tiebreaker, which gets Staci to notice that Chris is still on his phone. The contestants are now yelling at Chris to do his job, and when Chris gets off the phone, he explains that due to budget constraints, he has to eliminate both Sugar & Staci from the game.
This pleases exactly no one, and Chris is barraged with angry shouts from all corners of the room. Sugar then asks how eliminating her helps the budget, and Chris cites added weight to the plane, more food needed, and simply admitting that he finds Sugar & Staci both annoying. Sugar firmly refuses to leave before Chris gets Chef to shove her out of the plane, prompting Staci to quickly jump out as well.
In first class, Scott is pissed off at Topher. He mocks Topher, quoting how he said that everything was under control, and that only Staci would be eliminated. Scott says that the only reason that the alliance will still be a thing now is simply for self-preservation. In economy class, Cameron tells Dawn, Staci, & Max that to bring down Scott and Topher, they need to be on the same page, which Cameron apologizes for not making clearer before Staci was eliminated. Cameron & Dawn put their hands in the middle, with Max & Anne Maria doing so as well. In the confessional, Max states that Scott better watch out, as his days are numbered. In the cockpit, Chris asks some questions before signing off.
After the credits, we see Sugar & Staci land on the Great Wall of China. Sugar laments about how unfair her elimination was, getting Staci to tell her to shut up, as Sugar has complained about it for the umpteenth time. Sadie then shows up and tells the bickering duo that they need to hurry up, as their flight departs in 5 hours. Staci says that she can’t wait to be back in Canada, and Sugar hopes that the hotel they’ll be staying at is nice. Sadie tells Staci that they won’t be back in Canada quite yet and tells Sugar that having a nice hotel should be the least of her worries. Sugar asks what this means, and Sadie replies with “you’ll see”, before they all walk off, and the screen cuts to black.
African Lying Safari
The episode begins in economy class, where Dawn & Cameron are cuddling each other, Anne Maria filing her nails, and Max looking pensive. A slightly worried Max lays out this hypothetical to Anne Maria – After Topher is eliminated, Scott gets immunity. In that case, who do you vote for? This is stumping Max, as he is cool with everyone here besides Scott. Anne Maria agrees, saying some tough choices would have to be made here. In first class, Topher tells Scott that with everyone else reuniting, it’s every man for himself, as their two votes won’t change anything. Scott agrees, and he tells Topher not to be surprised by any tricks he pulls.
Once the plane lands, Chris welcomes them to Tanzania, home to the Serengeti Plains. Anne Maria arrives slightly late, as she topped off her pouf as they landed. Chris introduces the first challenge, which he named "Sock-et To Me." This challenge entails going over to a pile of plums, and grabbing as many as possible while dodging the soccer balls that will be kicked at you by contestants. Scott mocks the soccer balls, so Chris beans Scott with one, reveling in his yelp of pain.
Topher goes up first, and he gracefully dodges all of the soccer balls, getting a giant pile of plums. Cameron is calculating where to kick the ball, and when he figures it out, the soccer ball hits Topher in the shins, making him fall & drop the plums. Cameron is up next and isn’t even able to get any plums before he’s knocked down by a speeding soccer ball from Topher. Max is now going and while he stays upright this time, he is only able to get half a dozen plums, as he dropped most of them.
Scott is next, and while he hits Cameron with Dawn’s ball, he gets beaned in the head by Anne Maria & Max at the same time, making him drop his plums. Dawn goes, and nearly makes it, but trips over a ball kicked by Scott Anne Maria starts running, deflecting all the balls with her hair. She grabs some plums, doing the same thing as she runs back to where she started. Max is speechless at this, asking how Anne Maria made her hair do that, with her saying it’s a mix of having good hair, and good product. Anne Maria hands Max a mostly empty can, and in the confessional, Max is flabbergasted when Anne Maria’s hairspray offers a 72-hour hold.
The plums are then used to smash through gourds, and whoever does so first wins an advantage. While Cameron accidentally hits Chef, Anne Maria barely puts a dent in her gourd, frustrating her. After a Chris induced miss, Scott perfectly strikes his gourd, getting six tranq balls & a slingshot for his troubles. Max strikes his gourd soon after, getting four & a slingshot. Topher hits his next getting three, Anne Maria strikes her gourd with her cricket bat, getting two, and since Dawn & Cameron couldn’t crack their gourd, they each get one ball, but no slingshot. Chris tells the couple that they’ll have to throw the tranq ball with enough force to pop it, and Cameron says that’s nearly impossible.
Chris then announces that the tranq balls will be used to knock out the Max clone, who according to Chris, is “bigger and better”, as he’s been genetically mutated. The Max clone is even wilder now, with his tracksuit being half-torn, glowing green eyes, and no shoes. As Chris explains that whoever knocks out the Max clone gets invincibility, said clone is seen attacking an intern. Chris tells them to go, with Dawn & Cameron teaming up, and Anne Maria & Max doing the same thing. Topher offers to team up with Scott, but the Farm Boy rebuffs him. This ends up being a mistake however, as Topher has stolen Scott’s tranq balls.
With Scott, he is walking about when he hears a rustling in a bush near him. He tells the clone to come out, but is instead met with a lion. Scott then goes into his back pocket, finding nothing. Scott tries to calm the beast down, but eventually runs away. Meanwhile, Max has finished setting traps all around the area. Anne Maria is skeptical about this, and Max asks “who in their right mind could resist a Mallowmar?”
Dawn & Cameron are looking for the Max clone, and when the lion is behind Dawn, she asks if Cameron has recently brushed his teeth. Cameron asks why, and Dawn looks behind them, seeing the same lion that terrorized Scott. The two lovers run away, but Cameron gets caught in one of Max’s traps, making Max wince. Anne Maria gives Max an “I told you so” look, and Max offers to help get Cameron out. He asks if anyone has a knife, and at that moment, a baboon grabs Cameron, greatly angering Dawn. Dawn & Max promise to find something to free Cameron before running off.
The girls and boys run into each other and, mistaking the others for their intended target, hit each other, knocking each other out with tranquilizing balls. Chris chooses this time to make the contestants sing, despite being still stunned. While being in their stunned state, the contestants sing “Wake Up”, which is about exactly what it sounds like. Chris then warns the contestants that they have about an hour to catch the Max clone before the plane leaves, ditching them. Chris offers to watch the action back at the jet, which Chef obliges to.
Dawn runs off to save Cameron, saying that she can handle it, as her boyfriend will not become baboon food. Anne Maria & Max run to the right, while Topher & Scott both inadvertently go left. As Max & Anne Maria go right, they turn around, as they see footprints going left.
With Dawn, she has made it up to the baboon den at the top of the tree, and Cameron tells Dawn to not make any sudden movements, as the baboon really likes him. Dawn tries to explain the situation to the baboon, but it gets defensive, holding Cameron tighter. This is too far for the Moonchild, who rips Cameron out of the baboon’s hands, then kicks it in the nuts. As Dawn & Cameron make it down the tree, the baboon is shrieking.
Topher & Scott both see the Max clone from a distance, as they’re on a hill. Topher steps up to fire, but Scott shoots Topher before shoving him down the hill. Topher angrily shouts at Scott for this, and he then notices the Max clone, which is right next to him. Topher tries to plead with him, but the clone mercilessly & viciously beats up Topher, which Max & Scott are cringing at from the top of the hill.
Scott tries to take advantage of this, but Max snipes him from behind before doing the same to the Max clone, winning Max the challenge & invincibility. Chris goes to announce this, but only Max & Anne Maria are listening, as Topher & Scott are in a sleeping heap with the clone, and Dawn & Cameron haven’t made it back yet.
Vote for anyone besides Max, vote for someone to get immunity for the next episode, and feel free to come up with any plot points for the next episode. (Rapa-Phooey!)
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2024.05.21 16:07 Tricky-Wallaby8795 Weird ghosting by the most loving girl I’ve been with

So there’s this girl that I was talking to for like 2 months. We’re both seniors and are going to the same college so it was really easy to bond and throughout the two months we really connected with each other. Like after about a month we were mutually committed to each other and we would talk on the phone all night, talk throughout the day, and be there for each other whenever it was needed. The only real problem is that I tend to overthink a lot, as I’ve had bad anxiety issues in the past. This windiest is compounded by the fact I was played in my last relationship by a girl who said she loved me and swore she was loyal that was talking to other dudes and picked them over me. But anyways, I would try to express how the overthinking made me feel to her but I really wanted to get her on a call because other than seeing her we only exchanged voice notes and never really got on calls. This expanded my intuition and made me think I was getting played so I did some mild research. We follow each other on Ig and she has a lot upwards of a thousand followers, which also set some alarm bells off in my brain because I knew she was most likely lying that I was the only want for her and everything. Also, just through like looking at her post comments, I saw that she still had her ex bfs flirty comments up there for a while when we were talking and that she still followed him, making me think that I was possibly going to be a rebound. Also, based on her TikTok reposts, she was just starting to get over him when she told me they had been done for three months so I didn’t know what to believe. But while we were talking, me and her shared everything with each other like past trauma, current issues, and I play guitar so I would sing love songs to her or send them to her(corny Ik) so she told me that she’s been deeply traumatized in past relationships and that her ex was the worst of them all because he would use her for her body and I think she implied some abuse so I knew to be gentle with her. She also said that no guy had ever put in so much effort to talk to and understand her and that it was so different and special to her. So everything is going good and I really like this girl, like more than anyone before. And like I said, we’re going to the same college so we both like follow the college posting accounts and follow people that are going to be her classmates. So one day, I follow someone a guy in there with my major, but when I do I realize my girl already followed him. So I go back to the college account (which consists of 90% girls) and realize that she hasn’t followed a single girl on there and follows basically every guy. This makes me feel awful because just logically, on an account with 90% girls being posted, can you following every dude but no girls be considered as anything but looking for replacements or new guys to talk to? So in the heat of when I found this out, I send her a pretty stern voice note in a tone I regret asking why she’s following that ratio of girls to guys when she has deemed me as “perfect”, “the one”, and “her favorite ever” and when she’s said we’re locked in and committed and I’ve agreed. Like at this point I wasn’t even looking at other girls anymore so it was really hurtful. So she responds nds with saying she follows everyone(not true) and that I’m reading way too much into this and that she’ll unfollow if there is a problem and now she feels confused and off about me. She also said she knows I don’t trust her now. She said she was going to get gas and after that, she ignored all of my texts for a week but always viewed my stories so I knew she just didn’t want to talk to me. This really breaks my heart because she told me she wasn’t like that and she would never just leave. So after a week, she finally responded and said that “I’m sorry and that I should’ve said something and I didn’t want you to think I left so easily. I have a on my plate rn and you’re such a sweet guy and I really hope this could work in the future but I have too much rn I’m sorry.” So I respond saying that I understand I’m not the most important thing in her life and that I was sorry for making her think I didn’t trust her because I do and I just wanted to understand her pov. I also said that I want to be a safe space for her and that she can communicate that with me bc let’s be honest, no one is too busy to shoot out a 5 second text update. Plus, it was too coincidental it came after our first real negative communication. So it’s been over a week and she still hasn’t responded to me so I assume I’ve been ghosted. I miss her so much and I’ve been trying to move on but I blame myself for this so it’s harder to move on then if I got played. Was that the breakup text she sent? It hinted at the future and I know I shouldn’t take her back but I know I would because of how much I miss her. Was I out of line to question her following because I knew I probably should’ve stayed away from the topic but I wanted to communicate how it made me feel. I feel like she def got a friends opinion and then decided to ghost because she seemed more apologetic at first. Is this even a ghost and did she ever really mean what she said about me being the one for her and her favorite guy ever? I want honest opinions on the situation and please don’t just give me the move on talk. I really just can’t and I feel like I’ve messed everything up and that I may love her. Should I call her? I don’t want to seem desperate.
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2024.05.21 16:05 alexizawsum Just need to vent

Can someone please explain why nothing is EVER good enough for an abuser? I could literally give this man my kidney and he would somehow turn it around to how I messed it up and it’s my fault. Always. Last night he was driving, I was in the passenger seat and I was looking on the ground for my phone and he bumped the wall of a tunnel. And then he proceeded to scream at me and tell me that it’s my fault and I should be paying attention to the road at all times and that if the car was messed up I was going to pay big time.
I have never ever ever in my life met someone that thought so low of me and everything I do.
It is getting worse too - the other night I was in the kitchen filling up my dogs water dish - he was talking to me and obviously i couldn’t hear him either the water on and I must’ve raised my voice a little bit over the water and he slapped me so hard in my eye and glasses that my eye was bruised and slightly swollen.
I cannot take this anymore. I don’t know what to do. I don’t understand why do I allow this to continue happening … and why do I love him if he treats me this way? Why am I so scared to leave and let him go when I KNOW I don’t deserve any of this.
Sorry for this long post but I literally have no one to talk to about this - no one in my life knows the 100% truth at all.
And he says it is normal for a man to treat a woman like me like this and that’s bc I will stick up for myself.
Does anyone have any advice or any words they can give me, please. I have never been in this situation before and it is awful and I feel so alone.
My dog is getting older - she will be 10 and she’s the only thing I have that is by my side and my protector. What the hell am i going to do when she’s gone.
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2024.05.21 16:05 ThrowRA242342342 I’m a good looking woman in my 30s absolutely broken with loneliness and feel there is no solution

I don’t know what to do. I have tried absolutely everything.
So I’m a woman in my 30s who has a degree, a good enough job and all I do is work, come home, eat alone and loneliness is eating me up.
I have felt this way since I was 23 years old.
I don’t have a community of friends. I have around 3 fairly close people who were from different parts of my life (one an old job, one from high school, one from college) who I see now and then but there’s no intense, talk constantly, I can tell them anything kind of friendship, they are just people I can grab lunch with now and then months apart.
My dating life has been horrendous. I can’t even explain how bad. It makes me feel like I’m this disgusting rat. All 3 friends and family members plus random people I’ve known throughout my jobs and things have all commented on how strange it is that I don’t have a partner and how badly things go for me.
The people I have dated in my past have all treated me very similarly. As in, I’ve never had an amicable breakup that ended nicely. They’ve all left me feeling awful. Everyone has always been extremely blunt in telling me I’m basically not good enough. Some phrases I’ve heard were: “you make me feel like I want to get myself back” “I didn’t ever see a future with you and didn’t know why I didn’t tell you this before” “you’re boring” “I understand why your friends and family don’t bother with you” “I just don’t care about you” “
I don’t drink alcohol and all these people told me at the start it wasn’t a problem for them. But sooner or later they would comment on how nice it would be if I joined them for a wine out on the porch after work or be able to go to a cocktail bar. And they would pressure me into doing it despite my strong stance on just not enjoying it. It almost seemed like everyone I dated was a disguised alcoholic even though they weren’t because that was the topic of a lot of our arguments … even though I know they weren’t in their “normal life” but just with me alcohol seemed so important that I didn’t do it.
I always came away feeling awful. I have an array of hobbies and find myself interesting - care for animals, reading, hiking, nature, skiing, cycling, I draw, and also write stories - nobody was ever interested in reading any or caring.
Whenever I go out with friends their partners… care. It’s something I noticed a lot. They’d text or call and ask for updates. Even when I was in relationships this didn’t happen. I’ve never, EVER had a partner or boyfriend who cared about me. This is not normal and I’ve never felt loved.
Both of my parents aren’t here either and I have a weird relationship with my brother. He’s married with kids and we aren’t close. I’ve tried and again I feel “not enough”. He tells me he doesn’t WANT to go on vacations with me because I don’t drink and he likes to go to bars and sip wine at nice places and I’d just not be compatible with him on holiday. He therefore doesn’t ever ask to hang out with me in our own country.
I was only ever close with my mother and miss her so much it hurts. I don’t feel connected with anyone and feel my personality must be so awful that nobody wants me around.
I’ve travelled a lot and even lived in other countries and feel deflated. If I do something pretty cool or a nice achievement I can’t tell anyone. Sure, a couple of my friends might send a nice text but I have nobody to hug, kiss or hype me up. I come home to my empty apartment and just have my own thoughts.
Every date I go on recently is a reflection of my past. People just seem to be super interested in the start, as in.. I have no issues getting matches and getting a good conversation flowing, sometimes even up to three moths of dating but then it ends. The same patterns occur where they suddenly don’t want a serious thing and are gone.
I’m broken making these constant deep connections with strangers only to then feel like I never knew them at all.
Friends have told me in the past I am too nice and fall too hard and people can see this but I don’t get it.
I pour my heart and soul into connections I do make, am sweet and caring and it’s never enough for people. I’ve never ever felt anything was ever reciprocated.
Everyone around me has a marriage - a stable, grown adult marriage with house problems and real life stuff, kids or engagements, stuff like that. I want that so much. I want a person to share my life with. I am so tired of being alone and being on this age on apps and going through the same things feeling so unloved and unwanted.
I look around - and this is going to sound judgmental and I don’t mean to be. But I look around at others I knew from school and friends and things and even people who are either not very attractive or even people with horrific personalities (mean, screechy, drama central kind of people) have good loyal husbands and a fairly decent enough life.
I feel like I’ve witnessed multiple situations where people cheat, so awful things and still someone is FIGHTING for someone to stay, fighting for love, somebody is a staple in their life worth it.
For me that’s just exactly what I feel I don’t have. Nobody has ever fought for me. Never cared enough to even go into a serious, let’s live together, maybe get married situations. Nobody has ever made effort the way I do. I’m good looking enough, not the most sexy person in the room but get told I’m natural beauty, cute and stuff like that. I try and take care of myself. I have that “sweet shy gentle” type personality and everyone I meet tells me I have such a good heart and soul. I really do everything for people. So I don’t understand.
I’m terrified of this continuing and I’m exhausted. I don’t feel like I belong anywhere. I’m absolutely broken with feeling like my whole life has been loss around me, in terms of death of my loved ones and also loss of people I’ve cared for and wanted something with, loss of friendships that were once more solid and now are casual, just loss of everything.
Like I said I’ve tried travelling, lived in other countries, joined so many hobby groups and clubs, the amount of nights I’ve sat at a random meet up of a social night with a soft drink and chatted and gave it my all for nothing to come of it is hard to remember, I’ve even reached out on social media to old friends from random hobbies and school and nothing comes of anything.
I don’t know what else to do. I enjoy my own company but I’m now at a point where it’s depressing me so much. I don’t want this to be my life. I want to go to theme parks with someone and feel alive. I want to book holidays with someone and get excited. I want to pack together and prepare their bags. I want to ask someone about their day. I want to share plans. I don’t want to just come home anymore and stare at a wall. Constantly see people thriving on social media. Have no family at important holidays. Nobody to celebrate things, I feel so empty and not even a part of society when I see the beach packed with people, gifts for sale in stores, etc. it’s not for me because I have no one.
I don’t know what else to do. If something cool happens in my day it didn’t really happen because I am literally by myself and have nobody who cares. I feel like other single people still have close friends or a mother or father who is interested, even a community of some sort. But I am literally alone.
Even when I do stuff with friends it’s only for an hour or two and I’ll get a taste of what a nice happy life is like, maybe an hour walking along a nice beach or a nice dinner somewhere with people around us then I’m back to being alone when they go back home to their husbands and have a cute night.
I cry everyday and don’t understand this. I’m so envious of people who have tons of people in their life. I never will have that even if I find a partner. But it just kills that even that part doesn’t exist. I can’t even explain how empty I feel. My birthday went by with one text message from one of my close friends and the other two sent one days later saying they forgot and had been busy. It’s like I don’t exist. And I’m terrified and don’t know what to do.
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2024.05.21 16:02 Tricky-Wallaby8795 18M experiences weird ghosting(?) by 18F

So there’s this girl that I was talking to for like 2 months. We’re both seniors and are going to the same college so it was really easy to bond and throughout the two months we really connected with each other. Like after about a month we were mutually committed to each other and we would talk on the phone all night, talk throughout the day, and be there for each other whenever it was needed. The only real problem is that I tend to overthink a lot, as I’ve had bad anxiety issues in the past. This windiest is compounded by the fact I was played in my last relationship by a girl who said she loved me and swore she was loyal that was talking to other dudes and picked them over me. But anyways, I would try to express how the overthinking made me feel to her but I really wanted to get her on a call because other than seeing her we only exchanged voice notes and never really got on calls. This expanded my intuition and made me think I was getting played so I did some mild research. We follow each other on Ig and she has a lot upwards of a thousand followers, which also set some alarm bells off in my brain because I knew she was most likely lying that I was the only want for her and everything. Also, just through like looking at her post comments, I saw that she still had her ex bfs flirty comments up there for a while when we were talking and that she still followed him, making me think that I was possibly going to be a rebound. Also, based on her TikTok reposts, she was just starting to get over him when she told me they had been done for three months so I didn’t know what to believe. But while we were talking, me and her shared everything with each other like past trauma, current issues, and I play guitar so I would sing love songs to her or send them to her(corny Ik) so she told me that she’s been deeply traumatized in past relationships and that her ex was the worst of them all because he would use her for her body and I think she implied some abuse so I knew to be gentle with her. She also said that no guy had ever put in so much effort to talk to and understand her and that it was so different and special to her. So everything is going good and I really like this girl, like more than anyone before. And like I said, we’re going to the same college so we both like follow the college posting accounts and follow people that are going to be her classmates. So one day, I follow someone a guy in there with my major, but when I do I realize my girl already followed him. So I go back to the college account (which consists of 90% girls) and realize that she hasn’t followed a single girl on there and follows basically every guy. This makes me feel awful because just logically, on an account with 90% girls being posted, can you following every dude but no girls be considered as anything but looking for replacements or new guys to talk to? So in the heat of when I found this out, I send her a pretty stern voice note in a tone I regret asking why she’s following that ratio of girls to guys when she has deemed me as “perfect”, “the one”, and “her favorite ever” and when she’s said we’re locked in and committed and I’ve agreed. Like at this point I wasn’t even looking at other girls anymore so it was really hurtful. So she responds nds with saying she follows everyone(not true) and that I’m reading way too much into this and that she’ll unfollow if there is a problem and now she feels confused and off about me. She also said she knows I don’t trust her now. She said she was going to get gas and after that, she ignored all of my texts for a week but always viewed my stories so I knew she just didn’t want to talk to me. This really breaks my heart because she told me she wasn’t like that and she would never just leave. So after a week, she finally responded and said that “I’m sorry and that I should’ve said something and I didn’t want you to think I left so easily. I have a on my plate rn and you’re such a sweet guy and I really hope this could work in the future but I have too much rn I’m sorry.” So I respond saying that I understand I’m not the most important thing in her life and that I was sorry for making her think I didn’t trust her because I do and I just wanted to understand her pov. I also said that I want to be a safe space for her and that she can communicate that with me bc let’s be honest, no one is too busy to shoot out a 5 second text update. Plus, it was too coincidental it came after our first real negative communication. So it’s been over a week and she still hasn’t responded to me so I assume I’ve been ghosted. I miss her so much and I’ve been trying to move on but I blame myself for this so it’s harder to move on then if I got played. Was that the breakup text she sent? It hinted at the future and I know I shouldn’t take her back but I know I would because of how much I miss her. Was I out of line to question her following because I knew I probably should’ve stayed away from the topic but I wanted to communicate how it made me feel. I feel like she def got a friends opinion and then decided to ghost because she seemed more apologetic at first. Is this even a ghost and did she ever really mean what she said about me being the one for her and her favorite guy ever? Like how can she leave so easily? I want honest opinions on the situation and please don’t just give me the move on talk. I really just can’t and I feel like I’ve messed everything up and that I may love her. Should I call her? I don’t want to seem desperate.
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2024.05.21 16:01 Far-War-3804 B022 JAG CONVICTS D.C. DISTRICT ATTORNEY FOR TREASON. The UNITED STATES NAVY JUDGE ADVOCATE GENERAL'S CORPS CONVICTED U.S. ATTORNEY FOR THE DISTRICT of COLUMBIA MATTHEW GRAVES OF TREASON. GRAVES had VOWED TO REMAIN SILENT BUT ENDED UP SELF-SNITHCHING HIMSELF INTO DEATH SENTENCE. March 24, 2024.

B022 JAG CONVICTS D.C. DISTRICT ATTORNEY FOR TREASON. The UNITED STATES NAVY JUDGE ADVOCATE GENERAL'S CORPS CONVICTED U.S. ATTORNEY FOR THE DISTRICT of COLUMBIA MATTHEW GRAVES OF TREASON. GRAVES had VOWED TO REMAIN SILENT BUT ENDED UP SELF-SNITHCHING HIMSELF INTO DEATH SENTENCE. March 24, 2024.
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JAG CONVICTS D.C. DISTRICT ATTORNEY FOR TREASON. The UNITED STATES NAVY JUDGE ADVOCATE GENERAL'S CORPS CONVICTED U.S. ATTORNEY FOR THE DISTRICT of COLUMBIA MATTHEW GRAVES OF TREASON. GRAVES had VOWED TO REMAIN SILENT BUT ENDED UP SELF-SNITHCHING HIMSELF INTO DEATH SENTENCE. March 24, 2024.
Last week, the United States Navy Judge Advocate General’s Corps convicted U.S. Attorney for the District of Columbia Matthew Graves of treason. Graves had vowed to remain silent but ended up self-snitching himself into a death sentence.
As reported in January, Delta Force operators captured Graves while he was vacationing at a Colorado ski resort. The Deep State pawn was taken to a holding facility and, later, to Guantanamo Bay for intake and interrogation. Predictably, he had refused JAG’s magnanimous plea deal: lifelong imprisonment in exchange for an admission of guilt and the whereabouts of retired and active-duty military personnel allegedly held at secret federal penitentiaries. Graves reportedly told investigators he only meted out the punishment and that if covert prisons existed, Merrick Garland had the coordinates. Then he was all bluff and bluster, saying JAG would eventually incur Biden’s wrath.
Two months of confinement in a six-by-nine-foot cubicle hardened Graves’ resolve, his disdain for all things Trump. He likened Trump to Apollyon, the Destroyer of Revelation 9:11, and MAGA to a destructive swarm of locusts.
“Where Trump goes, destruction follows. He’s the personification of evil, the destroyer,” Graves had said.
As he stepped inside Guantanamo Bay’s south courtroom, flanked by a pair of MPs, he shouted that his only regret in life was his failure to prosecute all “maggot” MAGA patriots in the country and condemn them to life behind bars or an eternity in purgatory.
“Spare us your fantasies, detainee Graves, and have a seat,” Vice Admiral Darse E. Crandall said. “We’ll make this procedure as quick and painful for you as possible.”
The Admiral introduced the panel, three Marine Corps officers whom JAG had empaneled to weigh the evidence against Graves impartially. Nonetheless, their eyes narrowed contemptuously at Graves as he seated himself and announced he would not participate in the tribunal.
“I’ll say now all I’ll say today,” Graves said. “I reject this tribunal. “It is false. I am detained illegally, and there will be retribution.”
“We’re happy you got that off your chest,” Admiral Crandall said.
He then approached the panel. “Detainee Graves, in all his splendor, has boasted about how his vital role in coordinating the nationwide prosecution of over 1,000 J6ers helped make America a safer country. What he never said, and what’s been proven by publicly available video evidence, is that the overwhelming majority of the 1,000 committed no crimes. They practiced their 1st Amendment right to assemble and express views through peaceful protest, the protest of a stolen election. He doesn’t deny these facts; he’s proud of it.”
“Damn right, I am,” Graves blurted. “They got less than they deserved. I wanted them all wired to the chair, trembling and sizzling as they fried. Anyone questioning Biden’s victory should’ve had poison put in their veins or have been electrocuted. And that means all of you! And when I leave here, I will ensure that happens, especially after this.”
“Easy now, detainee Graves. You wouldn’t want to risk your innocence,” Admiral Crandall taunted. You did what you felt was right, of course.”
“You felt their punishments didn’t fit their crimes, didn’t you?” Admiral Crandall goaded.
“That’s right. All of them, just like you all, are domestic terrorists and deserve a life sentence or death. But, no, I couldn’t do that. I was told 22 years maximum for insurrection and, in some cases—probation. D.C. is ours, not theirs, and we had the authority to hunt down those MAGA pukes. MAGA, MAGA, MAGA—I was sick and fucking tired of hearing about MAGA. And that goes for your military traitors, too; you assholes who still support Donald Trump. What is wrong with you people?” Graves said.
“We support the Constitution of the United States, detainee Graves,” the Admiral replied.
“I’ve said enough,” Graves said, but continued his reproval anyway. “The Constitution, the Constitution, the Constitution, that’s all I ever hear you people talk about, your undying devotion to a document that should’ve been burned long ago. We don’t care about your Constitution anymore. It’s a prehistoric fossil written by men who have turned to dust. If I’m gone, someone else will pick up the torch. How many have you killed, Admiral Crandall? You’re a practiced hypocrite.”
The Admiral ordered MPs to restrain and gag Graves. He showed the panel a copy of an email Graves had sent to FBI Director Christopher Wray in April 2021, which highlighted his hatred for and desire to eradicate the “January 6 insurrectionists.” His discursive jeremiad bounced between slandering and defaming President Trump and labeling MAGA a threat to democracy. “Any man or woman over 13 years of age identifying as MAGA should be summarily put to death; any man or woman calling themselves patriots should likewise meet a gas chamber,” Graves wrote.
In one paragraph, he ascribed President Trump’s charisma to witchcraft, saying Trump “put spells” on his friends, family, and supporters.
“It’s more rational than it sounds, Director Wray. Why else would a woman like Melania stay with the buffoon? Why else would half the country bow to him? Yes, they’re all nuts, but there’s more to it. Demonology,” Graves wrote.
“This commission doesn’t recognize insanity or occultism as mechanisms of defense,” Admiral Crandall said. “The facts are clear and indisputable. The detainee knowingly used specious charges to prosecute and jail innocent people. Many of them were federal plants who were prosecuted and released. The Deep State did a very good job obfuscating which were plants, but we also know that many law-abiding citizens remain behind bars. Detainee Graves committed acts of treason, and I ask you panel members to find him guilty of that crime.”
Graves shuddered in his seat, mumbling into the gag.
The panel unanimously delivered a verdict of guilty and recommended the death penalty.
Admiral Crandall assented, and he scheduled Graves’ execution for Tuesday, March 26.
I anticipate having information on Merrick Garland’s tribunal tomorrow.
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2024.05.21 15:58 aygamayggmat Why am i so emotionless?

I barely show any signs of emotions and it would make people uncomfortable. Someone said i was really boring and uncomfortable to be around because of how “…” i am.
all i could think of is how i grew up being the weird outcast, and now people think im just plain boring.
Last year my dad barged into my room sobbing, he told me that he found out my mom cheated and they’re getting a divorce. I just said “Oh wow.” and stared at the wall for hours. my life shattered infront of me and all i couldn’t say is Oh wow?
In school whenever someone comes up to me I’ll just say general stuff like “woah that’s so cool😐” or “wanna grab food after school?😐”
my mom also bought me a bunch of stuff that i’ve been wanting for years on a random tuesday. and i just said i liked it without a smile of my face and went back into my room. even though i really really liked it.
I do all of these on a daily basis and i just wish i could fully express my emotions. i can’t even say “thank you so much” the best i could say is “thanks” I don’t know why i can’t and i feel like a statue with a thousand thoughts running through my head.
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2024.05.21 15:56 Tricky-Wallaby8795 18M experiences weird ghosting(?) by 18F

So there’s this girl that I was talking to for like 2 months. We’re both seniors and are going to the same college so it was really easy to bond and throughout the two months we really connected with each other. Like after about a month we were mutually committed to each other and we would talk on the phone all night, talk throughout the day, and be there for each other whenever it was needed. The only real problem is that I tend to overthink a lot, as I’ve had bad anxiety issues in the past. This windiest is compounded by the fact I was played in my last relationship by a girl who said she loved me and swore she was loyal that was talking to other dudes and picked them over me. But anyways, I would try to express how the overthinking made me feel to her but I really wanted to get her on a call because other than seeing her we only exchanged voice notes and never really got on calls. This expanded my intuition and made me think I was getting played so I did some mild research. We follow each other on Ig and she has a lot upwards of a thousand followers, which also set some alarm bells off in my brain because I knew she was most likely lying that I was the only want for her and everything. Also, just through like looking at her post comments, I saw that she still had her ex bfs flirty comments up there for a while when we were talking and that she still followed him, making me think that I was possibly going to be a rebound. Also, based on her TikTok reposts, she was just starting to get over him when she told me they had been done for three months so I didn’t know what to believe. But while we were talking, me and her shared everything with each other like past trauma, current issues, and I play guitar so I would sing love songs to her or send them to her(corny Ik) so she told me that she’s been deeply traumatized in past relationships and that her ex was the worst of them all because he would use her for her body and I think she implied some abuse so I knew to be gentle with her. She also said that no guy had ever put in so much effort to talk to and understand her and that it was so different and special to her. So everything is going good and I really like this girl, like more than anyone before. And like I said, we’re going to the same college so we both like follow the college posting accounts and follow people that are going to be her classmates. So one day, I follow someone a guy in there with my major, but when I do I realize my girl already followed him. So I go back to the college account (which consists of 90% girls) and realize that she hasn’t followed a single girl on there and follows basically every guy. This makes me feel awful because just logically, on an account with 90% girls being posted, can you following every dude but no girls be considered as anything but looking for replacements or new guys to talk to? So in the heat of when I found this out, I send her a pretty stern voice note in a tone I regret asking why she’s following that ratio of girls to guys when she has deemed me as “perfect”, “the one”, and “her favorite ever” and when she’s said we’re locked in and committed and I’ve agreed. Like at this point I wasn’t even looking at other girls anymore so it was really hurtful. So she responds nds with saying she follows everyone(not true) and that I’m reading way too much into this and that she’ll unfollow if there is a problem and now she feels confused and off about me. She also said she knows I don’t trust her now. She said she was going to get gas and after that, she ignored all of my texts for a week but always viewed my stories so I knew she just didn’t want to talk to me. This really breaks my heart because she told me she wasn’t like that and she would never just leave. So after a week, she finally responded and said that “I’m sorry and that I should’ve said something and I didn’t want you to think I left so easily. I have a on my plate rn and you’re such a sweet guy and I really hope this could work in the future but I have too much rn I’m sorry.” So I respond saying that I understand I’m not the most important thing in her life and that I was sorry for making her think I didn’t trust her because I do and I just wanted to understand her pov. I also said that I want to be a safe space for her and that she can communicate that with me bc let’s be honest, no one is too busy to shoot out a 5 second text update. Plus, it was too coincidental it came after our first real negative communication. So it’s been over a week and she still hasn’t responded to me so I assume I’ve been ghosted. I miss her so much and I’ve been trying to move on but I blame myself for this so it’s harder to move on then if I got played. Was that the breakup text she sent? It hinted at the future and I know I shouldn’t take her back but I know I would because of how much I miss her. Was I out of line to question her following because I knew I probably should’ve stayed away from the topic but I wanted to communicate how it made me feel. I feel like she def got a friends opinion and then decided to ghost because she seemed more apologetic at first. Is this even a ghost and did she ever really mean what she said about me being the one for her and her favorite guy ever? I want honest opinions on the situation and please don’t just give me the move on talk. I really just can’t and I feel like I’ve messed everything up and that I may love her. Should I call her? I don’t want to seem desperate.
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2024.05.21 15:55 MyBrainBlewAFuse My Self-esteem and skateboarding

So a while back, about a week off of the 8th of May(?), I started skateboarding and I enjoy it alot. I bought I skateboard when I was younger but I never really rode it because I was scared of falling. But then after playing sports I realized that falling was the least of my concerns. After my 14th birthday, I bought myself a skateboard (which I think is fake) and started riding around my parent's work place since that's where there's only flat ground. I rode a couple of times and I learned how to balance myself, push at a C-tier level, and throwdown. I enjoy it a lot and every day after church my mom will drive to a skatepark where I can go. Now me as a person, I developed an inferiorty complex and it usually kicks in whenever I see someone better than me do somethin which I'm still new at. I see a bunch of older teenagers ride and I just hide behind this semi-bowl area which is like a wall and ride there. Anytime some of them ride by, I just freeze up, stop riding and stand, looking away. I feel like a poser that way, just leaning on my board. Sure they can't do tricks, not that I've seen them, but I want to ride with confidence and I want to be their friend. I want to be better. I just don't want to be a novice.
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2024.05.21 15:55 Hot-West9928 Soul of a human 7

First_Previous
Again a small lore dump, on magic attributes. Hope you enjoy!
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On the way to the next lesson Mor was asked °Think, I could use your magic?° by the human.
°I don´t know, maybe something to try later today° he answered. °Yeah, let's do that too.° Human agreed.
The next lesson was an interesting one, at least for the visitor from beyond, it was a lesson on the rules of magic, even if Mor and quite a few of his peers were lulled into sleep by the soothing voice of the teacher. The human, never expected, that someone could teach something so interesting in such a boring way.
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As you all know, magic is divided into types, that are known to us as attributes.
Attributes have a positive effect on magic of the same type and a negative effect on the type opposing it. To give you an example for this a mage with fire affinity, will not be able to use higher forms of water magic. We know of the following attributes, but sometimes new ones are discovered, so this list is ever-expanding. Please pay attention now, as this will be test-relevant. We know of the elemental attributes, Fire, Earth, Water, and Wind, the manipulation attributes, Healing and Illusion and finally the royal attribute, only seen in the royal Diamond family, called Gravity.
Here I have to note, that there are spells, that are not included in any of those attributes and can be used by anyone. These are called Basic-attributed spells. Those spells include for example things like body enhancement, magic bolt, or the widely used message spell.
Now please note that the attribute distinctions are only one part, the second part is the distinction of potency of the spells. Firstly there is the single-class, moving and manipulating existing materials, you can pick fruits or use a small amount of water to water a plant, they can only do what anyone could do with their own hands and basic tools. Next up would be group-class where the material to manipulate will be supplied by the magic power and here your attributes will matter. In this class, the basic martial spells and convenience spells are located, with a strength that a small group estimated at around five people could produce with their tools. Then we get into the village-class magic and as you can surely guess those include things, that would need the manual labor of a small village, and here most of you will find yourself comfortable spellcasting. But then we go into the higher forms, here you either need a soul-bound partner with the same affinity as yourself to supply the energy demands, those are called demographic-class, and finally, there would be world-class magic, but the energy required of those could only be supplied by a whole convent of right attributed mages at least that´s the theory. Nobody was able to use a spell like that, it is purely hypothetical.
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°Ok, that was really interesting, I would like to see what those high-class spells are capable of.° The human stated and Mor answered °Yes, but with my magic reserves, we will probably be stuck at group-class magic.° °Laaaame!° Human exclaimed. °We really need to find a way to get you more magic... This is just stupid.°
°Well it would help if it is possible for you to also cast spells. Then we could be much faster in using magic.° Mor thought. °Well, only a few more hours and we can test that, at home.°
°You´re right.° the human agreed.
With this, both of them either suffered or excitedly listened through the following lessons, and Mor having a peaceful lunch break. At last as peaceful, as it can be with a human trying to move random body parts and cursing about how hard it was. Mor finally made them stop after he was made to involuntary open his hand, and drop his juice. But without the acute danger of the bullies, it was very nice for a change, if a bit lonely. But still much better than before, the only bad thing about the bonding with the human was, that his body ached after the human moved it so violently, but it would pass, he was sure of that.
Finally, after lessons ended, Mor acquired something for supper and retreated to his room, carefully locking the door and at the insistence of the human enhancing the lock with a simple spell to make the lock and door more sturdy.
After they finally "guarded" their room right, Mor refusing to add some "surprises" for anyone opening the door. They sat down on the bed and began with what they discussed.
°I want to try using magic first.° The human opened. °Moving your body is hella exhausting.°
°Yes, let´s try it. First, just concentrate on the magic inside our body and make it flow.° Mor guided the human. °How do I concentrate on the magic?° The question came and Mor explained further. °You have to feel the potential within and then concentrate on it.°
After a short while the human stated °Is it bad, that I can´t feel any potential or whatever? Maybe just go like this and yes I think I feel something flow!° Mor felt elated, now they could cast two spells even with his meager energy reserves. °Great! Now concentrate on the pillow and imagine it fluffing itself up.° And once again the human tried, but nothing would happen. °Huh? Why is nothing happening? I feel something flowing and all.° They asked. °I don´t know, I´m telling you what I was told when I started with the magic. What my parents taught me.° Mor answered.
°Speaking of your parents, you have magic communication. Why is that message taking so long to reach them? Shouldn´t that be instantaneous?° The human asked.
Mor sighed °Your understanding is screwed up, how would you even think that? Message magic is simple, so you need to have a view on your recipient or it won't work.°
°Well, we have some stories in our world, with magic settings and shit, and there it is always super handy and can do just about anything. While here it is tedious and full of "that´s not how it works".° The human sounded disappointed.
°Well let´s get back on track and let me try some more. Maybe you could watch the flow of your energy, then tell me if I do something right.° Human offered and Mor nodded. Like that, they tried, but Mor could not detect any movement in the energies within him. °This is not working.° Mor stated, and the human had to reluctantly agree.
°So we are left with trying to let me do the body movement... Not ideal, but well let´s try something from my world. Take deep breaths and relax, only concentrate on your breathing.° The human instructed and Mor followed the directions and slowly felt his body moving, doing everything in his power to not intervene and only concentrate on his breathing until finally the human let out a satisfied grunt.
°Yes that is better, it is still hard, but now I´m just moving something I´m not accustomed to, instead of fighting you.° The human sounded pretty happy and Mor was too, but a quick glance at the clock in his room let both of them decide to get some sleep. Being late for class and tired would not be good.
Mor awoke the next morning to a world of pain, his whole body just hurt. °What is this, it hurts!°
°I don´t know! I did nothing while you were asleep!°
°You must have! Why else would it be like this?° Mor scolded the human.
°Don´t get snippy with me! I will slap you! And with your own hand no less!° They countered.
°And why I´m the only one in pain, that is unfair!° Mor complained.
°Why would you think that? I feel the pain too, it´s just not as bad as you say. You are just a little wuss.° The human said.
°I´m no wuss, I never had this kind of pain before!° Mor grumbled.
°Really? If I had to describe it it feels just like a little soreness in the muscles... Ah! Maybe, me moving your body is more stressful, than you moving your own. Even if you are distracted you subconsciously try to fight my control. That would make sense, but we can´t know for sure.° Human theorized.
°Really? And now? If this is what happens this is not acceptable!° Mor was still whining.
°Well easy, we will test your theory, that you can´t train your bodies, because, with this new development, I smell bullshit and laziness. Time to train and limber up!° Mor whinced at that exclamation of the human. °We will do nothing like that!° He exclaimed.
°We will, and I will force you if I need to.° The human stated matter of factly. °I hate you.° Mor grumbled.
°Yes. Yes! Let the hate flow through you!° The human snickered. °Still, I won´t let you just opt out without trying!°
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2024.05.21 15:55 Luck9599 Additions to future F1 games (*long post alert*)

Hello everyone
With F1 24 being announced and being copy and paste again (basically just an F1 23 DLC at this point), I thought I'd write this post to maybe, just maybe, help (in any way) the next future F1 games become more realistic, which I think should be the main goal of these games (and also to express my deep disapointment with how the series is going).
Before we begin: this is completely based on my opinion, you don't need to agree with me, specially because I know some stuff may be considered completely delusional, as EA would never implement these things. With that out of the way, it's light out and away we go.
Here are additions/ideas that would turn the F1 game into an incredible experience:
As you guys can see, all these additions would be more oriented towards realism. I addressed changes to career mode and MyTeam, since those are the only modes I really play, but I know that online modes are in need of some changes as well.
Please feel free to comment what you think as well :D
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2024.05.21 15:54 Tricky-Wallaby8795 17M experiences weird ghosting(?) by 17F

So there’s this girl that I was talking to for like 2 months. We’re both seniors and are going to the same college so it was really easy to bond and throughout the two months we really connected with each other. Like after about a month we were mutually committed to each other and we would talk on the phone all night, talk throughout the day, and be there for each other whenever it was needed. The only real problem is that I tend to overthink a lot, as I’ve had bad anxiety issues in the past. This windiest is compounded by the fact I was played in my last relationship by a girl who said she loved me and swore she was loyal that was talking to other dudes and picked them over me. But anyways, I would try to express how the overthinking made me feel to her but I really wanted to get her on a call because other than seeing her we only exchanged voice notes and never really got on calls. This expanded my intuition and made me think I was getting played so I did some mild research. We follow each other on Ig and she has a lot upwards of a thousand followers, which also set some alarm bells off in my brain because I knew she was most likely lying that I was the only want for her and everything. Also, just through like looking at her post comments, I saw that she still had her ex bfs flirty comments up there for a while when we were talking and that she still followed him, making me think that I was possibly going to be a rebound. Also, based on her TikTok reposts, she was just starting to get over him when she told me they had been done for three months so I didn’t know what to believe. But while we were talking, me and her shared everything with each other like past trauma, current issues, and I play guitar so I would sing love songs to her or send them to her(corny Ik) so she told me that she’s been deeply traumatized in past relationships and that her ex was the worst of them all because he would use her for her body and I think she implied some abuse so I knew to be gentle with her. She also said that no guy had ever put in so much effort to talk to and understand her and that it was so different and special to her. So everything is going good and I really like this girl, like more than anyone before. And like I said, we’re going to the same college so we both like follow the college posting accounts and follow people that are going to be her classmates. So one day, I follow someone a guy in there with my major, but when I do I realize my girl already followed him. So I go back to the college account (which consists of 90% girls) and realize that she hasn’t followed a single girl on there and follows basically every guy. This makes me feel awful because just logically, on an account with 90% girls being posted, can you following every dude but no girls be considered as anything but looking for replacements or new guys to talk to? So in the heat of when I found this out, I send her a pretty stern voice note in a tone I regret asking why she’s following that ratio of girls to guys when she has deemed me as “perfect”, “the one”, and “her favorite ever” and when she’s said we’re locked in and committed and I’ve agreed. Like at this point I wasn’t even looking at other girls anymore so it was really hurtful. So she responds nds with saying she follows everyone(not true) and that I’m reading way too much into this and that she’ll unfollow if there is a problem and now she feels confused and off about me. She also said she knows I don’t trust her now. She said she was going to get gas and after that, she ignored all of my texts for a week but always viewed my stories so I knew she just didn’t want to talk to me. This really breaks my heart because she told me she wasn’t like that and she would never just leave. So after a week, she finally responded and said that “I’m sorry and that I should’ve said something and I didn’t want you to think I left so easily. I have a on my plate rn and you’re such a sweet guy and I really hope this could work in the future but I have too much rn I’m sorry.” So I respond saying that I understand I’m not the most important thing in her life and that I was sorry for making her think I didn’t trust her because I do and I just wanted to understand her pov. I also said that I want to be a safe space for her and that she can communicate that with me bc let’s be honest, no one is too busy to shoot out a 5 second text update. Plus, it was too coincidental it came after our first real negative communication. So it’s been over a week and she still hasn’t responded to me so I assume I’ve been ghosted. I miss her so much and I’ve been trying to move on but I blame myself for this so it’s harder to move on then if I got played. Was that the breakup text she sent? It hinted at the future and I know I shouldn’t take her back but I know I would because of how much I miss her. Was I out of line to question her following because I knew I probably should’ve stayed away from the topic but I wanted to communicate how it made me feel. I feel like she def got a friends opinion and then decided to ghost because she seemed more apologetic at first. Is this even a ghost and did she ever really mean what she said about me being the one for her and her favorite guy ever? I want honest opinions on the situation and please don’t just give me the move on talk. I really just can’t and I feel like I’ve messed everything up and that I may love her. Should I call her? I don’t want to seem desperate.
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2024.05.21 15:53 TripleJ_1 Need help figuring out who is stalking me please

Please keep an open mind and I have to say, if you're going to call me crazy or delusional please do not Comment as these are real people doing this to me. I'm extremely desperate for ideas and help and the local PD, even FBI was no help.
It started 3 years ago I began hearing people talking to me around the house, in every room including bedroom, bathroom, everywhere. Also my car. The most upsetting place I still hear it is when I am out of the house, say walking around a store, even without My cell phone on me, I hear them. For 3 years now they have listened to me, not stopped speaking to me (harrassing, mocking, bullying, spying) even during sex, the shower, while using the toilet, it doesn't matter. They also describe my movements and comment on things I do saying they can see me and have cameras in the house. I have searched and also had a private investigator search but have found nothing.
What it sounds like is a voice coming from a hidden speaker, volume low so that you have to focus on it and strain to hear it. It's not obvious and loud, it's mixed in with the background. They respond to me, actual conversations, so I believe there is a microphone also.
The scariest part is being able to be heard when not talking out loud, talking under my breath can still be heard by them and they respond to it and question me on basically my thoughts it feels like. It's crippling anxiety Inducing and a huge Invasion of privacy.
This whole time they have pretended to be other people (cops, random friends, exes, family) hiding their identity, and In the beginning I would reach out to these people to ask if it was them, until one by one everyone just assumes I'm on drugs and crazy.
The local PD hasn't helped at all, they actually have baker acted me, my girlfriend had baker acted me, took my firearm and also DCF became involved which is a huge disaster but still caused by the stalker, as I initially went to the cops for help and they didn't focus on the stalker at all, just on my mental health.
What I need are some ideas on what exactly they are using to be able to hear me, possible locations for the speakers as well as what type. I have searched my clothes for transmitters and have searched receptacles for speakers but nothing yet. Hired a guy to sweep as well and he didn't find anything either. Also any other ideas on who I can contact for help if Noone else is listening or taking me seriously, please this has been a living hell for 3 years every day.
They don't stop or cease communicating with me for a minute, it's constant constant talking, Commenting, questioning, harrassing, it has impacted everything I have lost jobs over it as I dreaded going to work while it was happening and family and friends to question my stability and mental health.
My phone is also being remotely viewed or mirrored as they actively and in real time comment and talk about what I am doing on it. So this is added stress since it involves things like finances, passwords, personal convos etc. I have anti Spyware apps installed but any idea how I can find out if it's being monitored?
Thanks guys im desperate and need some advice and some support I've been alone through this whole thing
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2024.05.21 15:50 freddiemercurial 45 [M4F] UK/Anywhere - I cling, therefore I am

Not necessarily emotionally, but physically. I love hugging and cuddling, and I'll want to attach to you like a limpet attaches itself to a rock. If it's physical shows of affection that you're after, I'm your man.
I’m after the relationship that goes the distance, the one that results in love and, when the time is right, the ‘m word’. I can’t think of anything I look forward to more than spending my life with the woman I love.
I love physical displays of affection, both public and otherwise. Gestures like holding, hugging, etc, are something I adore and would always welcome, especially because I love the excitement and warm feeling that come with being close to the one you love.
The person I am after is someone who is kind and caring, somebody that I can relaxed around. I don’t want the stress of being around someone who gets set off my the smallest thing. My sense of humour is varied, although it can best be described as something of a mix of Chandler Bing (RIP) and Edmund Blackadder.
When we’re together, my ideal night would involve spending our time at home, curled up on the sofa together and watching a film, or playing a game, although I’m not against the occasional day/night out if it’s just the two of us.I watch little in the way of current TV or films, and almost no sport. My main solo hobbies can be found on my friends post.
If we’re apart, as I presume we would be in the early days of our relationship, then, because I game a fair bit, I’d be open to you watching me play something, or vice versa if you game as well. We could also chat while we play our own individual games. We can also watch films, TV, etc, or whatever may bring us closer together.
I’m in the UK, so I would prefer to talk to someone who is also in the UK, as it would make things convenient for the both of us, and it would also make meeting up easier, and I would want to meet up if things progress well. However, I am open to talking to people who are overseas, as long as you’re moving to the UK in the near future, and that the move is, if not set in stone, then is at least guaranteed to happen or to be able to happen. Be aware that I am unable to travel overseas, although not for any nefarious reason.
I’m a vegetarian, though I don’t mind being around meat eaters as long as they’re respectful of how I feel. I don’t drink and, while I’m okay being with someone who does, it won’t work if you’re a person who drinks frequently. I’m non-religious and non-spiritual, and this will never change, and my views are generally what you’d call progressive and liberal. Disparate views are one thing, but if you use terms like ‘PC/PC culture’, ‘liberal’ or ‘woke’ as pejoratives, we will not get along. In addition, I do not smoke and will not be with a smoker.
I’m okay with either private messaging or Reddit chat, though I’d like to move off Reddit once we both feel comfortable doing so. Once we’ve moved to a different platform, exchanging pictures is then also something that would be done once we’re both comfortable, as would voice and video chat, especially because the best way to really get to know someone is through real-time communication.
Your opening message doesn’t have to be that long, just give me something to work with, something that can spark conversation. If you have any questions, queries, posers, then feel free to ask.
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2024.05.21 15:50 DaRealPhoneix Mixed Reality Dungeon Crawler in Gravensteen - Looking for testers

Mixed Reality Dungeon Crawler in Gravensteen - Looking for testers
Hi there fellow Ghentians.
Ever wanted to play a dungeon crawler but in real life? Where you have to break through walls, dodge traps, get loot and fight enemies, all while moving through a real life dungeon in Gravensteen?
https://preview.redd.it/iwc9ai5ras1d1.png?width=1635&format=png&auto=webp&s=c63f358c5610915d97cde4c80707c01ad11e3907
Me and my friend (both game development students) are working on a mixed reality game in Gravensteen for our internship. Starting next week we want to organise some playtesting sessions.
  • What can you expect? A one-of-a kind Mixed Reality experience using the new Quest 3 headset, using all of its new features. To show a little bit what it will look like: https://drive.google.com/file/d/19aa8kKvnqnN2dVBdJ4nxHa9nfJdenwv1/view?usp=drive_link
  • How to participate? If you are interested we would like you to join our Discord server so we can arrange a timeslot for testing. ( https://discord.gg/KN5qstUS ) If you don't have Discord you can always contact me on Reddit and we can discuss things in private messages.
  • How long does it take? The game itself should take around 10 minutes to complete. We will take timeslots of around 20-30 minutes, so players can take their time and also give some feedback.
  • What is expected from me? We really really value your opinion and feedback. We will prepare a small Google form to fill in after playing (which you can fill in any time after). This data will be anonymous and will be used to make the game better and show Gravensteen what the general feeling is about the game. Nothing else is required. If the timeslot is too long for you, you can also leave early if you would like.
If you have more questions, feel free to ask!
Hoping to see a bunch of you in the dungeon! Sam & Arne - Xarpy
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2024.05.21 15:49 OnceYourDoofling To the one I’ve hurt— and miss so deeply.

(Originally meant for UnsentLetters but they wouldn’t let me post for some reason.)
Dear F,
Hey. I’ve written a few letters to you before. Under other aliases— even sent some dumb shit out into other places for venting ‘n some meant for advice ‘n junk.
I think with this one, I’m gonna try really hard to force myself to write one of these letters whenever I get the urge to message you— I know you don’t want me to, and that’s alright. It makes sense. I know you don’t care about working through or unpacking things anymore, and that you just want to move on with your life.
I fucked up. If I was better to you, everything in my life would be better— not just because you’d still be with me, but I’d be… better. I don’t think I would’ve gotten into acting as much as I have, but I would’ve kept up with my art more. I would’ve had all of our friends, creative and talented people I loved building things with. That’s a selfish point of view, though.
At the end of the day, there’s no reality where I could want you in my life for unselfish reasons. I was bad to you. You deserve better and always have, and begging to be a part of your life again would be… well, yeah. I already said it. Selfish.
I see you in every person I meet. Every time I feel even the slightest bit of fondness for someone I always unpack it to being because part of them reminds me of you. I think about how you saw art and life and— Augh. You make me want to cry— Wait, no. That’s not fair.
I’m the one who put myself in this position. You aren’t the one doing that to me. I love you. I’ve always loved you. I’ll never stop loving you. I’m sorry I ever thought that I did.
Part of me likes to imagine you’ll see this and realize I really am still worth talking to. I know there’s basically no shot you check out a place like this, though. I’m also doing a piss poor job of writing a letter that conveys any reason for you to think that, but still.
That reminds me. A while back, when everything was fully falling apart, you asked me— “Why did it take hurting me for you to become a good person?” That reverberates in my head all the time. I’m not sure I was a good person then, and I’m even less sure if I am one now. There’s definitely some truth to that’s though, even if it’s not so cut and dry. I’m not sure why I’m… better now, more mature? I get the feeling it was a bit of a coincidence in timing— hitting my mid 20’s and losing most of my immediate family probably just sent a shock to my system. I think that’s also part of why I didn’t fully grasp the gravity of how badly I was ruining our relationship.
Some choice phrases, specific moments where I could’ve guaranteed everything would work out and we’d all be happy— the pop into my brain like a knife. It always hurts.
My only comfort is imagining that even if I had done everything right— You’d still be happier with whatever your life is like now than you would have been with me. I can only hope as much. You deserve that.
—The Boy Who Was Once Your Doofling
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2024.05.21 15:48 Passingthruah [FxM] Looking for partners

All Players must be 24+, all characters 18+
Hello! I am looking for a roleplay partner or two to rp with. I play in 3rd person ONLY, paragraph style (3-5+ per post) though my starters can be longer than that! I play POC's for my mains, but NPC's come from all types of backgrounds. I reply at least 4x a week or more if I am not too busy. I enjoy open communication and OOC (though it is not a requirement). Love to world build. I only do F/M pairings with me playing the F role. And play via Discord.
For my partners I prefer semi-lit partners who can write 3-5+ paragraphs per post (3rd person pov), who also enjoys playing nps and contributing to the plot. I don't really care what gender you are in rl as long as you play the M role. I would like someone who can reply 3x a week at least and is open with communication. Don't rush me as I will never rush you.
The Prince & The Pirate Queen
Yc is the crown prince of a holy kingdom who was content with his life as he was next in line to take the throne. Everything was going as it should, he was engaged to a beautiful woman, he had the support of his father and his people. He thought all was well, but it seems his half brother has other plans. His brother hired assassins to dispose of him. Luckily for him the assassin didn't do a good job and missed his vitals before tossing him into the sea to die.
All hope is lost, until he ends up getting pulled up on a ship. On the ship of the cutthroat pirate; Madam Black. Known for her pitch dark hair and eyes. A Ruthless pirate of the sea and skies.
She's none too happy about having someone from the royal family on her ship and tells her crew to toss him back. But desperate the prince tells her if she lets him stay on the ship until he can fully recover he will show her the way to Eosphia. The island of treasures that she had been looking for all this time.
They draw up a contract and agree. But both of them may be hiding a much bigger secret.
Mid to high fantasy, romance, can be as dark or light as we like. More discussions in pms.
Arranged marriage:
The southern territory is known for having monsters on its borders, its harsh winters and its black diamonds. The jewels are rare and controlled by the Duke of the territory, much to the royal family's dismay (and everyone else in the capital). They can't stand the thought of the “barbarians” having something over them. So they devise a plan to arrange a marriage between the “hidden” princess and the southern Duke.
The Duke is unable to refuse. So the two are we'd and he brings the princess to his territory. All this time she did not utter a word, but once they arrive, she smiles at the duke and ask for a contract Claiming to know how to take care of 3 of his problems (One being able to retrieve the ashes of his sister from the noble who killed her) and in return she wants him to protect her for 5 years and then she will give him a divorce since she knows he doesn't want to be married to her.
Will it all be worth it? Or is there something more sinister at play?
Mid fantasy (magic stones and weapons, few people with actual magic). Can flesh it out more in dms.
If interested dm.
I can provide writing samples if needed.
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2024.05.21 15:45 Passingthruah [FxM] Looking for partners

All Players must be 24+, all characters 18+
Hello! I am looking for a roleplay partner or two to rp with. I play in 3rd person ONLY, paragraph style (3-5+ per post) though my starters can be longer than that! I play POC's for my mains, but NPC's come from all types of backgrounds. I reply at least 4x a week or more if I am not too busy. I enjoy open communication and OOC (though it is not a requirement). Love to world build. I only do F/M pairings with me playing the F role. And play via Discord.
For my partners I prefer semi-lit partners who can write 3-5+ paragraphs per post (3rd person pov), who also enjoys playing nps and contributing to the plot. I don't really care what gender you are in rl as long as you play the M role. I would like someone who can reply 3x a week at least and is open with communication. Don't rush me as I will never rush you.
The Prince & The Pirate Queen
Yc is the crown prince of a holy kingdom who was content with his life as he was next in line to take the throne. Everything was going as it should, he was engaged to a beautiful woman, he had the support of his father and his people. He thought all was well, but it seems his half brother has other plans. His brother hired assassins to dispose of him. Luckily for him the assassin didn't do a good job and missed his vitals before tossing him into the sea to die.
All hope is lost, until he ends up getting pulled up on a ship. On the ship of the cutthroat pirate; Madam Black. Known for her pitch dark hair and eyes. A Ruthless pirate of the sea and skies.
She's none too happy about having someone from the royal family on her ship and tells her crew to toss him back. But desperate the prince tells her if she lets him stay on the ship until he can fully recover he will show her the way to Eosphia. The island of treasures that she had been looking for all this time.
They draw up a contract and agree. But both of them may be hiding a much bigger secret.
Mid to high fantasy, romance, can be as dark or light as we like. More discussions in pms.
Arranged marriage:
The southern territory is known for having monsters on its borders, its harsh winters and its black diamonds. The jewels are rare and controlled by the Duke of the territory, much to the royal family's dismay (and everyone else in the capital). They can't stand the thought of the “barbarians” having something over them. So they devise a plan to arrange a marriage between the “hidden” princess and the southern Duke.
The Duke is unable to refuse. So the two are we'd and he brings the princess to his territory. All this time she did not utter a word, but once they arrive, she smiles at the duke and ask for a contract Claiming to know how to take care of 3 of his problems (One being able to retrieve the ashes of his sister from the noble who killed her) and in return she wants him to protect her for 5 years and then she will give him a divorce since she knows he doesn't want to be married to her.
Will it all be worth it? Or is there something more sinister at play?
Mid fantasy (magic stones and weapons, few people with actual magic). Can flesh it out more in dms.
If interested dm.
I can provide writing samples if needed.
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2024.05.21 15:45 feelingbr0ken I think I ruined my partners life even though he said I havent.

So. I 18F got my with my 18M partner nearly 2 years ago.
Now for a little background my partners mother is incredibly toxic. Ignored her sons mental health, blamed others for his problems and multiple times tried to ruin her sons father's image to me when we started dating.
I'm a very open and out there person, and was taught by my family to express my feelings and not hide. So when I saw my partner hiding his feelings and hiding his issues I told him to stop. To start seeking help and confide in me. Which in turn then turned into him snapping and shouting his true fears and anger at his family when they bugged him.
They then blamed me for his mental health being in the ground and tried to make him leave me, but he chose to stay. Further down the line I had to save him from suicide a couple times or harm. This made them hate me more as I asked them many times to help him and said things like he was faking it to it wasn't my business.
Eventually things died down a little. They still told him to leave me but it never worked.
Then last year my mother passed away very abruptly, my partner is a first aider but also someone I need, so I called him to come support me. His mother then told him and his step dad I was FAKING until she was outside and saw ambulances.
This made a huge wall between our families.
Things were still tense but died down, later in the year around September time, he moved in with me to escape his family and so we could see each other more and see his family whenever plans where made. Now my fiance is a very introverted person, and rarely makes plans and if he does he usually forgets or cancels. Which often ment he didn't see his family. (They also made no effort to see him) So since Nov ’23 up until yesterday they fought with him.
Telling people I was controlling him and never let him out. When I was actively trying to do the opposite even taking him to my own family outings to include him.
How the issue that's made me make this post.
On our 18th birthday in April we had a small fight as I'm very off with alcohol and don't really like it. He however likes to drink on occasion. We had plans but he went behind my back and planned a small get together when we got home from our plans with his family. Without me. I was upset but understood. I asked him not to drink much as I have a fear of vomiting and couldn't help him if he was drunk. He made a promise to me to be home by 10 and not be drunk. After ignoring me on both and coming home at midnight we fought but sorted the issue. However his mother hated I was messaging him for info. Called me a liar and controlling, saying he wasn't drinking and why does it matter where he is. I struggle with anxiety to an extent my partner made me get life360 so if I was worried I could check. And I had proof he was at a bar and he even showed me he was. Which I showed her and told her as his partner I'm not wrong to want to know he is ok. As I said we as a couple had already sorted the issue, she hadn't.
Over the past few days she's been telling him your coming home ECT ECT.
After the birthday issue I chose to go no contact with her, and if she's was adamant about speaking to me it would have to be in the presence of my father as she's made threats to hit and choke me. Well yesterday she called to say he's coming home now if buts or maybes and that she wanted to speak to me. As I said I didn't want to speak with her. So she threatened to come to our house. We told her no but she still came.
She shouted at my partner for nearly an hour to come down, to drag me to her to chat, even going as far to say I abuse him, speak for him and control him, threading to call the police and say I was abusing him.
As 18 year olds home alone I was scared, I called my father for advice and was told "either you call the police or I will and I won't hold my tongue" (references the threats she's made to me) so I did, the police came and took a statement and left.
Now this morning his mother basically said you have chosen to cut me off. (My family have said it was just a blackmail message) Saying she won't be there and how there relationship is over.
He was upset but told me it wasn't my fault but he did wish I just spoke to her.
His best friend who also doesn't like me for the "controlling" reasons. Has now told his gf who was also my friend that I've ruined him ECT ECT and she's now dropped me.
I've tried for almost 5months to avoid fights and I still ruined his mother, best friend and my friend. By not speaking.
I don't really know what to do I just wanted this off my chest.
It's highly likely any of the people from the story may find this.
Apologies for formatting and errors , on mobile and dyslexic. + Stressed fast typing.
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