Hey everyone,
A bit about me: I grew up in a toxic household with an alcoholic abusive single mother. She had anywhere from 15-20 stray cats in our home that she spoiled and loved more than me. She sure made that clear! My father left me and my mother when I was two years old and he never came back. I was put into the California foster care system at age 13 due to my mother being reported multiple times by my junior high school counselor. From there I went to several mental hospitals, lockdown facilities and group homes up to my 18th birthday. I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder and major depressive disorder back in my adolescent years. I haven’t been evaluated as an adult but I’m sure I would be diagnosed with MDD if I were.
I have spent almost my entire adult life doing nothing with myself. I spent a lot of time early on sleeping in my car and showering at my friends houses. My grandma in Arizona helped me out a great deal and let me stay with her and find work, and I was proud of myself although I was working a menial janitorial job at a casino. I’m pretty tech savvy and skilled with automotive repair but I never pursued further education. When my grandma passed away in 2007 I got severely depressed but I managed to get a place to live with roommates and held down a full time job, again at a casino doing janitorial work. Developed a gambling addiction and an alcohol addiction. Got a DUI in 2008 and that started my legal troubles. Lost my place and lost my job.
I slept in my car and worked at casinos doing menial work again. Met a woman at one of the jobs and got married April 2010. She had a few kids with a bunch of baby daddy drama, and I couldn’t deal with it so I just walked away and the divorce was finalized by the end of the year. I stopped drinking after that. From there I kept working until 2011, when I decided to quit my job, take my old Subaru XT and hit the road. Went all over the southwest US sleeping in the car and exploring, got a few tickets for no insurance, got my license suspended for said tickets and also for not paying my payments on the DUI. I got to Albuquerque NM and my car finally croaked on me. Transmission failure. Slept in it for a week or so in a mini-mall parking lot until the cops were called on me and unsurprisingly took my car. I was officially a street person at age 26.
I spent several years hitchhiking, panhandling, dumpster diving, hopping freight trains and finding spots to sleep or camp wherever I could. I was so depressed that I didn’t take very good care of myself and had no desire whatsoever to try to better myself and dig out of the hole I got myself into. I used to call myself an urban survivalist. I remained in this state of mind until late 2022 when dental problems nearly killed me. I finally found a place to stay in Nevada with a lady I called a foster mother but I had a very hard time getting used to being housed. I got all my teeth yanked and a set of dentures thanks to Nevada Medicaid. I got a job at a car wash for six months but gave up the job due to stress at home and workplace nepotism. I even got a few credit cards and got my score up to 719! Anyhow, foster mother was an alcoholic, she started to remind me of my biological mother and I couldn’t stand it anymore. I had a few thousand dollars saved up and moved back to Arizona a couple of months ago.
I am currently at a weekly motel and have been attempting to find any work I can. Managed to get interviews for dishwasher jobs, housekeeping jobs, janitorial jobs and night crew at a grocery store. Haven’t heard back from any of them though. I have half of my savings left and it seems inevitable that I’ll run out of money pretty soon.
I have a good feeling that the ridiculously long gap of employment looks terrible on my resume and that may be a reason I’m not getting anything. I mean, what do I tell the interviewer, that I was a damn bum?
I like to think I’m pretty smart. I was disassembling and reassembling IBM PC’s before I hit puberty. I was the computer technician for my high school back in the Windows XP era. Once I started driving I began teaching myself automotive repair with Chilton and Haynes manuals along with plenty of trial and error. It blew people’s minds when I, a dirty bum, helped get their car back on the road if I noticed they needed assistance. I helped a man I met at a park and did an engine swap on his Nissan Xterra over a couple weekends in exchange for new camping gear.
I can’t get work as a mechanic or do any driving related jobs unless I get my license back and it would take a LOT of money to get it back. On top of that I have to have an ignition interlock in any vehicle I drive. I wouldn’t mind getting into computer repair but I don’t have the certification to do so, and I’ve been out of the loop for a long time. I have a MacBook Air M1 and wish I could learn a way to make money with it like some sort of remote job but that seems impossible to me at this point. I’m not selling off my electronics.
For the record, I still don’t drink and I’ve never done a hard drug in my life. I haven’t smoked weed in months so I am able to pass a drug test if I were hired somewhere. Also, I have no felonies whatsoever on my record. Some people like to be stereotypical so I figured I’d throw that out there.
I guess what I’m asking is what should I do at this point? What path would you take if you were in my shoes? I won’t lie, suicide has been on my mind a lot lately. I don’t have many friends and I don’t have any family to talk to. I don’t like being a burden on anyone. Should I just accept that I’m gonna probably be homeless again, possibly for the rest of my life? Is there anywhere in the US that I could possibly get back on my feet with some sort of labor work and a place to sleep? I’d move anywhere if I knew I had a shot. Am I a lost cause at age 38? I’d love to hear some ideas!

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Context: The positions is Live-In, Travel, 2 toddlers, M-F 7am-7pm 65k-70k salary… in Calabasas…(I know) this would’ve been my first higher paying nanny position and I wanted more travel experience to help me eventually score a better paying travel position. (Most travel positions in LA pay 90k-120k) so you can see the first red flag
I showed interest in a Live-In position in Calabasas. A week later the agency reached out saying mom wants to interview and they’re EAGER to hire someone ASAP.
Mom hops into the interview and asks me to hell her about myself. Immediately after I answer she says, “Ok I’m going to just lay it all out there, I don’t like to beat around the bush I like to tell it like it is. I need someone who can be on it, hard working and isn’t soft. Someone who knows how to take constructive criticism and won’t cry or take it personal if I tell you hey why isn’t this done?” I honestly was taken aback. I was thinking wow what a way to jump into an interview. Mid interview her LO starts crying, she puts the phone down and I hear her ask the current nanny, “what happened?!” In a tone I didn’t love. The nanny tells her she was climbing something and fell and mom says in the same tone, “and you just let her?!” Mom comes back to the phone and starts to complain about current nanny to me and it was awkward! I was confused that she was ok with this interview being my first impression of her.
I decided to do a two day trial with NF. My first day I shadowed the current nanny. There were little things she did that I understood why the mom was frustrated with her. (Having to be reminded multiple times to do something, leaving knifes on the edge of the counter, not watching kids while they’re holding a full cup & kids spilling it on themselves) things that i feel like as an experienced nanny you just know you can’t do. CN was also in my ear telling me how awful the mom was and how she’s extremely meticulous. She told me she’s been trying to quit since her first week and mom tells everyone they’re letting her go because she doesn’t connect with the kids. She told me the nanny that trained her lied about being sick with radiation just to leave the family.
The oldest was sick, and the youngest started to cough so we were suspecting she’d be getting sick too. After the youngest bath, she was shivering. CN told me that if mom sees she’s shivering like this mom is going to be pissed. I thought to myself, well the A/C just got turned off an hour ago. We’re in the hills. & she’s coming down with something. Why be pissed? Sure enough mom sees she’s shivering and in the same tone I heard during the interview she’s yelling, “what happened?! Why is she shivering?! Did you guys bathe her with the door open?! WHY is she shivering?” I couldn’t help to feel like she was actually thinking that we would be at fault for a natural body reaction to being cold. I told her that she’s probably cold, it is a chilly night and she just got out of the bath. She responds saying my daughter has NEVER shivered like this ever and calls her doctor. After calming down she comes upstairs and nonchalantly says that the doctor said she’s probably coming down with a fever and she should be fine. As if she didn’t just freak out.
That night NM & I talked. We recapped the day and I told her I felt like she was insinuating it was our fault LO was shivering and I was concerned about that. I don’t think she expected me to be “straight forward” like her and she backtracked and said no no I mean I was just trying to figure out what happened I mean two nanny’s are with my shivering child. After having talks with the mom and her opening up to me about her childhood, why she’s so hardworking and the trauma she’s experienced I felt torn. NM and I clicked really well and she told me, “I know I can be a bit much, I am nitpicky and I have things to work on.” I would leave our conversations feeling like she was misunderstood, but not naive to how on edge she could also be.
A week later mom asked if I can do another three day trial. This time the CN was already gone and her husband was back home from his work trip. The kids were also back in school and she said I would get a better feel of what a standard day would look like. After the first day, I was like okay I can do this. The energy in the house between mom and I was lighter. I was on top of everything. The second day mom asked me, “so what are the minimum hours a week you’re willing to work?” I said well 40. I am looking for something full time. She started to tell me there would be days where I wouldn’t be paid for any downtime. So once the kids went to school from 9-1, if I had nothing else to do, I can do my own thing but wouldn’t be paid. I was confused because the job is advertised as salary, and even the agency was under that impression. But it’s starting to sound like you guys pay hourly. I asked well what’s the hourly pay? & she said $23/hr. So say I’d work 40 hours 9months out of the year and 60 the other 3 months the kids are out of school, that puts you at about 53k. Not what’s advertised. She made some comments about how her and dad believe you have to earn a higher rate and they don’t pay high from the jump and how nanny’s will tell them they want 30/hr and they look at them like their crazy. So many red flags in that conversation. I knew I wasn’t accepting the position after day 2.
Dad was also just not someone I’d want to work with. Was gone all day the third day of my trial. Got home while mom was doing baths and once the kids asked for dad to bathe them he said in a snooty tone, yeah or the nanny can. While watching me clean the kitchen.
There’s definitely more little details to the story that make this whole thing crazy. I might add to the comments just how meticulous mom really was. & yes I’m crazier for watching it unfold for 5 days. I wanted to see the best in this family and honestly am desperate to land something. Wish me luck in my journey finding the right fit!

Hey Everyone!
I have an old drivers license issue that I can't quite figure out.
Ok, so, in 2010, I was living in Kansas temporarily and got stopped and charged with a DUI. At the time, I had a New Mexico drivers license which I found out was suspended due to a $60 ticket I forgot to pay. The police took the physical copy of my drivers license and kept it. As far as the DUI, it was my very first arrest, no priors, and I qualified for the diversion program.
Shortly after the arrest, I returned to Texas where I was living before Kansas. I paid the NM DMV for that $60 ticket. I went to the TX DMV to see if I can get a driver's license. I got to the last step and was told that the Kansas DMV put a hold on my name. The employees at the TX DMV gave me the address of the KS DMV and I was told to write to them. I did. About 2 weeks later I received a letter in the mail with a Kansas drivers license number stating that I have partial driving privileges, can drive to and from work, and I'm required to have an interlock on my car for one year.
By the time I received the letter, I had already started the process of going to grad school overseas and I wouldn't even be in the country for another full year, so I just didn't put an interlock on my car (and thankfully never got stopped).
I left the country in 2011. During a visit back to Louisiana (where I'm from) and Texas in 2015, I decided to go to the Louisiana DMV to see if I can get my license again, since I've already had a Louisiana DL before. An hour later, I came out with my driver's license. During a visit to Louisiana in 2022, the same happened, renewed it with no problem.
I can't help but wonder what actually happened.
Did the Kansas DMV have a limit on how long they would place a hold on my name? Maybe it just expired after one year, whether or not I showed proof of the interlock device?
Maybe there's still a hold and the Louisiana DMV didn't run a national check since I was already in their system?
Short of asking the Kansas DMV, I'm kinda stuck 🤷
Tell me what you think.

Hello beauties! I am hot on the heels of graduation from SoCal BSN program. We are looking into moving to the Albuquerque area after school. My first question is - has anyone done the new grad program at UNM? I’m going into peds (picu or nicu). What was your experience? How are the other peds facilities? I have been a CNA for 4 years working in MS and SNF’s.
Next question - how is the culture in nursing in NM. From what I read online (ha ha ha) NM seems to pay decently and aligns with cost of living. How is it, really? Any info would be fantastic. We would be moving for another business opportunity unrelated to nursing

(Sorry, it’s kinda long)
Hey everyone,
A bit about me: I grew up in a toxic household with an alcoholic abusive single mother. She had anywhere from 15-20 stray cats in our home that she spoiled and loved more than me. She sure made that clear! My father left me and my mother when I was two years old and he never came back. I was put into the California foster care system at age 13 due to my mother being reported multiple times by my junior high school counselor. From there I went to several mental hospitals, lockdown facilities and group homes up to my 18th birthday. I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder and major depressive disorder back in my adolescent years. I haven’t been evaluated as an adult but I’m sure I would be diagnosed with MDD if I were.
I have spent almost my entire adult life doing nothing with myself. I spent a lot of time early on sleeping in my car and showering at my friends houses. My grandma in Arizona helped me out a great deal and let me stay with her and find work, and I was proud of myself although I was working a menial janitorial job at a casino. I’m pretty tech savvy and skilled with automotive repair but I never pursued further education. When my grandma passed away in 2007 I got severely depressed but I managed to get a place to live with roommates and held down a full time job, again at a casino doing janitorial work. Developed a gambling addiction and an alcohol addiction. Got a DUI in 2008 and that started my legal troubles. Lost my place and lost my job.
I slept in my car and worked at casinos doing menial work again. Met a woman at one of the jobs and got married April 2010. She had a few kids with a bunch of baby daddy drama, and I couldn’t deal with it so I just walked away and the divorce was finalized by the end of the year. I stopped drinking after that. From there I kept working until 2011, when I decided to quit my job, take my old Subaru XT and hit the road. Went all over the southwest US sleeping in the car and exploring, got a few tickets for no insurance, got my license suspended for said tickets and also for not paying my payments on the DUI. I got to Albuquerque NM and my car finally croaked on me. Transmission failure. Slept in it for a week or so in a mini-mall parking lot until the cops were called on me and unsurprisingly took my car. I was officially a street person at age 26.
I spent several years hitchhiking, panhandling, dumpster diving, hopping freight trains and finding spots to sleep or camp wherever I could. I was so depressed that I didn’t take very good care of myself and had no desire whatsoever to try to better myself and dig out of the hole I got myself into. I used to call myself an urban survivalist. I remained in this state of mind until late 2022 when dental problems nearly killed me. I finally found a place to stay in Nevada with a lady I called a foster mother but I had a very hard time getting used to being housed. I got all my teeth yanked and a set of dentures thanks to Nevada Medicaid. I got a job at a car wash for six months but gave up the job due to stress at home and workplace nepotism. I even got a few credit cards and got my score up to 719! Anyhow, foster mother was an alcoholic, she started to remind me of my biological mother and I couldn’t stand it anymore. I had a few thousand dollars saved up and moved back to Arizona a couple of months ago.
I am currently at a weekly motel and have been attempting to find any work I can. Managed to get interviews for dishwasher jobs, housekeeping jobs, janitorial jobs and night crew at a grocery store. Haven’t heard back from any of them though. I have half of my savings left and it seems inevitable that I’ll run out of money pretty soon.
I have a good feeling that the ridiculously long gap of employment looks terrible on my resume and that may be a reason I’m not getting anything. I mean, what do I tell the interviewer, that I was a damn bum?
I like to think I’m pretty smart. I was disassembling and reassembling IBM PC’s before I hit puberty. I was the computer technician for my high school back in the Windows XP era. Once I started driving I began teaching myself automotive repair with Chilton and Haynes manuals along with plenty of trial and error. It blew people’s minds when I, a dirty bum, helped get their car back on the road if I noticed they needed assistance. I helped a man I met at a park and did an engine swap on his Nissan Xterra over a couple weekends in exchange for new camping gear.
I can’t get work as a mechanic or do any driving related jobs unless I get my license back and it would take a LOT of money to get it back. On top of that I have to have an ignition interlock in any vehicle I drive. I wouldn’t mind getting into computer repair but I don’t have the certification to do so, and I’ve been out of the loop for a long time. I have a MacBook Air M1 and wish I could learn a way to make money with it like some sort of remote job but that seems impossible to me at this point.
For the record, I still don’t drink and I’ve never done a hard drug in my life. I haven’t smoked weed in months so I am able to pass a drug test if I were hired somewhere. Also, I have no felonies whatsoever on my record. Some people like to be stereotypical so I figured I’d throw that out there.
I guess what I’m asking is what should I do at this point? What path would you take if you were in my shoes? I won’t lie, suicide has been on my mind a lot lately. I don’t have many friends and I don’t have any family to talk to. I don’t like being a burden on anyone. Should I just accept that I’m gonna probably be homeless again, possibly for the rest of my life? Is there anywhere in the US that I could possibly get back on my feet with some sort of labor work and a place to sleep? I’d move anywhere if I knew I had a shot. Am I a lost cause at age 38? I’d love to hear some ideas!

(Sorry, it’s kinda long)
Hey everyone,
A bit about me: I grew up in a toxic household with an alcoholic abusive single mother. She had anywhere from 15-20 stray cats in our home that she spoiled and loved more than me. She sure made that clear! My father left me and my mother when I was two years old and he never came back. I was put into the California foster care system at age 13 due to my mother being reported multiple times by my junior high school counselor. From there I went to several mental hospitals, lockdown facilities and group homes up to my 18th birthday. I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder and major depressive disorder back in my adolescent years. I haven’t been evaluated as an adult but I’m sure I would be diagnosed with MDD if I were.
I have spent almost my entire adult life doing nothing with myself. I spent a lot of time early on sleeping in my car and showering at my friends houses. My grandma in Arizona helped me out a great deal and let me stay with her and find work, and I was proud of myself although I was working a menial janitorial job at a casino. I’m pretty tech savvy and skilled with automotive repair but I never pursued further education. When my grandma passed away in 2007 I got severely depressed but I managed to get a place to live with roommates and held down a full time job, again at a casino doing janitorial work. Developed a gambling addiction and an alcohol addiction. Got a DUI in 2008 and that started my legal troubles. Lost my place and lost my job.
I slept in my car and worked at casinos doing menial work again. Met a woman at one of the jobs and got married April 2010. She had a few kids with a bunch of baby daddy drama, and I couldn’t deal with it so I just walked away and the divorce was finalized by the end of the year. I stopped drinking after that. From there I kept working until 2011, when I decided to quit my job, take my old Subaru XT and hit the road. Went all over the southwest US sleeping in the car and exploring, got a few tickets for no insurance, got my license suspended for said tickets and also for not paying my payments on the DUI. I got to Albuquerque NM and my car finally croaked on me. Transmission failure. Slept in it for a week or so in a mini-mall parking lot until the cops were called on me and unsurprisingly took my car. I was officially a street person at age 26.
I spent several years hitchhiking, panhandling, dumpster diving, hopping freight trains and finding spots to sleep or camp wherever I could. I was so depressed that I didn’t take very good care of myself and had no desire whatsoever to try to better myself and dig out of the hole I got myself into. I used to call myself an urban survivalist. I remained in this state of mind until late 2022 when dental problems nearly killed me. I finally found a place to stay in Nevada with a lady I called a foster mother but I had a very hard time getting used to being housed. I got all my teeth yanked and a set of dentures thanks to Nevada Medicaid. I got a job at a car wash for six months but gave up the job due to stress at home and workplace nepotism. I even got a few credit cards and got my score up to 719! Anyhow, foster mother was an alcoholic, she started to remind me of my biological mother and I couldn’t stand it anymore. I had a few thousand dollars saved up and moved back to Arizona a couple of months ago.
I am currently at a weekly motel and have been attempting to find any work I can. Managed to get interviews for dishwasher jobs, housekeeping jobs, janitorial jobs and night crew at a grocery store. Haven’t heard back from any of them though. I have half of my savings left and it seems inevitable that I’ll run out of money pretty soon.
I have a good feeling that the ridiculously long gap of employment looks terrible on my resume and that may be a reason I’m not getting anything. I mean, what do I tell the interviewer, that I was a damn bum?
I like to think I’m pretty smart. I was disassembling and reassembling IBM PC’s before I hit puberty. I was the computer technician for my high school back in the Windows XP era. Once I started driving I began teaching myself automotive repair with Chilton and Haynes manuals along with plenty of trial and error. It blew people’s minds when I, a dirty bum, helped get their car back on the road if I noticed they needed assistance. I helped a man I met at a park and did an engine swap on his Nissan Xterra over a couple weekends in exchange for new camping gear.
I can’t get work as a mechanic or do any driving related jobs unless I get my license back and it would take a LOT of money to get it back. On top of that I have to have an ignition interlock in any vehicle I drive. I wouldn’t mind getting into computer repair but I don’t have the certification to do so, and I’ve been out of the loop for a long time. I have a MacBook Air M1 and wish I could learn a way to make money with it like some sort of remote job but that seems impossible to me at this point.
For the record, I still don’t drink and I’ve never done a hard drug in my life. I haven’t smoked weed in months so I am able to pass a drug test if I were hired somewhere. Also, I have no felonies whatsoever on my record. Some people like to be stereotypical so I figured I’d throw that out there.
I guess what I’m asking is what should I do at this point? What path would you take if you were in my shoes? I won’t lie, suicide has been on my mind a lot lately. I don’t have many friends and I don’t have any family to talk to. I don’t like being a burden on anyone. Should I just accept that I’m gonna probably be homeless again, possibly for the rest of my life? Is there anywhere in the US that I could possibly get back on my feet with some sort of labor work and a place to sleep? I’d move anywhere if I knew I had a shot. Am I a lost cause at age 38? I’d love to hear some ideas!

(m19) a few months ago i had decided l wanted to live life as a nomad. I hate staying in the same spot or being at the same job for longer than a couple months. It drives me crazy. All my happiness comes from being outdoors and exploring/learning.

at the time i had just graduated high school and as soon as i possibly could i hit the road, deciding to live in my car and work doordash for money. I had some emergency money saved up and a decent resume to get me a job if needed. I started in the CA bay area and made my way to LA, then Nevada, utah, AZ, NM, Colorado, Kansas, oklahoma as finally Texas where my car broke down. I was living in a walmart parking lot and got a job at starbucks to save up some money. I had just started community college online and I was having the time of my LIFE!! sleeping under the stars every night, something new always happening. It felt like an itch to be free had been scratched and i knew i wanted to live like this for the rest of my life, or as long as i realistically could. I had plans to visit as many states then countries as possible, all while going to school for biology. A few days after my car was fixed and i was on my way to kentucky my ex girlfriend called me saying she’s pregnant. After many fights i decide to make my way back to california so I can be in my kids life.
My baby mama wants to be with me so bad but i just can’t see myself spending my life with her. She’s amazing i just can’t rly see myself spending my life with anyone who isn’t down to live like i want to.
Anyways im back home, working full time, living with my parents and still going to school. I really don’t have anything to be complaining about but it feels like agony to me. I want to be outside, living like I was before all of this happened. I’m doing this because people tell me it’s the right thing to do. I haven’t just left because i don’t think i could knowing i’m having a child. I’m dating her to be in my kids life but i don’t really feel much. It’s bad because i tell her i love her and i treat her right in order to be a good example for my soon-to-be daughter, but it’s not genuine. She doesn’t know any of this and i tell her im gonna be there to be a good husband and father because i feel it’s what im “supposed” to say.

Back In school i would run away all the time just to go hop on a train to see where it would take me because i NEEDED to explore. My parents told me to wait until after high school to do stuff like that so i didn’t ruin my education- and the only way i could stay going to school doing the same thing everyday was when i was constantly high. So i was heavily smoking weed to not drive myself crazy feeling”trapped” until i graduated(with a 3.9). I’m back to staying high all the time for the same reason and i’ve resorted to convincing myself that ill be able to do all the things i want in my next life. I know i have a lot to look forward to with my daughter but i still wish things were different.

This is basically OCism but extreme, for those that don't know OCism it's role playing, you join one of four schools and try to unify the area.
Why extreme? Because I'm allowing you to do almost everything you want as long as it's in character. This also means your characters can be permanently crippled, lose limbs or even die. You can even kill the OC of other people but keep in mind this isn't a consequence free world.
Seoul is without a ruler, due to recent event those who ruled it disappeared. Now there's an power void waiting to be fillind. So will you be the hero who will bring peace to Seoul or will you be the monster who will rule over Seoul?
Join here: https://docs.google.com/forms/d/e/1FAIpQLScBYeoNmHyIX4QV7tfhDlmQFMBdlGXR9Bc4w37rifqdAUfGmA/viewform?usp=pp_url&entry.1615215047=North

This is basically OCism but extreme, for those that don't know OCism it's role playing, you join one of four schools and try to unify the area.
Why extreme? Because I'm allowing you to do almost everything you want as long as it's in character. This also means your characters can be permanently crippled, lose limbs or even die. You can even kill the OC of other people but keep in mind this isn't a consequence free world.
Seoul is without a ruler, due to recent event those who ruled it disappeared. Now there's an power void waiting to be fillind. So will you be the hero who will bring peace to Seoul or will you be the monster who will rule over Seoul?
Join here: https://docs.google.com/forms/d/e/1FAIpQLScBYeoNmHyIX4QV7tfhDlmQFMBdlGXR9Bc4w37rifqdAUfGmA/viewform?usp=pp_url&entry.1615215047=North

This is basically OCism but extreme, for those that don't know OCism it's role playing, you join one of four schools and try to unify the area.
Why extreme? Because I'm allowing you to do almost everything you want as long as it's in character. This also means your characters can be permanently crippled, lose limbs or even die. You can even kill the OC of other people but keep in mind this isn't a consequence free world.
Seoul is without a ruler, due to recent event those who ruled it disappeared. Now there's an power void waiting to be fillind. So will you be the hero who will bring peace to Seoul or will you be the monster who will rule over Seoul?
Join here: https://docs.google.com/forms/d/e/1FAIpQLScBYeoNmHyIX4QV7tfhDlmQFMBdlGXR9Bc4w37rifqdAUfGmA/viewform?usp=pp_url&entry.1615215047=North

We are 4 seasons in, so I decided to shake up the cast a little bit. This time, we'll have 18 contestants separated across 3 tribes in the forests of Palau, a location known for its vibrant coral reefs, waterfalls and diverse ecosystem. How will they fare? See the season and find out!
Season link: https://brantsteele.com/survivo35/r.php?c=0danC04m

The cast:

--- Vinata Tribe ---
Brittany Robinson - Pharmacist - Birmingham, AL
Christopher Thomas - Farmer - Boise, ID
Jennifer Thompson - High School Teacher - Portland, OR
John Anderson - Coffee Shop Owner - Savannah, GE
Lisa Miller - Student - Santa Fe, NM
William Taylor - Software Developer - Austin, TX
--- Lanu Tribe ---
Amanda King - Bartender - Minneapolis, MN
David Brown - Law Clerk - Sacramento, CA
James Davies - Electrician - Salt Lake City, UT
Jessica White - Pediatrician - Anchorage, AL
Michael Johnson - Account Executive - Omaha, NE
Samantha Lewis - Interior Designer - Charleston, SC
--- Muta Tribe ---
Ashley Clark - Waiter - Fargo, ND
Daniel Anderson - Flight Attendant - Portland, ME
Elizabeth Scott - Seminary Student - Augusta, ME
Joseph Martinez - Personal Trainer - Phoenix, AZ
Robert Wilson - Police Sergeant - Miami, FL
Sarah Harris - Psychologist - Little Rock, AR
In case you wanna catch up, here are the previous seasons:
Season 1: Jordan
Season 2: Thailand
Season 3: Philippines

hello i know that this question has been asked multiple times on reddit but i'm having a dilemma choosing between both programmes, hence it would be greatly appreciated if any students from these programmes could give me some advice with regards to which one i should choose!
more context about myself: i am interested in pursuing comms, more specifically media and film studies. however, i'm also open to trying diff aspects of comms n i want to gain a deeper understanding of what the subject really entails before specialising. from uni, i'm really hoping to build a strong foundation in comms, understanding not just what to do, how to do it, but also WHY we do it
here's how i've weighed both programmes based on my understanding, please correct me if i'm wrong abt anything as it would rly help w my decision making process:
WKWSCI
Pros:

• ranking -- top comms sch in asia, 4th in the world. surely that says something about the quality of their programme n teaching (?)
  
• WKW is a school vs NUS CNM being just a course major in CHS, so there will be much more specialisation and dedication to comms, i assume there will also be more resources n funding = higher quality education
  
• most students in WKW enter w the intention of pursuing comms so i'll get to meet like minded people who actl care!!! vs CNM where ppl can take it as their UEs so they dont rly put in effort into grp projects (from my impression online...)
  
• some of the modules offered by WKW really appeal to me e.g. Narrative Film & TV Concepts and Applications, Digital Media Entrepreneurship. i think i'll have a lot of fun learning these skills n knowledge, but i'm worried that this fun and passion isn't going to sustain for long, esp since i'm only basing this on my current understanding without actually taking these courses.
  
• lots of hands-on opportunities e.g. organising a film festival sounds so fun wth + nearly guaranteed exchange prog
  
• sch culture seems v vibrant + can rly bond w ur batch as it's a lot smaller
  

My concerns:

• generally, my largest concern is that WKW is too focused on practical skills. their main selling point is the "hands-on" approach n emphasis on application, which no doubt is important for comms. however, when i spoke to some of the students n asked them what they learn, many of them replied w hard skills like video editing, how to use xx software, photography etc n its like. do i need to go to uni to learn these skills. and esp w how fast technology is evolving, who knows if the skills i learn are even going to be relevant in 4 years time. hence, my question for WKW students is, do you feel that the WKW programme prepares you for the future? do u think what ur learning now is going to be helpful n relevant in the next 10-30 years? with generative ai n all that can replace a lot of hard skills
  
• location
  
• harder to switch out if i realise idl comms
  

NUS CNM
Pros:

• flexibility of CHS can switch if I realise comms isn't for me / find something that interests me more. while i think i'm most likely not going to change, at least i have the option to which gives me freedom (impt to me)
  
• my general vibe is that CNM takes a more theoretical, but also broader approach to comms. there's more of a balance between practical n concepts. also ik that theories are boring, but i do believe that theory informs practice so ig i will bite the bullet 😭 CNM & WKW students please correct me if i'm wrong!
  
• focus on new media which i feel is an advantage; WKW feels more focused on traditional media
  
• got exchange prog to University of Amsterdam!!!!! which has the top comms prog in the world VS NTU dont have exchange there i thinkkkk
  
• location sorry ntu damn far
  

My concerns:

• how is the learning environment like? CNM students is it easy to find ppl who are passionate abt the same things as you academically?
  
• am i missing out if i choose CNM over WKW,,, bc it seems that WKW is the top choice for comms but i'm actl leaning towards NUS
  
• Will there be a lack of structure, since CNM doesn’t have ‘tracks’ like WKW? worried that i'll end up becoming a jack of all trades but a master of none bc of the lack of specialisation
  
• i wna live on campus but it seems super competitive to get a place VS NTU got 2 year guaranteed stay
  

Generally...
as mentioned, i'm currently leaning towards NUS. but i feel like i'm making decisions based on vague feelings n impressions i have towards both schools, so if anyone has any advice n experience, please let me know.
also i feel that WKW communicates their programme a LOT better than NUS CNM. after reading their promotional material n attending their events, i have quite a clear idea of what to expect from WKW. but for CNM i still have q a few queries + their social media presence not v strong HAHA idk if this says anyth abt the quality of their programme, given that it's a comms department after all...
if you've read this far, thank you very much <3333 n i hope this will also be helpful for any future prospective students who are facing the same problems as me :) jiayous everyone