Bme pain olympics pic

Yesterday I found out that my long distance crush and bff met her bf, she used to tell me that she made out with him and yesterday she said something that broke me to an extent I don't think I can recover from. She told me that they met in the morning and that was the best makeout of her life!!! Idk what to say I haven't replied to her yet I feel like a loser.
What hurts me the most since the day I met her (online, haven't met her IRL yet) she has been the nicest person to me she says I LOVE YOU to me everyday I get it's different when u say that to a friend but she has sent me 500+ pics of her hy herself I couldn't help myself but fall for her. She didn't liked when I talk abt different girls. She hates jy every female friend (even today).
She used to call me everyday for hrs but now she doesn't. She wanted to meet me but now she doesn't she refused that was really unexpected for me so I had to go to her city roam around all day and came back at night coz I had already booked the tickets.
She knows that I love her and when I confessed to her she said she doesn't want to be in a relationship it's just not her thing and all I understood. But one day she tells me that she made out with her neighbour who's her childhood friend. Months later she met her ex who has ghosted her and they kissed she didn't told me abt it she told me after few days that they are back together. I knew something was off between us coz the person who says that she loves me everyday didn't even wished me on my b'day despite knowing how imp it was for me coz I literally had no friends at that time. When I didn't replied to her she realised and wrote a paragraph but the damage was already done ig. A month later I made a special video for her bday she told me everyone was there but the person she adores the most wasn't (yes, she said she was talking about me) she spent the day with her bf.
The problem is she has broken up and got back with him multiple times during these 4-5 months and always tells me abt her relationship details coz she claims I'm her bff if anything happens in her life she would come running to me. She wants me to stay with her as a friend as long as possible. Even I can't stop talking to her coz I literally love her. She texts ne she feels lonely she feels anxious she texts me at midnight and I've to be there.
I do understand that I can't force her to choose me and I'm even okay to be her friend and always be with her but she keeps talking abt her bf and relationship even tho I told her to plz not talk abt him but she still does that. This whatever thing I'm having with her is killing me I can't think of anything else I can't look at couples without thinking of her and her bf I can't watch romantic movies songs anything I feel so down I cry all night. I don't know how to get out of this I've tried meeting new girls but it's just not working out I can't get her out of my head. I feel so worthless I literally feel pain in my heart (sounds cringe but true).

Flying home as I write this.
First don’t sweat the weather in May. We had what looked like 5 days of rain but we didn’t get a drop of rain until the last day. Got cloudy and looked like it might rain here and there but for the most part it was very pleasant weather. Don’t sweat it but pack some options.
Cash/credit. Almost didn’t need a euro. Paid with Apple Pay everywhere - taxis, metro, sites, restaurants, etc. one exception was the artists near sacre couer only took cash. Never needed or asked for a PIN.
Sites. Did all the major sites. Each and everyone now has heavy duty security, metal detectors and even body scanners. This makes it a very slow process to get in. Plan for that.
Arc de triumph was particularly painful when we were there. Eiffel Tower is also very painful due to the queueing at the elevators. Took us 2 hours minimum to get to top and back down. Louvre did a mad dash for the Mona Lisa at 9am and that worked out well with pretty small crowds. Then got to relax and enjoy the rest of the museum.
Funny - by the Eiffel tour you can go see the Olympic countdown clock. Ironically it was showing 101 days to the games when it was only supposed to be 67. Got a picture. It even made the news. Dummies. Makes me question how prepared they are for the Olympics. Hopefully they don’t think they have an extra month of prep time :)
Olympics prep - didn’t impact us in the least. Nothing we wanted to do was blocked by it.
Safety - no issues. Felt perfectly safe late at night, on the metro, Ubers, etc. only saw one clipboard lady at the Eiffel Tower and just walked away.
Trip highlight - Le Calife dinner cruise was amazing. I’ve been to Paris several times before but never did this due to seeming like a tourist trap - which I think most are. This one gets it right. It’s high end food and service on a boat. It was awesome - not cheap though. We were very happy with our front of boat seats. Great way to end the trip. Was from 8pm to almost 11pm.
St. Chapelle was an amazing first for me. Pretty incredible and worth the body scan to get in.
Ubemetro - took the metro to/from sacre couer just to let my son have the experience - it’s very easy to buy tickets and use. Otherwise mostly walked or did Ubers which were quick and plentiful. Official taxi from Cdg to Paris was easy to find - the trip into the city however was very painful and took close to 1.5 hours with the morning traffic.
Food - too much to report. We didn’t have a bad meal anywhere and refreshing to have good service regardless of price.
Recommend an after dinner stroll to a gelato shop every night.
CDG - I was really sweating coming home today with some kind of strike going on which mostly impacted the trains but also some airport staff. Showed up 3+ hours early to CDG but breezed thru security and passport check in under 30mins. Give yourself time but the horror stories seem overblown.
Edit:
Language - almost everyone we came across spoke English to a good degree. We tried our best with French but usually switched to English when they heard our attempts :). I do think a merci here and there is appreciated. We did have one taxi driver with very limited English but we made it work.
Holidays - many French holidays in May. We were there for Pentecost and whit Monday - both seems to be a non event for us and nothing we came across was closed due to this. So hard to tell which holidays are impactful or not for tourists, but this wasn’t one of them.

Hello, I don't know if this is the right place to say this but.. I want to make things move. I wanted to go to a psychologist but I don't have money for it. So, I feel pretty empty inside. Sometimes, I can feel emotions, but it is very brief, I have no family except my father with whom I have no interactions, he is watching TV laying on the sofa all day, he is full of hatred toward the whole world, he hates his job, he never tried to bond with me, well, I basically raised myself. I never had any family connection, I have a biological mother but she is not in my life anymore as I cut her off my life at 14 years old but that's another story.
Now I am 18. I want to move out so I can be free and have my own space and life. I adopted a hamster 3 days ago because I didn't want to be alone anymore and so I could keep up through the days. It is my first ever pet, I love him, I took several pics and videos of him already, and I love having him in my arms, but still, even tho I am saying that, I am not loving him as plenty as I would like to, like I am stressed out to do something wrong with him, that he has a bad life with me or I don't know but I know my feelings are blocked inside, and that's a recurent problem in my life.
I had a 3 years relationship with an aweful boy some years ago, I wasn't even mature myself, this relationship destroyed me. I took a significant amount of weight which destroyed my life and health, now I get medical help to try to lose weight, but it is extremely hard because of stress and hyperphagia.
Now I am going out with a wonderful boy who is everything to me, he is incredibly kind and is working his ass off to get driving licence, to get us an appartment, I would be nothing without him. But again, I am loving him as much as I could, I know inside that I love him very very much, but I am not feeling those feelings, I don't know how to explain but it is very painful to me. I get irritated often, I want my peace, and I get more and more angry because of stress, I have a really high stress level, so much that I recently developped cardiac problems, if I have too strong emotions, my heart beats fast and then stop. It never stopped yet but doctors said that's a big possibility.
I recently kinda exploded with my boyfriend because things he said hurt me, even is his words weren't mean, I just exploded and that wasn't happening to me before, at least not that much, I don't want to make my boyfriend handle all of my problems and my anger, I just want to change, to break my wall that is blocking my feelings inside, I want to live freely but I don't know how to do... I am so mad at life, scared when I go outside, I am so scared... A lot happened recently but I wrote already a lot so... Yeah thanks if you went until here.

my hair is extremely hard to get wet.
sometimes i can have my head underwater for 10 minutes straight and it still feels dry when i go put on the conditioner or shampoo. i tend to detangle it while i'm conditioning it, and it only becomes not painful when i use 3 handfuls of conditioner in each section of my hair.
it also seems like, no matter how much i untangle it, i always have the same massive amount of hair pulled out that's enough to fill a whole wall. when i'm throwing that away, it's like i have a snowball of hair in my hand.
you can imagine this makes me very hard to live with. even only washing my hair in the span of 4 to 4 days, my mom still wants to kill me everything i do.
why is my hair so hard to get wet, and what can i do to make this process easier?
(the last pic LMAO)

Writing out the best parts:
I keep trying to write something happy and positive, but I devolve into my own feelings, which is the exact opposite of the point of the exercise. So I take a breath and begin again, perhaps at one of the most incredible, beautiful, and thus “difficult to describe” moments.
Our First Date
Did you know that I fell in love with you on our first date? I don’t believe in love at first sight but you don’t count as I had at least some, perhaps some significant knowledge about you from our pre-pandemic work friendship. Maybe that was a disadvantage.
After what felt like months of me text flirting with you, it finally all came to fruition as an actual date to watch the movie CODA with you at your house. As a gentleman you sent guest bedroom pics, and honestly I planned to sleep there. I immediately bonded (and took pics) with Jed, and we enjoyed the movie followed by what felt like hours of mutual exchange of stories and conversation by the pool.
Your blue eyes seemed so intent and intereted in my questions and responses. Your entire body language said that you were completely attuned to me and my presence. And once we were inside and you kissed me, that was it for me. You had me. I already loved everything about you and the way you engaged with me and enjoyed every moment of our experience like it was the only moment that mattered.
You made me feel like I mattered. You were so passionate and compassionate, you made light of otherwise embarrassing moments and were perfectly able to read my physical reactions from the first moment and adjust your every movement.
I’m not sure why I left your room (snoring? did we even start there?) but the morning sex was extra soft and sweet, especially with you. I was mortified that I had bled on the sheets but just as quickly as I jumped to put them in the washer, you reached to pull me back and tell you’d help…in a little bit.
From the very first date, you could calm me down effortlessly. I loved you before we took our clothes off. This is the first of many moments and memories that lead me to realize how much I love you. I don’t always have to write about the pain. These parts are so much better.
xoxo,
A

I thought this was a pimple yesterday. Today it has changed, with a noticeable lump underneath, and is quite painful. The last pic was taken yesterday. TIA

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System	Item	Condition	Price	Photos
3DS	3DS XL Zelda Link Between Worlds edition (charger port is loose, minor crack near port)	Loose	$160.00	Pics
3DS	Castlevania: Lords of Shadow: Mirror of Fate	Loose	$18.00
3DS	Dragon Quest VII: Fragments of the Forgotten Past	Loose	$43.00
3DS	Etrian Odyssey Untold: The Millennium Girl	Loose	$38.00
3DS	Final Fantasy Explorers (Heavy liquid damage to artwork and case)	CIB	$16.00
3DS	Harvest Moon 3D: A New Beggining	Loose	$11.00
3DS	Hatsune Miku: Project Mirai DX	Loose	$38.00
3DS	Jewel Master: Cradle of Egypt 2 3D	CIB	$8.00
3DS	Kid Icarus: Uprising	Loose	$38.00
3DS	Kingdom Hearts 3D Dream Drop Distance	Loose	$11.00
3DS	Kirby Planet Robobot	Loose	$26.00
3DS	Kirby Triple Deluxe	Loose	$14.00
3DS	Legend of Zelda: Ocarina of Time (label fading / damage)	Loose	$30.00
3DS	Legend of Zelda: Tri Force Heroes	Loose	$14.00
3DS	Luigi's Mansion: Dark Moon	Loose	$12.00
3DS	Mario & Sonic at the 2016 Rio Olympic Games	CIB	$17.00
3DS	Mario Golf: World Tour	Loose	$20.00
3DS	Monster Hunter 4 Ultimate	Loose	$13.00
3DS	One Piece: Unlimited World Red	Loose	$20.00
3DS	Pokemon Moon (In case with reprinted art)	Loose	$14.00
3DS	Pokemon Mystery Dungeon: Gates to Infinity	Loose	$18.00
3DS	Pokemon Mystery Dungeon: Gates to Infinity	Loose	$19.00
3DS	Pokemon Rumble Blast	CIB	$22.00
3DS	Pokemon Sun (In case with reprinted art)	Loose	$14.00
3DS	Pokemon Super Mystery Dungeon	Loose	$20.00
3DS	Professor Layton and the Azran Legacy	Loose	$94.00
3DS	Puzzle & Dragons Z + Puzzle & Dragons: Super Mario Bros. Edition	Loose	$14.00
3DS	Samurai Warriors Chronicles	CIB	$14.00
3DS	Scribblenauts Unlimited	CIB	$7.00
3DS	Senran Kagura: Deep Crimson 2	Loose	$42.00
3DS	Skylanders Giants	Loose	$7.00
3DS	Sonic and All-Stars Racing Transformed	Loose	$8.00
3DS	Style Savvy: Trendsetters	Loose	$31.00
3DS	Super Mario 3D Land	Loose	$9.00
3DS	Yo-Kai Watch	Loose	$12.00
3DS	Yoshi's New Island	Loose	$10.00
Dreamcast	Sonic Adventure (Sega All-Stars)	CIB	$41.00
DS	Advance Wars: Days of Ruin	Loose	$18.00
DS	Advance Wars: Dual Strike	Loose	$21.00	Pics
DS	Age of Empires: The Age of Kings	CIB	$9.00
DS	Beyblade Metal Fusion	Loose	$4.00
DS	Bleach Blade of Fate	Loose	$11.00
DS	Bleach Dark Souls	Loose	$16.00
DS	Bomberman	Loose	$11.00
DS	Children of Mana	Loose	$11.00
DS	Clubhouse Games	CIB	$4.00
DS	Eragon	CIB	$5.00
DS	Final Fantasy IV	Loose	$15.00
DS	From the Abyss	Loose	$24.00
DS	Guilty Gear Dust Strikers	Loose	$10.00
DS	Kirby Planet Robobot	Loose	$26.00
DS	LBX: Little Battlers Experience	Loose	$12.00
DS	Legend of Legacy	Loose	$14.00
DS	Legendary Starfy	Loose	$14.00
DS	Luminous Arc	Loose	$35.00
DS	Mega Man Star Force Leo	CIB	$60.00
DS	Nostalgia	Loose	$25.00
DS	Princess on Ice	CIB	$7.00
DS	Ragnarok Online DS	Loose	$26.00
DS	Ridge Racer DS	Loose	$7.00
DS	Rockman ZX (JP)	Loose	$8.00
DS	Sands of Destruction	Loose	$46.00
DS	Sims 2	Loose	$17.00
DS	Summon Night Twin Age	Loose	$30.00
DS	True Swing Golf	CIB	$7.00
DS	Urbz: Sims in the City	Loose	$21.00
GB	Gameboy Pocket Black	CIB	$120.00
GB	Q*Bert	Loose	$14.00
GB	Wario Land (cracked bottom right corner)	Loose	$13.00
GBA	GBA SP 101 graphite (damage on front of box where promo sticker was)	CIB	$300.00
GBA	Metroid Fusion (heavy wear, faded cartridge)	CIB	$110.00
GBA	Monster Rancher Advance (rough condition box)	CIB	$51.00
GBA	Pokemon Sapphire	Loose	$80.00	Pics
GBA	Rebelstar Tactical Command	CIB	$36.00
GBA	Super Mario Advance (faded label)	Loose	$12.00
GBA JP	Super Street Fighter II X Revival	Loose	$23.00
GCN	Animal Crossing	Loose	$37.00
GCN	Baldur's Gate: Dark Alliance	CIB	$26.00
GCN	Donkey Konga	CIB	$18.00
GCN	Final Fantasy Crystal Chronicles	CIB	$12.00
GCN	Gameboy Player black	Loose	$46.00
GCN	Gameboy Player Startup disc	CIB	$112.00
GCN	Harvest Moon Magical Melody	Loose	$17.00
GCN	Legend of Zelda: Ocarina of Time Master Quest	Game + case	$48.00
GCN	Legend of Zelda: Twilight Princess	Loose	$81.00
GCN	Lord of the Rings: The Third Age	CIB	$21.00
GCN	Magical Mirror Starring Mickey Mouse	CIB	$17.00
GCN	Prince of Persia: The Two Thrones	Loose	$11.00
GCN	Sonic Adventure DX	Loose	$18.00
GCN	Sonic Gems Collection	Loose	$26.00
GCN	Sonic Heroes (PC)	CIB	$25.00
GCN	Sonic Mega Collection	Loose	$10.00
GCN	Sonic Riders	Loose	$23.00
GCN	Super Mario Sunshine	Loose	$23.00
Genesis	Phantom 2040 (heavy box wear)	Game + box	$40.00
LCD	Game & Watch Super Mario Bros	Loose	$24.00
N64	007 The World is Not Enough (Minor liquid damage to label)	Loose	$12.00
N64	All-Star Baseball 2001	Loose	$8.00
N64	Banjo-Kazooie (Label has tears and fading)	Loose	$17.00
N64	Bomberman 64	Loose	$20.00
N64	Cruis'n USA (Label tears)	Loose	$11.00
N64	Cruis'n World (Blockbuster sticker on label)	Loose	$16.00
N64	Doom 64 (Minor label tears)	Loose	$24.00
N64	Duke Nukem 64 (Label has tears)	Loose	$17.00
N64	Hexen (Marker on cart, minor label tears)	Loose	$11.00
N64	Hybrid Heaven	Loose	$15.00
N64	International Superstar Soccer 98	Loose	$28.00
N64	Lode Runner 3D	Loose	$13.00
N64	Mace: The Dark Age	Loose	$14.00
N64	Mario Tennis (Minor label tears)	Loose	$16.00
N64	Milo's Astro Lanes	Loose	$14.00
N64	N64 Expansion Pak	Loose	$40.00
N64	Ogre Battle 64	Game + box	$150.00
N64	Paperboy 64	Loose	$11.00
N64	Quake II	Loose	$14.00
N64	Rampage 2 (Blockbuster sticker on label)	Loose	$20.00
N64	Space Invaders (Blockbuster sticker on label)	Loose	$13.00
N64	Super Mario 64 (faded label)	Loose	$30.00
N64	War Gods	Loose	$9.00
N64	Zelda Majora's Mask (Holographic label, scratch along label)	Loose	$48.00
NES	Adventure Island	Loose	$9.00
NES	Alpha Mission (dirty front label)	Loose	$5.00
NES	Castlevania II: Simon's Quest	Loose	$13.00
NES	Golf	Loose	$3.00
NES	Hook	Loose	$14.00
NES	Ice Climber	Loose	$17.00
NES	Ice Hockey	Loose	$3.00
NES	Ikari Warriors	Loose	$8.00
NES	Jeopardy! Junior Edition	Loose	$4.00
NES	Kid Icarus	Loose	$18.00
NES	M.U.S.C.L.E.	Loose	$14.00
NES	Ninja Gaiden (Label damage)	Loose	$12.00
NES	Snoopy's Silly Sports Spectacular	Loose	$9.00
NES	Super Mario Bros 3 (Label damage)	Loose	$14.00
NES	T&C Surf Designs	Loose	$5.00
NES	Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles (in clamshell case)	Loose	$9.00
NES	Top Gun	Loose	$3.00
NES	Ultimate Basketball	Loose	$4.00
NES	Wrath of the Black Manta	Game + manual	$9.00
PS1	Ape Escape GH	CIB	$23.00
PS1	Brave Fencer Musashi	Loose	$43.00
PS1	Bushido Blade 2	Loose	$14.00
PS1	Chrono Cross	CIB	$20.00
PS1	Cool Boarders 2	CIB	$5.00
PS1	Crash Bandicoot: Warped GH	CIB	$11.00
PS1	Croc GH	CIB	$10.00
PS1	Driver 1 & 2 Twin Pack GH	CIB	$17.00
PS1	Final Fantasy VII GH	Game + case	$26.00
PS1	Frogger GH	CIB	$9.00
PS1	Gran Turismo 2 GH	CIB	$10.00
PS1	Hot Shots Golf 2	CIB	$11.00
PS1	Legend of Dragoon	CIB	$42.00
PS1	Mega Man X6	Game + manual	$18.00
PS1	Metal Gear Solid	CIB	$35.00
PS1	Metal Gear Solid GH	CIB	$29.00
PS1	Namco Museum Volume 1 GH	CIB	$8.00
PS1	Nightmare Creatures	CIB	$27.00
PS1	Parasite Eve (disc 1 only)	Game + case	$34.00
PS1	Resident Evil 2	Game + case	$34.00
PS1	Rocket Power Team Rocket Rescue	CIB	$8.00
PS1	Simpson's Wrestling	CIB	$21.00
PS1	Sol Divide	CIB	$17.00
PS1	Space Invaders	CIB	$8.00
PS1	Tomb Raider II	CIB	$12.00
PS1	Tomb Raider: The Last Revelation	CIB	$9.00
PS1	Tony Hawk's Pro Skater 2	CIB	$11.00
PS1	Tony Hawk's Pro Skater GH	CIB	$9.00
PS1	WWF Smackdown 2: Know Your Role	CIB	$14.00
PS1	WWF War Zone GH	CIB	$9.00
PS1	Yu-Gi-Oh! Forbidden Memories	Game + case	$26.00
PS2	Art of Figthing Anthology (water damaged art)	CIB	$10.00
PS2	Barbarian	CIB	$8.00
PS2	Beyond Good & Evil	CIB	$13.00
PS2	CSI 3 Dimensions of Murder	CIB	$6.00
PS2	Dynasty Warriors 5 Empires	CIB	$13.00
PS2	Fatal Frame II	CIB	$73.00
PS2	Final Fantasy XII Collector's Edition	CIB	$12.00
PS2	Frogger: The Great Quest	CIB	$8.00
PS2	Godai Elemental Force	CIB	$5.00
PS2	Grandia II	Game + case	$17.00
PS2	Grim Adventures of Billy & Mandy	CIB	$21.00
PS2	Guitar Hero	CIB	$7.00
PS2	Hard Hitter Tennis	CIB	$4.00
PS2	Headhunter Redemption	Game + case	$9.00
PS2	Kessen	CIB	$7.00
PS2	Kya Dark Lineage	CIB	$14.00
PS2	Mobile Suit Gundam Journey To Jaburo	Game + case	$14.00
PS2	NBA Street	CIB	$12.00
PS2	Ratchet & Clank	CIB	$10.00
PS2	Samurai Warriors	Game + case	$8.00
PS2	Samurai Warriors 2 Empires	CIB	$17.00
PS2	Samurai Warriors 2 Xtreme Legends	CIB	$20.00
PS2	Shadow Hearts From the New World	Game + case	$47.00
PS2	Shadow Man Second Coming	Game + case	$10.00
PS2	Shin Megami Tensei: Devil Summoner 2: Raidou Kuzunoha vs. King Abaddon	Game + case	$110.00
PS2	Silent Hill 2 (no music CD)	CIB	$126.00
PS2	Sly Cooper and the Thievius Raccoonus	CIB	$19.00
PS2	SSX	CIB	$7.00
PS2	SSX On Tour	CIB	$8.00
PS2	Star Wars Super Bombad Racing	CIB	$9.00
PS2	Starsky & Hutch	CIB	$5.00
PS2	Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles 2: Battle Nexus	Game + case	$22.00
PS2	Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles 3 Mutant Nightmare	CIB	$26.00
PS2	Tekken Tag Tournament	Loose	$8.00
PS2	The Great Escape	CIB	$9.00
PS2	Thunderstrike: Operation Phoenix	CIB	$5.00
PS2	Tokyo Xtreme Racer Zero	CIB	$14.00
PS2	Tsugunai Atonement	Game + case	$47.00
PS2	Vexx	CIB	$12.00
PS2	Yu-Gi-Oh GX The Beginning of Destiny (art damage)	CIB	$34.00
PS2 JP	Another Century's Episode	CIB	$10.00
PS3	Ar Tonelico Qoga: Knell of Ar Ciel	CIB	$34.00
PS3	Atelier Ayesha: The Alchemist Of Dusk	CIB	$19.00
PS3	BlazBlue: Calamity Trigger	CIB	$17.00
PS3	Bleach: Soul Resurreccion	CIB	$28.00
PS3	Bound by Flame	CIB	$8.00
PS3	Bulletstorm: Limited Edition	CIB	$7.00
PS3	Dante's Inferno: Divine Edition	CIB	$14.00
PS3	Disgaea 3: Absence of Justice	CIB	$9.00
PS3	Dragon's Crown	CIB	$10.00
PS3	Elder Scrolls IV Oblivion GH	CIB	$9.00
PS3	Eternal Sonata	CIB	$20.00
PS3	Fairy Fencer F	CIB	$20.00
PS3	Final Fantasy XIII	CIB	$9.00
PS3	Folklore (Water damaged art)	CIB	$34.00
PS3	Heavy Rain	CIB	$5.00
PS3	Hitman: Absolution	CIB	$6.00
PS3	inFamous GH	CIB	$8.00
PS3	Just Dance 4	CIB	$5.00
PS3	Kane & Lynch 2: Dog Days	CIB	$8.00
PS3	Kingdoms Of Amalur Reckoning	CIB	$4.00
PS3	Lego Star Wars: The Complete Saga	CIB	$9.00
PS3	LittleBig Planet	CIB	$9.00
PS3	Madden NFL 15	CIB	$4.00
PS3	Mirror's Edge	CIB	$7.00
PS3	Mugen Souls	CIB	$14.00
PS3	Mugen Souls Z	CIB	$16.00
PS3	Naruto Shippuden Ultimate Ninja Storm Generations	CIB	$8.00
PS3	NCAA Football 11	CIB	$7.00
PS3	Ni No Kuni Wrath of the White Witch	CIB	$6.00
PS3	One Piece: Unlimited World Red	CIB	$23.00
PS3	Persona 4 Arena	CIB	$11.00
PS3	Persona 5	Game + case	$13.00
PS3	Portal 2	CIB	$9.00
PS3	Record Of Agarest War 2 [Limited Edition] (Heavy outer box wear)	CIB	$26.00
PS3	Red Dead Redemption Undead Nightmare	CIB	$9.00
PS3	Rune Factory: Tides of Destiny	CIB	$16.00
PS3	Sacred 2: Fallen Angel	CIB	$7.00
PS3	Sonic Generations	CIB	$9.00
PS3	Star Ocean: The Last Hope International	CIB	$10.00
PS3	Tekken Tag Tournament 2	CIB	$16.00
PS3	The Darkness	CIB	$13.00
PS3	Twisted Metal	CIB	$18.00
PS3	Uncharted	CIB	$5.00
PS3	Uncharted 2	CIB	$5.00
PS3	Uncharted 3	CIB	$5.00
PS3	White Knight Chronicles International Edition	CIB	$8.00
PS3	Witch and the Hundred Knight	CIB	$17.00
PS3	Yakuza 4	CIB	$12.00
PSP	Ratchet and Clank: Size Matters GH	CIB	$9.00
SNES	Batman Forever	Loose	$6.00
SNES	F-Zero	Loose	$14.00
SNES	Goof Troop	Loose	$19.00
SNES	Power Rangers Zeo Battle Racers	Loose	$13.00
SNES	Spiderman X-Men Arcade's Revenge	Loose	$9.00
SNES	Star Fox (heavy box wear)	CIB	$34.00
SNES	Super Baseball 2020	Loose	$13.00
SNES	Terminator 2: The Arcade Game	Loose	$10.00
SNES	Tetris 2	Loose	$7.00
Switch	Bendy and the Ink Machine	CIB	$26.00
Switch	Galak-Z: The Void & Skulls of the Shogun: Bone-A-Fide	CIB	$13.00
Switch	Gigantosaurus: The Game	CIB	$11.00
Switch	Mario + Rabbids Kingdom Battle	CIB	$13.00
Switch	Party Arcade	CIB	$9.00
Switch	Resident Evil Origins Collection	CIB	$19.00
Switch	Tales of Vesperia: Definitive Edition	CIB	$19.00
Switch	The House of the Dead Remake [Limidead Edition]	NIB	$36.00
Wii	Batallion Wars 2	Loose	$9.00
Wii	Castle of Shikigami III	CIB	$34.00
Wii	Dead Space Extraction	Loose	$17.00
Wii	Dokapon Kingdom	Loose	$38.00
Wii	Excite Truck	CIB	$7.00
Wii	Gold classic controller pro	Loose	$20.00
Wii	Guitar Hero: Warriors of Rock	Loose	$26.00
Wii	Harvest Moon: Magical Melody	Loose	$10.00
Wii	Just Dance 2020	CIB	$31.00
Wii	Metroid Prime 3: Corruption	CIB	$11.00
Wii	Michael Jackson: The Experience (with glove)	CIB	$26.00
Wii	SimCity Creator	CIB	$7.00
Wii	Yoshi Wii remote plus	Loose	$36.00
Wii U	Ducktales Remastered	CIB	$22.00
Wii U	Fast & Furious Showdown	Game + case	$14.00
Wii U	Madden NFL 13	CIB	$9.00
Wii U	Monster Hunter 3 Ultimate	CIB	$14.00
Wii U	Resident Evil: Revelations	Game + case	$14.00
Wii U	Tekken Tag Tournament 2	Loose	$21.00
Xbox	Halo 2 Limited Collector's Edition (no slipcover)	CIB	$17.00
Xbox	i-Ninja	Game + case	$11.00
Xbox	Myst IV: Revelation	CIB	$9.00
Xbox 360	Batman: Arkham Origins	CIB	$26.00
Xbox 360	Brothers in Arms Hell's Highway	CIB	$8.00
Xbox 360	Crackdown 2	CIB	$6.00
Xbox 360	Darksiders	CIB	$5.00
Xbox 360	Far Cry 3	CIB	$4.00
Xbox 360	Grid	CIB	$9.00
Xbox One	Red Dead Redemption GOTY	CIB	$16.00

I also have some extra amiibo I am looking to sell!

Item	Condition	Price
8-bit Classic Mario amiibo	NIB	$13.00
Blathers (Animal Crossing) amiibo	Loose	$6.00
Bowser	Loose	$8.00
Chibi-Robo	Loose	$9.00
Cyrus (Animal Crossing) amiibo	Loose	$6.00
Daisy [Super Smash Bros]	Loose	$30.00
Fox amiibo	NIB	$14.00
Ganondorf amiibo	Loose	$13.00
Inkling Boy (Splatoon) amiibo	Loose	$9.00
Inkling Boy amiibo	Loose	$9.00
Inkling Boy amiibo	Loose	$9.00
Inkling Girl	Loose	$10.00
Inkling Girl amiibo	Loose	$10.00
Inkling Squid	Loose	$12.00
Inkling Squid - Neon Purple	Loose	$10.00
Inkling Squid - Neon Purple amiibo	Loose	$10.00
Kirby - Star	Loose	$14.00
Link (Smash) amiibo	Loose	$15.00
Link (Smash) amiibo	Loose	$15.00
Link (Smash) amiibo	Loose	$15.00
Little Mac (Smash) amiibo	NIB	$20.00
Lottie (Animal Crossing) amiibo	Loose	$3.00
Lucario amiibo	NIB	$10.00
Lucas (Smash) amiibo	Loose	$9.00
Lucas amiibo	Loose	$9.00
Mario - 30th, Classic	Loose	$7.00
Mario (Wedding) amiibo	Loose	$14.00
Marth (Smash) amiibo	Loose	$9.00
Mewtwo amiibo (packaging plastic damages)	CIB	$10.00
Octoling Boy	Loose	$14.00
Octoling Girl	Loose	$17.00
Octoling Octopus	Loose	$20.00
Peach (Smash) amiibo (figure came loose from stand)	Loose	$9.00
Pearl / Marina 2-pack amiibo	NIB	$23.00
Reese (Animal Crossing) amiibo	Loose	$4.00
Rider Link amiibo	Loose	$16.00
Waddle Dee	Loose	$9.00
Yarn Yoshi - Green	Loose	$15.00
Young Link amiibo	NIB	$26.00

Dating for the first time in your mid twenties is a very unique experience. I'm learning everything for the first time.
I'm getting very discouraged :/ I just started on dating apps and I find that the conversations tend to go nowhere. Nor do I get that many matches. I dont think I'm unattractive. I think definitely, I don't fit the norm, so I match with people less. That, and I think my profile is suffering from my inexperience amd awkwardness.
I struggle w chronic low self confidence in life, so I fear this gets across. Maybe from the awkwardness of my photos.
That and I know that even though I've grown SO much, I do come off as shy and introverted to others. It is difficult for me to feel confident. This is a large part of why I haven't dated until now.
It's just so discouraging. It makes me wonder if I'll get dates or if I'll ever meet people I'm interested in :/ A little voice tells me I knew this would happen, but I imagine its growing pains as I become more confident and seasoned. What else can I do? I can't wait until I'm confident in myself in order to date...
I think I know what I need to do. Beef up my profile, get confident w taking pics, do hobbies and go to meet ups, talk to strangers. It's just hard!! These are all things I struggle to do, much less do them for dating. I will do them... it just takes time. While I grow as a person. I must start dating even before I feel ready ;( sadly

First, a little about me. I'm 5'5ish, 135ish depending on the day, and have dark brown hair that falls part way down my back with brown eyes. My mom is a Crow (Native American) and my dad is Italian so the olive complexion genes are active in my family. I've got a fairly petite/athletic build with a 32B chest and a toned butt. My nipples are dark brown, on the smaller side, and I shave everywhere. I'm a fan of tattoos and have a feather on my foot, flower pieces on my right hip into my lower ribs, left shoulder, and lower back, a small script piece in my left side bra line, a green carebear in my left bikini line and a large dream catcher down my left ribs. If there's a detail I've left out, feel free to ask ;)
What a week. 18 year old me had gone from a dry spell since AIT and graduation to a blow job, facial, and quick hard sex with a married captain at my first duty station. I was falling fast and hard for him. I wanted him to want me. I wanted him to think of me when he thought of being intimate. I wanted to be his release to do everything she wouldn't.
Dustin snapped me this morning, a pic of his obvious buldge greeting my day. "How's my little Private this morning? I wish you were here to help with this"....You have no idea Dustin. Now that the bandaid has been ripped off, I want nothing more than to keep going. I send him a snap back of my semi sheer, black athletic thong, holding it open in the front with the caption "you could drop your load right in here sir". Naughty I know. For some reason, the thought of him filling my underwear with cum is erotic and in the moment, I crave the feel of his warmth between my legs.
"Come by the house on your lunch break and you can have it" I get in reply. Fuck.
I get dressed in my camo uniform with a generic sports bra and the same black athletic thong underneath and try make it through the morning as routinely as possible. Not possible. All I can think of is what I'm willing to do for the married man I'm lusting for and it's got my mind anywhere but at work.
Dustin let's me know he left early for lunch so he's ready whenever I am. The whole drive over, my mind is racing at the prospect of what's about to happen. I knock and find the door open, with Dustin on the couch, laptop open to some semi sexy photos I'd sent to tease him over the last week while he strokes his firm shaft. "Private Hannah reporting as ordered sir" I say as sexily as I can muster in the spur of the moment.
"Private Hannah, you said you'd found a place to hold my cum" completely keeping character.
"Yes sir" I say, stepping around to stand in front of him, undoing my belt and the buttons on my pants, letting them drop to the floor around my ankles.
"Open up then, I'm already close since you decided to be late"
I hold open the front of my black athletic thong, exposing my shaved pubic area for his inspection.
"At least you remembered to shave to start the week" he says and he builds the pace of his stroking and touches the tip of his penis against my smooth skin. In moments I see him start to swell as he nears his release. A thick rope of white cum erupts from his tip and is followed by a second, third, and fourth. My underwear is filled with his thick, warm release and soon its soaked, mixing with my own minor arousal that has built at the situation. As he finishes, I let go of my waistband and allow my cum soaked thong to cling to my lower lips, teasing me with what could have been.
I pull my pants back up and stand breathless in front of eachother. It's been less than 10 minutes since I walked through the door, we've barely spoken and now his cum is dripping down my inner thigh. What has happened? I feel like an incredibly erotic play thing that's been used for a passing moment of pleasure and right then, I know I'm hooked.
"Hannah, I'm sorry if that was too much" Dustin says, coming to the realization that I'm now back in uniform with his cum filling my panties.
I kiss him square on the lips. "Shhhh babe. I wanted this. I want all of you"
"So you really liked that?"
"Dustin that has got to be one of the hottest things I've ever tried. I'm not changing for work"
I sit on his couch in a pool of his release while we chat for the remainder of our lunch hour. When it's time to go, I feel a glob of him drip down my leg. "Can I come spend the night tonight?" I ask, hoping to get my own release after work.
"Sure hun, I just have a few calls to make but it's okay"
I head back to work with a kiss goodbye and the rest of the day I can feel the stickiness between my legs and it keeps me on edge. I run back to my barracks room, take a fast shower, grab a change of clothes for tomorrow, and something special for tonight. I throw on some gym shorts and a hoodie over my sports bra. Coupled with my slides and I'm back across post and find a note on the door "on a call, be quite when you come in"
I come in and quietly shut the door and make my way past Dustin in the livingroom, obviously on a video chat with someone with the screen facing the wall to the garage. I hear a woman's voice say "oh man those walls are paper thin, I think I just heard the neighbors kids come home from school"
Oh shit, he's on with his wife I realize as I tiptoe my way to the master bedroom where I change into my suprise. Naked in his bedroom, I slip into a teal, sheer lace bra with enough underwire support to give me a little cleavage. I pull on a matching set of panties with an intricate sheer lace front and a single thin string between my cheeks in the back. I fold up my sticky cum soaked thong from earlier and walk back into the livingroom.
Dustin does a double take as I come around the corner. He covers this with a coughing fit as his wife asks if he's okay. "Yeah hun just had an itch in my throat" and they continue chatting, her oblivious to the fact that I've just sat down across from him.
I look him square in the eyes as I begin to tease my dark brown nipples through my sheer lace bra. As he tries to hold a conversation, I do everything I can to lightly tease him. I pinch and massage my breasts, softly run a finger between my legs on top of my lacy bottoms. I stand up and start to stretch, bending forward to let my small breasts hang just out of sight of his camera before turning around and bending forward, reaching back to spread my bum and letting the g-string bury itself between my cheeks, barely keeping my other tight hole from view.
I turn back around and unfold the sticky thong he came in earlier and hold it up for him to see the stain his release left on them, right between the legs. I pull my teal lace thong down in the front, and standing right behind his computer, I begin to lightly tease myself with the soft fabric of the back athletic thong, gently massaging my clit, resoaking the nearly dry panties with another round of sexual arousal.
As my arousal grows, I gradually push into my slick entrance and with one finger and then another, the soft athletic fabric of my underwear once again getting soaked as I rub my clit with them, teasing myself with the over stimulating feel against my raw bundle of nerves. I squat down, my face now right behind the computer screen as I squeeze my breast and open my mouth in a silent moan, performing for the man who can't respond.
All of a sudden I stop, ending my tease at the edge of release, not wanting to slip and give away what's going on...and to tease Dustin further. I stand up, place the arousal and cum soaked black thong on the table right behind his laptop and I walk to the kitchen and begin working on dinner with whatever ingredients I can scrounge up in the kitchen. It's such a turn on to do such a normal task in such a small set of lingerie and I secretly hope that Dustin is sneaking peeks at me from across the house.
At long last I feel warm, strong hands wrap around my waist and a kiss finds my cheek. "How's my baby girl, you little tease?"
I blush at the pet name the gentle touch. "I'm almost done, go sit down you silly boy" I say as I start to plate our dinner of chicken and grilled veggies, sauntering into the dining room like a server at one of those lingerie sports bars.
"So you sure know how to put on a show, Hannah" Dustin says as we begin to eat
"I can be anything you want me to be" I say as I begin a speech I'd thought through in my head, telling Dustin that I don't want casual, I want to be the girl he craves, the one who does the things that no one else does, who let's him try the things he's only imagined I'm his wildest sessions alone with himself.
"What do you get out of all of this?" He asks, questioning this step towards commitment.
"I get to explore myself and act out my cravings without having to deal with all the rumors of barracks and searching for guys to feel safe with. I don't want to be your wife. I just want you to forget her when your with me, and I want you to think of me when you choose how to play"
"Well if you're going to explore, we're going to have to push you out of your comfort zone and actually find new places and things to try"
My heart is racing as fantasies flood through my mind. "What do you have in mind?"
"Just play along with different roles and we'll see what happens baby girl"
Baby girl....is this role number one? Does Dustin think that with our 8 year age gap and my petite frame that we could play out what I think he wants to play? I did just tell him that I want to be the one he thinks of.
"Yes daddy"
"Good Girl"
I. Am. Wet.
"So what did you have in mind for dessert baby girl?"
I stand up, clean up, take Dustin by the hand. "These can end up on the floor too" i say motioning to my sheer lingerie.
"Not yet" he replies, guiding me back to the bedroom.
I find myself once again on Dustin's bed, this time guided into the center, onto my hands and knees. With gentle pressure between my shoulder blades, I drop to my elbows, arching my back and exposing my entrances to open view, my modesty preserved only by the thin g-string buried between my cheeks.
Dustin pulls that to the side, bringing my arousal fully into view. I shudder as a soft, wet tongue traces it's way teasingly between my parted lips, beginning at the bundle of nerves aching in my core and ending in the tight wet hole that's been longing to be filled since I started my teasing back at lunch. I moan a soft sigh of want as Dustin licks me again and again, using his thumbs to spread me open before teasing the inner entrance of my now soaked vagina with his oral stimulation.
After a few breathless minutes of almost over the edge teasing with his tongue, Dustin traces his tongue higher. My eyes go wide and my breath catches in my throat as his tongue glides across my other hole. After a brief pause, he repeats his elongated trail of tongue teasing a second and third time, ending on my bum every time.
I moan "Don't stop, daddy" as his tongue lingers on my hole, swirling around my rear entrance as his calloused fingers reach between my legs to tease my clit. I am so close as his tongue makes headway into my hole which is opening up for him at his constant stimulation.
"I'm going to fill you up baby girl" Dustin leans down and whispers in my ear, his tongue momentarily replaced by his thumb pressing further into my bum, slick with his saliva.
"Please daddy" I moan in reply, eager to keep my promise to do everything his wife won't do.
Dustin pulls away completely and reaches into his wife's nightstand. I see him pull out a bottle of lube and a silver plug with a red jeweled heart on the end, still in its packaging, unopened, unplayed with. I know what's coming and why we're playing this out right now.
Dustin removes the plug from its package and holds it tip first up to my lips. I know what he wants without saying a word. I stick out my tongue and lightly tease the cold metal tip, softly swirling circles around it, further and further down until I bob my head down, taking the whole plug in my mouth and closing my lips around the base. I look up at Dustin, the jeweled heart of the plug between my lips and softly moan in anticipation.
He pulls it out of my mouth and I seductively tease the tip one last time. "Wanna stick it in my ass daddy?" I beg as sexily as possible. After a few seconds of fumbling around with the lube bottle, I feel the cold liquid land on my hole, followed by a finger gently probing my already relaxed entrance. A moment later, the finger is replaced by the cold lubed plug and my breath catches in my throat as I stretch around the plug before closing down tightly on the base. Dustin moves my g-string back into place, covering my soaking wet lips and holding the plug firmly in my butt.
I look back at him pleadingly. I know I teased you hard earlier but if you stop now, this is just cruel. "Daddy please" I say breathlessly, not wanting the stimulation to stop while also acutely aware of the fullness inside my rear.
"Please what?"
"Please fuck me daddy"
"You have two options Hannah. You teased me, so this is a tease for you. You can go to bed, right now, right like this, or you can get your punishment and then a reward like a good girl. Bed or a spanking, your choice"
"Spank me Daddy" I beg without a moment's hesitation
smack the sharp crack of Dustin's hand on my bare cheek takes me by suprise and I clench hard on the plug inside my bum. "Oh fuck daddy" I moan in a mix of pain and pleasure. smack smack smack come three more successive blows, landing on alternating cheeks. I moan almost tearfully as my arousal builds to the point that I'm literally ready to beg for release.
"Daddy please fuck me. Do whatever you want just let me cum please"
A firm tug pulls my g-string down to my knees, still on all fours with my face in the pillows. A hard shaft rubs between my lower lips, finds my eager entrance, and in one firm thrust is buried all the way inside me. I cry out, looking back over my shoulder at Dustin who looks like a man possessed with the overwhelming urge to use me for his pleasure, and in that moment, it's all I want as well.
His firm hands grip my hips and I arch my back, throwing myself back against him to meet his own rapid thrusts. My cheeks clap a faster and faster pace as the overwhelming feeling of being completely filled mixes with the intense pleasure of the moment. I'm red faced and breathless, moaning Dustin's name as he continues in an unrelenting pace, thrusting in and out, in and out. At one point he pulls my face out of the pillows, gripping my long dark hair by my ponytail and commands "You're gonna be a good girl and cum for daddy"
He releases my hair but I remain facing forward, head up and moaning through the moment "Yes daddy, oh my fuuuuuuuuuckkkk" comes from my innocent lips as he simultaneously pulls out the buttplug and buries himself all the way inside me as I can feel him swell and begin to release against my cervix.
"That's right daddy, cum inside my pussy" I beg as he thrusts again and again as my inner walls clench down and my own release spills out of me, uncontained as I find one of the strongest orgasms of my life. His thrusts slow and eventually he pulls out, leaving me leaking cum and lube from both my holes.
He returns with a warm towel and begins to clean me off as I sit up, still in my sheer bra, and kiss him firmly on the lips. "That was incredible, daddy" I whisper, my forehead resting against his as he finishes cleaning my sensitive areas.
"Would you like to rinse off?"
I reply yes and he runs us a sensual warm shower, where nothing but gentle washing and a few lingering kisses happens. He's patient as I take extra time under the soothing water and wraps me in a soft towel when I get out.
As we get dressed into comfy pajama shorts and tshirts, I ask "so was I a good girl, daddy?"
"The best. I think we should stick with this role for awhile if you're into it"
After the time I had tonight, I'm more than willing to play along. We discuss some likes and dislikes and limits (nothing that leaves a mark where I'll have to answer questions about it at work), and reagree that none of this is a thing on the few occasions that his wife visits during her internship. And duh, no telling work, that would fuck us both.
We end the night with gentle pillow talk, and he asks if,for the role, I'd be willing to let him help me get dressed in the mornings, helping me pick out bras and undies from a selection of things I'd actually wear to work. I welcome the increased interaction and dedicated time to talk every morning without a second thought, and I fall asleep with his arm wrapped around me from behind, his strong hand under my tshirt, soothingly placed on my bare stomach, just below my belly button and just teasingly far enough into the area covered by a bikini. I'm in heaven.

It's pretty undeniable, that until recently, we were living in a pretty messed up world. The back and forth, the push and pull, the pain of it all.
You hear a lot about healing the Feminine Divine, but not enough about the broken arm of the Masculine Divine.
My entire life, my soul was on a mission of "absolve the Father" without knowing what it was doing. (If you read my recent post here, you're one of the few). Here is a shorter story to break it down some more. It's in the comments
Like it or not, there has to be a balance of divine masculine/feminine in order for it to look like heaven on earth. I recently had this laid out to me (be) in PLAIN terms, through dreams and epiphanies.
Think in terms of this:
NONE of you would exist without BOTH.
My dad and I had a dyadic union that was impossible to describe. When my sisters were asked in the rest home, "who was your dad's favorite" both of my sisters (somewhat) begrudgingly admitted it was me, without hesitation, in a split second. Because it was a bond that was difficult to describe.
I have still been doing "save the father" work since he passed away. Now he is FREE, and thus, they both are.
I kept seeing beautiful pics of clouds that looked like angels... auroras that looked angelic... mountains that looked like they were on fire.
Today, I was led back to this little piece of art I made with my dad
Hint: That's his voice. That's my voice. It's on old tech.

It's pretty undeniable, that until recently, we were living in a pretty messed up world. The back and forth, the push and pull, the pain of it all.
You hear a lot about healing the Feminine Divine, but not enough about the broken arm of the Masculine Divine.
My entire life, my soul was on a mission of "absolve the Father" without knowing what it was doing. (If you read my recent post here, you're one of the few). Here is a shorter story to break it down some more. It's in the comments
Like it or not, there has to be a balance of divine masculine/feminine in order for it to look like heaven on earth. I recently had this laid out to me in PLAIN terms, through dreams and epiphanies.
Think in terms of this:
NONE of you would exist without BOTH.
My dad and I had a dyadic union that was impossible to describe. When my sisters were asked in the rest home, "who was your dad's favorite" both of my sisters (somewhat) begrudgingly admitted it was me, without hesitation, in a split second. Because it was a bond that was difficult to describe.
I have still been doing "save the father" work since he passed away. Now he is FREE, and thus, they both are.
I kept seeing beautiful pics of clouds that looked like angels... auroras that looked angelic... mountains that looked like they were on fire.
Today, I was led back to this little piece of art I made with my dad
Hint: That's his voice. That's my voice. It's on old tech.

So, about a year back, my Snapchat account got banned on my iPhone 13. Found out it was a device ban when I couldn't create a new account on there. Using my old iPhone 6, I created a new account, and was able to use it no problems what so ever. But it was a pain juggling between my main phone (iPhone 13) and the iPhone 6 just for Snapchat. It was like that for almost a year.
Fast forward to last week, I got curious and redownloaded Snapchat on my iPhone 13. Surprise, surprise I managed to log into the account I'd made on the old iPhone 6. I was so happy! But then, just three days in, boom, got hit with a account locked message. I thought it was because of a bikini pic I posted. I was okay whatever.
So I thought, let's try again. Made a new account on the iPhone 13. Two days later, account locked again. This time I thought it was adding all my old friends too quick and looked like spam.
Gave it another shot, this time taking it slow with adding friends. Not even a full 2 days, I added like 10 friends and before I knew it, locked out again.
So, long story short, seems like the device ban wasn't really lifted. My iPhone 13's still on Snapchat's radar, I guess. Even though I can create and log into accounts, they're just not sticking around. I’ll try my old iPhone 6 again and see if the new account lasts.

I need to start alerting this will be a long post, also english is not my first language so please forgive any typos, always trying to improve.
Alright, this is a long story. It all started in december of 2021, i was 17 (female]), i was doing some exams and my mom was in a child's party of her nephew's son. This nephew (my cousin duh), who i will call T, have a long term friend, E. The thing is, E has a son, who we will be calling Rat (because that's what he is), 18 years old. Rat and i knew each other from childhood, when we were 9, he even asked me to be his girlfriend, but we lost contact after that and both pretty much forgot the existence of one another. But my mom, in this party, decided to chat with E and Rat, and talked about me to Rat, who remembered me and got interested. He started to follow me on insta and we start to chat on whatsapp.
After only a few days talking, we decded to go out with a bunch of his friends, and in that night we kissed. After that, everything moved on really fast, we talked non-stop all day. 12 days after the kiss, he asked me to be his girlfriend. Yes, i know, i was stupid to accept it, but i was a naive girl, i did not have proper teen years because of the pandemic, and this with the "childhood boyfriend appears again" narrative, it was set for disaster since the start.
We started dating, the first month was magical, i am from the southern hemisphere, here january means vacation on the beach, and we spent a week together there. I lost my v-card with him in the beach also. It was good, his family was a bit weird, but i was dating him not his family right?
Things started going south after february, my birthday was in that month, he spent the party with me. Also, any oportunity we had to have sex, we did it, at first it was exciting, but after sometime, i just wanted some cuddles with my boyfriend without ending in sex, you know what i mean? But i couldn't bring myself to say it. Then the fights started. This was my first relationship, but it was Rat's 6th. Yeah big red flag that i also ignored, he also talked about all of his previous exes, everything, how they met, how the sex was, what went wrong, there was even one particular ex that he said "i think, if i hadn't been an asshole, i would still be together with her nowadays" LIKE BRO WTF???????
The fights were bad, like really bad, he would abuse my mental health to the edges, giving me silent treatment for days, texting dryly, if i met him, he would stare me with a face that it immediately made me hyperventilate. And everything resolved to me asking for forgiveness, but not only after i bawled my eyes out, harm myself (i would scratch my whole arms with my nails), and have panic attacks. He punished me like that, at least 2/3 times a month. But at the same time, every month he celebrated one more month of our relationships, posting long detailed texts about it in his stories, like really detailed, i felt exposed, our relationship had no privacy because of that. Butagain i did not feel in the right to complain, how many girls beg for one photo posted on stories? and i was receiving long texts, i shouldn't complain, right?
In the fourth month of the relationship, he was in a hurry to have sex, and tried to put it inside right away, i wasn't ready, i was still kind of dry, and the result of it was an vaginal fissure, please google about it for a proper description from a professional. It hurt like hell, it was one of the worst pains in my life, he immediatly pulled it out but the damage was done. Vaginal fissures can't fully heal, so to this day i still need to pay attention to it while having sex with my current partner. He said sorry a million times, none of us knew what was that at the time. I couldn't have sex for a month, and that got him frustated, he was trying not to show it, but it was obvious.
I will spare you all from some details in the next two months, because of the size of the text. The fights continued, and in the sixth and final month he abused me mentally through all of it, threatening with a break up. I lost 8 kg (about 17 pounds) in just 2/3 weeks, my ideal weight for my height is 60 kg (132 pouns) and i was exactly 60 kg before losing the 8 kg, so i was underweight, pale, i looked like a cadaver. Then he broke up with me for good, and i cried for days and days. After one week, he was alread posting stories going out with another girl, and i started going to the psychiatrist, who gave me two meds, an antidepressant and one for sleep. I was drugged with these two meds all the time, they were really strong, and the Rat knew that, he still kept touch with me, and he knew about the meds and my mental state.
Still knowing all of this, he still suggested to come in my house one day, when my mom wasn't around, and ww hook up. I was not in a mental state to say no, i was emotional dependent of him, full on meds, so i consented (even if my friends to this day say it was not consensual). We kept that for around 4 months, until he posted with another girl, calling her his girlfriend, and canceling the plans of coming to my house the very next day of the post. I was in shambles, i almost killed myself, i SHed myself multiple times, i wasn't sane.
I decided to stop seeing his posts, but even after starting dating this girl (Let's call her chaos, you'll understand why), he still contacted me regularly. Keep in mind this is like, already december 2022, one year after we started dating. In january 2023, i was feeling a bit back in my feet, despite he still contacting me while dating another girl. He never cheated her with me, never. In february i was accepted in the college of my dreams, he congratulated me. This college was a life changer, i became another person there, i was happier, i had new friends, i went to parties, 2023 was the best year of my life so far. He still contacted me sometimes, until like june, when i was finally fully aware of what he did to me, when he tried to contact me again, i blocked him, in everything, but i heard he was talking about me, because people told me. Reminding, he was in a relationship!!!
Ok, let's move to april 2024, i receive a dm from a girl i know, telling me the Rat asked her to say he was single again. I send her an audio with the most genuine laughter i left in YEARS. I told her i don't want any contact with him and she respected it and didn't push any further. Now, last week, may 15th, i receive an audio in whatsapp from a girl, it was an audio of the Rat, saying he wanted to see me "one last time" before going to live in another city next week. I was baffled, this girl insisted a bit, sending more audios he sent her to me. So i unblocked him, telling him to stop sending me "emissaries" to speak in his behalf, if he was blocked on everything it was for a reason. He tried to persuade me in meeting with him for "one last talk" but i refused, he said he missed me and he needed to see me one last time. I blocked him again.
Remember Chaos? That's when it clicked me, if i refused, he was probably going after her, so i found a friend me and Chaos had in common (i never spoke or met her in person before) and i asked the friend to warn her about the Rat. But Chaos wanted to chat with me, so i agreed. We started to chat, she asked some questions, apparently, she didn't know about all the times the Rat contacted me in 2023 while they were dating. She said she considers this as cheating, and i agree honestly. Anyways, that same day she discovered all of this from me, she called him for a talk in person. She exposed him about all his lies, he tried to get out lying more, but she was clever, she called him nothing more than a boy, not a man, a liar, and said he was just like his father (his father cheated on his mom and he hates his father). She left him broken, told him he was a product of a very bad sex.
But Chaos did not stopped her revenge there, she called me again, asking if i could go to a bar with her for some drinks. I agree, she wanted gossip, the two of us together, in our small town would give her that. We went to a bar, a bunch of his friends were there and saw us, eyes wide open. Not being so humble now, we are both very pretty women, i must say. We decided to drink, celebrating the rat going far away to another city. Then the rat appeared, joining his friends. We ignored him and continue driking and chatting. She is very nice, funny and a joy to talk, we talked for hours, with him staring us the whole time, he even sent a message to her saying "i hope you're having the fun you wanted so badly with this" and she laughed out loud when she read it, aswering "yeah it's amazing thanks!" And then she sent a pic of me and her, saying "consider this a farewell gift".
I was an amazing night, i felt like i was finally avenged, not only myself but all the girls that came before me and suffered in his hand. Chaos was fullfilled, he also abused her mentally, but she is a strong women and gave it back to him in the same energy, i wish i wasn't so fragile after my own break up with him, i wish i had been stronger like her, she is impressive.
Now me and her are messaging every person we know from the city he is currently moving in, talking about the abuser he is, alerting as many women as possible about him, because I don't wish it on anyone what us and many other women in my city suffered in his hands. Also i warned him if he ever tried to contact me again i will leak all of the prints of him abusing me verbally in texts, and the first person to read it all will be his mommy.
Thank you for reading this rant, i feel much lighter now, i feel free.