Can you inject concentrated bath salts
r/TookTooMuch
2015.05.20 11:52 Raumcole r/TookTooMuch
/tooktoomuch, people who have taken too much to hide it.
2012.10.01 06:50 vanman33 CA Twitter
For all the possibly hilarious random posts that get lost or spam filtered in ca. Post whatever you want, as long as its not spam.
2024.05.21 16:04 HearingKey9395 Kratom & the curious case of Colitis
Kratom exacerbated autoimmune symptoms and may have started colitis
I started kratom 8 months ago to relieve extreme fatigue. I was diagnosed with adhd but I think I struggle more with CPTSD. I was also diagnosed lupus and rheumatoid arthritis. At first kratom was the key, and it was magical. I knew how to space my servings out so that I could feel it in small amounts each day. I thought I was good as long as I didn’t have more than 6 grams a day. I mixed it in organic orange juice. Well, orange juice is super acidic anyways and that itself can destroy your gut health. I didn’t know that. I recently started discovering what a gut health diet truly meant.
I started to notice kratom causing constipation. I got worried and stopped immediately. I thought it would be hard to quit but I’m an ex alcoholic. So if I can drop alcohol, I can drop anything now. I was just desperate and searching for something that was going to help my motivation for working out and getting household chores done.
I was constipated for nearly 3 months. It took an ER visit to diagnose colitis. I tried all the laxatives available prior to that and none of them worked. The ER told me to go on a clear fluid fast. So broth and jello…. Like when I had my gallbladder removed. I had already fasted for 2 days by that point because I was so miserable and terrified to consume anything.
Here’s a list of foods that made me regular again but it truly took 3 weeks of regular consumption for things to finally take effect:
You must consume water first thing in the morning, as soon as you wake up. 8 oz.
Next, research and find a quality brand bovine colostrum. Drink 2 scoops of that to 8oz of water and add Celtic sea salt for additional 82 minerals. Wait 30 minutes.
Introduce 4 oz of kombucha. Not the whole 16 oz bottle. That gave me diarrhea. But kombucha has so many conflicting things out there research wise… I choose to drink it anyways. It’s suppose to be 4oz before each meal. Anyways!! Wait another 30 minutes.
ORGANIC GRASS FED BONE BROTH. Terrible to me, but so so good for your gut. 19 grams of protein too. So you don’t feel starved. Suppose to heal gut if you drink 2 cups in the morning every day for 7-14 days.
I bought some tabouli salad from Publix. It’s a super food. It’s actually spelled tabbouleh. You can make your own. That’s even better. But I’m lazy. I ate it with some crunchmaster crackers even though I read I wasn’t suppose to eat seeds or nuts.
Then I chopped 1 bell pepper, 1 onion, grated 3 zucchini, grated 1 large carrot, and mixed it with 4 eggs. I added garlic and onion powder, salt and pepper like I always do. Lay on sheet pan, 375 for 20 minutes. It’s a crust less quiche I guess you’d call that.
I also had organic 100% pure cranberry juice, no sugar added. Super bitter. Super benefits. Yikes! It sucks but I’m assuming I’ll get used to it. And KEFIR, I drink strawberry kefir right after.
I have a major sweet tooth!! And I just over ate cantaloupe. That wasn’t good enough, so I also ate a smashed banana with organic cinnamon powder and a little drizzle of LOCAL honey. Papaya is also another fruit you can have.
Everything else was a no for me!! I’m gonna miss dairy and gluten. Can’t even eat beans or lentils with colitis. You can have very bland, plain chicken, turkey, or salmon. No spices. No refined sugar. No processed foods. No eating out. No carbonated drinks otherwise. No caffeine as in coffee or tea.
This was bound to happen to me anyways because I have autoimmune issues but kratom definitely progressed it faster. Happy healing! Cheers! 🤦🏻♀️💩 and may the force be with you.
submitted by HearingKey9395 to Colitis [link] [comments]
I started kratom 8 months ago to relieve extreme fatigue. I was diagnosed with adhd but I think I struggle more with CPTSD. I was also diagnosed lupus and rheumatoid arthritis. At first kratom was the key, and it was magical. I knew how to space my servings out so that I could feel it in small amounts each day. I thought I was good as long as I didn’t have more than 6 grams a day. I mixed it in organic orange juice. Well, orange juice is super acidic anyways and that itself can destroy your gut health. I didn’t know that. I recently started discovering what a gut health diet truly meant.
I started to notice kratom causing constipation. I got worried and stopped immediately. I thought it would be hard to quit but I’m an ex alcoholic. So if I can drop alcohol, I can drop anything now. I was just desperate and searching for something that was going to help my motivation for working out and getting household chores done.
I was constipated for nearly 3 months. It took an ER visit to diagnose colitis. I tried all the laxatives available prior to that and none of them worked. The ER told me to go on a clear fluid fast. So broth and jello…. Like when I had my gallbladder removed. I had already fasted for 2 days by that point because I was so miserable and terrified to consume anything.
Here’s a list of foods that made me regular again but it truly took 3 weeks of regular consumption for things to finally take effect:
You must consume water first thing in the morning, as soon as you wake up. 8 oz.
Next, research and find a quality brand bovine colostrum. Drink 2 scoops of that to 8oz of water and add Celtic sea salt for additional 82 minerals. Wait 30 minutes.
Introduce 4 oz of kombucha. Not the whole 16 oz bottle. That gave me diarrhea. But kombucha has so many conflicting things out there research wise… I choose to drink it anyways. It’s suppose to be 4oz before each meal. Anyways!! Wait another 30 minutes.
ORGANIC GRASS FED BONE BROTH. Terrible to me, but so so good for your gut. 19 grams of protein too. So you don’t feel starved. Suppose to heal gut if you drink 2 cups in the morning every day for 7-14 days.
I bought some tabouli salad from Publix. It’s a super food. It’s actually spelled tabbouleh. You can make your own. That’s even better. But I’m lazy. I ate it with some crunchmaster crackers even though I read I wasn’t suppose to eat seeds or nuts.
Then I chopped 1 bell pepper, 1 onion, grated 3 zucchini, grated 1 large carrot, and mixed it with 4 eggs. I added garlic and onion powder, salt and pepper like I always do. Lay on sheet pan, 375 for 20 minutes. It’s a crust less quiche I guess you’d call that.
I also had organic 100% pure cranberry juice, no sugar added. Super bitter. Super benefits. Yikes! It sucks but I’m assuming I’ll get used to it. And KEFIR, I drink strawberry kefir right after.
I have a major sweet tooth!! And I just over ate cantaloupe. That wasn’t good enough, so I also ate a smashed banana with organic cinnamon powder and a little drizzle of LOCAL honey. Papaya is also another fruit you can have.
Everything else was a no for me!! I’m gonna miss dairy and gluten. Can’t even eat beans or lentils with colitis. You can have very bland, plain chicken, turkey, or salmon. No spices. No refined sugar. No processed foods. No eating out. No carbonated drinks otherwise. No caffeine as in coffee or tea.
This was bound to happen to me anyways because I have autoimmune issues but kratom definitely progressed it faster. Happy healing! Cheers! 🤦🏻♀️💩 and may the force be with you.
2024.05.21 16:01 Popular_Blackberry24 Is enlightenment a scam?
Just wondering if anyone here has had similar experiences. I am 60 and started meditating at age 8 after reading some zen and yoga books on my parents' bookshelves. Lol nobody can quest like a kid, right? It helped me a lot with concentration and control of my attention. I grew up atheist in a southern baptist state so no one to practice with back then.
As I got older, various meditation practices got to be mainstream. I found a local zen group and sat with them. Years ago, I did an intensive metta meditation retreat at home, with online support-- it involved 4-5 continuous hours of sitting 2-3 times a day, all with the Brahmaviharas.
After about 5 days, my course teacher told me I had gotten to some advanced level and was close to enlightenment, but my gut feeling was that was baloney... the next session, a couple of hours in, I just stopped and started laughing. Suddenly the whole enterprise just seemed hilariously ridiculous. Wtf had I been doing all this time?
I mean, it is really not that hard to notice that there's no unconditioned, fixed self-- I don't think it requires any kind of weird experience. It's obvious. It doesn't mean there's no self at all-- that's just a misunderstanding of Buddhist texts according to my teachers.
I felt no more need to be trying to get somewhere or become "enlightened"-- and it hasn't come back. I still practice metta meditation. I just don't feel like a seeker anymore. Not because I think I somehow got there but because I don't think there's a place to get to, for anyone. I am just a regular human being, having my regular life, and I'm finally fine with that.
It made me wonder if this whole elaborate construction of enlightenment was a strategic myth to get the seeker types to wear that part of themselves out so they could be finally be free of it. And once you get it, it's like a big practical joke, but there's no way to get the joke except by first believing in enlightenment.
Of course, this could be just an obstacle that made me give up-- probably some people here can say I didn't reach the states they did... but I am ok with that too. I don't feel driven by the whole thing anymore. But I am curious whether anyone else has had this "the emperor has no clothes" experience.
submitted by Popular_Blackberry24 to enlightenment [link] [comments]
As I got older, various meditation practices got to be mainstream. I found a local zen group and sat with them. Years ago, I did an intensive metta meditation retreat at home, with online support-- it involved 4-5 continuous hours of sitting 2-3 times a day, all with the Brahmaviharas.
After about 5 days, my course teacher told me I had gotten to some advanced level and was close to enlightenment, but my gut feeling was that was baloney... the next session, a couple of hours in, I just stopped and started laughing. Suddenly the whole enterprise just seemed hilariously ridiculous. Wtf had I been doing all this time?
I mean, it is really not that hard to notice that there's no unconditioned, fixed self-- I don't think it requires any kind of weird experience. It's obvious. It doesn't mean there's no self at all-- that's just a misunderstanding of Buddhist texts according to my teachers.
I felt no more need to be trying to get somewhere or become "enlightened"-- and it hasn't come back. I still practice metta meditation. I just don't feel like a seeker anymore. Not because I think I somehow got there but because I don't think there's a place to get to, for anyone. I am just a regular human being, having my regular life, and I'm finally fine with that.
It made me wonder if this whole elaborate construction of enlightenment was a strategic myth to get the seeker types to wear that part of themselves out so they could be finally be free of it. And once you get it, it's like a big practical joke, but there's no way to get the joke except by first believing in enlightenment.
Of course, this could be just an obstacle that made me give up-- probably some people here can say I didn't reach the states they did... but I am ok with that too. I don't feel driven by the whole thing anymore. But I am curious whether anyone else has had this "the emperor has no clothes" experience.
2024.05.21 16:00 StackBorn Combat medic a hard to kill / hard to disrupt support build
Hi
He is designed around his capabilities to survive almost everything in order to bring support everywhere on the battlefield. He will lacks "Surgery" as he is more a field operative then a doctor.
I wanted the best survivability possible, so you need high level in :
CREATION
ROLE : Medtech
EVOLUTION
SKILLS
Skills to focus on :
In order of priority
submitted by StackBorn to cyberpunkred [link] [comments]
He is designed around his capabilities to survive almost everything in order to bring support everywhere on the battlefield. He will lacks "Surgery" as he is more a field operative then a doctor.
I wanted the best survivability possible, so you need high level in :
- HP and Death saves
- Armor
- Dodging (including bullets)
- Resistance to effects
- Sleep
- Flashbang and other effects of the same kind
- Poison and bio toxin
- EMP
- Suppressive fire
- sleeping on the street
- grab
- Movement
CREATION
ROLE : Medtech
- 1 - Cryotech (cryopump is kinda very good for starting character)
- 3 - Pharmacy (Speedheal, RapideDetox and Stim)
- REF 5 - DEX 8 - MOVE 8 - BODY 4(6) - WILL 8
- INT 6 - COOL 2 - EMP 7 - LUCK 4 - TECH 8
- Concentration 6
- Perception 6
- Athletics 6
- Resist T/D 6
- Endurance 6
- Stealth 6
- Brawling 6
- Evasion 6
- Paramedic 6
- Cybertech 6
- Deduction 6 (diagnosis are under this skill)
- GMBL
- Neuralink
- Reflex co-processor
- Light armor jacket
- Agent
- 200eb in Speedheal (4 doses, requires a check)
EVOLUTION
SKILLS
Skills to focus on :
- Evasion
- Brawling
- Concentration
- Athletics
- Medtech
In order of priority
- Linear Frame
- Nasal filter
- Toxin binders
- 2 cyberleg
- 2 reinforced limb (immunity to broken leg)
- Cyberaudio suite + level damper
- Subdermal armor (TechUp SP12) + Trauma Response Nanomatrix
- Cyberarm
- Popup shield
- Grapple hand
- Chipware socket
- Pain killer
- Smart glass + IR
- Combat glove
- Medscanner
- modular finger cyberhand + Airhypo x5
- Smart lens + targeting scope
- 2x Boomerangs (black chrome) (far too OP in my opinion)
- Drugs : Prime time (+2 to WILL and COOL) - Boost (+2 INT)
- Pharmacy : Speed heal, Rapid Detox , Stim
- Immunity to gas, critical wound to the ear, broken leg
- 60 HP + death save 12
- SP 12 (even for the head, and always on my character whatever the place and time)
- Evasion : 14
- Brawl : 14
- Move 8 ( 32m while running)
- Athletics : 14 (for Boomerang and grenade)
- Endurance : 14 (no drug while sleeping) for a DV 15 when sleeping in the street
- Concentration : 14 + 2 Prime time = 16 (not bad for resisting suppresive fire)
- Resist D&T : 16 + 2 Prime time + 2 toxin binder = 18 (for max DV of 17 against effects (except torture))
- Cybertech : 14 (for a DV 15 against EMP)
- Paramedics : 14 + 2 medscan = 16 (for a DV 15 for stabilisation)
- Stealth : 14 (allows him to be part of the infiltration team in order to support them)
- He will not going down easly, so he will be able to do his job : Support
- He'll be able to reach a friend in needs of a speedheal or stim because of his high move + grapple hand.
- He can "tank" damage for them (HP60 + SP12 + Stim) and even shield them (popup Shield).
- He will be part of the combat
- DPS : with AP grenade and boomerangs
- Support : smoke and flashbang grenade are also very good option
- Close combat with Brawl : Grab + choke or Human shield or MOVE (yeah you can move around a grabbed character at will.)
- He can quick fix critical injuries easly either meat or cyber (Paramedics and Cybertech)
- Action economy
- Modular hand with airhypo fingers is a HUGE action economy device.
- Popup shield
- Medscaner in a glove
- grapple hand
2024.05.21 15:58 DawgsOnTopB2B (WTS) brought to you by WELCH’S. SBA5, super duty 11.5 stripped or complete, 11.5 BA barrel, MK16 ODG 10.5, AERO upper receiver, LWRC stock assembly, G HK416 10.5 DDC
Timestamp: https://imgur.com/a/xsZkfPG
THERE ARE SCAMMERS IMPERSONATING ME. DOUBLE CHECK WHO YOU ARE TALKING TO. Anything that looks like me messaging you is a scam.
PLEASE MESSAGE ME AFTER COMMENTING OR DIBBING. I WILL NOT REACH OUT TO YOU. This is to try to reduce scamming.
^ = rattled and stripped. Prices tried to reflect salt. Please see pics for remaining salt/rattle.
One round of citristrip. I think after another and a scrub, most if not all of the remaining rattle will be gone. 0 rounds on all. The percentage number is how much I think I got off after one round.
RESELLING THESE AFTER A WELCH 🙃🙃
Bundle >dib> haggle. Don’t like the price? Send a REASONABLE offer.
submitted by DawgsOnTopB2B to GunAccessoriesForSale [link] [comments]
THERE ARE SCAMMERS IMPERSONATING ME. DOUBLE CHECK WHO YOU ARE TALKING TO. Anything that looks like me messaging you is a scam.
PLEASE MESSAGE ME AFTER COMMENTING OR DIBBING. I WILL NOT REACH OUT TO YOU. This is to try to reduce scamming.
^ = rattled and stripped. Prices tried to reflect salt. Please see pics for remaining salt/rattle.
One round of citristrip. I think after another and a scrub, most if not all of the remaining rattle will be gone. 0 rounds on all. The percentage number is how much I think I got off after one round.
RESELLING THESE AFTER A WELCH 🙃🙃
- SBA5. New in box. Took out for pics only. $100
- ^ Aero upper. Black. 98% $70
- ^ G$ mk16 odg 10.5. 80% $ 210
- ^ BA. Barrel 556. 11.5. Threads perfect. 100 %. Will include salty AF md to protect threads $80
- LWRC stock, spring, buffer (H2), castle nut, and ambi qd plate takeoff. $120
- Geissele HK416 count blemula can’t find blem 10.5 DDC. HK416 SMR M-LOK $260
- Geissele 11.5 super duty black upper stripped. 0 rounds. Salty CTN warcomp. $670. Can add black ACH and REBCG if needed for additional $ also new.
Bundle >dib> haggle. Don’t like the price? Send a REASONABLE offer.
2024.05.21 15:57 MolassesNo7880 The Bunny Safe system is terrible and here's why
Okay, the new system isn't even out yet, but I already made my verdict. As you can tell from the title, I don't have much nice stuff to say about it.
1. Let's start with the fact that you can only have four safes.
That's... okay, cool, but...
2. You can only open one of them at a time(?).
Yes, that's trash, but it's tolerable, but...
3. Not only do you have to open them manually every time, but you also cannot have more than four safes. Any additional safe you get while your slots are full simply won't count.
Damn, it just keeps getting worse. But wait, the despair isn't over yet—there's more! In fact;
4. You can't discard the boxes you have(?), either. So, if you have only 3-hour bunny safes, you absolutely must open them first before getting anything else like a better one.
And to rub salt in the wound for that matter, the boxes have levels. Levels that you acquire through upgrading, apparently(?). The higher the level of the box, the better the rewards, right? Yes, correct! That's great, for sure! What could I possibly say against that, other than... the fact that if you have a level 2+ box, you absolutely must open it if you still want to keep getting level 9+ boxes in the future. So, that could take many hours, and you will get a smaller reward. Why? Because you cannot discard it, and you must live with the lower-level boxes. Now, I don't know if you have to open low level ones only once, or if the levels you receive are RNG. Kindly and hopefully it isn't RNG, so that you always get's the highest levels, without having to wait the same time for potentially 50% of the rewards you could get.
5. The safes feel "unbalanced".
Why do I say that? Well, on one side, we have the "normal" safes, which take hours to open, correct? And on the other side, we have the practice bunny safe, arguably the best one by a long shot. Why? Because this safe can be opened instantly. For free. In fact, if there were a way to only get this safe, I would definitely accept that.
If you could only get practice bunny safes, in three hours of actively playing the game, you would get way more than what the normal 3-hour safe offers in rewards, which is insane to me, even though the practice safe gives less. You would also actively play the game which is nice for literally everyone in the current state of the game.
6. But wait, there's more! So, listen, here in the patch notes, the developers said, and I quote:
7. No way to skip timer besides paying gems(?).
What’s even weirder is that there isn't even a mechanic to skip five minutes or more of the safe opening if I genuinely... play the game. Like, really, I can't do anything but wait? Dude, most matches in this game are against bots, and I feel like this may have increased the odds slightly. Before, I would play many matches because I wanted to play and nothing else, and now I will likely only play once every 3/8 hours, and I feel like many people will do the same. Doesn't that mean there will be more bots and fewer matches overall? I honestly don't know. I just feel like the game's player base isn't big enough for such a mechanic.
Anyway, I'm not a "professional" on mobile games industry, so I have no idea how common this is. At best I have read that Clash Royale has it too, so, who knows? I don't think it will work here but we must wait and see, I suppose...
That all said, If anybody has any way to cheat or skip waiting times, or only get practice bunny safes while deleting the rest that you don't want, I would really like to hear it below in the comments! Please, do share your methods! 👍
submitted by MolassesNo7880 to SmashLegends [link] [comments]
1. Let's start with the fact that you can only have four safes.
That's... okay, cool, but...
2. You can only open one of them at a time(?).
Yes, that's trash, but it's tolerable, but...
3. Not only do you have to open them manually every time, but you also cannot have more than four safes. Any additional safe you get while your slots are full simply won't count.
Damn, it just keeps getting worse. But wait, the despair isn't over yet—there's more! In fact;
4. You can't discard the boxes you have(?), either. So, if you have only 3-hour bunny safes, you absolutely must open them first before getting anything else like a better one.
And to rub salt in the wound for that matter, the boxes have levels. Levels that you acquire through upgrading, apparently(?). The higher the level of the box, the better the rewards, right? Yes, correct! That's great, for sure! What could I possibly say against that, other than... the fact that if you have a level 2+ box, you absolutely must open it if you still want to keep getting level 9+ boxes in the future. So, that could take many hours, and you will get a smaller reward. Why? Because you cannot discard it, and you must live with the lower-level boxes. Now, I don't know if you have to open low level ones only once, or if the levels you receive are RNG. Kindly and hopefully it isn't RNG, so that you always get's the highest levels, without having to wait the same time for potentially 50% of the rewards you could get.
5. The safes feel "unbalanced".
Why do I say that? Well, on one side, we have the "normal" safes, which take hours to open, correct? And on the other side, we have the practice bunny safe, arguably the best one by a long shot. Why? Because this safe can be opened instantly. For free. In fact, if there were a way to only get this safe, I would definitely accept that.
If you could only get practice bunny safes, in three hours of actively playing the game, you would get way more than what the normal 3-hour safe offers in rewards, which is insane to me, even though the practice safe gives less. You would also actively play the game which is nice for literally everyone in the current state of the game.
6. But wait, there's more! So, listen, here in the patch notes, the developers said, and I quote:
"There are three main goals of this update. Firstly, to create a means for growth through gameplay, thus providing motivation to keep playing."Yeah, see that above? It's nonsense and doesn't reflect what will actually happen "completely". So, look, I have four safes currently, each taking three hours or more to open, correct? So... I can't win any more safes, right? So... why would I keep playing at some point, may I kindly ask you? I mean, in such a situation, why wouldn't I just play once every 3/8 hours instead? Also, will everybody keep coming back every 3/8 hours to get one more safe and then close the game every time? How long will it take to max out? I honestly believe that by then, any hype you might feel about the game in the context of getting strong would have already drowned out.
7. No way to skip timer besides paying gems(?).
What’s even weirder is that there isn't even a mechanic to skip five minutes or more of the safe opening if I genuinely... play the game. Like, really, I can't do anything but wait? Dude, most matches in this game are against bots, and I feel like this may have increased the odds slightly. Before, I would play many matches because I wanted to play and nothing else, and now I will likely only play once every 3/8 hours, and I feel like many people will do the same. Doesn't that mean there will be more bots and fewer matches overall? I honestly don't know. I just feel like the game's player base isn't big enough for such a mechanic.
Anyway, I'm not a "professional" on mobile games industry, so I have no idea how common this is. At best I have read that Clash Royale has it too, so, who knows? I don't think it will work here but we must wait and see, I suppose...
That all said, If anybody has any way to cheat or skip waiting times, or only get practice bunny safes while deleting the rest that you don't want, I would really like to hear it below in the comments! Please, do share your methods! 👍
2024.05.21 15:56 Maleficent_Lab8672 Well boys this is then end for good.
Spouse was diagnosed with cancer 2 weeks ago and I've been working with the company I drive for since then to be able to keep my otr position and be home every weekend to help take care of them. They have no family within 300 miles so I'm all they got. Everything was going great we agreed to stay regional and be home Saturday and Sunday. I know and accepted that my pay would take a hit but that's ok I can survive off of 300-400 net a week. All that was left was to get FMLA so that I could take days off as needed for doctors appointments or just really bad days since I wouldn't be accumulating home time. Policy is one day per 7 continuous days out. Well insurance companies being insurance companies...they denied the fmla for....reasons I gues the one they gave was as vague as they come in regards to insurance companies but they way it was explained to me I don't qualify to even get the paperwork to send to the doctor to have filled out....guess cancer isn't good enough. So looks like I'm off to find a 9-5. It's a shame. I'm one of the companies best performers when it comes to onetime pick ups and delivery. If I have the HOS and can physically see the road I drive. They've worked really hard to meet me in the middle and I'm very appreciative of that. But, I'm not letting my spouse go through chemo to the chest alone. I feel horrible about leaving the company after taking a week off. I really liked this one. I know it's not their fault. They can't change their insurance companies policies. What's worse is where I live (southeast u.s.) they only jobs that pay worth a damn are the Korean car suppliers and they are truly horrific. Like sweat shop conditions. No ac in south alabama summer working with plastic injection machines horrible. I saw a person die of heat stroke one night. That's why I got my cdl in the first place...to get away from that. But, I need money coming in so here goes I guess. Best of luck to you guys.
submitted by Maleficent_Lab8672 to Truckers [link] [comments]
2024.05.21 15:55 Hot-West9928 Soul of a human 7
First_Previous
Again a small lore dump, on magic attributes. Hope you enjoy!
_________________________________________________________________________________
On the way to the next lesson Mor was asked °Think, I could use your magic?° by the human.
°I don´t know, maybe something to try later today° he answered. °Yeah, let's do that too.° Human agreed.
The next lesson was an interesting one, at least for the visitor from beyond, it was a lesson on the rules of magic, even if Mor and quite a few of his peers were lulled into sleep by the soothing voice of the teacher. The human, never expected, that someone could teach something so interesting in such a boring way.
...
As you all know, magic is divided into types, that are known to us as attributes.
Attributes have a positive effect on magic of the same type and a negative effect on the type opposing it. To give you an example for this a mage with fire affinity, will not be able to use higher forms of water magic. We know of the following attributes, but sometimes new ones are discovered, so this list is ever-expanding. Please pay attention now, as this will be test-relevant. We know of the elemental attributes, Fire, Earth, Water, and Wind, the manipulation attributes, Healing and Illusion and finally the royal attribute, only seen in the royal Diamond family, called Gravity.
Here I have to note, that there are spells, that are not included in any of those attributes and can be used by anyone. These are called Basic-attributed spells. Those spells include for example things like body enhancement, magic bolt, or the widely used message spell.
Now please note that the attribute distinctions are only one part, the second part is the distinction of potency of the spells. Firstly there is the single-class, moving and manipulating existing materials, you can pick fruits or use a small amount of water to water a plant, they can only do what anyone could do with their own hands and basic tools. Next up would be group-class where the material to manipulate will be supplied by the magic power and here your attributes will matter. In this class, the basic martial spells and convenience spells are located, with a strength that a small group estimated at around five people could produce with their tools. Then we get into the village-class magic and as you can surely guess those include things, that would need the manual labor of a small village, and here most of you will find yourself comfortable spellcasting. But then we go into the higher forms, here you either need a soul-bound partner with the same affinity as yourself to supply the energy demands, those are called demographic-class, and finally, there would be world-class magic, but the energy required of those could only be supplied by a whole convent of right attributed mages at least that´s the theory. Nobody was able to use a spell like that, it is purely hypothetical.
...
°Ok, that was really interesting, I would like to see what those high-class spells are capable of.° The human stated and Mor answered °Yes, but with my magic reserves, we will probably be stuck at group-class magic.° °Laaaame!° Human exclaimed. °We really need to find a way to get you more magic... This is just stupid.°
°Well it would help if it is possible for you to also cast spells. Then we could be much faster in using magic.° Mor thought. °Well, only a few more hours and we can test that, at home.°
°You´re right.° the human agreed.
With this, both of them either suffered or excitedly listened through the following lessons, and Mor having a peaceful lunch break. At last as peaceful, as it can be with a human trying to move random body parts and cursing about how hard it was. Mor finally made them stop after he was made to involuntary open his hand, and drop his juice. But without the acute danger of the bullies, it was very nice for a change, if a bit lonely. But still much better than before, the only bad thing about the bonding with the human was, that his body ached after the human moved it so violently, but it would pass, he was sure of that.
Finally, after lessons ended, Mor acquired something for supper and retreated to his room, carefully locking the door and at the insistence of the human enhancing the lock with a simple spell to make the lock and door more sturdy.
After they finally "guarded" their room right, Mor refusing to add some "surprises" for anyone opening the door. They sat down on the bed and began with what they discussed.
°I want to try using magic first.° The human opened. °Moving your body is hella exhausting.°
°Yes, let´s try it. First, just concentrate on the magic inside our body and make it flow.° Mor guided the human. °How do I concentrate on the magic?° The question came and Mor explained further. °You have to feel the potential within and then concentrate on it.°
After a short while the human stated °Is it bad, that I can´t feel any potential or whatever? Maybe just go like this and yes I think I feel something flow!° Mor felt elated, now they could cast two spells even with his meager energy reserves. °Great! Now concentrate on the pillow and imagine it fluffing itself up.° And once again the human tried, but nothing would happen. °Huh? Why is nothing happening? I feel something flowing and all.° They asked. °I don´t know, I´m telling you what I was told when I started with the magic. What my parents taught me.° Mor answered.
°Speaking of your parents, you have magic communication. Why is that message taking so long to reach them? Shouldn´t that be instantaneous?° The human asked.
Mor sighed °Your understanding is screwed up, how would you even think that? Message magic is simple, so you need to have a view on your recipient or it won't work.°
°Well, we have some stories in our world, with magic settings and shit, and there it is always super handy and can do just about anything. While here it is tedious and full of "that´s not how it works".° The human sounded disappointed.
°Well let´s get back on track and let me try some more. Maybe you could watch the flow of your energy, then tell me if I do something right.° Human offered and Mor nodded. Like that, they tried, but Mor could not detect any movement in the energies within him. °This is not working.° Mor stated, and the human had to reluctantly agree.
°So we are left with trying to let me do the body movement... Not ideal, but well let´s try something from my world. Take deep breaths and relax, only concentrate on your breathing.° The human instructed and Mor followed the directions and slowly felt his body moving, doing everything in his power to not intervene and only concentrate on his breathing until finally the human let out a satisfied grunt.
°Yes that is better, it is still hard, but now I´m just moving something I´m not accustomed to, instead of fighting you.° The human sounded pretty happy and Mor was too, but a quick glance at the clock in his room let both of them decide to get some sleep. Being late for class and tired would not be good.
Mor awoke the next morning to a world of pain, his whole body just hurt. °What is this, it hurts!°
°I don´t know! I did nothing while you were asleep!°
°You must have! Why else would it be like this?° Mor scolded the human.
°Don´t get snippy with me! I will slap you! And with your own hand no less!° They countered.
°And why I´m the only one in pain, that is unfair!° Mor complained.
°Why would you think that? I feel the pain too, it´s just not as bad as you say. You are just a little wuss.° The human said.
°I´m no wuss, I never had this kind of pain before!° Mor grumbled.
°Really? If I had to describe it it feels just like a little soreness in the muscles... Ah! Maybe, me moving your body is more stressful, than you moving your own. Even if you are distracted you subconsciously try to fight my control. That would make sense, but we can´t know for sure.° Human theorized.
°Really? And now? If this is what happens this is not acceptable!° Mor was still whining.
°Well easy, we will test your theory, that you can´t train your bodies, because, with this new development, I smell bullshit and laziness. Time to train and limber up!° Mor whinced at that exclamation of the human. °We will do nothing like that!° He exclaimed.
°We will, and I will force you if I need to.° The human stated matter of factly. °I hate you.° Mor grumbled.
°Yes. Yes! Let the hate flow through you!° The human snickered. °Still, I won´t let you just opt out without trying!°
submitted by Hot-West9928 to HFY [link] [comments]
Again a small lore dump, on magic attributes. Hope you enjoy!
_________________________________________________________________________________
On the way to the next lesson Mor was asked °Think, I could use your magic?° by the human.
°I don´t know, maybe something to try later today° he answered. °Yeah, let's do that too.° Human agreed.
The next lesson was an interesting one, at least for the visitor from beyond, it was a lesson on the rules of magic, even if Mor and quite a few of his peers were lulled into sleep by the soothing voice of the teacher. The human, never expected, that someone could teach something so interesting in such a boring way.
...
As you all know, magic is divided into types, that are known to us as attributes.
Attributes have a positive effect on magic of the same type and a negative effect on the type opposing it. To give you an example for this a mage with fire affinity, will not be able to use higher forms of water magic. We know of the following attributes, but sometimes new ones are discovered, so this list is ever-expanding. Please pay attention now, as this will be test-relevant. We know of the elemental attributes, Fire, Earth, Water, and Wind, the manipulation attributes, Healing and Illusion and finally the royal attribute, only seen in the royal Diamond family, called Gravity.
Here I have to note, that there are spells, that are not included in any of those attributes and can be used by anyone. These are called Basic-attributed spells. Those spells include for example things like body enhancement, magic bolt, or the widely used message spell.
Now please note that the attribute distinctions are only one part, the second part is the distinction of potency of the spells. Firstly there is the single-class, moving and manipulating existing materials, you can pick fruits or use a small amount of water to water a plant, they can only do what anyone could do with their own hands and basic tools. Next up would be group-class where the material to manipulate will be supplied by the magic power and here your attributes will matter. In this class, the basic martial spells and convenience spells are located, with a strength that a small group estimated at around five people could produce with their tools. Then we get into the village-class magic and as you can surely guess those include things, that would need the manual labor of a small village, and here most of you will find yourself comfortable spellcasting. But then we go into the higher forms, here you either need a soul-bound partner with the same affinity as yourself to supply the energy demands, those are called demographic-class, and finally, there would be world-class magic, but the energy required of those could only be supplied by a whole convent of right attributed mages at least that´s the theory. Nobody was able to use a spell like that, it is purely hypothetical.
...
°Ok, that was really interesting, I would like to see what those high-class spells are capable of.° The human stated and Mor answered °Yes, but with my magic reserves, we will probably be stuck at group-class magic.° °Laaaame!° Human exclaimed. °We really need to find a way to get you more magic... This is just stupid.°
°Well it would help if it is possible for you to also cast spells. Then we could be much faster in using magic.° Mor thought. °Well, only a few more hours and we can test that, at home.°
°You´re right.° the human agreed.
With this, both of them either suffered or excitedly listened through the following lessons, and Mor having a peaceful lunch break. At last as peaceful, as it can be with a human trying to move random body parts and cursing about how hard it was. Mor finally made them stop after he was made to involuntary open his hand, and drop his juice. But without the acute danger of the bullies, it was very nice for a change, if a bit lonely. But still much better than before, the only bad thing about the bonding with the human was, that his body ached after the human moved it so violently, but it would pass, he was sure of that.
Finally, after lessons ended, Mor acquired something for supper and retreated to his room, carefully locking the door and at the insistence of the human enhancing the lock with a simple spell to make the lock and door more sturdy.
After they finally "guarded" their room right, Mor refusing to add some "surprises" for anyone opening the door. They sat down on the bed and began with what they discussed.
°I want to try using magic first.° The human opened. °Moving your body is hella exhausting.°
°Yes, let´s try it. First, just concentrate on the magic inside our body and make it flow.° Mor guided the human. °How do I concentrate on the magic?° The question came and Mor explained further. °You have to feel the potential within and then concentrate on it.°
After a short while the human stated °Is it bad, that I can´t feel any potential or whatever? Maybe just go like this and yes I think I feel something flow!° Mor felt elated, now they could cast two spells even with his meager energy reserves. °Great! Now concentrate on the pillow and imagine it fluffing itself up.° And once again the human tried, but nothing would happen. °Huh? Why is nothing happening? I feel something flowing and all.° They asked. °I don´t know, I´m telling you what I was told when I started with the magic. What my parents taught me.° Mor answered.
°Speaking of your parents, you have magic communication. Why is that message taking so long to reach them? Shouldn´t that be instantaneous?° The human asked.
Mor sighed °Your understanding is screwed up, how would you even think that? Message magic is simple, so you need to have a view on your recipient or it won't work.°
°Well, we have some stories in our world, with magic settings and shit, and there it is always super handy and can do just about anything. While here it is tedious and full of "that´s not how it works".° The human sounded disappointed.
°Well let´s get back on track and let me try some more. Maybe you could watch the flow of your energy, then tell me if I do something right.° Human offered and Mor nodded. Like that, they tried, but Mor could not detect any movement in the energies within him. °This is not working.° Mor stated, and the human had to reluctantly agree.
°So we are left with trying to let me do the body movement... Not ideal, but well let´s try something from my world. Take deep breaths and relax, only concentrate on your breathing.° The human instructed and Mor followed the directions and slowly felt his body moving, doing everything in his power to not intervene and only concentrate on his breathing until finally the human let out a satisfied grunt.
°Yes that is better, it is still hard, but now I´m just moving something I´m not accustomed to, instead of fighting you.° The human sounded pretty happy and Mor was too, but a quick glance at the clock in his room let both of them decide to get some sleep. Being late for class and tired would not be good.
Mor awoke the next morning to a world of pain, his whole body just hurt. °What is this, it hurts!°
°I don´t know! I did nothing while you were asleep!°
°You must have! Why else would it be like this?° Mor scolded the human.
°Don´t get snippy with me! I will slap you! And with your own hand no less!° They countered.
°And why I´m the only one in pain, that is unfair!° Mor complained.
°Why would you think that? I feel the pain too, it´s just not as bad as you say. You are just a little wuss.° The human said.
°I´m no wuss, I never had this kind of pain before!° Mor grumbled.
°Really? If I had to describe it it feels just like a little soreness in the muscles... Ah! Maybe, me moving your body is more stressful, than you moving your own. Even if you are distracted you subconsciously try to fight my control. That would make sense, but we can´t know for sure.° Human theorized.
°Really? And now? If this is what happens this is not acceptable!° Mor was still whining.
°Well easy, we will test your theory, that you can´t train your bodies, because, with this new development, I smell bullshit and laziness. Time to train and limber up!° Mor whinced at that exclamation of the human. °We will do nothing like that!° He exclaimed.
°We will, and I will force you if I need to.° The human stated matter of factly. °I hate you.° Mor grumbled.
°Yes. Yes! Let the hate flow through you!° The human snickered. °Still, I won´t let you just opt out without trying!°
2024.05.21 15:51 BulletproofBean I (35F) am just realising how Narc my mam is after being detached enough to see it.
I’ve moved out of my mams 3 times in total since being in my teens. After the first and second time, I moved back home until I met my now Fiancé and we moved in together once we’d been in the relationship a year.
It’s been 9 years since I moved out for good and I now have 4yr old twin girls of my own, pets, a career, social life, house to run etc. My mam still works full time too and so we’re both busy and although we live down the road from one another, we now often go a couple of weeks without seeing one another. This is usually because I get sick of having to work around her weekend schedule and drag the kids round to see her (when they don’t want to) and she never makes the effort to come here.
Having the proper time apart and not seeing her at least 2-3 times a week has really made me re-evaluate growing up.
I am the eldest of 4 siblings (32M, 28F, 26M) and I’m called “the second mam”. One of my brothers even lives with me due to MH and addiction issues (he’s clean - kids come first). They often recall how much I did for them growing up and how close they all are to me. They trust me with everything, more than my mam and know I’ll always have their back.
Mam went back to college and then university to be a nurse when I was just starting secondary school age 11. She had long study periods and also picked up shift work as a student to help with money, either overnight or on a weekend. Hats off to her for bettering herself for her and her family - I absolutely cannot slate her for that.
What really really gets me, is, when my siblings talk about how much I was there for them, helping raise them (dad worked away all week and was only home Friday & Saturday night♥️), cooking for them, bathing them, putting them to bed, getting them ready for school, helping with homework, helping them when sick during the night, cleaning their wounds, talking to them when they felt sad or alone……all the things a parent should do, mam tells us all I didn’t do any of it 😳 I also (no exaggeration here) did ALL ironing on Sunday afternoon (so 6 people’s worth), almost all of the housework and look after the dog. If I didn’t, I was brandished a lazy bitch. My entire close family (grandparents, aunts, uncles, cousins, close friends) all remember how I literally didn’t stop even when mam was at home! The kids on the street used to make fun of me and say “can’t stay and play? Got to watch the kids?” My best friend (friends 33yrs) despises my mam for taking away my teenage years as I wasn’t allowed to stay out anywhere - if I did, I got “well, you need to be back early in the morning as you’ve housework to do”. Even though she was off!
The issue I have, is how she literally says to me and my siblings, “I did it all myself when I was your ages. Worked, went to uni, looked after the 4 of you and kept this house immaculate all myself with no help”. WHAT?! If one of us dares to suggest that I did a lot to help, she hits the roof and denies it so maliciously “HA YOOUUU must have hit your head then SWEETHEART because your memories are very wrong aren’t they?!” And stuff like that. All of this because my sister asked for help during half term with my niece 😳😂. Mam bleated and barked on about how she was soooo busy and always flat out with everything because she had no help during the week (she even took my weekends!!!).
Anyway, honestly I just needed to get this written down somewhere as it’s been driving me mad and I don’t want to cause real life arguments. Apologies for the formatting, I am on my phone 😊 Thank you x
submitted by BulletproofBean to raisedbynarcissists [link] [comments]
It’s been 9 years since I moved out for good and I now have 4yr old twin girls of my own, pets, a career, social life, house to run etc. My mam still works full time too and so we’re both busy and although we live down the road from one another, we now often go a couple of weeks without seeing one another. This is usually because I get sick of having to work around her weekend schedule and drag the kids round to see her (when they don’t want to) and she never makes the effort to come here.
Having the proper time apart and not seeing her at least 2-3 times a week has really made me re-evaluate growing up.
I am the eldest of 4 siblings (32M, 28F, 26M) and I’m called “the second mam”. One of my brothers even lives with me due to MH and addiction issues (he’s clean - kids come first). They often recall how much I did for them growing up and how close they all are to me. They trust me with everything, more than my mam and know I’ll always have their back.
Mam went back to college and then university to be a nurse when I was just starting secondary school age 11. She had long study periods and also picked up shift work as a student to help with money, either overnight or on a weekend. Hats off to her for bettering herself for her and her family - I absolutely cannot slate her for that.
What really really gets me, is, when my siblings talk about how much I was there for them, helping raise them (dad worked away all week and was only home Friday & Saturday night♥️), cooking for them, bathing them, putting them to bed, getting them ready for school, helping with homework, helping them when sick during the night, cleaning their wounds, talking to them when they felt sad or alone……all the things a parent should do, mam tells us all I didn’t do any of it 😳 I also (no exaggeration here) did ALL ironing on Sunday afternoon (so 6 people’s worth), almost all of the housework and look after the dog. If I didn’t, I was brandished a lazy bitch. My entire close family (grandparents, aunts, uncles, cousins, close friends) all remember how I literally didn’t stop even when mam was at home! The kids on the street used to make fun of me and say “can’t stay and play? Got to watch the kids?” My best friend (friends 33yrs) despises my mam for taking away my teenage years as I wasn’t allowed to stay out anywhere - if I did, I got “well, you need to be back early in the morning as you’ve housework to do”. Even though she was off!
The issue I have, is how she literally says to me and my siblings, “I did it all myself when I was your ages. Worked, went to uni, looked after the 4 of you and kept this house immaculate all myself with no help”. WHAT?! If one of us dares to suggest that I did a lot to help, she hits the roof and denies it so maliciously “HA YOOUUU must have hit your head then SWEETHEART because your memories are very wrong aren’t they?!” And stuff like that. All of this because my sister asked for help during half term with my niece 😳😂. Mam bleated and barked on about how she was soooo busy and always flat out with everything because she had no help during the week (she even took my weekends!!!).
Anyway, honestly I just needed to get this written down somewhere as it’s been driving me mad and I don’t want to cause real life arguments. Apologies for the formatting, I am on my phone 😊 Thank you x
2024.05.21 15:48 im-sorry-officer The Singularity
I've double checked this subreddits rules and im sure im not breaking any rules, i don't mean this post to be salt as i don't play this killer and this isn't a question (mods please let me know if/how i break the rules so i can reformat this). okay with the disclaimers out of the way, the singularity desperately needs a rework. this is one of my favorite killers in concept because I love the idea of a security killer, however the singularity is objectively bad. I have come up with an idea to fix it and keep things fair (im a killer main so expect i won't be as fair as i should so i welcome brainstorming in the comments!)
1.Cut down the number of cameras to four (keeping things fair for the coming buffs)
2.Only four EMPs spawn
3.EMPs no longer remove slipstream it now has a 1.5-minute lifespan
4.EMPs now blind bio pods and the effect can only be cleared by removing the bio pod
5.The time it takes to teleport gets increased by half a second
6.Shooting a bio pod at a survivor now gives them slipstream
7.A bloodstain shows where/when the singularity is looking in the bio pod (this could already be a thing I'm not sure since nobody plays the singularity for me to find out)
8.The singularity can see the slipstreamed survivor auras
This should be (IMO) enough to make The Singularity playable without being unfair, I tried to make the EMP feel more Nemesis/Mastermind instead of its current status making the killer's power useless. Again, I welcome comments and i can't wait to brainstorm with you all! (even if it's all for naught lol)
submitted by im-sorry-officer to DeadByDaylightKillers [link] [comments]
1.Cut down the number of cameras to four (keeping things fair for the coming buffs)
2.Only four EMPs spawn
3.EMPs no longer remove slipstream it now has a 1.5-minute lifespan
4.EMPs now blind bio pods and the effect can only be cleared by removing the bio pod
5.The time it takes to teleport gets increased by half a second
6.Shooting a bio pod at a survivor now gives them slipstream
7.A bloodstain shows where/when the singularity is looking in the bio pod (this could already be a thing I'm not sure since nobody plays the singularity for me to find out)
8.The singularity can see the slipstreamed survivor auras
This should be (IMO) enough to make The Singularity playable without being unfair, I tried to make the EMP feel more Nemesis/Mastermind instead of its current status making the killer's power useless. Again, I welcome comments and i can't wait to brainstorm with you all! (even if it's all for naught lol)
2024.05.21 15:47 landlocked_throwaway The Sadness is On Me
As the child of middle-American white people, the kind of family that forgot who they were and where they came from once they got here, almost my entire life has been a search for identity. Not in the angsty teenage sense that found so many of us stoned in suburban basements trading minor, unoriginal insights as glorious revelations from barely dipping our toes in the real world. I've never been able to find much out about my paternal lineage, but the past decade or so I'd thrown myself hard into the Irish identity of my mother's family. They aren't overtly or openly Irish, but at least the lineage is apparent and traceable. At times, that identity has given perspective, purpose, and meaning, like the uncomfortable "White Privilege" political discourses at Thanksgiving. Y'know, fun shit like that.
Like a lot of people, I grew up in some fucked up things. I don't think it's of any particular use to itemize or describe those circumstances but I've known much of violence, violation, and a variance of heartbreak. These things are not unique to me.
I've struggled relentlessly with self-worth for most of my life. Since my early childhood. I cannot say it's entirely bad, but I suppose the wonderful times (which have truly been wonderful; I've been afforded some experiences lots of people haven't in life) are still outweighed by the negative. The dark parts are markedly dark and abundant. In the midst of this self-discovery journey, I held out hope for a long time that I would make it back home. Back to see Ireland, the Small Sea...visit the East End of Glasgow to see where my family fled, before they made the trans-Atlantic journey to lose themselves in American identity. Venture to Northern Ireland to see the H-Block, where James Sands starved himself in protest against English occupation. Purpose and dignity in the harsh Atlantic seaboard, where it can be said that there's no sadness quite like a Celtic sadness.
I think of this often when I think about the English word 'home' and the layers of meaning it conjures. How we tie it not just to a building, but to family. Warmth, comfort, safety and security. Those sentiments can all come sprawling forth from those four letters. In Irish Gaelic, there are probably four or five different words for this based on context, and I remember how difficult I found Irish at first because there is no possessive verb meaning 'to have'; things are either at, on, or with you. In English, the word 'sorry' comes from 'sorrow', or more specifically being full of sorrow on account of oneself. Colloquialism and the evolution of language brought us a more direct way to apologize in both menial day-to-day interaction and times we genuinely must feel awful for what we've done. English is like that, full of matter-of-fact efficiency.
To say "I'm sorry" in Irish now, you would say "tá brón orm", which I guess most literally translates to say "sadness is on me". To say you were sad at the moment, you would say "tá mé brónach", more literally "I am sadness".
I think a lot about Ireland lately. You cannot run away from your problems entirely, no, but I do think you can change your environment. I think about history, of people repeatedly forced into economic exile for centuries, losing their language and constantly occupied by foreign rule. There's been a melancholy in how I exist that probably owes a great deal to this lineage but I've failed to see it, much less harness it. I wish I'd taken a more particular and driven interest in the language before it was too late, especially as I don't think there's a more accurate description of what I feel but for how the Irish say 'sorry'.
The sadness is on me.
In Scottish Gaelic, the word 'cianalas' is one of nostalgia, of profound longing and homesickness...in Welsh, 'hiraeth'. In English, the sappy and sentimental of whom I find myself amongst often liken the word 'home' to people. We find a home in someone, in a person who purposefully made a space for us in the last place we expect to find it. There was a time when I had found this. I was too cocky, too smart for my own good, too sure I'd outgrown the fucked up that I'd come from. I thought I fell too far from it to let the wood rot of my family tree creep in.
I didn't just lose my home. There were no tragic circumstances. I acted poorly, disgracefully, selfishly and in bathed in a darkness inside me I never knew I was capable of. I didn't just lose my home, I set it aflame and burned it to nothing, kicking about in the ashes after and I've still got the nerve to live each day tinged with a deeper grief and sadness than I never knew existed. In this life, I am both the Irish and the English.
The sadness is on me.
It's no longer a profound sadness that longs for the fogged beauty of inland bog or rocky sea shore, or the beautiful person who rivaled such wonder. It's a sadness that aches, that has outpaced time to settle deep in my bones before father time could take my joints. It taunts me to look at what I've done, what I've become, in a dark home with dusty mirrors. Stalks me while I walk my dog. It tells me that everything in the world is a loaded gun in my hands and to use it on myself before hurt someone else again. It tells me that I still have potential and that I will waste it all.
I have been a liar, a cheater, a disgrace. I have acted in direct defiance of everything I thought I believed and I never knew I was capable. I don't know of any other way to fix this.
The sadness is on me.
submitted by landlocked_throwaway to SuicideWatch [link] [comments]
Like a lot of people, I grew up in some fucked up things. I don't think it's of any particular use to itemize or describe those circumstances but I've known much of violence, violation, and a variance of heartbreak. These things are not unique to me.
I've struggled relentlessly with self-worth for most of my life. Since my early childhood. I cannot say it's entirely bad, but I suppose the wonderful times (which have truly been wonderful; I've been afforded some experiences lots of people haven't in life) are still outweighed by the negative. The dark parts are markedly dark and abundant. In the midst of this self-discovery journey, I held out hope for a long time that I would make it back home. Back to see Ireland, the Small Sea...visit the East End of Glasgow to see where my family fled, before they made the trans-Atlantic journey to lose themselves in American identity. Venture to Northern Ireland to see the H-Block, where James Sands starved himself in protest against English occupation. Purpose and dignity in the harsh Atlantic seaboard, where it can be said that there's no sadness quite like a Celtic sadness.
I think of this often when I think about the English word 'home' and the layers of meaning it conjures. How we tie it not just to a building, but to family. Warmth, comfort, safety and security. Those sentiments can all come sprawling forth from those four letters. In Irish Gaelic, there are probably four or five different words for this based on context, and I remember how difficult I found Irish at first because there is no possessive verb meaning 'to have'; things are either at, on, or with you. In English, the word 'sorry' comes from 'sorrow', or more specifically being full of sorrow on account of oneself. Colloquialism and the evolution of language brought us a more direct way to apologize in both menial day-to-day interaction and times we genuinely must feel awful for what we've done. English is like that, full of matter-of-fact efficiency.
To say "I'm sorry" in Irish now, you would say "tá brón orm", which I guess most literally translates to say "sadness is on me". To say you were sad at the moment, you would say "tá mé brónach", more literally "I am sadness".
I think a lot about Ireland lately. You cannot run away from your problems entirely, no, but I do think you can change your environment. I think about history, of people repeatedly forced into economic exile for centuries, losing their language and constantly occupied by foreign rule. There's been a melancholy in how I exist that probably owes a great deal to this lineage but I've failed to see it, much less harness it. I wish I'd taken a more particular and driven interest in the language before it was too late, especially as I don't think there's a more accurate description of what I feel but for how the Irish say 'sorry'.
The sadness is on me.
In Scottish Gaelic, the word 'cianalas' is one of nostalgia, of profound longing and homesickness...in Welsh, 'hiraeth'. In English, the sappy and sentimental of whom I find myself amongst often liken the word 'home' to people. We find a home in someone, in a person who purposefully made a space for us in the last place we expect to find it. There was a time when I had found this. I was too cocky, too smart for my own good, too sure I'd outgrown the fucked up that I'd come from. I thought I fell too far from it to let the wood rot of my family tree creep in.
I didn't just lose my home. There were no tragic circumstances. I acted poorly, disgracefully, selfishly and in bathed in a darkness inside me I never knew I was capable of. I didn't just lose my home, I set it aflame and burned it to nothing, kicking about in the ashes after and I've still got the nerve to live each day tinged with a deeper grief and sadness than I never knew existed. In this life, I am both the Irish and the English.
The sadness is on me.
It's no longer a profound sadness that longs for the fogged beauty of inland bog or rocky sea shore, or the beautiful person who rivaled such wonder. It's a sadness that aches, that has outpaced time to settle deep in my bones before father time could take my joints. It taunts me to look at what I've done, what I've become, in a dark home with dusty mirrors. Stalks me while I walk my dog. It tells me that everything in the world is a loaded gun in my hands and to use it on myself before hurt someone else again. It tells me that I still have potential and that I will waste it all.
I have been a liar, a cheater, a disgrace. I have acted in direct defiance of everything I thought I believed and I never knew I was capable. I don't know of any other way to fix this.
The sadness is on me.
2024.05.21 15:44 Poornamana Linear Programming model - am I doing my constraints correctly?
Hi, I'm trying to create an LP model based on the below question. My current answer is below.
https://preview.redd.it/5p4vxyn2as1d1.png?width=684&format=png&auto=webp&s=e19249cf4a3cbb1f905c3b395d9f64a9babbc293
Current Answer A = x, B = y Minimize Z= 5x+15y
Constraints 6x+4y≥5 4x+8y≥5 2x+7y≤6 x+y≥150 x≥0 y≥0
I'm not sure if I've done my constraints wrong or am interpreting the graph incorrectly. My understanding is the customer requires at least 150L so the feasible and optimal region would be on the right of the purple line, but the Lime content can only be 6 so it needs to be to the left of the green line? so I've made a mistake somewhere. Any clarification would be greatly appreciated.
https://preview.redd.it/hgzryo2cas1d1.png?width=1278&format=png&auto=webp&s=b52ad58eb0a9d34c9ae0a8b020531d7d8cb8e8e7
submitted by Poornamana to askmath [link] [comments]
https://preview.redd.it/5p4vxyn2as1d1.png?width=684&format=png&auto=webp&s=e19249cf4a3cbb1f905c3b395d9f64a9babbc293
Current Answer A = x, B = y Minimize Z= 5x+15y
Constraints 6x+4y≥5 4x+8y≥5 2x+7y≤6 x+y≥150 x≥0 y≥0
I'm not sure if I've done my constraints wrong or am interpreting the graph incorrectly. My understanding is the customer requires at least 150L so the feasible and optimal region would be on the right of the purple line, but the Lime content can only be 6 so it needs to be to the left of the green line? so I've made a mistake somewhere. Any clarification would be greatly appreciated.
https://preview.redd.it/hgzryo2cas1d1.png?width=1278&format=png&auto=webp&s=b52ad58eb0a9d34c9ae0a8b020531d7d8cb8e8e7
2024.05.21 15:44 Typical-Pin1646 fintel says 10,000,000 left of shares available to short.
this means that, at the price of $1.43, in injection of 14.3M of capital would have dry up the shares available to short. meaning, if you can't short, you can only LONGGGGGGGGG. LFG
submitted by Typical-Pin1646 to FFIE [link] [comments]
2024.05.21 15:39 Cali1008 New (likely) diagnosis and I have questions about swimming
TLDR: how do you deal with swimming, wet swimsuits, tight swimwear, etc?
Following four years of repeated physical trauma due to a recurring Bartholin cyst during pregnancy, five subsequent surgeries, and continued, debilitating pain at the scar and in my pelvic floor (it's so bad I can't work and spend a lot of time resting), I finally started an experimental treatment for my scar tissue, Botox injections. The first round went SO well and nearly eliminated my pain. It wore off before expected and I went back to the Derm who is working with my vulvar specialist for more injections. At this appointment she diagnosed me with likely Lichen Sclerosus. She suspects that the trauma of my cyst/treatments precipitated it and that the two issues are "feeding" one another so to speak. So as the pain in the scar was treated, the more diffuse pain from LS through my vulva/pelvic floor settled down and when the Botox wore off the LS pain flared in tandem with the scar pain. A biopsy was not done or scheduled, because no one wants to cause additional trauma to my vulva (I can't overstate how much trauma a 1 square inch area of my vulva has undergone in the last four years). So I am treating it with clob as directed with the hopes to back into a diagnosis by seeing improvement over the next 6 weeks.
All that being said, I have some questions about LIVING with lichen sclerosus. My life has been interrupted and made SO much smaller by the site specific pain at my scar. I really struggle mentally with all the physical adjustments and changes required. And now the directions for treating and dealing with LS seem like they will cause my life to shrink even more. The thing that is causing me the most distress at the moment is swimming.
I love swimming. I love my swimsuits. All I want is a vacation in Mexico and to have a swimsuit on for hours at a time, hopping in the ocean or pool, drying out in the sun afterwards, on repeat for days at a time. I know that hanging out in wet swimwear is not a great idea, really for anyone with vulva. But I always thought of it as like have your swimming/boating/laying out fun and then when you get home, take your suit off, shower and get some dry underwear or loose shorts on. Will that still be enough? Do I need to get out of wet swimwear immediately after exiting the water? And will the snugness of a standard swimsuit irritate me further? What does everyone wear to swim in? Is there some super fast-drying brand that would be helpful or a specific sort of cut/bottom that is most accommodating? If there's no flare or symptoms can I just act as I would have before all of these vulvar issues? Any personal experiences and tips for success in this area would be so appreciated!
In the grand scheme of things, I know this question may seem superficial, but with all the changes I've had to make to accommodate my injuries, healing, and changed anatomy, it feels so devastating that it might be entirely inadvisable for me to just go float in a pool this summer (or ever again). And deeply ironic since swimming and water is one of the things that relaxes me the most and is SO good for my mental and physical health.
submitted by Cali1008 to lichensclerosus [link] [comments]
Following four years of repeated physical trauma due to a recurring Bartholin cyst during pregnancy, five subsequent surgeries, and continued, debilitating pain at the scar and in my pelvic floor (it's so bad I can't work and spend a lot of time resting), I finally started an experimental treatment for my scar tissue, Botox injections. The first round went SO well and nearly eliminated my pain. It wore off before expected and I went back to the Derm who is working with my vulvar specialist for more injections. At this appointment she diagnosed me with likely Lichen Sclerosus. She suspects that the trauma of my cyst/treatments precipitated it and that the two issues are "feeding" one another so to speak. So as the pain in the scar was treated, the more diffuse pain from LS through my vulva/pelvic floor settled down and when the Botox wore off the LS pain flared in tandem with the scar pain. A biopsy was not done or scheduled, because no one wants to cause additional trauma to my vulva (I can't overstate how much trauma a 1 square inch area of my vulva has undergone in the last four years). So I am treating it with clob as directed with the hopes to back into a diagnosis by seeing improvement over the next 6 weeks.
All that being said, I have some questions about LIVING with lichen sclerosus. My life has been interrupted and made SO much smaller by the site specific pain at my scar. I really struggle mentally with all the physical adjustments and changes required. And now the directions for treating and dealing with LS seem like they will cause my life to shrink even more. The thing that is causing me the most distress at the moment is swimming.
I love swimming. I love my swimsuits. All I want is a vacation in Mexico and to have a swimsuit on for hours at a time, hopping in the ocean or pool, drying out in the sun afterwards, on repeat for days at a time. I know that hanging out in wet swimwear is not a great idea, really for anyone with vulva. But I always thought of it as like have your swimming/boating/laying out fun and then when you get home, take your suit off, shower and get some dry underwear or loose shorts on. Will that still be enough? Do I need to get out of wet swimwear immediately after exiting the water? And will the snugness of a standard swimsuit irritate me further? What does everyone wear to swim in? Is there some super fast-drying brand that would be helpful or a specific sort of cut/bottom that is most accommodating? If there's no flare or symptoms can I just act as I would have before all of these vulvar issues? Any personal experiences and tips for success in this area would be so appreciated!
In the grand scheme of things, I know this question may seem superficial, but with all the changes I've had to make to accommodate my injuries, healing, and changed anatomy, it feels so devastating that it might be entirely inadvisable for me to just go float in a pool this summer (or ever again). And deeply ironic since swimming and water is one of the things that relaxes me the most and is SO good for my mental and physical health.
2024.05.21 15:37 Wooden-Dig-9652 LMNT?
Any of my UK pots, use anything other then LMNT and where to get I like them but so long ordering them, anything you can recommend as a alternative, also does having salts and LMNT affect your high hr I know when I don’t have salts my RHR and Stsnding HR is much higher then when I have them, in the heat in Manchester at the moment it’s not good so much humidity and pressure in the air
submitted by Wooden-Dig-9652 to POTS [link] [comments]
2024.05.21 15:33 Solid_Lem Plateau
HW 497 SW 440 CW 346 GW 210 Height: 6'1"
SURGERY DATE Sept 2023
I started this process November 2022 and lost 60 pounds in 10 months leading up to my surgery. I have since gone on to lose about 90 pounds since surgery but have been plateauing since early March. I've increased my exercise a bit, have tightened up my diet and still am not seeing any loss. I understand plateauing is part of the process but since I still have another 140 to go, I want to start seeing progress again. Anybody have tips on breaking through plateau? I know there are tons of plateau posts but wanted to post my specific info to see if anyone can see where I could make changes. Diet and exercise below.
(EXERCISE) 30 minute brisk walk first thing in morning
Breakfast: 1 egg 20 oz water
Mid morning: Premier Protein
Lunch: 2oz meat (either chicken breast or turkey usually), 1 tablespoon of cottage cheese 20 oz water
(EXERCISE) .5 mile walk during lunch break
Snack: 1/3 cup lightly salted almonds, premier protein
Dinner: 2oz meat, 1/3 cup of veggie (usually broccoli or cauliflower) 20 oz water
(EXERCISE) 15-20 minutes of resistance band training
Total water throughout day is usually 60-80 oz
I take the bariatric multivitamin and calcium citrate.
I understand plateaus are part of the process but since I'm going on a 3 months now, it's starting to get super frustrating. Any place people can see where changes could be made? Thank you!
Edited to add the rest of my water.
submitted by Solid_Lem to BariatricSurgery [link] [comments]
SURGERY DATE Sept 2023
I started this process November 2022 and lost 60 pounds in 10 months leading up to my surgery. I have since gone on to lose about 90 pounds since surgery but have been plateauing since early March. I've increased my exercise a bit, have tightened up my diet and still am not seeing any loss. I understand plateauing is part of the process but since I still have another 140 to go, I want to start seeing progress again. Anybody have tips on breaking through plateau? I know there are tons of plateau posts but wanted to post my specific info to see if anyone can see where I could make changes. Diet and exercise below.
(EXERCISE) 30 minute brisk walk first thing in morning
Breakfast: 1 egg 20 oz water
Mid morning: Premier Protein
Lunch: 2oz meat (either chicken breast or turkey usually), 1 tablespoon of cottage cheese 20 oz water
(EXERCISE) .5 mile walk during lunch break
Snack: 1/3 cup lightly salted almonds, premier protein
Dinner: 2oz meat, 1/3 cup of veggie (usually broccoli or cauliflower) 20 oz water
(EXERCISE) 15-20 minutes of resistance band training
Total water throughout day is usually 60-80 oz
I take the bariatric multivitamin and calcium citrate.
I understand plateaus are part of the process but since I'm going on a 3 months now, it's starting to get super frustrating. Any place people can see where changes could be made? Thank you!
Edited to add the rest of my water.
2024.05.21 15:33 Commercial_Week_8394 Will I Ever Run Again? MRI Findings
Background: 30 year old female competitive long course triathlete. First tore that meniscus in April 2022. Returned to racing September 2022. Pain onset this time June 2023. Stopped running October 2023. I've had pain ever since June. The scan I attached was from November 2023 - I had one in April 2024 which says much the same but adds large areas of full thickness articular cartilage loss. My knee pretty ok to walk and cycle, but never really feels "normal", and the moment I hop or try to run, or go up stairs, I have instant pain anterior medially. Tried a hyaluronic acid which did nothing for me... I'm a nurse for work, so on my feet a decent amount.
Do you think I'll ever be pain free? Do you think my knee can get better? Do you think I'll ever run again? Or compete again? Or now that the meniscus has torn, the cartilage has worn down, the bone is therefore exposed to higher loads and I'm doomed to be on the one-way road of irreversible knee degeneration and pain?
I've pushed my body hard over the years, and expected to have to retire from sport at some point, just not this soon. Or I thought there would be cures for this stuff by the time I started having problems...
Yes I have seen a sports physician, ortho, and currently see a physiotherapist. Sports Dr and physio say it should improve. Physio says I should 100% get better and will be able to return to competing. While I appreciate his belief and optimism, and I need that, it's just weighing on my mind that after almost a year it's not gotten better :( I'm wondering if I need to adjust my expectations/goals...
What do you guys make of all this? I realise it's near impossible to make accurate diagnosis/predictions based on the information I've given you, and I will be taking responses with a grain of salt. But I'm getting desperate and am keen to hear anyone's opinion nowadays (especially if it can give me some hope).
Thanks for reading
submitted by Commercial_Week_8394 to Kneesovertoes [link] [comments]
Do you think I'll ever be pain free? Do you think my knee can get better? Do you think I'll ever run again? Or compete again? Or now that the meniscus has torn, the cartilage has worn down, the bone is therefore exposed to higher loads and I'm doomed to be on the one-way road of irreversible knee degeneration and pain?
I've pushed my body hard over the years, and expected to have to retire from sport at some point, just not this soon. Or I thought there would be cures for this stuff by the time I started having problems...
Yes I have seen a sports physician, ortho, and currently see a physiotherapist. Sports Dr and physio say it should improve. Physio says I should 100% get better and will be able to return to competing. While I appreciate his belief and optimism, and I need that, it's just weighing on my mind that after almost a year it's not gotten better :( I'm wondering if I need to adjust my expectations/goals...
What do you guys make of all this? I realise it's near impossible to make accurate diagnosis/predictions based on the information I've given you, and I will be taking responses with a grain of salt. But I'm getting desperate and am keen to hear anyone's opinion nowadays (especially if it can give me some hope).
Thanks for reading
2024.05.21 15:32 Ok_Orchid_8553 How tf do I write a thesis with shitty mental health
I have 12 weeks left. I feel like I am working on it constantly, but I have a lot of bad days where I don't get shit done. I can't speed up the process because I have too many days where I just feel like shit. But there is a shit ton of work left to do. I started in january and what I accomplished is the code to get the data needed. What's left to do is run the code, evaluate the data, get a deeper understanding of the literature and write the whole ass thesis.
What doesn't help is the fact that I don't really care for the topic I am writing about. I just want the degree to get work and stop being financially miserable.
I think it is tight even for a mentally well person. But since I started this my brain got worse and worse and I just can't work with it right now. I feel doomed and presented with an impossible task. But quitting would really look shitty on my cv. I would've wasted a lot of time.
I am in a local thesis-writing peer support group, I use the free counselling sessions from uni and I went to a writing workshop. But that does not help when I lay in bed every single morning unable to get my body to move. My brain is just in pain most of the time and I can not concentrate. Waiting lists for therapy are too long at this point. Should I go see a doctor for meds? I never did that before and I heard it takes a while until you find what works for you and I don't think this is the time for experiments.
submitted by Ok_Orchid_8553 to GradSchool [link] [comments]
What doesn't help is the fact that I don't really care for the topic I am writing about. I just want the degree to get work and stop being financially miserable.
I think it is tight even for a mentally well person. But since I started this my brain got worse and worse and I just can't work with it right now. I feel doomed and presented with an impossible task. But quitting would really look shitty on my cv. I would've wasted a lot of time.
I am in a local thesis-writing peer support group, I use the free counselling sessions from uni and I went to a writing workshop. But that does not help when I lay in bed every single morning unable to get my body to move. My brain is just in pain most of the time and I can not concentrate. Waiting lists for therapy are too long at this point. Should I go see a doctor for meds? I never did that before and I heard it takes a while until you find what works for you and I don't think this is the time for experiments.
2024.05.21 15:30 idahhan 1 Week in Peru (May 2024)
 | Trip Report in May: Lima, Cusco, Pisac, Machu Picchu submitted by idahhan to travel [link] [comments]
Booking Machu Picchu site tickets
To arrive to Machu Picchu from Cusco you need to:
What time is best to visit Machu Picchu
Overall, it was an amazing trip. Next time, I would stay for two weeks and follow the EyeWitness: Peru travel book's two-week itinerary. I would also definitely do the Salkantay hike. |
2024.05.21 15:30 Angel-M007 Ladies, it's not all the Men's fault. It's yours as well. Both equally yoked.
The older I get and with being in a relationship now and also traveling outside of the world i grew up in, Its finally dawn on me. Women are just as much to blame as Men when it comes to the unrealistic standards, bad treatment and judgement we recieve.
It's not all women, of course, but man the older generation of women especially.
The negative remarks on a women's physical appearence or even her breasts come more from women I realize.
The beauty standards. Calling a woman average looking seriously? Maybe if she constantly died her hair and did her nails, waxed her eyebrows, maybe lip injections and or maybe she should try fake eyelashes she'd "look better"?
Materialistic things. So what she's got a Target purse, why does she needs a Kate Spade bag to declare her value? Leave her alone.
No morals. Your twerking on top of a car or making out with total strangers. Yeah these men gonna think your easy.
And the one that shocked me the most, the man's treatment of women. Your son thinks he should be worshipped like a god or can cheat and be "forgiven" or is never wrong because you didn't teach him any damn morals. Or how to treat women period. He can't be a man because your tit is still in his mouth. He can't keep a woman because your literally IN love with your son and can't let him go. You've no boundaries sis.
I'm not no feminist, mysgonist or whatever the hell yall throw at people for speaking facts. I'm simply a woman, a human who keeps it 💯. All this MenVsWomen crap is b.s. Your both to blame. Period. I'm done now.
TL;DR Women and Men are both equally yoked when it comes to the failings of society.
submitted by Angel-M007 to offmychest [link] [comments]
It's not all women, of course, but man the older generation of women especially.
The negative remarks on a women's physical appearence or even her breasts come more from women I realize.
The beauty standards. Calling a woman average looking seriously? Maybe if she constantly died her hair and did her nails, waxed her eyebrows, maybe lip injections and or maybe she should try fake eyelashes she'd "look better"?
Materialistic things. So what she's got a Target purse, why does she needs a Kate Spade bag to declare her value? Leave her alone.
No morals. Your twerking on top of a car or making out with total strangers. Yeah these men gonna think your easy.
And the one that shocked me the most, the man's treatment of women. Your son thinks he should be worshipped like a god or can cheat and be "forgiven" or is never wrong because you didn't teach him any damn morals. Or how to treat women period. He can't be a man because your tit is still in his mouth. He can't keep a woman because your literally IN love with your son and can't let him go. You've no boundaries sis.
I'm not no feminist, mysgonist or whatever the hell yall throw at people for speaking facts. I'm simply a woman, a human who keeps it 💯. All this MenVsWomen crap is b.s. Your both to blame. Period. I'm done now.
TL;DR Women and Men are both equally yoked when it comes to the failings of society.
2024.05.21 15:27 ToniaHarding With windows with shiny metallic blackout cling film applied is there a risk of the glass cracking due to sunlight bending/being concentrated into 1 spot? Especially sunny days in winter?
In a review of window cling film on Amazon, a customer wrote that the film broke their glass! I don't remember which product it was and I don't feel like spending the time to search for it.
The only way I can think of this happening is if the sun was especially bright that day, and the glossiness of the window cling film caused the sunglight to bend at such an angle to become concentrated and thus make a hot spot on the glass where the other areas of the glass remained relatively cool/cold. (Or maybe they just pressed to hard with the scoremetal razor tool when trying to cut the film to size.)
Should I be worried about my window on my third-floor, north-facing apartment getting cracked by sunlight being reflected by window cling film, perhaps aluminum-foil lined window cling?
I should also not that just outside my bedroom window is the fourth floor balcony, which acts as the ceiling/roof for my third floor balcony, which I'm guessing would prevent some sunlight from touching my glass, the way the brim of a baseball cap or visor would keep not all but most of the sunlight from reaching your eyeballs.
I haven't purchased any window cling film yet. So I don't know what types and brands I'll be getting. But you can type in "Window cling film" into Amazon or eBay and see many different brands.
But I'd like to get a "blinds pattern" white type (because this is the type that mimics the look of venetian blinds), and put that one on first. I'd put it on the inner side of my bedroom window. This is so that I'd be obeying my strata rules that call for all occupants to have similar-looking window treatments, so that the building looks uniform from afar. My apartment came with light (white? beige? light grey? off-white?) venetian blinds, and it appears to me that all the other residents of my building have these same blinds.
Then, in order to block out as much sunlight as possible from entering my room, as well as to block heat since I'm worried about surviving a potential heat wave, I'd put aluminum or other metallic-looking or matte black window cling film on top of it, and/or that heat-abating window cling film.
It's not just Amazon that sells these; I've seen them at brick-and-mortar hardware stores too, though they only sell the heat-abating ones, and tinted (only partial blackout; not 100% blackout), and privacy ones. I haven't seen any blinds pattern ones at my local hardware stores.
I work the night/graveyard shift. So I sleep during the day. In Canada.
submitted by ToniaHarding to Optics [link] [comments]
The only way I can think of this happening is if the sun was especially bright that day, and the glossiness of the window cling film caused the sunglight to bend at such an angle to become concentrated and thus make a hot spot on the glass where the other areas of the glass remained relatively cool/cold. (Or maybe they just pressed to hard with the scoremetal razor tool when trying to cut the film to size.)
Should I be worried about my window on my third-floor, north-facing apartment getting cracked by sunlight being reflected by window cling film, perhaps aluminum-foil lined window cling?
I should also not that just outside my bedroom window is the fourth floor balcony, which acts as the ceiling/roof for my third floor balcony, which I'm guessing would prevent some sunlight from touching my glass, the way the brim of a baseball cap or visor would keep not all but most of the sunlight from reaching your eyeballs.
I haven't purchased any window cling film yet. So I don't know what types and brands I'll be getting. But you can type in "Window cling film" into Amazon or eBay and see many different brands.
But I'd like to get a "blinds pattern" white type (because this is the type that mimics the look of venetian blinds), and put that one on first. I'd put it on the inner side of my bedroom window. This is so that I'd be obeying my strata rules that call for all occupants to have similar-looking window treatments, so that the building looks uniform from afar. My apartment came with light (white? beige? light grey? off-white?) venetian blinds, and it appears to me that all the other residents of my building have these same blinds.
Then, in order to block out as much sunlight as possible from entering my room, as well as to block heat since I'm worried about surviving a potential heat wave, I'd put aluminum or other metallic-looking or matte black window cling film on top of it, and/or that heat-abating window cling film.
It's not just Amazon that sells these; I've seen them at brick-and-mortar hardware stores too, though they only sell the heat-abating ones, and tinted (only partial blackout; not 100% blackout), and privacy ones. I haven't seen any blinds pattern ones at my local hardware stores.
I work the night/graveyard shift. So I sleep during the day. In Canada.
2024.05.21 15:24 FuturisticW [23M] Concerned About Chest Pain and Increased Heart Rate After Breakfast
Hi askdocs,
I'm a 23-year-old runner with no significant medical history. Today, after eating breakfast (oatmeal with a bit of salt and some cake), I experienced an increased heart rate (from my usual 55 bpm to around 85-95 bpm) and chest pain on the left side. This was unusual and concerning for me, and I'm wondering if it could have been due to a panic attack.
I went to the emergency room, where they conducted four EKGs and blood tests. Both came back normal, including my calcium levels. The doctor suggested that my chest pain might be due to a nerve issue in my back, possibly nerve pressure, but I didn’t get much detailed advice.
For context:
submitted by FuturisticW to AskDocs [link] [comments]
I'm a 23-year-old runner with no significant medical history. Today, after eating breakfast (oatmeal with a bit of salt and some cake), I experienced an increased heart rate (from my usual 55 bpm to around 85-95 bpm) and chest pain on the left side. This was unusual and concerning for me, and I'm wondering if it could have been due to a panic attack.
I went to the emergency room, where they conducted four EKGs and blood tests. Both came back normal, including my calcium levels. The doctor suggested that my chest pain might be due to a nerve issue in my back, possibly nerve pressure, but I didn’t get much detailed advice.
For context:
- Four hours after the ER visit, my heart rate is still elevated, and my Garmin watch shows high physical body stress, despite me doing nothing.
- I have experienced a bubbling sensation in my forearm before, which might be related.
- For about a week, I've been feeling pressure in my upper back when I walk.
- I didn’t get enough sleep last night, but otherwise, my routine has been normal.
- I’m an experienced runner and have been running for 5 years.
- Is it safe to continue exercising or should I wait?
- How should I sit to avoid aggravating the issue?
- Is it okay to sleep on my belly, or should I change my sleeping position?
2024.05.21 15:24 pohltergiest Boaty boaty mcfloaty all the way north
 | Today started gentler than expected, both of us awake before the alarm. I forgot how early first light is, already the city was waking up in the dim blue of the predawn. We brushed our teeth and got dressed and muttered about how ridiculous it was that we needed to be at the ferry terminal an hour early. They weren't going to check anything besides our tickets, but then again, we've heard worse stories about dumber technicalities. Just after 430 we were outside and a few minutes later we were away. submitted by pohltergiest to RainbowRamenRide [link] [comments] The city in the morning was mostly quiet, a few trucks rumbling on the highway. Luckily the forecasted rain had already ended, I had fully expected to have the added misery of being wet and cold to the headache of being up too early. We arrived somewhat breathless to the ferry terminal, a giant ferry awaiting us. Lines and lines of heavy trucks were waiting their turn to load while lots of cars were also waiting. Looks like everyone took the hour before rule seriously. An attendant looked at our QR codes and told us to put a sign that he gave us on our bikes and put them to the side while we waited for general boarding, which was in 45 minutes. Grumbling, we parked our bikes and went inside the terminal. The terminal was simple but clean, I double checked the reservation with someone at a computer as I had nothing better to do. Upstairs there was a small gift shop where we bought a box of cookies for our upcoming host. Seemed like we should try to get them something from a region they're not from, though I'm sure they'll appreciate the sentiment. The cookies do look tasty though. We shared a drink from a machine and stared out the window, a little dazed. Framed tourism posters were hung about the space, one for each region in Japan. I initially thought they were anime posters, but it seems that's just how ads are made. Maybe one inspired the other. Eventually it was time to board, we were the last as is usual when we're biking. We walked our bikes up the ramp to the second deck and were ushered to one side where after we had removed our bags our bikes were wrapped in blankets and secured to the wall. We thanked them and headed into the ferry. The third deck had a check in counter where we got a key to our room, which was a private room but not facing the ocean. We only wanted the room to nap in, so that was fine. The third deck had bunk rooms as well as a room where you just got a section of the floor, while the fourth deck had the private rooms, the ones facing in like ours and the more expensive ones facing out. The fifth deck had the deluxe rooms as well as the suites (which I don't think were even available to rent). We plunked down our bags and I went back to sleep. I found the rocking motion of the ship rather soothing while laying down, and settled into a light nap for a few hours. Around 830, both of us needed something to eat, so we went to explore the ship's amenities. We found the cafe, which had a disappointingly small selection of things to eat. We later would find out that the restaurant that serves breakfast did not open, probably leading to a run on the pastries. We got a cookie and coffee and sat at a table, watching the waves go by. Bryce informed me that he gets seasick around this time, leading me to ask him why he wanted to do this then. He just likes boats I guess. After breakfast we wandered around to see the amenities. We found the grill restaurant that was more expensive than we cared to spend on, a small arcade with machines from the 80's, some air hockey tables (the sports corner), a theatre with a 10am showing of Tom and Jerry, some vending machines (ice cream time), the onsens, a yellowed smoking room straight out of 1994, a business corner, and a kids corner with blocks. I wanted to play with the blocks but didn't. They would never understand. Also kids are gross and I'm sick enough already. Overall, the same as anything else we've seen in Japan, a relic of the 80's, still spotless, still running, but at 10% capacity. More employees than you can shake a stick at, all doing their very best job. I felt a little ill after writing for awhile so I went to go lay down while Bryce went to the arcade, promising to nobody in particular that he was going to wait til lunch to crack open a cold one. I said I didn't care but good luck with that as I went back to bed. Being horizontal with nowhere to go felt good for awhile. I had a lot of writing to catch up on. Towards lunch I got up and found Bryce in front of a slot machine with a strong zero in his hand. I said nothing about the pre lunch drink, but asked if he won anything. One of the machines you could spin all you like, so we did that for awhile. There was one machine that looked fun, so I played a top down shooter for awhile while Bryce tried his luck at some godawful prize machine full of dusty crap. Eventually the restaurant opened for lunch and we filed. There was a 25th anniversary ramen available, and we both got that, along with a croissant. The ramen was pretty good, I found the shio broth comforting. The croissant was because it didn't fill us up enough. After lunch I was in the mood for a bath. An onsen on a ship felt like a luxury I wanted to try and I thought it would be restful. Bryce had no interest in trying his luck at hiding his tattoos, I didn't care if I got kicked out at this point. What're they gonna do, tell me to get off at the next stop? I did what I always do, hold a hand towel over my arm and mind my business. As expected, not many people were using the bath after lunch and I had it to myself aside from a mother and her babbling toddler who only spent a few minutes there. The bath had a view of the mountains of hokkaido in the distance, and Hakodate a little closer. It was a neat sight to be in a hot open bath while watching the ocean go by. The rest of the ship was whatever but this was nice. I did a few laps of the bath and cold water, and sat in the steam room, hoping the hot air would somehow cure my ailments. I got a chance to properly wash my hair, which had become just fouled from all the road dust, sweat, and body oils that had built up. Gross. I don't usually shampoo as I don't usually need to, but once a week or so I definitely need it while on the road. After the onsen I went to go see how Bryce was doing, happily reading his book in a chair by the ocean. He accompanied me to the room to lay down for awhile, the hot water and sloshing of the rough seas making me feel a little ill again. In our room, we heard a faraway bang like we hit something. I'm sure it's nothing. The ship sure seemed like it was leaning more to one side though. We didn't do too much else for the rest of the ride, we did a few more laps of the ship trying to find more things. We did find the forward saloon, which sounds wild but is merely a room facing forward with comfy couches. Unfortunately all the windows are blocked off, so the room is a little pointless other than a private space to talk or read in a dim room. The ship overall was comfortable, but I definitely got a little nauseated from the rough seas. The ship finally docked, late, and we were let out to the open air of Hokkaido. It's a bit chilly here! I immediately noticed the change in air, it's less humid for sure. It will be a shift to go back to cool temperatures but a welcome one. Nights in the tent should be much less sticky at least! Good thing we still have our biking tights, riding in just shorts is pretty cold here in the evening. Truthfully though the cool temperatures is better for biking and I wasn't really enjoying the heat, so this is a welcome surprise. We docked at the east port of Tomakomai, which meant we had to bike into the city where we planned to stay another night. I needed another really solid sleep to finally kick this illness, so one more hotel night before we braved the wilderness south of Sapporo. We braced ourselves and headed west, directly into a heavy crosswind that was some of the steadiest and toughest wind we've seen yet. It swept right over the flat grassy areas on the coast, really reminding us of the prairies. Everything is so spread out here compared to the rest of the country, I wonder if Sapporo is like this too. After a rough push through the wind on roads that were somewhat falling apart from the truck traffic and a lack of maintenance, we got to a town about halfway. The nausea from the boat was getting to me and we were both too hungry to go further without a bite to eat. Luckily Hokkaido has their own brand of conbinis and we were more than happy to see some new products. We got their take on fried chicken, some Hokkaido grown potato wedges and some soft drinks we hadn't seen yet. The wedges were great, the chicken was good and one of the drinks was terrible. Sour bubbly water with no flavor. What's the point? Biking further into the city now, we rode over bumpy roads on very wide, very long roads designed entirely for cars in mind. Don't get me wrong the bike path was nice but the distances between buildings reminded me again of the prairies. It takes forever to get anywhere! I might find the streets of Hokkaido a little dull if things are this spread out, but then again we couldn't even scratch the surface of things before so maybe we won't feel like we're missing out as much. We stopped twice for bike parts, Bryce getting a new tube to hold on reserve, I got a spoke wrench that I'm excited to try out. My rear wheel should be well tensioned, so I can go off of that. Next we headed to the hotel. We debated laundry tonight, but ultimately there were a few too many things to do and I'd rather enjoy myself, get to bed on time and then get up and do laundry over breakfast tomorrow. The hotel was lovely enough, with little surprises for later. First we needed a proper dinner. Barbecue was on the mind, but we landed up at an izakaya. We ordered edamame, a green salad, chicken wings, a plate of assorted skewers and more hokkaido potatoes. The potatoes, again, were far and away the best part of the meal. The company was a group of red-faced salarymen watching a baseball game along with the rest of the staff who were also eagerly watching the action. The Izakaya had all sorts of baseball accoutrements which made watching fun. Normally I'd rather peel off my fingernails one by one then watch baseball, but with some friendly folks letting me know when to be excited with their cheering I can enjoy it. As we were leaving one man gave us some lemon candies he had and Bryce surprised him by having maple candies for everyone in the building, much to their delight. Bryce needed to recoat his jacket, so we went to a parking lot and did that under a streetlight. It would need to dry overnight, another reason to do the laundry in the morning. I wanted a piece of the onsen on the top level. Inside there were three baths, two hot and one cold, with one of the hot baths being outside. I luxuriated outside by myself for some time in the cool air, as well as the hot bath indoors in the wood panelled room, and a sauna with a tv inside! All very nice. I took advantage of the cleaners and lotions available, and the freezer full of popsicles outside the onsen. Back in the room, there was a fruit jelly waiting for us in the fridge which we enjoyed, a strawberry puree. But the treats weren't over yet, from 930-11pm we could enjoy the hotel's original late night ramen. Now this isn't something I want to have late at night normally, but this is exactly the kind of thing that makes me smile. Time limited free food? I'll set an alarm. The soup itself was nothing special, but the presentation and the fact I could have it in hotel jammies made it all the better. Truly, a good rest day. I could have done without the 20km ride in the wind, but I can't have everything I guess. |