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My qualifications are 12th pass pcm with 56%.
I passed my 12th in 2022 , however I failed in maths (had taken 6 subjects). Gave compt 2 times failed again, later as a pvt student passed in 2023. Then again failed in cuet in 2023, Aur iss saal bhi maa chud Gaya hai.
Kya hoga Mera?😭 Bhut sare colleges 3rd yr droppers ko to lete bhi nahi Hain. Aur private college me Jane se dar Raha hu kyuki placement nahi lagegi aur Paisa bhi bahut lagega.
Man kar Raha h phaasi dal lu 😭
Since I want to pursue BSC, CUET ke alawa aur kaun se exams Hain which I can give based on my qualifications to study bsc???

2023m mera first attempt tha with boards my score was as low as 289 fir bhi mere gharwalo ko lga ki mera ho skta h agr m mehnat kru to to maine drop Kia aur iss baar mera second attempt tha is baar bhi mera score kuch khaas improve nhi hua I'm still at 430s
Sach btau to jb se ppr deke aayi hu kuch accha nhi lgra kuch smjh nhi aara kya kru last year hi decide kr lia tha agr nhi hua to bs ab aur drop nhi krungi life m aage bdh jaungi. Pr ab mera mn nhi Maan ra "itna easy ppr aur fir bhi nhi hua mera? Mtlb maine apna 100% to nhi dia tha to ek last baar try kr leti hu" ye mere ppr k baad Wale week k vichar the to mere parents ne bhi offline coaching m admission krwa dia kyuki online m mera self discipline nhi bn pata h . Ab mujhe Roz ye khyal aata h ki dekho tum pdhne m jaisi bhi thi(acchi hi thi) kya kr payi aakhir jo log mujhse bhi gye gujre the they are doing much better than me vo badhiya lyf enjoy kr rhe h new cheeze experience kr rhe h aur m? M vhi 12th k baad vale phase m stuck ho gyi hu .
Ab to mera kisi se baat krne ka bhi dil nhi krta mere bestfriends se last meri baat exam vale din hi Hui thi bs ab mera mn hi nhi krta kisi se baat krne ko sharam aati h mujhe khudpr apne circumstances pr ki yr kaha fasa lia h maine khud ko. Kitna aage nikl gye h sb mujhse kitna busy h sb ab m agr kisi ko MSG bhi kru to ghanto baad reply aata h jaise sb hass rhe ho mujhpe . Mere apne dost mujhe boring bol k aage nikl gye h. I had a boyfriend jisse mil nhi payi m ajtk because of this fcking exam aur jb maine use bulaya to usne mna kr dia. Vo bhi mujhe chor kr Jana chahta h or maybe chla hi gya h already 1 hfte se baat nhi Hui kehta h tumhara hona na hona sb barabar hi h mere liye. Usne to ye tk keh dia ki bhagwan aisi chutiya gf kisi ko na de. Life k hr aspect m har gyi hu m sbse peeche kahi door chhut gyi hu. Na m acchi beti hi bn payi kitni umeed thi maa baap ko mere mujhse ki ho jayega iss saal jb btaya unhe to papa k aakho m aasu the aur mummy kuch boli nhi. Na acchi dost na acchi gf aur shyd na hi acchi insaan
Kbhi kbhi to lgta h mujhe ki shyd ye sb h hi nhi mere liye doctor bnna itna noble profession h m uske kabil hi nhi hu. Kaise koi mujhpe bharosa krega kaise m kisi ki jindgi ki responsibility le paungi lyak hi nhi hu m iske ki koi mujhe doctor bhi bole .mujhse khud ki zindagi to smbhali nhi jari m kaise kisi aur ki zindgi bchaungi
Khair...koi baat nhi krna chahta mujhse aur mujhe kisi se ye sb kehna tha to yha likh dia

my biggest mistake was putting didi bhaiyas over teachers just because some guy was iitian and got a rank associated by few numbers which they got probably by their hardwork and coincidences which i judged and fllowing their footpath fucked my jee i am not blaming them but its my responsibily and judgement that i fucked,want to elaborate a little was not knowing about jee till 11th last enrolledd in board coaching as i got my first personal space and device + a little bit of freedom to roam a little bit got s distracted that not even at end day was able to study with my full potential before my boards got 78% in 12 and if i tell you not to flex that i got 97% in 10th boards and won state level maths olmpiad in 9th say yes i was bright enough you could say i was in 1 percent of my class till 10th not involved with any fucking social media a perfect timer waking at 4 going for jogs playing football in morning and to tell i was selected for playoffs for state team untial comes the 2020 the year of my downfall involved i gaming and all and yess somewhere i feel my parents provided more than i deserve every thing i asked they got those things on my table the next day i was having a gaming pc in class 9 when things just started got my ipad in 11th and as i have a brother i got myself a gaming laptop for personal use whatever i haven't used it fully till date so there was plenty of resourses with me but i had only wrong ideas to use it till here life goes good to tell you my parents dont care about my grades till last year (yes i am a dropper aage suno) then thaught kar lega itna overachieverr hai they probably dindnt know much abot jee and all till last year vey much so last year i got 68 %percentile my father asked me to take a addmission anywhere and continue my studies now whre the real downfall starts my all friends were taking drop for jee that where your heros of youtube come in with all iitbombay edits i was so overjoyed by hypes of iits and thiers aluminies that i convinced my parents to take drop he asked me where you want to study yes another climax went to kota for drop year statring of months were good i was so into studies i tell you igot in good routine here gave my first test got a pretty decent marks to my hyping oof iits got more higher but now the teachers started changing and as it was everything new for me i saw students who were previsiosly in kota and then took a drop started to leave classes and doing it on youtube i also went there yes things saterted to worsen got best backlogs you could imagine so nothing futher chapter i was able to study now here comes entry of agent 247 he speaks notes faad do gaand faad do ye kardo woh kardo prepration apne haath me lo maa chudaye coaching wale and yes i did it now padh to leta tha ques bhi bana leta tha ekk test me 187 marks aaye the fir kyuki pure hafte padha tha part test me here comes october relible se koi banda suciide karliya to test were dismised the only motivation for me to study was gone jeendal ki sankalp ki kabhi ye stategy kabhi wo plus kota ka distraction december me test hota hai got 56 marks samjh nahi aa raha kya karu left studies as got preety much fucked by kota food got food poisning and jaundice for 2 weeks fir jee jan attempts me jo aata tha jitna padha tha attempt karke aaya and got 76 percentile machudgayi plus exam bhi pada to kab 27 ki first shift mai bola aage dekhte hai went to coaching for revision waha pe aur dimag kharab kar diye teacher advnace mains ye woh kya karu samjh nai aya wo bhi chud gaya na marks aaye na test accha jaye now next 1 month sankalp mahamanushya shristi ranchna ke pramukh ki guidence wali series leli use padha seriously fir bhi aaye kitne 87 percentile now i am fucked to doo anything kah adddmision ho nahi rah drp barbad ho raha ghar wale dhokebaaz bol rahe ki tum kuch kiye hi nahi
COCLUSION FROM MY STORY

1. ghar walo ki baat mano haar cheez acch nahi hoti jo tum sochte ho unhone jyada duniya dekhi hai tumse

2.apna dimag kholo chutiyo ko pehchano
3.till my experince koi coaching koi material koi book apka selection garentee nahi karti karti hai to consistency one source of knowlege aur preseverence (dhirdhta ) there is nothing called hardwork you are not pilling stones mai bhi yahi bachchodi karta tha chud gaya roj padho thoda padho but every day think it like a food you will never miss it
4.i repeat sirf teachers ko follow karo there is differece between a coach and a player and player cannot teach you how to play a coach can player can win the trophies but only coach can teach you how you win trophies pleaese choose your mentors wisely iitians knew how they can crack jee they cannot tell you how to crack jee there is differnce in state of mind and understanding for each sometimes problem may look same but solutions are totaly different you cannot eat paracetamol to cure cancer every problem have diffrent solution so always prefer only teacher even he is at school level

1. stop following every didi bhaiya you see on social media tum uki college ki fees aur personal aminities ke liye rakhe gaye passive income ho sab saale bussiness minded hai aur apne tag ka paisa wassol rahe i repeat there is differce between you and people like me we get average points rather than topper because he follows teachers only and even someone got good through them its barely passing the cutoffs and most of times the effort of the kids .koyle me kabhi heera bhi mil jata hai.

6.use your mind meri to puri journey mistake lagti hai meri padh lena ho sakata hai kuch uniques galti mill jaye jo tum na karna if want a slight of help do dm shayad kuch help kardo guide nahi karpaunga overachiver nahi hu baki har saal admission kam ka hi hona hai to let them misguide compitition kam hi hoga

1. phone se duri agar selection hai jaruri

my biggest mistake was putting didi bhaiyas over teachers just because some guy was iitian and got a rank associated by few numbers which they got probably by their hardwork and coincidences which i judged and fllowing their footpath fucked my jee i am not blaming them but its my responsibily and judgement that i fucked,want to elaborate a little was not knowing about jee till 11th last enrolledd in board coaching as i got my first personal space and device + a little bit of freedom to roam a little bit got s distracted that not even at end day was able to study with my full potential before my boards got 78% in 12 and if i tell you not to flex that i got 97% in 10th boards and won state level maths olmpiad in 9th say yes i was bright enough you could say i was in 1 percent of my class till 10th not involved with any fucking social media a perfect timer waking at 4 going for jogs playing football in morning and to tell i was selected for playoffs for state team untial comes the 2020 the year of my downfall involved i gaming and all and yess somewhere i feel my parents provided more than i deserve every thing i asked they got those things on my table the next day i was having a gaming pc in class 9 when things just started got my ipad in 11th and as i have a brother i got myself a gaming laptop for personal use whatever i haven't used it fully till date so there was plenty of resourses with me but i had only wrong ideas to use it till here life goes good to tell you my parents dont care about my grades till last year (yes i am a dropper aage suno) then thaught kar lega itna overachieverr hai they probably dindnt know much abot jee and all till last year vey much so last year i got 68 %percentile my father asked me to take a addmission anywhere and continue my studies now whre the real downfall starts my all friends were taking drop for jee that where your heros of youtube come in with all iitbombay edits i was so overjoyed by hypes of iits and thiers aluminies that i convinced my parents to take drop he asked me where you want to study yes another climax went to kota for drop year statring of months were good i was so into studies i tell you igot in good routine here gave my first test got a pretty decent marks to my hyping oof iits got more higher but now the teachers started changing and as it was everything new for me i saw students who were previsiosly in kota and then took a drop started to leave classes and doing it on youtube i also went there yes things saterted to worsen got best backlogs you could imagine so nothing futher chapter i was able to study now here comes entry of agent 247 he speaks notes faad do gaand faad do ye kardo woh kardo prepration apne haath me lo maa chudaye coaching wale and yes i did it now padh to leta tha ques bhi bana leta tha ekk test me 187 marks aaye the fir kyuki pure hafte padha tha part test me here comes october relible se koi banda suciide karliya to test were dismised the only motivation for me to study was gone jeendal ki sankalp ki kabhi ye stategy kabhi wo plus kota ka distraction december me test hota hai got 56 marks samjh nahi aa raha kya karu left studies as got preety much fucked by kota food got food poisning and jaundice for 2 weeks fir jee jan attempts me jo aata tha jitna padha tha attempt karke aaya and got 76 percentile machudgayi plus exam bhi pada to kab 27 ki first shift mai bola aage dekhte hai went to coaching for revision waha pe aur dimag kharab kar diye teacher advnace mains ye woh kya karu samjh nai aya wo bhi chud gaya na marks aaye na test accha jaye now next 1 month sankalp mahamanushya shristi ranchna ke pramukh ki guidence wali series leli use padha seriously fir bhi aaye kitne 87 percentile now i am fucked to doo anything kah adddmision ho nahi rah drp barbad ho raha ghar wale dhokebaaz bol rahe ki tum kuch kiye hi nahi
COCLUSION FROM MY STORY

1. ghar walo ki baat mano haar cheez acch nahi hoti jo tum sochte ho unhone jyada duniya dekhi hai tumse

2.apna dimag kholo chutiyo ko pehchano
3.till my experince koi coaching koi material koi book apka selection garentee nahi karti karti hai to consistency one source of knowlege aur preseverence (dhirdhta ) there is nothing called hardwork you are not pilling stones mai bhi yahi bachchodi karta tha chud gaya roj padho thoda padho but every day think it like a food you will never miss it
4.i repeat sirf teachers ko follow karo there is differece between a coach and a player and player cannot teach you how to play a coach can player can win the trophies but only coach can teach you how you win trophies pleaese choose your mentors wisely iitians knew how they can crack jee they cannot tell you how to crack jee there is differnce in state of mind and understanding for each sometimes problem may look same but solutions are totaly different you cannot eat paracetamol to cure cancer every problem have diffrent solution so always prefer only teacher even he is at school level

1. stop following every didi bhaiya you see on social media tum uki college ki fees aur personal aminities ke liye rakhe gaye passive income ho sab saale bussiness minded hai aur apne tag ka paisa wassol rahe i repeat there is differce between you and people like me we get average points rather than topper because he follows teachers only and even someone got good through them its barely passing the cutoffs and most of times the effort of the kids .koyle me kabhi heera bhi mil jata hai.

6.use your mind meri to puri journey mistake lagti hai meri padh lena ho sakata hai kuch uniques galti mill jaye jo tum na karna if want a slight of help do dm shayad kuch help kardo guide nahi karpaunga overachiver nahi hu baki har saal admission kam ka hi hona hai to let them misguide compitition kam hi hoga

1. phone se duri agar selection hai jaruri

I passed my 12th in 2022 , however I failed in maths (had taken 6 subjects). Gave compt 2 times failed again, later as a pvt student passed in 2023. Then again failed in cuet in 2023, Aur iss saal bhi maa chud Gaya hai.
Kya hoga Mera?😭 Bhut sare colleges 3rd yr droppers ko to lete bhi nahi Hain. Aur private college me Jane se dar Raha hu kyuki placement nahi lagegi aur Paisa bhi bahut lagega.
Man kar Raha h phaasi dal lu 😭

Hi! So I started finding job since last year tas noong January 2024 lang ako nakahanap. Medyo di ko kasi priority last year maghanap dahil may online business ako.
First client na ko noong January eh SMM niya ako. Then long story short pina-SEO ako tas wala pang 2 months of working with her eh hinahanapan ako ng sale. Red flag na talaga noong pinipilit niya ako na dumiretso content creation ng wala man lang research like audit or analysis. Ang pay is $4/ hour tapos 10 hours a week pero iyong results na dinedemand niya eh halos pang-full time na. Pero maybe it's taking me a really long time to do the task kasi first client ko and nagja-juggle ako between SEO tas content creation.
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Then ito recently nirefer ako ng current client ko sa parner niya last week. Within the first hours of communicating with him eh he is very rude. Like ganto gist ng conversation namin:
Me: Sorry, I'll fix it. Him: It's common sense, it should be quick and easy. But it's taking you a long time.
Ang mistake ko diyan is nagkamali lang ako name ng file. Hindi niya ako tinatawag na stupid or anything naman. Pero the way na makipag usap siya eh very sarcastic. Then after non sinabihan ko siya na hindi ako kumportable someone watching me work kasi pinapanood niya paano ako gumawa etc. tapos sinabi ko talaga na kulang kami pareho sa tulog kaya I understand kung bakit siya maa-attitude. Then after non di niya na ako pinapanood tas nagawa ko naman task ng mabilisan. Natuwa naman siya tas nag-offer ng pang snacks eneme pero sabi ko saka na.
Then ngayon-ngayon lang tinutulugan ko siya hanapan ng another partner sa work niya. Then naghanap ako tas finorward ko contact niya sa mga nahanap ko para makausap niya. Then sabi niya wala pa raw nagco-contact sa kanya (feeling ko most ng nag-apply eh taga-US eh madalimg araw pa lang kanina sa kanila) tas sabi ko gagawa ako ng another job post ulit tas sabihan ko siya tomorrow.
Then sabi niya bigla "what did you today" then sinabi ko ginawa ko including na pag-work ng 3 hours kanina kasi plan ko mag continue maya-maya after namin mag-usap. Then sabi niya akala niya nagwowork ako 8-10 hours a day. From there it proceeded na wala raw akong time sa job na to and maghanap raw ako kapalit ko.
For the record, he told me from the beginning na I can work for 24 hours and flexible as long na nagagawa ko trabaho ko. Ang tanging job description ko lang is gumawa invoice. Yes yun lang then bigla niya na lang ako pinahanap ng ka-partner niya. So ako naman si tanga naghanap eh ang task ko lang naman is gumawa invoice. More like a data entry job.
I feel really angry and frustrated. Not because of them, pero dahil sa akin. Lagi akong nakaka-attract ng mga gantong clients na laging nampe-pressure to do other things outside my role tapos lowball pa. I feel like I do not communicate myself clearly and establish boundaries early on kaya nate-take advantage ako.
A quick update writing this: Iyong current client naghahanap ng kapalit niya para di na siguro siya magwork doon sa rude niyang partner.

Bhai yha ka temperature ne dimak ki maa bhen kardi hai meri ,,etni garmi mea mere dimak ki nasse fatne ko ho rhi hai
Yha pe thanda Mausam bas 3 mahine ka hota hai Max and ussme bhi pollution etna zyda
Kasse survive karre yha
Log bhi patani harami se hote hai matlab ache log bhi hote hai but vo kam hai bhot ,,madat kabhi koi nahi karta choti si bhi ,,bhot kam hie log hote Jo helpful hote
But bhar jae bhi kaha india aur Pakistan region ka climate poori duniya mea sabse chudu hua hai ,, kuch pahad wali locations hie Bach jaati hai
Yha pe hie ghar wagera hai bhar bhi nahi Jaa sakte😭😭

Maile tvs apache liyako 1 year vayo. Aile samma just 3500 KM matra kudeko xa. Every 2 month maa service garnuparxa vanera service book maa lekheko xa and service centerbata call aauxa. Alternate monthmaa free and paid service hunxa. Month ko 20-25 days yatikai gharko parkingmaa hunxa bike. So, yasto casemaa every 2 monthmaa servicing ko lagi januparxa ra? Free servicing thikai xa but paid servicing maa yatikai paisa kharcha garejasto lagxa. Experienced riders / knowledgeable redditors, please kei suggestions dinuhos.

Hello hello
Malai afno lagi ra family ko lagi garmi maa lagaune plain t-shirt kinna thiyo. Kata sasto ramro paaucha hola.size s dekhi XXL samma. Family ko sabai lai kinum ki socheko. Dhanyabad hai ta

storytime.
din tha accounts aur business ka, mahaul tha tense aur anxious kyunki math aur gt fuck karke baithe the hum. do or die ka naara lagakar ratri jaagran karne ke baad thodi ummeed si dikhai de rahi thi.
fast forward, centre. 'global widom schol'. jo thodi ac classroom ki khwaish thi use marte hue mehsoos kiya humne. par abhi meri katni baaki thi. waah, iss school mein toh benches hi nahi hain 😊. computer lab wali kursiyan thi humare seats, library wale stools the humare tables. classroom itna chhota ki koi 2 kadam chal ke bhid jaye bkl diwaar se. stool ko straddle karke, manspread karke baithna pada jaise porno mein the hum.
fir shuru hui bakchodi invigilators ki. ek toh theek thi, doosri saali bhais ki aulaad iski maa ne kya khaakar paida kara tha bhagwan jaane, moti shakal dekh rahi thi sirf. saala paper shuru ho chuka aur chudail ki bacchi paper hi nhi deri, chai pee rahi thi suar kahin ki.
finally baati paper jab bacche chillane lage, fir sign karane laati 5;10 pe accounts ke paper ke beech. saala yahan gaand fatt rhi hai aur ye mothers name likhwa rahi thi madarchod teri aakhein noch lungi mai. fir kehti 'beta time 4;45 likhna' maine toh likh diya bhenchod 5;15. ab karaa change. fir mujhe stink eye de ke chali gayi.
paper toh accha gaya lekin khoon ubalta hai uski shakal yaad karke. note- i should become a writer. dhanyavad.

Life ki sach m lag chuki h 19 ki hu, 17 m 12th krliya tha aur abhi Tak college ka kuch pta nhi h 4 saal (11th-2nd drop) se neet ki tyari kri lekin iss bar bhi state quota se mil jayega college jiski fees 12lakh + h jo m afford ni kr skti.
Parents m bs maa h jo khud struggle kr rhi h aur depressed h. Recently ran away from house (with mom, my mom's family knew) kuki waha toh halat aur bhi kharab thi aur mmy zeher khane ja Rahi thi
Mujhe samjh ni ara meri galti kaha h , mujhe pta h life fair nahi hoti lekin iska mtlv ye thodi ki har jagah se m hi pilu , mene toh wo sab kuch Kiya Jo mujhe supposedly karna chahiye tha
1- sab classes m 94% + leke ayi
2- kabhi intentionally kuch galat ni kiya kisi k liye
3- hmesa chup rahi taki sar k upar chath ho
4- bewajah mar khayi , gaaliya suni , wo sab kuch suna or dekha Jo ek bache ko sunne or dekhne se pehle mar jana chahiye
5- anxiety attacks ate the toh khud toh wrap krke Beth jati thi
6- dosto ne apni aukat dikhai
7- family toh chalo family kehlane layak thi hi nhi
8- jab mmy ki Jaan m baat aai toh himmat dikhai or unko leke aai us nark se bahar
9- hmesa sbko hosla dete gyi ki sab thik honaega, krlenge hum kuch
10- jab mmy ko sath leke ayi toh mmy ne kuch kam pakda kharche k liye toh padai k sath Ghar sambhala
Na jane kya kiya kya nahi Lekin kuch bhi thik nahi ho rha
Maa kehti h tu pad m apni jewellery bech dungi lekin uske alawa toh hmare pass kuch h bhi nahi toh agar jarurat pad gyi toh kya krenge
Bhai bhi wahi bnta ja rha h jisse dur bhagi thi itni himmat krke.
Mmy kehti h tu koi choti moti job krne ki mat soch , apne career m focus kr m tujhe achi jagah dekhna chahti hu . Unko prove Krna h sabko ki wo galat the aur mujhme potential h lekin mujhse ab nhi hota.
M thak chuki hu , M THAK CHUKI HU

Man nowadays people just want to be "ese jawab deti/deta hun ki dekhna abhi sabki totte udd jayenge aur log bolenge ki itne chote baat se itna bada jawaab de diya" aur bc audience bhi chutiye..... ese types ke jawab ko hi highlight karte hain joh uss tone meh di jaati hain no matter if it makes sense or not. Mazaak udaakar jawab dena, pretend to be badass banke jawaab dena.
Normal satiiq jawaab toh dena hi naa hai aaj kal ke logo ne. I am not talking about the upper humans who doing interviews or seek attention by these shit acts. Aaj kal ke haarrr average social media user harr ghar ki kahaani aur harr parivaar ke genz sab ke sab ese hi hain. I have experienced it.
Bhai meri maa esi hai. Meh aur kya bataun. Aur woh toh social media bhi use nahi karti..... unki gene hi wesi hai. And woh bhi esa jawaab nahi deti joh sach meh log ke reaction "waah kya bola hai" wese rahe. Ese jawaab joki poore hypocritical ho. Aur wahi gandi se aadat mujhme aayi hai jiske wajah se meh socially kisi se bhi baat karne ko zyada darta hun. 4 saal se yeh gene ko hatane ki soch rha hun naa jaane kya kya karke. Lekin last meh mazaak sabke saamne mera hi banta hai agar meh bolna shuru karta hun toh. I am a hypocrite by my gene not by my character. And my whole family is fucking hypocrite. I dont know what people will think about me after reading this. Like "yeh toh apni hi family ki beizzatti kar raha hai toh isse bada chutiya aur neech kon hoga" then go ahead. Isi darr se meri maa ki buraai yaa asliyat kisi se bol nahi paata. Jitna jhelta hun meh unko kya kya sunta hun meh unse mere papa ke jaane baad woh sirf mujhe hi pata hai. Naa khana acha banati naa kaam sahi se karti naa cleanliness naa koi common sense naaa koi sportsmanship ki kahin galati hai toh hai ya kahin haar gaye toh haar gaye. Harr baat par arguement taane aur torchur. And nothing fucking else. Kabhi bhi kisi bhi maa ko suna hai ki "tu mare ya jiye ek hi baat hai re" apne bete ko bolte hue. Lekin meh suna bhi hun aur jhela bhi hun. Isiliye aaj meri maa mere saath rehte hue bhi. Apna khana khud banata hun. Apne khaaye hue jhoote bartan khud maajta hun aur apne kaam khud karne ki harr koshish karta hun taaki mujhe kisi par bhi koi bhi kaam par nirbhar naa hona pade. Kismat waale ko jin jin ko achi maa mili hai joh yeh sab harkatein nahi karti hai aur understandable aur loving hai. Sach bolun toh mere papa bhi meri maa se pareshaan the. Aur wahi akele the jiske wajah se control bhi rehti thi mummy...... papa se gaali khaa khaake. Lekin abb. I can't abuse her nor lift any hand on her. My mom is so salty that even after loosing any arguent. She comes to beat me with any random thing or say very shit lines like the above she said to me.

I am from India and have been listening to Anjum from his Mein mixtape days. What got me hooked to him was his unrelenting spirit to strive for greatness and his God consciousness which reflected in his lyrics. He is influenced by Allama Iqbal so that explains a lot. But as time has passed and the duo has seen unprecedented success, I feel like his lyrics(relating to God and faith) have gone towards veiled defenses of his being a good man regardless of his indulging in things that religiously are evil. I'll give some examples from before and after fame: Before fame: - "Mujhay aik buzurg ne kaha tha chotay aise zindagi guzaar le ke tujhse maut daray Maula madad, tera he tou aasra hai Mera kisi se bhi kya muwaazna hai?" - "Ab mujh jaisa mehez aik insaan bhalla Kya bolay ga khuda ke kaam mein" - "Everytime I write songs umeed jaati toot Ke bas ye aakhri, ke bas ab aur nai Ke mere mein ab dunya se larnay ka zor nai Par Maula Madad keh ke, hum agay barhtay rehtay" - "Tu bada tu haathi hum fly hum sath aaye jaise ababeel You know how it goes brother" - "Apni bebasi ka khud zimmedar mai Heavy kisam ki khud parasti ka shikaar mai But I’ve been looking for a reason to get over you Aks mayassar hai tera ek huu ba huu Something tells me tu khush hai jo duur hai Khuda ki koi behtari is me zarur hai Mai kabhi samjha nai mili hui rehmaton ko Maa kehti thi Raheem Woh Ghafoor hai" - The entire verse from Fikar e Aakhirat
Just the fact that the tone of talking about self is equal times calling himself bad and at fault and also self boasting(flex rap)
Now some lines after the success: - "Music haram woh bolein, Phir mere upar kis Khuda ka saaya hai." - "Kaza meri namazein sab kabar azaab hi Par dil mera saaf, kia uska kio hisaab bhi?"
The tone has shifted from self criticism to defense of self in terms of faith. The only redeeming song I can think of lately is Day Dreamer. This is in no way a criticism of anything just an observation and an opinion of mine. You're free to have your own. But the constant ladkiyan, sharab, nashe, taur flex has really reduced the grandeur of Talha Anjum in my eyes since he always has said he despises these things in general in music. Although nashe and sharab has always been there for the sake of "being real". But when your audience is impressionable teens, you can't just shy away from the responsibility of not influencing them in a bad way. And I do understand that this is probably irrelevant to many but the purity and innocence in his lyrics and how he talked about faith were major factors for me liking him(being a stan even). That innocence and purity is now not present in his art for me. The only rappers I can think of who still have that are probably Jani and a little bit of JJ47

I have spent the first 10 years of my life sleeping on floor, right beside my parents bed and hoping that one day it will all change. I will have a better life coz bollywood taught me that. My parents got me admitted in this okayish private school, jiske fees ka jugaad karna was the toughest thing every single quarter. Hamesha udhar hi lena padta tha. Isliye, I tried my best to study hard and top the class every single time. I did that. I also helped my mom with her chores coz health issues kaafi the unko. Dad could and would never buy any health insurance, no savings but haan 30-40 lakhs ka loan he has saved for us, so maybe yay!! On top of it, I got admitted into this psychology course and I understood too much about my grief, inta jitna janna meri sehat ke liye bilkul accha hi nahi tha. mera bhai is exact dad ka photocopy. Essentially na ma ko kabhi izzat milti na mujhe. My dad wanted me to pursue UPSC but lenders ghar aane lage aur cheezei bhaut kharab ho gayi. I had to take up jobs in college to pay for fees and then had to support my dad. Padhai ne poori back seat leli aur poora focus bus paisa earn karna. 9-5 ke baad jab ghar aao to mummy apni zindagi ko kosti, bhai hamesha earphones lagake baitha rehta aur mai unki sunti. Kayi baar is chakkar me papa se bhot behes bhi hui aur bhai se to pucho hi mat. Shayad chup rehna hi behtar hai. Then, I relocated to BLR for sometime (I was making almost 1+ lakh/pm and I thought acche logon ke beech me rehne se maybe mai kuch accha kar paun). 7 months baad maa ki tabiyat zyada kharab ho gayi hai aur ab mujhe wapas yahan aana pada. Ghar ke haalaat dekhti hun to man karta hai ki apna sar kahin jaake fod lun. This doctor has recommended a surgery jo ab unavoidable hai. sadly, na mediclaim hai aur na hi paise. Wo 7 mahine pehli baar maine life me peace feel kiya. subha uthke bina lade brkfast milna, raat ko khane ke baad bina roye sona. paise mere paas BLR me bhi nahi the kyunki mai sab ghar bhijwa deti except rent and for minor grocery lekin calmness was bharpuur.
Kaash mai apne apko bacha paun.
On that note guys, ye bus rant hai. shayad is ummeed se ki koi relate kar paye, ya pata nahi. Sorry agar kisi ka keemti waqt waste hua ho.

I'm no writer and English is my third language. Please don't trash me or my punctuation.
Firstly, mallikajan becoming suddenly patriotic is absurd. It was almost like she had nothing in her hands and she's trying to fill the void of the fall of heeramandi. Like see, it has to be gradual atleast.
My alternate version
MALLIKAJAAN
In the scene where bibbojaan sneaks in the freedom fighters(yes, they very much were) mallikajan stares at her stoic before walking away. We find them in the next scene spoken to by phatto - satto all the things Mallika had originally said. One of the fighters embrace the other remembering the demise of the shaheed when a potli falls open from his pocket. We see jhumke and some rings which Mallika recognises and calls him out saying they are of waheeda almost accusing them of theft. Bibbo responds rather angrily " Ammi!!!" When waheeda interrupts and says she had given them the jewellery . Waheeda goes "takreeban 20 saalon me Pehli dafa jisam par se kuch utaarne par Mera rooh aitiraz nahi kiya." A little taken aback, Mallika walks away saying "Noor Haveli k chaar tijori aapke aur aapke biwi bacchon k liye khule hi."
I feel like it would still preserve her character a little and from here she could have been shown to have gone soft ( you know, with her requesting nawab's wife to talk to other nawab's for her). I know it was not pretence, but her being patriotic was a little off.
When mallikarjaan hears that bibbojaan is getting executed, she breaks down crying. Next scene is her in her room all cried out. Looks at bibbojaan's picture and mutters "meri beti...meri beti bibbo... bibbojaan.... Bibbojaan azaad." We see satto fatto and all the members gathered crying over the news mallikajaan enters , commands them not to cry as bibbo would be the first tawaif to sacrifice her life for her mother( India).
TAJDER
Tajder comes home injured and Alam questions him and he had to reveal that he was manhandled by the British while they were protesting ( he wore black muffler and wasn't recognised though). Alamzeb asks "Aap ye mulk se beintehaa mohabbat karte ho na?" And tajder chuckles and says " jaise aap apne shayari se" and alamzeb goes "shayari ko ham hamara fitoor maante hi par aap mitti ko apna farz. As she wipes his injuries she asks in a soft tone " nibhate hue kese lagta hi?". " Filhaal..... Jaise ek zakhmi maa ko unka beta marham na de paraha" says tajder teary eyed. So maybe here a montage of atrocities of British he has witnessed could be shown as he explains alamzeb why he he'd become anti British. By this the freedom factor is a little more emphasized rather than it being abrupt , also, it invokes patriotism in alamzeb.
ALAMZEB
Alamzeb literally gave it away saying that sher infront of general Cartwright, he very much speaks hindi 🤦‍♀️.
In the alternative version alam while being taken into the jail screams "inqilab zindabad" and tajder is shown to be secretly Proud. Tajder looks at her fondly while she shouts naare and her parwana sher gets played simultaneously.
And in another scene a little after Alam's realise mallikajaan says to alam: "Heeramandi ki shehzadi ho tum. Yaha ki mehek sirf eethar ki hi, na sihayi ki na hi lahoon ki ."
Alamzeb says to herself, "Hamara pyaar(tajder) ka manchaaha eethar tho ghili mitti hi ammi. Is zaameen ki mehek mehfooz rakhenge, apni lahoo se mitti nam karke hi sahi."
(Tajder says he loves ghili mitti just before it rains in the mango farm.)
FAREEDAN
Fareedan's change was rather abrupt. It's just not too convincing.
ALTERNATE VERSION

 Cartwright tells fareedan how mallikjaan had her stoop so low infront of everyone in the police station. Fareedan laughs hard and asks him what has he done. Cartwright explains what happened and when he turns around fareedan looks rather quiet unable to figure out how to feel about it. When Cartwright asks her what happened she says the dialogue she originally does. Cartwright asks her to be happy for him and his boys as they wouldn't get an opportunity like this in England cause a true lady would never sleep with five me. He proceeds to say this only happened because she's an Indian wh*re. This strucks her, she quietly leaves his house placing his gift, that gown on the table. At night during the fountain scene fareedan overhears everything from her window and sheds a tear. Fareedan witnesses Cartwright killing tajder deliberately. She runs and tells that to alam who is still in shock and is repeatedly saying she needs to see dadi. Fareedan takes her to dadi and while is upstairs Cartwright visits Tajder's father who is confronting him. Fareedan walking down the staircase says how she witnessed his death and it was Cartwright who killed his son. Cartwright says that he doesn't know her and if at all she had ever been in a police station it would be because of crimes she committed and he names few off her records intimating that he knows about her past. Fareedan feeling deceived and disrespected she is not afraid of what is going to happen to her and that Tajder's father deserves to know the truth. She tells him how she witnessed him killing his son. Cartwright interrupts and says she is afterall a tawaif and he shouldn't listen to her words. Fareedan says that she's tawaif indeed but she had a mother who take care of her all night when she was sick. She can only imagine what Tajder's father is going through and that he deserves to know the truth. She says he isn't her father or a relative but you don't need a blood relation in this mulk. She calls him khalujaan and asks him to believe her. Tajder's father walks away from her and asks Cartwright to try finding out who the attackers were and walks away indicating that he believes Cartwright and not her. Cartwright mockingly says to her that true Indians only believe the ones who are working for their welfare, the british. Fardeen walks out hurt and disappointed. 

These two incidents can makes fareedan's change more gradual.
CARTWRIGHT
I don't understand why Cartwright would want to sleep with Alam when his sister literally murdered his higher authority and is about to get killed by them. Moreover, he killed Alam's fiance. He has grave threat from Alam.
Alternate version:-

 CARTWRIGHT visits heeramandi's silent corridors and mocks mallikajaan. 

He proceeds to say had she been on his side it would have saved her from many troubles. Alam interrupts and says that she's the next huzoor of heeramandi, the next tawaif. She'd do her first dance, her first nath uthrai for him in return of him not causing the members of heeramandi any further troubles. Cartwright interrupts her and says he wants her nath uthrai not in their fort but in his bedroom. Mallika interrupts reminding how the ritual goes. Alam stares at Cartwright before agreeing. In the later scene she performs infront of him and in the end gets on the top of him stabs him to death in sync with the beat of the music and leaves his house.
THE CLIMAX

 Mallikajaan marches towards the police station with everyone to support bibbojaan. Iqbal riding cart nexts to her stops her suddenly with a talvar reluctantly and says she doesn't deserve a last time with her daughter like he was never given one with saima. Satto fatto shocked asks what he's doing. He cries and wipes his tears and backs away. Mallikajaan looks at fareedan who looks concerned for her. She walks right into the talvar to everyone's horror. Satto fatto and everyone tries to come near her but she asks them to go. Fareedan asks Mallika to come with them and says that bibbojaan will need her mother, she needs to treat herself and that ammi ki zarurat hothi hi. Mallika says her daughter will live kuch pal too without her like she( fareedan) did all these years. She insists on them leaving and being there for bibbojaan. They all March towards the execution place. Bibbojaan is given a last chance to reveal the other members of her group. She is hit with whiplash when she starts singing with all the women from heeramandi behind the walls chorusing with her. Simultaneously mallikajaan is shown dancing while bleeding in a silent , windy and deserted street singing to herself. She pats her feet covered in mud on the ground like she's dancing in her fort, does gajgamini walk manically laughing. Bibbojaan doesn't reveal the names so the officer intimates to kill her. On the other hand mallikajaan is dancing while bleeding with dirt and blood on her face. Tired She falls on her knees. She hears footsteps approaching her running. She sees zoravar (her son) with his hand streched out running towards her calling her ammi. Bullets are shot at bibbojaan simultaneously. Mallikajaan picks up the sword next to her and tears open her blouse from the back and falls on the ground. Zorawar stops and turns away his head. Mallika is seen smiling slowly closing her eyes (preserving her nature of vengeance). Bibbojaan is shown to lay on ground slowly finishing the last word of the song. Her eyes wide open, she loses her life. The narration says bibbojaan has inspired all the beti's of heeramandi to take part in freeing their country. They March and roit religiously from then on to get freedom to this country as no one understands the value of freedom better than the ones who's soul is not even theirs. 

Agar sirf meri life affect hoti isse toh seh bhi leti, even drop ka bhi soch leti but it hurts so much when I think of my parents.
Exam mera hai but they are giving it with me as well. Everyday dropping me on the centre, pay for the mocks, accept my decisions, travel costs, accomodation, everything. They have such high hopes
Kal hi when I was leaving for exam, my aunt was talking to someone on phone ki "Ye ab Bcom ke bhi entrance de rahe hai. Khud ka toh pata nahi, maa baap ko pareshan kar rakha hai" and said that my exam isn't that important. Getting selected in NC is going to be a tight slap on such people's faces. I want my parents to feel proud. I don't want their sacrifices to go in vain. Mujhe bhul jao but agar selection nahi hua toh mere parents ko toh bass "I told you so" wale reaction aayege sab se
I should study for accountancy but I really needed to vent. NTA doesn't care about our lives. They are just in a hurry to complete the examination before elections. Bc ye elections public ke liye hi hai na. So that public can choose what's best for them. Iske victim bhi hum hi hai. Just think about the person jiske first day hi 10 questions reh gaye. Kis mindset ke sath dega woh next exam. I'm so tensed rn. Glad that this shitshow is going to end today but I have no idea how to deal with what's coming up next

NTA behen ki lawdi madarchod behenchod agency inki maa ka bhosda. Agar kisi ko law ka idea hai to please bata do mai 18+ hu and agar mai NTA building jaake jala du aise ki jaan ka nuksaan na ho but jaan ke alawa baaki nta ka sab khtm ho jaye to mereko kitne saal ki jail hogi. And kya bail mil payegi mereko? and agar haa to kya tum log crowd funding krke mujhe bail dilwaoge? Ye humara maqsad hai saathiyo hume is agency ko jala ke khtm kar dena hai kyuki sarkar ghnta karegi kuch. Aao saath milke NTA uda dete hai. They dont deserve to evaluate us bcz they are more retarded. FUCK THEM ALL NTA BUACHOD!!!

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