Girlfriend ko zabardasti choda

The t is last year pa lang nagkakausap na ex kong lalaki and friend ko ring lalaki kahit may girlfriend siya that time, and ni-confront ko friend and ex ko but they still denied. Not until we break-up, after a weeks and months they are lowkey flexing sa socmeds nila. Then now after a year, they are now confident enough to flex themselves kahit noon pa man eh huli na naman sila sa mga kaanohan nila.
I dunno kahit aware naman si ex na friend ko 'yun and at the same time na aware din si friend na boyfriend ko s'ya eh may lakas ng sikmura pa para magpatusan sila lol.

Naaalala ko pa rin yung panggughost mo sa'kin 2 years ago. Nagpaalam ka pa sa nanay ko na manliligaw ka pero kinabukasan naglaho ka na lang bigla. Sinubukan kita habulin pero nagulat ako dalawang buwan lang nakalipas nagkaroon ka na ng bagong girlfriend. Oo, inaamin ko iniistalk pa rin kita paminsan-minsan. Oo, inaamin ko rin na naiinis ako sa tuwing nakikita ko na iniistory mo bago mong girlfriend no'n
Demand ko sa'yo 'yon dati e, pero never mo nagawa sa'kin. Panay tanong pa ako anong kulang sa'kin. Sa'n ba ako nagkulang. Ang dami nating similarities. Para ka na ngang boy version ko.
Sobrang na appreciate ko na bumalik ka after 2 years para magsorry sa ginawa mo. Naka move on na rin naman ako do'n e. Palagi kang nag aaya na magkita tayo pero hindi ako pumapayag, hanggang sa napilit mo na talaga ako. Inexplain mo lahat na nakaramdam ka ng pressure dahil ako unang nagkatrabaho sa'tin. Na natapakan ego mo kasi feel mo behind ka sa'kin. Na tinuring mong competition yung meron sa'ting dalawa.
Sabi mo naghiwalay kayo ng girlfriend mo. Sabi mo kaya ka lang naman nag girlfriend kasi nadala ka ng pressure. Na mula nung iniwan mo 'ko, ginawa mo best mo para humanap ng trabaho. Buti naman nakahanap ka at nabibili mo na yung mga gusto mo.
Ngayon nalabas na tayo ulit kasama iba kong mga bagong kaibigan. Kasama kita sa bar, kasama kita sa bahay. Alam ko ang tanga ko na bumigay ako sa gusto mo. Inaya mo pa akong FUBU. Pumayag ako kasi ewan ko ba. Ang tanga ko alam ko naman 'yon.
Paulit-ulit ko sinasabi sa'yong hindi na kita type. Na kung may mararamdaman ako sa'yo, libog lang 'yon. Pero ngayon parang nagugustuhan na naman kita. Alam ko namang pinaglalaruan mo pa rin ako pero hindi ko mapigilan sarili ko isipin ka palagi. tangina mo, J.L.

Hello,
Should I tell my girlfriend na, nanaginip ako na nag chi-cheat ako with a guy?
I am in a g2g relationship and yun nga last night nanaginip ako na nagchicheat ako na to the point na meron na mangyayari samin nung guy tapos pag gising ko wet ako and feeling thrilled huhu. Natatakot ako magsabi sa girlfriend ko kasi baka i-overthink niya lalo na this coming august mag LLDR kami.
Wala akong history sa cheating and never ko na na-imagine sarili ko na mag cheat. Pero after last night, bigla ako nag doubt sa sarili ko na pano kung kaya ko pala gawin?

Hello! Sorry.. I hope someone could give me insights/advice. So, my mom died last year and may nareceive kami from gsis (lumpsum). Yung dad ko may nareceive.. say 1M.. and yung brother ko na minor may nareceive na say 150k. Right now, walang support na binibigay yung father ko sa bahay kahit piso at walang gastos sa kapatid kong minor. Bali sagot ko lahat as kuya. Okay lang naman saken tumulong, pero kasi yun dad namin eh sobra makagastos sa iba plus may girlfriend pa atang bago (which is masakit sa part namin/ko) kasi wala pang 1 year bago mawala si mama eh ganun na. And naiinis lang din ako kasi wala siyang binibigay kahit piso dito sa bahay.. kahit support man lang dun sa kapatid ko na minor. Napapagod din ako kasi ilang beses ko na siya sinabihan pero parang wala siyang pake samin. Nagconsult din ako sa atty pero ang sinabi is "tulungan mo nalang kapatid mo". like wtf?? sorry. Yun lang ba ang option? Kasi wala naman kaso saken tumulong talaga pero nasasagad na din kasi ako at feeling ko yung dapat na sa amin sa bahay eh ginagastos ng dad ko sa iba. Alam ko kung pano naghirap mom ko sa work para dun sa money na nareceive. Plus meron din akong plans for myself. Pwede bang ask if dapat dun sa nareceive nung dad ko is may share pa dapat yung kapatid ko na minor? Pwede ba namin yun makuha? Or ano ba pwede gawin? Naaawa ako sa kapatid ko and sa mom ko kahit wala na siya. Sorry po sa abala.

Good evening, I'm new here in Reddit and I discovered this app on tiktok so allow me to release my frustrations and pains here.
I'm 22 yrs old (F) and I'm currently working na. I decided to share my story here because no one really knows what I feel since then.. esp i don't have my own circle of friends.
First year HS when I met J and we're not on the same section, I saw him everyday because some of my classmates were his friends, I don't like him at first.. kasi medyo maingay sila na mag babarkada and hate ko talaga ang maingat esp na natutulog talaga ako during vacant namin. I didn't mind them and months had passed at intramurals na namin.
J joined the basketball team at ako? Wala, I'm not sporty kaya taga nood lang ako at sumasali lang sa class dance presentation. I'm fan of basketball that's why I chose to watch it and cheer to our year level. He's good in basketball.. can't deny that. I cheered him in silence since we're on the same year level naman. I was really amazed of how he play...
Months had passed again and i guess my classmates noticed me looking at him and they started to teased me towards him, Syempre indenial tayo. Lol.
I thought everything will just be normal after but when i opened my facebook i found out that he added me on facebook and so I accepted him and he sent a lot of like sticker and btw it happened last 2013. So i got upset and chatted him what was that for and he said "Na pindot ko lang" so i didn't mind him then nag m-manual type ata sya ng emoji kasi nag send sya ng [[Midfing] at basta nag away kami don and i told him na "Bakit nag add kapa at mag sisinuplado ka?" And he answered me "Kung pwede lang sana ma undo (Unfriend)" Sabi ko pwede naman ah at pwede mo rin ako ma block and since HS pa ako at eme-eme pa so ako nag block sa kanya.
FF. 2nd year HS were just normal, we don't talk it's like we're totally strangers.. idk if he knows me kasi sabi niya napindot niya lang naman ang add sa Facebook. Despite what happened to us (Sa chat) i was still cheering him every intrams namin. Minsan nagkaka eye contact kami pero hindi ako nag aassume, but yes i know na crush ko na sya.
All of our teachers knew that i was into him that's why every time na dadaan sya samin pinapapasok sya sa room and they will tease us. Sa room din sya namin nag tatambay every vacant since friends nya classmates ko.
3rd year HS at hindi ko na ma isa isa memories namin basi for me happy ako na kahit minuto lang yon ay napasaya niya puso ko at don na ako nababahala kasi parang hindi na normal, Nag seselos na ako, na iinis na ako at nalulungkot ako pag wala sya. I tried to divert my feelings to someone kay CJ 4th year HS sya and he was a nice guy and very gentlemen. Sa months na pag uusap namin i can say that we're in good terms but i know to my self na si J parin gusto ko.
Alam ko na mali na parang pinapaasa ko si CJ but i told him everything naman at inaccept niya din reason ko kasi nararamdaman din naman daw niya. I lost contact with CJ and tried to stop my feelings for J pero it's not easy.
FF.
4th year HS and it will be the last year na makita ko sya because we will be studying in different university na sa college. As what i said i really tried to forget him but it's really not easy.. so go with the flow nalang ako. Hindi ako na iimik everytime na tinutukso kami. One time naka charge phone ko and my classmate which is his friend took my phone and tried to unlock my phone but they couldn't guess the pattern so my classmate ask him "J_______ ano ang pattern?" I just watched them and he grabbed my phone from my classmate and tried to connect the dots and formed letter J .. like wth? but that wasn't the pattern of my phone.
2 months before our graduation was our town fiesta and we're all busy practicing our dance presentation again and as usual samin sya naka tambay. Hapon noon ng pumasok sya na lasing nahh.. tipsy nalang at dumeretso sila sa classroom namin. Sa tabi ko sya pinaupo ng classmate ko at vinideohan kami nila. Some of his classmates were also there and teased us.
Ayon nalang year after nalaman ko na may girlfriend na sya at ang girlfriend nya ay isa rin sa tumutukso samin.
I thought infatuated lang ako, I thought crush ko lang talaga sya. Pero 11 yrs na at ang hirap niyang kalimutan. Gusto ko din naman maging masaya kahit hindi na sana SYA, Okay lang. He's happy now and i think deserve ko din naman maging masaya. I really tried to forget him, I really tried to move on kahit walang kami pero kung saan na medyo hindi ko na sya na iisip diyan naman sya nag papakita sa panaginip ko. TANGINA ANG HIRAP. PARANG BINABANGUNGOT AKO. GUSTO KO LANG NAMAN MAGING MASAYA.
ANONG GAGAWIN KO.

Disclaimer: Baka lang dahil sa puyat ako or stressed ako or emotionally overwhelmed ako, pero nakakagulat lang na maexperience yung ganitong pangyayari.
Galing kami sa neighborhood gathering. Nasa kabilang kalsada lang sya, so naiwan ko magulang ko dun at nauna na akong maglakad pauwi.
Pagkarating sa bahay, sinalubong ako ng isa naming aso sa loob. Baby kasi namin to, kaya laging may nakabantay sa kanya. Pagkapasok ko, nandun din yung kasambahay namin. Sinabihan nya ako na umakyat na at isama si aso sa kwarto ko. Pero bago magtungo sa kwarto ko, nakisuyo ako sa kasambahay namin na bago siya umakyat, baka sakaling mahugasan muna yung jug ko at isabay sa pagtaas nya na iabot sakin. May ginagawa pa kasi ya sa baba. Um-oo naman siya.
Nung nakaakyat na ako, naglaro kami ni aso for about 20 mins. Then lumabas ako, nag cr, tapos ayaw na sumama ni doggo papasok sa kwarto ko. So chinat ko si kasambahay at pinaalam na bumaba sakanya yung aso. Pinaalala ko din yung tubig ko.
For the next 30 mins, kausap ko yung girlfriend ko, tatay ko, at pinsan ko. Masinsinang paguusap kaya tutok ako sa chat. Hindi siya groupchat, at hiwalay ko silang kausap. Alam ko din ito kasi chinecheck ko yung time stamp dahil at that point nag-mini anxiety attack ako about something nun . Gayunpaman, iniisip ko padin yung tubig ko kasi uhaw na uhaw na ako. Kaya napagdesisyunan kong lumabas nalang siguro para kunin.
Nung bubuksan ko na yung pinto, napatigil ako sa may sidetable ko kasi nandun na yung jug ko. Nagulat ako kasi wala akong maalala kung paano siya nakarating dun. Hindi ko maalalang binigay na sakin yung jug ko, hindi ko maalalang binuksan ko yung pinto ko.
Tinitigan ko ng matagal. Inisip ko pa, kaya ba hindi pa inaabot sakin yung lalagyan ko kasi naiakyat ko by accident earlier? So kinuha ko. Puno siya ng malamig na tubig.
Minessage ko ngayon yung kasambahay. Sabi nya, pinagbuksan ko daw siya ng very slight. Nagthank you pa daw ako. Wtf. Kinwento ko na wala akong maalala talaga. Paulit ulit nya ininsist na inabot nya sakin direkta. Wtf
Next kong ginawa ay magmessage kay Mama. Siya yung main admin ng CCTV namin, kaya pinasilip ko. Sabi nya, nakita daw nyang umakyat yung kasambahay namin, pero hindi nya nakita kung nagbukas ako ng pinto. Hindi din nya daw nakita na kinuha ko. WTF. Sabi nya kumalma lang daw ako kasi may blindspots pa yung angle ng cctv pero kahit na tangina. Bakit ganon.
Ewan ko ba baka kailangan ko na talaga matulog hahahaha

So me and my girlfriend have been together na for a year—turning 2years in December.
I have this problem na palagi n'ya akong pinagseselos at hindi n'ya nilalagyan ng boundaries yung mga friends n'ya since kaibigan n'ya nga raw ito.
Palagi n'yang sinasabi na may kabit s'ya tuwing nag ddate kami, consistently n'ya itong sinasabi and it's making me think kung totoo ba yung sinasabi n'ya and ofcourse inopen ko 'to sakanya at palagi n'yang sinasabi na joke lang naman daw yun and i didn't argue about it na. But, the problem is palagi nyang ginagawa kahit nag ssorry na sya sa'kin kaya kahit anong isipin ko na wala yun, hindi talaga maalis sa isip ko.
Additionally, She have this circle of friends na full of girls and, to be honest i don't know kung valid o tama ba 'tong nararamdaman ko. Kasi naman, she would let them do any romantic stuff sakanya, such as, magkkiss, holding hands, etc.
Last week, nag send s'ya ng pictures sa akin na nasa kama sila nung kaibigan n'yang babae at naghholding hands. I ask her if nilalagyan n'ya ba ng boundaries yung mga kaibigan n'ya knowing na may boyfriend sya and she replied "bakit ko naman lalagyan ng boundaries e mga kaibigan ko 'yan" and i don't know what to feel about it, i thought once you're in a relationship you should create a boundaries with your friends kahit same gender, moreover, she suddenly remove my nickname and nag deact sya without saying a word, after an hour or two nag my day sya na kameet up yung girl na kaibigan n'ya, i ask her about this and she just said na biglaan yun.
ayun lang, huhu I don't know what to feel na kasi is it normal thing or no🙁🙁

There's this guy, my brother, actually he's my maternal uncle's son. Mama is abroad, and at home, there's Maiju's shop. There are two brothers and one sister. So, what happened is, as far as I remember, when I was 11, two years before, he might have been in the 8th grade. He was fine, normal, cheerful. He used to have conversations with us, Dai, k xah? kaso xah? Guff thokdai aauthyo.. Chill thyo manxey. but when he reached the 9th grade, he took a complete 360-degree turn.
He started smoking, rebelling at home, घरमा मैजु र दिदीले थापायेर, स्कूल नै बदल्नु भयो From the government school, to Boarding schools. In that school, he used to be on hostel, 10th grade, Hostel, Yk, he got even more out of control. Every day, we used to jump off the hostel gate at night , Kaha janthyo kasailai tha xaina. The principal used to scold him severely, but it didn't seem to make a difference, and he didn't improve.
Ani, One day, he was caught with marijuana by the principal. The school couldn't tolerate such behavior and expelled him. Fortunately, towards the end of the 9th grade, another school agreed to admit him.
Over counselling gariyo teslai, ramro xaina, eta uta, sapp thokk, Ani tespaxi he was good for 3/4 months ani feri tyo vai ko arko kanda ayo..
10th ma huda.. Usko girlfriend lai kasailey kei vanera jiskaidexa, Sekey xah hamro vai ley arko keta lai maaajley, Taukai futeko thyo rey, X-ray garnu parney halat banaideko rey, Police case huna lageko thyo, dhanna school ley kura milayexah ani bachoo...
Tespaxi hamro vai lai ni 20 25 jana ako thiye kutna ko lagii tah, tara teti khera bachoo, kei na kei garera
Arko chotii ni xah, Aunty ko tira gayeko raixah, Khai kun chai ley Ayera ''Vai '' thegaideka usalai, K vako ho, Aunty lai aunty tapai uta jadai garnu vandai kutana tamseyko rey..
USKO PERSPECTIVE: Usko aile duinya nai alag xah, paila hasney khley manxey, ailee rude silent vako xah, nature nai feryeko ho ki Showoff gareko ho tesley.. Ani sathy heru lagii gyann dinu rey, mariinai dinu rey kya, Matlab uskao sathy lai kasailey k garyo vaney, teslai mardinxah rey, ani gahr ma usko didi ley uslai kei vanda feri, ''neu khojeko, aile eauta phone garey vaney yo purai chowk varidinxu'' vanxah rey, Facebook profile heryo vaney pani, Vibes nai araki hunxah, Slipkhot, It's me XXX, sidhaii XXXX bata... malai chai yesto lagxah ki, He's just not himself, aba galat track ma auna lai, badhyata ley yestoo vayo ni kasai vanuu, Eautai family eautai ho maya ni eautai ho, Dai tah testo vako xaina tah. GANGSTER huna khojney.. K garera thek hunxah holaa.. Uskoo aesthetics nai arkai xah, KUTOS PITOS tara yo ganja rah sathy sangi ko ma chai nagalos vanxuu mah, Aile he is 16 kei case ma gayoo vaney pani 18 samma tah kei nai hudaina hola, yeii attitude rahirahyoo vaney 18 paxi pani, IG he'll end up in jail.. Over worried xu mah chai,
KASAIKO YESTI EXPRINCE XAH VANEY SUNAU🙂 KASARI THEK PARNU VANEY SALLHA VANEY NI SUNAU💀 baki bata testai hoo

curious lang ako sa mga nakatry na ng toys dyan, anong mas na enjoy niyo, dildo or finger? balak namin ng girlfriend ko bumili ng toys kaso natatakot kami pareho mag order online haha worth it ba bumili ng dildo?

Hi!
Kinda curious as to what your input would be. So scenario is this, I've always been straight...until I was in college. NBSB ako and (yes this is probably gonna be red flags to my LGBT friends) I thought I was extremely undateable for guys hence I tried dating women. I was in a relationship with a woman and I fell inlove with her and we broke up. After her, I still found ladies attractive but no sexual feelings anymore. Parang girl crush nalang yung dating and after her, I've only dated guys. I've recently accepted na straight talaga ang sexuality ko and my bisexuality at the time was just a phase and experimentation. I've dated two guys after my ex girlfriend and they both knew I've had that phase but my latest boyfriend seemed off with that so I would like to ask for your opinion. If you were in my shoes, would you tell your future boyfriend that you had a phase or forget about it nalang?

bullets na lang kase nasa wurk ako haha ganito ata pag hopeless romantic na desperadong makawala sa loneliness haha, kakasali lang ng phr4r kineme kase sinuggest ng tropa ko then kanina lang nag post ako mga kimi kimi so ayun

• aminado ako na tamad ako mag basa, haha pero hindi ko alam na marami pala tayo, di ko alam kung tamad ba magbasa or hindi
• syempre nagpaka detalyado na ako sa pinost ko sa r4r haha, just an impulse rooted from desperation
• pretty confident i've stated clear things duon sa pinost ko so alam kong kung sakali na may cocontact sa akin, alam nyang posibleng ako ang hinahanap nya at sya ang hinahanap ko
• we have standards and we try to tweak them a little higher or lower pagka nagkareceive tayo ng even slightest of interest from someone na kayang sumabit sa standards (hopeless romantic introvert pov)
• clearly acknowledged na karapatan ng mga tao magsabi kung "pass" ba or "g"
• pero valid din na makaramdam ng utterly negative feeling after ng upfront blunt rejection kahit things we're stated na haha
• kanina lang yun haha
• syempre karapatan ko din bilang tao to get this off my chest just like karapatan nating humindi

So ito na nga

• syempre ang ante mo nag imagine na agad ng mga future kineme like dates and stuff kase uy may nagka interes sa post ko somehwere
• pretty confident ako sa itsura ko kase kakapalan ko na mukha kong sabihin na hindi ako nagpifirst move at lahat ng lumandi sakin college hanggang sa latest puro indie movie girlfriend material, i mean they can rock on their looks kase cutie
• pogi at angas ko kaya sa mga picture namin nung huling lumandi sakin taina
• tas syempre exchange pics
• okay naman picture nya, iba lang ang lens/image distortion ng selfie cam kaya some might find it flattering to take selfies in front cam, others dont, medyo maliwanag sya sa picture baka nakatutok yung light source sa mukha nya
• ako nag biglang mirror selfie lang dahil nagpapakatotoo lang haha kaysa naman magsayang ako oras hanapin yung mga pictures ko na kuha ng mga tropa ko, stressed ako today kaya medyo ang unflattering ng angle kanina
• ang cute ng initial convo kaya soooobrang tuwa ko like heeeyyyyy new people
• pwedeng friend material depende sa mga magaganap, i'll cross the bridge sana when i get there
• seems interesting and makulit kaya dagdag nice factor
• pero nung nagsend na nga ko ng pic syempre gusto ko malaman agad kung qualified na maging kausap or kung ano pa man
• as expected, nag pass, no hard feelings sana pero nabura yung message.
• dun na nga lang ako magli-live for the moment saglit na may muntikang magka interes sa buhay ko eh haha saka mga rants ko
• wala akong mabalikang pwede iback read na magpapakilig sakin saglit hahaha
• idk hahaha ang bigat sa pakiramdam, nakakatrigger ng insecurities kahit di naman dapat
• i just had to drop this here kase yung mga tropa ko di ko na makwentuhan ng ganto dahil nga nakapokus sa mga jowa nila ang mga hinamungkal
• buong araw ako nakatanggap ng rejection, sa project, sa mga sandamakmak na inapplyan while i'm still on my job, sa mga inaya kumain ngayong araw mula tropa, friend, workmate na gusto maging katropa. ngayong araw, lahat yan
• wala lang, like before i get the chance, a dream flashed right before my eyes, but it got shut right before i get the chance to prove myself of my worth
• pero yun nga, baka dahil nga desperado lang akong umalis sa pagiging linely kaya sya mas masakit
• gusto ko lang ng makakasandal sa bus pauwi

just like convenience, companionship is expensive kahit walang money inviolved (lalo na yung transactional companionship hahaha)
ayun medyo okay na ako haha maglalakad lakad na lang ulit ako sa seaside mamaya pag uwi

Sorry for the long ass post, but bear with me lang
It must be nice to feel again to have a special someone, someone you look forward to seeing, and someone you look forward as well to spend time with (especially on a long and tiring day).
I broke up with my ex last November, reason for it was I had to beg for the bare minimum. I only exist when she needs me, but when I’ve done it, I was cast aside. I gave her time, despite me being busy with work and being busy with law school.
I’ve forgotten about her na, moved on and let go of the grudges I had with her. Now, April 15 this year, I remember this date fondly, I had this co-worker who I was starting to develop feelings for around December, then the more I spend time with her earlier this month, the more my feelings got stronger. I decided, fuck it, aamin ako, mas better umamin ako and ma-turn down rather na di ako umamin then live the days off with regret.
I did it, I confessed to her. She already had a gut feeling, pero ayaw nya umasa (given her past experiences, which we’ll get to later). So ayun, I told her na, she didn’t shot me down, but she was undecided. Given na her past relationships, most of the guys left her and cheated on her, she became afraid or wary of anyone expressing romantic interests with her. Sinabi nya mismo na “bato ako ngayon, and matatagalan pa before ako lumambot, and at this stage pa, if meron magkakagusto sa akin and manliligaw, choice nya yun, if mahihintay nya ako, then I am willing to give that person a chance, pero if hindi, that only shows na easy person lang gusto nya. Choice nya if he will stay, ayaw ko makasakit agad ng tao na pag tinurn down ko sya, magsasalita ng masama sa akin. Alam mo naman and nakwento ko sayo mga napagdaanan ko and trauma ko from my previous relationships, yan ang malaking factor”. IDK, if ako lang, but other guys would no longer make effort knowing na it would take an effort to win that person. But ako, IDK if I’m a sane person, I decided to go with it and ipursue sya, I said to myself “Maybe, what she really wants is to find a guy na di mag-give up sa kanya, naiintindihan yung napagdaanan nya and bigyan sya ng time to fully open up and welcome someone again sa heart nya”. I decided to go for it, why not, if ma turn down pa din ako sa huli, masasaktan ako, pero at least I can say, di ako nagsisi umamin. If nareciprocate efforts ko para ligawan sya, edi TYL. She admitted ako ang first manliligaw nya na in person nagbibigay, I gave her letters, two letters in fact letting her know lang mga naiisip ko sa kanya and how I’m always here for her when she needs it.
I can’t help but imagine lang, na it would be nice sana if she were to be my girlfriend, na sya kasama ko, and yayakap sa akin, someone I can grow with reach our dreams together.
IDK lang if I made the right choice, but only time will tell.

I am so conflicted sa nararamdaman ko ngayon. I just found out na ang girlfriend ko F(21) believes in Cults and Faith Healers especially sa cult ni Ruben Ecleo Sr. (PBMA). She believes na all crimes of Ruben Ecleo jr. was just setup by police. She also doesn't believe in doctors and would rather go to a Faith Healer, she also supports Marcos and BBM and said they shoudn't have to pay their taxes because yung ibang mayayaman ay hindi rin naman daw nagbabayad ng tax??

I don’t know if my feelings are valid pero kasi naguguluhan ako sa mixed emotions na gumugulo sa utak ko ngayon. I want to get this off mu chest kasi feeling ko sasabog ako.
Me and my boyfriend have been for almost a year na. Just recently umamin siya sa akin na yung pakilala niyang name when we first started talking was not who he really was. Actually may mga hinala na ako kaya his revelations wasn’t that shocking for me naman. He explained his reasons and naiintindihan ko siya, so I forgave him. He become more open of who he really was talaga like kung sino at ano ang family niya. After his revelations, he said na gustong gusto niya akong ipa meet sa family niya pero hindi niya magawa kasi nga may tinatago siya sa akin and that since he came clean to me, he was relieved na finally he can do that na. Sinabi niya na nga daw sa mom niya na may plus one na siya for their family event because he’s bringing me.
Ever since we started talking nakekwento niya na yung renewal of vows ng parents niya. He’s a very family oriented man and I admire him for that. Preparations for the event took months and halos lahat na kwento niya sa akin. Since he’s the eldest , hands on talaga siya sa pag assist ng mga needs for the wedding. He asks my opinion on things lalo na sa susuorin niya. He was very excited for his parents big day, also his entire family and friends will be there.
So eto na nga. Here comes the big day. I wasn’t given a formal invite. Weeks before the wedding I was kinda waiting na bigyan niya ako invitation kasi halos araw araw niya ngang nababanggit yung event. I was planning to buy a dress pa naman for the event. Kaso nung days nalang ang pagitan I decided not to nalang kasi walang invitation na binigay. Hindi niya na din nabanggit kung isasama niya ba ako or hindi. Nakikinig nalang ako sa kga kwento niya about the preparations.
I am hurt. Nakwento niya how his closest friends will be there and kung pano niya ginawan ng way na ma excuse sila sa work nila without them being absent. His volleyball playmates will be there too. His brother’s girlfriend is invited. His girl best friend too (nasa VIP kasi mag bff moms nila). Yung kapatid ng ex niya na best friend ng sister niya is there din. Tapos ako??? He’s been updating me about the happenings sa event kaso fuck ayokong malaman kasi I don’t want to care. Siniseen ko lang messages niya. Gusto ko siyang sabihan kaso hindi ko magawa
Actually I don’t want to be too sensitive about it kaso I can’t help. Tangina bigla pa akong naiyak while typing this. Yun lang. I am very open for your reactions baka nagpapaka OA lang ako.
Thank you. Actually today is the D-day 05/15/2024…

This is my first time posting something like this so please do bear with me and the long post ahead.
I’ve been in a relationship with my girlfriend for 2 years already. So much has happened in the span of our relationship. I can’t count how many waves of ups and downs have we been through already. Aminado ako, kadalasan ako yung nagiging sanhi ng problema sa amin ng girlfriend ko kasi napapagalit ko siya. Pero tuwing nagagalit siya, takot na takot ako sa kanya. Minumura niya ako, pinapakyuhan, namimisikal siya, basta mga bagay na sa tingin ko ay masama naman. Basta talaga pag galit siya, para siyang ibang tao. Inamin niya sakin before na kaya ganun siya kasi may trauma rin siya galing sa mga magulang niya at mahirap daw baguhin ang mga ganung bagay o ugali. Pero kahit ako na may naidulot na trauma ang mga magulang, hindi ko naman yun dinalala o ipinaparanas sa iba. Kaya lagi kong sinasabi sa sarili ko na I will never let my own children experience my childhood and that the family trauma ends with me.
Going back, ayun nga, dahil sa ginagawa ng girlfriend ko ay nagkatrauma na tuloy ako. Masaya kami pag okay kami. But once may magawa akong mali or maski maannoy lamang siya at makita ko yung galit niyang mukha, parang nanginginig katawan ko. Kasi naaalala ko lahat ng mga ginagawa niya sakin pag galit siya. Naalala ko pa yung mga threats niya sakin na kung ano ano lang at natatakot talaga ako don. Nakakalungkot lang kasi di ko alam bat niya ba nagagawa or nasasabi ang mga lahat na yan sakin kung mahal niya ako. Kapag may kasalanan siya sakin, ang dali ko lang siyang mapatawad. Never ko rin siyang sinigawan, minura, pinisikal, etc. Kalmado lang ako pag may problema kami pero siya hindi. Pagnagaaway kami, tinatago ko mga importanteng gamit ko kasi baka sirain niya or itapon or isunog. Naaawa talaga ako para sa inner child ko kasi hindi naman to ang inasa ko sa isang relationship kasi para lang akong palaging pinapagalitan. Naiingit ako sa mga couple na hindi nagaaway. Tulad ng mga magulang ko, hindi talaga sila nagaaway. Pero sa magulang ng girlfriend ko, madalas magaway. Ayoko sanang umabot kami sa point na kasal na kami ay maging parehas kami sa mga magulang niya.
Nagpost ako ng ganito kasi di ako makatulog kasi di ko mapigilang umiyak kasi naaalala ko mga bagay bagay na to. Inisip ko future namin. Date to marry ako at jinowa ko ang girlfriend ko with the thought of marrying her in the future. Pero naisip ko na kung pagbabasehan sa ugali niya kapag galit, parang hindi ko na gusto na siya ang maging kasama ko habang buhay at maging ina ng mga magiging anak namin. Ayoko ko rin na magcause siya ng trauma sa mga future anak namin.
I would consider myself a soft-spoken person kasi introvert ako, opposite naman girlfriend ko. Akala ko magcocomplement kami kasi nga baliktad kami. Pero parang gusto ko nalang din ng soft-spoken tsaka mabait na partner. Yung hindi ako sisigawan, yung hindi ako bibigyan ng silent treatment, yung hindi ako lalayasin tuwing magaaway kami at mas lalong magagalit pag hindi hinahabol. Yung hindi nangungurot tsaka nanunulak. Yung hindi nanununtok. Yung hindi ako itrinatrato na outlet for rage. Mas lalo lang akong umiiyak sa pagsulat ng ending ng post na to.
Sana maging ayos nalang ang lahat. Ilang months ko na ring tinitiis ang ganito. What would you guys do in my situation? Do you think this relationship can still be saved? I still love her but I’m constantly drained because of her.
Sorry po kung hindi maayos ang pagkakasulat ko. It’s really hard to reminisce, think, type, and cry all at the same time.

Hello, everyone. I am a femme lesbian, and also still a college student. I broke up with my girlfriend recently, I was having a really hard time dealing with my own, I couldn't give myself the enough time to self-regulate, even during our fights I can get easily moved and be emotional so I tend to always make a big deal out of it, I became emotionally vulnerable plus the pressure I am facing sa acads, I felt so overwhelmed. I ended up breaking up with her because I personally think I couldn't afford to love her if I love myself less. I still love her as much as I do before, but I might only mistreat her if I continue our relationship in this state. Sa tingin niyo, tama ba ang ginawa ko?

heres a list of everything ive watched already
ik its a long list, but please skim through it before reccomending a show :))
cause i always end up getting alot of comments reccomending shows to me that ive already seen
and please keep it to just shows so no movies :)) preferably 24 ep or shorter, but i dont mind longer shows as long as theyre good
also would prefer shows that are dubbed (ik, lame. but my TV is broken n its hard to read subtitles on my phone)
i enjoy both wholesome shows as well as gut wrenchingly depressing shows that will leave me feeling empty afterwards
most the shows on this list are ones i enjoyed watching, but there are sum that i didnt really like. i didnt rate them tho so 🤷‍♂️
n ofc if anyone here is interested in a show on my list that they havent seen before n wants to know my opinion on it n if id reccomend it to you, feel free to ask :))

1. Attack on Titan
2. Yugioh
3. Tokyo Ghoul
4. Elfen Lied
5. Eureka 7
6. Wolfs Rain
7. Soul Eater
8. Soul Eater NOT
9. Gurren Lagann
10. Mob Psycho 100
11. Squid Girl
12. Death Note
13. Black Butler
14. One Piece
15. Naruto
16. Pokemon
17. Demon Slayer
18. Scryed
19. Blue Exorcist
20. Parasyte: The Maxim
21. Hetalia
22. Junjou Romantica
23. Maiden Rose
24. (forbidden anime)
25. Devilman Crybaby
26. The Great Pretender
27. Fooly Cooly
28. Beastars
29. Brand New Animal
30. Toradora
31. Durarara
32. Cowboy Bebop
33. Sword Art Online
34. Immortal Grand Prix
35. Ghost Stories
36. Another
37. Space Dandy
38. Jojo's Bizarre Adventure
39. A Lull In The Sea
40. Food Wars
41. AJIN: Demi Human
42. Neon Genesis Evangelion
43. Anohana
44. Corpse Party
45. When They Cry
46. Violet Evergarden
47. Your Lie In April
48. Yuri On Ice
49. Free!
50. Megalobox
51. Pop Team Epic
52. March Comes In Like A Lion
53. The Way Of The House-Husband
54. Japan Sinks: 2020
55. Mondaiji-tachi ga Isekai kara Kuru Sou Desu yo?
56. Terror In Resonance
57. Scissor Seven
58. One Punch Man
59. Persona 5
60. Wonder Egg Priority
61. Paranoia Agent
62. Sailor Moon
63. Stars Align
64. Mononoke
65. Erased
66. SK8 The Infinity
67. Mushi Shi
68. Death Parade
69. Tokyo Revengers
70. Given
71. Angels Of Death
72. Serial Experiments Lain
73. Ghost Hunt
74. Banana Fish
75. B: The Beginning
76. 91 Days
77. Made In Abyss
78. Orange
79. Plastic Memories
80. Psycho Pass
81. Bungo Stray Dogs
82. Jujutsu Kaisen
83. Hikari: Be My Light
84. To Your Eternity
85. The Promised Neverland
86. Sarazanmai
87. Deadman Wonderland
88. Toilet-Bound Hanako-kun
89. Arcane
90. Hyouka
91. Pillow Boys
92. Akudama Drive
93. Gleipnir
94. Link Click
95. True Tears
96. Hamatora
97. Darling In The Franxx
98. Boogiepob Phantom
99. Boogiepop And Friends
100. Rascal Does Not Dream Of Bunny Girl Senpai
101. Fruits Basket
102. No. 6
103. Shelter
104. Kids On The Slope
105. Ranking Of Kings
106. Vivy: Fluorite Eye's Song
107. Blood Blockade Battlefront
108. Sonny Boy
109. Blue Period
110. The Orbital Children
111. Kiznaiver
112. Noragami
113. Darwin's Game
114. Odd Taxi
115. Steins;gate
116. Dororo
117. My Love Story!!
118. Kotaro Lives Alone
119. Darker Than Black
120. re:ZERO
121. Btooom!
122. Komi Can't Communicate
123. Princess Tutu
124. HoriMiya
125. NANA
126. My Hero Academia
127. A Place Further Than The Universe
128. Blue Spring Ride
129. Carole & Tuesday
130. Dorohedoro
131. Ikebukuro West Gate Park
132. Dance Dance Danseur
133. Cyberpunk: Edgerunners
134. Code Geass
135. High-Rise Invasion
136. Kakegurui
137. Monster
138. WataMote
139. Angel Beats
140. Welcome To The NHK
141. Kiss Him, Not Me
142. Bakuman
143. Inuyashiki
144. Domestic Girlfriend
145. Michiko And Hatchin
146. K-On
147. Gangsta
148. Charlotte
149. Clannad
150. Clannad After story
151. Beck
152. Summer Time Rendering
153. Assassination Classroom
154. Tomodachi Game
155. Fullmetal Alchemist: Brotherhood
156. Spy × Family
157. My Dress-Up Darling
158. Tokyo Magnitude 8.0
159. Chainsaw Man
160. Baccano
161. K-Project
162. Eden Of The East
163. Samurai Champloo
164. Akame Ga Kill
165. His And Her Circumstances
166. My Little Monster
167. Dr. Stone
168. Vinland Saga
169. 86
170. Buddy Daddies
171. Haikyuu!!
172. Hunter × Hunter
173. Deca-Dence
174. Shiki
175. School-Live
176. Ghost Hound
177. Kemono Jihen
178. Mieruko-chan
179. Takt Op. Destiny
180. Haibane Renmei
181. Rumbling Hearts
182. Barakamon
183. Now And Then, Here And There
184. Shadow's House
185. Heavenly Delusion
186. Oshi No Ko
187. Insomniacs After School
188. Aggretsuko
189. Sanrio Boys
190. Gloomy
191. Ouran Highschool Host Club
192. Say "I Love You"
193. Princess Jellyfish
194. Hell's Paradise
195. Migi & Dali
196. The Dangers In My Heart
197. Somali And The Forest Spirit
198. Hybrid Child
199. Zom 100
200. Pluto
201. My Home Hero
202. Mushoku Tensei
203. Lycoris Recoil
204. A Galaxy Next-Door
205. Solo Leveling
206. The Apothecary Diaries

i really need to get this off of my chest kasi hindi na ako nakakatulog. para sa girlfriend ko, nakaka miss yung mga panahong ramdam kong mahal na mahal mo ako, na takot kang mawala ako. nito kasing mga nakalipas na buwan, hindi ko na maramdaman yun. nakakaya mo na lumipas ang isa o dalawang araw na hindi ako kinakausap.
siguro nga naisip mong hindi naman pala ako malaking kawalan. na marami naman iba dyan kung gugustuhin mo. kapag may hindi tayo pagka kaintindihan mas gusto mong sagutin nalang ako ng pabalang kaysa ayusin ang problema.
kapag hindi ako magpa ramdam, wala ka namang gagawin. ilang araw na akong umiiyak ng di ko namamalayan. hindi ko alam kung hanggang saan ba tayo, kung ayos ka na bang ganito nalang tayo parati.
alam mo bang takot na takot akong mag tampo sayo, kasi alam kong wala ka namang gagawin. kaya kahit gustuhin ko, isinasantabi ko nalang. uunawain ko, paulit ulit kong uunawain.
pero nauubos nako. nauubos na ang pang unawa ko. kahit kitang kita ko namang hindi mo ako kailangan, heto pa rin ako ipinipilit ang sarili ko sayo. kasi mahal kita, pero mukhang mahal mo lang ako kapag gusto mo lang. hintayin ko nalang sigurong mapagod ako. tutal parang yun nalang naman ang hinihintay mo. sana di mo nalang pinilit pumasok sa buhay ko, okay naman ako non eh.
pero sobrang consistent mo, tapos ngayon wala na. hahaha. wala na dahil sabi mo nga, busy ka. hirap mang limos ng oras, hirap mang hingi kahit konting lambing. baka siguro sakin lang.
ewan, bahala na si batman.
mahal na mahal kita, kahit ang sakit sakit na.

Sobrang kupal. Two weeks ago sa birthday ko nagchat sya ng sorry, nagbago na siya, he read my letters again, miss nako ng mga pamangkin niya, miss niya na mga aso ko, etc. Sobrang mabubulaklak na pananalita. Pinaka-outstanding doon ay gusto nya ko ifollow ulit sa instagram. Sabi ko baka weird sa bago niya. Sabi niya WALA SIYANG BAGO.
Nung isang gabi emotionally fragile ako due to the death of my dog. Nagreach out ako sakanya. Guess sinong sumagot sakin? Girlfriend niya daw. Akala ko nga prank lang e kaso nagsend pa ng pic nila sa photobooth. Tapos ngayong mother’s day nagpost din kasama na family niya.
Sabi ng girlfriend, using his account, bakit daw kailangan boyfriend nya kausapin ko. E hindi ko naman alam, sabi ko lang “kakasabi lang ng boyfriend mo na wala siyang bago.” Tinanong niya kung kailan, di ko sinagot - sabi ko lang “oops deleted ba convo namin?” Tapos ayun blinock na ako ng ex ko.
I feel pathetic na ginago nanaman ako ng lalaking to for the nth time. Since then hindi pa ako nakakain, oo tangina tatlong araw nako walang kain at tulog sa sobrang depressed ko. Nag self harm ako lalo na binugbog din ako ng tatay ko dahil OA OA ko nanaman daw.
Isa pang nakakatawa ay andaming sinet na standard ng ex ko noon sa babae. Ayaw niya sa pa-famous, pa-sexy sa socmed, pinagppyestahan ng lalaki sa comment section, pang subtle clown traits ang feed, dalawa facebook account na naka in a relationship pa sa sarili, nagppost ng naka panty lang sa kwarto, naka eyelash at nail extensions - pero look. Yan pinatulan niya, tumpak lahat. Sabi nya proud sya sakin dahil taga UP ako, pero pinatulan niya taga- no name school na tinawag pa nyang tapunan ng isang elite private school dito samin. Kahit yung kaibigan kong taga school na yon inamin na tapunan lang nga sila ng mga bagsak sa elite school na yun. Samantalang dati proud na proud siya sakin taga-UP ako, pinagmamalaki niya sa lahat.
Sana naman pumatol siya sa ka-level ko man lang. Kahit yung demure man lang o ako. Kaso tangina. Sorry talaga. Oo personal bias to. Pasensya na.
Di ko kung ano ang gagawin o iisipin man lang to feel better or makaka move past dito with a smile. Bitter na bitter ako.
third post ko na to about this person. you can read without context but it’s in my post history.