Begin an amazing, respectful, loving, caring married sex addict with two kids. I am currently going on 6yrs sobriety from a life style that almost killed me three times. Each time i believed i was free from the addition, a voice inside my head brought me back. Sobriety is not for the weak and it takes more then just shear will power to dance with the devil and survive. Sex addiction takes many form, and can hide in the shadows as, lust, angry, resentment, judgement. Or it can stand in plan site as porngphy, self obsession, strip clubs, adult bookstore, massage parlors, and more. It's claws ready to sink deeper into your soul the more you try to pull away or you think its under control. Your in trouble and doomed to be pulled into the dark. Hi i am a 59yr good looking male, who spent the last 54 years of my life living in a fantasy world i created. Made from lies and untruths i told mysel. Alawy in conflict alway torn by the feeling of guilt and shame . My scars are deep some are freshly healed i know now they will never go away. My mission is to carrier my message to others. A message of hope, confirmation with joy there is life beyond porn, sex, and the demons that live inside all of us. Freedom to love, care endlessly to feel just a little normal.

We have a few bird feeders and get a lot of different kinda of birds, but in particular we get a LOT of red ringed blackbirds, I just saw a female blackbird but she had like orangey/yellow spots like a male (more faded in color but definitely definitely spots) and I didn't get a picture cause a stupid grackle scared her off (i really hope she comes back so i can get a pic) 😭👍

Got bite by an insect and itched this morning. After a 10 hour day I take my sock off and notice a red blotch. Kind of like a rash but not itchy or painful. I live in Dakota County Minnesota and have found several ticks on me but take off my socks every night and would've noticed a tick on me. So it wouldn't have been on me for more than 12 hours.
Male 18 Height 5' 8" Weight 145
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My boyfriend (S, 35 male) and I (30 female) have been dating for a year and a half, and living together for 7 months. I have been considering breaking up with him following a few conflicts over the past months. When I brought this up to him, he apologized profusely for his attitude and promised he would start seeing a therapist and would never hurt me again. Is it reasonable to give him another chance? Am I overreacting? Am I overly sensitive?
Just to for a bit of context: I am neurodivergent and have some difficulty reading between the lines. I did ask my therapist what to do… but she doesn’t give me plain answers and wants me to come to realizations by myself… Also english is a third language for me, sorry for any mistakes.
So here are the conflicts I mentioned above: 1– A few weeks ago, S invited his parents and 3 brothers, as well as my sister, to our place for dinner. After a nice meal, we all sat down to watch TV. As the evening progressed, his brothers and my sister left one by one, but his parents did not budge. I eventually realized that they were going to spend the night. No one informed me of this, nor did they ask me if I had plans or if I agreed to it. I dont’t know if this changes anything, but this is my house, and my boyfriend lives in, rent-free, as I have a higher paying job. When we went to sleep, I told S that, in the future, when his parents decided to stay over, I wanted to be told in advance. He got defensive, raised his voice and said that he felt that I was telling him to ask for my permission to invite his parents. That I didn’t want to see them. That, in his culture, family doesn’t ask. That he didn’t know they would sleep over, etc. I slept on the couch that night. The next morning, I tried to deescalate the situation. I explained to him that I did not want him to ask for permission. That this was his home too and he could invite whoever he wanted, but that I preferred to know in advance. He said not to worry, because his parents would probably never want to come over again as he felt that I was cold to them and ignored them all night by being on my phone on the couch (which is true, I was upset). However, his parents never told him this… and did come back. I asked why he would say such a thing if they never mentioned it. He explained that he knew his parents by heart and knew that they would react this way. I then accused him of emotionally manipulating and gaslighting me. He thought about this for a few hours, then agreed that he did gaslight me, albeit unknowingly, because our fight brought back insecurities from a previous relationship. I forgave him and we moved on. He promised he’d see a therapist and would never hurt me this way again.
2–S borrowed a few thousand dollars for a failing family business owned by his brothers. As 6 weeks passed by and no one mentioned reimbursing me, I proposed that each of the brothers pay me 100$ a month until the debt was paid off. He agreed and fought with his brothers multiple times, but they would repeatedly say they have no money at the time, or change the subject. In the end, S took it upon himself to pay their debt, and does so by sending me 500$ every month. Following this, S’s work computer broke, and a new one would cost between 4 and 5K. He asked if I could help out, and this made me panic, as I wondered if he was using me, which I expressed to him. He comforted me in the moment, but a few hours later, he told me that he decided to get a loan from the bank to be able to pay his family’s debt as soon as possible, so that I don’t feel used. He seemed mad and raised his voice, but he denied being angry at me. “I am only angry at myself for putting myself in a situation to be told that I use someone.” I felt bad and apologized multiple times and the conflict deescalated. We ended up making up.
3– We went to visit my family for a week. He was a bit sick and did not socialize much. He spent most of his time on his phone, in my childhood room. My mom was worried about him. My sister tried to include him into activities with little success and later told me that he was participating in family conversations only in my presence, but that as soon as I stepped out of the room, he’d pick up his phone and ignore everyone else. I did not say anything to him, as I knew he was not feeling well. However, one evening, I had planned to see some childhood friends. And my mom asked S to have dinner with the family, but he refused, and went on a car ride and to McDonalds instead. Mom proposed different food options, worried that he didn’t like the food, but he refused. This made me very angry, but I did not want to seem accusatory, so I decided to let it go for the moment, until I was calmer and had found the right words to bring this up respectfully. He drove me to meet my friends later on, and blew up in the car, yelling that he felt I was cold and that he knew I was mad and that he knew I was about to explode but couldn’t handle the wait anymore. I cried and told him that I just needed some time to deal with my feelings and I had the right not to talk to him about everything that bothered me. He yelled at me the next day as well, saying that he was “worried he would get tired of my attitude”. I later asked my sister if I seemed cold towards S to her, and she said no. S and I later talked about all this, and he apologized profusely and said that he was tired and sick and worried.
4–He asked that I do not talk to my therapist about him because he doesn’t want people talking about him and knowing his business. We had an argument about it. I told him that this felt controlling and he recognized this and apologized dozens of times, explaining that he did not know about confidentiality, and that he overreacted because this brought back past trauma. He doesn’t mind my therapist anymore.
And other such little arguments where he reacts because of past trauma. Aside from these arguments, he is the sweetest man. Makes pancakes every morning. Massage twice a week. Kind. Very loving. Very generous. Sacrifices his own wellbeing for those he loves. Wears his heart on his sleeve. He left his better paying job to spend more time with me. We do a lot of activities together. Cleans. Cooks. Listens to me. Supports me. We have similar life goals. Drives 30 minutes into town if I want ice cream. Makes my lunchbox every morning. I really love the man. Plus, he’s sooooo good looking.
I was ready to leave him after the last argument (the yelling while at my parents’)… and I told him about it. He accepted the possibility of a break up, saying he only wants to know I am happy. But he asked for one last chance. I told him that I felt as if I couldn’t speak to him because of his reactions and that it felt somewhat abusive. He said that I was right and he understood that his reactions are not healthy and that he has to deal with his trauma. And he gave me examples where he thought he could’ve acted better, which showed that he really understood where the manipulation/overreaction occurred. He promised he’d never get upset at me again for no reason and things have been perfect for the past 2 weeks.
Even when I bring up something that upsets me, he listens and adresses the issue calmly and kindly.
Yet, I feel that I have trouble forgiving all the fights we’ve had where I felt muted. I don’t know if these are such grave offenses of if I’m just being overly sensitive. I tend to be very naive and I’ve been burned badly in the past, so now… am I being overly cautious. Are these incidents really so bad if he understands what he’s done?

So I'm in town on vacation with my wife. I leave at the ass crack of dawn on Wednesday to board the train to go back home.
Last night (sunday) I was curious what was in the area. I reinstalled grindr like I have countless times before. With the intention of just looking. I updated my pics because I finally pass as male. And I think it's hot lol. Of the bat someone messages and I'm interested. I let him know I'm trans. Don't have time to catch someone off guard and get murked... I've had a hysto back late last year. I'm good on penetration as far as I'm aware. This is the perfect 1 night stand cause I'll never see him again. I get to test the waters on the gay side. I told him I couldn't meet up last night but he wants to meet up tonight. Like I'm feeling it. It's fucking hot.
My sex life with the wife has been weird since my surgery. But I really want some rando dick because for the first time there's no risk of getting pregnant. I have no ovaries. I was awkward as shit pre hormones. And sex with guys was the worst because of it. I pass as male 90% of the time. My little gay boy wants to play.
Plan on meeting up with him on the bike path down the river bank from the hotel. Never had sex in public before. Nervous as fuck. I've had drunken hookups a few times before my surgery but it was with the Same guy. It was fucking amazing but that sits a little close to home. I live a 12 hour train ride away. I'm nervous as shit because there's not really much for places to step off the path where someone isn't gonna see. Especially at 8pm. The bike path is fairly active for dogs and bikes and runners. I just don't wanna get caught with my pants around my ankles. I don't wanna go to jail because someone sees us before we see them. The idea of cruising is sexy but even then it's typically out of sight. Thinking of telling him I've changed my mind. Mt is great I'd like to be able to visit again in the future...... but don't want to end up on the registry...

Recently diagnosed with PCOS which hasn't helped this. Am starting to think I could have lipedema, my legs look similar to many pics on here, although my calves look normal, but my things have always been bigger and have a lot of what I just thought was cellulite. I am currently obese, but I have previously lost 70 lbs naturally (gained it all back during pandemic and currently losing again) -
Would I be able to lose weight from my thighs if it was lipedema? When I lost the weight, I was still bottom heavy, and my thighs still dimpled, but proportionally I shrank all over. It wasn't all went from my top half and the thighs were left the same.
I do find I'm a bit tender to the touch and can't tolerate firm massages, but I'm not in loads of pain. I thought the tenderness was maybe inflammation from PCOS. I do get bruises when I bash into things e.g. tables, but it's not like I bruise constantly.
I have noticed the odd small lump under the skin on my abdomen, but there's only a few of them and they're spread out. Can't feel any on my thighs.

Hey Everyone! I’m a Hispanic male/nonbinary person. Looking to make a nice connection with a nice open masculine man. I lean more towards the feminine side of the scale and want to be up front about that. Additionally, I’m typing this on my phone so forgive me on spelling, grammar, and editing issues.
My Hobbies: Video Games, meeting new people, reading books, taking long walks, trying new restaurants, going out to dance, shopping, and traveling. Physical Description: As I stated before I’m Hispanic. I lean on the feminine side. I stand at about 5’6. Average body. Thicc thighs and booty lol. I keep my hair short. I’ve been described often as cute. I’m light skinned. I have my ears pierced. I’m happy to send pics and you should be too.
What I’m looking for: Ideally I’m looking for a masculine top. But more importantly someone I can be friends with. If you’re someone who struggles to maintain contact and can’t initiate conversation it’ll be hard for us. I want us both to feel wanted. We can start on reddit chat and then work to other apps if we click. Please be around my age. Lowest age I will go is 26 years old. My ideal person would be someone who is open to platonic and romantic pursuits. If any of this resonates with you please message me.
Hope to hear from yall soon.

Hey Everyone! I’m a Hispanic male/nonbinary person. Looking to make a nice connection with a nice open masculine man. I lean more towards the feminine side of the scale and want to be up front about that. Additionally, I’m typing this on my phone so forgive me on spelling, grammar, and editing issues.
My Hobbies: Video Games, meeting new people, reading books, taking long walks, trying new restaurants, going out to dance, shopping, and traveling.
Physical Description: As I stated before I’m Hispanic. I lean on the feminine side. I stand at about 5’6. Average body. Thicc thighs and booty lol. I keep my hair short. I’ve been described often as cute. I’m light skinned. I have my ears pierced. I’m happy to send pics and you should be too.
What I’m looking for: Ideally I’m looking for a masculine top. But more importantly someone I can be friends with. If you’re someone who struggles to maintain contact and can’t initiate conversation it’ll be hard for us. I want us both to feel wanted. We can start on reddit chat and then work to other apps if we click. Please be around my age. Lowest age I will go is 26 years old. My ideal friend would be someone who is open to platonic and romantic pursuits.
If any of this resonates with you please message me.
Hope to hear from yall soon.

species: cat
age: 22 (yes 22)
sex: male, neutered
breed: unknown domestic shorthair
body weight: +/- 6lbs
history: chronic kidney disease, unknown stage but guessing 3rd.. managing with wet food diet and subcutaneous fluid. some cognitive decline, previous history of wounds on the paw/leg
clinical signs: over-grooming.. otherwise doesn't seem stressed
duration: wound has been growing slowly for a few days, became concerning looking yesterday
https://imgur.com/a/G94nZK0 pics of wound
this is now the third time this has happened to him, all in different but similar locations, same paw. first time it went on for nearly a year @ back of paw with lots of vet attention and was eventually stitched up. second time it wasn't bad @ bottom, kinda on top of paw and it healed up with no intervention. this time it is back on the side of the paw, I have no clue what it is maybe granulomas, or a misc wound just made worse and worse by his tendency to obsessively lick. i tried to wrap this as i have in the past and he removed it. i don't know how urgent this really is, i plan to take him to the vet sometime this week anyway

Looking to chat to someone about nsfw male or female we could trade pics rate each other praise degrade but no tributes thanks for taking the time to read this and feel free to dm if interested

Hi I just bought my first 40mm Tissot quartz prx from a 2nd hand dealer. But when I wanted to register on Tissot website I got a massage that said it's invalid. Is it fake? But also it exactly weights as 134gram. Here is the link to the pics of it: https://imgur.com/a/bp2NeTU

Hey guys i am currently M21, last year around june i was feeling lonely, so i wanted some companion and i kept watching porn and girls who sell their pics on telegram(i am not rich, its just that it was cheap so i did this). Then one girl said that she will do free demo of video call. So i agreed to it and shared my whatsapp. Then next day when i was watching study lectures she messaged me on whatsapp, we talked and she told me to do n*de videocall, me being at my lowest consiousness, removed clothes and did video call with her. Her face wasnt visible in call but her parts were visible. She made look that her internet connection is not good, so she asked my instagram account to do videocall there. Me doing the most dumb thing was to share my insta account. Then she followed me, i followed her back(my account was open, not private). Now next moment she sent me my nak*d video in which i was shown playing with my d*ck which i was at videocall. Earth slided from my feet after seeing this. She asked me to send 10000 rupees to her,i did not have(even if i had i wouldnt have sent this much big money). So she said that i give u 30mins ask ur friend or do whatever but send me money otherwise i will leak ur videos to ur instagram friends. I immediately called my friends(not to ask money), they told do complain online and delete instagram. I did both. The person(police) who registered my complaint asked me to send the video also as a proof, so i shared the video with police. Later police told me to go to nearest policestation and tell scenario. In the meanwhile 30 mins passed and she sent the video to my cousin sister who probably doesnt see instagram and some of school friends who i never talk(most probably they also didnt saw it), also sent to 1-2 college girls(but i think they never saw it, because afaik u cannot send this to someone if other person has private account and u dont follow them) and 1 boy(mentioned later).Then she said that send me money fast or else i will leak to whole insta followers.I didnt replied and went with my friend to police station, police said that to block her first and nothing will happen now, chill. They told me to tell about this incident to my parents, but i was afraid(felt shameful) so i didnt told parents.I found that person called me had a male voice so definitely a male, and in videocall there was no she, he recorded some video of girl and did put on camera such a way that it looks real. Later i removed the sim from phone and did nothing for 2 days. Next day one of my friend(college friend mentioned earlier) messaged me that someone sent me this video. I said that it is of deepfake and do report the account. He was supportive of my situation. I still feel utter shameful for doing this, honeshtly speaking i am not a type of guy who does such things, during that 1hr lust captured me so badly that i lost it. i dont understand that how to overcome this feeling

Hold your breath and read through this, regardless of your biases, and you'll find I'm correct.
There are three categories of war deaths published by the Ministry of Health in Gaza: identified (with ID numbers, names, etc), non-identified (these are largely drawn from media reports of casualties), and the total (the two categories combined).
The other day, the MoH published a chart (see below) reiterating their total death estimates and specifying how many male, female, child, and elderly deaths there were among the identified category. This did not constitute a revision or a repudiation of their estimates for non-identified deaths, which they reiterated in the same graphic and in posts since then.
The UN then followed the MoH in creating a chart that listed the total deaths (including non-identified), but parsing out identified deaths from non-identified deaths, and listing the demographics of the former.
This is now being turned into 'THE UN HAS REVISED DOWN THE PALESTINIAN WOMEN/CHILDEN DEATH ESTIMATE BY 50%.' That's obviously an erroneous inference. Rather, the UN page is literally copying the recently published pic related categories and figures of the MoH (including the very clumsy category of "elderly", which for some reason is non-overlapping with women/men).
After making the rounds in trash media, the erroneous claim that the UN has 'revised down' its estimates made it into at least one reliable source (USA Today) today. But the truth will come out and the denialism will look dumb soon enough.
P.S.
Wrapped within this hoax is an interesting statistical quandary: Why is the percentage of women and children among the total Palestinians killed so much higher for non-identified deaths than for identified deaths (which are 58% w/c including elderly women)?
One possibility is that there is an over-representation of Hamas fighters in the identified data, since Hamas may have more capacity than civilians to identify/report their casualties to the MoH; as Hamas casualties are virtually all men, this would skew identified male relative to non-identified.
Another possibility is that media - in the case of non-identified deaths, the MoH is relying upon media reports- is more likely to cover airstrikes that disproportionately kill women/children, since those shock the consciousness and attract human interest. In other words, the non-identified category might be (because of possible reporting bias of the media sources on which it relies) under-counting men.
There is however zero evidence whatsoever that the MoH is counting 'fake deaths' or whatever, or that media sources are systematically 'faking' deaths from airstrikes, etc it reports. It should be noted that the US intelligence and Israeli intelligence both consider the MoH figures to be reliable; Biden cited them in the State of the Union.
UPDATE: the UN just confirmed the story is fake; that they have not downward revised the MoH figures; and that they consider the MoH estimates reliable. A twitter user shared a video in which a UN spokesperson made these clarifications: (3) Adil Haque on X: "UN confirms 34,622 recorded fatalities in Gaza, of whom 24,685 have been fully identified (name, age, gender, id number) by MoH. Efforts to identify the dead continue, in unimaginably difficult circumstances, denialism and political spin be damned. https://t.co/TYnKAbRWZQ" / X (twitter.com)
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in three weeks, T has helped me put on so much muscle i managed to outgrow a brand new binder that i had purchased to size up to begin with and holy shit the pain of wearing a too-small binder for a full work shift fucked me up. do not try to push through wearing a binder if it feels wrong.
for context, before T, i was really underweight and i couldn't outpace my fast metabolism to gain any meaningful weight. i'm 5'5" and bounced between 100-105lbs and i was strong for my size but that's not saying much versus the general male population. this is where i'd say a huge majority of my dysphoria lived, having narrow shoulders, the little fat i had all being at my hips, people assuming i'm too weak for even basic tasks. so at the start of this year, i really put my nose to the grindstone and have been practicing muay thai and weight-lifting multiple times a week like i used to pre-pandemic. i was doing okay at it! i'm never going to the olympics but i was feeling good.
and then i started T in february. my appetite has exploded and i've been putting away over 2300 calories per day just to not feel so goddamn hungry. i've been focusing on high protein foods and trying to drink a quart of milk a day and two protein shakes. it's also given me more energy and confidence to go workout and practice even if i'm not feeling 100% mentally up to it.
so, between all the food and the working out, i've managed to put on 20lbs of mostly muscle in 3 months and holy shit the difference is real. T is putting a majority of it on my upper body. but then also i don't get as cold as easily, i have more energy all the time, my posture is better, my clothes fit better, this specific dysphoria is evaporating slowly and holy shit i feel alive and present. but there's a catch.
none of my fucking binders fit. at first, say around late-march, i got an inkling my flavnt half-binders were too small. something just felt off cause i can usually forget they're on but i was just so aware of them. so i stopped wearing them and i sized up and bought a new one like 3 weeks ago. it fit and felt great, back to normal i thought. i wear my binders maybe 2-3 times a week normally, but last week i had really physically active work so i didn't wear it until friday with nothing but a t-shirt over it. and by the end of the day i was fucking suffering. i had shooting pains when i moved any part of my upper body. i was getting those cramps you get when running along your ribs, while standing still. i couldn't take it off my entire 8 hr shift + 45 min commute, until i got to my girlfriend's place. i spent the rest of the night switching between curling up into a ball or doing any stretch i could think of to get away from the pain, my girlfriend also gave me a massage but the pain stayed just as bad the entire time, it was constant. it felt like a stomach ache, chest pains, running cramps, and period cramps all at the same time. breathing was like i'd been holding my breath underwater for ages and couldn't catch it again. it went on all night until i took an ibuprofen and got very high, then it finally eased. when i was smoking, i had a hacking coughing fit that i think shook up my lungs and cleared me out, and i also had a laughing fit when i was high and watching youtube that also definitely did something to help in terms of muscle pain. it was the opposite of laughing until you're sore lmao. i'm okay now after a weekend of free-balling it with absolutely no sports bras or any compression and doing some yoga to stretch it out, but christ that was so much pain i was freaked out. and i have a decent pain tolerance! i've been hit by 2 cars, i severed a finger once, i've done combat sports on and off my whole life! i'm never making that mistake again.
the night i was rolling around in pain, my girlfriend wanted to check something. i just happened to have my rib and chest measurements in my phone from when i bought the new binder, so my girlfriend measured me again to check to see just how badly i fucked up, and i went from being 27" around my ribs to being 32" (i'm gonna make these lats into wings) and my chest went from 31" to being 34". my girlfriend just laughed and she just said "you're bulking up too much babe, it's a good problem to have"

Hey Everyone! I’m a Hispanic male/nonbinary person. Looking to make a nice connection with a nice open masculine man. I lean more towards the feminine side of the scale and want to be up front about that. Additionally, I’m typing this on my phone so forgive me on spelling, grammar, and editing issues.
My Hobbies: Video Games, meeting new people, reading books, taking long walks, trying new restaurants, going out to dance, shopping, and traveling.
Physical Description: As I stated before I’m Hispanic. I lean on the feminine side. I stand at about 5’6. Average body. Thicc thighs and booty lol. I keep my hair short. I’ve been described often as cute. I’m light skinned. I have my ears pierced. I’m happy to send pics and you should be too.
What I’m looking for: Ideally I’m looking for a masculine top. But more importantly someone I can be friends with. If you’re someone who struggles to maintain contact and can’t initiate conversation it’ll be hard for us. I want us both to feel wanted. We can start on reddit chat and then work to other apps if we click. Please be around my age. Lowest age I will go is 26 years old. My ideal friend would be someone who is open to platonic and romantic pursuits.
If any of this resonates with you please message me.
Hope to hear from yall soon.

Who needs a free massage ? With extra at the end ? Send age and body pic for my addrss. I will help you have the end goal to orgasm or ejaculate and experience pleasurable sensations during massage. This is not a dentist office, no next day schedule ! It’s free !!