Poems for a grandaughters first birthday

I've known my friend for a few years, he's a skilled crocheter who often makes little toys and amigurumi to give to friends. I have three of them, each are birthday presents he made for me. He studies art at university and his body of work (BoW) is crocheted toys themed after "tokens of love". He has a formal check-in coming soon and his professor wants him to have 15 within 3 weeks but he has only made 7 since he started in about January and in hopes of making it in time he's been asking me and several other friends he's crocheted things for to give back our presents so he can submit them as part of his BoW
My first response was no, they're mine, which I thought was reasonable but some of our mutual friends have agreed and given him theirs - now he has 9/15. They've told me that I was being selfish and that he was already very busy and behind on his BoW when I'd only have to lend them for a short time (if I do, I could get it back in November) and refusing to give the toys back would be sabotaging his BoW. I've asked my mother what she would do and she told me that we've been friends for so long and I would want him to do the same if I was in his position (I would consider asking someone to return their gifts to be incredibly rude and I wouldn't do it myself, but to be fair to my friend his professor was the one who suggested reaching out and asking for the presents back)
It's made me feel pretty guilty and unsure if I was in the right. AITA?

Sorry for the rant in advance - I'm really nervous/excited
I(M16) have a crush on a girl(F15) on my climbing team, and I think she likes me back. I just turned 16, and got tickets to go see Wicked for my birthday and decided to invite her. She said yes immediately and enthusiastically, but I am unsure about how to confirm if she just wants to be friends or if she actually likes me. My friends think she may like me based on conversations we've had, but this is my first time liking/trying to date someone so I'm very nervous and quite unsure. Also, My parents have been continuously shipping me with friends and when I mentioned I'm taking her instead of my best friend since preschool, my mom immediately jumped to dating, and I'm not sure if I'm ready to tell them yet, so I kind of just ignored my mom and pretended like nothing happened. Any advice on either front?

I saw both the Lucas and Flint headcanon threads, so I'm doing one for Jeff Andonuts (and Tony)!
This will mostly be based on Earthbound, but I'll also mention some based on late-game or even as far as Mother 3, but I could only tag for one series. I'll try my best to block out what *would* be a spoiler, but let me know if I missed something. It's a long post, sorry.
Jeff Andonuts (beginning + middle of the game):

• Despite his name, he really likes cookies more (he TOOK Tony's birthday cookies)
• Jeff doesn't mind the cold of Winters.
• Jeff likes working alone, but he doesn't like to *BE* alone
• Jeff *did* call his father "dad" at one point, before he was left at the boarding school
  • He met Tony on said day
• Jeff isn't a robot, and he's not a clone either
• Not only is Jeff near-sighted, but he may be getting far-sighted as well - in other words his vision isn't great at all
• Jeff tolerates Maxwell Labs.
• He wasn't religious or spiritual at all initially, but after Giygas, he believes in some sort of higher power - not necessarily a specific religion, but definitely felt that *someone* or *something* saved them.
• He knows some Dalaam-ese, but isn't a fluent speaker.
• He did have some sort of "feud" with Poo regarding science vs belief, but then they become close friends
• Ness thought that Paula would be more interested in Jeff, as he's smart and somewhat of a gentleman
  • He took "finishing" classes at Snow Wood
• He doesn't understand why Ness and Paula stare when he mentions getting swatted at school
  • He got swatted often
• Jeff is confused with American Eagleland dialect. The same goes for Ness and Paula and Jeff's dialect from Winters. (ie. ground floor vs first floor, chips vs crisps, herbs vs **h**erbs)

Jeff Andonuts (endgame + post-game) - more spoilers here

• Dr. Andonuts took longer to put Jeff's consciousness into the robot body than the rest of the 3.
• >! Jeff repairs his relationship with his father, but it takes longer than he realizes!<
  • Until he is taken by Porky, which leads to his appearance in Mother 3.
  • Jeff falls into a deep sadness for a while because of this, but gets encouraged by Tony and uses an improved Phase Distorter to find him again.
• Jeff DOES fix Ness and Paula's appliances (including a toaster) after they get married
• Jeff accepts that not only does Tony like him, but the realization that he likes him back!They get serious about dating when they're older, and eventually marry as well!
  • Dr. Andonuts is indifferent to their relationship, and nearly forgets when the wedding is because he's a bit absent-minded when it comes to social functions

Tony (beginning + middle of the game)

• Tony has asthma, so he carries a rescue inhaler with him
• Tony is of Italian (whatever the equivalent is in Earthbound) heritage - he knows some words and talks with his hands but not as advanced as a native speaker
• Tony plays soccer (football) in the school's team
• Tony realized that he was gay fairly young, but he's not very open for his safety. Even Jeff doesn't know.
• Tony is more of the "sensitive" one of the two friends. Also more of a romantic, and more artistic than Jeff. He's good in school too, but not Jeff-level.
• Tony is popular in school - he was getting birthday gifts! The other kids don't understand why he'd be close friends with someone as reclusive and aloof as Jeff
• Tony likes Maxwell Labs, except when he's doing a prank
• Tony>! stood at the gates when Jeff jumped over and left, and stood long enough to get some frostbite!<
• When>! Tony calls you, he *wants* to tell Jeff that he loves him, but is terrified to do so!<
  • Even when he sees him again at Stonehenge Base.
• While Jeff is away, Tony prays every night. He is a practicing Catholic, so he uses a rosary.

Tony (endgame + postgame)

• When Paula>! is praying for help, Tony is not able to "hear" her, but he only can get a "feeling", since he doesn't have PSI!<
• When Jeff returns to Snow Wood, Tony admits to him that he is gay, and that he did like Jeff this whole time! He's scared, but Jeff accepts him, and also his feelings for him.
  • Dr. Andonuts thought for about a minute when Jeff brings Tony over to meet him, but he doesn't say anything negative about it - he only asked him to get a wrench for him. Jeff tells Tony that this is actually a positive response
  • Tony's family, on the other hand, accept Jeff - either immediately or eventually. Jeff doesn't know what to do regarding their family customs when he's invited over
• Jeff and Tony get married when they're older!

Bonus: Maxwell Labs

• Maxwell is known as the "cool teacher"
• Maxwell teaches science classes
• Maxwell get irritated by Jeff's behavior sometimes (basically when Jeff gets bored and starts building a bottle rocket or something)
• Maxwell is also a DM for the school's Dungeons and Dragons club, which both Jeff and Tony are members of
  • He laughs at the players' pain as he explains that the roll failed
• Maxwell comforts Tony when Jeff leaves, and encourages him to try calling or writing to him.
  • Tony wrote more in a journal than actually sending the letters
• He attends Jeff's and Tony's wedding. He bawls

This is what I'm able to remember for now, since ideas come and go. I would like to hear other people's theories, and if you want to comment on mine, go for it!

Written 5/8/2024- updates attached below

I tried posting this on kendrick almost a week ago and it got no response, I messaged the mods to ask about Karma restrictions or account age requirements and they never replied. I made a new account and it was the same issue, but I found out last night I wasn’t fully banned, so I figured I’d throw it up and see if anyone finds it valuable. It’s written for people who have no prior knowledge of the rap game/music business. I don’t have to go as hard on obscuring names this time. One of the influencers I mentioned in my last post is known for doxxing and threatening violence against people who mention the many contradictions in their stories. (Sorry for any typos/mistakes I want to go to bed.)
Origins
I believe the current Drake and Kendrick Lamar beef is either completely or partially fabricated by certain industry leaders or the parties involved in an effort to distract from something bigger going down behind the scenes. If you were an influential label owner facing major accusations, and you needed to deflect media attention from yourself, recreating one of the most defining moments in rap history during the social media era would be a way to do it. It also wouldn’t hurt that two of the biggest rappers in the world were already sending shots at each other in their music for years prior. The public consensus is they are simply two famous rappers who hate each other and fighting over the spot for the top like in the 90’s. Only people who were directly involved could paint a more cohesive picture of the whole story. Even when all the cards drop, there is a good chance the average person won’t be able to find direct sources on their own and will continue to support their favorite artists and dismiss any evidence of their crimes like the drizzy subreddit or Ak fans.

As I said the beef between Kendrick and Drake has been brewing in the background for years, with both rappers sending shots and sneak dissing each other over the course of at least 8 years. The most agreed upon origin story is the first diss was the 2016 Big Sean and Kendrick collaboration, “Control,” and Drake responded with, “The Language”. Things stayed relatively lighthearted for a while and both were intentionally vague for many years. Before I go deep into the Kendrick and Drake stuff, it’s really important to examine some of Drake’s prior beefs because they add a ton of context to my theory. In my opinion Kendrick and Co. started scheming all of this some time around Mid 2020-Mid 2022, well after the whole Pusha T beef had transitioned into the Kanye beef.

What exactly started the beef is debatable, but at the time many attributed it to rumors of Drake pursuing Ye’s ex Amber Rose. Unfortunately the timeline isn’t 100 percent clear, and if I included every detail this would be at least 200+ pages so I’ll stick with the important stuff. The ultimate outcome of the Pusha T battle in 2018 was the revelation of Drake’s son Adidon that he had previously been hiding from the world along with getting Ye directly involved in the beef.

Here are some more examples of Drake antagonizing Ye and of him trying to use women as pawns to get material for his diss tracks. The Drake line, “Yeah, I probably go link to Yeezy, I need me some Jesus, but as soon as I start confessin' my sins, he wouldn't believe us," could be a reference to sleeping with Kim Kardashian, trying to double down on his threats to harm him or his family, or it could be a double entendre. Another example is using the name Kiki in another song, which was apparently one of Kim’s nicknames. Some other possible examples include the theories he may have tried the same thing with Kendrick’s wife Whitney around 2020-2021 in an attempt to use as ammo against Kendrick, which I’ll go into later. I don’t listen to much of either artist's music, but there are probably many of other examples in Drake’s catalogue that I’m leaving out. There is also his song Omerta released in 2019, which I'll go into below.

“Your baby mother call me when she lonely My tailor see me twice a week, he like my homie Forever grateful, forever thankful Diamond necklace, but she wears it on her ankle”

(Probably referring to Kim Kardashian since she had a few pictures with her wearing diamond ankle bracelets and was trying to make it into a trend.

“I plan to buy your most personal belongings when they up for auction”

(There were various rumors floating around for a while that Drake was blackmailing Ye with something and he was fighting to keep it from the public. I thought about it and this line might be referencing a sex tape with Kim or her little sister who me was very touch before she turned 18. In 2022 there was a whole storyline on Kim’s show where Ye flies to LA to prevent her second sex tape from being released.)

West Hollywood, know my presence is menacing
Cosa Nostra, shady dealings
Racketeering, the syndicate got they hand in plenty things The things that we've done to protect the name are unsettling But no regrets, though, the name'll echo Years later, none greater
Death to a coward and a traitor, that's just in my nature, yeah
(Drake and Ye both frequented the Delilah Nightclub located in West Hollywood and lived closeby on the same street for a while.)
"I don't carry cash 'cause the money is digital
It's the American Expresser, the debt collector"

(Sounds a lot more like it could be crypto to launder or send large amounts of ill gotten gains. It started becoming mainstream around them)

"Last year, niggas really feel like they rode on me
Last year, niggas got hot 'cause they told on me
I'm 'bout to call the bluff of anybody the fold on me"

These lines stood out because they could be referring to Ye telling the public about Drake's alleged threats a couple months before the songs release. This happened not long after the release of Sicko mode which was towards the end of 2018 as well. Ye was discussing the incident on Twitter and reached out to Drake and Travis to talk to him in private. In the next set of tweets Kanye publicly accused Drake of threatening him and his family in a major way. Surprisingly Ye seemed genuinely scared and amongst his, “crazy rants,” some of the stuff he said makes a ton of sense in hindsight. This also the beginning of his second serious public struggles with Bipolar disorder after being committed in 2016 shortly after an on stage rant where he calls out Jay Z for selling out and says he's afraid he might kill him.. As someone who shares the same diagnosis, I have a pretty good understanding of mania and psychosis and firmly believe that it's important not to write people off right away due to their mental illness. Some of my most thoughtful, creative, and productive periods were inspired by mania. Industry bigwigs have also been using mental illness to discredit influential black celebrities and visionaries going back decades, but it really picked up in the 80’s.

Dave Chappelle has gone into this a lot in the past and claims he experienced something similar before he quit show business and dipped to Africa. Their stories have a lot of interesting parallels if you’re familiar or curious. I remember he actually visited Ye at his house in Wyoming after he was reported to have had a, "mental breakdown," during his presidential run in 2020 thus marking his third breakown in six years.. The reason I put it in quotes is because it happened right after he publicly accused Kim of cheating and delivered his legendary speech on abortion. Dave went as far as going on live tv and telling the public he wasn’t crazy, he was just really struggling because he was the only one at the time fighting against the narrative, which can often be a suicide mission or a ticket to obscurity. These are three examples of someone speaking up and being deemed crazy, two years later came the nazi stuff and I'm sure we'll have plenty in store for 2024.

This is just the tip of the iceberg when it comes to the very common pattern of artists dying or having their careers destroyed either after they try to leave their label or threaten to reveal industry secrets. A few more interesting industry connections I made in my research include the connections between:

T.U.G. records and J Cole's independent label Dreamville are both managed by Interscope Records, whose parent company is Universal Music Group.

Universal Music Group also hac Drake's label OvO label as well as Ye and Kendrick's old labels on their roster before they left to form their own independent labels in 2022 (around the same time the disses between Kendrick and Drake started escalating). Finally Bad Boy Records, which is owned by Diddy, and Motown Records who own Diddy's other R&B label Love Records, are also both owned by Universal. This means every label I mention is currently or was previously owned by Universal Music Group.

Ye tried for years to get out of his contract with Defjam, which happens to be ran by Jay Z who is known to be a close associate of Diddy. Jay would always used his money and power to fight against it. Ye even spoke out publicly on a few occasions, including when he said Jay Z was trying to kill him during one of his concerts. My theory is after years of getting nowhere and having his reputation skewered, in 2022 Ye finally said, "Fuck it," and dropped all the anti- Semetic stuff intentionally in a successful attempt to force his label to into using their morality clause, which requires labels to drop an artist if they're accused of any major controversy that could hurt the label’s profits. For the fourth time in four years the media reported he was having a breakdown. Even though they tried to punish him by cutting off all of his sources of income and freezing his accounts he still managed to bounce back pretty quickly. It was often reported how much he was losing, but it rarely discussed how he still was filthy rich in spite of the retrictions. His label wanted to discourage other artists from trying the same thing. My theory is he might have bought Kim or Kylie's alleged sex tape and used it for his own leverage. For Kendrick, his transition to his independent label ApLang went a lot smoother, but he had to split ownership of his new label with the previous manager owner Dave Free. Sadly it's still difficult for new or more niche artists to establish themselves without the some help.

He may be a lot of things but Ye isn’t dumb just because he has a mood disorder and the guys at the top know this, which is why I think he has really played up his diagnosis when it benefitted him. He’s still one of the most talented musicians in the game and I really think he sees his bipolar like a superpower as he says. It’s like his own invisibility cloak. He can go off his meds for a little, make an album after staying up for 72 hours, go on a “psychotic” twitter rant dropping facts throughout, then start up again once he makes enough news headlines. I think it’s worth noting the first divorce rumors in 2020 coincided with Ye’s abortion speech during his presidential run and the cheating accusations. that led to him dropping out and moving to Wyoming, and a couple months ago in February 2024 he was committed again.

The point I’m making is bipolar is complex, but pretty manageable especially if you have a ton of money to find meds that work for you and a good doctor and can keep substance abuse and stress at a manageable level. I think Ye is smart enough to know this, but it’s just safer for him to really play up the mental issues in the media. He’s proven he can literally say whatever he wants after getting cancelled and the average person is just going to write it off as psycho babble. While bias in health care is a sad fact of society, if you can use it to your advantage I say go for it. It might’ve just kept the microscope off of him long enough to plan his attack.

Ye v. Drake: Quotes of 2018
(Start of the beef, drake threats, and suspicion towards Kardashian family. )

“ It’s not about rap. It’s about family. We have to be close as a family and never let these people infiltrate just for radio spins”

“We need to show the world that people can talk without people ending up dead or in jail.”

”This is a man speaking to a man that has been placed in the program to fuck with Kanye West head and set me up“

”See when you care about your family you don’t let no man push you to do nothing that could risk your freedom“

These first four tweets by Ye were all in reference to perceived threats made by Drake after their beef escalated circa 2018. He began speaking on the industry and talking more about his psych hospital commitment two years prior and how he thought they were going to kill him. It's pretty obvious how the whole thing was planned by the sketchy doctor who called it in and his physical trainer who has a ton of connections to weird shit involving his celebrity clients.

I found interesting that Ye might not have been the first major league rapper whose life Drake threatened. During a similar period of mental illness the up and coming rapper XXXtentacion accused Drake of stealing his flow and dissed him a few times. Not long after he made a post online saying if he dies, it was Drake who did it. There are tons of conspiracies online, but none of the evidence is strong enough to draw a definitive connection. Also while it maybe be coincidental, Kendrick’s latest album Mr Morale also painted the picture that Kendrick was dealing with some serious personal issues. Some lines throughout the album may have been used to bait Drake into escalating, but it wasn’t until The Weekend, Future, and Metro Booming dropped, “We Don’t Trust You,” then Drake and J. Cole dropped, “First Person Shooter,” which was followed a couple days later with, “Like That,” where Kendrick started the chain of events that has led us to today.

Kanye vs. Drake: Quotes of 2020

Summary: Ye runs for president and gets suppressed for saying what very well could be the truth and was immediately deemed insane by the media. Kim did a couple interviews and everything he said was immediatly false. There is almost guarenteed to be some sketchy shit going down revolving her and her family. Ye was absolutely terrified of her keeping the kids away from him and it seems like there are still efforts being made to this day to paint a certain image of him for ulterior motives.

Below are six more quotes from a fan taking a deep dive into his 2020 tweets courtesy of u/ thehatstore42069 on Yeezy
”NORTHY I AM GOING TO WAR AND PUTTING MY LIFE ON THE LINE AND IF I AM MURDERED DON’T EVER LET WHITE MEDIA TELL YOU I WASNT A GOOD MAN,” West, 43, wrote in the tweet, adding, “WHEN PEOPLE THREATEN TO TAKE YOU OUT OF MY LIFE JUST KNOW I LOVE YOU”

"I need a public apology from J Cole and Drake to start with immediately... I'm Nat Turner... I'm fighting for us."

"the utmost respect for all brothers" and said "we need to link and respect each other... no more dissing each other on labels we don't own"

"Ye is constantly trying to tell people that his family does not have his or his kids best interests at heart. He goes on to list others, linking them together with the thinking emoji. These people include rap artist Drake and Larsa Pippen, wife of Scottie Pippe. Kim K is goddaughter to Pippen's daughter, showing how close the families actually are. All of these families that associate with Ye through Kardashian connections, as well as Drake, have been accused of the same thing Kris has. EVERY SINGLE ONE of these people have mixed race children that are groomed from a young age to fuck around with celebrities so the parents can remain famous. Drake on numerous occasions has been accused of grooming girls and then getting handsy on their 18th birthday.”

“These labels want their artists to make them money and they dont care about anything else. When Kanye says things like this in an attempt to expose him, the first thing they wanna do is drug him up and put him back in the studio.”
“Righteous indignation is typically a reactive emotion of anger over mistreatment, insult, or malice of another. It is akin to what is called the sense of injustice. This is how they keep the black man down. Keep people outraged about trivial things and distract them from the real issues in the world. The real problems in the industry. If you tell people enough times that they are unequal or discriminated against they start to believe it. Drug them when they step out of line and toss them aside when the checks run out. Ye is realizing he is pawn in a bigger game, and now that he has all these roots in the game such as Yeezy or the Gap or his music, too many people cant risk (Afford) a Ye who speaks his mind.”
(End of quotes)

Amongst the twitter rant, Ye warned about the predatory nature of record deals and discussed trying to get out of his own deal, and said again how his life may be in danger if it wasn’t already and was doing anything he could to protect his kids. The most fascinating part to me though is the public call to arms he made to Drake, J Cole, and Kendrick on twitter. After inviting them to all link up, he said, “It’s time to get free, we will not argue amongst each other while some guy we don’t know in Europe is getting paid and putting that money in a hedge fund.” I believe if Ye was able to pull off this meeting, there is an ever so slight chance that all four artists might be working together to take down a greater enemy. Weirdly there have been times throughout the last couple years where these supposed enemies were photographed together being friendly or praise each other in interviews, then out of no where the disses would start flying again.

To wrap things up I want to share my a few of my theories about the Drake/Kanye beef

A. Everything is exactly as it seems and the beef is over. Ye let his mental illness ruin his life and career so Drake simply picked another target after Ye stopped putting out disses. All of these connections are just a coincidence and all of this was choreographed to boost Drake and Kendrick’s music sales and possibly distract people from the Diddy trial and possibly the complicated geopolitical issues currently facing the U.S.

C. There is also the possibility that all four rappers are in cahoots and Drake’s dirt isn’t as extreme as people are theorizing, at least in comparison to the rest of the business. This could explain why everything has played out like a movie and how they were able to predict each other’s moves so well. This could either mean they’re all just trying to boost their sales or they’re all trying to take down the “slave masters,” as Ye calls them, and change the dynamic of the music industry in favor of the artist.

D. They may be trying to help their friends in the industry who are being abused or in shitty contracts. I know a lot of famous rappers have done a lot of collaborations with Jhene Aiko and Anderson Paak, who were both signed to T.U.G. records which I mentioned above in the connections to Universal Music Group. Considering they are both frequent collaborators with all of the artists involved on both sides, it’s not unlikely they may have played some part in influencing the takedown.

T.U.G was started by Chris Stokes with his partner Ketrina Askew. Back in the early to mid 90’s were gaining popularity attracting lots of young up and coming talent. They often collaborated with Diddy and his associates. In the 2000’s Raz B from the boy band B2K claimed he was molested by Stokes and his friend Marques Houston, then quickly retracted his claims. Years later he came forward again and said we was bribed into silence and that the rest of the victims were bribed with hush money and had another singer corroborate his story and they came forward together to level the accusations. After some of his former B2K members made fun of him for his claims and accused it of being a shakedown, Raz B revealed Stokes and Houston had preyed a lot of the children associated with the label including at least one of the former bandmates and paid them off.

I thought it was worth noting that the second whistleblower named Quindon Tarver died young in a car crash after mentioning his abuse again a few years prior. He seems to have left the industry not long after the incidents occurred and has few credits to his name. To this day Raz B is still trying to get his justice, while Stokes and his partner Askew, who was also involved in the abuse are still running the label to this day. Askew also has a ton of lawsuits, accusing her of using shady tactics to try to foreclose on houses. (Don’t quote me if a lawyer wants to take a look just google her full name), and has been tied to a ton of LLCs, similar to Drake. This is a good example of a shitty record deal, but I'm sure they have countless other friends in the industry who have even worse. While they were never convicted even Chris Stokes' wife confirmed it to be true.

E. The theory I personally think fits the narrative best and is the most realistic conspiracy is that Kendrick and possibly J. Cole went to the meeting, but not Drake due to his close relationship with Lucian Grange, the president of Drake’s label. Silence often speaks louder than words and this could explain why Kendrick was so ruthless and put so much effort into finding dirt on Drake. Ye, Cole, and Kendrick co-writing would be like the rap allstar team and if J. Cole wasn’t involved, it would also answer the question of whether or not he baited Drake into the battle by asking him to feature. I don’t think Drake is really their primary target though, which would explain letting him off easy. Compared to his bosses and their bosses he’s a small fish. If you take the big guys down you stand a better chance of landing a bigger blow on their operation.

Another really interesting connection is Kendrick and Ye were both signed under Universal Music Group and they both got out of their deals around couple months apart in 2022. As we speak U.M.G’s CEO Lucian Grange, who is often acccused of giving Drake special treatment, is facing charges related to sex trafficking by no other than P Diddy. This could very well explain the timing of it all. The craziest timeline would be Diddy masterminding all of this and using his connections to get it done and all the allegations are bullshit. The guy does seem pretty confident all things considered and constantly posts himself in his Batman costume which could mean he’s a vigilante.

It seems like there's a slight religious angle as well. (Ye and Diddy are both very vocal advocates of Christianity and Drake and Lucian Grange are both Jewish.) Obviously this is a reach, but they’ve been saying rap music was specifically promoted by mostly white label owners in the 80’s to help in the ongoing effort to expedite the systematic oppression of those living in black neighborhoods and the destruction of their family systems. Apparently it was an intentional decision to heavily promote rappers that promoted the very things that were destroying their neighborhoods. (So people know I'm and atheist and have zero agenda, I just thought it was interesting, please stay away from anything antisemitic. War is wrong on both sides.)

*** If my favorite theory is true, there is a possibility the Kendrick and Ye are going after Drake due to their mutual disdain for him and because he’s got a ton of power to dominate the charts and hog the radio airtime like Meek Mill and OG Maco claimed years ago. Even him dropping a record the same day as you could really fuck your album sales up. I’m also sure some of the many rumors throughout the years have had a least some truth and he will most likely snitch to avoid cell block one. I think that Drake could have been instructed to instigate this whole mess in order to draw attention away from the UMG charges brought about by Diddy. Or on the other hand it could be that Kendrick, Ye, and possibly Cole, may have had intel that Drake was going to be involved in the Diddy trial and are just gonna let the receipts show themselves. It might not have been the original plan, but they’ve already accomplished their mission of humiliating him, assuring he couldn’t use his influence to slide through the cracks, and taking over the throne.

Please take everything I say with a grain of salt I have no connection to this world or lifestyle. Regardless I believe all of the knowledge above does a pretty solid job at painting a picture of what may have let up to this and what may have been the source.
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More details found the last couple days…

Drake and Diddy Connections+Coincidences

Drake- In the P Diddy wig video from 2016 he talks about going to party with Drake, Cash, and The Weeknd in Toronto. Drake is also one of Birdman’s protégées who is known for being a predator and is rumored to have used label artists to lure young women.

Travis Scott- Interview where he comes out and says Diddy tried to lure him. Still has a long history of associating with him, video of him running from Diddy, his connection to Ruby Rose while underage.

Tim Westwood- Diddy had connections with sex offender Tim Westwood who also inspired the Drake song, “Westwood”. They also both were victims of drive by shootings along with The Weekend and they were all facing some type of allegations.

T.I.- Also has been associate with Diddy through the years, in 2021 his kid died and 11 women can forward at the same time to accuse him and his wife of drugging and assaulting them. Clearly someone wanted to fuck his life up. Possibly due to him getting arrested so many times for wild shit and people wondering how he continued to get away with it shining a light on how powerful industry lawyers are. He also had recently talked about having a gynecologist check to see if his daughter is still a Virgin, which sounds like it could have been an industrty secret. Could have been because he worried about someone trying to take advantage of her to get to him? Regardless that shit is fucking insane.

50 Cent- Has been saying pretty much the same thing as Travis Scott and has trolled Diddy for most of his career. It came out that his wife was a sex worker who was possibly recruited Diddy to help ruin his career. It sort of worked, which raises the question if 50 Cent is the only victim.

Ray J- Him and his sister worked with T.U.G. records when they were very young. Chris Stokes in the nineties who had connections with Diddy. He has been involved in a lot of sex scandals and allegedly may have played a part in Whitney Houston's death. (Which is also allegedly connected to Michael Jackson's death and both were deemed suspicious and happened during their final tours when their masters (song rights), became more valuable than their lives. Sony Records and Tommy Motolla, who also abused Mariah Carey when she was trying to start her career. These are just a few of the alleged examples of labels taking out musicians when they were worth more dead, another is the signing of high risk artists and requiring them to get life insurance so they can profit beyond releasing all their posthumous records. Also the ever so common story of the rising star artist that die at 21 after their first album or two.

He also partied with Diddy in Vegas with along Floyd Mayweather and a bunch of other famous industry people and athletes.

Tory Lanez- Tons of blackmail, also was signed by Interscope under UMG. got sent to prison for ten years after trying to leave his label. Also history of SA and and other allegations of violence towards women.

French Montana- On Diddy's label, close with Rick and Khaled, tons of drug and sexual assault allegations, also dated a Kardashian. Generally grimy.

DJ Khaled- Diddy said he could get anything in Miami, either referring to drugs or women, could explain his connections and lack of any notable talent. (New update, he was one of the first to promote Chris Alvarez’s instagram not long after he turned 18).

Rick Ross- Diddy said some weird shit about him and licked his lips and kissed him at a show. Ross is also signed to Bad Boy under Diddy. He ended up getting involved in the current feud and spamming social media nonstop dissing and threatening Drake.

A lot of the back and forth was both of them threatening to release dirt on each other. One strange coincidence I found was Drake recently trolled Ross about the 20 million dollar renovation to his home on Star island, where Diddy is currently residing. It’s rumored back in the day that P Diddy was caught in a room full of rich guys on ecstasy possibly at the beginning stages of a gay orgy. Drake also mentioned in the same tweets about Rick Ross that Birdman owned a house on the island and asked Rick Ross why he didn’t help him out.

Considering Ross is so sketchy and Drake claims the house isn’t that big, that’s a ridiculous amount of money. He may be covering up evidence, or creating tunnels in his house to escape if shit pops off and Drake might know what’s good. Interestingly enough Ross is very close with French Montana and also signed to Bad. He said his beef was related to something involving French, and Drake’s tweet popped up the same day the info came out concerning the Chris Alvarez stuff.

The famous line from U.O.E.N.O.

Meek Mill- “OG Maco called himself defending his friend Quentin Miller by substantiating the ghostwriting claims and agreeing with Meek. He hit up Twitter saying, "Some of us been knew. Meek just put it in the air. Sucks to have to compete with 6 n****s and get compared to”

Meek mill also had a short beef with Drake, some disses included lines referring to TI’s homie pissing on Drake at the movie theater, which is also interesting considering the current case against him. He also dropped a line saying Diddy almost got a domestic charge when he smacked Drake, which could either be saying that Drake is like a woman, or saying he was Drake’s boyfriend/sugar daddy.
( If you made it to the end comment with the number 8)
I thought it was interesting how the beef just kind of disappeared and even Meek said it didn’t seem genuine. Considering the allegations against Meek in the Diddy trial, and his rumored affair with Kim contributing to ending Kanye’s marriage, Meek Mill definitely did some dirt on him.

“Niggas frauds I told the truth, don't ask me shit
All this industry fake enemy and rap shit”

“Money make a sucker that told look trill again”

One of the many chapters in Drake's history in which he is seen paying his way out of trouble and starting beefs randomly.
“Now when that shit went down with Chris, you wrote a check”
This line is referring to Chris brown beef, another beef that was lost to time. All I can remember off the top was someone throwing a champagne bottle at the other’s entourage.

Ty Dolla $ign- Huge feature artist, close with Ye. Grew up in the industry and talks about growing up on the road and being in the studio with his dad and Rick James who was should have already been in prison for life for dragging, torturing, and S assaulting multiple women and children throughout his career and was himself a victim of the industry. May be part of Ye's motivation, considering their recent close working relationship.
The end.
Courtesy of,
The Randomest Moniker

As there’s a lot of new users, here’s some info on how the ring / app works - hope it’s of some help
Remember your email and password keep it safe.
The ring holds up to 6-7 days data, all readings that go into app, are held in rings memory until it syncs with the ring and phone app.
No need to have phone with you all the times, but always sync between 6-7 days
Syncing means :- the stored data on ring is sent from the ring via Bluetooth to the app - the app then sends the data to algorithms on the main servers via WiFi from phone - this is decoded then returned within short time from servers via WiFi and loaded into the app so you can read it.
Each time you sync ring this happens as above.
Battery charging :- charging case holds around 18 full charges or more smaller charges - charging case takes 120 mins to fully charge (solid white light ) no indication of charge in case only lights
Over 40% white - orange light under 40% - flashing orange = fault on ring/ chargepower lead poss.
Ring takes 90 mins to charge up ring, charge is indication in the app. ( notification sent to phone when100%)
You can charge ring anytime between 20% and 80% for best efficiency for lithium batteries, - do not let ring go below 20%.
Ring should last between 5-7 days depending on how much you sync ring with app or use exercise mode- sleep apnea etc - these all use extra power
Charger can be charged anytime to top up but do not let go flat, best say every couple months to top it up, just put on charge for a hour if topping up battery.
You can take your vitals measurements live at anytime, ( in heart rate and spo2 vitals area ) using app and ring together by pressing measure in app screen
Heart-rate is recorded every 2.5 mins and spo2 every 5 mins and stored on ring.
Firmware :- firmware is part of the rings brain - if ever you see firmware update available - just accept and install it, do not touch anything until completed - you see dial showing progress.
If firmware does not install it’s possibly ring battery below 30% just charge ring then reinstall firmware - this can be done manually in app.
App update :- the app gets regular updates it will be shown either on phone or may have to go to app/ playstore to update app - usually it’s shown as available in group as well.
If you want exercise mode, in app press the orange running man bottom of screen in summary page. Remember if using outside running you need phone with you to track your gps map and mileage - won’t record without it
On summary page are notes icon - this is really handy for recording daily anything you want - you can go back and look at notes - daily- weekly- yearly anytime in app
Very handy play around with it you can take photo then add it from your saved photos, medication , anything in app of concern - literally anything you want.
Graphs/ bar charts can be changed view in the top right icon in screen, and in vitals can be put to larger screen by pressing icon top right of vital screen and screen goes sidewards / larger zoom.
Slide fingers along any graph it shows times and readings
Aeroplane mode - if using this it stops Bluetooth connection with ring- ring still records all data- when you take aeroplane off you need the charger to reconnect Bluetooth with the app - otherwise will not connect to app
Ring lights - ensure the ring has both small bumps / lights in underside of finger on fleshy part as this area is where measurements are taken.
Solid green: When measuring the heart rate with the ring, both green lights will light up simultaneously for 30~60 seconds.
Solid red and green: When measuring SpO2 with the ring, one red light and one green light will light up simultaneously for 30~60 seconds.
Press your profile in app here you can put in a picture - also fill in user name- birthday- gender - height- weight- you can adjust weight anytime here
Any issues or questions use feedback in app - me- FAQ/ feedback - use this first so engineers app development teams can read and act on your info - do not just send email
Feedback is your main route of reporting anything or asking questions, you will get email back with reply.
Play with the app you can’t break it, don’t be scared of pressing anything lots of other screens in main summary pages - if not sure ask questions in the group lots people knowledgeable in app workings.
Hope that’s of some help don’t be afraid to ask any questions.

As the title says i think im a bit depressed and i don't know what to do. My goal here is finding a bit to recive some emotional comfort and get an opinion if my situation can be potentially problematic. At the present moment im all confused, i feel my life is good for some things and an emotional mess for others and simply i can't get how to cope with my so much contrasting emotions.
First things first. M 31, asperger but not so deep, high focus on roleplay games, social relationship (yes i know it may be strange), have a careful family, a therapist (at least until next month), some friends, have a job 36 h/week monday to saturday, 1300€ week. Go to the point. Not at importance or chronological order. - don't sleep well. Tired. Get to bed at Midnight or so and often get up at 5-6 in the morning. Often got some rest after lunch. - i suffer of ansia for beeing alone, travel by car, get on unfamiliar roads. Mostly i can manage not to panic but im often in tension, upset or at discomfort for that reason. Brother works 8h day + others things of his life. Mother works at public school. I feel this ansia or discomfort qite often and i get frustrated and angry with myself becouse this thing make difficult for me do lots of normal things. - i desperatly want a romantic relationship (had 3 experiences before) but finding someome requires to go out and DO THINGS, wich i feel disconfortable and soooo tiring as previous points. I want someone who choose me, who understand me, i want sex, i want the thrill that kind of relation can get to me, im a bit jelous of my friends who have someone like this, of my brother who is dating and i feel getting late and i fear to be left behind of others of my age. - in the last year i lost my uncle and my grandpa - yesterday at group therapy we talked about frendship and i've pratically fight - maybe the wrong choice of words - with one of my best asperger friend there becouse like an year ago i've made a big mistske and in a moment of absolute need (i was mad at myself, super stressed, strong suicide thoughts wich was first tims for me) i've crossed one of her explicit limits - hard. She was hard on me even after a year. I feel bad for the whole situation. - speaking of wich - i got the feeling it is unusual - i seriouslt value incredibly high the reciprocity in relationship for some of my prevous experiences. I feel very very upset if i think a person is my best friend and the sentiment or value is not matched, at least in ad acceptable range. But i've found in the hard way in the last months that what i feel are my best friends don't share this need with me, and beeing young adults obv have their live, pepole, well beeing and interests over me. And i struggle very very hard to accept this fact. - i have LOT of trouble recently to accept that things change becouse cost me an BIG quantity of emotional energy and suffering and ansia deal with it. People die, friendship ends or change, life go on. I crave stability. I can't get It. - my loved brother want to go out of home living his life and i find this prospective absolutly FRIGHTENING and stressful - i've lived with him for all my life. - i've done a big but - asperger clueless thing- error with one of my best friends and she said that she feels very upset and not good with me now. She is in a strict "monogam" relationship now (honestly i don't understand the thing the way she probably feels it) and in a moment of pure idiot by me i've suggested she can kiss me as birthday present. Disaster done. She isn't coming to my birthday party anymore and says that she feels very unconfortable. I've got that i've made an error and i'm upset but i can not get the in my head the relation ship between what i percive as a "small" question and the extreme hard reaction i've got. I don't want to loose her but i feel i ve not done something of so terribile and now i don't know what to feel and i'm confused. - Yesterday was my birthday and i cannot prove joy about it and i feel guilty. Birthday arent supposed to be joyful days? - in general ive found that i'm a mess at dealing with contrastant emotions - i got frustrated by my lack of social skils and ansia that make me so difficult get what i want - i have to spend lot of Energy reminnding me that i've persons wich love me and help me.

I know it’s been a while, but here’s OC no. 10!! My third and lass multi character concept. I was gonna post this a while ago but when Wu You got announced I kinda lost the desire to post a concept for a shimmer legendary, lol. But here they are now!! Hugin and Munin, Odin’s eyes and ears.
Corvo Twins (Hugin & Munin) - Names: Dove & Talon - Shimmer - Fighter - Age: 19 - Birthday: 11-11 - Height: 142cm - Identity: Lone Rangers - Favorite: Alternative fashion, psychological horror - “These two delightfully devilish delinquents enjoy wreaking small scale havoc with the powers granted to them by Hugin and Munin.”
S1 - DOUBLE STRIKE: Attacks a single enemy two times. Damage per hit: 60% ATK and 80% ATK respectively. First hit steals 1 buff and second hit inflicts Sear for 1 turn.
S2 - UNKINDNESS (passive): The Corvo twins have two places in the turn order. At the beginning of combat, the second turn (Talon) is placed based off of half of the Corvo Twins’ SPD. Buffs and debuffs only deplete on Dove‘s turn. Cooldowns only end on Dove’s turn. When given a targeted AP boost, only Dove receives it.
S3 - THE MIGHTY FALL: Attacks a single enemy: Damage: 160% ATK. Ignores invincibility. Deals splash damage to all enemies. Damage: 60% ATK.
R1 - Unkindness - Morph 1: Cooldowns lower on both Dove and Talon’s turn.
R2 - Unkindness - Morph 2: Incapacitations are removed on Talon’s turn. When either twin ends their turn without taking an action, the other gains an AP boost +15%.
R4 - Unkindness - Morph 3: If incapacitated, SPD increased by 25.
R6 - The Mighty Fall - Morph: Deals an additional +20% DMG to enemies with the following buffs: Immunity, Invincibility, Invisibility. (+20% for each buff they have.)
D3: When a Corvo twin ends their turn, 100% chance of gaining ATK up for 1 round.

My wife's nephew was given what I think was a pretty cheap starter gaming PC awhile back. His birthday is coming up and the family has decided to chip in together and get him a new PC because he said he wanted a new one.
Now, I'm the only one in the family that knows much about PC's - and I don't know much in the grand scheme of things - but I'm the only one that's built a PC before. They've set a budget around $800 which should hopefully give him at least a little upgrade over what he has currently. I was going to build him one and give it to him for the family. The problem is they live in South Carolina and we live in Tennessee. I don't know the first thing about trying to ship a PC or how much it would cost and dont think we are traveling that way any time soonm So we were considering going the pre-built route but I feel like at that price point, the options aren't great but then they would take care of shipping it obviously. Anyone have any advice?

So I went to CBS and had an absolute blast. It was extremely fun, I actually participated in our famous Follies videos and had a great social life during the MBA. While I was never the "coolest," I felt I got along with a lot of people and had a core friend group where we'd invite each other to each others' birthdays, so social things like go to sports games, concerts, bar crawling, clubbing, and what not. I built some deep relationships through life challenges we were going through as well as similar recruiting goals. We all had similar hobbies like bicycling and skiing too.
Upon graduation, a large portion of the class decided to stay in NYC, including most of my MBA friends. And for the first say 5-6 months after our post-MBA summer vacation, we did try to meet up. But over time, I'd say a lot of my MBA friendships have faded away even though we live in the same city.
Over time, I noticed people were responding less and less to my texts asking to catch them for food or even coffee. When we saw each other at a mutual friend's birthday party or housewarming, they'd always be extremely friendly and lively - same if we bump into each other randomly on the street. But that 1:1 connection with a lot of my former MBA friends seems to have naturally faded away.
It's sad but out of maybe 20 MBA friends from CBS I had in the city immediately after graduation, I feel there's only a reciprocal relationship with only 4 at this point, three years out. And the other 16 are still in the city, they chose to just not respond to my texts to hang out anymore.
They'll still respond if I have a quick career question (they'll sometimes ask me that too) and will like my posts and stories on IG. I got engaged recently, and all the former friends who ghosted me texted me congrats. But the 1:1 genuine friendships have faded.
Some of them still hang out with each other though - I saw 8 of them went on a ski trip together without me. Nothing bad happened, there was no confrontation or any fight, but it just felt like things faded.
People say making friends as an adult is hard, but after moving into the city, I made some new friends through a running club I joined, through co-workers, and my brother's friends who went to a totally different MBA program (Ross). It's come to the point that my closest friends right now after 3 years post-MBA, the ones I hang out with the most, aren't even from CBS but are from Ross through my brother.
I do see some people from CBS still have almost all CBS alum friend groups, but I see others with more mixed friend groups that including MBA and non-MBAs as well.
Am I doing something wrong? Did I do something unintentionally to rub my former MBA friends the wrong way? Or are they just wanting to try a new life chapter and meet new people? They ARE being social, as evidenced by their Instagram stories, but they have chosen other people and not me. I have been told by multiple people I was reasonably well liked during the MBA and people thought I was kind, helpful, and fun.
I asked my MBA friend I'm close with who still hangs out with the ghosters, and he said he hasn't heard anything negative about me, so he doesn't know why they won't invite me to stuff or reciprocate my efforts,
Would love for some outside thoughts on this. When we graduated, I really did think this group of 20 would be lifelong friends of mine since we experienced so much during the MBA & all were staying in NYC (in Manhattan even), and planned to hang out regularly. The MBA was such a unique, all encompassing experience and I felt my friends and I went through thick and thin.
Yes, friendships have faded for me from like from high school to college, or college to the working world. But that was almost always the case because people moved away geographically, which was not the case with me and my CBS friends. For example, my friendships K-12 were pretty consistent growing up.

I (17F) and my boyfriend (17M) have been together for almost a year. A little backstory about me: my mum kicked me out when I was 16, I had been living with a mates grandmother but ended up moving in with my partners sister and sil, he moved in with me. When we found out we were pregnant, I hid the test under my pillow. His neice (18F) and her friend (17F) (which is also his friend. They’d known her for years but they had a falling out and only recently started getting close again.) came into my room to look for something and found the test, they’re friend took a photo and sent it to his family and since they found out, his sil has been saying I should get an abortion. (I don’t have anything against abortions, I just personally won’t get one.)
Their friend Sarah and his niece Matilda (obviously not their real names for privacy reasons.)
I had a family dinner on Friday to celebrate my brothers birthday. One of the messaged me and asked to not bring my partner as he just wanted family there which is fair and even if he didn’t care, my partner wouldn’t have wanted to come anyways as he never wants to come to any of my family events but always wants me ti go to his family events. That night Sarah and Matilda were going bowling and my partner wanted to go with them. I said okay. They left at 5pm and the family dinner started at 6pm so I obviously left after them. I got back around 9pm (I told my family I was pregnant and they were quite rude about it) so I asked him to come back as he’d been gone for 3hrs and he was done bowling. He said no because he still wanted to hang out with them and he said he wanted “me time”. I checked his location and saw he was at a lookout (I had been telling him for months that I wanted to be the first to go to the lookouts with him) and they filmed a TikTok on Sarah’s phone (he never films TikTok’s with me) I obviously was getting mad and told him to get back, instead the went golfing. He came back around 11:30 and I was furious as I was begging him to come back the entire time and I was upset they didn’t want to invite me (they drove past the place we live multiple times) to come and film the TikTok with then it even go golfing. He kept saying he didn’t have to come back so early (mind you, anytime I went out with friends or family I had to be back before 6pm otherwise he’d get pissy and give me the silent treatment.)
About 3 days later, we had an argument and he screamed in my face, I started crying and his sil told him to stop and she took him for a drive. I rang my mum to come get me (we were on good terms as I still wanted to see my little sister.) when I got back he was telling me he was going to sleep in Matilda’s room, I was saying no because it was the night Sarah was also sleeping in there and I didn’t want him to be sleeping in the same bed as another female. They would’ve been sleeping next to each other and in his sleep he likes to cuddle up to the person next to him so I didn’t want him cuddling up to her. He kept saying “I want some me time.” And I said back “you had me time with them on Friday, you don’t always need some me time with them.” And to that he told me that no matter what I said, he wouldn’t be changing his mind. After 3hrs I said “if you do this, I don’t think this can continue.” He said he would still be sleeping in there. Later that night he didn’t end up sleeping in there, he came into our room and slept with me.
The day after, I went to mum mums as my little sister (3F) wanted to have a sleep over. He messages me saying “Okay and I’m gonna go to net ball with Sarah but I will be snapping you every time you snap me I promise please trust me xx” I said no ask I wasn’t comfortable with just him going with her alone. He went anyways and he wasn’t snapping me everytime I snapped him, he’d reply like 5mins after I sent it and I kept getting angry as he was just in the car. They went to the game and while he was there, I told him I don’t want him watching her play and when they get in the car, I said I want him to sit in the back as I wasn’t comfortable with him sitting next to her. He kept saying no and he’s sitting in the front. I kept saying “so you’re really going to sit next to her knowing it’s going to make me uncomfortable.” He said yes and I was mad. Later that night I told him to ring me and he said “I just want some me time.” I said no because he’s been having a lot of “me time.” This week (he’s never said he’s wanted me time before. It’s only been this past week and it’s always been after he hangs out with her.)
So AITA?
(Btw, I’m only a few weeks pregnant but I’m constantly feeling insecure and hating the way my body looks. He also knows I have really bad trust issues as in the past as soon as I’ve trusted a partner with someone they told me not to worry about, I’d get cheated on so I didn’t want to make the same mistake again as I really want to be with him. And he also has to keep telling Sarah about the things happening in our relationship like idk why, I don’t even tell my bsf but I’m asking redit now as Idk if I’m just over thinking or if this is a red flag.)

Okay, so let me just start off by saying I'm not one of those guys who always says, "This is gonna be my summer," or "I'm gonna have such a glow-up this summer." I actually started improving myself at the end of December and have been losing a lot of weight and putting on a lot of muscle at the same time.
It all started when I was at a friend of mine's birthday party, and we all randomly decided to go play basketball. Of course, after about 30 minutes of a 3-on-3 game, my dumb-ass self decided to fall off the side of the concrete basketball court and shatter my ankle. I immediately wiped out on the court, sitting there in agony, and all my friends had to carry me to the car, where they then drove me to the ER, meeting my mom. After 4 x-rays and 3 hours later, the swelling started to calm down, and they put a boot on me that I've been wearing since. When they first got me out, I assumed that it wasn't that bad, and I would be back to working out every morning and trying to get better at ball, but no. I just had a follow-up appointment today, and they said that I would be out of commission for 2 and a half months. And I'm not even gonna lie, I've probably cried 3 times a day since I first got hurt because I knew I wasn't gonna be able to be physically active for a while and started to feel really depressed, and now I'm gonna get fat, slow, and extremely unathletic, and I'm gonna miss out on basketball camp. I'm really upset writing this. Feeling like a total loser. It sucks, man. It really does.

My name is Emily. I'm from the United States and I wanted to end my 20's with a bang, and I'm happy to say that I ended my 20's in Korea.Actually, Korea was not a country that I had much to do with.Originally, I was a person who was immersed in Japanese culture since college.Japanese anime became my friend. There's a lot of interesting things about Japanese anime, like the fact that they depict real places in Japan, and they depict real food, and so I fell in love with Japan, and I even traveled to Japan a couple times, and I thought that Japan was the sum of everything that I longed for.
But then, in my late 20s, I met a friend who would change my life. It was a simple meeting with a long-lost college classmate, Sarah, who had gone on to work at a large firm in New York City, and whom I had shared anime and Japanese food with in my dorm room in college. She told me honestly that she had recently traveled to Korea and was seriously thinking about moving there. Unfortunately, the large company she worked for in New York had recently gone through a business crisis, and she was laid off.
She said that she was confused by the sudden betrayal of a well-known company, and to clear her mind, she went to the airport with the intention of leaving anywhere. She thought she would go to Japan, but when she arrived at the airport, she changed her mind. When she thought back to the places and restaurants she frequented most often while working at the company in New York, she remembered that she often went to Korean streets and Korean supermarkets in New York, and she thought that going to Korea on an impromptu trip was a really good idea, so she chose to go to Korea rather than Japan, which she already knew.
And buying a plane ticket on the spot at the airport was more than twice as expensive as booking a ticket in advance, but Sarah said that she didn't care, because she was depressed after being fired from her job, and she went to the airport to leave, but the curiosity about Korea that came over her made her want to leave right away, even if she had to pay for the expensive plane ticket.
He expressed that although he went to the airport courageously, he knew that the plane ticket would be too expensive, and he thought that maybe he should just go back home again, but his curiosity about Korea came from somewhere deep inside him, and it exploded like a bomb, and he was naturally drawn to it.
Sarah, who likes emotional things like essays and poems in college and enjoys such poetic expressions, but even so, I wondered if it was a little overdone, but when she said that she had been to Korea, I became more focused on her story.
However, I was able to understand why she expressed herself in such an over-the-top way after listening to her Korean stories.
"Korea is an amazing place, the people are so kind and warm, and most of all, the employment system is very well organized. There are many programs and support for job seekers, which is very helpful for people who are in a difficult situation like me."
When Sarah started with this story, I realized that she was really traumatized by being laid off.Now, she had been through a big ordeal and was in the process of recovering from it through Korea, so I decided to focus more on her story."You said you traveled to Korea, so what else did you do?" I asked."For example, what kind of programs were there?" I asked her.
"I happened to visit a job fair in Korea," she said, "where job seekers can get free career counseling and get the training they need." "I got a lot of help there, and it gave me the strength to get back on my feet, and maybe even get a job in Korea." "And most of all, the work culture in Korea is really family-like," she said, "I was impressed by how much my coworkers cared about each other and supported each other."
Sarah said that she was curious about what Korea was like, so she visited a large convention center in Korea and participated in various fairs, one of which was a job fair, and she interviewed with several Korean companies, and the Korean companies were ready to accept her as a colleague if she applied as an American. I also learned that Korea has many companies with global reach, and they are open to foreigners with various experiences, but in Korea, unless it is a large company, people don't prefer them, so if it is a small company, they want foreigners, but there is a sad reality that no one applies.
Unlike in the U.S., where you have to report your performance every week, and if you fall short, you are threatened with termination, Korean companies are definitely not more performance-oriented than in the U.S. They value their employees and do everything together to grow together, not threaten them with termination. In the past, I knew that corporate culture in Asian countries such as Korea was more collectivistic than individualistic, and as a student, I thought that such a collectivistic culture was a bad culture with a high level of disease in Asia, but after experiencing social life in the United States, I heard that the tendency of companies to be extremely individualistic, talking about job insecurity, and treating people ruthlessly, caused me to be fired from a good job overnight, and the future plans I had planned in advance became uncertain, and I even talked about envying the Korean culture that does not have such disadvantages.
Sarah, who has never worked in Korea, but was always afraid of being fired, said that she learned a lot about Korean corporate culture by interviewing many Korean company officials.
She said that she even considered settling down and living in Korea because, besides the culture, there were so many other conveniences and benefits.
She talked about her experience of working in New York, being left alone in the office to get things done because of her performance, having to leave late at night and being afraid to go home, sleeping in the hotel next door, and having to live with the exorbitant rent in Manhattan and the two-hour round-trip commute to work, and how she realized that unlike in the U.S., where it is difficult to see a doctor, she would not have to worry about these things in Korea.
Sarah's story made me even more curious about Korea.The warmth, systematic system, and various charms that she experienced in Korea couldn't help but have a great impact on me.I've been experiencing a lot of stress every day due to the pressure of performance and the threat of being fired, and I've recently been undergoing expensive psychotherapy.I decided to learn more about Korea, and eventually decided to travel to Korea.
Of course, I didn't travel to Korea with the intention of moving to Korea or settling down in Korea, but rather to spend my last 20s in a new country, Korea, and to see a different world than the familiar Japan.
I made my preparations and headed to Korea sooner than I expected, arriving ten days before my birthday and extending my itinerary beyond what I had originally planned, staying in Korea until after my birthday and then flying back to the United States.
The first day I finally arrived in Korea, I started walking around the streets of Seoul.The first thing that greeted me was the warm spring weather in Korea.The sky was clear and the air was crisp.I was told that it is common for Asia to have very bad air quality in the spring due to the influence of China, but I didn't have to deal with that during my trip.
The streets of Korea are very different from the United States, and everything was new to me.There were many beautiful flowers in bloom, and the well-maintained trees were really beautiful.It has been a long time since the common people's neighborhoods in the United States have such beautiful landscaping because of people who destroy these trees and flowers for no reason, or secretly take them and sell them.But this was not the case in Korea.The streets were like a beautiful flower garden.
I was walking down a beautiful street lined with flowers, and I was looking at them, looking at the big big map that was displayed on the screen at the bus stop.I was just curious to see what my neighborhood looked like, so I was looking at the map and taking my time, and a middle-aged woman came up to me and said, "Where are you looking for?" She didn't speak fluent English, but I was so grateful that she was trying to help. I was too embarrassed to tell her that I was just looking at the map, so I told her one of the destinations I was planning to go to, and she gave me direct directions to the place I was looking for, and I was able to get there without any difficulty.This unexpected kindness opened my eyes to the Korean people and warmed my heart at the same time.
I was ready to accept everything in Korea with an open mind.The first impression was very good, I was touched by the kindness of the people.I couldn't ask for anything more from Korea.The food was so fresh and amazing to me.I visited Gwangjang Market, a famous traditional market in Korea.
Unlike a regular restaurant, it was a place where you could sit down and try a variety of food. As a traditional market, it was full of Korean food. There were no pizza, pasta, or burger joints, but I liked it better that way. It was a place where you could see the traditional look and feel curious about everything.
I also tasted foods such as tteokbokki sundae and hotteok.Everything else was fine, but I was a little worried when I first tried sundae because it looked so strange and a little gross, but I decided to give it a try and the moment I put it in my mouth, the rich flavor filled my mouth.Korean food often seems difficult to eat, but when you try it, you can see why it is so popular in Korea.
I stayed at Gwangjang Market for a long time and tried a lot of different foods, especially kimchi and pajeon, which I still remember because of their crispy texture and spicy flavor. I would recommend them to everyone.Experiencing the deep flavors of Korean food firsthand made me fall in love with Korean food.
And then there was a shocking thing that happened to me in Korea.I was having a lot of fun traveling around Korea and everything was interesting, because Korea is really the best place to be, you know, you're running around, you're busy, you're going from place to place, and I had the misfortune of losing my passport, which was really stupid.
I was traveling in Korea, and I got an international call. Someone was calling me from Korea, and when I saw the international call indicator on my phone and realized that the call was from Korea, I had a million questions.
I thought I shouldn't answer the call, but then I realized that it was an international call, and I thought maybe they were calling me because they had some business to take care of. I answered the call, and I was told a really crazy story, because I heard a calm English voice asking if it was Emily, and she introduced herself as a police officer and asked if I could come to the nearest police station.
I thought I had done something terribly wrong, because I had just eaten delicious tteokbokki and sundae, kimchi and pajeon, and I was so happy to eat them, and afterward I was just walking around the streets of Korea, smelling the flowers and seeing the pretty trees.
I started to check my belongings one by one and realized that my small pouch containing my passport and some of the money I had exchanged was missing.
I quickly headed to the police station, which was where I was told to go, and from the front gate, I was controlled as to what I was visiting.
The great thing about Korea is that even for someone like me who doesn't speak Korean, it's not difficult to navigate these government offices. Not all Koreans speak English, but at least the ones I've met have been able to communicate with me in a simple way. Even if they don't speak perfect sentences, they understand most of the words, so I was able to communicate the reason for my visit to the police station.
I had never been to a police station before, even in the U.S., but here I was in Korea, and I was greeted by friendly people.The pouch with my passport in it had my contact information written on the inside, and they said they would contact me with that.The bag was found in a marketplace, and the first person to report it was the stall owner of the place where I had my first sundae.It also had all of my clean, new Korean money in it, which I had exchanged separately.
I was so impressed with how conscientious Koreans are and how good they are that I was able to find the pouch, sign the paperwork, and walk out of the police station.
I went back to Gwangjang Market, and when I got there, the owner recognized me and looked like he was about to say something. I held out the bag and showed it to him, and he smiled and liked it.
I thanked the Korean boss, and we ate another snack on the spot. It was an experience that made me realize how heavenly Korea is.
And like Sarah said, I didn't just want to see how clean and pretty Korea is, I wanted to see what an American working in Korea could do and what life would be like.Through the Reddit community, I was able to get in touch with Americans working in Korea and even met some of them in person.
David, the American I met, works for a company that is not a large Korean company, but rather a small or medium-sized company. As Sarah said, Korea is a country where products are produced for the global market, and many things are actually exported overseas.
However, in Korea, unless it is a large company, every company is experiencing a job shortage, and because of the atmosphere in Korea, where foreigners are not welcome at all, it is not difficult to get a job in a company that specializes in exporting overseas, even if you are in the United States.
And David told me that he put all his passion into the first company he worked for in the U.S., and even made a lot of money for the company, but when he didn't perform, the company fired him without mercy, and he said that he was so shocked, not to mention the feeling of betrayal, that he took depression medication at that time, and it was so hard that he took depression medication, and then he found Korea by chance and settled in Korea, and now he is so happy. He told me that he was fired from his job because of the unrelenting treatment in the U.S., that he found a second chance in Korea, and that he is happy with his life here.
I'm not sure I have the courage to move to Korea right now, but I learned that there are a lot of people like Sarah and David who have been hurt so badly that they end up leaving the country. I'm scared that this could be my future, but I also learned that Korea is an option for me if it happens to me.My trip ended like this: experiencing the culture, food, and hospitality of Korea, and getting to meet and talk to Americans living in Korea, made my trip much more rewarding than my trip to Japan, which could have been an anime trip.
Korea has given me new perspectives and experiences, shattered my notion that Japan is only good, broadened my horizons, and opened my eyes to another gem that is Korea.
I now like to say to my friends, "Go to Korea, you'll see how good it is." Korea has taught me so much, and I will cherish my experience in Korea, which now holds a special place in my heart.
If Sarah goes to Korea and settles down, I will be there to congratulate her and support her in her new relationship in Korea.

My boyfriend (22M) and I (20F) broke up because of his mom. The thing is, we were in a long-distance relationship (ldr), like he was in another country. We've been together for 2 years, but in March, he left the Philippines to review for his med school. I couldn't help but to overthink, especially when he didn’t call me for weeks. Because I kept asking, he finally confessed something that happened in the first week of May.
His mom and he went to the beach because it was his mom’s birthday. I couldn't understand why he needed to be dared to take pictures and be kissed by white girls. Yes, his mom dared him to do that. He even sent me the pictures because I was curious. When I saw the pictures, I was deeply hurt because why would his mom do that when she knew her son was committed to me? I tried not to think negatively, but I was really hurt. It would have been okay if it was just a simple picture, but no, one of the girls kissed him on his left cheek. I couldn't understand why his mom would do that to her own son. Just seeing him with someone else hurt me, what more being kissed.
I cried so much, to the point where my hands were shaking from anger, and I didn't talk to him. I broke up with him for my own peace of mind. I couldn't handle this kind of situation, especially knowing that it was his mom pushing him to do such things. My boyfriend told me that I always make everything an issue and that it was nothing but just a dare. He didn't seem guilty for what he did, since he kept it from me for a few days before telling me. He didn't even apologize right away but blamed me for making it an issue. I'm so hurt, I don't know what to think anymore. He could have refused, why didn't he? I can't trust him anymore, not even his mom.
TL;DR : My bf's mom dared him to take a photo with two girls he didn't know. One of the girls kissed him on the cheek, and he didn't object. They know he's in a relationship, but his mom pushed him to do it. I feel very disrespected by what happened.

My husband Russel is not close with his family (parents and siblings) at all. Practically no contact, but he wishes them happy birthday and sends holiday greetings. We see them maybe 2 times a year.
His parents have tried reconciling and fixing their relationship, but Russel has been cold and distant. I've been on his side through all this since his parents were genuinely bad parents to him growing up, and even if they apologize, he doesn't owe them forgiveness.
Anyway, we found out I was pregnant with our first girl 2 months ago. We're really excited and have now just announced the pregnancy online (Russel is a private person and doesn't like having most of our life on social media, which I'm fine with and respect).
Of course, everyone is excited and congratulated us, his family included.
Onto the whole thing, I got a message from his dad asking if I was willing to join a Zoom call since they wanted to talk about something serious. I asked if this could wait until Russel came back from work, and he panicked a little bit and just begged me to join.
I joined the call. It was his dad, MIL, his brothers Mike and his wife Sylvia, and Travis and his sister Mary. I asked what was up, and my MIL started asking how I was doing, jumping around the bush. I asked her to please get to the point.
His dad spoke up, asking if Russel had given any thought to how their relationship would be with my daughter. I told him I think he knows the answer, and I said we would visit maybe on holidays, but they can't be promised a really close relationship with her or any of our future kids, like other kids have with their grandparents. His mom started tearing up and asked me if I was fine with depriving my kids of a family. I told her no, but I'm not willing to go against my husband for them.
There was a lot more, and I'll elaborate if needed, but it ended with his sister begging me to at least talk to Russel. I ended up telling them that it's not my job to fix their relationship - they ruined it, and they can fix it.
She called me an ass and said something about not wanting to help fix their relationship because I myself am NC with my whole family. It did sting, and her brother told her to shut up. I ended the call, not wanting to stress myself more.
They've been messaging and calling non-stop. I can't reach Russel right now, as he's back at his base. I just needed outside opinions. AITA?

My husband Russel is not close with his family (parents and siblings) at all. Practically no contact, but he wishes them happy birthday and sends holiday greetings. We see them maybe 2 times a year.
His parents have tried reconciling and fixing their relationship, but Russel has been cold and distant. I've been on his side through all this since his parents were genuinely bad parents to him growing up, and even if they apologize, he doesn't owe them forgiveness.
Anyway, we found out I was pregnant with our first girl 2 months ago. We're really excited and have now just announced the pregnancy online (Russel is a private person and doesn't like having most of our life on social media, which I'm fine with and respect).
Of course, everyone is excited and congratulated us, his family included.
Onto the whole thing, I got a message from his dad asking if I was willing to join a Zoom call since they wanted to talk about something serious. I asked if this could wait until Russel came back from work, and he panicked a little bit and just begged me to join.
I joined the call. It was his dad, MIL, his brothers Mike and his wife Sylvia, and Travis and his sister Mary. I asked what was up, and my MIL started asking how I was doing, jumping around the bush. I asked her to please get to the point.
His dad spoke up, asking if Russel had given any thought to how their relationship would be with my daughter. I told him I think he knows the answer, and I said we would visit maybe on holidays, but they can't be promised a really close relationship with her or any of our future kids, like other kids have with their grandparents. His mom started tearing up and asked me if I was fine with depriving my kids of a family. I told her no, but I'm not willing to go against my husband for them.
There was a lot more, and I'll elaborate if needed, but it ended with his sister begging me to at least talk to Russel. I ended up telling them that it's not my job to fix their relationship - they ruined it, and they can fix it.
She called me an ass and said something about not wanting to help fix their relationship because I myself am NC with my whole family. It did sting, and her brother told her to shut up. I ended the call, not wanting to stress myself more.
They've been messaging and calling non-stop. I can't reach Russel right now, as he's back at his base. I just needed outside opinions. AITA?

Hello! I am looking for a good pair of boots for my dad! I’ve always heard nicks is the best but I don’t own any myself. But for my fathers 57th birthday my siblings and I pitched in to get him money for some nice boots and I was just wondering what would be a good pair of boots for him? He’s on hard hospital floors all day and likes to hike we’re looking more for a work first boot or shoe that he can take on hikes on the weekend or so. Thank you!

Now, I spend many day with my grandparents. I do my best to make them dinner a few tines a month and I call them 3x a week. Anytime they need extra help, if I am not working, ya girl is there helping them out. My grandpa has dementia, for about the last 12 years. My Grandma is still sharp as a tack.
When I learned about his diagnosis, I mourned him for a year. Mourning someone who is still alive, but I knew what was to come. I watched my grandma on my mother's side with my great-grandma and her dementia journey. Enough of the harsh stuff, on to our fun afternoon.
So, my grandma and my dad needed to take her dog to the vet today. Grandpa isn't much for public anymore so I offered to have a home day with him this afternoon. My wife and I showed up, help get grandma into my dad's truck and waved them off. Now, grandpa has a tendency to wonder. He's an important guy, ya know. Always he's to, "report of base either important documents". Last time those important documents were his birthday cards and he wondered down the block into a nice lady's garden.
My wife and I sit down and before I get too cozy I asked him if he had lunch. I've watched the once strong as an ox man turn into an 86 year old frail man.
"Put it right here!" As he points to his stomach. I can hear him talking to the wife while I whip up the most delicious bologna sandwich and salad... oh and a chocolate muffin. "I helped a lot of people when I was a young man. I had a great life". I bring him his lunch and give him a kiss. For most of the afternoon, he knew who I was, it was nice. Usually I'm my mother, or someone he know he loves.
"How old am I?"
"You're 86"
"No wonder I feel terrible"
He knows me, even if he doesn't say my name. He will before it gets too late, when we first showed up he knew exactly who I was.
"You and I, we always laugh together"
I am known to be the jokester, the granddaughter thst is always there even with a smile. Even at me 37 years old he will comment, "watch out for this one, she's a cannon".
Today we were somewhere in the late 1950s. He spoke of his mother a lot. He spoke about learning everything you can. Take advantage of knowlege when you can, never pass up the chance to learn. While sitting in his "near" Seattle home he took us back to a small town in Montana. Him, always being the life of the party chatted with us non stop for over 2 hours while grandma and my dad ran errands.
"I remember a little girl, who used to dance. I love her"
"Grandpa, that little girl was me"
"I knew I loved you"
While I washed his dishes I started a fresh pot of coffee for my dad and grandma who were coming back. I heard her open the door as I made her lunch and the sweetest statement from my grandpa.
"There's my girl, have you come back to hold my hand some more?".
They have been married for 61 years. He made sure to tell me that she is his best friend.
Grandma and I visited for a bit and I served her lunch. He got up to use the bathroom nd when he came back it was as if the last 2 hours never happened. It doesn't hurt like it used to, but listening to him describe my grandma to me over an over almost made me cry. She even stopped him to remind him, "Jenny knows me, I'm her grandma".
I think it was more the way this man loves her that filled me with emotion than anything. He truly is a pure soul.
Sorry for the story, I had a great afternoon with him. Every once in a while he peaks out and he sees me still after all these years. I love him, I aspire to be as kind as him and love my wife as hard as he loves his.

Am I wrong for asking my friends to remove eachother? TW: mention of miscarriage and abortion
I (18F) met a guy (20/21M) on tinder and got really close but for weird reasons didn’t work out. He thought I was using him for sex because he thought I only started to like him back after the first time we hooked up which wasn’t true I just told him I needed to make sure I was definitely ready first and needed to meet him properly first (he spent everyday for a couple weeks almost begging to meet me) but the first time we met we hooked up we didn’t use the Condom as we were both clean and I had an IUD. A couple other times we hooked up he did put on a Condom but kept taking it off. Anywyas he came up with many reason why he randomly out of nowhere “lost feelings” even tho we hooked up a couple times after that (we are no longer hooking up or anything like that). The reasons were weird. Anywyas we had also found out I was pregnant which was rocky because we kept arguing about what we should do I even had to tell his family. He hated the idea of me aborting and said I was definitely not to do adoption. He also kept on mentioning taking it back to his country as he’s not from here he’s just living here for a bit. Kept on making everything about him and the kid but I felt he didn’t care how I felt during it all. During my pregnancy I won’t lie I was a total bi*ch to him I kept on telling him he wouldn’t be a good father and just really rude to him I think it was because I was so upset and also hormonal but now I totally regret saying all those mean things. Then out of nowhere he was adding my friends on Snapchat and on Fortnite (video game) which I found weird. About a week after that I had unfortunately miscarried at 13 weeks which was hard on me emotionally and physically he said he was sad and distraught as well. He also said something he would’ve named the kid and I asked if he still wanted to name it because I wanted to but he didn’t like that thought. He also mentioned how I could still come up and see him and drink for my birthday with him (which now he doesn’t want to do anymore at all?) because the day after my miscarriage I was meant to go see him and stay at his for a bit and maybe talk things out and maybe early birthday celebration. Anyways couple days later he’s half ignoring me so I ask him what’s going on and he said he wasn’t which he kinda was. He told me to move on from the situation we had just been through and also apparently deleted the ultrasound photo. After that convo I found out he was still talking to all my friends whilst ignoring me (all girls). I think he may also possibly be attracted to one of them. I was furious as I was/am going through all this alone he even told me he couldn’t be there for me even tho originally he said he would be there for me no matter what even tho he lived 4 hrs away. Everything is and was a mess. He acted like he cared for me before and during the pregnancy being nice offering me things and even just talking to me but after losing my baby he’s been ignoring me and almost like he hates me and not supporting me at all. Talking to my friends who also somewhat knew what is going on also hurt me. I asked them to remove him at least while we get through what we needed to get through and they refused and so did he. I felt bad but angry at the same time. Our friendship was always weird we were close for a very long while even when he said he didn’t like me anymore he also kept changing his mind on that back then too. So am I an asshole for asking them to remove eachother? They’ve never even met him don’t even know him and have never spoken him till now. He’s not even supporting me but instead talking to my friends and ignoring me. I will sit there obviously upset them knowing that while totally ignoring me to play a game online together. At one point I ended up blocking him during a breakdown but then we sort of talked it out and were joking and laughing again until the next day he was pretty blunt but now again he’s barely talking to me but my friends instead.

Am I wrong for asking my friends to remove eachother? TW: mention of miscarriage and abortion
I (18F) met a guy (20/21M) on tinder and got really close but for weird reasons didn’t work out. He thought I was using him for sex because he thought I only started to like him back after the first time we hooked up which wasn’t true I just told him I needed to make sure I was definitely ready first and needed to meet him properly first (he spent everyday for a couple weeks almost begging to meet me) but the first time we met we hooked up we didn’t use the Condom as we were both clean and I had an IUD. A couple other times we hooked up he did put on a Condom but kept taking it off. Anywyas he came up with many reason why he randomly out of nowhere “lost feelings” even tho we hooked up a couple times after that (we are no longer hooking up or anything like that). The reasons were weird. Anywyas we had also found out I was pregnant which was rocky because we kept arguing about what we should do I even had to tell his family. He hated the idea of me aborting and said I was definitely not to do adoption. He also kept on mentioning taking it back to his country as he’s not from here he’s just living here for a bit. Kept on making everything about him and the kid but I felt he didn’t care how I felt during it all. During my pregnancy I won’t lie I was a total bi*ch to him I kept on telling him he wouldn’t be a good father and just really rude to him I think it was because I was so upset and also hormonal but now I totally regret saying all those mean things. Then out of nowhere he was adding my friends on Snapchat and on Fortnite (video game) which I found weird. About a week after that I had unfortunately miscarried at 13 weeks which was hard on me emotionally and physically he said he was sad and distraught as well. He also said something he would’ve named the kid and I asked if he still wanted to name it because I wanted to but he didn’t like that thought. He also mentioned how I could still come up and see him and drink for my birthday with him (which now he doesn’t want to do anymore at all?) because the day after my miscarriage I was meant to go see him and stay at his for a bit and maybe talk things out and maybe early birthday celebration. Anyways couple days later he’s half ignoring me so I ask him what’s going on and he said he wasn’t which he kinda was. He told me to move on from the situation we had just been through and also apparently deleted the ultrasound photo. After that convo I found out he was still talking to all my friends whilst ignoring me (all girls). I think he may also possibly be attracted to one of them. I was furious as I was/am going through all this alone he even told me he couldn’t be there for me even tho originally he said he would be there for me no matter what even tho he lived 4 hrs away. Everything is and was a mess. He acted like he cared for me before and during the pregnancy being nice offering me things and even just talking to me but after losing my baby he’s been ignoring me and almost like he hates me and not supporting me at all. Talking to my friends who also somewhat knew what is going on also hurt me. I asked them to remove him at least while we get through what we needed to get through and they refused and so did he. I felt bad but angry at the same time. Our friendship was always weird we were close for a very long while even when he said he didn’t like me anymore he also kept changing his mind on that back then too. So am I an asshole for asking them to remove eachother? They’ve never even met him don’t even know him and have never spoken him till now. He’s not even supporting me but instead talking to my friends and ignoring me. I will sit there obviously upset them knowing that while totally ignoring me to play a game online together. At one point I ended up blocking him during a breakdown but then we sort of talked it out and were joking and laughing again until the next day he was pretty blunt but now again he’s barely talking to me but my friends instead.

Yesterday was her birthday, I was doing okay on no contact for about 3-4 weeks. First week was the worst, broke it and realized how much of a mistake it was. I don’t know why but it physically and mentally killed me these past few days and I think it was because her birthday was coming up. I didn’t directly wish her happy birthday but sent her something to her house, couldn’t break my promise. Don’t know how she felt about that but whatever. I can’t do this anymore, I’m better than this. I haven’t been eating, haven’t been focused on school, I’ve been truthfully rotting these few days. I have a few friends I can cope to but I try not to because I don’t want to put them through that. It’s funny how I feel like I’m turning into her old version. I’m just letting my feelings out because I’m so tired of keeping it in my head. I loved her, she said she loved me. I don’t know how someone can say those exact words and not prove it to me, work things out with me if you truly feel that way. And then asking to be friends after a 8-9 month long situationship. I genuinely hate this generation, I feel like I’m more mature than people my age group. Sucks cause I felt she was too and still think that. I’m tired man I really am, how did I go from a straight A student involved in sports to a heartbroken, lonely, anxiety filled college student in a year. I still have feelings to work things out again, but time is powerful and healing. Whatever happens, happens. Starting tomorrow I’m going to change, I’m straight up just ruining myself. Shivering while typing this lol. I have to work on myself this summer and focus on school, I have no excuse not to. I’m promising myself tomorrow everything changes and I’m beating this version of myself. Straight work and grind throughout the summer, then going to live on campus and continue the process. I have so many ambitions and things on my bucket list I want to complete. If she doesn’t want to be with me then I have to live with that. All that matters is myself, my family, and my friends. God willing I can be shown to a path that’ll lead me to the light.
sorry for the rant i just wanted to let all my feelings out without just leaving it in my notes or whatever, feel free to kill me in the comments i dont care

my (f19) bf (m20) has been the ideal partner in most ways, and we've only been together for 5 months. i embarrassingly struggle with hating myself and believing he's lying 24/7. but it's so weird because he also seems like the most genuine person in my life? he cares for me when im sick or randomly down, he spends every second he can with me and drives 45 min back and forth to see me after his 12 hour shifts. he brings me flowers and icecream and writes me poems and takes pictures of me. it all seems so movie like. but from the beginning ive noticed some things. first i noticed a girl we'll call 'Megan' blow him up several times. i dug a little and saw they were following each other on every social media, and she had made a spotify playlist for him. i kept my mouth shut and eventually she was gone on everything. I brushed it off. i then i saw him frequently texting a girl 'Katie' on snapchat, and would close out as soon as i showed up. she was his 2nd best friend on snap- behind me. then i saw one of his close girl friend's post pictures on vsco of the back of him walking in a pumpkin patch. they were taken before we met- but felt romantic i guess. then i noticed he was liking a few of his friend's bikini photos. i confronted him and he profusely apologized and unfollowed them etc. i just saw him like some girl flexing in a gym. mirror 2 weeks ago lol. other than those specific things, i just also always notice him on snapchat when im around, and he immediately closes the app. he snapchats these girls throughout the day and i always noticed he has like 450+ messages on imessage. i want to ask him how many girls he's close with/talks to but is that unjustified?? he's going to the navy soon and he talked about getting married etc. he's going to speak to his recruiter tomorrow morning and up im up sick thinking about it and i want to ter him so bad but i feel like im in the wrong here beci he hasn't done anything to truthfully betray my trust and i can't tell if im being crazy