Last year, one of my old high school friends announced that she was battling cancer. I responded to her initial post and commented that she was in my thoughts and gave her a donation for her treatment. Throughout the last year I had always wanted to send a message to ask her how she was going and tell her that she was always in my thoughts but I just kept putting it off, I didn’t want to make her feel uncomfortable talking about what she was going through or if she was having a good day, make her upset by making her think about her diagnosis. Last week I saw a video before I started work of a girl on tiktok battling Stage 4 terminal cancer and how she loved hearing from people and I watched that and thought, “Okay, I’m going to message [my old friend]”, and once again, I put it off and because I went straight to work, I just forgot about it. Cut to today, I find out my old high school friend has passed away from her battle and I am just so so sorry that I didn’t let her know I was thinking about her and wishing her the best. I know the absence of a message from me never would have crossed her mind as we weren’t close and she was going through the most awful thing imaginable and that she had already such an amazing support network, but I wish she knew that she had me supporting her and if she needed, someone else to lean on, and I couldn’t offer that for her and I think that just not sending just a little 3 line DM will be one of the biggest regrets of my life.
Please, stop letting your overthinking of what someone might think stop you from messaging someone. If you’re worried about someone or just thinking about them, let them know. I thought I had time and I was so naive, just send that message, make that phone call, stop wasting time.

I would bake anybody here the best lasagna of their life if they could come up with a GUI that has a pane for every active network adapter, and I can drag and drop (or otherwise add) apps to those panes that will force those apps to only use that network adapter. I have been all over the boards, and this is a common enough issue that lots of people have it, but there's not really a good solution. And the solutions that do exist are not super helpful to folks like me who get confused easily in a CLI. I'm dyslexic, and I just need something pretty and simple.
Issue: I have a small unit here with outside access via 1.2.3.x and strictly intranet access via 4.5.6.x. What frustrating for me is that some apps are savvy and some aren't. Some apps are able to say to themselves, "Oh, I can't get what I need on 1.2.3.x. I'll give 4.5.6.x a try."
Some of the apps I like the least actually have that competency. Other much more powerful, industry, or well vetted apps just CANNOT figure out that there are other options. They hit that first network and if they can't get what they need, they fail.
I wish there were a simple, non-fiddly way to say, "Hey, PrismaTastic, you go to this network interface. JoJoDazzler and ParagraphDelight, you go to this interface."
I've been playing with SquidMan, and that's promising but I'm just not getting it set up properly. And I'm lowkey stupid about it as well.
I'm bummed. And venting. And I'd give a lasagna or provide a pack of cigarettes or maybe some other vice to anybody who wants to make a drag-and-drop GUI for this. I'm so bored of Terminal. I tried AI and it wasn't helpful.

To begin, I am a centrist person and voter. I hate the crazy right as much as the equally crazy left. I support a balanced approach to topics and having postilions work on consensus building and not following dogmatic or ideological policies. This is why I dislike Trudeau and Smith equally - both govern from a position of ideology and ignore those with different opinions. I believe my views are those of a large silent majority of those of us in Alberta. To win the next election the NDP must appeal to those with centrist perspectives, myself being one of those.
On Monday CBC's Alberta at Noon had a session with three NDP leadership candidates. I listened and loved being able to learn a lot more about the candidates. My takeaways are fairly simple. Naheed Nenshi and Kathleen Ganley were both balanced and strong. Living in Calgary, I did not agree with Nenshi much as mayor, however I did respect him.
Sarah Hoffman on the other hand was a total ideological basket case. One example being when asked about separating the provincial and federal NDP her comment that those who join provincially and don't want to be part of the federal NDP can just unsubscribe from emails was at best ignorant and offensive. I would have joined the NDP this year if it did also not mean joining the federal NDP - joining has meaning that Hoffman ignores. Overall, Hoffman seems more interested in the NDP keeping pure than in winning the election.
I hope the NDP win the next election, if for no reason other than to moderate the UCP. That said, if Sarah Hoffman becomes the next NDP leader I will vote UCP - sorry but she is just too ideological and clearly blind to the positions of those who do not share her beliefs.
I personally hope Nenshi wins for the two simple reasons, first because that he is much more pragmatic, and second he has the best chance of winning the general election compared to Ganley. I wish the provincial NDP well and hope they make the choices that will win the next election. It is better to get half of what needs to be done while in office then none of it as the official opposition.

I'm building my 2nd computer, having built my first cheap budget build in 2017! I've been away from the scene for a while and not caught up on the latest trends so I'd really appreciate any feedback on this build. I will be using it for graphic design/productivity and a mix of 1440p casual gaming. I'm somewhat flexible with my budget but hoping to not go over CAD $2600 unless very beneficial.
Was going more for aesthetics as I don't realistically need a computer this powerful but if there's any better performing or alternative components please do let me know. Especially if any of these components, manufacturers, or sellers are known to cause issues. Thank you!!

Type	Item	Price
CPU	AMD Ryzen 7 7800X3D 4.2 GHz 8-Core Processor	$799.99 @ Memory Express
CPU Cooler	Thermalright Frozen Notte ARGB 72.37 CFM Liquid CPU Cooler	$93.84 @ Amazon Canada
Motherboard	MSI MPG B650 EDGE WIFI ATX AM5 Motherboard	CPU Bundle
Memory	Corsair Vengeance RGB 32 GB (2 x 16 GB) DDR5-6000 CL36 Memory	$169.99 @ Memory Express
Storage	Samsung 970 Evo Plus 2 TB M.2-2280 PCIe 3.0 X4 NVME Solid State Drive	$199.99 @ Best Buy Canada
Video Card	Sapphire PURE Radeon RX 7900 GRE 16 GB Video Card	$759.99 @ Amazon Canada
Case	Lian Li O11 Vision ATX Mid Tower Case	$199.99 @ Canada Computers
Power Supply	Corsair RM850 850 W 80+ Gold Certified Fully Modular ATX Power Supply	$159.99 @ Memory Express
Case Fan * 5	Thermalright TL-C12RW-S V2 58 CFM 120 mm Fan (Reverse Fans)	$11.59 @ Amazon Canada
Custom	AsiaHorse Cable Extension Snow White	$35.99 @ Amazon Canada
Custom	Oddtone GPU Support Bracket	$14.99 @ Amazon Canada
Total	CAD $2492.71

I 37F do not have a great relationship brother, 39M or my Mother, 56F. I only speak to one person in my family, sister (31F). I have diagnosed cPTSD and anxiety due to the treatment from my family as a child and, when I got older, an ex.
I recently graduated with masters degree, ceremony was states away. Throughout the time going to school my brother, Bro, was unkind putting down my area of study. It was frustrating to even speak to him. He is the kind of person to do or say things, just because he was told it was innapropriate to do or say.
My mother, Ma, has used me as an emotional whipping horse and has told me that she sees me as the weakest of her children. Anytime a sibling of mine, myself, Sis, or Bro would accomplish something, she would compete with us to outdo us. I brought up that I had wanted to travel to walk the stage 2 or 3 times. Each time she deemed it unimportant, saying she didn't travel for her associates degree. The 3rd time, I had requested the tickets for myself and kids, plus.
I left Friday,10 hr drive. we enjoyed the graduation and a day of site seeing. It was a mini vacation. Other than letting everyone know I was on Do not diserve and wishing a happy mothersday to my mom. I drove home the next day and let everyone know why I was unavailable during the weekend. I sent them pictures of myself and the kids and a video of the kids putting on my gown and hat for me.
Both Bro and Ma began texting nasty words. I explained that I tried to invite Ma but she kept saying the travel wasn't worth it and that Bro really didn't have high reguards for my degree. Sis was the only one to say congradulations.
Ma denies me saying anything she misunderstood, then she sent a group text saying that she was going to do something that would hurt me emotionally. I told her that I needed time after that, space because I didnt know she was capable of it. Then she said I can't take her gkids away, I told her to please give me space so I can think about what she said and before I said something. She continued and i ended up blocking her.
Bro started calling me last night and i told him I did not want to speak, in messages he was being very hurtful words. I told him I loved him, but their reactions are frightening and I needed space. He called my phone many, blocked him. Then on messenger to continue to call, till I blocked him.
Sis sent me SS of him saying he will show up here this weekend, whether I would want him to or not. I sent out a group message that i asked for space, to please not come here, they are forcing me to call the police if they do. (Ma has been extremel during fights, as has my Bro. Then another message came through that if I call the police they will hide at a neighbors till the police leave and then they will wait for me outside.
None of my friends say I am the AH, but with how they are reacting, AITAH for not telling them about the ceremony?

I often read very clever or witty ways of describing people in brief and wish I could be so creative, such as describing someone as "relentlessly self-absorbed" when referring to how their pure selfishness brought harm to people around them.
In a similarly brief, but descriptive way, I'd like to ask for advice on describing the sort of character who, for lack of better vocabulary on my part, is a persistent but low-key humblebragger without the deeply false and obvious overlay of it.
This would be someone who, as an example, overestimates their abilities at work, thinking they're better than what the objective results show, but while not wanting to make their higher-than-deserved opinion of their own abilities obvious will often say things like "My work is mediocre at best" or "I don't really do things that well" while still harboring the desire for others to refute them and compliment them even when their actual results are bad.
I don't quite find "delusional" or "attention whore" a good fit as they're more like in denial (while being somewhat aware at heart of the reality) that they're truly just terrible at their job, while wanting others to give them asspats for what mediocre efforts they do put in. It's something like manipulative, but not quite so malicious in intent.
It's someone who describes themselves as mediocre/bad/etc. without meaning it in order to coax others in an inverse way to compliment the manipulating party by refuting the negative statements, while actually being mediocre or even worse and being in denial about it.
I realized only as I tried to write another character describing this one that I actually don't know how to succinctly describe this sort of archetype in a way that doesn't miss the point. Any help would be appreciated, thank you!

Tax collector Walter Bagby showed up and insisted taxes be paid on a lot that Joseph was sure he had already paid taxes for. Bagby threatened to seize the lot. Joseph accused him of abuse. Bagby called Joseph a liar. Joseph moved towards Bagby. Bagby picked up a rock to throw. Joseph put him in a headlock (maybe?) and punched him.
Daniel H. Wells, who happened to be Nauvoo Justice of the Peace, broke up the fight. Joseph told Wells to assess the fine and he'd pay it.
It is unclear if a trial was even held, or if they just fined him.
Unfortunately, Walter Bagby and Joseph Smith never reconciled. A few days after this incident, Bagby helped organize the "Anti-Mormon Party" in Carthage. He even refused to move with his family to Kentucky because of his rage against Joseph Smith, writing that he was "unwilling to leave the country now until I see the Arrogance of that abomination in human shape Joe Smith humbled low in the dust." Joseph later expressed (perhaps jokingly) that he wished Wells hadn't broken up the fight, and called Bagby a despot.
Bagby was apparently there the night of the martyrdom and was called as a witness by the state, but I couldn't see what his involvement was beyond being a witness.

I just want to say a big thank you to the team. I can't imagine how much hard work everyone has done to set everything up and keep delivering the shows we all love without missing a beat. The regulation pod and 100% eat are genuinely some of the highlights of my week. So thank you again to everyone in the crew, I think I can safely say we all appreciate all the hard work and wish all the best for the future

Originally chronicled here.
I am not the OOP. OOP is u/Lost_Beginning_2824
This was originally posted in TrueOffMyChest
2 updates
(recovered via pushpull)
Original post - February 6th, 2024
1st Update - February 28th, 2024
2nd Update - March 8th, 2024
Trigger warning: mention of domestic violence situation
I’m married to a woman who acts like a teenage girl – February 6th, 2024
My wife behaves like a teenage girl and I don’t know whether to laugh or cry.
This is just a rant. Curious to know how many full grown adults behave the way my wife does. I’d say out of all of the adult women I know, like friends, relatives, wives of my friends, none of them behave this way unless they keep it a closely guarded secret.
Editing right here to add that my wife is in her 30s, for context.
My wife is always obsessed with somebody, a man or sometimes multiple men at one time. Usually there is one or two main focuses at a time. When I talk obsessed I mean obsessed like a teenage girl or maybe even preteen girl would be. I’ve seen pictures of her bedroom when she was that age and they were literally wallpapers in posters of her favorite guys. That’s totally normal for a 13 year old girl. She still behaves that way as a woman in her 30s. Granted, our bedroom walls aren’t wallpapered in posters but they probably would be if I allowed it.
Her obsessions have ranged from rock stars, actors, non-entertainment industry public figures. It’s like one day she hasn’t even heard of the guy in question and the next day she’s super fan #1 and knows just about everything there is to know about him. She will read and watch everything there is to watch about the man. She will bring him up in every conversation. She will adopt parts of him into her own personality. She will suggest things that make it clear to me that she wants me to adopt characteristics of these men as part of my appearance or personality. She will openly admit to me that she’s masturbated over the guy multiple times in one day.
When she finds a new man to obsess over, she puts the others in her little stable of men who she always has a place for in her heart and in her fantasies, so they never really go away. The new man just takes center stage and becomes the main focus of almost her entire life.
So the current obsession is so strange to me. Never saw this one coming, but leave it to her to always find somebody new to fall in love with. The intensity that she has during these periods - it’s honestly like she falls in love with these men.
I’m laughing so hard just typing this all. Her current obsession is Bret Hart, former pro wrestler. This woman had never watched wrestling before in her life. Always thought that stuff was below her. And now she’s obsessed with this former pro-wrestler. She watched one show about him, for reasons I’m not aware of, and I could tell almost instantly where it was headed. I thought “here we go…” So now the Bret Hart obsession is in full swing. Has she already dropped close to $1000 in vintage Bret Hart shirts on eBay? Of course. Bought all the stickers and magnets and all sorts of other stupid crap she can find? Yep. Does she send me Bret Hart YouTube clips all.day.long when she’s supposed to be working? Yes she does.
So, I better get to work brushing up on my Bret Hart knowledge and tag lines. This is the key to getting laid when it comes to her. I’m used to this by now. It’s just not something that I can easily explain to anyone I know.
I mean, there’s are things I’m a fan of, but she is next level. I can’t think of anyone I know who is her age and acts like this. She was voted most likely to grow up and become a groupie when she was in high school, so this is absolutely nothing new for her. Sigh.
Many are lighthearted in the comments
plastic_Schedule_891
I mean he's the best there is, was and ever will be so that one makes sense at least .
You don’t think I’m hearing that 10 times a day now?
I better start planning that trip to Calgary.
Limerence is mentioned
poopchutethemoon
Yeah my bouts of limerence have been with people I’ve dated but reading that made me realize that I was very much being obsessive and it was totally all consuming. Glad it’s over honestly. Those feelings are exhausting.
Very interesting to hear you say the feelings are exhausting. It’s like a full time job for my wife, so I could see that. She told me she’s at work with her door closed pretending to be working, but she’s really watching Bret Hart videos on YouTube. She can’t even focus on her job.
OOP reveals more of the life he’s signed up for in the comments
get-bread-not-head
You've pretended to act like other men for 20 years?!
Damn dude, I hope you're finding ways to accept it and cope. That sounds rough, having to be someone else to have sex... stay strong king
Nah, I just learn their catchphrases or gain some deep fan knowledge that’ll impress her or maybe perfect a vocal impersonation of them that I can drop at the opportune time. The vocal impersonations work the best as far as making her like me and being like “ok, wanna have sex now?”
another_canoe
But what do you guys actually share *together*? That's not related to the obsession of the season? (I'm not going to even bother asking if she's tried to learn about any of your hobbies/interests).
NGL, this is all pretty grim to me, my man....and I'm someone who loves having a partner who is passionate about things and nerds out.
I fear that you've spent so long with her infatuations steamrolling over your own interests and preferences that you have convinced yourself that getting attention-by-proxy as your main source of validation from your SPOUSE is a healthy way to live.
If I told you that I was big into anime and Japanese RPGs and the only way I get interested in doing it with my actual wife is if she adopts the catch phrases /personality characteristics of my latest "waifu", would you feel some concern for my wife's mental health?
I'm also wondering about this spending....
She’s pretty dismissive of my interests and hobbies. I’ve told her I’d like her to try to pretend to show a little more interest sometimes. I make an effort to show real interest in her stuff and she does not do the same. I’m very into music and I do geek out over guitars and gear and things like that and she couldn’t tell you anything about any of the guitars I own other than “he has a blue one, he has a red one. “ We do love some of the same bands. Of course she wants to fuck the band members and I just want to talk about the chord progression on my favorite guitar tracks, but it’s close enough. We like a lot of the same movies and that sort of thing. We have the same sense of humor and can keep each other laughing for ages. We have a lot of the same views on life and on the world in general.
I don’t know, we just get each other I guess.
I would be concerned about the waifu thing, but I guess in my case she always likes guys who I think are pretty cool anyway. She has good taste, at least. If she has to be obsessing over some other guy constantly at least she does it over guys I can respect on some level.
Regarding the spending, I spend way more than she does. Only difference is it’s not usually fan merch I’m buying. But she tolerate my spending when it comes to stuff like guitar gear. She rolls her eyes and reprimands me but she tolerates it and just knows I won’t stop. I’m the same when it comes to her fan stuff. I get it, she wants the vintage 1993 Bret Hart shirt that costs hundreds…not a modern shirt that just anyone could go online and buy for $25 right now. She wants the cool, rare stuff. I’m the same with my guitars so I guess it’s like we understand each other in some way. I think it’s weird to become a fan of somebody and 2 days later drop thousands on them though. At least my money pit is consistent.
I think we both feel like we’re the only person who will semi understand and tolerate all of this stuff from each other
Not included here, but in several comments, OOP definitely brings up his wife’s looks as a positive in the relationship and he finds her antics at times amusing or even attractive.
1st Update - February 28th, 2024
I recently wrote about my wife suddenly discovering former pro-wrestler Bret “The Hitman” Hart one day after never even knowing of his existence, experienced love at first site, and is now even deeper than love with him then she was a month ago.
Tonight, I experienced a good hour of her sobbing, literal sobs, after watching the Bret Hart A&E biography. “I just love him so much. I love him with all my heart. I don’t want any more bad things to happen to him. Also, I’m very jealous he’s not my husband.”
She also went from not wanting any kids to suddenly wanting a baby so she can name it Bret (a girl or a boy, doesn’t matter…they will be named Bret). And she almost had me convinced, but I blame that on the heat of the moment.
She’s bought all sorts of clothes just like his. My wife now dresses like Bret Hart in and outside of the ring.
The past few days she’s been acting really annoyed with me. Finally I’m like “Wtf am I doing wrong?” I bought you Bret Hart stuff for your birthday! I call you Mrs. Bret Hart now, even though you’re my wife. I even sent you flowers at work from Bret. I mean that was supposed to get me points because she knew they were from me and I was playing into her obsession which she’s now apparently shared with everyone she works with. They’ve bought her a giant Bret Hart wall decal for her office.
Ok, so I did forget our anniversary which was very recently. Totally forgot it. Then again, so did she. She was too busy masturbating over Bret Hart to remember our wedding anniversary. I mean bad husband points for me obviously but all the birthday gifts had to have made up for it. I mean, I even ordered a Bret Hart birthday banner and got her a Bret Hart themed birthday cake as if she were a 7 year old boy in the year 1994.
So why is she acting so annoyed lately? Why does she act like she hates me and can’t stand to even be in the same room as me? She finally admits…I’m not Bret Hart. None of her obsession have ever been this bad. She’s seriously threatening me with divorce now because I’m not Bret Hart! She “just wants a guy like that.” She had to go walk the dog today and cry over it, how much she hates me and wishes she was married to Bret Hart. Oh fuck me you want a guy like your dad because that’s what Bret Hart is like…exactly like her dad, the same look, the same hair, the same damn age.
I told her I think she should get checked out for autism or some other sort of disorder. Her obsessions have never been this bad. She should make an appointment now because the waitlist is long. She just laughed. There’s nothing wrong with her. She just has different taste in men now, according to her.
Some comments
psychick
Therapist here - she needs to see a psychiatrist. This is mental illness to the extreme. Either she goes, or you leave. This is ultimatum territory. And, stop giving into her obsession. It makes it worse.
nualt42
Man, when she threatens divorce, take it. Jump at the chance.
Hell, sit, be a good boy and offer your fucking paw if that’s what it takes to get treated to an exit strategy. Don’t worry about dignity, sounds like you gave that up a long time ago.
She’s even looked up the divorce process for where we live and says we can be amicable about everything. She assures me she’s not looking to take any thing that is rightfully mine. She just wants a clean break.
Sophie3546
I’m surprised he even lasted this long. Calling her “Ms. Bret Hart” …..I can’t even fathom.
Excuse me, it’s MRS Bret Hart, not Ms.
NEW UPDATE - March 8th, 2024
Hi, you might remember me as the guy whose wife was obsessed with JFK (35th President of the United States), then experienced a world wind romance with former WWF pro-wrestler Bret Hart (the best there is, the best there was, and the best there ever will be), but now she’s met a new man. I thought the Bret Hart obsession was the worst one yet. Never has she threatened divorce or told me she hated me because I wasn’t the object of her desire. Luckily, that was a relatively quick love affair for her. 3-4 months is a short run for her and one of her men. But I should be careful what I wish for.
This new one is the first time I’ve felt that I should maybe, just possibly, feel legitimately scared. Her newly developing obsession is Patrick Bateman. Yep, the character from American Psycho. Specifically, the movie version played by Christian Bale.
It’s not like she’s just met the guy. She’s seen the movie before but it doesn’t appear that they hit it off initially. Now, she’s suddenly started making constant reference to him. Bret is gone and now it’s just Patrick Bateman and maniacal laughter and purchasing all of the items in his skin care routine. I’d like to see her do 1000 crunches though. That’ll be the day.
She has always admitted to living the 80s preppy/yuppie look. She loves assholes. Assholes are a weakness for her. Psychopaths? Hmm…that’s a new one, unless you count the time she was in love with the Menendez Brothers years ago. God, the pastel Ralph Lauren sweaters she used to try to make me wear. Pastels are just not my shades.
Now, there was a time many years ago where I did have to hide all the knives in our home. I was legitimately scared that she was going to murder me. I forget what she was upset about now. I am, after all, her type - an asshole. I did something that bothered her and she ran for the knives. I had to hide them and then lock myself in a bedroom because she was literally chasing me. That was before she decided that she’d be the female Patrick Bateman. Granted, she says “only mean in the looks and snob department-nothing else.”
She’s trying to determine what the female equivalent to a Patrick Bateman hairstyle would be right now. I’m just worried about the bank account with this obsession. The amount she’ll spend on business cards alone.
Comments
lemonade_sparkle
Your wife is severely mentally ill, and needs help quickly.
Is there no chance of persuading her to get help?
If not, what preparations have you made to leave her?
I’m a strange way, I think these obsessions are what keep her sane.
Her getting help is funny though. It’s not going to happen. Sure I’ve tried to persuade her to see a therapist but she just won’t.
ctIaTErA
I probably shouldn’t be laughing as hard as I am right now. This is truly bizarre. Does she narrate her morning routine in the mirror each day now?
But in all seriousness, she’s chased you with a knife? Thats far more concerning than any of the obsessions with these men, and yes I did read the post about the wrestler. I thought it was just very quirky behavior before, but she seems truly unhinged now.
It was years ago. Like 10+ years ago. I’m much stronger than her so it’s not hard to hold her down if need be.
I AM NOT OOP
NO BRIGADING, NO HARASSMENT

A few months ago my mom (45F) tore both her ACLs at the same time, requiring multiple surgeries over time. The next month, I signed a lease in another city that doesn't begin until August. We agreed that after I graduated college (last weekend), I would move back in with her (and my 17yo sibling, and my 50M stepdad) and stay in the guest bedroom over the summer. The idea was that I didn't have to pay rent while I was job-hunting for the fall and waiting for my lease to begin, and she could get a hand during the hardest part of the 6-9 month recovery. We also agreed that I would cook a homemade meal three times a week (something that my family struggles with doing in the best of circumstances) instead of paying rent.
The other important piece of context is that in December, my last semester of college tuition was due. I paid my portion ($2k in cash, plus $4k in federal student loans) early. My parents logged in to pay their previously-agreed-upon portion ($3k) on the very last day possible, the day before classes began in January. When I logged them in to do that, we discovered that I had been awarded a surprise $2,500 grant from the state. My stepdad paid the remaining $500 balance and said that he would send me the rest of the money directly later. Obviously this has not happened.
If I had not paid my portion early, that $2500 would have gone straight to me, and I would have put what was leftover after paying the bill toward my student loans. I'm struggling not to feel like I'm being punished for being on top of things; because I paid early and my parents waited until the last second, the $2,500 went to them instead.
When I bring this up, they remind me that they're dealing with a lot of difficult medical bills right now, between my younger sibling's disabilities, my mom's double ACL tears, and multiple vet bills for the cat that they adopted in November because it turned up with serious medical issues and they didn't want to take it to the shelter. I understand that and that's not unreasonable. However, they didn't have to keep the cat, whose bills have been a lot larger than $2500, and they choose to eat out or do fast food at least as many nights as they eat in. Also, my stepdad made $177k last year and I have no reason to believe he's taken a pay cut this year. So it's hard not to feel like this is more of an issue of priorities than strapped finances.
$2500 is three months' rent with my new lease, and I doubt that I'll make that much money this summer because I need to be available to drive my mom and sibling around for their treatments/appointments. If I spent three months working and staying in an airbnb or something for the summer I would definitely come out ahead. I knew that I was choosing to sacrifice that when I said I would stay here for the summer, but I also made that decision based on the fact that I had just been awarded a $2500 grant, which is looking less and less likely to come my way.
I know I'm being a little spoiled. The money was NEVER guaranteed and never in my bank account, so it's not like my parents stole it from me per se. And my parents combined have supported me to the tune of just about $15,500 in tuition overall, which was generous and they did not have to do that. But it's been 3 days, and every time my mom or stepdad mentions something about money I just feel this mean little sense of resentment about that $2,500 deep inside me. I wish I hadn't gotten it at all, even though that's selfish of me.
How can I let go of my attachment to money that was never given to me at all and is negatively affecting my relationship with my parents?? Or should I bring it up again - but if so, how can I do this without being selfish and rude?? I don't know if I can last for three more months the way that I'm feeling now without being a giant ungrateful jerk to my parents - help!!!

Hi!
I just learned that I have Avoident Dismissive attachment style. Well, "know" is a stretch, but I read up on it, and it resonates with me 110%.
First off, I prefer to be alone, and whenever people get too close too quickly, I freak out and distance myself from them. I've lost several friends, and a romantic relationship due to this. I DO care about people, but I have a hard time showing it, and it takes a long time for me to even consider them a part of my inner social circle. I'm talking years lol.
Idk what exactly caused this, because I grew up with parents i knew loved me, even though they didnt always express it verbally. The only thing i can think of is that I was often told I was too sensitive and overdramatic. I remember i wrote a short story about a man who fell madly in love with a woman he met at the supermarket, and I let my mother read it. I was twelve years old, and quite proud. After reading it, she gave it back to me, raised her eye brows and said: "that was a bit... much." That was pretty much her reaction everytime i told her about my feelings, or whenever I talked about feelings really.
I dont want to paint a horrible picture of my parents, because I knew they loved me, even though they didnt really say so. They showed their love through giving me clothes, making me food, and yelling at me to do my homework lol. (tough love?).
Also, my older sister is, interestingly enough, the complete opposite of me. She's a social butterfly, and has been together with her boyfriend for 7 years now. She can't stand to be alone, and is constantly on some trip with friends, at parties, gatherings, etc. I could never live her life, but there's also something there that I wish I had. There's a warmth in her, like she truly opens up her heart to everyone. She sees you, and is always inclusive and kind.
It's like i have that warmth too somewhere inside of me, but I'm unable to show it to people. It's locked up, and I don't have the f key. I guess the best way i can explain it is that a part of me want to be caring and have tight relationships with people, and another part of me is scared of it/doesnt allow me.
I just got to know a girl through a weekly workout session I attend. We started texting, and grabbing coffees after the sessions and whatnot. Last week she invited me to a hike, even though we had met twice that week already. I immediately felt uncomfortable (even though i liked hanging out with her), and said I was busy, even though i wasnt. It just felt like too much too quickly, and i got the feeling she was getting a little clingy.
I realized I ALWAYS do these things, and idk, it might be time to work on it, because it's obviously not this girls fault.
Although Avoidant attachment style is an insecure attachment style, I can't ignore the fact that it has its perks. I pride myself on being independent, and I like the fact that my social circle is small, because i know I can trust each and every one of them. I also, strangely enough doesnt really feel lonely, even if i don't meet anyone in weeks. I spent one and a half month abroad completely alone, and I didnt feel lonely once. I was genuinely completely fine, and enjoyed my time there. I wonder if that's normal?
It's not like I'm very socially awkward either. I can be the life of the party (if you will), and I sometimes strike up a conversation with strangers on the bus (that's considered quite out-going in my country btw)
BUT,
I also want to be more like my sister. I don't want to push people away. I don't want to be that kind of person. I also acknowledge that there's a lot of people who have dated people with the same attachment style as me, and that must have been extremely difficult! So, yeah, that's why i want to change.
So.. how? Where do I even start?
Any advice would be highly appreciated!

So I’m pretty much new here and just made my first post last night. To my surprise, it was filled with nothing but negative & hateful comments - degrading my physique, calling me names such as “pizza face” or “manlet” and stuff like that…
I mean, yeah, sure - I don’t have the best physique out there. There are a lot of people who have a better physique than me. But I don’t think I look as bad as you people claim to be. I worked really hard to get where I am today.
I feel bad for Soosh for having such immature & insecure fanbase. Not only are you guys putting a bad image under his name, just think about how the other person would feel when you leave such negative remarks.
Do better. Grow the hell up, people.

True Crime is a huge interest for a lot of people. And alternative media is a fantastic source of additional coverage. But there are concerns that haven’t been addressed.
Obviously a witness crying in the stand about being harassed, is really bad news for the defense. And they’re probably wishing they had never gotten involved with their campaign to “embrace friendly media”. Nothing good has come of it so far.
But even further, alternative media doesn’t play by “the rules”. This is a blessing and a curse. As our curiosity demands more details before a trial occurs, there’s more and more content providers ready to give us the deets. Cool. Except.
There’s weirdos out there. And just passionate supporters. There’s haters. And more weirdos. I’m gonna harp on the weirdos for a minute. Because they’re the biggest reason that mainstream media tries to maintain some sort of journalistic integrity. They’re not, “not going after the story”. They’re reporting responsibly so that nobody gets hurt, no harm is done, and fairness can prevail in a court.
Beyond the Turtleboy situation, which is obviously what I’m referencing. There’s also the media pool drama happening outside, cops and assault charges, and a journalist receiving a letter from the court that their tweets about the jury are now under investigation.
If you follow other trials or true crime, I’m hearing that this is becoming more and more the norm surrounding alternative media outlets. I don’t even want to approach the Bryan Kronberger thing. It’s probably twice the shitshow that this is, from what I’m hearing. And buffer zones are becoming more and more common around these high profile proceedings.
Don’t get me wrong. I’m all for transparency. Sunlight is the best disinfectant, and I welcome this new breed of journalism to the arena. But witnesses crying on the stand because they were harassed is a bad fucking look and I hope these experienced attorneys are recognizing their mistakes right now. Good gawd that was awful to watch.

Player Character

Reddit Account:TheLegend_NeverDies
Discord Tag: thelegend_neverdies
Name and House: Lyle Westerling
Age: 23
Cultural Group: Andal (Westerman)
Appearance: A lanky, stick-thin young man with sandy brown hair, Lyle is all easy smiles and nonchalance, yet there's a certain inscrutable mystery in the abyss of his dark brown eyes. An exemplar of the trend-setting western court, he is always clean-shaven and impeccably dressed in the crème-de-la-crème of courtly finery. He favors silken half-capes in exotic colors and rich doublets of velvet and lambswool in white, off-white, and sandy colors. He has delicate hands, bathes almost obsessively, and likes to perfume himself with the scent of cinnamon and oranges for the fair ladies of the court.
Trait: Steward
Skill(s): Avaricious (e), Architect (e), Scrutinous
Talent(s): Singing, Carousing, Cyvasse
Negative Trait(s): N/A
*Starting Title(s): * Steward of the Rock and Lord of The Crag
Starting Location: Opening Event

Auxillary Character

Name and House: Jon Westerling
Age: 23
Cultural Group: Andal (Westerman)
Appearance: Of an identical age and look to his twin brother, Jon differs in that he is noticeably muscled, with the lean but sturdy strength of a young knight. Jon, who seems to have an ever-present beard of stubble and tends to wear his hair in a ponytail, is just as popular at Lord Lancel's court as his brother, but he prefers to wear his simple sand-colored surcoat blazoned with seashells over indulging in the West's latest fashions.
Trait: Inspiring
Skill(s): Cunning, Cavalryman, Andal Knight
Talent(s): Hunting, Jousting, Fishing
Negative Trait(s): n/a
Starting Title(s): Knight of Seashells and Heir to the Crag
Starting Location: Opening Event

Bio-Timeline

3 BC - The heir to the Crag, Symond Westerling, weds Penelope Lannister in a grand ceremony at the sept in Lannisport. At the wedding ceremony, his younger brother Gormond very briefly met his future wife, the young lady Teora Reyne.
2 BC - The first child of their marraige, Jeyne Westerling, was born at the Crag. What should have been a good omen, however, spelled disaster. Not one moon after her birth did the Conqueror launch his glorious conquest of the Seven Kingdoms. Called up by his liege to do his duty and defend the realm from this pretender, Lord Walderan, his sons, and all their knights and levies rode to war. With their strength combined with that of the Reach, they had expected an easy victory. But never before had they seen dragons on the field.
Lord Westerling, as commander of the West's vanguard, was among of the battle's first casualties when a stray crossbow bolt felled his horse and caused the aging Walderan to break his neck underneath it. Had he only known the mercy he was spared. Symond, now Lord, did not halt the assault. Out of duty and mad vengeance, he led the Western forces further, even in the face of the three dragons that had, by now, taken flight. From his sick bed, Lord Symond often swore that he had been able to cut down four of Aegon's pikemen before the dragons came down upon them. Before the field erupted into flame and everything went dark.
1 BC - It was not for many moons after King Loren had already knelt to the Conqueror until Lord Symond woke again. Gormond had managed to rescue his older brother from the fire and organize as many of the Crag's men as he could for a desperate retreat through the rings of fire. He had saved hundreds of men that day, all men agreed. But whether he had truly saved his brother was in question. His face and body ruined by the grievous extent of his burns, a series of amputations were necessary to save Lord Westerling's life, but he was never quite the same man he had been prior.
0 AC - With the Conquest completed and Aegon upon his Iron Throne, life returned to some semblance of normalcy for many. But Symond's scars from that brief, glorious war would remain with him for the rest of his life. Kept on a near-constant supply of milk-of-the-poppy and dreamwine, he was in no condition to actually fulfill his duties as a lord. Lady Penelope and Ser Gormond decided to share the duties between themselves.
1 AC - On one of his better days, Lord Symond, who had been unable to leave his solar for the past two years, finally managed to hobble to court, to the horror of his people. A man scarred and ruined, he nevertheless was determined to hear a few pleas of his people. Cautiously optimistic, Lord Westerling's mood soured when his daughter, whom he had previously hoped to hide the extent of his deformities, screamed and ran out of the room when she saw, "A monster on my father's throne!" Court soon adjourned, and Lord Symond, for the first time in years, went to bed with his wife.
2 AC - A small miracle of sorts touched the house with Penelope's birth of the twin boys Lyle and Jon. This brought some joy back to the house and to Symond, but his condition would only deteriorate as the years went on. Continually tended to by Lady Penelope, his lordship would remain largely sedated and absent from the lives of his children as they grew.
5 AC - Ser Gormond Westerling meets Lady Teora Reyne at a small tourney held at Feastfires asking for her favor before a joust and talking to her at greater length at the feast later that night, soon starting their courtship. They would wed some moons later, eventually having two children of their own, Stafford and Eleyna.
7 AC - With the Stranger knocking at his door, Lord Westerling called his family to his solar one final time. The family that he had tried his very best to shield from him by self-imposed isolation and the repeated reading of old histories and holy books. He wore a mask of fused seashells as he told his children of his pride in them, but before he died, he insisted that his heir take one final parting gift from him. At that, Lord Symond removed his seashell mask, gave it to his five-year-old heir and said, "Boy. Look at me. This is what those silver-haired freaks and their demon abominations have wrought. Guard yourself... lest they do it to you."
8-20 AC - Lord Symond was dead, but his parting words had left an impact on his children. As Lyle buried himself in books and lessons from Maester Morgon, Jon practiced with mount and blade with Uncle Gormond, while Lady Penelope trained her daughter in courtly etiquette and saw to it that House Westerling maintained its close connections with the Lannisters, of the Rock and Lannisport both. In that time, the Westerlings soon found themselves inducted into the court of the Rock, the boys in particular became close friends to the young heir to the Rock, Lancel Lannister, and soon became regular visitors to the Rock and makers of mayhem in Lannisport.
Jeyne, meanwhile, happened across the widowed Lord Baelor Belaerys of Aegon's Rest himself at some tourney, feast or other, and soon found herself enamored of the dragonlord. Despite Jeyne's fears that her mother or uncle would forbid the match due to his status as a prominent valyrian dragonlord, they, to her great surprose, acquiesced. And so she married the Lord of Aegon's Rest in 16 AC and bore him his new heir two years later.
21-25 AC - As the Westerling twins "matured" with their good friend Lancel, who eventually became Lord Lancel, they each found themselves prominent places at court, Lyle as the Rock's Lord Treasurer and Jon as Lancel's Captain of the Guard. To this day, House Westerling are considered the Lord of the Rock's most tireless supporters, with the twins counting among his most loyal men.

Family Tree

House Westerling

Supporting Characters

Gormond Westerling - General
Stafford Lannister - Warrior

Hello, friends! My flute choir has been invited to play a 20-minute concert at a school for the Deaf and Blind next week (in memory of the pre-K son of one of our choir members who attended there before he passed away). The blind kids (and staff?) will obviously be able to hear the music (Disney, 90s-current), but I'm wondering how we can make the experience more interesting for the Deaf and HoH kids.
Here are my ideas. What suggestions or changes do you have?

1. Put our music stands as low as possible so the kids can see our faces (for the expressions we sometimes make when sections are more difficult, soothing, etc.), fingers (for when parts are fast and busy or slow), and flutes (it's not every day you see these "auxiliary flutes," since the low ones don't show up in bands and orchestras)
2. Stand instead of sitting, again so they can see better
3. Have more expressive faces as we play to convey the mood of each song better
4. Ask one of the staff members to sign the names of songs as we announce them (though I'd assume they're planning on doing that already), or possibly even the lyrics (even though we're not singing any of the words--and I do realize this is a much bigger ask)
5. Provide a printed program with descriptions of the genre/mood/movie context, lyrics (even though we're not singing any of the words) and/or pictures for each song since not every kid can read (either too young or have cognitive challenges)
6. Do our usual demonstration of our five different flutes (piccolo, C, alto, bass, contrabass) at the beginning so the kids (and their aides/staff) know what's going on better

Off-topic, but here are my ideas for improving blind accessibility:

1. Do our usual demonstration of our five different flutes at the beginning and each play 10-20 seconds of music so the kids know what they're listening to/for
2. If I had a way to emboss images of the flutes, that would be cool to hand out in lieu of programs (since I don't have a Braille printer and am under the impression that would be expensive and time-consuming, plus I don't know how many of the kids can read, but they will at least be able to hear us announce the titles of songs)
3. Invite kids up to feel the instruments (at the end of the concert, in case of damage), depending on how many kids there are and any relevant age/ability considerations

How our concerts typically look:
We sit in a semicircle, with the smallest, highest-pitched flutes on the right side, going down to larger, lower-sounding flutes on the left side. In that order, we have the following flutes:

• piccolo (half the size of a regular flute)
• several regular C flutes
• alto flute (slightly larger than a C flute, plus the head joint is sometimes curved)
• bass flute (largest flute you can hold sideways, and the headjoint is curved)
• contrabass flute (played vertically, shaped like the number 4 or 9, and stands about 6 feet or 1.2 meters tall)

We usually record our concerts, but since this is at a school I'm not sure if we will be able to. I assume we will at least need to ensure no kids' faces show up in the video (which I try to do anyway). I do my best to set up our recording equipment (tripod with camera connected to microphone and laptop, with all cords taped to the floor to avoid trip hazards) so that it can capture us without blocking the audience's view, but how I accomplish this depends on the venue setup.
We start with a song, the conductor introduces the group, and we play a few more songs. Every two or three songs, the conductor gets up and announces the names of the upcoming few songs. The program is also available on our website. Our concerts are usually an hour long, and in the middle we take a brief break to point out the different flutes. If we do that here, with only 20 minutes to play, it would have to be very brief. Then we finish with the last half of songs. We stand and people clap, then sometimes people will come up with questions or comments as we're putting our stuff away, so we'll chat.
Thank you!

I know your family raised you to be selfish, not trust anyone, and to only look out for yourself. I know you hate the idea of being embarrassed of family, because of how your family was. You saw how your dad wasn't proud of his mom, and never really knew his father, you saw how your own mother treated her own bio mother, "as punishment" , and the parents she resonated with (your great aunt and uncle), they were back then, and still are, horrible people, bigots and users. You saw how trauma shaped your parents insecurities, and you developed your own based on different factors. But they mainly came from your family still. Despite this. I still have zero sympathy or empathy for you, what you did to me, your lover and partner for almost 8 years. I did nothing to you, I treated you like a queen, I lived for you practically, and the second you saw I was going to be the real me, and live unchained to my gender issues, you resented me, for ruining your public image, you yourself said " You know how embarrassing this was?" You weren't mad for any valid reason. You simply were angry that I wouldn't compromise who I was for your bigoted family's comfort. You were mad I was willing to walk away from situations for respect over money. You may have been panicking, but I DO NOT care. I gave you outs, I said you could leave, and no hard feelings. But you kept saying you wanted us to work and you loved me. I don't know if you genuinely felt that way or if you wanted to take your messed up revenge for me simply being me. I hate you, I hate your family, and I often fantasize about you having horrible things happen to you. You beat me that night, black and blue, and you didn't even care, you kept all the savings KNOWING I'd at the very least need my fair share to stay off the streets, you mentally and emotionally tortured me for over a year so bad I STILL hear your voice at times. If I found out you were brutally murdered I, even as a Christian, would not care. You deserve anything bad that ever happens to you. And honestly sometimes I wish and pray that your new partner beats and rapes you. You're the culmination of an evil bloodline coming to roost. You're an abuser and will never be more than that.

I want to make this clear. I fucking loved HD. I loved it so much I made sure I read LH, QAA and tales 1 before moving on DiW.
DiW just didn’t hit for me. I did enjoy it but not on the level of HD. I had a similar problem that I had in book 1. The plot lines didn’t flow well together or maybe it was the passing. If the Annuica and Colchis parts of the story was joined up or something.
I kinda feel like the side cast was kinda lacking in this book. Howling Dark had Lin, Crim, Ilex, Corvo, Switch but in this book they tried to make Siran a big deal and it just felt flat for me. Especially her leaving. Idm that she left but it felt kinda out of nowhere. Lorian, Alex and the birdos were nice but we didn’t get enough of them. I felt more attached to Renna then I did most of the Red Company in this book.
How does the rest of the series compare. Before DG came out I was told that DiW was the best of the series.

My mom is the best. Loving, selfless, creative, just all around amazing.
However, she's a bit of a hypochondriac, which is where I get it from. I'm the same way.
She came to me today with a list of signs that my newly 1-year-old baby is autistic. I have been noticing these oddities with him and really just kind of chalking it up to him being a little weirdo, pushing away the autistic idea. But today she said she was so concerned that she made a list and googled them.

1. He doesn't like his hands touched (pulls away)
2. He does "finger flicking" to touch new objects
3. He's completely obsessed with wheels. This is true, if something can be knocked over so he can access the wheels to spin them, he will. He has been obsessed with fans, wheels, anything round and spinny since he was an infant. The only way he wouldn't scream in the car is if we had the portable fan for him to look at.
4. He has an issue with some textures of food.
5. He sometimes goes into his own little world, especially when he's spinning something.
6. He's been banging his head against our head and faces for the past few weeks when he's excited and giving us love.
7. He pinches us when he's nervous.
8. Loud noises terrify him

These are all weird little things. But he also says more than a dozen words (bugs, balls, light, mama, Dada, nanny, pappy, hi, bye, bite, more, go, no, on and on), makes and keeps eye contact, is totally fine with cuddling, about to walk. All the other developmental milestones are there.
She said she didn't want to scare me and in the moment I wasn't, but of course now that I'm by myself and thinking about it I'm terrified. I know autism is not an indicator of intelligence, or even emotional intelligence or connection with people. My little sister is autistic. But still this sucks. I know nobody would ever evaluate or diagnose him at this age and I'm not looking for that but I kind of wish she didn't say anything.

For context this is gonna be long: We finished inventory early so me and another TM in my section asked if we could leave early. Our SD said we could but would have to add the two hours to our upcoming shift (which was today) the SD even made a remark saying “that’s a 9 and 10 hour shift, we are gonna hold you accountable to that” and me and this TM both agreed. The SD made the same rule to everyone who was on inventory. So when I came in the today I was prepared to work 6am-4pm. The other TM who I was with for inventory said they aren’t going to stay because their original schedule (when it was made two weeks ago was a 5 hour shift). I then asked oh they added 4 hours? And the TM said no that they had changed it to a 6.5 a couple days Ago. So then I reminded them that they had agreed to add more hours just yesterday and that the SD even reminded us that makes it a really long shift. The TM then started backtracking and then saying they just don’t want to stay that long. I was irritated but I was like ok if they just clock out early they’ll get in trouble so whatever. Then later on in our shift that tm said they talked to a recently hired TL and told them their schedule was messed up so that TL said they didn’t have to make up the two hours anymore. This really irritated me because I was there when they agreed to adding to their shift so I know their schedule wasn’t messed up. I also didn’t see it as fair because there was a good chunk of us who were told we had to stay the extra two hours and we all did. It just doesn’t make sense to let one person off the hook. Let alone someone who hasn’t been putting in the hard work.
I’m not typically one to go say something to management but this really bothered me since I have been working so hard and have had zero days off in 7 days, working 9-10 hour shifts. I even came in the day before inventory when I was supposed to be off for a 7 hour shift which turned into a 10 because I am a team player. Two coworkers I’m close to said I should say something because it really isn’t fair and if I don’t they will. So i confided to the assistant HR and she said to tell my lead to talk to the SD because she also said that’s not fair. So I did and my TL understood and said they will talk to our SD. I then went on break and came back to my lead asking me to go talk to them. My TL then told me they talked to the Sd and that it’s not my business as to why the other TM is leaving early and that if I have an issue with it I should just quit and find another job. Then the TL said that applies to all of us and then proceeded to say they didn’t want to do what the work they have to do today either but they are just dealing with it and that I just need to focus on myself. They then said that the TM has a lot going on to which I did say I know that’s not true because they straight up told me they just didn’t want to be here that long. To which the TL got mad at me for saying. Keep in mind the TM not wanting to stay has done this multiple times and takes extra long breaks since they’ve been hired months ago. Whenever they are in other departments those TMs say they do the same thing and get nothing done. So I wasn’t just saying something to be mean, I finally had enough of seeing someone constantly get away with this.
To top it off, other TMs have said things to their leads about coworkers not pulling their weight and the leads have a discussion with the “accused” TM. One even got fired because a Tm was telling the ETL they weren’t doing their job right. So idk why when I said something I was painted as the person in the wrong.
The rest of my shift I didn’t really even want to be there and I was on the verge of tears. I only have one more shift until I go on my vacation for a week and I’m really debating on just calling out and quitting or just working that last shift and then quit. ALSO I’m the only TM in my section tomorrow and we have a whole truck of rollover for my area. All I wanted to do was express how I feel like it’s just not fair and that I should be able to leave earlier too since I’ve been working so hard and made up hours by coming in on my off day Am I wrong for saying something about the unfairness? Am I wrong for feeling like my TL shouldn’t have spoke to me to me like that? I really don’t know what to do

I was testing heavy weapons on my PA, here is my view of the weapons, starting from best to worst from my perspective(all vampire):

1. Holy fire - that thing is the best heavy, but breaks often so quickly, for short range, ammo is hard to farm.
   
2. Gattling plasma - this is awesome weapon, gated by alzheimers accuracy and recoil, ammo is infinite, breaks often.
   
3. Gauss minigun - this is awesome weapon, saddly ammo is so expensive so its not on 1st place...
   
4. Plain minigun - good accurate iconic weapon, but range dmg is so bad, cant even compare to the first 3 even with rapid leg mode and accel barrel. Ammo is easy to find. But on the other hand shredder mode is absolute beast.
   
5. .50 cal gun, iconic weapon, I tried it but dont like it, its slightly better than minigun but hipfire accuracy is bad.
   
6. Gattling laser - accurate weapon but dmg is in plain minigun range, ammo is easy to find.
   
7. LMG - great accuracy, mediocre dmg, ammo is hard to farm.
   
8. Cryolator - personally i dont like it, didnt play it much.
   

Things I need to test:

• cremator(wanting to get all mods before trying it out, prolly will change my holy fire for this if I role vampire one day)
• gatling gun - ppl are praising this one but I find it ugly 😄
• pepper shaker - same as gatling gun
• plasma caster - i dont like it cause its vats weapon.

So i am using holy fire as my 1st and gattling plasma as my backup weapon. I use minigun when i am bored and gauss mini for scourge queen but it melts ammo.
Only thing I am sad about is legendary mod gamble, I just cant get perfect roll such as vamp rapid and durability. I wasted like 700 legendary mods for it and no luck. I wish they divide stars so we can rerol stars separately. I hate time gated stuff.

i(female,22)was kicked out of my parents house(both,they are divorced)when i was 17 years old and have lived with my grandma since. she recently has been trying to push me out the house and pressured me to move in with my boyfriend(27)who i just found out has been cheating on me the entire time we have been together(7 months). i have no friends i can move in with, i have no family to reach out to, i have no where to go. i am stuck living with someone who constantly lies and manipulates me and i need to get out. if i don’t get out soon then im going to just kill myself because i seriously cannot handle this anymore. im so tired of being made felt that im unlovable and annoying, he always promises he will stop just for me to catch him again. i need help. i need an escape. how do i leave? how do i escape? i dont make enough to live on my own and im in california, where should i run away to? where is the best place to go when you have nothing and no one? i feel like the answer is no where and to just fucking shoot myself. i cannot take it anymore i can’t do this anymore i haven’t felt this bad since my last attempt(2 years ago). i was making so much progress. he ruined me. my entire life is ruined, i have no escape except suicide. somebody please give me answers someone please save me i don’t know what im going to do. this is a cry for help.