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2024.05.29 06:06 mikeramp72 Endgame #14
14th: Jud “Fabio” Birza (Nicaragua - Winner)
MOVIE STAR JUD \"FABIO\" BIRZAu/SMC0629:
Fabio, my second favorite winner of the entire show, he’s just too much fun. He perfectly encapsulates the trainwreck that is Nicaragua, and is the best winner for it as well. He gets to the end by just being himself, a decent amount of luck, physical strength, and a tiny bit of strategy. I know there’s some who seem to think Fabio is brought down by this factor of the edit building him up to know what he was doing, apparently undermining everything before the endgame. If you ask me though, who’s to say he DIDN’T have a tiny strategic mind in there? It seemed perfectly reasonable and in character for me, and it only improved him for me. Love Fabio, so happy he made it this far.
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u/DryBonesKing:
From the same editing program that watered down Mike Gabler from OTT weirdo to a CP-lite strategic player “hiding in plain sight”, we have his prototype - the OTT blond surfer-bro that the players literally changed his name from Jud to Fabio because of how he comes across that gets a watered down CP-lite strategic edit of “they don’t realize I’m actually really smart, y’all!” Quit being cowards CBS! Give us the Goofball Fabio winner edit! #LetFabioBeFuckingWeird
I stand by the Gabler-Fabio comparison, but despite how much I dislike how the CP-edit kills Gabler’s character potential, I think Nicaragua does somehow make it work with Fabio. I blame the cast itself; with people like NaOnka, Marty, Jimmy T, Jane, Shannon, Dan Lembo, and whatever the fuck a “Benry” is supposed to be, “Fabio” almost does come across sane in comparison. As such, he can get these confessionals about pretending to be dumb and it does almost work just because the people he is surrounded by just feel literally ripped from Loony Tunes.
But despite it kinda working here, I do think Fabio is hilarious when he’s just allowed to be this weirdo that no one takes seriously, that ultimatley ends up winning because he’s surrounded by two people who have truly pissed off the jury. He’s a fun character with a truly unique winner’s story, and ultimately, I just REALLY dig his vibe. I wish I had him Top 100. But I also just wish we got a full season with the “real” Fabio as opposed to the occasional cuts to CBS trying to water him down to his most strategically-presentable version. #LetFabioBeFuckingWeird #ReleaseTheFabioOTTWinnerEdit
Overall Rank – 115/821
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u/Zanthosus:
While I’ve never been as big on Nicaragua as many in the rankdown circle, I still appreciate a lot of what the season does and represents. And I think that Fabio’s win is the perfect ending for the clusterfuck of a season that preceded it.
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u/Tommyroxs45:
Fabio’s run on Nicaragua is simply iconic and is a great way for the season to end. Having this likable underdog beast his way to the end under all odds against him is so satisfying. I’m happy he made this endgame even if I personally don’t have him here.
u/Regnisyak1:
Fabio is cool. I have him probably lower than a lot of people comparatively, but he was a ray of sunshine on such a negative season, and his win coming out of nowhere was great. He played the surfer bro role correctly, and while I don’t think he necessarily had the greatest ability to lead a season, he is a necessary feature in making it thrive and giving it such a large cult following here. Glad he made it after a long gap.
Personal Rank: 77/821. 9/10.
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u/ninjedi1:
Jud “Fabio” Birza (1st Place, Nicaragua)
I love Fabio. He’s easily one of my favorite winners of all time. Every time I reevaluate my winners rankings, Fabio at worst will be the third best winner for me. Plus, as an added bonus, he also stars in my favorite B movie of all time, My Stepbrother is a Vampire!?!, which I won on DVD (I’m not joking, who do you think got the screenshot of Fabio for this writeup?). I mentioned in my Colby 3.0 writeup how I consider Nicaragua the last true old school season of Survivor, and that’s because it feels like a big fuck you to strategy, and Fabio plays a huge role in it. Enough of simply stating my love for Fabio’s character, it's time to describe why he’s so great.
The first episode properly sets Fabio up as who he is as a character this season. He gets the first confessional of the season, talking about how dangerous it really is out there and how it's not like the zoo cause it's all real (the first hint of the winner for being the first confessional of the season). He then gets put on the young people tribe, which he says are his people. One of Fabio’s main characteristics gets shown right at the start, where he basically says that they could use a snorkel flipper to collect rainwater, and when Chase said Fabio looked like he would be good in the water, Fabio instantly gets a woodchip in his foot, making him rescind the comment. Shannon then has a confessional where he calls Fabio a dumb blonde, and it instantly cuts to Fabio getting pinched by a crab claw. He then starts calling Fabio his titular nickname…uh…Fabio. This quickly catches on in the tribe, and even at the first challenge where Jeff tries to talk to “Jud”, the tribe corrects him, saying that they only know Fabio. This is Fabio’s first characterization, that he’s a goofball that isn’t taken seriously. While that’s a big characterization, it's not the most important one. The important one is shown in his confessional responding to his new nickname. He comes off surprised that everyone is calling him Fabio, calling the guy a cheeseball, but then says that he doesn’t care what people are going to call him cause he’s going to win the million dollars (in the weirdest audio edit ever) so people can call him Fabio. This highlights his second characterization, and the most important one, he is aware of what other people think of him.
Of course, just because he’s aware of his status doesn’t necessarily mean he has great strategic capabilities. This is shown in the first La Flor vote, where it's looking to be between either Shannon and Brenda, and Fabio was voting for Brenda with Shannon’s. However, Shannon has a huge meltdown at tribal, which clearly would be bad to stick with and would be better to switch sides. However, Fabio ends up sticking with Shannon anyways, voting for Brenda and going “I guess this is the vote?”, which put him on the outs. This would normally be an issue, but since everyone sees him as a goofball, he’s not near the bottom of the pecking order. It also helps that La flor will win every immunity from here on out until the swap happens, and while not happy at first that a swap was happening, he happy with the end result, as he ends up in the majority with the OG La Flor members, although some La Flor members aren’t too happy to work with Fabio strategically. Luckily though, Fabio would successfully make it to merge, where his true game would begin.
I would usually just talk about what Fabio did throughout the merge, but I would rather highlight his interactions with key people from the merge, as they all highlight Fabio’s main characteristics to varying degrees and also help add to his story.
Alina
Alina and Fabio don’t interact too much, as Alina would spend most of her time with Kelly B and then gets swapped onto Espada when the tribe swap happens, separating her from Fabio. But when they return at the merge, Alina ends up getting targeted for her involvement with the missing food fiasco. When she tries to pitch to Fabio to keep her around, he just flat out tells her that people want her out cause she’s dangerous and people think she always has a hidden motive. This does reflect back to earlier in the game, when they were both at the bottom but no one was worried about Fabio and wanted Alina and Kelly B out first. This would carry over all the way over to that moment now. Fabio has more on the pulse in the game than people think as shown here, and he’s able to avoid it due to how he plays up the perception of him.
Marty
On paper, it makes no sense for Marty to vote for Fabio as the winner. How could the most strategic guy on Espada vote for the least strategic person in the game? However, the relationship they develop over time is what really shines. When Marty gets swapped onto La Flor, everyone from OG La Flor either wants him out, or to use him for strategic gain. Fabio is really the only guy from OG La Flor that has his back. Fabio tells Marty about Naonka getting the clue, and when OG La Flor wants to split the vote and get Marty out, Fabio fights for Marty to stay. Even though Marty does trick Fabio by claiming he was a chess grandmaster, he does warm up to Fabio. They even work together at the merge, although that ends up being short-lived as Marty is taken out
Naonka and Purple Kelly
I have to lump these two together since they both highlight the one issue with Fabio’s story. Unfortunately, since both of them quit, they both get slaughtered by the edit, which in turn ends up hurting Fabio’s story since they’re both key to it. With Naonka, she is Fabio’s biggest adversary. She finds his antics way more annoying than funny, and actively yells at him when he complains to her about something, and pretty much dislikes him all around. The feeling appears to be neutral while there on La Flor, but not all is what it seems. When merge comes around Fabio and Naonka reunite again, they actually hug and get along. Even if that ends up being short lived when Naonka steals food, but when she gets cornered and comes clean about it, Fabio is the only one to thank her for doing that. Eventually, all that kindness pays off when at the F9 reward, Naonka is the one to fill him in on the Brenda vote. When FTC comes around, Naonka, despite everything that they’ve been through, calls Fabio her hippy friend and asks about how seeing his Mom gave him the strength to keep going, and Fabio gives a heartfelt answer, telling her about how much he misses his Mom and that it was the fuel he needed to make it all the way to the end of the game. Despite their rocky relationship, Naonka ends up giving Fabio her vote to win.
Purple Kelly is another important aspect of Fabio’s story that unfortunately gets buried due to the assassination edit given to Purple Kelly. Everyone knows that Kelly was miserable due to being given very little clothes to keep her warm during Nicaragua’s monsoon season, which led to her quitting. The only real time it gets acknowledged is when Fabio mentions that now Purple Kelly can sleep when they win the tarp, which is barely heard because it happens the same time that Chase finds a hidden immunity idol clue in the tacklebox. But it's interesting that Fabio is the one to vocally acknowledge it, as he’s the one who’s most involved in it. It's never mentioned, but you do always see it. Multiple times throughout Nicaragua, you can see Kelly wearing Fabio’s yellow jacket. He allowed her to wear it sometimes when she was cold to help her stay warm. Just that kind of gesture along from Fabio helping her out the best he could, led to her voting for Fabio to win in the end.
Benry
I don’t have much to say about Fabio’s relationship with Benry, but there are two things I want to highlight from it. The first is during the Marty vote, where Benry says that the best plan is to lay low and play stupid, while Fabio says that he hated playing stupid but it was the smartest thing to do. Fast forward to the F7, and the vote is between Fabio and Benry. The main alliance of Chase, Sash, Holly, and Jane are deciding who should go between Fabio, who everyone on the jury loves and could win, or Benry, who could go on an immunity run to the end. While Fabio is in general clueless at the vote and is still “playing stupid”, Benry ends up playing really hard to get the vote onto Fabio, which freaks out Chase and leads to the alliance voting out Benry over Fabio. And guess who ends up going on an immunity run right after F6 and makes it to the end and wins?
Jane
At the first merge immunity, it's a double immunity where the last standing man and woman would win immunity. When it came down to the men, the last two guys standing were Fabio and Chase. Ultimately though, it would be Chase that drops first, giving Fabio immunity. The only person that Fabio really had to compete against was Jane. This is a great foreshadow to the end of Jane’s store as well as the continuation of Fabio’s. Both of their stories are kind of similar overall, both of them end up on the outs of their starting tribe, they get new life when the swap happens, they're both overall well liked, and they were both screwed over by Chase during the loved ones visit. Both of them had strong cases to win the game just with overall likability, but one of them would have to go to allow the other one to thrive, and when Fabio comes in clutch to win F6 immunity, the majority alliance decides to cut Jane as a threat, allowing Fabio to fully harness Jane’s power to get to the end.
Sash and Chase
Once again I’m going to lump these two together because they are the ones that end up sitting next to Fabio at the end. You have big strategy Sash and country boy Chase. On paper, it should be one of these two that should win the season instead of Fabio. They were both in control for most if not all of the game, and the only reason why Fabio was there was because he won a couple immunities at the end. But yet, Fabio is the one to clutch out the title of sole survivor. Why? In my opinion, it's because Fabio is always himself, so people see him as a genuine guy, while the other two come off as terrible or fake.
Sash's main game is strategy, doing whatever he needs to get ahead of the game and make it farther. Any bond he has with someone is only on a surface level which makes him come off as sleazy and slimy, while Fabio is always genuine with his feelings and relationships with people. No one highlights this better than Marty. Marty’s main relationships involving La Flor were mainly Fabio and Sash. While Fabio always liked Marty and gets to know Marty on a personal level, Sash only really talks to Marty for strategy and cons him out of his idol on the promise of keeping him around longer. And when Sash no longer needed to keep Marty around anymore, he burned him and voted him out. Everything Sash does comes off as slimy to everyone, even his allies, while Fabio remains pure and genuine.
With Chase, it's a bit of a different story. Chase wants to be the good guy, but gets caught up in the strategy, and keeps ending up being on both sides. He always gets flip floppy and wishy washy when it comes to voting someone out or for rewards, which ends up annoying people. It's not a problem at first, but it definitely is when he starts making promises to people that he can’t keep which upsets them more, hurting his image and makes people like him less. The biggest example to this is the loved ones visit where he promised to take Fanio on reward with him if he won. However, Chase ends up burning both Fabio and Jane, who expect Chase to pick her. This leads to both Fabio and Jane being upset, and even Fabio telling Jane about the promise Chase made, which also pissed off Dan who was there. Chase always wants to maintain being the good guy while he is playing the game but struggles because of his indecisions and breaking of promises, while Fabio is actually able to maintain that status all throughout.
This all pays off at FTC, where we finally get to see Fabio speak out against the two guys, talking about how he actually got to play the game that Chase wanted to play. He talks about how played hard by being himself and being an open book for everyone, and never backstabbed anyone in the game which Sash could never do and Chase wishes he could do. He laughs when Sash calls him a wingman, telling him to take a backseat and take some notes. He doesn’t even let jurors who put him down get in his way, as when Alina says that he wants to vote for a man to win, not a boy, Fabio said he deserved to win, and when Chase said that winning three immunities didn’t mean he outwit, outplay, or outlast hi, Fabio points out that that’s outplaying him and he chose to bring Chase to the end and then says that Sash didn’t outplay anyone. I know people usually say that Chase had the better FTC performance since he flipped votes to his side, but that doesn’t matter (and is also wrong) as Fabio will end up clenching a 5-4 victory in one of the best endings to a season I could ever ask for, and that’s awesome.
SMC0629: 5
DryBonesKing: 19
Zanthosus: 20
Tommyroxs45: 15
Regnisyak1: 21
DavidW1208: 7
ninjedi1: 2
Average Placement: 12.714
Total Points: 89
Standard Deviation: 7.889 (3rd Highest)
2024.05.29 04:07 apehasreturned Booking the AEW World Title in 2024 - Part Two: The Master
 | Part One Here! submitted by apehasreturned to FantasyBookingElite [link] [comments] We pick up following Blood and Guts, where AEW Champion Swerve Strickland led his team to victory over the Elite. It’s been an insanely brutal and bloody reign for Swerve so far, and with enemies and allies alike climbing the ladder towards a shot at the gold, he’s starting to grow slightly paranoid. With a second trip to Wembley approaching, the talk of the town is who’s going to win the Owen and go for AEW’s top title at Wembley - if Swerve even makes it there, the fans knowing that his wars of attrition are leaving him worse for wear with each passing defence. Road to All In London The lineup for the Owen is being narrowed down coming out of Blood and Guts, with MJF, Jay White, Bryan Danielson, Will Ospreay, Darby Allin, Hangman Page, Konosuke Takeshita and Katsuyori Shibata all in the running. With blockbuster match after blockbuster match being fought to determine the finalists for Calgary, we eventually come down to two: MJF and Will Ospreay, set on a collision course for the ages. Swerve’s troubles don’t end there, though - after leaving the Mogul Embassy, his old allies smell blood in the water, and the EVPs are all too happy to make Strickland’s life more miserable by announcing a title match with Brian Cage for the Dynamite opener in Alberta’s largest city. AEW World Title: Swerve Strickland (c) vs. Brian Cage Cage gets a good showing in here, using his remarkable athleticism to nearly put the champion away early, but once Swerve gets rolling, it’s clear that there are levels to this game. The Machine goes for a Liger Bomb, Swerve reversing into a hurricanrana to leave him prone for a HOUSE CALL, FOLLOWED BY A SWERVE STOMP! ONE! TWO! THREE! Swerve Strickland def. Brian Cage (11:51) to retain the AEW World Title After the bout, Swerve’s handed his title, and he keeps it hugged tight to his chest as he grabs a microphone. He says everyone’s been working their asses off around him to try and take this from him, but the champion promises he’s not afraid. He welcomes the challenge, because there ain’t nobody like Swerve Strickland in SWERVE’S HOUSE. He says he’s looking forward to seeing who comes out on top in the main event, and heads off backstage to watch it with Prince Nana. Owen Hart Foundation Tournament Final: MJF vs. Will Ospreay This gets a lot of time, with no limit on a tournament final. Let them cook. MJF is in worse shape than Ospreay, having been flung straight into a tournament after a series of surgeries left him held together with duct tape, but Ospreay’s in a worse headspace, his typical unending confidence hampered by a few narrow wins en route to the final. However, it’s two spectacular in-ring talents, and they go ham in pursuit of victory, MJF wanting to headline Wembley for the second straight year and Ospreay looking to win the AEW World Title in a stadium in his home country. The back-and-forth gives way to MJF getting control, working the arm extensively to warm Ospreay up for the Salt of the Earth. However, an appearance by Adam Cole gives an unknowing Ospreay the opportunity to turn the tables with a handstand reversal to a Heatseeker, following it with a Hidden Blade for two. Ospreay considers working on the shoulder, MJF crying out in agony with each blow to the surgically repaired joint, and eventually, Will has him in perfect position for the Storm Driver 93. He knows MJF’s neck and shoulder are in such a state that this would be an automatic victory, but he hesitates just long enough for MJF to roll him up… ONE! TWO! THRE-KICKOUT! MJF grabs the arm to go for a Salt of the Earth, Ospreay rolling him back into a pin of his own, followed by another HIDDEN BLADE! STORMBREAKER! ONE! TWO! THREE! OSPREAY’S GOING TO WEMBLEY! Will Ospreay def. MJF (31:02) to win the Owen Hart Foundation Tournament Out comes Swerve, standing toe to toe with his challenger as confetti falls around them. Ospreay leans on his trophy, grabbing a microphone as it becomes rapidly apparent his confidence is back. He says that All In is on the horizon, and last time AEW was at Wembley Stadium, he won as an outsider… yet Swerve lost. Now, Ospreay’s in AEW full time, mowing through all the competition, and now it’s time that the Kingpin get a shot at the crown. Swerve chuckles before his smile turns into a sneer, growling under his breath that Ospreay will have to kill him to take the AEW Title away - and he’s seen that despite being called the Assassin, he can’t do that. The next week on Dynamite, Ospreay and Swerve are scheduled for a face to face promo in the ring, the title match official for All In. It’s electric as they stand opposite one another in the squared circle, trading some quick verbal barbs that they both brush off before getting down to brass tacks, Swerve holding the microphone and beginning to speak. “Will, you’re impressive, man. You can be as athletic as the day is long, but it’s not ‘heavy is the body that wears the crown,’ it’s ‘heavy is the head,’ and there ain’t nobody like me. This is a mental game, and you don’t have what it takes there. You blew yourself up and broke your own neck when you went for the IWGP Title. You were betrayed by the Don Callis Family and somehow didn’t see it coming. You were beaten on your home turf by your sworn enemy because you got in your own head. You had the win of a lifetime against Bryan, and then you felt so bad about it that you neutered your arsenal. You don’t have what it takes… in your head or in your guts. There’s only one head fit for this crown, and it’s mine.” Ospreay scoffs, trying to keep his cool, but he doesn’t wait long before grabbing the microphone out of Swerve’s hand to an “oooh,” from the crowd. “Ain’t nobody like you, bruv? How dare you talk down to me. How dare you condescend me, belittle me, you arrogant bastard? I came here to AEW and started taking heads, just like I did in Japan, and there were people there just like you. People who said ‘ah, he’s not got it in him to be the next big gaijin. He’ll never be the champion,’ and now there’s you, saying I don’t have what it takes because I don’t have the mentality. YOU don’t have the mentality to do what I do. To fly from the UK to here twice a week, to raise a family, to spend a whole career an ocean away from home, to wear the crown on your head that says you’re the greatest wrestler on Earth. Nobody’s done that but ME, and when that championship’s fastened around my waist, mate, it’s going to prove what everyone already knows - that Will Ospreay’s on another level, and Swerve Strickland… he’s punching up.” Now it’s Strickland’s turn to try and keep a lid on his anger, stepping toe to toe with his challenger and holding the title inches from his face. He tells Ospreay to listen close, before saying that the years of hard work Ospreay put in everywhere but home aren’t gonna be enough to help. He’s gonna be in front of his family, he’s gonna be in front of his friends, he’s gonna be in front of his people, and he’s going to let them all down, because he’s an impressive athlete, but he’s not the guy. Finally, Ospreay snaps, throwing a SHORT HEADBUTT, AND NOW BOTH MEN ARE THROWING FISTS! IT’S UTTER BEDLAM! The bell starts ringing to try and encourage them to break it up, but neither man is stepping down now, furiously exchanging blows as security rushes to the ring to divide them. Swerve grabs the championship, hoisting it high as he spits venom at Ospreay, the challenger spewing a string of words that probably won’t make air. They keep trying to break free and take another swing, commentary asking what on Earth they’ll do when they’re finally let loose at Wembley Stadium, pride and the promotion’s top prize on the line. Swerve Strickland (c) vs. Will Ospreay All In London Wembley Stadium is packed to the gills as All In goes on the air, and they’re fit to burst as the first theme they hear is that of the Commonwealth Kingpin. Justin Roberts announces that our opening match is for the AEW World Title, and Ospreay receives plenty of fanfare and fireworks as he makes his way to the ring, looking more motivated than ever. He’s clearly jonesing in the ring, eagerly awaiting Swerve’s arrival as his compatriots cheer him on… and then Chaka Khan hits. Strickland may be in enemy territory, but the crowd can't help but sing. Oozing charisma as he enters the squared circle, the AEW Champion seems more than ready to put the Assassin down, the electric crowd letting both men soak in the moment as the bell rings. HERE WE GO! SWERVE VS. OSPREAY, LIVE FROM WEMBLEY, AEW TITLE ON THE LINE! AEW World Title: Swerve Strickland (c) vs. Will Ospreay From the bell, Strickland and Ospreay are exchanging words as they gravitate towards one another, Ospreay calling for a lockup. They settle into a collar and elbow, Ospreay using his size to his advantage to try and muscle Swerve into the ropes, but Strickland reversing the momentum to cinch in a side headlock. Will still drives Swerve into the ropes, eventually breaking free and whipping Strickland across the ring, the champion building up speed as he ducks a clothesline attempt from the challenger and nails a Tijeras to send Ospreay flying. Ospreay’s quickly back up to his feet, Swerve attempting a slip behind for a German Suplex, but Will countering with a headlock takeover, kipping up and throwing a superkick that’s narrowly avoided by Swerve, who drops flat to his back, picking Ospreay’s leg and floating into a handstand to bring Ospreay down with a headscissors. Will kips up once more to break free, Swerve scrambling to stand up before OSPREAY THROWS A HIDDEN BLADE, SWERVE DIVING OUT OF THE WAY AT THE LAST MOMENT BEFORE CATASTROPHE! Strickland quickly pivots as Will looks to get to his feet, attempting a HOUSE CALL, BUT NOW IT’S OSPREAY’S TURN TO DODGE AS BOTH MEN END UP STANDING! Gritting his teeth, Swerve goes for another lockup with Ospreay, this time quickly kicking him in the gut for a snapmare, cinching in a chinlock to talk some smack. The Aerial Assassin lands a few elbows to the body as he strives to get back to his feet, finally breaking free before being grounded again by a Tijeras from Swerve. Strickland grabs hold of his challenger again, Ospreay furiously backpedaling into the corner to avoid a lifting inverted DDT, only for Swerve to send him through the ropes for a HANGING NECKBREAKER! Ospreay rolls out to the apron instinctively, Swerve kicking out one of his legs and stepping through the middle rope to SLINGSHOT INTO A DDT ON THE APRON, BUT OSPREAY HANDSPRINGS STRAIGHT TO HIS FEET ON THE FLOOR! Strickland gets cocky, thinking he landed the shot, and turns around to see Ospreay charging at his legs. Swerve leaps up, still on the apron as Will overshoots, the champion pivoting for an APRON PUMP KICK, OSPREAY DUCKING IT AND LEAPING BACK ONTO THE APRON! SWERVE TURNS AROUND ONCE AGAIN… AND OSPREAY FLIES IN WITH AN APRON OSCUTTER! Tumbling to the floor, Swerve tries to get to his senses and figure out how he came out on the rough end of the sequence on the apron, but Ospreay gives him no time to think with a ROBINSON SPECIAL OFF THE APRON, STRAIGHT THROUGH THE BACK OF HIS HEAD! He props Swerve against the barricade, chopping him across the chest before scrambling to the top rope for a SKY TWISTER PRESS TO THE OUTSIDE - ONLY FOR SWERVE TO AVOID IT, NAILING OSPREAY WITH A GERMAN SUPLEX ONTO THE FLOOR! With Ospreay stunned, Strickland slides back in to break the count, measuring his man before effortlessly delivering a FOSBURY FLOP OUT TO RINGSIDE, WIPING OUT THE CHALLENGER! Turning the tables on Ospreay, now it’s Swerve’s turn to lay in some chops against the barricade, only for Will to dump him over the barrier and into the crowd. He follows it up with a hook kick over the guardrail to stagger the champion, running the length of ringside and LAUNCHING HIMSELF STRAIGHT INTO A PUMP KICK FROM THE CHAMPION! Swerve hops up onto the barricade, grabbing hold of Ospreay in a front facelock before MUSCLING HIM UP AND OVER WITH A BRAINBUSTER, OFF OF THE BARRICADE AND RIGHT DOWN ONTO THE FLOOR AT RINGSIDE! He rushes to roll Will back between the ropes, hooking both legs… ONE! TWO! TH-NOOO! Swerve jumps to the middle rope to deliver a diving European Uppercut to the back of the head before Ospreay can quite get to his feet, following it up with a DISCUS LARIAT! The assault on the head is relentless, Swerve looking for a DDT before being driven into the ropes, Will trying to earn a momentary reprieve. Instead, Strickland pummels him with Muay Thai knees to the body, heaving him up for a LIGER BOMB! ONE! TWO! THRE-KICKOUT ONCE MORE! Swerve lets out a frustrated roar, deadlift Ospreay up to attempt another powerbomb, but Ospreay manages to drop to the apron for a gamengiri, followed by a PIP PIP CHEERIO! ONE! TWO! KICKOUT! Desperate to keep momentum on his side, Ospreay quickly delivers a rolling elbow, following it up with a SNAP DRAGON SUPLEX, BUT SWERVE RIGHT BACK UP TO HIS FEET, NAILING A GERMAN! He swivels around, only to see Ospreay landed on his feet, BOTH MEN THROWING HIGH KICKS BEFORE COLLAPSING TO THE CANVAS! Wembley rallies behind Ospreay as both men struggle to get to their feet, barely stirring before the challenger begins pounding the mat, leaning back onto his hands for a kip-up before Swerve simply spins to punt him in the face and bring him back to the mat. Strickland rises to his feet, looking for the House Call, but OSPREAY HAS NONE OF IT, CATCHING THE LEG FOR A STYLES CLASH! ONE! TWO! THR-NOO! Following through, Ospreay attempts a Hidden Blade, Swerve ducking it before rushing towards his opponent and INTO A SPANISH FLY FOR A NEARFALL! Ospreay grabs the back of Swerve’s head, paying him back for the focused assault with a flurry of Kawada Kicks to the face, followed by an attempt at a delayed vertical suplex, Strickland floating over and landing on his feet. The champion runs the ropes, Ospreay stopping him in his tracks with a dropsault and an enziguri, continuously building momentum with a STUNDOG MILLIONAIRE TO FINALLY DROP SWERVE TO HIS BACK! Unleashing a war cry, Ospreay has a gleam in his eyes as he looks towards the top turnbuckle, dragging himself through the ropes to the apron before clambering up to the high rent district, turning his back to Swerve for another SKY TWISTER PRESS, SWERVE ONCE AGAIN ROLLING IN TOWARDS THE TURNBUCKLES… BUT OSPREAY ROLLS STRAIGHT THROUGH TO HIS FEET! Strickland flashes his grill to the camera in the corner with a smile, Ospreay looming behind him before BLASTING STRAIGHT THROUGH HIM WITH A HIDDEN BLADE! ONE! TWO! THRE-SWERVE POWERS OUT! It’s been just over fifteen minutes of insanity as Ospreay smells blood in the water, knowing if he connects with a Stormbreaker, he can wrap this up. However, that certainty would only be cemented if he were to nail a Storm Driver 93, but he refuses to go to such lengths, hooking the arms… BUT SWERVE COUNTERS WITH A BACK BODY DROP, ONLY FOR OSPREAY TO LAND ON HIS FEET! HE BREAKS INTO A SPRINT, REBOUNDING OFF THE ROPES FOR A SPRINGBOARD OSCUTTER - STRAIGHT INTO A HOUSE CALL! SWERVE INTERCEPTED HIM! ONE! TWO! THRE-NOOOO! Strickland can’t believe it, but he’s got Ospreay dead to rights, spinning him around into position for a Tombstone. Strickland looks to the hard cam, a smug sneer on his face as OSPREAY REVERSES WITH A SEGA MEGA DRIVER, SPIKING HIM DOWN ON HIS HEAD! ONE! TWO! THRE-NOOOO! Ospreay is in disbelief, even a tribute to Mad Kurt not being enough to put Swerve down, but he’s staying on the ball as he hooks Swerve’s arms to go for a STORMBREAKER, ONLY FOR SWERVE TO FLOAT OVER FOR A LIFTING INVERTED DDT! Will’s rally wasn’t enough to get him out of trouble, and STRICKLAND FOLLOWS IT UP WITH A SECOND HOUSE CALL! SWERVE IMMEDIATELY ON THE ATTACK ONCE MORE, POSITIONING OSPREAY FOR A JML DRIVER… BUT WILL CLEARS HIS HEAD, COUNTERING WITH A POISON RANA! SWERVE UP TO HIS KNEES, BUT OSPREAY FOLLOWS IT WITH A SPRINGBOARD OSCUTTER! HIDDEN BLADE TO THE BASE OF THE SKULL, AND NOW… STORMBREAKER! ONE! TWO! THREE! WILL OSPREAY IS THE AEW WORLD CHAMPION! Will Ospreay def. Swerve Strickland (20:10) to win the AEW World Title Later in the night, Kazuchika Okada defeats Kenny Omega to win their fifth encounter, establishing himself firmly as the Number One Contender to the AEW World Title, giving the new champion only two weeks to prepare to face off with one of his greatest foes - a foe he’s only managed to beat cleanly once, while falling to the Rainmaker eight times. Road to All Out Ospreay gets to celebrate on Dynamite, cutting a promo saying he’s geared up to finally put this to bed. He says he’s glad he’s starting his title reign like this, because he’s certain he can beat Okada, and he’ll not have to worry about the spectre looming over him anymore. Every time there was a title on the line, every time the stakes were high, he failed against the Rainmaker - but the stakes were high at Wembley, and he won. He proved Swerve Strickland wrong, and now it’s time to prove Kazuchika Okada wrong. Out steps the Rainmaker, taking the EVP Elevator up onto the stage to say that Ospreay has already proven him wrong; he thought, years ago, that Ospreay was a talent worthy of being in Okada’s stable of CHAOS, and Ospreay proved him wrong when he betrayed his leader, only for Okada to beat the brakes off him at the Tokyo Dome. Okada says that Ospreay should be all too familiar with Okada being the top champion, the Ace, and he plans to finally bring that vision to AEW by restoring the world to its natural order and beating the Aerial Assassin for a ninth time. The Rainmaker’s ego is peaking, having avenged his loss to Kenny Omega just a few days prior, and he says that Omega’s a taller mountain to climb than Ospreay. However, he says he’s sure there’ll be room in the Elite’s ranks for Ospreay, should he come to his senses and want to fall back in line behind the Rainmaker. Ospreay declares that at All Out, he’ll prove to Okada and the world that he’s eclipsed the onetime Ace, while Okada insists that Omega was just the beginning - in just a few days, it’ll be time for the Rainmaker Era to start back up. All Out With All In having just occurred recently, All Out is a package deal with the Wembley show, ensuring a huge audience for what’s certain to be an all-timer main event between the Rainmaker and the Assassin. Both men want to walk out with the gold more than anything in the world, making an already personal rivalry all the more exciting as the coin drops for the last match of the night. Okada appears in a new robe, debuted two weeks prior at Wembley, and as he rises from the Elite Elevator, he’s looking more daunting than ever. There’s only one feud the man had ever lost, and he’d just avenged it against Kenny Omega - this is the most dangerous he’s ever been, and as Will Ospreay makes his way to the ring, Okada doesn’t even turn to face him. The champion is furious, but the challenger sees him as a formality standing between him and another epic World Title reign, refusing to even acknowledge him as they’re both introduced by Justin Roberts. They head to their respective corners, and THE BELL RINGS! IT’S OKADA AND OSPREAY, WORLD TITLE ON THE LINE! AEW World Title: Will Ospreay (c) vs. Kazuchika Okada Both men are hesitant to open themselves up to a big counter in the early goings, especially given how well they know each other, so they try and psych each other out a different way - by waiting. The crowd greets them with a deafening reception as they slowly circle the centre of the ring, eventually meeting with a lockup that sees Okada immediately put his height to good use, bearing down on Ospreay with an attempt at a test of strength. He pushes Ospreay down to the mat, even getting his shoulders down for a moment, but the champion bridges up off the canvas. Okada jumps up and drives his legs down into Ospreay’s body, but Ospreay maintains the bridge with both men’s weight, Okada getting back up and shooting for a lateral press that gets a one count. Transitioning into a side headlock, Okada talks some smack, the Young Bucks supporting him at ringside while taunting the champion. However, Ospreay’s put on plenty of muscle mass over the years, making it all the easier for him to slowly make his way to his feet, twisting free and securing a side headlock of his own on the Rainmaker. Okada sends him into the ropes, Ospreay clinging to the top as Okada instinctively goes for a flapjack. Momentarily confused, Okada gives Will the opening to run in for a dropsault, attempting to follow it with an enziguri that’s ducked, Ospreay springing up… and into a flapjack, the inevitability of the Rainmaker’s plans coming to fruition putting the champion in a bad spot early. Continuing with his somewhat lackadaisical pace, Okada keeps treating Ospreay like he’s not that big of a deal, shoving him into the corner for a double pat on the chest, followed by a stiff forearm across the jaw as the referee steps in. Ospreay lunges at him, Okada grabbing the arm for an Irish Whip into the opposite corner, rushing the champion with a big boot, but Ospreay SLINGSHOTS RIGHT OVER HIM, LANDING ON HIS FEET BEHIND THE RAINMAKER FOR A KICK TO THE HAMSTRING! Ospreay hones in with a swift roundhouse to Okada’s other leg, trying to take out his base, but Okada shrugs it off by catching the leg on a third kick attempt before driving his shoulder straight into the bridge of Ospreay’s nose, following it with a DDT that makes it look like Ospreay just died. The champion goes full scorpion, folding over himself like PAC as Okada grabs hold of the wrist to attempt an early Rainmaker. He gets Ospreay up to his feet, a smirk on his face as he winds him up, but Ospreay cuts through his grip with a sharp elbow before rolling Okada up with a victory roll reversal, straight into a DOUBLE STOMP TO THE GUT! Okada rolls right out of the ring and into the waiting arms of the Elite, Ospreay lining up to try and take him out with a dive before being halted by the Bucks, who leap into the way with their hands up. Ospreay shouts at them to move before going for it anyway, launching himself with a PESCADO, STRAIGHT INTO A BOOT TO THE STOMACH BY THE RAINMAKER! THE BUCKS GAVE HIM TIME TO RECOVER! Taking advantage immediately, Okada sends Ospreay crashing into the barricade, Ospreay crying out before Okada sends him into the aisle on the crowd side of the barrier. He measures his man as he heads to the opposite end of ringside, the Bucks gassing him up as he takes a running start for a CROSSBODY OVER THE GUARDRAIL, LANDING ON HIS FEET AFTER TAKING OUT THE AERIAL ASSASSIN! Okada dusts himself off, his signature look of superiority clearer than ever as he drags Ospreay back to ringside, laying in a few boots to the body before spitefully laying in another DDT, this time on the floor. He breaks the count before continuing to pummel Ospreay at ringside, the Bucks taunting the champion with each consecutive shot he takes. Okada works over the champion’s neck, digging a knee into the back of it as he postures with his stablemates before securing a waistlock for a GERMAN SUPLEX ON THE FLOOR, BUT OSPREAY FLIPS OUT OF IT! He flings himself at Okada with a Hidden Blade attempt from behind, the seemingly omniscient Okada ducking at just the right moment before throwing a boot - but Ospreay’s just too quick, slipping under it and LAYING IN A HOOK KICK, FOLLOWED BY A BACK SUPLEX ON THE OUTSIDE TO THE RAINMAKER! Ospreay backs the Bucks away, threatening to put their faces through the back of their heads before sliding back into the ring and EFFORTLESSLY SOARING THROUGH THE AIR WITH A SKY TWISTER PRESS TO THE FLOOR! He sends Okada back between the ropes, following him with a PIP PIP CHEERIO, BUT OKADA CUTS HIM OFF AGAIN BY KICKING OUT THE ROPES! Ospreay is left hung up on the top, Okada turning him over for a DRAPING NECKBREAKER OFF THE TOP! ONE! TWO! THR-KICKOUT! It’s been virtually all Okada thus far, and he continues to methodically wear Ospreay down with a targeted offensive on the neck of the AEW World Champion. Whenever Ospreay tries to get some momentum going, Okada’s able to reverse it, the style Ospreay honed in New Japan having paid dividends against plenty of other AEW talents, but not the man who defined the style for over a decade. Soon enough, Okada looks for the Rainmaker again, and Ospreay finds his opening by reversing it into a SPANISH FLY! ONE! TWO! KICKOUT! Ospreay looks like a bullet fired from a gun the second Okada’s constant pressure is taken off his shoulders, the champion bolting out to the apron to connect with a PIP PIP CHEERIO, NAILING IT BEFORE OKADA HAS TIME TO REALIZE WHAT HIT HIM! Okada tries to evacuate out the other side of the ring, but Ospreay’s having none of it, grabbing him by the trunks and pulling him back in for a SNAP DRAGON SUPLEX! ONE! TWO! TH-NOOO! Okada sits back up just in time for Ospreay to strike him with a standing round kick to the ear, filling the Rainmaker’s head with cobwebs before flattening him to the canvas with a superkick, finishing the sequence with a RUNNING SHOOTING STAR PRESS! ONE! TWO! THR-ANOTHER KICKOUT, BUT OSPREAY’S FINALLY GOTTEN CONTROL AWAY FROM THE CHALLENGER! With the Chicago crowd rallying behind him, Ospreay struggles to get to his feet, the twenty straight minutes of punishment taking a heavy toll on the champion. However, he’s certainly up before the stunned Okada, with the challenger still attempting to get his wits about him when Ospreay charges with a ROBINSON SPECIAL, STRAIGHT TO THE BASE OF THE SKULL! Okada gets to his feet on instinct alone, the Assassin positioning himself behind his prey and circling him before running the ropes for an OSCUTTER! ONE! TWO! THR-NOOO! Ospreay unleashes some Kawada Kicks on the challenger, letting out his aggression before lighting him up with a flurry of chops, Okada attempting to stand on business and throw some of his own, only for Ospreay to obliterate him with a superkick. Okada is left leaning on the ropes, Ospreay beckoning him towards the centre of the ring before attempting a SHOTGUN DROPKICK, SENDING HIM STRAIGHT THROUGH TO THE APRON! With Okada prone, Ospreay looks for the OSCUTTER ON THE APRON, BUT OKADA CATCHES HIM IN A STRAITJACKET! He attempts a Straitjacket German Suplex on the apron, Ospreay avoiding catastrophe with a back headbutt to the bridge of the nose, followed by a stiff back elbow to send Okada tumbling to the floor. Ospreay vaults over the ropes to break the count, finding himself in the perfect spot for an old favourite as Okada gets to his feet at the base of the ramp. Measuring his man, Ospreay leaps into motion with a SASUKE SPECIAL, BUT OKADA CATCHES HIM! WHAT STRENGTH FROM THE RAINMAKER, AND NOW… OH MY GOD, A TOMBSTONE PILEDRIVER ON THE FLOOR! Okada’s confidence is peaking, the Tombstone on the floor having been a hallmark of so many of his defining victories and none of his defeats. Knowing this, he rolls Ospreay straight back into the ring, the work on the neck having paid dividends as he immediately secures wrist control, hoisting Ospreay up into position for a RAIIIINMAKERRRRRR! HE GOT ALL OF IT! ONE! TWO! THRE-OSPREAY SOMEHOW LIFTS THE SHOULDER UP! Frustrated, Okada hurls Ospreay’s lifeless corpse into the corner and simply starts stomping a mudhole in his face, grinding his boot into the champion’s features before the referee pulls him away. Okada bickers with the ref as the Bucks sneak up on each side of Ospreay, Will instinctively grabbing a hold of Matthew, who scrambles backwards. However, Will stays latched onto him, forming a fist around Matthew’s tie and being pulled through the ropes… ONLY FOR NICHOLAS TO SUPERKICK OSPREAY STRAIGHT INTO THE RING POST, SPARING HIS OLDER BROTHER! Blood begins to spill from the side of Ospreay’s head, dripping onto the ring post and ring skirt as it becomes clear he hit his head damn hard against the steel. Okada pushes past the referee and continues to beat Ospreay down, relishing each moment of offence as he sends the champion packing to the outside with a petulant boot to the side of the head. He rolls out to the floor, the Bucks handing him a bottle of water to cool himself off with after such a brutal match, and now Okada gets to admire the Elite’s handiwork as crimson teardrops start dotting ringside, a bloody mask obscuring Ospreay’s face. Okada keeps beating ass, commentary noting that this is now the longest we’ve seen these two duke it out for, nearly 40 minutes having elapsed. Excalibur notes Ospreay seems harder than ever to put down, but Okada’s showing the same sort of dominance he has in the past, with Schiavone sounding worried that it might just be a matter of time. Looking to finally put an end to things, Okada starts raining closed fists on Ospreay’s head wound, hurling him into the timekeeper’s table. Eventually, he lays Ospreay out on it, clambering up with him before flipping off the camera and calling for another Tombstone. He flips Ospreay around… but Ospreay drops to the floor behind him, sweeping out Okada’s legs before nailing a CHEEKY NANDO’S AGAINST THE GUARDRAIL, LEAVING OKADA SPLAYED OUT ON THE TABLE! Ospreay scrambles towards the ring post, blood pouring down onto his chest as he makes the long climb up the turnbuckles for a FROG SPLASH THROUGH THE TABLE, AND THROUGH OKADA! The count was broken by him hitting the top rope, sparing both men the risk of being counted out as they lie their motionless. Chicago wills them to their feet, Ospreay sending Okada back into the ring before using the surge of energy and momentum to get the challenger up for a STORMBREAKER! HE GOT HIM! OSPREAY’S GONNA DO IT! Ospreay leaps atop Okada, grabbing the leg and leaning back into a deep cover, putting all his weight across the challenger’s shoulders… ONE! TWO! THRE-OKADA’S FOOT IS HOVERING OVER THE BOTTOM ROPE, OSPREAY TOO ENTHUSIASTIC WITH HIS PIN! The Bucks look like they’re about to have panic attacks as an exasperated, mentally battered Ospreay fights back tears, a fraction of an inch away from redemption. However, he knows he’s got control, so all he has to do is take this one home. Both men are in deep waters now, and with both being renowned for their gas tanks, it’s clearly come down to a war of attrition, both men knowing that it’ll all come down to landing the one big move that’ll keep one of them down. They’ve both sustained plenty of damage, but as Ospreay staggers over to the downed Okada, he gets this look in his eyes - the look of a man who has the chance to do the funniest thing ever against a man he resents oh so much. Ospreay grabs Okada’s wrist, the crowd letting out an “oooh” as it becomes clear he’s going for his own parody of the Rainmaker, traditionally a ripcord Spanish Fly. Okada is on dream street as Ospreay positions him, pulling the wrist to whip Okada around… but the Rainmaker is still wise to Ospreay’s moveset, keeping an arm near his side to stop Ospreay from latching on for a Spanish Fly. However, he wasn’t wise enough, Ospreay digging into Kenny Omega’s toolkit with a RAIN TRIGGER, BLINDSIDING OKADA WITH A HUGE HIT HE DIDN’T SEE COMING! Okada falls into the ropes, trying to keep himself upright by keeping a firm grip on the top rope, only to be uprooted by a POISON RANA, OSPREAY SPIKING THE CHALLENGER RIGHT ON HIS HEAD! He stumbles to the corner, Okada looking to find his footing as he gets to his knees… AND EATS A HIDDEN BLADE STRAIGHT TO THE FACE, OSPREAY MOWING STRAIGHT THROUGH HIS CHALLENGER! ONE! TWO! THRE-OKADA GETS THE SHOULDER UP, AND THE GRUELLING BOUT CONTINUES! Justin Roberts is starting to sound pretty nervous as he makes the 50 minute time call, informing both competitors that there’s only ten minutes left in their longest bout against one another to date. Ospreay crawls towards the ropes, driven by pure determination as he peels off his elbow pad, winding up for the Hidden Blade of a lifetime as Okada slowly starts to stir. Both men have taken each other’s biggest shots, but Okada’s in the champion’s sights now, Ospreay waiting until he’s in the perfect position before CHARGING AT FULL TILT INTO A DROPKICK FROM OKADA! Somehow, Okada’s still got pristine form this late into the match, but there’s no time to linger on his magnificence as he rises to his feet, dazed and confused, in desperate need of a dagger against Ospreay. He leans over to hook Ospreay’s wrist, calling for a second Rainmaker, and now he ripcords him in, ONLY FOR OSPREAY TO BLAST HIM WITH A HIDDEN BLADE TO THE FACE ONCE AGAIN ON THE REBOUND! Okada somehow keeps hold of Ospreay’s wrist, tumbling into the ropes and dragging the champion with him, gritting his teeth and letting out a primal roar before CLOBBERING OSPREAY WITH A SHORT ARM LARIAT, BRINGING THEM BOTH DOWN TO THE MAT! Ospreay gets the slightly better landing tactically, turned completely inside out and managing to drape an arm over… ONE! TWO! THRE-NOO! Okada’s kickout flips Ospreay onto his back, the Rainmaker now making an exhausted pinfall attempt… ONE! TWO! THRE-KICKOUT! WHAT’S IT GOING TO TAKE FOR ONE OF THESE MEN TO STAY DOWN? Puddles of Ospreay’s blood stain the canvas as both men lie there, the unimaginable exhaustion washing over both of them as they fight to be the first man to a vertical base. Commentary discusses the importance of securing the upper hand at this moment, and somehow, it’s Ospreay who’s up first, although only by a matter of seconds. Okada decks him with a forearm, the Rainmaker doubled over trying to catch his breath, but Ospreay clocks him with one of his own, followed by a ROLLING ELBOW TO DROP OKADA TO A KNEE! Ospreay ponders a moment, considering going for a Storm Driver 93, and as Justin Roberts says there’s five minutes remaining, he goes for it. He hooks Okada’s arms in a butterfly, muscling him up off his feet… but Okada drops down to his knees, Ospreay too exhausted to lift 250 pounds into position if that 250 pounds is still fighting back. The champion knees Okada in the face before going for it again, but this time, Okada shifts his weight back and SWINGS OSPREAY OVER HIS OWN SHOULDER FOR AN AIR RAID CRASH NECKBREAKER! Ospreay goes down like a sack of potatoes, clutching the back of his neck in pure agony, unable to function properly as Okada scrapes him off the canvas and positions him for an EMPHATIC COBRA FLOWSION, DRIVING OSPREAY’S NECK INTO THE MAT ONCE AGAIN WITH A RESOUNDING THUD! The challenger rises to his feet behind his foe… AND SPREADS HIS ARMS, THE CAMERA ZOOMING OUT TO ENCOMPASS THE CHICAGO CROWD! OKADA HITS THE RAINMAKER POSE, AND HE’S READY TO STUNT ON OSPREAY ONCE MORE! Ospreay’s in the perfect position for the Rainmaker, only a few minutes left on the clock, but both men’s movements have become lethargic and feeble after all they’ve been through. Matthew and Nicholas pound the mat to encourage Okada as he painstakingly leans over to latch on to Ospreay’s wrist, the champion fighting as best he can with a few back elbows, all of which miss the mark. Okada drives a forearm into the back of Ospreay’s neck, dropping him to his knees again before finally heaving him up for the Rainmaker, winding up… AND WHIZZING RIGHT BY OSPREAY, WHO COLLAPSES FROM EXHAUSTION! Okada falls in a heap behind him, but he’s still in better shape than Ospreay with moments remaining. With the last of his adrenaline, Okada scrambles up and picks Ospreay up once more, positioning him for a Rainmaker… BUT OSPREAY DUCKS, THIS TIME BREAKING INTO A SPRINT TO GET OUT OF THE WRISTLOCK! HE BOUNCES OFF THE ROPES, OKADA TOO TIRED TO SPIN AROUND IN TIME, AND NOW OSPREAY NAILS AN UNPROTECTED HIDDEN BLADE TO THE BACK OF THE HEAD! He’s got to roll him over, the seconds counting down as Ospreay simply digs his shoulder into the Rainmaker’s arm to slowly turn him onto his back, struggling to hook the leg… ONE! TWO! THRE-KICKOUT! OKADA GOT THE SHOULDER UP! Ospreay can’t believe it, fighting to get his feet under him, frantically attempting to hook Okada’s arms to get him into position for a Storm… ding ding ding. Will Ospreay and Kazuchika Okada fought to a draw (60:00), for Ospreay to retain the AEW World Title Road to WrestleDream With Ospreay having been unable to put away the Rainmaker within an hour, it’s pretty clear that a rematch has to be on the horizon, but the question is where. Both Grand Slam and WrestleDream are coming up, and on Dynamite, Okada lays down the gauntlet for the PPV, saying that he intends to win the AEW Title at a show paying tribute to one of his idols in Antonio Inoki. However, Ospreay’s not off the hook until October just yet - Grand Slam still stands in the way, and a battle between two of his fantastic previous opponents is set to determine his challenger for the event. Those opponents? Swerve Strickland and MJF. In the end, MJF manages to pull out the win, securing a title challenge right next door to his home at Grand Slam. Ospreay walks in insecure, just as he did in the Owen Finals, but this time with good reason - his first title defence was hardly a successful one, and he might not even have the chance to make up for it if he doesn’t manage to put away the longest-reigning AEW World Champion ever, in their home state. The pressure’s on for the Assassin, and with challengers hounding him, all he can do is try and build momentum with wins week over week. He doesn’t bother trying to match MJF on the stick, the next challenger eviscerating the champion with promo after promo until the go-home show, where a fed up Ospreay simply snipes him with a Hidden Blade to cut him off. Grabbing the microphone, Will promises to prove the title belongs around his waist, telling MJF that he wants the same Max who dominated the AEW main event scene for over a year. (Cont'd in Comments) |
2024.05.29 03:41 One_Bank9524 disappointed in a ktuber I used to look up to
(Yes I am using a throwaway acct bc I don't want people to harass me on my main lmao.)
So basically, there's this one ktuber I used to look up to a lot: vixxo. I loved her videos, and would follow her on twt, always stay tuned for her lives, etc. but recently (well for the past year) she's done a lot of things that hadn't sit right with me and I'm really disappointed bc I used to look up to her so much. I don't really know how to deal w all this. I already unfollowed her and blocked her on all platforms but since I used to be so obsessed w her content it's rlly hard not to check back in sometimes, and what I noticed is everyone constantly kisses her ass and acts like "the only reason people hate you is because they can't handle critical opinions about their faves" and it feels very invalidating.
Here's a list of things she's done I dislike. Honestly I know some of these things aren't that bad but I just wanted to talk about everything that made me stop liking her. - she just has a very self centered attitude in general. she’s very smug and seems to think she can never be wrong. whenever someone has a positive opinion on a song she dislikes, she implies that they’re forcing themselves to like it. - one example of this: once some guy named berts bayou said that get up (nwjns) was the only kpop ep he liked. then there was a hit tweet quoting him saying “the reason why it’s the only ep you can listen through is bc it’s 12 minutes and your attention span is too low for anything else” or something like that. vixxo replied to that qrt calling it “fucking hilarious” and i just find it so ironic bc she constantly whines about how people don’t respect her opinions, but she can’t respect others. - her account is just a constant cesspool of negativity and it gets rlly tiring after a while. she’s always complaining about how music has gone downhill, there’s no real vocalists in kpop anymore, etc. and yeah ig she can post what she wants but it’s just tiring like girl nobody is forcing you to consume newer kpop. (again it’s ironic bc whenever someone rightfully complains about a hate train their fav group is going thru she’s like “idc i have no sympathy ur responsible for what u consume” ok then that means it’s ur choice to consume newer kpop and u don’t need to shit on it every 2 seconds. also again she has complained about hate trains HER faves went through so it just feels hypocritical) - she has some kinda weird views? like she said it’s “definitely not” okay for a 17 yo and an 18 yo to date each other even if they’re both in high school. like girl be so fr 😭😭 - she talked shit about a bunch of other ktubers when she was 19 and the other ktubers were like 13. like im sorry that’s pathetic behavior 😭 how you an adult and bullying people who just became teenagers like. she was also extremely xenophobic towards them, mocking the way they phrased things and how their voices sounded when english wasn’t even their first language. tbf she did apologize, but she also deflects and victimizes herself every time it’s brought up instead of just admitting she did wrong and people have a right to not want to support her after what she did, especially if they’ve had to deal w xenophobia in their personal lives. she also stays friends with someone who also participated in talking shit about those ktubers and even blocked the victims, AND i saw her initial responses to the victims and they were gaslighty af. “let’s just all do the mature thing and move on” girl what do you mean “let’s” when you were the one who started it and who do you think you are telling literal children they’re being immature for rightfully feeling betrayed. - she cannot ever admit she is/was wrong. one example is the garam situation. basically she wasn’t on garams side (which i think is understandable at first bc it did seem like the evidence was against her) but she also acted like she was a terrible, irredeemable person (ironic asf bc like i said it’s not like vixxo has never bullied anyone before) and referred to her supporters as “followers who cannot construct an original thought”. then when it came out that garam was the victim and was just defending her friend from sexual harassment, vixxo never apologized even though she said she would if garam was proved innocent. when someone brought it up she was like “im not gonna apologize for supporting the victim lol check yourself?” like no you need to apologize for hating on an innocent minor eventually causing her to lose her career, and defending a sexual predator. - she also constantly complained about how garam stans brought her up to praise her after she left lsf, but meanwhile she brought her up even after she left the group to HATE ON HER. she stated that she had “sinister energy” (very weird to say about a minor ESPECIALLY when you’re an adult) and made a tweet about “i cant believe hybe made garam the center when chaewon was in the group”. this was all after garam left the group btw, it’s giving obsessed. if you’re going to drag an innocent girl even after she stopped being an idol, don’t get mad when people support her after she left lesserafim. - when moonbin and sua performed my ear candy together, she commented about how it was “weird” and “creepy” for siblings to perform that song together. then after 4/19/23, she rted a tweet talking about how the performance was so cute. like girl maybe apologize and hold yourself accountable instead of being fake? - she claims to be a “girls girl” but has done many things proving the opposite. for example when illits final lineup was announced, she liked and rted a tweet calling them “r u rigged” and “I’ll-flop”. she also once said something like “no 16 year old except boa and britney has ever slayed hard enough to be called mother” like why are you putting down 16 year old girls if you’re a girls girl? also it’s just pathetic bc she was like 21 when she said that - she supported addison rae (a tiktok influencesinger with a long history of antiblack racism) even after KNOWING about her actions. and i don’t just mean listening to her music, i mean actively supporting, calling her mothecunty, responding “teehee <333” to a comment that said “laurve you being a low key addison rae stan”, and rting her new years eve post. she eventually unstanned her (for a very good reason, idk if im allowed to say why tho) but it just hurts that she didn’t think antiblackness was a big enough dealbreaker. (she’s white btw lmao) - she went along w the nwjns eta conspiracy theory despite the fact that it’s literally based on right wing propaganda?? also it’s just really stupid in general so idk how vixxo sees herself as some great critical thinker when she goes along w whatever people say just to hate on a group. even though this narrative literally feeds into the oppression of basque people, she doesn’t care - once some guy posted about margot robbie in i, tonya and said something like “i always find it so amazing how actors basically have to become just as good as the profession they’re playing” and vixxo responded very rudely like “open up the schools… you don’t know what a stunt double is?” like no girl, not everyone is as smart and educated on film as you are 😱😱 you could’ve just explained instead of being unnecessarily rude. someone pointed out in her retrospring that it wasn’t that serious for her to be rude and she, again, responded rudely, saying something like “he’s literally spreading misinformation” acting like he had some malicious intent. and idk i could be overthinking but the whole incident felt very racially motivated imo (the guy who made the original post was black, vixxo like i said is white). idk it just feels like a white person who doesn’t see black people as worthy of respect so when a black guy gets something wrong, her immediate response is to be hostile and act like he has bad intentions / is purposefully trying to spread misinformation rather than correcting him in a respectful way. like i said i could be overthinking but the way she treated him definitely felt at least slightly racist. she probably didn’t intend to but that’s how it came off - she made a video about problems in ktube where she talked about nonblack people using aave. during it, she provided a list of commonly used aave terms and said something like “ive used these terms before im sorry and ill never use them again” which would be fine… except for the fact that she used some of those terms again (ex. slay) AFTER making that video. tbh im so used to nonblacks using (or misusing) aave so im not even mad at her for that, im more mad at the fact that she KNEW it was wrong and did it anyway. just feels v performative - she constantly encourages her viewers to have a parasocial relationship with her (which is weird bc she’s not a celebrity) by referring to them unironically as vixxonators, responding stuff like “teehee i love this <33” whenever someone admits to having a parasocial relationship with her, etc. but whenever someone criticizes her she pulls the “some of you guys expect too much from me im not media trained nor do i wish to become a celebrity” card. like you can’t encourage people to have a parasocial relationship with you but then complain about it ad soon as you’re criticized for your actions. also you don’t have to have a parasocial relationship with someone to criticize them - I think there’s a few more things but ive already written a lot so that’s all for now
So yeah. Like I said idrk how to deal w these feelings. It almost feels like she betrayed me, and I know this is a dumb/delusional view to have, but it just sucks bc I used to look up to her sm. Feel free to comment advice, tell me what you think of her actions , validate me, invalidate me, etc.
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So basically, there's this one ktuber I used to look up to a lot: vixxo. I loved her videos, and would follow her on twt, always stay tuned for her lives, etc. but recently (well for the past year) she's done a lot of things that hadn't sit right with me and I'm really disappointed bc I used to look up to her so much. I don't really know how to deal w all this. I already unfollowed her and blocked her on all platforms but since I used to be so obsessed w her content it's rlly hard not to check back in sometimes, and what I noticed is everyone constantly kisses her ass and acts like "the only reason people hate you is because they can't handle critical opinions about their faves" and it feels very invalidating.
Here's a list of things she's done I dislike. Honestly I know some of these things aren't that bad but I just wanted to talk about everything that made me stop liking her. - she just has a very self centered attitude in general. she’s very smug and seems to think she can never be wrong. whenever someone has a positive opinion on a song she dislikes, she implies that they’re forcing themselves to like it. - one example of this: once some guy named berts bayou said that get up (nwjns) was the only kpop ep he liked. then there was a hit tweet quoting him saying “the reason why it’s the only ep you can listen through is bc it’s 12 minutes and your attention span is too low for anything else” or something like that. vixxo replied to that qrt calling it “fucking hilarious” and i just find it so ironic bc she constantly whines about how people don’t respect her opinions, but she can’t respect others. - her account is just a constant cesspool of negativity and it gets rlly tiring after a while. she’s always complaining about how music has gone downhill, there’s no real vocalists in kpop anymore, etc. and yeah ig she can post what she wants but it’s just tiring like girl nobody is forcing you to consume newer kpop. (again it’s ironic bc whenever someone rightfully complains about a hate train their fav group is going thru she’s like “idc i have no sympathy ur responsible for what u consume” ok then that means it’s ur choice to consume newer kpop and u don’t need to shit on it every 2 seconds. also again she has complained about hate trains HER faves went through so it just feels hypocritical) - she has some kinda weird views? like she said it’s “definitely not” okay for a 17 yo and an 18 yo to date each other even if they’re both in high school. like girl be so fr 😭😭 - she talked shit about a bunch of other ktubers when she was 19 and the other ktubers were like 13. like im sorry that’s pathetic behavior 😭 how you an adult and bullying people who just became teenagers like. she was also extremely xenophobic towards them, mocking the way they phrased things and how their voices sounded when english wasn’t even their first language. tbf she did apologize, but she also deflects and victimizes herself every time it’s brought up instead of just admitting she did wrong and people have a right to not want to support her after what she did, especially if they’ve had to deal w xenophobia in their personal lives. she also stays friends with someone who also participated in talking shit about those ktubers and even blocked the victims, AND i saw her initial responses to the victims and they were gaslighty af. “let’s just all do the mature thing and move on” girl what do you mean “let’s” when you were the one who started it and who do you think you are telling literal children they’re being immature for rightfully feeling betrayed. - she cannot ever admit she is/was wrong. one example is the garam situation. basically she wasn’t on garams side (which i think is understandable at first bc it did seem like the evidence was against her) but she also acted like she was a terrible, irredeemable person (ironic asf bc like i said it’s not like vixxo has never bullied anyone before) and referred to her supporters as “followers who cannot construct an original thought”. then when it came out that garam was the victim and was just defending her friend from sexual harassment, vixxo never apologized even though she said she would if garam was proved innocent. when someone brought it up she was like “im not gonna apologize for supporting the victim lol check yourself?” like no you need to apologize for hating on an innocent minor eventually causing her to lose her career, and defending a sexual predator. - she also constantly complained about how garam stans brought her up to praise her after she left lsf, but meanwhile she brought her up even after she left the group to HATE ON HER. she stated that she had “sinister energy” (very weird to say about a minor ESPECIALLY when you’re an adult) and made a tweet about “i cant believe hybe made garam the center when chaewon was in the group”. this was all after garam left the group btw, it’s giving obsessed. if you’re going to drag an innocent girl even after she stopped being an idol, don’t get mad when people support her after she left lesserafim. - when moonbin and sua performed my ear candy together, she commented about how it was “weird” and “creepy” for siblings to perform that song together. then after 4/19/23, she rted a tweet talking about how the performance was so cute. like girl maybe apologize and hold yourself accountable instead of being fake? - she claims to be a “girls girl” but has done many things proving the opposite. for example when illits final lineup was announced, she liked and rted a tweet calling them “r u rigged” and “I’ll-flop”. she also once said something like “no 16 year old except boa and britney has ever slayed hard enough to be called mother” like why are you putting down 16 year old girls if you’re a girls girl? also it’s just pathetic bc she was like 21 when she said that - she supported addison rae (a tiktok influencesinger with a long history of antiblack racism) even after KNOWING about her actions. and i don’t just mean listening to her music, i mean actively supporting, calling her mothecunty, responding “teehee <333” to a comment that said “laurve you being a low key addison rae stan”, and rting her new years eve post. she eventually unstanned her (for a very good reason, idk if im allowed to say why tho) but it just hurts that she didn’t think antiblackness was a big enough dealbreaker. (she’s white btw lmao) - she went along w the nwjns eta conspiracy theory despite the fact that it’s literally based on right wing propaganda?? also it’s just really stupid in general so idk how vixxo sees herself as some great critical thinker when she goes along w whatever people say just to hate on a group. even though this narrative literally feeds into the oppression of basque people, she doesn’t care - once some guy posted about margot robbie in i, tonya and said something like “i always find it so amazing how actors basically have to become just as good as the profession they’re playing” and vixxo responded very rudely like “open up the schools… you don’t know what a stunt double is?” like no girl, not everyone is as smart and educated on film as you are 😱😱 you could’ve just explained instead of being unnecessarily rude. someone pointed out in her retrospring that it wasn’t that serious for her to be rude and she, again, responded rudely, saying something like “he’s literally spreading misinformation” acting like he had some malicious intent. and idk i could be overthinking but the whole incident felt very racially motivated imo (the guy who made the original post was black, vixxo like i said is white). idk it just feels like a white person who doesn’t see black people as worthy of respect so when a black guy gets something wrong, her immediate response is to be hostile and act like he has bad intentions / is purposefully trying to spread misinformation rather than correcting him in a respectful way. like i said i could be overthinking but the way she treated him definitely felt at least slightly racist. she probably didn’t intend to but that’s how it came off - she made a video about problems in ktube where she talked about nonblack people using aave. during it, she provided a list of commonly used aave terms and said something like “ive used these terms before im sorry and ill never use them again” which would be fine… except for the fact that she used some of those terms again (ex. slay) AFTER making that video. tbh im so used to nonblacks using (or misusing) aave so im not even mad at her for that, im more mad at the fact that she KNEW it was wrong and did it anyway. just feels v performative - she constantly encourages her viewers to have a parasocial relationship with her (which is weird bc she’s not a celebrity) by referring to them unironically as vixxonators, responding stuff like “teehee i love this <33” whenever someone admits to having a parasocial relationship with her, etc. but whenever someone criticizes her she pulls the “some of you guys expect too much from me im not media trained nor do i wish to become a celebrity” card. like you can’t encourage people to have a parasocial relationship with you but then complain about it ad soon as you’re criticized for your actions. also you don’t have to have a parasocial relationship with someone to criticize them - I think there’s a few more things but ive already written a lot so that’s all for now
So yeah. Like I said idrk how to deal w these feelings. It almost feels like she betrayed me, and I know this is a dumb/delusional view to have, but it just sucks bc I used to look up to her sm. Feel free to comment advice, tell me what you think of her actions , validate me, invalidate me, etc.
2024.05.29 00:35 SilverFidoughShield A Game mode where it combines the current season’s cars and the Fast Food Floor is Lava Turf War (whichever is the real name)
I really enjoyed this game mode where there was this turf war you have to protect your team’s idol from the enemies, the defenses to build, the insane uncertainty. Sadly it’s removed for as long as I can remember. With the new hot topic of cars being OP or whatever, it gave me an idea if a similar turf war game came back and with the cars providing serious offense or defense for the idol, without the floor is lava yes.
or maybe we can have the 50/50 team mode with the cars, I don’t know. I feel like the cars would be perfect for a large team battle without worrying about the storm.
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or maybe we can have the 50/50 team mode with the cars, I don’t know. I feel like the cars would be perfect for a large team battle without worrying about the storm.
2024.05.28 15:01 williedills My Journey as a NOFX die hard fan to being Mike's bud
I was 13 and taking a photography class at Academy of Art College in SF. At the time I was really into Nirvana and Pearl Jam and the music my mom liked growing up. The class was mixed between high school kids and college kids looking for summer credits and I was the youngest of the whole bunch. One guy I really looked up to said to me "Hey, listen to this new record I just bought" and put headphones on me and pressed play. The album was Punk in Drublic and the song was Linoleum. It changed everything.
I was already a bass player at the time but my first band was trying to sound like all of our grunge idols.
https://youtu.be/oWdLy9jt7HQ?si=UihItqTLY2ltX1CT
(I'm the guy in the middle with long blond hair)
That band broke up and I joined my first "real" band soon after and the vibes had changed. We wanted to be fast and loud and punk. During that period I saw NOFX live probably 100 times. My Walkman was always playing my homemade tapes with NOFX on one side, Op Ivy on the other and probably Green Day in there as well. I learned every song, knew every lyric and slam danced my heart out every time I saw them. I got to see NOFX at the Fillmore, Bottom of the Hill, Slims, Gilman, Warp Tour, and even at little ass clubs like Thee Parkside. NOFX was on the stereo at all of our high school parties and Fat Mike was a mythical figure in my mind.
Then my band broke up again and my best friend and drummer were looking for a new project. My friend Chuck Worthy reached out and said a band called The Flipsides needed bass and drums so we texted Sabrina the lead singer and set up an audition. We put the record on for about 20 minutes before she showed up at our practice studio and learned the first few tracks. She walked in and asked us if we knew any of the songs, we said, yeah, totally. Colin (Drummer) counted in and we absolutely nailed the entire first couple songs in a row. Sabrina stopped and said, "So we have a tour opening for the Groovie Ghoulies and I want you guys." Turned out The Flipsides was signed to Pink and Black which is a subsidiary of Fat. So that's how I first met Fat Mike.
https://open.spotify.com/artist/3bq86Iduw6WaLwyzl7x1LH?si=xcg9EjS0QTKASa5wXLRbVg
I don't think Mike really remembered me from that first meeting. I was just the new bass player for The Flipsides but we toured the record and he was aware of us. He even came to see us a few times. Side note, some of the bass on that record was done by Mike Dirnt and we had some heat behind us. It was a fucking great time on the road. The Ghoulies are the best and I loved that entire experience but when we got back Colin wanted out. He didn't feel satisfied with the songs and he was my guy so I told Sabrina I was out too. I still wonder what would have been if we had stayed with that lineup because we were solid on stage and killed it at every show. On to the next though, Colin and I joined a band with a couple of Irish lads from Sligo and started The Hooks. That band carried me through the next decade or so and they are still playing today.
https://open.spotify.com/artist/109KB5ZUUV6WKugjxSb5Xi?si=66yJY6A0RFaTAGW4v4EU3w
Here's where it gets weird. Some how during all of this I got really into golf and started a worldwide golf league called the Mediocre Golf Association with my also best friend Jon Morley. It began as just a few friends playing golf together and now we have over 100 chapters around the world and almost 8000 members. Each year we hold a World Championship in Las Vegas that's attended by around 600 people at this point. Anyway, that other best friend Colin, my drummer, married Michelle who is a lockneck girl (some of you may know) in Mexico and Fat Mike was at the wedding. While we were body surfing on the beach one day I realized that I was just chilling next to Mike and everyone else had gone back to shore. I had heard somewhere that he was a golfer so I shot my shot and I asked if he wanted to golf while we were in Mexico and he absolutely lit up when I asked. He told me to meet him the next morning at 7am for breakfast and we would taxi to some course near by. I told my now ex-wife and she seemed not that interested but I couldn't fucking sleep. I popped out of bed ready to hang out with Fat Mike and golf in Mexico and it was everything I could have asked for and more.
https://www.mgatour.com/
We ate pretty quickly, had some semi-awkward conversation which I have no memory of and hopped in a Mexican taxi to the course. The course was nice. Like, really fucking nice but of course I had no clubs, no balls, no nothing. We rented a bunch of shit and each paid for ourselves (this will come up later). All told I think I spent almost 700 bucks which was a lot for me but nothing was gonna stop me from having this day. The round was amazing. I told Mike all about this thing I had started called the MGA, and he was into it! We talked about punk bands we liked, why bass is definitely the best instrument, we both sucked at golf, the course was immaculate, and we bonded. He became Mike my homey and not Fat Mike from NOFX. He's just a cool dude who is really fun to hang out with. The rest of the Mexico trip he was my buddy Mike...who also knew every other famous person there and kept introducing me and lives a totally different and probably cooler life than most people.
Cut to, I'm back home. Mike tells Kent (the NOFX manager) about the MGA. Kent loves it even more than Mike. Kent becomes a true friend and an MGA champion. We all start golfing all the time and through them I meet a bunch of people I now fully consider lifelong friends. They both come to Vegas for our World Championship. Mike, myself and Jon Morley the co-founder of the MGA do a cover for Golf Magazine which blows up the MGA even more. We're now just straight up golf buddies but Fat Mike is still Fat Mike who I grew up idolizing but he's become a normal buddy who just has a cool job in a way. I love that man. He sucks at golf and so do I but after he sucks at golf he writes hit records! He's great at being Fat Mike but he's also great at being a friend and now that they're doing the last tour I just feel like people should know this story.
Mike is famous as fuck in my world. I know in the big world that's not SF punk kids he's not a household name but for me, meeting him the first time was like meeting Michael Jackson, with less molesting. Some molesting, consensually if you're part of the scene, but less molesting. He's gone out of his way for me. He told me much later he wanted to pay for that first round of golf we played in Mexico but he didn't know me well enough yet. The important part there is he thought about that enough to tell me later. He held onto it like I do with so many things. When you hang with him and he does know you he pays for dinner, golf rounds, etc. but not do act cool, because he has money now and he wants to just use it to do fun things with his friends. It's so selfless and he's treats it like a lot of people say they would if they ever got money but then don't. He does. He's just a good dude. Again, terrible at golf but a good dude.
https://www.mgatour.com/lamestream-media
I've heard that you shouldn't meet your heroes. Who said that? Whoever they were their heroes were dicks but luckily my hero was Fat Mike and I'm so glad I met him. If I told this story to a 13 year old me he'd probably say, "I ain't reading all that. I'm happy for u tho. Or sorry that happened."
If you did read all this thank you for listening.
Bonus extra story - at the MGA World Championship in Vegas Mike took a shit next to a tee box, put a tee in it just so everyone would probably see it and no one was mad at him. I guess that's the one rock star thing he does sometimes is do something outrageous just to see? If I did that people would not be okay with it.
Bonus Bonus extra story - once after a round of golf Mike was driving me home and had to pick up his daughter at school. She was probably 5 or 6 at the time. He took me into the school, into the classroom, and every kid was so excited to see him but so confused as to who I was. Mike seemed un-phased. That's my guy.
edit - I reread this and it kinda sucked so I made it tighter. This is who I am.
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I was already a bass player at the time but my first band was trying to sound like all of our grunge idols.
https://youtu.be/oWdLy9jt7HQ?si=UihItqTLY2ltX1CT
(I'm the guy in the middle with long blond hair)
That band broke up and I joined my first "real" band soon after and the vibes had changed. We wanted to be fast and loud and punk. During that period I saw NOFX live probably 100 times. My Walkman was always playing my homemade tapes with NOFX on one side, Op Ivy on the other and probably Green Day in there as well. I learned every song, knew every lyric and slam danced my heart out every time I saw them. I got to see NOFX at the Fillmore, Bottom of the Hill, Slims, Gilman, Warp Tour, and even at little ass clubs like Thee Parkside. NOFX was on the stereo at all of our high school parties and Fat Mike was a mythical figure in my mind.
Then my band broke up again and my best friend and drummer were looking for a new project. My friend Chuck Worthy reached out and said a band called The Flipsides needed bass and drums so we texted Sabrina the lead singer and set up an audition. We put the record on for about 20 minutes before she showed up at our practice studio and learned the first few tracks. She walked in and asked us if we knew any of the songs, we said, yeah, totally. Colin (Drummer) counted in and we absolutely nailed the entire first couple songs in a row. Sabrina stopped and said, "So we have a tour opening for the Groovie Ghoulies and I want you guys." Turned out The Flipsides was signed to Pink and Black which is a subsidiary of Fat. So that's how I first met Fat Mike.
https://open.spotify.com/artist/3bq86Iduw6WaLwyzl7x1LH?si=xcg9EjS0QTKASa5wXLRbVg
I don't think Mike really remembered me from that first meeting. I was just the new bass player for The Flipsides but we toured the record and he was aware of us. He even came to see us a few times. Side note, some of the bass on that record was done by Mike Dirnt and we had some heat behind us. It was a fucking great time on the road. The Ghoulies are the best and I loved that entire experience but when we got back Colin wanted out. He didn't feel satisfied with the songs and he was my guy so I told Sabrina I was out too. I still wonder what would have been if we had stayed with that lineup because we were solid on stage and killed it at every show. On to the next though, Colin and I joined a band with a couple of Irish lads from Sligo and started The Hooks. That band carried me through the next decade or so and they are still playing today.
https://open.spotify.com/artist/109KB5ZUUV6WKugjxSb5Xi?si=66yJY6A0RFaTAGW4v4EU3w
Here's where it gets weird. Some how during all of this I got really into golf and started a worldwide golf league called the Mediocre Golf Association with my also best friend Jon Morley. It began as just a few friends playing golf together and now we have over 100 chapters around the world and almost 8000 members. Each year we hold a World Championship in Las Vegas that's attended by around 600 people at this point. Anyway, that other best friend Colin, my drummer, married Michelle who is a lockneck girl (some of you may know) in Mexico and Fat Mike was at the wedding. While we were body surfing on the beach one day I realized that I was just chilling next to Mike and everyone else had gone back to shore. I had heard somewhere that he was a golfer so I shot my shot and I asked if he wanted to golf while we were in Mexico and he absolutely lit up when I asked. He told me to meet him the next morning at 7am for breakfast and we would taxi to some course near by. I told my now ex-wife and she seemed not that interested but I couldn't fucking sleep. I popped out of bed ready to hang out with Fat Mike and golf in Mexico and it was everything I could have asked for and more.
https://www.mgatour.com/
We ate pretty quickly, had some semi-awkward conversation which I have no memory of and hopped in a Mexican taxi to the course. The course was nice. Like, really fucking nice but of course I had no clubs, no balls, no nothing. We rented a bunch of shit and each paid for ourselves (this will come up later). All told I think I spent almost 700 bucks which was a lot for me but nothing was gonna stop me from having this day. The round was amazing. I told Mike all about this thing I had started called the MGA, and he was into it! We talked about punk bands we liked, why bass is definitely the best instrument, we both sucked at golf, the course was immaculate, and we bonded. He became Mike my homey and not Fat Mike from NOFX. He's just a cool dude who is really fun to hang out with. The rest of the Mexico trip he was my buddy Mike...who also knew every other famous person there and kept introducing me and lives a totally different and probably cooler life than most people.
Cut to, I'm back home. Mike tells Kent (the NOFX manager) about the MGA. Kent loves it even more than Mike. Kent becomes a true friend and an MGA champion. We all start golfing all the time and through them I meet a bunch of people I now fully consider lifelong friends. They both come to Vegas for our World Championship. Mike, myself and Jon Morley the co-founder of the MGA do a cover for Golf Magazine which blows up the MGA even more. We're now just straight up golf buddies but Fat Mike is still Fat Mike who I grew up idolizing but he's become a normal buddy who just has a cool job in a way. I love that man. He sucks at golf and so do I but after he sucks at golf he writes hit records! He's great at being Fat Mike but he's also great at being a friend and now that they're doing the last tour I just feel like people should know this story.
Mike is famous as fuck in my world. I know in the big world that's not SF punk kids he's not a household name but for me, meeting him the first time was like meeting Michael Jackson, with less molesting. Some molesting, consensually if you're part of the scene, but less molesting. He's gone out of his way for me. He told me much later he wanted to pay for that first round of golf we played in Mexico but he didn't know me well enough yet. The important part there is he thought about that enough to tell me later. He held onto it like I do with so many things. When you hang with him and he does know you he pays for dinner, golf rounds, etc. but not do act cool, because he has money now and he wants to just use it to do fun things with his friends. It's so selfless and he's treats it like a lot of people say they would if they ever got money but then don't. He does. He's just a good dude. Again, terrible at golf but a good dude.
https://www.mgatour.com/lamestream-media
I've heard that you shouldn't meet your heroes. Who said that? Whoever they were their heroes were dicks but luckily my hero was Fat Mike and I'm so glad I met him. If I told this story to a 13 year old me he'd probably say, "I ain't reading all that. I'm happy for u tho. Or sorry that happened."
If you did read all this thank you for listening.
Bonus extra story - at the MGA World Championship in Vegas Mike took a shit next to a tee box, put a tee in it just so everyone would probably see it and no one was mad at him. I guess that's the one rock star thing he does sometimes is do something outrageous just to see? If I did that people would not be okay with it.
Bonus Bonus extra story - once after a round of golf Mike was driving me home and had to pick up his daughter at school. She was probably 5 or 6 at the time. He took me into the school, into the classroom, and every kid was so excited to see him but so confused as to who I was. Mike seemed un-phased. That's my guy.
edit - I reread this and it kinda sucked so I made it tighter. This is who I am.
2024.05.28 14:16 Ishika2337 What To Watch After Queen Of Tears? Here Are 5 K-Dramas To Add To Your Watchlist
TVN’s drama Queen of Tears, starring Kim Soo-hyun and Kim Ji-won as the lead couple, recently ended on a high note. The drama revolves around a married couple Baek Hyun-woo (Soo-hyun), who is the director of the legal department of the conglomerate Queens Group and his wife Hong Hae-in (Ji-won) is the chaebol heiress, who runs Queens Group’s department stores. The husband is tired of his over-ambitious wife and overbearing in-laws and ultimately decides to divorce Hae-in. That’s exactly when he learns that she has just three months to live.While it may seem like just another romantic K-drama in which the lead couple ultimately gets their happy ending, Queen of Tears is much more than that. It’s a story of marital discord, one-sided love, reconciliation, and revenge. The K-drama’s season finale also broke records by reaching a national viewership of 24.85 % in Korea and becoming the highest-rated drama finale in the channel’s history. The K-drama also remained in Netflix’s non-English global top 10 chart for weeks.
While it may seem like just another romantic K-drama in which the lead couple ultimately gets their happy ending, Queen of Tears is much more than that. It’s a story of marital discord, one-sided love, reconciliation, and revenge. The K-drama’s season finale also broke records by reaching a national viewership of 24.85 % in Korea and becoming the highest-rated drama finale in the channel’s history. The K-drama also remained in Netflix’s non-English global top 10 chart for weeks.
The K-drama has created quite a stir amongst the action drama lovers for its gripping storyline as it involves solving crimes without the usage of modern technology, and solely based on the detectives’ innate capabilities, adding an element of suspense to the drama. So far, eight episodes have been aired which are also available on Disney+ for streaming and the series will have a total of 10 episodes.
Meanwhile, Im Sol, played by Hye-yoon, is a die-hard fan of Seon-jae and is left heartbroken when her favorite idol dies. Im Sol then decides to travel back in time to meet her idol when he was young and change their future. The tvN drama can be watched on Viki.
Bok Gwi-joo (Ki-yong) once had the ability to travel back and forth in time and relive his happy memories, but as he loses his powers, he gets depressed. However, the arrival of Do Da-hee (Woo-hee) marks the beginning of a series of changes in the Bok family.
Also Read: Goosebumps
The latter leaves his high paying job and returns to the academy, where he had studied, as an instructor. Hye-jin had earlier helped him get into a prestigious university and when Joon-ho leaves his big shot job, it gives him the chance to get closer to his first love. The Midnight Romance in Hagwon showcases the lives of these two individuals who navigate their emotions and the challenges of their newfound relationship. The tvN drama is available for streaming on Viki or Viu in selected regions for international viewers.
Seo Ki-joo (Joo Won), is a photographer who is the seventh owner of a small photo studio that only serves ghosts. His job is to click pictures of the deceased who come to his store. Han Bom, played by Kwon Nara, is a passionate lawyer who stands firmly for justice and ends up partnering with Ki-joo’s unique photo studio.
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While it may seem like just another romantic K-drama in which the lead couple ultimately gets their happy ending, Queen of Tears is much more than that. It’s a story of marital discord, one-sided love, reconciliation, and revenge. The K-drama’s season finale also broke records by reaching a national viewership of 24.85 % in Korea and becoming the highest-rated drama finale in the channel’s history. The K-drama also remained in Netflix’s non-English global top 10 chart for weeks.
Chief Detective 1958
The ongoing MBC action thriller is set in the era between the 1950s and 1960s. It revolves around four brave and honest detectives played by Lee Jehoon, Lee Dong-hwi, Choi Woo-sung and Yoon Hyun-soo, who join hands in solving some of the most complicated cases under their jurisdiction. Chief Detective 1958 is the prequel series to a popular South Korean detective show titled Chief Inspector.The K-drama has created quite a stir amongst the action drama lovers for its gripping storyline as it involves solving crimes without the usage of modern technology, and solely based on the detectives’ innate capabilities, adding an element of suspense to the drama. So far, eight episodes have been aired which are also available on Disney+ for streaming and the series will have a total of 10 episodes.
Lovely Runner
Byeon Woo-seok and Kim Hye-yoon’s romantic drama has been all over social media for having all the familiar tropes of a classic South Korean drama. While Lovely Runner is a time-travel story, the adorable chemistry between the two leads takes viewers on a captivating journey. The K-drama is adapted from the web novel Tomorrow’s Best and revolves around Woo-seok’s character Ryoo Seon-jae, who despite being a successful K-pop idol, isn’t happy with his life.Meanwhile, Im Sol, played by Hye-yoon, is a die-hard fan of Seon-jae and is left heartbroken when her favorite idol dies. Im Sol then decides to travel back in time to meet her idol when he was young and change their future. The tvN drama can be watched on Viki.
The Atypical family
The Atypical Family revolves around a family whose members once possessed supernatural abilities. However, due to modern-day lifestyle and chronic diseases like insomnia and depression, the family loses their power. The fantasy drama stars Jang Ki-yong, Chun Woo-hee, Ko Du-shim and Claudia Kim in main roles and is available for streaming on Netflix.Bok Gwi-joo (Ki-yong) once had the ability to travel back and forth in time and relive his happy memories, but as he loses his powers, he gets depressed. However, the arrival of Do Da-hee (Woo-hee) marks the beginning of a series of changes in the Bok family.
Also Read: Goosebumps
The Midnight Romance In Hagwon
The Midnight Romance in Hagwon was just released and has already captivated the audience with its unique plot. The most anticipated romantic K-drama stars Wi Ha-joon and Jung Ryeo-won as the protagonists, and has garnered high ratings. The plot revolves around the life of veteran cram school instructor Seo Hye-jin (Ryeo-won) whose life takes a turn when she once again crosses paths with her former star student Lee Joon-ho (Ha-joon).The latter leaves his high paying job and returns to the academy, where he had studied, as an instructor. Hye-jin had earlier helped him get into a prestigious university and when Joon-ho leaves his big shot job, it gives him the chance to get closer to his first love. The Midnight Romance in Hagwon showcases the lives of these two individuals who navigate their emotions and the challenges of their newfound relationship. The tvN drama is available for streaming on Viki or Viu in selected regions for international viewers.
The Midnight Studio
The Midnight Studio is based on a novel by the same name and the life of a photographer. The fantasy romantic drama stars Joo Won, Kwon Nara, Yoo In-soo, and Eum Moon-suk in pivotal roles. The Genie TV drama received praise from the audience for its captivating concept. International viewers can watch it on Viki.Seo Ki-joo (Joo Won), is a photographer who is the seventh owner of a small photo studio that only serves ghosts. His job is to click pictures of the deceased who come to his store. Han Bom, played by Kwon Nara, is a passionate lawyer who stands firmly for justice and ends up partnering with Ki-joo’s unique photo studio.
2024.05.28 06:16 Sbc65 How I Started Drinking
HI, my name is Sam and I’m and alcoholic. I have been doing whatever feels good until it makes me sick for as long as I can remember. Women were my first concern that started to augment my behavior negatively. I would focus my energy on them at the expense of anything else. I remember as a 6 or 7 year old boy sitting on the stoop of my parents home in Durham New Hampshire plucking the pedals off a flower, furious at just having learned my friend Gracie had a crush on my older brother and not me. Once, a boy who would wake early in the morning and find perfect peace and contentment crawling through the bushes in front of his house in search of slugs and worms was now baffled by the words of a girl and unable to consider anything else.
In 4th grade I started using the phone then I was really off to the races. I would call whatever girl I had a crush on or whichever girl would give me her number and just like that my evenings were booked. I liked playing in the park with friends or riding my bike but nothing felt quite as good as the validation I received from a girl. It started with girls and slowly trickled into everything else. Around 4th grade I also got paid to mow a lawn for the first time and the idea I could make money took hold of me as well.
My neighborhood was having a yard sale day and after seeing everyone outside selling their things I was pretty inspired. Being a 4th grader I didn’t have many belongings but I did have fishing gear. I knew my neighbor across the street liked fishing as I did so I went out front with all my fishing gear that I had accumulated from birthdays and christmases. Soon enough my neighbor came over and bought it all. I was so thrilled by the experience that I didn’t consider until weeks later that I had just sold things that I thoroughly enjoyed using. I didn’t care I wanted that feeling I got from getting the cash. I felt like I had power. I have continued this cycle of trading what I truly cared about and found enjoyment in in the pursuit of momentary pleasure for the past 30 years of my life.
The first time I got drunk was on my back patio when my parents were out of town. My older brother and I had invited some friends over. My older brothers friend had brought some beer. This friend of his was a cool kid. He was great at skateboarding, drove a fast car and always had 1 or 2 other friends with him. Girls loved him also and from what I heard usually had 2 or 3 girls who thought they were his girlfriend. I idolized him and was stoked when he offered me beer and weed. I was 16 and had smoked weed a couple times before and snuck a beer from a family function once. That evening I got drunk on milwakee’s best and smoked blunts into the wee hours of the morning. I eventually stumbled into my bedroom where I found my girlfriend’s best friend trying to go to sleep. I tried to make a move on her and was shut down. I woke early the next morning in bed between her and one of my friends. My pants were wet and much to my alarm so were the sheets and blanket. I had pissed myself. I slid out from between them and took the blanket off as delicately as I could in an effort to not wake either of them. I proceeded to swap the blanket out with a fresh one and after changing my shorts went to pass out on the couch. I was mortified. I was not mortified that I had peed on my friends. I was not mortified that I had tried to cheat on my girlfriend who I was crazy about. I was mortified by the idea of other people finding out I had done these things. I was mortified by the idea that I would have to face consequences for my actions. I had no concern for anyone else.
Drinking became a weekend affair for me as I moved through high school. During the week I liked smoking weed in the late evening after all my family had gone to bed. I always had a hard time sleeping and the weed helped. I never really got in trouble or in too much danger either. I would go to college parties with my older brother on the weekend after I got off work from delivering pizzas. If I brought money for us to get beer he would go into the store to get it but then he’d let me walk into the party with the case. This meant the world to me. I felt like a big shot and once I started drinking I became a big shot. My fear of being around older kids would vanish. As the night went on and I drank more I got smoother and smoother. All of a sudden I had just the right thing to say at just the right moment and people thought I was funny. The girls wanted to go outside and smoke cigarettes with me. The older guys wanted me on their team for beer pong. I want to make some grandiose statement about how all my troubles were gone but the only trouble I had was my over active self awareness and that was in full effect. My self-awareness which usually kept me afraid now had me gunning for any chance at a laugh or smile from a girl or my brothers older friends. I was aware of myself and wanted anyone in earshot to be aware of me too. I will continue this…
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In 4th grade I started using the phone then I was really off to the races. I would call whatever girl I had a crush on or whichever girl would give me her number and just like that my evenings were booked. I liked playing in the park with friends or riding my bike but nothing felt quite as good as the validation I received from a girl. It started with girls and slowly trickled into everything else. Around 4th grade I also got paid to mow a lawn for the first time and the idea I could make money took hold of me as well.
My neighborhood was having a yard sale day and after seeing everyone outside selling their things I was pretty inspired. Being a 4th grader I didn’t have many belongings but I did have fishing gear. I knew my neighbor across the street liked fishing as I did so I went out front with all my fishing gear that I had accumulated from birthdays and christmases. Soon enough my neighbor came over and bought it all. I was so thrilled by the experience that I didn’t consider until weeks later that I had just sold things that I thoroughly enjoyed using. I didn’t care I wanted that feeling I got from getting the cash. I felt like I had power. I have continued this cycle of trading what I truly cared about and found enjoyment in in the pursuit of momentary pleasure for the past 30 years of my life.
The first time I got drunk was on my back patio when my parents were out of town. My older brother and I had invited some friends over. My older brothers friend had brought some beer. This friend of his was a cool kid. He was great at skateboarding, drove a fast car and always had 1 or 2 other friends with him. Girls loved him also and from what I heard usually had 2 or 3 girls who thought they were his girlfriend. I idolized him and was stoked when he offered me beer and weed. I was 16 and had smoked weed a couple times before and snuck a beer from a family function once. That evening I got drunk on milwakee’s best and smoked blunts into the wee hours of the morning. I eventually stumbled into my bedroom where I found my girlfriend’s best friend trying to go to sleep. I tried to make a move on her and was shut down. I woke early the next morning in bed between her and one of my friends. My pants were wet and much to my alarm so were the sheets and blanket. I had pissed myself. I slid out from between them and took the blanket off as delicately as I could in an effort to not wake either of them. I proceeded to swap the blanket out with a fresh one and after changing my shorts went to pass out on the couch. I was mortified. I was not mortified that I had peed on my friends. I was not mortified that I had tried to cheat on my girlfriend who I was crazy about. I was mortified by the idea of other people finding out I had done these things. I was mortified by the idea that I would have to face consequences for my actions. I had no concern for anyone else.
Drinking became a weekend affair for me as I moved through high school. During the week I liked smoking weed in the late evening after all my family had gone to bed. I always had a hard time sleeping and the weed helped. I never really got in trouble or in too much danger either. I would go to college parties with my older brother on the weekend after I got off work from delivering pizzas. If I brought money for us to get beer he would go into the store to get it but then he’d let me walk into the party with the case. This meant the world to me. I felt like a big shot and once I started drinking I became a big shot. My fear of being around older kids would vanish. As the night went on and I drank more I got smoother and smoother. All of a sudden I had just the right thing to say at just the right moment and people thought I was funny. The girls wanted to go outside and smoke cigarettes with me. The older guys wanted me on their team for beer pong. I want to make some grandiose statement about how all my troubles were gone but the only trouble I had was my over active self awareness and that was in full effect. My self-awareness which usually kept me afraid now had me gunning for any chance at a laugh or smile from a girl or my brothers older friends. I was aware of myself and wanted anyone in earshot to be aware of me too. I will continue this…
2024.05.28 06:16 Sbc65 How it Started
HI, my name is Sam and I’m and alcoholic. I have been doing whatever feels good until it makes me sick for as long as I can remember. Women were my first concern that started to augment my behavior negatively. I would focus my energy on them at the expense of anything else. I remember as a 6 or 7 year old boy sitting on the stoop of my parents home in Durham New Hampshire plucking the pedals off a flower, furious at just having learned my friend Gracie had a crush on my older brother and not me. Once, a boy who would wake early in the morning and find perfect peace and contentment crawling through the bushes in front of his house in search of slugs and worms was now baffled by the words of a girl and unable to consider anything else.
In 4th grade I started using the phone then I was really off to the races. I would call whatever girl I had a crush on or whichever girl would give me her number and just like that my evenings were booked. I liked playing in the park with friends or riding my bike but nothing felt quite as good as the validation I received from a girl. It started with girls and slowly trickled into everything else. Around 4th grade I also got paid to mow a lawn for the first time and the idea I could make money took hold of me as well.
My neighborhood was having a yard sale day and after seeing everyone outside selling their things I was pretty inspired. Being a 4th grader I didn’t have many belongings but I did have fishing gear. I knew my neighbor across the street liked fishing as I did so I went out front with all my fishing gear that I had accumulated from birthdays and christmases. Soon enough my neighbor came over and bought it all. I was so thrilled by the experience that I didn’t consider until weeks later that I had just sold things that I thoroughly enjoyed using. I didn’t care I wanted that feeling I got from getting the cash. I felt like I had power. I have continued this cycle of trading what I truly cared about and found enjoyment in in the pursuit of momentary pleasure for the past 30 years of my life.
The first time I got drunk was on my back patio when my parents were out of town. My older brother and I had invited some friends over. My older brothers friend had brought some beer. This friend of his was a cool kid. He was great at skateboarding, drove a fast car and always had 1 or 2 other friends with him. Girls loved him also and from what I heard usually had 2 or 3 girls who thought they were his girlfriend. I idolized him and was stoked when he offered me beer and weed. I was 16 and had smoked weed a couple times before and snuck a beer from a family function once. That evening I got drunk on milwakee’s best and smoked blunts into the wee hours of the morning. I eventually stumbled into my bedroom where I found my girlfriend’s best friend trying to go to sleep. I tried to make a move on her and was shut down. I woke early the next morning in bed between her and one of my friends. My pants were wet and much to my alarm so were the sheets and blanket. I had pissed myself. I slid out from between them and took the blanket off as delicately as I could in an effort to not wake either of them. I proceeded to swap the blanket out with a fresh one and after changing my shorts went to pass out on the couch. I was mortified. I was not mortified that I had peed on my friends. I was not mortified that I had tried to cheat on my girlfriend who I was crazy about. I was mortified by the idea of other people finding out I had done these things. I was mortified by the idea that I would have to face consequences for my actions. I had no concern for anyone else.
Drinking became a weekend affair for me as I moved through high school. During the week I liked smoking weed in the late evening after all my family had gone to bed. I always had a hard time sleeping and the weed helped. I never really got in trouble or in too much danger either. I would go to college parties with my older brother on the weekend after I got off work from delivering pizzas. If I brought money for us to get beer he would go into the store to get it but then he’d let me walk into the party with the case. This meant the world to me. I felt like a big shot and once I started drinking I became a big shot. My fear of being around older kids would vanish. As the night went on and I drank more I got smoother and smoother. All of a sudden I had just the right thing to say at just the right moment and people thought I was funny. The girls wanted to go outside and smoke cigarettes with me. The older guys wanted me on their team for beer pong. I want to make some grandiose statement about how all my troubles were gone but the only trouble I had was my over active self awareness and that was in full effect. My self-awareness which usually kept me afraid now had me gunning for any chance at a laugh or smile from a girl or my brothers older friends. I was aware of myself and wanted anyone in earshot to be aware of me too. I will continue this…
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In 4th grade I started using the phone then I was really off to the races. I would call whatever girl I had a crush on or whichever girl would give me her number and just like that my evenings were booked. I liked playing in the park with friends or riding my bike but nothing felt quite as good as the validation I received from a girl. It started with girls and slowly trickled into everything else. Around 4th grade I also got paid to mow a lawn for the first time and the idea I could make money took hold of me as well.
My neighborhood was having a yard sale day and after seeing everyone outside selling their things I was pretty inspired. Being a 4th grader I didn’t have many belongings but I did have fishing gear. I knew my neighbor across the street liked fishing as I did so I went out front with all my fishing gear that I had accumulated from birthdays and christmases. Soon enough my neighbor came over and bought it all. I was so thrilled by the experience that I didn’t consider until weeks later that I had just sold things that I thoroughly enjoyed using. I didn’t care I wanted that feeling I got from getting the cash. I felt like I had power. I have continued this cycle of trading what I truly cared about and found enjoyment in in the pursuit of momentary pleasure for the past 30 years of my life.
The first time I got drunk was on my back patio when my parents were out of town. My older brother and I had invited some friends over. My older brothers friend had brought some beer. This friend of his was a cool kid. He was great at skateboarding, drove a fast car and always had 1 or 2 other friends with him. Girls loved him also and from what I heard usually had 2 or 3 girls who thought they were his girlfriend. I idolized him and was stoked when he offered me beer and weed. I was 16 and had smoked weed a couple times before and snuck a beer from a family function once. That evening I got drunk on milwakee’s best and smoked blunts into the wee hours of the morning. I eventually stumbled into my bedroom where I found my girlfriend’s best friend trying to go to sleep. I tried to make a move on her and was shut down. I woke early the next morning in bed between her and one of my friends. My pants were wet and much to my alarm so were the sheets and blanket. I had pissed myself. I slid out from between them and took the blanket off as delicately as I could in an effort to not wake either of them. I proceeded to swap the blanket out with a fresh one and after changing my shorts went to pass out on the couch. I was mortified. I was not mortified that I had peed on my friends. I was not mortified that I had tried to cheat on my girlfriend who I was crazy about. I was mortified by the idea of other people finding out I had done these things. I was mortified by the idea that I would have to face consequences for my actions. I had no concern for anyone else.
Drinking became a weekend affair for me as I moved through high school. During the week I liked smoking weed in the late evening after all my family had gone to bed. I always had a hard time sleeping and the weed helped. I never really got in trouble or in too much danger either. I would go to college parties with my older brother on the weekend after I got off work from delivering pizzas. If I brought money for us to get beer he would go into the store to get it but then he’d let me walk into the party with the case. This meant the world to me. I felt like a big shot and once I started drinking I became a big shot. My fear of being around older kids would vanish. As the night went on and I drank more I got smoother and smoother. All of a sudden I had just the right thing to say at just the right moment and people thought I was funny. The girls wanted to go outside and smoke cigarettes with me. The older guys wanted me on their team for beer pong. I want to make some grandiose statement about how all my troubles were gone but the only trouble I had was my over active self awareness and that was in full effect. My self-awareness which usually kept me afraid now had me gunning for any chance at a laugh or smile from a girl or my brothers older friends. I was aware of myself and wanted anyone in earshot to be aware of me too. I will continue this…
2024.05.28 06:11 tbonebaker Banking on Pride Season
 | https://preview.redd.it/vwkky62ge33d1.png?width=850&format=png&auto=webp&s=7ba7d0092ff15fb0e1bf8ec5f62ae94a9920c26a submitted by tbonebaker to WokeExposed [link] [comments] With Pride Season only days away, a recent trip to the bank helped me realize what a farce this so-called celebration has become. As I entered the bank around noon yesterday, I noticed that there was only one teller working. This, of course, shouldn’t come as a surprise to you Reader—as these days the idea of customer service has basically become something you tell your grandchildren about. But on this afternoon, it wasn’t a lack of employees in the bank that got my goat up. It was that the workers had been removed from the teller wicket and were being ordered around by the ugliest female bank manager in size 10" heels I’d ever laid eyes on. The fiat-currency female was having them decorate my bank in that gaudy rainbow-infused Pride propaganda. They had flags and ribbons, rainbow pens and noise-makers. Perhaps remnants from a Pride float they were once forced to unenthusiastically dance on top of, as instructed by corporate. I imagine their Pride storage closest was where they once kept the Christmas decorations. Back when you could celebrate the birth of our Lord or even just Santa Claus without feeling “guilty.” How seriously are we supposed to actually take something like this now? The media will jump on board, no doubt, as they talk about hate crimes and violent acts, which may or may not have occurred. There will likely be more violence this Memorial Day with all the patriotic partying and family fireworks (eyeroll). As I withdrew from the bank I saw an ugly mark on the world. Perhaps a lie about what the current thing really means and how when one questions it, they’re labeled a supremacist or some other blanketed smear. Readers, don’t be afraid to question these false idols of pride. These Nuremberg-style rallies of love and sex are being pushed by the corporations that pander to it because that’s what the elites tell them to do. It’s time to fight back. And that’s exactly what your fiercely independent publication, GWU! Is ready to do for you every step of the way. VIA getwokeup.com |
2024.05.28 04:26 Sharks_4ever_9812 Are there times when you completely cut yourself off from a group you like due to netizen toxicity?
Lovelyz fan since 2018 here - looking back, at some point I just stopped keeping up with a group I liked at some point due to seriously toxic online comments. There were times when my brief interest in an idol group just simply wore off, or stopped following them after one of their numbers was involved in criminal activity (i.e. Bigbang’s Seungri), but cutting myself off from all news sources and the group’s social activities due to online hatred was a new experience.
It’s not like Lovelyz committed a crime, and while I definitely admit they didn’t do too well in Queendom, the level of hatred they got was pretty hard for me to see, and I saw similar sentiments pop up when their contract expiration news came out - had to cut off their news entirely both of those times.
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It’s not like Lovelyz committed a crime, and while I definitely admit they didn’t do too well in Queendom, the level of hatred they got was pretty hard for me to see, and I saw similar sentiments pop up when their contract expiration news came out - had to cut off their news entirely both of those times.
2024.05.28 03:33 IdolScrim Scan Type: Employment - Let’s Get Revenge.
I’m not here to complain… & I’m not here to spread awareness. I’m only here to carry out justice.
I have read every single ‘scam report’ submitted by victims of employment fraud to the Better Business Bureau & I’ve also seen all of the TikTok’s uploaded by victims explaining how they were applying for jobs on Indeed (and other job listing sites) were contacted by fake employers through email & phone call- then inadvertently assisted them with committing mail fraud while believing they’re working a remote shipping job.
These people have wasted your precious time and money, have caused you to do tedious work for nothing in return and have gotten some of you visits from detectives and police officers thinking you are criminals.
Luckily for you all… im going to help you get revenge :)
My name is Idol Scrim; and I am a scammer myself.
The same people responsible for the fraudulent companies scamming all of you over and over again, me and my partners have scammed them an infinite amount of times.
We apply for the jobs just like you guys. Only difference is we don’t have the attention to work. We get accepted for the position, send out a few packages to gain the trust of the scammers operating the scheme, and when they start sending the good stuff we keep it and send out empty boxes.
Not only do the scammers lose money, it ruins the reputation of their SEVERAL “business” that are still believed to be legit by many. Ultimately making their job harder. The time periods where it seems as if the schemes have died down; it’s because we’ve taken so much money from them they can’t operate and need time to recuperate.
If you want revenge for you or a loved one, were almost a victim and would like to prevent others from becoming one, or are just intrigued… i only need one thing from you; the link.
Find the original sign up link where they made you submit front and back pictures of your ID, your name & address, and phone number to call. Then forward it to me. It is important you sent the original sign up link and not the link to the dashboard. They don’t accept accounts or call back numbers only submitted to the dashboard.
We will sign up, and continue to take their packages. Now more than ever before. It will be difficult for them to keep this up for much longer.
Anytime you receive a new link, forward it and we will continue to destroy them.
You can message me on telegram @pokkets or on instagram @IdolScrim .
I will avenge you :)
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I have read every single ‘scam report’ submitted by victims of employment fraud to the Better Business Bureau & I’ve also seen all of the TikTok’s uploaded by victims explaining how they were applying for jobs on Indeed (and other job listing sites) were contacted by fake employers through email & phone call- then inadvertently assisted them with committing mail fraud while believing they’re working a remote shipping job.
These people have wasted your precious time and money, have caused you to do tedious work for nothing in return and have gotten some of you visits from detectives and police officers thinking you are criminals.
Luckily for you all… im going to help you get revenge :)
My name is Idol Scrim; and I am a scammer myself.
The same people responsible for the fraudulent companies scamming all of you over and over again, me and my partners have scammed them an infinite amount of times.
We apply for the jobs just like you guys. Only difference is we don’t have the attention to work. We get accepted for the position, send out a few packages to gain the trust of the scammers operating the scheme, and when they start sending the good stuff we keep it and send out empty boxes.
Not only do the scammers lose money, it ruins the reputation of their SEVERAL “business” that are still believed to be legit by many. Ultimately making their job harder. The time periods where it seems as if the schemes have died down; it’s because we’ve taken so much money from them they can’t operate and need time to recuperate.
If you want revenge for you or a loved one, were almost a victim and would like to prevent others from becoming one, or are just intrigued… i only need one thing from you; the link.
Find the original sign up link where they made you submit front and back pictures of your ID, your name & address, and phone number to call. Then forward it to me. It is important you sent the original sign up link and not the link to the dashboard. They don’t accept accounts or call back numbers only submitted to the dashboard.
We will sign up, and continue to take their packages. Now more than ever before. It will be difficult for them to keep this up for much longer.
Anytime you receive a new link, forward it and we will continue to destroy them.
You can message me on telegram @pokkets or on instagram @IdolScrim .
I will avenge you :)
2024.05.28 02:58 p_t_dactyl I beat my dad today for maybe the 3rd time ever and it makes me sad
Warning as it’s kind of a long story.
Today I (31m) went golfing with my dad (65) and my brother (27) and I beat my dad for maybe the third or fourth time in my life and I feel like it’s kinda sad.
For as long as I can remember my dad was the best golfer I’d ever met. For a good portion of my formative years he was in the single digits or a scratch golfer, the type of guy who would say he had a bad round when he would shoot 79. He has stories of shooting 69 at Chambers Bay with rental clubs, or shooting 74 at Brandon Dunes, or going 4 under par on the back nine of Coeur d’Alene Resort while being almost too drunk to stand up and hit a putt, and in each of these stories he’s wearing flip flop sandals instead of actual golf shoes. The type of dad that you idolize when you take up golf for the first time.
I always figured the first time I’d ever beat him would be when I started to get really good after taking the game seriously. Maybe I’d have the round of my life and break 80 when he has a subpar round and would shoot 82 or something. But no. The first time it ever happened was on a trip to Vegas in 2021 when he had the worst round of golf I’d ever seen him play. He shot a 90, I shot 88. A few more above average round in the last few years on my end had me ahead of him once or twice more.
Then he hurt himself. One of his dogs got off their leash in the yard and he dove to catch them. They live in a very rural area so he didn’t want her getting loose. This ended in a left shoulder injury. Then last spring while setting up some lights around the property he fell off a ladder onto his right shoulder and tore his rotator cuff.
A few months later on our annual golf trip in July of last year he couldn’t get through 12 holes without pain and was sidelined the whole week. He wasn’t able to swing a club again without pain until 2 weeks ago and today played his first full round of golf in over a year. Today I beat him by 7 strokes, I shot 81 to his 88, and I can’t help but be sad about it.
I knew this day would come where his age would start to show. But I figured I had a few more years before then.
Anyway, I’ve rambled enough now. Basically what I’m saying is appreciate your dads that introduced you to this game, and try your best to beat them beat them while they’re still in their prime.
TLDR: I beat my dad by 7 strokes today because his age is showing and it makes me sad.
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Today I (31m) went golfing with my dad (65) and my brother (27) and I beat my dad for maybe the third or fourth time in my life and I feel like it’s kinda sad.
For as long as I can remember my dad was the best golfer I’d ever met. For a good portion of my formative years he was in the single digits or a scratch golfer, the type of guy who would say he had a bad round when he would shoot 79. He has stories of shooting 69 at Chambers Bay with rental clubs, or shooting 74 at Brandon Dunes, or going 4 under par on the back nine of Coeur d’Alene Resort while being almost too drunk to stand up and hit a putt, and in each of these stories he’s wearing flip flop sandals instead of actual golf shoes. The type of dad that you idolize when you take up golf for the first time.
I always figured the first time I’d ever beat him would be when I started to get really good after taking the game seriously. Maybe I’d have the round of my life and break 80 when he has a subpar round and would shoot 82 or something. But no. The first time it ever happened was on a trip to Vegas in 2021 when he had the worst round of golf I’d ever seen him play. He shot a 90, I shot 88. A few more above average round in the last few years on my end had me ahead of him once or twice more.
Then he hurt himself. One of his dogs got off their leash in the yard and he dove to catch them. They live in a very rural area so he didn’t want her getting loose. This ended in a left shoulder injury. Then last spring while setting up some lights around the property he fell off a ladder onto his right shoulder and tore his rotator cuff.
A few months later on our annual golf trip in July of last year he couldn’t get through 12 holes without pain and was sidelined the whole week. He wasn’t able to swing a club again without pain until 2 weeks ago and today played his first full round of golf in over a year. Today I beat him by 7 strokes, I shot 81 to his 88, and I can’t help but be sad about it.
I knew this day would come where his age would start to show. But I figured I had a few more years before then.
Anyway, I’ve rambled enough now. Basically what I’m saying is appreciate your dads that introduced you to this game, and try your best to beat them beat them while they’re still in their prime.
TLDR: I beat my dad by 7 strokes today because his age is showing and it makes me sad.
2024.05.28 02:31 Business-Treacle-787 How can I trust God in my love life
Hi all,
My relationship broke down a year ago, I have been a Christian only a short time, since 2019 and I felt I abandoned God and relied on my boyfriend who eventually betrayed me and we have both deeply sinned and suffered.
We have been on speaking terms and he says he does not love me or will ever want to be with me again. I do think God is telling me to put my pride aside and nurture a friendship, but I also know God knows my deepest hopes and dreams, which is to have a beautiful Godly relationship and one where my partner is in relationship to God to. My ex was open to my religion and he received God, the teachings, he felt his presence and felt led, but simply only little bit. I’ve asked him to lean into God, I’ve sent him scriptures that seem to go nowhere. He said he would be open to scheduling couples counselling to help us communicate, but I am afraid to be vulnerable and feel more love and connection in our vulnerability to return to his stubborn, unmovable walls. I need God to shift something in his heart.
I know God is teaching me patience, and also how to be gentle and compassionate.
Can anyone lend some advice with their relationships and God. I am worried that I am wasting my time with this man I deeply love to be seen by him in a worldly, disposable, and disregarded way. I want him to see God goodness and see it from me and so I try to lead by example but he doesn’t trust me. How can I help my ex trust me again and how can I know that God is working in him?
I read the bible and pray every day and make certain I turn my focus back to Jesus and what he is teaching me, so that I don’t make my ex an idol. How can I deny my deepest love though? I don’t believe God will allow me to lose this… it simply doesn’t align with everything he’s led me to do and all the hopes I have for the future, I try to follow God will, I think this is God’s will but I am too afraid and sabotage out of fear and control.
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My relationship broke down a year ago, I have been a Christian only a short time, since 2019 and I felt I abandoned God and relied on my boyfriend who eventually betrayed me and we have both deeply sinned and suffered.
We have been on speaking terms and he says he does not love me or will ever want to be with me again. I do think God is telling me to put my pride aside and nurture a friendship, but I also know God knows my deepest hopes and dreams, which is to have a beautiful Godly relationship and one where my partner is in relationship to God to. My ex was open to my religion and he received God, the teachings, he felt his presence and felt led, but simply only little bit. I’ve asked him to lean into God, I’ve sent him scriptures that seem to go nowhere. He said he would be open to scheduling couples counselling to help us communicate, but I am afraid to be vulnerable and feel more love and connection in our vulnerability to return to his stubborn, unmovable walls. I need God to shift something in his heart.
I know God is teaching me patience, and also how to be gentle and compassionate.
Can anyone lend some advice with their relationships and God. I am worried that I am wasting my time with this man I deeply love to be seen by him in a worldly, disposable, and disregarded way. I want him to see God goodness and see it from me and so I try to lead by example but he doesn’t trust me. How can I help my ex trust me again and how can I know that God is working in him?
I read the bible and pray every day and make certain I turn my focus back to Jesus and what he is teaching me, so that I don’t make my ex an idol. How can I deny my deepest love though? I don’t believe God will allow me to lose this… it simply doesn’t align with everything he’s led me to do and all the hopes I have for the future, I try to follow God will, I think this is God’s will but I am too afraid and sabotage out of fear and control.
2024.05.27 18:14 Mullin_Pangolin Gold rush ✨stealth hairpin✨ We missed it!!
Y’all these chemicals suddenly hit me like a white wine😭
“What must it be like to grow up that beautiful?
With your hair falling into place like dominoes”
Growing up could also mean growing into a new version of yourself. (Remember “32 and still growing up now”?) So this line could be her wondering, “what must it be like to grow up to be that beautiful?”
“With your hair falling into place…”, because all of your hairpins were dropped, so it falls like dominoes into place, like a whole design prearranged in a master plan. Hairpins dropped, plans fall into place like dominoes! I knew that unusual description of hair meant something! We missed this unwritten hairpin!! 😱😱😱😱😱😱
Holy crap this is her wondering what it must feel like to grow into your queer self completely, to be that most beautiful version of yourself? To be in the reality where all the plans went smoothly without a hitch? She wouldn’t know, bc it could never be…“‘Cause it fades into the gray of my day-old tea” The rainbow tea she meant to spill but was never spilled, so it sat there and turned gray, void of all colors.
Fuck me the chemicals didn’t stop there. Look at this:
“Gleaming, twinkling / Eyes like sinking ships on waters / So inviting, I almost jump in”
Sinking ships…hmm we’ve heard that. “Loose lips sink ships all the damn time”! “On waters”, blue! Blue eyes. Her eyes are blue. Gleaming, twinkling eyes…what do they usually gleam or twinkle with when described that way? They gleam with joy, happiness, mirth, or tears. They twinkle with humor, mirth, amusement, with mischief! Or I guess tears works for both? So possible conclusions: Her blue eyes are gleaming with joy, twinkling with mischief to let her lips loose of secrets that’ll sink ships? Or: Her eyes are shining with tears, begging for her lips to let loose of secrets that’ll sink ships? And they’re so “inviting” as in tempting, she “almost jumps in”! But this is her fantasy so I bet it’s the happy her she’s dreaming about! Conclusion: She sees the out, fully-realized her in her imagination, with joyful, mischievous blue eyes reflecting spilt secrets. That version of her is so inviting, so tempting, she almost takes the plunge and makes it a reality! It’s this fantasy that prompted the whole song!
(Note: And the ship is also mentioned in willow! “I’m like the water your ship rolled in at night” I have thoughts about that song, posting later. It’s absolutely possible that it’s the same metaphor. The ship is the looming thing that would finally sink if the secret spills.)
Right, now put these back into the narrative, see if it makes sense. Okay, so the story goes: The fantasy comes to mind, it’s so tempting I almost jump in (intro) —> But there are consequences I don’t like (Chorus) —> Still the fantasy comes in details until it fades (Verse 1 & Refrain) —> But it’ll never happen, bc again, consequences (Chorus) —> Can’t bear the fantasy anymore (Verse 2) —> Rewinding the fantasy back to reality (Refrain) —> Right back to this moment again (Outro)
Consequences part,:
“I don't like a gold rush, gold rush / I don't like anticipating my face in a red flush / I don't like that anyone would die to feel your touch / Everybody wants you / Everybody wonders what it would be like to love you Walk past, quick brush / I don't like slow motion double vision in rose blush / I don't like that falling feels like flying 'til the bone crush / Everybody wants you / But I don't like a gold rush”
“Gold rush” as in the massive influx of attention, everyone rushing to her, the gold. The “red flush”—either flustered or in anger, altogether indicative of strong emotions, both good and bad for her, like a rollercoaster from hell. She doesn’t like that that’s bound to happen. “Die to feel your touch”—queer idolizing but also demanding her input, advocacy, activism, personal attention, explanations? “Wonder what it would be like to love you”—speculations on her love life in tenfold, sexualization, fetishization, or genuine pining. “Walk past, quick brush”—she would want to move past it quickly and brush things off, but it won’t be possible, instead, “slow motion double vision in rose blush.” Everything scrutinized, reviewed under slow motion playback. It’ll be disorienting and a huge dizzying mess with heightened emotions absolutely everywhere, and it will go agonizingly slow for her too. Like watching an accident happen in slow motion. “Double vision” also meaning the suddenly polarized views (of public, fans, speculations…), the dual narratives now being examined, the two irreconcilable images of her. “Falling feels like flying 'til the bone crush”—finally freed but waiting for the other shoe to drop, fully expecting grave consequences and disaster to inevitably strike. “Everybody wants you”—in good and bad ways, some celebrating her, some slamming her, some racing to capitalize on her, some burning her icon, some indifferent but still rushing to join the conversation just to not miss out, some watching with glee, some with schadenfraude, but all eyes on her. Everybody flocking. There will probably never be peace for her again. Omg it all checks out.
Edit: Jesus Christ, interpreted very literally, “Walk past, quick brush” also describes rushing past paparazzi. “I don’t like slow motion, double vision in rose blush” describes the slow progress of pushing through paparazzi, while you get double vision in red tint bc of camera flashes. (And also being drunk on rosé too? Lol distantly possible)
This is masterful wordsmithing I can’t- 😳 She layered in the bests and worsts of the consequences, hiding them all behind the seemingly all-positive ogling of a muse, her flustered reactions and fear of heartbreak! And every line with two sides!
The fantasy,
1- “I see me padding 'cross your wooden floors / With my Eagles t-shirt hanging from the door”- This is probably just the peaceful, relaxed picture she sees in her mind? Or meant to reference the willow cabin? Probably the second, since verse 2 calls back to folklore.
Refrain- “At dinner parties / I call you out on your contrarian shit / And the coastal town / We wandered 'round had never / Seen a love as pure as it”
“Contrarian,” bc she doesn’t like a gold rush, doesn’t like to follow the main flow. She’s going against what everyone thinks. I don’t know what “coastal town” symbolizes for her, a personal fantasy? Hollywood? A distant place far from public eye? Or a land found after shipwreck bc the ship sunk? Regardless, there she unapologetically displays the purest love for all to see. Except there are costs to it, so verse 2 flipped it.
2- “My mind turns your life into folklore / I can't dare to dream about you anymore”
She literally turned her life into the album folklore, but also she turned her life into something unverifiable, with every storyline, every interpretation possible, complete with myths and lore. We will literally never fucking know. She can’t bear the sadness of dreaming about her alternative life, and also she literally doesn’t dare to dream that it would ever come to pass anymore. And so the fantasy retreats step by step back into oblivion with the second refrain, a flipped version of the previous one.
And last the. But on second thought, what if that’s also a flip on the intro? It might’ve purposely been written vaguely, not directly naming any of the emotions. She comes back from the fantasy, but this time she’s looking into blue eyes glistening with tears and brimmed with sadness, with her sunken hope reflected in them. The endless sadness looks so inviting, she almost jumps in…
Damn, was this song born bc girlie looked in a mirror? Is that why the whole song is literally a mirror image of two halves!? HOLY SHIT…! It’s a mirror of flipped sides! All hidden under the surface layer depicting the fear of pursuing a well-desired muse! Which btw, was already intentionally implied to be female! It is literally gay on the outside and gay on the inside… 😂
*ps. Spotify reel for gold rush: Her in the glass closet singing, “you know that my train can take you home”—It fits!
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“What must it be like to grow up that beautiful?
With your hair falling into place like dominoes”
Growing up could also mean growing into a new version of yourself. (Remember “32 and still growing up now”?) So this line could be her wondering, “what must it be like to grow up to be that beautiful?”
“With your hair falling into place…”, because all of your hairpins were dropped, so it falls like dominoes into place, like a whole design prearranged in a master plan. Hairpins dropped, plans fall into place like dominoes! I knew that unusual description of hair meant something! We missed this unwritten hairpin!! 😱😱😱😱😱😱
Holy crap this is her wondering what it must feel like to grow into your queer self completely, to be that most beautiful version of yourself? To be in the reality where all the plans went smoothly without a hitch? She wouldn’t know, bc it could never be…“‘Cause it fades into the gray of my day-old tea” The rainbow tea she meant to spill but was never spilled, so it sat there and turned gray, void of all colors.
Fuck me the chemicals didn’t stop there. Look at this:
“Gleaming, twinkling / Eyes like sinking ships on waters / So inviting, I almost jump in”
Sinking ships…hmm we’ve heard that. “Loose lips sink ships all the damn time”! “On waters”, blue! Blue eyes. Her eyes are blue. Gleaming, twinkling eyes…what do they usually gleam or twinkle with when described that way? They gleam with joy, happiness, mirth, or tears. They twinkle with humor, mirth, amusement, with mischief! Or I guess tears works for both? So possible conclusions: Her blue eyes are gleaming with joy, twinkling with mischief to let her lips loose of secrets that’ll sink ships? Or: Her eyes are shining with tears, begging for her lips to let loose of secrets that’ll sink ships? And they’re so “inviting” as in tempting, she “almost jumps in”! But this is her fantasy so I bet it’s the happy her she’s dreaming about! Conclusion: She sees the out, fully-realized her in her imagination, with joyful, mischievous blue eyes reflecting spilt secrets. That version of her is so inviting, so tempting, she almost takes the plunge and makes it a reality! It’s this fantasy that prompted the whole song!
(Note: And the ship is also mentioned in willow! “I’m like the water your ship rolled in at night” I have thoughts about that song, posting later. It’s absolutely possible that it’s the same metaphor. The ship is the looming thing that would finally sink if the secret spills.)
Right, now put these back into the narrative, see if it makes sense. Okay, so the story goes: The fantasy comes to mind, it’s so tempting I almost jump in (intro) —> But there are consequences I don’t like (Chorus) —> Still the fantasy comes in details until it fades (Verse 1 & Refrain) —> But it’ll never happen, bc again, consequences (Chorus) —> Can’t bear the fantasy anymore (Verse 2) —> Rewinding the fantasy back to reality (Refrain) —> Right back to this moment again (Outro)
Consequences part,
“I don't like a gold rush, gold rush / I don't like anticipating my face in a red flush / I don't like that anyone would die to feel your touch / Everybody wants you / Everybody wonders what it would be like to love you Walk past, quick brush / I don't like slow motion double vision in rose blush / I don't like that falling feels like flying 'til the bone crush / Everybody wants you / But I don't like a gold rush”
“Gold rush” as in the massive influx of attention, everyone rushing to her, the gold. The “red flush”—either flustered or in anger, altogether indicative of strong emotions, both good and bad for her, like a rollercoaster from hell. She doesn’t like that that’s bound to happen. “Die to feel your touch”—queer idolizing but also demanding her input, advocacy, activism, personal attention, explanations? “Wonder what it would be like to love you”—speculations on her love life in tenfold, sexualization, fetishization, or genuine pining. “Walk past, quick brush”—she would want to move past it quickly and brush things off, but it won’t be possible, instead, “slow motion double vision in rose blush.” Everything scrutinized, reviewed under slow motion playback. It’ll be disorienting and a huge dizzying mess with heightened emotions absolutely everywhere, and it will go agonizingly slow for her too. Like watching an accident happen in slow motion. “Double vision” also meaning the suddenly polarized views (of public, fans, speculations…), the dual narratives now being examined, the two irreconcilable images of her. “Falling feels like flying 'til the bone crush”—finally freed but waiting for the other shoe to drop, fully expecting grave consequences and disaster to inevitably strike. “Everybody wants you”—in good and bad ways, some celebrating her, some slamming her, some racing to capitalize on her, some burning her icon, some indifferent but still rushing to join the conversation just to not miss out, some watching with glee, some with schadenfraude, but all eyes on her. Everybody flocking. There will probably never be peace for her again. Omg it all checks out.
Edit: Jesus Christ, interpreted very literally, “Walk past, quick brush” also describes rushing past paparazzi. “I don’t like slow motion, double vision in rose blush” describes the slow progress of pushing through paparazzi, while you get double vision in red tint bc of camera flashes. (And also being drunk on rosé too? Lol distantly possible)
This is masterful wordsmithing I can’t- 😳 She layered in the bests and worsts of the consequences, hiding them all behind the seemingly all-positive ogling of a muse, her flustered reactions and fear of heartbreak! And every line with two sides!
The fantasy,
1- “I see me padding 'cross your wooden floors / With my Eagles t-shirt hanging from the door”- This is probably just the peaceful, relaxed picture she sees in her mind? Or meant to reference the willow cabin? Probably the second, since verse 2 calls back to folklore.
Refrain- “At dinner parties / I call you out on your contrarian shit / And the coastal town / We wandered 'round had never / Seen a love as pure as it”
“Contrarian,” bc she doesn’t like a gold rush, doesn’t like to follow the main flow. She’s going against what everyone thinks. I don’t know what “coastal town” symbolizes for her, a personal fantasy? Hollywood? A distant place far from public eye? Or a land found after shipwreck bc the ship sunk? Regardless, there she unapologetically displays the purest love for all to see. Except there are costs to it, so verse 2 flipped it.
2- “My mind turns your life into folklore / I can't dare to dream about you anymore”
She literally turned her life into the album folklore, but also she turned her life into something unverifiable, with every storyline, every interpretation possible, complete with myths and lore. We will literally never fucking know. She can’t bear the sadness of dreaming about her alternative life, and also she literally doesn’t dare to dream that it would ever come to pass anymore. And so the fantasy retreats step by step back into oblivion with the second refrain, a flipped version of the previous one.
And last the
Damn, was this song born bc girlie looked in a mirror? Is that why the whole song is literally a mirror image of two halves!? HOLY SHIT…! It’s a mirror of flipped sides! All hidden under the surface layer depicting the fear of pursuing a well-desired muse! Which btw, was already intentionally implied to be female! It is literally gay on the outside and gay on the inside… 😂
*ps. Spotify reel for gold rush: Her in the glass closet singing, “you know that my train can take you home”—It fits!
2024.05.27 17:49 Ok_Piano_7281 Christians Do Not Understand Acts 15:19-20
Christians Do Not Understand Acts 15:19-20
A critical analysis of the common misinterpretation of Acts 15:19-20 and how it affects the Christian faith and practice.Jul 30, 2022: "Christians Do NOT Understand Acts 15:19-20!" starts at ~32 minutes in.
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Christians Do Not Understand Acts 15:19-20
A critical analysis of the common misinterpretation of Acts 15:19-20 and how it affects the Christian faith and practice.Jul 30, 2022: "Christians Do NOT Understand Acts 15:19-20!" starts at ~32 minutes in.
Notes taken on Jan 3, 2024
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Christians concluded that there are only 4 commandments that they should follow as non-Israelites. Christians will take you here so that they don’t have to keep the entire law of moses. The christians that give it to you don’t understand the context/background. Even though they know that there are more than just these 4 commandments.
These verses don’t even support them either. This can’t be used as a standard for what we should do.
It doesn’t include: don't murder, don’t steal, don’t keep the sabbath, don’t honor your father and mother, etc.
Hypocrisy is doing this. This is a double edged sword.
Belief in Jesus Christ is the only way to salvation.
The disciples never said anything about circumcision. There was never a debate about the Law of Moses before Acts 15. The first christians were Jews. They never abandoned the Law of Moses. The disciples encouraged keeping the Law of Moses.
The 4 commandments mentioned were a “beginners package” to get them started.
Act 15:19-20 Wherefore my sentence is, that we trouble not them, which from among the Gentiles are turned to God: (20) But that we write unto them, that they abstain from pollutions of idols, and from fornication, and from things strangled, and from blood.
- This is James talking. We don’t trouble the Gentile converts.
- Is this for all time or for just those that have just come to the faith?
- Fornication is a blanket turn regarding any sexual act
- Adultery, harlot, homosexuality, incest, etc.
- Things strangled
- Things with blood in them (back to the levitical law)
- You have to drain the blood out of every animal (don’t eat any blood)
- What happened to honor your father and mother or no killing or stealing or bear false witness or coveting?
The crosses everywhere are idolatry.
The Jews and Gentiles didn’t have different sets of rules.
Act 15:1 And certain men which came down from Judaea taught the brethren, and said, Except ye be circumcised after the manner of Moses, ye cannot be saved.
- Certain men said this. The apostles didn’t teach this. This was a lie that was taught. People were holding on to their traditional views.
- They didn’t abandon their previous beliefs completely.
- You don’t have to follow the Law of Moses to be saved. You don’t have to be circumcised to be saved.
Act 2:36-41 Therefore let all the house of Israel know assuredly, that God hath made that same Jesus, whom ye have crucified, both Lord and Christ. (37) Now when they heard this, they were pricked in their heart, and said unto Peter and to the rest of the apostles, Men and brethren, what shall we do? (38) Then Peter said unto them, Repent, and be baptized every one of you in the name of Jesus Christ for the remission of sins, and ye shall receive the gift of the Holy Ghost. (39) For the promise is unto you, and to your children, and to all that are afar off, even as many as the Lord our God shall call. (40) And with many other words did he testify and exhort, saying, Save yourselves from this untoward generation. (41) Then they that gladly received his word were baptized: and the same day there were added unto them about three thousand souls.
- This is on the day of pentecost.
- Peter is addressing the House of Israel, the Jews, the Israelites
- This was who christianity was given to first
- He is rebuking them.
- There were some gentiles here too, but Peter was addressing the Jews first.
- Verse 38 doesn’t say to keep the Law of Moses
- Being saved doesn’t mean keep the Law of Moses or be circumcised
- This is how you get saved.
Their audience was Jews.
Keeping the law never became an issue until “christians”/new-comers started talking about it.
There are two groups of gentiles. Those that knew the law and those that knew nothing (were 100% pagan).
Act 4:10-11 Be it known unto you all, and to all the people of Israel, that by the name of Jesus Christ of Nazareth, whom ye crucified, whom God raised from the dead, even by him doth this man stand here before you whole. (11) This is the stone which was set at nought of you builders, which is become the head of the corner. (12) Neither is there salvation in any other: for there is none other name under heaven given among men, whereby we must be saved.
- This is Peter and John preaching Jesus
- You have to be saved by and through Jesus
- Not by the law or circumcision.
What do you have to do to be saved?
- Believe in Jesus
You show that belief by establishing the law!
Act 11:13-18 And he shewed us how he had seen an angel in his house, which stood and said unto him, Send men to Joppa, and call for Simon, whose surname is Peter; (14) Who shall tell thee words, whereby thou and all thy house shall be saved. (15) And as I began to speak, the Holy Ghost fell on them, as on us at the beginning. (16) Then remembered I the word of the Lord, how that he said, John indeed baptized with water; but ye shall be baptized with the Holy Ghost. (17) Forasmuch then as God gave them the like gift as he did unto us, who believed on the Lord Jesus Christ; what was I, that I could withstand God? (18) When they heard these things, they held their peace, and glorified God, saying, Then hath God also to the Gentiles granted repentance unto life.
- Your saved through Jesus
- God has granted repentance to the Gentiles
- This means they too have an opportunity to be saved (through Jesus)
- They were teaching belief in Jesus
Act 15:1-2 And certain men which came down from Judaea taught the brethren, and said, Except ye be circumcised after the manner of Moses, ye cannot be saved. (2) When therefore Paul and Barnabas had no small dissension and disputation with them, they determined that Paul and Barnabas, and certain other of them, should go up to Jerusalem unto the apostles and elders about this question.
- Certain men (not Paul, James, etc.)
- They taught that to be saved you have to follow the Law of Moses
- This became a big argument that Paul and Barnabas were arguing against.
- They went to go have a council meeting
- These certain men were a sect of the pharisees
- Before this, circumcision wasn’t an issue discussed
- This was because Gentiles were brought into the picture that had no Hebrew roots.
- They were making circumcision a requirement for salvation.
- Peter is recounting how he got the gentiles in.
- Cornelius had some background of the law and such
- Others didn’t have background
- Whenever the apostles converted non-Israelites, then people got mad
- Verse 10, christians THINK that peter is rebuking law
- Tempting God is actually breaking the law (this is clear in the old and new testament)
- The yoke referred to is something that is going against the law or the gospel
- Yoke talked about in matthew 23
- Pharisees were putting a heavy burden on the new converts that were grievous to be borne
- Yoke talked about in matthew 23
- Here, they were making the gospel unbearable. Making the gospel hard to do.
- These burdens were extra
- They added laws to the laws of Moses, making the laws of Moses unbearable.
How can the sabbath be a burden when it literally means rest?
The burden was talking about the man-made traditions that the Pharisees try to add. They did it with the law and with the gospel.
Mat 11:28-30 Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. (29) Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls. (30) For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.
- The difference between Jesus’s yoke and the pharisee’s yoke is that the pharisees made restrictions to make the law of Moses heavy.
The apostles didn’t have a decision prepared for Acts 15 which is why they went to the council.
1Jn 5:1-3 Whosoever believeth that Jesus is the Christ is born of God: and every one that loveth him that begat loveth him also that is begotten of him. (2) By this we know that we love the children of God, when we love God, and keep his commandments. (3) For this is the love of God, that we keep his commandments: and his commandments are not grievous.
- We keep his commandments
- That we keep his commandments
- The commandments aren’t grievous
- Grievous (G926)
- βαρύς
- barus
- bar-ooce'
- From the same as G922; weighty, that is, (figuratively) burdensome, grave: - grievous, heavy, weightier.
- Same word in Matthew 23:4
1Jn 5:3 CEV We show our love for God by obeying his commandments, and they are not hard to follow.
1Jn 5:3 DRB For this is the charity of God: That we keep his commandments. And his commandments are not heavy.
The Pharisees' commandments are heavy (they don’t talk about the law of Moses).
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Act 15:13-14 And after they had held their peace, James answered, saying, Men and brethren, hearken unto me: (14) Simeon hath declared how God at the first did visit the Gentiles, to take out of them a people for his name.
- Discussing how to talk with the very new convert Gentiles (100% pagan)
- The decision is to not make the conversion hard.
- Did James just choose these four (there are actually five) things? Where did James get these?
- James got this one. The first direct way it was said.
- Book of Leviticus was for the priests.
- They were the teachers of the ancient hebrews.
- James went to the teacher’s edition essentially.
Lev 18:5-6 Ye shall therefore keep my statutes, and my judgments: which if a man do, he shall live in them: I am the LORD. (6) None of you shall approach to any that is near of kin to him, to uncover their nakedness: I am the LORD.
- This is the fornication that James is talking about. It covered all the sexuality stuff.
- It is a blanket statement, which is more than just four precepts in chapter 18.
- They should drain the animals dry.
- You also can’t eat the blood.
The Holy Spirit guided them what in the beginning that they should do.
Act 15:20-21 But that we write unto them, that they abstain from pollutions of idols, and from fornication, and from things strangled, and from blood. (21) For Moses of old time hath in every city them that preach him, being read in the synagogues every sabbath day.
- First, four precepts from the law of Moses.
- Then he says that the law of Moses is taught in all the synagogues.
- The Gentiles would get the rest from the synagogues from their cities.
- This is why James didn’t have to give an exhaustive list.
They had to be smart about how they taught them.
Act 13:13-15 Now when Paul and his company loosed from Paphos, they came to Perga in Pamphylia: and John departing from them returned to Jerusalem. (14) But when they departed from Perga, they came to Antioch in Pisidia, and went into the synagogue on the sabbath day, and sat down. (15) And after the reading of the law and the prophets the rulers of the synagogue sent unto them, saying, Ye men and brethren, if ye have any word of exhortation for the people, say on.
- Synagogue in Antioch and they went in during the sabbath day.
- After reading of the law and the prophets!
- This is what James was saying
- Then they opened the study for questions
- This is where they learned the rest of the precepts.
- There were gentiles in the synagogue keeping the sabbath. They were learning of the laws of Moses.
- proselytes were new converts to the faith.
- Never was a Jew, but converting to the ways of Israel.
True christianity is torah observance.
1Ti 4:12-13 Let no man despise thy youth; but be thou an example of the believers, in word, in conversation, in charity, in spirit, in faith, in purity. (13) Till I come, give attendance to reading, to exhortation, to doctrine.
- KJV falls short here
- The scriptures in their day was the old testament.
- This public reading was in synagogues on the sabbath.
- Public reading of the scriptures. They were reading the old testament and teaching it.
- They say keep on reading.
- The reading of the scriptures was a part of the worship.
(Antwan)
Josephus - Antiquities Of The Jews
03.20.02. Book 20, Chapter 02
CHAPTER 2
HOW HELENA THE QUEEN OF ADIABENE AND HER SON IZATES, EMBRACED THE JEWISH RELIGION; AND HOW HELENA SUPPLIED THE POOR WITH CORN, WHEN THERE WAS A GREAT FAMINE AT JERUSALEM.
- ABOUT this time it was that Helena, queen of Adiabene, and her son Izates, changed their course of life, and embraced the Jewish customs, and this on the occasion following: Monobazus, the king of Adiabene, who had also the name of Bazeus, fell in love with his sister Helena, and took her to be his wife, and begat her with child. But as he was in bed with her one night, he laid his hand upon his wife’s belly, and fell asleep, and seemed to hear a voice, which bid him take his hand off his wife’s belly, and not hurt the infant that was therein, which, by God’s providence, would be safely born, and have a happy end. This voice put him into disorder; so he awaked immediately, and told the story to his wife; and when his son was born, he called him Izates. He had indeed Monobazus, his elder brother, by Helena also, as he had other sons by other wives besides. Yet did he openly place all his affections on this his only begotten (2) son Izates, which was the origin of that envy which his other brethren, by the same father, bore to him; while on this account they hated him more and more, and were all under great affliction that their father should prefer Izates before them. Now although their father was very sensible of these their passions, yet did he forgive them, as not indulging those passions out of an ill disposition, but out of a desire each of them had to be beloved by their father. However, he sent Izates, with many presents, to Abennerig, the king of Charax-Spasini, and that out of the great dread he was in about him, lest he should come to some misfortune by the hatred his brethren bore him; and he committed his son’s preservation to him. Upon which Abennerig gladly received the young man, and had a great affection for him, and married him to his own daughter, whose name was Samacha: he also bestowed a country upon him, from which he received large revenues.
- But when Monobazus was grown old, and saw that he had but a little time to live, he had a mind to come to the sight of his son before he died. So he sent for him, and embraced him after the most affectionate manner, and bestowed on him the country called Carra; it was a soil that bare amomum in great plenty: there are also in it the remains of that ark, wherein it is related that Noah escaped the deluge, and where they are still shown to such as are desirous to see them. (3) Accordingly, Izates abode in that country until his father’s death. But the very day that Monobazus died, queen Helena sent for all the grandees, and governors of the kingdom, and for those that had the armies committed to their command; and when they were come, she made the following speech to them: "I believe you are not unacquainted that my husband was desirous Izates should succeed him in the government, and thought him worthy so to do. However, I wait your determination; for happy is he who receives a kingdom, not from a single person only, but from the willing suffrages of a great many." This she said, in order to try those that were invited, and to discover their sentiments. Upon the hearing of which, they first of all paid their homage to the queen, as their custom was, and then they said that they confirmed the king’s determination, and would submit to it; and they rejoiced that Izates’s father had preferred him before the rest of his brethren, as being agreeable to all their wishes: but that they were desirous first of all to slay his brethren and kinsmen, that so the government might come securely to Izates; because if they were once destroyed, all that fear would be over which might arise from their hatred and envy to him. Helena replied to this, that she returned them her thanks for their kindness to herself and to Izates; but desired that they would however defer the execution of this slaughter of Izates’s brethren till he should be there himself, and give his approbation to it. So since these men had not prevailed with her, when they advised her to slay them, they exhorted her at least to keep them in bonds till he should come, and that for their own security; they also gave her counsel to set up some one whom she could put the greatest trust in, as a governor of the kingdom in the mean time. So queen Helena complied with this counsel of theirs, and set up Monobazus, the eldest son, to be king, and put the diadem upon his head, and gave him his father’s ring, with its signet; as also the ornament which they call Sampser, and exhorted him to administer the affairs of the kingdom till his brother should come; who came suddenly upon hearing that his father was dead, and succeeded his brother Monobazus, who resigned up the government to him.
- Now, during the time Izates abode at Charax-Spasini, a certain Jewish merchant, whose name was Ananias, got among the women that belonged to the king, and taught them to worship God according to the Jewish religion. He, moreover, by their means, became known to Izates, and persuaded him, in like manner, to embrace that religion; he also, at the earnest entreaty of Izates, accompanied him when he was sent for by his father to come to Adiabene; it also happened that Helena, about the same time, was instructed by a certain other Jew and went over to them. But when Izates had taken the kingdom, and was come to Adiabene, and there saw his brethren and other kinsmen in bonds, he was displeased at it; and as he thought it an instance of impiety either to slay or imprison them, but still thought it a hazardous thing for to let them have their liberty, with the remembrance of the injuries that had been offered them, he sent some of them and their children for hostages to Rome, to Claudius Caesar, and sent the others to Artabanus, the king of Parthia, with the like intentions.
- And when he perceived that his mother was highly pleased with the Jewish customs, he made haste to change, and to embrace them entirely; and as he supposed that he could not he thoroughly a Jew unless he were circumcised, he was ready to have it done. But when his mother understood what he was about, she endeavored to hinder him from doing it, and said to him that this thing would bring him into danger; and that, as he was a king, he would thereby bring himself into great odium among his subjects, when they should understand that he was so fond of rites that were to them strange and foreign; and that they would never bear to be ruled over by a Jew. This it was that she said to him, and for the present persuaded him to forbear. And when he had related what she had said to Ananias, he confirmed what his mother had said; and when he had also threatened to leave him, unless he complied with him, he went away from him, and said that he was afraid lest such an action being once become public to all, he should himself be in danger of punishment for having been the occasion of it, and having been the king’s instructor in actions that were of ill reputation; and he said that he might worship God without being circumcised, even though he did resolve to follow the Jewish law entirely, which worship of God was of a superior nature to circumcision. He added, that God would forgive him, though he did not perform the operation, while it was omitted out of necessity, and for fear of his subjects. So the king at that time complied with these persuasions of Ananias. But afterwards, as he had not quite left off his desire of doing this thing, a certain other Jew that came out of Galilee, whose name was Eleazar, and who was esteemed very skillful in the learning of his country, persuaded him to do the thing; for as he entered into his palace to salute him, and found him reading the law of Moses, he said to him, "Thou dost not consider, O king! that thou unjustly breakest the principal of those laws, and art injurious to God himself, [by omitting to be circumcised]; for thou oughtest not only to read them, but chiefly to practice what they enjoin thee. How long wilt thou continue uncircumcised? But if thou hast not yet read the law about circumcision, and dost not know how great impiety thou art guilty of by neglecting it, read it now." When the king had heard what he said, he delayed the thing no longer, but retired to another room, and sent for a surgeon, and did what he was commanded to do. He then sent for his mother, and Ananias his tutor, and informed them that he had done the thing; upon which they were presently struck with astonishment and fear, and that to a great degree, lest the thing should be openly discovered and censured, and the king should hazard the loss of his kingdom, while his subjects would not bear to be governed by a man who was so zealous in another religion; and lest they should themselves run some hazard, because they would be supposed the occasion of his so doing. But it was God himself who hindered what they feared from taking effect; for he preserved both Izates himself and his sons when they fell into many dangers, and procured their deliverance when it seemed to be impossible, and demonstrated thereby that the fruit of piety does not perish as to those that have regard to him, and fix their faith upon him only. (4) But these events we shall relate hereafter.
- But as to Helena, the king’s mother, when she saw that the affairs of Izates’s kingdom were in peace, and that her son was a happy man, and admired among all men, and even among foreigners, by the means of God’s providence over him, she had a mind to go to the city of Jerusalem, in order to worship at that temple of God which was so very famous among all men, and to offer her thank-offerings there. So she desired her son to give her leave to go thither; upon which he gave his consent to what she desired very willingly, and made great preparations for her dismission, and gave her a great deal of money, and she went down to the city Jerusalem, her son conducting her on her journey a great way. Now her coming was of very great advantage to the people of Jerusalem; for whereas a famine did oppress them at that time, and many people died for want of what was necessary to procure food withal, queen Helena sent some of her servants to Alexandria with money to buy a great quantity of corn, and others of them to Cyprus, to bring a cargo of dried figs. And as soon as they were come back, and had brought those provisions, which was done very quickly, she distributed food to those that were in want of it, and left a most excellent memorial behind her of this benefaction, which she bestowed on our whole nation. And when her son Izates was informed of this famine,
ENDNOTES
(2): Josephus here uses the word monogene, an only begotten son, for no other than one best beloved, as does both the Old and New Testament, I mean where there were one or more sons besides, Gen_22:2; Heb_11:17. See the note on B. I. ch. 13. sect. 1.
(3): It is here very remarkable, that the remains of Noah’s ark were believed to he still in being in the days of Josephus. See the note on B. I. ch. 3. sect. 5.
(4): Josephus is very full and express in these three chapters, 3., 4., and 5., in observing how carefully Divine Providence preserved this Izates, king of Adiabene, and his sons, while he did what he thought was his bounden duty, notwithstanding the strongest political motives to the contrary.
(5): This further account of the benefactions of Izates and Helena to the Jerusalem Jews which Josephus here promises is, I think, no where performed by him in his present works. But of this terrible famine itself in Judea, take Dr. Hudson’s note here: - "This ( says he ) is that famine foretold by Agabus, Act_11:28, which happened when Claudius was consul the fourth time; and not that other which happened when Claudius was consul the second time, and Cesina was his colleague, as Scaliger says upon Eusebius, p. 174." Now when Josephus had said a little afterward, ch. 5. sect. 2, that "Tiberius Alexander succeeded Cuspius Fadus as procurator," he immediately subjoins, that" under these procurators there happened a great famine in Judea." Whence it is plain that this famine continued for many years, on account of its duration under these two procurators. Now Fadus was not sent into Judea till after the death of king Agrippa, i.e. towards the latter end of the 4th year of Claudius; so that this famine foretold by Agabus happened upon the 5th, 6th, and 7th years of Claudius, as says Valesius on Euseb. II. 12. Of this famine also, and queen Helena’s supplies, and her monument, see Moses Churenensis, p. 144, 145, where it is observed in the notes that Pausanias mentions that her monument also.
Mat 23:15 Woe unto you, scribes and Pharisees, hypocrites! for ye compass sea and land to make one proselyte, and when he is made, ye make him twofold more the child of hell than yourselves.
- The pharisees make them twice as likely to go to hell.
- These people would go to great lengths to make this one convert even worse than them.
Christ saves. To maintain your salvation, you must keep the law of Moses.
The sabbath, the new moons, the dietary laws, etc. they weren’t ever a controversy. If something is established and there is silence going forward regarding it, then it never goes away.
You have to keep the law through christ to be saved. There are steps to salvation.
When the apostles went to the Jews, they knew what they were repenting from; the only difference was to also believe in Jesus.
Christianity today teaches repentance from sin without actually turning from sin.
Believe in Christ & Repent from sin -> Have fruits of repentance and keep the law in Christ
Connect Acts 15:1 with Matthew 1:21. This describes what Jesus came to save people from.
Belief in Jesus blots/cancels out PAST sins.
Now that they have been converted, Acts 21 - after the intro.
Peter says:
- Saved by Christ
- Save yourselves
James gave the Gentiles four precepts to start them off with. And he said they would learn the rest.
Christians today say that nothing that you do can affect your salvation. Even though in Acts 2, Peter told them to save yourselves from this untoward generation.
So, first Peter tells you that you have to be saved by Christ. Then he turns around saying save yourselves. That means you gotta do something.
This is the analogy: Christians see Jesus as this lifeguard that keeps jumping in the pool while you're drowning and keeps pulling you out even though he was the one who told you to not get in the pool in the first place. The Bible describes Jesus as you drowning and he shows you what to do to save yourself, by giving you the life preserver. So if someone asks you, you would be right to say that Jesus saved me because he was the one that threw you the life preserver, but he made me participate in my own salvation. I had to play a role in it. That is the part that Christians miss.
Christians Do Not Understand Acts 15:19-20
A critical analysis of the common misinterpretation of Acts 15:19-20 and how it affects the Christian faith and practice.
Jul 30, 2022: "Christians Do NOT Understand Acts 15:19-20!" starts at ~32 minutes in.
Notes taken on Jan 3, 2024
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2024.05.27 16:55 AnyCatch4796 A day in the life for a 12 year old in 2008
2008 was a very hard year for adults, young adults in particular. Those born in the 2000s were very young and may not remember this time very well (outside of 2000 and maybe 2001- i know that people born later could also remember, but not to the same extent). Thought I’d share it from the perspective of a stupid and carefree preteen lol.
Every morning I woke up to my Jason Mraz CD playing, but it was always just the beginning of the first song on the album because my alarm clock wasn’t advanced enough to shuffle lol
Afterward, I’d get out of bed and make myself breakfast and coffee (which I started drinking in 2005 at 9). I’d hope that reruns of Full House would be on tv before school, but usually it was Fresh Prince or Family Matters.
I’d walk by myself to the school bus (my sisters were already in HS) and listen to my iPod Nano- the Jonas brothers, Avril Lavigne, Miley Cyrus, Pink, Akon, Snoop, Usher, My Chemical Romance, The Avett Brothers, and sufjan Stevens were my favorite at the time (quite a diverse taste for a 12 year old lol)
On the bus i might text a friend from my flip phone and say “don’t text back!!” At the end so they wouldn’t use up my texts for the month.
School was just school, I guess. We never had any electronics assigned to us which is different than how it is now. Only had computer class from time to time. We still passed notes in class and we loved playing ZAP! A game where you had to write a time and someone’s name on someone’s hand. If they looked at the name (which was on the palm) before the time (which was on the back of the hand), they had to ask that person out. It was a HUGE trend.
After school, my friend and I would make prank calls on her phone on the bus because she had way more minutes than me. Usually we’d call one of our crushes and hang up as soon as they answered.
When I got home, I’d check my MySpace and AIM (I made my MySpace in 2007 when I started 6th grade). Then I’d either play the sims 2, play piano, bother my older sisters, draw (usually portraits of my celebrity idols… or my crushes lol), call my neighbors and cause chaos around the neighborhood (we especially loved playing in the constructions lots/unfinished houses that were completely abandoned during the recession), talk to my best friend on my landline for hours while one of my sisters secretly listened in, or I’d take the camcorder and film myself doing some weird skit I’d make up on the spot. I have hundreds of hours of footage between 06-10 and it’s great.
I would wind down by watching an episode of Degrassi with my sister, or maybe watching Lost with my mom. In bed I’d read my Twilight novel and drift off to sleep to visions of Edward falling in love with 12 year old me- and probably of Joe Jonas coming to fight him for my love lmao.
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Every morning I woke up to my Jason Mraz CD playing, but it was always just the beginning of the first song on the album because my alarm clock wasn’t advanced enough to shuffle lol
Afterward, I’d get out of bed and make myself breakfast and coffee (which I started drinking in 2005 at 9). I’d hope that reruns of Full House would be on tv before school, but usually it was Fresh Prince or Family Matters.
I’d walk by myself to the school bus (my sisters were already in HS) and listen to my iPod Nano- the Jonas brothers, Avril Lavigne, Miley Cyrus, Pink, Akon, Snoop, Usher, My Chemical Romance, The Avett Brothers, and sufjan Stevens were my favorite at the time (quite a diverse taste for a 12 year old lol)
On the bus i might text a friend from my flip phone and say “don’t text back!!” At the end so they wouldn’t use up my texts for the month.
School was just school, I guess. We never had any electronics assigned to us which is different than how it is now. Only had computer class from time to time. We still passed notes in class and we loved playing ZAP! A game where you had to write a time and someone’s name on someone’s hand. If they looked at the name (which was on the palm) before the time (which was on the back of the hand), they had to ask that person out. It was a HUGE trend.
After school, my friend and I would make prank calls on her phone on the bus because she had way more minutes than me. Usually we’d call one of our crushes and hang up as soon as they answered.
When I got home, I’d check my MySpace and AIM (I made my MySpace in 2007 when I started 6th grade). Then I’d either play the sims 2, play piano, bother my older sisters, draw (usually portraits of my celebrity idols… or my crushes lol), call my neighbors and cause chaos around the neighborhood (we especially loved playing in the constructions lots/unfinished houses that were completely abandoned during the recession), talk to my best friend on my landline for hours while one of my sisters secretly listened in, or I’d take the camcorder and film myself doing some weird skit I’d make up on the spot. I have hundreds of hours of footage between 06-10 and it’s great.
I would wind down by watching an episode of Degrassi with my sister, or maybe watching Lost with my mom. In bed I’d read my Twilight novel and drift off to sleep to visions of Edward falling in love with 12 year old me- and probably of Joe Jonas coming to fight him for my love lmao.
2024.05.27 16:15 mrswhiskerson5 Does this sound like a covert?
I feel like I'm gaslighted myself at this point to avoid the truth of my situation. I previously was in a relationship with a narcissist (borderline sociopath) and we had a kid together. We broke up when my daughter was 1. Within a few months, I met my current husband. We've been together for 9 years now. I've been through the most horrific narcissistic abuse from my ex for the past 9 years and my husband has been here through it all...but for the past few years I've started to think my husband is also a narcissist, the covert kind, and I'm terrified.
He love bombed me in the beginning but shortly into our relationship, there were red flags. Like him wanting to move 7 hours away after only dating 2 months and he's asking me if I will stay with him. I told him I didn't know him well enough to be in a long distance relationship and commit myself to someone I recently met. He acted like I was the worst person in the world and I didn't really care about him, etc. Needless to say, we stayed together and he didn't end up moving at that time. I'm not going to go into 9 years of relationship details but there's so much. I just want to ask about this particular exchange we had yesterday. Yall tell me if this is normal responses or something seems off.
We got into an argument in the car (one of many occasions) and after some silence, I said sorry to him. (I consider myself almost expert level in narcissism because of my ex lol so I know how to Grey rock and not react, etc to malignant types) I wanted to see his response to me saying sorry, even though he started the fight. He shook his head at me and looked away, like a disappointed dad does his child. Then he finally said sorry too but in a way that put the blame on me. He said he wasn't going to engage in this type of stuff anymore and go back to who he was. I asked what he meant by that. He said "go back to who I was before I met you. You made me this way"
At that point,
I said "What can I do to communicate in a healthy and constructive way when I feel like my feelings have been hurt or I need to address an issue? How should I best approach?"
Him: "I don't know because I'm not like this" (he ALWAYS says this)
Me: Okay, hypothetically how could anyone approach you if they had an issue or problem and needed to resolve it in a healthy way with you?"
Him: I don't know because that doesn't exist. I've literally never had an issue with anybody. No one has ever had anything bad to say about me. I've always gotten along with everyone.
Me: So you believe that NO ONE has EVER said or thought anything negative towards you, even down to possibly the way you put on your socks annoys them.
Him: no babe, I've been trying to tell you this. You're the only one who seems to have a problem with me.
Me: So all your past relationships, none of them ever made any comments? Or when one of them broke up with you-
Him: I broke up with every single one of my exes because they weren't good enough.
Me: So why was I good enough?
Him: I fell in love with you the second I saw you.
Me: But how? What is it about me?
Him: I don't know. I just did. (I've asked him previously what he loves about me and he always gets defensive and tells me he doesn't idolize traits in people blah blah. He constantly acts like certain things are below him, but he does it in a very subtle, almost victim martyr way)
Me: okay...so going back, what about just name a few flaws you think you have. If you want, I'll go first
Him: sits there in silence looking very uncomfortable mmm I just- I don't know I don't focus on my flaws and I don't think about it so I can't tell you
Me: Well how do you better yourself or reflect on things that could make you better?
Him: I don't. That's just unhealthy to sit there and think about your flaws 24/7 and be all depressed
Me: Well I never said to dwell on them, I asked a very surface level question, just "what are your flaws?"
We went back and forth with him deflecting and being extremely uncomfortable about talking about anything that could possibly be "wrong" with him.
This was almost a 30 minute convo so it didn't go exactly like the text above, but read my tone as a casual conversation/gentle parent type. I'm always very calm and level headed when talking to him, in a way that I'm trying to get to know him or share intimate and vulnerable things with him because I will always share what I may see wrong in myself and things I'd like to improve on. He has yet to really self reflect on anything.
He constantly dodges any questions I have about better communication, how we can improve our relationship, etc. His response is always "no one else thinks these things about me and you paint me as a person I am not. Everyone has always got along with me. You're the only one who has a problem" but he will also try to tell me that my (very malignant) ex may have been justified in the way he treated me and maybe I'm the problem. He only brings this up when we are arguing. Every other time he talks about how evil my ex is.
I have many more examples and this may not be the best one. I just can't wrap my head around someone who thinks as a person they don't ever have anything to possibly improve on or can't answer a simple question like "how can I effectively express concerns with you"
I always feel like I have to walk on eggshells or be very careful in how I word things because I never know when he will go off. He's not very rage-y. He can be sometimes but he's more of a judgement silent treatment type person.
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He love bombed me in the beginning but shortly into our relationship, there were red flags. Like him wanting to move 7 hours away after only dating 2 months and he's asking me if I will stay with him. I told him I didn't know him well enough to be in a long distance relationship and commit myself to someone I recently met. He acted like I was the worst person in the world and I didn't really care about him, etc. Needless to say, we stayed together and he didn't end up moving at that time. I'm not going to go into 9 years of relationship details but there's so much. I just want to ask about this particular exchange we had yesterday. Yall tell me if this is normal responses or something seems off.
We got into an argument in the car (one of many occasions) and after some silence, I said sorry to him. (I consider myself almost expert level in narcissism because of my ex lol so I know how to Grey rock and not react, etc to malignant types) I wanted to see his response to me saying sorry, even though he started the fight. He shook his head at me and looked away, like a disappointed dad does his child. Then he finally said sorry too but in a way that put the blame on me. He said he wasn't going to engage in this type of stuff anymore and go back to who he was. I asked what he meant by that. He said "go back to who I was before I met you. You made me this way"
At that point,
I said "What can I do to communicate in a healthy and constructive way when I feel like my feelings have been hurt or I need to address an issue? How should I best approach?"
Him: "I don't know because I'm not like this" (he ALWAYS says this)
Me: Okay, hypothetically how could anyone approach you if they had an issue or problem and needed to resolve it in a healthy way with you?"
Him: I don't know because that doesn't exist. I've literally never had an issue with anybody. No one has ever had anything bad to say about me. I've always gotten along with everyone.
Me: So you believe that NO ONE has EVER said or thought anything negative towards you, even down to possibly the way you put on your socks annoys them.
Him: no babe, I've been trying to tell you this. You're the only one who seems to have a problem with me.
Me: So all your past relationships, none of them ever made any comments? Or when one of them broke up with you-
Him: I broke up with every single one of my exes because they weren't good enough.
Me: So why was I good enough?
Him: I fell in love with you the second I saw you.
Me: But how? What is it about me?
Him: I don't know. I just did. (I've asked him previously what he loves about me and he always gets defensive and tells me he doesn't idolize traits in people blah blah. He constantly acts like certain things are below him, but he does it in a very subtle, almost victim martyr way)
Me: okay...so going back, what about just name a few flaws you think you have. If you want, I'll go first
Him: sits there in silence looking very uncomfortable mmm I just- I don't know I don't focus on my flaws and I don't think about it so I can't tell you
Me: Well how do you better yourself or reflect on things that could make you better?
Him: I don't. That's just unhealthy to sit there and think about your flaws 24/7 and be all depressed
Me: Well I never said to dwell on them, I asked a very surface level question, just "what are your flaws?"
We went back and forth with him deflecting and being extremely uncomfortable about talking about anything that could possibly be "wrong" with him.
This was almost a 30 minute convo so it didn't go exactly like the text above, but read my tone as a casual conversation/gentle parent type. I'm always very calm and level headed when talking to him, in a way that I'm trying to get to know him or share intimate and vulnerable things with him because I will always share what I may see wrong in myself and things I'd like to improve on. He has yet to really self reflect on anything.
He constantly dodges any questions I have about better communication, how we can improve our relationship, etc. His response is always "no one else thinks these things about me and you paint me as a person I am not. Everyone has always got along with me. You're the only one who has a problem" but he will also try to tell me that my (very malignant) ex may have been justified in the way he treated me and maybe I'm the problem. He only brings this up when we are arguing. Every other time he talks about how evil my ex is.
I have many more examples and this may not be the best one. I just can't wrap my head around someone who thinks as a person they don't ever have anything to possibly improve on or can't answer a simple question like "how can I effectively express concerns with you"
I always feel like I have to walk on eggshells or be very careful in how I word things because I never know when he will go off. He's not very rage-y. He can be sometimes but he's more of a judgement silent treatment type person.
2024.05.27 11:17 ilovenapes 240527 Current Status of Award Votings
Hi fellow EverAfters!
Wanna vote but don't have time to grind and watch ads?
Not a problem!👌
Just participate in our Donation Drive (PayPal now available! 😲) and let the voting team handle the rest! 😎
However, if you do have time to spare, kindly help us with a few taps on your phone and vote! 😁
Here is a list of on-going voting campaigns and their current status:
Our participants here are Yunha & Elisia.
We know that there are other rappers in UNIS, but Gehlee was the only one nominated by UPICK, so please don't be confused. 😅
Also, don't vote yet!!
UPICK has announced a Time Attack event later today, 9pm-10pm KST. Any amount of voting points used during that time will be returned back 100% tomorrow.
The timing of the payback is just right for the last day of voting tomorrow. Let's use this for our advantage and ensure our victory! 👍
Judging Criteria (as per last year's): 1. Professional judges and SMA Organizing Committee (50%) 2. Album sales (25%) 3. Mobile voting worldwide (25%) - monthly voting contributes to the main voting as per SMA's current front page notice.
As per F&F CEO, an extension of two more years will be considered if UNIS wins the "Rookie of the Year" award.
I have a feeling this is not the only one with an award of this kind though. Please comment below if you have information regarding other "Rookie of the Year" awards.
Did I miss something?
If yes, please mention them in the comments so I can include them on my next update 👍. Thanks!
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Wanna vote but don't have time to grind and watch ads?
Not a problem!👌
Just participate in our Donation Drive (PayPal now available! 😲) and let the voting team handle the rest! 😎
However, if you do have time to spare, kindly help us with a few taps on your phone and vote! 😁
Here is a list of on-going voting campaigns and their current status:
Winnable Purely by Fan Votes 🤳
UPICK (Best Idol Chemistry):
Deadline: May 28, 2024 (tomorrow 🫣)| App Name | Current Place | Opponent |
|---|---|---|
| UPICK | 4th - 2,032,549 votes | 1st - 2,170,324 votes |
UPICK (Best Idol Rapper):
Deadline: May 29, 2024| App Name | Current Place | Opponent |
|---|---|---|
| UPICK | 4th - 1,208,135 votes | 1st - 1,336,225 votes |
Also, don't vote yet!!
UPICK has announced a Time Attack event later today, 9pm-10pm KST. Any amount of voting points used during that time will be returned back 100% tomorrow.
The timing of the payback is just right for the last day of voting tomorrow. Let's use this for our advantage and ensure our victory! 👍
Includes Other Criteria 📊
34th SMA Rookie Award (Monthly Voting - May):
Deadline: May 31, 2024| App Name | Current Place | Opponent |
|---|---|---|
| PODOAL | 1st - 361,500 votes | 2nd - 86,700 votes |
| my1pick | 1st - 60.69% | 2nd - 31.38% |
| K-POP SEOUL | 1st - 4,880 votes | 2nd - 1,464 votes |
As per F&F CEO, an extension of two more years will be considered if UNIS wins the "Rookie of the Year" award.
I have a feeling this is not the only one with an award of this kind though. Please comment below if you have information regarding other "Rookie of the Year" awards.
If yes, please mention them in the comments so I can include them on my next update 👍. Thanks!
2024.05.27 09:41 taylrbrwr My Take on the Symbolism in Donnie Darko (based on Jungian Psychology)
I understand it doesn’t make physical sense why an artifact would cause a tangent universe to be created or why it being sent back is necessary, but this film is rich in symbolism based on Jungian psychology and Gnostic beliefs. The tangent universe is a metaphor for the artificial self, while the primary universe represents the authentic self. Trauma in life creates wounds, leading our ego to create masks to cope. These masks result in false interactions, desires, and motives that we believe are genuine. However, it’s often just our ego protecting itself from further damage and tricking us into seeking validation that our wounds make us believe we need.
To sacrifice or kill the artificial self (as Donnie did in the film), we must metaphorically time travel to the inflection point where we became damaged, and then we must heal. Usually, the trauma we must heal from is caused by other individuals in this flawed world.
This is why all the characters in Donnie’s world are troubled:
While it’s a startling concept, it suggests that everyone in our reality could be projections of our minds. This might sound a bit out there, but I only watched this film in January 2023 because I kept briefly reading a conspiracy about this film, then soon afterward, began encountering the number 88 in bizarre and persistent ways (a phenomenon known as synchronicity). Finally, I watched the film, which triggered a year-long journey of awakening, allowing me to heal from past traumas and gain a deeper understanding of myself.
Additionally, I briefly mentioned the concept of the “ego” (Donnie perceiving himself as a superhero), but Frank represents Donnie’s shadow (his darker, repressed qualities, particularly related to lust). Moreover, Gretchen represents Donnie’s Anima (his connection to the collective unconscious — his “cellar door”). Richard Kelly was fresh out of film school with no experience when he made this film, which is surprising. However, his knowledge of mysticism and the inner workings of the Self resonated with many. I’m grateful the film was made. If this interests any of you, I encourage you to research some of the occult, synchronicity, Carl Jung, trauma, and esoteric symbolism (such as lunar and solar symbolism and their parallels to the conscious and unconscious selves, the solar eclipse, the number 88 and its relation to the solar and lunar analemmas, and the songs used in the film like “Never Tear Us Apart”). I believe there’s also commentary about America and the Boomer generation that Richard Kelly makes (mentioned here).
Let me know if you’d like some resources on these theories! I wrote more about this symbolism here, here, here, and here
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To sacrifice or kill the artificial self (as Donnie did in the film), we must metaphorically time travel to the inflection point where we became damaged, and then we must heal. Usually, the trauma we must heal from is caused by other individuals in this flawed world.
This is why all the characters in Donnie’s world are troubled:
• His father is passive. • His mother doesn’t value family. • The school fires the only caring teacher, and another teacher supports a pedophile. • His girlfriend’s parents are abusive. • His friends bully the poor Chinese girl who idolizes Donnie (this idolization is another response to trauma, which is why Donnie had to hold her and say everything would work out) • The self-help guru preached choosing love, but chose lust himself (he had a damaged inner-child and coped with it through lust)In the Director’s Cut, Richard Kelly commented extensively on how the characters in Donnie Darko were unconsciously maneuvered by God to guide Donnie towards his sacrificial fate. This interpretation adds another layer to the film, reflecting the classic Jungian belief that the external world we experience is merely a projection of our inner psyches. It’s as if reality is a simulation, with our higher selves guiding us towards healing.
While it’s a startling concept, it suggests that everyone in our reality could be projections of our minds. This might sound a bit out there, but I only watched this film in January 2023 because I kept briefly reading a conspiracy about this film, then soon afterward, began encountering the number 88 in bizarre and persistent ways (a phenomenon known as synchronicity). Finally, I watched the film, which triggered a year-long journey of awakening, allowing me to heal from past traumas and gain a deeper understanding of myself.
Additionally, I briefly mentioned the concept of the “ego” (Donnie perceiving himself as a superhero), but Frank represents Donnie’s shadow (his darker, repressed qualities, particularly related to lust). Moreover, Gretchen represents Donnie’s Anima (his connection to the collective unconscious — his “cellar door”). Richard Kelly was fresh out of film school with no experience when he made this film, which is surprising. However, his knowledge of mysticism and the inner workings of the Self resonated with many. I’m grateful the film was made. If this interests any of you, I encourage you to research some of the occult, synchronicity, Carl Jung, trauma, and esoteric symbolism (such as lunar and solar symbolism and their parallels to the conscious and unconscious selves, the solar eclipse, the number 88 and its relation to the solar and lunar analemmas, and the songs used in the film like “Never Tear Us Apart”). I believe there’s also commentary about America and the Boomer generation that Richard Kelly makes (mentioned here).
Let me know if you’d like some resources on these theories! I wrote more about this symbolism here, here, here, and here
2024.05.27 07:14 Bitter-Row6673 I Don’t think I’m trans or am I just confused
I‘m quite confused as I am constantly in the back of my head thinking what would It be like to be a woman but, I extreme detail and Constantly Joke about estrogen to my closest friend. Not to Mention Some of My Friend Joke about me being the female in mine and my (ftm) boyfriends’ relationship.
The reason that I doubt I’m trans is for one I’m don’t hate the fact I’m a Guy infant I’m fine with it. I just don’t really like having to be masculine and prefer many fem things over typical guy stuff. Not to Mention I’m really only just delve into LGBTQ stuff and figured out I’m Pan, As is my boyfriend. The second main reason I’m hesitant to think I’m trans is because I’m worried Im just subconsciously thinking im trans to idolize my boyfriend. Which Im worried that im just idolizing him and im not trans. I‘m was born male btw.
But the Joke From My Friends. The Almost Constant thought about being fem. Not to mention I bought my boyfriend a trans flag for him to give to him on his birthday along with other things, and intentionally bought two trans flag bc while looking at them I kinda wanted one for myself.
It’s not that I hate Being a Guy I think I’d be more comfortable as a Girl. Am I trans am I just confused?
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The reason that I doubt I’m trans is for one I’m don’t hate the fact I’m a Guy infant I’m fine with it. I just don’t really like having to be masculine and prefer many fem things over typical guy stuff. Not to Mention I’m really only just delve into LGBTQ stuff and figured out I’m Pan, As is my boyfriend. The second main reason I’m hesitant to think I’m trans is because I’m worried Im just subconsciously thinking im trans to idolize my boyfriend. Which Im worried that im just idolizing him and im not trans. I‘m was born male btw.
But the Joke From My Friends. The Almost Constant thought about being fem. Not to mention I bought my boyfriend a trans flag for him to give to him on his birthday along with other things, and intentionally bought two trans flag bc while looking at them I kinda wanted one for myself.
It’s not that I hate Being a Guy I think I’d be more comfortable as a Girl. Am I trans am I just confused?
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2024.05.27 01:50 cutiedubu Is this how it’s going to be from now on?
I’m specifically talking about the plagiarism accusations that’s getting out of hand within the K-Pop community.
I remember back in 2nd Gen (and even 3rd Gen), groups could have overlapping concepts and nobody could give two fucks about it. We had multiple groups doing innocent, girl/boy next door, girl/boy/teen crush, sophisticated, etc concepts.
That’s what I liked about old gen K-Pop.
And it was exciting to see the group you stan branch out and try different concepts with every comeback because it’s just FUN instead of them being stuck in a box, doing the same recycled concept over and over again.
Now you can’t go a day without someone crying foul and saying your idol copied my idol.
I’m so sick of this whole HYBE vs. MHJ debacle because I seriously think it caused irreparable damage to the K-Pop community and how people think now.
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I remember back in 2nd Gen (and even 3rd Gen), groups could have overlapping concepts and nobody could give two fucks about it. We had multiple groups doing innocent, girl/boy next door, girl/boy/teen crush, sophisticated, etc concepts.
That’s what I liked about old gen K-Pop.
And it was exciting to see the group you stan branch out and try different concepts with every comeback because it’s just FUN instead of them being stuck in a box, doing the same recycled concept over and over again.
Now you can’t go a day without someone crying foul and saying your idol copied my idol.
I’m so sick of this whole HYBE vs. MHJ debacle because I seriously think it caused irreparable damage to the K-Pop community and how people think now.