I’m turning 29 and never had a boyfriend. And it’s not like I’ve tried, I put myself out there both on dating apps and in my life. And all of a sudden, I am panicking I’ve missed my chance
I know I’m pretty and I’m friendly, I am naturally quite a reserved person and very quiet. Im not loud and bubbly, more calm and introverted
Anyway, what baffles me is this dating situation and I don’t know if it’s a sign that something is seriously wrong with me
I met a guy on a dating app last year and it seemed an instant match. Amazing convos, similar goals and values, both intelligent and liked the same things. And the physical spark was lovely too
But he always kept me at such a distance. Dates were lovely and he would hold my hand at the dinner table and speak of how well me and him get along. We really did!
But after several dates, we slept together for the first time. And he had some problems in the bedroom. I was patient and understanding, anyway, the way he kissed and touched me was fantastic. But going forwards from that, he said he was thinking too much
Then after that he only set up daytime dates for a while. I worried he wasn’t attracted to me, I never really saw him admire my body or seem that excited about me despite telling me I was hot and how he feels we get along. There was always this distance where he spaced out dates far apart
And he never flirted over text. He took several days to reply. I wondered why he was dating me at all but on dates I was reminded of how well we got along
And wow was he handsome.
Suddenly he ends things and says he doesn’t feel romantic. Tells me it’s a him thing and nothing to do with me
I’m hurt and confused and wondering what’s wrong with me. But then he comes back to be friends. From time to time he’s checking in, asking to see me and when we’re togetehr he’s always saying how well me and him get along too. Then I won’t hear from him from a while again. Last week he messaged me, exchanged a few short messages and then I asked him how he’s doing and he just stopped replying
And here I am wondering what’s wrong with me and I’ll never have a partner
Could he have his own issues? Part of me wonders if even he likes women at all as he’s certainly not dating anyone else, I spoke to him about it last time we met up.
In fact, he had quite feminine looks to him, he would come with a shoulder tote bags to date. He would talk about the new hair oils he was trying. He never really gave me compliments on dates. When I was naked he complimented my body ‘ooh the way that open shirt frames your boobs.’ And that he liked my underwear. Coupled with the issues during sex. He would never cuddle me after either and in the mornings I felt he just wanted me to leave and he became distant
But something was off. And after he ended things with me he deleted all his dating apps. Could I be right about him not even liking women perhaps? The last 2 guys I dated also came out as gay and I had no idea
Hope there’s nothing wrong with me. Really struggling to find someone now :(

Goldie lives between the forrest and the farm, in a caravan park esk lifestyle. She collects trash and thrifts items to sell occasionally, but still struggling to make ends meet and care for her daughter, she borrows food from her uncles Dobie’s farm.
Marina owns a bunch of different shops and activities around the beach. Owning a big franchise. Becoming quite the public figure with her bubbly demeanour and close professional connection with Tom Nook.
Fauna and Molly live together in the forest and have their own side of the beach, unbothered by marinas marketing. And free to fish. They sell what they catch as well as a wide selection of wild flowers.
Lily is also into marketing, having connections to the tailors, nooks cranny and being the manager of all camp activities. Making her the mutual enemy of marina and the underdog.
Pekoe and Genji live secluded from all the other villagers in their own hidden but extravagant zen garden. Where they gossip about the others. Coming from lucrative backgrounds they’re set with imports and exports.
Judy’s friends with blathers, Celeste and Lily , living not that far away from the museum, and owning her own star grove and lookout. That is very popular with the tourists. Lily and her organise tours and activities for visitors.
And finally maple and Dobie tend to the orchard and their small farm, exchanging their fruits and vegetables with fauna and Molly for fish. Who only live on the other side of the river from them.

After sixty-seven sessions of Curse of Strahd (read all about it here), it was time for a change. So into the wild we went...
My group is nearing the end of Hither, and along the way I've written summaries of each session ("What Just Happened?"), along with interesting/funny quotes from PCs/NPCs ("Certain Things Were Said"), and a list of new characters introduced that session ("Dramatis Personae").
My intention is to write the summaries for each of the five parts of the campaign in a different format. For the Witchlight Carnival, each summary was presented in verse (my own, no machine learning shortcuts!), using the the metre and rhyming structure of various Lewis Carrol poems.
I'd like to share my summaries/poems with you all here, for posterity, and in the hope you'll find them entertaining.
For reference, the players are:

• Holafina (a harengon paladin who has lost three inches of height)
• Skerrek (a kobold druid who has lost the ability to lie)
• Arix (an owlin monk who has lost all sense of direction and is always hungry)
• Jexim (a brash fairy who has lost his diary)
• Sylenos (a beatnik, slacker satyr employed by the Carnival)

NOTE: Lewis Carroll was known to hide secret messages in his poems. I've done the same, revealing the campaign's big twist in one of the poems below. None of my players have picked up on it.

Part I: Welcome to the Witchlight

What Just Happened? (in the style of Jabberwocky)
’Twas twilight when the carnival Did open wide two golden gates, And those with tickets did arrive, Seeking things they had misplaced.
One harengon of curious size, A kobold with a slithy gait, An owlet who possessed two eyes As wide as Annam’s dinner plates.
Yet are we three or are we four? Let’s add vibrations rarefied: A Witchlight hand here to ensure That every guest is Satyrs-fied!
Enter now and taste the sounds, Feel these colours, smell those sights! Kaleidoscopic fun abounds This synaesthesiac’s delight!
Yet where’s the drama? Where’s the tension? Certainly we’ve had a switch (At least in here there is no mention Of that cad von Zarovich).
Instead let’s race a giant snail, Eat candied mushrooms by the pound, Or listen to a gnome assail The tightness of your mother’s gown.
Yet hark! A misadventure glum! Those not heroes please give berth! The best laid plans of love undone By Tasha’s wild unruly mirth
These mirrored halls! This desperate task, To find a luckless paramour A sweet-toothed lass with porcine mask That you could swear you’ve seen before…
’Twas twilight when the carnival Did open wide two golden gates And those with tickets did arrive, Now guided by the wiles of fate.
Dramatis Personae
Arix Specklefoot, a sweet-toothed owlin Holafina, a curiously short harengon Skerrek Tirael, a slithy kobold Sylenos, a cosmic satyr Nicholas Midnight, elderly goblin ticketmaster at the Witchlight Carnival Candlefoot, a mime and not by choice Rubin Sugarwood, a lovesick halfling Ween Sundapple, his laugh-sick paramour Glorange Turple, a poetry gnome
Certain Things Were Said
“I am worried about your ability to sense vibrations that I cannot.” - Skerrek Tirael
“Tymore, goddess of good fortune! Look well upon Shellymoo this day!” - Holafina
“Hate to say it, man, but that gnome really insulted your mother.” - Sylenos
“Snacks?” - Arix Specklefoot

Part II: Lost and Found

What Just Happened? (In the style of The Walrus and the Carpenter )
"The time has come," the Satyr said, "To talk of many things: Of poems—and props—and Jeremy Plum— Of crowns and pixie kings— And why things here keep getting lost— And what this pig-girl means."
"But wait a bit," the Owlin cried, "Before our minds do meet, For some of us are pretty spooked, And I would like a treat!" "No hurry!" said the Satyr, And kicked up cloven feet.
The Owlin and the Kobold Were walking close at hand, They smiled like anything to see The gates of Pixie Land. "If we could only stay a while,” They said, "it would be grand!"
The Satyr sighed so sulkily, Because he thought that Plum Had got no business to be there When all was said and done. (“It's rude of him," the Kobold said, "To try and spoil our fun!")
"Oi, Satyr," said the pixie king, "You've had a pleasant run! Should you be getting back to work?” But answer came there none And this was scarcely odd, because He had real beef with Plum.
Now Arix made a hamster friend Who offered up some clues. The others tried the riding-pug: A pleasant thing to do! (“The pug is fine," the Rabbit said, "But he’s no Shellymoo.”)
"How nice of you to come!” said Plum, "You all are oh-so kind!" Puddlemud said nothing as His teeth began to grind. The Owlin and the Kobold cheered: “That was our FAVORITE ride!”
“A wooden crown," fair Jexim said, Is what we need to come Our way along with golden paint For some un-princely sum.” The others stared, confused, and said: “Now where did YOU come from?”
‘Twas then the party dared approach The famous Mystery Mine Where psychedelic spectacles Broke the Satyr’s mind. (“I really wish,” Zephixo sighed, “You wouldn’t ride while high”).
Next Dirla pulled all kind of things Out of his wagon/portal: Bottles, bunnies, candlesticks, A shining blade of vorpal (Incidentally, there’s a word That kind of rhymes with purple).
“If you put your mind to it And searched for long enough, Do you suppose," the party said, "That you could find our stuff?" "I doubt it," said dear Dirlagraun, And gave a bitter huff.
Then he gave the Harengon The greatest gift by far: A copy of “Gnome On The Run” And bid them au revoir (Morgie would have laughed at that While struggling with slash “R”).
“I do believe,” the Satyr said, “That something is not right, And think we ought to pay a call To Messers Witch and Light.” “I think we ought,” the Owlin said “To first stop for a bite.”
But in their way old Thaco stood, A clown grown grim and surly: “Rabbit! Owlin! Pixie! Skink! You aren’t allowed to be-“ The Fairy interrupted him: “Wait, WHAT did you call me?”
Poor Thaco cried: “Things move too fast! And have since my debut In R-1: To the Aid of Falx From Nineteen Eighty Two! And if you’d seen what I have seen Then you’d smoke bubbles, too!”
Finally he stepped aside, At last the way was clear. The Satyr ambled stealthily With open eyes and ears And pressed them to a wagon large To see what he could hear.
"The time has come," Witch and Light said, "To talk of things galore Of prizes—plans—and kenku pests— and ever so much more— But first we’d better ask inside Those spying at our door!”
Dramatis Personae
Jexim, a puzzled, puzzling fairy Jeremy Plum, operator of the Pixie Kingdom and bestower of silly names Biscuit, a talkative hamster Pinecone, a riding-pug Zephixo, dwarven inventor and mastermind behind the Mystery Mine Ernest Wilde, middle-aged calliope master currently inhabiting the body of his pet monkey Marigold, his button-collecting goblin assistant Dirlagraun, a kindly but inefficient displacer beast, minder of lost children and property Thaco, a bubble-smoking clown who is long past his prime
Certain Things Were Said
"Worried I was, with talk of missing supper." - Arix Specklefoot
"Could you not just purchase a new pair?" - Skerrek Tirael "Not like this, man." - Sylenos
"If you'd see the things I've seen, you'd smoke a bubble pipe, too." - Thaco
"Is this it?" - Dirlagraun "NO." - Everyone

Part III: On the Trail of the Kenku

What Just Happened? (In the style of The Hunting of the Snark)
"Where the heck is our stuff? We just want to know This Harengon ain't getting bigger, Arix has no idea of where to go And lies send poor Skerrek a-quiver!"
"Would you get back to work?" Mister Light cried, Twirling his cane with a smile, "Otherwise find where this kenku pest hides; She's cramping this carnival's style!"
"Well, that was a bust," said our heroes, conferring, "Anyone got a suggestion? If we need to pull strings to get back our things Then there are some folk we should question."
"Time's an illusion, free will a delusion!" Sylenos' mentor decreed, "Get a contusion battling occlusions, Or relax and have some of this…wait, what was I saying?"
Sylenos proclaimed: "A genius flawed!" "A man/dragon ahead of his time." Skerrek looked at his claws; Holafina at paws, And the other two just rolled their eyes
"A centuar I'm not! I just made a bad trade The "Cloppinton's" just serendipitous, Now lend me your aid and you'll maybe persuade These horsies to drop some significance."
Then they took to the skies on a dragonfly ride (Holafina and Skerrek abreast), When you're this high there's just nowhere to hide (And to which Sylenos attests)
Now Skerrek honed on a runaway gnome Who was fleeing the carnage with glee, Holafina struck home and that's it for this poem For the gnome was the kenku, you see.
Dramatis Personae
Mister Witch, a matter-of-fact elf, devoid of pretense Mister Light, a flamboyant elf, luminous and coy Burly, a philosophical, pumpkin-helmeted bugbear Mandragon, a seeker of truth (and not much else) Diana Cloppington, a centaur who is apparently not, operator of the Carousel Northwind, a very forthcoming treant, operator of the Dragonfly Rides
Certain Things Were Said
"There’s something weird going on. For some reason everyone thinks I don’t do anything around the carnival." - Sylenos
"It's true, Miss Cloppinton! We've ALL lost things." - Arix Specklefoot
"Wait, when did we have biscuits?" - Jexim

Part IV: Through the Looking Glass

What Just Happened? (In the style of A Boat Beneath a Sunny Sky)
Now hear the Kenku’s strange reply (As Arix struggles to apply Triage to these pixie guys)
Asking questions, getting nought Set her on a different course: High sabotage without remorse!
And what has got her so irate Is what’s she trying to intimate: Zybilna has been quiet of late!
Ignore the rest, and let’s take flight To confront dear Witch and Light (Surprisingly, they’re quite contrite)
To keep the carnival in motion A tapestry of lies was woven: A deal with the Hourglass Coven!
Who take from those who can’t afford Entrance through the Witchlight’s doors Miscellanea adored
So THAT’s who taken all your junk! Time to find these Hourglass punks! Which way to this Feywild dump?
But first we’ll make a brief aside So Candlefoot can vocalise His mermaid love (now legalised)
Now the pair can tie the knot And while we’re passing time why not Ride the fabled Bubble Pot?
Yet ere you all are translocated (Everybody’s breath now bated) Arix must be coronated!
The time of truth has come at last Hesitation as you pass Though the hallowed looking glass
Are you afraid to lose your minds? What lies ahead? What lies behind? What do you expect to find?
Will Skerrek ever fabricate? Or Holafina emulate A bunny’s median height and weight?
Shall Jexim’s memoirs find acclaim? Can Monty locate Bobbitt Fane? (…hang on, that’s a different game)
Does Arix ever find the door? And will Sylennos flee the cause To study unemployment law?
Dramatis Personae
Kettlesteam, a mischievous patron of Zybilna Paleesha, a mellifluous mermaid, now reunited with Candlefoot
Certain Things Were Said
“Sylenos, perhaps in eight years you can come back and find your lost employment.” - Skerrek
“Ask me where the exit is.” - Arix Specklefoot “Where is the exit?” - Mister Light “I don’t know.” - Arix

[F4A] Genres and Fandoms!
Hello again! I’m not sure if you’ve seen my other posts about a fandom roleplay but this one is gonna be about any roleplay in general, fandoms included. This’ll be pretty detailed and I’ll let you know the parts if you want to skip ahead (I suggest you don’t). If you don’t wanna read all of this, then don’t. This was made for people willing to read blocks of paragraphs and maybe even respond with their own.
INTRODUCTION
My name is Hina. To know more about me, I hail from Japan and I have been an avid writer ever since I moved to the States when I was 11. My second language is English but I believe it’s been pretty good. I recently turned 22 years old and I'm female. Talking about age, I would be comfortable with you being 17+ and preferably at least 20. Roleplaying with minors isn’t a big thing for me, I apologize. I’m in the west coast, PST timezone. Let’s see.. What other information can I give you? I would say I enjoy skating, basketball, watching tv shows and anime, and reading. My favorite anime is Nana and Death Note.
GENRES + FANDOM
I am not looking for a specific roleplay. I would say i’m skilled in all genres. Sci-fi, fantasy, horror, apocalypse. All of that. Even slice of life, though that depends on what type of plot exactly. To be more specific on each genre, starting off with fantasy, I'm more used to high fantasy and mythology. I’m not that great with medieval, unfortunately. DnD based role plays aren’t really fit for me and I struggle playing with species like ogres. Just putting that out here. For fantasy, I don’t have any specific ideas.
Sci-fi is the genre I have more skill in. Most of my roleplays are based off of them! Specifically, I’m fine with all subgenres of that.
For other genres like horror and apocalypse, I do have some taste. I really like monsters and creepy things from the horror genre like vampires and all of that and I even have my own idea set up in older times dealing with vampire lords and hunters and all of that. I also enjoy eldritch type horror. I also like that one sun genre of it, like video game horror? I’m not sure how to describe it. I also forgot if it even has an official name or if it’s just something used to describe the horror genre. I like Resident Evil, so maybe that’ll tell you the type of horror I usually enjoy. I do have a developed idea of something more eldritch horror.
More on fandoms! To get some other things down, I usually only play OC unless the character you want me to play is one I know more about and I'm more comfortable playing. The fandoms I like in the more anime way are Jojo’s, Nana, Death Note, JJK, AOT, Haikyuu, and probably more. I’m well versed in the Jojo’s, Aot, and JJK fandoms but less knowledgeable on Death Note since i’ve only seen it once. Other fandoms i’m in include ATLA, TLOK, Harry Potter, Resident Evil, Marvel, DC, and many more.
CHARACTERS
I tend to use character sheets to describe my character, these usually consist of names, background, and personality. More so on appearances, I prefer using animated or drawn references than real life people. I enjoy good enough references where I get the idea of how the character would look like.
The types of characters I write are either the lone wolf type that has some sad past which leads them to want to join someone for a redemption arc or the bubbly character who is the one that brings the mood up and is usually seen as trustworthy and of that kind.
I like all types of tropes, especially enemies to lovers or rivalry. I also really enjoy opposites attract as a whole from either opposite personality or something else they would be opposites in. Enemies to lovers takes my heart, though. I love seeing the characters go past the urge to ultimately hate each other and/or go past their usual way of disliking the others lineage or upcoming.
REQUIREMENT
I think this is my last paragraph on the roleplay. It’s the most important, at least. Requirements. All roleplay searches come with them. Or at least that’s what I heard! But don’t fret, there isn’t much.
I’ve seen this as one of the most used requirements, and I agree with it. As someone who’s first language wasn’t English, I understand that you may not be great at it. But please, I do require a partner that at least has proper use of grammar and punctuation. You don’t even have to use big words or anything, just at least know where to put your periods and the placement of your words.
My second requirement is for you to be LITERATE! Please. I’m a big writer, I tend to ramble on and tend to write more than what I thought I would. (like i’m doing right now) I write multiple paragraphs from the starter until the scene relaxes. I also understand that sometimes writing big blocks of words every response is tiring or boring so I don’t expect it all the time, at least after the starter has been made and in more important scenes. Dialogue also cuts my replies shorter.
Please please please be polite in OOC! We may just be role playing together but kindness goes all ways. If we do include OOC, I enjoy talking about many things. My day, movies, games, funny moments and stories, all of that!
I think that’s the end to this wonderful journey of an ad about my search. I hope you are still here, fellow writer! I would LOVE it if you reached out to me! This wasn’t all for nothing, right!
But don’t leave yet! I do have a passcode. I know this was a jumble of words and rambling but I still have to put one in. I heard that there’s a lot of people on here that don’t read things fully and miss out on rules or information! But.. Just because you read through this all, I’ll gladly give you options on the passcode! Also please put in an introduction of yourself! Don’t think “Oh maybe I shouldn’t bother this person with too much to read”! I like seeing big blocks.
PASSCODE:
What’s your dream country to travel to and why?
OR
Who’s your favorite TV show / Cartoon / Game / Anime character?
Feel free to pick both! Now, that’s all from me. Please don’t put your request as just “Wanna rp”!

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[F4A] Genres and Fandoms!
Hello again! I’m not sure if you’ve seen my other posts about a fandom roleplay but this one is gonna be about any roleplay in general, fandoms included. This’ll be pretty detailed and I’ll let you know the parts if you want to skip ahead (I suggest you don’t). If you don’t wanna read all of this, then don’t. This was made for people willing to read blocks of paragraphs and maybe even respond with their own.
INTRODUCTION
My name is Hina. To know more about me, I hail from Japan and I have been an avid writer ever since I moved to the States when I was 11. My second language is English but I believe it’s been pretty good. I recently turned 22 years old and I'm female. Talking about age, I would be comfortable with you being 17+ and preferably at least 20. Roleplaying with minors isn’t a big thing for me, I apologize. I’m in the west coast, PST timezone. Let’s see.. What other information can I give you? I would say I enjoy skating, basketball, watching tv shows and anime, and reading. My favorite anime is Nana and Death Note.
GENRES + FANDOM
I am not looking for a specific roleplay. I would say i’m skilled in all genres. Sci-fi, fantasy, horror, apocalypse. All of that. Even slice of life, though that depends on what type of plot exactly. To be more specific on each genre, starting off with fantasy, I'm more used to high fantasy and mythology. I’m not that great with medieval, unfortunately. DnD based role plays aren’t really fit for me and I struggle playing with species like ogres. Just putting that out here. For fantasy, I don’t have any specific ideas.
Sci-fi is the genre I have more skill in. Most of my roleplays are based off of them! Specifically, I’m fine with all subgenres of that.
For other genres like horror and apocalypse, I do have some taste. I really like monsters and creepy things from the horror genre like vampires and all of that and I even have my own idea set up in older times dealing with vampire lords and hunters and all of that. I also enjoy eldritch type horror. I also like that one sun genre of it, like video game horror? I’m not sure how to describe it. I also forgot if it even has an official name or if it’s just something used to describe the horror genre. I like Resident Evil, so maybe that’ll tell you the type of horror I usually enjoy. I do have a developed idea of something more eldritch horror.
More on fandoms! To get some other things down, I usually only play OC unless the character you want me to play is one I know more about and I'm more comfortable playing. The fandoms I like in the more anime way are Jojo’s, Nana, Death Note, JJK, AOT, Haikyuu, and probably more. I’m well versed in the Jojo’s, Aot, and JJK fandoms but less knowledgeable on Death Note since i’ve only seen it once. Other fandoms i’m in include ATLA, TLOK, Harry Potter, Resident Evil, Marvel, DC, and many more.
CHARACTERS
I tend to use character sheets to describe my character, these usually consist of names, background, and personality. More so on appearances, I prefer using animated or drawn references than real life people. I enjoy good enough references where I get the idea of how the character would look like.
The types of characters I write are either the lone wolf type that has some sad past which leads them to want to join someone for a redemption arc or the bubbly character who is the one that brings the mood up and is usually seen as trustworthy and of that kind.
I like all types of tropes, especially enemies to lovers or rivalry. I also really enjoy opposites attract as a whole from either opposite personality or something else they would be opposites in. Enemies to lovers takes my heart, though. I love seeing the characters go past the urge to ultimately hate each other and/or go past their usual way of disliking the others lineage or upcoming.
REQUIREMENT
I think this is my last paragraph on the roleplay. It’s the most important, at least. Requirements. All roleplay searches come with them. Or at least that’s what I heard! But don’t fret, there isn’t much.
I’ve seen this as one of the most used requirements, and I agree with it. As someone who’s first language wasn’t English, I understand that you may not be great at it. But please, I do require a partner that at least has proper use of grammar and punctuation. You don’t even have to use big words or anything, just at least know where to put your periods and the placement of your words.
My second requirement is for you to be LITERATE! Please. I’m a big writer, I tend to ramble on and tend to write more than what I thought I would. (like i’m doing right now) I write multiple paragraphs from the starter until the scene relaxes. I also understand that sometimes writing big blocks of words every response is tiring or boring so I don’t expect it all the time, at least after the starter has been made and in more important scenes. Dialogue also cuts my replies shorter.
Please please please be polite in OOC! We may just be role playing together but kindness goes all ways. If we do include OOC, I enjoy talking about many things. My day, movies, games, funny moments and stories, all of that!
I think that’s the end to this wonderful journey of an ad about my search. I hope you are still here, fellow writer! I would LOVE it if you reached out to me! This wasn’t all for nothing, right!
But don’t leave yet! I do have a passcode. I know this was a jumble of words and rambling but I still have to put one in. I heard that there’s a lot of people on here that don’t read things fully and miss out on rules or information! But.. Just because you read through this all, I’ll gladly give you options on the passcode! Also please put in an introduction of yourself! Don’t think “Oh maybe I shouldn’t bother this person with too much to read”! I like seeing big blocks.
PASSCODE:
What’s your dream country to travel to and why?
OR
Who’s your favorite TV show / Cartoon / Game / Anime character?
Feel free to pick both! Now, that’s all from me. Please don’t put your request as just “Wanna rp”!

• H 💕

[F4A] Genres and Fandoms!
Hello again! I’m not sure if you’ve seen my other posts about a fandom roleplay but this one is gonna be about any roleplay in general, fandoms included. This’ll be pretty detailed and I’ll let you know the parts if you want to skip ahead (I suggest you don’t). If you don’t wanna read all of this, then don’t. This was made for people willing to read blocks of paragraphs and maybe even respond with their own.
INTRODUCTION
My name is Hina. To know more about me, I hail from Japan and I have been an avid writer ever since I moved to the States when I was 11. My second language is English but I believe it’s been pretty good. I recently turned 22 years old and I'm female. Talking about age, I would be comfortable with you being 17+ and preferably at least 20. Roleplaying with minors isn’t a big thing for me, I apologize. I’m in the west coast, PST timezone. Let’s see.. What other information can I give you? I would say I enjoy skating, basketball, watching tv shows and anime, and reading. My favorite anime is Nana and Death Note.
GENRES + FANDOM
I am not looking for a specific roleplay. I would say i’m skilled in all genres. Sci-fi, fantasy, horror, apocalypse. All of that. Even slice of life, though that depends on what type of plot exactly. To be more specific on each genre, starting off with fantasy, I'm more used to high fantasy and mythology. I’m not that great with medieval, unfortunately. DnD based role plays aren’t really fit for me and I struggle playing with species like ogres. Just putting that out here. For fantasy, I don’t have any specific ideas.
Sci-fi is the genre I have more skill in. Most of my roleplays are based off of them! Specifically, I’m fine with all subgenres of that.
For other genres like horror and apocalypse, I do have some taste. I really like monsters and creepy things from the horror genre like vampires and all of that and I even have my own idea set up in older times dealing with vampire lords and hunters and all of that. I also enjoy eldritch type horror. I also like that one sun genre of it, like video game horror? I’m not sure how to describe it. I also forgot if it even has an official name or if it’s just something used to describe the horror genre. I like Resident Evil, so maybe that’ll tell you the type of horror I usually enjoy. I do have a developed idea of something more eldritch horror.
More on fandoms! To get some other things down, I usually only play OC unless the character you want me to play is one I know more about and I'm more comfortable playing. The fandoms I like in the more anime way are Jojo’s, Nana, Death Note, JJK, AOT, Haikyuu, and probably more. I’m well versed in the Jojo’s, Aot, and JJK fandoms but less knowledgeable on Death Note since i’ve only seen it once. Other fandoms i’m in include ATLA, TLOK, Harry Potter, Resident Evil, Marvel, DC, and many more.
CHARACTERS
I tend to use character sheets to describe my character, these usually consist of names, background, and personality. More so on appearances, I prefer using animated or drawn references than real life people. I enjoy good enough references where I get the idea of how the character would look like.
The types of characters I write are either the lone wolf type that has some sad past which leads them to want to join someone for a redemption arc or the bubbly character who is the one that brings the mood up and is usually seen as trustworthy and of that kind.
I like all types of tropes, especially enemies to lovers or rivalry. I also really enjoy opposites attract as a whole from either opposite personality or something else they would be opposites in. Enemies to lovers takes my heart, though. I love seeing the characters go past the urge to ultimately hate each other and/or go past their usual way of disliking the others lineage or upcoming.
REQUIREMENT
I think this is my last paragraph on the roleplay. It’s the most important, at least. Requirements. All roleplay searches come with them. Or at least that’s what I heard! But don’t fret, there isn’t much.
I’ve seen this as one of the most used requirements, and I agree with it. As someone who’s first language wasn’t English, I understand that you may not be great at it. But please, I do require a partner that at least has proper use of grammar and punctuation. You don’t even have to use big words or anything, just at least know where to put your periods and the placement of your words.
My second requirement is for you to be LITERATE! Please. I’m a big writer, I tend to ramble on and tend to write more than what I thought I would. (like i’m doing right now) I write multiple paragraphs from the starter until the scene relaxes. I also understand that sometimes writing big blocks of words every response is tiring or boring so I don’t expect it all the time, at least after the starter has been made and in more important scenes. Dialogue also cuts my replies shorter.
Please please please be polite in OOC! We may just be role playing together but kindness goes all ways. If we do include OOC, I enjoy talking about many things. My day, movies, games, funny moments and stories, all of that!
I think that’s the end to this wonderful journey of an ad about my search. I hope you are still here, fellow writer! I would LOVE it if you reached out to me! This wasn’t all for nothing, right!
But don’t leave yet! I do have a passcode. I know this was a jumble of words and rambling but I still have to put one in. I heard that there’s a lot of people on here that don’t read things fully and miss out on rules or information! But.. Just because you read through this all, I’ll gladly give you options on the passcode! Also please put in an introduction of yourself! Don’t think “Oh maybe I shouldn’t bother this person with too much to read”! I like seeing big blocks.
PASSCODE:
What’s your dream country to travel to and why?
OR
Who’s your favorite TV show / Cartoon / Game / Anime character?
Feel free to pick both! Now, that’s all from me. Please don’t put your request as just “Wanna rp”!

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21 F. i was in a long term relationship from 16-19. i crushed on him since i was 13. ever since we broke up, we’ve still continued to talk/hook up. which i know is my fault. i shouldn’t be doing that. i am a mid-plus size woman. i’ve dealt with confidence issues since my childhood. i’m struggling to meet other men, considering how hard it is to overcome my confidence issues. but when i hang out with my ex, it’s easy- i don’t get those issues because we’ve known each other for eight years. and that’s why i keep going back to him. im not scared of him judging me. i really do want to get back into the dating world. but i’m so scared of just being seen as fat. i’ve been called fat since i was a little girl. all i want is to not be insecure. i take good care of myself, i have good features, i am kind, and truly have an amazing, bubbly personality. but how do i overcome this fear of being judged? the fear of men seeing me, the way i see myself?

I’m able to hold the Dnieper line against Germany fine, but I just struggle to understand how to go from doing that to pushing to Berlin.
I understand that I should be encircling units/micro-ing and not just unga-bunga battleplan, but I still struggle. I’m able to make a bit of progress in the South against Romania, but when it comes to like retaking Minsk I just feel completely overwhelmed. Like I try to concentrate my tank units at 2 points and pin German Units around where I’m trying to make a breakthrough but I usually go from green to red bubbles at my breakthrough points and can’t get through entrenched units.
I’m using generally accepted Tank designs and Tank templates with flame tank and everything. Maybe I’m just not letting the Germans bleed out enough? I usually give ‘em a good 8 months to attack in vain (with like 15:1 casualties in my favor) before trying to push. Should I be waiting longer? Thanks

i made a throwaway account bc i dont want my friends knowing in depth about my stomach issues lol.
i struggle greatly with swallowing pills. i feel like they get stuck in my throat and im "choking", and it feels like a bubble or some solid object is stuck in my throat (i can still breathe) but it triggers my gag reflex and i end up struggling with that until i tire myself out. (saving the dirty details there). my doctor told me i can try a sample size of linzess to see if it helps, but ive been avoiding it bc its a pill, and i want to know all of the side effects that can happen if i take it. if any of you take linzess (especially if youre a small woman in her 20s) can you tell me what your experience was like with it? being an anxious person aside, i really want to make sure if i experience bad side effects if it will be worth it to fix my ibs-c. sorry for the long post lol, just wanted to give bg info .

I’m struggling to grind bottle caps.Yes you can find them in piles in random buildings but what items are great for selling? The nuclear barrel sells well but if you pick it up too many times you just can’t see due to the bubbles. Any tips?

Just wanted to come in here for those struggling taking it, about to take it, or are on the same path as me.
Over a month ago I was having severe panic attacks. With a mix of PMDD and GAD, I needs help and CBT therapy was not helping. I was crying at my psychiatrist appointment, and we decided on lexapro for my severe anxiety.
The first week was rough. I wanted to stop taking it because my anxiety was through the roof and I couldn’t take it. Horrible sweats, and I was constantly restless.
However, after the first 5 days or so I had very little symptoms. Some fatigue, but I started working out (and didn’t cry when I was running!) and that seemed to help.
Fast forward to now, I feel totally like myself again. I’m back to my bubbly, outgoing self, and genuinely feel happiness every day. The rumination is gone, and although I still have anxiety I can now brush it away like water off a ducks back. I can focus on things throughout the day, go back to my normal hobbies, and listen to music! I used to have horrible insomnia, and that’s COMPLETELY gone. I do get tired from the lexapro, but it’s welcome considering how restless I was before. My sex drive is slowly coming back as well.
I’m so excited for summer and for so many things. My relationship with my boyfriend and friends are stronger, and I do still feel like I have my normal emotions. Truly a miracle drug.
Feel free to reach out to me if you have questions or just want to vent. I’ve been through it before, but wanted to share that the positives GREATLY outweigh the negatives for Lexapro. You got this!!

When I was 18 something happened to me that left me lost,hurt and unhappy,I had to move to another country to start over.its been 4 years ever since and my world revolves around work back to my apartment. I try to be unnoticed at work and it's really been working for 4 years now.
I will read novels,watch movies and if I go out maybe just to do my hair or groceries,all these time I have been telling myself am happy with how my life is,I mean no dramas that comes with friends or relationships.But something happened yesterday that just makes me feel soo alone and sad.Am sick I called my work and it was a surprise because i never miss work so when I asked sometime off I was given permission without struggling.
Am all alone with no one to even talk to and tell them how am feeling, am weak I can't cook and am not used to order food so I have nobody to even cook for me or help me buy medicines I had to wake up and go buy them myself.For the first time in these 4 years I miss that bubbly girl I was before my world came crushing down on me,for the first time I wish I had a friend even just online to talk to.And lastly for the first time I just realised I have been lying to myself that am happy when am not.
It really sucks..

With TFS releasing in only 3 weeks and the slew of new abilities being introduced I wanna talk about Titans, their current state, what is being provided to and what is becoming of them. Also before I make my points I know we are going to be getting a TWID at some point talking about ability reworks and buffs in TFS. I just want to voice my current concerns and opinions.
What’s to come- To start things off least have a chat about Twilight Arsenal. While the concept is fucking awesome my concerns are in its theoretical potential, especially given the state of Void Titans and Void in general. Compared to other Supers I don’t see Twilight Arsenal being capable of more damage than other offensive damaging supers on its own given how you can pick up the axes post super and attack with them individually. I also don’t understand why we would be willing to drop ability uptime on Solar or Stand for example or heavier DPS weapons to pick up an axe that from what gameplay we’ve seen hits like a wet noodle. On top of that unless they grant devour and overshield on melee kill to at least promote killing ads then there will also be next to no survivability either. Given we have a bunch of weapons, abilities and other supers that are great for Ad clear and/or support as well as a lot of DPS being locked into stationary positions away from a boss I’m struggling to see how Twilight Arsenal will fit into the meta.
For what Titans have now- Right now Titans are in a really weird place in the game. Everything’s leaning towards melee focus and it’s not holding out all that well.
Strand is GODLY if used correctly, and in the right cases is just broken. It’s a total outlier for Titans as a whole. It provides the necessary healing and Dr to make a good melee based build. I won’t be surprised if it gets nerfed in some way making them borderline irrelevant. All I can really ask is to not turn it into a useless subclass.
Solar is alright but compared to other solar subclasses it’s struggling a bit. Every class has top tier Solar Supers, but in terms of survivability Titan arguably has the least since it’s just so melee focused and not nearly as potent as Strand Titan is in terms of Healing and DR. I loved Solar Titan since Solar 3.0 but it’s really starting to feel like it’s falling off since melee is just becoming less potent as it used to be.
Stasis I admittedly don’t have any opinions on currently since I haven’t really touched Stasis Titan since the hard nerf they got a while back.
Arc Titan has been pretty much dead since the end of Season of the Deep. It was fun with Arc 3.0 initially and with the Artifact support. Now it just exists. It has the worst healing options in game which is melee based, lower ability uptime and provides no DR at all. You only gain Thundercrash, but that’s on Prismatic so Arc will basically be DOA in TFS.
Void is just awkward, Bubble is nice but outclassed by Well in terms of support. Banner Shield is barely worth it, and I swear it barely makes orbs anymore. Overshield is okay at best in PvE and not as potent or available as passive DR like Woven Mail. Keeping buffs and abilities going is a struggle unless you make a heavily specific restricting build with very little flexibility that locks you into a certain playstyle (I.e. the Monte Carlo shield spam build). Even then in the end you just get an ad clear build which isn’t really necessary at this point with how potent weapons and other subclasses generally function. Void Titans are just sad compared to something like a Void Gyrfalcons Hunter that very flexible, has great survivability, a good super and is just fun.
Melee as a whole- Right now if feels like Titans are being turned into melee machines that aren’t being built to last. The more new subclasses, end game activities, enemies and guns that are introduced the less viable meleeing becomes. Look at the new Gun Bats for example, they fly around and suppress you. How and I supposed to pop my throwing hammer (or use any melee) on those and pick it up again after without succumbing to more, where as a Hunter could throw a tracking knife from a safe distance and get the knife refunded? Then repeat the cycle too? As a long term Titan main I’ve been more and more tempted to go to the other classes cause melee just doesn’t seem too viable anymore, especially on older subclasses. The melee gameplay loop feels like it needs a heavy rework, and needs to have more survivability. Strand is a great example of how Melee should be done imo between its possible DR and healing.

I'm so incredibly sick of being in pain ALL. THE. TIME. I can't sleep. I can't do anything I used to enjoy. My fingers won't work, so I can't cook. I can't read because my hands will go numb. I can't stay on track at work because my brain is fuzzy from lack of sleep.
I used to travel and be fun. I used to do things. I used to be bubbly and upbeat. Now, in the worst moments, I know that if I didn't have my kids and My mom, I wouldn't bother trying to fake it until I make it anymore. I used to just have flares and move on. Now it's effing CONSTANT and it's getting harder and harder to see light at then end of the tunnel I'm struggling through. I'm seeing my rheumatologist today and here's hoping he'll have something to help me through.

Sorry for my bad grammar I’m not good at writing but i wanted to share. Around a year ago I (15F) at the time lived in a smallish house with my single mother, my mum is a very bubbly woman who can start a conversation with anyone and is loved by everyone. I remember one morning hearing her talk to someone outside my bedroom window just shrugging it off I eventually went downstairs to ask who she was talking too. Finding out she was talking to our new neighbour. She was very sympathetic towards him as she described him as very old (she said around 95ish) and lived by himself, a nurse coming to visit him a few times a month, my mum also found out while talking to him he had no family members as they all passed so it really was just him she also mentioned that he was a priest which I found quite creepy.
a few weeks had passed by and my mum been the kind woman she was cut our new neighbours grass for him and would usually strike up a conversation out of pity. I just want to mention that I never saw this man once I’d just heard about him from my mums daily rambling.
My house had a window at the top of my stairs that if you looked out of faces the priests house and as they were almost identically built there was a window facing right back at ours, again I never saw this man only his dim landing light on. It had now been around 3 months since I’d heard from the priest. This One night i will never forget, around 1am I’d gone downstairs to get somthing to eat and on my journey back up the stairs and too my bedroom I looked out the landing window out of just pure instinct. There on the opposite side was the old man , his hand gripping the banister as he helped himself up the stiars, the lighting was terrible but he was very skinny as old people usually are. Been nosy I stood there for a moment wanting to get a good look at him, he was hunched over slightly as he struggled to almost carry his own body weight and I swore I could see the ridges of his spine thought his shirt as he hobbled out of view of the window. Not to be mean but this freaked me the fuck out and I immediately went to my room trying to get that disturbing image out my head before I slept.
Around a week maybe two later the priests nurse showed up at our door asking if we’d seen him recently as she was unable to get into his house as it was completely locked and sealed. she hadn’t heard from him in over 4 months and was getting concerend for his well being. I wasn’t at home to tell her I’d seen him in the window as I was at school so my mother just said she hadnt heard from him either. The nurse called the police who broke down his door. I was just walking home as i reached my house, the police giving another blow at the door with like a pole thing i dont really know what it was all I do know is that when the door finally came down the smell that left that house could make anyones toes curl. All I can describe it as is when ur cat brings home a mouse and it dies under your couch without you knowing.
Rushing inside I immediately went up to my room. Peering out my bedroom window watching the police enter his house, covering their noses. I don’t really remember what happened after that except when they wheeled his body out in a black bag and into the back of a black van. It was sad really I’d never gotten to speak to him and I’d now felt guilty for been so horrified by his appearance.
My mum was also distraught by his passing and was talking to the police outside. The house took weeks to be cleaned as when he’d died all the windows and doors were shut, keeping the smell locked in.
When the police left and the street went silent again i found myself spending more time with my mum downstairs, she has always been religious so as we spoke she lit a candle for him out of respect and to help him pass into heaven. Bringing up the putrid smell I asked her what the police told her. And what she told me has stuck with me since that day. They said he’d died a few months ago and had been found, decomposing in his bed.
At first i just shrugged this off when she spoke, yeah it was disturbing but more sad nobody had noticed his disappearance. But then it clicked. If he died a few months ago, who was it that I saw through the window? I mentioned this to my mum, she also knew I’d never saw or spoke to him while he was alive so she asked me what he looked like.
Wispy white hair and a boney hunch. I still remember her face drop from a blush pink to a pale white.
We moved out a month later.
This story isn’t that interesting as I haven’t had many scary paranormal? Things happen to me but it’s a true story so I hope you enjoyed :)

It's a Bird is a 2004 Graphic Novel by Steven T. Seagle. It is about Seagle being offered writing duties on the Superman comic and his despair at this. You see Seagle doesn't identify with Superman. He hates him as a character who is perfect in literally every way and therefore unwritable. He's under a time limit before the comic is offered to other writers. The book is about how he came to find a window into understanding Superman through his own personal medical circumstances.
Sounds riveting right? Yep, just as it sounds. The artstyle is washed out colour and for at least the first 50 pages of a 132 page book, I was rather bored senseless as things seemed to be going nowhere.
And then there were a couple of pages which gave me a revelation. Mr. Seagle is an INTP and It's a Bird is, on the surface, about his struggles with Superman, but under the surface is a literal graphic representation of the INTP thought process.
I've written this out a few times and tried to link to images of the pages, and automod keeps deleting the posts, so I'm gonna have to do quotes of speech bubbles. Edit. Reddit formatting is a pain. Different scenes are separated by -------

Seagle: "One thing writers have in common is the need to procrastinate. People don't really understand this, but it's not avoiding work. It IS work."
Seagle's Girlfriend Lisa: "What's wrong? And Don't say 'Nothing' or I'll pour this on your receding hairline"
Seagle: "This... guy on the train... construction worker. He was asking me all these questions about comics. He was going on and on about justice and super heroes but he... he had no idea what he was talking about."
Lisa: "Wait, aren't you always complaining that no one is interested in comics anymore? This guy was interested but that's a problem too?"
Seagle: "This is the face I make... when Lisa repeats things I'd previously said to prove that what I'm saying now contradicts what I said before. Doesn't she understand that I'm trying to be depressed and angry? And that logic is only going to get in the way of that?"
"Why do you always side with the people I'm complaining about? I'm your well-educated boyfriend and this guy was a construction worker. He obviously doesn't..."

Lisa: Oh, so his opinion matters less because he works with his hands? Supposedly 'all men are created equal'. When did you get so superior?"

Seagle: "I... I... I'm going to stay at my brother's for a while."
Lisa: "What? You hardly even talk to your brother. Why? Wait are you saying you're moving out?"
Seagle: "I need quiet. I can't think here. I can't... work."
Lisa: "And the reason you can't work is me? Isn't it you who says "Ideas come from everywhere?" Everywhere but me I guess. You can't write Superman because I'm bothering you too much?"
Seagle: "Even Superman has his fortress of solitude"
Lisa: "Do not even start talking comic book crap to me as a justification for your lame behaviour."
Seagle: "What? It's the first thing I've related to about him... A place to go and just THINK. A place not to be badgered 24 hours a day by people who have to know everything about him."
Lisa: "I badger you? Asking if you're alright is having to know everything about...? You know what? You stay and I'll go."
Seagle: "I want to stop her... but her heartbreak is easier to accept than my own."
Seagle then stays in bed for weeks, ignoring all phone calls until everyone thinks he is dead.

Eventually Seagle does have a redemption arc, I won't spoil it but it does make the slog through the first half of the book somewhat worth it. In the grand scheme of things, the story of a writer overcoming writer's block really isn't worth much, but in terms of visualisation of the INTP thought process - especially for people who don't understand INTPs, this book is fucking gold. This should be on the bookshelf of all INTPs. Highly recommended. Especially to people with a Lisa in their life.
So. Do you relate to Superman?

Please give me your unfiltered opinion on people pleasing enablers. The sort of people who may mean well but will 'both sides' an issue when it comes to matters of abuse. Who would rather stand on ceremony in order to create their ideal of a family social gathering while minimising and excusing passive aggressive attacks and abuse directed towards specific vulnerable people in order to keep the peace and their 'idea' of family.
In my case, myself and my partner are trans. We spent years dealing with a family social environment where invalidation of my partners identity by specific family members and friends was typical whenever we visited her mother and certain family or friends were present, to the point where we significantly reduced our visitation over time out of self-protection. The enabler (my partner's mother) always excused this abuse as "well we don't visit often enough so they (the abusers) aren't used to it so apparently there was a need to visit more on our part. An eventual approach was to curate the visits where problematic people were not invited around when we visited.
While never directed at me personally (I was validated), this has nonetheless played a significant role in damaging my own self esteem and self-confidence and triggers persistent rumination as well as anger and frustration in me whenever it bubbles up in my mind (too often). I long wanted to give them time to get used to my partners situation; I gave years and in the end it was still happening. I tolerated it for far too long.
There are many examples including outright aggressive abuse by some of them. The most recent was in many respects the final straw. When we walked into a large family gathering my partner was intentionally misgendered in front of everyone the moment we sat down. This mind you was after a good eight years of transition in her case. That's a long time. I beat myself up for not standing up to these abusers but I was mentally struggling myself for a long time.
In thinking about all the times it's happened, and was allowed to happen or was excused, infuriates me. This was an environment cultivated by her mother. Social gatherings set up by her mother. That while she may not have had control over the situation or over certain people, I believe she would have been well aware of the attitudes of certain family members and sat back and allowed these circumstances to occur regardless.
Some time later I did finally snap and made sure my feelings were known while my partner and her mother spoke on the phone. I said something to effect of "It's been eight years, there's zero excuses at this point. ZERO". Loud enough for her to hear when they were discussing the matter as the mother started up with the same old excuses. The mother barely visits us at all anymore and I think she feels aggrieved since we came to limit our visitation over time as mentioned. It feels as though we've been slowly phased out in preference of these abusive people.
Even if the enabling person hosting the gatherings herself was a lovely and supportive person in her own right towards us, and even though it was never directed at me, my partner and myself are the same and I feel a lot of resentment and anger as a result of these situations occurring. I've had years of this invalidation from strangers myself. I've had it from my own family who I'm no longer in contact with. I've had it a lifetime of trauma surrounding the matter of gender. To have one family space where we were unequivocally supported was apparently too much of an ask. It hurts a lot.
Would be interested in other people's perspectives.

Our painter has been in and done primer and 3 coats of paint in 2 days… There is bubbling and brush marks everywhere. We’re aware with semi gloss and white paint that there will be some showing of flaws in the plastering, but I’m struggling to believe this is normal? Please help/advise.

Sorry if this is TMI but I have spent the vast majority of my ED dealing with severe constipation. I’m talking only going a few times a month without using laxatives etc. I am normally extremely bloated due to it, and have on occasion had to conduct manual evacuations because I physically don’t have the muscle/strength to push. Glamorous, I know…
Anyway, in the past couple of weeks my bowel has done a massive 360° on me and I am now dealing with frequent loose stools, and a lot more abdominal discomfort. I have a stomach ache pretty much constantly, and while pooping daily was really great at the beginning, now several weeks on I can’t say I’m feeling the same. I feel so nauseous and my stomach is ‘bubbly’, I think the really acute pain I have might be hunger pains which is wild because it’s been years since I’ve felt physically hungry to this extent.
Although I am so hungry, I also have pretty much no appetite because I feel constantly sick. I am simultaneously uncomfortably full and uncomfortably hungry. It doesn’t seem to matter what I do. I eat and I’m hungry 10 minutes after, or I’m battling my way through a tiny pot of yogurt because despite knowing I am not eating enough, I am incredibly full after like three mouthfuls.
My sleep is so poor because I am in so much pain and discomfort with my digestion. Also the act of going to the toilet is not that great. As I said my stools are quite loose and I seem to expel a lot more than I ever have. I feel sick, tired, and faint afterwards. Most of the time I’m having to lie on my floor with my feet up to recover from my bowel movement.
I know I should go and see a doctor, but I really don’t want to. I have been covering up how much I have been struggling with my ED, and I also don’t want to cause an inconvenience for anyone when it’s probably my fault I’m in this situation. I don’t want to be pushed into treatment either, I literally just got discharged from the only ED service in my area and I have a lot of trauma associated with their services/clinics. I’m kind of hoping it might just sort its self out. But for now I’m in pain and so upset with myself.

Hey all, we're struggling with a 4 month old with wind. One thing we're doing is making her formula by "swishing" the bottle to make a bit of a vortex, rather than shaking it. The idea is to reduce the amount of air she swallows so she has less trouble with wind. Problem is it makes it hard to dissolve the formula without shaking it hard.
I wondered if there was a way of destroying the air bubbles post shaking. And if not, could there be? (I'm imagining lasers, or maybe some sort of oppostie to the machines they use in bars after pouring Guinness.)
This is all just sleep-deprived thoughts really!