Hi all, I’ve hit my rock bottom and met w my doctor and husband and had an honest conversation about my drinking and how I literally can’t stop. It’s gotten worse over the years and out of control. It was so hard to admit this to my doctor who is also a family friend bc he recommended in patient rehab. I’m scared shitless but know I need to go. I’m in my young 30’s recently married, no kids yet and am motivated to get help and stop drinking. I can’t live like this anymore and feel like I’m letting myself down, friends, family etc. I want to be a better wife and alcohol is destroying everything in my life.
I’m new to this and feel so much shame and guilt but ready to make this decision. I know I’m with my people, hence why I joined the group.
Can anyone recommend or talk about your experience with in patient programs they did in Southern California? Pro’s/con’s etc? I’ve started looking at Betty ford, one in Malibu but not sure at all. Do you have good experiences with the admissions people? I called 1 last night and another today but don’t know how to do this. I’m thankful I have my husband who is so sweet and proud of me and thankful for you all. Thanks in advance!

I (17F) have a coworker who is (17M) and i can’t tell if he likes me (as in wants to date) or just wants to hookup. Recently we have been going out a lot, such as driving him home most nights or hanging out on a hill and watching plans take off while cuddling. This past saturday we hung out and we cuddled on a playground and he kept caressing my face and fixing my hair. He holds my hand when i’m scared (when we walk in the dark) and gives me his hoodie if it’s cold. Keep in mind i currently have one of his hoodies. We ended up making out in the backseat of my car that night, and he kept mentioning to me that he was worried I would regret doing that, and he was very persistent about me not telling anyone about what happened. My friend slyly asked him about his, to which he responded that we were nothing and weren’t talking or anything. Then just tonight I drove him home from work again, this time I told him I was confused on the situation. He said he didn’t really think about it and he doesn’t want it to be a one time thing and that he wants to hangout again this friday. He also said that he would text me and talk about it afterwards. I mentioned to him that I’m being careful since I don’t want to get hurt like my past relationships, to which he responded he wouldn’t hurt me. I dropped him off and he said goodnight.
My question is.. does he want a relationship with me or is he just doing all of this for just a hookup? I really like him, and I would 100% date him. But i don’t want to go for it if he’s just gonna blow me off if we hookup.

I feel so bad, like my about to throw up and cry. I can feel my heart pounding out of my chest. It’s never usually this bad, it’s hasn’t felt like this in 2 years and I feel like I’m dying. I’m not even sure what exactly I’m freaking out about, I just tend to freak myself out about everything and then it gets all bottled up in me and then it all hits me at once but I can’t focus and think about what’s stressing me out because it’s just too much. I’m graduating high school in two weeks and I have no idea what the fuck I’m doing. I’m admitted to college but I don’t understand how anything works I feel like I’m too stupid for this, like I’m going to spend all this money and fail horribly. I also am used to structure and I feel like it’s not going to be structured like I’m used to and it’s stressing me out because I follow a specific routine and I won’t be able to do that the same because it’s fucking stupid I don’t know why I’m even anxious about that that’s stupid?? I just don’t know how to do SHIT I just wing everything and it usually works out for me, I don’t even know how to study I’ve never studied in my life and I physically can’t do it I can’t focus my mind starts wandering. I’m just so frustrated and I’m scared because there’s so much going on in my life all at once and it’s happening so fast and nobody seems to understand why I’m stressing out. I just feel like I’m meant to fail, I can’t envision myself successful and happy because that’s just not who I am I just fucking suck. I’m unlovable there is seriously something wrong with me , nobody even wants to talk to me because I can’t seem to act like a human, people just look at me weird or ignore me when I talk I feel like I’m not human I can’t even see myself as a human. I’m like a failed human idk wtf I’m even doing anymore. It’s like I had so much potential and I always fuck everything up. I just want to cry and hole myself up into a wall so that I don’t have to think anymore, being human is too hard I hate this so much. I feel like a 12 year old trying to do adult things, I don’t feel like I belong anywhere everyone treats me like a child because I fucking act like one. I don’t know how to act like people expect me to, I’m the same person I was when I was 12 and it’s pathetic.

Hello everyone, I have a bit of a niche situation and I am seeking advice for. Background is this, I am currently 24 years old and last year I landed a B2B sales job. While I was initially nervous about my performance it is in a rapidly growing industry, and the product is solid (i.e. ~ sells itself). Fast forward a year and I've consistently been closing (on average) about two sales per week each with an average commission per sale of about $2,000. I'm on track this year to make about $192k which is about $120k after I set aside for taxes (including various credits and write offs).
About the same time I started this job I opened a Roth IRA with vanguard. Since starting I maxed out both the 2023 and 2024 tax years already with principal totaling about $13,500 and about $700 worth of returns so far. I know that at my income level I should be able to pump much more more than I currently am into retirement accounts. I envy people who can max out their 401k account with $23,000 per year, unfortunately I can't do this. My current employer does not offer anything in the way of retirement matching 401k or 403b whatsoever. What are my options here?
Obviously I want to keep my Roth IRA, but I need to find some other kind of retirement vehicle that will allow me to put at least $20,000/yr into without needing an employer opened account. What are my options here? What would you guys do if you were in my situation? Comment below and let me know.

This is kinda embarrassing (idk if that’s even the right word) to post but here goes nothing. In November, I (20 f) met up with one of my online friends of 3 years in Tokyo. Lets call him John. I met him thru a language app becsude I was learning English. He was studying abroad in Canada but came back to Japan. we usually speak in English. Basically I went to Tokyo for a university tour and we met up.
Long story short we hit it off and ended up hanging out 3 times in total when it was supposed to be once. We got pretty close and held hands in public a lot (which PDA in Japan is kinda uncommon and not many ppl do it). We hung out and I slept over at his apartment. I obviously don’t rlly need to go into detail but I guess it moved kinda fast. We didn’t do the deed but we did other things. When he dropped me off at the train station that would take me to the airport we kissed goodbye twice which again is kinda PDA-ey for japan.
He kinda has always been a bad texter at times, but it was fine when I got back. I didn’t expect to be so heartbroken about but I was. It seemed like he missed me but, y know, how much can you tell thru text? Mind you he was one of the first guys I’ve ever done any of this couple-like things with.
Anyways, it was fine until he stopped answering as quick, blah blah blah u know how the story goes. He then got normal again after like 2 months. I told a few of my friends and they said “fk him move on” “maybe he doesn’t know when ur coming back” “theres another girl” the whole things. I also thought things myself, however.
I kinda pulled back, but he then was being more talkative towards me, but then that’s when we had our final conversation since. He just stopped reaching out. I reached out a week later, but I rly just sent him a meme. So he just liked it. We then didn’t talk AT ALL for 2 months.
But, what makes me mad, was that he slid up on MY story, and when I respond he doesn’t open the message. For a week. Like? Bro what. Don’t talk to me just to not open my message for a week. That rlly set me off bc I hadn’t talked to him in a while but my heart still kinda ached. Unfortunately I got rlly drunk that night and texted him “I need to tell you something” and I was just gonna be upfront. I’m sure he saw my message. I woke up however and unsent the message. I didn’t say what I wanted to tell him, just “can I tell u something”. But I unsent it after about 6 ish hours. Mind you it was day time for him so he probably saw it.
I feel so dumb, and I can’t seem to move on. I haven’t been really reaching out to him at all either, but idk I just always hopes he will like or slide up on my story. He does know (at least I posted) that I am transferring to a Japanese university and still nothing. I don’t know what to do. I feel so much for him and our time was cut so short. I feel like for my own sake I should message him one more time telling him how I feel and then leave it. I won’t even expect a response from him. I feel like I just need him to know how I truly feel, because I haven’t. I mean, you’d think it would be obvious considering all that we did.
What should I do? Should I just drop it? Should I text him one last time and never look back for my own satisfaction? It’s been 6 months and I just still feel heartbroken.

I put this under AITA because i dont really know what to put it under. So i had three best friends, lets call them Regina (my aunt), Gretchen (ex best friend), and Karen(childhood ex bestie). They all had known each other and were decent with one another which was great, we started to hang out together and talk on the phone together, finally felt like i had a girl friend group. December rolls around and me and my fiance wanted to go to see Bert Kriesher, it was already planned out, tickets bought, etc. I was so excited to go i told everybody about it in the beginning of November. Well about two weeks after I told everybody about it i find out the Regina is having “Friendsgiving” and has invited all of the girls. It happens to be on the same night we are going to see Bert, that is completely fine with me, i told them that we can’t make it and we can do something before Christmas (early Christmas) if they would like. All said yes and everything was good, we did early Christmas with Regina and Gretchen lived two hours away so it was hard to connect. Fast forward to early Christmas with Karen a week later and she was acting kinda weird during the entire time, was responding with short responses, wasnt really all the chatty and i just thought she was having a tough day. Asked her what was wrong she said nothing. Well two days later i get a message from Karens Fiancé saying that the people who i think are my friends arent my friends, curious i asked what he meant and he responded with i have screenshots and sends me almost a whole album of screenshots of all three of them talking shit in a group chat named Shit talk and then changed it to Grinch Talk, about me and my relationship, my recovery, how i parent, how i look, my health and more, but what really pissed me off the most is they decided to add my son(2yo) into it, so after receiving the screenshots i decided to make a group chat on snapchat and called it why are you talking shit, no-one responded to the group chat and messaged me individually. Karen called me crying saying the did it because they were concerned about me. Regina texted me saying i was making all of my health issues up and i just wanted attention when i in fact have medical records to prove otherwise (i have POTS, Seizures, stomach issues, and more). And Gretchen blamed it on karen and Regina saying she just wanted best for me. I blocked all of them on snap which Karen took personal and blocked me on everything after getting mad at me for blocking her on snap because i needed a break from seeing them all over my social media. Afterwards i cut Regina and Gretchen off and have completely cut them out of mine and my childs life. Some part of my feel guilty for my son because he was besties with Karens son, but i choose our peace over that drama anyday. Rant over✌🏼

I want to end my two year lease early. I’m almost done with my first year but I can’t do it anymore. My car is broken into, I’m harassed, the people who run the apartment ignore any complaints. I hate it here! I work in education and i’m hoping if I say i’m “unemployed” (technically am for the summer) I can get out early ? I’m literally going crazy here….im always paranoid, harassed, i’m so depressed living here. Worst of all my car was marked and it might be my final straw because I genuinely feel at this point i’m being targeted (like someone is watching me and knows I live alone). I had to throw out a tracker I found on my car. Its just my first time renting ever and I don’t know what to do, I don’t know if I can go to a lawyer because they’re expensive, I’m hoping if I tell them I can’t afford it they’ll let me go? Or maybe if I file a police report it’ll help let me go? I just can’t do it i’m literally stuck here

As a veteran of HD1 and the first galactic war I am absolutely appalled at the state of the game’s current arsenal. There are some fun and unique weapons here and there but most of them just feel redundant or terrible. Nowhere is this more visible that the AR, SMG, and DMR lineup. Here is a rework I’m proposing to high command ti ensure we are given proper tools to ensure the safety and spread of managed democracy.
Gun Rebalance and additions ARs Class Role: Rifles are designed to put holes through targets, and they need to reflect this role better. All rifles with Light penetration have been upgraded to be Light armor defeating. This means that while weapons with Light AP will damage light armor, they won’t always fully damage it. While rifles with light armor defeating fully negate light armor and deal full damage to it.
Liberator, 65DMG, Excellent ergonomics, the best weapon for firing on the move, +1 mag Role: Extremely easy to control and ideal for new players or veterans looking for something reliable. Capable of 45/45/4.5/ delivering 45 rounds at 45 meters in 4.5 seconds on target with no effort. Lore: High command has started production on upgrade kits for our standard rifles to improve it’s handling. Liberators now come with a vertical foregrip and a new muzzle brake to better control the weapon.
AP Liberator, 70 DMG, +5 rounds, Slower reload, 23 recoil, bad ergonomics, Uses AR scope Role: This Frankenstein of a gun is not for new players, uncomfortable recoil, and unfriendly handling in exchange for uncompromising stopping power. Terrible when firing on the move, with significant muzzle climb. But it provides rapid armor-piercing fire to those who can control it. Lore: The Penetrator started its life as a converted liberator modified to better penetrate armor. However there was no standard for how this would be achieved, so the conversion differs from regiment to regiment. Typically it involved sawing off a diligence barrel and converting it into a squeeze bore to increase velocity at the cost of terminal ballistics without using new ammunition. High Command has now realized the potential usefulness of a standardized conversion for its service rifle. Fabricator schematics have been published for new components and manuals for a consistent conversion. As part of project Ironbreaker, an initiative to outfit soldiers with better AP weapons, Production has begun on a variety of new ammo for the weapon which is much more powerful. The new 5.77mm Talon round generates 3x more chamber pressure than the liberator. The weapon itself has a new chamber and a properly machined barrel, made from surplus diligence rifles. The new AP liberator is also outfitted with a standard rifle optic, Punisher pump grip for a vertical grip, 35 round magazine, and a grey and red color scheme to denote its new changes.
Adjudicator, 90-100 DMG, 720 RPM, 30 recoil, Burst fire, uses the DMR scope Role: Battle rifle, Ideal for long-range combat, Semi-auto for small targets or precise shooting, Burst fire for large targets or close combat. Sluggish ergonomics but surprisingly controllable. Lore: Designed to replace liberator rifles on specific fronts where armored enemies are more common, the adjudicator was met with mixed success. The weapon proved to be reliable, powerful, and accurate but failed to fully replace the liberator in an assault rifle capacity. However, the 17th Helldivers regiment came up with a brilliantly effective modification. The outfitted the weapon with a reciprocating barrel shroud and a burst fire mode to turn the rifle into a long-range killing machine. With a surplus of Adjucator parts piling up from the weapon’s failure, High command has made this modification the new factory standard for all Adjucator rifles. The added weight and complexity in exchange for what has been reported as a 50% increase in accuracy seemed to be a fair trade.
Tenderizer, 840RPM, 75-round drum, 12 recoil, 4 mags, Terrible reload, Okay moving accuracy Role: IAR, ideal for laying down sustained fire on targets, can mow down multiple targets quickly. Low magazine count and high RoF make this weapon prone to running out of ammo. Lore: A new development to supplant the more expensive and time-consuming liberator rifles for SEAF army troopers, the Tenderizer was an unwelcome addition. It was heavier, bulkier, and awkward to handle. However, the increased bulk made it easy to control during sustained fire and it was very reliable under this strain. Troops began jury rigging drum magazines to use it as light machine guns. With a sizeable surplus of the liberator’s 5.77mm ammo, High Command began testing a designated IAR (Infantry Automatic Rifle) variant for helldivers use. This variant was an instant success providing individual hell divers with team-level firepower in a rifle-sized package.
Blackout(New), 85DMG, 420RPM, 24 round mag, 8 mags, superb moving accuracy, Silenced Role: Ideal for stealthy missions, the blackout deals very high damage at close range, while enabling the user to remain undetected from nearby patrols. Not effective vs armor Lore: Developed for Blackguard operatives, the Blackout is an integrally suppressed rifle created in response to the rising automaton threat. Veterans of Maevelon Creek petitioned High command to develop a new rifle, able to quietly eliminate bots while still being effective against devestators.
Yari(New), 45DMG, 1400RPM burst, 900RPM salvo, 36 Round magazine, 10 mags, AP Role: Prototype rifle with lightweight Sabot ammunition, fires a 3-round hyperburst and a 6-round salvo. Exceptional ammo efficiency and power at range lacks close combat ability.
DMRs(Classwide rework) Role: DMRs are designed to put rounds where rounds need to go while also being able to be used alongside assault rifles in a firefight. In Helldivers DMRs take an unconventional role of being viable against light target while alos enabling the user to defeat larger enemies like devestators and bile spewers at long range. To start, DMRs have a new bonus, DMRs deal +75% extra weak point damage (Headshots) and deal 10% more damage per point of AP they have over the target region. So they do extra damage if they hit the soft unarmored bits as well as on headshots. They also receive 50% less recoil while prone to better provide accuracy at range. DMRs are for the methodical sharpshooter who prefers to pick off targets at a distance instead of charging in, rewarding careful positioning and shot placement with heaps of dead foes.
Diligence, 120-140 DMG, 22 Round mag, 30 recoil, 8 mags, Full auto mode, Silenced Role: Starter DMR that delivers high damage at long range while keeping the user concealed. Silencer isn’t as effective at close range, but great for staying hidden during firefights. Lore: High command has witnessed the substantial failures of their DMRs and has issued a complete recall of the weapon. A brand new receiver and chamber system has increased its muzzle velocity by 500 feet per second, greatly increasing lethality.
Diligence CS, 175-200DMG, 18-round mag, 6 mags, Staggers on full damage hit, Thermal optic Role: This more demanding variant of Diligence rewards more precise shooting with higher damage. It is better at stopping large targets but is less effective at picking off enemies. Lore: as part of the Ironbreaker initiative, many weapons are being issued new nitro ammunition. The diligence CS has undergone a more extensive upgrade. A new barrel and chamber designed to maximize lethality with the new ammo has greatly increased stopping power. The CS can stop devastators, bile spewers, berserkers, and similar targets with just a few hits. It has also been outfitted with a thermal sight to see through fog, sand, gas, and smoke.
Retribution(New), 275 DMG, 8 Round mag, Bolt action, Rounds reload, Silenced, AP Role: Longest range DMR, remarkably quiet and powerful, ideal for dropping large targets and protecting teammates from range.
Wyvern(New), 110DMG, 360 RPM, 26 Round magazine, 8 Mags, AP, Full Auto capable Role: Assault DMR, designed to be used aggressively at close range while permitting the user to provide long-range support.
SMGs (Classwide rework) Role: SMGs put holes in targets, not through them. SMGs have been largely replaced by Rifles in modern warfare, the same should apply to Helldivers. This shouldn’t make the useless, but instead good at different things. SMGs should be suited to personal defense and reliability under a wider variety of circumstances than rifles. SMGs have classwide damage nerf to reflect their lower caliber and have very noticeable damage falloff. However, they get a buff in every other area, with the most notable being that each SMG carries 12 mags instead of 8. SMGs are still capable of dropping larger targets with one mag, and with their lower recoil, they can reliably do so. But are now better suited to protecting the user from groups of weaker enemies.
Defender, 40 DMG, 720 RPM, 5 recoil, 12 Mags, Lightning fast reload Role: User-friendly and economical weapon, very easy to use. Less power than assault rifles but puts rounds where they need to be. Lore: The original Defender SMG was actually a failure, being prohibitively expensive to produce both the weapon and its ammo. Although it was a very popular weapon during peacetime, the demands of the war have made the defender a rare sight. To ensure that SEAF forces had a reliable weapon for CQC, the Defender A2 has been put into production. High command has changed its standard handgun cartridge from the .43 Hawk Tungsten core AP round to the cheaper 8mm FMJ round. The new defenders have an increased rate of fire and are more controllable but lacks the stopping power of the original.
Knight, 35 Damage, 900RPM Full auto, 1300rpm burst, 8 Recoil, 12 mags Role: PDW, Delivers a torrent of rounds quickly and accurately. Burst fire is ideal for mid-range enemies, full auto puts down groups of lightly armored enemies. Lore: The A4 knight variant features an electrically operated feed instead of a gas-operated one. This has enabled the weapon to fire at a more controllable rate in full auto while preserving medium-range accuracy with a 1300rpm hyperburst. It has also been outfitted with a less powerful round that is lighter and more economical, improving total ammo carried and recoil control at the cost of stopping power.
Shinobi(New) 50 DMG, 540RPM, 25 Round mag, Silenced Role: Spec-ops SMG for quietly dispatching groups of unarmored enemies. Less effective than other options in a firefight but perfect for sneaking around
Sweeper(New) 40 DMG, 800RPM, 80 Round drum, 8 mags, terrible ergonomics Role: Space Tommy gun, this weapon is designed to put as many rounds as possible down range as fast as possible, where said rounds land is irrelevant. Ammo hungry but very mobile.
I am aware these changes are extensive and won’t likely be implemented. I don’t believe that every weapon should be OP or god tier, but they should all have some niche where they really excel. Have a nice day and good luck Helldivers.

On more than one occasion, I see people complaining and protesting about recruitment processes, job interviews, and other tests they have to go through to apply for a professional position. Honestly, I am quite shocked by what I read, even assuming that it is often people with extreme cases to share who the algorithm tends to prioritize, and in the end, that’s what we learn about. Even so, assuming that, I dare to document what I modestly use when I am in charge of talent recruitment processes at Torresburriel Estudio (my company).
Firstly, if the job offer is not clear, specific, contains the salary to be paid, and any details related to responsibilities, skills, both technical and soft skills, I would be concerned. This must always be included. And if it is not, it is a glaring red flag.
Secondly, if the process takes a long time to have any interaction with the candidates, it is also not an ideal situation. Within 24 hours of closing the application reception, there should either be an automatic message to reject applications that do not meet the requirements, or a message to request more information or schedule a call.
In the first interview, it should be ensured that everyone is on the same page: agreeing on roles and responsibilities, agreeing on the economic conditions, and clearing up all possible doubts in this regard. Likewise, in that first interview, candidates should be informed of the next steps, whatever they may be.
It can be much more than reasonable to need a second interview. But I understand that this should occur once the filters have done their job and there are fewer people vying for the available position. This would be the best indicator that the job is being done well. In that second interview, technical details should be confirmed with the candidate to understand who is the best fit for the organization, the position, and the needs.
In short, any process that does not resemble this would generate distrust in me. I don’t know what you think.

First off, I hate myself and think I’m a terrible person already, so I don’t care if it makes people hate me more. FFS if you were homeless everyone would hate you just for that, so why wouldn’t you want to go a route as such just to win and stop being a victim and away from all the a holes and the evils of the world. People get r word and k word out there. (Reddit doesn’t like these words, but they’re not hard to figure out what they are).
Also, what many people consider a scam is sometimes technically legal. Like “how to get rich doing this” courses. As long as you disclaim that results aren’t guaranteed, and that you’re just teaching ways that COULD make you rich, you’re committing no crime. In fact you might even help people. College is just as much as a scam as that, because degrees “don’t guarantee jobs”, and many people now they there are TOO MANY degrees, so I guess there are more college graduates than there are jobs available.
I’m so fed up with looking up ways to make money online and every result being a get rich quick guru, so maybe that IS the way, telling other people how to (POSSIBLY) get rich.
It’s like the entire system is broken, capitalism/supply and demand, by design there HAS to be people in poverty, and SO MANY jobs REFUSE to pay a living wage (I even read about a grocery store that chose to close down instead of raising pay by $4 more an hour, so instead of paying employees more, they chose to stop making money completely, wtfh?
It seems like all these great promising opportunities come out but then they get over saturated, like GME and crypto and NFTs, they all seem pretty dead now.
Society respects rich frauds more than humble people struggling to survive anyway. And I rather be DEAD than homeless or in prison, or any type of isolation/imprisonment, even if the police rescue you you’re just going to end up homeless anyway, there are reasons victims of abuse stay and don’t leave.
AI is making life easier AND MORE FAIR, but people aren’t willing to pay as much if at all for something that they can themselves tell AI to do for little to no cost.
I’m gonna be SO GLAD when self driving cars make human driving illegal, I’ll VOTE FOR IT, then I can never be stranded or disqualified purely because I can’t safely and steady control a death machine surrounded by other death machines with police constantly watching to ruin your life even if you didn’t ruin anyone else’s life.
I’ll never understand how most people work better jobs for years and years (although supposedly most people DO experience getting fired at least once, maybe that’s normal now) with all the psychological tricks and gaslighting and secret languages and communications they use to test you, and all the awkward focus on things that aren’t really that important.
But just in general despite all these it’s BS you’re not allowed to make more than a set amount per hour, AND not allowed to work either less, OR MORE hours than you want or need. Having to work more than 40 hours is kind of BS, but it’s also BS to not be able to GET 40 hours.
And lose your job lose your health insurance and then have to go into massive debt until your credit card is cut off and you go into withdrawal from 4+ meds and then end up in the ER with even more debt and the police might kill you and they send people to prison to be annually rapped it’s part of the prison punishment system.
But yeah people with the best ideas succeed average barely survive and disadvantaged suffer and die.
They’re never going to let me out of this because they know I’ll sue them and get millions and THEY’LL go to prison and get annually rapped. If that’s what’s really going on, it would explain A LOT.
But idk how tf you be financially successful in modern day USA. All the opportunities for the untalented are quickly oversaturated and the market lose interest. I guess everyone just stuck wage slaving until the next thing? Maybe some have secret methods they’re not sharing but most probably have nothing but the wage slaving until the next opportunity is created and released and they HOPEFULLY catch it before it takes off.
Like this “go to a job and do meaningless bs for less than a living wage” can’t be the only way the masses can access.
I stopped even writing fanfiction or anything really creative for enjoyment because im too worried about money. My parents want to retire in a few years and im already 28 now.
They’re now telling me I should look into applying for disability to supplement my job, solidifying I’m a failure.
I don’t want to be a victim of my circumstances anymore, I lost most of my life already, my parents even told me that I’m getting “up in age”, all that “you’re young you have time”was worthless BS for me, the time passed and I’ve barely been able to progress.
I rather be a con artist than a bum and/or a mooch off the taxpayers and/or be homeless, I rather be DEAD than those things.
I don’t understand why life is so hard, but it has become clear to me that it’s all a contest, and many must lose and suffer for less to win and succeed and thrive.
I just want to be able to generate income remotely and be left the hell alone from society, even without being homeless I rather be away from society, be left alone.
Most jobs don’t really benefit or attribute to society anyway.
There has to be something I can create that goes viral and somehow has advertising/marketing opportunities…….
But even if I did it’d probably be very cynical reflecting myself, but much of media is and people love it.
Hmm, I’m honestly kind of waiting for AI to do more like generating VIDEO and editing and all that. But then everyone else will be using it and over saturating the market the likes history has never seen, it will be completely unprecedented.
But AI allows more people to create without all the technical requirements getting in the way.
Nobody even understands what the hell I’m saying. I swear I really am on a different dimensional plane of existence.

My boyfriend and I have been together for two years. He is mostly a really great and thoughtful partner. He makes meals for me when I’m feeling down, always has the house picked up when he knows I’ve had a long day, always thinks of me when he is out and about and surprises me with little treats. He treats me really well, and I can tell how much he loves me. That being said, we have an issue of not knowing how to manage escalation. We both get defensive in arguments, but he begins to talk constantly to where I can’t get a word in or even follow what he is talking about anymore. He gets so heated and just starts ranting. He doesn’t call me names, but he will say that I’m manipulative, that his life matters too, and will try to bait me by making comments ab how the relationship should end. He gets mad when I say ok and tells me I should fight for it and that’s why he said it. He gets louder and louder and more frustrated, and I usually end up crying and not talking until it ends. He will usually say something about how now he’s going to feel bad and crazy for freaking out and how it’s not fair that I cry. I usually try to end the argument when it starts escalating, but he won’t let it go and will just keep pushing even if I say it’s getting out of control. Once it ends, he will end up saying that he was wrong, that he doesn’t know why he freaks out, that something is wrong with him, that I don’t deserve that, that he loves me. It takes me some time, but I usually eventually come around because he really did have an awful childhood and I think he has a lot of anger that needs dealt with and he really is sweet and kind. It’s like he blacks out during these times.
We have been looking for engagement rings, and the other day I told him that the raising of his voice really has to stop because I’m not comfortable getting married if this is going to continue. He was 100% on board with that. Five days later, he freaked out and blew up. This time it felt worse because it was in our car at a gas station where I felt like people could see. I was so embarrassed. It continued on the ride home and then outside of our home where anybody could have heard. I didn’t say a word the entire time, but I did start that conversation when I could’ve just not but I wanted to communicate my feelings.
This is where I’m stuck. I think my bf could tell this was a breaking point for me. He bought seven books about managing anger, how to talk to your partner like you love them, etc. He also asked me to help him find an individual therapist, and we attended an intro couples counseling session together. I know he cares and will do anything to make our relationship work.
However, I don’t know if the damage has been done or not. It’s up to me to decide if I want to continue the relationship or not because it’s clear that he does. But I don’t know how I feel. I feel really sad because I do love him, but I am also tired. I told him he would never let someone else talk to me like that and he’d never let his dad yell at his mom like that. He agreed with both of those statements. I can tell how guilty he feels. I know he is putting in effort now, and I told him idk how I feel or if I can continue in the relationship or not. He’s offered me space. Some moments I feel great and normal with him and some I get really sad when I think about it.
The counselor said this is a common issue that he can help us work through. I know we can fix it, but it’s happened often enough that I don’t know if it’s too late or not. I feel guilty that he wants to work on it and I might not.
I wouldn’t say that this happens often necessarily, but it did start happening very early on in our relationship and is still happening.
Any insight is welcome, as this isn’t something I can bring to family or friends without it becoming a “thing.”

Very sorry that this got so long.
Hi all. I guess the best way to start this post is to give you some background info.
My best friend has been in my life since before I can remember. He is a few years older and is entirely integrated into my family. He lived at my house due to shitty circumstances during high school, he taught me to drive, he is as much a son to my mother as are myself and siblings, and he’s been considering moving back to our home state to be closer to her since she was diagnosed with a terminal illness. We also lived together out of state for a few years (where I met my girlfriend) before I moved back home and my girlfriend moved with me. Suffice to say, I trust him wholeheartedly and rationally know that he would never do anything to hurt me.
My girlfriend and I met got together while I was living with my friend. She is a wonderful partner and has never, ever given me pause to worry. We’ve been dating for 3 years and have barely had what could be considered a bump along the road.
I need to stress that in all of the time that the two of them have spent together I have never had even the faintest feeling that anything is wrong despite us all spending a lot of time together. Aside from a few months ago where I got a bit in my feelings one night and asked my girlfriend why she wouldn’t rather be with him than me considering they are VERY alike. Like similar to the point that it’s a bit of a joke that I just found the girl version of him to date.
Recently, as in last week, my girlfriend, siblings, friend in question, and myself all went on a week long vacation. There was nothing to prompt the feelings that I began to have, but out of nowhere I got a deep, sinking feeling in my gut that if something wasn’t going on between them, then there was at least a mutual attraction. Like I said, they get along really well and are very similar, but I’ve never had any reason to think this. They’re entirely appropriate in every way towards each other. Still, I couldn’t shake the feeling and it was absolutely killing me inside, causing me to see things that rationally I know weren’t there (thinking that I saw him looking at her, feeling like they’d always be next to each other, taking entirely normal jokes at my expense personally etc.) just normal shit that shouldn’t have seemed abnormal.
This brings me to the second to last day of the trip. I woke up and went to grab something from our hotel room balcony and I saw a bathing suit out there that I’m almost certain isn’t mine. When I asked my gf about it she said she had no clue and moved on like it was nothing. The issue is, I’m like 99% certain I only packed two suits, and this wasn’t one of them. It bothered me all day into the night when I eventually just went to his room and asked if it was his to which he immediately responded “no” without, it seemed to me, even looking at it.
I went back to my room and broke down to my girlfriend. I explained that no one had done anything wrong and that I had no idea why I felt the way that I did but that I was driving myself completely insane. My thoughts were that it stemmed from a feeling of inadequacy because he is doing a lot better than me life-wise (has a house, makes more money) and that I feel like she’d rather spend time with him than me. She calmed me down and reassured me that I was wrong in every way, that neither of them would ever do something so horrible to me, and that she loves me. She asked me not to say anything to him because she didn’t want things to be weird and he would 100% change the way that he acted if he knew that it was hurting me, rational or not.
I know that my thoughts are irrational, and I know that they’re the two most important people in my life, but now that we’re back from vacation and he’s hundreds of miles away I still can’t shake the feeling. That stupid fucken bathing suit is driving me insane, but in all reality, I probably packed it and forgot.
Does anyone have any advice on how to stop feeling like this? I don’t want to make my gf feel like I’m accusing her, but my gut will not let this go. Should I talk to my friend?
Thank you in advance to anyone that takes the time to read this and for any advice.

Today’s review is for Tales of the EdgeWorlds Volume 1 by Shawn Frost. I was given an ARC copy back in July of 2023, but didn’t finish reading it until recently because I bogged myself down with too many activities, and something this long takes me a while. I will go through the things I liked about it, the things I hated, and wrap it up with a score from 1-10. My scoring system goes through 5 key components, with each one going over the creative aspect and the technical aspect. I will explain that part when we get to scoring later on, so let’s plow on through.
This is a collection, about 266 pages long, and is meant to be the first installment of a comedy series. Shawn runs a Youtube channel where he covers lolcows and does gaming streams, so comedy should come naturally to him. As a volume, this holds 4 short stories, each one holding about 8 chapters, with each story running for about 20k words. Technically, we can say it’s 4 novelettes, but as I explain the situation, you’ll see why they are so long. The plot may seem complex but the main characters go through the same situations: the dimensional merge occurred, between all of our creative properties and C-197, with a group of rambunctious penguins doing mercenary work.
Sadly, it’s not really the Chris-Chan version of a dimensional merge, so we do not see Sonichu or any of that wacky world… yet. It's volume 1, so it's too early to say it's not open to the possibilities. The style runs close to internet memes and those old Newgrounds cartoons, with the focus aimed at action scenes and descriptions of the creative world around their setups. But, as you read through the massive amount of descriptions and banter, you'll realize that very little happens in each story. I would say each one is very simple and with a low reading level needed to get through them, which is a double-edged sword in this case.
I say this because the writing tries too hard to claim a joke was made when it wasn’t really a “ha-ha” joke to begin with. It’s more like “ah… humor is detectable somewhere in these pages” kind of comedy. It relates to the offensive animals of Fritz the Cat, where the comedy comes from the absurdity of a setup, rather than a punchline that is found. Unfortunately, because the satire is absent and it focuses too much on the premise, the result becomes more like my favorite episode of Heil Honey I’m Home, minus Hitler and his annoying neighbors. The banter bogs down the pacing, turning each chapter into a short, yet overly long, sample of a scene, chained together by constantly shifting points of view.
Thankfully, this simple way of approaching a story allows a casual reader to speed on by. Things are easy to follow and characters are easy to remember. The main cast of Edgy, Jeff, Todd, and Hylus are separated by their brand of chaotic addictions. Addiction to drugs, addiction to hentai, addiction to video games, addiction to murder; all greatly expressed in what are meant to be running gags that resemble a sitcom cast. The ship they travel around in, from job to job, can easily be imagined as a "That '70s Show basement" version of the ship in The Orville, as each story goes to different planets where they meet different aliens.
There is enough in each story to understand what is going on, with the stories more as an exploration of lore than an exploration of character or theme. The lack of focus, as well as the indifferent prose, harms the way each tale is told. I would never say these are bad ideas or bad concepts, just bad ways to get them across. High concept, low composition. I would say the main value is from the promise of more to come than what is presented in the pages.
Time for the rating, which will be given between 0-2. 1 point goes to the technical aspect and 1 point goes to the creative side of things. Flaws within a point will reduce it into smaller decimals, but a single aspect is not able to entirely kill a story on its own. If it’s all technical or all creative, a story will be treated as mediocre. Even if I like something, it is still possible to get a 5/10, meaning it’s not suitable for the average reader who is more accepting of a 7 or an 8.
Plot: 1.5 Things happen and people go places in the form of a violent travelog. The pacing bogs down the destination with tourist traps.
Characters: 1.5 The characters play their roles well, even though their roles don’t play well with the plot. Their banter and quirks fall flat in parts.
Prose: 1 With clear points between A and B, wet and sloppy ideas are delivered dry and brittle. With each paragraph shoving lore down the reader’s throat, it can become death by a thousand detours.
Theme: 1 There is a great message about how chaos and anarchy transforms people into primitive animals. Unfortunately, the author couldn’t find it in the infinite vastness of subspace.
Setting : 2 It is a world you want to know more about and look forward to the next bit of info. Creative, exotic, to the proper point of chaotic, yet still comprehensible. Everything about this book is in the setting.
Final verdict: 7/10
The book is niche, it takes a while to heat up, and even then it’s as appealing as a mystery flavor hot pocket. If you’re into absurdity, you will enjoy it. I just wish the absurdity had some life behind it. There is room for expansion and I hope that opportunity is taken.

Long story short, I started working at this big company about 7 months ago. The coworkers I work with are growing distant from me and are not offering to help me for basic things that don’t require much time or effort. There’s a language barrier as my job isn’t in English. I can speak but not 100% fluently.
The girl I work with doesn’t like me. She has lied to my face before, avoided me, super serious around me, hasn’t said anything positive about me once. I’ve always heard things like "he looks serious". I’m the only one in the team who is about to receive his degree and I’m the youngest. I’ve had coworkers even ask me to choose who I want to get help from in order to create division. I’ll ask for help and they’ll say do you want me or her. Clearly it doesn’t matter.
In our group chat for work, it use to be busy all day long. Now no one says anything in their except good morning and bye. I feel like they’re messaging each other individually for work now. It’s always busy in the chat even on busy days now dead silence.
In my meeting today, people would laugh at what I was talking about and give me this belittling look on their face (not all but the ones as of recent like 7/14). What do I do?

Hey everyone! I’m new to Reddit and on mobile, so apologies for any formatting errors and for the length of this post.
Basically, I have a name picked out. I use it on all my socials that my family/friends don’t follow me on and when I need to give a name at a coffee shop/restaurant. Additionally, I work at a job where I have to introduce myself to customers and I’ve been using my chosen name when my boss isn’t around, and hearing myself say it (and hearing customers address me by it) has been really validating for me. I’m pre-everything (hoping to start T when I can get an appointment with a trans-friendly doctor in my town) and don’t pass as masc super well despite my best efforts so being referred to by a masculine name felt really good. The main problem is that I’m struggling with how to tell people.
At this point, I’m fine with using my chosen name as more of a nickname, with my legal name being on documents and the like. I’ve mentioned it to my parents and they’ve been super supportive of everything. I just don’t know how to broach the subject with people who’ve known me my whole life, especially since I haven’t really found a definite label for myself in terms of gender. It’s a pretty traditionally masculine name, and while I’m pretty sure I’m some flavor of transmasc, I don’t think I’m 100% a trans man, if that makes sense (I’m using they/them pronouns, but I prefer masc terms of address to feminine ones (ie sir vs ma’am)). I’m probably overthinking this, but I’m worried they’ll think I’m jumping in too quickly or overthinking things. I really only came out as anything other than a cis woman this past December.
So, does anyone have any advice on how to start that conversation? Or, alternately, are there any reasons I shouldn’t/should wait a bit?

I want to preface this for reddit by saying that I am in a sound state of mind and am not considering any form of self harm in any capacity. She has improved dramatically over the course of the past decade due to an environment change and escaping her own abuse. I am happy with my life, have a partner I love dearly, and have no desire to do anything stupid.
I am ready to forgive her for most of what happened when she was being abused, but she really, really needs a psychiatric specialist and heaps of therapy.
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Mom,
I don’t think I can say this is person without breaking up or getting yelled at, so I’m typing it.
I feel like I can’t talk to you because I’m afraid of you. A few years ago in the car you told me you were scared that you would become more like the nasty, bitchy side of (her mother) that you hate. Your words, not mine. Well you’ve been doing that a lot lately. You did it a lot when I was a kid.
A lot of the time when we speak you say mean, nasty things that serve no purpose aside from making me feel bad. Last night in the kitchen you asked me what I was eating. I told you. Immediately, you took that opportunity to ask me if I had offered any to dad. I said no. Before I could explain, you made a nasty comment about how it was rude of me not to offer. When I got upset and cut you off to explain, you tried to pretend like you were just asking an innocent question and I was wrong for being upset. You pull that specific trick constantly.
You absolutely know that you only did that to make me feel like crap. You had no good reason to say that to me. You do little things like that all the time now.
So I avoid you. I can’t take it. You say that you love me, but then you turn around and act sadistic like you get some enjoyment out of hurting me. I can’t take it. You deny that you do it, but you do. Constantly.
Then when I feel terrible and avoid you because of the way that you treat me, you suggest that I have some kind of mental issue and I need medicine to fix it. Like you genuinely think I’m crazy or broken because it hurts when my own mother treats me like that. How would it feel if people treated you like you’re insane because you get upset when they talk down to you?
You never politely ask me to do things. You bark orders at me. “When can you do this?” “Come out here when you get a minute.” “I need your help with this.” “When are you going to do that.”
The other day at work I was busy unloading a ton of carpet. You texted to ask if I heard you honk and acted like it was just you following up and innocently saying hi. Then you turned it into nagging me over a chore while you knew I was working. I couldn’t respond to your text right away, so you asked me where I was working tomorrow. You know why you were asking.
A few years ago you said some really nasty things to me. You tell me I could always talk to you if I have an issue, so I told you in text because I was scared to tell you in person. I was upset when I told you and I cursed a couple times. I didn’t curse at you or call you names.
You responded by raising your voice, beating on my door, telling me never to talk to you like that that, and then you were nasty to me and ignored me for three days.
When I was in middle school we were at the outlets and got taco bell. I tapped you on the back twice and tried to tell you that I wanted something slightly different. You didn’t hear me and I kept my mouth shut. I mentioned it offhand in the car. You locked the car doors and screamed at me for several minutes about how I’m a liar and a shitty kid and how sometimes you wish you didn’t have me.
I have PTSD from that. It flashes through my head every time you raise your voice. I don’t feel safe telling you things that upset me because you respond with anger. You blame me for your actions. Everything is my fault.
You want to know why I got fat? I stress eat.
All through school I was bullied. Constantly. Then I came home and you treated me like shit for having bad grades.
You locked me in my room by myself with nothing for years and acted like it was my fault because I couldn’t get good grades.
I tried to make friends. I wasn’t allowed to hang out with them because I was “grounded.” You acted all proud of it and said you were “fixing me” by being “mean nasty mom” like it was something you had to do.
When I was seven or eight (brother) and I were playing by the door. We were going to go to the school for some event in the cafeteria. They were going to play kung fu panda and we were going to watch it as a family. (Brother) tripped and hurt himself. You rushed over and asked what happened and (brother) pointed to me and said I kicked him. You got nasty and dad screamed at me and you told me I ruined the whole evening. Dad made me sit and do nothing in the living room the whole time while he say quietly as you took (brother) to see the movie and babied him.
He lied constantly throughout our childhood to get me in trouble and I got treated like shit for it. Then you acted like I was a mean, bad brother for hating him.
All those times at the therapist I would tell them how you treated me, then you’d go in afterwords and they’d tell you. Then you’d get pissed and yell at me in the car for “lying” and making you look bad.
The two times I found therapists that actually helped me, you said you didn’t think it was doing anything or that you couldn’t afford it pulled me out, and I lost all of that progress.
I have PTSD from all of that too.
And you can hand-wave it and act like it didn’t happen because you “don’t remember” like you always do, but it still happened. You still hurt me. I spent years growing up afraid and alone. Every day I was locked up like that, I wanted to kill myself. I never tried to do good in school because I really did think I would do it before I graduated highschool. I thought it was for nothing. I wanted to die. There were times after you or dad yelled at me I go to my room and plan it out. I can’t count the number of nights I spent alone in my bed, sobbing, hoping I just wouldn’t wake up.
I was abused. You abused me. I’m tired of pretending that you didn’t and that everything is happy and smiley. I never needed medicine as a kid, I needed to be loved instead of punished.
I love you and I am trying, desperately, to love you and have a relationship with you as my mother, but you make it really, really hard sometimes.

Hi all,
This is one of my first attempts at a Star Wars RP, so please bear with me. Thankfully, I do have a long history and a lot of experience in RP, everything from feudal Japan stories to apocalyptic romps, so I am hoping I can do my best to make this work. With that being said, I think this RP would probably suit a roleplayer who is at least slightly familiar with the Star Wars setting and its lore, as I myself am still learning too. You don’t need to be an expert or a top contributor on Wookipedia but just some knowledge should help!
Anyways, on to the story. This RP is one that I have quite a clear vision for what I want to happen at the start, but less so after that. So, I think it will be quite structured to begin with and then we can let our imaginations run wild. It centres around my character, who is a fairly young and somewhat unscrupulous trade ship pilot. He is essentially the Star Wars version of a trucker, running cargo from one system to another and working for a large corporation who pays him a pretty menial salary. His whole life changes when your character, a Jedi in hiding, catches a ride on his ship and they are stopped by the empire. Now I want to set this RP in between the 3rd and the 4th movie. So there would be huge populus support for the Empire at this time, and a feeling that it is bringing peace and order to a galaxy that has almost destroyed itself during the clone wars. This would be particularly difficult for your character who is seeing her whole persona villainised by Empire propaganda. My character would be super distrustful of yours at first and they will really have that enemies to lovers trope that works so well in these stories.
Anyway, the basic plot is that the two of them end up forced to escape the Empire together, and then from there they are free to carry on their adventure as they wish. I have a lot more detail to give you, but I will save it for Discord where we can have a proper conversation. I am someone who loves OOC chat and getting to know a partner, and I think I am a friendly guy so if you are interested, please get in touch! I can’t wait to hear from you.

Hey all. I was admitted into the hospital on Saturday with a CK level of 17,000 following a poorly written workout that included negative pull-ups on Tuesday. Way too many, and I never do them. Ultra runner and cyclist (29, F) who lifts/cross trains 5x a week alongside my running and riding.
The attending was hesitant to admit me because she didn’t think that was high enough to be considered a danger, but figured why not. My levels came down to 8,000 the next afternoon and I was discharged and told to drink lots. The attending that discharged me was super casual about it and reiterated that my case was not severe and to “just take a few days off of the intense arm workouts”. My kidneys and liver checked out as great.
Now, after everything I’ve been reading here and online, the fear of god has been instilled in me and I cant decide who to listen to. People are saying they took months off, others are saying they took two weeks. Some are saying they lost all muscle in their arms and it never returned. Some are saying that they have extreme fatigue 6 months later. And safe to say, I’m freaked out and don’t know what to do.
I have an appointment with my primary doctor today to discuss a recovery plan and check my CK levels. I can guarantee you that she’s not going to have any return to sport suggestions that aren’t written around the studies based off of a 50+ year old untrained individual. But, I guess we will see.
Mostly, I’m just looking for some positive recovery stories. Someone talk me off the ledge, please. Training/cycling/trail running are the things in life that keep me from taking the forever nap.

Two ways of approaching client enrollment as a coach..⁣
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2: apply and accelerate⁣
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Search & Rescue - Approach enrollment like a numbers game. Figure out who a good client is and scour the internet for them and attempt to rescue them from their great demise by telling them everything that’s wrong and convincing them they need to change. Constant chasing game with ill-committed people..⁣
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Apply & Accelerate - Approach enrollment like selecting a ripe strawberry from the garden. Nurture the garden, feed it, tend to it, be there in it and when the time is right the strawberry falls off the vine into your hand ready to achieve greatness. No checking in on it every five minutes to see if it’s ripe yet - it knows when it’s ready for the next step and takes it and moves quickly.⁣
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There are worlds of difference between the outcomes and commitment of the resulted clients from these two approaches⁣
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Change is intimidating, but the clients who apply and make empowered decisions without hesitation say “hell yes, this is what I want and I am taking responsibility for getting there - let’s go!” - these are the coaches who go out to impact thousands..⁣
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It may feel inspiring to take the “search & rescue” route - saving the lives which didn’t realize they needed saving. But the impact you have as a coach is greatly mirrored by the commitment level of your clients. The clients that decide they need and want your coaching - they will do the best every time.⁣
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If you want to be in a place of receiving clients, never convincing someone that they need to act on their own intentions, so you can make lasting impacts with the clients who desire change rather than pulling them through the mud - feel free to shoot over a message to chat about what getting this on track could look like for you..⁣
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Aar⁣

Heya! These posts/introduction messages always feel awkward and forced for me 😅 so buckle up 🤪…
Let’s get what I’m looking for out of the way, as no sense in taking up more of your time if it’s obvious that we aren’t a fit.
What I’m seeking:
As of current, my primary interests align most with a FWB situation, but I am open to any form of connection that develops organically between us (including simple friendship). I’m relatively open with regard to availability, though in an ideal world you would be open to seeing each other 1-2+ times a week. I’m attracted to a wide range of personalities and body types, so it can be hard to relay my interests there and is usually best just to connect and see if we click or not. I guess in the end, I’m pretty flexible in my interest and desires.
It’s also important to note that I do not smoke or drink at all. I don’t judge if you do either, but I will say that being around cigarette smoke is likely to be a dealbreaker for me. As for weed, I hate the smell, so I just ask that you please avoid smoking it around me. Vapes are fine, just please don’t blow them in my direction as I personally don’t care to breath that in. Alcohol I have no problem being around in all capacities lol get plastered for all I care.
A bit about myself:
It’s always hard to gauge what to share to the world in “bios” like this..I’ll try to highlight some of my most prominent characteristics and details 🤷‍♂️.
Let’s start physical. I’m 6’7”, definitely a dad bod with a bit of a stomach, 33 years young, long brown curly-ish/wavy hair (admittedly facing some male pattern baldness at my forehead hairline, so doing what I can with what I’ve got while I can 🤷‍♂️), brown eyes, wear glasses (if that matters to you at all), maintain a beard at all times (take the hair where I can, right? 🤪🤷‍♂️), and wear a size 19 shoe (putting that out there as it’s always a shocker 😆). No, I never played basketball for any teams growing up, but did play pickup games often after high school. The weather is just fine “up here” 🤪. As for style, or lack thereof 😆, you’ll likely always see me in some form of graphic or plain T-shirt with likely some form of shorts (I love the cold and hate being hot) year round, though every now and then I’ll change it up with pants and/or pollos 🤷‍♂️. I want to be more stylish tbh, but I don’t have the eye for good style, I’m colorblind, and often don’t feel other styles would suit my looks 🤷‍♂️. Speaking of looks, standard bearded Caucasian nerd looking dude lol, though when people see me, they might be quick to assume I’m the standard white conservative Christian type, when in reality I’m far from such (curse the genetics and looks I was born into 😭).
Kink friendly, so any questions or curiosity around such please feel free to bring up and discuss with me further.
I think that’s a good start on physical attributes, let’s move on to the internal ish…
Gah this section is much tougher to fill out 😅. Look, I just love just about everybody, will generally give everybody the time of day and benefit of doubt, can strike up a convo with just about anyone (though sometimes I need the other person to engage the start of that convo 😅), and would do my best to help and protect anyone around. I just want the best for everyone, ya know? I’d say i lean more extroverted, but do battle a moderate amount of social anxiety that im sure you’ve picked up on by now..you’d likely think im more introverted with how often I stay home and how little I randomly reach out to friends/others. It’s not that I don’t love getting out and about and don’t care to talk to my friends, I just get so caught up in my day to day life that it just doesn’t cross my mind, OR I get social anxiety (especially if I haven’t spoken to someone in a long time, I always worry they think I don’t care about them and our friendship).
Beyond this, it’s hard to list my other qualities, so I’ll just move on to interests and maybe that’ll help highlight more?
My Interests:
Can’t help but feel kind of boring and basic when filling out this section 😅. I feel like it’s a lot of what most people list as their interests and that my list is small/limited/boring. Travel Culture/language Food Music (very large and eclectic taste in music) Gaming of any form (video, board, etc) Puzzles/challenges/sports (I love a good challenge, so huge kudos if you are competitive) Technology (always fascinating what we are making in this world) I’d like to learn to dance but right now I’m very self conscious about my terrible dancing (I feel awkward 😔)
Disinterests: Low hanging ceiling fans and light fixtures 🤪
Details regarding my current Poly configuration:
I’m happily married with one child. If I do take on any new partners I never expect you to take on any form of relationship or responsibility for the rest of my family beyond just maintaining a safe space through proxy. My wife and I practice kitchen table Poly, so we are completely open to everyone happily interacting together, but if you aren’t comfortable interacting with the rest of my family no problem! Ask if you have any further questions on how we Poly ethically, happy to answer any questions!
Anyways, I’ve made this long enough…if you’ve made it this far, thank you so much for taking the time to read my post to entirety! Even if we aren’t meant to connect, you and your time are greatly appreciated! Sending my warmest regards and a friendly virtual hug ❤️.