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A subreddit all about the manga and anime "Golden Kamuy" by Noda Satoru.
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2024.05.21 15:25 Ghost-Quartet Happy 120th Birthday to Fats Waller - A look at the music and legacy of one of pop's greatest entertainers

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This is a subreddit primarily focused on modern pop music, but for his 120th birthday I want to take a moment to remember one of the most iconic pop acts in American history:

Thomas Wright "Fats" Waller

A jazz pianist, a singer, and a prolific songwriter famous for his ability to jump onstage and "lift up the band," Fats Waller was a regular fixture of the nightlife scene in New York (an important figure of the legendary Harlem Renaissance) and toured his act all around the country in addition to working as a recording artist in the budding record industry.
In a way, he was one of America's first pop stars- a musical prodigy who dropped out of high school, broke into the music industry when he was a teen, sold tons of records, and developed a huge onstage persona and lived a hard partying lifestyle. We've heard that story a million times, but Fats did it first.
An often repeated story about him recounts a shocking incident where gangster Al Capone kidnapped him off the street to force him to play at a birthday party, because everybody wanted to party with Fats Waller! A less repeated story is this one I found in an NPR article that describes him selling eight of his original songs in exchange for eight hamburgers, which he then consumed in a single sitting.
So certainly, a larger than life figure.

The Records

His legacy as a founding figure of America's pop scene extends to a place you might not expect: back in 1926, he signed a recording contract with the Victor Talking Machine Company, one of the earliest manufacturers and distributors of phonographs and records, which would be bought out by the Radio Corporation of America (RCA) in 1929. Then in 1968, the company would be renamed... RCA Records!
RCA is still a powerful record label today and it's partially thanks to Fats, who was a big moneymaker for them in the early days of the record industry when they were literally selling records.
Over the course of his twenty five year career, he copyrighted around five hundred recordings- supposedly, the label would send him into a recording booth with bunches of sheet music bought from Tin Pan Alley composers and he would rearrange them on the spot to give them that special Fats Waller touch!
But he's best remembered for his skills as a pianist and, most importantly, his songwriting skills. I want to take a moment to highlight that because I firmly believe he's one of the greatest songwriters in history- many of his hits have been accepted as standards and are still in rotation with jazz singers today.

The Music

You might have heard his song "Ain't Misbehavin'," which became something of his signature song after he performed it in the landmark film Stormy Weather (1943), and it's the perfect encapsulation of his style. A clever piano line, a catchy melody, a touch of humor, and a lot of heart. It's just timeless music.
I know for certain / The one I love
I'm through with flirtin' / It's just you I'm thinkin' of
Ain't misbehavin' / Saving my love for you (for you)
(And you) (And you)
There's a tongue-in-cheek sense of humor to the song that's signature Fats- in addition to the lyrics he wrote, he was known to improv and throw new jokes in on the fly during live performances.
We're lucky enough to have footage of him performing "Your Feets Too Big" (another one of his signature numbers where he chastises a woman for, you guessed it, her foot size) and you can just see the charisma oozing off of him as he banters with the band and makes eyes at the camera. All while playing the piano too!
And he was no innocent either, often lacing his songs with innuendo that will shatter any illusions you have about old music being overly conservative. Take, for example, Hattie Noel's recording of "Find Out What They Like," which begins with a disclaimer that the song is "strictly about home cooking" before she sings this:
Find out what he likes / And how he likes it
Go on and give it to him just that way
Give it to him when he wants it / And any time he wants it
And don't you have a single word to say!
He was often performing in nightclubs and bars, which meant he knew how to get the crowd going- "The Joint Is Jumpin'" is the quintessential 1920s party anthem, with the title referring to a secret code phrase that bootleggers would use during the prohibition era to let people know that a party had illegal alcohol. The jaunty music he wrote did a lot to get people on the dance floors as well!
But though he's associated with lively entertainment, there was some grit beneath all that as well. Despite his success, Waller was still a black man living in early 20th century America, and he channelled that into legendary "Black and Blue" (a hit for Louis Armstrong) which is considered by some to be one of the first jazz protest songs:
I'm white inside, but that don't help my case / 'Cause I can't hide what is in my face
How would it end? Ain't got a friend / My only sin is in my skin
What did I do to be so black and blue?
Whatever the occasion, Fats had a song for it.

The End

But like a lot of great artists, Fats had his troubles. He was known for his hard partying lifestyle and frequent money problems that pushed him to be constantly working, and he would tragically pass away in 1943 from pneumonia while on tour.
The man was only 39 years old at the time, but as of today his legacy officially stretches 120 years! So spin a record today for Fats Waller, and get the joint jumpin' in his memory.
If you'd like to hear more of his music, I'd strongly recommend setting aside ninety minutes to watch the Broadway musical Ain't Misbehavin' because it's an incredible piece of theatre that showcases his music spectacularly. Diana Ross & The Supremes did an adorable tribute to him on The Ed Sullivan Show that's worth a watch too.
Any other Fats Waller fans in the sub? What are some of your favorite recordings of his songs?
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2024.05.21 15:23 sotnoms [25/F] Looking for accountability partner in Norway

I’m looking for someone to support each other in achieving our goals - in my case getting healthy physical and mind, sticking to working out, eating healthy. Also would be great to make plans with, go for walks, talk, have fun, be able to open up. If you live in Norway better, if not, Europe is ok!
I moved to Oslo six months ago, lately it feels like life is on stand by, and i really want to enjoy and experience as much as i can!
About me, I don’t drink or smoke or go party really. I like sunsets and clouds, writing, music, going to concerts, cute stuff in general, games (board games and videogames, even though havent played much of the first ones). We can always play chess (im not good but like it) I also like to ask questions and listen. I value loyalty and honesty.
I like to have deep conversations, i like to feel safe, like i can be myself and laugh a lot!
I am also trying to learn Norwegian so if i could practice with you that would be great!
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2024.05.21 15:23 HairyBalds My current rating on the game and ideas for improvement.

8/10.
Very good step in the right direction but definitely room for improvement. If I was king of Blizzard here is what I would change:
DIFFICULTY:

- Lower exp gain by ~10-15%. Leveling feels just a bit too fast for my taste.

- Slightly increase overall monster damage & health in World Tiers 2-4. Game feels a bit too easy In all non-pit activities. World Tier 1 should be the "easy" mode for that audience, not the whole game levels 1-100.

- Greatly increase World Boss damage and health in World Tiers 2-4. They get melted in ~5 seconds, very anti-climactic.

- Make the Capstone dungeons a little more challanging to complete. I easily cleared them while being ~15 levels underleveled, without focusing too much on my geaaspects.

GAMEPLAY:

- More random mini bosses from previous Diablo games spawning in dungeons, like the Butcher. I'd like to see Blood Raven yell "join my army of the dead", summon some zombies and destroy me with an her bow & arrow.

SKILLS: - Slightly more robust skill tree. I understand that this game is marketed to a more casual audience, but we can do better than having ~2 modifications per active skill. I'd like each skill to branch out to 4 or 5 different variants... Like the "runes" on Diablo 3 that changed how your skill worked, we had 5 options per skill.
ITEMS:

- Improve the aspects on less used Uniques. The update was great, but lots of uniques are very bad compared to legendary now due to lack of tempering. Frostburn for example: "Lucky hit: up to 25% chance to freeze enemies" can be improved to "Lucky hit: up to 25% chance to freeze enemies. Deal 10% (x) more damage to frozen enemies." ...small changes to make these items somewhat usable.

- Set items (don't increase damage by 1000% like D3), but id like to chase sets that are usable but not super OP. I'd like cool auras/transmogs for completing the set. Tal Rasha/IK set Aura's were so cool in D2. Transforming into a vampire when you completed the Trang-Ouls set in D2 was so freaking cool as well. I'd like to see more stuff like that.

- Id like to see a new rare legendary item type called "Jeweler's helm" or "Jeweler's axe" etc.... they would have no aspects or affixs (except innate affixs) but they would drop with 2-6 sockets on them. This would lead to...

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2024.05.21 15:23 digivice1999 [ ABOUT CALLOSIS UQ & GUILD 10 P.M ]

[ ABOUT CALLOSIS UQ & GUILD 10 P.M ]
[ CALLOSIS UQ ]
  • Callosis UQ
    This time we introduce Player "Calosis UQ", he is the Guild Leader of the Guild [ TEAM 10 P.M ]. He has a "DeadFish" face and wear a golden armor, he is a "BlackCompany S-L@V-E" but he also holds an important position in the IT Company, he goes to work feeling tired and impatient and His heart is always on the Retirement Plan Letter in his pocket, his Ingame name can also be understood as "Karoshi" (search GG for more)
    The condition to join the "10 P.M" Guild is that all Members belong to the "Working Class" so most of the Guild members often have a "DeadFish" face like the Guild Leader and they often Log In to the Game quite late (Meaning for the guild name)
    Guild 10 P.M is one of the guilds allied with Guild "WOLF GANG"
    Callosis UQ has the Job "Mystic Sword" which is one of the highest branches of the Magic Sword Class, by tearing a page from the Grimoire (Spellbook) and placing it on the sword, the sword is Magically Enchanted based on the magic based on that page. It's a good Class but usually not as famous as the Job "Sword Saint / Kensei" (used by Psyger-100) due to its not as flashy appearance.
    The truth is, although Callosis UQ is not the person with the highest Player Skill in the Guild or Log In as much as other Members, all Guild Members completely agree that only Callosis UQ is the most suitable to be the Guild Leader due to skills such as: " Planning ability, Budget construction ability, schedule adjustment ability, On-site Response Ability, External Negotiation Ability, Interpersonal Relationship buffering ability... " All Skills needed in a Company are so High that all members everyone agrees that Callosis UQ is the only one at the top of the " TEAM 10 P.M.'' Even without HOLY SWORD , the dazzling light of the Santetsu sword attracts the Working Class─
    Callosis UQ has high command ability and is also skilled enough to both Attack and Magic Support and even Support Sunraku (who is very difficult to Support due to his terrifying Speed ​​and the influence of Lycaon Scar), Callosis UQ commands the Players in the Guild and outside the Guild in the Arc "DRAGON DISASTER WAR", Is 1 of 2 Guild Leaders (the other being Psyger-100) who impresses and is praised by [ HEAVENLY SUPREME - SIEGWURM ] (1 OF 7 COLOSSI).
    Callosis UQ is one of the Players who agreed to join the Dispatched campaign [ THE INEXHAUSTIBLE - GOLDUNINE / BOSSDUNINE ] (1 OF 7 COLOSSI) organized by Sunraku and is also one of the 5 Members of the Party [ DRAGON HUNTING GATHERING ] organized by Sunraku to conquer The 10th True Dragon [ FEAR OF BLADE - TOMAHAWK ] Defeating Tomahawk causes Members' weapons to receive Dragon Buster Power and change shape and the player to receive the job Class [ Dragon Buster ].
    The Emblem Flag of the 10 P.M Guild is an image of Gears (Clogs) rotating forever in the night sky, symbolic of how the Guild operates.
    By: @RoolSaucy
    Series: Shangri-la Frontier Chap 30 Link:https://twitter.com/RoolSaucy/status/1332386075671625729?t=Lca2QuiPA9TOtyeJpQ-jnw&s=19
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2024.05.21 15:22 CrouchingSwordfish Does working out slow down the healing process of a fractured bone?

If I train in the gym (for example, do bicep curls) and I have a fractured ankle, does that slow down the healing process of my ankle because muscular recovery also takes up resources, or does it not work like that? This isn't a medical advice question, I was just wondering how the body allocates resources to heal your muscles and bones.
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2024.05.21 15:22 Real_Arm56 Christians. What's wrong with people who are saved?

Some of my worst life experiences were in the hands of 'people who are saved'. What happens that immediately someone becomes saved, they begin becoming selfish,egocentric and just some abnormal level of wickedness? Are you always honestly saved or you just don't know what salvation means?. Honestly, immediately a client or my clinets contact person introduces themselves as saved or man/woman of God, i just prepare myself for a rough work relationship moving forward.
In my village, there's a retired Bishop's home(now the late). Growing up, whenever we visited the village over Easter or Christmas, there were a lot of fruits in that compound; Mangoes, guavas, Java plums, passion but you couldn't pluck even a piece. They used to clean the compound every morning, throwing the several fallen fruits but couldn't allow a neighbors kid pick even a single fruit. Even their farm workers used to carry water as you couldn't go to ask for water from that home.
In my high school, most of the people who used to identify as saved conducted themselves and treated others in a manner that couldn't motivate the pagan us to think that salvation is a good thing. Saw some in campus too, actively in Church but treating humans like second class humans.
However I've interacted with a few ;among them, my highschool crime partner who is currently serving God with his heart, body and time, and one Campus friend from first year, among a few others who are saved and an interaction with them will leave you admiring a new life in Christ.
What's the meaning of "kuokoka" ? Is there a specific way a practicing Christian proclaiming salvation should behave and treat his neighbours as s/he waits to go and eat honey and milk in heaven? Have you experienced some unexpected behaviour from the "bwana asifiwe" fellows? Or is Satan using me to tarnish the name of Men of God? Your thoughts? Also worth Noting Is that my mother openly proclaimed salvation recently and I hope she doesn't turn into something else.
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2024.05.21 15:22 precompute Camerata IRL: 2015 emails between Sam Altman and Elon Musk

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2024.05.21 15:21 maxwellstent BODYPUMP 129

Bodypump 129 is out to most instructors. What’s everyone’s thoughts…?
Personally, I LOVE!!! Miles better than 128 and 127. I had a soft spot for 126 - music and moves were awesome. 125/124 were meh, 123 was amazing and so was 122, 121, 120.
In the last 10 releases or so, this is my personal favourite.
Interestingly, this release focusses on pure strength training and progressive overload. I like how a lot of the tracks focus on increasing load or moving to a heavier option (chest and biceps for example) to maximise muscle hypertrophy. Raegan even mentions maximising hypertrophy before the biceps track - this is a great focus as previously it’s been functional stuff yawn.
My breakdown:
  1. Warm up - okay song; not the best. love the integrated moves between upper and lower.
  2. Squats - probably my least favourite working track. Quite fast, music wasn’t incredible. But boy did it burn. Be careful keep weight lower than usual.
  3. Chest - love love love the music and love the plate combo and then the burnout with the barbell.
  4. Back - love love love the offset deadlift, and a myriad of exercises to blast your lats, traps, erectors, hamstrings, everything !!
  5. Triceps - cool vibey song. Love the mixture of barbell work, plate work and bodyweight.
  6. Biceps - vibey and love the feel of the song.. and it’s Rihanna so obviously it’s great ;)
  7. Lunges - love love love the song. Super upbeat and gets you through the endurance of pulses!
  8. Shoulders - love the song again!!! And the mac raise is back !! Proper shoulder burn.
  9. Core - a lot longer than usual! Lots of integrated core stuff instead or just crunches with a really cool song.
  10. Cool-down - very nice :)
Overall, i thoroughly enjoyed. Amazing music, real authentic bodypump vibe.
What does everyone else think??
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2024.05.21 15:21 unavngiven My mom died... [Very long post]

This is my first reddit post, although I have been a long time lurker of many subreddits. I am 23 years old and an only child. I am not a native english speaker, so please forgive any weird formatting or any spelling/grammar mistakes.
As the title states, my mom died ... and I am currently writing this to try and process this whole situation. I've tried to section all the paragraphs in chronological order, to make reading easier. Sorry for the extremely long post - I just needed to get it all out.
We only just celebrated her 60th birthday back in february. She did all the cooking, cleaning and planning without any trouble - even down to picking out the perfect napkins and flowers for her white and gold theme.
My mother was without a job. She had been jobless for almost 2 years now, after she was fired from her old cleaning job due to frequent sick days because of stomach cramps and pain. She was seen by a doctor back in 2022 for her stomach aches, and they found no physical cause - hence why we concluded it must've been due to stress. The stress and stomach pains subsided after she'd been fired. So we thought no more of it.
In march she was doing a 4-week internship in a local supermarket to see if she might've been a good fit for a permanent paid position. This is common practice for unemployeed people here in Denmark.
My mother started having stomach pains again during this internship, soon followed by back pains as well. She figured this was due to her spending most of the day sitting as a cashier in an uncomfortable position. My mother wasn't very tall, so she had trouble reaching the floor pedals that control the cashier conveyer belt.
In the beginning of april, she went to the doctor. Her stomach and back pains hadn't gone away although the internship was over. Her doctor also concluded it was most likely due to her uncomfortable working position, and that it would pass in a few weeks time. The doctor did some bloodwork, and found that she was severely lacking vitamin D, but nothing else seemed concerning at the time.
In the middle of april, her pains had only gotten worse, and she went to the doctor again. Her doctor did more bloodwork, and did a phisycal exam of my mothers stomach. Her doctor ordered a CT scan to check for anything serious.
19th of april. I accompany my mother to the hospital for her CT scan. We get told that we'll have the results in a week or so. My mother is not looking good when I pick her up at the bus station. She is more pale than usual, and has trouble walking at her usual pace.
23th of april. My mother received a referral to a meeting at the hospital with a doctor and nurse, to discuss the results of the CT scan. This referral is sent from the hospitals cancer department. My mother and I speak on the phone, she is concerned, but I tell her that this type of referral must just be standard pratice, and that she shouldn't worry untill we have spoken with the doctor. I cried that night.
25th of april. The day before her meeting with the doctor, I received a phone call from my mother. She tells me that she had fallen while at home, but that I shouldn't worry. I, of course, worry.
I pack my things and leave for my mothers house, I live an hour away by bus. When I finally arrive my mother seems okay-ish, but the house is another story. My mother is normally known for being a clean freak, and her house has always been clean and organized, But it wasn't anymore.
Her kitchen was a mess, and the dishwasher hadn't been empited or loaded for at least two weeks. Her bathroom is even worse, and I won't even begin to describe the state of the toilet it self. It is a sight that will horrify me for the rest of my life. I cleaned everything, while my mother rested.
My mother had also started sleeping on the guest bed, saying her own was too uncomfortable for her.
While cleaning the bathroom, my mother wakes up. Despite her state, she says she wants to help. But before I can even tell her no, my mother has another fall. Her legs essentially just crumble beneath her, and she falls backwards and lands head first on the floor. We argue back and forth about calling an ambulance, but she refuses to let me - so I don't, even though I should have. I guess I still respected my moms authority too much.
My mother lives alone, as my parents are divorced (they are very good friends though). My mother refuses to let me call my dad and tell him about this whole situation. She is stubborn and too proud to admit defeat.
26th of april. We take a taxi to the hospital. The taxi driver has a help my mother into the car. During the carride my mother says very little, but seems slightly delirious and very tired. When we arrive at the hospital, I quickly borrow a hospital wheelchair for my mother. She is almost unable to walk unassisted at this point.
After waiting for a while in the waiting area, a nurse comes and guides us to a meeting room. My mother is very tired at this point, and still delirious, and I have to handle most of the conversation with the doctor.
The CT scan results showed Pancreatic cancer. The cancer had already spread to her liver and abdomial cavity.
I had read about this cancer a few days prior, trying to figure out what was wrong with my mother. I knew what this meant, and I knew that it was effectively a death sentence. The doctor told us that an operation was out of the question, since the cancer had already spread. And due to the clearly weak state of my mothers health, chemo would also not be offered, as it would finish her.
I told the doctor of her two falls and the state of her home, and that she would not be safe on her own. The doctor had her admitted to a nearby bed department for stomach- and gastrointestinal surgery patients.
The hospital did a ton of bloodwork on my mother when she got admitted, and everything was off. All numbers were either too high or dangerously low. My mothers health was in fact so bad, that I was told she was a heart attack risk. I was also told that if a heart attack happened, she would not be brought back - as it would only prolong a very short and painful life.
I called my dad.
27th of april. My mother slept most of the day.
28th of april. My mother had another fall during the night, trying to get to the bathroom.
29th of april. My dad shows up to the hospital. He wasn't able to get off work until now, as he works in the other end of the country. He is shocked to see my mother in this state. We are told once again by a different doctor that nothing can be done. They are looking into getting her a spot at a nearby hospice.
The rest of the remaining week is spent in hospital. My dad and I are by my mothers side every day. She doesn't leave her hospital room, apart from a few times a day for a smoke break outside. My dad and I take her outside in a wheelchair, which she needs help to get in and out of.
Her bloodwork is showing some slight improvements, but she is still having trouble with infections and receives a lot of antibiotics. She eats like a mouse, but drinks a lot of fluids.
My mother is often very confused or tired most days. She gets referred for an MR scan, to see if the cancer has spread to her brain, or if one of her falls has caused permanent damage. Lucikly the MR scan shows that nothing is wrong with her brain.
She gets confused about her diagnosis a few times, thinking that she had brain cancer instead due to the MR scan. I have to remind her a couple times about what the doctor actually said.
6th of may. My mother seems to have stabilized somewhat so my dad has gone back to work.
7th of may. I get told by the hospital staff that my mother is to be transferred to a different hospital, which is one hour away. I become very upset by this news, and unfortunately yell at one of my mothers nurses in frustration. I yell at her that It'll be harder for me to get to my mother in time if something were to happen. I am ashamed of this childish behavior, as the transfer was the best desicion for my mother in hindsight.
I leave with my mother as we get transferred to the new hospital and their department of palliative care.
I am very ashamed by my behavior to my mothers old nurse, as this department for palliative care was truly the best place for my mother. She seemed very satisfied and happy to have been transferred. They have a large garden with wild flowers, and lovely staff. And my mother got a much bigger room all to herself. She also meets with their physical therapist, who helps my mother relieve some of her pain.
My mother and I have dinner together in the evening in her hospital room. My mom is her old self, although with some delayed speaking. I unfortunately have to rush a bit when leaving, as to not miss my bus home, so I quickly say goodbye to her and leave.
8th of may. In the morning on my way to the new hospital, I received a phone call from her new doctor. My mothers liver has suddenly started to fail due to the cancer. When I arrive, she is asleep. I am told she wont wake up again.
I called my dad, but he wont arrive until the evening, due to the distance from his workplace.
I spend most of the day in my mothers hospital room, listening to her sleep. She occasionally attempts to cough in her sleep, but it mainly just sounds like yells. It is terrifying. The nurses give her pain medication and some sleep medication to help her body relax.
My dad arrives in the late evening. We drive to my mothers house and stay the night there. We spend most of the late evening looking at pictures and scrapbooks of my mother, and packing a bag with clothes for her, for when she passes.
When prepareing the guest bed for my dad, we find a blanket that my mother slept on. It is stained, matching the previous state of the bathroom. We throw the blanket out.
9th of may. Mom is sleeping. Dad and I spend the day at the hospital, but we don't sit in her hospital room. It is too eerie and uncomfortable. We check on her occassionally. Towards the evening, her breathing becomes slightly more rapid and quick. But the nurses tell us to go home. There is no reason for us to sit by her side during the night - as it'll only make it worse for us.
10th of may. I wake at 6.12 am to my phone ringing. It is a nurse. My mother has passed away in her sleep at 6.05 that morning due to liver failure. My dad and I drive to the hospital. I am the first to see her body after the nurses prepared and dressed it in the clothing we picked.
(warning: the following paragraph may be slightly upsetting to some readers)
It it eerie and uncomfortable to see my mother like this. A symptom of pancreatic and liver cancers is that your skin will yellow. Something that I hadn't noticed in my mother till now. I cant help but think that she looks like a wax doll, although I feel horrible for thinking it. I finally touch her hand, after gathering the courage to, almost like I am afraid to distrub her. Her hands are cold, and only get colder as I sit by her side. I am supposed to say my goodbyes to her, and tell her how much she means to me, but in this moment I am speechless. I can't say anything, even on my mothers deathbed. I feels wrong to speak to a corpse. I should've said those things while she could hear them instead. I kiss her forehead before I leave the room.
17th of may. Funeral. The church and casket was beautifully decorated with colorful flowers, like my mother had requested. She didn't want anything white or depressing. I cried all the way through the funeral service, stopping only when it was time to carry the casket out. My dad on the left side, and me on the right, and some other family members behind us. Purple rain by Prince was played on the church piano as we carried the casket. I knew the casket would be heavy, but nothing prepared me for the sheer weight of that thing.
21th of may. Today. I don't really know what to think of my mothers death. Some days I almost forget that shes gone or that all this has been happening, until something reminds me of it.
In a way, I am thankful. Of course I didn't want my mother to die, but I'm glad that her suffering wasn't prolonged for months while she slowly withered away to cancer. And I'm thankful that my mother didn't live to suffer from alzheimers, like her own mother. And I am glad that if anything, my mothers death has brought my dad and I closer.
But at the same time, I am angry that she didn't get to live more of her life. She was only 60 years old, and should have had 20 more years at least. If she at least was 70, it might've been easier to lose her but I doubt it.
I think mostly of all the things she will miss out on, which saddens me the most. I am 23 and my mother wont get to see most of my life or my achivements. If I have kids, she'll never meet them, and she I get married, she'll never see it. My 24th birthday is coming up soon, and I don't know how I'll handle that day without my mother for the first time - or christmas for that matter.
I want my mom.
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2024.05.21 15:21 SevenInHeaven I'm entering a hypomanic episode and need advice

Hello everyone!
So, I'm currently on 200mg of lamotrigine. It has improved my life to an incredible extent since it was first prescribed to me in December, and basically made the depression and associated anxiety I've been battling for a good decade vanish. I've been fully stable for the past ~4 months. Yay for that!
As for the issue at hand:
I've recently begun dating someone, and we are both very interested in each other. That particular dopamine hit always triggers a hypomania for me, like I'm sure it does for many people suffering from bipolar.
Thing is, I'm not ready to open up about my diagnosis with this new guy yet, especially not while I'm actively going through a hypomanic episode. I know you should tell someone you're planning to have a longterm relationship with about these types of serious mental illnesses sooner rather than later, but bipolar has such a stigma attached to it. I'd hate to be seen as my disorder instead of "me", especially because I've been doing so well lately and am not a self destructive mess anymore. I want him to see what I'm like while stable before I tell him about having BP2. So far, I'm pretty sure he finds my enthusiasm and high energy cute, but if it gets more intense I'd definitely come on way too strong, overshare, and then scare him off.
My current symptoms are the usual - spending more money than I should, talking faster, etc. All manageable. But, last night, I stayed awake until 7 a.m. and woke up unable to fall back asleep 3 hours later. Needless to say, this is very alarming and what made me realize what's happening. No hypersexuality so far though, thank God.
I'd try to make sure I get enough sleep at night and do calming activities, but that isn't really an option. I need to get up at 5 to 6 in the morning for work and am then on my feet in a high stress/fast paced environment for 8 hours, plus a 2 hour commute and needing to do various chores at home.
Can anyone tell me their experience with having a hypomanic episode despite being on lamotrigine or another mood stabilizer? Did you have these types of symptoms too, but never actually entered a full, capital H, out of control hypomania? Should I contact my psychiatrist and tell her about this? I have an appointment in early June anyway, and I've never called her because of acute symptoms like this, so I don't know how to proceed.
Any advice and first hand experiences with this type of situation are appreciated!
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2024.05.21 15:21 kimchichilicrisp feeling out of place at a job.. should i leave?

background: 22F, ive been a psych care tech at this hospital for a little over a year. but the thing is i take the school year off and last summer i worked at a camp but still had this job and would come on my days off. so i’ve been an employee for a year, but haven’t worked consecutively.
lately i’ve been feeling like i want another job, mainly because i feel out of place. like everybody else gets along so well and hangs out & stuff. then there’s just me like this 🧍🏾‍♀️LOL. also, this is a high end hospital. & by high end, i mean in a suburban area. i’m a black girl, and 1 out of 4 black girls in the whole unit, and not from this area at all. matter of fact im from kind of the opposite, the hood if you will.
is it fair for me to want to leave? or should i just wait it out? my main goal was to get my foot in the door here, so that i can maybe move up or for when i go to nursing school. but now i have the experience to go elsewhere. idk. i dont feel like i belong, and i feel out of place. i dont feel like i can fully be myself, i have 2 coworkers im cool with but the nurses and stuff idk, and even w those 2 coworkers it’s still the same feeling.
asking for advice but would also like to vent. thanks in advance
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2024.05.21 15:20 JAThrowaway52 Declaration of Name Change

Hi All,
I recently got a new job and need to fill out a form for working with children etc as it is a job in a school - it asked about previous names and I am wondering what the consequences are if I fail to state my deadname. I had my name changed over 4 years ago - while I was still under 18 and I’m wondering if that changes anything as nothing I have done as an adult has used that name.
Also what would happen if I did fail to include that information? (I don’t have proof of a name change as all I ever received was the updated birth certificate and no change of name letter)
I am in NSW if that helps.
Thanks!
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2024.05.21 15:19 Lavender__Ghost Question on adhd medication

Hello ! So I have been diagnosed with adhd not so long ago. I have been prescribed medication that I have been trying for a couple of months. My psychiatrist gave me a short form (Rilatine) and a long form (Medikinet). Their dosages are both 10 mg. I noticed that the short form works particularly well. I use it when I want to study something and I'll be at it for 2-3 hours, maybe even 4. My thoughts don't bother me and I don't feel distracted by anything really. But when I take the long form I don't feel it's as efficient. I'll use it if I need to study the whole day for an exam for example. So I was wondering if it's something that is possible and if anyone has experienced the same thing as me. I'm confused as to why the short form works particularly well whereas the long form not so much even tho they are the same dosage. I'm thinking of maybe asking to increase the dosage of the long form.
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2024.05.21 15:18 RealAnigai Self Service - Convert Mobile Accounts To Local

Hi Guys,
Hopefully you might be able to offer a little macOS scripting insight to a Linux guy roped into this environment :). I've been working on this for about a week now with mixed success and since I'm the only person in the place who knows bash it's time to ask for help from the internet lol
I'm currently trying to get a script working that uses BIG RAT's tool called Mobile To Local from here(Version 2.6.1: https://github.com/BIG-RAT/mobile_to_local
I want my users to be able to opt into in themselves via the Self Service and ideally with 1 click on the install button, get their currently logged in account converted to a Local Account.
I have tested my script on 6 machines(4 are VM's in UTM) with various versions from Big Sur to Sonoma and it's successful on 5 of them, converting the logged in user no problem with a single click of the Install button from Self Service except for my M1 Mac Studio with my own personal account. Upon editing my script to spit out the variable containing the user who is running the script as a notification, on the other machines it returns my test users username or on one of them my own username(a physical iMac) but on the problem Mac Studio where again my personal account it logged in it actually returns the user as root instead of myself.
How can I include logic in the script to run it as the logged in user all the time but still retain the required elevated permissions without needing to add any additional steps like prompting the user for their password for example?
Here is a copy of my current script that was working on the 5/6 machines:
# Fetch the username of the currently logged in user and store the result into CurrentUser CurrentUser=$(stat -f "%Su" /dev/console) # If the user doesn't show up in the Filevault enabled list, display a notification and exit with an error status # If the user does show up in the Filevault enabled list, execute the Mobile To Local tool to silently convert them to a Local Account if [[ ! $(sudo fdesetup list grep -io $CurrentUser) ]]; then osascript -e 'display notification "Filevault must be enabled first! Please ask IT for assistance." with title "Self Service says"' exit 1 else sudo /Applications/Mobile\ to\ Local.app/Contents/MacOS/Mobile\ to\ Local -unbind false -userType standard -mode silent fi 
Sidenote 1: I included logic to check that the logged in user was a Secure Token enabled user because I ran into an issue where if Filevault was enabled on the machine and the logged in user was not Secure Token enabled, their account would convert ok but their password would not log them in until an admin resets it locally.
Sidenote 2: The whole reason we want local accounts is to use Apples Kerberbos SSO extension via our VPN to keep passwords synced as the boss doesn't want to spend any money on a solution like Jamf Connect for example.
Any help or advice would be appreciated guys.
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2024.05.21 15:17 Repulsive_Trifle2054 Getting hit on byYounger women

I'am 36 and still look young and I'am in good shape (do a lot of training). I get sometimes hit on by younger women in their early 20.
For example at work there's this girl who always greets me in an exaggerated way with a huge smile. I never talked to her, always just greeted back. Also during the day I sometimes get big smiles from young women. Sometimes they greet me on the street even strangers. There's even this older women with her bike who always yells at me "oh there's this beautiful man". I don't know if she has mental problems. It's always the same when she sees me🤦
Last week in the train there was this girl who came to me asking me if I could help her with the timetable of the train station. It was nothing. Then sometimes I get ask for cigaretts although I'm not even smoking. I always see two girls riding their bike in my neightborhood and when they drive by BOTH smile at me (one of them is younger like 17 or so). Last month I was at the hospital. There was this younger nurse that took care of me for a day. At home again she added me on facebook. I wrote her a normal friendly message back and she blocked me (i have no idea why).
I don't know what do to. It drives me crazy, but I don't want to look like a creep if I approach them🤦Or do you think it's ok if I would approach them?
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2024.05.21 15:17 AppleBottmBeans Simple Personas Guide for Early Teek Play

I see a lot of confusion about personas here and wanted to shed some light on why you may want to use them on a new server like Teek. These use cases will change in the future, since personas won’t be needed for many of the reasons stated below in later expansion, so keep in mind that this is mostly for early gameplay on the new TLP.
Reason 1: Quickly getting to a different continent at launch.
For example, my plan is to start with an Iksar character, but the static group I’m leveling with is meeting up in GFay. Instead of making the long and risky journey from Cabilis to Kelethin, I’m using personas. I’ll begin with my Iksar and grab my starting robe. Then, I’ll create a new persona as a Wood Elf Druid that starts in Kelethin. But since the Iksar race are KOS there, I’ll first take the Druid to a safe area without guards. At that point, I can switch to my Iksar persona, which will now be wherever that safe spot is.
Reason 2: Quick travel upon dying.
Since I’m playing an Iksar, if I die, I will respawn in my starting city, Cabilis. When that happens, I will simply switch my persona back to my Druid, who will now also be in Cabilis. I’ll attack a guard and let the Druid die. Since the Druid’s starting location is Kelethin, I will respawn in Kelethin. I’ll then again get to a safe area and switch personas back to the Iksar and be back in Kelethin.
Reason 3: To quickly buy spells.
This one works particularly well if you have the Challenger perk that prevents you from losing levels upon death. For this to work, you should keep your bind point at the starting location on your main character. For example, if I’m in Crushbone when my Iksar levels up, I will obviously be a long run back to Cabilis to get new spells. However, if I let myself die, the Challenger perk will prevent me from losing any experience and I will end up back in Cabilis. Then, I can buy my spells and switch personas back to my Druid, who will again die and respawn back in Kelethin. This method is much quicker in the early stages for buying spells compared to creating a character that sits at the spell vendor and then parcels them over to your main.
Reason 4: For quick travel in general.
Using the same strategy as above, you can leverage the starting locations around the map to travel via “death ports”. For example, I plan on having my Iksar main (starting continent is Kunark), a Wood Elf Druid persona (starting continent is Faydwer), and a Human persona (starting continent is Antonica). This setup will give me easy travel around the map by switching to the specific persona, dying, and then respawning at the designated starting area. Then I just switch back to my Iksar when I’m in a safe location and I’m there.
Reason 5: To vendor trash loot as an evil race.
Since I’m playing an Iksar and plan to spend most of my early time near cities where I am KOS, I will use my personas to sell to those vendors. For example, if I’m in Crushbone and ready to sell my loot, I will switch to my Wood Elf persona to sell to the vendors in Kelethin. You can even meta-game this by creating a persona with the highest Charisma possible to get the maximum price from vendors for your loot. Not a huge difference in price, but not irrelevant either.
Some important notes to remember:
  1. You must have the LS expansion to access personas, which costs at minimum $35 USD. Be aware that you do not have access to personas unless you own this expansion.
  2. With the purchase of the LS expansion, you have a limited number of personas (3) unless you buy additional slots. It’s also important to note that you cannot delete a persona. Therefore, you have to be strategic in how you use them. Don’t create them randomly. When you create personas, try to consider what you might want to use them for in future expansions (different races, classes, etc.). Once your 3 personas are used up, that character can no longer create more without purchasing extra slots.
  3. Each persona levels up independently. This means if your main character is level 20, when you switch to the persona, they will not share your experience and will be level 1.
  4. Your entire inventory is shared. Which means if you have a full bag of loot on your main and then persona over to another toon, that full bag of loot will be in the same spot.
Hope this helps some folks trying to figure out what the purpose of Personas is and how you might want to use them if you plan on (or already own) the expansion!
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2024.05.21 15:17 toucherofheads I think breasts would make me dysphoric

I'm going to start HRT soon - and I'm excited for all the changes, like smoother skin, less muscle, feminine body and face shape. But not really the breasts.
For example, I currently find my penis disgusting to look at - it's gross and dangles everywhere. When I imagine myself with
I find it disgusting/dysphoric.
Having breasts also seems inconvenient and intrusive - all the bouncing seems annoying, as does having to wear another piece of clothing everyday.
At the same time, I think I would feel weird looking at myself if I was 100% flat. It wouldn't fit the rest of my female body. My ideal world would be breasts that could be attached and detached magnetically. Put them on only for showy times (formal events, beaches), and take them off when I'm just working/chilling/exercising. Or atleast, have very small breasts.
Am I actually trans?? Is this a normal trans feeling? It doesn't feel like it. I hear so many trans girls giddy about breast growth, and here I am, pondering if I even want it.
I was excited about SRS and living as a woman my whole life. But what's the point of that if it's going to induce more dysphoria?
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2024.05.21 15:15 Nerdywriter0518 I don't have the drive anymore

I have been writing for over 20 years. It has been an outlet for a lot of things and dealing with my trauma, but lately, I just haven't had the drive too. I used to get so excited about working on stories I could write and publish. I have multiple that I have almost finished, but wrote myself into a mess.
I don't know, the idea of writing is exhausting now. I don't know if it has to do more with taking care of my six-month-old pup or it's my depression or autistic burnout or I just have fallen out of love with it since I started doing research on how to self publish.
I don't know what to do. Does anyone have suggestions or have I just grown out of writing?
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2024.05.21 15:15 Oberin1054135 Dating non prefered sex?

Hi male 31, I consider myself bisexual, mostly homosexual and heteroromantic. I am writing because I don't know what to do about daiting? Particularly about dating a woman colleague. Hope someone that have gone through a similar experience can advice.
To give a bit of context I became attracted recently to one female work colleague, she is my friend, when we meet she had a parnert and I was exploring dating men so didn't seemed an option at that moment, although as I had know her more with the time spend together, I had find her attractive in an intellectual and emotional way and, I feel that we have a wonderful connection, the last time I feel something simmilar was in my first serious relationship with a woman. Though I haven't feel the physical attraction to her until the moment. I know she is also interested in me and she knows I have been with woman and man.
On the other side, I was mostly attracted to women until 25, undoubtedly I liked the sex with them, and had a partner thet loved so much. My sexual attraction have shifted since then, in my late twenties, as I started to experience sex with man and got involved emotionally as well, though never had a public relationship. Recently, I have dated men and the sexual attraction is been exclusively to them currently, but I haven't had sex with a woman in several years.
I don't know if I should give it a go to date her? due that the connection seems very promising, even when the physical component haven't show up untill now? Does someone had experience something similar? Do the physical and sexual attraction developed later? I have feel so scared that simply it wouldn't develop at the end and waisting her time. Some advice could help
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2024.05.21 15:14 Stopthecount23 $15-20 for gas until payday. Willing to show gas receipt

I am in need of gas for the remainder of the week. I need it for work and to take my son to his doctor appointment. I am more than willing to show a gas receipt for the purchase or use a gas card. Or if someone can show me how to make $20 quickly, I'm open to that as well. Things have been so hard lately, but I'm trying to get myself out of this hole.
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2024.05.21 15:13 aLittlePheonix1 25 [M4F] Europe/Anywhere - Together forever?

Hello!
I am looking for a person with whom we can connect with and build a relationship together. Befriend each other from the start, spend time together, have new experiences, be it new to both or teach each other different things. Nerd out about stuff we like, support each other and slowly build our own world. The end goal that I envision and would love to achieve is just some basic, yet, intimate moments, that I believe both would enjoy, like:
There's more of course, but generally moments like these are the end goal. In short. the end goal is a romantic lifelong relationship.
About hobbies, I have a lot of hobbies and interests. My main hobbies would be working out, I'm a gym rat, I love working out. Gaming, I enjoy playing video games, board games, just games in general during my free time. Watching videos, streams, shows, movies, anime. I watch Youtube daily. a lot of different stuff. I enjoy watching true crime, like JCS, cam footage, documentaries and etc., games, reviews, news, memes and honestly, pretty much everything, mostly just go off of recommended or something I was waiting for. Besides videos, I mainly watch anime. I love all kinds. TV shows and movies not that much, due to either watching alone is not that interesting, or already watched everything I liked and no new parts, seasons, episodes came out yet. I enjoy listening to music, my taste is all over the place, genre doesn't really matter, I just have to like the song, I also like writing, started writing a story some time back and still in the process of combining all the elements, though it's a very slow process due to time and how much actually gets invested into that. And generally I am artsy, I enjoy imagining and creating. There are more interests, like learning languages for example, or drawing maybe, but they are something I do from time to time maybe, or during different moods, but these are mostly my main hobbies that I do day to day.
My main values are communication and effort. I believe anything can be achieved if both parties put the same amount of effort towards each other. That's how a true relationship will be built. In my eyes, communication is key to everything. I am a non-judgemental person, and always want and willing to talk everything through, so every opinion is heard, every view is understood and both parties are satisfied. Without clear and well communication, everything will just fall apart piece by piece, especially if the communication and effort is one sided.
Your location or distance doesn't matter. My age range is 18 - 35.
If any of this caught your interest, feel free to reach out!
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2024.05.21 15:13 aLittlePheonix1 25 [M4F] Europe/Anywhere - Together forever?

Hello!
I am looking for a person with whom we can connect with and build a relationship together. Befriend each other from the start, spend time together, have new experiences, be it new to both or teach each other different things. Nerd out about stuff we like, support each other and slowly build our own world. The end goal that I envision and would love to achieve is just some basic, yet, intimate moments, that I believe both would enjoy, like:
There's more of course, but generally moments like these are the end goal. In short. the end goal is a romantic lifelong relationship.
About hobbies, I have a lot of hobbies and interests. My main hobbies would be working out, I'm a gym rat, I love working out. Gaming, I enjoy playing video games, board games, just games in general during my free time. Watching videos, streams, shows, movies, anime. I watch Youtube daily. a lot of different stuff. I enjoy watching true crime, like JCS, cam footage, documentaries and etc., games, reviews, news, memes and honestly, pretty much everything, mostly just go off of recommended or something I was waiting for. Besides videos, I mainly watch anime. I love all kinds. TV shows and movies not that much, due to either watching alone is not that interesting, or already watched everything I liked and no new parts, seasons, episodes came out yet. I enjoy listening to music, my taste is all over the place, genre doesn't really matter, I just have to like the song, I also like writing, started writing a story some time back and still in the process of combining all the elements, though it's a very slow process due to time and how much actually gets invested into that. And generally I am artsy, I enjoy imagining and creating. There are more interests, like learning languages for example, or drawing maybe, but they are something I do from time to time maybe, or during different moods, but these are mostly my main hobbies that I do day to day.
My main values are communication and effort. I believe anything can be achieved if both parties put the same amount of effort towards each other. That's how a true relationship will be built. In my eyes, communication is key to everything. I am a non-judgemental person, and always want and willing to talk everything through, so every opinion is heard, every view is understood and both parties are satisfied. Without clear and well communication, everything will just fall apart piece by piece, especially if the communication and effort is one sided.
Your location or distance doesn't matter. My age range is 18 - 35.
If any of this caught your interest, feel free to reach out!
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