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Stop recommending vinegar/baking soda. There are far better chemicals that are specifically made to do certain cleaning jobs.

2024.05.21 12:09 KappaPride1207 Stop recommending vinegar/baking soda. There are far better chemicals that are specifically made to do certain cleaning jobs.

I feel like the whole adage of vinegar and baking soda is such a knee-jerk recommendation on the internet at this point and I feel like it's not even good. There are actual chemicals, made by chemists, whose sole purpose is to do a specific task.
For example:
  1. Barkeeper's Friend as a scouring agent for scratchable stuff like stainless pans
  2. Easy-Off/lye for baked on stuff
  3. Bleach or enzymatic cleaners for organics
  4. TSP/TSP-P for paint job prep, smoked in items, and as a heavy duty version of Oxi-Clean (and vice versa for Oxi-Clean)
  5. CLCitric Acid for mineral deposits (the one place where Vinegar actually makes sense).
  6. Oils to dissolve sticker residue
Could probably list more but these specific chemicals just work so much better at their specific jobs than trying to use a one size fits all solution that barely does anything.
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2024.05.20 00:07 Late-Law7437 Child Support and paternity fraud

Where do I begin. For the purpose of this post, I will use fictious names and locations as it is ongoing, and out of respect (even though she doesn't deserve any)
My name is Daniel. I am 35 years old, and i am dying. I have a disease called systemic sclerosis. I am currently on a supplemental disability plan, until I get approved for SSI (social Security). Until then, my income is about 4K a month. I own a home but after child support and bills, NOT INCLUDING gas, food, haircuts, medical appointments, and or emergencies like my fridge just broke. (which i never go out) I am left with $260 that has to last me a month. I also have three children who I have to take care of half the time per the 50/50 agreement.
Recently, I found out my oldest, (who is 13) is not biologically mine. I decided to look into it as I had concerns for a while since my divorce as her cheating was very rampant. I also had caught her in 2017 with a man in my house, which is what prompted the divorce. But FL being a no fault state, doesn't matter. I also had to pay child support since the beginning and WHILE LEGALLY Married since 2010 because she had applied for financial support like food stamps and government assistance then. I know what your thinking. Why didnt you stop it then? I tried. You cant take yourself off child support. I also never grew up with a father and wanted that two-parent household. I don't run from responsibilities, like he did. Its how I was raised. Anyways, I married her, tried to do the right thing, she lied numerous times. she never worked, and I worked 90 plus hours a week. To look into her cheating, was impossible at the time as I was never home. and to busy providing for my family.
fast forward to now. My disease started to become worse and over three years; it didn't reveal itself until last year fully to actually pinpoint what this was. for instance, I had in 2019 pain behind my eyes and horrible headaches to the point that I thought I had MS. following year, I had trouble swallowing for 3 months. next year itching in the skin for three months. But prior, I had visited various doctors to see what was going on, each time a flare up then would last 3 to four months, which again, when you don't understand what's going on, you need to take time off to go see doctors, run tests, but this illness was and still is very elusive. with that being said I had 5 jobs since its first flare up till last year to continue to support my family and to pay child support. as of last year. I'm having trouble moving on certain days, breathing and acid reflux and muscle atrophy. (disease progression) especially when this is going on, it worsens everything as this is flared up. I was working under the table to try and make ends meet as I was paying child support still. I should add that the child support with 50/50 custody was $1029 for three kids cause I was making six figures at the time of divorce in 2018. Last year however, I couldn't work anymore, and filed for disability.
In june of last year, I had asked Susan, to get the children school supplies, (which she never does) as I was still paying at the time $1029 in child support. She said she didnt have the money despite now making 70k and her new BF living with her and is working whom she cheated on me with. With me working under the table, I bought them clothes, haircuts, school supplies (ive done every year) but then, I noticed she went on vacation to puerto rico and got a giant leg tattoo. At the time, I had already known what I had, and I asked myself why the heck am I doing this? So i turned to an attorney to get it modified. Again, this is June 20th to be exact of last year. My lawyer, stated that this was only going to be a 90 day turn around for the temporary modification then we will go for the final.
Since then, I have gone for a DNA test. I had to know. I am dying. I wanted to know. And you may judge me for this. but i have filed for disablement for paternity, meaning I am removing myself from the birth certificate. However, in the state of Florida, a mother can deny this and so can the courts. before you judge me, I have many reasons none of which have to do with him other then his mental disability (Aspergers) This illness, as days go by takes more and more from me. As previously aforementioned, I am left with 250 a month. I cannot go get a drs appointment pay for groceries or start planning my funeral which I will start making payments on soon. He also eats three times the amount that we all collectively do (Not his fault) but I have paid enough both mentally and financially. He also has trouble communicating as my suspicions is, that he was born of incest (gross) which is why I was 'chosen' to be his father at the time. Before you ask how do you know? Lets just say she had an uncle 'leave' during that time.
anyways, in February, I had the temporary modification hearing for child support and needless to say it was a circus. My doctor was subpoenaed to be there by my attorneys request to better my argument, even though I felt we didn't need her, she advised me to have my doctor there. Well, he attorney attacked my doctor and me for an hour and 40 mins when the court case was only supposed to go for an hour. He said "you saw another dr Max so and so and they said it was all in your head" (again I had flare ups on a illness that hadnt revealed itself correctly since last year). So there argument was that I was doctor seeking to avoid child support. After I have paid for 13 years never missing a payment. Her lawyer also targeted people who are living with me. Now I'll admit that I said they were friends which is true but how else can I pay for my attorney? Cant work, cant sell drugs, cant rob a bank? So they want to take there income into consideration. BS. She also hired a private investigator to watch me exercise outside and stated that because I can exercise, I can work..... Ok. Where's the 23 hours of the rest of the day watching me in pain. or when do you have me on video of a flare up from this terminal illness? (that's what I wanted to say)
Although I was granted the temporary modification, of $209, I left the court thinking wow, this woman can cheat, commit paternity fraud, not give two craps about our children, live with her mom in a section 8 home, and here I am doing whatever I can and I've done nothing wrong but be lied to and this is how my government, my country treats me? No wonder men my age dont have children this is insane. The paternity issue wasn't even brought up they said that this isnt the place for this and that the disestablishment will be another trial for those wondering. My lawyer only spoke for 5 mins. Asking her about her income cause thats the only thing that has changed since 2018 since she didnt work at the time. Other than that, it was an attack on me and my disease arguing my ability to work.
after leaving that, I didnt eat for 96 hours. I have since been crying nonstop. Compilating suicide. I am already heart broken about my son not being mine. Sure does a terminal illness make me said, no question everyday. But a life wasted on another? Cause I decided to be a man and take up responsibility? thats soul crushing. And to say "well, there is a big chance the courts will deny your request' thats BS. If i go to prison because I was accused of a robbery for 13 years, and DNA evidence proves I wasnt there, I get out of jail and can sue. This is no different. If anything, DNA evidence needs to be more of a factor in family law than in almost every court of law if not as equally important. My bad for not investigating her infidelity not only in the beginning but also in the end. How about not being a POS. sorry rant over
gets better. Her mom and dad smoke in the section 8 house, kids reek of cigarette smoke and marijuana, all day. they dont take showers there, they were hand me down clothes, they live in the garage shared with there mother, that isn't air conditioned. and he makes only a few thousand less than I do a month. She stated in court that she pays her mom $500 in rent which is BS, she is only doing that now so that she makes herself look bad. I know she is doing pills, like oxy and what not. Id love to prove it.
after the temp hearing, in april, I had to go to court to contest my drivers license suspension as I hadn't paid child support since, august of last year. again, there is no way, I can pay my bills, feed my children, go to the doctor, pay my lawyer to end all of this BS and pay the current child support amount. and again, this final hearing is still not set yet. So they intercepted my tax return, even though the temporary modification was approved, the final is what gets it retro backed to the date of filing, so they took, a much needed 5500 tax return from me. I needed that cause one of the issues I failed to mention as well, hurricane Ian has destroyed my home and I'm still going through that process too. not to mention I am on payment plans with Mayo clinic and other various medical facilities. (no one cares) but the interest that accrues, makes it impossible to catch up. also, Florida department of rev is overstepping I feel, and asking for medical info to be sent to them as well as updated doctors letters to be sent saying that I am still on disability.
a few weeks ago, I got an email from my lawyer having a withdrawal notice from her lawyer. in the withdrawal, he stated that he cannot represent her, due to something she may have withheld or lied about (more or less wasn't worded like that but you can tell). In feb court appearance they never produced the PI report, or videos, they had medical info they shouldn't have had, and they had very outlandish comments about my lifestyle. So my lawyer filed immediately a motion to compel. meaning, we want to see everything you have on my client. this was filed almost immediately after court appearance on feb 20th. Susan has failed to provide any updated info requested by my attorney so on june 18th, we have that upcoming hearing.
in the mean time, I have sent my lawyer, a very heavily requested topics, such as "where did they get my medical records, if those were lies, what are the consequences if any"? What did exercising have to do with any of this despite various drs saying he has to or he will get worse.
I know wat you must be thinking, what about your oldest, how can you do that to him. Please listen. This woman has taken everything from me. And i mean everything but the roof over my head. I am seeing a therapist to help with the suicidal thoughts. it isnt enough. the reality of it is, I chose to be loyal and it bit me in the butt. This disease will rob me of everything, my teeth will fall out ( I had 5 cavities last time I went to the dentist) I haven't had a cavity since I was 30 and even then I was suspicious. And I am brushing 5 time s a day to save them. My skin is tightening, and my arms and muscles are wasting. I will literally be left with nothing. My organs will also start to harden, and I will have to start getting around the clock care.
I forgot to mention they (child support) recently, sent a letter to SSI (social security) saying that they would garnish my SSI before I even got it, totaling $1029. the incorrect amount. I sent this to my lawyer and she is looking into it. But it shows that child support will overstep and breaks every law or freedom you may think you have. I DO take care of my children. if they need a haircut i do it, school supplies clothes, anything I do it. And I do it, cause she wont. What I want to leave you with, is that woman can be dead beats too. Child support was designed to have woman off of government subsidized programs like section 8 food stamps and what not. Also to make the man pay for their children man or woman I should say, I know this. I am not running from my obligation. I just want Susan, to have to pay for what's she's done to me and the kids.
I would like to hear your thoughts on this, please comment and share, all names are fake, but everything else is unfortunately real. I know it was wordy, but I wanted to provide as much backstory as possible. And please. Respect my descions. When you are end of life, I hope someone would be kind enough to respect yours. You may not agree and that's ok, but I am asking you to respect them. Thank you for reading.
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2024.05.19 17:40 not_built2break New to PM

I been seeing my doctor going in a year. Never had one issue. I mentioned to my doctor that I don’t get 8 hours of pain relief and can it be adjusted? I’ve been prescribed hydro 1 every 6 hours b4 with my pcp. She said I would have to do another mri which I agreed to. At one of my appointments they mistakenly gave me my prescription and someone else’s prescription in hand. Which I didn’t realize until I got home but 2 were for Oxy and 2 for Hydro for other patient. 1 every 6 hours. Which I called and told them and they told me I need to bring back which I politely did. Going on a year I never once was called in for a pill count and a random drug test. Which I don’t do anything outside of what I’m prescribed so I didn’t mind, but now I feel like I’m being called in and picked on. Well they did a few weeks ago and I was short. The doctor did not see me. 2 weeks later I get letter in mail saying they will continue to see me as a patient but will not be prescribing me any more opioids just stopped cold turkey because now they saying my urine was inconsistent and my pill count was short. I never had or was told anything about inconsistent urine. The letter also says I need to seek help with opioid addiction. (I’m offended at this point) I never been addicted or abused anything in my life. I don’t smoke or drink. Taking 1 extra pill does not equate addiction but I knew I messed up there. The letter said they would only prescribe non opioids to help with pain and something to help with withdrawal symptoms if I were to have. They kicked me out of my patient portal I can no longer see previous visits I used to have access to there was never an issue noted there and technically I’m still a patient. She why would they kick me out? Can they do this without even giving me a warning?
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2024.05.19 16:42 avalonrose14 My Bisalp experience [25F]

Feel free to ask me any questions and I’ll do my best to keep this concise but I can be known to ramble and want to make sure I cover some things I haven’t seen talked about before.
Scheduling: Got new insurance in January. Discovered the insurance covers female sterilization at 100% so I went on the doctor list here, did some research, and picked out my doctor. Called mid January to book, had my consult end of February, surgery was May 15th (last Wednesday).
Consult: I was worried because I’ve heard so much about people getting rejected but the entire time my doctor assured me this was my decision to make and she just wanted to make sure I’d thought about every consequence. I was honest with her that while I was positive this is what I wanted I originally had planned to wait until I was in my 30s to make sure but due to the current political climate I felt I didn’t have the luxury of waiting. I was concerned if I didn’t get this done pre election I’d never be able to or I’d have to travel to get it done. She approved me and we had planned to do a Pap smear while I was there but their computer system crashed so we decided to combine it with the surgery and just do it while I was under.
Pre procedure: Pre-op stuff was super normal. Got a call with instructions around a week out. I can go into more details if anyone has questions but the big thing for me was I was told to not smoke 24 hrs prior and I’ve been trying to quit vaping so I decided to throw out my vape 24 hrs prior to the procedure. The lead up to the surgery was terrible and I regret quitting so close to it because it meant I could drink alcohol or caffeine to try and distract myself since those were also banned so close. But post surgery with me being high on oxy the first few days I completely made it through the worst part of quitting without any problems. I’m only a week clean but highly recommend using surgery to quit addictions it’s a great time to utilize your body being distracted by other stuff.
Surgery: everyone at the hospital was great and nobody tried to change my mind. My surgeon did say I could change my mind up until I was put under and that nobody would be mad. I assured her I was totally hyped and ready to go and that was that. I’ve never had a surgery before so I wasn’t sure how I’d react to anesthesia but I woke up before theyd even finished rolling me into post op. I heard the nurse rolling me in talking about her dog and just was instantly awake and asking her about her pupper. I think I scared her slightly because I was just immediately coherent and mostly just really annoyed because my throat hurt and my mouth was dry. She gave me water and asked if I wanted something for nausea. I didn’t feel any nausea but said yes just in case and I’m glad I did because shortly after she gave it to me I got super nauseous. It kicked in pretty quick and I didn’t throw up so a win. When I first woke up my pain was around a 3 but was quickly ramping up so they gave me a 5mg oxycodone. It took a bit for it to kick in but once it did it completely wiped out my pain. I was able to get discharged within an hour of waking up because I immediately was eating and drinking and was able to get up and walk on my own and go pee which checked all their boxes.
Recovery: I was given 8 oxycodone 5mg and then told to pick up Tylenol, ibuprofen, and stool softener. Alternate the Tylenol and ibuprofen so I’m taking something every 3 hrs and then oxy as needed. I mostly used the oxy to sleep as every muscle in my body felt like I’d run a marathon starting day 2. My back was extremely sore and my skin was tender EVERYWHERE. Also thanks to doing the Pap smear while I was under my vag was sore as fuck too. I must’ve bit my lip while I was under because my lip was all swollen and the absolute worse pain I was feeling was how sore my throat was from the breathing tube. My throat is still sore, back still hurts, muscles are still tender as fuck, but I’m fully off oxy and overall feel fine. I haven’t had a good bowel movement yet so hoping for that soon but I’ll be going back to work tomorrow and overall this surgery recovery hasn’t been any worse than being sick from the flu or something.
Also make sure you have plenty of comfy loose dresses. You will want the comfiest of lounge wear during this recovery. I have my post op this Friday but I’m so happy to finally have this done. It’s a giant weight off my shoulder.
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2024.05.19 05:51 TeamNew8607 Euphoria Season 3, My Way

This thread is about to be very long, and I will be adding to it frequently, but this is how I would write season 3 of Euphoria since Sam is obviously preoccupied with god knows what. This came to me in a dream so call it fate ig.
Background- since season 2 ends with the card that Rue stayed sober through the rest of junior year, and Lexi’s play takes place in the spring, I thought it’d be best to pick up on the first day of their senior year in the fall. This means that Cassie, Maddie, and Nate have all graduated, leaving us with Rue, Jules, Lexi, Elliot, Bobbi, Ethan, BB & Kat. Also Gia, the Parents, and Ali. Anyways here goes.
Episode 1- I Stayed Sober (Mostly)
[Scene 1]: The Last First Day Episode One opens with a black screen that has flashes of red and blue, like police sirens, that increasingly become more intense and vibrant, to indicate Rue coming out of a dissociative state. She narrates over the screen:
“You want to know the worst part about staying sober? It’s not the withdrawals or the cravings, even though they’re pretty fucking bad. It’s not even the depression or the emptiness you feel without your poisonous security blanket protecting you from your worst thoughts and emotions. The worst part about staying sober, is that you’re trapped back in the fucked up world that made you want to do drugs in the first place”
The red and blue screen shifts to police sirens with cops yelling in an attempt to evacuate everyone from the school. It’s raining and the sky is gray and muddy. All the students are now wearing muted uniforms in the school colors, blue black and white (the uniforms are explained later) The scene looks very muted and drained. As the students flood out of the school in a frenzy, we see Rue and Lexi standing at the exit, uninterested in the theatrics and significantly changed from last season.
Rue has a brighter disposition to herself, appearing more soft and bright, while keeping her moody demeanor. Her look shows that she is trying her best to be more optimistic, despite going through hell from her plethora of mental illness that have now taken over due to her sobriety. Still, she looks healthier and brighter.
Lexi, on the other hand, has a more goth like appearance. In addition to her new dark black hair with red colored streaks (red to signify her stepping into her power) she also looks less approachable with more gothic motifs such as skulls and roses on her increased accessories. We learn later that this is an attempt to reinvent herself after last year’s play incident and fez dying. She seems uninterested and annoyed, but has a more confident air after being put in the spotlight and no longer having to live under her sisters shadow. She has become more monotone, speaking her mind and embracing her realistic perspective of life.
They begin walking to the parking lot, looking for Lexi’s mom among the waves of chaotic students pushing past them.
Rue: Of course, just our fucking luck that someone decides to shoot up the school our first day of senior year.
Lexi: It wasn’t even a real shooting. I heard some kid brought a gun to show off and got tackled by his teacher. Everyone started freaking out, and now I’m missing the first day of my AP English class.
Rue: Not like you need it. I think you proved that you can write a good story that makes waves and changes lives (sarcasm)
Lexi: 😐 that’s not funny Rue. That play is all anyone could talk about all summer. Everyone hates me because they think it’s my fault that we all have to wear these stupid uniforms.
Rue: actually that was Cassie’s fault, that fight got a new edit every week. My favorite was the #mollywhop dance (starts doing a dance that is significant of Maddie slapping Cassie and Cassie riding a carousel)
Lexi: Rue I’m serious. I got so sick of living in the background that I put my entire life on display in front of all of East Highland just for my sister to make everything about her.
Rue: Well good writing is supposed to be controversial. And take it as a victory, at least you’re not a nobody anymore.
Random Guy: Hey Lexi, I got a horse you can ride (does the dance)
Cop: Keep it moving sir!
They get to the end of the parking lot and sit on the pavement.
Lexi: 🙄of course she’s late.
Rue: hey, it’s a new year. You’re no longer the girl whose sister was the hottest cheerleader in school and I’m no longer the resident drug addict that everyone is waiting to die.
Lexi: you’re right. That’s Elliot. Or Jules. Have you checked on either of them since his overdose?
Rue: no…fuck them both. They seem happy in their stupid relationship with their stupid anniversary posts. I had to block them both before I killed myself or worse. They can die for all I care.
Lexi: well he almost did. I heard he had a stroke and is in a wheelchair until he learns how to walk again.
Rue: trying to hide that she’s concerned really?…i mean i don’t care, but that’s what he deserves right? Can’t do drugs that carelessly without consequences. Ask me how I know.
Lexi: I don’t think anyone deserves to OD. I hope he gets some help.
Rue: he has help, that bitch is playing housewife which she probably loves. Attention seeking whore. You know I’m sick of talking about Jules and Elliot and Cassie and every other narcissist with a victim complex that keeps trying to make themselves the main character. pulls her closer with a shoulder hug this year it’s about us. Starting over and getting a chance to finally make it out of this stupid town. You have colleges lined up at the door and I’ve been sober for almost a year. No one is going to take this year from us. That why you blocked Cassie, and that’s why I had any memory of Jules permanently erased from my brain. Out of sight out of mind.
Lexi: I guess you’re right. New year, new us.
Rue: alright. Now call your mom so we can get out of the rain. I hate cops more than I hate being fully clothed and wet.
Lexi: (finally smiling) almost as much as they hate you
Rue: hey fuck you, I still have to go to court for that.
Lexi: too soon? 🤭
Rue: just dial the fucking phone
Rue [vo while it shows Suze driving up and the girls walking across the parking lot]: Despite how terrible last year was, I feel like Lexi and I finally got back to how things used to be. Before the drugs, before the funerals. Just Rue and Lexi like it’s always been. Sometimes I forget how great life was when I was just a kid. But drugs tend to take away everything that makes life, life. I just wish Fezco had stayed alive long enough to finally see me sober. Then maybe Lexi wouldn’t be so serious and emo these days. But she took care of me, and now it’s my turn. I just don’t know what’s worse, losing the love of your life before you get a chance to say it love you (shot of Lexi rubbing a cross chain fez gave her looking at the sky before getting in the car) or thinking you found the love of your life just to end up as strangers. (As Rue opens the door to get in, she sees Jules wheeling Elliot across the parking lot. She stares for a bit before getting in the car.) Either way, we all died. (Rue gets in the car before Jules can see her.)
Jules looks over at the car but doesn’t see anyone. She looks distraught, hoping to catch a glimpse of Rue, who she hasn’t seen since the play. She’s dressed in a mostly black school girl uniform with a short skirt and corset that she’s clad in neon accessories and coquettish garters and bows. Her hair is longer than in season 2 but shorter than season 1. This is to signify that she’s embracing her femininity more with Elliot, but is stepping into a more powerful, dominant version of femininity. She’s content with her relationship, and rebuilding herself after the abuse she endured in relationship with rue. Now she’s just worried about repeating the same story with Elliot. She looks off into the distance, paused in a state of reflection.
Elliot: babe are you good? Jules: what? Yea just thought I saw something. (Continues wheeling him across the parking lot) Elliot: It was probably a ghost. HEY CASPER, LOOK BUT DONT TOUCH HOMIE Jules: (laughing) you’re so unserious Elliot: what do you mean? I’m serious. I don’t want his ectoplasm fucking up your makeup. Jules: You’re the one who keeps fucking up my makeup Elliot: and I’ll do it again kisses her winces ow fuck Jules: relax dude. You know the doctor said you can’t stretch your spine much after your stroke. Elliot: and you know I told that doctor nothing can kill me and I’m basically a god Jules: even when you’re sick you’re still crazy Elliot: crazy for you Jules: yea yea, just be happy it was a stroke and not a death sentence. whispers in his you know if you would’ve died I would have to kill you. Elliot: besides the fact that that makes zero sense, you know it wasn’t my fault Jules: I’m just glad that Laurie lady got put behind bars. Who the fuck puts fentanyl in Weed? Elliot: a plug who can’t find enough junkies to buy their fentanyl. That’s why I always sniff my weed before I smoke it. Jules: and that sniff put you in a wheelchair, so who’s god now? Elliot: mmmm, still me. I live close enough to the school that I don’t have to pay for a van, and I have a hot chick with a huge dick as a nurse. Not to mention loads of settlement money from suing the biggest plug in our area and a med card with all the unlaced weed I can smoke. I’m up as fuck. Jules: or too high to be traumatized Elliot: And (dances her around his chair like a waltz until she falls in his lap) my dick still works. Jules: nice try Romeo, but your ego is showing (zips up his pants and continues pushing) Elliot: fuck, has it been like that all day? That’s embarrassing Jules: no more embarrassing than the whole school thinking you’re in a wheelchair because you couldn’t hold your oxys Elliot: it was Percs actually, thank you very much. And fuck what those bots think, I’ve been sober since that intervention. I guess you can say Rue knocked some sense into Me. Jules: (avoiding the topic of rue) did you see the comments on our last post, they called us percinstein and the coke bride Elliot: damn I guess they did know it was Percs (Now on his front porch)
Jules: (standing in front of him looking in his eyes with sentiment ) Elliot I’m serious. I’ve been the topic of conversation ever since I moved to this fucking town. I just want to have a normal year for once in my complicated life. Elliot: babe listen it’s high school. Everything is the topic of conversation and no one is normal. People talk shit because they’re bored and have no personality or sense of self outside of the useless drama they can create in their minds. But you have a life, and a future. You have an amazing, sober boyfriend who loves you and a portfolio that can get you into any art school in the world. You’re at the last step before your real life begins. I’m just happy that I have the privilege to watch. And you know I like to watch. Jules: you’re a lunatic. Elliot: I love you. Jules: I love you too. kiss
Elliot: Are you sure you can’t stay tonight Jules: I wish, but my dad is serious about making sure I get into the best school, which means spending hours look at boring virtual tours and applying early admission. Elliot: ok well I’ll be here figuring out how to pee without standing up Jules: how do our conversations always center back to your dick Elliot: I can’t talk about anything else, it’s too hard Jules: wow, you sound like my dad and I’m turned off [starts walking away] Elliot: it’s not me it’s the weed. now you make sure you make it home safe. There’s a shooter on the loose. Jules: [grabbing her bike] the gun wasn’t even loaded. besides, getting shot would not be the worst thing to happen to me. Elliot: you’re American. It always gets worse. Jules: [riding off] that’s depressing Elliot: text me when you’re home Jules: [almost gone] you have my location! Elliot: [to himself] and I still never know where you are
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2024.05.19 04:32 Affectionate-Name823 untitled

And I wonder if you’ll ever know,
how irrevocably obsessed I was,
by how your eyes moved mine,
every detail very so evergreen,
burning and lingering in the depths of mine.
You told me once you were meant for greatest things,
goodness through your veins and,
I believed you.
So today I’ll wear echoes of memories
that once mesmerized you too.
Never ever asked for anything but,
please search for me in the oxy swings,
newly made for the needy people.
Please search for me when the sun sets
with pink dust at east, and
in wildflowers when they bloom in the west.
Please search for me in the valley of twenty-four
right behind the old oak tree.
You’ll find me there, coloring,
smiling, and smoking the green grass of the valley.
You told me once you were meant for greatest things,
but not me.
Tell me, can I be the birds in the swings?
Or the porcelain swallows in the candlelight?
Please let me be as soft
as shiny and free as leather.
Let me be the daughter and heir
of a sweetness that it’s helplessly, vulgar.
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2024.05.18 20:01 LunalaSword Don’t know what to do honestly

I’m 26 now and still dealing with same issues as i was in grade school and h.s. 10 years ago my friends always said i got adhd cuz im like a squirrel. But mental health wasn’t really mainstream in nyc. I just wrote that off, continuing to hs. My rooms always a mess and i never study cuz it’s hard to remember. I started smoking bud, then got involved in oxys for 2 years. I’ve been sober for 3 years, Now that im 26 it’s so hard to multitask, i get really bad anxiety, i would try going back to college but ive dropped out 2 times already feels like no point in trying again. Sorry if this doesn’t make sense. But i really would like to see a doctor about maybe getting diagnosed? How would i even go about that. Could i have avoided this horrible life had i just taken my friends seriously about adhd
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2024.05.18 14:42 Late-Law7437 Child Support and paternity fraud

Where do I begin. For the purpose of this post, I will use fictious names and locations as it is ongoing, and out of respect (even though she doesn't deserve any)
My name is Daniel. I am 35 years old, and i am dying. I have a disease called systemic sclerosis. I am currently on a supplemental disability plan, until I get approved for SSI (social Security). Until then, my income is about 4K a month. I own a home but after child support and bills, NOT INCLUDING gas, food, haircuts, medical appointments, and or emergencies like my fridge just broke. (which i never go out) I am left with $260 that has to last me a month. I also have three children who I have to take care of half the time per the 50/50 agreement.
Recently, I found out my oldest, (who is 13) is not biologically mine. I decided to look into it as I had concerns for a while since my divorce as her cheating was very rampant. I also had caught her in 2017 with a man in my house, which is what prompted the divorce. But FL being a no fault state, doesn't matter. I also had to pay child support since the beginning and WHILE LEGALLY Married since 2010 because she had applied for financial support like food stamps and government assistance then. I know what your thinking. Why didnt you stop it then? I tried. You cant take yourself off child support. I also never grew up with a father and wanted that two-parent household. I don't run from responsibilities, like he did. Its how I was raised. Anyways, I married her, tried to do the right thing, she lied numerous times. she never worked, and I worked 90 plus hours a week. To look into her cheating, was impossible at the time as I was never home. and to busy providing for my family.
fast forward to now. My disease started to become worse and over three years; it didn't reveal itself until last year fully to actually pinpoint what this was. for instance, I had in 2019 pain behind my eyes and horrible headaches to the point that I thought I had MS. following year, I had trouble swallowing for 3 months. next year itching in the skin for three months. But prior, I had visited various doctors to see what was going on, each time a flare up then would last 3 to four months, which again, when you don't understand what's going on, you need to take time off to go see doctors, run tests, but this illness was and still is very elusive. with that being said I had 5 jobs since its first flare up till last year to continue to support my family and to pay child support. as of last year. I'm having trouble moving on certain days, breathing and acid reflux and muscle atrophy. (disease progression) especially when this is going on, it worsens everything as this is flared up. I was working under the table to try and make ends meet as I was paying child support still. I should add that the child support with 50/50 custody was $1029 for three kids cause I was making six figures at the time of divorce in 2018. Last year however, I couldn't work anymore, and filed for disability.
In june of last year, I had asked Susan, to get the children school supplies, (which she never does) as I was still paying at the time $1029 in child support. She said she didnt have the money despite now making 70k and her new BF living with her and is working whom she cheated on me with. With me working under the table, I bought them clothes, haircuts, school supplies (ive done every year) but then, I noticed she went on vacation to puerto rico and got a giant leg tattoo. At the time, I had already known what I had, and I asked myself why the heck am I doing this? So i turned to an attorney to get it modified. Again, this is June 20th to be exact of last year. My lawyer, stated that this was only going to be a 90 day turn around for the temporary modification then we will go for the final.
Since then, I have gone for a DNA test. I had to know. I am dying. I wanted to know. And you may judge me for this. but i have filed for disablement for paternity, meaning I am removing myself from the birth certificate. However, in the state of Florida, a mother can deny this and so can the courts. before you judge me, I have many reasons none of which have to do with him other then his mental disability (Aspergers) This illness, as days go by takes more and more from me. As previously aforementioned, I am left with 250 a month. I cannot go get a drs appointment pay for groceries or start planning my funeral which I will start making payments on soon. He also eats three times the amount that we all collectively do (Not his fault) but I have paid enough both mentally and financially. He also has trouble communicating as my suspicions is, that he was born of incest (gross) which is why I was 'chosen' to be his father at the time. Before you ask how do you know? Lets just say she had an uncle 'leave' during that time.
anyways, in February, I had the temporary modification hearing for child support and needless to say it was a circus. My doctor was subpoenaed to be there by my attorneys request to better my argument, even though I felt we didn't need her, she advised me to have my doctor there. Well, he attorney attacked my doctor and me for an hour and 40 mins when the court case was only supposed to go for an hour. He said "you saw another dr Max so and so and they said it was all in your head" (again I had flare ups on a illness that hadnt revealed itself correctly since last year). So there argument was that I was doctor seeking to avoid child support. After I have paid for 13 years never missing a payment. Her lawyer also targeted people who are living with me. Now I'll admit that I said they were friends which is true but how else can I pay for my attorney? Cant work, cant sell drugs, cant rob a bank? So they want to take there income into consideration. BS. She also hired a private investigator to watch me exercise outside and stated that because I can exercise, I can work..... Ok. Where's the 23 hours of the rest of the day watching me in pain. or when do you have me on video of a flare up from this terminal illness? (that's what I wanted to say)
Although I was granted the temporary modification, of $209, I left the court thinking wow, this woman can cheat, commit paternity fraud, not give two craps about our children, live with her mom in a section 8 home, and here I am doing whatever I can and I've done nothing wrong but be lied to and this is how my government, my country treats me? No wonder men my age dont have children this is insane. The paternity issue wasn't even brought up they said that this isnt the place for this and that the disestablishment will be another trial for those wondering. My lawyer only spoke for 5 mins. Asking her about her income cause thats the only thing that has changed since 2018 since she didnt work at the time. Other than that, it was an attack on me and my disease arguing my ability to work.
after leaving that, I didnt eat for 96 hours. I have since been crying nonstop. Compilating suicide. I am already heart broken about my son not being mine. Sure does a terminal illness make me said, no question everyday. But a life wasted on another? Cause I decided to be a man and take up responsibility? thats soul crushing. And to say "well, there is a big chance the courts will deny your request' thats BS. If i go to prison because I was accused of a robbery for 13 years, and DNA evidence proves I wasnt there, I get out of jail and can sue. This is no different. If anything, DNA evidence needs to be more of a factor in family law than in almost every court of law if not as equally important. My bad for not investigating her infidelity not only in the beginning but also in the end. How about not being a POS. sorry rant over
gets better. Her mom and dad smoke in the section 8 house, kids reek of cigarette smoke and marijuana, all day. they dont take showers there, they were hand me down clothes, they live in the garage shared with there mother, that isn't air conditioned. and he makes only a few thousand less than I do a month. She stated in court that she pays her mom $500 in rent which is BS, she is only doing that now so that she makes herself look bad. I know she is doing pills, like oxy and what not. Id love to prove it.
after the temp hearing, in april, I had to go to court to contest my drivers license suspension as I hadn't paid child support since, august of last year. again, there is no way, I can pay my bills, feed my children, go to the doctor, pay my lawyer to end all of this BS and pay the current child support amount. and again, this final hearing is still not set yet. So they intercepted my tax return, even though the temporary modification was approved, the final is what gets it retro backed to the date of filing, so they took, a much needed 5500 tax return from me. I needed that cause one of the issues I failed to mention as well, hurricane Ian has destroyed my home and I'm still going through that process too. not to mention I am on payment plans with Mayo clinic and other various medical facilities. (no one cares) but the interest that accrues, makes it impossible to catch up. also, Florida department of rev is overstepping I feel, and asking for medical info to be sent to them as well as updated doctors letters to be sent saying that I am still on disability.
a few weeks ago, I got an email from my lawyer having a withdrawal notice from her lawyer. in the withdrawal, he stated that he cannot represent her, due to something she may have withheld or lied about (more or less wasn't worded like that but you can tell). In feb court appearance they never produced the PI report, or videos, they had medical info they shouldn't have had, and they had very outlandish comments about my lifestyle. So my lawyer filed immediately a motion to compel. meaning, we want to see everything you have on my client. this was filed almost immediately after court appearance on feb 20th. Susan has failed to provide any updated info requested by my attorney so on june 18th, we have that upcoming hearing.
in the mean time, I have sent my lawyer, a very heavily requested topics, such as "where did they get my medical records, if those were lies, what are the consequences if any"? What did exercising have to do with any of this despite various drs saying he has to or he will get worse.
I know wat you must be thinking, what about your oldest, how can you do that to him. Please listen. This woman has taken everything from me. And i mean everything but the roof over my head. I am seeing a therapist to help with the suicidal thoughts. it isnt enough. the reality of it is, I chose to be loyal and it bit me in the butt. This disease will rob me of everything, my teeth will fall out ( I had 5 cavities last time I went to the dentist) I haven't had a cavity since I was 30 and even then I was suspicious. And I am brushing 5 time s a day to save them. My skin is tightening, and my arms and muscles are wasting. I will literally be left with nothing. My organs will also start to harden, and I will have to start getting around the clock care.
I forgot to mention they (child support) recently, sent a letter to SSI (social security) saying that they would garnish my SSI before I even got it, totaling $1029. the incorrect amount. I sent this to my lawyer and she is looking into it. But it shows that child support will overstep and breaks every law or freedom you may think you have. I DO take care of my children. if they need a haircut i do it, school supplies clothes, anything I do it. And I do it, cause she wont. What I want to leave you with, is that woman can be dead beats too. Child support was designed to have woman off of government subsidized programs like section 8 food stamps and what not. Also to make the man pay for their children man or woman I should say, I know this. I am not running from my obligation. I just want Susan, to have to pay for what's she's done to me and the kids.
I would like to hear your thoughts on this, please comment and share, all names are fake, but everything else is unfortunately real. I know it was wordy, but I wanted to provide as much backstory as possible. And please. Respect my descions. When you are end of life, I hope someone would be kind enough to respect yours. You may not agree and that's ok, but I am asking you to respect them. Thank you for reading.
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2024.05.16 23:11 Intelligent-Count398 Pain after surgery ??

So for starters , I know every single person handles pain differently . What was your personal experience? I’ve heard everything from it was the worst pain I’ve been through to it was a little uncomfortable but I just took over the counter pain meds and I was fine . I know this will be a lot easier said than done but I absolutely HATE anything that isn’t over the counter . I don’t even smoke weed because I do not like feeling like I don’t have control over my own body and mind especially since my surgeon wants to throw me on Oxys . I’m a slim dude 5’2 115 pounds and I’ll also be getting liposuction as well .
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2024.05.15 13:16 Low_Patience_5114 i love and hate weed

i have been smoking regularly since 8th grade, i started smoking because i had a surgery and kinda got hooked on oxys/abused them but i loved the high and so i switched from pills to weed because i thought it would be safer and it worked and worked well but i think it’s time to take a step back. Because ive been smoking for SO long and mostly using carts sadly i know to pee clean im gonna have to stop smoking for MINIMUM 2-3 MONTHS for this job i really want but im going on a vacation this summer and i’ve literally been dreaming of smoking at this location because it will be the first time i ever legally smoke and ill be able to smoke with my uncle but then that puts me back another 2-3 months probably from peeing clean because i have so much thc in my system. also a couple weeks ago i took a 2 week t break and i was feeling pretty good because i had finally gotten the good side effect but then i got more weed and the past week ive fucked my sleep schedule gained all the weight back that i lost binged so bad i wish i could have a healthy balance with weed but i dont know if i ever will because i literally never had and i have issues with addictions already. I dont drink i dont vape i dont do anything besides smoking and it does help me but when it doesn’t it really doesn’t i dont know wtf this post was i dont know wtf to do, do i smoke on vacation because it’s been my dream, should i stay sober until then, should i just stop overall for the job but i dont need it but i think it will be a good opportunity i dont know what should do (im leaning towards stop smoking until vacation then smoke on vacation and stay sober until i test clean or just stop overall or literally pick up tmrw i dont know wtf i’m gonna do) im sure someone else has to somewhat relate to this i know i should probably stop but its so hard
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2024.05.13 23:06 Bizzy2024 Day 185 No ZYN - The good, the bad, and the ugly with recovery.

I don't know if this would help anyone or not... but I'll share it...some back story on my nicotine history. ZYN was not my first experience with nicotine. (But shall it forever be the last) I first let nicotine into my being when I stole a cigarette from my much older cousin when I was 9 years old. A Marlboro Menthol 100. And the journey of drug/chemical addiction from there is literally personified perfectly in a video that u/Joel-Spitzer shared (didn't create, just shared as a great illustration) called Nuggets (youtube.com). I'll never forget that first buzz, it put me on the floor. I started smoking pot soon after that. Then drinking whiskey. (all of my friends and their parents were drug addicts and alcoholics). The resources were very attainable. At 12 I got put on heavy anti-depressants and anti-psychotics. By 13 and 14 I moved up to pain pills, and stronger pot. From 14 to 18 I smoked 2 packs a day (on top of an ounce of pot every few days) and long story short through various self-destructive seasons I eventually got caught up in every upper (MDMA, Cocaine, Meth) and downer (Morphine/Heroin/Oxy) that there was at the time. Snorting/shooting up, you name it, I did it. I OD'd several times, and it's by the grace and mercy of God I'm not dead. When I turned 19 a very beautiful and powerful legit spiritual experience happened to me. That initially helped me get clean off the heavy illegal stuff, but my mind just wasn't made up the way it needed to be to get off everything I knew I needed to (pharmaceuticals and nicotine). Much of my 20s I struggled. I'd get off everything except my anti-depressants, and then eventually I'd need to get a refill on that...my lizard brain could quickly get an RX for this or that (I knew how to work the system, and find the doctors that pushed stuff) and the next thing you know I'd be high. Especially with prescribed medical THC...good gracious...100% THC products are way to powerful.... Back to nicotine- in my 20s over several years and seasons of life I went through Grizzly wintergreen long cut chew, vaping (disposable and mods/kits), and eventually 21mg nicotine patches. Literally hooked on the patches for multiple years. I got off patches finally in 2018. In 2019 I got off of every prescribed pharmaceutical and quit medical marijuana. I'm still living my life free from pills and THC - going on 5 years. But...struggling through depression during COVID lock down and in a moment of weakness, I bought my first tin of ZYN. But the nicotine beast is the nicotine beast. I secretly struggled with it 2020, 2021, 2022, and most of 2023. I've said all that to say, it started with nicotine, and it ends with nicotine. It's like the final building block to my castle of ultimate sobriety I suppose. With the nicotine compromise out of the way, my life can finally be what it's supposed to be. 185 days ago was over 20 years in the making. Thanks for taking the time to read all of this. Just for today, let's stay clean.
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2024.05.13 13:27 nesss93 I don't really know what to do anymore

've been suffering from chronic gastritis and GERD almost all my life, but it's always been somewhat manageable apart from soma flareups. I had a bad one last summer which took me to the emergency room, got loads of tests done including H pylori, a gastroscopy with biopsy and general blood tests. the results were gastritis and I was told that the stomach valve doesn't close properly, hence the GERD. I managed to cure this in 2-3 months and all was well until three weeks ago.
I started having those symptoms again on and off but now it's been a week where I'm basically bed ridden. I can't exercise (I used to run long distances and gym every other day) apart from walking, can't eat anything apart some boiled potatoes and crackers, I don't get sleep because the second I'm leaning back I get nauseous and the reflux comes back. Everything triggers it even drinking water and being on cars/trains, I'm nauseous all day long.
it started impacting my mental health because of the lack of sleep and I don't really know what to do anymore.
I am on Lansoprazole 30mg, gaviscon when needed, I've never drank alcohol or smoked and I'm on a very strict diet.
Has someone ever been through this? Can you tell me what helped you in the long term?
I also would like to point out that I'm an emetophobe and this is really terrifying for me.
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2024.05.13 13:26 nesss93 I don't know what to do anymore, looking for advice

I've been suffering from chronic gastritis and GERD almost all my life, but it's always been somewhat manageable apart from soma flareups. I had a bad one last summer which took me to the emergency room, got loads of tests done including H pylori, a gastroscopy with biopsy and general blood tests. the results were gastritis and I was told that the stomach valve doesn't close properly, hence the GERD. I managed to cure this in 2-3 months and all was well until three weeks ago.
I started having those symptoms again on and off but now it's been a week where I'm basically bed ridden. I can't exercise (I used to run long distances and gym every other day) apart from walking, can't eat anything apart some boiled potatoes and crackers, I don't get sleep because the second I'm leaning back I get nauseous and the reflux comes back. Everything triggers it even drinking water and being on cars/trains, I'm nauseous all day long.
it started impacting my mental health because of the lack of sleep and I don't really know what to do anymore.
I am on Lansoprazole 30mg, gaviscon when needed, I've never drank alcohol or smoked and I'm on a very strict diet.
Has someone ever been through this? Can you tell me what helped you in the long term?
I also would like to point out that I'm an emetophobe and this is really terrifying for me.
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2024.05.12 19:00 AyeItsDylan Just venting

I don’t expect anyone to reply to this, I just wanted to write it out. I’m male, 18, and live in the UK. Since about 11-12 years old I’ve been feeling depressed, and it has dramatically gotten worse over the years, I’ve been smoking weed every day since I was thirteen and was addicted to K2 from 14-15. After this, I stayed with weed for a while, but was feeling so overwhelmingly hopeless and depressed that I began taking pharmas, I started on oxy, which became too expensive to keep up, so I began taking pregabalin instead, I took pregabalin for a couple months, mixing with kratom sometimes, I then stopped taking pregabalin as I was getting psychotic symptoms from it, this was in late feb, and the withdrawals were hell, I felt 10x worse than I ever had, so, I started taking tramadol about 2 weeks later until my birthday on the 5th of April this year, went cold turkey with kratom and have been on kratom ever since. The tramadol helped for a while, I felt more capable of doing my college work, socialising, but it quickly went downhill, dramatic mood swings and the depression returned. Now, I feel so hopeless every day, I just found out that I can’t stay on for my next year in college, which I’m already resitting, I don’t feel like myself anymore at all, almost a different person, I can barely socialise and don’t have the motivation to do anything, I want to change, but don’t even have the strength to get up in the morning, every day I’m trying to find peace and stay afloat, I’m just so tired and alone.
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2024.05.12 06:35 Own-Breakfast-5498 Is this seriously relapse? It feels like it is but it's not the same drug.

Hey everyone,
After a long week of work and feeling just down over the weekend, I caught myself eating poorly and then easily getting triggered for a smoke. Of course I did not cave. And it really did not help at all when I ate cookies for the first time in awhile... I felt like I opened up a hunger beast that was not present before... so I will need to go back to being mindful of eating, which is good!
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Ok ok so I was trying to get thru a craving (reminding myself that they only last for a little...) and I caved and bought a plant based vape. Guarana seed extract is what is in it.
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Why am I beating myself up?
I don't want crap in my lungs.
I see the cancer warning!!!!
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WHAT AM I DOING?!
I consider this a relapse weirdly...
It's like smoking Oxy and saying well hey it's not like heroin, the drug I was really hooked on.
I get it's from the earth and whatnot, but I read so much about how vaping is bad.
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And lately I have been getting HIVES everywhere -- I thought this is due to allgeries and blood flow coming back to me. Hives and swelling in face goes down today and hives on arms pop up today... been stressful but again this quit has been easy too.
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Any sound words guys? Especially the hives. lol
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2024.05.11 11:11 Ok-Fly-5102 A little rant about my experiences with ACL injuries

I've never really done this before so let me just start from the beginning, I'm 16 and currently going through my second ACL injury and I have been diagnosed with MDD, GAD, bipolar, and ADHD and I know that doesn't really mean anything to the whole ACL stuff but It could've made my experience seem more overwhelming I guess you could say but anywho, 8/31/2021 I was running around in P.E and we were playing this like freeze tag game and I tripped and fell chasing after a really fast lady and landed on the front of my left knee and I heard 3 pops in my knee as I hit the floor it sounded like cracking your knuckle, but I didn't feel any pain at first and everybody was asking me if I was fine and I was like "yeah i'm fine just let me get up real quick" and as I tried to straighten my knee to readjusted to get up and my knee just wouldn't move from the bending position and I told my P.E teacher and he called the school nurse and ofc the wheelchair got stolen so they had to wheel me to the nurses office on an office chair which sucked because I couldn't lift my leg and my foot kept dragging on the floor for like 10 minutes until I finally got to sit on the couch she had and I found it really annoying that my dad wouldn't pick up his phone for 30 minutes while I was spam calling him at work but when he read the message that my nurse was gonna call the ambulance then he called back and she had the nerve to say she thought I was faking it but would have to call the ambulance because I couldn't move my leg and it was so embarrassing having to be pushed out to my dad's car in a office chair while the whole middle-school watched but what sucked more was the wait at children's, We got done with the sign in at 2:35 and didn't get seen till almost 4 and when I got to the back it was packed with crying toddlers which made the whole experience so much more sufferable and we had to wait an hour for x-rays then after they took 5 pictures they took us back to the room to wait another hour and when the doctor came in he told me about how I probably wouldn't need surgery but I would have to set up an appointment with orthopedic's and my appointed surgeon would tell me if I needed surgery or not and I was scared because I didn't want to use crutches and I thought that people would judge the knee brace so I didn't really go to school much except to tell friends and staff that I was probably gonna need surgery and that I would find out the next day and on September 1st 2021 hearing my surgeon say that my ACL would need a repair so that it wouldn't rip more and that it'll only take one screw was like heaven because it meant that the recovery time was less so I agreed and my dad said yes to the surgery and it was sent for 9/8/2021 and it went great but they didn't warn me about how hard it was gonna be to take a shit so like when I finally had to go for the first time after surgery it was rough asf because I had to rest my leg on three books and had to take off my brace just to get comfortable enough and It just sucked for the first 3 weeks post op, shaking in my leg, throbbing pain, couldn't sleep comfortable and I had to help myself do everything because my dad was at work and my brother's went to go live with friends because helping their younger brother in a hotel after surgery wasn't worth it, so that sucked being in a hotel constantly with nobody to talk to but the people on mw 2019 in SnD lobbies but that was Life for me in that moment and after 4 weeks I was able to hobble again and at about 5 and a half weeks I could walk again so I immediately dropped the crutches and started walking around, since my dad wasn't taking me to PT or any orthopedic appointments I thought It was normal and that I would just have to wait a few more weeks till I could run and jump again and my 14 year old brain was okay with that and it wasn't till about june of 2022 almost a year after my surgery I was talking with my friend and when he heard me talk about how I didn't go through any PT for my leg his eyes got wide and he sat me down and we talked for 3 hours about how important PT was and I disagreed with him because my knee felt great and I could run and jump and do anything every other kid could do and I never trained my knee and just left it alone all the way up to December 8th 2023 and I was running to my bus at school and while I was running I swiped to the left and when my foot hit the ground I felt my left knee rotate and a loud pop and I went from running to limping and at first I was thinking that everything was fine until I continued walking and noticed that the pain and limping didn't go away so at that point I was freaking out because I didn't want my knee to be injured because my buddy and I had plans for the 3 week winter break I was gonna get and after about 15 minutes all I could hear in my head was a voice go from "please don't tell me I tore my ACL" to "I tore my ACL" and all of the sudden I was sobbing on this really nice lady's shoulder and at this point I was at a point in time where I was just lost, I called my buddy crying about how he needed to pick me up and take me to the hospital because I messed my knee up and I knew forsure that I tore my ACL and he didn't believe me at first and parked down the street at the Advanced auto to roll a wood so that my neighbors wouldn't see and get mad and I ofc limped up the road instead of having him drive out front because I could still walk and after I got in his car he told me "If you had really tore your ACL you wouldn't be walking" and I told him he was wrong and that I had forsure tore my ACL and we agrued for about 2 hours while waiting on my dad to get off work to go to hospital and I knew something happened to my ACL but my buddy was forsure that "I had just dislocated my knee and it would need popped back in place" and I didn't even care who was right I was so sad about everything I had just lost because of the injury and my buddy we'll just call him De for now he tried to reassure that if I did injury my ACL and needed surgery, he would be my slave and that just made me depressed because I didn't even want this shit to happen and now I got to deal with it a second time and it just sucked the whole 2 and a half hours at children's just for x-rays and MRI, ace bandages and crutches and this time they told me that I had fully tore my ACL and that they would have to do another surgery but this time use my hamstring as a graft and that they would have to take the screw out from my first surgery and I was okay with that because I want to straighten and bend my knee fully again so we set the date for the first surgery on 2/14/2024 and I was okay with that but the wait felt so long and the fact that everytime I tried to do anything that involves with activity I couldn't do because everytime I tried I felt my knee rotate and that started the downfall of my mental health again and I decided to make the very poor decision to slash my left arm again because of it and since I had hit this point my mind just completely stopped thinking about taking my meds so I completely stopped and soonly after was just going to school without my psychic meds or antidepressants and decided to go into the school counselor's office because I was ready to just die I didn't care how I just didn't want to live and I told him that if I was going to talk to him that he had to promise that if I walked into school the next day and told him I didn't want to talk he wouldn't make me and he promised so I told him about how I hate talking to children hospital counselor's because it seems like they want to immediately have you come into the ward so I told him that if he tried to make me talk to them I would get pissed and he said " don't worry I'll give you numbers to private counselor's not children's" and I was okay with that but I found it weird that he gave my roommate the phone numbers and had her call then hand me the phone so when I picked up I asked "who's this?" and the lady responded with "Hi I'm a counselor at Big lots behavioral health, My name's Patty" and I lost my shit and cussed her out then hung up pissed and waited till the next day to cuss out the counselor if he tried to make me talk to him and sure enough 2/01/2024 I walked into school and at my first period desk was the counselor and he tried to hit me with the "after what you told me yesterday we gotta talk downstairs" and I just turned around and Walked started walking to the stairs and all i hear behind me is "Logan don't leave" "logan you can't leave school" and I turned around and cussed him out like who the fuck is gonna walk an hour home on a torn ACL and I told him I wasn't gonna talk I didn't want to and he had the principle come up and he walked to my desk and said "Logan you got to go downstairs to the office and talk with Mr. Morale or me and the deputy with have to take you," and I told him he wasn't gonna do shit to me because I already said I wasn't gonna talk to him so I walked out again and this time got followed by 4 staff members and I yelled at them to stop following me and they didn't and when I walked into the west wing of the school Mr. Morale tried to reach for my shoulder and I told him if he touched me I would lay his ass flat on the ground and continued walking to the restroom in the west wing and while I was washing my hands the principle Mr.P tried to lean up on the door frame and look stupid while telling me I got to go to the office and I went like a dumbass and they locked me in the front half of the office and I proceeded to have a mental breakdown screaming, crying, and cussing at the main principle because I didn't do anything and just wanted to continue the rest of the day and he told me "Just calm down and you can return to class" and I screamed back saying "I can't calm down if I gotta stare at the mf who's pissing me off" and he gave me 10 minutes I won't lie to calm down but the second I asked to go back to class because I was calm he said "I can't do that" which made me blow up and start cussing and screaming again and they tried to call my roommate in to pick me up and I told her that I wasn't leaving because I walked into school with a smile on my face I'll go home with a smile on my face and 5 minutes after I said that an ambulance showed up so I knew they were gonna try to put me in the ward so I told the firefighters that if they got close one of them is gonna catch a right hook and they didn't move and tried to talk to me but I wasn't listening and 10 minutes after they showed up 6 fucking sheriff's walked in like come on are yall so bored you need 6 officers for one bipolar 16 year old and I had two officers on each arm pulling them back trying to get cuffs on and about 4 minutes into resisting all I hear is a quick "stop resisting" then my legs got kicked off the floor and all of the sudden i was on my stomach on the floor and I was still resisting till an officer pressed his knee into my injured knee and I started screaming and crying in pain, begging even for the officers to stop and he did after the cuffs were on and two of them started to drag me and say "are you really not gonna walk" and I stood up started walking and passive-aggressively said "would you want to walk after getting your injured knee crushed?" and never got a response until they informed me about getting pink slipped from school and getting transported to Big Lots behavioral and come to find over after getting another x-ray done before surgery turns out the officer that crushed my knee also ruptured my meniscus so when I had to go in for surgery on 2/14/2024 I had to get the screw removed then the ACL reconstruction with meniscus repair and after the surgeries it was the worst, they prescribed me 10 oxy 5's for after surgery but I didn't take them because I was scared of being addicted so I decided to smoke pot instead and it didn't help at all, the first day after the nerve blocked wore off my leg muscles were moving and my knee had a shaking, throbbing, kind of like a pounding pain and no matter what I did nothing helped which caused me to fall into another depression because it felt like the whole world around me stopped but I got to watch everybody do want they want and walk around doing whatever and I felt so useless and worthless having to have someone hand me my crutches to get up or ask them to get me something to drink or ask them to make me something to eat and it sucked because I didn't get that luxury the first time so getting it the second was unfamiliar and made me feel like shit because I was used to having no help and doing shit by myself and now having that help made me feel like I was a bother or an annoyance, I am still very appreciative for my friends and my surgeon, but the fear of "what will happen if this happens again?" Still haunts me
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2024.05.10 20:06 healthmedicinet Health Daily News May 9 2024

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2024.05.09 16:37 Drama_Derp Physician pushing opioids even after you turned them down?

My wife gave birth to our 2nd not too long ago and got banged up (2nd degree tear) a little bit in the process of a natural birth. She wanted the epidural but there wasn't any time.
She's fine now, but I wanted to share my story.
Over a 2 night stay, 2 doctors and two nurses suggested oxys. I've seen more hesitations in people sharing a joint to someone who has never smoked before or even a bartender pouring a strong drink towards the end of the night than I did in these folks.
They weren't even shy, or provided words of caution before suggesting opioids. It was more like "I can get you a few....really?..... Now is the time if you want them?... you're sure?..... oookkkaaayyy...let me know if you change your mind, here is a script anyway"
The American Medical Association (AMA), an estimated 3% to 19% of people who take prescription pain medications develop an addiction to them.
What is the motivating factor here? Is the kickback from these companies that lucrative?
Have you experienced this on the island?
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2024.05.08 18:42 reallyenjoyscarbs How to help with pain post craniotomy?

My mom had a tumor removal exactly one week ago. Yesterday she scared us by taking a cab without telling anyone to the ER for pain. She doesn’t think we’re taking her pain seriously and she’s never experienced pain like this before. I was home with her but had given her a painkiller and saw she’d fallen asleep…so I tried to sneak a nap in (steroids keep her up weird hours and I’m so tired lol) and woke up to her missing!!
She has some low dose oxy and lots of Tylenol. She used to smoke a least an 8th of weed a week before this. I’m not asking if she can smoke again, I know the smoke would be detrimental to her head wound. I just wanted to know if anyone had any tips to make her more comfortable and avoid another escape attempt. We did get her some CBD oil and she has more pain meds, Tylenol, ice packs, refuses a wedge pillow, has melatonin to help sleep.
What else can we do to help her? I do think she has a low pain tolerance but she can’t keep eating pain killers, her script is going to run out again and they won’t refill it. Her neurologist said no to any THC and I mean I’m not a doctor so I’m just trusting they know what’s best for her. We are in a legal state (CT) so I figure if doc wanted her to take it they’d just say so.
Edit: We are still waiting on biopsy results for full glioblastoma diagnosis but she’s already doing chemo and radiology consultations. Given the treatment is following a typical diagnosis I thought asking you kind people would be best, but I’m sorry if this is not the best place to ask this.
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2024.05.08 02:07 2010Slugger ROOM IN SWEET MISSION APARTMENT (mission district) $1201/mo avail 6/1/24

Looking for a great human to share apartment in the mission.
Here is a link to photos of the apartment and room:
https://photos.app.goo.gl/hxqxqt4JKQpATYWj9
The Apartment: In search of a flatmate to share a charming 2 bedroom rent controlled apartment in the heart of the mission. Located in a 4 unit south facing 120 year old Edwardian building with a huge backyard with figs, lemon and lime trees and if you have a green thumb the yard is full of potential.
There is a large fully equipped eat-in kitchen with anything you would need to bring your food fantasies to life. The living room is cozy, warm and sun filled almost all day and most time is spent there and in the kitchen. The small shared bathroom has a tub and shower and the most incredibly satisfying water pressure.
A shared office/workspace that sometimes doubles as a dining room for bigger gatherings in the back of the apartment for quiet and privacy. There is room in the building passthrough to keep a bike if you ride.
There are shared weekly house-cleaning chores and everyone is expected to clean up after themselves. There is little to no space for additional communal furniture or kitchen anything, and there is only one storage closet that only houses household items. Though I would be open to getting rid of the current sofa if yours is a better fit.
While not explicitly a sober house, alcohol is rarely consumed (though always present mostly because of my job) and other substances, aside from 420 (smoking of any kind must be done outside), are asked to stay out of the house.
The neighborhood: We are near the 101 freeway and a 7 min walk to 16th street Bart. Lines 33, 14, 49 and more are a 2 block walk. We are just far enough away from the bustle of mission and Valencia to feel like home is chill and quiet but a quick walk into the thick of it. Gus’s market, grocery outlet, rainbow grocery, safeway, foodsco, birite market and all the bodegas of the mission are at your fingertips as well as some of the best restaurants and bakeries in the bay area. And so many tacos. Dolores park is a 10min walk. The ODC dance commons and mission bowling is right in our backyard. 24 hour fitness and Fitness SF Soma are 10-15 min walk.
The Room: Approx 11' x 7.5' with the largest closet in the flat. Located in the interior of the building is very quiet and peaceful. It can accommodate up to a queen size bed. The current queen memory foam mattress and bed frame are available to you if you'd like.
The need to know:
Available: 6/1/24 Rent: $1201.00 with a small yearly increase in August as allowed by the rent board.
Deposit: $1201.00
Move-in: $2402.00
Utilities: PGE and Internet are roughly $100 per person per month.
Shared house goods: $25ish a month
Laundry: coin operated in building
Parking: street, mostly no permit required for the most of the neighborhood
No pets allowed.
About you: Queevery queer friendly. You should be chill and low/no drama, financially stable, and pay your bills and rent on time. Looking for a longer term commitment, 1 year minimum. Nearly every flatmate previously has been here 2+ years. I’ve also lost count of the folks who have met their life partners or found long term relationships after moving in. My current flatmate is moving in with their fiance who they met shortly after moving in. Coincidence, perhaps, but I can’t deny the magic of this little space :-) You should value home life as a place of peace, joy, and restoration. Definitely looking for someone who wants to share space, not looking for a best friend and absolutely respect privacy, but if you’re reclusive and never leave your room, while no judgment, just not the right fit. Folks who keep the party out of the house, with the exception of fairly regular dinner parties. If you enjoy sharing/cooking regular meals and a space to relax at the end of the day then please say hi. While absolutely happy to have a vegetarian/vegan in the house you will need to be ok with using the same cooking equipment and having animal products/meat in the house regularly. Someone who works hybrid with a greater percentage on-site or 100% on-site for work is preferable mostly because the nature of my work can be distracting if you’re on zoom all day, but open to versions of this. If you love art, film, nature, reading, eating, drag are a good communicator and generally love SF and what SF truly is please get in touch!
About me: 41 queer cis-male. 22 year SF resident originally from small town Northern California. I work as a freelance food stylist for commercial photography. I’m private and easy going. I love to cook and bake, especially cooking fowith and eating with my community and people I share space with. I love to wind down to a show or movies that run the gamut of documentaries and dramas to sci fi and fantasy. I’m a big nature lover and try to hike and explore and be outside as much as I can. I don’t spend much time in bars these days but I love local drag and am partial to a dive baclub over trendy nightlife when the mood strikes. I love all of the bay area and enjoy an adventure outside of the city frequently.
If you feel like you’d be a good fit for this little flat please reply to [chezshotwell@gmail.com](mailto:chezshotwell@gmail.com) with the following:
Name:
Email:
Phone number:
Age:
A little about you, how you like to live with others, what you do for work, and anything else you’d like to share.
Any social media you’d like to share.
Looking to set up in person interviews end of this week before the 10th and after the 14th. With decisions made by 5/20. I can do some facetime/zoom/phone interviews 5/11-14, but I’ll be out of town so wouldn’t be able to show the apartment then. I will get back to folks as quickly as possible. If you don’t hear from me, I appreciate your time and wish you good luck on your housing search. If the ad is still up, the room is still available.
Please respond only via email to: [chezshotwell@gmail.com](mailto:chezshotwell@gmail.com)
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2024.05.07 14:12 ChallengerShaker2014 Need some advice on CBD/THC and where to get a certain type.

So I have been fighting my stage 4 colon cancer for about a year now and while I am not losing the battle, I am not really winning it either but I am encountering more pain due to a new chemo treatment plan that affects me differently than it used to.
So in an effort to avoid more opioids ( already on Morphine and Oxy daily, trying to not up the Oxy ) One of my doctors suggested I might want to try CBD with some THC in it. She wants me to get an oil with a 1:1 THC to CBD ratio.
Is this something I can get any like any dispensary, or is there places that specialize in this type of marijuana product?
I have no desire to get high, don't plan on smoking weed and edibles have never interested me, so I am kinda fearful of just walking into a place and having some college kid trying to hook me up with some sticky icky purple snozberry that is gonna change my life or whatever! LOL!
I am just an old guy looking to cut down on my pain and figured perhaps someone here could help point me in the right direction.
Oh I live in the Richmond/Bolton area if that helps.
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2024.05.07 12:28 Massive_Island9236 I don’t understand why I’m still withdrawing from opiates

I was on prescription oxy 80s, 20s, and 15s for about 7 months, taking heavy every day. My plug stopped selling so I had to take what I could get, and I found hydro 10s and took about 100 of them in a month and haven’t taken any since. It’s been over a month since I last took and I was feeling pretty much back to normal this last week, but these last two days feels like the physical withdrawal is coming back for some reason and I don’t understand why, I have drank alcohol smoked weed and taken mushrooms, idk if it’s because they release dopamine and my body’s confusing them with pills or what, can someone please help. The symptoms aren’t that bad, I’m still working, but I’m having a hard time sleeping and getting comfortable, and I started having cravings last night. Don’t plan on taking anymore tho, I just want to feel like myself again.
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