Hello and welcome to my post. I would like to make a friend.
Here are my interests:
History. I have had an interest in history for almost a decade now, it started back in school and developed from there. Well, now that I think about it one could argue that it started even earlier in my life as I liked watching the odd historic documentary or film aired on television but it wasn't regular back then, I never actively sought it out. I am mostly interested in European history in the period between the 18th-20th century but I sometimes branch out to other time periods and other parts of the world. I watch various channels related to history and read articles and sometimes books. I have recently got a few books on the German revolution of 1848/1849 and a historical magazine on the Thirty Years' War. Besides that I try to visit museums sometimes.
Literature. Especially old novels. I like to immerse myself in the Worlds of these books, I tend to read them while listening to thematically fitting music and take my time with them. One time you are following a troubled Youth in his quest for spiritual understanding of the world, another you see the aged and decrepit Doctor gambling his very Soul on the promises of abtaining satisfaction in earthy pleasures, then again your olfaction notices the most pleasant scent known to man even as the one eminating it has the appearance of a revolting Frog. These and many other stories open up to you once you decide to set foot into the literary World.
Languages. I know three, with one being a bit rusty. I am currently working intently on strengthening it. I believe that if I continue to apply myself in this regard then I should be able to finally conquer it. What language am I working on? Well, if you were to stack all the major works in it they would be as tall as a house... It is fun to go through different works in multiple languages, the same goes for film, games and such.
Games. I recently played Cyberpunk 2077. Well as recently as I played any major story centric game. Now that the dust has settled and the bugs mostly removed...It's not that bad. The main questline at least. Besides that I tried Fallout 76 (Very average, I'm dissapointed with what they made the "RPG" system) and I might give Deus Ex Manking Divided another spin (since it's somewhat similar to Cyberpunk when it comes to its aesthetics). Dark Souls is one of my favorite series, I still haven't beaten Elden Ring though. When it came out I wasn't in the right mindset to invest a hundred hours into it, with all those bosses and difficult locations. I think I'll only consider playing it if I am streaming it to someone. I am generally interested in either streaming games or having the person I am talking to stream them to me. To be specific I mean streaming to a single person while being on call. Besides that I'm a big fan of Paradox strategy games, especially Europa Universalis IV and Heats of Iron IV, I tend to only play single player since I find multiplayer with many people to be rather stressful but on the other hand I have nothing against a co-op game. I'm not the best player though, despite the ammount of hours I have in them. Another great game I would mention would be Dragon's Dogma. A very underrated RPG. I recently beat it again and it was an atmospheric and interesting experience. It is one of those games that feel like they have an endless ammount of depth and constant new secrets to discover.
Anime and Manga. In recent times my interest in them has waned but I still watch the occasional series here and there. Like Cyberpunk Edgerunners (Which I found to be rather mediocre) and the very good first season from the new arc of Bleach. Some of my favourite series include: Fullmetal Alchemist Brotherhood, Death Note, Fate;Zero, Psycho Pass, Code Geass and Attack on Titan. I wouldn't mind if you were to introduce me to some new series, maybe based on the ones I mentioned. My favourite Manga is Berserk which I still follow, althought I am still not certain on the direction that the new author is taking. I suppose it really is a matter of contention whether a somewhat (or considerably warped) vision is better than an unfinished work. One could argue that a few novels remain unfinished and possess a macabre appeal to them as such.
Music. Classical music has a very special place in my heart. A few of my favourite pieces would be: Clair de Lune, Nocturne Op. 9 No.2, Devil's Trill Sonata, Danse Macabre, Valse Sentimentale, Symphony No. 7 in A Major, Op. 92: II. Alegreto (by Beethoven) and Suite from Swan Lake, Op. 20a: I. Scene. Moderato. There are more but these ones always invoke something in me when I listen to them. Besides Classical I also enjoy listening to Synthwave, old Western pop and J-pop, both modern and from the 20th century.
Well that about wraps it up for my interests. I would like to add a few things before I finish. I am neurodivergent (autism spectrum) and struggle with mental health. I respect the struggles others have but due to certain negative experiences I would prefer to find another Aspie. I am rather introverted and I do not have a large social circle. If I like someone I want to spend as much time with them as possible. I have been hurt in the past by caring about someone much more than they about me so I would like to avoid such things now.
If you decide to message me I ask that you send a DM instead of a chat and tell me about yourself. Take care.

Hello and welcome to my post. I would like to make a friend.
Here are my interests:
History. I have had an interest in history for almost a decade now, it started back in school and developed from there. Well, now that I think about it one could argue that it started even earlier in my life as I liked watching the odd historic documentary or film aired on television but it wasn't regular back then, I never actively sought it out. I am mostly interested in European history in the period between the 18th-20th century but I sometimes branch out to other time periods and other parts of the world. I watch various channels related to history and read articles and sometimes books. I have recently got a few books on the German revolution of 1848/1849 and a historical magazine on the Thirty Years' War. Besides that I try to visit museums sometimes.
Literature. Especially old novels. I like to immerse myself in the Worlds of these books, I tend to read them while listening to thematically fitting music and take my time with them. One time you are following a troubled Youth in his quest for spiritual understanding of the world, another you see the aged and decrepit Doctor gambling his very Soul on the promises of abtaining satisfaction in earthy pleasures, then again your olfaction notices the most pleasant scent known to man even as the one eminating it has the appearance of a revolting Frog. These and many other stories open up to you once you decide to set foot into the literary World.
Languages. I know three, with one being a bit rusty. I am currently working intently on strengthening it. I believe that if I continue to apply myself in this regard then I should be able to finally conquer it. What language am I working on? Well, if you were to stack all the major works in it they would be as tall as a house... It is fun to go through different works in multiple languages, the same goes for film, games and such.
Games. I recently played Cyberpunk 2077. Well as recently as I played any major story centric game. Now that the dust has settled and the bugs mostly removed...It's not that bad. The main questline at least. Besides that I tried Fallout 76 (Very average, I'm dissapointed with what they made the "RPG" system) and I might give Deus Ex Manking Divided another spin (since it's somewhat similar to Cyberpunk when it comes to its aesthetics). Dark Souls is one of my favorite series, I still haven't beaten Elden Ring though. When it came out I wasn't in the right mindset to invest a hundred hours into it, with all those bosses and difficult locations. I think I'll only consider playing it if I am streaming it to someone. I am generally interested in either streaming games or having the person I am talking to stream them to me. To be specific I mean streaming to a single person while being on call. Besides that I'm a big fan of Paradox strategy games, especially Europa Universalis IV and Heats of Iron IV, I tend to only play single player since I find multiplayer with many people to be rather stressful but on the other hand I have nothing against a co-op game. I'm not the best player though, despite the ammount of hours I have in them. Another great game I would mention would be Dragon's Dogma. A very underrated RPG. I recently beat it again and it was an atmospheric and interesting experience. It is one of those games that feel like they have an endless ammount of depth and constant new secrets to discover.
Anime and Manga. In recent times my interest in them has waned but I still watch the occasional series here and there. Like Cyberpunk Edgerunners (Which I found to be rather mediocre) and the very good first season from the new arc of Bleach. Some of my favourite series include: Fullmetal Alchemist Brotherhood, Death Note, Fate;Zero, Psycho Pass, Code Geass and Attack on Titan. I wouldn't mind if you were to introduce me to some new series, maybe based on the ones I mentioned. My favourite Manga is Berserk which I still follow, althought I am still not certain on the direction that the new author is taking. I suppose it really is a matter of contention whether a somewhat (or considerably warped) vision is better than an unfinished work. One could argue that a few novels remain unfinished and possess a macabre appeal to them as such.
Music. Classical music has a very special place in my heart. A few of my favourite pieces would be: Clair de Lune, Nocturne Op. 9 No.2, Devil's Trill Sonata, Danse Macabre, Valse Sentimentale, Symphony No. 7 in A Major, Op. 92: II. Alegreto (by Beethoven) and Suite from Swan Lake, Op. 20a: I. Scene. Moderato. There are more but these ones always invoke something in me when I listen to them. Besides Classical I also enjoy listening to Synthwave, old Western pop and J-pop, both modern and from the 20th century.
Well that about wraps it up for my interests. I would like to add a few things before I finish. I am neurodivergent (autism spectrum) and struggle with mental health. I respect the struggles others have but due to certain negative experiences I would prefer to find another Aspie. I am rather introverted and I do not have a large social circle. If I like someone I want to spend as much time with them as possible. I have been hurt in the past by caring about someone much more than they about me so I would like to avoid such things now.
If you decide to message me I ask that you send a DM instead of a chat and tell me about yourself. Take care.

So I know this is obvious as it is...
Ex and I had a very strong connection, even during no contact we bump into the same mutual friends online although never engaged with each other
Last day : We talked during the day and it was okay, but I think she felt sour because I didn't message them for the rest of the day (keep reserved) eventually she saw me playing a video game with someone online that had blocked her (she took this personally but it wasn't personal) She then bombarded me with highly aggressive abusive messages saying "I hate you, never getting back again, how could u hang out with ppl that hate me" etc.
1-2 days after I blocked her because I felt so so hurt. She checked her phone for the next 2 days to see if she was unblocked, she wasn't yet. She blocked me on the 2nd night and I had finally unblocked on the 3rd day, I suppose I did this because of the disrespect she did and because I was going crazy trying not to message her (hurting), she didn't block me in 1 area until 2 days after (I imagine either for me to msg her or she was hurting from seeing my name in public places), after the unblock(me) it has now been 1-2 weeks and I remain blocked.
I imagine she blocked because her ego was bruised from me blocking her (obviously) and ultimately because I hurt her, but I surprised that she didn't unblock (she had this cycle sadly)
Any experience or thoughts on this from people may e who have dealt with the same thing? Currently 2 weeks no contact. And please keep hurtful messages off, I'm hurt as it is an don't need aggressive critism
I am Fearful avoidant lean anxious 34m She is Fearful avoidant lean avoidant 32f
Thanks!

I am looking to buy a computer to learn AI, I have 0 knowledge on AI, ML and very minor knowledge of programming and coding. I am aware there are certain AI models which you can run locally on your PC, I could help me get started on learning AI. My budget is $550 ± $30. The budget is pretty low, It's fine if the build doesn't do much. even if I can learn something AI related using the PC it's good for me. I am thinking of getting it built by a local builder (I am from India). other than AI, normal school work, browsing, photoshop, light gaming there won't be any other usage of the PC. Most would probably use PCpartpicker, if it's possible for you, you could check the prices of parts on https://pcpricetracker.in. prices in your region and India may differ.
Thanks in advance.

I am looking to buy a computer to learn AI, I have 0 knowledge on AI, ML and very minor knowledge of programming and coding. I am aware there are certain AI models which you can run locally on your PC, I could help me get started on learning AI. My budget is $550 ± $30. The budget is pretty low, It's fine if the build doesn't do much. even if I can learn something AI related using the PC it's good for me. I am thinking of getting it built by a local builder (I am from India). other than AI, normal school work, browsing, photoshop, light gaming there won't be any other usage of the PC. Most would probably use PCpartpicker, if it's possible for you, you could check the prices of parts on https://pcpricetracker.in. prices in your region and India may differ. Thanks in advance.

Since the time I was a small child I can remember a deep, unwavering, and often visceral sadness permeating every aspect of my being. I never quite figured out how to overcome this depression, and as the years have passed by, the regrets piled up. The weight feels so heavy and I don’t know how to bear it. For as long as I can remember I have experienced a constant cycle of succumbing to sadness, bitterness, and isolation, which I then allow to dampen any feelings of hope or desire to grow. I am fundamentally ashamed of who I am and feel like a complete waste of life with no value to offer anybody.
I was dealt a relatively good hand in life all things considered, so I can only conclude that the problem was ultimately some kind of defect in my psyche. Yes my father had an affair and my parents divorced when I was four years old. Yes my mom was highly neurotic and depressed due to the tragedies she experienced in her own life. Yes I experienced consistently long periods of isolation growing up. But ultimately I never had to worry about when my next meal was, or whether or not I’d be able to go to a good school and pursue meaningful career.
Yet I squandered every possible pportunity I had, burned bridges, isolated myself, stayed in a comfort bubble, and now I’m 29 years old with barely any family or friends, definitely no romantic relationship, and trapped in a dead end job with absolutely no prospects. My life is utterly meaningless. I don’t relate to anyone, I don’t belong to any sort of community, nothing really brings me joy anymore.
I do like to read, I like to play guitar, I like fitness and martial arts. I’ve been told I’m a good looking guy consistently enough that there must be truth to it despite my crippling low self esteem. I don’t play video games, I haven’t smoked cannabis in months, I rarely drink alcohol. On paper, aside from my low income job/lack of a career which brings me great shame, I’m not the stereotypical depressed guy. I live in a major city and am constantly outside, yet I am completely and utterly alone. I derive meaning from nothing.
What’s the point? There’s no point in doing anything if there’s no one for you to bring joy to. There’s no point in striving to better yourself if you feel purposeless. It’s impossible for me to meet and connect with people from my own deep shame of who I am. I met a girl last week and for conversed for hours She was clearly interested and I would have loved to get her number and grab a coffee together. Yet I’m so ashamed of working a dead end job and her finding out I barely have any friends that I didn’t even bother asking. Added to the pile of regrets.
This is how I feel, if you read it all thanks for reading. I’m not sure I’m really looking for advice, but maybe this post will have some utility in letting even a single other person out there know that they’re not alone - if just for a moment.

The wait is over - it's finally time! The full version of Magic Research 2 is out!

Links:

Android: https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.mcolotto.magicresearchtwo
iOS: https://apps.apple.com/app/id6478566840
Steam (Windows): https://store.steampowered.com/app/2864890/Magic_Research_2/
Official Discord: Link

Free demo links:

Android: https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.mcolotto.magicresearchtwodemo
Steam (Windows): https://store.steampowered.com/app/2864890/Magic_Research_2/
Web: https://mcolotto.github.io/magic-research-demo/magic-research-2/
(Due to Apple App Store policies, there is no free demo for iOS)

FAQ

What is Magic Research 2?
Magic Research 2 is an entirely new game of the same genre as Magic Research: an incremental, text-based, auto-battler RPG with a heavy focus on Magic. Play the role of a rookie wizard with a single ambition: to find or create the Philosopher's Stone, a legendary magical item that is said to be able to cure any illness. As you do so, you will learn more than you ever imagined about Magic and about the world around you. What kinds of adventures await you?
What is similar / different between Magic Research and Magic Research 2?
Magic Research 2 shares some of the core features with Magic Research, such as the concept of researching or studying magic to learn new spells, or the battle system in Exploration. It also shares the same base UI, as it was built using the first game as a base.
However, it is an entirely new game. The story, spells, Storylines, items, enemies, etc. are all completely different and built from scratch, and the game is a little longer. There are also multiple hidden new features that were not present in Magic Research.
But even the shared features are quite different. Spells are organized in Elements instead of Schools. Land is limited, and you need to plan what you want to build. Inventory space is infinite and item creation can be automated. Potions are no longer consumable; instead they are equipment that recharges every combat. The list goes on! The best way to understand the similarities and differences is to play the free demo (see the links in this post).
How do I transfer my demo progress to the full game?
This will depend on your platform.
If you played the demo on Steam and are also playing the full game on Steam: The progress should transfer automatically. You may want to open the demo one last time, go to Options, then export your save data by using "Save to file" just in case something odd happens.
In all other cases: Open the demo and export your save data by using "Save to file". Then open the full version of the game, and at the bottom you should get a prompt to import the save data from the demo.
Has anything changed since the initial release of the Demo version? Is there further development planned?
The Demo version has gotten an update, version 1.1, that tried to address several things. Among those are the addition of a "Quick Channeling" option to try and reduce the amount of presses needed for this common task.
An update, version 1.2, is planned shortly after launch. This is a much more substantial update with two new Storylines, which bring the total to 127, as well as many more quality-of-life features and improvements. It also includes an experimental setting for an alternative implementation for Land. The full version will release with 1.2 on the Steam beta channel, and the Android version will get it soon after release on the beta as well.
After this update is released, development will most likely be centered on feedback from players for a bit as I try and improve the experience.
Can you play Magic Research 2 in languages other than English?
Although the game has a system in place to support translations, none have been made so far. Because of the sheer size of the script (more than 4000+ strings, estimating 70K+ words), it would be out of budget to commission a professional translation, so instead I'm opening up the strings file to crowd-translation efforts. There is a GitHub repository: https://github.com/mcolotto/magic-research-2-translations with the base translation file and some details / instructions; if you'd like to try to translate Magic Research 2, there is a guide in the repository. Note that this file obviously has spoilers for the entire game! You might want to finish the game first; you have been warned!
How is support for screen readers?
I have personally tested the game using VoiceOver on iOS and NVDA on Windows / Steam.
NVDA on Windows / Steam version: The initial demo launch had some issues with NVDA, several of which are addressed in 1.1. There are still some rough edges, and I'm happy to receive feedback on those. I'm hoping to address those in patches after 1.2. If you are interested in playing, I suggest you play and finish the free demo first; the full game continues on straight from there and will likely work the same way.
VoiceOver on iOS: From the testing I've made personally, the launch version 1.1 on iOS should work decently well. In my opinion, it was easier to play with than NVDA on Windows.
TalkBack on Android: This is unsupported, just like with Magic Research 1. I wasn't able to get this to work reasonably at all, as it has horrible delays / lag that essentially make it impossible to use the app. You can try the free demo if you'd like; I wouldn't recommend buying the game until you've finished the demo version. My personal suggestion is: if you have a Windows PC, try the demo on Steam instead as that should work leaps and bounds better than the Android version.
I wanted to add a feature to automatically pause exploration after every attack, but I wasn't able to get to this before launch. As a reminder, you can still do this manually via hotkey on Windows and via Magic Tap on VoiceOver, just like in Magic Research 1. That said, Magic Research 2 does have several features that should help reduce the amount of interaction you need to have during battles, like auto-using pouch items to heal, so it's possible that may make this feature less necessary.

TLDR: I broke up with my girlfriend due to how she treated me, right after the breakup she got with a guy she met during a party on Halloween and now I feel miserable. I broke up due to how she treated me in the hopes my mental health will be better, but I've been getting worse, and it makes me question my decision. I'm asking for advice on mental health because I'm having trouble living.
It's been 2 months since I broke up with my girlfriend of 2 years. We were together for 1 year before having to go long distance due to college and ever since then she would tell me how she didn't know if being in a relationship was good for her. She would bring up the subject multiple times than back off before anything would actually happen.
It was late January when I told her I couldn't keep hearing her doubts and we needed to break up; however, he said she didn't want to, so we stayed together. From that point on our arguments were worse than ever. Every time she would be in the wrong, she would say something along the lines of, "why does it feel like I can't do anything" rather than realizing that she would be the source of such arguments. I don't want to paint myself as the perfect person either, my communication skills were not the greatest during the beginning of our long-distance relationship, but I fixed a lot of how I did communicate.
Now for context, on Halloween we were not together, she went out with friends, and I was with my schools marching band (we had an away game that weekend). I was walking with friends when we found an intoxicated woman that fell in a ditch, and I had to go down and help. She was bleeding porously on her arm, and I ended up having to use my shirt as a torniquet. I texted my girlfriend about what happened, and she blew up on me for giving her my shirt. She ended up telling me that she met a "funny and tall" guy that gave her alcohol to get under my skin. I don't and still do not know what happened that night, but she said she never cheated.
Today she started talking to him a week after we broke up and it makes me question the trust, I had the entire time. I was told by one of my friends the other day that they call every night, and I ended up having a panic attack over the fact that I won't be the person she calls.
I know I sound stupid; I broke up due to how she treated me in the hopes my mental health will be better, but I've just been getting so worse, and it makes me question my decision.
I just want to be happy, but I haven't been able to sleep in days. Do you have any recommendations?
thank you
I didn't add any other aspects of the relationship that made me want to break up due to how large the post is already, let me know if you need more context, and I apologize for more of a rant rather than an actual post.

Dating at times feel like a job hunt doesn't it. So I thought it'd be fun to write it in a mock format just like a resume!
Summary
Attractive Dutch Indian (a solid 6.5/10) with exceptional ability to create awkward situations out of anything. Possesses impeccable written and verbal communication skills. Energetic for 2 hours a day usually between the hours of 12 a.m. to 2 a.m.
Experiences
Girl A: ~3 month in High School

• Hugged me and said I was cute
• Assisted her with math homework
• What I learned: I'm not gay

Girl B: ~1 year in University

• Chemistry lab partner...we sure had a lot of chemistry (Actually physics lab partner that then I can't make the joke)
• Disproved me gaming
• What I learned: I probably can't give up gaming

Girl C: ~ 2 weeks meet via Pure App

• Only slightly disappointed her eyes isn't purple irl
• What I learned: BDSM is fun and I love being a dom!

Girl D: ~6 month reddit

• Skype is actually the worst software ever
• What I learned: r4r actually worked!?

Education
University Undergrad: Engineering 2010-2014

• I found out I'm not nerdy enough to play CS but not cool enough to go clubbing
• 50% labs, 50% assignments, 100% confusing
• I went to one party then I got bored

University Professional degree: MBA Corporate Finance 2017-2019

• I can make an excel sheet about everything
• I have given up hope on humanity

Interests

• Traveling: Been to 25 countries so far
• Adventure sports: Bungee jumping, scuba, sky diving, you name it!
• Hiking: Hiked in Switzerland, Scotland, Austria and India

Now I'll pretend and add some generic ones

• Books: 50 shades of Stephen King
• Exercising: Whats really the point of running in one place or climbing a wall just to jump down again?
• Cooking: ...Fuzz...take out it is...

Awards

• Runner up on "Best Son 2014 for not bringing shame to the family"
• 1st Place on "How the hell do you play so much video games and still pass"

Languages spoken

• English: proficient
• Spanish: The first line in Despacito
• French: Limited to Hello, My name is ____, where is the bathroom

References

• Mom: If he doesn't get a GF soon, I will buy one
• Best friend: Let's make a gay pact at 33
• Ex-Best friend: Let's make a gay pact at 27

Pictures available on request

I had a huge crush on a childhood friend, with whom I'm not in touch with any more. I thought of him as my prince charming and I was his cinderella. Not only did I like him, but I loved his family too, and his house, and his neighborhood, and just all the fun things we did together as children. I also thought that he liked me back, because he indulged in things that I liked even if he didn't like them.
Next in 2007, I moved away to the opposite side of the globe. Even though I missed him so much, I didn't feel so bad any more because our parents were still in touch with each other. They even came to visit us and my dad visited them during his work trips. I was having a hard time adjusting the first few years of living in the new country, so as my coping mechanism I would think A LOT about my old friends, and especially him. I would daydream about us getting back together, I would play the same games I played with him and games those games to my new friends too. I'd like to think that I was still having a crush on him then on not limerence, because all of this was happening when I was 6-9 years old.
Fast forward to 2013, I find out he and his family were moving away too, to a different state. I also find out from one of my old friends (who also used to like him) that he's not such a nice guy and he's super rude and arrogant, which is what led her to stop having a crush on him. At first I couldn't believe it, but then I told my mom about the crush I had on him and she also agreed with my friend that he was very rude. That's when I started to forget and him and thought 'okay now is my time to move on'. And I stopped thinking about him for a whole year.
A few years later, I found myself daydreaming about him and I once again. I think it's because of hitting puberty and hormones playing mind games and things like that. I had crushes on other boys at school too, but those were very brief and I'd like boys who remotely resembled this one, whether they had the same name or were from the same culture, etc. I think this was when the limerence really began, because I dismissed all the earlier statements of him being rude and arrogant and thought 'he must've changed now, for me!'
I found him on Instagram in 2018, and I started to follow him. I got so ecstatic when he followed me back, liked my posts, and viewed my stories, because by then it had been years since we even spoke to each other. And I would get excited to see his content, again daydreaming. Even when he posted a picture of himself with a girl, I wouldn't get jealous and instead I would think 'when he meets me again, he'll be mine'. Not once did I think about the possibility of him having a girlfriend, or that I may not be his type. I guess it was because that didn't sit well with my ego.
Fast forward to 2020, I moved back to this country where everyone else was. And his family hosted a zoom-reunion with all of us (me, him, and the rest of our childhood friends and their parents). By then we were all grown up in college or high school. But the very fact that I got to see him again, when I thought I wouldn't, was so exhilarating that I was squealing on the inside, but playing it very cool on the outside. I was so happy to see him and his family again, despite having lost touch, and despite not being very close to them any more. I actually that 'they came back into my life just for me!! He likes me back! His parents like me!! We're totally going to get married when we're a little older thanks to us waiting for each other!!'
Soon after that call I realized, on my own, that they were not back in my life, they don't have that kind of interest in me, and that my fantasies of him and I reuniting were not going to happen. It was indeed limerence, not love like I had thought. That's when I took my time to grieve, and I felt like such a fool to thinking that my childhood fairytale would come true with this boy. I even broke down to my mom about this and she said that if anything I actually dodged a bullet because she's seen what they're really like in real life. She also said that if a boy likes me he will seek me out, I shouldn't have to pursue him. But I just couldn't digest the fact that he wasn't into me and that he'll get married to some other girl and he'll never know how much I liked him.
Apologies for the really long story, but now that I know that this was limerence, I want to move on from him for real. I want to remember him well, and also be able to wish him well. But I also don't want to jeopardize my future relationship with the real guy in my life, and I'm trying to end this well before I meet him. Thanks for your advice and patience!

So a year or so ago, my roommate (I'll call her Ella) and I decided to try out the seed 001101100011011000110110 (binary code for 666). Gameplay was pretty normal until Ella and I started a prank war and I left to build my base far far away. I found a really good spot next to a ravine, a ruined portal, and a shipwreck, and later when I was digging around I found buried treasure. So I set up a nice little castle thingy. But then the next day when I went mining I found a huge diamond ore deposit at -66, I swear there were like 20 diamonds there!! But then I checked the coords of my base later so I wouldn't forget it. And I'd placed my bed at 666, 66, 666. I immediately moved it ofc but it was too late, I'd already slept there.
But the next day when I was playing Minecraft I swore I saw Herobrine and Entity303 in the caves but they didn't do anything, they just ran away. Ella said she saw a giant behind the mountain (i now know that she'd placed HER bed at -666, 66, -666 but she did that on purpose cause she likes creepy stuff). And I thought I saw Ella too but she sent me a screenshot of her coords and she was waaaay across the world (she has an alex skin but with eyes pointing opposite directions, idk why I felt the need to mention that lol).
Then on the second day, we were just hanging out at spawn and grinding at our mob farm when Ella went off to get diamonds from her base cause her sword was gonna break. Well like 5 minutes later she left the call but I heard her screaming cause she was in the room next door. She wouldn't tell me what she saw she just pointed at the screen and kept saying "Mother". But there wasn't anything there, just a normal Minecraft plains biome. It was like midnight so I just assumed she'd fallen asleep on her desk again and had a nightmare or something.
But the next day, it became all too apparent that I was in danger. Ella vanished without a trace, and I'm a really light sleeper, I always wake up when she opens her door or her window. When I went into her room I saw that Minecraft was up and running and that she was at the mob grinder. I just shut down her PC and assumed she was out shopping or something. But she never leaves her PC on, not after I changed her password when she wasn't looking LOL
Yeah I honestly thought she'd be back in an hour. Then a day. Then a week. The police have still never found a trace of her. And the strangest thing is, she wasn't on the front door camera or on the high school security camera (it's facing her window).
This may sound stupid, but hear me out. I've wondered before why there are so many creepypastas. Far too many to be simple glitches in the code, and far too smart. I've thought before that creepypastas might actually be human souls who were trapped in the game, but I asked myself, "how in the world does a soul get trapped in a videogame?" But this experience gave me the final piece of the puzzle.
There are a few seeds that are inhabited by an entity called the Mother. She is the creator of the vast majority of creepypastas, and therefore, they must listen to her, lest she destroy them. The Mother has made a deal with Mojang that as long as the entities that serve her well are safe from deletion, she will hibernate (unless awakened). The Mother is awakened when three or more of her 'children' are summoned in one Minecraft day. I summoned one entity by using a cursed seed, one entity by sleeping at cursed coordinates, and Ella summoned one entity by sleeping at cursed coordinates, all in the same Minecraft day. However, while the Mother inhabits all seeds, she can only be awakened on certain ones.
What does the Mother do, you may ask? Well, when awakened, she summons all of her children, but orders them not to attack. She does this so that the victim will learn not to fear them. Once this has been accomplished, she reveals herself to the victim once they are alone. Then, when everyone else is either gone or asleep in real life, she takes the victim's soul and essentially factory resets it, turning them over to an older entity (like Herobrine or player 13) and they are trained to be a mindless killer. After that, the Mother goes dormant once more, and the new entity is released.
I believe the Mother can only be summoned on seeds that are in binary code. Here are 6 seeds where, based on my theories, the Mother may be able to be awakened: 011011010110111101101101 ("mom"), 011001000110100101100101 ("die"), 01110011011011110111010101101100 ("soul"), 01110111011000010110101101100101 ("wake"), 01110100011101010111001001101110 ("turn"), 01101101011010010110111001100101 ("mine")
If you intend on trying to awaken the Mother, I recommend playing with at least 4 other people, if possible. And don't let anyone be alone, even for a second, or she will take them like she took Ella. But if the Mother does reveal herself to them, don't let them play Minecraft for 5 years. By that time, the Mother should have forgotten them, and they may have forgotten her. If your friend remembers the Mother after that, they cannot play Minecraft ever again, because if they accidentally summon a single entity, the Mother will recognize them and she will take them.

For a music theory project, I’m looking to buy a full score of the main theme to Game of Thrones with as close to the original orchestration as possible. Looking online there are an overwhelming number of arrangements that range from high school bands to string ensemble to random combos. I’m having trouble finding the arrangement that is closest to the original orchestration (and in the original key). Any pointers would be helpful!

I was looking into this game that looked super cool called RKGK and the plot says you’re taking on B Corp to restore Cap City. My eyes immediately rolled. I describe myself as a Bernie Sanders democratic socialist but the issue is I have seen so many games with this exact same thing! Hi Fi Rush did it kinda. Cyberpunk was the original of this back in the tabletop days. Red Strings Club did it (great game btw) but this type of thing is becoming so heavily saturated is my problem. It’s like a bad senior thesis idea at film school. Not everything needs to be that heavy handed about it. You don’t need to make it that obvious what is going on because it just means you aren’t good at storytelling and want to shove it right in peoples faces because you’re either nervous it won’t come across without that or you thing everyone is stupid.

I’ve never done this and thought better of it but I’ve reached the point where I just want to settle down. I’m a 27 year old white guy with a regular Christian family looking for the same. I don’t fit in much in central Florida because I don’t make enough to break into the wealthier side where people look like me (not racist, I just have nothing in common with Puerto Ricans and white trash that have kids young, tattoos and talk ghetto). I don’t do video games or role player stuff or anime stuff so I don’t fit in with working class “nerds.” I’m not a jock, I’m not crazy smart. I’m just getting by with sunshine, home cooked meals, and clean entertainment. I have great manners but need work on my bedside manners. I’m about to graduate college and go to law school. I just want to grind these next few years out with a companion who wants to build success together.

I have just started playing this game yesterday. At the start (I start as harbinger of doom, I'm no pussy), I'm confused about interface, when to use spells, what is the best (easiest old god), what weapon to use. It took me hours to not die from lack of stamina and reason. Then, I realize that if I want to use weapon, I need to use fund (which I have none); and the fund is obtained from the conversion of exp. The conversion and the buy consumes another resource: %DOOM. That is when I dropped the strategy to use weapons. The alternative to weapons is children (I call this as Lord of The Flies build), and my strategy evolved into:

• Choose Aiko, Old God Spell/Double Damage
• Gather 20EXP
• Go to school to recruit

Skip sometime later (+hours) as I found that Double Damage does not synergize with children; and I also found that FESTIVAL is the best event. To utilize this event, I learned not to get that 1 coin at the beginning because there's chance of that coin being stolen! -> Festival is the second event. Eel is also a good event as it gives Kana and chance to recruit, but far inferior to Festival.
However, since I did not figure out how much %DOOM should be spared for the lighthouse, I couldn't make it.
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So I dropped my balls and tried for only one Normal match and it seems to cost around 10% DOOM. I also learnt to write down the second stage name and the second encountered enemy name. Yeah it was super easy.
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I also change Aiko to Mizuki. Reason: Mizuki has free follower and I find that getting 10 more EXP is easier. Also for synergy, and since it's that early into the game, if I find too hard enemy, I can just reset. Adding these together, here's my first Harbinger of Doom victory, with 5 people recruited from Festival:
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I soon get another victory in the same difficulty with Mimi, same strategy but knowledge kinda helps.
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This concludes my 25 hours into this game.​

I’m gonna try to make this as simple as possible. Basically I’ve been dealing with this woman since 2019 and at first I thought she was sweet, spiritual, and innocent, boyyyy was I wrong.. as time went on I started to see the real her. She’s very manipulative, a pathological liar, narcissist, and she has cluster B border line personality disorder. The night we met she fed me a bunch of lies which I uncovered overtime for example she told me the first night we met that she had been raped the year prior while she was in school(which I later found out was not true whatsoever. Months down the line she would even talk about exs that were “abusive” towards her which I later also found out wasn’t true. Fast forward to February of 2020 she ended up pregnant with our first child and a couple months into the pregnancy she just decided she’s not gonna deal with me anymore, so I ended up dating a woman I’ve known since middle school. She found out about this and next thing I know the sheriffs are serving me a restraining order accusing me of rape!!! When we showed up for court she immediately dropped the order before we even could talk to the judge. Fast forward to when my child was born in December of 2020 she texts me that she just had the baby and I asked if I could come up there and she said “no” and as time goes on she start’s blatantly keeping my child from me I didn’t meet my first born until February of 2021, and that’s when she tried to reconcile whatever situationship we had and would go on to apologize for the accusations saying her family foster her to do that so that I won’t be able to be in my child’s life which of course was a lie that was her decision. As time goes on the girl I was dating passed away and I was distraught so my baby mother comes around and I ended up coming up on money and decided to get us an apartment with our child two months into staying there I had a seizure while sleeping and instead of staying there to help she takes my child and leaves and proceeded to text my mom a picture of me in bed having the seizure and even tells my mom I was hitting her while having a seizure …. She blocked me again after that and a month later comes back around againnnn I guess basically to just have sex with me and then blocks me again and keeps me from my child, and at that point she was pregnant with my second child. I didn’t see my oldest for 6-7 months I had moved on to a nice relationship with a wonderful woman by that time and my second child was born, and that’s when I decided to take this stuff to court and the judge reprimanded her for isolating my kids from me and a custody order was placed for them to be with me every other weekend. During the custody court date she tried telling the judge I was abusive and all that nonsense and the judge seen right through it and didn’t pay it any attention, so two months after that she starts reaching out more and trying to have normal conversations and I would go along with it like a idiot and she wanted to hook up again and we did a few times, in which my girlfriend found out and we broke up and then weeks after that my baby moms ghost me again, still following the order tho. A month later my girlfriend and I got back on good terms and she notices and tries to get me to sabotage my relationship again! It doesn’t really work and I came to find out she would tell her family I was abusing her and a bunch of other ridiculous lies. This time CPS gets involved and investigates me for DV, which didn’t work. Now let’s fast forward to two years later, my babymom keeps coming in and out of my life(I don’t know why I let her honestly) she thinks about leaving to the military and I took the kids while she tries to go to the recruiting camp or whatever to see if she can enlist which she can’t because apparently she’s been committed by her mother a few times.. I stopped dealing with her for a while until some months back, she calls herself apologizing for everything she’s done to me and we start hanging out again but at this point I no longer am in love with her I wanted to go be with the woman I was still in love with that she thought she Sabotaged, and when I confessed this to her and that I can’t deal with how much she lies and plays these mental games and before I try to go home she tells me she’s gonna kill herself when I go home and I had her committed at her own request, she stayed for about a week and a half. Gets out and was put on meds and therapy which she stopped using after a couple of months. Me and the girl I’m in love with are still seeing each other and me and my babymoms stopped dealing with each other yet again. I get a knock on the door about a month or two later with getting served another restraining order falsely accusing me of abuse yet again I didn’t fight it cuz I’m really tired of her at this point. We started hanging out just taking the boys to the park and stuff like that just to try to bond with our kids as a family despite everything… she starts wanting to get intimate and I actually didn’t want to this time and then she starts telling me a bunch of lies about how she hasn’t been with anybody and a whole bunch of non sense that I know is false, and I snapped on her and called her out on all of it, I went wrong in the conversation and threw her phone back at her but it wasn’t in a aggressive way it hits her on the eye and I apologized and everything and I still say I don’t wanna be intimate with her and wanna be with the same woman that I’m in love with still, and then she begins to start that “I wanna kill myself” bullshit again except this time I don’t commit her cuz I realize she just tries to get pity from me and everybody else however she can. The next day she texts and asks for a bag she left at my house I told her I’d leave it on the porch for her. When she pulls up me and my girlfriend and her son are outside playing, out of nowhere her uncles jumps out her car and attacks me while my kids are watching from her car and my girlfriend’s son was right there in front of all this he then runs back to her car and they pull off quickly. The phone left her eye a lil black when I threw it at her and she even admitted that to my brother through text and to me in text that it was the phone, but typical crazy girl fashion she even texts my girlfriend after her and her uncle left a picture of her eye and says “you better leave him alone before this happens to you” she reported the incident to police weeks later but no charges were filed, CPS reached out to me yet again and I explain to them what happened over the phone and they didn’t seem to adamant about opening up a case. After the attack from her uncle I go to the courts and filed for motion of contempt for not following the custody arrangement on a few occasions, one of being that she had her u cake attack me with my kids present and one of the requirements on the order is to not let the other parent be harmed in any way in front of the children which the judge signed off on and we have court later today for. So yesterday she reaches out after it’s been almost two months since that whole attack from her uncle saying how she misses me and she wants to get the restraining order dropped, and she wants to sleep with me, and see me, and all that. And I actually let her come meet up with me at the mall just to kind of see where her headspace is. Long story short came to find out she was dating some guy and I told him all about her in which he agreed that she lies about every single thing and it’s almost impossible to believe a word out her mouth. this girl has some serious issues and I really want full custody of my boys because I’m scared for their safety being with her as she’s really unstable and flat out crazy, I know hiring an attorney would be the easiest route and me and my family are willing to go in on one but it’s so expensive that if I can do it without an attorney I would like that, would the judge wnat to hear about any of this at this custody violation hearing? Or should I open another case for that separately? I did mention to CPS when they asked me if I had any concerns about my kids being with her I didn’t really want to say too much because I was going to court anyway but I did tell them she smokes marijuana often and drinks very often. I know I should’ve just told them about her mental health problems right then and there but I was still kinda in shock they called me in the first place. Now most of this stuff is documented in texts and pictures, what would you do in this situation? Like what’s the best way of going about fighting her for full custody? This is in North Carolina btw.

I recently graduated grad school (clinical mental health counseling). My program is 3 years long. I got married in my first year. These last few months from December to the end of April were brutal. Working nonstop between classes, internship (I was behind), exams, etc. I would be working 8 hours if not more almost everyday (sometimes take a week day off). I’ve been graduated for a couple weeks now. I am working in a group practice so my work weeks are slow as I have maybe 3-5 clients.
I feel like im so disorganized, making so many mistakes in my personal life (EX: leaving all my garden seeds outside in the rain because I forgot them and they got bugs in them and ruined). I feel like im in a brain fog. Im studying for the NCE I take in a couple months starting today. I feel like im just in a fog. Im so tired. I’ve been sleeping what feels like a lot. Over the past year I’ve become a person who was waking up between 7:30-8:30 everyday. Sometimes would wake up at 6 when my husband goes to work and just stay awake. Now im sleeping until 10-11:30. Im exhausted.
Also to add I have ADHD.
During my really busy last semester I didn’t do any house work, my husband did it all. Now im back to doing that and I just feel so out of rhythm.
I told my therapist I think I feel so strange because we I’ve been in school for 20 years straight. I’ve learned how that world works, how to mask and fit in (though it was very hard). Now im like a fish out of water. But not completely though bc usually my summer semesters were slow just a couple causal classes.
I think my body and brain know im done with school and are just in a weird place.
Any tips? I feel so lazy. I just have been watching TV and playing videos games, sleeping, just chilling. The days im at work I try to work all day even when I don’t have clients. I have been trying to exercise and when I do I feel good, but it’s hard to start bc im exhausted.

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Another post, this one is a bit different though. I sat down today, thought about my relationship with food, my body, myself really throughout my life. Because after Week 2 of “all in” recovery, I slowly see my love-handles and belly creeping back up, scared me at first, or still does but see below.
As a kid, even teenager I loved sweets, I’d oftentimes eat a lot of sweets and absolutely loved Sundays because those were the days when my family made pancakes for breakfast, I’d easily eat 8 or so pancakes and it was bliss for me as a child. During high school I had a phase where Cinammon Toast Crunch and KitKats were my favourite thing in the world, I always loved going to dinner with friends and family, loved helping my mother cook and loved school bake sales. The thing is, I also enjoyed many other things, enjoyed exercise, enjoyed grabbing beers with friends until the early morning, enjoyed video games and enjoyed travel.
Less than a year ago, I decided I felt a bit out of shape for my standards and wanted to lose a couple pounds again. Little bit more running, cutting back on the snacks and a bit more healthy food.
It turned into an addiction, an addiction that ruined all of these aspects of my life. An addiction that took the things I loved and destroyed them. Now, when I think of these things, nothing but food comes to mind. Or at least it used to. “How many calories are in x?” “What could I eat to stay within my limits?” “What game would be best to play so I don’t think about food/hunger?” It’s controlled all these aspects of my life.
I had for a short while “achieved” my absolute dream body. The one I thought I’d never have. The one I was always so slightly jealous of, the kind of body that you can see plastered on social media, on magazine covers and in movies, the body that was deemed fit and healthy. I was proud and it kept me going, trying to maintain this body. I got compliments, god did I feel confident, taking my shirt off at the beach was finally something I was looking forward to.
I also had no sex drive, my ass hurt when I sat down because there wasn’t enough fat there, I slept terribly, I had to pee every 20-30 minutes because I was chugging a gallon of water before every meal to not feel hungry. I felt invalid, because I was already eating at “maintenance” at that point, felt like nothing could be wrong because I wasn’t underweight. Felt like the dead look of my face was just something that came with being leaner than I was used to. I looked up to fitness influencers, even upped my calories to above maintenance, which still felt like a prison. I went to sleep thinking of all the things I’d eat the next day, just to pace myself at breakfast to save calories for dinner. I barely recognised myself, it felt like a stranger was controlling this body, my mind felt like it wasn’t mine anymore. It consumed me, maintaining this physique became the most important aspect of my life, a reason to cancel dates, cancel vacations, a reason to “keep going”, whatever the fuck that means.
So, sitting here, scared shitless because of the “all in” and the rapid weight gain. I want to apologise to the chubby version of myself that I guess I will inevitably return to.
I am sorry you didn’t love yourself. I am sorry you didn’t feel attractive enough. I am sorry for starving you. I am sorry for pushing through injuries and going to sleep hungry. I am sorry for not accepting our faults. I am sorry for pushing you way past what you felt comfortable with. I am sorry for masking this hell I created for us as discipline. I am sorry you didn’t enjoy your birthday dinner, sorry you couldn’t enjoy moms cooking without worrying about calories, sorry you couldn’t enjoy our last vacation because you had to run 10 kilometres to be able to eat to fullness at dinner, sorry for making you order that dumbass salad instead of the steak the next day to make up for potentially overeating. I am sorry for all the memories you missed out on because you wouldn’t let yourself have a drink. I am sorry for ever letting it get this far.
I hope for both of us, that once we get out of this shit show and food becomes normal again, that we can love our body and enjoy life to the fullest. And who knows, maybe future you can cut down on the Reese’s a tiny bit, or not, your call.
To anyone else struggling, or as I often do, feeling invalid, especially those folks without a diagnosis, those folks who aren’t underweight, those whose stories may be different, I feel you all and you’re all just as valid as anyone else. We all deserve to be free from this nightmare and to enjoy life without much worrying at all. I hope you’re all doing as well as possible and much love to this community from my end. I’m sure I’ll be right back here with another post asking for reaffirmation or reassurance. But for now, I just hope you enjoyed the read, just something I had to let off my chest.