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Yesterday happened as usual, I came to a casino to get MAX up to 3 pints to get through withdrawals and kill couple of hours, because I was very tired at work because of the hangover and because it was weekend on which I drank through. Next thing you know I am in another bar (they are like 25 meters apart, but the second one has better vibe, but full of alcoholics (and I am one of them)). Scrolling through instagram, chatting, feeling sorry for myself, then feeling good about myself because its the last evening I drink right? Already 11pm they are closing and im into my 7th pint (I cant even get drunk till 6th anymore). Instead of getting ok with being bit drunk and went to sleep, I came back to casino got another two pints. Usually I loose my mind after that much pints, well become drunk me, yesterday I was fully aware of what I was doing. Then I met another young guy who had no money but also has drinking problems. I bought him a beer and we became "brothers/friends"... I didnt want to get that tenth pint, so I bought cigarettes, went home and smoked three in a row to get even more f'ed up. Its been like this the past 5 months for sure. and probably since 2023 july month. In that time I quit weed, harder drugs, but my alcohol intake and addiction for it just went through the roof. Now I dont even know why I go to the bar, why do I drink. I don't like these random people, being friends with them, cuz all we have in common is being alcoholics. I am really grateful for the life I have, I do have my own place, some relationships. And I know the longer I go with this streak the deeper the hole will get. I used to be fit, fresh skin, looking young for my age, now Im bloated, eyes swollen, always tired, can't stay still without wanting to puke. Anxiety is through the roof, I cant focus, my job performance is going down. And after all this, admiting this. I still choose booze. My main thing is physicall addiction, when I think that I am not drinking this evening and being in the bed without being f'ed up, my body aches, my stomach gets seizures.
Having a tough of what I have done to myself, the money I spent, the shape I am in now, and imagining the process of getting through withdrawals scares the f out of me. But If I managed to drink for the past year every day, It is my price for it. I've been having problems from alcohol ever since 16 years old. Lost girlfriends, fight with parents, family, lost jobs, lost driving license. But I was never full blown alcoholic, I did my responsibilites as much as I could, I've had some sober streaks. I was heavily into drugs too, which Im refusing now.
Usually im back to drinking on day fifth because of feeling depressed, anxious, sick, tired, panic. My mind tells me then "Why the F I am not drinking??? For what?" And then I go to have those 3 pints again and them I am usually back to making it even worse.
After yesterday, I know there will be no limits, no ending, no last 3 pints. I was waiting for that day zero for the past ten years. And this morning I realised that I can start it, not universe, not spirits, not faith. But ME. My awareness, my brain, my body. I hope I can comment this tomorrow with saying "Day zero / completed"

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Hello Normally I’d scour across the internet for recent reviews of different cruise ships and routes but sometimes fall short. I’d love to get into every fine detail about this recent trip from May 10-17 but I feel like I’d be endless.
Quick background about myself, I’m in my 20’s and this is the second cruise I’ve gone on with NCL. First one was with the Sun to Bahamas back in 2019 which was honestly one of the few vacations that I consider very memorable.
This particular cruise started in Boston, a day at sea, 3 days in Bermuda, another day at sea, 8 hours in Bar Harbor and finally back to the Boston port. Total of 7 days.
We arrived at the port around 12pm so the traffic wasn’t super bad but all I can say is people need to watch out or you won’t even make it onto the boat to begin with haha. Port workers were lovely and were dancing to get the mood going, even the cops were getting into it. Security was fast, same with check in. Coming onto the boat we were greeted with 2 employees who directed us to the atrium where 2 other employees showed us how to put on life jackets and took our info. Apparently we didn’t have to go to our muster station since she showed us how to put the life jackets on and where to go, made it even easier to just start the cruise without worrying about anything else which I didn’t know was possible.
We got 2 drinks but was not told about paying state tax on them, no issue since it was just $3. At this point it was 1:30pm and we decided to get to our floor with the idea our room was ready (I know please don’t make fun of me). It was a family inside stateroom for the 4 of us. Obviously it wasn’t ready but they allowed us to put our bags into the room. Rest of the day was just full of activities and a whole lot of drinking.
First day at sea was just more activities and getting to know our cruise activities director who was literally everywhere and very friendly, she definitely is in her element and loves what she does.
The 3 days in Bermuda were good. I wish there were more ferry’s that took you from the ship to St. George, especially later ones but you can always take taxis or mini buses. I’ve taken both and have the impression that they do not like each other at all however taking taxis were definitely cheaper. I read enough reviews about Bermuda to know how expensive it can get and while it is true, I’m fortunate enough to be financially comfortable where I can spend quite a bit each day I was there without having to worry about the cost of it. Looking over my receipts today definitely made my eyebrows go up because with on-island excursions, taxis, rentals, food and souvenirs all 3 days came out to over 1.5k+ but it was definitely worth it to me. Great island and surprisingly very safe. Met locals and went to not so popular areas to get away from the crowds and it was worth it as well. I did get a moped and while it was my first time riding, it was easier to simply just ride than to think about what if I fell haha.
Tons of activities on board during the 3 days.
Next day at sea was full of activities and shows, which were great.
Maine was our next stop and imo it was beautiful but not much to do. Tours booked up immediately and we simply walked, shopped, and ate at the local restaurants which were great. Jordans on Cottage St. was good, as well as Galyns on Main St..
Arrival to Boston was definitely the worst part of the cruise since it felt like there was no A/C onboard and organization was a nightmare.
Now… I have a few points to make.
Food was mediocre. Not bad but not good. Only the specialty restaurants were pretty decent.
Casino was full of degens haha. Jokes aside, I have never been in a small casino where more than half of the people were smoking cigarettes, made the place a bit unbearable at times.
The dance show followed by the crew appreciation speech was definitely one of the highlights of this trip. I’ve been to big shows in Las Vegas, New York, France, and others but this shows production blew it all out of the water, especially it being on a literal cruise. Beyond amazing and want me to be honest? Seeing the crew on stage who keeps the ship together everyone in my group a bit emotional. Seeing the people I’ve had conversations with throughout the trip and getting to know them as well makes the speech more touching. The crew definitely work well together and I love them.
The older folks (60+)were very and I mean very critical of the food and liquor. I’d hear complaining basically 24/7 from the older crowds but not so much of the younger ones. Honesty I saw more complaining how the sports Channel was playing boring sports and not the Bruin games against Florida haha. When it was played at the sports bar it was packed, basically every public tv screen all around the ship had at least 20 people around it. It was loud, lots of cussing, and the Boston accents were HEAVY. I loved it.
It was a good cruise and having 4 people in the small inside stateroom was cramped but did not get hot at all. I normally go for a balcony but this trip was with in-laws who needed assistance and we booked very last minute so balcony wasn’t an option.
All in all I give this trip a 8/10. Even though the buffet and other food was mediocre, the vibe was always there throughout the ship during the full 7 days.
I’d be more than happy to answer any other questions if ya’ll have any.

Hi, I know some of you have been interested in Joost’s written stuff, so this is one of them. It’s a short story that Joost wrote for Boekenweek voor Jongeren (Book Week for Young People) in 2019. There’s more info about it here (in Dutch) https://www.vice.com/nl/article/qvgzpv/joost-klein-schreef-een-kort-verhaal-over-een-wilde-nacht-in-berlijn and there was also this promo video for it https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wx7wxnpxps0. It's been translated from Dutch - maybe not the most perfect translation but it's readable. Original in Dutch here. Enjoy

"How come he suddenly has cash?" I looked at Gurb, but he avoided my gaze. Louis never had money and yet he was buying another round. Meanwhile, a Moby song was playing and nothing made sense. "If he has money for drinks, he can surely pay me back, right?"
Just a few hours ago, I was alone in Berlin. Now, ten hours later, I'm standing in some obscure techno club with my best friends. Loud rock music with drunken shouting. "Hey, Miss Murder, can I make beauty stay if I take my life?" I woke up that day with a mild hangover from the lonely yet people-filled night before. Perfect conditions for a 20-year-old dropout.
The Hard Rock Café was the most beautifully ugly place in Berlin. Gurb had driven for seven hours straight in his mother's car, but we didn't notice. An iconic black Mini Cooper. Your body leads your mind, the beat never stops, and you can conquer the world. Louis threw in another crazy dance move. We were happy.
"Do you want another drink, brother?" Gurb asked me, half shouting. An evening filled with rhetorical questions. He saw me dancing and already knew the answer.
Gurb always had money. Louis, on the other hand, never did. Louis was also the youngest of us three. He had just turned 18. I wouldn't call him a cunning fox. More like a jack-of-all-trades. Like the time he made a lot of money on a Wadden Island with a group of boys. They sold large blocks of hash.
"Crazy dude!" I shouted at him. He yelled something back.
"Do you remember back then?" Louis said.
"Back then? Back then? Yeah man, of course!" I had no idea what he meant. "Do you mean the party?"
"Do you mean the party, he says! This guy. When I look at you like this, it makes me happy. The exact same kid is here letting loose just like back in high school!"
We knew each other from secondary school. He joined when I was in the second grade. He was very intelligent. Too young, too much knowledge of the world. His mother is from Brazil. We often went to his mother's place to play on the Playstation Louis and I had bought together.
I lived everywhere at that time. In the crisis shelter where I stayed for a while, for example, I wasn't allowed to have a Playstation. So we set it up in an accessible place, near school. It was always fun with Louis. Going together to the Apple Store. Taking all kinds of photos with all the webcams, posting them on Hyves, and then leaving. Louis always knew how to cheer me up.
"Aaaaaaaaaa!" There was Gurb with five drinks in his hands. Gurb was wearing a blue checkered shirt. Two buttons undone. Hair slicked back. "You look good, brother!"
"You look fresh too! We all look fresh!" Gurb said enthusiastically. Louis was wearing a completely white outfit. We quickly bought this before going out. He also bleached his hair.
"You look like the Brazilian cousin of James Dean in these clothes," I said. Louis laughed. "Let me take a picture."
Suddenly, the DJ switched to some kind of techno. "Ah, here Berlin briefly takes off its mask." I was fine with it all. Louis was talking to a lady.
Voluptuous breasts, I thought to myself. He gave her one of his two drinks.
"He's with a girl and he's thinking with his dick," I said to Gurb. "Let him be, tonight Berlin is ours!"
The bass kept pounding. "I simply don't have the patience for the club," I said to Gurb. He looked surprised. Like a sweet dog, tilting his head. "I'm just waiting for tomorrow. Can't do my thing here. Don't have patience for the already known. I want adventure and I want it now!"
Gurb started laughing. "Patience is a virtue." Yes. Patience is all well and good, but I think it's a waste of my time. Gurb grabbed my shoulder.
"I think it's time for another beer."
Louis and I were walking through Leeuwarden a year ago when suddenly a red Ford Ka stopped in front of us. It was Gurb, casually driving around the city. He invited us into his car. We hopped in. Since that afternoon, the three of us were together. A few months later, Louis got a tattoo on his ribs in honor of our friendship. It was the name of our group chat. Braddar Force Indigo.
There were also days when Gurb would take me for a drive around Friesland. He reminded me how beautiful Friesland is. The world doesn't spin there. The newspapers I threw away in the Stiens forest in 2011 could still be lying in the same spot, so to speak.
Just before midnight, I found myself in line for the restroom. My eyes fell on a pair of striking shoes. Cigarette smoke invaded my nose for the fourth time. "Müssen Sie eine Zigarette haben?" a female voice spoke to me. I felt like Tom Hanks in the final scene of Angels & Demons, where the new pope first steps onto the balcony. The curtains opened. There I was, witnessing an important moment in history. I was just told how I was sent by God, but my ears didn't want to hear any of it. At least that's how I felt. My mouth was empty. I had no words left. That's when I knew for sure. Berlin might really be as crazy as literally everyone says.
Dark blond, silky hair. Was this real beauty then? She wouldn't look 40, but I think she was. A true woman. Beautiful in all her elegance. I always joked about being interested in older women, but tonight one stood in front of me. "I don't smoke," I said to her.
Someone tapped me. "Please, just go to the toilet!" He was right. I hadn't peed in a while either. My urine was cloudy. "Glomerulonephritis," I said to myself on the toilet. This is an unusual condition. It's an inflammation in the kidneys, I thought I remembered. They should never have given me access to Google.
The evening progressed, and Louis kept buying rounds. "But seriously now. How does Louis suddenly have all that money for drinks?" I asked Gurb. He was outside smoking with a group of Swiss girls. I had strategically positioned myself so that I could always leave the crime scene if necessary.
"You shouldn't ask me," said Gurb. He was laughing with the temporary girlfriend group of Louis. Gurb has a beard. A lot of chicks like that. I get it too.
As much as I enjoyed Louis and Gurb being here for me, something didn't sit right with me. It couldn't just be about the money. "What's up with him?" I heard one of the Swiss girls say to Gurb.
Those kinds of questions really tire me out. "Not much, with you?" I replied.
They all started laughing. "That's not what she meant, brother," said Gurb.
"I couldn't care less whether she meant it or not. Send that brace-face back to Switzerland. Don't drive me crazy, alright!"
Actually, I hadn't drunk that much that evening. "Two vodka Sprites, please!" It's rare for me to get just one drink. "I always get two drinks, then you have to wait shorter for the third one!" Maybe the alcohol was affecting me more than I wanted to admit. Oh well, it was still the three of us against the world.
"Nice shoes, are those Prada?" I asked a random girl at the bar.
"No, these are fake. Why would I buy real ones for 600 dollars if I could just buy these for 20?"
"..."
I'm not very good at that. Talking. To women.
Louis and Gurb were in the smoking area now. It was less blue than the dance floor itself. My clothes already stank, so a visit to the smoking area couldn't hurt. "These people are so underground!" Gurb shouted. Louis was filming him with his phone. "These people..." There was a brief pause. As if Gurb forgot the only line he had. "...so underground!" All three of us burst into laughter. The alcohol flowed through our veins as if it came from the purest mountains. People seemed doubled and the room was full. We had been in the same club in Berlin for several hours.
"Leonardo! What are you hiding from the big boss?" I sometimes called Louis ‘DiCaprio.’ "You a rich guy, now?" I said, with an accent as if I were from the Bronx.
Louis started laughing. "Eh, you know nothing. Bullshit talk."
I had to laugh too. What was I even worried about? Friends are friends, with or without money. That shouldn't matter. Louis probably just worked for that money. Maybe it wasn't as bad as I thought. Maybe he just had enough to buy rounds. But what if my gut feeling was right? That feeling was never wrong. Except for that one time at the Holland Casino in Groningen. Even the best of us have slip-ups. I was just getting worked up again. When it comes down to it, Louis is one of the sweetest guys I know. I had to let it go. After all, it's still Louis.
"I think I'm going to have sex soon, man," Louis said.
"With who?" I asked immediately.
"That one girl."
"Which one?"
"The one with the boobs."
"Oh, her. Just be careful."
"What kind of reaction is that?" Louis asked indignantly.
I'd only had four drinks, but I was acting like a mess. Louis was right. I didn't understand myself. Where was my head at? I'm here in Berlin, supposed to be having the time of my life, but here I am feeling lonely and sad again. Joost once again couldn't control his emotions.
"Sorry," I suddenly said to Louis. "Sorry for my behavior. Been acting dumb towards you all night. It's unnecessary." Sometimes I have that. Mood swings. "Know that crime is never the solution. We've talked about this so many times. Yes, it's tempting and sometimes easy money. I sometimes find it amusing too, but it's always hypothetical. Ask me for help. I can help you, even with illegal things. I'll always have your back." The dancing was kind of over.
The words I had just placed on Louis's plate came from my heart. My Frisian, irregular boys' heart.
Crying in the club. I had never seen myself like that. Crying, yes. In the club, no. I never understood the taboo around crying. Or emotions in general. I saw myself in the mirror. They weren't tears of joy. They weren't tears of sadness either. It was me letting everything go. All the emotions I had ever felt. The emotions I felt between my brother and sister and myself because they wanted to take on a parental role over me, but I was in puberty, so I pushed them away. The emotions I felt when my old neighbors were supposed to take care of my dog, but didn't tell me that he was bitten by one of their dogs. They didn't have money for the surgery, they later told me. They were ashamed of their lack of money. My dog died from this injury. Even the emotions that were all jumping at once during the retake for my swimming diploma A, I let go of.
No emotions. Just for a moment, not feeling anything. Is that too much to ask for?
"You still don’t smoke?"
It had to be the voice of the woman with the cigarettes. I looked over my shoulder through the mirror. It was her. The one with dark blond, silky hair.
"Not to be rude, but this is the men’s room," I said. She took a step closer and kissed me on my lips. It tasted like more. We started kissing. It had been a while since I had had female contact at this level. It probably didn't look good and it didn't feel good either. She started kissing my neck. Slowly, I noticed the pressure in the erectile tissues of my penis starting to increase. "I really don't have time for this!" I thought to myself. The woman with the cigarettes started to slowly sink down until she was on her knees. I didn't want this. Not now, not like this. She unraveled my penis from my Polo Ralph Lauren underwear. Her tongue was blue. It was probably from cheap shots of alcohol.
Was this real beauty then? Was this the beginning or the end of her story? And had I become the boy my parents hoped I would be? I thought about the fact that this was once someone's little daughter. Somewhere in the world, an old man might be wondering what his daughter is doing. Am I really putting pleasure above my own morals and values?
With my semi-erect circumcised penis still exposed, I lifted her up. After giving her a kiss on her forehead, I pulled up my pants and left the toilets.
It was the usual last hour in any club ever. I met Louis and Gurb at the bar. "Should we have another drink?" I asked Gurb. "I feel like having a cocktail. Something sweet. Lots of sugar. What about you?"
Gurb looked at the menu. "A cognac would go down well right now."
"A cognac? You're only nineteen!" Gurb and Louis laughed. "Two Tequila Sunrises please!" I called to the bartender. "Also, two beers! Thanks!" I also got a beer for Louis. At first, I didn't want to, but I didn't want to spoil the mood either. Besides, I didn't want to show too much that it bothered me so much.
We danced away the last minutes. The club closed, and we decided to walk with the group of Swiss girls. Apparently, they were staying nearby.
As I lagged behind the group, one of them tried to start a conversation with me. "Are you okay?" she asked kindly.
"I'm fine. Just had too much beer. Makes me sleepy." Not true at all, but I've heard people say that.
"You’re tired? The fun has only just began!" And as she said this, she pulled something out of her inner pocket. Her clenched fist, shielded by a half jacket. Who is this girl, anyway? I thought to myself. She opened her hand flat, and right in the center of her palm lay two small pills with a smiley face on them. At least, they looked like it.
"Oh, I don’t do drugs. Sorry."
"Me neither!" And she swallowed a pill. "Now it’s your turn... Or are you scared?"
Scared? Who did this crazy Swiss witch (with really beautiful eyes) think she was. With her "are you scared". I'll show her who's scared.
"Scared? I’m not scared." I picked up the remaining pill and swallowed it.
Everything went in slow motion. Was this who I had become? Was this the same boy from high school? And just before I could swallow, I spat out the pill. She was shocked. I picked up the pill again, dried it with my jacket, and put it back in her fist. "Maybe later!" I shouted, running back to the group, over my shoulder.
I have nothing to say to 9 out of 10 peers I come across. Of course, I can be social. I can also have fun with random people in random situations, but that night, it just tired me out. I also didn't understand what we were doing there. Those girls found me strange anyway. Suddenly, I was the fifth wheel.
"We know this place where they go until 7 in the morning!" The girl leader of the group spoke. I wanted to go home. "If you guys want, you can go. Don't worry about me," I said to Gurb and Louis. The boys had a brief discussion. We agreed to stay for just a little while longer for some drinks. I consented. I was thirsty. "I'll have a Fanta, Louis."
Gurb had reached the last cigarette in his pack. Louis and a girl from the group were nowhere to be found. It didn't even bother me. This guy just walks around with some cash in his pocket and all hell breaks loose. After a night full of stimuli, I understood Louis. Of course, I understood Louis. He's a young god. Handsome, smart guy. But that didn't make me any less angry. It was purely about trust for me. Something inside me said I should stop subconsciously expecting things from people too. It prevents disappointment.
"Hotel please!" I jokingly suggested to Gurb. "Should you call Louis or should I?" I added. Gurb immediately grabbed his Android smartphone and called Louis. He put the call on speaker.
"Are you ready?" Gurb asked.
"Yeah. Sort of."
"What do you mean?"
"We didn't have sex."
"That's fine, right? Tomorrow's a new day!"
"I think I'm in love, man," Louis said.
"...," Gurb said, chuckling as he let out a sigh.
Once we arrived at the girls' hostel, it was already getting light. Louis was thankfully back. There were stains on his pants, around his knees. My focus was solely on arranging a taxi. Although the boys were still flirting, I was really done now. "How are we going to pay for this taxi?" I said a bit too loudly.
There was a silence. "Don't worry. I still have cash," Gurb said.
"Yeah, I knew you would," I replied.
My words clearly hit Louis. "What do you mean by that?" he said.
It was as if time stood still for a few seconds. "Exactly what I said. Better listen." Louis pulled out a small wad of green bills from his pocket. At least 400 euros. "I don't even want to see that money," I reacted. I walked away.
I'll just order a taxi myself.
"Why are you walking away now?" Gurb said.
"Twelve hours ago, I was alone too, and I had a lot more fun then."
"Do you really want to know how I got this money?" Louis said.
Yes, I did want to know. My whole evening revolved around that damn money.
He took a second of pause before he began speaking. "The answer lies in the Mini."
What on earth could be in Gurb's mother's car? Louis was trying to get into my head. "Taxi!"
Once in the taxi, the division was clear. Gurb was upfront, chatting animatedly with the driver. All adventures ever were recounted. Louis and I in the back. One of my best friends since I was thirteen. Funny how things turn out. It was quiet between us. I was in my head, rehearsing how I would bring up the money again. It didn't add up, and he knew it himself. "I don't care, you know," I said, hoping he'd break.
"What don't you care about?"
"About that money."
"What money? You're really a crazy woozy man." Louis burst out laughing again.
On the other hand, it was silent. Gurb had started talking about the driver's family. The driver didn't appreciate it. Gurb meant well. The driver smelled of alcohol. Or was it me? His nails were polished. Maybe his wife was a specialist. I bite my nails myself. Like now.
"In the Mini, oh yeah."
"Shut up. Illegal man."
"You'll never know."
"Stop playing. Just say it!"
Louis grabbed my head, pulled himself towards me, and brought his mouth to my right ear. "Why so serious?" he whispered. He didn't want to tell me.
"But always with this damn money, huh?" I almost shouted at Louis. I broke every silence within a radius of 10 kilometers.
"I'm trying my best, bro. It is what it is. I can't make it any different," he replied. It was clearly bothering him deeply. He ran his hands through his hair. "Sometimes people have to do things. And you know that better than anyone. Sometimes they have to do things they don't really want to or aren't supposed to do."
I knew this spiel all too well. Through all the drunken haziness, I suddenly saw a small glimmer of light. A tiny spark of sincerity. Louis was serious this time.
"I'm sorry. I didn't want to involve you in this. I'm sorry," sweat dripped from his forehead.
"You're serious, huh? Damn, man. What mess have you gotten yourself into now? Worse than Terschelling?" Worse than Terschelling would mean stolen goods. Maybe even violence.
"It's not what you think."
"The Adlon Hotel, right?" the driver chimed in. Always saved by the bell, that Louis.
Suddenly I hit my head against the seat in front of me. Of course, I wasn't wearing my seatbelt. The last thing I saw was Gurb waking up in panic from his drunken stupor. One by one, I started losing my senses. It started with the feeling in my fingers. For a brief moment, everything wasn't quite black, and I could only see a vague pattern of colors repeating inside my eyelids. You could compare it to the brief moment after the commercial break before the movie starts in the cinema. The movie was about to begin.
I knew I wasn't dying. At least not yet. Not like this. Not after an overall mediocre night out in Berlin. I found comfort in the image I forced myself to see. It was all in my head. There I was, unconscious.
I saw myself in a third-person point of view. It wasn't like I was actually leaving my body. More like there was a webcam hanging in one of the upper corners of the taxi.
As a child, I used to dream a lot about death. Nights spent awake.
At some point, I developed a kind of compulsive behavior. I kept swaying my torso from left to right with my hands under my head. It became almost like a workout before bedtime. Every night.
I called it dream shuffling. Just like I had learned to shuffle puzzle pieces or playing cards. Making things a little exciting for yourself. But what I almost never told anyone was that I was scared. I was afraid of burglars, who were very agile and muscular.
Especially afraid that they would murder me. I really wanted to know what death was like. It scared me.
These fear visions originated during an all-inclusive vacation in Turkey. I was 6 years old and already in bed. There was a big old TV in our hotel room, so I could secretly watch TV from bed. Every evening, my parents sat on the balcony. Here they discussed their day while enjoying a glass of alcohol. There was a Japanese animated series on TV. In the few seconds that I watched, I saw a scary creature climbing a sort of apartment complex via the balconies. The creature had hundreds of teeth and blond hair. It quickly entered to decapitate the people, then drained them and, as a final insult, robbed them. Dozens of carcasses of dead people were scattered around the apartment complex. The complex on TV resembled the resort where we were in reality, and the TV world merged with my surroundings. I became part of it. I saw people watching. No matter how loudly I screamed for help, they didn't react. The sun became very bright, and the people turned into nothing more than shadows. As the intensity of the sun increased, something became clear to me. These were not people. They had a sort of orange skin. Where I had previously thought it was their nose and mouth, it turned out that these shadowy figures did not have such physical features. They simply had three holes in their heads. The police tried to do something, but in vain. Since then, we always kept the light on in the hallway outside my bedroom. By rocking back and forth, from left to right, I could glance fleetingly at the beam of light under the door. That bit of light, escaping from the hallway into my room, gave me an advantage. It allowed me to stay one step ahead of the burglars. Pretty smart, right?
"From Jamaica to the world!
It’s just love. Why must the children play in the street?"
It was Bob Sinclar with "Love Generation" speaking to us through the taxi's speakers. We were stationary. I was conscious again, but I didn't feel alive at all. "How long was I out?" I asked Louis.
I could tell by his expression that he was relieved. Relieved that I was back. "One minute," he almost apologized. Louis gave me a pat on the shoulder. Gurb, on the other hand, was sleeping. He slept like a baby cub.
I put my right index finger on my forehead. It felt wet, but it wasn't blood. Blood feels different. Meanwhile, I kept hearing whistling.
"Be the love generation! Oh yeah!" It was still that same song by Bob Sinclar.
The earlier scent of alcohol had now been replaced by the smell of incense. It smelled like the same incense I had in my room. Sold to me as Tibetan 39 incense. I had bought it at a coffee shop in Rotterdam. I pulled up my notes on my phone. "Who lights incense in a CAR????" I let Louis read from my screen. He took the phone from my hands and started typing as well.
"Look at Gurb >>>" Gurb was so deeply asleep that his head drooped. His seatbelt held his torso in place, but his head ended up on the driver's shoulder. The man didn't mind. He didn't move. I made eye contact with the driver through the rearview mirror, and soon I found him. He winked at me.
We arrived at the hotel. Gurb awakened from his alcoholic hibernation. "Who's going to pay for the taxi?" I asked. Clearly rhetorical. I already knew I would take this one for the team, as usual. I refused to use Louis's money. It was uncomfortably quiet. "By card please," I said.
"I'll always protect you, Louis. You really need to know that. I care about you like my own little brother. I'll always try to help you. But you have to be honest with me. Can you do that?" Louis didn't hesitate.
"Yes. Yes, I can. I'll show you. It's really in the Mini." Meanwhile, the taxi driver's card machine indicated that I had insufficient funds. That couldn't be right. Maybe I had withdrawn too much that evening.
"I have cash in the hotel room," Gurb said to me. Gurb informed the driver in broken English that he would go get his cash. The driver agreed. Money is money, whether it comes now or later. As long as it feels good in your hands.
Louis and I got out of the taxi. "You're not going to light a cigarette now, are you?" Louis wanted to smoke. "Especially for stress. That's really for people who can't handle pain. You need to feel pain. Pain needs to brand you for the rest of your life so you finally learn not to do such stupid things." It fell silent again. My blood boiled. All pots were on the stove. I felt like Gordon Ramsay in the kitchen. "Show me then. Do it."
Louis remained silent and walked around the corner of the hotel. Towards the parking lot. I followed him. "You're not going to find much," said Louis.
"Why not? Are you a magician?"
"No. Just. Not much."
"So there's suddenly magically nothing in Gurb's car?"
"Stop. Get out. Get out of my head!" Louis shouted. Louis had had enough. He was done with the parade. Normally we dealt with hypothetical stories. Only this time it wasn't a joke. I was sure now. Louis had dropped his mask. The revolution had begun. The government had fallen and the dikes had broken. The people were in charge. "You shouldn't freak out like this. Always wanting more. Sweet boy, think about yourself."
After Gurb gave the money to the driver, he came to us. He had a smile on his face, lit a cigarette, and exclaimed, "Brothers!" Once with us, he hugged me. He started laughing. "Maybe I haven't been entirely honest either." Sometimes Gurb seemed like a 38-year-old man. In a positive way. He exuded confidence in a way I didn't often see. Affectionate, with a hint of authority.
We stood in the middle of a large parking lot. "Look. We've reached a point where I might not even care anymore. You guys are teasing me." It did matter to me. Maybe more than ever. I was supposed to be two steps ahead of them, but I couldn't figure it out. "I give up."
The delightful silence returned. Louis and Gurb looked at each other. "You guys win. Apparently, I'm not to be trusted as a friend."
From Louis's expression, I could tell he disagreed with this. "Not true. Come to the car."
We arrived at the car. Louis unlocked it and searched for the trunk button. Gurb had started his third cigarette. "It's a corpse, isn't it? Say it now. I can still help you. I can still help us. I can book a ticket for you. We can get you out of here," I said to Louis.
"Just wait. Nutcase."
"Why won't you accept my help?"
Louis started laughing nervously. Or at least it seemed that way. Perhaps a sly laugh too. Had Louis killed someone? "It's not a corpse. That can't be. You wouldn't be stupid enough to use their ID. You're smarter than that. So it must be something stolen. Haven't you found that button yet?"
Suddenly, we heard a click. Louis had found the button. Somewhere, I didn't want to know. Shouldn't I just trust Louis? Wasn't that the whole point of friendship?
Finally, the moment had arrived. I placed my right hand in the slot of the rear hatch. Something in me doubted. Still. I still doubted. Louis looked dead serious. "You wanted to know, didn't you? Then you also have to be man enough to accept it." Louis was clearly not joking. Or was he acting again? "Pussy," Louis said. I looked away. "You're afraid of what's inside, huh? You're afraid of the real Louis." He began to laugh manically. "Open that thing, man. Nutcase!"
I started laughing too. Why did I make such a big deal out of it? Sweat broke out from every pore in my body. It was even a bit damp in the no man's land between my scrotum and my anus. A tropical climate. It had been quite an adventure the whole evening. I took my hand off the rear hatch and first gave Louis a hug. Not some half-hearted birthday wish. No, a real hug.
"It's okay, buddy," Louis said to me. I had no idea what he meant by that. It fit the moment though.
It was really time now. I opened the rear hatch.
"Where is it?"
"In front of you," said Louis.
"In some secret compartment?"
There was nothing in the trunk. Absolutely nothing. An empty trunk. For an empty evening, in an empty Berlin, with an empty group of guys. I didn't get it.
"You won, man," I whispered. "You finally fucking done did it."
I couldn't believe my eyes. Empty? There was still nothing in the car. Louis just stood there. Emotionally, I was a wreck. I had felt every emotion this evening. Seen every color and smelled every scent. I was done. My body was ready. No longer needed. My mission was complete.
"But why did you do this?" I asked Louis, laughing.
He scratched his chin. It felt like the end of a bad movie.
"I sold our Playstation. Wanted to tell you only after I had sorted everything out again. I terminated my lease. Had some debts, and I also wanted to have some money for once. Once not empty-handed in the club. Once not dependent on my best friends. This is not who I am... I know how much that Playstation meant to you. It was ours together. I should have just told you."
"… and how does Gurb actually make his money?"

Not a super frequent Modder so I'm sort of average understanding, I've looked up everywhere and so far have only found one way someone tried to fix it and that was to remove the mods that apply to perks in any way, I've tried that add it hasn't worked, I've looked at stewietweaks stuff in the in game tweaks menu to see if it messes with the skills and it hasn't done anything, in the game i don't get stuck on the menus when i have to level up or anything it just says to go next. i will add an unlisted video and also add my mods load order and my plugins if that matters and for reference i use vortex i know its "bad"
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Cigarettes and rebellion have always gone hand-in-hand, and in an age of cigarette packet-sized health warnings, now more than ever, smoking a fag says: 'I do not give a fuck.' But if Brandon Flowers is hoping to strike a seditious pose by sparking up at the start of the interview, it's not going according to plan. The Killers' frontman is on all fours rooting through the junk that carpets the anteroom at the band's rehearsal space. "Has anyone seen my lighter?" he asks, rocking back on his heels. The question hangs in the air while Brandon cocks his head, waiting for an answer like a meerkat listening for a predator. Twenty-five years old and with a delicate bone structure, there's something almost dainty about him. Receiving no response, he returns to his search. "Oh, Jeez," he sighs. "I had it just a minute ago."
It's a scene that emphatically does not suggest a rebel without a cause. The mess isn't helping. The Killers' HQ - an industrial unit sandwiched between a construction supplier and the offices of a housing development just off Dean Martin Drive in West Las Vegas - is ankle-deep in designer clothing. A Dior Homme suit lies crumpled by the door; there's a pile of shoes topped like a sundae by a pair of Marc Jacobs trainers; and anyone wishing to enter the shoebox room the band use as an office must negotiate a mountain of discarded jeans. Many items are identifiable as coming from the wardrobe of Hot Fuss, The Killers' hugely successful 2004 debut album - triple platinum in the UK with two weeks at Number One and five million sold worldwide. Look! There are the shirts, ties and suit jackets they wore when they thrilled Glastonbury 2005 with indie rock anthems Mr Brightside and Somebody Told Me. That was the crowning moment of a two-and-a-half year tour that finally concluded in October of last year. It seems that after playing that final date in Miami, they returned to Vegas and shrugged off their image onto the floor of this bland white box.
Now a fine layer of dust covers the dead clothes. The Killers have no further use for white tuxedos on their second album, Sam's Town. Today, Brandon wears a black polo shirt, black pin-stripe waistcoat, black jeans and black boots. Where there used to be a layer of foundation, there is now a beard - an untrimmed beard at that. Dave Keuning (30, guitar), Mark Stoermer (29, bass) and Ronnie Vannucci (29, drums) all echo Brandon's black ensemble. Ronnie has added Aviator shades and a handlebar moustache for a dash of motorcycle cop, Dave's frizzy bubble of hair gives him a Marc Bolan-ish air, and there's something very teenage about Mark's scuffed Vans.
Short of walking around wearing sandwich boards saying, "Our new record is a bit heavier than the last one," The Killers couldn't hope to communicate that message more effectively. And they have gained some musical girth on Sam's Town. The pop hooks that made Hot Fuss so irresistible survive intact - see the ringing guitar riffs on first single When You Were Young - but there's a newfound punchiness, coupled with an epic sweep. The minor-to-major uplifts on Bones are fabulously dramatic, the coda to Why Do I Keep Counting? thrillingly intense. Comparisons to Bruce Springsteen have been made. If they overstate the case a little, they are at leaset qualitatively accurate. The Killers are back and this time it's serious - they've got the bootlace ties to prove it.
"Hey, it says here that Springsteen's headlining Glastonbury next year," shouts Ronnie, who's flicking through the NME. He nods sagely at the page without looking up.
"Really?" asks Dave, nicknamed Crazy Dave on account of his alledgedly volatile nature.
"The Boss is headlining one night, we're playing second on the bill the next night and Kylie's headlining the Sunday," says Brandon, charging like a bull through Michael Eavis' as-yet-unannounced line-up with what subsequently proves to be a characteristic gaucheness.
But that lighter is proving elusive. This being America, none of the people hurrying to-and-fro prepping the world for the release of Sam's Town smokes. Manager Robert Reynolds - Bobby Rey to the band - barks into his mobile, booking his band onto eye-wateringly demanding tours. "We're going to make a lot of money," he cackles to himself before switching calls to make a series of stern pronouncements on legal matters. Dave, Mark and Ronnie disappear for a jam session. Artwork is approved, B-sides are decided on and schedules are hammered out.
"I can't find it," Brandon says, finally. But he's not going to be denied the opportunity to underline The Killers reinvention with a puff of smoke. "Let's go to the gas station. I'll have to buy one. It's too busy to talk here anyway."
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Brandon's black (of course) Volkswagen Touraeg four-wheel drive is barrelling down West Flamingo Road into town. "I was a bell boy there," he says, pointing out of the driver's window at the stucco facade of the Gold Coast casino. "I was working there when we were signed."
Coming from Las Vegas, it is perhaps inevitable that casinos play a big part in The Killers' story; not only is Sam's Town named after one, it was recorded in one, too.
The band began writing songs while on the road with Hot Fuss, turning up early for soundchecks to run through new ideas. On a trip home to Vegas, George Maloof, a hotelier known for cultivating famous friends, invited them to record the album in the new studio he'd built at The Palms, his flagship hotel-cum-gambling den. When the tour finished in October 2005, they returned to Vegas and spent five month finessing the songs they'd sketched out on the road. Then, in February, they decampled to the third floor studio at The Palms and recorded Sam's Town over 11 weeks.
Producer Flood (U2, Depeche Mode) encouraged them to experiment. They overdubbed, fiddled with synthesizers and played with new equipment. It took them five weeks to get the backing vocals right. The band sang the harmonies, then double-tracked them four times. The end result recalls Queen wondering, "Is this is the real life? Is this just fantasy?" When Ronnie, a trained classical percussionist, brought some kettledrums down, eyebrows were raised; but the fabulously bombastic coda on Why Do I Keep Counting? vindicates his indulgence.
"That's kind of the Ben Hur of the album," he says. He's not wrong. Sam's Town is a record on an epic scale. "Yeah, it has drama," he continues. "But, at the same time, I think it's a little more exposed than Hot Fuss. It's a little more naked. Last time it was about a lot of fictional things." By "fictional", Ronnie means that Hot Fuss wore its predominantly British influences for all to see. Brandon's taste in music is rabidly Anglophile - he constantly references The Smiths, The Cure and Joy Division - and it showed. By contrast, Sam's Town is an unequivocally American record. The lyrical imagery is pure American dream - cars, girls, wide-open spaces and escaping to a better life. "We're burning down the highway skyline/On the back of a hurricane that started turning/When you were young," sings Brandon on When You Were Young. That's the basis of the Springsteen comparisons then, though the lack of pathos more closely recalls another blue-collar rocker from New Jersey - Jon Bon Jovi.
The phrase "this town" recurs throughout the album, and it's always receding into the distance as The Killers escape to a new life. "This town was made for passing through/I never did get along with everybody else," sings Brandon on This River Is Wild. On Read My Mind he "never really gave up on breaking out of this two-star town", while on the title track he offers something of an explanation: "Nobody ever had a dream round here."
"With the first record, there was this feeling that there was this world out there that we didn't know," says Mark later in the day. Before The Killers, he studied philosophy: now he's their quiet one. "We wanted to get out and away from this and be somewhere else. We hadn't had a lot of experience - hadn't travelled much - then we were gone for three years. We didn't sit down and say that we wanted to make a record about how we're glad to be home, but that's what happened naturally."
It's not an angsty record. The Killers have already escaped with Hot Fuss, and, having done so, they view the experience fondly now they're back. There's a mistiness to Brandon's eyes as he explains how the album got it's name.
"Sam's Town is a casino on the edge of Vegas," he says. "I grew up in Henderson, which is out on the way to the Hoover Dam. My mom and dad lived in a trailer park, and my dad used to hitchhike up and down Boulder Highway, which is the only way you could get to Vegas. Sam's Town was the first thing you saw on your way in to town. So, when you're driving down Boulder Highway from Henderson, I always thought you finally knew you were getting somewhere when you saw Sam's Town. It was kind of like a beacon."
"It's not a completely American album," contines Brandon. "We still have our English influence, but we're also from the Wild West. Somehow we've managed to unify all that on this album. it's just such a perfect resemblence of what we are."
At the petrol station, Brandon rummages through the glove box looking for change to buy a lighter. "This is a great album," he says, pointing at Highway Companion, the latest from iconic American rocker Tom Petty. "I've always been a big fan of his. He's such a great American artist."
Yes, Brandon: we get the point.
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When Brandon finally lights his cigarette, he smokes it awkwardly, like a child mimicking something he's seen the grown-ups doing. However, when he cheerfully admits that, "I feel the same mentally as I did when I was 12," it's not a knowing nod to the fact that he sometimes behaves like a loveably precocious child, but a reference to an unusually comprehensive grounding in pop music at an early age.
When Brandon sings about "this town", he doesn't mean Las Vegas. He means Nephi, Utah or Henderson, Nevada, where he spent his childhood. His parents are Mormon and he is the youngest of six children. "I was a surprise," he says. "I've got a 42-year-old sister." If he was issues about his "surprise" status, he chooses to gloss over them. "It turned out perfect because my brother was a teenager when I was a kid," he says. "He would bring home things like Rattle And Hum by U2 and I would watch it. I remember he bought Live In Dallas by Morrissey. It was always him watching these things, or his door was shut and you'd hear The Head On The Door by The Cure blasting through the house and rattling the walls."
The Killers were formed when Brandon answered an advert Dave had placed in a local paper in late 2002. Dave cited Oasis as a big influence; Brandon had seen them play recently and responded; and, as Dave has said in previous interviews: "He was the only person to reply to my ad who wasn't a complete freak." However, the band was born in Brandon's brothers bedroom.
"His room was like a shrine," enthuses Brandon. "It was a holy place. I wish I could show you a picture of it. It was covered in posters. There'd be a big picture of Elvis wearing a bow tie that just said 'The Smiths' [the artwork for The Smiths 1987 single Shoplifters Of The World Unite]. You had The Cure wearing face paint [the artwork to The Cure's 1985 single In Between Days] - all that kind of stuff. I remember Morrissey being on the cover of the NME, with the halo [from 1985] - stuff like that. You just wanted to know about these people 'cause they were so cool. My brother seemed like such a cool person. But he was a teenager, so he wasn't going to be that nice to me, a kid."
Brandon was fascinated by his brother's collection of music, magazines and posters, but he was denied access to them - officially, at least. "I would sneak in," he says. "I knew he'd be angry if he found out, but I would go in as soon as he left the house." For a long time Brandon was too scared to actually play anything. "That didn't come 'til later. I just used to go in there because I liked it. Then I got to the point where I'd actually take a tape out and put it in. It took more guts to do that."
It was a life-changing moment. "I was ten and the first song I played was Sing Your Life by Morrissey. I remember dancing about to it."
The lyrics to Sing Your Life include the lines, "Sing your life/Just walk right up to the microphone/And name all the things that you love/All the things that you loathe." It's intriguing to wonder what Morrissey makes of the neophyte he inspired with these lines.
Eventually, Brandon inherited his brother's tape collection. "It was around the same time CDs started coming out in a big way. He started buying CDs and gave me his tapes. And that was it: it took off from there. I got a hundred of the best albums - all the New Order, all the Morrissey, all The Smiths, The Beatles. I started buying posters. I went to see The Cure in concert. It was just kind of a continuation of my brother. And it was nice because, though my parents were strict, they were already used to it from him. There was no, 'My dad doesn't understand me,' or any of that kind of stuff. My mum likes The Smiths."
Brandon was 13 and his favourite band was late-'70s/early-'80s American new wavers The Cars, and particularly their jaw-droppingly catchy 1979 single Just What I Needed.
"I wouldn't exist without that song," he says. "That was the one. I remember driving around with my mum when I was 13, and we're living in Nephi - a really small town - and I felt so cool when I put that song on. Like: 'I have something that none of these kids I'm going to middle school with tomorrow have.' That excitement is what music's about, isn't it? That's why I understand the mentality of people that don't like us because we've sold so many records. I used to like it when no one else knew about a band. So I get that - I do."
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Brandon's first band was called Blush Response. It was never going to work out. Not because he refused to move to Los Angeles with them, but because he is utterly - comically - shameless. He's given to making outrageously boastful statements like: "It's not like the '60s, '70s and '80s now. There are only a few bands around that are really good, that just do it. I mean, there's what, five or six of us?"
For the record, in Brandon's estimation, those bands are Franz Ferdinand, Razorlight, The Strokes, The White Stripes, Yeah Yeah Yeahs and, of course, The Killers.
"I don't want people to think I'm lumping myself with other people just to make us sound cool," he says. Really? It sort of sounds like you are. But he just steamrolls through it. "Yeah, but you know what I mean," he says, grinning at his own cheekiness. He's so disgracefully forward you can't help but laugh along with him - Oh you are awful, Brandon! But joking aside, The Killers are the most commercially successful of all the bands he mentions.
Later, back at the rehearsal space, the band run through Sam's Town at deafening volume in preparation for the forthcoming tour - first the US, then the world. The infectious, almost contagious, chorus of When You Were Young sounds fabulous, as do the U2-like guitars and Twin Peaks synths of Read My Mind. Meanwhile, Smile Like You Mean It and Somebody Told Me benefit from the newfound harder edge.
They somewhat heavy-handedly underline the new direction by playing Paranoid by Black Sabbath and Get It On by T Rex. That's the thing: The Killers are not a subtle band. Their songs are like a wet kiss from a girl who's a bit too drunk. They are big and brash, and not everyone loves them for it. Mr Brightside and Somebody Told Me might go down as well at hip nightclubs as they do on the festival circuit, but the DJs play them with the same guilty look they wear when playing a pop record.
"I hate that," says Brandon. "Like writing a song you can hum somehow cheapens it? It makes me think of this quote by Morrissey. Everybody knows how he read Oscar Wilde, Keats and Yates when he was growing up and that he wanted to be a writer. He was talking to this journalist who asked why he hadn't become a writer, and Morrissey said: 'What I do is more powerful than what you do because I can write down these words and you get it to a melody. How can you beat that?' I'm of the same opinion. I don't understand why a good melody that's memorable is a bad thing."
Being dismissed as pop particular aggrieves Ronnie. "When we first came out we got compared to Duran Duran all the time. Jesus Christ! We got a keyboard player now all of a sudden he's Nick Rhodes! Come on!"
"The people who criticise us for being too poppy don't get it," agrees Mark. "I think that's the problem with a lot of rock music. People are afraid to write a song any more. Either that or they can't. And that attitude hurts music in general. The best bands ever have all written great songs. You can still do it and do it intelligently and it can be original. This isn't a studio creation with a producer writing these songs for us. We're not Avril Lavigne, or something like that. We're a real band writing real songs, just like a punk band would do, except that we write pop songs."
You get the impression that The Killers knack for showboating pop hooks that border on vulgar is inextricably tied up with the brazen side of Brandon's personality. But while his ebullient charisma, not to mention the songs themselves, mitigates his outrageousness, there is a less attractive side to his ego. He has a combative streak. He can't resist taking pot shots at emo bands, notably Fall Out Boy, whith whom The Killers share an A&R man.
Has he heard how many emo kids it takes to change a light bulb? "No." None. They just sit in the dark and cry. It's a full 30 seconds before he stops laughing. When he does he admits: "Yeah, we've had problems with other bands. You know, when you walk in the room it's like..." He whistles the theme to The Good, The Bad And The Ugly. "We're like gangs."
And while the other members of the band are diplomatic on the subject of Brandon, you don't have to read too deeply between the lines to conclude that there have been internal issues, too.
"Some people will think Brandon's the big genius," says Dave, visibly bridling. "There are songs, such as Why Do I Keep Counting?, where he's written every note. But there are others, like When You Were Young, that were more of a collaboration - like Mr Brightside, where I had some of the music and Brandon came up with the lyrics. We always have arguments about who wrote what. The truth is that we all help in that process."
When asked how success affected them, Ronnie says: "There were certain things that needed adjusting. When you're on tour for two years, people can get a little needy. It doesn't help that you're surrounded by yes men and everybody's working for you. At times we've had to say, 'Who do you think you are?' to people. No one wears the trousers, but some people would like to. I think if it wasn't for the people in the band kicking each other in the ass... Let's just say there was some ass-kickin'."
It doesn't take a genius to work out whose ass needed kicking most often.
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It's the following day and The Killers are back at their rehearsal space. The topic of discussion is what to wear in the video for Bones, the second single. It's a big deal: the director is Tim Burton. "I feel like Frank Sinatra when I sing it," announces Brandon. "With maybe a little bit of Morrissey and a little bit of Elvis, too."
Of course he does. But if securing the services of Tim Burton tells you one thing, it's that The Killers are about to get even bigger, perhaps even make the leap to the same level as Coldplay et al. Already stars, they are about to become superstars. Brandon can hardly wait.
"Do you know that Rolling Stone didn't want to put us on the cover last time," he says indignantly. "They didn't think we were stars. We sold five million albums! What more do they want from a band?"
Whatever was required, Brandon would be happy to do most things. "I'll do stuff that some people don't want to do, 'cause I want people to hear the music," he says. However, even he has limits. "The Rolling Stone thing made the record label think: 'What can we do to make them stars?' If I go on vacation with my wife, do they have to send somebody to be there to take pictures of me? Is that how you become a star? I don't want that. I walked down the red carpet one time and I realised I don't like it. But you don't have to walk down the red carpet for people to hear your music. We do still have some of that indie blood running through our veins."
He heads off at a tangent: "When you walk around Liverpool, you think of The Beatles, or you go to Manchester and you think of The Smiths or Oasis. I want you to come to Las Vegas and think of Sam's Town. And I think we've started to capture that, which is a truer version of The Killers, 'cause that's where we're from."
He pauses.
"I used to live across the street from Sam's Town. Maybe it'll be like our Abbey Road where people go to take pictures."
Is that what he'd like?
"I wouldn't mind it," he says, desperately hoping it will come true.
He puts a cigarette between his lips, looks down at his trouser pockets and pats them in search of the lighter he bought yesterday.
"Hey, I don't suppose you've got one?"

2296, The scene is set in a post apocalyptic Mojave desert, 15 years after a joint effort of the New California Republic, the Rangers, and the mysterious benefactor of the New Vegas Strip, Mr. House pushed back an attempted invasion of the Mojave and a final battle was waved for control of the hydroelectric powerhouse, Hoover Damm.
In the aftermath, Mr. House was removed from power discreetly, due to the actions of a wasteland wanderer on a mission for revenge, known only as the Courier. Mr. House's iconic Lucky 38 casino opened its doors, for the first time, offering a single floor casino and bar, it's upstairs remained an exclusive and mysterious meeting place for the New Vegas Strip's elite. The Lucky 38 represented one of the cleanest, most secure facilities, protected, like the rest of the strip, by the Securitron Mk 2, predominantly. Their presence ensured visitors on the Strip behaved themselves, though the other casinos maintained their own security and 'house rules' internally.
The Strip defined and maintained its status as an independent entity, determining through the Courier's observations that the NCR was stretching it's military might too thin, and couldn't realistically manage over the Strip and Mojave, so a new deal was struck, similar to the prior, but with The Strip extending it's Securitron security to enforce the immediately surrounding communities and a few outlying satelites. Trade to the surrounding areas increased, the Mojave benefitting from the prewar tech, pre-programmed security forces. The drug addicted fiends and other Raider groups would never be any match for their advanced weaponry, and ultimately were cleared out of existence.
The King's continued to watch over Freeside, making alliances with the Follower's of the Apocalypse... their desire to service the needs of the belittled, disadvantaged and destitute lined up, and this is where Mr. Wolf found his place in the story... the Courier and a Follower's doctor found love in the wasteland.... and raised a child together under a Ranger's flag... 23 years later? This is New Vegas...
A handsome man in a leather jacket sat in a dusty leather booth watching one of the girls dance on a pole, shaking her ass as bottle caps clinked on the stage in front of her. It was a swanky post apocalyptic casino strip club. A man in a leather jacket stood nearby, his hands crossed in front of his chest, "Kings" embroidered across the back in silver letters. A waitress approached him carrying a glass of some amber colored liquor, and sat it down at the half moon table. She lingered a moment in her lacey body suit, following his gaze up to the girl rubbing her tits in some older cowboys face.
"You don't get jealous seeing her like that, Mr. Wolf." The girl bit her lip and met his eyes as he picked up his glass and swirled it before giving it a smell and taking a slow swig. He tilted his head looking her over. She couldn't possibly be older then 19. Tight, perky little thing.
Mr. Wolf smirked and shook his head. "I like her... nice and wet when she comes to my bed."
The girl blushed and bit her lip. "So you like to watch?" She surmised.
"I don't mind, but why do you ask?" Wolf had these intense eyes that shot arrows into your very soul. It made her incredibly nervous... but she found it deeply exciting at the same time.
"Well... I'm living in 206 now... maybe... you might stop by sometime and I could dance for you? I know I don't have her body but... if you wanted something that was a little fresher... something... just yours?" She figeted her fingers against the table.
Jason looked her over once more and smirked.
"Two-Oh-six, huh?" He tilted his head, considering.
She nodded.
"Leave your cum soaked panties on my doorknob one of these nights if you really need it and maybe I'll come see if you got the moves." His Texan accent was subdued, but enthrallingly charming with his confident, somewhat bored with reality overtones.
"M-my panties?" She stammered turning bright red. "On your doorknob?" Alexa couldn't believe what she was hearing.
"If you're gunna shoot your shot with a dom... with an alpha... you need to be willing to submit. If you can't do that... I'm not interested." Wolf shrugged, completely unphased.
"But what about... what if..." Alexa glanced at Laura, the clubs most iconic stripper in the club, perhaps even the whole Strip.
She was taking some NCR soldier to the VIP lounge for a private dance.
Alexa had been bold enough to offer herself but now she was feeling nervous. If Laura wanted her out, she could lose her job... her home.
"Oh she won't mind... if anything she'll want to watch." Wolf shook his head, sensing her anxiety.
"Assuming of course... she likes the way you smell... she's funny like that." Wolf let the conversation end and Alexa nervously retreated.
Wolf sat drinking by himself, but got bored.
"Jakey, go get yourself a drink and sit down, I'm bored." Wolf called to his body guard.
Jacob looked over and nodded, giving the lounge one last look around before approaching the bar and getting himself a mug of beer, from the tuxedo shirt and boytie bartender Gerald, and returning to the table.
"What's on your mind boss?" Jacob had his hair slicked back in the usual King's gang hairstyle.
"Heard any rumors lately?" Wold looked at him, taking a drag from his cigarette and flicking the pack over to him.
"Honestly, boss, aside from the occasional drunkard or fiend rolling through freeside, nothing out of the ordinary... well, except... a way's out.. the crazy lady... Gloria was swearing up and down she found a headless metal suit of armor.. said the Enclave would burn down New Vegas. God's wraith and all that, you know how she gets."
"Enclave?" Jason's attention was piqued.
"Yeah, I don't know, she was probably just in withdrawal from the Jet... said she found it in the hollowed out shell of the Super Duper, out by the old highway." Jacob shrugged and drank from his beer and pulled a cigarette from the pack.
Wolf finished the last drag of his own cigarette. "Has anyone validated her claims?"
"Well... no... but... I mean... you've met her, she sees things that aren't there, all the time." Jacob shrugged and lit a cigarette.
Jason squinted, considering the resident crazy ladies most recent half coherent ramblings.
"That's an oddly specific hallucination though....take a group of guys out there tonight... humor me, and make sure she's not right." Wolf lifted his glass.
"Sir?" Jacob raised an eyebrow, thinking surely this could wait until tomorrow.
"Hypothetically" Wolf pondered aloud, "If there was... for some reason, there in-fact was... a pre-war, piece of military tech out there....a T-45, let's say, or T-60, best case scenario? We want it. Even if it's not at 100% capacity? It's fusion core alone... could change up the game for Freeside, something like that could make our tiny little city independent. We wouldn't have to be reliant on the scraps of New Vegas, and forget about the Hoover Dam completely."
Jacob caught Mr. Wolf's drift.. a fusion core could mean producing its own, radiation-free water, it's own electricity.. not just a little, a lot. Powering long dead machines, not to mention the agricultural benefits... producing healthier, higher yield tobacco... expanding their income ten fold.
Jacob suddenly felt like he understood Mr. Wolf's vision for the future.
"I should... go and deploy the King's to investigate." Jacob concluded.
"I think that would be for the best, I can take care of myself here." Wolf waved Jacob off.
Jacob downed his beer and excused himself.
Wolf drank the rest of his whiskey, extinguishing his cigarette.
Laura, the dancer came up to the table, and Wolf motioned to the blushing new waitress for a round, who felt a twinge of jealousy seeing her crush with the most popular stage act in town. She bit her tongue though, bringing over two more heavy pours of whiskey.
Laura eyed the girl as she came and went.
"She likes you." Laura concluded as the waitress walked away.
"Yeah.. I think she does." Mr. Wolf shrugged, flicking her a cigarette.
"The NCR boy liked me." She giggled wiping a little bit of cum from her lips and used half her shot like mouthwash.
"Get anything out of him.. other then.. his seed?" Wolf sighed.
"Of course," She grinned mischievously, "Apparently there's been trouble out West with the Brotherhood. They had some type of skirmish? Apparently NCR lost? NCR was apparently holding some old world tech, I don't know, but apparently it lit up the west coast power grid, like... in it's entirely?" Laura tilted her head to look at him.
"The entire western power grid was lit up by a single piece of tech??" Wolf shook his head at the topless girl beside him.
"Yeah, I had to make him cum twice for more details, but apparently it's the size of a grain of rice, with quote, unlimited energy potential." Laura relayed the information. It seemed more important then a suit of power armor or its fusion core.
"Who else knows about this?" Wolf demanded with his eyebrows squinted against his eyes.
"Anyone with a functional light bulb for... like... three hundred miles?" Laura guessed with a shrug.
"You said... it was the Brotherhood that took the win on the skirmish?" Wolf clarified some details.
"Yeah... rumor has it they have a new up and coming knight that's making waves." Laura shrugged.
"Stay on the rumors... I need details." Mr. Wolf nodded at her, drank his whiskey and stood up, downing his drink.
An energy source that powerful would have a big effect on the balance of power in the Mojave. It could mean a resurrection of the New California Republic to it's former glory and then some, and potentially... might mean a renewed effort to reclaim the western part of the former United States, in time.

as the title saids my game crashes after i play for short time any idea as to why?
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As the post says, I deleted like one mod from my load order to fix my companion limit and all of a sudden my NMC pack and my Pip-Boy 2500A mods stopped working entirely. So did a couple of mods like Afterglow, yet most of them remained like my weapon mods and certain visual ones like EVE. I already reactivated and deactivated the Archive Invalidator, so what do I do now? I'd really love some help with this cause I already progressed pretty far into my save and I've been enjoying myself the absolute most this playthrough.
My mod order is this:
FalloutNV.esm
DeadMoney.esm
HonestHearts.esm
OldWorldBlues.esm
LonesomeRoad.esm
GunRunnersArsenal.esm
ClassicPack.esm
MercenaryPack.esm
TribalPack.esm
CaravanPack.esm
Caliber.esm
YUP - Base Game + All DLC.esm
Character Expansions Revised.esm
Interior Lighting Overhaul - Core.esm
Simple Open Freeside.esm
Functional Post Game Ending.esm
TLD_Travelers.esm
Simple Open Strip.esm
Momod.esm
Mojave Wildlife (FO3-Style).esp
The Frontier.esm
Better Brotherhood.esm
Mojave NPCs.esm
Cyberware.esm
CookCookTwo.esm
Mojave Raiders.esm
PHWHPAPVisuals.esm
Functional Post Game Ending - YUP Patch.esm
Tammer's NIF-Bashed Armor Mega-Pack.esm
FNV Existential Thread.esm
FNV Honest Herb's Power Armor Emporium.esm
Aim View Switcher.esm
Interior Lighting Overhaul - L38PS.esm
Ragdolls.esm
TheHUDEditor.esm
Walking_Inertia.esm
NVMIM.esp
YUP - NPC Fixes (Base Game + All DLC).esp
EVE FNV - ALL DLC.esp
brayduck_classic.esp
TFHotfixes.esp
Car NV.esp
WeaponModsExpanded.esp
Windows of the Mojave v1.2.1.esp
CNR_Beta.esp
CharismaAffectsCompanionLimit.esp
Character Expansions Revised - Extras.esp
WMX-DLCMerged.esp
RadioactiveMuck.esp
momod.esp
AfterglowNeonIllumination.esp
IMPACT.esp.ghost
Decer_STALKER_WP_CALIBER.esp
Decer_STALKER_WP_v1.1.esp
More Perks v3.esp
F4 Intimidation.esp
Better Brotherhood - FPGE Patch.esp
Better Brotherhood - YUP Patch.esp
SignatureWeapons.esp
WMX-POPMerged.esp
WMX-EVE-AllDLCMerged.esp
TrooperOverhaul-Dragbody.esp
NCRTrooperOverhaul.esp
Quickthrow.esp
Cyberware-Quickthrow Patch.esp
Visible Implants Mk II.esp
Classic Fallout Weapons Remastered v1.2.esp
SteelTrimmed.esp
Tailor Maid Black Retex - NV.esp
CaliberTestALL.esp
Decer_STALKER_WP_SOUND.esp
dD - R.B.E.T Main NV.esp
Enhanced Movement.esp
Titans of The New West.esp
360Movement.esp
Diagonal movement.esp
360Movement - Diagonal movement Patch.esp
B42Inspect.esp
B42Inertia.esp
B42Bash.esp
Better Breaching.esp
BulletTrails.esp
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The Collect
O God, the King of glory, you have exalted your only Son Jesus Christ with great triumph to your kingdom in heaven: Do not leave us comfortless, but send us your Holy Spirit to strengthen us, and exalt us to that place where our Savior Christ has gone before; who lives and reigns with you and the Holy Spirit, one God, in glory everlasting. Amen.
The Gospel
John 17:6–19
6I have manifested thy name unto the men which thou gavest me out of the world: thine they were, and thou gavest them me; and they have kept thy word.
7Now they have known that all things whatsoever thou hast given me are of thee.
8For I have given unto them the words which thou gavest me; and they have received them, and have known surely that I came out from thee, and they have believed that thou didst send me.
9I pray for them: I pray not for the world, but for them which thou hast given me; for they are thine.
10 And all mine are thine, and thine are mine; and I am glorified in them.
11And now I am no more in the world, but these are in the world, and I come to thee. Holy Father, keep through thine own name those whom thou hast given me, that they may be one, as we are.
12While I was with them in the world, I kept them in thy name: those that thou gavest me I have kept, and none of them is lost, but the son of perdition; that the scripture might be fulfilled.
13And now come I to thee; and these things I speak in the world, that they might have my joy fulfilled in themselves.
14I have given them thy word; and the world hath hated them, because they are not of the world, even as I am not of the world.
15I pray not that thou shouldest take them out of the world, but that thou shouldest keep them from the evil.
16They are not of the world, even as I am not of the world.
17Sanctify them through thy truth: thy word is truth.
18 As thou hast sent me into the world, even so have I also sent them into the world.
19And for their sakes I sanctify myself, that they also might be sanctified through the truth.
Commentary on Today’s Gospel Selection:
Today’s text, is a very poignant prayer made by Jesus shortly before his arrest and persecution, culminating with his death on the cross. I suggest that this is a poignant prayer, one that arouses deep emotion, because of the implications of verse nine.
“I pray for them: I pray not for the world , but for them which thou hast given me; for they are thine.” (v. 9) This is a very interesting passage, Jesus is openly saying that he IS NOT praying for the entirety of humanity, but only for those God, his Father, has given him. At face value, it seems to contradict his words to Nicodemus in John 3:16; “For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.” However the answer to this presumably paradoxical position is found in the words of John 3:16, “whosoever believeth.” He is not praying for those openly hostile to his teachings and those of his Father’s, but rather he is praying for those who have accepted the calling from God to believe in him.
Just as God chose the Israelites out of all the people of the world as his own, he now chooses all humanity, he so loved the world, he so loved humanity that he gave his only Son so that those who make the decision to believe in him and his teachings, those who make an effort to live in the light of his teachings, will be saved and not perish, but have eternal life.
Some have suggested that those hostile to Jesus’ teachings, those who openly choose to deny him, are guilty of the unpardonable sin. The unpardonable sin is to blaspheme against the Spirit. But to openly deny the existence of God or the life and resurrection of Christ, is this not also akin to blaspheming against the Spirit?
Therefore we can at least surmise that, Jesus is not praying for those openly hostile to him, God his Father, or even his disciples and devout Christians; but rather those who are receptive, who hear the word of God and cling to it.
“What strikes one… most in our Lord’s prayer is not even (Jesus’) moving loyalty to his friends, …but rather his unmistakable pride in them” (Gossip, 746).
It seems astonishing that Jesus would claim to be glorified in these disciples. They are a small and ordinary group of people who exhibit no unusual intelligence or talent. They seem unable to learn from the numerous clues that Jesus gives them concerning his future. No matter what Jesus says, they just don’t get it. How can Jesus claim to have been glorified in them?
Keep in mind that this Gospel was written quite late, probably after most of Jesus’ original disciples had died. The author has seen that, somehow, through the grace of God and the work of the Spirit, Jesus has indeed been glorified by these disciples. The church is growing and spreading. However imperfect these disciples might have been, they have succeeded in glorifying the Lord. In fact, when Jesus says that he has been glorified in them, he uses the perfect tense, suggesting an already completed glorification, showing full confidence that they have glorified him and will glorify him.
At the time when he made this prayer, Jesus has been the disciples’ protector, and gives his Father an account of his stewardship (v. 12). Now he is preparing to depart, so he asks the Father to assume the role of protector to these disciples who are in the kosmos (world) but not of the kosmos—those who belong to the Father but, but will continue to dwell in a hostile world.
In modern times, various ecumenical movements have worked to bring denominations together organizationally, their efforts reflecting concerns both for this petition of Jesus and for the church’s witness. The unity for which Jesus is praying, however, is deeper—a unity of heart and purpose. Denominational unity is only a first step. We must be equally concerned about disunity within denominations—within congregations—among individual Christians.
This is a prayer that, in many respects, has not been answered. The church has fragmented into many denominations and factions. Christians have spent too much time fighting one another.
And yet, in some respects, Jesus prayer has been answered. Christians work together across denominational lines in many ways—from sponsoring community worship services to financing relief efforts. There have been a number of efforts to bring together denominations, either in formal mergers or through shared initiatives and mutual recognition of clergy. It is not enough, but it is a beginning.
“And now come I to thee; and these things I speak in the world, that they might have my joy fulfilled in themselves.” (v. 13) Some might believe that Jesus is implying here, that by following his teachings his followers will feel his pride in them, so to speak, but they would be wrong. Here Jesus is referring to that joy one feels from being creative and productive in service God and others. The joy of being in a correct relationship with God, the joy of knowing your feet are planted on a firm foundation—the rock Jesus spoke of in Matthew 7:24—the joy of knowing and serving truth; these are the joys he is speaking of in this prayer.
Jesus has given the disciples God’s word—God’s logos—and that word has made them different. These logos-people do not belong to the kosmos-world—the world that is opposed to God. Their new identity, their separateness, draws the world’s ire.
The kosmos-world is suspicious—afraid of those who have rejected its ways. Kosmos-people feel insecure except in the company of other kosmos-people—those who accept their values and seek the same pleasures. We see that with drug-addicts, who cannot abide the addict who has quit using drugs. We see it in the criminal world that cannot abide the person who has “gone straight.” Kosmos-people know that the person who no longer belongs to them is especially dangerous, because that person knows their secrets but no longer shares their loyalties.
We see something similar in the shadowy world of enterprises (legal or illegal) that profit from people’s weaknesses—manufacturers of cigarettes or alcohol, people who run casinos and bars, pimps, sellers of pornography and the like. Kosmos-people move among a small circle of colleagues and see the rest of the world as their enemy. They hate anyone who opposes them, whether overtly or by wholesome example, and respond viciously to any perceived threat to their kosmos-enterprise.
We see it in the movies, where Christians are seldom portrayed in a favorable light—and in the news media, which seldom reports anything good about the church but delights in clergy-gone-awry stories.
Jesus has not overstated the case at all when he says that the kosmos “hated” the disciples “because they are not of the kosmos.” That hatred is fueled by guilt, fear of exposure, and fierce resistance to change.
The mission Jesus assigned to the disciples, has not changed but this torch is passed on from one generation to another, even to us. It is a mission to carry on Christ’s work in the kosmos-world. As Christians—the followers of Christ—we are to work in a world to which we no longer belong and in which we no longer feel wholly comfortable. The old gospel song comes to mind: “This world is not my home; I’m just a-passing through.” The poetry might be less than wonderful, but the sentiment is correct.
Jesus does pray that God will “keep them from the evil” (v. 15). Jesus prays not that the Father will give the disciples of that day or us for that mater, pain-free lives, but that he will protect us from succumbing to the evil one.
“They are not of the world, even as I am not of the world. Sanctify them through thy truth: thy word is truth.” (v. 16-17). The disciples are flawed people—just as we are— people who have failed Jesus in the past and who will fail him again in the future. Nevertheless, as disciples, we have become different, because Jesus has given us the Father’s word.
This passage is a good one to keep in mind when you read or hear the incessant rants of those modern day counterparts of those who were hostile to Jesus, in his time on Earth. Like the disciples of two millennia ago we, modern day disciples, are flawed people who have failed Jesus in the past and who will fail him again in the future, but we have been given the Word, the Logos, of God and we are making an effort to—as he told the woman in John 8:11—“go and sin no more.”
Modern day Pharisees, those choosing to live and believe in their own self-righteousness, who like the Pharisees of old twist the scripture to justify their own ends by conflating Jesus’ teachings of brotherly love and compassion with not just tolerance of sin, but acceptance of abominable sins, twist scriptures so as to guilt the unwary Christian—tearing down his defenses—in an attempt to get these unwary Christians to succumb to the snares of the evil one. These modern day Pharisees try to convince you that you are not to help a sinner out of the proverbial gutter, but to wallow in the gutter with him.
“Sanctify them through thy truth: thy word is truth.” Jesus said whoever commits a sin is the servant of sin. When we learn the truth, the Word of God and what it means, we choose to be a holy people and choose to sin no more, we are sanctified in the Holy Word of God. Remember Jesus said in John 8:32, “And ye shall know the truth, and the truth shall make you free.” You will no longer be a slave to sin.
Jesus is not of this world, but emptied himself so that he might take on human form and live in the kosmos-world on a mission of mercy and salvation (Philippians 2:5-11). At the time of this prayer, he was preparing the disciples to continue this incarnational ministry in a world that will often require them to take up their crosses to follow Jesus.
Likewise, in a world that was already hostile to Jesus—but growing exponentially more hostile to Christians each day—we are often found having to “pick up our own cross” to follow Jesus.
“And for their sakes I sanctify myself, that they also might be sanctified through the truth.” Jesus is saying he is making himself Holy, sanctifying himself for service to God so that we may be made Holy by the grace of God—set apart for a Godly purpose—”sanctified through the offering of the body of Jesus Christ”
As Jesus’ prayer works with the dynamic of ‘the world’, this passage certainly reflects the heightened tension of his farewell to his disciples. Its main elements, which constitute Jesus’ pleas on behalf of his disciples, include what it will take for them to continue functioning as disciples after he leaves them, the same elements that are necessary for us to function as Disciples even today.
Benediction:
Almighty Father, whose blessed Son before his passion prayed for his disciples that they might be one, as you and he are one: Grant that your Church, being bound together in love and obedience to you, may be united in one body by the one Spirit, that the world may believe in him whom you have sent, your Son Jesus Christ our Lord; who lives and reigns with you, in the unity of the Holy Spirit, one God, now and for ever. Amen.

The Collect
O God, the King of glory, you have exalted your only Son Jesus Christ with great triumph to your kingdom in heaven: Do not leave us comfortless, but send us your Holy Spirit to strengthen us, and exalt us to that place where our Savior Christ has gone before; who lives and reigns with you and the Holy Spirit, one God, in glory everlasting. Amen.
The Gospel
John 17:6–19
6I have manifested thy name unto the men which thou gavest me out of the world: thine they were, and thou gavest them me; and they have kept thy word.
7Now they have known that all things whatsoever thou hast given me are of thee.
8For I have given unto them the words which thou gavest me; and they have received them, and have known surely that I came out from thee, and they have believed that thou didst send me.
9I pray for them: I pray not for the world, but for them which thou hast given me; for they are thine.
10 And all mine are thine, and thine are mine; and I am glorified in them.
11And now I am no more in the world, but these are in the world, and I come to thee. Holy Father, keep through thine own name those whom thou hast given me, that they may be one, as we are.
12While I was with them in the world, I kept them in thy name: those that thou gavest me I have kept, and none of them is lost, but the son of perdition; that the scripture might be fulfilled.
13And now come I to thee; and these things I speak in the world, that they might have my joy fulfilled in themselves.
14I have given them thy word; and the world hath hated them, because they are not of the world, even as I am not of the world.
15I pray not that thou shouldest take them out of the world, but that thou shouldest keep them from the evil.
16They are not of the world, even as I am not of the world.
17Sanctify them through thy truth: thy word is truth.
18 As thou hast sent me into the world, even so have I also sent them into the world.
19And for their sakes I sanctify myself, that they also might be sanctified through the truth.
Commentary on Today’s Gospel Selection:
Today’s text, is a very poignant prayer made by Jesus shortly before his arrest and persecution, culminating with his death on the cross. I suggest that this is a poignant prayer, one that arouses deep emotion, because of the implications of verse nine.
“I pray for them: I pray not for the world , but for them which thou hast given me; for they are thine.” (v. 9) This is a very interesting passage, Jesus is openly saying that he IS NOT praying for the entirety of humanity, but only for those God, his Father, has given him. At face value, it seems to contradict his words to Nicodemus in John 3:16; “For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.” However the answer to this presumably paradoxical position is found in the words of John 3:16, “whosoever believeth.” He is not praying for those openly hostile to his teachings and those of his Father’s, but rather he is praying for those who have accepted the calling from God to believe in him.
Just as God chose the Israelites out of all the people of the world as his own, he now chooses all humanity, he so loved the world, he so loved humanity that he gave his only Son so that those who make the decision to believe in him and his teachings, those who make an effort to live in the light of his teachings, will be saved and not perish, but have eternal life.
Some have suggested that those hostile to Jesus’ teachings, those who openly choose to deny him, are guilty of the unpardonable sin. The unpardonable sin is to blaspheme against the Spirit. But to openly deny the existence of God or the life and resurrection of Christ, is this not also akin to blaspheming against the Spirit?
Therefore we can at least surmise that, Jesus is not praying for those openly hostile to him, God his Father, or even his disciples and devout Christians; but rather those who are receptive, who hear the word of God and cling to it.
“What strikes one… most in our Lord’s prayer is not even (Jesus’) moving loyalty to his friends, …but rather his unmistakable pride in them” (Gossip, 746).
It seems astonishing that Jesus would claim to be glorified in these disciples. They are a small and ordinary group of people who exhibit no unusual intelligence or talent. They seem unable to learn from the numerous clues that Jesus gives them concerning his future. No matter what Jesus says, they just don’t get it. How can Jesus claim to have been glorified in them?
Keep in mind that this Gospel was written quite late, probably after most of Jesus’ original disciples had died. The author has seen that, somehow, through the grace of God and the work of the Spirit, Jesus has indeed been glorified by these disciples. The church is growing and spreading. However imperfect these disciples might have been, they have succeeded in glorifying the Lord. In fact, when Jesus says that he has been glorified in them, he uses the perfect tense, suggesting an already completed glorification, showing full confidence that they have glorified him and will glorify him.
At the time when he made this prayer, Jesus has been the disciples’ protector, and gives his Father an account of his stewardship (v. 12). Now he is preparing to depart, so he asks the Father to assume the role of protector to these disciples who are in the kosmos (world) but not of the kosmos—those who belong to the Father but, but will continue to dwell in a hostile world.
In modern times, various ecumenical movements have worked to bring denominations together organizationally, their efforts reflecting concerns both for this petition of Jesus and for the church’s witness. The unity for which Jesus is praying, however, is deeper—a unity of heart and purpose. Denominational unity is only a first step. We must be equally concerned about disunity within denominations—within congregations—among individual Christians.
This is a prayer that, in many respects, has not been answered. The church has fragmented into many denominations and factions. Christians have spent too much time fighting one another.
And yet, in some respects, Jesus prayer has been answered. Christians work together across denominational lines in many ways—from sponsoring community worship services to financing relief efforts. There have been a number of efforts to bring together denominations, either in formal mergers or through shared initiatives and mutual recognition of clergy. It is not enough, but it is a beginning.
“And now come I to thee; and these things I speak in the world, that they might have my joy fulfilled in themselves.” (v. 13) Some might believe that Jesus is implying here, that by following his teachings his followers will feel his pride in them, so to speak, but they would be wrong. Here Jesus is referring to that joy one feels from being creative and productive in service God and others. The joy of being in a correct relationship with God, the joy of knowing your feet are planted on a firm foundation—the rock Jesus spoke of in Matthew 7:24—the joy of knowing and serving truth; these are the joys he is speaking of in this prayer.
Jesus has given the disciples God’s word—God’s logos—and that word has made them different. These logos-people do not belong to the kosmos-world—the world that is opposed to God. Their new identity, their separateness, draws the world’s ire.
The kosmos-world is suspicious—afraid of those who have rejected its ways. Kosmos-people feel insecure except in the company of other kosmos-people—those who accept their values and seek the same pleasures. We see that with drug-addicts, who cannot abide the addict who has quit using drugs. We see it in the criminal world that cannot abide the person who has “gone straight.” Kosmos-people know that the person who no longer belongs to them is especially dangerous, because that person knows their secrets but no longer shares their loyalties.
We see something similar in the shadowy world of enterprises (legal or illegal) that profit from people’s weaknesses—manufacturers of cigarettes or alcohol, people who run casinos and bars, pimps, sellers of pornography and the like. Kosmos-people move among a small circle of colleagues and see the rest of the world as their enemy. They hate anyone who opposes them, whether overtly or by wholesome example, and respond viciously to any perceived threat to their kosmos-enterprise.
We see it in the movies, where Christians are seldom portrayed in a favorable light—and in the news media, which seldom reports anything good about the church but delights in clergy-gone-awry stories.
Jesus has not overstated the case at all when he says that the kosmos “hated” the disciples “because they are not of the kosmos.” That hatred is fueled by guilt, fear of exposure, and fierce resistance to change.
The mission Jesus assigned to the disciples, has not changed but this torch is passed on from one generation to another, even to us. It is a mission to carry on Christ’s work in the kosmos-world. As Christians—the followers of Christ—we are to work in a world to which we no longer belong and in which we no longer feel wholly comfortable. The old gospel song comes to mind: “This world is not my home; I’m just a-passing through.” The poetry might be less than wonderful, but the sentiment is correct.
Jesus does pray that God will “keep them from the evil” (v. 15). Jesus prays not that the Father will give the disciples of that day or us for that mater, pain-free lives, but that he will protect us from succumbing to the evil one.
“They are not of the world, even as I am not of the world. Sanctify them through thy truth: thy word is truth.” (v. 16-17). The disciples are flawed people—just as we are— people who have failed Jesus in the past and who will fail him again in the future. Nevertheless, as disciples, we have become different, because Jesus has given us the Father’s word.
This passage is a good one to keep in mind when you read or hear the incessant rants of those modern day counterparts of those who were hostile to Jesus, in his time on Earth. Like the disciples of two millennia ago we, modern day disciples, are flawed people who have failed Jesus in the past and who will fail him again in the future, but we have been given the Word, the Logos, of God and we are making an effort to—as he told the woman in John 8:11—“go and sin no more.”
Modern day Pharisees, those choosing to live and believe in their own self-righteousness, who like the Pharisees of old twist the scripture to justify their own ends by conflating Jesus’ teachings of brotherly love and compassion with not just tolerance of sin, but acceptance of abominable sins, twist scriptures so as to guilt the unwary Christian—tearing down his defenses—in an attempt to get these unwary Christians to succumb to the snares of the evil one. These modern day Pharisees try to convince you that you are not to help a sinner out of the proverbial gutter, but to wallow in the gutter with him.
“Sanctify them through thy truth: thy word is truth.” Jesus said whoever commits a sin is the servant of sin. When we learn the truth, the Word of God and what it means, we choose to be a holy people and choose to sin no more, we are sanctified in the Holy Word of God. Remember Jesus said in John 8:32, “And ye shall know the truth, and the truth shall make you free.” You will no longer be a slave to sin.
Jesus is not of this world, but emptied himself so that he might take on human form and live in the kosmos-world on a mission of mercy and salvation (Philippians 2:5-11). At the time of this prayer, he was preparing the disciples to continue this incarnational ministry in a world that will often require them to take up their crosses to follow Jesus.
Likewise, in a world that was already hostile to Jesus—but growing exponentially more hostile to Christians each day—we are often found having to “pick up our own cross” to follow Jesus.
“And for their sakes I sanctify myself, that they also might be sanctified through the truth.” Jesus is saying he is making himself Holy, sanctifying himself for service to God so that we may be made Holy by the grace of God—set apart for a Godly purpose—”sanctified through the offering of the body of Jesus Christ”
As Jesus’ prayer works with the dynamic of ‘the world’, this passage certainly reflects the heightened tension of his farewell to his disciples. Its main elements, which constitute Jesus’ pleas on behalf of his disciples, include what it will take for them to continue functioning as disciples after he leaves them, the same elements that are necessary for us to function as Disciples even today.
Benediction:
Almighty Father, whose blessed Son before his passion prayed for his disciples that they might be one, as you and he are one: Grant that your Church, being bound together in love and obedience to you, may be united in one body by the one Spirit, that the world may believe in him whom you have sent, your Son Jesus Christ our Lord; who lives and reigns with you, in the unity of the Holy Spirit, one God, now and for ever. Amen.

The Collect
O God, the King of glory, you have exalted your only Son Jesus Christ with great triumph to your kingdom in heaven: Do not leave us comfortless, but send us your Holy Spirit to strengthen us, and exalt us to that place where our Savior Christ has gone before; who lives and reigns with you and the Holy Spirit, one God, in glory everlasting. Amen.
The Gospel
John 17:6–19
6I have manifested thy name unto the men which thou gavest me out of the world: thine they were, and thou gavest them me; and they have kept thy word.
7Now they have known that all things whatsoever thou hast given me are of thee.
8For I have given unto them the words which thou gavest me; and they have received them, and have known surely that I came out from thee, and they have believed that thou didst send me.
9I pray for them: I pray not for the world, but for them which thou hast given me; for they are thine.
10 And all mine are thine, and thine are mine; and I am glorified in them.
11And now I am no more in the world, but these are in the world, and I come to thee. Holy Father, keep through thine own name those whom thou hast given me, that they may be one, as we are.
12While I was with them in the world, I kept them in thy name: those that thou gavest me I have kept, and none of them is lost, but the son of perdition; that the scripture might be fulfilled.
13And now come I to thee; and these things I speak in the world, that they might have my joy fulfilled in themselves.
14I have given them thy word; and the world hath hated them, because they are not of the world, even as I am not of the world.
15I pray not that thou shouldest take them out of the world, but that thou shouldest keep them from the evil.
16They are not of the world, even as I am not of the world.
17Sanctify them through thy truth: thy word is truth.
18 As thou hast sent me into the world, even so have I also sent them into the world.
19And for their sakes I sanctify myself, that they also might be sanctified through the truth.
Commentary on Today’s Gospel Selection:
Today’s text, is a very poignant prayer made by Jesus shortly before his arrest and persecution, culminating with his death on the cross. I suggest that this is a poignant prayer, one that arouses deep emotion, because of the implications of verse nine.
“I pray for them: I pray not for the world , but for them which thou hast given me; for they are thine.” (v. 9) This is a very interesting passage, Jesus is openly saying that he IS NOT praying for the entirety of humanity, but only for those God, his Father, has given him. At face value, it seems to contradict his words to Nicodemus in John 3:16; “For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.” However the answer to this presumably paradoxical position is found in the words of John 3:16, “whosoever believeth.” He is not praying for those openly hostile to his teachings and those of his Father’s, but rather he is praying for those who have accepted the calling from God to believe in him.
Just as God chose the Israelites out of all the people of the world as his own, he now chooses all humanity, he so loved the world, he so loved humanity that he gave his only Son so that those who make the decision to believe in him and his teachings, those who make an effort to live in the light of his teachings, will be saved and not perish, but have eternal life.
Some have suggested that those hostile to Jesus’ teachings, those who openly choose to deny him, are guilty of the unpardonable sin. The unpardonable sin is to blaspheme against the Spirit. But to openly deny the existence of God or the life and resurrection of Christ, is this not also akin to blaspheming against the Spirit?
Therefore we can at least surmise that, Jesus is not praying for those openly hostile to him, God his Father, or even his disciples and devout Christians; but rather those who are receptive, who hear the word of God and cling to it.
“What strikes one… most in our Lord’s prayer is not even (Jesus’) moving loyalty to his friends, …but rather his unmistakable pride in them” (Gossip, 746).
It seems astonishing that Jesus would claim to be glorified in these disciples. They are a small and ordinary group of people who exhibit no unusual intelligence or talent. They seem unable to learn from the numerous clues that Jesus gives them concerning his future. No matter what Jesus says, they just don’t get it. How can Jesus claim to have been glorified in them?
Keep in mind that this Gospel was written quite late, probably after most of Jesus’ original disciples had died. The author has seen that, somehow, through the grace of God and the work of the Spirit, Jesus has indeed been glorified by these disciples. The church is growing and spreading. However imperfect these disciples might have been, they have succeeded in glorifying the Lord. In fact, when Jesus says that he has been glorified in them, he uses the perfect tense, suggesting an already completed glorification, showing full confidence that they have glorified him and will glorify him.
At the time when he made this prayer, Jesus has been the disciples’ protector, and gives his Father an account of his stewardship (v. 12). Now he is preparing to depart, so he asks the Father to assume the role of protector to these disciples who are in the kosmos (world) but not of the kosmos—those who belong to the Father but, but will continue to dwell in a hostile world.
In modern times, various ecumenical movements have worked to bring denominations together organizationally, their efforts reflecting concerns both for this petition of Jesus and for the church’s witness. The unity for which Jesus is praying, however, is deeper—a unity of heart and purpose. Denominational unity is only a first step. We must be equally concerned about disunity within denominations—within congregations—among individual Christians.
This is a prayer that, in many respects, has not been answered. The church has fragmented into many denominations and factions. Christians have spent too much time fighting one another.
And yet, in some respects, Jesus prayer has been answered. Christians work together across denominational lines in many ways—from sponsoring community worship services to financing relief efforts. There have been a number of efforts to bring together denominations, either in formal mergers or through shared initiatives and mutual recognition of clergy. It is not enough, but it is a beginning.
“And now come I to thee; and these things I speak in the world, that they might have my joy fulfilled in themselves.” (v. 13) Some might believe that Jesus is implying here, that by following his teachings his followers will feel his pride in them, so to speak, but they would be wrong. Here Jesus is referring to that joy one feels from being creative and productive in service God and others. The joy of being in a correct relationship with God, the joy of knowing your feet are planted on a firm foundation—the rock Jesus spoke of in Matthew 7:24—the joy of knowing and serving truth; these are the joys he is speaking of in this prayer.
Jesus has given the disciples God’s word—God’s logos—and that word has made them different. These logos-people do not belong to the kosmos-world—the world that is opposed to God. Their new identity, their separateness, draws the world’s ire.
The kosmos-world is suspicious—afraid of those who have rejected its ways. Kosmos-people feel insecure except in the company of other kosmos-people—those who accept their values and seek the same pleasures. We see that with drug-addicts, who cannot abide the addict who has quit using drugs. We see it in the criminal world that cannot abide the person who has “gone straight.” Kosmos-people know that the person who no longer belongs to them is especially dangerous, because that person knows their secrets but no longer shares their loyalties.
We see something similar in the shadowy world of enterprises (legal or illegal) that profit from people’s weaknesses—manufacturers of cigarettes or alcohol, people who run casinos and bars, pimps, sellers of pornography and the like. Kosmos-people move among a small circle of colleagues and see the rest of the world as their enemy. They hate anyone who opposes them, whether overtly or by wholesome example, and respond viciously to any perceived threat to their kosmos-enterprise.
We see it in the movies, where Christians are seldom portrayed in a favorable light—and in the news media, which seldom reports anything good about the church but delights in clergy-gone-awry stories.
Jesus has not overstated the case at all when he says that the kosmos “hated” the disciples “because they are not of the kosmos.” That hatred is fueled by guilt, fear of exposure, and fierce resistance to change.
The mission Jesus assigned to the disciples, has not changed but this torch is passed on from one generation to another, even to us. It is a mission to carry on Christ’s work in the kosmos-world. As Christians—the followers of Christ—we are to work in a world to which we no longer belong and in which we no longer feel wholly comfortable. The old gospel song comes to mind: “This world is not my home; I’m just a-passing through.” The poetry might be less than wonderful, but the sentiment is correct.
Jesus does pray that God will “keep them from the evil” (v. 15). Jesus prays not that the Father will give the disciples of that day or us for that mater, pain-free lives, but that he will protect us from succumbing to the evil one.
“They are not of the world, even as I am not of the world. Sanctify them through thy truth: thy word is truth.” (v. 16-17). The disciples are flawed people—just as we are— people who have failed Jesus in the past and who will fail him again in the future. Nevertheless, as disciples, we have become different, because Jesus has given us the Father’s word.
This passage is a good one to keep in mind when you read or hear the incessant rants of those modern day counterparts of those who were hostile to Jesus, in his time on Earth. Like the disciples of two millennia ago we, modern day disciples, are flawed people who have failed Jesus in the past and who will fail him again in the future, but we have been given the Word, the Logos, of God and we are making an effort to—as he told the woman in John 8:11—“go and sin no more.”
Modern day Pharisees, those choosing to live and believe in their own self-righteousness, who like the Pharisees of old twist the scripture to justify their own ends by conflating Jesus’ teachings of brotherly love and compassion with not just tolerance of sin, but acceptance of abominable sins, twist scriptures so as to guilt the unwary Christian—tearing down his defenses—in an attempt to get these unwary Christians to succumb to the snares of the evil one. These modern day Pharisees try to convince you that you are not to help a sinner out of the proverbial gutter, but to wallow in the gutter with him.
“Sanctify them through thy truth: thy word is truth.” Jesus said whoever commits a sin is the servant of sin. When we learn the truth, the Word of God and what it means, we choose to be a holy people and choose to sin no more, we are sanctified in the Holy Word of God. Remember Jesus said in John 8:32, “And ye shall know the truth, and the truth shall make you free.” You will no longer be a slave to sin.
Jesus is not of this world, but emptied himself so that he might take on human form and live in the kosmos-world on a mission of mercy and salvation (Philippians 2:5-11). At the time of this prayer, he was preparing the disciples to continue this incarnational ministry in a world that will often require them to take up their crosses to follow Jesus.
Likewise, in a world that was already hostile to Jesus—but growing exponentially more hostile to Christians each day—we are often found having to “pick up our own cross” to follow Jesus.
“And for their sakes I sanctify myself, that they also might be sanctified through the truth.” Jesus is saying he is making himself Holy, sanctifying himself for service to God so that we may be made Holy by the grace of God—set apart for a Godly purpose—”sanctified through the offering of the body of Jesus Christ”
As Jesus’ prayer works with the dynamic of ‘the world’, this passage certainly reflects the heightened tension of his farewell to his disciples. Its main elements, which constitute Jesus’ pleas on behalf of his disciples, include what it will take for them to continue functioning as disciples after he leaves them, the same elements that are necessary for us to function as Disciples even today.
Benediction:
Almighty Father, whose blessed Son before his passion prayed for his disciples that they might be one, as you and he are one: Grant that your Church, being bound together in love and obedience to you, may be united in one body by the one Spirit, that the world may believe in him whom you have sent, your Son Jesus Christ our Lord; who lives and reigns with you, in the unity of the Holy Spirit, one God, now and for ever. Amen.

The Collect
O God, the King of glory, you have exalted your only Son Jesus Christ with great triumph to your kingdom in heaven: Do not leave us comfortless, but send us your Holy Spirit to strengthen us, and exalt us to that place where our Savior Christ has gone before; who lives and reigns with you and the Holy Spirit, one God, in glory everlasting. Amen.
The Gospel
John 17:6–19
6I have manifested thy name unto the men which thou gavest me out of the world: thine they were, and thou gavest them me; and they have kept thy word.
7Now they have known that all things whatsoever thou hast given me are of thee.
8For I have given unto them the words which thou gavest me; and they have received them, and have known surely that I came out from thee, and they have believed that thou didst send me.
9I pray for them: I pray not for the world, but for them which thou hast given me; for they are thine.
10 And all mine are thine, and thine are mine; and I am glorified in them.
11And now I am no more in the world, but these are in the world, and I come to thee. Holy Father, keep through thine own name those whom thou hast given me, that they may be one, as we are.
12While I was with them in the world, I kept them in thy name: those that thou gavest me I have kept, and none of them is lost, but the son of perdition; that the scripture might be fulfilled.
13And now come I to thee; and these things I speak in the world, that they might have my joy fulfilled in themselves.
14I have given them thy word; and the world hath hated them, because they are not of the world, even as I am not of the world.
15I pray not that thou shouldest take them out of the world, but that thou shouldest keep them from the evil.
16They are not of the world, even as I am not of the world.
17Sanctify them through thy truth: thy word is truth.
18 As thou hast sent me into the world, even so have I also sent them into the world.
19And for their sakes I sanctify myself, that they also might be sanctified through the truth.
Commentary on Today’s Gospel Selection:
Today’s text, is a very poignant prayer made by Jesus shortly before his arrest and persecution, culminating with his death on the cross. I suggest that this is a poignant prayer, one that arouses deep emotion, because of the implications of verse nine.
“I pray for them: I pray not for the world , but for them which thou hast given me; for they are thine.” (v. 9) This is a very interesting passage, Jesus is openly saying that he IS NOT praying for the entirety of humanity, but only for those God, his Father, has given him. At face value, it seems to contradict his words to Nicodemus in John 3:16; “For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.” However the answer to this presumably paradoxical position is found in the words of John 3:16, “whosoever believeth.” He is not praying for those openly hostile to his teachings and those of his Father’s, but rather he is praying for those who have accepted the calling from God to believe in him.
Just as God chose the Israelites out of all the people of the world as his own, he now chooses all humanity, he so loved the world, he so loved humanity that he gave his only Son so that those who make the decision to believe in him and his teachings, those who make an effort to live in the light of his teachings, will be saved and not perish, but have eternal life.
Some have suggested that those hostile to Jesus’ teachings, those who openly choose to deny him, are guilty of the unpardonable sin. The unpardonable sin is to blaspheme against the Spirit. But to openly deny the existence of God or the life and resurrection of Christ, is this not also akin to blaspheming against the Spirit?
Therefore we can at least surmise that, Jesus is not praying for those openly hostile to him, God his Father, or even his disciples and devout Christians; but rather those who are receptive, who hear the word of God and cling to it.
“What strikes one… most in our Lord’s prayer is not even (Jesus’) moving loyalty to his friends, …but rather his unmistakable pride in them” (Gossip, 746).
It seems astonishing that Jesus would claim to be glorified in these disciples. They are a small and ordinary group of people who exhibit no unusual intelligence or talent. They seem unable to learn from the numerous clues that Jesus gives them concerning his future. No matter what Jesus says, they just don’t get it. How can Jesus claim to have been glorified in them?
Keep in mind that this Gospel was written quite late, probably after most of Jesus’ original disciples had died. The author has seen that, somehow, through the grace of God and the work of the Spirit, Jesus has indeed been glorified by these disciples. The church is growing and spreading. However imperfect these disciples might have been, they have succeeded in glorifying the Lord. In fact, when Jesus says that he has been glorified in them, he uses the perfect tense, suggesting an already completed glorification, showing full confidence that they have glorified him and will glorify him.
At the time when he made this prayer, Jesus has been the disciples’ protector, and gives his Father an account of his stewardship (v. 12). Now he is preparing to depart, so he asks the Father to assume the role of protector to these disciples who are in the kosmos (world) but not of the kosmos—those who belong to the Father but, but will continue to dwell in a hostile world.
In modern times, various ecumenical movements have worked to bring denominations together organizationally, their efforts reflecting concerns both for this petition of Jesus and for the church’s witness. The unity for which Jesus is praying, however, is deeper—a unity of heart and purpose. Denominational unity is only a first step. We must be equally concerned about disunity within denominations—within congregations—among individual Christians.
This is a prayer that, in many respects, has not been answered. The church has fragmented into many denominations and factions. Christians have spent too much time fighting one another.
And yet, in some respects, Jesus prayer has been answered. Christians work together across denominational lines in many ways—from sponsoring community worship services to financing relief efforts. There have been a number of efforts to bring together denominations, either in formal mergers or through shared initiatives and mutual recognition of clergy. It is not enough, but it is a beginning.
“And now come I to thee; and these things I speak in the world, that they might have my joy fulfilled in themselves.” (v. 13) Some might believe that Jesus is implying here, that by following his teachings his followers will feel his pride in them, so to speak, but they would be wrong. Here Jesus is referring to that joy one feels from being creative and productive in service God and others. The joy of being in a correct relationship with God, the joy of knowing your feet are planted on a firm foundation—the rock Jesus spoke of in Matthew 7:24—the joy of knowing and serving truth; these are the joys he is speaking of in this prayer.
Jesus has given the disciples God’s word—God’s logos—and that word has made them different. These logos-people do not belong to the kosmos-world—the world that is opposed to God. Their new identity, their separateness, draws the world’s ire.
The kosmos-world is suspicious—afraid of those who have rejected its ways. Kosmos-people feel insecure except in the company of other kosmos-people—those who accept their values and seek the same pleasures. We see that with drug-addicts, who cannot abide the addict who has quit using drugs. We see it in the criminal world that cannot abide the person who has “gone straight.” Kosmos-people know that the person who no longer belongs to them is especially dangerous, because that person knows their secrets but no longer shares their loyalties.
We see something similar in the shadowy world of enterprises (legal or illegal) that profit from people’s weaknesses—manufacturers of cigarettes or alcohol, people who run casinos and bars, pimps, sellers of pornography and the like. Kosmos-people move among a small circle of colleagues and see the rest of the world as their enemy. They hate anyone who opposes them, whether overtly or by wholesome example, and respond viciously to any perceived threat to their kosmos-enterprise.
We see it in the movies, where Christians are seldom portrayed in a favorable light—and in the news media, which seldom reports anything good about the church but delights in clergy-gone-awry stories.
Jesus has not overstated the case at all when he says that the kosmos “hated” the disciples “because they are not of the kosmos.” That hatred is fueled by guilt, fear of exposure, and fierce resistance to change.
The mission Jesus assigned to the disciples, has not changed but this torch is passed on from one generation to another, even to us. It is a mission to carry on Christ’s work in the kosmos-world. As Christians—the followers of Christ—we are to work in a world to which we no longer belong and in which we no longer feel wholly comfortable. The old gospel song comes to mind: “This world is not my home; I’m just a-passing through.” The poetry might be less than wonderful, but the sentiment is correct.
Jesus does pray that God will “keep them from the evil” (v. 15). Jesus prays not that the Father will give the disciples of that day or us for that mater, pain-free lives, but that he will protect us from succumbing to the evil one.
“They are not of the world, even as I am not of the world. Sanctify them through thy truth: thy word is truth.” (v. 16-17). The disciples are flawed people—just as we are— people who have failed Jesus in the past and who will fail him again in the future. Nevertheless, as disciples, we have become different, because Jesus has given us the Father’s word.
This passage is a good one to keep in mind when you read or hear the incessant rants of those modern day counterparts of those who were hostile to Jesus, in his time on Earth. Like the disciples of two millennia ago we, modern day disciples, are flawed people who have failed Jesus in the past and who will fail him again in the future, but we have been given the Word, the Logos, of God and we are making an effort to—as he told the woman in John 8:11—“go and sin no more.”
Modern day Pharisees, those choosing to live and believe in their own self-righteousness, who like the Pharisees of old twist the scripture to justify their own ends by conflating Jesus’ teachings of brotherly love and compassion with not just tolerance of sin, but acceptance of abominable sins, twist scriptures so as to guilt the unwary Christian—tearing down his defenses—in an attempt to get these unwary Christians to succumb to the snares of the evil one. These modern day Pharisees try to convince you that you are not to help a sinner out of the proverbial gutter, but to wallow in the gutter with him.
“Sanctify them through thy truth: thy word is truth.” Jesus said whoever commits a sin is the servant of sin. When we learn the truth, the Word of God and what it means, we choose to be a holy people and choose to sin no more, we are sanctified in the Holy Word of God. Remember Jesus said in John 8:32, “And ye shall know the truth, and the truth shall make you free.” You will no longer be a slave to sin.
Jesus is not of this world, but emptied himself so that he might take on human form and live in the kosmos-world on a mission of mercy and salvation (Philippians 2:5-11). At the time of this prayer, he was preparing the disciples to continue this incarnational ministry in a world that will often require them to take up their crosses to follow Jesus.
Likewise, in a world that was already hostile to Jesus—but growing exponentially more hostile to Christians each day—we are often found having to “pick up our own cross” to follow Jesus.
“And for their sakes I sanctify myself, that they also might be sanctified through the truth.” Jesus is saying he is making himself Holy, sanctifying himself for service to God so that we may be made Holy by the grace of God—set apart for a Godly purpose—”sanctified through the offering of the body of Jesus Christ”
As Jesus’ prayer works with the dynamic of ‘the world’, this passage certainly reflects the heightened tension of his farewell to his disciples. Its main elements, which constitute Jesus’ pleas on behalf of his disciples, include what it will take for them to continue functioning as disciples after he leaves them, the same elements that are necessary for us to function as Disciples even today.
Benediction:
Almighty Father, whose blessed Son before his passion prayed for his disciples that they might be one, as you and he are one: Grant that your Church, being bound together in love and obedience to you, may be united in one body by the one Spirit, that the world may believe in him whom you have sent, your Son Jesus Christ our Lord; who lives and reigns with you, in the unity of the Holy Spirit, one God, now and for ever. Amen.

The Collect
O God, the King of glory, you have exalted your only Son Jesus Christ with great triumph to your kingdom in heaven: Do not leave us comfortless, but send us your Holy Spirit to strengthen us, and exalt us to that place where our Savior Christ has gone before; who lives and reigns with you and the Holy Spirit, one God, in glory everlasting. Amen.
The Gospel
John 17:6–19
6I have manifested thy name unto the men which thou gavest me out of the world: thine they were, and thou gavest them me; and they have kept thy word.
7Now they have known that all things whatsoever thou hast given me are of thee.
8For I have given unto them the words which thou gavest me; and they have received them, and have known surely that I came out from thee, and they have believed that thou didst send me.
9I pray for them: I pray not for the world, but for them which thou hast given me; for they are thine.
10 And all mine are thine, and thine are mine; and I am glorified in them.
11And now I am no more in the world, but these are in the world, and I come to thee. Holy Father, keep through thine own name those whom thou hast given me, that they may be one, as we are.
12While I was with them in the world, I kept them in thy name: those that thou gavest me I have kept, and none of them is lost, but the son of perdition; that the scripture might be fulfilled.
13And now come I to thee; and these things I speak in the world, that they might have my joy fulfilled in themselves.
14I have given them thy word; and the world hath hated them, because they are not of the world, even as I am not of the world.
15I pray not that thou shouldest take them out of the world, but that thou shouldest keep them from the evil.
16They are not of the world, even as I am not of the world.
17Sanctify them through thy truth: thy word is truth.
18 As thou hast sent me into the world, even so have I also sent them into the world.
19And for their sakes I sanctify myself, that they also might be sanctified through the truth.
Commentary on Today’s Gospel Selection:
Today’s text, is a very poignant prayer made by Jesus shortly before his arrest and persecution, culminating with his death on the cross. I suggest that this is a poignant prayer, one that arouses deep emotion, because of the implications of verse nine.
“I pray for them: I pray not for the world , but for them which thou hast given me; for they are thine.” (v. 9) This is a very interesting passage, Jesus is openly saying that he IS NOT praying for the entirety of humanity, but only for those God, his Father, has given him. At face value, it seems to contradict his words to Nicodemus in John 3:16; “For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.” However the answer to this presumably paradoxical position is found in the words of John 3:16, “whosoever believeth.” He is not praying for those openly hostile to his teachings and those of his Father’s, but rather he is praying for those who have accepted the calling from God to believe in him.
Just as God chose the Israelites out of all the people of the world as his own, he now chooses all humanity, he so loved the world, he so loved humanity that he gave his only Son so that those who make the decision to believe in him and his teachings, those who make an effort to live in the light of his teachings, will be saved and not perish, but have eternal life.
Some have suggested that those hostile to Jesus’ teachings, those who openly choose to deny him, are guilty of the unpardonable sin. The unpardonable sin is to blaspheme against the Spirit. But to openly deny the existence of God or the life and resurrection of Christ, is this not also akin to blaspheming against the Spirit?
Therefore we can at least surmise that, Jesus is not praying for those openly hostile to him, God his Father, or even his disciples and devout Christians; but rather those who are receptive, who hear the word of God and cling to it.
“What strikes one… most in our Lord’s prayer is not even (Jesus’) moving loyalty to his friends, …but rather his unmistakable pride in them” (Gossip, 746).
It seems astonishing that Jesus would claim to be glorified in these disciples. They are a small and ordinary group of people who exhibit no unusual intelligence or talent. They seem unable to learn from the numerous clues that Jesus gives them concerning his future. No matter what Jesus says, they just don’t get it. How can Jesus claim to have been glorified in them?
Keep in mind that this Gospel was written quite late, probably after most of Jesus’ original disciples had died. The author has seen that, somehow, through the grace of God and the work of the Spirit, Jesus has indeed been glorified by these disciples. The church is growing and spreading. However imperfect these disciples might have been, they have succeeded in glorifying the Lord. In fact, when Jesus says that he has been glorified in them, he uses the perfect tense, suggesting an already completed glorification, showing full confidence that they have glorified him and will glorify him.
At the time when he made this prayer, Jesus has been the disciples’ protector, and gives his Father an account of his stewardship (v. 12). Now he is preparing to depart, so he asks the Father to assume the role of protector to these disciples who are in the kosmos (world) but not of the kosmos—those who belong to the Father but, but will continue to dwell in a hostile world.
In modern times, various ecumenical movements have worked to bring denominations together organizationally, their efforts reflecting concerns both for this petition of Jesus and for the church’s witness. The unity for which Jesus is praying, however, is deeper—a unity of heart and purpose. Denominational unity is only a first step. We must be equally concerned about disunity within denominations—within congregations—among individual Christians.
This is a prayer that, in many respects, has not been answered. The church has fragmented into many denominations and factions. Christians have spent too much time fighting one another.
And yet, in some respects, Jesus prayer has been answered. Christians work together across denominational lines in many ways—from sponsoring community worship services to financing relief efforts. There have been a number of efforts to bring together denominations, either in formal mergers or through shared initiatives and mutual recognition of clergy. It is not enough, but it is a beginning.
“And now come I to thee; and these things I speak in the world, that they might have my joy fulfilled in themselves.” (v. 13) Some might believe that Jesus is implying here, that by following his teachings his followers will feel his pride in them, so to speak, but they would be wrong. Here Jesus is referring to that joy one feels from being creative and productive in service God and others. The joy of being in a correct relationship with God, the joy of knowing your feet are planted on a firm foundation—the rock Jesus spoke of in Matthew 7:24—the joy of knowing and serving truth; these are the joys he is speaking of in this prayer.
Jesus has given the disciples God’s word—God’s logos—and that word has made them different. These logos-people do not belong to the kosmos-world—the world that is opposed to God. Their new identity, their separateness, draws the world’s ire.
The kosmos-world is suspicious—afraid of those who have rejected its ways. Kosmos-people feel insecure except in the company of other kosmos-people—those who accept their values and seek the same pleasures. We see that with drug-addicts, who cannot abide the addict who has quit using drugs. We see it in the criminal world that cannot abide the person who has “gone straight.” Kosmos-people know that the person who no longer belongs to them is especially dangerous, because that person knows their secrets but no longer shares their loyalties.
We see something similar in the shadowy world of enterprises (legal or illegal) that profit from people’s weaknesses—manufacturers of cigarettes or alcohol, people who run casinos and bars, pimps, sellers of pornography and the like. Kosmos-people move among a small circle of colleagues and see the rest of the world as their enemy. They hate anyone who opposes them, whether overtly or by wholesome example, and respond viciously to any perceived threat to their kosmos-enterprise.
We see it in the movies, where Christians are seldom portrayed in a favorable light—and in the news media, which seldom reports anything good about the church but delights in clergy-gone-awry stories.
Jesus has not overstated the case at all when he says that the kosmos “hated” the disciples “because they are not of the kosmos.” That hatred is fueled by guilt, fear of exposure, and fierce resistance to change.
The mission Jesus assigned to the disciples, has not changed but this torch is passed on from one generation to another, even to us. It is a mission to carry on Christ’s work in the kosmos-world. As Christians—the followers of Christ—we are to work in a world to which we no longer belong and in which we no longer feel wholly comfortable. The old gospel song comes to mind: “This world is not my home; I’m just a-passing through.” The poetry might be less than wonderful, but the sentiment is correct.
Jesus does pray that God will “keep them from the evil” (v. 15). Jesus prays not that the Father will give the disciples of that day or us for that mater, pain-free lives, but that he will protect us from succumbing to the evil one.
“They are not of the world, even as I am not of the world. Sanctify them through thy truth: thy word is truth.” (v. 16-17). The disciples are flawed people—just as we are— people who have failed Jesus in the past and who will fail him again in the future. Nevertheless, as disciples, we have become different, because Jesus has given us the Father’s word.
This passage is a good one to keep in mind when you read or hear the incessant rants of those modern day counterparts of those who were hostile to Jesus, in his time on Earth. Like the disciples of two millennia ago we, modern day disciples, are flawed people who have failed Jesus in the past and who will fail him again in the future, but we have been given the Word, the Logos, of God and we are making an effort to—as he told the woman in John 8:11—“go and sin no more.”
Modern day Pharisees, those choosing to live and believe in their own self-righteousness, who like the Pharisees of old twist the scripture to justify their own ends by conflating Jesus’ teachings of brotherly love and compassion with not just tolerance of sin, but acceptance of abominable sins, twist scriptures so as to guilt the unwary Christian—tearing down his defenses—in an attempt to get these unwary Christians to succumb to the snares of the evil one. These modern day Pharisees try to convince you that you are not to help a sinner out of the proverbial gutter, but to wallow in the gutter with him.
“Sanctify them through thy truth: thy word is truth.” Jesus said whoever commits a sin is the servant of sin. When we learn the truth, the Word of God and what it means, we choose to be a holy people and choose to sin no more, we are sanctified in the Holy Word of God. Remember Jesus said in John 8:32, “And ye shall know the truth, and the truth shall make you free.” You will no longer be a slave to sin.
Jesus is not of this world, but emptied himself so that he might take on human form and live in the kosmos-world on a mission of mercy and salvation (Philippians 2:5-11). At the time of this prayer, he was preparing the disciples to continue this incarnational ministry in a world that will often require them to take up their crosses to follow Jesus.
Likewise, in a world that was already hostile to Jesus—but growing exponentially more hostile to Christians each day—we are often found having to “pick up our own cross” to follow Jesus.
“And for their sakes I sanctify myself, that they also might be sanctified through the truth.” Jesus is saying he is making himself Holy, sanctifying himself for service to God so that we may be made Holy by the grace of God—set apart for a Godly purpose—”sanctified through the offering of the body of Jesus Christ”
As Jesus’ prayer works with the dynamic of ‘the world’, this passage certainly reflects the heightened tension of his farewell to his disciples. Its main elements, which constitute Jesus’ pleas on behalf of his disciples, include what it will take for them to continue functioning as disciples after he leaves them, the same elements that are necessary for us to function as Disciples even today.
Benediction:
Almighty Father, whose blessed Son before his passion prayed for his disciples that they might be one, as you and he are one: Grant that your Church, being bound together in love and obedience to you, may be united in one body by the one Spirit, that the world may believe in him whom you have sent, your Son Jesus Christ our Lord; who lives and reigns with you, in the unity of the Holy Spirit, one God, now and for ever. Amen.

I am currently on the Caribbean Princess. It’s been a long time since I have been on a Princess cruise - at least ten years. In contrast, I was on the Solstice last year and the Edge twice two years ago.
For starters, this ship is older than the other two. That’s not what this comparison is about, as each ship has it’s own nuances and limitations and older ships must be forgiven certain inconveniences. Rather, this is about the services each line provides and how they measure up to one another as direct competitors in the “uplevel” lines of their respective companies.
What does Princess do better at? In a week, I have encountered two things:

• Internet service has only one tier, and it’s incredible. While latency can get hairy when the clouds get heavy, I have had no trouble with gated ports or download/streaming speeds when the environment isn’t a factor. Celebrity has two tiers, where most ports are blocked and speed is throttled on the lower tier.
  
• The “Medallion” RFID system is incredibly convenient. While there is a “Big Brother” element, the doors open automatically and the servers know who you are without having to break a card out and pushing it into a device.
  

Now. There are a whole bunch of things Princess is falling behind at and ought to take a page from Celebrity’s playbook.

• Main Dining is a reservation system for all, and there is not enough capacity for all passengers. They do not have a concept of “anytime dining” or first and second seating. This leaves main dining an every-man-for-himself affair where early birds get to eat and late bookers either get stuck begging in standby or are displaced to buffet. I don’t care what line it is, there should always be a seat in main dining for passengers, even if it’s later than they want.
  
• Main dining is separated into 3 different restaurants with no communication between them. One restaurant may have you waiting 40 minutes while another may seat you right away. Right hand, meet left hand.
  
• There are very few sugar free dessert options in main dining, and none in buffet. Celebrity always has at least three items available, especially at night in buffet. There are diabetics in your target demographic, yo.
  
• Sit down dining is not available for breakfast or lunch during port days. I would be inclined to say this is a staffing thing except it turns the buffet into a zoo reminiscent of departure and folks you’d see in main are running around buffet like chickens with their heads cut off. Celebrity will seat you, even though the selection looks suspiciously buffet-like, and takes pressure off both venues.
  
• Because main dining is so screwed, main shows are timed late - 7:30 and 9:30 most often. In a first/second seating arrangement, these are toggled opposite those seatings so everyone gets a chance. In this scenario, there is a rush for the earlier show and everyone else is left to debate whether it’s worth the second show considering whatever they have going on the next day.
  
• The casino is still smoking permitted. If not the guests, consider the health of your workers, Princess, especially with that small-ass chamber you close the doors to keeping that smoke in and away from the atrium. Gross. While I am no high-roller by any means, I brought $1000 in cash specifically for blackjack that is still in its band because I was unaware Princess still allows smoking and that room is absolutely intolerable. I say it again: GROSS.
  
• (Disclaimer: I used to smoke. Quitting was the hardest thing I have ever done, ever, hands down. Do yourself a favor and stop buying cigarettes. If not, at least do others the courtesy of smoking outside. Gross.)
  
• No covered pool. A design issue for sure, but also a philosophy. Putting a canopy over one of them accommodates the folks who burn rather than tan.
  

All that said, the staff here has been excellent here as anywhere else: busting ass, courteous and friendly. If you don’t at least pay the suggested gratuity, please don’t bother booking.
It’s the little policy and operations stuff that will drive me back to the arms of your competitor, Princess. Fix those, and itinerary will be my only significant consideration when booking my next cruise.

It's annoying to put down an enemy and they just talk smack like they weren't shot up like it was Omaha. Is there a mod or fix that I should be aware of. I honestly suspect its one of my mods in my load order but I am kind of at a lost on what mod may be causing it if it was my load order.
Load order here: # This file was automatically generated by Mod Organizer.
FalloutNV.esm
DeadMoney.esm
HonestHearts.esm
OldWorldBlues.esm
LonesomeRoad.esm
GunRunnersArsenal.esm
ClassicPack.esm
MercenaryPack.esm
TribalPack.esm
CaravanPack.esm
YUP - Base Game + All DLC.esm
NavmeshOverhaul.esm
fixy crap ue.esp
NVMIM.esp
Unofficial Patch NVSE Plus.esp
YUP - NPC Fixes (Base Game + All DLC).esp
The Mod Configuration Menu.esp
Power Armor Holo Panel.esp
LegionAIFix.esp
UX Toolkit.esp
HairPatcher.esp
JustAssortedMods.esp
JAM No AP Drain Outside Combat.esp
Just Sprint Plus - JAM.esp
JBTImproved.esp
NPCsSprint.esp
Real Recoil.esp
VM_Recoil.esp
DelayDLCRedux.esp
Mojave Raiders.esm
Mojave Raiders.esp
Vanilla Enhancements.esm
Mojave NPCs.esm
NCR Emergency Radio - Restored Functions.esp
DLC Enhancements.esp
Casino Crowds.esp
Classic Fallout Weapons Remastered v1.2.esp
Uncut Wasteland.esm
mil.esp
mil_Add-On.esp
mil-Shop.esp
Uncut Wasteland - YUP Patch.esp
Uncut Extra Collection.esp
Uncut Wasteland.esp
DLC Weapon Integration.esp
TLD_Travelers.esm
Functional Post Game Ending.esm
Functional Post Game Ending - YUP Patch.esm
Functional Post Game Ending - Uncut Extra Collection Patch.esp
Functional Post Game Ending - Uncut Wasteland Patch.esp
Alternative Start.esp
House and NCR Truce.esm
RegularMessPerk.esp
More Perks v3.esp
B42Bash.esp
HitDrugs.esp
PerkEveryLevel.esp
ImmersiveFastTravelEncounters.esp
ICE.esp
I Fought The Law - Simple NCR Start.esp
QwibNewBackpacks.esp
WeaponRequirementSystem.esp
SAM_Lucky38HotPlateAndReloadBench.esp
PowerArmorTraining.esp
fasttravelindoors.esp
JIP Fast-Travel Anywhere.esp
JIP Companions Command & Control.esp
Sit Anywhere.esp
Convenient Fast Travel Markers.esp
FalloutNVCheatTerminal.esp
Bunk beds.esp
Immersive Hit Reactions.esp
Realistic Movement.esp
MigNammo.esp
DLC Followers All-In-One.esp
Mojave Arsenal.esp
BURN - Hardcore Fire Effects.esp
Agonize.esp
Martialize.esp
IRNPC.esp
ImmersiveRecoil.esp
MainStoryAlterations.esp
JSawyer Ultimate.esp
JSawyer Ultimate - Push's Tweaks.esp
JSawyer Ultimate + Push's Tweaks - EVEM Patch.esp
JSawyer Ultimate + Push's Tweaks - WMIM Patch.esp
JSawyer Ultimate - EDEM Patch.esp
JSawyer Ultimate - EVEM Patch.esp
JSawyer Ultimate - Mojave Raiders Patch.esp
JSawyer Ultimate - SMIM Patch.esp
Player Combat Priority.esp
brayduck_classic.esp
classic188.esp
Simple Mojave Urbanization.esm
Adobe_ClassicAdobeRedRockCanyon.esm
Windows of the Mojave v1.2.1.esp
B42Inertia.esp
dD - Enhanced Blood Main NV.esp
Couriers Stash - Package Selection Menu.esp
XIII + J3X's Flesh Burnificating Plasma.esp
Another Ghoul Variant Mod.esp
FeralBrightBrother.esp
Vault34GhoulVaultSuits.esp
FOVSlider.esp
Diagonal movement.esp
Animated Ingestibles.esp
Universal Item Sorter.esp
ArmedToTheTeethNV-Redux.esp
Main And Pause Menus Overhaul.esm
Vanilla UI Plus.esp
Animated Player Interactions.esm
Walking_Inertia.esm
T4-plugin.esp
T4-modest.esp
Bullet Tracers NV Shotgun.esp
outsidebets.esp
Titans of The New West.esp
Fallout4PowerArmorsFNV.esm
Strip Gamblers.esm
LFSO.esm
HiddenValleyOverhauled.esm
FPS Weapon Lowering.esp
FNV - Energy Visuals Plus.esp
MoHair.esp
Acies Apachii Hair.esp
LightUpAndSmokeThoseCigarettes_edisleado.esp
hitdaciggy.esp
CourierRangerArmorV2.esp
NCR Ranger Helmet Neck Cover.esp
CharacterKitRemake-Hair.esp
Riot Gear Neck Cover.esp
Prewar_clothing.esp
Holster Gear.esp
Dala_THM_FNV_lite.esp
GLOW_Evil_Detective.esp
WMIMNV.esp
CFWR Animation Fixes.esp
CFWRBalance.esp
LaserWeaponIronSights.esp
PlasmaWeaponIronSights.esp
Fallout_4_Gore_Port.esp
BulletTrails.esp
WWP AR Series.esp
Strip Trees Gated.esp
SSTInsigniaOfTheBrotherhood.esp
LFSO - Ranger Sequoia in NCR Safehouse.esp
AfterglowNeonIllumination.esp
Rotated_Howitzer.esm
NCR Dialogue Expansion.esp
Strip Lighting Overhaul.esp
clean McCarran.esp
EVE FNV - ALL DLC.esp
EVE FNV - Essential Audiovisual Enhancements.esp
Player Headtracking.esp
NaturalWaters.esp
JacobstownRefined.esp
Lucky 38 Lights Redone.esp
Little More Lamplight.esp
Atmospheric Lighting Tweaks.esp
GeneralLightingOverhaul.esp
veronica_no_hood.esp
MNTL-EWSP-GRA.esp
MNTL-EWSP.esp
B42 RWMS.esp
JSRS.esp
ATMOS Ambient Overhaul.esp
ATMOS Ambient Overhaul Intense.esp
TheAIMerge.esp
Lucky38PlayerRoomStripView.esp
Lucky38PlayerRoomStripViewCURTAINS.esp
Lucky38PlayerRoomStripViewENHANCEDLIGHTING.esp
Lucky38PlayerRoomStripViewNEWIMAGESPACE.esp
Lucky38PlayerRoomStripViewOPENSTRIP.esp
Fallout New Vegas Classic Fallout Music Old School Edition.esp
Classic Leather Armor Replacer.esp
Classic Leather Armor Replacer Honest Hearts.esp
Classic Lightweight Leather Armor Replacer.esp
Fallout 2 combat armor MK2 (remastered) replacer.esp
Classic Combat Armor Replacer Redux FNV.esp
SSTRemasteredQuarries.esp
Viva New Vegas - LOD.esp
DNWeathers.esp
NeutralWeathers.esp
NeutralWeathers_NoTint.esp
CC - Rain.esp

Background: I’m 21 female and went with my bf who’s 23 and his parents. It was a 5 day cruise stopping in Cozumel, Mexico and the grand caymans
Honestly, you’re there for the boat. We only stop at the locations for maybe max 8 hours. The excursions are cool but ultimately not worth it because it takes up your entire time on each island. There’s not enough time to explore the towns on your own and do an excursion.
THE BOAT: she’s nice, lots of delicious food. If you’re drinking, get the drink package it’s expensive but worth it because every cocktail is about $14. Also opt for the dining experience at the great gatsby, basically all you can eat but make it a fine dining experience. There is a free buffet on board but the quality is subpar. There’s also a snack bar open until 1am and free ice cream by the pool everyday. Although, there’s no water refill stations and the boat water tastes weird. You can get water with the unlimited drink package but only 2 a day (but I don’t think the workers really follow that).
The pool is super small. The children are annoying. I didn’t feel like they should be there considering there’s a) drunk adults (who were with their kids) b) a casino on board where you can watch old grandpas smoke cigarettes and rot at a slot machine.
There is an adult pool, but it’s inside and out of the sun. Plus, there were adults making out near to fucking in the pool, two grown men hopping in the pool only wearing underwear. Everytime I entered that pool, grown men simply couldn’t stop looking at my boobs, ew. It made me really uncomfortable and forced me to go hang out with screaming children. So your choice of pools are either men in their underwear staring at your boobs or children splashing pool water into your drinks.
SHOUT OUT THE EMPLOYEES they’re genuinely so kind and accommodating and so good at redirecting drunk adults. They make the trip. It is very upsetting because it is clear that they are all minorities from devolping nations. They spend 5-10 months on the boat never leaving. However, if you give them good survey reviews they earn a couple of hours to leave the boat. I did the boat tour (not worth imo, but did open my eyes to their living and working conditions). They stay at the very bottom of the boat in windowless room with all white walls that make you feel like you’ve institutionalized. Constant reminders hang on the walls to smile and greet everyone. It was very uncanny valley because they’re so kind and so nice to the point where you want them to crack. For example, I accidentally left an adult toy out and the nice man who comes to clean our rooms organized it for me. The tour also informed us that they used to work 15-20 hours a day but because laws changed they decided to be generous and only make them work 10-12 hours a day. They talk about going home as if they’re soldiers coming back from war, surprising their kids when they get back.
ON THE FIRST DAY pack your swimsuit in carryon type bag because you will not get your luggage until later in the evening.
There’s a lot to do on the boat. The shows are actually really cool. Don’t worry much about your room, you won’t spend much time in there anyway. It’s kind of a big scam because they nickel and dime you everywhere. Also no free female products, but they are available for purchase.
The NIGHTCLUB is 18+ but it’s still like radio family friendly hits not club, house, or techno (which I assumed, my bad).
DO NOT DO VALET PARKING when you arrive. We waited 30+ mins to get our car back when we were leaving.
The demographic was mainly ages 30+ or under 5 years old. For the 20s, you’re a minority.
Overall, a nice time. But if I could do it again, I would choose an 18+ cruise and prioritize relaxing on the beaches, not the excursions. For the money you spend to be on the cruise, it almost makes it not worth it for the excursions because there’s simply not enough time. I do really hope the employees are happy because there seems to be a cheap labor loophole that royal Caribbean takes advantage of.
Lmk if yall felt the same or different.

My LOD is glitching out in Fallout New Vegas, showing the sign for Monte Carlo Suites all over the hills surrounding Goodsprings, see images:
https://imgur.com/a/IYwkk8Z
Does anyone know what I'm doing wrong? Granted I have a lot of LOD mods installed - is there one in particular that's bugged or are a couple incompatible with each other?
Plugin load order here:

FalloutNV.esm DeadMoney.esm HonestHearts.esm OldWorldBlues.esm LonesomeRoad.esm GunRunnersArsenal.esm ClassicPack.esm MercenaryPack.esm TribalPack.esm CaravanPack.esm YUP - Base Game + All DLC.esm NavmeshOverhaul.esm fixy crap ue.esp Landscape Texture Improvements.esm Vanilla Enhancements.esm Landscape Texture Improvements - YUP Patch.esm Bad Touch.esm Uncut Wasteland.esm Simple Open Freeside.esm Functional Post Game Ending.esm TLD_Travelers.esm Character Expansions Revised.esm Simple Open Strip.esm vault22FloralOverhaul.esm Mojave Wildlife (Vanilla-Style).esp Better Brotherhood.esm Functional Post Game Ending - YUP Patch.esm Walking_Inertia.esm Functional Post Game Ending - Uncut Wasteland Patch (VNV).esp YUP - NPC Fixes (Base Game + All DLC).esp NVMIM.esp Unofficial Patch NVSE Plus.esp Crafting Consistency Fix.esp Impostors and LOD Flicker Fix.esp Vurt's WFO.esp Uncut Wasteland.esp ExRB.esp The Mod Configuration Menu.esp Vanilla UI Plus.esp JustAssortedMods.esp Just Sprint Plus - JAM.esp ImmersiveRecoil.esp Follower Tweaks.esp DelayDLCRedux.esp New Vegas Landscape Overhaul.esp Vigor.esp Vigor - SMIM Patch.esp EVE FNV - ALL DLC.esp Little More Lamplight.esp DLC Enhancements.esp Varmint Rifle 22LR.esp Character Expansions Revised - YUP.esp EVEM - YUP Patch.esp EVEM - Crafting Consistency Fix Patch.esp EVEM - Vigor Patch.esp Trap Tweaks.esp Character Expansions Revised - UW.esp Uncut Wasteland - YUP Patch.esp Uncut Wasteland (VNV) - Vigor Patch.esp IMPACT.esp Uncut Wasteland (VNV) - EVEM Patch.esp Casino Crowds.esp Misc Content Restoration.esp Misc Content Restoration - YUP Patch.esp Misc Content Restoration - UW (VNV) Patch.esp FPGE - EVEM Patch.esp Essential DLC Enhancements Merged - JSUE Patch.esp Better Brotherhood - FPGE Patch.esp Better Brotherhood - YUP Patch.esp FNV FaceGen Fix.esp rockbiter_AnimationSounds.esp B42Inertia.esp Atmospheric Lighting Tweaks - EVEM Patch.esp Interior Rain.esp Viva New Vegas - LOD.esp Diagonal movement.esp 360Movement.esp 360Movement - Diagonal movement Patch.esp Animated Ingestibles.esp B42Bash.esp B42Descriptions.esp dD - Enhanced Blood Main NV.esp dD-Less Screen Blood Time.esp dD-More Gore.esp dD-Reduced Dismember Force.esp LightUpAndSmokeThoseCigarettes_edisleado.esp lightupandsmokethosecigarettes_dm.esp MaxFollowers12.esp QS_Blackwolf_NV_Backpackmod.esp The Weapon Mod Menu.esp FOVSlider.esp boa ncrpahelmet.esp Boacombat2glove.esp Better Burned Man.esp PipBoyEffects.esp PASSDLC.esp LoreAccurateJacobstownVoices.esp Power Armor Holo Panel.esp 3DGrenadeIndicator.esp PipBoyUITweaks.esp ItemCards.esp Character Expansions Revised - Extras.esp Universal Item Sorter.esp JIP Companions Command & Control.esp TreePositions.esp LessFlickeryCityOfNewVegas.esp Atmospheric Lighting Tweaks.esp Strip Lights Region Fix.esp DNWeathers.esp Realism Redux.esp CC - Rain.esp CC - 3D Rain.esp 

Mod list below:

DLC: TribalPack DLC: OldWorldBlues DLC: MercenaryPack DLC: LonesomeRoad DLC: HonestHearts DLC: GunRunnersArsenal DLC: DeadMoney DLC: ClassicPack DLC: CaravanPack [Viva New Vegas 30.4.2024] [Utilities] Fixed ESMs JIP LN NVSE Plugin JIP LN Settings INI JohnnyGuitar NVSE JohnnyGuitar NVSE - All Tweaks Preset ShowOff xNVSE Plugin ShowOff INI NVTF - New Vegas Tick Fix NVTF - Viva Default Preset NVTF - Texture Modding Preset kNVSE Animation Plugin UIO - User Interface Organizer FNV Mod Limit Fix Yvile's Crash Logger Improved Console (NVSE) Console Paste Support Basic Console Autocomplete KEYWORDS [Bug Fixes] Yukichigai Unofficial Patch - YUP Unofficial Patch NVSE Plus Improved AI (Navmesh Overhaul Mod) lStewieAl's Tweaks and Engine Fixes Stewie Tweaks Essentials INI lStewieAl's Engine Optimizations Combat Lag Fix (NVSE) VATS Lag Fix Viewmodel Shake Fix - NVSE ISControl Enabler and Ironsights adjuster (now ESPless) New Vegas Mesh Improvement Mod - NVMIM skinned mesh improvement mod PipBoyOn Node Fixes Meshes and Collision - Totally Enhanced Nifs (MAC-TEN) Items Transformed - Enhanced Meshes (ITEM) Improved Lighting Shaders Pip-Boy Shading Fix NVSE Climate Control NVSE Misc Audio Tweaks and Fixes Elijah Missing Distortion Fix ActorCause Save Bloat Fix MoonlightNVSE Aqua Performa - Strip Performance Fix Fallout Alpha Rendering Tweaks - NVSE External Emittance Fix - NVSE Depth of Field Fix - NVSE Crafting Consistency Fix ExRB - Extended Roombounds Strip Lights Region Fix Swimming Creatures Fix - ESPless Impostors and LOD Flicker Fix [User Interface] The Mod Configuration Menu MCM BugFix 2 VUIPlus - Dialog Background Add-on Clean Vanilla Hud Clean Companion Wheel 256x256 Edition High Res Local Maps High Resolution Screens Faster Main Menu Menu Search JIP Improved Recipe Menu ESPless Sleep Wait Hardcore Needs No Exit to Main Menu [Gameplay] JAM - Just Assorted Mods JAM - VNV Configuration JLM Grab Tweak Clean Just Assorted Mods (JAM) Just Sprint Plus - Expansion for JAM and JVS Immersive Recoil 2.0 Follower Tweaks Delay DLC Redux Better Caravan Cookable Grenades Faster Sleep-Wait Auto-Save Manager Bad Touch NVSE Bad Touch NVSE - Minimalist Preset [Overhauls] Vigor - A Vanilla JSawyer Fork smim - vigor patch Simple Vigor Config Varmint Rifle 22LR Essential Vanilla Enhancements Merged EVEM - YUP Patch EVEM - Crafting Consistency Fix Patch EVEM - Vigor Patch Traps Tweaks - Traps Use Other Skills Harder Barter Faster Stronger [Content] Uncut Wasteland Uncut Wasteland (VNV) - Vigor Patch Uncut Wasteland (VNV) - EVEM Patch Misc Content Restoration Misc Content Restoration - YUP Patch Misc Content Restoration - UW (VNV) Patch Functional Post Game Ending FPGE - EVEM Patch Essential DLC Enhancements Merged Essential DLC Enhancements Merged - JSUE Patch The Living Desert - Travelers Patrols Consequences Increased Population and more Better Brotherhood [Visuals] Mostly Fixed FaceGen Tints (NV or TTW) Muzzle Flash Light Fix - NVSE Viewmodel Shading Fix - NVSE Anniversary Anim Pack FNV Clean Animations Iron Sights Aligned Smooth True Iron Sights Camera B42 Weapon Inertia B42 Optics - ESPless B42 Optics NV Patches High Resolution Water Fog - Water Aliasing Fix Improved LOD Noise Texture Landscape Texture Improvements Wasted Rocks Normals More Consistent Vanilla Rock Textures (Less Green Clifftops) A Little More Lamplight Atmospheric Lighting Tweaks (Interior Lighting for FNV and TTW) Atmospheric Lighting Tweaks - EVEM Patch Desert Natural Weathers - NV - TTW High Resolution Bloom NVSE Cloud Upgrade NVSE Interior Rain 3D Rain Climate Control - Rain Climate Control - 3D Rain [LOD] LOD Fixes and Improvements - NVSE FNVLODGen Resources Much Needed LOD - Cleaned Much Needed LOD fixed rocks color LOD additions and improvements Less Flickery City of New Vegas FNV LOD Supplementation FNV LOD Supplementation - Optional Overpasses TCM's LOD Overhaul More LODs Additions and fixes Wasted LOD - Cliffs of Mojave Different LOD mods little tweaks and additions LODIFY - Level of detail improvement for your Fallout (TTW And NV Lods) LODIFY FNV Wall_SoGB Editon VNV - LOD Patches VNV Pre-Generated LOD [Ryan Installed] OneTweak Ultrawide Black Box Fix Uncut Wasteland plus NPCs FNVUltrawider New Vegas Stutter Removal for Windows 10 Infinite Loading Screen Fix NVAC - New Vegas Anti Crash New Vegas Landscape Overhaul Remastered Simple Open Strip EVE - Essential Visual Enhancements Enhanced Camera 1.4c Enhanced Blood Textures Collision Meshes FNV update Collision Meshes FNV 1.6.3 to 1.6.4 MTUI Diagonal Movement 0.6b The Weapon Mod Menu Max Followers Desert Natural Realism Redux NV Map Marker Icons Pop-Up Message Icons Vault Boy Paper Doll Consistent Pip-Boy Icons v5 - Items Consistent Pip-Boy Icons v5 - Apparel Consistent Pip-Boy Icons v5 - Framework Plugin Consistent Pip-Boy Icons v5 - Weapons Weapon Hotkey Icons Consistent Pip-Boy Icons v5 - Extension Consistent Pip-Boy Icons v5 - DLC's Items Consistent Pip-Boy Icons v5 - Reputation Consistent Pip-Boy Icons v5 - Addendumb Stats (And Some Perks) Consistent Pip-Boy Icons v5 - Dynamicon Vanilla Fonts Revisited Alternative Icons Vanilla UI Plus (New Vegas) My Mommie Says I'm Special Consistent Pip-Boy Icons - Mod Patches Optional Plugins Animated Ingestibles (english) Animated Ingestibles - Update (english) 360 Movement NV Compatibility Skeleton PipBoy 3000 HD Retexture - PC and Xbox B42 Melee Bash IMPACT - The Michael Bay Light Up and Smoke Those Cigarettes v6d Dead Money Patch Hi-Res Eyes 1-2 Blackwolf Backpacks New Vegas ver01d Blackwolf Backpacks Nash Vendor Only B42 Descriptions Wasteland Flora Overhaul UHQNV Rocks - Roads and Terrain Overhaul Honest Hearts Trees and Plants and Rocks Overhaul MGs NCR Pack Ammo box BB Cigs Beige Pack Common globe Duct Tape Mop bucket_flat mop Improved OWB Robot Textures Improved Robots Textures Improved LR Robot Textures BOA NV The Book Of Flesh nov 2011 book of steel Hall Of Equipment PM's Med-Textures Better Burned Man Super Mutants HD - 4k WTH - Weapon Textures from Heaven 2k NMCs Textures NV LARGE Pack Part 1 of 3 FOR NMM NMCs Textures NV LARGE Pack Part 2 of 3 FOR NMM NMCs Textures NV LARGE Pack Part 3 of 3 FOR NMM Naval Chair Fix Water Tower Clark County Fix NMC New Vegas Patch for ALL Sized packs 21-9 Ratio Main screen for NMCs Texture Pack NMC's Pre-Generated Original LOD Updated NMC LOD texture fix NMC LOD Patch Walking Inertia SUP NVSE Plugin FOV Slider Pip-Boy Effects P.A.S.S. - Power Armor Suspension Shocks Lore Accurate Jacobstown Voices SPAHUD 3D Grenade Indicator yUI ySI - Sorting Icons ySI - Colorful Icons Fix ySI - Colorful Icons Fix (JLM) Pip-Boy UI Tweaks Color Inventory Ycons TTW Weapon Mod Description Fix Item Cards Simple Open Freeside Character Expansions Revised Character Expansions Revised - UW Character Expansions Revised - YUP Vault 22 Flora Overhaul Remastered Universal Item Sorter JIP Companions Command and Control Casino Crowds Mojave Wildlife - Vanilla Version FNVLODGen Output 

My LOD is glitching out, showing the sign for Monte Carlo Suites all over the hills surrounding Goodsprings, see images:
https://imgur.com/a/IYwkk8Z
Does anyone know what I'm doing wrong? Granted I have a lot of LOD mods installed - is there one in particular that's bugged or are a couple incompatible with each other? Mod list below:

DLC: TribalPack DLC: OldWorldBlues DLC: MercenaryPack DLC: LonesomeRoad DLC: HonestHearts DLC: GunRunnersArsenal DLC: DeadMoney DLC: ClassicPack DLC: CaravanPack [Viva New Vegas 30.4.2024] [Utilities] Fixed ESMs JIP LN NVSE Plugin JIP LN Settings INI JohnnyGuitar NVSE JohnnyGuitar NVSE - All Tweaks Preset ShowOff xNVSE Plugin ShowOff INI NVTF - New Vegas Tick Fix NVTF - Viva Default Preset NVTF - Texture Modding Preset kNVSE Animation Plugin UIO - User Interface Organizer FNV Mod Limit Fix Yvile's Crash Logger Improved Console (NVSE) Console Paste Support Basic Console Autocomplete KEYWORDS [Bug Fixes] Yukichigai Unofficial Patch - YUP Unofficial Patch NVSE Plus Improved AI (Navmesh Overhaul Mod) lStewieAl's Tweaks and Engine Fixes Stewie Tweaks Essentials INI lStewieAl's Engine Optimizations Combat Lag Fix (NVSE) VATS Lag Fix Viewmodel Shake Fix - NVSE ISControl Enabler and Ironsights adjuster (now ESPless) New Vegas Mesh Improvement Mod - NVMIM skinned mesh improvement mod PipBoyOn Node Fixes Meshes and Collision - Totally Enhanced Nifs (MAC-TEN) Items Transformed - Enhanced Meshes (ITEM) Improved Lighting Shaders Pip-Boy Shading Fix NVSE Climate Control NVSE Misc Audio Tweaks and Fixes Elijah Missing Distortion Fix ActorCause Save Bloat Fix MoonlightNVSE Aqua Performa - Strip Performance Fix Fallout Alpha Rendering Tweaks - NVSE External Emittance Fix - NVSE Depth of Field Fix - NVSE Crafting Consistency Fix ExRB - Extended Roombounds Strip Lights Region Fix Swimming Creatures Fix - ESPless Impostors and LOD Flicker Fix [User Interface] The Mod Configuration Menu MCM BugFix 2 VUIPlus - Dialog Background Add-on Clean Vanilla Hud Clean Companion Wheel 256x256 Edition High Res Local Maps High Resolution Screens Faster Main Menu Menu Search JIP Improved Recipe Menu ESPless Sleep Wait Hardcore Needs No Exit to Main Menu [Gameplay] JAM - Just Assorted Mods JAM - VNV Configuration JLM Grab Tweak Clean Just Assorted Mods (JAM) Just Sprint Plus - Expansion for JAM and JVS Immersive Recoil 2.0 Follower Tweaks Delay DLC Redux Better Caravan Cookable Grenades Faster Sleep-Wait Auto-Save Manager Bad Touch NVSE Bad Touch NVSE - Minimalist Preset [Overhauls] Vigor - A Vanilla JSawyer Fork smim - vigor patch Simple Vigor Config Varmint Rifle 22LR Essential Vanilla Enhancements Merged EVEM - YUP Patch EVEM - Crafting Consistency Fix Patch EVEM - Vigor Patch Traps Tweaks - Traps Use Other Skills Harder Barter Faster Stronger [Content] Uncut Wasteland Uncut Wasteland (VNV) - Vigor Patch Uncut Wasteland (VNV) - EVEM Patch Misc Content Restoration Misc Content Restoration - YUP Patch Misc Content Restoration - UW (VNV) Patch Functional Post Game Ending FPGE - EVEM Patch Essential DLC Enhancements Merged Essential DLC Enhancements Merged - JSUE Patch The Living Desert - Travelers Patrols Consequences Increased Population and more Better Brotherhood [Visuals] Mostly Fixed FaceGen Tints (NV or TTW) Muzzle Flash Light Fix - NVSE Viewmodel Shading Fix - NVSE Anniversary Anim Pack FNV Clean Animations Iron Sights Aligned Smooth True Iron Sights Camera B42 Weapon Inertia B42 Optics - ESPless B42 Optics NV Patches High Resolution Water Fog - Water Aliasing Fix Improved LOD Noise Texture Landscape Texture Improvements Wasted Rocks Normals More Consistent Vanilla Rock Textures (Less Green Clifftops) A Little More Lamplight Atmospheric Lighting Tweaks (Interior Lighting for FNV and TTW) Atmospheric Lighting Tweaks - EVEM Patch Desert Natural Weathers - NV - TTW High Resolution Bloom NVSE Cloud Upgrade NVSE Interior Rain 3D Rain Climate Control - Rain Climate Control - 3D Rain [LOD] LOD Fixes and Improvements - NVSE FNVLODGen Resources Much Needed LOD - Cleaned Much Needed LOD fixed rocks color LOD additions and improvements Less Flickery City of New Vegas FNV LOD Supplementation FNV LOD Supplementation - Optional Overpasses TCM's LOD Overhaul More LODs Additions and fixes Wasted LOD - Cliffs of Mojave Different LOD mods little tweaks and additions LODIFY - Level of detail improvement for your Fallout (TTW And NV Lods) LODIFY FNV Wall_SoGB Editon VNV - LOD Patches VNV Pre-Generated LOD [Ryan Installed] OneTweak Ultrawide Black Box Fix Uncut Wasteland plus NPCs FNVUltrawider New Vegas Stutter Removal for Windows 10 Infinite Loading Screen Fix NVAC - New Vegas Anti Crash New Vegas Landscape Overhaul Remastered Simple Open Strip EVE - Essential Visual Enhancements Enhanced Camera 1.4c Enhanced Blood Textures Collision Meshes FNV update Collision Meshes FNV 1.6.3 to 1.6.4 MTUI Diagonal Movement 0.6b The Weapon Mod Menu Max Followers Desert Natural Realism Redux NV Map Marker Icons Pop-Up Message Icons Vault Boy Paper Doll Consistent Pip-Boy Icons v5 - Items Consistent Pip-Boy Icons v5 - Apparel Consistent Pip-Boy Icons v5 - Framework Plugin Consistent Pip-Boy Icons v5 - Weapons Weapon Hotkey Icons Consistent Pip-Boy Icons v5 - Extension Consistent Pip-Boy Icons v5 - DLC's Items Consistent Pip-Boy Icons v5 - Reputation Consistent Pip-Boy Icons v5 - Addendumb Stats (And Some Perks) Consistent Pip-Boy Icons v5 - Dynamicon Vanilla Fonts Revisited Alternative Icons Vanilla UI Plus (New Vegas) My Mommie Says I'm Special Consistent Pip-Boy Icons - Mod Patches Optional Plugins Animated Ingestibles (english) Animated Ingestibles - Update (english) 360 Movement NV Compatibility Skeleton PipBoy 3000 HD Retexture - PC and Xbox B42 Melee Bash IMPACT - The Michael Bay Light Up and Smoke Those Cigarettes v6d Dead Money Patch Hi-Res Eyes 1-2 Blackwolf Backpacks New Vegas ver01d Blackwolf Backpacks Nash Vendor Only B42 Descriptions Wasteland Flora Overhaul UHQNV Rocks - Roads and Terrain Overhaul Honest Hearts Trees and Plants and Rocks Overhaul MGs NCR Pack Ammo box BB Cigs Beige Pack Common globe Duct Tape Mop bucket_flat mop Improved OWB Robot Textures Improved Robots Textures Improved LR Robot Textures BOA NV The Book Of Flesh nov 2011 book of steel Hall Of Equipment PM's Med-Textures Better Burned Man Super Mutants HD - 4k WTH - Weapon Textures from Heaven 2k NMCs Textures NV LARGE Pack Part 1 of 3 FOR NMM NMCs Textures NV LARGE Pack Part 2 of 3 FOR NMM NMCs Textures NV LARGE Pack Part 3 of 3 FOR NMM Naval Chair Fix Water Tower Clark County Fix NMC New Vegas Patch for ALL Sized packs 21-9 Ratio Main screen for NMCs Texture Pack NMC's Pre-Generated Original LOD Updated NMC LOD texture fix NMC LOD Patch Walking Inertia SUP NVSE Plugin FOV Slider Pip-Boy Effects P.A.S.S. - Power Armor Suspension Shocks Lore Accurate Jacobstown Voices SPAHUD 3D Grenade Indicator yUI ySI - Sorting Icons ySI - Colorful Icons Fix ySI - Colorful Icons Fix (JLM) Pip-Boy UI Tweaks Color Inventory Ycons TTW Weapon Mod Description Fix Item Cards Simple Open Freeside Character Expansions Revised Character Expansions Revised - UW Character Expansions Revised - YUP Vault 22 Flora Overhaul Remastered Universal Item Sorter JIP Companions Command and Control Casino Crowds Mojave Wildlife - Vanilla Version FNVLODGen Output 

Plugin load order here:

FalloutNV.esm DeadMoney.esm HonestHearts.esm OldWorldBlues.esm LonesomeRoad.esm GunRunnersArsenal.esm ClassicPack.esm MercenaryPack.esm TribalPack.esm CaravanPack.esm YUP - Base Game + All DLC.esm NavmeshOverhaul.esm fixy crap ue.esp Landscape Texture Improvements.esm Vanilla Enhancements.esm Landscape Texture Improvements - YUP Patch.esm Bad Touch.esm Uncut Wasteland.esm Simple Open Freeside.esm Functional Post Game Ending.esm TLD_Travelers.esm Character Expansions Revised.esm Simple Open Strip.esm vault22FloralOverhaul.esm Mojave Wildlife (Vanilla-Style).esp Better Brotherhood.esm Functional Post Game Ending - YUP Patch.esm Walking_Inertia.esm Functional Post Game Ending - Uncut Wasteland Patch (VNV).esp YUP - NPC Fixes (Base Game + All DLC).esp NVMIM.esp Unofficial Patch NVSE Plus.esp Crafting Consistency Fix.esp Impostors and LOD Flicker Fix.esp Vurt's WFO.esp Uncut Wasteland.esp ExRB.esp The Mod Configuration Menu.esp Vanilla UI Plus.esp JustAssortedMods.esp Just Sprint Plus - JAM.esp ImmersiveRecoil.esp Follower Tweaks.esp DelayDLCRedux.esp New Vegas Landscape Overhaul.esp Vigor.esp Vigor - SMIM Patch.esp EVE FNV - ALL DLC.esp Little More Lamplight.esp DLC Enhancements.esp Varmint Rifle 22LR.esp Character Expansions Revised - YUP.esp EVEM - YUP Patch.esp EVEM - Crafting Consistency Fix Patch.esp EVEM - Vigor Patch.esp Trap Tweaks.esp Character Expansions Revised - UW.esp Uncut Wasteland - YUP Patch.esp Uncut Wasteland (VNV) - Vigor Patch.esp IMPACT.esp Uncut Wasteland (VNV) - EVEM Patch.esp Casino Crowds.esp Misc Content Restoration.esp Misc Content Restoration - YUP Patch.esp Misc Content Restoration - UW (VNV) Patch.esp FPGE - EVEM Patch.esp Essential DLC Enhancements Merged - JSUE Patch.esp Better Brotherhood - FPGE Patch.esp Better Brotherhood - YUP Patch.esp FNV FaceGen Fix.esp rockbiter_AnimationSounds.esp B42Inertia.esp Atmospheric Lighting Tweaks - EVEM Patch.esp Interior Rain.esp Viva New Vegas - LOD.esp Diagonal movement.esp 360Movement.esp 360Movement - Diagonal movement Patch.esp Animated Ingestibles.esp B42Bash.esp B42Descriptions.esp dD - Enhanced Blood Main NV.esp dD-Less Screen Blood Time.esp dD-More Gore.esp dD-Reduced Dismember Force.esp LightUpAndSmokeThoseCigarettes_edisleado.esp lightupandsmokethosecigarettes_dm.esp MaxFollowers12.esp QS_Blackwolf_NV_Backpackmod.esp The Weapon Mod Menu.esp FOVSlider.esp boa ncrpahelmet.esp Boacombat2glove.esp Better Burned Man.esp PipBoyEffects.esp PASSDLC.esp LoreAccurateJacobstownVoices.esp Power Armor Holo Panel.esp 3DGrenadeIndicator.esp PipBoyUITweaks.esp ItemCards.esp Character Expansions Revised - Extras.esp Universal Item Sorter.esp JIP Companions Command & Control.esp TreePositions.esp LessFlickeryCityOfNewVegas.esp Atmospheric Lighting Tweaks.esp Strip Lights Region Fix.esp DNWeathers.esp Realism Redux.esp CC - Rain.esp CC - 3D Rain.esp