Belated birthday poem
I’m in love with a coworker, but I need to let her go.
2024.05.21 11:57 Music_Man31 I’m in love with a coworker, but I need to let her go.
So this time last year (May ‘23) I went to see HR regarding a hiring committee I was a part of and the favoritism they showed a candidate. The Director of HR, granted she was the only HR employee at the time, is this beautiful African American woman with big, bright eyes and a gorgeous smile. We talked about my committee and then we just talked about life. She was going through hard times. We ended up becoming fast friends. I would go and check up on her.
Fast forward to August, I went to go see her again. Just dropped in as a quick hello and was reminded how beautiful she was. The next week I saw her. She stopped by where I was standing in line for food and touched my shoulder, finger to skin, and I literally felt a spark go through me. She just stopped to say hi. I think that was the moment I couldn’t stop thinking about her. From that moment forward I started to go to her office once a week. We had great conversation. I was learning more about her. We had astrology in common. We learned about each other’s families. We both were having problems as she was on the edge of divorce. My love life at the time was nonexistent with my wife and crumbling. However I started to enjoy her company way more than expected.
Because of our interest in astrology I knew her birthday was coming up in October. I decided to buy her a birthday card with a gift card for a restaurant. Before I got out of the car I said to myself ‘I think I’m in love with her’. That’s when I knew I was in trouble. I had began to write poems about her (which seem to be therapeutic) and having non stop thoughts of her. Mind you I’m still going to her office once a week. I gave her the card. We are still talking. She’s still going through shit with her husband. I’m talking about her to select coworkers. I offered to buy her lunch, another way to spend time with her. Well turns out she had a meeting with our CEO and we would have had less than 10 minutes. I was devastated. Like seriously heartbroken. Thus began my limerence. I still went to see her every chance I got. Probably too much. She never told me to not come and see her. In fact it became ‘You should come by more often’. I did.
A conference that both of us and several other employees attended happened in late November to December. We were very connected at the hip. She flashed me her room number without saying a word. I chose not to go. Literally the week before during Thanksgiving two things happened. 1) I ran into a psychic who gave me a reading and told me not to sleep with her. 2) My wife and I had a devastating argument about the state of our marriage. It had went to shit when we started therapy. Skipping the fact that I didn’t go up that night we had a great time together. We spent an incredible amount of time together. It was fun. I felt incredibly refreshed having spent time with her. The one downside to the entire trip was that she told me she was reconciling with her husband.
I asked her out twice for a meal in December. She never gave a direct no, but created excuses. January came and she got sick. I texted her a lot checking in on her. When she came back I asked her if I texted her too much. She said yes. I completely stopped. I think my poetry ramped up more because of that. She also reminded me she was trying to reconcile with her husband. In the same breath she asked me how I was doing as I was newly separated. It became emotional.
The next event per se happened in February. After Valentine’s Day I went to see her. I asked how things were going with her and her husband. She said they went well. I had started talking with people on dating apps. I mentioned this to her and she seemed a bit bothered. I was surprised. Somehow my wife came into conversation and I told her that I talk to her more than my wife. She blushed! Despite having good moments with her I was heartbroken that her and her husband were doing well.
I didn’t go see her for two weeks. There was a function midday. She waved at me and I was excited to see her. When I started to walk towards her she turned around and ignored me. This hurt me severely as I have trauma from people ignoring me. I stopped going to see her again. She texts me for my birthday, granted it was a week late, but I was excited. This was the first time we had a text conversation in over two months. She mentioned that she had to take medical leave. Needless to say I was devastated. I went to see her and she was very sad. She started telling me about her family life as a child, but we were interrupted.
While she was out, a coworker started a meal train account for her so she wouldn’t have to cook. There was an area where you could buy DoorDash gift cards. I bought $200 worth and also sent $300 in visa gift cards via a coworker who would see her.
When she comes back to work she tries to give one of the gift cards back. I told her I wouldn’t accept it back.
I’m very in love (or limerence/infatuated) with her. I’ve tried dating other people, but that doesn’t help as I end up talking about her when asked is there someone else.
I want to ask her what her thoughts are about me, but I’m horrified that she thinks I’m a creep.
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Fast forward to August, I went to go see her again. Just dropped in as a quick hello and was reminded how beautiful she was. The next week I saw her. She stopped by where I was standing in line for food and touched my shoulder, finger to skin, and I literally felt a spark go through me. She just stopped to say hi. I think that was the moment I couldn’t stop thinking about her. From that moment forward I started to go to her office once a week. We had great conversation. I was learning more about her. We had astrology in common. We learned about each other’s families. We both were having problems as she was on the edge of divorce. My love life at the time was nonexistent with my wife and crumbling. However I started to enjoy her company way more than expected.
Because of our interest in astrology I knew her birthday was coming up in October. I decided to buy her a birthday card with a gift card for a restaurant. Before I got out of the car I said to myself ‘I think I’m in love with her’. That’s when I knew I was in trouble. I had began to write poems about her (which seem to be therapeutic) and having non stop thoughts of her. Mind you I’m still going to her office once a week. I gave her the card. We are still talking. She’s still going through shit with her husband. I’m talking about her to select coworkers. I offered to buy her lunch, another way to spend time with her. Well turns out she had a meeting with our CEO and we would have had less than 10 minutes. I was devastated. Like seriously heartbroken. Thus began my limerence. I still went to see her every chance I got. Probably too much. She never told me to not come and see her. In fact it became ‘You should come by more often’. I did.
A conference that both of us and several other employees attended happened in late November to December. We were very connected at the hip. She flashed me her room number without saying a word. I chose not to go. Literally the week before during Thanksgiving two things happened. 1) I ran into a psychic who gave me a reading and told me not to sleep with her. 2) My wife and I had a devastating argument about the state of our marriage. It had went to shit when we started therapy. Skipping the fact that I didn’t go up that night we had a great time together. We spent an incredible amount of time together. It was fun. I felt incredibly refreshed having spent time with her. The one downside to the entire trip was that she told me she was reconciling with her husband.
I asked her out twice for a meal in December. She never gave a direct no, but created excuses. January came and she got sick. I texted her a lot checking in on her. When she came back I asked her if I texted her too much. She said yes. I completely stopped. I think my poetry ramped up more because of that. She also reminded me she was trying to reconcile with her husband. In the same breath she asked me how I was doing as I was newly separated. It became emotional.
The next event per se happened in February. After Valentine’s Day I went to see her. I asked how things were going with her and her husband. She said they went well. I had started talking with people on dating apps. I mentioned this to her and she seemed a bit bothered. I was surprised. Somehow my wife came into conversation and I told her that I talk to her more than my wife. She blushed! Despite having good moments with her I was heartbroken that her and her husband were doing well.
I didn’t go see her for two weeks. There was a function midday. She waved at me and I was excited to see her. When I started to walk towards her she turned around and ignored me. This hurt me severely as I have trauma from people ignoring me. I stopped going to see her again. She texts me for my birthday, granted it was a week late, but I was excited. This was the first time we had a text conversation in over two months. She mentioned that she had to take medical leave. Needless to say I was devastated. I went to see her and she was very sad. She started telling me about her family life as a child, but we were interrupted.
While she was out, a coworker started a meal train account for her so she wouldn’t have to cook. There was an area where you could buy DoorDash gift cards. I bought $200 worth and also sent $300 in visa gift cards via a coworker who would see her.
When she comes back to work she tries to give one of the gift cards back. I told her I wouldn’t accept it back.
I’m very in love (or limerence/infatuated) with her. I’ve tried dating other people, but that doesn’t help as I end up talking about her when asked is there someone else.
I want to ask her what her thoughts are about me, but I’m horrified that she thinks I’m a creep.
2024.05.21 10:15 Specific-Wave6637 I might be a Day or Two late but Happy belated Birthday Parth
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2024.05.21 04:17 Hobbit-guy Belated birthday haul!
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2024.05.20 19:47 Thegamestaker I tried to complete the game in only first person
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2024.05.20 18:18 HP_Pavi19 Happy belated birthday, Sae-sensei~ (by ライ1 @Meronpan_Yome)
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2024.05.20 12:36 genevievehonk happy belated birthday
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2024.05.20 11:53 Academic_Lychee5400 What should I do about my (34F) friend's (32F) flakiness and deception?
I (34F) met a friend (32F) via an app last year and we really hit it off. Have loads in common, like the same writers and thinkers, have good conversations, etc. Hang out maybe once every 2-3 weeks.
She has a habit of flaking out of things last minute with bullshit excuses and it's gotten very annoying.
It was her birthday in April and I didn't want to attend because I was insanely stressed and busy and would have preferred to use that time working. However I did attend and I got her a thoughtful gift. Because I figure, that's what friends do.
She did something very weird later on that night. Some of the group were going to a sold-out club night. I thought I'll go if there are tickets for sale at the door. There wasn't, and 32F handed me a ticket saying it was "spare". Later on I found it it was her other friend's ticket that she had given me and this friend was angry that she couldn't get in. I know she doesn't like this friend much but that's irrelevant. I 100% wouldn't have taken the ticket if I knew it was for someone else. So she gave it to me just 'cause she'd personally prefer me to come instead of the other friend? TBF I have yet to hear a full explanation for this.
I texted her the next day saying I feel terrible for unwittingly taking her friend's ticket and can she send me bank details so I can pay her back. She said it was a "group decision" (I don't know what this means) and don't worry about it. The next day she text me saying the friend wants money for the ticket after all, and can I transfer to *her* (32F's) bank account rather than the jilted friend's account. I said fine, how much. She said £15. I saw on the website that it's actually £10.50. A weirdly small amount of money to lie about.
I was my birthday recently and I had reminded her about the event multiple times since I organised it 3 months ago. On the day she text me saying she completely forgot it was today and she's with a friend in another city. I really was not impressed with this, especially since I made the effort to go to her birthday when I was busy and she only had to tell me about it once. I'm not sure what's worse - she genuinely forgot, indicating a lack of consideration, or she came up with a bullshit excuse, indicating deception.
Generally I've noticed she lies her head off about little things. One time we were supposed to meet up she flaked saying she "promised her housemate she'd cook for them both". I happen to know she doesn't talk to this housemate who doesn't even let 32F use her pots and pans. She's also lied about being ill to get out of things.
Some time after the birthday flaking I asked her if she'd like to go to a film screening, purchasing my boyfriend's ticket as he can't come anymore. She enthusiastically agreed. On the day of the screening I didn't hear from her at all and then the next day I get a slew of long-winded apologetic messages saying her "phone was turned off" and she'd "mixed up the dates". I'm pretty sure she's bullshitting and just didn't feel like coming, probably just wanted to chill with her boyfriend, in which case she could have told me in advance so I could give the ticket to someone else. TBF she said she was going to pay my boyfriend regardless but I don't know if she followed through with that as I'm too annoyed to talk to her.
She's expressed interest in meeting one of my likeminded friends for some time. We've arranged for them to meet maybe 5 or 6 times and she's flaked out of all of them last minute. One of those times we went out of our way to make the location convenient for her.
Another thing, around Christmas I introduced her to one of my best friends (43M) who I very briefly dated ages ago and no longer have feelings for. They hit it off and began dating in March this year. This is completely fine by me, I think it's nice. When they started dating she wanted to hide it from me for some reason. Similarly, she briefly dated a friend (Unknown age, M) of a friend (36F) and wanted to hide it from 36F. Really ploughing her way through everyone's mates, lol. We were supposed to have dinner with 36F on Good Friday and 32F knew she wouldn't go because this guy had gotten her tickets to London for a concert. I thought, you should tell her right away, that's Good Friday, she could be making other plans. But she still dillied and dallied telling her. Eventually did tell her TBF.
FWIW I've since fallen out with 43M for various reasons and no longer speak to him although I did make niceties at 32F's birthday.
I'm beginning to think she's one of these people who just follows her whims and does what she wants at all times. I feel like I've been quite a good friend and done a lot for her. Literally got her a boyfriend, lol. Since flaking out of the film screening she's sent me some long-winded messages saying she feels terrible and she wants to take me for belated birthday cocktails, lots of x's and hearts and lalala. Should I confront her directly about all of the above, ignore her going forward or otherwise? My time is literally valuable these days and I don't want to waste my time on people who chronically inconvenience me.
TLDR: My friend of less than a year chronically flakes on things that are important to me and lies about it, what should I do?
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She has a habit of flaking out of things last minute with bullshit excuses and it's gotten very annoying.
It was her birthday in April and I didn't want to attend because I was insanely stressed and busy and would have preferred to use that time working. However I did attend and I got her a thoughtful gift. Because I figure, that's what friends do.
She did something very weird later on that night. Some of the group were going to a sold-out club night. I thought I'll go if there are tickets for sale at the door. There wasn't, and 32F handed me a ticket saying it was "spare". Later on I found it it was her other friend's ticket that she had given me and this friend was angry that she couldn't get in. I know she doesn't like this friend much but that's irrelevant. I 100% wouldn't have taken the ticket if I knew it was for someone else. So she gave it to me just 'cause she'd personally prefer me to come instead of the other friend? TBF I have yet to hear a full explanation for this.
I texted her the next day saying I feel terrible for unwittingly taking her friend's ticket and can she send me bank details so I can pay her back. She said it was a "group decision" (I don't know what this means) and don't worry about it. The next day she text me saying the friend wants money for the ticket after all, and can I transfer to *her* (32F's) bank account rather than the jilted friend's account. I said fine, how much. She said £15. I saw on the website that it's actually £10.50. A weirdly small amount of money to lie about.
I was my birthday recently and I had reminded her about the event multiple times since I organised it 3 months ago. On the day she text me saying she completely forgot it was today and she's with a friend in another city. I really was not impressed with this, especially since I made the effort to go to her birthday when I was busy and she only had to tell me about it once. I'm not sure what's worse - she genuinely forgot, indicating a lack of consideration, or she came up with a bullshit excuse, indicating deception.
Generally I've noticed she lies her head off about little things. One time we were supposed to meet up she flaked saying she "promised her housemate she'd cook for them both". I happen to know she doesn't talk to this housemate who doesn't even let 32F use her pots and pans. She's also lied about being ill to get out of things.
Some time after the birthday flaking I asked her if she'd like to go to a film screening, purchasing my boyfriend's ticket as he can't come anymore. She enthusiastically agreed. On the day of the screening I didn't hear from her at all and then the next day I get a slew of long-winded apologetic messages saying her "phone was turned off" and she'd "mixed up the dates". I'm pretty sure she's bullshitting and just didn't feel like coming, probably just wanted to chill with her boyfriend, in which case she could have told me in advance so I could give the ticket to someone else. TBF she said she was going to pay my boyfriend regardless but I don't know if she followed through with that as I'm too annoyed to talk to her.
She's expressed interest in meeting one of my likeminded friends for some time. We've arranged for them to meet maybe 5 or 6 times and she's flaked out of all of them last minute. One of those times we went out of our way to make the location convenient for her.
Another thing, around Christmas I introduced her to one of my best friends (43M) who I very briefly dated ages ago and no longer have feelings for. They hit it off and began dating in March this year. This is completely fine by me, I think it's nice. When they started dating she wanted to hide it from me for some reason. Similarly, she briefly dated a friend (Unknown age, M) of a friend (36F) and wanted to hide it from 36F. Really ploughing her way through everyone's mates, lol. We were supposed to have dinner with 36F on Good Friday and 32F knew she wouldn't go because this guy had gotten her tickets to London for a concert. I thought, you should tell her right away, that's Good Friday, she could be making other plans. But she still dillied and dallied telling her. Eventually did tell her TBF.
FWIW I've since fallen out with 43M for various reasons and no longer speak to him although I did make niceties at 32F's birthday.
I'm beginning to think she's one of these people who just follows her whims and does what she wants at all times. I feel like I've been quite a good friend and done a lot for her. Literally got her a boyfriend, lol. Since flaking out of the film screening she's sent me some long-winded messages saying she feels terrible and she wants to take me for belated birthday cocktails, lots of x's and hearts and lalala. Should I confront her directly about all of the above, ignore her going forward or otherwise? My time is literally valuable these days and I don't want to waste my time on people who chronically inconvenience me.
TLDR: My friend of less than a year chronically flakes on things that are important to me and lies about it, what should I do?
2024.05.20 11:50 Academic_Lychee5400 What should I do about friend's flakiness and deception? (Long post)
I (34F) met a friend (32F) via an app last year and we really hit it off. Have loads in common, like the same writers and thinkers, have good conversations, etc. Hang out maybe once every 2-3 weeks.
She has a habit of flaking out of things last minute with bullshit excuses and it's gotten very annoying.
It was her birthday in April and I didn't want to attend because I was insanely stressed and busy and would have preferred to use that time working. However I did attend and I got her a thoughtful gift. Because I figure, that's what friends do.
She did something very weird later on that night. Some of the group were going to a sold-out club night. I thought I'll go if there are tickets for sale at the door. There wasn't, and 32F handed me a ticket saying it was "spare". Later on I found it it was her other friend's ticket that she had given me and this friend was angry that she couldn't get in. I know she doesn't like this friend much but that's irrelevant. I 100% wouldn't have taken the ticket if I knew it was for someone else. So she gave it to me just 'cause she'd personally prefer me to come instead of the other friend? TBF I have yet to hear a full explanation for this.
I texted her the next day saying I feel terrible for unwittingly taking her friend's ticket and can she send me bank details so I can pay her back. She said it was a "group decision" (I don't know what this means) and don't worry about it. The next day she text me saying the friend wants money for the ticket after all, and can I transfer to *her* (32F's) bank account rather than the jilted friend's account. I said fine, how much. She said £15. I saw on the website that it's actually £10.50. A weirdly small amount of money to lie about.
I was my birthday recently and I had reminded her about the event multiple times since I organised it 3 months ago. On the day she text me saying she completely forgot it was today and she's with a friend in another city. I really was not impressed with this, especially since I made the effort to go to her birthday when I was busy and she only had to tell me about it once. I'm not sure what's worse - she genuinely forgot, indicating a lack of consideration, or she came up with a bullshit excuse, indicating deception.
Generally I've noticed she lies her head off about little things. One time we were supposed to meet up she flaked saying she "promised her housemate she'd cook for them both". I happen to know she doesn't talk to this housemate who doesn't even let 32F use her pots and pans. She's also lied about being ill to get out of things.
Some time after the birthday flaking I asked her if she'd like to go to a film screening, purchasing my boyfriend's ticket as he can't come anymore. She enthusiastically agreed. On the day of the screening I didn't hear from her at all and then the next day I get a slew of long-winded apologetic messages saying her "phone was turned off" and she'd "mixed up the dates". I'm pretty sure she's bullshitting and just didn't feel like coming, probably just wanted to chill with her boyfriend, in which case she could have told me in advance so I could give the ticket to someone else. TBF she said she was going to pay my boyfriend regardless but I don't know if she followed through with that as I'm too annoyed to talk to her.
She's expressed interest in meeting one of my likeminded friends for some time. We've arranged for them to meet maybe 5 or 6 times and she's flaked out of all of them last minute. One of those times we went out of our way to make the location convenient for her.
Another thing, around Christmas I introduced her to one of my best friends (43M) who I very briefly dated ages ago and no longer have feelings for. They hit it off and began dating in March this year. This is completely fine by me, I think it's nice. When they started dating she wanted to hide it from me for some reason. Similarly, she briefly dated a friend (Unknown age, M) of a friend (36F) and wanted to hide it from 36F. Really ploughing her way through everyone's mates, lol. We were supposed to have dinner with 36F on Good Friday and 32F knew she wouldn't go because this guy had gotten her tickets to London for a concert. I thought, you should tell her right away, that's Good Friday, she could be making other plans. But she still dillied and dallied telling her. Eventually did tell her TBF.
FWIW I've since fallen out with 43M for various reasons and no longer speak to him although I did make niceties at 32F's birthday.
I'm beginning to think she's one of these people who just follows her whims and does what she wants at all times. I feel like I've been quite a good friend and done a lot for her. Literally got her a boyfriend, lol. Since flaking out of the film screening she's sent me some long-winded messages saying she feels terrible and she wants to take me for belated birthday cocktails, lots of x's and hearts and lalala. Should I confront her directly about all of the above, ignore her going forward or otherwise? My time is literally valuable these days and I don't want to waste my time on people who chronically inconvenience me.
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She has a habit of flaking out of things last minute with bullshit excuses and it's gotten very annoying.
It was her birthday in April and I didn't want to attend because I was insanely stressed and busy and would have preferred to use that time working. However I did attend and I got her a thoughtful gift. Because I figure, that's what friends do.
She did something very weird later on that night. Some of the group were going to a sold-out club night. I thought I'll go if there are tickets for sale at the door. There wasn't, and 32F handed me a ticket saying it was "spare". Later on I found it it was her other friend's ticket that she had given me and this friend was angry that she couldn't get in. I know she doesn't like this friend much but that's irrelevant. I 100% wouldn't have taken the ticket if I knew it was for someone else. So she gave it to me just 'cause she'd personally prefer me to come instead of the other friend? TBF I have yet to hear a full explanation for this.
I texted her the next day saying I feel terrible for unwittingly taking her friend's ticket and can she send me bank details so I can pay her back. She said it was a "group decision" (I don't know what this means) and don't worry about it. The next day she text me saying the friend wants money for the ticket after all, and can I transfer to *her* (32F's) bank account rather than the jilted friend's account. I said fine, how much. She said £15. I saw on the website that it's actually £10.50. A weirdly small amount of money to lie about.
I was my birthday recently and I had reminded her about the event multiple times since I organised it 3 months ago. On the day she text me saying she completely forgot it was today and she's with a friend in another city. I really was not impressed with this, especially since I made the effort to go to her birthday when I was busy and she only had to tell me about it once. I'm not sure what's worse - she genuinely forgot, indicating a lack of consideration, or she came up with a bullshit excuse, indicating deception.
Generally I've noticed she lies her head off about little things. One time we were supposed to meet up she flaked saying she "promised her housemate she'd cook for them both". I happen to know she doesn't talk to this housemate who doesn't even let 32F use her pots and pans. She's also lied about being ill to get out of things.
Some time after the birthday flaking I asked her if she'd like to go to a film screening, purchasing my boyfriend's ticket as he can't come anymore. She enthusiastically agreed. On the day of the screening I didn't hear from her at all and then the next day I get a slew of long-winded apologetic messages saying her "phone was turned off" and she'd "mixed up the dates". I'm pretty sure she's bullshitting and just didn't feel like coming, probably just wanted to chill with her boyfriend, in which case she could have told me in advance so I could give the ticket to someone else. TBF she said she was going to pay my boyfriend regardless but I don't know if she followed through with that as I'm too annoyed to talk to her.
She's expressed interest in meeting one of my likeminded friends for some time. We've arranged for them to meet maybe 5 or 6 times and she's flaked out of all of them last minute. One of those times we went out of our way to make the location convenient for her.
Another thing, around Christmas I introduced her to one of my best friends (43M) who I very briefly dated ages ago and no longer have feelings for. They hit it off and began dating in March this year. This is completely fine by me, I think it's nice. When they started dating she wanted to hide it from me for some reason. Similarly, she briefly dated a friend (Unknown age, M) of a friend (36F) and wanted to hide it from 36F. Really ploughing her way through everyone's mates, lol. We were supposed to have dinner with 36F on Good Friday and 32F knew she wouldn't go because this guy had gotten her tickets to London for a concert. I thought, you should tell her right away, that's Good Friday, she could be making other plans. But she still dillied and dallied telling her. Eventually did tell her TBF.
FWIW I've since fallen out with 43M for various reasons and no longer speak to him although I did make niceties at 32F's birthday.
I'm beginning to think she's one of these people who just follows her whims and does what she wants at all times. I feel like I've been quite a good friend and done a lot for her. Literally got her a boyfriend, lol. Since flaking out of the film screening she's sent me some long-winded messages saying she feels terrible and she wants to take me for belated birthday cocktails, lots of x's and hearts and lalala. Should I confront her directly about all of the above, ignore her going forward or otherwise? My time is literally valuable these days and I don't want to waste my time on people who chronically inconvenience me.
2024.05.20 11:22 Academic_Lychee5400 Friend's flakiness and deception (Long post)
I (34F) met a friend (32F) via an app last year and we really hit it off. Have loads in common, like the same writers and thinkers, have good conversations, etc. Hang out maybe once every 2-3 weeks.
She has a habit of flaking out of things last minute with bullshit excuses and it's gotten very annoying.
It was her birthday in April and I didn't want to attend because I was insanely stressed and busy and would have preferred to use that time working. However I did attend and I got her a thoughtful gift. Because I figure, that's what friends do.
She did something very weird later on that night. Some of the group were going to a sold-out club night. I thought I'll go if there are tickets for sale at the door. There wasn't, and 32F handed me a ticket saying it was "spare". Later on I found it it was her other friend's ticket that she had given me and this friend was angry that she couldn't get in. I know she doesn't like this friend much but that's irrelevant. I 100% wouldn't have taken the ticket if I knew it was for someone else. So she gave it to me just 'cause she'd personally prefer me to come instead of the other friend? TBF I have yet to hear a full explanation for this.
I texted her the next day saying I feel terrible for unwittingly taking her friend's ticket and can she send me bank details so I can pay her back. She said it was a "group decision" (I don't know what this means) and don't worry about it. The next day she text me saying the friend wants money for the ticket after all, and can I transfer to *her* (32F's) bank account rather than the jilted friend's account. I said fine, how much. She said £15. I saw on the website that it's actually £10.50. A weirdly small amount of money to lie about.
I was my birthday recently and I had reminded her about the event multiple times since I organised it 3 months ago. On the day she text me saying she completely forgot it was today and she's with a friend in another city. I really was not impressed with this, especially since I made the effort to go to her birthday when I was busy and she only had to tell me about it once. I'm not sure what's worse - she genuinely forgot, indicating a lack of consideration, or she came up with a bullshit excuse, indicating deception.
Generally I've noticed she lies her head off about little things. One time we were supposed to meet up she flaked saying she "promised her housemate she'd cook for them both". I happen to know she doesn't talk to this housemate who doesn't even let 32F use her pots and pans. She's also lied about being ill to get out of things.
Some time after the birthday flaking I asked her if she'd like to go to a film screening, purchasing my boyfriend's ticket as he can't come anymore. She enthusiastically agreed. On the day of the screening I didn't hear from her at all and then the next day I get a slew of long-winded apologetic messages saying her "phone was turned off" and she'd "mixed up the dates". I'm pretty sure she's bullshitting and just didn't feel like coming, probably just wanted to chill with her boyfriend, in which case she could have told me in advance so I could give the ticket to someone else. TBF she said she was going to pay my boyfriend regardless but I don't know if she followed through with that as I'm too annoyed to talk to her.
She's expressed interest in meeting one of my likeminded friends for some time. We've arranged for them to meet maybe 5 or 6 times and she's flaked out of all of them last minute. One of those times we went out of our way to make the location convenient for her.
Another thing, around Christmas I introduced her to one of my best friends (43M) who I very briefly dated ages ago and no longer have feelings for. They hit it off and began dating in March this year. This is completely fine by me, I think it's nice. When they started dating she wanted to hide it from me for some reason. Similarly, she briefly dated a friend (Unknown age, M) of a friend (36F) and wanted to hide it from 36F. Really ploughing her way through everyone's mates, lol. We were supposed to have dinner with 36F on Good Friday and 32F knew she wouldn't go because this guy had gotten her tickets to London for a concert. I thought, you should tell her right away, that's Good Friday, she could be making other plans. But she still dillied and dallied telling her. Eventually did tell her TBF.
FWIW I've since fallen out with 43M for various reasons and no longer speak to him although I did make niceties at 32F's birthday.
I'm beginning to think she's one of these people who just follows her whims and does what she wants at all times. I feel like I've been quite a good friend and done a lot for her. Literally got her a boyfriend, lol. Since flaking out of the film screening she's sent me some long-winded messages saying she feels terrible and she wants to take me for belated birthday cocktails, lots of x's and hearts and lalala. Should I confront her directly about all of the above, ignore her going forward or otherwise? My time is literally valuable these days and I don't want to waste my time on people who chronically inconvenience me.
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She has a habit of flaking out of things last minute with bullshit excuses and it's gotten very annoying.
It was her birthday in April and I didn't want to attend because I was insanely stressed and busy and would have preferred to use that time working. However I did attend and I got her a thoughtful gift. Because I figure, that's what friends do.
She did something very weird later on that night. Some of the group were going to a sold-out club night. I thought I'll go if there are tickets for sale at the door. There wasn't, and 32F handed me a ticket saying it was "spare". Later on I found it it was her other friend's ticket that she had given me and this friend was angry that she couldn't get in. I know she doesn't like this friend much but that's irrelevant. I 100% wouldn't have taken the ticket if I knew it was for someone else. So she gave it to me just 'cause she'd personally prefer me to come instead of the other friend? TBF I have yet to hear a full explanation for this.
I texted her the next day saying I feel terrible for unwittingly taking her friend's ticket and can she send me bank details so I can pay her back. She said it was a "group decision" (I don't know what this means) and don't worry about it. The next day she text me saying the friend wants money for the ticket after all, and can I transfer to *her* (32F's) bank account rather than the jilted friend's account. I said fine, how much. She said £15. I saw on the website that it's actually £10.50. A weirdly small amount of money to lie about.
I was my birthday recently and I had reminded her about the event multiple times since I organised it 3 months ago. On the day she text me saying she completely forgot it was today and she's with a friend in another city. I really was not impressed with this, especially since I made the effort to go to her birthday when I was busy and she only had to tell me about it once. I'm not sure what's worse - she genuinely forgot, indicating a lack of consideration, or she came up with a bullshit excuse, indicating deception.
Generally I've noticed she lies her head off about little things. One time we were supposed to meet up she flaked saying she "promised her housemate she'd cook for them both". I happen to know she doesn't talk to this housemate who doesn't even let 32F use her pots and pans. She's also lied about being ill to get out of things.
Some time after the birthday flaking I asked her if she'd like to go to a film screening, purchasing my boyfriend's ticket as he can't come anymore. She enthusiastically agreed. On the day of the screening I didn't hear from her at all and then the next day I get a slew of long-winded apologetic messages saying her "phone was turned off" and she'd "mixed up the dates". I'm pretty sure she's bullshitting and just didn't feel like coming, probably just wanted to chill with her boyfriend, in which case she could have told me in advance so I could give the ticket to someone else. TBF she said she was going to pay my boyfriend regardless but I don't know if she followed through with that as I'm too annoyed to talk to her.
She's expressed interest in meeting one of my likeminded friends for some time. We've arranged for them to meet maybe 5 or 6 times and she's flaked out of all of them last minute. One of those times we went out of our way to make the location convenient for her.
Another thing, around Christmas I introduced her to one of my best friends (43M) who I very briefly dated ages ago and no longer have feelings for. They hit it off and began dating in March this year. This is completely fine by me, I think it's nice. When they started dating she wanted to hide it from me for some reason. Similarly, she briefly dated a friend (Unknown age, M) of a friend (36F) and wanted to hide it from 36F. Really ploughing her way through everyone's mates, lol. We were supposed to have dinner with 36F on Good Friday and 32F knew she wouldn't go because this guy had gotten her tickets to London for a concert. I thought, you should tell her right away, that's Good Friday, she could be making other plans. But she still dillied and dallied telling her. Eventually did tell her TBF.
FWIW I've since fallen out with 43M for various reasons and no longer speak to him although I did make niceties at 32F's birthday.
I'm beginning to think she's one of these people who just follows her whims and does what she wants at all times. I feel like I've been quite a good friend and done a lot for her. Literally got her a boyfriend, lol. Since flaking out of the film screening she's sent me some long-winded messages saying she feels terrible and she wants to take me for belated birthday cocktails, lots of x's and hearts and lalala. Should I confront her directly about all of the above, ignore her going forward or otherwise? My time is literally valuable these days and I don't want to waste my time on people who chronically inconvenience me.
2024.05.20 08:23 Octafolia Got this as a gift from a redditor on my belated birthday
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2024.05.20 06:51 Putrid_Will_3566 Update on brother
Using this user as a blog to document this. Ngl I probably won't update too much, mix of anxiety and I work a lot and don't have time. Excuse spelling/grammar it's almost midnight typing this out.
Brother got diagnosed with cancer January this year. It was right after my birthday, like a shitty belatent birthday gift. Osteosarcoma, I believe the same cancer that killed technoblade. He live with my family ~12 hour drive from me. Before the diagnosis, I hadn't really seen or heard from him since I moved out (~2018). He's 13, and I feel like a shitty older sibling not doing more, but what can ya do? :/
There's a hospital about 4 hours from me that specializes in this cancer. I also am like "holy shit, we are so privileged during this hard time." We have family in the area, we have doctors in the family who can get us good ins, they have money for food/travel, and they have such a strong support group in our hometown... And in a way I'm glad? Glad we have this, but also can not imagine those who are working with less... It's tragic.
Anyway, I got to visit my brother twice. Once was for him to get his ""official diagnosis,"" (the original diagnosis was just from a CAT scan iirc, it looked like cancer. This one they actually sampled his mass and yeah, cancer.) I think we caught it just in time? There might be some in his lungs (that's how it kills) but it's really small, and the doctor didn't seem too worried about it. (Just one very VERY small mass, could easily be missed, which is "unusual for this type of cancer." But still scary). It was here we realized my brother was going to lose his leg. That trip was the last time I saw him with both his legs.
The second trip was to support him while he got a rotation plasty surgery. Basically they ""amputated"" his leg from knee to above the ankle. They turned his foot around so now his foot/ankle is his knee. (Because the foot remains intact it's "technically not an amputation," nerve endings and all. But he still has phantom itches as he learns where his nerves are now) This was the best way from him to remove the leg cancer, while not leaving his leg completely crippled. That trip was a little hard. Seeing my brother "post chemo" and with his leg reattached.
Poor thing was in so much pain, and needed his leg adjusted to ease the pain, and at first I was scared to touch him. Like "I want to help, but what if I make it worse?" Pro tip, you're not gonna make it worse. Be confident, listen, and go slow. When I held his foot in the air I could see releaf come over him. I think after 3 days the pain became more bearable, and after that, dude was completely owning his new leg.
He mastered the walker, cruches, wheelchair, he was rasing cousins down the hallway (aunt was like "yeah we're totally breaking a couple rules" lol). By no means is this easy for him, but things will be okay.
He was glad I was there, I think I helped him stay calm when he got upset with Mom. He was really upset, I try to tell myself "it's because of the cancesurgery, he's a teen, and mom doesn't understand him," but I worry toxic influences are getting to him. Mostly Dad who's "totally not a misogynist," infact he has self proclaimed to be "the most feminist man out there." Yeaaaah, and he follows/listens to men who make fun of women and proclaim what women should be like. 🙄 Dad also caused a lot of drama, but that's another post. I want this to be about my brother.
I wish I could be there for him, and like I am there when I can be. He has a phone now, but I don't know what to talk to him about. He's not much of a talker anyway. Silver lining is I have a twin in the hometown, which is something. It's not me, but at least the younger siblings have an older one with them for support. I haven't left them completely high and dry. But I wish they had better influencers, adults who would listen to them when they have problems.
Anyway, I should wrap this up. Chemo is going as planned, slight adjustments, but nothing completely off schedule. We got to hold our breath that we got it in time. Little bro has all the support he could ask for, and while the future is unknown, it feels hopeful.
Signing off for the night.
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Brother got diagnosed with cancer January this year. It was right after my birthday, like a shitty belatent birthday gift. Osteosarcoma, I believe the same cancer that killed technoblade. He live with my family ~12 hour drive from me. Before the diagnosis, I hadn't really seen or heard from him since I moved out (~2018). He's 13, and I feel like a shitty older sibling not doing more, but what can ya do? :/
There's a hospital about 4 hours from me that specializes in this cancer. I also am like "holy shit, we are so privileged during this hard time." We have family in the area, we have doctors in the family who can get us good ins, they have money for food/travel, and they have such a strong support group in our hometown... And in a way I'm glad? Glad we have this, but also can not imagine those who are working with less... It's tragic.
Anyway, I got to visit my brother twice. Once was for him to get his ""official diagnosis,"" (the original diagnosis was just from a CAT scan iirc, it looked like cancer. This one they actually sampled his mass and yeah, cancer.) I think we caught it just in time? There might be some in his lungs (that's how it kills) but it's really small, and the doctor didn't seem too worried about it. (Just one very VERY small mass, could easily be missed, which is "unusual for this type of cancer." But still scary). It was here we realized my brother was going to lose his leg. That trip was the last time I saw him with both his legs.
The second trip was to support him while he got a rotation plasty surgery. Basically they ""amputated"" his leg from knee to above the ankle. They turned his foot around so now his foot/ankle is his knee. (Because the foot remains intact it's "technically not an amputation," nerve endings and all. But he still has phantom itches as he learns where his nerves are now) This was the best way from him to remove the leg cancer, while not leaving his leg completely crippled. That trip was a little hard. Seeing my brother "post chemo" and with his leg reattached.
Poor thing was in so much pain, and needed his leg adjusted to ease the pain, and at first I was scared to touch him. Like "I want to help, but what if I make it worse?" Pro tip, you're not gonna make it worse. Be confident, listen, and go slow. When I held his foot in the air I could see releaf come over him. I think after 3 days the pain became more bearable, and after that, dude was completely owning his new leg.
He mastered the walker, cruches, wheelchair, he was rasing cousins down the hallway (aunt was like "yeah we're totally breaking a couple rules" lol). By no means is this easy for him, but things will be okay.
He was glad I was there, I think I helped him stay calm when he got upset with Mom. He was really upset, I try to tell myself "it's because of the cancesurgery, he's a teen, and mom doesn't understand him," but I worry toxic influences are getting to him. Mostly Dad who's "totally not a misogynist," infact he has self proclaimed to be "the most feminist man out there." Yeaaaah, and he follows/listens to men who make fun of women and proclaim what women should be like. 🙄 Dad also caused a lot of drama, but that's another post. I want this to be about my brother.
I wish I could be there for him, and like I am there when I can be. He has a phone now, but I don't know what to talk to him about. He's not much of a talker anyway. Silver lining is I have a twin in the hometown, which is something. It's not me, but at least the younger siblings have an older one with them for support. I haven't left them completely high and dry. But I wish they had better influencers, adults who would listen to them when they have problems.
Anyway, I should wrap this up. Chemo is going as planned, slight adjustments, but nothing completely off schedule. We got to hold our breath that we got it in time. Little bro has all the support he could ask for, and while the future is unknown, it feels hopeful.
Signing off for the night.
2024.05.20 05:24 GayAssBeagle Found out my Ex did in fact cheat on me and my gut feeling was right all this time
So 9 months or so I broke up with my Now ex of 4 1/2 years. It was my first relationship ever as well for her in terms of a serious long term so I had no idea what I was doing(First lesbian relationship btw ), I made sure to make time for her always, always remembered her birthday and special occasions (had them saved in my calendar even the tiny ones), made sure to say how much I loved her always.
But she did forget my birthday sometimes or don’t do as much as I did for anniversaries or such. I was cool with it, I didn’t expect it. For me I had always dreamed of a relationship so I was always going to be the one doing the spoiling and far out there gifts and expressions of love. Heck I used to make a poem every Friday for her and would hide little I love yous within it everytime.
I thought I had everything until one day I realized something. At the start we had a steady flow of messages back and forth but eventually they became less and less, I understand as she was autistic and had a pretty stressful crappy job so I gave her space and encouragement. And also I learned that relationships have moments where the honeymoon phase dies out so I thought that was what it was. But no, a few days would be a week sometimes and a week would be two. I again held my tongue because I have ADHD and she had autism and a hard job like I did. I wanted to be respectful to her.
When she did text back, I’d scramble to get out what I could so she’d see it before she dipped for another week or a few days at a time. Eventually she didn’t respond for a strong weeks. I again just stayed respectful and tried my hardest to understand. I even started to think I was the issue, I did have a bad habit of texting a lot to folks growing up.
One day I got really excited over one of my favorite Tv shows coming to an end as I had been a fan since I was a kid and I sent a very lengthy text. I didn’t mean to, that’s just how I am and I get excited.well she didn’t reply back for a minute and when she did she just had a two word reply. It didn’t bum me out as obviously she couldn’t care about it as much as I could but it stung a bit
Now for the moment I dreaded. The breakup, oh god the breakup. I sincerely believe that at the time she had finally started to become more available and was more responsive to my texts. I hate reading her response to the BU text. We went out separate ways, I tried to ask her back a few months later, she was with someone else and I paid no mind to it.
Until I guess in a moment of weakness she had, she admit that she had been cheating on me. She said something about her finding her true self while she was hopping job to job and how she had changed. I was just so shocked in the moment that I accepted it like an idiot. I had a gut feeling but I ignored it because I didn’t want to seem like the crazy girlfriend.
In the end I was right and you wanna know the messed up thing? I’d still take her back. At this point, I don’t care . I tried to move on and it’s be awful, damn near put me in jail/prison levels of bad and I didn’t even cause it. At this point, I either want her or no one else.
But I’ll stay in my delusions and keep thinking we are together and it’s just a long break. But it still hurts like hell to find that out .
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But she did forget my birthday sometimes or don’t do as much as I did for anniversaries or such. I was cool with it, I didn’t expect it. For me I had always dreamed of a relationship so I was always going to be the one doing the spoiling and far out there gifts and expressions of love. Heck I used to make a poem every Friday for her and would hide little I love yous within it everytime.
I thought I had everything until one day I realized something. At the start we had a steady flow of messages back and forth but eventually they became less and less, I understand as she was autistic and had a pretty stressful crappy job so I gave her space and encouragement. And also I learned that relationships have moments where the honeymoon phase dies out so I thought that was what it was. But no, a few days would be a week sometimes and a week would be two. I again held my tongue because I have ADHD and she had autism and a hard job like I did. I wanted to be respectful to her.
When she did text back, I’d scramble to get out what I could so she’d see it before she dipped for another week or a few days at a time. Eventually she didn’t respond for a strong weeks. I again just stayed respectful and tried my hardest to understand. I even started to think I was the issue, I did have a bad habit of texting a lot to folks growing up.
One day I got really excited over one of my favorite Tv shows coming to an end as I had been a fan since I was a kid and I sent a very lengthy text. I didn’t mean to, that’s just how I am and I get excited.well she didn’t reply back for a minute and when she did she just had a two word reply. It didn’t bum me out as obviously she couldn’t care about it as much as I could but it stung a bit
Now for the moment I dreaded. The breakup, oh god the breakup. I sincerely believe that at the time she had finally started to become more available and was more responsive to my texts. I hate reading her response to the BU text. We went out separate ways, I tried to ask her back a few months later, she was with someone else and I paid no mind to it.
Until I guess in a moment of weakness she had, she admit that she had been cheating on me. She said something about her finding her true self while she was hopping job to job and how she had changed. I was just so shocked in the moment that I accepted it like an idiot. I had a gut feeling but I ignored it because I didn’t want to seem like the crazy girlfriend.
In the end I was right and you wanna know the messed up thing? I’d still take her back. At this point, I don’t care . I tried to move on and it’s be awful, damn near put me in jail/prison levels of bad and I didn’t even cause it. At this point, I either want her or no one else.
But I’ll stay in my delusions and keep thinking we are together and it’s just a long break. But it still hurts like hell to find that out .
2024.05.20 02:15 banana_annihilator It's Ok! HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY JAZZ.
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2024.05.19 21:41 clydelogan Through the Looking Glass: Taylor and Mirrors
 | Let me just start out by saying I haven’t read Through the Looking Glass by Louis Carroll in about 10 years and I’ve only read it 3 times (HS AP English Lit, a Lit class in college, and after 1989). I’m by no means as versed in Louis Carroll or Alice’s Adventures as others in this sub. submitted by clydelogan to GaylorSwift [link] [comments] I’ve talked about numerology 8 [here](https://www.reddit.com/GaylorSwift/s/PQLFND29FR) and how it connects to “Karma”. It’s also been 8 years since when we would have gotten the lost “Karma” album. To briefly recap my other post, Taylor had mentioned before she’s into numerology. In numerology, the number 8 is associated with karma because 8 is ruled by Saturn (love you to the moon and to Saturn) who is the Lord of Karma. Now let’s get into Through the Looking Glass. Taylor Nation has been hinting at 2016 quite a bit lately. Most notably drawing attention to Taylor in this outfit at Stockholm N2 which is the reversed version of her 2016 Grammy’s outfit. In TTLG, Alice enters through the looking glass and finds a mirror world where everything is reversed. 2016 Grammys ; Eras Tour Stockholm May 18, 2024 Taking it back to 2023, we see the Lover House from the Lover music video as a background visual when she performs Lover. I will side track here to say Taylor released the Lover music video on August 22, 2019 (happy birthday to me ). The same day the music video released, she announced she is re-recording the first 6 albums because of the Masters Heist. The house we see during the Eras Tour visual is slightly different than the music video, notably, we see Taylor leaving the Lover House in her yellow closeting dress through a mirror in the Lover room. Eras Tour Lover House Visual with Taylor going through the Mirror in the Lover room while wearing a yellow dress I personally think this visual has many layers to it which I’m just going to lay out here:
TTLG Chessboard by me In Through the Looking Glass, the book starts out with Alice playing with a white kitten and a black kitten. She notices a mirror and when she touches the mirror, she realizes she can go through it, which takes her into the mirror world version of her house where everything is reversed. Two recent examples of Taylor using mirror imagery. In Anti Hero where she’s looking at the Evil!TayloTaylor Swift ™️ in the mirror; On the cover of the WAOLOM Phone Memo touching the looking glass/mirror She discovers a book of poetry called the Jabberwocky that is written in reverse that you need to hold up to a mirror to be able to read it. (Hello, Tortured Poets Department. There have been posts in the sub on listening to TTPD in reverse as well as the songs from TTPD mirroring other songs). Alice leaves behind her home and enters a garden where she meets the Red Queen who tells her she can become a queen if she can make it across the countryside to the 8th rank/row that is laid out like a chessboard. So this is where I’ve started out with the image above. I believe we are resetting the chessboard to 2016. The Red Queen places Alice on the second row as a White Queen pawn, thus combining Alice’s need to cover two of the rows (or for Taylor, two years combining Reputation and Karma/Lost Album into one double album). Alice starts off this quest/journey by getting on a train that skips over the third row (2018) and goes right into the fourth row which is a forest where she meets a Looking Glass Gnat that teaches her about Looking Glass insects (2019, Lover, butterfly mural, butterfly pajamas in Lover MV). She goes through the “woods where things have no names” and forgets her own name and identity. She’s helped by a fawn who also forgets its identity, but when they get to the other side it remembers and leaves her (Masters Heist, *I jump from the train, I ride off alone*, the muse that she breaks up with during the Lover era (?) ) Taylor Alice comes across Tweetle Dee (Scott Brushetta) and Tweetle Dumb (Pooper Scooter) who try to provoke her (their responses to her announcement of re-recording her albums that it wasn’t going to work, etc) and point her direction to the sleeping Red King and telling her she’s a figment of his imagination (my interpretation is pointing at her conservative/homophobic fans and saying they’ll never support an out and queer Taylor or purchase her re-records). But they Tweedles are scared off by a large crow (Taylor’s aesthetic turning black and the support of other people in the industry and her fans to re-record her music). Alice meets with the White Queen as she gets ready to move into the 5th rank, but as they cross the brook, the Queen is turned into a sheep and Alice has to paddle the boat across on her own (2020, Covid happens, Loverfest is cancelled, Taylor creates Folklore) and struggles with it (Cardigan MV) https://preview.redd.it/6cvz3p4fqf1d1.jpg?width=4096&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=28cf5e4b93c77a2d2f4f5c4512a501bd5748b7b7 Alice then crosses into the 6th rank/row by crossing another brook (end of 2020-2021, Evermore, Willow MV) https://i.redd.it/u70wd6amqf1d1.gif Where she meets Humpty Dumpty who gives his own interpretation of Jabberwocky before he falls and all the (White) kings horses & all the (White) kings men try to put him together again. Taylor releases Fearless TV (White Horse) and Red TV in 2021. Which leads to the 7th Rank/Row where Alice crosses a brook into a forest (Lavender Haze MV) and is almost captured by a Red Knight but is saved by the White Knight (1950s shit). https://preview.redd.it/emjf9evqqf1d1.jpg?width=1198&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=da2bbc9c45a4e289cad0502d778ce01b7e5501ca The Knight sings her a poem called Ways and Means to the tune of My Heart and Lute (Thomas Moore). Before she leaves him to cross the brook into the 8th rank/row https://preview.redd.it/c4qqc0vuqf1d1.jpg?width=1198&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=fe67ed0386af1046510638cf34cec9b5c30bbba8 Where she automatically becomes a Queen (2023, Eras Tour, biggest year of her career, many media outlets calling her the 2023 Queen of Pop music and saying it was the year of Taylor) The story ends with the Red Queen and White Queen showing up and inviting themselves to a party that Alice would be hosting without her knowledge that turns into chaos and Alice shaking the Red Queen who she blamed for the chaos. She then wakes up holding the black kitten (Red Queen) and white kitten (White Queen). Which takes us into 2024 where we’ve crossed the chessboard and Taylor has given us a black and white album, The Tortured Poets Department which has heavy Red Era/Red Muse theming. TTLG Chessboard with addition of the rebuilding of the Lover House by re-recordings But there’s another album with Black and White imagery in Taylor’s discography which still has to be released from the vault: Reputation (the newspaper print album cover) but this time, she’s also bringing 2016 back with her in the form of the Lost Album/Karma, which means the damage that was already existing in the Lover House will be repaired by that album coming into existence. We already knew Taylor was rebuilding the Lover house from the tour visuals and that the house was set up differently than the original one. Burning Down the Lover House to rebuild it, but it's not complete...yet The Lover House she sets on fire in 1989 (burning it down because the “Rep Vault is fire” aka the Lost Album/Karma) will be rebuilt with 13 rooms. Those three large rooms in the center I believe will end up turning into two rooms each, making each room equal with her 13th album, the one where she is OUT as the attic/penthouse, completing the Lover house the way she intended it. *This* is Taylor’s Version. I hope you all enjoy, I actually dug out my laptop to make this which just goes to show how much I felt the need to post lmao bc I haven't used my laptop in over 2 years. |
2024.05.19 20:21 FireAndFey Taylor, Matty, and their numbers (8, 3, 13, etc)
There is significant repetition of these numbers popping up in both Taylor and Matty's public works so I thought I would bring it up and see what you all think and if you have noticed other instances that I'm missing. Sorry in advanced for this being long, but there is a lot.
Let's start with the most well-known one: 13
4's & 2's - The number 4 has been showing up a lot recently. Matty flashed the number 4 to the camera during a set while they were dating (couldn't find the video but if someone finds it, I will edit to add it). - Taylor has famously been flashing peace signs and even put a statue of a peace sign in her TTPD exhibit at The Grove. Thought to be an easter egg for the double album but she continued doing it after the albums release. - Obviously, 2 + 2 = 4. But 4 can also be broken down into two pairs of 1's. Twin flame numbers are 1111 (so 4), and 2222 (so 8) respectively. - Taylor & Matty are both fire signs. Twin flames are often described as mirroring each other.
3's - Graphically, a 3 is half of 8 (especially in certain fonts). - In ATPOIAM, episode 2, entitled Fame (, https://youtu.be/44ezfnnRE0k?si=YcLcKnJrPHWY-Yyc) Matty stuffs himself into a suitcase (a story long told about Taylor was that she stuffed herself in a suitcase to escaped the hordes of paparazzi and fans when leaving her apartment). The suitcase has the number 3 on it and the elevator goes to the 3rd floor (despite the next shot being on them outside of The Bowery hotel). I've stayed at the Bowery, the 3rd floor is not how you get outside, lol. - TaylorNation put out a promo video that was a mash up of 1989 era images, it featured a vault and it also featured a clip from the Bejeweled music video (which has other interesting references to things happening right now), but Taylor was pressing the button for the 3rd floor (not in the original video). Everyone thought this indicated a big surprise coming on 5/3/2024 (2 weeks after the TTPD release). Much clowning ensued, nothing happened...except Matty posted a cover of his song "All I Need To Hear" to his IG. - Bejeweled MV was released on 10/25/2022...10+25 = 53 and 5+3 = 8 OR 1 + 2 + 5 = 8. 222 is an angel number related to soul mates.
I'm sure that I didn't even write out half of the things I've noticed because this post is getting unweildy but if there are other numerology nerds and people who have noticed this repetition, please add your observations!
Edit to add: Matty's birthday! 04/08/1989 so 4's and 8's abound!
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Let's start with the most well-known one: 13
- I think that even casual fans know that Taylor considers 13 her lucky number. Her birthday is 12/13/1989. She's had some significant milestones in her career surrounding the number 13 and she famously wrote 13 in marker on her hand during the Fearless era. She continues to reference this number in track listings - even TTPD is 31 tracks, so 13 transposed.
- the poem Stevie Nicks wrote for TTPD has two dates written on it: Aug 13, 2023 and Sept 13th 8:05pm. Obviously the 13th in both dates is interesting but if you start adding things up you will see these dates are very significant. The 8:05 will give you 8+5=13. There is more to these dates as well.
- In numerology, we often add numbers together to get a single digit. 1+3 = 4.
4's & 2's - The number 4 has been showing up a lot recently. Matty flashed the number 4 to the camera during a set while they were dating (couldn't find the video but if someone finds it, I will edit to add it). - Taylor has famously been flashing peace signs and even put a statue of a peace sign in her TTPD exhibit at The Grove. Thought to be an easter egg for the double album but she continued doing it after the albums release. - Obviously, 2 + 2 = 4. But 4 can also be broken down into two pairs of 1's. Twin flame numbers are 1111 (so 4), and 2222 (so 8) respectively. - Taylor & Matty are both fire signs. Twin flames are often described as mirroring each other.
3's - Graphically, a 3 is half of 8 (especially in certain fonts). - In ATPOIAM, episode 2, entitled Fame (, https://youtu.be/44ezfnnRE0k?si=YcLcKnJrPHWY-Yyc) Matty stuffs himself into a suitcase (a story long told about Taylor was that she stuffed herself in a suitcase to escaped the hordes of paparazzi and fans when leaving her apartment). The suitcase has the number 3 on it and the elevator goes to the 3rd floor (despite the next shot being on them outside of The Bowery hotel). I've stayed at the Bowery, the 3rd floor is not how you get outside, lol. - TaylorNation put out a promo video that was a mash up of 1989 era images, it featured a vault and it also featured a clip from the Bejeweled music video (which has other interesting references to things happening right now), but Taylor was pressing the button for the 3rd floor (not in the original video). Everyone thought this indicated a big surprise coming on 5/3/2024 (2 weeks after the TTPD release). Much clowning ensued, nothing happened...except Matty posted a cover of his song "All I Need To Hear" to his IG. - Bejeweled MV was released on 10/25/2022...10+25 = 53 and 5+3 = 8 OR 1 + 2 + 5 = 8. 222 is an angel number related to soul mates.
I'm sure that I didn't even write out half of the things I've noticed because this post is getting unweildy but if there are other numerology nerds and people who have noticed this repetition, please add your observations!
Edit to add: Matty's birthday! 04/08/1989 so 4's and 8's abound!
2024.05.19 12:59 Wooden-Anybody6807 Double new pen birthday! Pilot Custom 823 WA and Sailor PG EF 🤩
 | I’m enjoying them both so much! submitted by Wooden-Anybody6807 to fountainpens [link] [comments] These are my second and third pens, and my first gold nibs. One was a birthday present from my husband, and the other was a birthday present from myself. The Pilot 823 WA is so smooth and writes very well at my steep writing angle. I was worried it would be too heavy, but it feels fine after a few pages of continuous writing. I can certainly feel the nib’s quality- it feels slightly soft and gentle on the paper. This nib is a real winner, and I expect it will become the standard that I judge all other smooth nibs by. The barrel looks like it will be difficult to clean; I expect I will fill this with one colour only, and stick with it to avoid cleaning. The ordering process was straightforward. Tokyo Quill Shop Pen replied to my quote request email within a day, advised they had it in stock, then after I paid via PayPal they shipped the pen the next day, and it arrived in Australia less than a week later. The Sailor PG EF definitely has that famed toothy, pencil-like feedback, which will take some getting used to, but I love the colour, how light the pen is, and how incredibly thin the line is. The pencil-like feedback allows me to write softly without losing grip on the page. The two-tone nib is stunning. I got this second-hand, and it’s in perfect condition. I have only dip-tested it so far, but it wrote pleasantly and reliably at my high writing angle, and one dip was enough to transcribe a whole poem (I think it was Ozymandias). While this is incredibly subjective, I think Sailor make the prettiest pens, and Pilot make the best writers. I’ve certainly got my eye on some other Pro Gear colours for a future birthday, and maybe an 823 PO nib too. |
2024.05.19 08:41 Silent_Radio5410 I cut ties with my ex best friend.
A few years ago during that time when I was in high school, me and my ex friend went to different schools, I wanted to go to the same school as her but I couldn't since it was too far.
I told her that I couldn't go to the same school but she told me she was glad I didn't go to the same place as her because if I did, me and her wouldn't be friends at all.
You know the reason why she said that? She said if I went there, other people would take me away from her and that she would hate me which I found that stupid. Fast forward a few years later I had a boyfriend during college (he's now an ex) When I went out to town with my family, she called to me crying (while I was in a resturant) because apparently I've been ghosting her and ignoring her saying I've been too busy to even talk.
During this time I was struggling with my mental health, my relationship and college, She would start arguments with me saying I don't have time for her, not texting back saying I'm drifting away from her. Not to mention she wrote a poem about me(I have the poem on my phone) , I didn't know what to say and she asked you're not mad I wrote a poem about you? You won't sue me right?
And I was like it's fine but in my head it wasn't fine. She would make it about herself, I listened to her constantly complaining and she would trauma dump the past. She brought up the fact I didn't turn up to choir practice while I was getting bullied.
She blamed me for that not the girl who bullied me, not to mention she and the bully were friends on Facebook, the girl who bullied me would talk trash about me to her and she would tell me the horrible things the bully said about me, I was so hurt and betrayed yet I still kept her as a friend.
2 years go by and this was before Covid hit, the day she arrived I took her to my dance practice so she could watch before my day. She complained saying that she's tired, didn't take her meds, telling me she wasted her money to come visit me. I was embarrassed when she was having a tantrum infront of everyone that I had to take her somewhere else.
It felt like a burning iron everytime she complained I was flustered and I felt tired just by listening to her. On the evening the day before my birthday party, there was no food at the house since my mother was busy preparing for my debut. She hasnt eaten food or taken her meds but blamed me again, so we both had to walk to mcdonalds in the evening around 8pm just for her to eat.
The day of my birthday party, everything was going well, I introduced her to my college friends and others but after the party we went back to our rooms getting ready for bed, she asked me why didn't you introduce me to those boys? Why didn't you spend time with me? I didn't know what to say anymore because I was tired genuinely that we didn't talk until morning.
Then after a few days I haven't heard from her, She was talking to one of my guy friends but the thing is she would only talk to me if she had problems with him and would come crying in call and texting me about it. I have been reassuring her every time she had problems with my guy friend and it was tiring, he even mentioned to me she was controlling and bossy and he was right .
I never complained about anything between me and her but she wanted to make problems that I didn't talk to her or wasn't talking to her enough, I gave her space and I gave myself space but she still complained why I didn't message her but I did several times but in other days I wouldn't talk to her because I was scared.
I never talked about my mental problems and my trauma with my SA past to her because she'll make me feel worse and trauma dump and mention the past about me leaving her repeatedly when I was bullied by the same girl she was friends with.
I wanted to cut ties with her but I was afraid that she will get mad at me because she had issues with her behaviour for always getting angry and shouting at me when we get into an argument in call and would blame me.
But I was genuinely afraid at the same time losing my only friend because I had no one else to talk to. After a month or two I was messaging her and she brought up the vaccine topic, during that time she was a student nurse and I didn't really want to talk about it but she insisted telling me I should take the vaccine. If I didn't take it apparently I would affect her "family, friends and patients" but what about me? What am I to her? Me and her live in different cities 1 hr away from each other, so how can I affect them if I live so far away? That doesn't make sense.
She told me If I didn't take it she told me people would think I'm a dirty pest and a scumbag.
I was so done, honestly so done after she posted our private conversation on her private story but apparently she deleted it afterwards just for me to see? Not sure if I believe that. I blocked her on every social media and after that I felt better, the heavy burden I held for so long was gone. I was happier without her.
I never even got birthday gifts from her even when I gave hers every year so I stopped gifting her. I wasted 9 years of friendship and stopped trusting people after that.
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I told her that I couldn't go to the same school but she told me she was glad I didn't go to the same place as her because if I did, me and her wouldn't be friends at all.
You know the reason why she said that? She said if I went there, other people would take me away from her and that she would hate me which I found that stupid. Fast forward a few years later I had a boyfriend during college (he's now an ex) When I went out to town with my family, she called to me crying (while I was in a resturant) because apparently I've been ghosting her and ignoring her saying I've been too busy to even talk.
During this time I was struggling with my mental health, my relationship and college, She would start arguments with me saying I don't have time for her, not texting back saying I'm drifting away from her. Not to mention she wrote a poem about me(I have the poem on my phone) , I didn't know what to say and she asked you're not mad I wrote a poem about you? You won't sue me right?
And I was like it's fine but in my head it wasn't fine. She would make it about herself, I listened to her constantly complaining and she would trauma dump the past. She brought up the fact I didn't turn up to choir practice while I was getting bullied.
She blamed me for that not the girl who bullied me, not to mention she and the bully were friends on Facebook, the girl who bullied me would talk trash about me to her and she would tell me the horrible things the bully said about me, I was so hurt and betrayed yet I still kept her as a friend.
2 years go by and this was before Covid hit, the day she arrived I took her to my dance practice so she could watch before my day. She complained saying that she's tired, didn't take her meds, telling me she wasted her money to come visit me. I was embarrassed when she was having a tantrum infront of everyone that I had to take her somewhere else.
It felt like a burning iron everytime she complained I was flustered and I felt tired just by listening to her. On the evening the day before my birthday party, there was no food at the house since my mother was busy preparing for my debut. She hasnt eaten food or taken her meds but blamed me again, so we both had to walk to mcdonalds in the evening around 8pm just for her to eat.
The day of my birthday party, everything was going well, I introduced her to my college friends and others but after the party we went back to our rooms getting ready for bed, she asked me why didn't you introduce me to those boys? Why didn't you spend time with me? I didn't know what to say anymore because I was tired genuinely that we didn't talk until morning.
Then after a few days I haven't heard from her, She was talking to one of my guy friends but the thing is she would only talk to me if she had problems with him and would come crying in call and texting me about it. I have been reassuring her every time she had problems with my guy friend and it was tiring, he even mentioned to me she was controlling and bossy and he was right .
I never complained about anything between me and her but she wanted to make problems that I didn't talk to her or wasn't talking to her enough, I gave her space and I gave myself space but she still complained why I didn't message her but I did several times but in other days I wouldn't talk to her because I was scared.
I never talked about my mental problems and my trauma with my SA past to her because she'll make me feel worse and trauma dump and mention the past about me leaving her repeatedly when I was bullied by the same girl she was friends with.
I wanted to cut ties with her but I was afraid that she will get mad at me because she had issues with her behaviour for always getting angry and shouting at me when we get into an argument in call and would blame me.
But I was genuinely afraid at the same time losing my only friend because I had no one else to talk to. After a month or two I was messaging her and she brought up the vaccine topic, during that time she was a student nurse and I didn't really want to talk about it but she insisted telling me I should take the vaccine. If I didn't take it apparently I would affect her "family, friends and patients" but what about me? What am I to her? Me and her live in different cities 1 hr away from each other, so how can I affect them if I live so far away? That doesn't make sense.
She told me If I didn't take it she told me people would think I'm a dirty pest and a scumbag.
I was so done, honestly so done after she posted our private conversation on her private story but apparently she deleted it afterwards just for me to see? Not sure if I believe that. I blocked her on every social media and after that I felt better, the heavy burden I held for so long was gone. I was happier without her.
I never even got birthday gifts from her even when I gave hers every year so I stopped gifting her. I wasted 9 years of friendship and stopped trusting people after that.
2024.05.19 05:54 GlorianaLauriana My friend gave me the gift of St. Timothy...
 | I received this as a belated birthday gift a few hours ago, and I still don't know how I feel about it. submitted by GlorianaLauriana to justified [link] [comments] |
2024.05.18 22:03 intellier What I wish I could send my ex
4 years together. 2 living together. I loved him. He didn’t feel the same way I guess. 18 days since we’ve broken up no contact.
fuck you for not answering me. fuck you for leading me on. fuck you. fuck you for getting that one last fuck in. fuck you for letting me believe we were still gonna be friends. fuck you for being okay. fuck you. fuck you flr never defending me. fuck uou for everything you did during the relationship. fuck you. fuck you. i was never going to be enough for you. i was never going to be what you so dreamed of. no matter what i was never going to be it for you? you were it for me. fuck you for pretending like you loved me. fuck you for letting me believe a lie for years. fuck you. fuck you. fuck you for not moving to Victoria. never ballsy enough to end it but to let me live in misery. fuck you for being miserable with me. fuck you nathan. i hope one day you see this and think about how much you miss me. i hope you think back and realized that i loved you so hard and raw. i hope you realize what you did. i would’ve never slept with you or stayed with u for that night knowing you had no intention of continuing it. fuck you. fuck you. you let me believe you still loved me. you let me have hope for having you in my life. fuck you for everything you did. fuck you for letting me love you. fuck you for the way you handled this breakup. fuck you. fuck you. fuck you. fuck you for never being there for me. fuck you for letting me cry myself to sleep next you to after i got diagnosed. i made you dinner after i got literal chemo. i had spots on my brain. you didn’t even hold me after. you were not there for me. you let me sob and didn’t even look me in hen eye. fuck you. fuck you. i tried to be a cool girl with you. I will never be cool enough. did i ever mean anything to you? was i just a body to keep you company? how can you just be fine? fuck you for wrecking my college experience. fuck you for pretending to love me. how could you love me and still be okay? fuck you for not wishing me a happy birthday. fuck you for never being vulnerable. fuck you for letting me believe i was worth anything to you. fuck u for becoming this twisted villain. i wish i could go back and erase you. i wish you never dated me. i would never have to feel like this. i would never have to be this alone. fuck uou for not trying. i begged you to love me. i begged to be enough. i sobbed to you BEGGING for a change. i beg and beg and beg and you never verbalized anything. i made you love letters, playlists, poems. i planned our future. you played video games. i am pretty, fun, funny. i am kind. i am a good person, and you destroyed me. do you hear me telling you that? you wrecked me. you took my spark and ate it. you took my beauty and stomped on it. you never said or with your words but your actions. i was worthless to you. i wasn’t even worth making dinner or a date. i wasn’t worth dinner to you. I would’ve been your wife. I would’ve been your wife. I would’ve been your wife. do you hear that? i would’ve started a life with you. actually, i did! i derailed my life for someone who couldn’t even make me fucking dinner. do you feel like a man now? do feel like one of the boys now? fuck you. how can i be friends with a man that so blanatly doesn’t care about me? respect me? did you ever? and now you’re gonna go on and paint me the villain, but i think we both know how hard i loved you. remember when i asked you if you thought we were soulmates? you said you didn’t believe in soulmates. neither did i but my love for you was so intense i started too. your love for me was so dull you can just throw me away. i fell so madly in love with you for so long and you thought i was just fine. i was nothing to you. i was just to keep you company? better than being alone? the most sick and twisted part is i do wish you the best. i want you to live a good life and fall in love and feel so much love. i want you to be okay, just wish you could’ve missed me like i miss you. if only for a little while i wish you couldve loved me like i loved you. i want you to have a wife and kids and the life you deserve, i just wish it could’ve been me. i wish i could’ve been enough for you. you loved me like a first love, but you weren’t my first, just my best. this was puppy love for you, but this was soul crushing intense love for me. you’re never supposed to read this, so if you are i on a whim decided to send it. you can take it however you want. you can paint me however you see fit, but just so you know i loved (love) you. i still crave your skin, your mind, your hair. i think i might forever. you hurt me. you hurt me so deep. i feel used. maybe im angry, or depressed, or maybe i just feel disgusted by how much of myself i gave you. you told me we would continue to see each other after (if only to be friends, or maybe more) but you looked me in the eyes and promised we would still see each other, so we had sex. so i continued to be vulnerable with you. but you never intended to stay friends with me or continue hanging out. you just wanted one last fuck. we had sex better than we have in months. is it because you knew it would be the last time? when you dropped off my stuff you kept the car running. im not even worth it to stop a minute? im not worth a hug goodbye? im completely worthless to you. you never even listened to the playlist i made you. how could i expect you to love me? how could i expect you respect me? how could i expect anything at all? i don’t know how to be a person anymore. you never looked at the posts i sent you. you never wanted to go out. you never wanted me. you never wanted me. you never wanted me. i don’t understand how you can just be ok. im sick to my stomach. everytime something happens i just want to call you. i just want to hear ur voice. i just want to see your face. i know you never want to see me again and it’s so hard. the worst part is i don’t hate you at all. i love you so much. why didn’t you love me? how am i ever going to be okay again? how am i ever going to live with this constant pit in my stomach. how can you not want me back? how can you possibly be ok right now? why wasn’t i good enough for you? how are you still laughing and being funny and having a good time? why didn’t you wish me a happy birthday? why don’t you miss me ? why don’t you miss me? why don’t you miss me?
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fuck you for not answering me. fuck you for leading me on. fuck you. fuck you for getting that one last fuck in. fuck you for letting me believe we were still gonna be friends. fuck you for being okay. fuck you. fuck you flr never defending me. fuck uou for everything you did during the relationship. fuck you. fuck you. i was never going to be enough for you. i was never going to be what you so dreamed of. no matter what i was never going to be it for you? you were it for me. fuck you for pretending like you loved me. fuck you for letting me believe a lie for years. fuck you. fuck you. fuck you for not moving to Victoria. never ballsy enough to end it but to let me live in misery. fuck you for being miserable with me. fuck you nathan. i hope one day you see this and think about how much you miss me. i hope you think back and realized that i loved you so hard and raw. i hope you realize what you did. i would’ve never slept with you or stayed with u for that night knowing you had no intention of continuing it. fuck you. fuck you. you let me believe you still loved me. you let me have hope for having you in my life. fuck you for everything you did. fuck you for letting me love you. fuck you for the way you handled this breakup. fuck you. fuck you. fuck you. fuck you for never being there for me. fuck you for letting me cry myself to sleep next you to after i got diagnosed. i made you dinner after i got literal chemo. i had spots on my brain. you didn’t even hold me after. you were not there for me. you let me sob and didn’t even look me in hen eye. fuck you. fuck you. i tried to be a cool girl with you. I will never be cool enough. did i ever mean anything to you? was i just a body to keep you company? how can you just be fine? fuck you for wrecking my college experience. fuck you for pretending to love me. how could you love me and still be okay? fuck you for not wishing me a happy birthday. fuck you for never being vulnerable. fuck you for letting me believe i was worth anything to you. fuck u for becoming this twisted villain. i wish i could go back and erase you. i wish you never dated me. i would never have to feel like this. i would never have to be this alone. fuck uou for not trying. i begged you to love me. i begged to be enough. i sobbed to you BEGGING for a change. i beg and beg and beg and you never verbalized anything. i made you love letters, playlists, poems. i planned our future. you played video games. i am pretty, fun, funny. i am kind. i am a good person, and you destroyed me. do you hear me telling you that? you wrecked me. you took my spark and ate it. you took my beauty and stomped on it. you never said or with your words but your actions. i was worthless to you. i wasn’t even worth making dinner or a date. i wasn’t worth dinner to you. I would’ve been your wife. I would’ve been your wife. I would’ve been your wife. do you hear that? i would’ve started a life with you. actually, i did! i derailed my life for someone who couldn’t even make me fucking dinner. do you feel like a man now? do feel like one of the boys now? fuck you. how can i be friends with a man that so blanatly doesn’t care about me? respect me? did you ever? and now you’re gonna go on and paint me the villain, but i think we both know how hard i loved you. remember when i asked you if you thought we were soulmates? you said you didn’t believe in soulmates. neither did i but my love for you was so intense i started too. your love for me was so dull you can just throw me away. i fell so madly in love with you for so long and you thought i was just fine. i was nothing to you. i was just to keep you company? better than being alone? the most sick and twisted part is i do wish you the best. i want you to live a good life and fall in love and feel so much love. i want you to be okay, just wish you could’ve missed me like i miss you. if only for a little while i wish you couldve loved me like i loved you. i want you to have a wife and kids and the life you deserve, i just wish it could’ve been me. i wish i could’ve been enough for you. you loved me like a first love, but you weren’t my first, just my best. this was puppy love for you, but this was soul crushing intense love for me. you’re never supposed to read this, so if you are i on a whim decided to send it. you can take it however you want. you can paint me however you see fit, but just so you know i loved (love) you. i still crave your skin, your mind, your hair. i think i might forever. you hurt me. you hurt me so deep. i feel used. maybe im angry, or depressed, or maybe i just feel disgusted by how much of myself i gave you. you told me we would continue to see each other after (if only to be friends, or maybe more) but you looked me in the eyes and promised we would still see each other, so we had sex. so i continued to be vulnerable with you. but you never intended to stay friends with me or continue hanging out. you just wanted one last fuck. we had sex better than we have in months. is it because you knew it would be the last time? when you dropped off my stuff you kept the car running. im not even worth it to stop a minute? im not worth a hug goodbye? im completely worthless to you. you never even listened to the playlist i made you. how could i expect you to love me? how could i expect you respect me? how could i expect anything at all? i don’t know how to be a person anymore. you never looked at the posts i sent you. you never wanted to go out. you never wanted me. you never wanted me. you never wanted me. i don’t understand how you can just be ok. im sick to my stomach. everytime something happens i just want to call you. i just want to hear ur voice. i just want to see your face. i know you never want to see me again and it’s so hard. the worst part is i don’t hate you at all. i love you so much. why didn’t you love me? how am i ever going to be okay again? how am i ever going to live with this constant pit in my stomach. how can you not want me back? how can you possibly be ok right now? why wasn’t i good enough for you? how are you still laughing and being funny and having a good time? why didn’t you wish me a happy birthday? why don’t you miss me ? why don’t you miss me? why don’t you miss me?
2024.05.18 16:05 AlternativeOk8372 Mommy Issues
I have this friend that I will call John (33). So yesterday he tells me he can’t really concentrate & is somewhat bothered by something, I ask what is it (if you want to share it w me) so he says yes that may help just telling someone to get it off his chest. (Pls prepare your mind to be blown), he says he was at a Halloween party about 5 yrs ago & the friend that he went with asked him if he wanted to go into a bedroom where they were partying and have some fun with some girls, so of course he says yes. He gets in there and three more women come in together, and they all had on mask which they kept on, he also had a mask on. They were all very drunk and my friend ended up hooking up with one of the girls with the mask on. He ended up with a happy ending if you know what I mean and everybody kind of was done with what they were doing, and the girl that he was with took her mask off. Well to his surprise and of all people in the whole world it was… HIS MOTHER! he said that he shot out of that room Asap and didn’t say a word to anybody!
So he’s been carrying around this crazy guilt for years and hasn’t told anyone or so he said until last night. He said that two years ago he decided to tell his mother that he was the one, so she of course very surprised & starts telling him how great it was and that nobody had ever made her having a happy ending as well as he did… Can you read between the lines? So immediately after that, she wants to do it again and he did but that he felt bad about it after the fact and hasn’t done it again. Then yesterday he said he was going over to her house for a belated birthday dinner for him and he told me that he wouldn’t be surprised if they did something again or at least she would probably ask. He said that it was all he’s been thinking about too and several hours after he went he sends me a graphic photo of the “happy ending” but during lol
I am really trying to wrap my head around this because one, I’m not 100% sure that it actually happened. For some crazy reason, I just don’t know whether to believe him or not & two, who does that? I mean, he has brought a whole new meaning to the phrase, mommy issues. So my question is do you think he really did it or do you think he just made it up? I mean he also sent me the three pictures of the three different girls with the mask on so I guess that part is true, then he sends me more pictures of the actual “handwork” so this leads me to believe that it did happen, unless of course, it was a completely different scenario and he just made up the story to go with those pictures, I mean, I don’t know my mind is completely blown. I know that this is something that is a fantasy for a lot of men but I’ve never actually met or talked to a guy that has done it and I’m not really sure how to feel about it. Lol. So Charlotte, what are your thoughts? Just for question purposes, I have never dated him and I don’t know if I would after hearing all of this. I need feedback!
“Perplexed”
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So he’s been carrying around this crazy guilt for years and hasn’t told anyone or so he said until last night. He said that two years ago he decided to tell his mother that he was the one, so she of course very surprised & starts telling him how great it was and that nobody had ever made her having a happy ending as well as he did… Can you read between the lines? So immediately after that, she wants to do it again and he did but that he felt bad about it after the fact and hasn’t done it again. Then yesterday he said he was going over to her house for a belated birthday dinner for him and he told me that he wouldn’t be surprised if they did something again or at least she would probably ask. He said that it was all he’s been thinking about too and several hours after he went he sends me a graphic photo of the “happy ending” but during lol
I am really trying to wrap my head around this because one, I’m not 100% sure that it actually happened. For some crazy reason, I just don’t know whether to believe him or not & two, who does that? I mean, he has brought a whole new meaning to the phrase, mommy issues. So my question is do you think he really did it or do you think he just made it up? I mean he also sent me the three pictures of the three different girls with the mask on so I guess that part is true, then he sends me more pictures of the actual “handwork” so this leads me to believe that it did happen, unless of course, it was a completely different scenario and he just made up the story to go with those pictures, I mean, I don’t know my mind is completely blown. I know that this is something that is a fantasy for a lot of men but I’ve never actually met or talked to a guy that has done it and I’m not really sure how to feel about it. Lol. So Charlotte, what are your thoughts? Just for question purposes, I have never dated him and I don’t know if I would after hearing all of this. I need feedback!
“Perplexed”
2024.05.18 12:02 LEGGINGSBIKINI Ichelle
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