Wagers to make with a boyfriend

Hey baby girl,
I miss you so much and I’m so sorry that the last time we seen each other it hurt your feelings I want you to remember me. For the last 10 years, you have been my favorite person in the world. I have enjoyed so much time with you. Thank you for caring about me so much. You’re the reason that I stayed out of so much trouble over the years so you can be extremely proud of that. You changed my entire life for the better over the years so you can be extremely proud of that. You deserve so much happiness and I know you are going to be an amazing person for the rest of your life. Don’t let anyone change that you are so brave. I’m so proud of you. You are so strong and you have overcome so much. I sent a text to your mom today and I told her to tell her boyfriend thank you for being so good to you. He seems like a really good man and I pray that your mom marries him so you have a good father in your life. I know you’ve dealt with so much heartbreak and so much hurt already in your life but baby you’re gonna be fine. Please keep being the person that you are because you’ve always been so kind and caring you’ve always thought about everyone else first my heart has shattered during our last couple conversations because I know you see how much pain I’m in and I never wanted to show you this side of me. You have been my everything. Hey don’t forget you have family in Texas too. They still love you. I know your Texas mom still loves you very much. She was really good to you and I’m so grateful for the time that we all got to spend as a family. Those were some of my most cherished moments in life.. I just want you to know this is my decision and I know it’s selfish and I’ve tried to help but nothing works anymore. Grow up and be much better than I ever was remember baby it’s OK to fail. It’s not OK to give up. When my marriage failed, I didn’t give up I put in the work I needed to, but unfortunately, it was too late and things kind of got out of hand from there for me. You are my sunshine, my only sunshine. You make me happy when skies are gray…. I’ve got a 45 minute long recording of us from when you were seven. And I’ve listened to it once and cried the entire time.. That was probably my favorite conversation that we ever had. That was the dad I wanted to be for you. And I’m so sorry that I diminished into the person that I am now. I’m just so lost and every day is getting worse. If you have any questions about me then ask your Texas mom she knew me better than anyone. She also has a special box for you make sure you get that box from her. Go live out all of your dreams no matter what people tell you. When they tell you, you can’t do something prove them wrong. Use it as a learning lesson to get better try again sometimes in life there will be things where you fail and you don’t have another opportunity and that’s OK. Just be the best version of yourself and I know you will be unstoppable.
Daddy loves you from the day you were born to the end of eternity

tw: i'm someone who struggles with binging (NOT restriction), but i think some of the stuff i say hear might be particularly triggering to those who have more restrictive disorders.
My boyfriend was encouraging me to exercise because I really fucking should and it would at least slightly offset the weight I have gained from binging for the past few fucking months, but I'm so scared of exercising again that I burst into tears when he suggested that idea to me.
The last time I got consistent exercise was when I was trying to properly lose weight for the first time around 20210 and it sort of worked for about a year. For some reason, I just couldn't keep it up. When I finally got to my ideal weight, I struggled so much to maintain it and started binging endlessly and also exercising less. I've always struggled with being disciplined, but I thought I'd ingrained the exercising habit in me as I'd been doing it for a year at that point, but I really hadn't. I hated exerting myself, I hated that even when I felt exhausted after a workout, it wasn't as much as other people. I hated that the girls that didn't even exercise but just restricted were thinner than me.
At one point, I remember I was able to start exercising consistently again, but when college got busy I just stopped. The idea of starting again just made me feel so damn bad. I would start bursting into tears or having difficult breathing. Before fucking exercising! I'm much weaker than I used to be, and I feel so embarrassed and fat about how I am not as fit as I used to be.
I know I should get over myself, get disciplined, and start exercising for my health. And because I'm gaining weight and am in the OW category, I also know I should diet (in a healthy way). But the fact that I did it before makes it harder... Because I remember how much I hated it before. I don't want to go back to constantly thinking about calories, how I need to exercise more, how no matter what I do, it feels like everyone else is prettier and skinnier than me. But I need to get back to that for fucking health reasons. I hate it.

I am m26 met her a yr ago and we fell in love and confessed it about a month back also we are planing to get married next yr. but currently she lives with her current boyfriend. She said she needs time to tell about us to him & till then she will be living with him. Sometimes she manages to assure me saying things “I feel like running to you“ , “I see you as my husband not him” but it hurts badly when I see her taking care of him, saying things like “It feels bad when he comes to hug me with affection and I have to get out of close proximity with some excuse”, “he made a movie plan for tonight and I’ll let you know if I can say no to the plan depending upon in which emotional state he ask me” It hurts when she chooses not to piss him off about anything but ready to piss me. I don’t know what to do and how to make myself calm in this situations.

Hello, I don't know if this is the right place to say this but.. I want to make things move. I wanted to go to a psychologist but I don't have money for it. So, I feel pretty empty inside. Sometimes, I can feel emotions, but it is very brief, I have no family except my father with whom I have no interactions, he is watching TV laying on the sofa all day, he is full of hatred toward the whole world, he hates his job, he never tried to bond with me, well, I basically raised myself. I never had any family connection, I have a biological mother but she is not in my life anymore as I cut her off my life at 14 years old but that's another story.
Now I am 18. I want to move out so I can be free and have my own space and life. I adopted a hamster 3 days ago because I didn't want to be alone anymore and so I could keep up through the days. It is my first ever pet, I love him, I took several pics and videos of him already, and I love having him in my arms, but still, even tho I am saying that, I am not loving him as plenty as I would like to, like I am stressed out to do something wrong with him, that he has a bad life with me or I don't know but I know my feelings are blocked inside, and that's a recurent problem in my life.
I had a 3 years relationship with an aweful boy some years ago, I wasn't even mature myself, this relationship destroyed me. I took a significant amount of weight which destroyed my life and health, now I get medical help to try to lose weight, but it is extremely hard because of stress and hyperphagia.
Now I am going out with a wonderful boy who is everything to me, he is incredibly kind and is working his ass off to get driving licence, to get us an appartment, I would be nothing without him. But again, I am loving him as much as I could, I know inside that I love him very very much, but I am not feeling those feelings, I don't know how to explain but it is very painful to me. I get irritated often, I want my peace, and I get more and more angry because of stress, I have a really high stress level, so much that I recently developped cardiac problems, if I have too strong emotions, my heart beats fast and then stop. It never stopped yet but doctors said that's a big possibility.
I recently kinda exploded with my boyfriend because things he said hurt me, even is his words weren't mean, I just exploded and that wasn't happening to me before, at least not that much, I don't want to make my boyfriend handle all of my problems and my anger, I just want to change, to break my wall that is blocking my feelings inside, I want to live freely but I don't know how to do... I am so mad at life, scared when I go outside, I am so scared... A lot happened recently but I wrote already a lot so... Yeah thanks if you went until here.

I am m26 met her a yr ago and we fell in love and confessed it about a month back also we are planing to get married next yr. but currently she lives with her current boyfriend. She said she needs time to tell about us to him & till then she will be living with him. Sometimes she manages to assure me saying things “I feel like running to you“ , “I see you as my husband not him” but it hurts badly when I see her taking care of him, saying things like “It feels bad when he comes to hug me with affection and I have to get out of close proximity with some excuse”, “he made a movie plan for tonight and I’ll let you know if I can say no to the plan depending upon in which emotional state he ask me” It hurts when she chooses not to piss him off about anything but ready to piss me. I don’t know what to do and how to make myself calm in this situations.

My step sister from my dad is currently 18 years old and she has been under my mother’s care (her step mother) since she was 2 since she doesn’t want to stay with her own mother even though she always claim to be mistreated in here. She’s living the most comfortable life under this very own roof that’s why she never decided to move back with her mom.
She have done a lot of awful things to my mother such as stealing 500+ dollars from my mother just to spend on her boyfriend, talking rude things about her behind her back, telling my mom’s friend exaggerated fake stories that makes my parents look bad
Last year, she moved out of here to live with my grandma (which she always disrespects as well) because our father and her had an argument because of her being too hardheaded, she wasn’t talking to our dad the whole time she was there and only apologized when my grandma kicked her out for also being hardheaded and rude.
My mom pitied her so she let her back into our house and now she moved out again because of an argument with my mom.

First of all, this is going to be a long post. apologies for any grammatical or spelling errors. It's very late at night and I just needed to get this off my chest. Also, I'm doing this on my phone, so...
My friend, whom I've been very close to for about a year and four months, has removed me from his life for the time being and claims I am a horrible person and a narcissist. This started during a small event about a year ago when we were playing Call of Duty with a particular friend. One of my other friends, whom they are not familiar with, started razzing on them, teasing, and making fun of them a little for not being very good at the game because they were brand new. (I know the fact that they didn't know each other had a lot to do with how he viewed this interaction.) I realized it affected him badly, and I apologized profusely.
I acknowledge that talking shit to your friends on Call of Duty is pretty par for the course for me, so I didn't recognize the problem immediately. Teasing and shit-talking your friends on Call of Duty is very normal for me, but for them, it really struck a chord. They thought they were being bullied and targeted directly for some reason, but they didn't exactly tell me why. At the time of the interaction, I didn't take it seriously because I knew the person and knew he wasn't doing it maliciously. He had also been drinking, which made him a bit more rowdy. Explaining that it wasn't malicious wasn't good enough during the confrontation later on. Apologies weren't good enough either. I didn't know what they wanted me to do other than go back in time and address it at that moment. I wish I could have.
The friend who did this was someone I usually only hung out with during Call of Duty. But afterward, I got closer to him over the months that followed. My friend who was hurt didn't tell me about his feelings until much later. I learned later that he was getting offended that I was getting closer to this person as well. When he eventually told me about it, I brushed it off, saying that that's how people act on Call of Duty. No, I'm not condoning the terrible things people say in Call of Duty, but my friend is not like that. I know some of you might be thinking about Call of Duty and the worst of the worst things said there, but it definitely wasn't that.
I didn't take it seriously at the time, and we got into an argument. He still never fully explained what exactly I did wrong, just that I didn't defend him or that I brushed off his feelings. He thinks my friend is a brash drunk person and basically just a bad person. He told me all of my Call of Duty friends are garbage. I admitted that my friend was struggling with alcoholism but has been taking huge steps to improve his life. He's still improving every day. But he still talks shit on Call of Duty, and I talk shit to him too. For us, talking shit to your friends is kind of how you express your friendship. It probably sounds crazy, but my hurt friend still felt extremely bad about it and threatened to cut off our friendship if I didn't apologize correctly or cut off my Call of Duty friend. We eventually worked through this argument.
This brings me to another argument we had later on. For the past few months, my friend has been extremely depressed. He's going to therapy again, but every time we talk, he talks about how depressed he is, how his dating life is terrible, how everyone in his past has treated him awfully, his dating prospects are horrible, and nobody likes him. He's depressed because he might have to move and he's currently out of a job. I feel for this man terribly. I love him and wish I could help him with everything he needs. But it's like he's flipped a switch in the last few months and suddenly hates me. He has called me a narcissist or said that I have narcissistic traits, or that I'm just terrible. He says I have some sort of mental disorder. He constantly tells people I need to work on myself and that if I can't acknowledge my problems, I must be damaged. To be fair, everyone has problems they need to work on.
He also told people that I trick people into liking me and told my boyfriend that I manipulated him into being with me. Every single conversation he's had with people about me has been either awfully negative or bizarrely positive about how I'm such a wonderful person. It's honestly starting to get god-awfully annoying.
I had stopped hanging out with him one-on-one because every time we talked, it was so depressing or overly positive about how happy he was about my relationship with his best friend growing. It was honestly very strange. I used to confide in him about my relationship with his best friend, but I do not do that anymore. It would always devolve into the depressing things I mentioned above and how everyone in his past has treated him terribly. So I would only hang out with him in social settings because he wouldn't share like that when there were other people around. That’s a stark contrast from the many hours we used to spend speaking one-on-one, playing games, and just chatting and watching videos for hours on end. We were very close.
I’m aware that only spending time with him in a group setting was a messed-up thing to do. I should have talked to him about my feelings, but I was honestly scared that he would get mad at me because of how he had reacted in the past and how reactive he had been to everything anyone had said to him recently. He has been overthinking every single thing that I say. He takes everything I say out of context and misunderstands every single thing I say to him.
One day, I burned my hand badly and couldn’t play anything, so I ended up just watching a show with my boyfriend. My friend messaged me and asked if I wanted to play games with him. I told him about my hand and that I wasn't going to be playing any games. I had made plans to play games later that night with another friend, but I told him those plans were canceled. He accused me of trying to ostracize him. I told him that if I felt up for it, I would invite him if my hand felt better and I could play games later that night. He lives on the East Coast, and I live on the West Coast, so if I play later at night, he might be sleeping, but I told him if he was awake, I would invite him. I ended up not being able to. My hand was very badly burnt, and I had an ice pack on it all night. And he never said it directly. But the way he was like, if you don't want me to hang out you can just tell me. Was very telling that he didn't believe me and he thought I was just excluding him. I ended up taking a picture of what I was doing and sent it to him, which he said was ridiculous and unnecessary of me to do, but it was the only thing I could do to make him stop. It’s like he’s looking for bad things to think and say about me.
He even snapped on a very long-term friend, calling him a terrible name. It was incredibly cruel and extremely out of character. I know he’s going through serious mental issues and depression, and he has recently started going to therapy again. I want to give him the benefit of the doubt, but it’s just hard at this point. I have apologized dozens of times, but he constantly says that I don’t apologize correctly or that I’m not apologizing the right way. I don’t know what that means. I’m so apologetic, and I know I have a terrible way of expressing myself and saying the right words. He knows that. He deleted me on all platforms except for a couple. He said he left those avenues of contact open as a way for us to try and work through this. We called each other a few days ago and had a pretty good conversation. I think this is going to end positively. I think our relationship and friendship are going in a positive direction at this point. But I’m just feeling crazy about all of this and wondering if maybe I am crazy. I’m an overthinker and I overthink everything. And now that I can’t stop thinking about this, maybe I am a narcissist. Maybe I am a horrible person. I kind of just wanted some outside perspective on it. If you have any questions or need me to explain anything further, please ask. I’ll be more than happy to answer.
I know I should have defended him properly and I did not communicate well enough. I know I should have expressed my feelings to him and tried to work through them properly. I’m a very bad communicator and tend to over-explain because I hate being misunderstood. I know that can get on people’s nerves, and they can see me trying to explain my point as just making excuses or justifying my actions when I’m just trying to make sure I’m understood so they know exactly why I did something and understand my point of view. I do this even when I have acknowledged that I’m wrong. I just want to be understood. That is something I’m actively working on. It’s a terrible quality, I know. But if this doesn't get better, what should I do?

It was my cousin sister's wedding and we are Indians, so if you are Indian or know Indian friends/weddings, you know the drill - the daysss long wedding events, the heavy dresses and jewelry, and also, some serious family dramas.
My cousin and I are very close even if there is a huge age gap between us. Naturally, when her wedding came around I was very excited and I helped a lot with the planning and decoration and the food - literally everything. It was exactly as we have imagined her wedding to be like. Just perfect in every way possible. But again, it's a wedding. How is a wedding ever complete with a Drama Llama? So dear potato community, here is the tea.
The man that my cousin was marrying to, my current BIL, is an amazing man who has been with my cousin since their college days. They were friends in their college days and when they started working they joined the same company so they remained close to each other. Friendship turned into love and they decided to date and eventually get married. Both the families were informed and everyone was very happy with their decisions, except just one person. BIL's sister. She didn't have any personal problems with my cousin, her only issue was that her best friend liked my BIL, let's name this friend the 'idiot' (because she truly is an idiot and this is honestly the nicest word I can use for her).
When idiot found out that BIL loved someone else and is getting married, she went ballistic. She has been trying to get his attention for so many years and he didn't even turn towards her even for one day and he was being head over heels for my cousin. I understand her being upset, I have been a girl in love and in heartbreak too, but I wouldn't try to break someone's marriage because of my heartbreak.
Yes she tried to stop their marriage via BIL's sister. The two forged all types of absurd accusations on my cousin and tried to anonymously sneak in the accusations in means of messages from unknown numbers to my cousin's then future FIL and MIL, to emails and even letters delivered to their doorstep. My cousin was really stressed because she thought the FIL and MIL would think the accusations are true and would stop the wedding. I told her, "don't worry sisso, I am here." (add dramatic music here and imagine a cape on my back).
My cousin's father (my maternal uncle), me and my brother first went to the FIL and MIL to let them know that all of this was false and that my cousin is innocent. We asked them for some time and that we will find proof of who has been sending them those false news and will let them know of everything and then they are free to judge and make decisions from their side. We got the permission from them and decided to get to work immediately.
One thing I forgot to mention was that BIL used to live in his own house in a different state from where his parents lived after he got a job. Before this, my cousin and BIL used to live in one town and went to college together. Once they got their jobs, they both came to my city, BIL got his own house and my cousin came to live with me. His family came to live with him when he told them that he wanted to marry so they came help him with the wedding arrangements. What's unfortunate is that the sister also brought her best friend, the 'idiot', who was in love with my BIL since she was 15 and BIL was 17.
I mentioned BIL having his own separate house in a new town because it was important to mention. Both his sister and the idiot didn't know he installed security cameras in his house and that the camera was pretty well hidden so they couldn't have noticed either. We asked BIL if we can see the camera's recordings and we saw someone early in the morning at 4 am dropping a letter. Guess who it was... THE IDIOT!! We showed it to my cousin's FIL and MIL and they cross questioned the idiot about it and she was in tears and admitted to everything. She and BIL's sister apologized for everything. They were forgiven and it was a happily ever after... or so you thought...
Everything after that was pretty peaceful, all the arrangements were made and we are now at the wedding day. My cousin was really jumpy and on her toes at all times, she was panicking so bad about everything. My brother and I had to sit her down and talk her out of her panic. She however mentioned that she was scared that idiot might try to pull up some sick stunt to ruin her wedding day. I however told to her calm down cause I wouldn't let my precious angel's wedding get ruined. I have seen enough Charlotte's videos to know that we must always have a backup plan prepared in advance in situations like this. And so I did. I collected a lot of information and evidences and kept them in place in case they come in handy.
I had my suspicions that they would do something to mess up the wedding way before it even became a thought in my cousin's mind, so I did a little research about the two. Since we all belong from the same hometown, I got in contact with my friends who still lived in the town that my cousin and my BIL used to live in. I asked around about these two baboons and found out that BIL's sister had a boyfriend and has even slept with him. Premarital smex is a big no no here. As for the idiot, I found out that she was slowly getting BIL's sister into illegal substances and into becoming a call girl. Again, a big no no. And I think no parent in this world would want their child to do something that would end up in trouble for them and the child as well. I knew my cousin's FIL and MIL would be worried about their daughter and take actions immediately if I let them know of this. I would have told them this after the wedding was over anyway, but that would have been in private so no one else would know, but I guess the girls wanted something else.
Once the wedding ceremony started and the guests were all there, they were enjoying, everyone was having fun and giving their blessings to the new husband and wife to be. These two pain in the asses were going around and gossiping about my cousin to everyone. We noticed that, and we came up with a quick solution. I asked two of my male friends, who is very attractive to go and talk to the girls. However I told them to switch on their recorder and be with them no matter what. God bless my two friends, they did exactly what I told them without thinking twice. They came to me after an hour or so and told me what was going on.
The two girls were planning to ruin her wedding dress. When I tell you that shit was costly, IT WAS COSTLY. It was really heavy with all the heavy stone work that was done on the cream colored lehenga and if it was stained it would be ruined. We could not afford that in any cost. She was taking a glass of juice from the juice counters and tried sitting right behind the bride but I stepped in and told her to go sit behind her brother and that I would sit behind my cousin. She was trying so hard but me and my brother kept pushing her off and away from my cousin. Eventually she did manage to throw it but it accidentally landed on someone from the groom's side and she got scolded by her. While her grumpy face was funny to see, I still had enough because if that aunty wasn't there, it would have been my cousin. After the wedding was over and people were going to start taking the photos with the couple, I announced that me and my brother had some things to say. Initially we talked about the bride and the groom but then we shifted the attention to the groom's sister and her friend. We played the audios of the calls I had with her friends in the hometown as a surprise to the groom's sister. There were a lot of angry faces, some on the sister and some on me and my brother. I tried to explain, that had she and her friend not try to ruin my cousin sister's wedding dress, this wouldn't have been broadcasted to the entire wedding venue. I then called my two male friends and both of their faces was in gasps. Both of them pulled out their phones and I played the recordings on one of the phones, which explained how they were still spreading fake news about my cousin and also them planning to ruin my cousin's dress. We also got the video recording of them actively trying to throw the red colored drink on my cousin's dress.
Both of them got kicked out from there and weren't allowed to enter until the rest of the ceremony was over. Both of them stood outside, making attempts to convince anyone who would listen to them and let them in, but no one paid heed to them. Once everyone got home they were scolded badly and my BIL's sister kept screaming at me that I was so mean and rude to have their truths exposed to not just her family, but to every relative and friends who was there to witness the show. While my cousin was glad that I had her back and my brother is standing in support of me, my parents and some of our relatives think that it should have dealt within the family and shouldn't have been exposed to anyone outside of the immediate family members. AITA?
Note: I am so sorry if the post ended up being too long but I just wanted to give all the context that would be required to judge the entire situation and my actions as well. Also if something doesn't make sense just blame it on my sleepy head cause I wrote it in half sleep mode.

I've never had a good history with women, my biological mother never wanted me, nor did my next three step mothers after that, my first girlfriends parents didn't want their daughter dating a white boy so they moved to another state, a lot of new "friends", and to top it off a girl that had a boyfriend the day after our first date.
And as of four days ago a girl that sent me a text stating "Sorry, not interested, never was." I haven't had much money for a while and I finally scraped together a few extra bucks to take her out. I never expected a yes but I also didn't expect a no. You can't be hurt by something you didn't want to happen if you stopped wanting anything.
I like to consider myself a good judge of character. I was able to tell immediately with my best friend that he had some severe childhood trauma. Well low and behold a month after we met him and I showed up to class one day with a redbull for each other since we'd been on the phone for 6 hours the previous night and got jack shit for sleep.
But I wasn't able to see anything in her, the best way I can describe it was a Locked box, there were only a handful of keys and the ones that existed were already in the hands of the people who needed them, and to make a new one would be long and difficult. When we met it seemed like it was going to work out, and for a while it was. I don't know if I responded too fast, or if I just came on too strong.
All my friends keep telling me to stop worrying about it and that if she was the one she would've gone out with me. And I'm half and half on that, I don't want to stop worrying out of fear that I'll grow numb to the pain, after a while I grew numb to the abuse that my stepmother's gave me and that scared the shit out of me. But on the other hand if she was the one then she would've, it still doesn't change the fact that I've never met a girl like her and I doubt I'll never see one again.
My great grandmother always had a way with quotes, one of the ones she said that I'll never forget goes "one trashed man is another woman's treasure" as time goes on that quote gets less and less believable. But in the end I forgot why I stopped talking to girls, and life put me in my place. I expect the same to happen in about a year or so.

Earlier last year, I expressed to my boyfriend (42m) that I (31f) wanted to go on a vacation to between feb-march to see manatees in their local watering hole in FL near my sister. He asked if we could wait until his semester (he’s the head of a program at a local private university) to go and make it an us vacation.
Originally, I was planning to stay with my sister (no hotel, just driving to the springs, eating subs/healthy snacks along the way).
But I agreed to wait for him. He starts looking into hotels that are on a beach that are $500 each and sends me links… I tell him no, this is too much so let’s not go. He says he’ll pay for the hotel and not to worry about that.
I agree and we end up going after his semester. By this time the manatees had all but left (I saw one) but I was okay because I got to see my sister and have a solid trip overall.
Next day after arriving home, he adds in our shared notes app a Venmo itemized “shared expenses” section. This section includes the hotel, restaurants he picked out, and the one Uber ride (my sister drove us most of the way).
I’m annoyed now because I guess he forgot that he offered to pay for the hotel since it was his decision, and because he knows I’m struggling financially. Also, because he picked out the places to eat - I assumed they were his treat. AITAH?
It’s effecting how I feel about our future together so I haven’t seen him in person since because I want to figure this out. Any help is appreciated! TYIA

After 2 years, I (M24) broke up with my girlfriend (F22). It was a beautiful and healthy relationship at the beginning, but it changed beyond recognition. Over time, she began to show her toxic, manipulative, and narcissistic nature. The whole world revolved around her, she could never admit her mistakes, and she blamed others for everything. She constantly blamed her parents for her anxieties, saying they didn't listen to her, understand her, or care if she was sad during her childhood. This is not true at all.
To clarify, we lived together in an apartment for about 6 months. The first two months were great, and she helped with household chores and cooking. But after those two months, something broke. When she came home from work, she would lie in bed all day watching TikToks and reality shows. I took care of the entire household—cooking, cleaning, and everything else. The only thing she occasionally did was laundry, and even then, I had to push and beg her to do it. Our sex life suddenly ended, and we didn't have sex for about 2 months. I've always been the type who likes to cuddle and have close contact with my partner. I could only cuddle her when she wanted to; if she didn't, she would just say that she was comfortable and didn't want to be touched.
She was nice only when she needed something; on those days, things were okay with her. But the next day, when she didn't need anything, she was withdrawn and indifferent. I tried to do everything for her, often driving her to and from work, buying her gifts, and getting her whatever she craved. I tried to be her support, but toward the end, she started rejecting it. It's weird because she kept telling me she loved me. About a month ago, she told me she loved me but couldn't fall in love with me. She said the problem was within her and that often, even when I did or said nothing, I annoyed her. This hurt me deeply, and I considered ending it back then.
Meanwhile, she started chatting with her ex-boyfriend, whom she met at a bar while out with her friend. They had a bad breakup, but they supposedly cleared things up and became friends, chatting every day since then. I felt strange and bad about it. Her relationship with me felt like it was out of principle, and she was just using me. She was only nice when she needed something. A week ago, she went on vacation to Turkey with her family, a trip I couldn't attend. We got her passport and everything ready together. On the first day of the vacation, she texted and called me, and I saw she was happy, which made me very happy. But after the first day, she only messaged me once every two days. When she returned from Turkey, I was on a hike with her dad. When I got home, I went to take a nap, and she was at her parents' place. I woke up to her knocking, standing there with three friends. I didn't get a kiss or a hug. She immediately left with her friends to go to a bar. I heard some quiet mocking and smirks but didn't address it. She closed the door, and everything hit me—all the sadness and melancholy of the past months. I felt like crap. I unpacked her suitcase with tears in my eyes, packed my things, and called my dad to come get me. I had a few beers on the hike and didn't want to risk driving. I texted her that I was going home. Her response was that she fully understood.
She had already told me that she was sorry for her behavior but didn't know any other way and that I didn't deserve this. Yesterday, I went back to clarify things and get the rest of my stuff. She told me that during her time in Turkey, she didn't miss me at all and didn't feel the need to text me. She realized then that this wasn't how it should be. We shed a few tears, and she asked if she could cuddle with me one last time, which broke my heart. I felt like crap. She helped me pack my things, and I left. She's probably going to stay with a friend. We were renting this apartment, so we'll just cancel the lease.
On the hike, her dad told me he was very happy that she found a guy like me and that he was sorry for how she was treating me. Even though she's his daughter, he said I didn't deserve this and should pack up and leave. He said she was like her mother and that I didn't want to end up like him. He told her the same thing when she came home—that she shouldn't treat me like trash and should either start acting normal or break up. Her mother told her she hoped she'd find another tyrant who would bully her and make her life hell like all her previous boyfriends.
Sorry for the long text, but I needed to vent and also put my thoughts together in case I need to remind myself why this was the right decision. There are probably many mistakes, so I apologize. English is not my first language, and this is my first experience with Reddit. Thank you for your feedback.

My boyfriends ex turned up at his house to tell him his mum had passed away a month ago and had a conversation about her will and stuff. He then ended the conversation asking for his number which for whatever reason my boyfriend gave it to him.
So I confronted him about it and said I felt uncomfortable with him doing that. He reassured me it wasn’t for him and it was for his aunt kim who he was close with. He has had messages from her which he has told me about.
My problem now is I knew there was something he was hiding. I don’t wanna sound controlling or obsessive but I needed to know for my sake he wasn’t messaging his ex I checked his phone when he left the room and there his name was my heart sank as not only did he say he wouldn’t message him but he would block him if he tried to contact him he was also messaging him back and forth. The context of the conversation was non sexual or flirtatious in nature however it was clear his ex wants to reconnect to a sense.
His ex was sending kisses on the end of some messages sending selfies to him. From the brief conversation I saw my partner didn’t really entertain it although something that concerned me was that they are gonna meet up at some point as I saw a message from his ex saying he cannot wait to see him. I don’t know what to do.
If I confront him he will know I’ve seen his messages but if I pretend non of this is happening what happens if they get together I feel so sick I don’t know what to do as my boyfriend has lied to me about not talking to him and not seeing him when he is makes me believe that there’s something happening I’ve just not long come out of a toxic relationship so I really cannot be bothered with another person who says one thing and then does another.

So last week me (18f) and my boyfriend (17m) had prom. After he told me he had to talk to me about something and sat me down on the couch. He told me how he had no time for his hobbies because I'm always over on the weekends and that's the only real time he gets to do his hobbies. How I distract him from his school work. He told me that he felt like I was using him as a crunch too much because I have no friends. For a little bit of background I just stopped being friends with a girl that I had been friends with for 9 year because of prom drama and she was the only one who i was close to other than my boyfriend. Anyways, he told me that I had to make more friends to rely on because he feels trapped. He told me even when I'm not around he's constantly thinking of me and worried about how I'm doing due to my metal health not being so great. How it destacks him from his hobbies and schoolwork. He told me that he cares to much about and said he doesn't know what to do. I asked him if he wanted to break up(I asked him this a few times throughout our conversation) and he said he didn't know. I asked him if he loved me because i was his girlfriend or if he loved me for me. He didnt know how to answer the question and said it was strange. After coversatating a little more I went to the bathroom to take a breather and when I came back out he hugged me and said he didn't want to break up and that he did love me. We then came to the conclusion that I wouldn't come over as much and that he wouldn't text me at school. The problem is that can't stop feeling guilty. I feel like I'm holding him back. I also feel like I no longer can talk to him about my feelings because it might distract him. To be honest my mental health has never been great but I don't think I talked to him about it that much. There would be times I would have panic attacks and would call him late at night but besides that I always kept my feelings to my self. Sometimes I would sneak to the bathroom and cry so he wouldn't know at night because I didn't want to bother him. He never asks me about myself either. He never asks me how im feeling, hows school going, what ive done today. So hearing him say that I use him as a crutch hurt and made me feel guilty. It makes me not want to share any of my feelings with him, I know that's not healthy but im scared that it'll just end up pushing him away more. I don't know what to do. I feel like I'm on eggshells now because if I tell him im upset or anything it'll just make him feel more trapped. He's my first boyfriend and we've been dating almost a year. I don't want to break up with him but I don't want to hold him back. I also don't want to ask for space because I feel like that will just make him feel guilty. There's so much more I can say but this is already way to long. So what should I do?
TLRD: My boyfriend told me that he felt trapped by me and that I used him as a crutch to much so now I don't know what to do.

Ok for starters this is a throw away account since I know they have reddit and I DO NOT want them to see this. Also we are friends online! Don't judge I have a ton of friends in LDR 😭 Anyways. I have no idea what to think and I feel like I can't ask my friends since we are all in a big friend group and I'm afraid they will tell him. Recently, I will call him G, and I have been getting close. I will also start by saying we have been friends since December. There was some drama that happened and he blocked the whole friend group. He ended up only messaging me about coming back and everything and now we are all friends again. Since then we have been getting closer. We were still some what distant but since my boyfriend and I started having issues he's become less distant (I should also note that my boyfriend and I have basically separated after an argument). We started talking a lot more and he even opened up to me about some personal stuff. A few weeks ago I showed him a friend of mine and he decided he liked her. I tried to set them up, but it sort of fell through. I hate to admit it but I'm happy it fell through. This led to us talking even more. We are very similar in music taste, thoughts, and movies. This is where I am now wondering if he likes me or if I'm tripping. He sends me music and songs he likes all the time. He also talks about movies and we even have a list we should watch (admittedly a lot with our friends but there are a few he thinks would be better suited for just us). We also just bought concert tickets together and plan to meet up after I said I wanted to go but had no one to go with. Anytime I talk about how I want to do things he always says how he would do them with me. How he would love to go do this or that with me. But when others mention it, he sort of shys away from the idea. We also stay up late, even after our whole friend group is gone. We play games together even though I'm bad. He sends me funny messages all the time now too. To the point where if he's laughing I know I'll receive the video. He also has apologized to me before about how he wants to not be as rude to me (we make jokes for sure towards each other) and how he feels it isn't right of him to do so. He also likes my Instagram notes and comments a lot on them. I know those reasons may not make it seem likely that he likes me but there are 3 specific instances that I think of. The first is when I was complaining about how I would be bored by myself at this thing I was doing. He said he wouldn't be busy at that time and I joked we would probably just talk in our group chat. He sort of laughed then started to stutter saying, "Well you know...You know...haha" And then said, "Well if you wanted..." and stopped himself. I don't know what he was going to ask. But we spent 2 hours during said boring event talking and he showed me his guitar and how to restring it. The second is the other day we were talking about movies. There is this movie he LOVES so much. We have regular movie nights with the gang and the other day it fell through. I said I was sad and wanted to watch the movie. He started to say "well you know...if you wanted" again. After some time of talking he nervous laughed and asked if I wanted to watch another movie with him just him and I. I agreed. We got off track as we usually do and ended up on the conversation of his favorite movie again. He then asked "We could watch [name of favorite movie] instead...together if you wanted to..". That brings me to my third scenario of the fact we watched the movie together by ourselves. I should also say he almost never stutters over anything and has no issues asking me to do xyz in games we play or to watch this video ect. Those 2 stuttering moments have thrown me off completely. 

ON TOP OF ALL OF THAT, we had movie night today and he turned his camera on and my god He has the most beautiful smile I've ever seen. His laugh is contagious as well. I almost want to be around him The most of all of our friends because he is so kind and has the best laugh. But his smile oh my god and his eyes. That's the first thing I noticed about him. I think I may have developed a crush on him. But do you all think he may have as well?

Hi friends! I don’t know what this is or what I “have” I honestly just want to feel know if there’s other people that experience this.
Sometimes I (20 f) feel genuinely out of control of myself, like I’ll say or do things that I feel like before I can stop myself I’ve already done them.
For example, I saw an old highschool friend when I was out with my boyfriend, they said hi to me and I said hi back. The next thing that came out of my mouth was “can I have a hug?” I DID NOT WANT A HUG, I don’t even know why I said it!!
Or My uncle the other day offered me a alcoholic beverage at a family event (I am of drinking age) and I gave him a look like I was uncomfortable as he was listing what drinks they had at the house. His response to this was “don’t get me wrong I feel weird offering it to you” because he thought I felt uncomfortable WHICH I DID NOT.
Idk maybe this is silly but I do stuff like this all the time and I just don’t know why.
I’ve talked about it with my boyfriend being like “hey you know when you just say things you don’t mean?” And he’s like “nope.”, which obviously makes me feel like I’m going crazy but yeah.
I don’t have generalized anxiety, thought I should say as idk if that might be apart of it.
If you have also experienced this please let me know, I feel so alone :/

This is more for me to work out my own feelings than needing advice although advice would be helpful. I am still debating on if I want to talk this out or let it go. So yeah, as the title says, only one person from my friend group showed up to my (28F) Birthday Dinner. I am primarily coming to Reddit because it is embarrassing and shattering my vision of myself. I fear seeking comfort from my out-of-state friends because I do not want them to think less of me. I have always been deeply aware of how lonely I feel/am. It is one of my biggest vulnerabilities, so should other people be aware of it? or imply it with none of my friends who came to my birthday dinner? I can open up about anything else, but this feels too exposing.
But yeah, my friends did not show up for my birthday dinner, and I am not sure how I feel about it. One person did, but he(M29+) is my boyfriend's(32M) friend more than mine. To be honest, this makes it even more embarrassing. Having to search The Feelings Chart, I primarily just feel abandoned, embarrassed, fragile, disrespected, etc. Watching the door and waiting for your friends to show up while conversing with your partner and their friend is difficult. Suddenly, I was 17 again, only having one singular friend going to lunch with me before having other friends and dropping me off at an empty house. I think my parents were at a sibling's game or tournament. or a party? I am not sure; I just remember being home alone for my birthday a month after a suicide attempt. Or I was back at 11, having my birthday overshadowed by my sister's first communion. Or I was back on my 20th birthday, taking myself to see Captain America: Civil War.
Most of them did not even tell me they were not coming. That is what really hurts. I know my birthday sucks for everyone, time-wise. My parents made that very apparent by pushing any family celebration to Father's Day/my dad's & uncle's birthday. Yet only one of the four got back to me two hours beforehand about being unable to make it because they were tired from preparing for their family member's wedding a week from now. However, the thing is, I had gauged the group chat about doing it this weekend a week ago. To be fair, there were acknowledgments of seeing it, but no one directly responded with a conflict. I even sent a message 24 hours before letting everyone know I made a reservation, and people, again, liked the message but did not directly say if there was an issue. That is what is primarily keeping me from having a conversation with anyone. There was obvious acknowledgment of the plans, but no one asked if they could go.
It is apparent I have a lot of baggage around my birthday. I worry I unconsciously make it a test for people and myself. I saw how much people love and value me and based my self-worth and relationships on that. Possibly hope they do not show in a sick way of confirming my deepest insecurity. The rationale part of me acknowledges that it is a lot to put on someone, and things, unfortunately, just do not work out sometimes. On the other hand, this is the third event I have planned as the host where people were busy and canceled at the last minute. Usually, I would just take that as a sign of people not wanting to be friends, but some of them were legitimately interested in it when I briefly discussed it in April. Furthermore, they keep inviting me to their events.
Fundamentally, I do not know where to go from here. Only one of them has reached out, apologizing for not communicating more and saying that they will celebrate at a better time, while the other two have been silent. I think I need more time to process it before having an actual conversation with anyone about it. I am still primarily in the hurt phase, and no communication will be about their actual behavior. For example, with the apology, I was dishonest and said no worries. I wish I did not do that; it caught me off guard, but I did not want it to sit for too long and have them think I was ignoring them out of malice. If I had been in a better headspace, I would have responded with a thank you, acknowledged reading their message, and just be honest about needing more time before talking about it. I just feel sad.
Added context: We are all in graduate school. This is their last quarter before graduating, so they are legitimately busy and finishing up their practice experience/integrative projects and applying to fellowships. Ages range from 25-30.

Hi context I post my boyfriend M 20 and he doesn't seem too mind, whoever he doesn't post me, years ago he gave me reasons like he rarely posts on social media. He said his enemies, bullies or ex girlfriends will go after me if he posted me.
I wonder why he wants to keep me private, how do I ask him in the politest way to post me. He posted me ages ago on his Facebook story. But after that he stopped. Like we have our relationship status on Facebook and we have taken in our instagram bios.
The closet thing I have to memories on his account is the hot air balloons photo that he edited.
He seems disappointed like where am I when I made a hot air balloons post without him.
I can't archive the photos of us together cause he'll think we're breaking up.
He's usually open about our relationship to his team mates in sport and to his friends and family.
He use to like other girls instagram posts until I put a boundary to stop.
I feel unattractive.
All I'd like is if he'd at least put me as his profile photo or a post.
He's very active on social media.
He has up photos of guys he use to be friends with on instagram.
He has photos of guys on his sports team. He's stopped liking my photos.
He hearted himself wrestling a guy. He liked a photo of a guy in a suit.
I've made an anniversary post of him that I can't take down.
How do I hint for him to post me. I don't want to break up with him, but I'm tired of feeling invisible while other girls have boyfriends that post them.
I just really want too feel attractive and that I deserve to be shown off. :( I love him but I don't know how to make this feeling go away we've been together for 2 years now.

So we've (M23 F28) been broken up for months now. I am blocked everywhere, I have no way of contacting her even if I wanted to. We have been in on/off no contact since, currently we haven't had any contact for two months. Likely because she tried to stay friends with me and I refused that. I told her I don't want to be friends with my ex.
Today my mum has posted an Instagram story and she has responded to it, and talked to her.
This woman discarded me like I am trash, and now tries to pretend I don't exist. But she seems to want to maintain a relationship with my mother. I really don't understand it. Why would she do this if she doesn't want to be with me or even have any contact?
This has really hurt me, because it makes me think that she values my mum more than she ever valued me. And I was supposed to be her boyfriend.
The fact she follows my mum doesn't bother me, it's the fact she has responded to the story. I still follow her family members, but I wouldn't talk to them. I would only ever talk to them if I was also talking to my ex. I'm really struggling to understand her thought processes.

So yesterday, me (21f) went out with my boyfriend (26m) for a day out as it was a hot day. We ended up coming across a restaurant that had outside seating as my boyfriend wanted a pint. After ordering his pint, a couple food bits to share and two cocktails for me, he found some green bits in his drink. He then continued driving his pint but found more bits in his pint but this time started to complain to me about it. I didn’t say anything as he seemed like he was going to keep drinking it which he did. It was now a third time that he found another bit in his pint which was also met with complaints to me. I couldn’t be bothered to deal with his complaining so I called over the waiter and explained the situation politely and he said that he could get us another pint. He goes back inside and I don’t know what he said to the owner but the owner comes out and starts questioning us suggesting that we were lying about the green bits even though the pints were probably the cheapest thing that we’d ordered. We explain once more but he just walks off without really acknowledging what we said. With his second pint, he saw a fly in his drink and he started to complain once more, I stated that it was probably due time being outside and we both started laughing but my boyfriend continues to drink it, the same waiter comes over and asks if there is something wrong and I say no but there is s fly in his drink but I think it’s because we’re outside so it’s fine. The waiter replied ‘you’re trying to make me look bad in front of the owner, I can go get him (owner) again if you like’ and my boyfriend said it was fine there was no need. I ask my boyfriend if he’s sure because I don’t want to have to deal with the complaining if it’s over something that we can fix but he replies it’s fine. The waiter now decides to say to my boyfriend ‘if she sticks it on you again, I can just got get the owner’ and I reply irritated now by his stupid joke that the only reason why I sent it back was because of his complaints. The waiter says the joke again and walks off. I felt so small in that moment that my boyfriend didn’t come to my defence over something I tried to help him on but rather allow another man to make me the butt of a joke. After being visibly upset with a bit of tears coming through and a bit embarrassed, he asked if I was okay and I explained why I wasn’t especially since im not really one to send back things at restaurants and have been a bit distant with him since. He’s apologised and understood why I was upset but I’d like a third opinion.

So last week me (18f) and my boyfriend (17m) had prom. After he told me he had to talk to me about something and sat me down on the couch. He told me how he had no time for his hobbies because I'm always over on the weekends and that's the only real time he gets to do his hobbies. How I distract him from his school work. He told me that he felt like I was using him as a crunch too much because I have no friends. For a little bit of background I just stopped being friends with a girl that I had been friends with for 9 year because of prom drama and she was the only one who i was close to other than my boyfriend. Anyways, he told me that I had to make more friends to rely on because he feels trapped. He told me even when I'm not around he's constantly thinking of me and worried about how I'm doing due to my metal health not being so great. How it destacks him from his hobbies and schoolwork. He told me that he cares to much about and said he doesn't know what to do. I asked him if he wanted to break up(I asked him this a few times throughout our conversation) and he said he didn't know. I asked him if he loved me because i was his girlfriend or if he loved me for me. He didnt know how to answer the question and said it was strange. After coversatating a little more I went to the bathroom to take a breather and when I came back out he hugged me and said he didn't want to break up and that he did love me. We then came to the conclusion that I wouldn't come over as much and that he wouldn't text me at school. The problem is that can't stop feeling guilty. I feel like I'm holding him back. I also feel like I no longer can talk to him about my feelings because it might distract him. To be honest my mental health has never been great but I don't think I talked to him about it that much. There would be times I would have panic attacks and would call him late at night but besides that I always kept my feelings to my self. Sometimes I would sneak to the bathroom and cry so he wouldn't know at night because I didn't want to bother him. He never asks me about myself either. He never asks me how im feeling, hows school going, what ive done today. So hearing him say that I use him as a crutch hurt and made me feel guilty. It makes me not want to share any of my feelings with him, I know that's not healthy but im scared that it'll just end up pushing him away more. I don't know what to do. I feel like I'm on eggshells now because if I tell him im upset or anything it'll just make him feel more trapped. He's my first boyfriend and we've been dating almost a year. I don't want to break up with him but I don't want to hold him back. I also don't want to ask for space because I feel like that will just make him feel guilty. There's so much more I can say but this is already way to long. So what should I do?

Me (16F), have been obsessed with Drake ever since he started rapping in 2006, to the point where I strip dance so I could save enough for tickets to his concert.
My boyfriend, (78M), hates Drake and always argued with me that he thinks that Ice Spice makes better music. We had stopped talking to each other for 3 days after that incident, and one day while I was in the middle of my daily fap session and watching an animated porn video of Ben 10 ram his 17-inch veiny black joystick into the slippery tight hole of Peppa Pig’s voluptuous ass, I got a notification from my friend (21F), who was also a fan of Drake, it was a video of Drake jerking himself! The longer I watched the video the more I was completely mesmerized by his juicy creamy cock. It was just so big and I can’t imagine the sensation I would feel if it just penetrated my gushing wet pussy!
Ever since then I’ve been jerking off and touching myself to that video of Drake that all my juices ran out by the time I had my sex session with my boyfriend! My boyfriend realized that my squirt doesn't have enough yogurt and immediately asked me what was going on and why I didn’t cum despite him penetrating so hard that my pussy almost bled.
I replied with tears in my eyes that he doesn't satisfy me anymore and only someone like Drake can satiate my hunger for wild feral sex. My boyfriend instantly knocked me out with a beer bottle to the head and now I’m stuck in his basement along with 15 more young girls, I am now typing this secretly without him knowing and I genuinely wonder if this is my fault for saying Drake has a bigger cock than his dried and shriveled up doorknob?