One night in paris videone night in paris

I have been in school for nine years but my first school not only closed down, it wouldn’t let me learn theory for the first six months, it then closed down without notice because it lost accreditation. It was a scam as well since they told us in 2015 that student writers neither had screens nor memory and only professional writers did. It taught a different theory than the school I transferred to. I actually wanted to start at the beginning again but the new school wouldn’t let me and they didn’t give me advice that I had the wrong kind of machine even in the technology classes.
in short, I feel my school failed me every step of the way. I started to go against their advice and learn Magnum Steno Theory which has been helping a lot
well, last night one of my fellow students had passed her RVR as well as her CA CSR. My instructor congratulated her and the whole class chimed in (it’s an online school) but it wasn’t just that, it wasn’t just the Facebook post that the school put up, it wasn’t just the email they sent out.
my instructor said that we were going to use that class to honor this other student and her successes and opportunities
she then said that no ones life is unfair and there are always people worse off. She read a story where there was a line saying that to go places you need both feet in your shoes. I’m an amputee and she damn well knows it
I got so pissed off and enraged that I went to take a test and I got a better score at it than I had for a couple months, not passing but nearly. I then realized that the last two tests I passed were because I was pissed off at someone and wanted to prove I was better than they thought I was.
but I just don’t know how to use that to my advantage, I don’t know how I can “hulk out” with every test, any ideas would be great

Personally, just trying to overcome all the baggage and be better than my parents were. They were drug addicts/alcoholics who mooched off their parents, never really gave me much support growing up especially not emotionally.
Even now as a grown man, I feel like something huge is missing, especially from my dad who in spite of everything I’ve overcome and actually sort of making something of myself professionally, he still acts like he couldn’t give a shit less most of the time-almost like he is jealous-and is just drinking himself to death night after night anyway.
don’t really have a support system either, most close friends I had are out of touch or are focused on their families, which I understand. Still it’s hard feeling like you have absolutely no one to turn to for support in hard times or share successes with in good times. Being a “lone wolf” is overrated especially when it’s not by choice.
Guess I am hoping to hear some success stories from guys who have overcome this type of upbringing. Anyone who has not had a support system or the validation, appreciation, whatever from their parents and has still become the man they wanted to be in spite of that?

HOWDY Partners 🤠 I type this important message from the southern region of the United States. If your lookin for someone who will respond back to your messages in 1.2 milliseconds, well look no further. My interest include and are not limited too (if our hobbies are different please tell me about yours I’m always looking for new ones for my ADHD brain): •Gaming, of course who doesn’t game in this day in age. •Watching 10 movies in a row and not feeling bad about it. •Blasting music at night daydreaming scenarios in my head staring at the blank void filled walls. I have a ton more but I’d figured I’d save them for the meat of our chat. Hope to hear from whatever soul is reading this post. Peace and Love ✌️&❤️

I live in SLC, but my new job has me flying out to Boise enough times a month that I’d like to have another bike out there to ride trails after work.
Depending on what makes sense, I could get a new bike for Boise, or bring my 2021 aluminum Top Fuel there and get a new one for home.
I mostly ride XC stuff in SLC, where tight turns on exposed terrain are my biggest challenges. My bike also feels twitchy at speed. In theory I would like to get a carbon bike with more progressive geometry and a bit more travel just to have something different, but I wonder if that’s just me reading the internet too much. I test rode a SCOR 4060 last night, and the geo felt kind of overkill lol.
I don’t really know the trails in Boise, but looks like it’s also more XCish stuff close to town. Is that true? And if you were in my shoes, what bike do you think would best work in my situation? I’d imagine the safest choice would be some downcountry bike but curious what others think.

There's quite a bit to go through today.
Last night I had an anxiety attack. My trigger was my mental health and how despite being diagnosed with depression and anxiety and taking medications, I still feel like something is wrong with my brain. I have intrusive and racing thoughts which are hard to control and last night it was SOO overwhelming that I froze. I started to cry uncontrollably, I tightly clasped my hands together and felt like I couldn't let go...eventually, I started pacing and shifting my weight from my right to left leg back and forth until I calmed down. Surprisingly I slept well after that. I felt like I got some deep sleep. I don't know if the anxiety attack just tired me out so much that I slept the best I have slept for the past week or so.
I dreamt quite a bit. But the dream that stood out was that I was pregnant with his baby. I remember having this big pregnant belly, I remember giving birth and the delivery being so smooth and quick, I remember the nurses laying her right next to me on my left side for some skin-to-skin contact...she was so cute. I was so happy having my new baby girl, him, and my mom all by my side. I looked up pregnancy/birth dream meanings and supposedly it means "new beginnings". The way I interpreted it was that not only am I going through this new transformation as an individual, but our relationship is too. But also he has been the only person I have truly wanted a baby with so maybe it could just be a more literal subconscious desire.
After a quick yoga session, I went out to the store this morning. I went to World Market to look for this 5-pack coffee syrups sample because I started making my coffee at home again but didn't have any syrups to give it that **pizzazz**. I got them along with a new espresso cup because the one I had at home was broken. I also bought these cute little felt mushroom string lights. I thought the mushrooms would look pretty cute since I have a lot of plants and stuff in my room. After that, I went to Chick-fil-A and got my usual. And I know I said I wasn't depressed, but maybe I am? Just a little? Because despite doing all these little things that should've brought me joy, I didn't truly feel happy. I didn't feel super sad...I guess the best way to describe how I feel today is numb.
I'm pushing through. My goals for today (besides the stuff I already did this morning) is to hang up these string lights, do laundry, and do my evening yoga session.

Any red flags here?
This is my gfs friends brother in law who lives with them the last few weeks and she said they’ve only had one conversation in person before this. Her friend watches her kids a lot and she knew he was interested before this conversation because the friends mom told my gf that the brother in law told her he thinks she hot. I found this out after she said he was just looking for friends to hangout with. Also, he knew she had a boyfriend. Please let me know what you think. Let it go , or let her go. She thinks what she said is perfectly fine and innocent and that she didn’t want to say fuck off cause she would have to see him again over there.
This is how the messages went on fb. She showed me these btw.
Him - You going back to Chelsea's tonight? Her- Just to pick up Mark. Emma's staying the night Him- Worddd I gotcha alrighty then I been tryna play a game of pool for weeks now no one ever wants too Him-All I can do is ask so Imk lol Her- My boyfriend would wanna go Imao Him-Ahhh word is he chill or Her- He's incredibly insecure lol but it's been getting better Him-Ahhh so it be weird then？ Her-Unless you had a girl with you(laughing emoji) Him -Fuck well nvm I guess lol

TW: period
Hey yall! I hope yall are doing so well.
So I’m going to try really hard to keep this short and try not to make it confusing. I ended a friendship with another witch which was very painful for both of us. I noticed after the friendship ended that a lot of really weird things started happening , like I lost my job, totaled one of my cars and another one just stopped working along with a few other things. I thought nothing of it but just in case I did a banishing spell. It worked for a bit, and then I noticed some more things were happening like my partner losing his job.
The week before my period (like 7 days ago) and I’ve been very depressed like beyond the normal level with pmdd. it’s just been really hard af home the last 3 weeks. There’s been money issues, happiness issues and my house herself was so sad. I figured that my ex friend had sent out a spell. I did start my period yesterday but was still very very sad. I was at my wits end. Last night I did a freezer spell because why not. It couldn’t hurt right? But today I feel so much better. My best friend that lives with me also feels better. My house is happier. I’m wondering if there was a connection between the freezer spell and feeling better or if it was just the period coming that made me feel better instead.

Aologies in advance for the length. Okay so I'm a college student and my ex and I go to the same school. He lives in the dorms and I live off campus with some friends. We were dating for about 9 months. His friends and mine all hang out too so it's a really tight knit group. He's a foreigner here on a visa and makes excellent grades on the honor role and is active in the community on campus. He's on track to go to Ivey League also, so everyone likes him and respects him.
We started having sex almost right away. There was just such an attraction. He's a college aged male so he wanted it like all the time. And usually I obliged. But one night about a month ago, he was over at my apartment. There was only one roomate/friend of mine home. We were in my room and he wanted sex. I said I didn't want to tonight and he started pressuring me. We were laying in bed and I was on my stomach. I won't go into detail but he got behind me and did it anyway. He acted like it wasn't a big deal because have sex all the time.
I was in shock and felt disgusting so I told him I needed a moment and went to get in the shower. The other reason it was indeed a big deal is because I told him no is because I was on my period and had a tampon in. I did for the record, tell him that but he thought I was lying because I didn't want to do it. So again he pushed himself onto me despite my protests and struggling. I tried to fish the tampon out in the shower but I couldn't find the string. He came into the bathroom (the lock was busted) and tried talking to me. I told him I didn't want to talk but he insisted and even got into the shower. I was crying and I told him I wasn't lying about the tampon and I was scared because having one inside you can cause major medical problems. He said he'd get it out but I didn't want him to touch me. I got out of the shower and he kept wanting to talk and apolgizing and touching me. I finally screamed at him to leave me alone for awhile, while I took some time to think but be wouldn't.
My scream triggered my roommate who came in and saw me obvious upset, crying, wet, in a towel. She was alarmed. I told him if he wasn't gonna give me space then he should leave. My roommate wanted me away from him to ask what was wrong and when I told her, she said we should go to the hospital to get the tampon out. So we left and my ex was still there. At the hospital the nurse asked if I had been raped and I was taken aback honestly. She asked if I knew the person...yes. If it was consensual... not this time. She nodded and asked if I wanted to file a police report. I was so confused by this. I told her no and we left.
In the car she said the nurse had a point and it was SA. I wasn't ready to accept that at the time. But here's the kicker! My ex called me while we were on our way back. He doesn't have a car so he called a friend to come get him. He asked if I was okay and said he was calling to break up with me! Apparently I embarrassed him by having to have a friend come and get him in the middle of the night and him having to explain that he got kicked out. And "in his country, kicking someone out of your house is the ultimate form of disrespect." Also that now people were in his business.
I was devastated. We didn't talk for about a week and I had to see him on campus. Of course all our friends were asking what happened. I obviously didn't want to tell everyone the truth so I just said he broke up with me because I kicked him out. So people were telling him to forgive ME! It took me a while to realize that what he did was indeed SA and it took me some time to admit that. But with the help of my friend and roommate who is the only one of our friends who knows the truth, I came to terms that, that's what happened.
About a week after the break up, he calls me and wants to talk. He asked me to meet him at a park near campus so I did. I listened to him talk for about 45 mins straight. Here's the thing, and yes I might be dumb and naive but I really do love him and I was willing to listen to him and even get back together if he admitted what he did and promised to never do it again. But during that entire speech about what he saw as our future and how much he loves me, etc, he never once apologized. He didn't even bring that night up. Which told me that he really doesn't think he did anything wrong. And that scares me.
So he said he wanted us to get back together. I told him I'd think about it. I took the day and then told him I thought it was better if we just stayed friends (it's easier to be friends than completely cut him off because all our friends also hang out so we'll be around each other). So now all our friends think that we broke up solely because I kicked him out and that while he shouldn't have broken up with me in the first place, that I should forgive him for the break up and get back together. I keep telling them I refuse and now they're saying I'm punishing him and I'm being unfair. They keep trying to convince me. But they don't know the whole truth. The only one who does says I shouldn't give in because I'm being pressured.
I probably wouldn't even have this thought except with all the peer pressure I'm starting to doubt myself. AITA? Should I just explain to him how much he hurt me and see if he apologizes and get back together? It's breaking up the friend group too because my roommate that was there that night hasn't told anyone what happened but keeps telling the rest that they don't have the full story and now she hates my ex. And it's chaos. I also don't want the harmony of our group to go away.

Over the past weekend a close female friend of mine told me her and her boyfriend had broken up. They had been on shaky ground for a while so it wasn’t too much of a surprise, but she was heartbroken all the same. Myself and another friend of ours went to her place to comfort her and we all began drinking. She drank a lot more than us, which was fine given the circumstances. Eventually, our other friend had to leave and that just left the two of us.
We’ve known each other for years, initially meeting through a dating app. But after a few dates she decided it wasn’t right and we left it alone. But a year later or so we reconnected but strictly as friends. Whenever she had met her now ex-boyfriend she made sure I was the first person to meet him so we could explain our brief romantic history and he had no issues. Her and I have never shared any intimate moments or anything since when we first met, and neither of us ever tried anything.
But on this particular night, when it was just the two of us she began coming onto me. At first I didn’t much pay attention to how close she sat to me on the couch. Whenever I got up to get something and she grabbed a blanket I came back and sat farther away and she patted the couch for me to sit beside her, but I didn’t move. On the tv, we had a movie playing and there just happened to be a sex scene on and she kept commenting about how that looked fun. I just chuckled and didn’t respond. She then asked if I was turned on by watching them have sex, and that the real thing was so much better. I threw out a joke about old people having sex didn’t spark the same feeling and she tried to compare us to them. After a few more exchanges she crawled towards me on the couch and told me to lean back while she slid her hand across my thigh. At this point I jump up and go to the kitchen, telling her I was going to grab us some water. She kept calling my name and telling me to hurry up and I took my time on purpose. When I came back she was sitting with her shirt off, revealing her bra. I told her to put her shirt back on and she just laughed. I sat on the far end of the couch, and after throwing some more hints she finally just flat out asked if I we were going to do it or not. I didn’t respond and before I knew it she was passed out.
I stayed there for a little bit until her son got home from work. I carried her to her bed and left, letting him know to check on her. The next day, we texted here and there, mainly just talking about how she felt. We told me she would call later and I was a bit nervous about if the night’s events would come up. Once we got on the phone, she told me that she had no idea that our other friend had left. I was puzzled, reminding her that we all shared a moment of comforting her while she was crying right before our friend left but she didn’t remember. So, I began reviewing our night, seeing if she recalled anything and she didn’t. Initially I thought maybe she was just seeing if I would tell her but it didn’t seem like the case. She said she didn’t remember me carrying her to her room, or how she ended up in just a bra. At that point I thought she would for sure think that something had happened. I simply told her that she said it was hot, and she just responded with “well at least I had a bra on”.
I decided not to tell her about her actions. I have known her for about 6 years now, and we are very close. We know each other’s kids and family and other friends. Her ex-boyfriend and I even became good friends. We’d go to NBA games and such all the time without her, and he’d even come to me at times when things weren’t going well. But I’ve never really looked at her romantically like that, until now. When I was home the next day I thought about it a lot. I figured maybe it was just the sexual desires, and how maybe if she hasn’t been so drunk I would have gone for it. I’ve thought about what that might have done to friendship, good or bad, and if it was worth the risk. I’ve been wrestling with if I should tell eventually and see what she says. There’s like a dozen different thoughts running through my mind and I for once am not sure if this is a one time thing or if that was something related to some much deeper feelings she has for me.

Hello all ! A month ago I did my one hour glucose test and my results came back high enough to just refer me straight to the dietician and drs to get me set up on insulin. They tried to have me diet controlled and so far it’s been going okay ish ??? Meal readings come back in range except for the last week my dinner reading is coming back a tad high. Fasting is always over at most has been 111. They checked in weekly and on the 15th they started me on humalog 3u for dinner to try to get it low enough where my fasting numbers should be okay. We’ll today we checked in again and they’re adding in NPH insulin ? They explained it as long acting insulin. They did tell me it’s very likely they’ll have to increase my insulin weekly. Has anyone had this combo of types of insulin; and experiences ? Taking meal suggestions too I’m tired of eating the same couple of meals that I can trust to have good numbers :( I caved the other night after crying about my readings being so high with a salad so I said screw it and ate a cheat meal to try to keep my sanity and instantly regretted it when my sugar came back at a whopping 212 after two hours.
Sos tired of salads

Well..untill months ago,I really had it all.I met my beloved one back in 2020,I fell in love deeply,probably the very first time I ever loved someone completely,trully,without expectations,without any interest beside his pure nature,personality,intimacy,compatibilty,trust,etc..And he showed in actions more than words that we were feeling exactly the same way about each other.He had to leave due his military life,I thought I wouldnt survive,so much pain,from being apart. He promised find a way to come back,But wasnt a sure thing,so we couldnt be a relationship,cause we didnt know if we could ever meet again.Meanwhile,he was having other ppl out there,and I also tried my best to move on.I couldnt obviously.Then one year and half later,he did came back,and was the most absolutely wonderful thing that ever happened ,he brought me back to life.We decided never be apart again,and commited completely to each other.Was a perfect year for us,I felt loved,he also said that we had it perfect,making plans day and night,fully comminted to each other.Then,when I planned and paid a wonderful summer vacation on a amazing beach hotel,he started to treat me like shit,complaining about everything,etc,which was shocking ,he was the sweetest,and most humble guy ever,all about simple things,and no matter how tired,bad weather,drunk he was,he was wonderful to me.Accusing me of talking to other ppl,critising everything,paranoid,grabing my phone etc.Till I saw by accident while he was scrolling angry,pic with a ugly" woman" (i thought it was a man at first,)he claimed he never had anything with her,and just forgot to delete it.Clearly lie,i saw he posted pic with her before when we werent together,which was painful,cause he never even posted anything about me.Anywayss..I went nuts ofc,all the bad treatment,accusations,while I was paying for a great time and doing all I could to cheer him up,and put up with that bad mood.He got a lil better in the following months,but never got back to normal;till a month ago,he snaped.Serioulsy,he doesnt even look or sound like the same person,constantly criticizing everything I do,(all I do is try to make him happy,reassure him,validating him,and not do the things he dont like),I literally stopped a huge list of things that are my passion,I changed my work for a low payer one ,that I cant barely pay my bills,cause he was too jealous and said that my job was the only thing he hates.I dont even like myself now.I was happy,funny,loved life,dancing,spontaneous,smart,talkative,super smiling..Recently all I do is crying.He called me all kinds of stuff,that I still cant believe it.He hide his phone at all costs,and the only time I asked to see ,he snaped even harder,like never before,I lost my mind completely,and had a few nervous and mental breakdowns, the last time was the worst,I destroyed my apt while kicking him out,cause I saw messages,, when I asked to check ,he deleted the recent conversations with exes that he claims was before was.So;all the accusasions,poor treatment,broke promises,lies,etc,he still playing the victm.But keep saying he loves me.I love him.I cant believe I am putting up to all this,I am just confused. He changed,I really cannot recognize him,and it wasnt scalating,was really from one day to another.I dont know wt to do.

Short of the gist is that my world's races and its culture use a nonagesimal counting system for seconds in a minute and minutes in an hour. This was done because, as the writer I wanted longer days and nights in order for longer periods of time to pass by in comparison to earth's. And so that years passed by slower, with more longer events within them. An example being that their day could last longer and thus i can pack more events into a day in the story.
In human/earth terms, the planet has a day cycle of 67.5 hours, or 33.75 hours of day and night, so roughly 33 hours and 45 minutes. In human/earth terms, the planet has a year cycle of 1307 days, or roughly 3 and a half years (3.580).
In Luariin terms, their year is measured at 498 days, in which their days are 30 hours, 15/15 day/night, and their hours are measured in 90 minutes, with minutes being 90 (earth)seconds.
This all leads to the gestation period question as, nine months for humans, would be about two and a half months measured on my planet.
Would this translate well in the book? as a reader, being told that the planet is not only bigger, by a large margin, but also has a different way to count minutes/hours, would seeing a pregnancy ocur over what is basically 2.5 months be odd? I would be willing to extend the gestation period of my races to 3 months, making one trimester per month.

Context: I(F17) have been friends with this girl (F17) for like 4-5 years now. She goes to like a really prestigious private school and she's generally kind of close-minded ig? Like she's 17 and she's still got the "I hate pink/I'm not like other girls/Boys and makeouts are digusting" mentality. §So anyway. A month ago me and my school went on a three day trip. It's obviously tradition for everyone to excessively drink, smoke etc during those trips because they are free from their parents. I've always been the quiet, good kid. Last 1-2 years I've been additionally studying a lot too. I've never smoked a cigarette but I occasionally drink. I had already decided that this trip was going to be a little break for me, a way to let myself free from the expectations that are waiting for me when I go back home. The first night of the trip we all went out to a tavern and I got drunk (not blackout, but to the point where I was really happy and social) and I smoked a lot. It was fun cuz people where dancing etc so I sent my friend some videos of yk me and my friends or the people around us. She started telling me I should be ashamed of myself and that I'm a disappointment. Then she started slutshaming me. That's all I remember from that night. The next day I tried talking to her. I noticed she had screenshoted a video. She started telling me to shut up, to fuck off, that she doesn't want to talk to me and that I lost myself. She sent me the screenshot of me smoking and she was like "look at yourself". I made some fake ass apology because i didn't want to be anxious about her. §Ever since the trip I must have smoked like 3-4 times because i have to be sure I'm safe from my mother and also my friend gets the cigarettes. Somehow I mentioned it in a convo with my friend while we were out a few days ago. She started telling me that she'll blackmail me with that screenshot and that she doesn't want me to combine relaxation with smoking. But what drove me crazy is the fact she told me to listen to her because her grandfather didn't and died cuz of it. §Like am I crazy or is this plain emotional manipulation? I think it's one thing to suggest your friend to not smoke because it's unhealthy but the way she overreacted like she's my mother? Like Why'd she'd feel the need to fight with me about smt that I chose to do?

I think a lot of Severance is really explained by how episode 2 opens. I've noticed this before, but kept forgetting to dive into it. But last night I put on episode 2 to fall asleep to, heard it again, and decided to look into it today.
So iMark shows up for work at the beginning of Ep 2 on his first full day as MDR supervisor. He's looking at the list of his new duties, he's doing all the office prep stuff, and the whole time they're playing "Joshua Fit the Battle of Jericho" as the music.
I truly believe there are no mistakes in this show. Everything has a reason.
So as I'm falling asleep last night, all I'm hearing is the music, I'm singing along in my head and thinking about being in second grade and performing this song with my class for one of the pagents, and then thinking, once again, "why this song?"
Some background: the Battle of Jericho itself, is where they marched around the city once a day for six days, blowing their ram horns (goat reference), and on the 7th day they marched around seven times, blowing their horns until the walls crumbled and they took the city. All fine and well. But... then I started thinking, "ok, but of all the songs they could use as Mark is setting up the office, WHY that song?"
More background: Joshua was the right hand/second behind Moses. He was with Moses when God gave Moses the commandments, but not when Moses wrote them down. Then Joshua was one of the 12 spies Moses sent into Canaan to see if they could settle there, and they were all asked to keep a good tone to the reports. The job of the spies was to map the land, see what the other settlements were doing, figure out if they could be taken over, and report back on the general state of what they had (agriculture, forestry, other resources, etc). When the spies returned, 10 gave mixed or negative reports, with only Joshua and Caleb giving glowing one. Because of this, only Joshua and Caleb were promised spots in the Promised Land. After Moses died, God appointed Joshua as his successor. Joshua then started leading them into Canaan to find places to settle, and the first battle that happened was the Battle of Jericho.
So... what if Petey is our Moses, and Mark is our Joshua? And Because Mark would have been with Petey as they wandered around, they learned what the floor was like, but then Petey wrote and left the "commandments" (aka the Map) when Mark wasn't there.
So now Mark is in charge. And though Petey/Moses is alive on the outside, and giving oMark some direction before he dies (about spying!), iMark is now his full successor inside. He was appointed by the Board/Cobel (the "god" in Severance, who, by the way, iMark never heard the voice of). At this point in time, for the innies, Petey is as good as dead. And, as an aside, there ARE 12 spies, because once they decide to join with O&D, there are 12 of them! (4 in MDR + 8 total in O&D) I double checked in the scene and have a picture.
So, the questions...

1. What is the battle of Jericho?
   
2. The next is the first battle of Ai, which they lose. What is it?
   
3. The first battle of Ai is lost because one of them looted JerJericho for their own personal gain, which they weren't supposed to do, and beyraybetrayed the group. So who is the betrayer here? Who gets "paid off" by the company?
   
4. What will be the successful battle for Ai? (Season 2 or 3?)
   

I just think with all the religious stuff with Kier, Cobel, etc., and the song, "mapping the land" and the innies trying to figure out what's going on and them spying... it's too similar.
To answer some of the questions:

1. I believe the Battle of Jericho is the innies breaching the MDR locked wall that gets installed. By the time it's installed, Petey is truly dead, so both oMark and iMark are his successor in the Moses/Joshua parallel. It's only at this point the battle could happen.

The MDE takes place, and Helly picks defiant jazz. That can symbolize the horns being played around the city walls. IIRC, the way iMark is dancing is even like a little marching step move. After Milchick leaves, the innie gang leaves MDR with Graner's keycard. The walls of Jericho have, indeed, come tumbling down! They then go and make a tentative deal to join forces with O&D, creating the full 12 spies.

1. The battle at Ai, that they lose the first time, could be them waking up in the final episode and it being thwarted. It's not clear (yet) what/how much they accomplished. TBD
   
2. The reason the first battle at Ai is unsuccessful is because someone betrayed the group at Jericho by looting. So, if this analogy holds, did someone decide to take a payoff of some sort after the first overtime contingency test in episode 9? Maybe to stay out of the breakroom? I'm not pointing fingers, but Milchick was offering a lot of new incentives to Dylan, so I guess we'll have to see?
   
3. If the 1st battle of Ai was the OTC in ep 9, then the second would have to be some sort of repeat. But in Joshua's story, the second time he goes with a small contingency and confronts the leaders, I believe (who think it'll be easy to take them down). Meanwhile, the city is lost and 12,000 perish. So... are they going to wake again but have a much better plan this time???
   

Some additional thoughts:
• I can see iIrv, when he puts the egg in the Kier book, being one of the spies being fed up with "the word of God" and broken promises.
• When iMark takes Helly on her "mental health walk" she eventually agrees to help clean up the map. And when they're with the big O&D group, they talk about trying to find out what else is going on down there, exploring, and mapping. This was the job of the 12 spies that Moses sent into Canaan.
• Even if you think about Petey, he looks old. Like older than he should, given what we could guess his age is. And he's wandering alone, lost in his own desert (the greenhouses) for awhile.
Also, he loves the robe. After Mark takes him in, we basically only see Petey in that robe from that point forward. It just reminds me of how many different biblical stories we re-enacted in various school plays, and the boys were always in their dads' bathrobes when they played any biblical characters.
We don't know a lot about Petey's real backstory, but when he leaves Mark's house after Cobel breaks in, he goes into one of his fugue states where he can't tell the difference between reality and being on the severed floor. He's holding the map he drew, and thinks he's following that as he walks across the bridge and into town. As though he is wandering, again, in his own mind desert. And Moses wandered, alone, then died on a mountain while looking over the Promised Land. Petey, after wandering alone, walks out of the convenience store, sees Mark in the distance, and collapses. So does Mark represent, in some way, the idea of the promised land (uncovering what Lumen is really up to on the severed floor) to Petey?
(My whole point there is that Petey really does fit the idea of being the Moses in this dissection of the story, lol)
TL;DR: could Petey be Moses, Mark be Joshua, and the whole show ultimately be about trying to lead the innies and their outies to their promised land (aka the truth of what's really happening on the severed floor)?
Anyway... it seems to fit. And I can't think of another reason to choose that song, out of any song they could have picked, to play during that scene. It was the real transfer of power, when iMark truly became the new leader, taking over even the mundane tasks of leadership in this culture that signaled, to them, that iPetey was gone.
Sure, it could be a stretch. But I'd love to hear anyone's thoughts, especially anyone who might be able to dissect the biblical stories better! 😊

Had a problem I was wondering if someone could help me diagnose. The heat in my house wouldn’t shut off. In my area it’s been cold at night and warm during the day so the heat has been turned on and off and one day it just kept radiating heat despite turning the thermostat all the way down. I have a gas burner that heats water baseboard heaters. I had an old thermostat so I thought that was it but when I changed it out and turned on the breaker to the burner, the flames immediately kicked on despite my thermostat being in the off position. I have two zones in my house, one downstairs and one upstairs and only the downstairs was getting hot, which is another reason why I thought it was prob the downstairs thermostat, but I am not by any means a pro so yeah any advice would be helpful. I may end up calling an HVAC pro out, but I figure since we don’t 100% need the heat right now, I can take a little bit of time and try and fix it myself if possible.

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Spreadsheet

	HOUSE	FRAGRANCE	SIZE	REMAINING	Notes/Condition	Price	Type
1	Amouage	Amber Sogara	12mL	100% Full	Brand New, Sealed	$335	Niche
2	Amouage	Incense Rori Attar	12mL	100% Full	Brand New, Sealed	$299	Niche
3	Amouage	Orris Wakan Attar	12mL	99% Full	Full Presentation	$299	Niche
4	Amouage	Rose Aqor Attar	12mL	99% Full	Full Presentation	$299	Niche
5	Amouage	Saffron Hamra Attar	12mL	100% Full	Brand New, Sealed	$299	Niche
6	Andy Tauer	Cologne du Maghreb	50mL	99% Full	First Release, Rectangular Clear Bottle; With box	$95	Niche
7	Bond No. 9	Central Park West	100mL	100% Full	Tester (No Box or Cap)	$149	Niche
8	Bond No. 9	Dubai Jade	100mL	100% Full	Tester with Cap (No Box)	$200	Niche
9	Bond No. 9	Hamptons	100mL	100% Full	Tester (No Box or Cap)	$149	Niche
10	Bond No. 9	Madison Square Park	100mL	100% Full	Tester (No Box or Cap)	$149	Niche
11	Bond No. 9	New York Nights	100mL	100% Full	Tester (No Cap, No Box)	$165	Niche
12	Bond No. 9	NOMAD	100mL	100% Full	Tester (No Box or Cap)	$169	Niche
13	Bond No. 9	Riverside Drive	100mL	100% Full	Tester (No Box or Cap)	$149	Niche
14	Bond No. 9	So New York	100mL	100% Full	Tester (No Box or Cap)	$149	Niche
15	Bond No. 9	Sutton Place	100mL	100% Full	Tester (No Box or Cap)	$149	Niche
16	Bond No. 9	Wall Street	100mL	100% Full	Tester (No Box or Cap)	$149	Niche
17	By Kilian	Bamboo Harmony	100mL	100% Full	Tester Refill (No Spray, No Box)	$199	Niche
18	By Kilian	Black Phantom	100mL	100% Full	Tester Refill (No Spray, No Box)	$199	Niche
19	By Kilian	Can't Stop Loving You	50mL	100% Full	Brand New, Sealed	$185	Niche
20	By Kilian	Forbidden Games	50mL	98% Full	Tester Refill (No Spray, No Box)	$125	Niche
21	By Kilian	Gold Knight	100mL	100% Full	Tester Refill (No Spray, No Box)	$199	Niche
22	By Kilian	Gold Knight	50mL	98% Full	Tester Refill (No Spray, No Box)	$145	Niche
23	By Kilian	Good Girl Gone Bad	250mL	99% Full	Decanter; No Box	$650	Niche
24	By Kilian	Good Girl Gone Bad	50mL	98% Full	Tester Refill (No Spray, No Box)	$135	Niche
25	By Kilian	Good Girl Gone Bad Eau Fraiche	50mL	100% Full	Brand New, Sealed	$180	Niche
26	By Kilian	Intoxicated	100mL	100% Full	Tester Refill (No Spray, No Box)	$199	Niche
27	By Kilian	L'Heure Verte	50mL	100% Full	Brand New, Sealed	$135	Niche
28	By Kilian	Moonlight In Heaven	100mL	99% Full	Tester Refill (No Spray, No Box)	$199	Niche
29	By Kilian	Roses on Ice	50mL	100% Full	Brand New, Sealed	$135	Niche
30	Byredo	Eyes Closed	50mL	100% Full	Brand New, Sealed	$135	Niche
31	Byredo	Infloresence	100mL	100% Full	Tester; No Box	$135	Niche
32	Byredo	Lil Fleur	100mL	100% Full	Tester; No Box	$135	Niche
33	Byredo	Sunday Cologne	100mL	100% Full	Tester; No Box	$135	Niche
34	Chanel / Chanel Exclusif	Misia EdT	200mL	90% Full	Tester with Cap (No Box)	$325	Niche
35	Chanel / Chanel Exclusif	No. 22 EdT	200mL	95% Full	Tester with Cap (No Box)	$325	Niche
36	Christian Dior / Dior Privee	7 Mini Set as Pictured	7x 5mL	100% Full	7 Official Minis from 2010-2011... Mitzah, Milly-A-La-Foret, Granville, Cologne Royale, Eau Noire, New Look 1947	$180	Niche
37	Christian Dior / Dior Privee	Bois D'Argent	5mL	100% Full	Official Mini - Batch Code 0V01 (2010 Production Date) - Price includes shipping	$35	Niche
38	Christian Dior / Dior Privee	Cologne Royale	5mL	100% Full	Official Mini - Batch Code 1X01 (2011 Production Date) - Price includes shipping	$30	Niche
39	Christian Dior / Dior Privee	Diorissima	7.5mL	100% Full	Official Mini; No Cannister - Price includes shipping	$30	Niche
40	Christian Dior / Dior Privee	Eau Noire	5mL	100% Full	Official Mini - Batch Code 1R01 (2011 Production Date) - Price includes shipping	$35	Niche
41	Christian Dior / Dior Privee	Eden Roc	7.5mL	100% Full	Official Mini - Price includes shipping	$30	Niche
42	Christian Dior / Dior Privee	Granville	5mL	100% Full	Official Mini - Batch Code 0V01 (2010 Production Date) - Price includes shipping	$35	Niche
43	Christian Dior / Dior Privee	Milly-La-Foret	5mL	100% Full	Official Mini - Batch Code 0W01 (2010 Production Date) - Price includes shipping	$30	Niche
44	Christian Dior / Dior Privee	New Look 1947	5mL	100% Full	Official Mini - Batch Code 1R01 (2011 Production Date) - Price includes shipping	$30	Niche
45	Clive Christian	C for Men	50mL	95% Full	Tester (No Box)	$169	Niche
46	Clive Christian	I Pour Femme (Woody Floral with Vintage Rose)	50mL	99% Full	Tester (No Box)	$169	Niche
47	Clive Christian	Rock Rose	50mL	100% Full	Tester (No Box)	$229	Niche
48	Clive Christian	X Pour Femme	50mL	100% Full	Tester (No Box)	$169	Niche
49	Creed	Aventus - 19P21 (Decant)	50mL	100% Full	Magnetic Cap Decant	$169	Niche
50	Creed	Aventus - F Batch	100mL	100% Full	BNIB, Sealed	$235	Niche
51	Creed	Aventus Cologne - F Batch	100mL	100% Full	BNIB, Sealed	$235	Niche
52	Creed	Aventus for Her - F Batch	75mL	100% Full	Tester with Plastic Cap (No Box)	$175	Niche
53	Creed	Bois du Portugal	100mL	100% Full	Tester (No Box)	$185	Niche
54	Creed	Carmina - F1449	75mL	100% Full	Tester (No Cap or Box)	$199	Niche
55	Creed	Erolfa	100mL	100% Full	Tester with Plastic Cap	$185	Niche
56	Creed	Green Irish Tweed	100mL	100% Full	Tester with Plastic Cap (No Box)	$195	Niche
57	Creed	Himalaya - F Batch	100mL	100% Full	Tester with Plastic Cap (No Box)	$185	Niche
58	Creed	Millesime Imperial	100mL	100% Full	Tester with Plastic Cap (No Box)	$185	Niche
59	Creed	Original Santal	100mL	100% Full	Tester with Plastic Cap (No Box)	$185	Niche
60	Creed	Original Vetiver	100mL	100% Full	Tester with Plastic Cap (No Box)	$185	Niche
61	Creed	Queen of Silk	75mL	100% Full	Tester with Metal Cap	$275	Niche
62	Creed	Refillable Atomizer (5mL Leather Wrapped) Blue	5mL	100% Full	Brand New, Sealed	$85	Niche
63	Creed	Refillable Atomizer (5mL Leather Wrapped) Grey	5mL	100% Full	Brand New, Sealed	$85	Niche
64	Creed	Royal Oud - F Batch	100mL	100% Full	Tester with Plastic Cap (No Box)	$260	Niche
65	Creed	Royal Water - F238	100mL	100% Full	Tester with Plastic Cap (No Box)	$180	Niche
66	Creed	Silver Mountain Water - 21V01A	100mL	100% Full	Tester with Plastic Cap (No Box)	$180	Niche
67	Creed	Viking - F BATCH	100mL	100% Full	Tester with Plastic Cap (No Box)	$190	Niche
68	Creed	Viking Cologne	100mL	100% Full	Tester with Plastic Cap	$185	Niche
69	Creed	Virgin Island Water	100mL	100% Full	Tester with Plastic Cap (No Box)	$195	Niche
70	Creed	White Amber - 17R01	75mL	100% Full	Tester (No Box or Cap)	$155	Niche
71	Diptyque	Ombre Dans L'eau EdT	100mL	100% Full	Tester (No Box)	$100	Niche
72	Diptyque	Oyedo EdT	100mL	100% Full	Tester (No Box)	$100	Niche
73	Fragrance Du Bois	Brume du Matin	100mL	100% Full	New, No Box	$180	Niche
74	Fragrance Du Bois	Cannabis Blue	100mL	100% Full	New, No Box	$180	Niche
75	Fragrance Du Bois	Cannabis Intense	100mL	100% Full	New, No Box	$180	Niche
76	Fragrance Du Bois	HERITAGE	100mL	100% Full	New, No Box	$330	Niche
77	Fragrance du Bois	Lovers	100mL	100% Full	Brand New, Sealed	$325	Niche
78	Fragrance Du Bois	New York Fifth Avenue	100mL	100% Full	New, No Box	$180	Niche
79	Fragrance Du Bois	SAHRAA	100mL	99% Full	Full presentation with Box	$399	Niche
80	Fragrance Du Bois	Siberian Rose	100mL	100% Full	New, No Box	$180	Niche
81	Frederic Malle	Cologne Indellible	100mL	85% Full	Full presentation with Box	$175	Niche
82	Frederic Malle	Eau de Magnolia	10mL	100% Full	Official Travel Spray	$55	Niche
83	Frederic Malle	Heaven Can Wait	100mL	100% Full	Brand New In Box	$255	Niche
84	Frederic Malle	Monsieur	10mL	95% Full	Official Travel Spray	$55	Niche
85	Frederic Malle	Promise	100mL	100% Full	Brand New (Not Sealed)	$315	Niche
86	Gallagher	Bergamot Silk	100mL	99% Full	No Box	$79	Niche
87	Giorgio Armani / Armani Prive	Pierre de Lune	100mL	100% Full	Tester; No Box	$155	Niche
88	Giorgio Armani / Armani Prive	Rose Alexandrie	100mL	100% Full	Tester; No Box	$155	Niche
89	Guerlain	Angelique Noire	30mL	100% Full	Mini Bee Bottle Decant	$215	Niche
90	Guerlain	Angelique Noire	10mL	100% Full	Tall Glass Decant	$55	Niche
91	Guerlain	French Kiss	75mL	98% Full	Tester (No Box or Cap)	$450	Niche
92	Guerlain	Frenchy Lavende	200mL	100% Full	Brand New, Sealed	$399	Niche
93	Guerlain	Herbes Troublantes	200mL	100% Full	Tester (No Box)	$339	Niche
94	Guerlain	Jasmin Bonheur	200mL	100% Full	Tester (No Box)	$369	Niche
95	Guerlain	Neroli Outrenoir	200mL	100% Full	Tester (No Box)	$339	Niche
96	Guerlain	Spiriteuse Double Vanille	200mL	100% Full	Tester with Cap	$399	Niche
97	Guerlain	Tobacco Honey	200mL	100% Full	Brand New, Sealed	$399	Niche
98	Hermes / Hermessence	Agar Ebene	100mL	100% Full	Tester (No Box or Cap)	$150	Niche
99	Hermes / Hermessence	Cedre Sambac	100mL	100% Full	Tester (No Box)	$165	Niche
100	Hermes / Hermessence	Epice Marine	100mL	100% Full	Tester (No Box)	$170	Niche
101	Hermes / Hermessence	Myrrhe Eglantine	100mL	100% Full	Tester (No Box)	$185	Niche
102	Hermes / Hermessence	Poivre Samarcade	100mL	100% Full	Tester (No Box)	$170	Niche
103	Hermes / Hermessence	Santal Massoia	100mL	100% Full	Tester (No Box)	$170	Niche
104	Hermes / Hermessence	Vetiver Tonka	100mL	100% Full	Tester (No Box)	$175	Niche
105	House of Sillage	Nouez Moi	75mL	99% Full	Tester (No Box or Cap)	$120	Niche
106	I Profumi di Firenze	Caterina De Medici	50mL	99% Full	No Box	$35	Niche
107	Initio	High Frequency	90mL	100% Full	Tester (No Box)	$180	Niche
108	Initio	Oud for Happiness	90mL	100% Full	Tester; No Box	$189	Niche
109	Jo Malone	English Pear & Freesia	30mL	100% Full	No Box	$50	Niche
110	Le Labo	Bigarade 18 - Hong Kong Exclusive	50mL	100% Full	Full Bottle, Retail Label	$299	Niche
111	Le Labo	Mousse de Chene 30 - Amsterdam City Exclusive	50mL	99% Full	Sprayed Once to Test / Brand New; No Box	$259	Niche
112	Le Labo	Oud 27	50mL	99% Full	Full presentation with Box	$169	Niche
113	Le Labo	Santal 33	50mL	100% Full	Full Bottle, Retail Label	$135	Niche
114	Liquides Imaginaires	Bloody Wood	100mL	100% Full	Tester; No Box, No Cap	$85	Niche
115	Liquides Imaginaires	Desert Sauve	100mL	99% Full	Tester; No Box, No Cap	$85	Niche
116	Liquides Imaginaires	Fleur de Sable	100mL	99% Full	Tester; No Box, No Cap	$85	Niche
117	Liquides Imaginaires	Fleuve Tendre	100mL	100% Full	Tester; No Box, No Cap	$85	Niche
118	Liquides Imaginaires	Sancti	100mL	100% Full	Tester; No Box, No Cap	$85	Niche
119	Loewe	7 EdT	100mL	100% Full	Tester (No Box)	$90	Niche
120	Loewe	Aire Anthesis	100mL	100% Full	Tester (No Box)	$100	Niche
121	Loewe	Esencia EdP	100mL	100% Full	Tester (No Box)	$120	Niche
122	Loewe	Esencia Elixir	100mL	100% Full	Tester (No Box)	$200	Niche
123	Loewe	Man 001 EdP	100mL	100% Full	Tester (No Box)	$120	Niche
124	Louis Vuitton	Contre Moi	100mL	99% Full	Tester (Bottle may show some damage, Cap has no paint/is peeling)	$385	Niche
125	Louis Vuitton	Sun Song	100mL	98% Full	Tester (Bottle is scratched, may have an engraving, and Cap has no paint/is peeling)	$425	Niche
126	Louis Vuitton	Sun Song	200mL	98% Full	Dummy Bottle, filled with real juice. I don't think it's refillable.	$750	Niche
127	Maison Crivelli	Bois Datchai	100mL	100% Full	Brand New, Sealed	$169	Niche
128	Maison Francis Kurkdjian	724	200mL	100% Full	Tester with Cap (No Box)	$355	Niche
129	Maison Francis Kurkdjian	724	70mL	100% Full	Tester with Cap (No Box)	$165	Niche
130	Maison Francis Kurkdjian	A la Rose	200mL	100% Full	Tester with Cap (No Box)	$315	Niche
131	Maison Francis Kurkdjian	Amyris Femme EdP	70mL	100% Full	Tester with Cap (No Box)	$150	Niche
132	Maison Francis Kurkdjian	Amyris Femme Extrait	70mL	100% Full	Tester with Cap (No Box)	$160	Niche
133	Maison Francis Kurkdjian	Amyris Homme EdT	70mL	100% Full	Tester with Cap (No Box)	$160	Niche
134	Maison Francis Kurkdjian	Aqua Celestia	70mL	100% Full	Tester with Cap (No Box)	$135	Niche
135	Maison Francis Kurkdjian	Aqua Celestia Cologne Forte	70mL	100% Full	Tester with Cap (No Box)	$145	Niche
136	Maison Francis Kurkdjian	Aqua Celestia Forte	70mL	100% Full	Tester with Cap (No Box)	$160	Niche
137	Maison Francis Kurkdjian	Aqua Universalis	70mL	100% Full	Tester with Cap (No Box)	$135	Niche
138	Maison Francis Kurkdjian	Aqua Universalis Cologne Forte	70mL	100% Full	Tester with Cap (No Box)	$125	Niche
139	Maison Francis Kurkdjian	Aqua Universalis Cologne Forte	200mL	100% Full	Tester with Cap (No Box)	$225	Niche
140	Maison Francis Kurkdjian	Aqua Universalis Cologne Forte	35mL	100% Full	Tester with Cap (No Box)	$90	Niche
141	Maison Francis Kurkdjian	Aqua Universalis Forte	70mL	100% Full	Tester with Cap (No Box)	$160	Niche
142	Maison Francis Kurkdjian	Aqua Vitae	200mL	100% Full	Tester with Cap (No Box)	$215	Niche
143	Maison Francis Kurkdjian	Aqua Vitae	70mL	100% Full	Tester with Cap (No Box)	$135	Niche
144	Maison Francis Kurkdjian	Aqua Vitae Cologne Forte	70mL	100% Full	Tester with Cap (No Box)	$125	Niche
145	Maison Francis Kurkdjian	Aqua Vitae Cologne Forte	70mL	100% Full	Tester with Cap (No Box)	$215	Niche
146	Maison Francis Kurkdjian	Aqua Vitae Forte	70mL	100% Full	Tester with Cap (No Box)	$160	Niche
147	Maison Francis Kurkdjian	Aqua Vitae Forte	70mL	100% Full	Tester with Cap (No Box)	$160	Niche
148	Maison Francis Kurkdjian	Baccarat Rouge 540 EdP	70mL	100% Full	Tester with Cap (No Box)	$209	Niche
149	Maison Francis Kurkdjian	Baccarat Rouge 540 EdP	200mL	100% Full	Tester with Cap (No Box)	$399	Niche
150	Maison Francis Kurkdjian	Feminine Pluriel	200mL	100% Full	Tester with Cap (No Box)	$335	Niche
151	Maison Francis Kurkdjian	Feminine Pluriel Special Edition Extrait	70mL	100% Full	Full Presentation With Mirror Display	$499	Niche
152	Maison Francis Kurkdjian	Gentle Fluidity Gold	200mL	100% Full	Brand New, Sealed	$365	Niche
153	Maison Francis Kurkdjian	Gentle Fluidity Gold	70mL	100% Full	Tester with Cap (No Box)	$165	Niche
154	Maison Francis Kurkdjian	L'eau a La Rose	35mL	100% Full	Tester with Cap (No Box)	$90	Niche
155	Maison Francis Kurkdjian	L'Homme a la Rose	70mL	100% Full	Tester with Cap (No Box)	$165	Niche
156	Maison Francis Kurkdjian	Masculin Pluriel	70mL	100% Full	Tester with Cap (No Box)	$165	Niche
157	Maison Francis Kurkdjian	Oud EdP	70mL	100% Full	Tester with Cap (No Box)	$170	Niche
158	Maison Francis Kurkdjian	Oud Extrait	70mL	100% Full	Tester with Cap (No Box)	$190	Niche
159	Maison Francis Kurkdjian	Oud Silk Mood EdP	70mL	100% Full	Tester with Cap (No Box)	$170	Niche
160	Maison Francis Kurkdjian	Oud Silk Mood Extrait	70mL	100% Full	Tester with Cap (No Box)	$190	Niche
161	Maison Francis Kurkdjian	Petit Matin	70mL	100% Full	Tester with Cap (No Box)	$145	Niche
162	Maison Francis Kurkdjian	Petit Matin	35mL	100% Full	Tester with Cap (No Box)	$80	Niche
163	Maison Lancome	Orange Bigarades	100mL	100% Full	Full presentation with Box	$229	Niche
164	Mark Birley	Charles Street	75mL	97% Full	Travel Version	$90	Niche
165	Memo Paris	French Leather	75mL	100% Full	Tester (No Box or Cap)	$115	Niche
166	Memo Paris	Italian Leather	75mL	100% Full	Tester (No Box or Cap)	$115	Niche
167	Memo Paris	Lailabella	75mL	100% Full	Tester (No Box or Cap)	$115	Niche
168	Memo Paris	Marfa	75mL	100% Full	Tester (No Box or Cap)	$115	Niche
169	Memo Paris	Moon Fever	75mL	100% Full	Tester (No Box or Cap)	$115	Niche
170	Memo Paris	Oriental Leather	75mL	100% Full	Tester (No Box or Cap)	$115	Niche
171	Mind Games	As-Suli's Diamond	100mL	100% Full	Brand New, Sealed	$249	Niche
172	Mind Games	Gardez	100mL	100% Full	Brand New, Sealed	$249	Niche
173	Mind Games	Vieri	100mL	100% Full	Brand New, Sealed	$249	Niche
174	Mizensir	Bois de Mysore	100mL	100% Full	Tester (No Box)	$155	Niche
175	Mizensir	Cologne de Matte	100mL	100% Full	Tester (No Box)	$155	Niche
176	Mizensir	Ideal Oud	100mL	100% Full	Tester (No Box)	$155	Niche
177	Mizensir	Rose Exaltante	100mL	100% Full	Tester (No Box)	$155	Niche
178	Mizensir	Tonic Water	100mL	100% Full	Tester (No Box)	$155	Niche
179	Mizensir	Vert Empire	100mL	100% Full	Tester (No Box)	$155	Niche
180	Oh Mon Dieu!	L'objet	100mL	100% Full	Full presentation with Box	$125	Niche
181	Oliver and Co.	M.O.U.S.S.E.	50mL	99% Full	Limited Edition 87/133	$110	Niche
182	Parfums de Marley	Haltane	125mL	100% Full	BNIB, Sealed	$165	Niche
183	Parfums de Marley	Layton	125mL	100% Full	BNIB, Sealed	$199	Niche
184	Parfums de Marley	Valaya	75mL	100% Full	Tester with Cap (No Box)	$175	Niche
185	Penhaligon's	Elixir	100mL	90% Full	No Box	$250	Niche
186	Penhaligon's	Petra	100mL	100% Full	Tester (No Box)	$200	Niche
187	Penhaligon's	Cairo	100mL	100% Full	Brand New, Sealed	$220	Niche
188	Pomare's Stolen Perfume	Angel's Share	9mL	70% Full	No Box	$40	Niche
189	Precious Liquid	Iced Juniper	75mL	95% Full	Full presentation with Box (Limited Edition)	$135	Niche
190	Roja Dove	Creation-E Essence de Parfum	100mL	100% Full	Tester; No Box	$165	Niche
191	Roja Dove	Danger Pour Femme	50mL	100% Full	99% Full with Box	$275	Niche
192	Roja Dove	Elixir	100mL	100% Full	Brand New, Sealed	$175	Niche
193	Roja Dove	Elixir Essence Pour Femme	100mL	100% Full	No Box	$175	Niche
194	Roja Dove	Qatar	50mL	99% Full	Full Presentation	$339	Niche
195	Roja Dove	Scandal Essence de Parfum	100mL	100% Full	Tester; No Box	$165	Niche
196	Roja Dove	United Arab Emirates (UAE)	50mL	100% Full	Brand New, Sealed	$300	Niche
197	Roman Monegal	L'eau de Rose	50mL	97% Full		$70	Niche
198	Santa Maria Novella	Sandalo	100mL	95% Full	No Box	$80	Niche
199	Sospiro	Deep Amber Ocean	100mL	100% Full	Brand New, No Box	$170	Niche
200	Sospiro	Deep Amber Ocean	100mL	100% Full	Brand New, Sealed	$180	Niche
201	Sospiro	Vibrato	100mL	100% Full	BNIB, Sealed	$265	Niche
202	Spirit of Dubai	Bahar	50mL	100% Full	Tester with Cap and Travel Case	$175	Niche
203	Spirit of Dubai	Rimal	50mL	100% Full	Tester with Cap and Travel Case	$175	Niche
204	Tiziana Terenzi	Attar Cas	13mL	100% Full	Tester (No Box)	$225	Niche
205	Tiziana Terenzi	Chiron	100mL	100% Full	Tester (No Box)	$165	Niche
206	Tiziana Terenzi	Draconis	100mL	100% Full	Tester (No Box)	$135	Niche
207	Tom Ford	Azure Lime - A71	50mL	99% Full	Original Formula	$349	Niche
208	Tom Ford	Beau de Jour	1000mL	100% Full	Sealed Dramming Bottle	$700	Niche
209	Tom Ford	Ebene Fume	50mL	100% Full	Brand New, Sealed	$165	Niche
210	Tom Ford	Fleur de Portofino	50mL	100% Full	Brand New, Sealed	$135	Niche
211	Tom Ford	Fougere Platine	1000mL	100% Full	Sealed Dramming Bottle	$700	Niche
212	Tom Ford	Neroli Portofino	50mL	100% Full	Brand New, Sealed	$140	Niche
213	Tom Ford	Noir de Noir	100mL	100% Full	BNIB, Sealed	$185	Niche
214	Tom Ford	Plum Japonais	50mL	100% Full	Decant (No Box)	$215	Niche
215	Tom Ford	Rive Ambre - A63	50mL	99% Full	Original Formula	$225	Niche
216	Tom Ford	Rose de Amalfi	50mL	100% Full	Brand New, Sealed	$135	Niche
217	Tom Ford	Santal Blush	50mL	100% Full	Brand New, Sealed	$140	Niche
218	Tom Ford	Soleil Neige	1000mL	100% Full	Sealed Dramming Bottle	$700	Niche
219	Tom Ford	Tobacco Vanille	100mL	100% Full	Brand New, Sealed	$245	Niche
220	Tom Ford	Tubereuse Nue	50mL	100% Full	BNIB, Sealed	$125	Niche
221	Tom Ford	Vanille Fatale	50mL	100% Full	Brand New, Sealed	$180	Niche
222	Tom Ford	White Suede	1000mL	100% Full	Sealed Dramming Bottle	$700	Niche
223	Washington Tremlett	Black Tie	100mL	95% Full		$125	Niche
224	Widian	II Black	50mL	99% Full	Tester (No Box)	$149	Niche
225	Yves Saint Laurent	Babycat	125mL	100% Full	Brand New, Sealed	$300	Niche
226	Acqua di Parma	Magnolia Nobile	100mL	100% Full	Tester (No Box)	$95	Designer
227	Brunello Cucinelli	Pour Homme	100mL	100% Full	Tester (No Box)	$90	Designer
228	Caron	Pour un Homme de Caron Le Matin	125mL	100% Full	Opened to test, sprayed once	$69	Designer
229	Caron	Pour un Homme de Caron Le Soir	125mL	100% Full	Opened to test, sprayed once	$69	Designer
230	Caron	Pour Un Homme Impact Parfum	75mL	97% Full	No Box	$175	Designer
231	Chanel	Allure Pour Femme EdT	100mL	100% Full	Tester; No Box	$65	Designer
232	Chanel	Bleu de Chanel - Aftershave Balm	100mL	99% Full	No Box, Minor Cosmetic Damage	$55	Designer
233	Chanel	Bleu de Chanel - Aftershave Lotion	100mL	99% Full	No Box, Minor Cosmetic Damage	$55	Designer
234	Chanel	Coco EdP	100mL	100% Full	Tester; No Box	$85	Designer
235	Chanel	Coco Mademoiselle - Moisturizing Body Lotion	200mL	99% Full	No Box	$55	Designer
236	Chanel	Coco Noir	100mL	100% Full	Tester; No Box	$100	Designer
237	Chanel	Cristalle Eau Vert EdT Concentree	100mL	100% Full	Tester; No Box	$135	Designer
238	Chanel	Cristalle EdP	50mL	95% Full	Tester; No Box	$135	Designer
239	Chanel	Gabrielle Essence	100mL	100% Full	Tester; No Box	$100	Designer
240	Chanel	No. 19	100mL	100% Full	Tester; No Box	$115	Designer
241	Chanel	No. 5 Eau Premiere	100mL	100% Full	Tester; No Box	$85	Designer
242	Chanel	No. 5 EdP	100mL	100% Full	Tester; No Box	$95	Designer
243	Chanel	Platinum Egoiste	75mL	99% Full	SPLASH, NOT SPRAY Older Formulation	$125	Designer
244	Christian Dior	Dior Homme Parfum	100mL	100% Full	Brand New, Sealed (Packaging may be slightly damaged)	$175	Designer
245	Christian Dior	J'adore in Joy EdT	100mL	100% Full	Tester with Cap, No Box	$60	Designer
246	Floris	Cefiro	100mL	100% Full	Tester with Cap, No Box	$59	Designer
247	Gucci	Gucci Guilty Absolute	90mL	100% Full	Tester; No Box	$70	Designer
248	Guerlain	Habit Rouge Parfum	100mL	100% Full	Brand New, Sealed	$130	Designer
249	Guerlain	L'Homme Ideal Parfum	100mL	100% Full	Brand New, Sealed	$130	Designer
250	Guerlain	L'instant de Guerlain Pour Homme EXTREME	10mL	100% Full	VINTAGE BLACK RIM - DECANT	$50	Designer
251	Guerlain	Vetiver Parfum	100mL	100% Full	Brand New, Sealed	$130	Designer
252	Hermes	Twilly	80mL	100% Full	Tester; No Box	$65	Designer
253	Jo Malone	Amber & Lavender	30mL	90% Full	No Box	$52	Designer
254	Jo Malone	English Oak & Redcurrant	30mL	80% Full	No Box	$49	Designer
255	Jo Malone	English Pear & Freesia	100mL	100% Full	Brand New with Gift Box and Gift Set (Body Wash, Body Lotion)	$180	Designer
256	Jo Malone	Rose & White Musk Absolu	100mL	100% Full	No Box	$180	Designer
257	Jo Malone	Scarlett Poppy Cologne Intense	100mL	100% Full	Tester; No Box	$130	Designer
258	Lalique	Ombre Noire	100mL	100% Full	Sealed	$100	Designer
259	Maison Martin Margiela	Replica - Jazz Club	100mL	100% Full	Tester (No Box)	$80	Designer
260	Thierry Mugler	A*MEN	100mL	99% Full	Rubber Flask; No Box	$75	Designer
261	Amouage	Cristal and Gold Ladies	50mL	95% Full	Vintage, Incredibly hard to find. Full presentation in nice condition	$399	Vintage
262	Cartier	Santos EdT	100mL	100% Full	Spray; Refill.	$299	Vintage
263	Chanel	Gardenia EdT	100mL	100% Full	Vintage; Sealed	$350	Vintage
264	Crabtree & Evelyn	Crabtree & Evelyn Extract of West Indian and Sicilian Limes	125mL	100% Full	Full presentation with Box	$209	Vintage
265	Dunhill	Cologne	125mL	99% Full	Vintage; Splash	$100	Vintage
266	Ermenegildo Zegna	Haitian Vetiver	125mL	99% Full	No Box	$300	Vintage
267	Escada	Pour Homme Aftershave	75mL	100% Full	BNIB Sealed	$165	Vintage
268	Escada	Pour Homme Aftershave	125mL	100% Full	BNIB Sealed	$240	Vintage
269	Floris	Special 127	100mL	98% Full	Vintage; Dark Blue Box., 2 Royal Warrants, Vintage Version	$70	Vintage
270	Fragonard	Zizanie	240mL	80% Full	Shaker bottle (Splash, not spray) no box. At least 80% Full.	$240	Vintage
271	Geo F Trumper	Ajaccio Violets	100mL	99% Full		$40	Vintage
272	Gucci	Envy Aftershave	50mL	100% Full	BNIB Sealed	$140	Vintage
273	Gucci	Envy Aftershave	100mL	100% Full	BNIB Sealed	$215	Vintage
274	Gucci	Rush for Men	50mL	100% Full	Full Presentation; These do not come fully filled	$190	Vintage
275	Gucci	Rush for Men Aftershave	100mL	100% Full	BNIB Sealed	$140	Vintage
276	Guerlain	Heritage EdT	200mL	100% Full	New; Vintage; Splash. 1991 Bottle.	$225	Vintage
277	Guerlain	Samrasa EdP	50mL	100% Full	No Box	$109	Vintage
278	Guerlain	Samsara EdT 1992-1993 Formulation	100mL	100% Full	Tester; No Cap; No Box	$109	Vintage
279	Jean Desprez	Bal a Versailles	9 Oz	70% Full	Vintage; Splash; No Box Open to offers on this enormous bottle.	$135	Vintage
280	Lacoste	Eau de Sport Vivifiante	100mL	99% Full	No Box	$110	Vintage
281	Lacoste	Land	100mL	99% Full		$130	Vintage
282	Nino Cerruti	Fair Play Pour Homme	100mL	99% Full	Full presentation with Box	$275	Vintage
283	Paco Rabanne	Eau de Metal	20mL	100% Full	Vintage; Mini	$15	Vintage
284	Revillon	Pour Homme Eau de Toilette Super Concentrate	60mL	99% Full	Atomizer	$190	Vintage
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I purchased the game yesterday. Saw a bunch of content about it and felt like it was my vibe, I liked the unique style of survival the game had, the low-poly graphics reminded me of old Resident Evil games I quite liked, and overall this seemed like my thing. Even now, after what I'm about to say after what comes down to a poor new-player experience, I still think this game is for me and I just need to know what I'm doing wrong here.
That being said, I booted up the game, the tutorial was fine and kinda funny but still left me kinda confused about the game at large, then I started playing. Chose the Burglar 'cause I like stealth classes and I saw it could Hotwire cars. NICE. Then I spawned in Muldraugh, tried searching my house to see if there was anything of use, only thing I found was a screwdriver, then a zombie barged through the window. "No way I can kill this thing with a screwdriver, I'm running." As I ran, I almost faced a massive horde of zombies, but quickly learned that my walking speed is faster than any zombie, so I just anticlimactically avoided all of them and kept walking through the neighborhood. Tried entering houses, but all the windows were locked and I couldn't break them with my screwdriver for some reason. As I tried to run from one horde, I would inevitably attract the attention of another, leading me to quickly accumulating hundreds behind me, and while they weren't threatening, I couldn't do anything with them around, so I just kept walking until I finally lost them. Had to go to sleep, so I left.
Today I got home, booted up the game. Reasoning that, like other survival games, I was screwed if I didn't get a good start, I decided to start again, this time in Riverside as a Burglar again, reasoning that, with less zombies, I'd have more time to think and learn. This attempt was considerably shorter. I ran around the house, didn't find anything even remotely useful (yes, not even a screwdriver this time), walked around the neighborhood again avoiding zombies, didn't find ANYTHING. Eventually managed to sneak into a house. Last I had checked, there was a single zombie following me. Found a frying pan there, NICE. Didn't know how to equip it, so while I was trying the zombie jumped through the window I accidentally left open. Since I couldn't equip my weapon, decided to fight the bitch with my bare hands, and I was doing surprisingly well. Then 10 seconds later 6 or so zombies I hadn't seen before jumped inside the tiny house and I didn't know how to jump out the window, so I died, at least having had a somewhat more interesting and fun experience this time since I was fighting for my life there.
Then for my final attempt so far, I decided to go back to Muldraugh, hoping that I'd get it right this time. Chose Burglar again 'cause I'm nothing if not persistent. This time I managed to grab a Griddle Pan and a Rolling Pin in my starting house, so once the first zombie barged through my window, I blew her head off with my terrifying pan. Perfect. Then I started running and, once again, there were just too many zombies in every corner. This was not really fun to deal with because they were never really a threat, just a nuisance. By just walking I managed to avoid all of them, but that also meant I wasn't doing anything other than running away. Eventually I decided to try and grab some car, that was the selling point of the Burglar after all. It seemed that not a single car in this massive city where the apocalypse has JUST STARTED had fuel on their vehicle. Either that or I'm missing something, either way I couldn't check because I was always being chased by at the very least 20 zombies and there were always at least 5 next to every car, meaning I never got the chance to actually learn how vehicles worked as I would always have to leave the car and run away after a few seconds otherwise I'd be overrun. I managed to kill like... two enemies, but those were the ones I managed to find isolated, but I rarely got this sort of opportunity. Eventually, after a long time running, I got lost in the middle of the woods. Found a place with a bit of water to drink so I wouldn't die, but then another horde showed up and I ran deeper into the woods. That was when I figured out that this game has a map, and once I looked into it I realized just how far away from civilization I was. There was no coming back, I had to delve deeper into the woods until I could find SOMETHING. That something never came. Eventually I ate my last bit of food, began to get exhausted as the night came, started bleeding outta nowhere and realized my shoes (alongside nearly every piece of clothing in my body) had been worn off by walking through the woods, found a random zombie and decided to end it all there, I had my weapon but I didn't care, I just let it bite me 'cause that run was done.
So here's the real question: what am I supposed to do? There's no way to find a safe house in the city due to the sheer amount of zombies walking around, it's impossible to fight the zombies since they're always stacked in large groups of 10 or more, I can't learn the game mechanics because there's always the constant pressure of a horde chasing me and I just don't know what should my initial objective be. So that's what I'm asking here. What should I look forward to doing first? What am I doing wrong? Are my poor decisions the cause of my frustration here? And mostly: what can I do to make this fun? Because so far the game has been a mix between frustrating and tedious in a way I really don't think it's supposed to be, considering how immersive, high stakes and engaging everything I saw in other people's gameplay seemed to be.

Boy have I found myself in a pickle my ex broke up with me 3 months ago after 4 years of dating. I’ll admit that I made some mistakes and crossed some boundaries which I take accountability for. They were early on in the relationship and we had supposedly moved past them but she was not in fact able to. That paired with living situation and schedule conflicts resulted in a lot of bitterness between us however twords the end I really started to prioritize the relationship in an effort to rebuild. I was very uncertain in the beginning but I guess as she was checking out I was really checking in and considering her my life partner. And then we broke up. I took it pretty hard but I recognize my part and accepted the break up and gave her space. I reached out maybe 2 times in the 3 months essentially just saying I wish to reconcile if she was open to it which she was not. Then after telling me it’s best we stay no contact she calls me.
Then she said sorry for calling best to keep no contact so I respectfully agree to not reach out then she calls me again and we end up hanging out and I sleep over. (Nothing happened that night) but to see her and be in her company truly I felt at peace. We have been in communication since but I have not brought up any difficult conversations yet as it’s been only 2 weeks of communication. We have slept together multiple times in this 2 weeks only being intimate 2 times.
We are still in connect but she felt the need to say maybe we have to cool our jets as she is way too comfortable with me and doesn’t necessarily want to get back together or make me feel like we are dating. She is still talking to other guys and may potentially go on dates which I guess I’m ok with at the moment as she was not the type to be sexually actuve with more than one person in my experience. However if I’m ok with her dating we can still keep talking.
I’m am worried I will continue to love her more deeply since I am hoping for reconciliation in the long term where she may just be using me for comfort while she dates until she finds someone that clicks with her as she has said she is very lonely
I fear I am going to end up in heartbreak again

I created this account, to vent some of my frustration. I won't be commenting, looking, or editing it after I post. No, I'm not a bot, but sometimes I wish I was.
One of my best friend tried to kill himself, he left a farewell message which wasn't supposed to be interpretted as that, but I understood. I called every hospital in the area looking for his name, until I found one. When I went to visit him, I wasn't sure if I'd be finding him dead or alive. I worked up the courage to walk into the room, and found that he was surprised to see me. With so much frustration and anger in my mind, I just started yelling at him, wondering what the fuck he was thinking and why he didn't just call me. He couldn't answer, but a tear rolled down his cheek and my anger subsided and turned into grief, depression, then sorry. I asked him, why and he said told me I knew why. He struggled with major depression for years, like me. I tried my best to be a friend and help him out of that hole, but nothing I did would help. I thought maybe if I put my depression to the side and helped him with his I'd find a way of curing my own. I was never overt with any of the actions, I lent out a helping hand when neeeded and hung out with him when he was down. We've both had terrible traumas— his from neglect and financial issues, and mine from abuse and bullying, but I thought because we both suffered we would be able suffer together. I visitied him when his family was there as I was the nuclear detterent. I watched his mother and brother hurl insults at eachother while I tried to lighten the mood, the brother cared for him, the mother didn't. It seemed like she was there, just to say she showed up. I've known her for a while, she's callous, she always has a couple boyfriends on her side, but she never tries to keep them around. When the brother and the mother were around the entire room was filled with a negative aura and you can feel it, it was never pleasant and when I left tensions only raised. I visited him when work allowed me to, but after he was transferred to the psych ward, my schedule didn't fit in with any of the visitation hours so I never could. When he left the psych ward, what followed were days of him visiting my workplace during my lunch hours telling me that he would attempt it again, "it could happen any day now." My words seemed so hollow and breathless as I tried to sounding them out. I questioned myself, "What could I say? What could I do? Why is he telling me this?" This happened almost everyday for a couple of months, he would visit me and utter the same words. One day, I asked him, "How do you want me to respond to this" and to his non-challant reply was, "I don't know take it as you well." He was always forgetful, so I hoped he would forget about me too. Some nights we would get boba and he would tell me I was part of the reason he did it. I didn't know how to respond and I still don't. What did I do? I was completely and utterly drained of any emotions, sadness, depression, anger, grief. He was a boa constrictor wrapping it's body around mine smothering me to death. Nothing mattered to me, and so one day, I left without saying a word. He is still alive and hasn't tried anything since then, to which I am thankful. But I never answered his texts or calls. In this rough patch, I started unravelling because everything around me was unfolding.
I was still talking to the above friend, during this time when I got a call from my brother, "She's in the ER because she OD'D. Can you bring some blankets?" He was completely devoid of any urgency or emotion, I understand he doesn't handle them very well, but the calmness of voice only irritated me and made my bite my tongue til I bled. My mind was blank as I sped down the highway at 100mph. I remember the flickering lights as I paced through the hallway, a nurse recognized me from my personal life, but I brushed her off saying that I didn't know her as she was part of our church. Our family is conservative and if this got out, then all eyes would be on us with looks of disappointment and shame. I couldn't tell anyone. I hesitated, a roller coaster of emotions overwhelmed me as I grew closer and closer to the room. The same ones that had enveloped me with my best friend, but this one was brought on by so much shame. "How didn't I see this coming? What sort of brother am I, that I can't protect my only sister? Please... Please... Please.. don't be dead." I stopped in the hallway, where my brother stood and he just said he was getting a sandwhich. I watched him go as he walked away, not an ounce of grief, but after I saw him I noticed there was confusion and sadness in his face, but his words remained neutral as if he were trying to keep it together. I approached the door and hesitated right before going in, rubbing tears that were running down my face and collecting myself the best way I could. I saw her lying there, so helpless, barely alive, and struggling to breathe. My stomach sunk, my heart dropped, and my lungs collapsed. No physical pain, no abuse I had suffered, no moment would have prepared me for this, but as I looked at her she looked at me. I walked over and remarked, "This is because I didn't kill the spider, isn't it?" She laughed in pain the best she could, and my Dad added into and gave me a small slap on the head laughng as well. I saw her arms and saw the cuts and how deep they were. The heart monitor started fading and transforming into ringing within my ears. I sat down and talked to my Mom and Dad to see what we needed. They asked for blankets, which I forgot, and something to eat. I told them to go home as I'd just stay here to watch over her. They both said no at first, but my Dad reluctantly agreed after realizing there was no one to watch his business the next day. I nearly lost my mind. Your daughter is laying here in the ER, and you still need someone to watch the business? I volunteered to do it, but I stayed in the hospital until the I had to leave as I watch the seconds turn into minutes, the minutes to hours. The clock has never moved that slow before, I felt like I was frozen in every moment. It was only after I had learned she was raped three times. My blood boiled, my face turned hot, as I was heading to my car demanding who did it. He'd done this mutliple times. throughout the year, and I had no idea. I reached a point where I stormed out of my house, but my brother asked me where I was going. I told him that I was going to find him, and beat the living shit out of them. He stopped me and told me, that that's why she didn't tell me. I didn't understand it it all, why he wasn't hopping into the car with me to this mother fuckers house after knowing all of this. He didn't want me to know because I'd go over to the hospital demanding her and asking her who did it. He was right. I calmed down, but if he wasn't there I would have found the fucker and I would have beaten the living shit out of them. I told my best friend what happened, and he tried to keep me calm and tried to get my mind off of things. We went to a friends birthday party and I could still hear the heart monitor ringing as I watched everyone have fun, eat, and party over this friends birthday. I felt like an extra, just playing the part of someone who's there to be there. I laughed and made jokes, but this hole in my chest kept getting wider and wouldn't close. I hadn't slept in three days, and the pain was like I was being eaten alive without being able to scream in agony. When we returned to the hospital, she was moved to a different facility, because she wasn't needed in the ER any longer. The nurses asked me to leave as they said that visiting hours were over, but they fell upon empty ears. I wasn't moving. I stayed there all night, and woke up the next morning. I don't remember falling asleep, I just blacked out at one point. I could tell you that when I woke up, all I saw where white walls, white floors, and white sheets. The typical hospital smell that filled the air with ammonia as it burned through my lungs. The heart monitor started to lose it's preptual ring and began to sound normal again. None of these details are important, but I remember them so well as if I'm living that moment right now. This was my second close call. She was home within the next week, but this trauma made our family a lot closer— but, there's a new edition to the family in the shape of an elephant, he doesn't speak to us and we don't speak to him, but he's always there. I haven't been able to look at her the same way, because I'm not sure what will set her off, and the scars on her arms still make me sick to the stomach.
My second best friend was tearing at the seams while all this was happening and I was trying to get his life back together, but something just wasn't clicking with him. I saw him descend into an abyss that I couldn't pull him out of, he started stalking his ex, binge drinking at work, in public, etc. , doing more and more drugs. I went to his rented out room where the landlord would help him do his laundry, cook for him, allow him to have pets even though she was against it. She was kind to him, and I had hoped that might have had some affect on his mental state, but he couldn't get out of his head. He nose dived and I tried to bring him back up, but I couldn't so I gave up. I was emotionally and physically exhausted from everything, in a puddle of a quicksand trying to get out, the more I resisted the further it pulled me down. I was in a boxing match with hit after hit after hit, I just couldn't stand it anymore, but this man gave me a family when mine abused me, he gave me a home when I didn't want to go back to mine, he allowed me to express myself and be free when I was in a position where everyone wanted to chain me, he became a friend when I needed one the most. I pleaded with my group to look after him a little bit more, we could take shifts, but no one cared or wanted to listen. "You can't help someone who can't help themselves." After his nose dive, I told him I couldn't do this anymore and I'd rather kill myself to watch him destroy himself, so I stopped speaking to him— after all, you can't help someone who can't help himself. I removed myself from the group and started working on myself. It had been a year since we last talked, he wrote one story on Instagram that caught my attention, "Maybe everyone was right about me." By this time, I had finally collected myself, I was in a good place, and I had every intention of talking with him again and helping him get back on track if I could, whether it be reaching out or just treating him like a person as if it were a typical Tuesday. As I was typing in the words, I stopped myself and said I needed a little bit more time. I was in the midst of a massive project at work that needed to be completed in two days. The next day, I got a text from one of the mutal friends in the group I had left, "He's dead. They found his body in his room." I stared at the phone for a few seconds. My mind blank. I just put my phone down and kept working.
I haven't talked to a therapist about any of this, but I have mentioned it. None of them seem interested in exploring it so it must not be that important, but I feel the need to get this burden off my chest. These three events happened concurrently, and after the dusk settled, I looked closer into all of the close relationships I had, and how many of my closest friends had ended up hurting themselves in a way to "heal." Nearly all of them. They would vent their struggles to me, and I always became an ear because people just need to be heard. Maybe they had problems before I met them, maybe they didn't. I'm probably stretching my own importance in their lives, but the nagging tick that bothers me is that I feel like I am the common denominator.

When I was a minor my parents would insist that I visit their hometown in a different country during my vacations. It’s always miserable and not restful. They think I hate it because I miss TV, Internet, or video games but that’s really a minor issue.
I’m a night owl so adjusting from 8:00 AM to 6:00 AM is always challenging and everyone in the house snores. Moreover, there are both fleas and something in the soil. I always break out in bug bites and hives which make it even harder to sleep. Every time, my mom blames me for catching fleas even though I’m careful and I don’t approach animals. Then she asks why I get reactions when no one else does as if I choose to be this way. My mom calls me lazy in front of all of her family and makes me a butt for jokes even though I’m worn out with life and sleep deprivation (she has never worked and I’m an only child). I get bullied for being a terrible farmer despite being a complete newbie.
The last time I visited, I brought my husband. She insisted that I go visit her stupid plot of land in the woods she does nothing with and only visits once a year. She screamed at me in front of my husband when I didn’t want to go saying that I HAD to go. At that point I was lucky enough to not have a reaction after a week. I unfortunately relented. The reaction developed by that night and I finally knew the culprit behind my misery. She of course denied it, so I decided to never put myself in that situation again.
After all those years she never even tried to figure out a solution, it wasn’t her problem after all. I haven’t gone since and neither will my son as I suspect the same would happen to him. I could get a hotel room in the non rural area to visit the rest of the family but it’s just not worth her bullying. My mom has a better relationship with my husband than she does with me. (Don’t worry, he knows she’s full of shit). Oh well.