Could someone tell me what happens when I use parallel app (or something similar) to clone RC. Does it create a new user ID when I link it with my fb account for example? What happens when I change my phone? Thanks🤗

This started yesterday and I assumed at first there was a problem with my internet. Now I'm pretty convinced it's the app. I can download songs onto playlists, but I can't download podcasts.
When I click the download icon or go into the menu and select the "Download" option, it just says "Saved to Your Library" but the download icon doesn't go green. When I check my downloaded podcasts, the new one I tried to download isn't there.
Every kind of old Spotify troubleshooting post I see references a section I do remember existing to change your download settings, but when I go to Settings and privacy -> Audio Quality, I can see downloads aren't turned on for cellular which is a fixation of a lot of the people with similar problems.
What gives? I've restarted my phone and I'd really prefer to not lose my remaining still-downloaded playlists by removing the app and reinstalling it.

I use OneNote between my Windows computer, my iPad, and my iPhone. A few days ago, on my iPhone app, I accidentally hit the draw button in the top menu bar. Ever since then, whenever I open a notebook in my iPhone app, the draw feature is active. I often open something and go to scroll, and instead draw a giant swipe across my note. It’s easy to undo, but I shouldn’t have to draw and then undo it every single time I go into the app.
When I searched, it appears that there is a setting that can control this for the iPad, but I cannot find anything on the interwebs, nor can I see any setting in the app, to control this for the iPhone. It’s become incredibly annoying in these last couple of days as I essentially cannot use the OneNote app on my phone without drawing something and erasing it first.

TW: sexual and emotional abuse, suicidal ideation.
Last night I finally worked up the courage to leave my narc. He’s a malignant narcissist as I’ve come to learn. He has been very emotionally abusive the whole time, but late last week things escalated to sexual abuse (sexual assault). I am traumatized, but I still have a trauma bond with him which makes me view myself as weak and pathetic. I was in denial, but finally told my best friend (who he hates). She had the idea to look him up on some databases online, where I learned that he has been lying about his age (says he’s a year younger than he is), lying about owning a car dealership, and potentially lying about being adopted. He also lied about having only been arrested once and held overnight (he was arrested twice and was in jail for over 60 days, and is a felon). He also recently told me himself that he has been accused of rape and pedophilia multiple times, and claims he is innocent, people are just jealous of his music career and trying to sabotage him. He keeps things secret, like he won’t allow me to follow his Instagram or his bands’ instagrams, or come see him play live at a show. We’ve been dating for about two months now.
So, I have known inside my gut that the way he treats me is wrong (I’ve been in other abusive relationships) but I kept giving him the benefit of the doubt until I learned the truth that he lies about almost everything, and after he sexually assaulted me, I saw his sadistic grin and knew I needed to get out. I finally sent him the breakup text last night, and to be honest I didn’t hold back. Needless to say he was furious.
But today, I began to second guess myself. I deal with some mental health issues myself that make me particularly susceptible to his gaslighting. So, after he reached out following my initial message, I fell for it and responded. He ripped into me with complete rage, told me he hates me and I’m a mean person and I ruined our bond and trust permanently. He made me repeat back to him that I have caused all of our problems, and he has never hurt me. I hate myself so much because I lose my whole identity and authenticity with him trying to appease him, saying anything to feed his ego enough to stop screaming at me and telling me how terrible I am. He threatened to call the police on me and get a restraining order because I stalked him (doing a quick Google search isn’t illegal!), which is funny because if anyone should, it’s me. I’m pretty sure he felt nervous I may go to the police about the assault, so he intimidated me and made me tell him over and over that he is not a danger to women. The worst part is, despite all the threats and psychological warfare, I am mad that he is discarding me, I should have stuck to me breaking things off, but now he has all the power again. And, I guess I don’t love myself enough because I don’t wanna lose him. I don’t want to lose the man who abuses me. Wow. I feel like there’s something wrong with me. Last time I broke up with him, he hoovered and got me back and the abuse got worse because he wanted to punish me. I am expecting him to come running back in a few days, he’s admitted that I’m one of the only people in his life, and he is a lonely person. I’m probably one of the only people to put up with him. When he does come back, he will definitely punish me more. He hates when I question or criticize him even slightly. But I know he doesn’t wanna lose me. He screamed at me so much on the phone, I was sobbing. And I actually know he enjoys that.
I know I need to stay firm in my boundaries, especially since he’s dangerous, and he knows exactly how to make me question my perception of reality, but I actually love him and hold onto the false hope that he actually cares about me. Today was so emotionally draining, I feel extremely depressed, almost suicidal. He’s made me into a broken shell, always apologizing for even existing. Just need some words of encouragement to stay strong. I know I’m so weak and pathetic already, please just tell me how to try to be strong.

I’m in Oz so shout outs to any Aussies that can help me out!
Been a freelance graphic designer for the last nine years and just started my own landscape gardening business. Looking for a good receipt tracking app, eg. something that just digitises outgoing expenses for tax time.
I’ve tried a few apps out but most of them either have seriously limited functionality for the free version, or only a free trial before a paid subscription.

I’ve been using both iPhone and android phones forever now. But I find using my iPhone 12 with both my work and personal number not as efficient as with my android (Samsung) device.
I like Samsungs clone apps. I can have two personal WhatsApp numbers.
Lately after the 2 most recent iOS updates I have found that I am unable to send a text message via my second e-sim unless I turn off the other sim completely.
My setup is simple. For personal number my iMessage is set up. For my work it is just normal SMS (green bubble) but it’s now failing to send.
I find iPhone/iOS is very basic and not inclusive of dual-sim users when it develops its software.
What is your experience?
Thanks

For those who know, Pixel 5 is a great phone. And Pixel 8 is just like Pixel 5. They're basically exactly the same thing.
The only real reason to upgrade is to keep current software security updates, and blame Qualcomm for that. They apparantly stop providing firmware updates after so many years.
So the Pixel 8 has no Qualcomm hardware, so it now has 7 years of software updates.
The Pixel 8 has marginally upgraded camera hardware, in some ways. In some ways I actually prefer the older Sony sensor.
Both displays tint towards green when overclocked past 60Hz, because neither have ltpo. Kind of a bummer. A Pixel 8 with ltpo would have been an actual upgrade over Pixel 5, like the Galaxy s24 devices have. I mean... as it sits now it's kind of like a cross between an iPhone 15 and a 15 Pro because it can shoot RAW and it has high refreshrate options available, but you shouldn't use it except with higher screen brightness settings where there's little to no green tinting -- that's how the Pixel 4xl came from the factory, and actually I think that device got a lot of things right in general/overall.
60Hz below 50% brightness, 90Hz above 50% brightness, AmbientEQ, 500nits peak brightness with a 650nit high brightness mode in high ambient light. Optical telephoto system with good natural hardware bokeh. It was all a really good set up, though minimum brightness on it was too bright even though it tone mapped shadows darker at minimum brightness. And AmbientEQ didn't go warm enough. Face unlock also made my face tingle and gave me floaters in my eyes, I think their IR blaster was set to too strong of an intensity or frequency idk. Anyway.
Pixel 8 and Pixel 5 get similar battery life and have similar displays, similar cameras, similar designs -- they're basically the same phone. I think Google wanted to use Tensor in Pixel 5 but ran out of time. Then I think they got sued by Apple for using rounded corners. That's how we got square Pixel 6 and 7. I think Pixel 8 is just Google getting back to where they want to be/recovering from the fallout of the lawsuits and the Tensor G1 and G2 failures, overheating and bugs and all that.
So yeah, that's Pixel 8. It's no better than a Pixel 5, but Pixel 5 was one of Google's best devices ever made so that means Pixel 8 will probably go down with a similar legacy. And the 8a as well -- same vibes as the Pixel 5a/4a 5g/4a. So that one is bound to be good as well.
My advice for Pixel 8? Keep it in 60Hz mode with Smooth Display off. The color accuracy is better and it'll help you fall asleep easier at night with less green light as well. The cameras are as good as ever, I recommend using Google Photos to edit shots because Adobe Lightroom ruins the Pixel-shifted fullRGB color info you get in the Google ecosystem and pipeline. Speaking of which, best to shoot at 1.2x instead of 1x to activate pixel shifted colors and super res zoom. I shoot in Raw + Jpeg to be able to get both an UltraHDR version and a SDR version of the same image by converting RAWs to Jpegs for editing in Google Photos -- keeps all the color info and Pixel Processing, just spits out an SDR jpeg version of the Raw file to go along withthe UltraHDR version. It's great. Gives you 3 copies of every image for lots of creative discretion for Instagram. Some shots I prefer the UltraHDR versions, some I strongly prefer an SDR version of the same image. I find shooting with UltraHDR always enabled produces better quality Raws to use to produce SDR versions of as jpegs in Google Photos. I also don't care much for the blue white balance on the default auto mode of the camera. Fortunately you can manually adjust it while shooting, but sometimes you don't have time to do that and thankfully Google Photos can totally handle it in post editing. No problem to warm up a photo there.
The one major camera complaint I have for this device that seriously bothers me and annoys me is a lack of a manual focus control for creative control over how final images look. Sometimes I want to intentionally blur the entire photo uniformly, subject and background, to create a dreamy look. And I do this on cameras that allow it. Google Photos allows adding blur to parts of an image in post editing, but does not allow bluring the entire image uniformly for creative effect -- and that's something either Google Photos should add as a feature to post editing, or something that needs to be added into the camera app for manual focus control natively.
Some 3rd party camera apps do allow manual focus, to great effect, but the problem is they don't have super res zoom color science processing going on. And pixel shifted color is the main feature of this camera that I love and adore so much, that I don't like using 3rd party camera apps. And I shouldn't have to use 3rd party apps to get manual focus. So that's my main complaint with Pixel 8 after using it for a month. Overall I'm pretty happy with it. I wish it had ltpo, but only if it didn't raise the price because I wouldn't be willing to pay more for it. I just think it should have it as a minimum standard in 2024. But 60Hz is "okay" it is just a small let down being that it's basically no better than Pixel 5, which came out in 2018. To be fair, Pixel 5 was ahead of its time, but, it's not clear that Pixel 8 is. That's Pixel 8. It's good, but it's not revolutionary anymore.

I have ADHD and have increasingly found that my stress levels and ability to get things done are much better the more I offload stuff from my brain into some sort of digital repository.
I'm an iPad power-user (basically live on this thing) so I've been using the iOS Reminders app for most of this stuff. But while reminders has been great for, well, reminders/tasks, I'm finding I'm increasingly trying to use it for stuff it's not really well-suited for (like making lists of thoughts/info that I want to keep, not check off). I tried using Notes to fill in the gaps, but I just don't find it as pleasant and intuitive to use (reminders feels very structured, and color-coding in the sidebar helps keep me focused/find things). Plus there's stuff neither app does that I'd really like to find a good solution for.
Basically I think what I'm looking for is a personal knowledge/document/data management system. I've looked at a whole bunch and am frankly overwhelmed and struggling to figure out which would be best suited for my needs. Ideally the features I want (if possible to do all this in 1 app) are:

• Wiki type feature or decent linking allows me to connect related notes/docs. Can be offline but the ability to export to pdf or something would be cool so I can share stuff with people (like a topic ref doc for my kid, or a show viewing guide I'm making for my parents)
• Some sort of basic outline tools within the above docs/wiki (this doesn't have to be fancier than what Notes can do)
• WYSIWYG/rich text editor with decent/clear UI (I do NOT want to have to use markdown just to make entries. I'm fine copy/pasting stuff for unique formatting situations, but I am very much a visual person and not a programmer)
• Web clipper if possible/some way to send webpages to the database as a pdf or similar
• Annotation abilities, ideally with the ability to highlight bits of text and use the Apple Pencil to draw on top of these clips/pdfs.
• Ability to place images and other things into pages, but also the ability to browse a gallery of images with thumbnails (I'm an artist and while I use Visref for active ref while working, I need a better ref organization solution than the Photos app)
• Tagging (nested tagging is cool but not a requirement) with the ability to search/filter by tags
• Folders or workspaces with nesting/hierarchy. I just really need stuff "boxed" like this for my brain to keep track of it. I like to have a few basic folders and then dig down into detailed organizational systems within one. If this isn't possible, then nested tagging becomes much more important.
• Ability to put links to stuff in some sort of database/offline bookmarks managed where I can click them to open them in Safari. Basically I want to remove most of my bookmarks from Safari (I bookmark a lot of stuff just in case I need to refer back to it someday) and keep only frequently visited sites in there.
• Lists, like wishlists, with some basic organization/tagging (this might be accomplished the same way as the bookmarks database, basically I just want to be able to have like, a list of AppStore apps I may want to check out someday with links to them, or a list of books, or some other product and a link to where they can be purchased).
• Cloud sync/backup. Even though I mostly only use this one device, it would be nice to be able to at least reference my database on the rare occasion I need it on my iPhone or MacBook. Also I do not trust myself to remember to manually back it up.

Some stuff that would be nice to have but isn't absolutely required:

• Thumbnail views in image galleries display animations when there's an animated gif
• Modular layout tools (i enjoy stuff like kanban, cards, blocks, anything I can drag and drop and easily rearrange)
• Popup images/notes when a particular link is clicked (without navigating away from the current page/document)

I don't need tasks or calendar tools, fine using the iOS apps for those. Also a paid app is something I'm willing to consider if it's good enough. Infinite canvas is also not necessary and may be a detriment as I can easily forget about stuff that's drifted off-screen.
Some of the apps I've looked at are:

• Notion - I like the blocks that can be dragged and dropped, and the templates are cool. I'm not sure how I feel about the sidebar UI and the bare-bones look. Can stuff be nested on the left into folders and is there some way to add some more colostyling to the UI or documents? I also worry about it being online only.
• LiquidText - This doesn't do most of what I need but I like the select and drag out text snippet feature a lot.
• Evernote - I used this years ago and haven't looked at it in a while but I wasn't a huge fan of the UI back then.
• Others I know very little about: Obsidian, Anytype, Craft, Raindrop (is this just links/bookmarks?), Muse, Logsec, Devonthink, Flexcil, Funnel, Heptabase, Notesnook, Noto, Siyuan? Like I said, I'm overwhelmed.

Thinking about productivity app experiences I’ve enjoyed, Reminders and Trello come to mind. Plus that drag and drop snippit feature in LiquidText…I guess I like modular stuff? My brain likes stuff to be neatly boxed in a visually clear way.
Sorry I know that was a lot! Thank you to anyone who made it through all that. I welcome your recommendations if there are any apps that do what I'm looking for.

Hello,
The first time I was banned in January I created an account which worked for a day, then it asked for photo verification. I provided and it accepted my account, which I deleted for unrelated reasons shortly after. A few days later I decided to make an account again and it automatically requested photo verification shortly after creation. After providing photo verification for the second time, I was permanently banned. I appealed to Tinder's team and they responded with a generic message that I violated the rules (photos aren't revealing, and haven't even sent any messages).
Today I created a new account using an entirely new phone number from another phone, new photos, brand new gmail, NordVPN, and on a private Firefox browser on computer. I could swipe through accounts for a while but noticed shortly that I was shadowbanned. After reopening the app, it prompted me for photo verification, which I haven't provided.
I plan on making a new account soon with a new Google Voice number (which I hear mixed reviews on), same photos but cropped, new gmail, private Firefox browser, and no VPN. Where did I go wrong? Do VPNs automatically trigger suspicious activity? Let me know if there's anything that has worked for you guys. Thanks!

I have an early 2020 MacBook Air with the Intel i7 chip, 16GB of ram, and the performance has been garbage lately. Freezing and crashing all the time, and staring at the beachball what feels like constantly. I am not super knowledgable about computers, so please excuse any ignorance here.
For instance, I'm writing a paper for grad school so have ten safari tabs open plus seven word docs, and word keeps freezing. Messages also aren't syncing properly to my phone. It's not unreasonable to expect this computer to handle this load, right? Am I doing something wrong? Is it time to upgrade?
So far I've:

• Downloaded the latest version of Sonoma
  
• Cleaned up my desktop
  
• Uninstalled unneeded apps and their associated files
  
• Checked activity monitor (right now it says it's utilizing 11.5 GB of memory of 16-- I have no idea if this is reasonable or not)
  

I think the next step might be reinstalling OS? Do I need to worry about that deleting my files? Should I not bother the good people of Reddit and go to the Apple Store for help? Just trying to get a sense of if this can be fixed or if I should expect this type of performance. Thank you!

Garmin Forerunner 965 here.
Garmin connect heart rate and user profile do not sync...
For example, my maximum heart rate went from 186bpm to 187bpm, my threshold went from 167bpm to 168bpm and my resting rate went from 42bpm to 44bpm in the last 7 days according to the Garmin Connect APP.
Well, when you enter the USER PROFILE option inside the watch, nothing changes, everything that is updated in the garmin connect APP in USER PROFILE is not updated, with the hassle of updating that data manually... Is it so difficult for it to update itself?
PS: The watch is always paired with my phone.
Sorry for my english...

So background of my family dynamic… I am the youngest out of 3 kids… My mom and dad are still together but not legally married, both are in their 70s… My father is a veteran, who is at 100% disability status… We as a family take care of him, under the same roof.. Since my sister WFH, naturally she does more for our parents are far as taking them to Dr’s appointments and grocery shopping… Before we all moved into the house we are at now, my parents and I lived in another smaller home, and it was on me to get them places and do the shopping, since neither of them are able to drive anymore… IT WAS LITERALLY ALWAYS ON ME, since I was the only child there with them… Background of my parents relationship, my mother and father have always fought, as far back as I can remember, I am now 40 years old.. Their fights would range from arguing, yelling, and sometimes physical altercation…My mother has stated that she does not love my father anymore because of past issues, but has no problem spending his VA money, mind you mostly on frivolous Amazon buys, ie: Phone cases, apple watch cases, shoes and clothes, that she doesn’t even wear anywhere, remember my parents do not drive… Pretty much any extra money her or my father has, she spends it on herself, never puts it into the household to help everyone… She has always been money hungry and manipulative and very selfish… Which as you can imagine being who I am a very considerate person and mainly kind… I admit 2 years ago I wasn’t that kind, I realized I had mental issues, and sought help with therapy and medication… These days I am much more patient and kind… I was sick mentally and didn’t realize how bad my depression and anxiety got, until I had a nervous breakdown… Anyway, I resent my mother for her ways, and how she treats my sister compared to how she treats me, and how she treats my father, regardless of their past history, both parties have done wrong in my eyes back then… Of course I love my mother, I just see her for who she is as far character… Now, a friend of mine explained to me about becoming a caretaker for my father, and how the VA will give caretakers a stipend every month to help take care of the veteran in your life… I mulled it over for months before even bringing it up to everyone, mainly my dad.. Who was all for it because again it would help the household out with extra money… I told my mom about it and she was at first skeptical, and didn’t actually believe it was a thing, so she basically said I don’t care… Well of course that changed when I told her the amount a caretaker could receive… Weeks went by and no one asked anything about it…Fast forward to last week and I decided to go ahead and fill the applications out… I put me down as primary because I was filling it out and brought it to everyone’s attention about the program, and I put my sister down as the second caretaker… Again no one really cared about the program until I got the ball rolling… Today 3 envelopes from the VA came to the house addressed to my father, sister and me… I read my letter and it stated that our application had been withdrawn because the 2nd caretaker( my sister) withdrew the application…Confused ofc and slightly enraged, I asked my mom, how could they deny the application, she stated she didn’t know, smh… Then I asked if my sister withdrew it, she said to ask her.. So I called my sister downstairs to get to the bottom of this, atp I am irate… She comes downstairs and I ask if she withdrew the apps and she said yes, I asked her why, and she says because Im not the primary, not realizing she inadvertently caused no one to receive money, unless we apply again… She then says, in the mist of me going off on everyone except my father, that she had already applied again as the primary, I then looked at my mom and asked who is the second caretaker, which she implied she was, even tho she had just stated she didnt know what happened… I giggled to prevent myself from being more angry and from slapping the literal piss out of my sister, I grabbed my things and stormed off to my room, while my mom is telling me to calm down… They didnt even care about the program until I got that ball rolling, and then went behind my back and removed me all together…Side note, my sister does do a lot for the household, so im not disputing her being a caretaker, I am hurt and mad because they went behind my back and removed me, from receiving a stipend…And this is not the first time they have deliberately cut me out of something… So AITAH?

My husband told me this morning on a phone call when he ran out of the home for work earlier than usual. I called him to check what was up and he said “It’s over. I am unhappy and it’s a short life”. Totally caught blindsided. A few nights back he went for poker with buddies. He travels a lot (10 days a month for work) and plays poker roughly 15 times a month some in person, some on app. Most weekends (either Saturday or Sunday) he leaves us to go play poker in person. My kids got upset with him for leaving for poker. They are 5m and 2f. I was disappointed too. He has ghosted me since that night. Doesn’t talk, doesn’t message. He’s struggled with job he doesn’t like, but despite a few things here and there, it’s been a good marriage or so I thought it was. I’m too shocked rn to think of anything. What do I do? Where do I start?

Currently I have a small business where I design and stuff so I use canva, printing apps and online e-commerce websites for my products listings. I use spreadsheet on the side to track my revenue and expenditure all that financial stuff. In my windows laptop Dell when I use canva and 2 tabs on browser it is showing 8.5 GB ram is used out of 32GB. Which makes me wonder how 8 GB could be enough? I don’t know how MacBook works I have iPhone and apple watch and basically very new to the mac world. 16GB is pricey for both M2 and M3. Its a tough choice over the finances. Also i was thinking to use my sibling’s student ID so I can cut cheap😂. But can anyone tell which one should i get 8 or 16 GB. M2 or M3

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I have newly got a job, everybody was curious about me because I was new, so was he. He came and asked couple of questions where I am from etc. Few days after I saw him but we didn't talk. Then the next time of job, I needed a help with something, he came and helped me and then we started to talk again. He asked me what I am studying etc. After that talk he was coming near me and asking questions like what I do on my free time etc. After that talk, I really felt something towards him and I felt like he kinda likes me too.I am working in a kitchen btw and I work part time.
After 1 week(this sunday), I was waiting in the kitchen to start work, he was there drinking something and we started to talk again. He stood there and talked to me almost like 15 min, which after manager warned him. During the talk, we talked about my city, the country, where I live in the current country etc. After I started to work, and some time later I burned my arm. I went to manager room for the spray and he was there again .While I was waiting for my arm to get better, he asked if I'm okay etc and then asked "do you like to go restaurant, club, cafe etc after work?" Which I replied as "Yes" , and then I was confused because I thought he asked me generally, so I asked "you mean together?" Which he replied as yes. After awhile, he got my phone number. Btw, I also checked his schedule, he supposed to finish at 9 pm, but he finished at 11 pm, same time as me. After we changed clothes, my sister and her husband came to pick me up and I introduced him with other friend to them because my sister would soon work in the same place. Before introducing, he asked if I will go with them, which I couldn't reply because the other guy was already near my sister and I rushed for some reason, I was also so tired that day with huge feeling of throw up. Basically my brain malfunctioned at that time.
Yesterday he messaged me. We texted a bit on WhatsApp but after some message, he just left me on read. From his last seen, I can see he is online or just write someone every 10-15 minute. So I am confused on why he is doing this or is it just me being delusional that I got wrong signs from him and make everything in my head? He also looks directly in my eyes while talking, and once when he didn't hear me and I had to go near his ear he was about to hold my waist. I guess I am just one of his backups. What do I do? Do I confront him next time we meet or just act like nothing happened?

I’m lost and confused after a recent breakup.
My ex broke up with me a few weeks ago. We had been dating about a year and a half. I met her on a dating app and it was one of those relationships that developed by doing one date a week for several months. It was a year after I got out of a toxic relationship.
About 3 months into hanging out. she asked if I would be her bf. At first I cringed on the idea, not because it was her, but more so because I wasn’t sure about it. She was a great girl but I wasn’t sold on relationship material. I have crazy high standards and she didn’t fit appearance standard. But I went along with it, I told her I still wanted to be able to approach or work on social skills with other girls even if just plutonicly. Fast forward another several months and the I love you statement came up. I wasn’t entirely sure about how I felt but I again went along with it. I did come around to the whole thing though.
She was a very loving, loyal, committed gf, and did anything for me. She made a lot of money (6 figures). Unfortunately I didn’t really find her incredibly magnetizing. She was cute, but not crazy attractive in my eye. Also, the fact that she was so wholesome, it didn’t allow for much witty banter. Conversations were mostly plutonic, where I’m more of the sarcastic type. She always wanted to pull out the calendar and schedule plans months in advance every week. She did all of these crazy google calendar overlays and I felt like I was always being sucked into things I didn’t want to do. She became more clingy than I had realized when I first met her. She even asked me about 3 months ago, if we could spend not just weekends together, but also Wednesday nights. (We lived just over an hour apart). I suggested it could be every other week (the opposite)…I didn’t like going to her place because of the road noise where she lived and I would really only see her when she would visit me. When apart I was fine going several weeks without seeing each other. Phone calls were enough. I know, all of this sounds really one sided and like I’m an asshole. But I was very loving to her in person and she knows that, hence why it lasted so long.
Unfortunately a lot of things she did turned me off. She was too readily available, always trying to lock up my calendar, talk about marriage and kids in the next 3-5 years and I felt trapped. We had great sex but it wasn’t crazy passionate, neither was our kissing. When alone, and was feeling aroused, I generally didn’t think of my ex. I constantly found myself checking out other girls places I went (but never talked to them). I felt like wow I wish that was the kind of girl I was with. Although my ex was cute, and attractive to most, I didn’t really feel “proud” to have her with me when I went out…I debated for months on what to do.
In the end she left me, and I shouldn’t really be surprised. But now I’m wishing I had her. Maybe not for the right reasons though? I just think where would I find a girl that loyal, dedicated, and make that kind of money without being money hungry.
I’m trying to figure out why if I wanted to end things myself how come all of a sudden I want her back? Is it just the void of not having someone loyal who’s there for me? The fear of not meeting someone as smart? She’s already talking to other guys and I’m just a wreck and need some advice. I can’t go an hour without thinking of her. I think I need to rewire the way I am thinking. I can’t stop thinking that maybe I made a mistake and should have put in more effort, but I feel like if I truly loved/had that spark for her I would have tried more all along
Do you think this was a good thing this happened?

Youtube picture-in-picture is not working for my pixel 6 pro. Things i have tried.
Check App Permissions: Go to Settings > Apps & notifications (or Application Manager). Find YouTube and tap on it. Look for Advanced > Special app access > Picture-in-picture. Make sure the toggle for YouTube is turned on. Verify YouTube Settings: Open the YouTube app. Tap on your profile picture in the top right corner. Go to Settings > General. Ensure Picture-in-picture is enabled. Clear YouTube App Cache: Go to Settings > Apps & notifications (or Application Manager). Find YouTube and tap on it. Tap on Storage. Select Clear cache. Restart your phone.