I think this is more of a rant idk...
So basically, back when I was applying for college admissions, and nilalagay ko lang laging first choice ko ay CivEng. Now mas gusto ko nalang mag IT or CS but I already passed CivEng at Batangas State University (they won't let me change it). My plan is to shift nalang after 1st sem or 1st year pero nasasayangan kasi ako sa oras na masasayang + subject to availability of slots pa ang pagshishift.
So far, the only application na nilagay ko CS as my first choice ay PLM but I doubt na makakapasok ako since nahirapan ako sa exam and very limited lng ang tinatanggap nila every year.
At the same time, my parents already have their hands full with my sister's tf sa private univ kaya I'm not so sure if ma-aafford ko pa mag private.
The only scholarship I took is DOST SEI and I think it wouldn't be enough kahit na maipasa ko pa.
There's also that regret dahil di man lang ako nakapag apply sa big 4. Nung nag reopen ang DLSU admission for special DCAT, I couldn't help but get a little bit of hope--which shattered immediately nang malaman kong bawal pala magapply for internal scholarships ang mga special DCAT takers (though I'm still gonna take the special DCAT dahil at least matratry ko + it's a once in a lifetime lng, I don't wanna keep regretting na hindi man lang ako nakapag take ng CET sa isa sa big 4)
I already know na wala na akong ibang magagawa kundi yung 1st paragraph pero I can't help but to cling to the hope na hindi ako maging irreg. Paki gising nga ako 🥹

havent harmed myself yet but i really have this great urge to end my life. natatakot lang ako pumunta ng ER kasi baka ma-invalidate tong nararamdaman ko, baka sabihin hindi naman emergency. what do i say when i get there?

Hayst grabe nakakainis talaga yung mga nag spamming sa smart bakit hindi kona sila ma block pahelp po😭😭

Active po account ko since 2020, and last na nagbayad ako sa kanila was January 2024, since lumipat ako and wala akong budget, hindi ko nabayaran yung February bill. Pagdating ng March, nagtext sakin ang Converge na masususpend daw account ko if hindi ako nagbayad. Since wala panaman ako money and lumipat ako so di ko rin magagamit yung internet, hinayaan ko na muna.
Fast forward to May 2024, bill ko lumalagpas 7k na. Tumawag ako sa customer service at sabi kailangan daw bayaran muna lahat ng outstanding balance bago makapag disconnect. Tinanong ko kung ilang months bago ako ma-automatic disconnect, sagot sakin ng agent is 'Di na po pwede mag bigay ng information ang supervisor regarding sa past policy ng automatic disconnection'
Bakit ganto huhu may way pa po ba para mahabol ko yung balance ng hindi pumapatong parang ang unfairr

Wala skl kasi nakaka satisfy mang bara ng tenure na palaging galit, manipulative, narcissistic, at higit sa lahat daig pa ang manager at TL sa pag ma-micromanage ng mga baguhan sa team. Napuno na talaga ako sumabay pa yung init ng panahon at sip-on ko plus ang workload. Pinush pa nya sa Teams kasama yung TL namin na mali ako pero ang ending itong TL namin ang nag sorry sakin in behalf sa nagawa nyang incident. Nakakahiya sya nsa 30’s na pero ganyan pa din umasta.
Anyways, happy Tuesday sainyo! Sana hindi masarap ulam ng ka teammate ko this week.

One of my friends is in a relationship with someone none of us (her circle) approves of. At first we tried to be civil although he's really giving an off vibe. Then feeling namin masyado na siya naging comfortable since nakakausap na nga namin siya to the point na he talks to us informally already. I mean, we don't care about the age naman talaga (he's younger than us) it's actually okay if casual lang siya makipag-usap para we won't feel too old lol. Pero kasi, yung tone? I think that's it e. Idk kung arte lang namin 'to pero sana gets niyo? Kasi diba there's a certain tone talaga na when you hear from someone na di mo super close parang ma-o-off ka? Ganon. Then he also started calling us our nicknames na within the circle lang actually. Siguro kasi naririnig niya sa friend namin pero kasi!!! 😭 Alsoooo!!! He likes sending us random private messages. Like: "Hi. Kumusta ka na?" mga ganyan.
Kapag may lakad kami, he demands update from us. FROM US!!! Hindi sa jowa niya. He'll be like: "Kasama niyo si ano diba?", "Asan kayo ngayon?", "Sino ba mga kasama niyo?", "Update mo ako kung anong ginagawa niya." LIKE BWISIT KA NAGPAALAM NAMAN NA SAYO FRIEND NAMIN BAKIT ANG DAMI MO PANG TANONG?! Also, kailangan ba talaga i-update ka oras oras? For sure naman before going nasabi na sayo saan kami pupunta at kung sino-sino kami. What's the need of asking us pa ONE BY ONE. Isa-isa pa kami imemessage with the same question kainis. Every gala ganon siya. Tapos madalas di na lang nakakasama friend namin kasi di siya papayag na hindi siya kasama. EH GIRLS HANGOUT YON BAKIT KA SASAMA?!!
One time, my friends visited me sa place ko which is 4hrs drive pa. Tapos I think my friend failed to tell him saan na siya since nalowbatt siya sa byahe (but nagmessage siya nung pauwi na kami!). Sa akin siya nagmessage since ako yung pinuntahan. He started lashing out on me. EH KAGIGISING KO LANG?!! I was so pissed kasi he's already talking sh*t about my friend saying: "Ginagago na ako niyang kaibigan niyo" and such. He also threatened me na di na raw niya ever papayagan friend namin kapag kami ang kasama. So I snapped. I was like: SINO KA BA? Then ayun, magka-away na talaga kami after non. Mas hindi na siya makasama sa gala kasi my friend won't bring him. I told her about the fight. Even sent her his messages para alam niya na ganon jowa niya magsalita about her. PARA HINDI LANG NAKAREPLY GINAGAGO KA NA? BONAK. He tried to apologize pero duh. Kapal mo naman.
Today, my friend sent a message to our GC telling us to accept her friend request. It turns out that her boyfriend (or ex idk) unfriended us using HER account. So epal talaga!!! Then someone asked if they broke up blahblah. She said she already blocked him and he's annoying.
I was the last one to open the GC and I think I got a little overjoyed. I even replied "HOORAY 🙌🏻" about the break up question. 😭 Then I replied in almost every messages about the guy, trash talking him. I'm usually a seener in our GC but today ako ata pinakamadaldal.
However, after my little celebration, I felt EXTREMELY guilty. What if too much pala? Baka na-offend friend ko (PROBABLY!!!) kasi ang saya ko eh wala na nga ata sila huhu. I didn't ask pa if okay lang siya or how is she coping up since ilang years din sila. Mas nauna pa ako magsaya. 😭
I'm feeling guilty, I know I should say sorry but at the same time I don't want to because that sorry will be useless cuz I actually mean everything I said about the guy. 🫠 Pero still, I want to say sorry for my insensitivity. BUT I DON'T KNOW HOW KSHSKSKSKSKS

Hindi po to related about programming pero gusto ko lng po sana manghingi ng advice
Tanong ko lng po if meron po bang provided na training sa mga company if mag aapply ako as IT support?
Add ko na rin po kung ano ang mga skills and need na ma master ko pata maka pasok ako sa field na to. Thank you po

Wala talaga, wala na talaga.
Pagod na pagod na ako sa school na to. Di ko alam bakit pa ako nagstay. Ngayon nalaman ko na may possibility na ma-debar ako dahil ilang taon na akong first year.
Sinubukan ko na lahat, maganda performance ko ngayong taon compared dun sa mga previous years. Punyetang school policy talaga pumatay sakin. Hindi ko na talaga alam kung anong gagawin ko. Wala akong ibang masabihan. Currently on the verge of breaking down at the middle of zoom lecture.
Alam kong magiging doktor ako, pero unti-unting pinapatay ng school na to yung pangarap at lakas ko na magpatuloy.
Ngayon naghahanap ako ng schools na tumatanggap ng transferees. Bigay naman kayo ng recommendations kasi di ko na talaga alam ang gagawin ko :(

Please delete this kung bawal or let me know kung hindi related sa SUB at ako na mismo mag ttake down
Pasensya na kung mahaba dahil ineexpress ko lang po yung feelings ko genuinely
Hi M25 here. Wala nang paligoy ligoy pa. Hindi ako magaling mag English. I mean I can watch movies pero with subtitle, and kayang makipag chat na gamit ay English language but heck napaka hirap intindihin kapag verbally mo na naririnig yung mga accent nila without subtitle or kapag nakipag usap ka sa foreigner ganon, basta english, bigla akong na-ffreeze.
Even sa work, I’m already on mid level na, na ang expectation is dapat maning-mani na sa akin itong mga ganitong soft skills pero hindi and madalas ako lang ang Pinoy sa project then the rest ay Germans or Irish na nag eenglish, nakakahiya pero minsan nag rerequest ako sa kanila na bagalan nila salita nila kasi I’m tryng my best to understand them. Kasi ako yung talo kapag di ko naintindihan yung buong meeting.
Nag aaral naman ako sa youtube and panay nood ng mga youtuber na nag eenglish, naiintindihan ko sila for example si Carlo Ople, nagegets ko siya dahil siguro sa pag pronounce niya ng sentences? Pero kapag yung normal convo with a german or irish people, grabe napaka hirap. Yung naka kunot na yung noo ko na parang pang meme
ako’y nappressure na, and malaki yung epekto sakin kasi it affects yung quality ng work ko like kunyari iba pala pagkakaintindi ko sa pagkakaintindi nila (i.e sa work) and the likes. Na minsan kahit itanong ko ng pangalawang beses, hindi ko parin ma-gets kaya minsan hindi ko na lang pinapaulit kasi nakakahiya sa end ko and will just ping them for clarification.
though sanay na din naman ako mag present dahil kasama sa work ko and nakakagawa ako ng personal script pero pag dating sa Q&A, alam mo yung alam mo yung sagot pero hindi mo pang masabi ng tama kasi hindi mo alam kung pano i-start englishin? Tbh talo pa ako ng 5 year old kid na panay nood ng peppa pig sa englishan
So ayun, gusto ko lang sana mag ask ng TIPS, literal na tips na pang bobo na kagaya ko na kung pano talaga ako magiimprove makipag communicate or umintindi kasi gustong gusto ko na talaga mag improve at nahihirapan na po talaga ako
Again, Pasensya na kung mahaba dahil ineexpress ko lang po yung feelings ko genuinely
Salamat sa mga makakaintindi.

I decided not to go home (probinsya) na muna dahil madaming taong tinitake advantage lang ang kabaitan ko. Dati kasi, okay pa eh. Mapayapa pa. Nakakatulog ako sa bahay namin, peacefully. Pero ngayon, magulo na. Kami ng mama ko ang inaabuso. Sad lang talaga na doon nagwowork si mama sa probinsya namin kaya sya ang tao sa bahay ngayon kasama ang sister ko (pero weekends lang nasa bahay ang kapatid ko kasi nag aaral din sya). Ako, sa city naman nagwowork, malayo sa probinsya, 5hrs travel, at nakatira ako sa isang apartment. Independently. Pag umuuwi naman ako sa probinsya, ang daming problemang sinasampal sakin. Wala akong problema sa mama at kapatid ko. Pero may mga kamag anak lang din talagang problematic! Hihingi pa ng pera (knowing na sila ang stressor ng mama ko ha, na abusive sa mama ko, na mga manipulative). Jusko! Tas pag hindi sila mapagbigyan sa gusto nila, sila pa ang galit. Makakarinig ka pa na nagbago kana daw etc etc. Akala siguro nila tumatae ako ng pera dito. Di nila alam halos araw araw akong pagod sa kakakayod, mental health ko sinasakripisyo ko, para lang kumita ng pera. Single daw ako kaya siguro ang yaman yaman ko na daw? So bakit daw ang damot ko? Jusko! Hindi nila alam, nihindi nga umabot ng 20k ang savings ko dahil sa mga bayarin! Tuition fee ng kapatid ko sagot ko. Other school expenses niya sagot ko din. Allowance at boarding house niya, sagot ko din! Allowance ng mama ko at maintenance na gamot niya, sagot ko din. Si mama, konti lang ang nakukuhang sahod kada buwan dahil nagloan siya para matapos na din namin yong pinapatayo naming bahay. Sa awa ng diyos natapos din 2yrs ago. Kaya walang kaso sakin pag humihingi si mama. Nagbibigay talaga ako ng kusa. Pero may ibang tao talagang kusang inaabuso ang kabaitan ng mama ko. Ginagamit nila si mama para may ma-benefit sila sakin. Pwe! 2024 na, hindi pa din sila nagbabago. Ang lalaki at lulusog nilang tao pero ayaw mag hanap ng trabaho. Sa mama ko pa talaga dumepende ang mga fersons. Kaya di din ako masisisi ni mama kung bakit ayaw na ayaw ko ng umuwi sa amin. Kasi stressful at toxic don. Mas ok nang si mama nalang ang pumupunta dito sa syudad. Minsan nga, sa sobrang abusive nila, nagsisinungaling na si mama sa harap ko para lang i-please sila?! Haynako.

Kailan ba ako makakatulog ng mahimbing????
I'm 23F, breadwinner. 4 kami magkakapatid and lahat nag-aaral pa and im the eldest. no parents, our mother passed away when i was 15 years old, and father naman namin nung 2021 sila tita lang ang nagpalaki at nag-guide sakin lalo sa mga kapatid ko kaya at a very young age (15 years old) i was forced to be independent and save myself since then.
Ilang buwan na akong literal na puyat at walang tulog. Im working in a BPO sa gabi and OJT naman sa umaga. So after ng work sa umaga deretso naman ng work sa gabi halos 2-3 hours lang tulog and vice versa. Nasweldo ka pero parang dadaan lang sa kamay mo. Graduating na din naman ako this June but sobrang nabuburn out lang ako sa setup this past few months, yung wala kang magawa kasi kapag huminto ka sa pagkayod wala kayong makakain. Yung sister ko na sumunod sa akin di ko naman ma-forced na magwork din while studying kahit minsan iniisip ko na sana may natulong din sakin, sana katulad ko din marealize nila na they need to strive and work for themselves kasi wala kaming ibang aasahan. Yung pangatlo naman kapatid ko, magcocollege palang recently natutunan na din magwork, naguilty pa nga ako kasi alam ko ang pakiramdam na nagttrabaho habang nag-aaral sobra akong naaawa kasi dapat sana naproprovide ko lahat ng needs nila but sobrang kulang talaga. Yung bunso naman namin, highschool minsan sinasalo ni tita yung pambaon (laking tulong din talaga ng mga tita namin sa amin since bata kami)
Feeling ko ang dami dami kong issues sa sarili ko na ultimo ako di ko mafigure out kung ano, lalo na sa future path na gusto ko tahakin, sa sobrang focus ko makatapos ng pag-aaral at magkadiploma nalang, makpaagtrabaho at makapagprovide, now ko lang narerealize na hindi pala ito yung path (psychology) na gusto ko, i was focused back then on surviving without considering what i really want to do for the rest of my life.
Sobrang naiinggit talaga ko sa mga may mga magulang na sumusuporta sa kanila. Iniisip ko palagi hanggang kailan ako ganito? May nagawa ba akong masama sa past life ko kaya ganito kabigat na responsibilidad ang binigay sa akin? Or puro inconvenience lang lagi ko naattract talaga.
I'm just so tired and i feel so lost. Bakit ngayon pa, ngayon pa na malapit na ko sa finish line ng kolehiyo?

Hi. May nakakausap akong lalaki at nasabi niya na rin naman sa akin na may nararamdaman siya for me, although hindi pa naman niya ako nililigawan. Gusto ko rin talaga siya. But I struggle with dark underarms and inner thighs because I was on the bigger side dati. Nag-aalala ako na baka ma-turn off siya dahil sa hyperpigmentation ko sa underarms and inner thighs.
So gusto ko lang malaman mula sa mga guys, nakaka-turn off ba 'yung dark underarms at inner thighs sa inyo?

Alam ko maba bash ako dito pero okay lang kasi kasalanan ko talaga. Gusto ko lang ilabas 'to kasi sobrang bigat na.
Two weeks ago, my boyfriend and I broke up. In our almost 2-year relationship, we never had any major arguments. For context, my ex was broken when we got together—I was there for him when his previous ex left him. But I never thought I was just a rebound. I’m 10 years older than my ex-boyfriend. I’m in my early 30s, and he’s in his early 20s. Tahimik buhay namin sa loob ng almost 2 years, may tampuhan man pero super babaw lang. Yun nga lang, I never experienced being posted sa social media or his story (I know this is petty, but I’m mentioning it anyway. In almost 2 years, I think he posted me on his story twice, and my face wasn’t even that visible. I’m not as attractive compared to his ex. There was no trace of me on his social media. Walang ni isang picture ko. Literally zero. He said he wasn’t into social media, and it’s true kasi di sya ma status. Unlike when he was still with his ex). I was the opposite of him. I had pictures of him on my social media and was super proud of him. We also don't celebrate monthsaries or even anniversary kasi para sa kanya di naman importante yun. Mahalaga magkasama at masaya kami. I was already living with him and his family. For two years, I was okay with that because I loved my ex. Ang major concern ko lang noon was that whenever we had a fight, his family would know immediately, which made me embarrassed. Instead of resolving things just between us, his mom would always know. Other than that, there were no problems since his whole family was very kind. So in short, kahit may mga ganyan happy kami kasi mabait naman si ex. May times lang na naku question ko yung worth ko pero overall super okay kami.
Anyway, again, we never had any major arguments in our almost 2 years together. Our relationship was so relaxed that we both gained weight since give and take kami sa pag asikaso sa isa't-isa especially me, since I’m older—I really spoiled him as much as I could. Again, mahal na mahal ko kasi ex ko.
But I don’t know what came over me; I started chatting and flirting with someone from another country, ibang lahi. Uunahan ko na kayo—I wasn’t serious. We're both working from home, and after our shifts, we had our own hobbies. My ex was always busy playing on his PC. Ewan ko ba anong kat@ng@han pumasok sa utak ko kasi nga busy ex ko sa paglalaro and kaya nya mag spend ng ilang oras sa harap ng PC nya so I flirted with this guy without my ex-boyfriend knowing. Flirted in the sense the nilandi ko talaga yung guy pero hindi naging kami. Landian lang talaga. But eventually, I stopped. I probably flirted with the guy for about a week, and after that, I never chatted with him again. My mistake was not deleting the messages because it didn’t mean anything to me, and my ex boyfriend didn’t meddle with my phone. But he read them. Mga isang linggo na after my last chat with the guy, my ex-boyfriend read the conversation.
After reading it, he immediately told his parents that he was going to kick me out because I had been chatting with someone else. Direkta sya agad sa parents nya. Walang kumprontahang naganap muna. He threw my things, cursed at me, and called me all sorts of names. I get it. It was my fault. I cheated, even if I wasn’t serious. I begged for forgiveness kasi I wasn’t really serious about what I did. I had never done anything like that in my life, but I ended up on my knees begging for forgiveness. I was just curious and bored (sorry alam kong kab0b0han pero ito talaga rason ko) so I flirted, but I had no plans to cheat na makipag relasyon sa iba. I lied, yes. And that's cheating. He never forgave me. Wala ako magawa. I explained several times that I wasn’t serious, but he wouldn’t accept my explanation. Kaya kahit masakit pumayag ako makipag hiwalay.
It’s been days since I left their house, but until now, it still hurts. I still blame myself, super b0b0 ako sa part na yun and I never thought that something that was just a game to me would end our relationship.
I really miss him, lalo na lately lagi umuulan sa hapon. Sobrang lungkot ko. Iyak ako ng iyak because of what happened, but I'm trying my best to continue living my life. Mali ko eh, kasalanan ko. I haven't reached out to him because I know never nya na ako mapapatawad and I’m embarrassed of what I did. Alam ko din kasi na pag nag message ako malalaman na naman ng buong pamilya nya, nakakahiya.
P.S Lurker ex ko dito sa reddit, kung mababasa mo man 'to sorry pero wala talaga ako makausap. Sobrang bigat pa din talaga. Miss na miss na kita. Sobra. Ikaw na bahala kung iku-kwento mo na naman 'to sa pamilya mo. Again, sorry.

My boyfriend and I broke up because of a petty argument but led us to believe na wala na nga ang love.
We’ve been together for 4 years na and lately palagi nalang kami nag-aaway. Palagi din kami nagb-break but would come back to each other again after 3 days or a week.
This time, we wanted to end that cycle and end the relationship na talaga. Kahit sobrang sakit. Sobrang sanay ako sa kanya. I don’t want to end our relationship. Pero kasi paulit-ulit nalang kami.
He also admitted na he fell out of love na nga siguro kasi mabilis na siyang mairita/magalit sa akin at hindi na siya nag-la lambing. Nasanay na lang daw talaga kami sa isa’t-isa.
Did we really fall out of love? Or did he really fall out of love? To people na nasa long-term relationships, did you see changes in your relationship after hitting the 3rd year or 1st year mark?
I’m asking this kasi kahit ako sa sarili ko hindi din ako sure if mahal ko pa ba talaga or nasanay lang ako sa kanya? Now that I am on withdrawal stage, china-chat ko old HS FB acc niya at doon nag a-update para hindi ma disrupt ang daily routine ko na palagig nag a-update. No reply tho kasi hindi naman na ma open yun na account hahaha. I’m confused as hell. Ayokong mawala siya. Life’s different without him, may void talaga.

Hello po, hihingi lang po sana ako ng advice. Yung biological mom ko po gusto ko sana ma add as dependent ko sa HMO sa work (maganda po kasi yung coverage at libre), ang problema ko po ay hindi si biological mom ang nakalagay na mother ko sa birth cert ko (mahabang kwento kung bakit di sya yung nakalagay, di ko na ikwento dito), kaya di ko alam kung anong pwedeng ipresent para maiadd ko sya (main na hinihingi kasi ay birth certificate), naisip ko lang baka may pwedeng legal document na pede akong kunin/iprocess as proof na bio mom ko sya. Ayun baka po may mga advice or same situation.

Since destroyed slaughter City and Angel god that was responsible for preventing evil soul masters. Slaughter City was never for evil soul masters but it was for obtaining a successor. Angel god was always selfish if even know. The first Angel god removed sword from a rock that was carrying all the evil of the world. Upon removing it more evil increased in the world. She used selfish means to become a god that's why there always mortal enemies with the sea god. The strong always eat the weak that is common theme in cultivation donghua.Although she did some good that after Bibi Dong was an evil soul mater used soul masters vitality to become a god and even their dead bodies. Evil soul master were part of spirit temple before it was destroyed In soul land 2. Evil soul masters were said to part of spirit temple and later established the sect as evil soul masters. Evil soul masters drive their roots from martial soul hall. Even another shrek member was about to become evil soul master but was treated by tang san later in soul land 2 ma xiato was treated by Huo yuhao after going through tang men's secrets on how tang san treated him

Posting here baka alam niyo po how to resolve this issue. Hindi ko kasi ma-turn yung ignition switch kahit na push na. Any troubleshooting steps po that I can do? New owner and beginner po btw

Me (23) and my gf (21) are in a fresh relationship 2months mag 3 months na ngayon 29. My concern lang naman is negative sya minsan and insecure. She's saying things na ang baba daw tingen nya sa sarili nya and wala daw sya maipagmamalaki saken, insecure daw sya sa katawan nya and sa face nya pangit daw sya (hindi naman talaga kase ang cute and pretty nya). Sometimes, nag sasabi din sya things like kaya ko naman kako sya palitan, anytime kaya ko siyang iwan, ldr lang naman kami, baka hinde ko sya puntahan, hanggang salita lang ako na pupuntahan ko sya. Kaya minsan napag sasabihan ko sya na wag nya sabihin na ang baba lang tingen nya sa sarili nya and kaya ko sya iwan. Hindi naman ako nagkukulang sa assurance and lagi ko nabibigay sa kanya since need namin yun kase LDR kami.
I just wanna know if ano yung mga bagay na pwede kong gawin para matulungan sya ma boost yung confidence nya and ma lessen yung pag isip nya ng mga negative things para na din mabawasan yung pag ooverthink nya sa mga bagay2. Feel free to point out yung mga mali kong nagagawa. Need ko lang ng opinions nyo

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When I was about 19 years old i think I was Grade 12 at that time. Our destinado looked at me and said "oh _____ magministro ka ha".Then I always said "pag isipan ko po" as a sign of respect since di pa ako mulat or naiinis noon. Since then, hindi niya na ako tinigilan. Paulit-ulit niya na ako kinukulit not only me but my co-MT. Even nagpapakita ako ng passion ko sa Tungkulin ko to show him na ayaw ko sa ministeryo hindi niya ako tinantanan. One time, I'm practicing singing hymn and studying the sheet that I'm holding since I'm a choir. Tapos bigla ako pinababa kasama ung ka MT ko and then we're inside the receiving and that minister told us and convincing na we should take Preparatory course(if i'm not mistaken) and kinekwentuhan kami about him not really wanted to be a minister and kwentong barbero for sure na kunware ayaw din niya noon siguro para ma engganyo kami na subukan talaga. After that talk, guess what? Naging lamig ung ka MT ko and the reason was because that minister aslo pushing him to enter SFM aggressively. He makes his hair so long and after WS he will go home asap to prevent seeing that minister. Then sa akin naman ang malala was when my mom goes home from church. She asked me na "willing ka ba lumusong, ano ba talaga gusto mo?" And I confidently said na "no ma, di naman yan ang pangarap ko, iba yung gusto ko tahakin sa buhay at di yung pagpasok sa ministeryo". Thankfully, yung mom ko hindi nagalit instead, she told me na "sige anak, kung san naman yung gusto mo doon ako basta nasa matino yung tatahakin mong propesyon" and its a relief to me na di ako pinressure ng mom ko. Moments later, she opened up na kinausap din daw siya and tinatanggi niya rin nga ang alok sa akin since our sambahayan is watak watak na means there are some of our family na hindi na INC. At that moment, hindi daw nagpatinag ung ministro and said na "sa side ko rin naman po mga hindi INC pero okay naman" like WTF?? Super duper na sila magconvince eh noh. Dun uminit yung ulo ko and sinabi pa ng mom ko na "iba po kasi gusto nyang maging propesyon eh" then sabi na naman ng ministro na "pwede naman sya pagkagraduate pumasok sa dept(kung anoman ung usto ko na prop". After that, sinabi nalang din ni mama na "tanungin ko nalang po siya kasi desisyon nya naman po yun di ko sya macoconvince" tapos ginamit na nya ung pananakot card nila sabi ba naman "sige po, papuntahin niyo na lang sya sa lunes kausapin sya ng instructor ng sfm pati ni o1 at district staffs". Nung nabanggit na ni mama un dun nako naglabas ng galit sabi ko kay mama "ma, ano ba mapapala nila saken, ni di nga tayo mayaman para mapaggastusan ung tuition, utang na loob pa yan kung hihingi tulong di ka ba nadala kay(my former mwa cousin) tapos pag di naging maayos pagiging mwa kung makapagbato sila ng salita eh sila naman nagpupumilit noon" and i added "andami jan gusto tlga magministro bakit di yon ung kunin nila, kinukuha nila ung may pangarap na iba tsaka active sa tungkulin edi sino nalang yung tutupad jan sa lokal edi wala na hinakot na nila". After non natahimik nalang mom ko and said na wag nalang daw ako pumunta sa lunes para marealize daw nila na ayaw ko talaga.
Lastly, hindi ko tlga sinubukan hindi ako nagpadaig, kahit paulit ulit na nila sinabing pinakamabiyayangpropesyon yan eme eme or pinakamataas. Pinakamataas pero kararampot lang tulong mo makukuha, pinakamataas yan kung priveleged ka at may connection ka sa matataas pero pag wla pulutin ka sa kangkungan kasi ganyan sistema nila. And today, i'm here enjoying ung course na kinuha ko kahit mahirap pero at least alam kong dito ung gusto ko matahak and nasa puso ko unlike if i enrolled sa sfm na di ko gusto baka nagkandaletcheletche na ako.
And to my friend na ka tungkulin ko noon, he's also happy doing the things na gusto niya and living the life he wants na nagagamit nya ung passion niya. I'm thankful na di siya nakuha nung mga yon. Sana lang he became successful sa mga pangarap niya.
For those na nirerecruit kayo mag sfm, tanggihan niyo humindi kayo kahit pa nasa harapan ng tao yan. Pabalagbag niyo isagot para makita nila wala kayo interes. Dati nagbibigay pako respeto sa ganon pero ndi na kasi nalaman ko na scheme nalang nila yan para makakuha ng bunga na maipagmamayabang sa ka ministro nila.
Kung takutin kayo at ipapakiusap kayo sa higher ups wag ninyo sisiputin. Pag pinaginitan kayo hanapan niyo butas tas i ulat ninyo hahahaha.
Wag ninyo na tangkain na mag SFM kasi andami ko nakita ung iba nga nakagraduate na pero mga na trap at ung iba humihingi pa ng pera sa magulang kasi mababa dw ung bigay na tulong at kapag kayo nagkaprob di kayo tutulungan ng INC ibababa pa kayo sa karapatan tapos sisiraan pa kayo thats the truth even itanong niyo pa sa mga former mwa or ministro na nandito sa sub.
This story are not for ex inc or trap members only, this is also a wake up call sa mga sarado pa ang isip and nagbabalak pumasok sa ministeryo.

my friend is asking me kung pwede ba daw niya takasan na lang yung mga loans niya sa Gcash account niya na lumobo na at hindi niya kayang mabayaran.
Although ginamit naman daw niya yun sa hospitalization.
Now she tell me na "balak" na lang daw niya itapon yung sim card niya to escape the dues.
Kapag ganito ba? May habol pa din ang Gcash or collectors ng mga agency sa kanya? Since wala ng way para ma contact siya?
Sabi ko sa kanya na pahiramin ko na lang muna siya muna para makapag bayad pero ayaw niya.