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At have triggers in this short story...My parents will be addressed as my abusers one of my two brothers will be called affect sex offender the other brother will be called a molester who molested me my sister is going to be called I take everything way too serious she's a b**** so she's bitch growing up we were in a very abusive home where we each got our own way of abuse from our deezers I have an older brother and another sister from my mother first married I am my first born to my father and the firstborn grandchild on my father's side I have another brother he followed me 18 months later and I was pretty mean to him I saw man digging it up dumpster and My dumb brother asked what he was doing I said he's probably looking for you because that's where we found you and my abusers would abuse me all the time I literally memorized my Pepe's phone number so I would pack my Barbie suitcase and I would sit on the curb by a sewer line where I wasn't supposed to sit but I would stay at my grandparents' house for days months I did private school through them I went to regular school through town I would be the one to call 911 on my grandfather when he went into the hospital that day plays everyday in my head and he makes me cookie and all he would say is Cookie get the elephant off my chest get the elephant off my chest I knew it wasn't going to be good and I was right he was roughly in the hospital a couple of weeks and he passed he passed in the middle of the night this is when I realized I was in bath at the age of 12 he came to me he said he loves me and he said that he will always be by my side and protect me and yes they just were the other person I miss in my family is the closest I had with my uncles and cousins due t my abusers they turn the family on me cuz apparently whatever my abuser says went down exactly how they say it but they never told them what they did to me there's one thing that goes in my head and it pis me off my abusers is things in front of my siblings and I I remember one of my siblings getting beat up I remember a sibling nail it kneeling in the kitchen on rice I remember another sibling getting away with absolutely everything the sex offender the molester was forced out of the home because I had a big mouth and I was telling everybody the state I came from was Massachusetts and they failed to me I moved to Florida with my other abuser to meet my other abuser you had one of my siblings with her all I have to say is a sex offender is held at a higher standard in my family then someone who committed robberies with no weapon I'm not saying I'm right and I'm not saying I'm wrong I'm saying I did my time no I didn't go find God in jail for prison that's not why I went to do my time my time was to do 27 months it wasn't to find God I was supposed to rehab and I didn't do that because they are idiot Florida correctional institution is insane and I am happy to say that me and a nurse closed Broward county institution for women due to the neglect the living conditions the rats the cockroaches the bed bugs the spider bites I have so many scars from them that it's insane as an intention in my leg where the brown recluse spider bite ate the muscle in my leg and when they would take the dressing off they would have to put a white cheek close by because the pus and the nasty muscle that turned into pus and turned into deteriorating muscles I thank her everyday and I wish wish I knew where she was so I could give her a great big hug and tell her thank you for sticking by me they transferred her because I made a mistake and gave her a hug out on compound and they transferred her to a different person but other inmates for telling me she was giving them messages to tell me she wasn't giving up on me and that she was still looking into it I owe her everything the little bit of time that I had with this nurse showed me love remorse didn't judge me and admired me for owning everything I did ruining my children to get life ruining my own life making my husband and my life difficult my stepson is never happy with me anymore there's nothing I can do and I'm not going to fight it no more I don't care I'm not going to let it bother me the past is the past I learned my lesson I got out in 2005 have not been in trouble with the loss jail and prison for hell and I'm never going back there's nothing that anybody could do to make me want to go back ever again and I'm withholding 2005 to present day 2024 clean off drugs sober off of I've been off drugs I haven't relapsed I'm a very proud of myself and I hope that I inspire somebody to tell their story of abuse and a correctional institution and I will look into it and I'll see what I can do to make the situation better Florida is not known for their wonderful persons in jails their roads infested their nasty they make the inmates live in unconditional situations I want to put my dog in the guards overstep their boundaries every which way we could insulted you made you feel like you were nobody you already took my freedom you're going to take myself to steam too then lock up the whole fat was just a trip and a half every time they could they would put me in the hole why I wasn't doing anything you know why because I found out that people were going around after they found out with my charges were I wonder who he told people that the person guards only knew what I did the inmates wanted to do them and every time something came up missing in a pot I was in it was my fault and didn't even matter it couldn't even be my and I would get in trouble because they said I stole and I never in a million years stole anything from anybody I had my own money coming in and I was buying my own things and my story will continue because it's not over yet......

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hi there! my ex and I were together for almost 5 years. everything was always great and amazing, we never fought and we got a long extremely well. we had an unbeatable connection and he truly understood me and I understood him. we both have goals and wanted a future together, we always had so much fun and did everything together and talked all the time when apart.
we broke up just over 3 weeks ago. we were doing long distance at this point as he was in school, but i did see him just a few weeks prior. it was a week and a half before summer where he was coming home. the reasons he gave me is that “we aren’t on the same wavelength” “we don’t click” “i don’t see a future with you” “i just don’t love you like that anymore”. Long story short, he did this on the phone while away. the first week i waited for him to come home so we could talk in person, i couldn’t accept what had happened and felt he would feel different when he actually saw me as these seemed like thoughts that maybe arose due to the distance.
However, when we talked, he was cold and distant. he gave me absolutely nothing and told me he had to be mean so that I get the point. However, I didn’t wanna stop trying. I gave him his space for a week and then contacted again. we talked on the phone for an hour and had a good conversation where he claimed he missed me, we planned to hangout a week later so that i could hopefully feel better. when we hung out we had a good time and at the end he finally gave me the genuine conversation I deserved and acted like himself. told me things like “your more than enough and i can’t even understand it but my mind can’t grasp that your more than enough for me” “your perfect everything about you and you have always been so good to me and what we had was amazing”. he told me how he loves and cares about me deeply and i know that i could feel it. he was in straight tears and when we said goodbye i could feel his pain, myself also was a wreck as i cried to him for 2 hours.
now, it’s been 1 day of me going into no contact. i want him to come back so bad and realize that he’s still in love with me. however, he seems extremely sure of his decision. I just can’t process how you can be so emotional and care about someone so much as he does and not think it’s right. we didn’t end on bad terms, there was never any issues and i have so much love for him, i can’t picture myself going on without him. how can i get him back or to realize what he’s loosing? i don’t want any BS.

Location: France
I received an internship offer from a big company for my end-of-studies internship, which I accepted. We were in the process of finalizing the three-party internship agreement (myself, the company and my school) which they unfortunately did not sign. I sent then an initial draft of the agreement, which was reviewed by their legal team, then they sent me a set of modifications to include which I did and then I was waiting for their signature.
6 days prior to the start date, I am informed via a zoom call that the internship was cancelled due to business reasons.
Am I entitled to any compensation? Knowing that I declined other internship offers, cancelled interviews, stopped searching for internship opportunities, made arrangements for accommodation (moving fees, expensive rent in Paris, left my previous address), and paid for flights in accordance with my start date.
All I have is the email trail and a voice recording of our zoom voice call where I was informed of the news.
Many thanks.
tl;dr Internship cancelled 6 days prior to start date, the company hasn't signed any document. Can I get compensated for the financial, moral and professional prejudice?

So I got into an Ivy and was rejected from literally every other school except 2 other colleges). The problem is with my first semester calculus grade, I had a 30 average because I only took the unit 1 test and didn't even try the others. All my other grades have been an A, this second semester i dropped out of calc and have maintained an A average on all of my classes. I dont know what to do, i dont think i can learn a whole semester of calc and make up the exams in one week, but im afraid that the university will look at my final transcript, see the calc grade, and wonder why i was even accepted in the first place and rescind my acceptance. Any advice would be helpful.

I have a question about VR & E CH 31 subsistence allowance for schooling. Just met with my counselor and I’m starting school this Summer. I asked her if I would be getting paid at the Post 9/11 GI Bill rate as I have not even touched it yet. She didn’t give me a straight answer. Anyone here using VR & E for school while still entitled to your Post 9/11 GI Bill? Are you being paid at the Post 9/11 GI Bill rate? Thanks.

So I got into an Ivy and was rejected from literally every other school except 2 other colleges). The problem is with my first semester calculus grade, I had a 30 average because I only took the unit 1 test and didn't even try the others. All my other grades have been an A, this second semester i dropped out of calc and have maintained an A average on all of my classes. I dont know what to do, i dont think i can learn a whole semester of calc and make up the exams in one week, but im afraid that the university will look at my final transcript, see the calc grade, and wonder why i was even accepted in the first place and rescind my acceptance. Any advice would be helpful.

I was just thinking today about how I was looking forward to middle school as a kid. Elementary school was so awfully boring, but I also didn't really have any real friends so that didn't help. Still though, the thing is that I spent a lot of time by myself and that involved watching a lot of TV. And I'm not from the US, I live in Europe, but the TV shows were all from the US. And they kinda gave me a really cool fantasy of what school was gonna be like after elementary school. And yeah I'm sure anyone reading this is gonna think that, well, of course it's not actually like on TV, TV is fiction. But trust me, this is gonna be way more disappointing than you think. But I mean, at least I wasn't bullied, most people just sorta left me alone instead, so I don't wanna act as if school must definitely be better in other places. It's just that, it was so boring.
Hmm where do I begin. Two things constantly said in these TV shows that left me confused, kids often talked about classes they take, consider taking and don't take. And kids often talked about "this person from my x class". This gave me the idea that, unlike in elementary school, I'd get to at least somewhat choose what classes I might wanna take. Not at all how it worked, at least not at the schools that were options for me at the time I went to middle school in the early 2000s, as far as I can tell. I say as far as I can tell cause it was never explained to me either, it was explained to my parents, so that they could maybe talk to me and figure what to do with me. Anyway, you either went to trade school, which was seen as a huge embarrassment to your parents cause you are an idiot that's probably not gonna do college, or for 7th and 8th grade you decide on one of two options; latin or modern languages. Both of those come with a certain set of classes, you can't not take any of them and you can't take any that don't come with it. My parents didn't put much thought in it, they were just told that since I did so well in elementary school I should go for latin, as that's what smart kids do. It doesn't come with many interesting classes to me, but to be honest neither did the other option. I would have much rather gone to trade school, which has a technical studies option too that would come in handy for college, but many people just didn't like having to say that their kid goes to the trade school. In fact, I had a few people in my group failing on purpose cause they told their parents they wanna go to trade school but were just not allowed, so they protested by failing. Anyway, the other thing that had me confused about that, all classes are taken with the same group. You're in a group of about 20 people, they all have the same classes cause you don't get to pick and choose, why not have them do every class together. I'm not sure if that's supposed to get the group to know each other better or something, but really the result is just that you really don't get to know so many people. If you don't like any in this group so much, well tough luck, everybody only hangs out with people of their own group. You weren't even allowed to sit with people from another group for lunch, they assigned you a seat at a table for your group. And you know, many of them are kinda the same. This school was just for those two options I mentioned anyway, which are for preparing kids to continue to college in the future, anybody wanting to do any trade or anything technical would be at a different school that focuses on those. Oh and also, not a single girl in our group, I didn't really care at the time but thinking back about it it does seem kinda weird to have years of middle school where all classes were boys only. Alright on to the next topic to pick. Hmm how about the whole thing with the activities at school they always have on TV. You know, clubs, sports, arts, dances, science fairs, even elections for something? Yeah I did totally wonder what my future school was gonna have. Which was nothing, in fact I went to three different schools from 7th to 12th grade and they all had nothing. It's just not a thing here I guess? There is not a single thing to do other than go to your set of classes that day and go back home. No special events of any kind either, just an occasional educational school trip. But certainly nothing that would make you meet any people with similar interests, or anything social at all really. Here's sorta how it works instead. You wanna do any of this, you sign up for it somewhere else and go there after school. Like my city did have a music school and a drawing school for example, so if you wanna go to a 2nd school on some days after going to your 1st school that day then you're free to do that. Of course it'll be with completely different people that you probably don't ever see anywhere else. I was in an unrelated sports team for example, we played a game on saturdays that is only attended by parents and practiced 2 hours after school one day in the week. And I never saw anyone on the team ever outside of those couple of hours per week. That's also one kinda problem with that isn't it, the kids learning music or drawing at those specific schools after their main schools probably got to show off the things they learned at times, but only fellow kids at those specific schools and their parents would ever know about it. They never get to show off the stuff they learned to kids at their main schools.
Here's a little short one for in between that is kinda odd, personal lockers. Nobody ever got their own locker, not at any of the three schools I went to. We just stuff all our crap in our backpack and bring it home. Then in the morning figure out what we need that day, and carry it all back to school in our backpack. In elementary school we had a desk at school with a little space for books, but from middle school you're not always in the same classroom so you get no desk with storage. Every classroom you go to you bring your heavy backpack with everything for that day in it.
This is getting really long already so here's my last one, the whole social groups and cliques thing full of stereotypes. Well, just having anything like that at all really. Because of the stuff I wrote earlier, but also some of the rules. Like I already said, you take every class with your group and sit at an assigned place with your group for lunch, you can't go find someone who likes the same stuff as you from outside your group. Except during one of the three breaks, two of those are 10 minutes and one is 30 minutes. During those, you can walk around outside and go talk to anyone you want. Of course they are all total strangers to you though as you have never seen them do anything anywhere, since there are no activities at school other than your classes. But here are some of the rules we had. No electronic devices, so you can't listen to or show anyone any music or play any videogames with anyone. I mean no phones either but almost all of those couldn't really do anything other than call and text at the time anyway. No 'distracting' hair, whether that is a weird style or having any part of it any color that does not appear natural in humans. No 'distracting' clothing either, but at least no uniforms. No tattoos or piercings of any kind, except earrings but one time an acceptable looking punk came in with a safety pin earring he did at home and that did not count as an allowed earring. Actually come to think of it, the punks were the only group. Everybody else just looked the same as everybody else. And these punks were just 4 people. We knew they were punks cause of their outfit, they pushed the boundaries of distracting. And sometimes too far, like with the safety pin. But they usually wore a flat cap, a denim jacket with a few punk patches and leather boots. Probably the coolest looking people at the school, mostly because I couldn't tell you what anyone else looked like now, I totally forgot everything except their face. Though I was also a bit of an exception. I was the guy with long hair. Not that anybody knew anything about me cause I didn't talk, but they did know me as the one guy in school with long hair. They couldn't really ban that as I don't think they could ban things for only one gender. But yeah, you only have the opportunity to talk to people not in your group during the short breaks, but how would you decide who to go talk to? You never talked to any of these kids, all you got is how they look, and they're barely allowed to change their look from anything default.
Alright I'm gonna end it here. I guess the conclusion is that if you make school as absolutely boring as possible then there is not gonna be as much trouble, I think that might have been the goal at least? Just come in, get your education that day, go home, no drama. Is that better? I wouldn't know, I haven't been to other schools of course. But I sure couldn't help but wish it had a little more going on like they did on TV.

Hi I’m 25 and for context I currently live in Maryland for 7 months now and have made no progress in my life here at all, I am debating going back to college for a medical career which is so funny for me to even think because I went to college for nursing and didn’t finish to become an esthetician and because of covid I left that field as well and haven’t been back until literally 2 weeks ago when I got a job to do lash extensions and have been disappointed since.
I honestly never thought that I wouldn’t be the person to not go to college and I think that because I got a license as an esthetician I didn’t really process how I really didn’t go to college I did a vocational education basically and lost my job because of covid and was so depressed about it I didn’t go back to it which was useless.
I still had hopes of becoming an esthetician again when I got this job as a lash tech to realize I have been out of the game in a long time and definitely draining on my body specially all the back pain, all that for not much reward since the other techs have told me that honestly they get paid very little specially when I told them where I used to live some lash techs could make up to 1,200-1,400 a week and here they were making half that I felt more discouraged because I already felt this wasn’t what I wanted to do anymore for a career.
I got desperate recently since the past couple of months I’ve been walking on a tight rope verging being fully broke every month and feeling like a bag of waste and that I wasted so much time of my life in a delusion that I was okay and in fact I am not which brought me to 2 hours ago scrolling career paths online and I found a posting for travel health agencies and the pay definitely caught my attention first but also the position, to think if I have continued my college degree and had been a nurse I could be in a different place that I am right now.
But not to dwell in the what if’s that I cannot change since I don’t currently life in a Si-fi movie with a best friend scientist that will create a time machine for me, I want good advice on what are my options and realistically what would be most beneficial for my future.
The path I was thinking of choosing is not very clear but I was very interested in some of the positions in the traveling agency’s I saw and looked into and some of them where physical therapy, Cath tech, and a CT technician where the only ones I had enough time to do research on but there seemed to be several others but they all still mean going back to school for probably at least 4 years.
I guess my biggest worry is not really going back to school but the financial, I currently tip toe the lines of having a 0 balance in by bank every month and some credit card debt that I used to pay for the vocational school (about 5k, I feel like when I say cc debt some people always think it’s over 10k so maybe not that bad), but I’m scared of doing school and working, rent, car, insurance, I already try to work a lot now even babysitting on my off time to make sure I’m always bringing some money in every day and I’m just scared of making a mistake and it costing me what I already don’t have.
I also don’t know if this is important but a reason that kept me from going back to school before is that I am married we are separated but not yet divorced and I couldn’t get financial aid anymore since I basically made too much money bc he was on the tax return.
That’s honestly all the information I could think of right now but can always say more for clarity and I’m just hoping for some guidance or advice on what to do, since I’m literally writing this after having a small mental breakdown and considering being a sugar baby (although I’m not sexy enough of that the idea went away really quickly lol). Any advice is greatly appreciated, thank you.

I need advice from experienced chefs here.
I'm being offered a sous chef position that requires me to work 10-12 hours a day, 6 days a week, with a slightly low yearly salary. Is it worth it?
Here's something about me. I'm 28 years old with 5 years of experience and culinary school. I'm currently a junior sous chef being paid hourly. I'm very passionate about cooking. I aspire to be a head chef or executive chef in the future, and I want to gain experience to achieve that goal.
But I don't think the salary I'll be receiving is worth all the hard work. If you do the math, my current hourly rate is higher than the potential yearly salary when calculated on an hourly basis. Wayyyyy higher.
To all the passionate chefs here, should I decline the offer and stick to my current position or should I accept the promotion?
Serious genuine question here, respectful answers would be appreciated.

I'm only a part time pastry assistant but I worked for 2 years. It was a good and accomodating place for me since I'm autistic. So I know a bunch of in and outs for doing the work well and even learnt to do some extra tasks.
5 months ago, he had hired 2 culinary school graduates to be full timers. They started out nice but they quickly formed a clique and became the chef's favourite.
They work fast but poorly and never gets criticised for their work. I spend alot of time practicing my work at home since I am not culinary trained but I have reached a point where I have consistently produced products that he is satisfied with.
However, the new full time pastry cooks work so fast that the products are often something my chef wouldn't have accepted from me when I was starting out. But he never tells them about it.
I wouldn't be upset if they were new and genuinely learning because I was once there, except they are cocky and often gives excuses when I explain that they shouldnt process the grapefruit seeds into the bowl when they supreme the fruit.
I am left to deal with their mess of badly processed fruits and the chef says nothing about it. I really like the job but I cannot accept the poorly done products that they produce.
I know for most people, they can ignore the work or attitude. Some may even leave to find new work but as someone autistic, I need certain accomodations which are rare 😔

I posted this over on lawschooladmissions but I feel like this sub might give better advice. I am looking for thoughts/opinions on both of these schools. I have already paid my seat deposit for NU back in April and only found out about my acceptance to UW-Madison about a week ago(and their seat deposit is due tomorrow so they've put me in an awkward position). I am largely interested in going into public service or government work, so NU does seem like a good fit for me. I went to NU's admitted students day and was impressed by the co op program, as I graduated undergrad in 2021 and have already been working for three years so experiential learning is important to me. I also really enjoyed talking with the students I met there. However, UW-Madison is ranked #36 compared to NU's #68. Based on my stats, I feel lucky to have been accepted at UW-Madison and want to give it full consideration before I decide to change course when I've been planning on going to NU for the last month. I've asked several people I know in the legal field and most of them have just tried to tell me that Madison is a cooler city than people give it credit for. That's nice, but it doesn't tell me much about the school itself, or what my employment options will look like after graduation. So I thought I'd ask on here and hope that any current students or alumni from either school might share their thoughts. I've added more details below:
My main requirements when applying to law school were that the school 1) is either in Washington DC or a capital city the state it's located 2) has public policy/government concentrations, clinics, or externships available and 3) has international programs. The last one was just a personal thing for me because my juniosenior year in undergrad were wrecked by Covid and I never got to study abroad. I also would like to explore the options that US attorneys have to work internationally(I know those options are few, you don't need to tell me that.)
Both schools meet all three requirements. NU has co ops in cities all over the world and some of them are perfectly aligned with my interest areas. UW-Madison has some excellent exchange programs but not as many as NU, and I definitely don't have any intention to work in WI/IL/MN or even Chicago. My ultimate goal is to work in DC and based on employment stats it seems that roughly the same number of grads from both schools end up doing so. But if I had to choose a city to work in after law school, I'd probably choose Boston over Madison.
I've been told that outside of t14 schools, location matters more than ranking. If that's true I think I should stick with NU. Then there's the issue of cost. Madison is a less expensive city but because I would need to bring my car and pay to park it it that would be an added cost. Also, if location of the school would lock me into living in Madison or the Midwest for 8 years instead of 3, I think I'd rather pay the extra money. But if I could graduate from UW-Madison, save some money, and get a job in DC in a year or less, then I think that would be okay.
A school's culture also matters to me, and while I visited NU I didn't have the time to visit Madison before having to make a decision. UW-Madison seems like a very relaxed school with a strong community, but the city seems boring and small(no offense to any that love it!). I liked NU when I visited, but I have seen some posts on this sub and others about people who did not like it there at all. I'm also having second thoughts about the "non-traditional" nature of the school. They don't have GPA or rankings, and I'm wondering if the co op schedule will interfere with my ability to participate in OCIs or have Summer Associate Jobs. Before my UW offer, this wasn't really a concern because I was deciding between NU with a scholly or another school with none. Now I'm trying to weigh the pros and cons of a non-traditional track or a traditional one.
Sorry for the long post. I'm just a first-gen college/law student who's feeling overwhelmed, especially since UW-Madison basically left me with no time to decide this. Anyway, I appreciate any thoughts from this group on the Location vs Ranking debate, or any perspectives from current students or alumni from either school. And best of luck to those who are still trying to make these tough decisions like me!

Hello, I am wondering how this sounds for my Sap appeal. I am in good standing and above a 2.0, as of right now, I am kit eligible for fafsa, which is the reason why for my appeal. I would love any and all feedback. Thank you!
I am writing to appeal against the loss of my federal financial aid eligibility due to not meeting Satisfactory Academic Progress. (SAP) requirements and ask you to please restore my eligibility to receive all forms of federal aid. I regret that I have not been able to meet the Satisfactory Academic Progress ( SAP ) requirements. Should I not receive aid, I will not be able to continue my wonderful path here at the University of Texas at San Antonio. During my time of enrollment in a university at Texas A&M Corpus Christi, I had faced numerous challenges that put a delay on my growth and hindered me from reaching my goals of being an academically successful student. After taking a year off to be more proactive about my situation I am writing this letter in hopes of appealing my aid for SAP, which was revoked due to a failure to meet the completion rate. I understand the reason for the stopping of my aid, and I take full accountabilities for all events leading up to that point. I am writing this letter to express the importance in which I hold my education, as well as to outline the steps I plan on taking to ensure that I remain on the road to academic success and completion at University of Texas at San Antonio.
I went back to school in 2017 as an independent student. I faced many obstacles, and being the only person in my family that was able to enroll in college, I was determined to make something of myself and be successful by excelling in my studies, but I came into that college experience with a blind eye and did not utilize the campus resources to be a scholar, like I should had done. During my following semester in 2019, I had recently become pregnant with my son, and that was around the time that COVID-19 had happened. During that time, I was let go from my job due to the lockdown, which left me in a finical crisis, so I was unable to pay for my semester at the time. During the fall of 2020, I had just given birth to my son, so I was finding new self, and my new lifestyle, which had me switched my major multiple times, because I did not have passion for the previous majors that I had selected, so I dropped many courses as well. During the terms for the year 2022, I was still attending the Alamo Colleges out here, but I had recently found my passion in the tech field, I started to be on top of my courses and class work and was able to successfully 2 / 3 succeed during the following years. Once I got transferred to the University of Texas at San Antonio, I knew exactly what my passion was, and I was more than excited to start my growth academically and soar. In the begging of the spring semester, I had just recently bought my first house, so I was preoccupied with packing, and the whole process of buying your first home. I was overly overwhelmed with the moving process, raising my 3-year-old son, and working full time that I lost focused on one of my courses for the term. Since not passing that class, my life has done a complete 360, I decided to take the summer off to organize my house and get everything in order. Now that I have finished moving into my new house, I can fully stay focused and determined not to lose sight of my academics. Now that I am fully moved into my house, My parents help out with my son so that I can take 3 hours every day to study each of my courses, I organized my time to make sure that I will be attending at least 2 tutoring sessions a week, as well as utilizing the university resources to help gain more of an advance on my academics and make sure to meet with my professors and advisor at least twice each semester so I can make sure that I can stay caught up on my course work, and getting more assistance if I do feel lost. If I knew then what I know now, I would have taken a break after my first failed semester, as well truly knowing where my interest lies, so that I didn’t switch my major multiple times. I did not understand the impact of changing majors, and dropping courses that would influence not only my GPA, but also my completion rate for SAP. I also realize that I should’ve taken more of advantage of the student resources provided to me, by the colleges and universities. I also take full responsibility and accountability for the consequences of my actions.
What will be different if given the chance to receive aid again is that I am in a much better place than I have been in the past 5 years, and I will continue to always improve myself and never let my studies go. I will always stay focused during each term of the school year and will never let myself get lost or behind again. I will also commit to routine/ scheduled meetings with my academic advisor as well as professors, and tutoring aids that are available to help with each course. I have a tremendous amount of support from my loved ones who want to see me succeed and be the first one in my family to graduate from college / university. I am not only determined to make something better of myself for myself, but for my son. If I am given this extra chance at this opportunity, I can show my son how successful one can be with life going on, but also that if you don’t give up on your dreams, you can do anything you set your mind to. I am very disappointed in the person who I was in the past, but I am more than happy to say that that person is not me anymore. I have grown so much, and the old me would be so shocked that I even made it this far in life. I know that in life, things are always going to come up and hit you out of nowhere, but I have now realized that no matter what life throws at you, you just got to push through it and keep going, no matter how hard it is. I understand that this chance does not come around often but if you take this amazing chance on me, not only will I succeed and go far in life, but I will provide my son with a better life than I could ever imagine. If awarded this opportunity, I will do everything It takes to become successful and remain successful throughout the remainder of my academic career the University of Texas at San Antonio.
3 / 3 I plan on taking on more tutoring sessions at least twice a week with my professors. I will also take up more of the student resources that the university has to offer, as well as scheduling more appointments with my tutor. I will never drop any of the courses that I am registered for and going to take in the future. I will also never let myself not pass any of these courses. I am going to do everything in my power to make sure that not only will I pass every course that I am taking / and or will take, but I will also make sure that I stay determined and focused and seek out any help from my scholars with my academics.

So I got into an Ivy and was rejected from literally every other school except 2 other colleges). The problem is with my first semester calculus grade, I had a 30 average because I only took the unit 1 test and didn't even try the others. All my other grades have been an A, this second semester i dropped out of calc and have maintained an A average on all of my classes. I dont know what to do, i dont think i can learn a whole semester of calc and make up the exams in one week, but im afraid that the university will look at my final transcript, see the calc grade, and wonder why i was even accepted in the first place and rescind my acceptance. Any advice would be helpful.

I feel like this is a really tell tale sign of how much of a loser I am. I never fit in during high school and struggled socially. I noticed after graduation, everybody else got accepted into really good schools, going to these wild jacuzzi parties with all their new friends, they found their partners, they landed really amazing jobs, like everything just went totally well for them and in the timeline of like 5 years they were so successful and had their lives totally set.
I went to college but I made no friends, had dozens of social fails and awkward experiences, went to no parties, made zero new friends, landed no job despite applying for like 500 jobs, found no partner, and I'm still just stuck in a dead end not knowing what to do. It's like everybody else's life just went on an upward spiral and mine just went down.
And please don't just tell me something like "you shouldn't compare yourself". Obviously something is very wrong here and it is extremely annoying when people try to placate it or diminish it by saying "you're just comparing yourself".

Hey guys! Just wanted to see what my chances are at programs like Rutgers, Sophie Davis, Brown PLME, etc. For context, I'm in 11th grade.
Background:

• Female south Asian
• Northeast
• Competitive public school
• GPA: 3.93 UW, 4.3 W
• SAT: 1580 (800 reading, 780 math)
• 120k+ income

Classes (just listing the important ones): Sophomore year AP Chem (4), AP World (5), AP Seminar (5), Research
Junior Year AP Bio, AP Calc BC (I hate this class so much, might get a B), AP US History, AP Music Theory, AP Lang, Research
Senior Year AP Physics I, AP Literature, AP Government, Multivariable Calculus, Research
ECs

• Research
  • Placed 3rd in my category at ISEF this year (health related research)
  • 1st in my regional fair and 2nd overall at state (got a special award from the Air Force as well
  • Assisting professor in creation of a high level college course
  • Starting clinical research internship at well renowned hospital in NYC (they usually only take med students and undergrads)
  • Will be returning to my ISEF project related research lab this summer as well (so excited!!)
  • Getting citation from my town for all this? Unusual, I know
  • Coauthored a brief case study in the JACC (Journal of the American College of Cardiology)
• Environmental Activism
  • International finalist in environment related competition
  • International finalist in another environment related competition (trying to be vague here, sorry)
  • Have done some stuff trying to improve sustainability in my school
• Music
  • I play a variety of instruments, piano being my main
  • Performances at local nursing homes and hospitals
  • Pianist job at a church, taking on other music gigs as well
  • In my school's band and jazz band program! I play 3 instruments there
  • I do have state certifications/top marks in some of these instruments
• Community/Volunteering
  • Nursing home stuff mentioned beforehand
  • Volunteering at my local hospital (will have 100+ hours by the time I apply)
  • Will start volunteering at my local rotary club and get some leadership there somehow
  • Active in my cultural community through the arts (leading choirs, dancing, singing)
• Shadowing
  • It's very hard to do this with hospitals in my area
  • I shadowed a transplant surgeon for like 5 hrs total so far? I'm planning to shadow more this summer
• Leadership/clubs
  • Treasurer of an honor society at my school for two years
  • Theater for 3 years (was the pianist for one of their shows as well)
  • Audiovisual club
• Awards
  • The ISEF and other science fair stuff
  • Air Force certificate
  • Bunch of district wide awards for accomplishments but I don't think I'll be including those in my application
  • Yeah I think that's about it

I'm a little bit delusional and am leaning towards EDing to Columbia, but I'll probably have an easier time in a BS/MD program. Any and all advice is greatly appreciated!

For privacy reasons the girl will be called Emily (19F) and my ex-boyfriend will be Sam (20M). Last year I (18F) was asked to smoke after work with my at the time coworker, Emily, I said yes because it had been a while since I smoked and thought I could use it as a relief since I was stressed out. While we were smoking I felt really weird and noticed she was pressuring me to take more hits since, for context i'm a lightweight 2-3 hits and i'm good, but she had pressured me to take 8-9. I felt really weird about 10 minutes in and originally thought I was greening out, I was sweating like crazy, shaking, hallucinating, and completely dissociated and out of it. I asked if she could take me home and she obliged but first went to get gas (I lived abt 5 minutes away from where we were smoking), when we got there I started throwing up and shaking even more, the hallucinations were getting worse the more time passed. When I got home I checked my heart rate and it was around 185, I genuinely thought I was going to die I was completely dissociated and out of it. After this I developed a heart condition, now I frequently struggle with fainting spells and high heart rate along with other symptoms. Fast forward to the end of november, I met Sam. We started talking and met up for the first time in the beginning of January. Everything was good, he met my parents, we went on dates often, and while we were drunk one day he asked me to be his girlfriend to which I obviously said yes! I was so happy with him, he was my first boyfriend and I was falling in love with everything about him. I tell him about what happened with Emily, as I was often going to doctors trying to get a diagnosis for what was happening with me. I missed a lot of school and was struggling with extreme anxiety at this time. Around the middle of march I noticed he started following Emily, not only her main account but her spam as well... so of course I follow it lol. I notice she's posting kinda flirty stuff and thirst traps which makes him following her even worse 😭. I'm a very non-confrontational person so I wait until the end of march to bring it up which is where he says he was hanging out with friends and "she was just there".. Red flag. First of all he should have told me, and if she was just there why would he follow both her accounts? I didn't ask more I just was very hurt and confused. Things go on as normal and we don't see eachother for two weeks, still texting constantly. We finally get to see eachother and I come home and get a text from Emily, asking "DO YOU KNOW SAM" "DONT SAY ANYTHING!!" so I respond saying he is my boyfriend, the situation was weird and I wonder if I had only said yes if I would've found out more information sooner.. 🥲. But time goes on, I notice she's posting with hickies and memes like "i dont know if you got a gf you're my man" which makes me sus, and my gut is telling me somethings up. My boyfriend never gave me his location and hid that stuff from me, but wanted me to share mine. He would get dry when I was out with friends, (I only hung out with friends 2 times during our relationship.) We go on a date in the beginning of april and drink, while we were drunk I ask him about Emily and he completely ignores it :/ so i let it go. As the next two weeks go on he gets dryer and dryer and only texts me when he's horny , so I make the decision to end things- asking if we could take a break or just break it off completely, also bringing up Emily and how it made me uncomfortable he was associated with her, He agrees, calls me crazy about insinuating he got with Emily, and we text as friends for the next two weeks. That saturday i'm at prom, and my friend comes up to me telling me that my old coworker, let's call her Sarah, told my friend that "Emily is talking to (My) Boyfriend" my heart drops completely, I instantly ask if she's sure and she feels bad but says it's true. I freak out and go home and think about what i'm going to say to Sam. I text him angrily asking what is going on, he responds basically saying Me and you didn't have a label. Are you fucking kidding me. I went off on him and he avoided everything I said, but confirmed he was talking to Emily. I text my old coworkers and they all reiterate that Emily did tell them she was talking to my boyfriend and often came in with "Hella hickies". I removed him off of everything after that and it's been 2 weeks since then , i dont know what to do I feel hopeless and like I'll never get over this. Am I overreacting?

Imma be real with y'all, the imposter syndromes kicking in.
Please give it to me straight, do I got a reasonable chance at MD? If not, what about DO?
For reference, I'm a Washington applicant and hoping to get into something in Washington state, but also accepting of anything honestly.
Stats:
MCAT: Hasn't been graded yet. Expecting 50X (maybe 510 at most) based on practice full lengths taken
500+ clinical volunteering (800 projected) - Volunteered at multiple locations and trained new volunteers
300+ non-clinical volunteering
No research pubs or presentations but took class that was considered "undergraduate research" (honestly not even sure if that counts)
No URM, Yes FAP
Did running start and got my associates of science in high school; and two high school diplomas (honestly this is more of a fun fact but for running start if you finish your associates degree while in high school than the college also issues you a high school diploma. I'm pretty sure you're not supposed to get two but I did (***PoSsIbLe X-FaCtOr***)
Anyway, please give it to me straight. Thanks in Advance! I believe in y'all!
Edit: Forgot to put:
GPA: 3.9 currently -> Probably will be 3.8 or 3.7 by the end of the current semester
Around 120 hrs shadowing

If they agree to recommend me, other than a draft of my personal statement, my resume, and a list of the programs I'm applying to and their due dates, what information should I provide my recommenders? Should I attach the list of the programs I'm applying to separately or just include the list maybe in a table format in the email?
Also, I have planned to let them know how many schools I'm applying to, how they'd be submitted, and when they'd be due - I'm trying to apply as early as possible, as was recommended, so I'd planned on asking for 1 recommendation to be completed by an earlier date, and the remaining 5 to be completed by a slightly later date. Is is preferred to send the full list of programs in my request, or is it okay to send it after, if they accept?

Hiii!!!! I’m about to start grooming school and thinking about how much I should ask my pay to be. I have been working with dogs my whole life mainly doing overnights, baths, nails, and shaves. I worked as a bather for 2 1/2 years at a vet for half of it and a show dog grooming salon the other half. I have great experience especially with goldens and doodles and and doing extra classes for those two specialties. I’m not expecting I can ask for much starting out but I am curious as to what would be acceptable. Also I’m located in a major Texas city so prices are decently high and salaries are kinda high. I think the median yearly is 52,000. I know it’s strange to ask this on here I’m just bad at talking to people irl about money stuff.

So I’m going into my second year and I applied for some positions in various student groups. They were hiring so I gave it a shot. Had some interviews and got some offers. Now I wanna know if anyone has some experience being part of any student group team, is it time consuming or tasking along w school work? I want to know how many offers to accept since it would be during the school year. How many would you guys advice based on experience or just your opinion.
Thanksss

Hi! This is going to be a long one/rant and story because I really don’t know who to talk to about this in real life because I’m not in therapy and I’m so embarrassed to be feeling this way knowing I made all the choices to be here and people are already flying in from out of state to come to our wedding. Also I’m diagnosed adhd incase any of yall are wondering what’s wrong with me once I tell you all the decisions I made to get here. I am getting married in three months and have a son who is 15 months old. My now fiance 28m and I 27f met whenever we were thirteen years old in middle school and started a tumultuous up and down / on and off again relationship. We were together all the way up until junior year in high school and we broke up. I come from a broken home and he does not. Looking back I realize how much of me staying with him and trying to keep his attention stemmed from my abandonment issues that I must have had from my own parents. After we broke up he joined a gang in my local hometown and I was still in love with him so I decided to still be involved with him even though I was not in a relationship with him. I ended up losing my virginity to him while we were not together just because I wanted to be with him and we said we were friends with benefits but really I was just in love with him and thought by doing that maybe he would want to be with me again but he didn’t and continued to sleep with other girls and do drugs. I also started doing drugs like Xanax and smoking to fit in with him and be cool. I ended up getting a horrible tattoo because one of the other girls he was also seeing had a bunch of tattoos. I dropped out of my high school college courses and ended up going to jail for marijuana in high school and got kicked out of cheer and softball. I ended up on probation and having to be drug tested for a year. Within that year after being heart broken and realizing nothing I did would make him change into who he was before he got involved in our local gang or make him want to be with me… I ended up enrolling in college and getting accepted to a university where I would move about two hours away from our home town to live on campus and study to be a nurse. While on probation, so I couldn’t really party or anything in college which was good (even though I was never really addicted to anything and it wouldn’t be that hard for me) I wanted to save money for a car so I ended up getting a job at the hooters next to my college and was in college full time and working at hooters. My sister happened to go to that same college before I did and live in that town with her ex bf and they would give me rides to and from work back to campus. Low and behold after about two semesters of me being in college and finally feeling like I was moving on from him, he came back messaging me and telling me he missed me and wanted to be with me again. I was stupid and so excited that I agreed and asked him to come see me at college where he would stay for the weekend and we would have an amazing time. I felt so good about myself doing what I was doing and being able to show my growth. Despite all that he was still able to convince me to leave school and come back to be with him and live with him and go to the college near our hometown and work at the hooters near our hometown. I had already felt like I didn’t want to be a nurse at the time because my sister who was a nurse told me you could never leave the state as a nurse if you get your license there (which she didn’t know at the time that you could) and I knew I didn’t want to stay where I was from and wanted to eventually travel. So I decided to leave and move back with him in his bedroom at his parents house where I would work at the hooters close to our home town and never enroll in the college. He would eventually break up with me while I was at work one day even though I was living with him and since I didn’t have a car he continued to take me back in forth from work and I continued to live with him and continued to be in love with him while he committed to the fact that he didn’t want to be in a relationship but wanted to marry me one day and just wasn’t ready for anything right now and still wanted to have sex with me which I did. From working at hooters I had auditioned for the calendar and ended up being really liked by the photographer and started doing some modeling from that which was super exciting for me because I always was interested in that and the pictures we took would blow up and I started getting well known in my area for modeling even though they were just pictures and I wasn’t making any money off of it. Eventually a guy came into hooters telling me about working as an exotic dancer and how much they could make and I still needed a car really badly and was desperate to get out of my ex’s (now fiance) house. So I told him I would be waitressing and that I heard the waitresses make good money there and asked him to give me a ride there one day and so he started giving me a ride everyday. The money was so good to me and the most money I had ever seen. I ended up staying in a hotel closer to the club I worked at and sometimes he would come stay with me and I would just uber to work. Eventually I had gotten a car which I was so happy about. A couple of weeks after I got a car I ended up getting sucked into human trafficking with a friend where I would live in a house with multiple girls for 6 months and go to work at the club every day of the week except Saturday and Sundays. I wasn’t doing anything extra just dancing but the money was going to some random guy. It’s crazy I know. I was stupid and young and my family were not concerned for me at all or involved in my life. unfortunately my friend is just now leaving that situation. I got out without anything no car or nothing and had nowhere to go so back to my exes I went where I decided I was going to buy a cash car again and I worked everyday like I was used to saved money and got a car. Moved to my sisters and stayed with her for a little where i decided I didn’t want to dance anymore and I got a job as a bottle service girl and then waitressing at another waitress. I continued modeling because it made me happy and I never told anyone the truth about the deep things that were happening in my life except for my now fiance. So nobody had no idea about me dancing or the human trafficking or anything. Everyone just knew I modeled. I ended up getting an apartment with some friends and One day I got the urge to go to California randomly and at my waitressing job I was handed $800 and I took it as a sign and booked a flight the next day. Where I went by myself my first time ever on a flight with no plans at all. The day I got there I got asked to be in a commercial two days later. My roommate and her friends flew out there to get me and she ended up being able to be in the commercial with me which ended up on tbs but I had to go back home to my apartment and responsibilities and couldn’t leave my roommate stranded. Even though months later we would end up getting in an argument and I’d move out and move back with my ex (now fiance) where I would continue to work and model (for free) and went back to the club to dance and then my sister ended up going to California for a travel nursing assignment and her and her bf broke up and she asked me to move with her. I had nothing else here, my ex was still saying he didn’t want to be in a relationship, he was consistently sleeping with other girls while we lived together and expected relationship things from me. I was paying for everything for him. I paid for him while he was in school for audio engineer, his gas, lunch, school clothes, shopping, I helped him open his own studio and bought his equipment and Mac for it, even though his parents were very involved in his life. I got all his family bday gifts and Christmas gifts every year. He was honestly just using me but I was so in love and blind. He encouraged me to go to California too so I had nothing else there for me, if he had told me to stay and he wanted to be with me I would’ve. I flew out on my 21st birthday and met my sister and Vegas where we would have such a great time and my ex spent that day hanging out with a girl that tried to fight me and didn’t even tell me happy birthday, I was crying in the bathroom in Vegas until my sister shook me and told me to get it together we’re in Vegas. I was so heart broken to be leaving him but he didn’t care. I got to LA and I instantly started modeling on day one I booked a photo shoot where I met a guy that reminded me of my ex (I know) but we instantly clicked and he was 7 years older than me. We ended up talking for a little bit and pursuing something even though I wasn’t ready emotionally but he didn’t really care and I was kind of star struck a little because he was a music producer for a very famous musician and he was very persistent but that’s another story. I ended up booking a music video as a main girl for my ex’s (now fiance) favorite artist. When it came out it was crazy because I felt like the universe and God was just blessing me for leaving that situation and I knew he would see it because he was so obsessed with that artist and it shook up the whole small town I was from. After that I booked a lot of cool jobs like Sephora and worked with a lot of companies, and did some music videos for other super famous artists, and walked in fashion shows and modeled for clothing brands etc. I was working all the time as an extra to pay my bills and I was meeting cool people. I was always getting invited to celebrities parties and just having such a fun time. I decided to start getting into acting instead and started going to acting school where a lot of well known celebrities also went to and I started having meetings with very popular directors and I was being mentored by famous directors and another person that created an tv entertainment channel that I won’t say here also mentored me a lot and got me a lot of meetings with these people and would go to dinners and stuff etc with a list celebrities. I truly was living the life. And coming from where I can it was almost a dream. I had gotten in a relationship my first year there with that other guy I mentioned who ended up being super possessive of me but he treated me like a queen in the sense of paying for everything, giving me a safe space to tell my feelings, open up, the sex was amazing, he would take me on trips, took me out of the country for the first time. We ended up not working out due to lifestyle differences and just being at two different places and wanting different things. He wanted to move out of the country and have a farm and I wasn’t ready to do that as I wanted to focus on my career. (But I would die to move out of the country on a farm now ironically and he is doing just that now like he said he would haha) anyway, I ended up having my own studio apartment by myself that I loved so much and was so proud of. My sister had moved to Montana and it took a lot for me to get my apartment like staying in a house with other girls for a little to sleeping in my car and at a spa for a couple days. When I would fly home or drive home to see my family I would always see my ex, everytime. We kept a friendship and sometimes I would still help him out if needed, he was interning at a church through his school for audio engineering and recording people at his studio in our hometown. By this time I was going to New York and Miami also sometimes and doing work there. I wasn’t as stressed about bills anymore. I was seeing guys every now and then but not at all interested in a relationship, my heart was still healing from the past and both my exes but mainly my first (now fiance). I was super focused on my career and optimistic, I was used to the grind and in no way ever thinking of quitting. It just wasn’t an option because I knew I would make it wherever that would be because to me that is all I had for me and all I ever knew I wanted and the only thing that saved me. Skip to around October 2019 I had found out about a girl my ex was seeing and it crushed me. He was doing with her just like he was with me though. Just “friends with benefits” I was living in my apartment in LA still and my uncle that helped raise me was getting really sick back home and put on hospice so I decided to take a trip back to see him. I would go to restaurants in my state and near my home town and people would ask to take pictures with me, and at the little ceasars drive through someone asked if I was me and stuff it was crazy because I hadn’t been home in awhile and I felt like what I was doing was finally paying off and people were recognizing me. It was surreal. I ended up going to see my ex. I had such a fear of losing him to this other girl for some reason. I was so scared he would get her pregnant or get in a serious relationship since I was gone so far away and I would never be with him, I would end up sleeping with him again and the girl found out and drove by his house mad and cussing me out and throwing stuff at me. We ended up getting in a fight which is so embarrassing and beneath me. I ended up crying to him that I wanted to be with him and don’t know why he never wanted to be with me which at this time he honestly was not even in my playing field anymore. He told me if I wanted to be with him I had to move back to my hometown.. my heart dropped to my stomach and I knew it wasn’t what I was supposed to do but I said okay… all because this is what I had wanted all those years. I decided to stay where the next two years all I would think about everyday was I was making the wrong decision and needed to go back to my life. My hometown had nothing for me.. COVID hit a couple months after me being there and we were terrified. We ended up getting everything out of my apartment and moving into a house around the corner from his parents. I had to tell him how I liked to communicate now without yelling and stuff which I learned from the boyfriend I had in LA and that I wasn’t going to put up with that disrespect but he never listened. Eventually everything went back to normal. I ended up going back to the club again dancing because I didn’t want to go backward and model here. He never wanted me to go back to LA even for a little bit even though that’s where my career and heart was so I had no idea what to do with my life. I started waitressing as well and getting back on my adhd meds. People started pressuring us to get pregnant and we tried for a year and 6 months. The month I found out I was pregnant before I knew, I quit my job and decided I was going to move back and get my life back. Two days later I found out I was pregnant…. Finally after trying for over a year. Our relationship was toxic just like the past he always yelled, I could never talk to him about my feelings without him saying I was trying to fight, he spit in my face once, threatened me, put his hands on me, he would tell me he was going to take my baby away from me as soon as I had it. I started asking him about getting married while I was pregnant and the proposal wasn’t even that. He got mad at me for asking one day and walked in the room and handed me the ring. It didn’t fit because I was pregnant & it was $27 (not that that matters but the proposal sucked).. he drained both my bank accounts and they closed it, charged my credit card up and put me in debt, he has not let me do anything I want to do like school or anything. He is so bad with money. He has an action figure addiction and at one point was spending 3k on action figures every month and turned one of the rooms in our house into a collection room so I had to take everything out of my closet and put my sons crib in there for the first year of his life. we have good times and I feel comfortable with him. He knows everything about me but he doesn’t respect me and sometimes I feel like he is intimidated by me. The sex isn’t good at all we always just ask “do you want to have sex” he never gives oral or foreplay, I never get pleasure. He’s an amazing dad though and loves his son. We have the most sweet and beautiful little boy now who I love so much and he loves him also. He’s very attentive to his son. But I still feel unheard. I can’t talk about my feelings. If I do it doesn’t matter, it doesn’t change anything. He is so defensive and we never communicate for a solution it’s always just pointing fingers. I have started yelling again because I’m so used to it now and I hate it because I grew up like that and I finally grew out of it until I got back with him and recently started again and now he throws it in my face and knows I begged him not to do it forever but he never stopped and now I am too. I’ve asked him to take me to the movies and he hasn’t still. I just ask for more romance and stuff but it just feels like I have a roommate. I have nothing now. I had my car and we traded it in for a new car that he wanted. I always dreamed of the next car I’d get once I paid it off but he got it & it’s in his name now so I paid it off for nothing. I’m driving around his dream car. I’ve been planning our wedding since I birthed our son and everything is going good. Money is tight. He works at the church now full time and makes about 45k a year or so, my son has been waiting to start daycare for awhile so I have been home with him. I’ve tried starting jobs multiple times but he is against it unless it’s super fast money like going to the club which I am so repulsed by and absolutely hate it now. I tried going back to college but my old college won’t release my transcripts for fasfa because I owe them money. I started cosmetology school a few months ago which he was all for but two months in freaked out and him and his mom guilt tripped me that we can’t handle this right now and he was having a hard time doing the night time routine for the baby while I was at school so I had to leave and now owe that’s school for my kit unless I enroll again in 128 days. I also miss modeling so much and sometimes think I can start again but it’s been five years. My body is so different too after a baby. Everything I want is a no go. Especially moving out of our hometown. He says he wants to but I don’t think he does. We are constantly at his moms and dads and they tell us all the time we aren’t moving anywhere which is really hard for me as this place is super toxic for my soul. Anytime I get money he spends it. Anytime I save money he spends it. Even if it does go towards our bills. His action figure habit is almost nonexistent now and he has grown a lot in the past few months from that since I demanded my son have his own bedroom after his first bday and all his figures are in boxes now and told him he could turn the shed into his man cave. He says we can’t save because we have nothing to save after bills but I believe in saving anything even $5 a paycheck. It’s doable. I grew up poor so this is nothing to me but after living the lifestyle I lived in LA and going out with guys that respected me and cherished me it’s hard. I know nobody is perfect but we are about to get married and I’m scared… I have nothing though anymore. I’ve threatened to leave a couple times and he says he will take me to court and take my baby. I’m scared he might. I don’t want my son to be angry like him or not respect women how he does. In public he’s a saint. He also has a very supportive family that it’s almost toxic. They all blame me for his anger issues and say I make him that way. But he’s been punching walls since I met him in 8th grade. I know it’s not because of me. But I have nobody else and nowhere else to go. No money. No car. I’m at the bottom again where I was before. Only difference is now I have a son. And we are getting married in three months and I can’t call it off. I am older now and looking back on my life I realize he maybe truly never loved me and I was just so desperate for love. I got myself here nobody else. I accepted everything, even when my gut told me not to. ( he is not just horrible, he’s a great person just with some bad qualities like everyone but I’m tired of feeling stuck with someone that never truly wanted me and doesn’t care to grow in some ways or show me )
Please help.. what do I do?

Hey guys I'm working on a Next / React project in school for a Ethereum development class.
My app is pretty scuffed and would never have this in production but one thing I'm doing is a page where only the admin can upload new items, part of this includes uploading an image to an S3 bucket.
I have an endpoint with AWS secrets that I needs to only accept requests from the admin.
I am using the react MetaMask SDK and have got the frontend working (can log in and out and send transactions ).
What I want to know is:
Since the admin is just one metamask wallet and I know the private key, can I somehow use the private key (on my backend) to verify the requests from the frontend to be tell if it's coming from the admin?
first thought was to just include the admin's wallet address in the body but obviously anyone could just forge requests with this.
Thanks guys