Baap aur beti

PLS HELP! So basically mene bhara hai DU and subjects i opted for were: Eng, Maths, BST, Economics, I.P. and GT
DU mei bhi BCOM tha if i rem correctly... Center inn NTA bkl ne dia hai 66kms dur aur mera baap yaha narcissist harkatein kar rha hai... toh meko akele bhejega (pahele kabhi bahar jane nahi dia ab akele bhejega)
So can i still get BCOM in DU if i dont give GT and just give
ENG, BST, ECON AND IP?
pls madad kardo.

Hi guys, I’m from Delhi (21m).I cleared foundation in may 22(self study,first attempt) and appeared for CA inter group 1 in may23(got 57 in accounts). But phir ek mentally unstable girlfriend milgyi glti se jisne life ki watt lagadi. Bhai ab tk trauma ata h us ldki ka hrdin ki tune mujhe chora toh sucide krdungi ya apne haath ki nas kaat lungi ya mera baap tujhe maardega mere marne k baad . May23 se may24 agya aur Maine Abhi tk exam dobara nhi diya kisi bhi group ka. But right now I’m thinking of giving exam of g1(new scheme) in sept24 but kuch samjh ni ata ki du ya na du . Is it possible for me to do CA inter g1 in the next 3 months. Accounts and law are the subjects that are within my reach but I don’t know about taxation. Toh kya 3 months sufficient h taxation cover krne k liye aur g1 k exam dene k liye. Ab toh sala guilt feel hota h ki kyu ek saal barbaad krliya poora us ldki k chakkr Mai. Ideal scenario for clearing CA BHI ab at the age of 25-26 h jo pta ni kyu bahut jada lgra h . It feels like Mai baaki bachon se bahut pechen rehgya hu aur ek discarded child bngya hu apni family ka. No one forces me to earn because my brother is a well earning individual but I don’t getting motivation aur satisfaction that I will clear or not. Please help me!!!!
Also should I go for self study or take coaching from my previous tutor(inter wala) because I’m very lazy and procrastinate if left alone at home without any friend circle.
SORRY FOR MY BAD GRAMMAR ek dost ya bade bhai ya ek mentor ke naate hi kuch bata do toh bahut bhala hojayega🙏

So imma final year CS student, aur bhai mere job nahi lagi hai, par bhai kuch karne kaa jonoon hai, maa baap ko kush karna hai aur apna future bhi banana hai, so pls guid me...
Background : from tier 2 private cllg, know programming well, (typically mern stack ka 14 aur 200+ leetcode wala ) mere ek baar toc mei acche aye the to subject thoda acha lagta hai mujhe 🙂 ab yaad nahi kuch, maths to ghatna yaad hai mujhe shuru se padha hai sab kuch ( 12th ke bhi thode concepts revise karne honge), aur baki sab subjecta ka bhi same haal hai DSA ko chhod kar bas programming aati hai muze
1) How and where to start 2) What are some good resources 3) What best in your opinion ( offline/online) 4) What are good online classes in you opinion or experience ?
TLDR : launde ne bass backhodi ki hai cllg mei GATE ke liye guidance maang raha hai

Hi so this is my first reddit post. i have been lurking on this sub since jan but never had the himmat to actually make an account coz i know my parents wouldve killed me. but whats even the point now, i wanna die anyway.
i have always loved writing. my half written novel of class 10th still haunts me. in 10th i got 98.4 so obvio parents put in fiitjee (wahi unchi dukan feeke pakwan). humari badi beti ka 'potential' waste kaise hone de sakte hain? aise kaise usse bina trauma ka bachpan de?
in 11th, became the head girl of my school. so padhai zyada nahi hui but i still managed to cover lil. in 12th, cut ties with my friends, teachers and basically removed everything else from my life. but kahan hota hai bhai? dheere dheere, scored 92.2 in jan. got depressed. fir cbse diya. fir april attempt mein 94.6 aaye. so yeah was pretty heartbroken.
now i started jee advance coz parental pressure of iit. but i know ill never get in. aaj cbse aaya and they werent even happy. they were just like meh, okay. i got 93.2. coz my mom is sad that i got a FUCKING 89 in computer science. and she starting ranting about how i had a whole fucking month. baaki mein
Eng-92
CS-89
PCM- 95 each
and what happened this evening that i accidently lost 50 ruppess while fetching milk. so my dad, who found nothing else to yell at me about, starts yelling at me. he starts insulting me on another level and about how much i let him down in front of everyone in the society. aur maine unki naak katwadi with that terrible result in boards. i break down crying. he leaves. and i want to die. i wanna suicide so bad. i wanna move out of delhi. anywhere i beg. anywhere. bits is the last hope that keeps me floating. orelse i die. and then they demand "get a delhi college. placements are good." yes dad placements are good, but you are not. FUCK YOU MOM DAD.
TLDR: previously academically gifted kid breaking down

Bachpan se hoshiyar tha....aur schizophrenic bhi tha (last year diagnose hua ye wala) Baap jabardasti NEET ke peeche pada hai Maine 2 saal khoob mehnat Kari but didn't worked out well pata nhi 360 se upar jaate hi nhi the (I had trouble remembering things normally...sab ulta pulta yaad hota tha, questions solve nhi hote the bcz of those imaginary chatters and destructive criticism from those voices) aur baap peechhe pada rha....abhi NEET 2024 diya....BAMS la sakta hu kya karu le loon? Ya admission leke college me hi phir se taiyari karu?(Ye mere baap ka plan hai) Tbh Mai thak chuka hu ye sab nautanki se.....BAMS me kuchh dhang ka scope hai kya? Otherwise majboori hai MBBS karne ki jise Mai ab lagan se to nhi karna chahta.... Please give your honest suggestions (Haan gareeb hoon private nhi afford kar paaunga....online coaching Li thi last year to wo bhi nhi li....partial tests me 540 ke around aate Hain aur full me max 478 gya tha.... Haan badtameez hoon kyuki apne baap ke behaviour se tang aa chuka hu...nhi wo alcoholic nhi hai) Yahan pe repost kar rha hu indianmedschool walo ne ban kar diya Aur haa agar doctors wali koi subreddit ho to bata do waha poonch loonga

So aaj boards ka result aaya and guess what my stupid ass scored 78.8 percentage (with highest in biology 82 like wtf jabki mein jee ki so called prep kar raha hu
kal pw ka jo short test diya tha us mein 96/96 aaye 10 baje result aaya maa baap full khush ki chalo thoda sa hi sahi par comeback to ho raha hai (not judging my test but they judged my seriousness)
fir madarchod result aa gaya aur papa thoda gussa ho gaye even told me a waste ( I am not blaming my father and pliz don't type you don't deserve him and all those bullshit bro just stfu and don't judge my family from this single line and my perspective)
par fir jab shaam ko thoda eavesdrop kara to suna ki papa bole ki chicken le aaye kya but my mom denied it saying ki aaj somvaar hai (my family are all shivbhakts and they say i was blessed with three marks on my forehead full badassery)
Physics : 26 question diye the 17 ho gaye baaki nahi bane even tho fight pura kiya
Chemistry : Bawaal chiz padhi be Fe0.93O wali chiz majaa aagaya hands down the best class
Maths : jaisa chal raha hai aur haa sir ne aaj se quad eqn start kara
aaj bhot kam self study hui aur raat ko jagkar apne notes + maths ke hw attempt karunga

its gonna be a long trauma dump.
im 19f, appeared in 12th this year, this would be my first drop. vaise to iss sun pe lurker rehti thi, aaj laga maybe kuch bol hi du to atleast relief rahega kisko dhang se bataya to. vaise to life meri bekar nhi hai overall dekha jaye to. yaha pe logo ka padho bc achhi lagne lagti hai life, and phir agle din vahi rr.
i was five almost, jb mere nana ne pehli baar mujhe touch kiya tha. mummy papa ka office rehta tha and bhaiya ka school to akele chhodne ki jagah nana ko bula lete the vo log ki mera dhyaan rakhe. achha dhyan rakhe the (apna lolzzz). now that i think about the movements and the way he'd shake afterwards, pyare nanaji was most probably cumming in his dhoti holding his five year old granddaughter on his thigh. (i mean, ladke shayad better jaane, kabhi kisi se detail mein puchha nhi iss baare mein. after it had got some action and y'all are ejaculating, do you guys like, freeze for a bit a breathe hard? agar nhi to im sorry for the wrong allegations). anyways that happened for a while. uske baad ka mujhe kuch yaad nhi. tbh ye bhi nhi yaad tha, until 3-4 saal pehle jb i read a similar scene in a book and ye yaad aaya phir shock mein chali gayi. had two beautiful frnds jinko bataya iss baare mein and they tried to help me out as best as they could. andar se ye bhi lagta tha ki mummy ko kabhi pata bhi chala to nahi manengi, isiliye parents se thoda grudge rehta tha and ladti jhagadati rehti thi.
fast forward to present, mai apne best friend ke saath relationship mein aa gayi and slowly but surely, he made a great impact on my relationship with my family. like uski uske parents ke saath achhe relations hain and ladka bhi sahi hai (haa pyar krti hu usse, mar jaungi ek din) to convince kr liya mujhe ki mere parents bhi pasand krte hain mujhe. and tb se mere relations meri family ke saath significantly improve hue. i even started to trust them.
to kya hai na, mummy and nana ki jamti nhi hai (he's neither a good husband nor a good father), isiliye mummy unse baat nhi krti. ek din recently mummy unhi ke baare mein upset thi and maine mummy se bol diya ki "uss aadmi se to mujhe nafrat hai. royi hu bestfriend ko batate hue" and mummy was like mujhe batao but mana kar di ki abhi nhi.
agle din she came to me and said ki unhe raat mein neend nhi aa rahi thi ye sochte hue ki aisa unhone kya kar diya ki I don't trust her but trust my frnds? phir bohot bolne pe mai unhe puri baat bata di (utni detail mein nhi obviously) and she was very supportive. boli ki "maa baap important hote hain par bachcho se zyada nhi. mai to vaise bhi unhe ghar na bulati but ab to sawal hi nhi uthata. shakal nhi dekhungi unki". and mai apne room mein aake rone lagi ki maine apni maa ko galat samjha ki vo mujhpe yakeen nhi karengi.
then agle din, i think jb mai ghar pe nhi thi tb mummy bhaiya ko ye baat batayi and he told her abt how once i confessed to him i was a lesbian (bisexual boli thi but lauda hai), and pata nhi kaise, mummy ko convince kr doya ki im making this whole story up for sympathy and to seem cool.
mummy aayi and mujhse boli ki "tum jo batayi ho, vo sach mein hua hai ya jo tum ghatiya books padhti ho, uski vajah se dimag mein baitha li ho ki mere saath bhi kuch galat hua hai?" and phir asked me abt that lesbian wala and told me ki inhi sab vajah se my face has lost its innocence and mai kuch nahi kar paayi hu. kaise i didn't deserve the marks i got in boards and sabka entrance exam tha but sab ek event mein aa rahe the but tumne kuch padha nhi tha isiliye nhi aayi (true but jisko neet dena hota vo aise bhi na aata). and how she feels ashamed and unsafe to go out with me varna i would wander off with "bhaiya log". that other girls of my age look smart and innocent and good even of they're fat. and gori ladkiyo ka chehra nhi pink hai, but you have yellowish tone and you never look smart, tumhare andar vo cheez hi nhi. she ended her speech with, "tumhari vajah se maine apne baap ko galat samjha. agar tum jhoote ilzam laga rahi ho to uska anjam dikhega." and then very lightly said, as if she didn't believe it, "aur agar mere baap ne kuch kiya hoga to bhagwan batayenge."
since that day, i haven't been able to look at my family the same way. the love, trust and respect i had for them seems gone. uss din ke baad mummy achhe se baa ki but bhul nhi paa rahi unn words ko. isse pehle bhi aisa bohot kuch boli hain vo jo bura laga tha but ye Dil tod diya. i can't believe my first heartbreak is from my mother itself.
isse pehle bhi she'd questioned my character. mai maanti hu, mai chutiye bachchi thi. nhi samjhti thi kuch. school bus mein achhe bhaiya log mile the to sabko achha samajhti thi and apne age ke logo se ghul mil nhi paati thi. isiliye almost got tricked by a senior jo uss time 11th mein the (i was in 6th, koi dost nhi tha to attention ki bhukhi rehti thi). uske liye mummy branded me as "characterless". I WAS IN SIXTH, NHI PATA THA MUJHE KUCH. phir ek baar humlog kahi gaye the and mummy dusri seat pe chali gayi mujhko leke jbki meri dost pichhe ki seat pe thi. i tried going to her to uss time to mummy bas gusse se dekhi but ghar aake boli ki how im such a bad daughter, achhe ghaf ki ladkiya sirf apne mummy papa ke paas rehti hain but tumko to matakna rehta hai. tumhare jaisi ladkiyo ko characterless rehte hain, kisi ki nhi hoti hain. (this was in class 9th).
ho sakta hai mai apna side leke dekh rahi hu isiliye mai khud ko sahi samajh rahi. but galti kya ki maine ye to koi achhe se explain karo???
recent ye nana wala batane ke baad to bas yahi manati hu roz bhagwan se ki maar daale mujhe. sach nata rahi, jb dekhega na koi sirf meri mummy papa aur bhaiya ko saath mein, to itne perfect lagte hain. and mai manhoos ki yarah aa jaati hu beech mein. (mumma thinks ki mera chehra normal rehne pe mahoos lagta hai, i should be smiling har samay varna apni life barbaad ke dungi aisi shakal bana ke).
marne ka ya relapse krne ka (i used to self harm) roz mann krta hai, but apni best friend aur apne bf ke baare mein sochke ruk jaati hu. sach mein doni pagal pyaar krte hain mujhse. bestfriend ki life already laudi ho rakhi hai, aur nhi pareshan krna, bf ki life mein pehle hi bohot trauma the, ab badhane ka mann nhi. i promised him I'd helo him heal.
ab 15 aur 16 ko cuet hai but padha nhi hai kuch and pata nhi kaise niklega. nikalka bhi zaruri hai varna home life aur fucked up ho jaayegi plus ghar se niklungi to insabme dimag nhi lagega.
samajh nhi aa raha kaise padhu ab, aakhiri din bacha hai, sab kuch padha hai but revise krna hai. idk bhai, higheay sach mein sundar lagne laga hai (srsly)

Before you read this, I will not take a drop, i do not have the energy to go through all of it again, so do not suggest that Boards mai aggregate 75.4 aaya hai but pcm is 71.3, 11 marks less for 225/300 (75%), i will fill the re-evaluation thing when it releases but I do not see any point of doing it JEE mains mai i got 88.3 percentile, from state quota im getting only one good govt college but it is in my city and i do not want to stay in my city for college (im sick of my house) (indore, madhya pradesh), im probably getting private colleges but ye result dekhne ke baad itna guilt ho raha hai ki im not even sure what to do, aisa lag raha hai ki baap ka paisa sirf waste hi kiya hai ab tak, saare dosto ko 90% ke upar aa rahe hai, mai na to JEE ki padhai ka raha na to school ka, sirf idhar udhar bhatakta reh gaya aur samay chala gaya, i do not stand anywhere, please tell me what to do.

comrades assemble here..physics aur maths ka jo pass hone ka darr tha wo ja chuka hai and I am really grateful for that.. chemistry me expected se bhi kam hai and I was thinking for reevaluation wo bhi ma baap ke kehne par otherwise jitne hai utne bohot mere liye..ghar me tagdi disappointment chal rahi..ab na kisi ka phone uthana hai na irl batana..(pass hogaye lessgooo)

(Disclaimer: Long post ahead, but trust me, it can change your perspective)
Here is a brief intro about me. I am a 17 year old guy. Exploring life you see. Let us come to the point now. After a little explorations, i came to a few conclusions, and would love to share them here!!
Who are we? Teenagers? Right? lol. Why did i lol on this fact? The fact that majority of our parents want us to behave like adults but treat us like kids is what i am talking about. Nothing wrong with that. After all ham unke bacche hi to hain(Afterall, we are their kids). There are so many types of parents, each with good and bad conditioning. Some are supportive, some are not, and some are abusive(utter fools) but it is what it is!
yaar, one thing, hamaare maa baap hame nahi samajhte, aur isme unki galti hai, aur haan, nahi bhi hai (Our parents do not understand us, and yes, it's simultaneously their fault and not)
How is that? Let us understand that.
Case 1: Parents point of view Yaar, let us go back to the 1970s, the era our parents took birth. Since our parents birth, it was only 30 years India got its independence. After independence India had to start over again. From scratch. The thing is, we need to understand that our parents and grandparents had very very limited access to information. Look at yourself, how quickly we call our friends/relatives when we want to talk to them.
Their time, they used to wait in a line to get to the STD booth and call their parents, and the time was limited too, and today? unlimited. 3-4 ghante beet jaate hain baat karte karte, and we can still proceed if we want to.
The thing is, as i mentioned, Independent India + extreme poverty + Weak economy + no money, these factors, our parents and grandparents always used to tackle! Think about it! Imagine it. Visualize as if you are in their era and experiencing this!!. Do you now realize how hard it might've been! Our parents and grandparents struggled to get the basic amenities of life!
Food, water, house and education, they struggled to get these! and hence their mind is conditioned in such a way where having only these in life will ensure a good successful life. Are they wrong? I think no! They are not, regarding this aspect. But their definition of the process of achieving these is wrong.
And i think we cannot blame them for this. They belong to the times where they had only engineering/Medical/law/teacher as the only career prospects, and as mentioned before, they needed money as India back then was very weak economically! and since medical and engineering paid a good amount of money, man ran in the rat race of a seat in engineering college!.
Lesson 1:A HUMAN BEING'S MENTALITY IS NOTHING BUT A PROCREATION OF THE ENVIRONMENT HE/SHE GREW UP IN.
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Case 2: How are they wrong? "LOOK AT HIM/HER, WHY CANNOT YOU SCORE LIKE THEM?" "MENTAL HEALTH? WHAT'S THAT? THERE IS NOTHING AS SUCH" "ENGINEERING/MEDICAL/GOVT JOB CAN ONLY GIVE YOU A COMFORTABLE LIFE"
Classic desi parents ke taane(Classic desi parents taunts), kidney se lekar dil tak chubti hai yaar. I mean, yes, I get it. I have also faced these and face these everyday too. Now now now, are they wrong here? Yes they are! This is the aspect where they are wrong. A LARGE NUMBER OF OUR PARENTS HAVE FAILED TO ADAPT TO THE GLOBALIZATION!. Our parents, atleast a large number of them, will believe in kaal jaadu but not a visit to psychiatrist. It's a shame that we still do not have proper awareness about mental health in India. But you know, the country is presently run by people from genX who had no access to these amenities like mental health support, as discussed in case 1.
Today, literally anything can be made into a career, just a right approach is needed. But the indian society is so close minded, there is no exposure to things. Did you guys know that there are 12650 career opportunities from which we Indians follow only 7-8? Lack of exposure.
Lesson 2: DEEP ROOTED MENTALITIES, OFTEN DO NOT CHANGE WITH TIME.
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Case 3: What can we do?
First of all, thank you so much if you have come till here reading my post 💙 So, ham kya kar sakte hain? We as gen z, what change can we bring?
1) We need to realize that we are the first generation to have started our life with all the basic amenities of life. Food✅Water✅Education✅home✅laptops✅phones. Our parents, they themselves struggled to get these things, and when you go to them complaining "STRESS HO RAHA, OMG KYA KAROON" they will think that you are just being ungrateful to them, as they think that only physical amenities are enough for a comfortable life. They are wrong here, as mental amenities are also as important as physical ones!
2) Instead of expecting them to understand us, we will be better off by respecting all they did for us, as much as they could, at their level best. "MUMMY PAAPA MERA MENTAL HEALTH NAHI SAMJHENGE(MY MOM DAD WONT UEDRSTAND MY MENTAL HEALTH), They won't. atleast majority of them won't and it is better to stop trying to. They have their own majbooriyan (compulsions)
3) We can break this chain! trust me! by being better parents! We too will get married someday and have kids, and let us provide all of the things like all the physical amenities + THE MENTAL AMENITIES!
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Our parents did everything they could for us, and yes they are wrong in many places, after all they are not gods, but humans!. Like us! They have different perspectives towards life, all we can do is listen to their words, anticipate them, take in what's required and leave which do not align with our interests. And we will take a vow today that the next generation (hamaare bacche) will lead happy lives. I might be wrong but i heard that Gen Z is the most depressed generation(We lack a purpose) and god damn it, our purpose is to make india a happy country again! Make india a place where children can have the autonomy to choose what they want to and encourage them in the right limits and in the right way!
Thank you

So i basically wanted to ask tum logo main se kise ke parents ne kuch vaade kare hain kya agar etne % aa gaye toh yeh milega agar etne toh yeh
Pta nhi I just recently saw one of my friend got a personal car(hatchback )for getting 92%ile in mains ( ek toh uska gawar 2 nambari baap voh %ile ko % samjhta hain aur uske friend circle main uske highest %ile hain )
Abb pta nhi mujhe aisa lag rha mujhe bhe kuch decide kar lena chaye tha 12th se phale ke agar 90% aa gaye toh yeh dila Dena ( I am expecting between 90-95%)

Main jab chhoti thi tab meri dad mujhe ladkon ke kapde pehnati thi. Unko grandson chahiye tha par nahi mil Raha tha. Pehle main paida ho gayi. Phir mere uncle ko bhi beti hui, phir meri bua ko bhi beti hui. Par meri dad ko chahiye tha grandson toh woh mujhe hi bachpan se ladkon ke tarah kapde pehnate the, bal bhi cut karvate the. Almost nine years tak meri dadi ne mujhe ek ladke ki tarah hi rakha.
Jab main nine years ki ho gayi toh ek baar mujhe mere dadi barbar ke paas le jane wale the tab mere dadaji ne unko rok liya aur kaha ki, woh ladki hai, usko ladke ki tarah rakhna bandh karo. Uske bal nahi kutvana hai ab se. My brother was there but she still wanted to continue to keep me like a boy, I didn't like it, I didn't like having short hair and being dressed up like a boy, I just never said that to her.
My grandfather firmly said, no to her. She was upset about it. On the other hand I was very happy that I would get to grow my hair long and wear frocks and dresses.
I love my long hair. I like wearing dresses and looking feminine. I also learned how to do make up in 2023. I love doing make up and looking presentable.
If you wanted a son and got a daughter or got a son and feel like having daughter too but don't have the one you wanted then just let that child be the way they are. Don't try to make them something they are not. Just let them be who they are.
I hope these things will not happen in the future and parents/grandparents will understand and let their child being who they are.

I have never commented on any post and this is my first account on reddit i was just a lurker on this sub , but for this incident i had to post this here .
People today i lost my friend , he suci*ded yesterday night , and the thing is he wrote on his note that he couldn't clear the cut off but i really dont believe that. .. nhi ho rhi english mc
just 1 din pehle vo apne dost ke birthday celebrate karne gaya tha ekdum khushmizaz insaan cricket bhi khelna aaya tha , samajh nhi aa rha kya he and happy extroverted insaan tha.
vo hamare sath padhta tha and hum panch log hi sirf padhte the eksath ek bhaiya se jee ke liye and usme mera milake aur 2 logon ka ho gaya but uska nhi hua cut off clear uske liye humko bura laga but vo chill tha kyunki usko pta tha usne mehnat nhi ki thi. and just ek hafte pehle vo bol rha tha ki bitsat dunga nhi hua to drop le lunga , vo apne ma baap ka iklota beta tha . Aj subah call aaya ki vo ab nhi he kabhi sapne main bhi nhi socha tha jo banda mujhe sambhalta tha aur kisiko sad nhi hone deta tha usne aisa kiya . Kuch samajh nhi aa rha uske ghar jaane ki bhi himmat nhi ho rhi ki maine usse jyada baat kyun nhi kiya agar itna embarrasment nhi hota to shayed ye nhi hota .
Why this happens god what have we done to deserve this ?..........
saala ab mereme itna hate he na i don't think i will ever like this country never ever , fuck everything let the world burn I don't fucking care fuck fuck fuck
ye likhte hue bhi hath kanp rhe he agar kuch mistakes ho to maaf kar dena.
TO him I'M SORRY FOR NOT REACHING OUT I'M SORRY

Bhaiyo aur behno wo d4 d5 wale ka jawab kya hoga? Pls bta do idhar maa baap mental harass kar rhe hain. Mere 599 ban rhe hain, 3-4 questions mai controversy hai pls iska hi bta do

aaj nibha (meri masi ki beti) ne poocha, didi wo purana ghar kaisa tha...apne kaam me vyast maine bina kuch soche smjhe pooch liya ''konsa purana ghar''
nibha: aree whi ghr jiski baithkr aap, mama, tanmay bhaiya, ansh bhaiya, aashi didi baat krte the.....
uss samay, mai bhool gyi apne saare kaam ke baare me aur maano samay yatra krke 2014 ki garmiyo ki chutti me pahuch gyi.......nani ke ghr ki gali me pahuchte hi, mann me bada kathin aur gambhir sawal aa jaata tha.....ki ghr me mukhya darwaze se andar jaau ya fir bade nana ji ki baithak wale ya fir chawk wale ya fir gaaye (cow) ke kamre wale darwaze se..........uss 8 saal ki saumya ke chote se dimag me itni badi samasya........toh socha chawk wale darwaze se andar jaakr sbko aashcharyachakit kr deti hu......ghar me pravesh krte hi sbko namaste bolne ke baad......mama ko dhoondne ka karyakram shuru ho jaata tha.......mama ko itne saare kamro me se dhoondna koi aam baat thodi naa hoti hai......fir mama ke saath computer pr games khelna.....aur sbse kathin kaam aansh aashi ki rah dekhna, unka intezaar krna,,, maano bichde hue premi ka intezaar krna.....roz raat ko khaana khaate hi, mai aur mama teeno baccho ko neeche chorr kr chatt pr bhaag jaate the aur to aur chatt ke darwaze ko band kr dete the......kyuki uss darwaze ko kholna koi aasaan karya nhi hai.....ye teeno uss darwaze ko neeche se pakad pr kheechte the.......aur hum dono upar khade hokar jaal me se inhe dekhkr bohot hasa krte the.......pr ye hasi zyada der tk nhi chlti thi iss hasi ke baad hume daat bhi khaani pdti thi.....fir raat ko sone ke liye sbki khaat (foldings) bichana aur unn khaato pr chaddar aur takiye bichane ka kaam mera aur mama ka tha...aur aashi ka kaam tha nani ke saath sone ke liye ladne ka, nahi nahi usko nani se zyada pyaar nhi tha, nani raat ko haath wala pankha istemal krti thi.....raat ko nana ji ke so jaane ke baad hum sb anushka didi aur unke bua ke baccho se hasi mzak krte the, anushka didi ka ghr humare ghr ke saamne wala hi tha......fir jaise hi nana ji ki aankh khulti toh hume aur daat khaani pdti,,,,,yhi sb krte krte subah 5 bje chatt pr macchar aa jaate the......jaise taise adhuri neend se uthkr park jaane ke liye tyaar hote the hum sb.....pr us adhuri neend me bhi kbhi thakaan mehsoos nhi hui........park se aate hue ganne ke rass peena,,,, aur ghr aakr nashta krte hi chinki masi ke bistar pr so jaana, aaj jha poore bistar pr akele aaram nhi milta uss samay ek single bed pr hum 5 bacche bohot shaanti se so jaaya krte the.....aur chinki masi, wo bechari kursi pr baith kr soti thi.....sach me....bohot pyaara tha purana ghr.....holiday homework ke naam pr sirf aur sirf baatein krna........nahane ke liye bathroom nhi chawki ka istemaal krte the hum bacche.....poora samay handpump pr latke rhna.....storeroom me chipkali se bachte bachate sabun nikaal kr laana.......jhaadu se phle seediyo pr saare joote chappal kone me lgana.....ladai ho jaane pr sb baccho ko alag alag kamro me bitha diya jaata tha.......porra din chutki masi aur divya masi ka wait krna......dophhar me sone ki jagah cartoon dekhna......purane ghr jaisa koi ghr dobara nhi bn skta.......inhi sb vicharo me khoyi thi ki tbhi nibha ne yaad dilaya ki aap apna kuch zaroori kaam kr rhi thi!!!!!

Yesterday, while at college to submit my last sem pending assignments, I experienced a moment that left a lasting impact. As my teacher was in a meeting and asked me to wait for an hour, I took a walk to a nearby tapri and lit a cigarette. Surrounded by college students, I found myself seated near a Swiggy delivery guy.
Our eyes met, and unexpectedly, he opened up to me, his story filled with heartache. He began by saying, "Bhai zindagi mai padhai jarur karna aur bhot padhai karna. Padhai ke bina kuch nahi hai. Mai roj rota hu bhai. 700 rs kamata hu din ke. 500 ghar deta hu 200 ka petrol dalwata hu. Bete ko english medium mai padhara hu jisse aage chalke ye na kehde ki baap ne mere liye kuch nhi kra. Pure din bas ek 30 rs ki biryani ki plate mai rehta hu bhai. 10 rs kharchne ke lie bhi sochna padta hai. Yeh cigarette mere dost ne dillayi mujhe. Subah 6 bje rote hue nikalta hu aur 11 bje rote hue ghusta hu. Sote waqt bas yeh maangta hu ki moksh miljaaye. Agar maa baap saath hote toh shayad asa na hota n aaj. Choti umar mai gundagardi kari. Nahi maani kisi ki baat, ab toh bas marjaau toh badhia. Bas bhai bura mat banna lekin bhot padhna. Jeb mai paise ho jab apne kamaye hue jitne nashe chaho karna. Bas bhot padhna. Maa baap ke lie padhna. Apne is bade bhai ko yaad rakhte hue."Ordering chai for us both, I offered him a small gesture of comfort.
This encounter amplified my sense of responsibility and compassion. It was a powerful reminder of the challenges many face and the importance of striving for a better future, not only for ourselves but for the well-being of those around us.This touching encounter illustrates the profound effect that one person's story can have on another, and how empathy can deepen our understanding of life's complexities.

If nalla couple is focusing on meher so what's wrong in this? Atleast kuch initiative to le rahe hain. Meher must be happy ye sab attention se. Kuch din mein maudaha wapas chali hi jayegi atleast kuch achchi memories le kar jayegi. Reddit pe discuss hua to uska kuch benefit to mila aur naja aur beti uske sath galat kar hi rahe hain already she's fed up of naja in recent Shoaib's vlog also when naja said jo kuch dekhta hai( in context of ghost, as meher seen it first) use hi saboot dena padta hai, to meher said hum koi saboot nahi denge in an irritated voice. Koi bhi fed up hojayega agar continuous target hoga wo to bachchi hai uspe Agar meher ko nalla couple bhi ignore karte to heavyheart ke sath wapas jati wo. I appreciate janab and madam yahan dekh ke hi sahi par kuch to kar rahe hain. Unlike chalu uska sach bahar la ke paise kamaye uspe jata bhi rahi hai hum ye karte hain wo karte hain. Usko challenge bhi nahi jitaya koi. Nalla as gift kuch offer kar raha hai meher ko. Varna chalu bas sara aur riza ko highlight rakhti hai. Views ke liye hi ho par isse meher ka confidence boost hoga ke usne kuch jeeta hai. Chalu ki tarah use dukhi nahi kiya uski personal baat nikal ke nalla couple ne.