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This is a long read sorry!
Hi, I (22F) literally just joined, I have been on reddit for a while now, I post here or there but I really need the grace that only reddit seems to have, kisses but you know it's true. So, I guess, I am screaming into the void, because the truth is I am so gutturally confused.
Like the title says- I have always fantasized of being a flower child, a changeling, of turning towards the corner of the yard, the woods beckoning me to run away, the gentleness of which the coyotes would pick my bones clean. My childhood felt like a house fire only I could see.
My father's nightcap of whiskey got less and less watered down as nights were uncomfortable to spend on the family room couch. The one that he fiercely protects, once threatening my friend who mistakenly lounged in his spot. My mother's love felt scarce, a luxury only my younger sister could afford. Between that and her ambition to become the first nurse and college graduate of both families, I was more of my father's daughter. My younger sister and I were doll-like children, meek and polite to the price of our own dignity and self. To give a brief snapshot of what it was like being raised by them \~ even though "I'm remembering it all wrong, or not at all" I will try to go in chronological order, but you can quickly see most of these were not isolated incidents and I jump around:
-daily spankings because of crying during daycare drop off (fair technique)
-tricking us out of the "broken" car, in the rain on a dirt road "get gas" and proceeded to speed past us laughing as we ran after his taillights in the mud, we were in another country, on a solo trip with just our dad, we were both elementary school age.
-In elementary school and 6th grade I lived in a sweatshirt because when I hit puberty. I pleaded to my mother how hard it was to hear my father's constant comments about my womanhood and new body. He started to compare me to a hooker around this time, calling me a slut for trying to wear what my friends wore to school- leggings, shorts shorter than the knee but not offensively short I promise, though I strongly feel as clothing does not mean consent.
-For as long as I can remember, he would take pictures of us when we looked embarrassed then show it to family, friends, whoever in conversation in front of us then scold us when we inevitably felt bad or asked him to stop. He would also promise to delete the photo but would continue the previously mentioned above.
-So far, I have just been harping on my father, but the truth is they are a match made in hell, and though I feel like my mother is a victim in her own way. It was very hard to exist without their constant horrible comments about my appearance and character. They both shamed skinny children to be thinner, critiqued my body through puberty, and felt entitled to touch my body when and how they wanted. Examples include my father's frequent ass grabbing, and then allowing his adult male friend to do the same.
-They both would ridicule me for working minimum wage jobs in high school, while my father funnels out of my sister and I's joint accounts, only when we confront him does he fess that he required the money we earned for ourselves for the "mortgage". He continues as well as set monetary account goals, right before trips or plans, he would always be surprised that we had managed to scrape together enough money. He expects me to find a place that will fire and schedule me on a winter vacation, or to amount 5k in less than 3 months, while paying for my own necessities, thank you for teaching me to live on frugality as a means of survival.
-The name calling I touched on, but I would be the first to come home from school, my father would take his lunch to come home and berate me verbally of how much of a loser I am and will continue to be. The verbal arguments were daily, I fully admit to yelling back but in truth I couldn't leave his spewing red face hurling threats, I had to stay glued in place until he had his fill.
-Another solo trip with my father and sister, my mother had cleaned my room while we were away and had found my treasures- vapes, two beers. I got pulled out of the running shower to be beaten on and off through the night whenever my father took a break from tv, my sister sob in the room with my father to stop and I sat on the couch until morning. We had a tourist excursion the next day and I got it again before we left because I was not to "ruining the rest of his vacation with my bad attitude"
-They locked away my childhood cat, sick with cancer, to die alone in the basement so she would ruin their floors with her incontinence. When she passed, they did not tell me, they buried her in the woods behind our house, I wish I could lay beside her, I'm sorry little one.
-My father would come home and yell at me for not having dinner ready for him, because when my mother worked late or was not home, the next one responsible for dinner was my younger sister or me.
-He physically corners us or refuses to let us leave. Threatened my life when I tried to leave the house during an argument.
-Put his hand through the door a couple of times because I “gave attitude” by responding with ok. Readers, please note I am capable of attitude, but this was not the case, I was scared, and I just wanted to give him whatever answer he wanted
-I'm a summer birthday, so for my big 21st I had my cousin, bf and sister have a pool party in my parents' pool. No one told me the plan all day. I was told to just relax by everyone, because normally I would be running around serving people or helping my parents. No one told me anything, so we played some games in the yard, had some wine coolers and then swam. My father flies outside and starts yelling at me from the side of the pool to get my ass out and blow out my candles because he needs to drive my cousin 20 minutes home each way. So, I blew out my candles, soaking wet staring daggers because my father has always managed to underplay or make me feel bad on my birthday too? Another grievance from my 21st birthday is that my father grilled frozen steaks, and I truly do not want to seem like a stuck-up princess, but he proceeded to buy 300$ of food from my favorite restaurant and his favorite food is steak not mine. Note his birthday is the next day following mine.
I may post in regard to the tribulation that was my childhood in this thread again, but it takes a lot out of me, and I have already had myself a day sorry. Now you're all caught up and I just want you to know-
I have long ruminated over my own words and actions; though I have many regrets I do not feel ashamed of my choices or who I am because I try to treat everyone with kindness and most importantly respectability. I know the lengths my immigrant parents have gone through to build themselves a life. I know the struggles my father had with his father, the alcoholic who raised him with cruelty reserved for not even a barn animal. I know that my mother lived in the shadows as a neglected middle child hoping to find someone who realized all her good in the way her parents did not. I can see and understand that I carry the same wounds, and now it is within my responsibility to be better.
So, my relationship with my parents is strained right now. I have been in low contact with my mother and father for nearly four years, with periods of better contact. We have tried therapy, though it's difficult as my mother uses this as an opportunity to explore her wounds rather than our history or relationship. Though the therapist was helpful in directing the conversation back, I believe that the work can only happen with the person wanting to actually work on themselves, so I feel like I am at a frustrating impasse.
Every time I feel like I can take out a brick between the wall I keep between us, my mother will say something that makes me build another layer. I try not to be sensitive, yet I know my mother likes to cut with her words, though she claims otherwise. In a recent conversation my mother admitted that my father and she spent a great effort in making sure my beauty did not go to my head and did this in order to keep me humble.
For context, my mother’s side of the family does not like my father, and this along with other childhood issues festering into adulthood drove a wedge between my mother and her younger brother. His recent divorce and my mother’s empty nest have given them much time and space to rekindle their sibling relationship. So on our already strained phone calls she hits me with these metaphors of her brother and her relationship to ours. Am I off for thinking that those are two very different relationships, yet both have.. Jealousy? Furthermore, I feel a looney because I am fighting to keep them in my life, and they are fighting to be right.? To be absolved of the guilt and shame that maybe they did do the wrong thing.?
What gives them the right? When we all have to lay away at night with our guilt you want me to hold yours? I want a mother and they want a guiltless soul
Truthfully, I do not know what kind of future lies ahead for us. I think I grieve having bullies instead of parents, of what I missed out on and who I could have been. Like I said I am low contact right now, but after a normal phone call talking about the weather and our pets today, I had an anxiety attack to the point I fought to stay conscious. This has not been the first time I have fainted due to anxiety, mostly surrounding situations that remind me of them or things they punished or did to me in the past. The day after I wished my father a happy birthday after a year of no contact, I got two pills of ativan to the face after a ER visit in which they thought my poor bf was trafficking me. Though this is maybe too much, I am always sweating, my sides literally pour, my hands shake, and I can string together a sentence if I try. I feel like a different person, a moist, meek person.. which is not me, I self tattoo and pierce, I can and have tackled an attacking dog and I have punched touchy men square in the nose. I’m tough because I fought tooth and nail to be kind and gentle, we rescued cats and recently a possum, and we let out spiders and bugs, so our cats don’t terrorize them.
Here’s the thing… we’re getting married!
We’re tying the knot in the woods at the end of May, but I feel like an asshole because I have not told my parents. They know we’re engaged.
My mother, in a recent phone call, told me of this travel nurse that she had gotten close to, that was getting married soon, and invited my mother to go dress shopping with her. My mother told me how sad this girl felt that her family was all the way across the country, coincidently much like we are. This felt like she was guilting me, but she went so far as to send me a picture of a couple, I didn’t verify who it actually was.
Another issue is I am dealing with the guilt of getting a ring and bands elsewhere. My father is a high-end jeweler whose work has been showcased by celebs, my whole life I heard that my father was going to design and make my engagement ring. After long consideration, we picked out a ring from Madrid that felt more like me. When I look at my wedding rings I want to think of my husband not my father. I am more than happy with anything else, rings for other occasions, but it makes my skin crawl and my stomach curling because part of me feels as if it's more of a collar than a ring then.
My mother wants to meet over memorial weekend, she wants me to fly out a day to visit before I’m getting married.
I do not know if I should facetime them and break the news before, after or invite them. It’s already last minute so airfare will be expensive, but I know they are going to be so heartbroken. Part of me does not want them there either because I have felt alone my whole life, I figured I would do my wedding the same way, though it's hard because my fiancé's family will be there, and I will have no one. I wish I could hire a friend... lol typed that with a tear in my eye that's ironic.
Suggestions please

Feeling shit from constant rejection, making me think dating is pure luck.
I posted this as a comment in a previous post, but would love some advice from the 3% community, especially dudes who were in my situation. I would like some help. For context, I'm 21 , still going to college and read his book 5 times.
I've been doing this for 1.5 years with no results. I managed to make great friends who truly care about me, got an internship with a company who values my time, managed to become fit (until COVID hit), and I'm not too afraid to hit on girls or talk to people in general (couldn't even talk to people on the phone back in the day). Out of the 21 girls I asked out who matched my list, I got rejected by all of them, it hurts.
It hurts when you see guys who don't know any of this material, are looks challenged, managed to get girls who looks wise match the perfect girl on my list. I'm not ugly, I've been told that I'm decent looking in looks, especially when I was fit. The only draw back I can think of is that I'm Indian origin living in a white country (NZ), (lived here 20 yrs now) but I'm not insecure of my race at all.
I texted this girl who seemed very receptive and laughed at all my jokes this past week. Showed signs of attractions, talked a lot when I asked her questions, and showed no resistance when I asked for her number. She never texted back. Shit broke me. This situation happens to all the previous girls I've asked out before, very receptive (flirting, ask questions, smiling) but never make it to a first date (usually they're taken).
I tried to use dating apps and I got no likes or anything. Bought premium, took good pictures, expanded my preferences, still got nothing. I have friends who have worse profiles than me, don't know anything of the material Corey teaches, and they managed to get dates with some cute girls. They also managed to finally end their dry spell after many years, I'm proud for my boys, but it irks me that I try so hard, but got zero results.
I know dating is a numbers game, but it hurts knowing that I read all this material, improved everywhere in my life, but still haven't gotten a date in these past 3 years. The last girl I dated was pure luck, she matched what I liked at the time, was the first girl I asked out, and managed to date her for a year. I would think with all the knowledge and improvement I got, I should have an easier chance to get dates, but nothing ever came up. This just makes me believe dating is just pure luck, if you don't have luck in there, it's gonna be rough. I don't think guys my age put as much effort as I did, and they managed to get the type of women they like.
When it comes to class, I have only a little fear to sit next to the pretty girls, talk to them, and ask for their number. When it comes to asking for the date, that's where it ends, either they're not interested or have a boyfriend (they actually do on their socials so not lying). It hurts that I can never pass that part and manage to get a first date.
I know attraction is a choice, no matter what I do, girls will either like me or not. But doesn't this just show me that dating is just luck? That I have be to lucky to find a woman who actually likes me?
I'm thinking of getting therapy to help me mentally, I have been feeling shit about this. Sorry if this sounds negative. I will still continue to follow Corey's advice and help others who need help in their dating life. I would like some advice to my conundrum.

I make friends, get close, most of the time grow feelings for them, and then cut them off as soon as possible with no reason but “I can’t anymore” and hurt them so badly. I currently met this guy who is bi. We’re really fucking close. We talk on the phone almost every night. We tell each other everything, and we’re even traveling soon on a vacation to a new state. The thing is I have feelings for him. I keep picturing how it would be Ike to kiss him. Getting closer with him. I got him a job where I work at so he can save up to move. I even plan on moving with him so I can leave my hometown with him. (Which is probably a bad idea) But every time I work with him I go crazy I can’t stand it. It’s like all my emotions are all bundle up in one. Especially when he talks to other people I get super jealous. Especially this one girl he now considers a close fiend too. I feel like she’s going to replace me. I tell him I don’t like her because she talks crap but it actually because I’m jealous. She’s having a baby and he told me she invited him over when the baby is born and he told me he’s excited about it. I was so mad. But didn’t say anything of course because that’s his friend I shouldn’t be angry but I am! He talks about guys and girls. How hot this and that girl is. How pretty. How sweet. It makes me mad! This is a person I hang out with almost all the time. A person I talk to on the phone everyday. A person who comes to me crying tears when he’s upset, and I’m literally the only person he goes to when it happens. This is a person who Ive got drunk with and shared the same bed with (no we have never never been intimate.) he does the same thing when I hang out with friends he gets super jealous too. (He has become so mad and threaten to die or block me when I hanged out with others) But idk I think it’s more of a friend thing on his side versus me actually liking him more than a friend. Low key feel like he has bpd too 😭 But I’m at the point where I want to cut him offf so bad!!!! Sometimes I feel like he purposely says this and that girl is hot to make me jealous. I truly do. Because I told him in the past idc about how pretty this and that girl is. And he said he’d stop but it seems like he’s creeped back into doing it. He talks to multiple girls and guys which cool do you but he’s always telling me about what they talk about and stuff AND I JUST DONT CARE. Like I’m so fucking jealous and I just honestly want to cut him off and yes I have told him in the past I liked him but he always knows I have bpd most of the friends I made I ended up liking :/ so idk the idea of cutting him off hurts so fucking much and I just want to do it!!!!! Someone help me get over him and stop being jealous.

AITAH for not believing thaf my husband did not cheat Hi guys i am going thru a dilemma. I (25 F) and my husband (30 M) are both pakistani and live in gulf. we had our paper marriage aka Nikkah in 2017 and got married i.e., moved into his house in 2019. we've known each other since 2016 and this was a love marriage. my husband went against his parents wishes to get married to me whereas my family is very supportive of whatever choices i make during covid i moved into my parents house because of my 2 younger brothers 15 and 12 at that time as my parents got stuck in our home country for 6 months and my husband would spend 4 days with me and 4 days with his parents. i.e., peak covid lock down in 2020. since ive known my husband this is the first time i accidentally found out his phone password whereas he always insisted on having all of my social media passcodes in past. anyways i opened up his snapchat without any melicious intent of checking out his phone to get a few couple photos that we took on his phone and snapchat showed memories of last year of same date. it was with some filipinos (nothing against them but where i live they are usually considered as sex workers). i went and checked the old photos and i saw that he had pictures with alot of random women and specifically with his ex gf in year 2018. they both had taken alot of selfies from his sitting very close to each other in bars and even alone in car, again very close to each other in his arms. i also found out he was asking filipino their rates for sex works and he also met 1 of them in his car and went to meet one of in a mall during peak covid lockdown. anyways i didnt plan to talk to him about it because i was newly wed and didnt want to face consequences and i thought he might stop on his own. fast forward a few months later my parents came back safely and i moved back into my husbands house with his parents and this is the time when i first actually started living with them and with in a few weeks my FIL came to hit me with a shoe when i refused to give him my phone as a punishment for using it so often. anyways things started escalating alot and me and husband were having regular fights because of his parents always crossing boundaries. then one day we had a fight and in the heat of the moment i accidentaly said out about his affairs. so we talked about it and he said that he met his ex gf just like a freind as she came back from her home country after a long time and the he was asking for rates of filipinos for his single freind. when i asked about what did you do with the filipino you picked up in car he said that they just ate shawarmas by the sea side. i was naive and i bought into his narrative. even tho i agreed to believe in his story, the un easy feeling never left to the point where i refuse to have a child with him as i dont think i have a secure future with him. due to his parents bickering all the time i finally snapped back at them and they made a huge deal out of it and threw me out the house and me and my husb both went no contact for 1 whole year as i demanded for a seperate house even if i have face hunger. when did finally talk again he convinced me that this wont happen again from his parents side and he will start fulfilling my basic rights as a wife i.e., fulfil my basic needs, maintain peace, and protect. during this whole time my father was the one who fulfilled all my basic needs. anyways i moved back in with in end of 2021 and he did nit stay true to his word. he still picks out fights. his parents still shout scream at me occasionally and he only gives me bare minimum monthly allowance which is not enough for me and i still have to end up asking my father for money. please keep in mind i am a university student and my father pays for all car maintenance, university fees and essential needs. and the amount that my husband gives me usually goes out in just fuel and a few meals in university. anyways the point is that coming back to his house in 2021 till end of 2023 we used to constant fights mostly because of his anger issues and just generally being rude and in bad mood all the time. i had beg him crying to change his behaviour towards me and to be nicer to me when talks or else i will have no other option than to leave him. he did become nicer for 3 months until he started being rude again for over daily routine issues until his family was hit by huge crisis due to his younger brothers fault. thats when he bacame polite to me again. ‼️‼️‼️ my main dilemma. after all of these ups downs i really thought i was seeong some improvement in him and i was finally feeling optimistic about my future with him but i guess god has some other plans. he accidentally forgot to lock his phone last month and i found out he had been texting sex workers again and asking their prices. he was also in contact with a girl, lets call her J, via snapchat since 2021 till now and only few chats were saved in one which he was begging to convince her that i am not his wife rather his sister. apparently J saw me and husband out somewhere. i let all of this go again since i thought its pointless bring this up as things are now improving. 2 weeks after me finding out i get randomly get dick pic from my husband at 4 am when i was sleeping next to him and he was awake and came back from a night out with his freinds. when i woke up my husband was asleep,i found it very suspicious since we dont these kind of pictures anymore. he forgot to lock his phone again and LO AND BEHOLD he sent the same dick pic to her with me literally sleeping next to him. what fathoms me the most is that how could he not feel any shame with me laying next to him. anyways i talked about it a few days later and he basically told me that he was trying check J's loyalty for his freind. please keep in mind his freind is also married and has 3 4 kids. i asked my husband why did you do it for your freind when you shouldve understood it the first time i caught you and made a issue out of it and he said i thought that i would understand him doing all this for a freind and i shouldve specifically asked him stop doing it for his freinds if i have such issues. anyways a part of me wants to believe his bullshit story but a part of me knows that he is trying to manipulate me again as i cant even why a person who went against his parents wishes would literally go out of his way to ruin his marriage. does he want me to intiate the divorce so that he dosent get the blame. wtf is it i am so confused and i would most definitley will never have a child with a person who cheats. should i believe him or not. he keeps saying that he doesnot plan on leaving me or bringing a second wife is he expecting me to be ok with him cheating as long as i am not replaced.

Im just going to preface this and say that this is not towards all NP’s or PA’s, and I’m just sharing my experiences. I’m not trying to discredit them, but once again this is my experience. I’m not a Karen, I swear. I’m a young adult who has a handful of health issues that I just want help with.
I am someone who has a bit of health issues, and I have for mostly my whole life, yet these past few years it has only gotten worse. And because of this, I frequently have to go to the doctors or get referrals. This being said I swear that whenever I go to an office for the doctors all I can get is a nurse practitioner or a PA. So, typically I give them the benefit of the doubt and just see how it goes. So far 7 times out of 10 they genuinely have no clue what I am talking about or have no explanation, or just a general lack of training.
I had this really good dermatologist who was very very intrigued with how my body works. My body is very sensitive to the environment, and frequently break out into hives over things I can control, I can even trigger it if I wanted to. He attentively listened to everything I said, look at the proof I have on my phone, would perform tests in office and educate me thoroughly on my conditions. I have cold urticaria, pressure urticaria, cholingeric urticaria, as well as dermatographism. So sadly my doctor had to move to a different state, and I had to get a new dermatologist. So, I walk into the new place and she introduces herself, and she is a PA, okay great. However, upon explaining to her what I had been diagnosed with and need help with, when asking questions, she could not help me. She couldn’t help me with educating because she had no clue what they were herself. The only thing she knew was the cold urticaria which she solely focused on and performed another test on me so she could see it herself. I had to inform and educate her on my conditions.
Okay, another example is I had to go to a psychiatrist, and the office referred me to a NP. Once again, okay great. I went in there explaining my issues and I would tell her basic things and I don’t know what she couldn’t comprehend. She couldn’t explain things, wouldn’t even explain my supposed diagnosis. Id ask her questions and she would beat around the bush. What really made me mad about this NP is how she acted with me when I tried to get her to give me a doctors note for accommodations for schooling. For one, she made me wait four months for it even though once a month I had to see her. I had to beg her up and down for it, and I gave her the requirements and everything. She gives me a paper finally, and it looks like I drafted it up myself so the school wouldn’t accept it. I told her that they wanted her license number at least because she wouldn’t even put it on a header. She flipped out on me, she refused to give me her license number and told me she wasn’t giving it, and if they wanted it that bad they can look it up themselves.
I go to a new gynecologist the other day, and what do they put me with, a NP. Well, I was going in there for valid concerns, and plus I needed a new once since my other one became a professor. However, I explained to her my past with medical stuff. TMI it was irregular periods. And I swear to god this woman, who should know all about this could not give me an explanation by saying that I’m just young, that’s all it is. Girl, it’s been about decade with a period, it should be regulated now when it was fine for years. Then when we were talking about me and autoimmune disorders (which is a whole other story), she once again had no clue. I ask her a couple more questions so I could educate myself, and her response is “yeah that is weird. I don’t know.”- girl, come on now.
Then, I was at the ED because I was having heart issues. My heart rate would go into the 170-180s and plummet, and they assigned me a NP who looked at me for one second, said I was fine, sent me home. My ekg results came out as abnormal, and on top of that I had to go to a cardiologist where I was diagnosed with a heart condition. On top of this, I was irritated at her because they had be in the waiting room for about 6 hours, brought me to a flex room that didn’t even have a bed, it was a chair, and I was sent out immediately. I had to wait a few more hours and eventually I said to my mother, I don’t feel good, I want to go home. So we go to the desk to discharge, and they are like “are you sure you want to leave, your doctor was just about to discharge you?” First of all no doctor came over to us, second of all the woman I seen for 1 second had come into the waiting room FULL of people announcing my test results and blood work.
All I’m asking is for someone who can explain things and know what they are doing. But once again, they don’t have the same training as doctors. Doctors had pre med, medical school, residency, attending, etc. and only a couple for the others.
This is my experience.
Also, I can also admit I’ve had some good NP that I’ve seen in urgent cares and such.

I'm a 17 year old male in my senior year of high school and I'm having trouble reconnecting with a friend. My friend is 18y/o female (completely platonic) and we've known each other since elementary.
Earlier this year, around January, we exchanged each other's phone numbers. However, we didn't text really frequently and mostly spoke in person.
Fast forward to February, my mom searches my phone (I'm not a legal adult so she's still my guardian, with permission to search) and finds a new contact. I don't really tell her when I add new contacts because I only had 2 beforehand which were just other male friends. My mom had forgotten the existence of this friend, and the name didn't ring a bell to her when I told her. But the reason she got concerned is because it was a girl. She immediately read through all the texts, but found nothing bad (we mostly exchanged notes for classes or discussed projects). She just doesn't want me messaging girls I guess because right after scrolling through the texts she blocked the phone number.
Literally the day after, I don't hear anything from that friend. Not from then and until now. Not a word. I assume they must have tried to send something and received the "Not Delivered" message and knew "I" blocked them.
Earlier this week I unblocked them but didn't say anything. That's where I am now. I don't know whether I should or how to tell them that I wasn't the one to block them, or should I drop it and move on?

I started developing ocd over a year and a half ago, whilst dating my ex boyfriend. Our relationship was incredibly insecure and felt threatened very frequently, because of that, I began my first steps, which consisted mainly of doing certain actions with my phone whilst texting and closing their messages, then I started doing it 1, 4 , 5 times. The numbers increased and developed their own meanings over time, and then, over time, I hadn't taken the compulsions as seriously. I didn't understand what they meant, I just knew, I had to lock my door 5 times, and touch the handle a certain way, or my ex boyfriend would leave me. If I saw any girl on social media, and I didn't click "not interested. " he would cheat on me with them.
It took over my life at the start.. But not nearly as much as now, by now, I have compulsions at least 1-7 times every 2 minutes. Every number has a meaning. From 1 to 10, they all mean something, they all represent destressors. These have evolved over time, from 2 meaning "I'll live if I use this number. " to it now meaning "my boyfriend will lose interest in me if I do this 2 times. " and I see these numbers everywhere. I feel so stressed and I count everything.
Every action is now a compulsion, I have to type a certain way, my brain has to decide on everything, " Will something bad happens if I do this? " and it looks in the future as if it's a fortune teller- as if we can actually see. I feel distressed all the time, my life is under it's control pretty much-- if I don't do said thing now, I must later, perfectly, in perfect order, perfectly so they don't stop loving me, perfectly so they don't get hurt, perfectly so my life doesn't crash down- but the sense of perfection isn't real.
Sometimes I don't even know that. Sometimes- a lot of the time, when my now boyfriend leaves to shop or work i'm convinced he's dead, experiencing a roberry, got hurt outside somewhere, stuck In a horrible place- whilst he really just isn't replying, because he's busy, I will suffocate for hours, crying and unintelligible, ties with reality cut, feeling like my downfall has been caused by my failure, or exposure attempts.
I have depersonalization-derealization disorder, which I feel like makes it all the more worse. I made the mistake of starting to categorize my disorder as a person or thing of it's own, in attempts to be calmer, but it did nothing but raise the stress and false feeling that someone is truly in my head shattering everything and holding me at gunpoint every second. I very rarely feel real and this disorder has somehow felt even more catastrophic than my severe dpdr, which I have had for around 5 1/2 years.
I spent the prior months convinced every night I'd be dead, I ruined my friendship because it started treating talking to my friend as a "no you can't do this or i'll ruin your life :D " compulsion, have no ties with family, worry myself to the bone each day regarding my relationship, ask every day if their feelings have changed - and they always say no.
I don't know how to make it stop- I know I feed it too much but the amount of compulsions are overwhelming, the anxiety always draws me back, clinging to it and begging to "make things okay again. "
Any advice would be really appreciated! I'm also not good with tone inside of text so I'm sorry if this sounds over intense or aggressive, I just feel super stressed atm, have been breaking down because my bfs actions don't seem to match his words- through absence. It seems to be a really big trigger when he leaves and doesn't text me for hours when out. I brought it up and it hasn't been fixed but that's okay. Just really tired. Wish my head could just be empty again for a second or a minute- the noise is horrible. It feels like being screamed at by 10 different people, all the time with horrible threats.
Can't tell if things will be okay rn. Usually when I do compulsions it at least tells me sometimes that things will be okay- the anxiety goes away a little- but I have a painful silence now, for the first time, getting this out. I feel very afraid

Me (20F) and my boyfriend (22M) have been dating almost a year, but for the past seven months we have had the same problem. He keeps saving/looking at online girls when I have told him on each offence (six times now I've caught him) how it makes me feel. How do I make him understand my feelings and get him to stop in an effective way?
The first time I had found girls on his phone was in October. There were hundreds of photos of porn, sexual photos, or just normal pretty women in his camera roll. After I found it, I asked him to delete all of the photos, as it made me feel uncomfortable he was looking at all these other girls when he is dating me. He immediately was on board and deleted all of them. Few months later, it happened again in December. Then again in January. The third time I really tried to explain how I felt, and thought I did well. But once again in April, there is more photos. This has happened six times now in total, and each time it hurts me more and more. To be fair, he has stopped saving these photos, but I still find him looking at OnlyFans girls and scrolling through their pages endlessly. I decided to write him a long letter about how I really felt, and I finally thought I got through to him. He was very apologetic and promised it was the last time. Next day, I go through his reddit searches and he was searching up more and more women. He said he wanted to do it "one last time" before he couldn't.
I'm not sure how to get him to stop this. He said he is tired of us always arguing about this, but I explained that if he is tired of this problem, he can easily stop it himself. I'm embarrassed of this, and don't want to ask my friends for advice because I've been asking for the same advice for months. I want to find a way to make him understand how it truly makes me feel, and how to tell him to stop respectfully. What's your advice on how I should communicate this?

TIFU by going through my (20f) boyfriend's (20m) phone while he was asleep. I was bored, couldn't sleep and didn't really think I would find something. For context, we broke up for a few months and got back together in March. It turns out that the girl in our friend group who "has a really big crush" on him that he "never liked" actually did have a reason for being jealous when she saw me. They were talking and flirting, hanging out all of the time basically the entire time we were broken up all the way until a month before we got back together. Now I know why she was so upset that I was there when the friend group got back together. Should I say anything? It didn't even happen while we were together but it seems like a pretty messed up lie. And all of the messages from her were deleted so I only had one side of the conversation to go off of. Like, what??? In one of the messages he literally asked if she wants to make out and then said "hang* autocorrect" with a suggestive emoji. Im honestly really hurt that he wouldn't tell me about this and I don't know what to do at this point. I feel bad like I really didn't think I'd find anything but here we are....any advice?
EDIT: I don't care that he was with someone else while we were apart. The issue is that they never ended things and then when she saw me at our friend group gathering she got super pissed and waited in the car the entire time. He told me that she was just being weird, had a massive crush on him, and that he never liked her back. So he lied. Thats the issue here.
TL;DR TIFU by going through my boyfriends phone out of boredom while he slept, not expecting to find anything. I found out he had a thing with a girl he told me was just a friend and now I don't know whether to bring it up or not.

My name was slandered SO badly by the quinte.ca news that it is literally criminal and VERY VERY messed up.
According to this article I am a Sex Predator and was trying to lure a 13 year old for sex using the internet.(!!!!!)
This is a long story so I’m going to do my best at condensing it so people actually read it.
This is what happened: With a fair amount of spare time on my hands I decided to do something that would create a positive, long lasting impact. I knew there had to be some real sex predators in a city this size so I decided to see if any ADULTS online were interested and fully follow through with preying on a minor. Less than a few minutes after creating a profile I was contacted by a Belleville Resident who indicated DIRECTLY to me that he was “ok” with the decoys age.

I told him my age was TWELVE. 

Within the first 5 minutes of the conversation. So for the next five days he was essentially grooming who he believed was 12 year old and attempting to meet him that upcoming weekend. At no time did I initiate or direct the conversation to move in the dirty direction. I wanted to not only provide as much solid evidence as possible for the police, but I was thinking forward to do the same for the future prosecution when this case ultimately reached the Court….( at least In my mind, this is what I was doing it for! )
Speaking to him about 45 minutes each day I was shocked at how this was actually happening. Shocked at how quickly, unaffected and confident he was to be luring a 12 year old to his apartment.
Most disturbing was the bits of information that was confessed to me. How he “had to be really careful” because he is already a registered sex offender due to being caught with another minor years ago, and how he “had multiple other people your age” in the past which he had never been caught for.
So obviously by the time I was aware of that I was Deadset at not only catching and exposing this creep but see to it that he gets his rightful spot back in a prison cell.

Make no mistake I took screenshots of EVERY message/text/conversations/photos. 

( I had taken photos of myself and used an age altering app which was procured freely from Apple. ) Upon his request I sent multiple Altered selfies over those five days in the various poses he was asking for. Obviously this was done to prove that the decoy was in fact “real”. Bam. That’s it. It was Friday and this registered sex offender “PDF File” was in FULL BELIEF and confident that a Minor was on the way to his apartment to “teach him” how to have sex.
I went just outside the meeting area a bit early and sat down with my Sony 500 video camera around my neck and was prepared to begin the video, capturing him as he went directly to the prearranged location. He was going with the quickness and attempting to hold back the huge shit eating grin on his face. Disgusting. Vile. True evil.
So I walked up to him while recording and made a call from my cellphone to his which I used to instantly tell him off the bat: “YOU’RE FKD!” Also by doing this at that moment I was putting him in a position (ON CAMERA mind you) which he had zero opportunity to deny anything.

Over the next 20-30 minutes He confessed to everything that was said during the conversations. Instead of me questioning him, initially I had told him to tell me exactly why he was there, and for him to tell me (the camera) everything that was in those terrible and unbelievable messages. 

I grilled him like a ribeye.
After having gathered what I believed to be enough evidence and having him vocally express ( One more and last time) directly to the camera why he was there at that precise moment and what it was he had expected to go down that day in his apartment, I decided to end recording, and leave.
With my adrenaline pumping, I left. Forgetting to do what could’ve been the most important thing, not for exposing him or the Court, but for ME. . . Call the cops. I called them about 10 minutes into the walk back to my home. I told the Officer everything that had just happened. Including the prior five days leading up to this event. I was praised for doing what I had done by this Officer but was informed that the “Detective” responsible for this “crime category” was already off duty and wouldn’t be returning until Monday.
On Monday I received a phone call from that Officer and TRIED to explain everything. It was like I was speaking another language to him. He REPEATEDLY tried to change what I was telling him. For example; I explained how I was the decoy and that there did NOT EXIST AN ACTUAL MINOR involved here, and then he would say: “so you and this sex offender ‘hooked up’ and tried to get a ‘13’ year old over to HIS house” !!!!! It was if he was Trolling. He simply could not, or did not WANT TO understand what happened. “It’s like a STING OPERATION” I finally said to him. I told him this guys name and where he lived. I even knew his birthdate from the convos with the Decoy. So this “detective” in charge of investigating a very serious category of crime in this city KNEW that this predator is a Registered Sex Offender. He KNEW that I was in possession of a litany of irrefutable evidence. Yet was totally incompetent and put me down as Suspect #1 from the start. For not a single reason. He denied my requests to come down and SHOW HIM THE FRICKIN’ EVIDENCE. He did not even want to see the video confession!!! Nothing happened. He said it was now an “open case” and I had a case number. Deflated. Flabbergasted. I was [again] in shock. After weeks of waiting, I ended up putting the entire video of sicko confessing and me grilling him on YouTube. My genuine motive from the start was to make a positive impact on the community. To potentially stop a child from being victimized by a predator. I felt let down the police response. Little did I know what was to come SIX months later. The cops raided the house I was living in.
I was immediately handcuffed and told that I was arrested for “LURING A MINOR” !!!! I was literally paralyzed. With at LEAST HALF A DOZEN POLICE OFFICERS AND AN EQUALLY UNNECESSARILY LARGE AMOUNT OF SUVS PARKED ON THE DRIVEWAY, LAWN, AND ONE OF THE BUSIEST ROADS IN THE CITY. RED AND BLUES FLASHING ON ALL OF THEM. W h a t . T h e . F o c k ! ? ! They went up to my neatly organized room and searched it over discovering of course nothing but my phone. Snatching it with a joy like they had just successfully done something significant. I had 5-7 cops surrounding me in a semi circle after arriving at the Jail as I prepared to go inside a cell. They even shackled my feet. I know from watching cops and the like on YouTube to always exercise the right to remain silent. There was nothing I could do or say at that point which would help and I definitely didn’t resist the arrest so it really must’ve been a slow day. Eh guys? That and/or the overly incompetent rookie had relayed to his colleagues and obviously his Superiors to get the raid and arrest warrant his own personal story that he had recreated. Unfriggenbelieveable! It’s SO ABSURD THERE IS NO PROPER WORDS TO EXPRESS HOW IT FEELS TO GO THROUGH THIS! Doing something I considered not just “Right”, but Honourable, Justified, and definitely NOT illegal! How the hell did a JUDGE sign an arrest AND RAID Warrant on me with ZERO evidence, physical, concrete, or even circumstantial?? Not a single reason lawfully or otherwise for them to raid, arrest, shackle my feet and throw me in a jail cell for hours, and then criminally charge me with “Luring of a Minor”. Evidently, according to this news article the police had conducted a Six Month Investigation. Huh? Of What?! On Who?!
Now, Finally, The News Article: The information printed in any news article requires a source, so all of this information had to have only been provided by the police department. This article was printed at 9 in the morning the very next day of the arrest and raid. So of course this was all information provided from police.

This is what the dumbass, rookie, ignorant cop fabricated for no actual real reason: 

“Two men were arrested yesterday after a Six Month long Investigation revealed that the men had ‘BOTH’ believed that they were speaking with a ‘13’ year old boy online. Registered sex offender (the real predators name) and another known sex offender ( my name) are each charged with Luring of a Minor. (Real predators name again) is also charged with using an electronic device to lure a Minor, and breach of probation.”

My LandLord happened to be home at the time of the Raid, and he had also (I guess being suspicious after the raid,) read the article online which is quoted directly above. 

Which meant that he would be evicting me from the property, and I can’t blame him. With that article being read by my roommates and hisself I can’t really blame him for that either.
The charges against myself were eventually dropped, of course. About 18 months later! My phone being confiscated in the raid in order to access everything on there was also given back to me. They played immature and unprofessional games with that as well; returning my property. Such as : come in this day, your phone is ready to be released now. Show up. “Oh so and so thought it was ready but we don’t have it yet.” Weeks later. Get another call saying it is in fact ready now. Show up. “There is no one working in the evidence locker today, there will be in two days.” Screw them! I show up ten days late and what do you know? My property is actually there for me, and I finally get it back. Of course having had to purchase new phone in the meantime. Worse yet, I can’t recall the password and it was before facial recognition (not like that would matter) and after the fingerprint touch button. So it’s just a brick now.
That’s the least of my concern, as that bullshit article remains up, and the YouTube video had been taken down for some privacy violation nonsense.
After paying the criminal defence attorneys’ invoice(s), I couldn’t afford the 6K being asked by EVERY attorney I had reached out to.
So there, that’s one of many of my Unbelievably Insane Life’s stories. I suppose I didn’t provide the short version. Even though I have sincerely tried to keep it all to a minimum by leaving out plenty of details and significant events, this ended up being the Mid Length version.

1. What's the typical work day/week like in Stockholm? MON-FRI, 0900-1700 with a lunch break around 1200?
   
2. Assuming vehicle traffic frequency is dependent on the answer to my 1st question?
   
3. What's the local beeliquor the natives typically drink in Stockholm?
   
4. What's the national drink in Sweden?
   
5. What's the most popular sport in Sweden and who do swedes typically hail for?
   
6. What are the top cell phone carriers in Stockholm and the surrounding areas? Which cell carriers have the best, most consistent, reliable coverage?
   
7. Is tipping after a beer or meal normal at bars/restaurants?
   
8. Do most people carry cash on them or rely on credit cards for everyday purchases?
   
9. How late do bars, clubs and restaurants typically stay open in Stockholm?
   
10. Does UbeLyft exist in Stockholm or are Taxi's the primary car service?
    
11. Are tattoos generally accepted out in public or are they taboo and frowned upon?
    
12. Is it normal to smile and say hello to people you don't know in passing when walking around the city as a sign of kindness?
    
13. What's the general safety/security like within Stockholm? Is there much crime, especiallyat night? If there is crime, what type of crime is most common? Are gangs a reality within Stockholm?
    
14. Is the tap water from the faucet safe to drink?
    
15. Is there any advantage to taking the train or bus over an Uber?
    
16. What are some common food etiquette practices that are customary in Sweden? Is there a certain way to order food in Stockholm?
    
17. Are ATM machines abundant in Stockholm - easy to access money?
    
18. Does paypal work in Sweden?
    
19. What money transfer apps are most commonly used in Sweden?
    
20. Is religion a big thing I Sweden?
    
21. Are most businesses shut down during holidays?
    
22. What's the typical day-to-day clothing style in Stockholm? Typical colorways of clothing (bright, dark, inbetween?)
    

What are some general customs, courtesies and etiquette to ease an expats transition into Stockholm? What are THE DOs/DONTs for every day life as a Swede?
Please feel free to add/comment anything you think I should know as a new person moving to Sweden from the west.
Thank you.

Hello reddit, I'm using an expendable account so as to not have my name tied up in this for embarrassment sake.
I'm 20 and male. I met a girl a little over a month ago and we started dating and having sex. We dated about a month before it became blaringly obvious this wasn't gonna work out. She started her last period (menstrual) on the 24th of april and it ended on the 28th. The last time we had sex was the 28th after bleeding stopped.
Fast forward to May 12th, exactly two weeks since we had sex and her menstrual ended, I receive a text saying "hey OP! hope everything is well, just so you know i'm taking a pregnancy test today because i missed my last period, and i figured i should tell you because you were the last person i slept with. i'll let you know how it goes". I call her and ask her how she's missing her period since she just had her last one two weeks ago and while dating she told me she had normal routine periods. She tells me her app says she's 3 days late.
She takes a pregnancy test. A clearblue brand one with the blue plus and it comes back negative with a very very very slight positive line, however the test window is super yellow. Like it looks like an old test yellow. I ask her if she has another and she says she's out and then a minute later texts and says she all of a sudden found an extra. She takes it 10 or so minutes after the alleged first one and jt comes back completely negative but this time the test looked normal. The window was white.
A series of conversations have occured since then and I will summarize some suspicious topics overall:
-She texts me on mothers day (May 12) about possibly being pregnant
-she texts me that she has a suspicion, before she even took a test
-claims she's 3 days late 14 days since her last period ended. -the first test is super yellow and looks like an old test with an evap line and yellowing
-i wore a condom, she claims she has an iud, and I didn't finish in.... so I don't understand how this could even be possible
-says she doesn't have a second test and then suddenly finds one
-she held me on the phone call regarding the possible pregnancy and discussed our relationship and got me to apologize about it ( I mean I apologized naturally but I think thats what she wanted)
-she adds me back on snapchat out of the blue today (may 14th)
-I ask her to keep me updated on period. She texts the next day and says she started cramping pre menstual but then today she texts me out of the blue and tells me she was blackout drunk last two weekends and is worried. She then tells me she stopped cramping today and might not be having a period.
I'm absolutely petrified that she's pregnant, but obviously with how safe we were that seems to be impossible and the timing of her cycle. Nonetheless running through every scenario in which it could have happened. Everyone in my life thinks she's seeking attention or trying to get back with me and there's no way she's pregnant. But I'm not entirely sure. Looking for someone on here to weigh in. Much appreciated.

I’ve just been crying I’ve been looking through my phone at the pictures of her I’ve been crying for the last 6 hours but I know if I go back we will fall in love again but I can’t she deserves better I disappear for 7 months at first I was but in a psych ward for and after that I decided I need a fresh start I spent 4 months in the uk playing in a punk band as a bass player even when I was in the psych ward i knew she deserved better that’s why I’m not gonna contact her I know she deserves someone who is mentally stable it’s really gonna hurt to have to let her go this was the woman i wanted to marry spend the rest of my life with I miss her smile the way she would tell me she loved me I was her russian man living in the USA she was my pretty girl I feel like I’m missing a piece of me I’m thinking of going back to the uk to maybe fix myself I wish i could say i love her and that I’m really sorry but it’s better for her I remember she was teaching me English it made me so happy I would tell her some things in Russian we were so happy for three years but this is not the first time I was gone for a long time I spent a year in jail and when I got out we talked for hours we fell back in love i really want to feel her love again but I know it’s for her good if I wasn’t so fucked in the head we could have been so happy together but I’m not normal i just want my pretty girl back I’m always thinking of her and I wouldn’t be surprised if she always was thinking of me i just want her to be happy

I have gone through his phone and found folders apon folders of nudes, most from women over the legal age but some are from those who are under 18. He has photos of his own cousin's younger sister screenshotted from a bikini pic on her Instagram.... She was only 15/16 at the time. His girlfriend has told me he threatens her and has purposefully almost driven off a bridge with her in the car to scare her. The way he talks to her is awful. He cheats all the time, sometimes with what she tells me, even those under 18. Alot of the time they are only 17 but still. She is completely being brainwashed by him and is being mentally abused daily. She is scared to leave him, he wont leave her alone. He has filmed me having sex through the opposite side of the door and sent it around as a joke. I know how creepy he is an i do not believe it was for a joke. I need help, he needs to be in jail. My parents hold his hand with everything and would kick me out if they knew I actually knowingly reported him (since they don't think this is true). Listen I dont have money to live on my own, not to mention I have a disease that keeps me from working. I need to report this, at least the underage nudes, but I need to do it anonymously. do you think if I go to a library and send a tip in, it won't get back to me? I need him to leave. I can't live with him; when I am home alone with him, I refuse to shower. His presence ense makes me sick. I need help, and I can't let anyone else in my house know. There is so much more stuff, but I can imagine the police will only care about the underage girls ....
I did try one time to convince his girlfriend to leave him and go to the police, she ended up breaking up with him that night and telling him I talked to her. My dad lost it on me and told me to stay out of his relationship.... So unfortunate but she wont be of any help.

I recently just got out of a relationship (6-7 months) I know it's not long, but we really had it going and I thought that this would be my last relationship.
I knew this girl from my freshman year of college, we were never really close or didn't have the chance to. But at the start of my sophomore year, we had the chance to smoke together. Immediately after we hung out for the first time, we both realized that our interests and hobbies are very similar, and our conversations were filled with joy and laughter. After a month of texting every day and hanging out every weekend, I started developing feelings for her. But she was the first to confess to me and I agreed. It went great for the first 3 or 4 months, but after that we started arguing over small things. Now that we are separated, and I had time to think about the relationship I realized that I always emotionally manipulated her and would always trauma dump when things didn't go the way I wanted. She would come over about 4-5 times a week, but when she wanted to go out with her friends, I would always be like "You don't love me" or "You care more about your friends than me." And when she confronted me about it, I would reply with ", But you said that you won't be texting me" or "You said that you won't update me." But in reality, she texted me so much that her friends got tired of her always going on her phone to text me back and I just wanted attention.
Later in the relationship she would create boundaries and would finally say "I won't text you when I'm out with my friends." When she said that I went psychotic and called her 33 times, sent her hundreds of messages, acted violent, and very harsh words. Note that this happened twice, in two weeks both Fridays. But this was all after I originally lost her trust. Which was around a week prior to these events. I was over at her house during spring break, and I was on twitter, she wanted to see my twitter because I never showed it. There was nothing bad on my twitter, and I said "no," and she tried to grab my phone, but I used excessive force to get it back. I was only trying to get a reaction out of her, but that was the moment she lost all trust in me. I tried showing her after it, but it was already over. The next day she tells me to meet her, and she said she doesn't see us working out in the long term, and that she wanted to break up. But I started crying and trauma dumped. After a lot of talking, she said that we can try one more time. I fully believed the statement, but I later found out that it was just to make me stop crying. And that once she starts losing feelings, she can't stop herself even if she wants to.
She has been through a lot growing up. A bad and manipulative father, self-image issues, getting all her info leaked etc,. She even had her "phase" in college, and I knew all that and wanted to change her and make her life happier. But I took everything for granted, and I regret the fact that she even had to get close to me. I wanted her to change, but never wanted to change myself even after promising to. Yes, we were both toxic to each other, and it was never meant to be. But I feel like I made her life worse. She also mentioned that she was always scared of me during the relationship.
She got into a rebound probably 3 weeks after we broke up and said that she is doing good now that I'm gone. I will move on eventually, but I still believe that I have left unerasable scars in her heart, and I feel like an asshole for doing it. I don't think I can fully forgive myself ever.

believe it or not, i dont want to die sad. but how does one die feeling happy? feeling at peace? i too do not know how, but i want to try to find the answer today. i want to sleep forever, now. so i want to try my best to give you a brief recap of how ive been suicidal and depressed till now.
to be honest i didnt know how it exactly started. when did i feel depressed? no, scratch that. when did i feel sad for no reason? ninth grade. i cant remember the specifics now, but i do remember trying to drown myself, my first attempt of suicide, because of my grades. i was 13, i felt hopeless, my mom got mad at me, and we didnt have the closeness of our relationship that we have now. i became more sad when i reached my senior year of high school, grades 11 and 12. i had my first heartbreak (cliche as it sounds) and i sabotaged all my friendships. i was a bad friend, i was getting into smoking and drinking--i made both of them my coping mechanism. i spent my days lying in bed, crying in the mornings before school started inside the bathroom stalls, i skipped classes and traveled on my own and smoke and drink--people believed i was 18. but i was 16. i was 16, but i felt like my inner machinery was already tarnished. i chased love but turned away the second they showed me that they liked me. i ran away from my friends and used them for my own benefit because i was 'sad' and that they should 'know' that because they were my 'friends'. but no. nobody deserves that kind of treatment. i was never saved that time, never told anyone how i truly felt. but when i did tell i immediately regretted it because they never understood my weight of emotions; i felt invalidated.
freshman year of college rolled through and i thought i was doing fine, but i wasn't. i wanted to be so much that i ended up overexerting myself. when it finally became too heavy for me i stayed out late, drank again, spent the night with my friends and didn't come home. the next day i told my mom that i had this urge to be alone, to disappear, and that my emotions were all so heavy that i was becoming more sad everyday that even i didn't know the reason. before i could say i wanted help, she told me instead the opposites of what i have been saying. 'ah, this must be what invalidation feels like' i thought, and thats when i knew that really, no one will understand what im going through. its the pandemic now, 2020 and im turning 18, the age of adulthood. funny enough months before that i told myself that i wanted to die, and that there was a bleach ready in out bathroom for me to try out. i thought back then, dying at 18 would be nice because it would spare me the pains of adulthood. my birthday came, i felt heavy when i woke up; i finally decided, you know. my mind was made up. but then i woke up and i hear my dad calling my mom on the phone and asking her if i was already awake, my mom sounded giddy, excited, and told my dad that i haven't woke up yet and that there's too much food on the table she's excited on how ill react. i cried. they were downstairs celebrating my birthday but i was stuck in bed thinking of ways to unalive myself. in the end i came down, wiped my tears, celebrated my birthday normally, posed for some pictures, and called it a day. that was the day i started dreading having to celebrate my birthday. same year, october, i called the suicide hotline with pills in my hand, ready to end it all. long story short, more shit happened. called the hotline, texted my cousin i was gonna die, she then called her parents then said parents called my mom. mom caught me, we cried so hard, i told her everything. we became closer then. she was my best friend and still is, and it pains me that im not the best daughter and friend she has. i wanted to take a break from school then, i wanted to see a shrink, but guess what, nothing happened. i went back to classes like nothing happened. my emotions werent compensated. i was doing everything with a broken mind. no one around me talked to me about what happened, only i relived it. i preferred if they talked to me about it, i preferred if i took a break for a while, it would have been nice to talk to someone about, talk about this unending sadness that im feeling; if i did then maybe i could be a tiny bit better. but no. i gave every feeling i had for free.
4 years passed and im still here. what am i now? things were good two years ago, but how about now? i still sabotaged everything, while trying to fix things aside. i tried to live life, but my anxiety just got worse; heck i didnt even have anxiety before. i had everything planned out three years ago, now im lost again. i dont have someone to talk to, i ruined the friendships i built with trust. i ruined my relationships with everyone and i act like the victim in my head. im a fucked up person and i wonder if my sadness and melancholy justifies all this. everyday i live with a weight on my shoulder. id say i want to try my best today with a lump on my throat. i tell my mom im having fun but then i turn to a socially awkward girl alone. i tell her im doing fine but i really want to jump off our unit. im becoming a threat to myself, im becoming so lost that i need something to believe in again. im so lonely, im so alone, but i pushed away everyone else. maybe this is all im meant to be, really. i dont think the blues will ever me leave me, ive been accustomed to feeling sad and hurt all the time that im scared of being happy. does it even suit me?
i need help. i really need to figure out whats wrong with me. ive always yearned for help. i gaslighted myself a year ago that i didnt need it anymore, i still do. but what will i do when no ones listening to me? when my parents care about imagery rather than my wellbeing? when they care about other people telling them that their daughters 'fucked in the head', well i am. and to the people who tells me that i am, well i am, and probably you guys are and your children feels the same too.
what will the girl who dreamed of becoming a beautician think about the girl who i am now? what will my other selves say about me? ill forever mourn the girl who i wanted to be. the writer, the poet, someone who writes for a living and just sits down in her room with a view. i could also work in a library or in a museum, where i could stare at art and write about it. i want to write. and im sorry lola that i didnt get to finish the story i was writing for you. im sorry im not becoming someone you wished to be. im sorry to everyone who i let down. to my mom, you really are my best friend and im thankful to everything youve done for me, and the little things youve done to make me feel better. to my dad, thank you for the sacrifices you made for us, for my education, despite not being there physically. but you know, i had a lot of trauma growing up and carrying them now because of you two. my social anxiety, the way im afraid to speak up, when im asked about something i dont respond, because everything feels like a wrong answer. and a wrong answer always equates to screaming and shouting and punishing me physically for discipline. but dont worry, i guess, i tried to accept it with love. love equals hate, after all. the two of you did your best, but im sorry. i just want to sleep now.

Hi EFOASBWIUATWFAIDTF, I had my first one-night stand recently. Afterward, he kind of rolled over in bed. I didn't know if I was supposed to leave, go to sleep, or be the big spoon. What's normal in this situation? Help! -Katia
Hi Katia! Whether it's romance or designing the next big revolution in SaaS for food delivery, you have to play to win! Set your eyes to the horizon, take what you want and pay for it.
That's how it was for me designing BOREAS. I needed access to the best consultants. Do you think it was cheap to dream up product names like iPhone or Fruitopia? No, I had to liquidate my 401(k). But you've got to go all in on yourself, go big or go home. In your case Katia, I'm not sure how close you live if you did go home or if the L was still running. But even if it wasn't, I recently learned that all of your expenses, whether an Uber ride home or pet insurance, can be deducted from your taxes if you own your own business. HTH! -Steve Lanston, founder and CEO of Saucily
 
Hi EFOASBWIUATWFAIDTF, I've been hanging onto some friendships with people who became snakes in adulthood. What do you do about toxic people you have become invested in? I feel like I'm going crazy! -Emily
Hi Emily! Great question. To be successful, you have to surround yourself exclusively with successful people. As the CEO of a potential fortune 500 company, I think about this a lot, because like you, I cannot afford to get dragged down. It's not you who's crazy, it's them.
This is the reason that I had the bittersweet task of firing my first employee. And it is why I am now in active litigation against him for undermining crucial intellectual property concerning features of BOREAS. Everyone knows that food delivery is huge right now: Door Dash, GrubHub, Uber Eats, etc. But SaaS to help these companies coordinate with each other so that customers can get sauces and toppings from other restaurants? It's a game changer. Eric knew what he was doing when sent those tweets.
Like me, you can't let injustice go unanswered. This may mean you have to go it alone sometimes. But you are the only person you can count on. Why do you think I bought a gaming computer to host our website from my apartment? It's because AWS is too unreliable. But I can count on myself. And so can you, Emily! HTH! -Steve Lanston, founder and CEO of Saucily
 
Hi EFOASBWIUATWFAIDTF, I am a consumate femcel (kissless, handhold-less virgin). I was recently accepted to a Master's program in NYC, and I am moving this fall (although I might defer til the spring). I want to reinvent myself, but I feel like whatever I do will look awkward and someone will laugh at me. What can I do to shed my ugly duckling persona and finally become a sought-after swan? I need your advice, please! -Cammy
Hi Cammy! One of the oldest truths is that life is full of hardships, but you have to face them head on and then pick yourself up and keep going. It's what we do when life throws us a curve ball that defines us. First ask yourself this: "Am I ready to be inspired?" Are you?
Are you ready to stop looking back and be your best self going forward? Are you ready to turning getting laid off at 46 and then losing your Amazon internship for taking home a bottle of Sriracha into a once-in-a-generation business? Every successful company has some kind of unfair advantage. What's your unfair advantage, Cammy? What asset or work ethic do you have that other girls will leave on the table? What's your secret sauce? Our secret sauce is Fire sauce from Taco Bell served on a Big Mac from McDonalds. It's one of those things that's obvious in hindsight. But you have to be the first person who sees that opportunity before everyone else follows.
I also want to say that your first sales are always the hardest. But just imagine, you start with one sale. And then two. Before long, your runway is growing, and you can afford to pay down the loans you took. Don't worry if they laugh at you, Cammy. Find your secret sauce and then lean into it. I forget who said it, but first they think you're crazy, then they fight you, and then all of a sudden you change the world. -Steve Lanston, founder and CEO of Saucily

Throwaway account.
My family (me, SO, two kids 3 and 8 months) had to evacuate our town today due to wildfire encroaching out of control. It was scary but we were prepared and had a place to flee to.
While my husband drove us through bumper to bumper conditions under a sky that looked like the Upside Down from Stranger Things, I texted our family to keep them updated. I put his immediate family in a group text and texted them the information. Basically, we’re safe but we’re evacuating due to wildfire conditions worsening today. Headed to a safe place hopefully for an extra long weekend and will keep you updated. Blah blah.
His stepmom and sister respond, stay safe. But MNMIL says “have a good long weekend!”
…are you fucking kidding me?
I swipe outta the chat and an hour later she texts me: “I feel like an ass, I didn’t read the whole text”
Maybe you feel like an ass because you are one?? She then proceeds to wax on about how she had no idea the fire was so close to where we live (which is 12 hours from SO’s family). Even though we’ve been on alert since Friday.
This is seriously looking like a last straw to me. She makes so little effort to be involved in our lives. She doesn’t know what we’re up to, if the kids are sick, if we’re doing okay or drowning in life. Nothing. She doesn’t ask. Phones go one way, and my SO is insistent on keeping her in his life. I am whatever about it, as long as his efforts don’t encroach on OUR family time. Hes talked to her about communication going both ways but she never follows through.
Shes forgotten birthdays, but this one stings. The event today was potentially traumatic, we’ve been packed ready to go for days… and she’s never checked in, never asked. Even when we phoned on Mother’s Day. It’s all about her all the time.
I m just so hurt right now. Selfishness is such an ugly quality to me, I can’t unsee it. I can’t imagine not giving a shit about my baby girls in 30 years just cuz they’ll be grown up.

The title is true but not in the way you think.
TL;DR - My friend liked me n got jealous of my love for someone else, we went no contact, our friend died, we got back in contact and im not sure if his current relationship is good for him right now.
I 19F met Daniel 19M when I was 8. He lived next door and I befriended him and his sister. We always constantly hung out doing whatever kids do.
In 2016 he moved to another country because his mom was dying of cancer, I barely kept in touch considering I was a child with no phone.
2021 they came back, and we immediately clicked as if those years no contact didn’t happen.
Daniel was very quiet and reserved, I was more out. I guess he warmed up to that and we became real close.
Thru out the months he started up his social life after being gone for a long time and started going to the gym. He would beg me to go but I wouldn’t find interest in it.
He ended up convincing me, I went. A week in we met this girl 20F (I’ll call her X). I found her pretty attractive. I always knew I was gay n my appearance doesn’t hide it. I never thought I’d have to mention it to Daniel since we’d both talk about girls we found attractive at the time, and I’m 5’10 with short hair and dress manlier then he does. I’ve never had to mention it to anyone, everyone just knew I was gay.
Daniel’s sister (I’ll call her Patti) befriended this insanely attractive girl we’d met. To make a long story short; she found me attractive too, we started FaceTiming as a group (X, Patti, and I) then late after Patti would sleep, X and I would spend the rest of the night talking. I was falling deeply in love.
X and myself weren’t secretive about our feelings for eachother. I think it’s important to mention she was the first I’ve ever gotten this far with. I began realizing Daniel was resentful towards X. Being really dry with her when she talked to him. Giving nasty faces, and just overall a very obvious way of showing he didn’t like her.
I on the other hand was drowning in her every chance I got, I guess you can say I started hanging with her more, which is normal when meeting a new potential lover but I should also say Daniel had his own friends he would hang with before and after X and I never had a problem with any of it. I befriended his friends too.
He started avoiding me, becoming dry, showing obvious signs of depression. He came to my house one night crying and opened up about how he feels lonely and wants a gf.
Later on I find out from a close friend that Daniel likes me. That he wanted to tell me but a majority of his friends were telling him I’m clearly gay. As well as one of my close friends telling him it too. He ended up telling me and I told him how I thought he knew I was into girls which I guess he was oblivious to, not sure how but he was.
Daniel and I stayed close for a bit but then he started to change. All he talked about was how he gets so much Pü$$y and acting like disrespecting girls is a fun hobby for him. At this point me and X were in a relationship. I mentioned to him how ugly he sounds talking like that, n how when he first got here and had his own personality instead of an adopted one he was better to be around.
We drifted and he’d call and text to check up on me thru out the year but nothing more than that. He worked with X and she had told me that he called her a good b*tch during some interaction. I texted him and very civilly said to not say that shi to her n that if he had any respect for me he would respect her despite his negative feelings towards her. He took it as me telling him to not talk to her and went about that telling X he’s “not allowed to talk to her” which I never said.
After that we rarely spoke at all. The other day one of his friends (someone I used to hang with) died in a very horrific/violent accident. It had been a year and a half since I spoke to Daniel atp. I called him and we spoke, he was obviously devastated and I texted him after letting him know I was here whenever he needed it.
I visited our friend’s grave today and saw him there. He didn’t speak to me or my friend or older sisters who were also good friends with him. We came home and FaceTimed him. We sat for an hour, we talked about our friend, what we’ve all been up to and laughed a bit for a good hour. After we hung up I texted him that it was good catching up and seeing him smile after all that’s happened and we started chatting from there. I basically told him that doesn’t matter what happened with us or how much time passed by, that we’ve known eachother long enough that we’re family by nature atp.
I would like to add that I saw him a few times in the no contact phase and he was completely distant. Except I realized something was off. I later found out he has a gf.
After some connecting of the dots. I realized she is manipulating him and taking control. He’s mentioned he cut everybody off and only talked to his gf when I saw him at Walmart some time ago. I went on his tiktok and every video is of her. Not even himself. I went on his insta that he just made and saw married in the bio. Then I saw her socials. On her tiktok she had a video about her ex, she also had nothing in her insta bio and then a video captioned something like she’d kill or run over any girl that tries talking to her bf (Daniel)
Not to mention he doesn’t even talk to my friend when he sees her and they were really good friends with no bad blood. My sister tried giving him a fist bump and he hesitated even tho he’d be the first to initiate when he saw us in public before.
Now you might not find this manipulative or controlling but hear this, while I was on FaceTime with him I mention seeing a vid of him and his gf on my tiktok to which he replied “I hate those videos” to which my friend asked why and he mentioned how his gf made him post them so that it’s known he’s with her. And she also made him create a whole new insta and put married in the bio. And he did it because he felt bad as to how she got cheated on before him. Which made no sense.
I didn’t pry because we hadn’t talked in a minute but I plan to be here for him more, because even tho I don’t know his gf I know that anyone that does that is never good in the long run & her requests will only get worse until she’s dug him in a hole deep enough where he feels like she’s the only one who can get him out since she’s slowly cutting himself off of everything except her. And after having his best friend die in the most brutal way, someone like that is the last thing he needs in his greiving and healing journey. And because I can also admit I miss having my best friend.
To those of you who have been in a toxic relationship, you can acknowledge these are beginning signs of one. To those of you who’ve never been in a toxic relationships, trust it only gets worse from there^.
Even if we don’t get close, it’s enough knowing he’s not suffering more than he already is with his friends passing.

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You hear legends about skinwalkers, monsters of all kinds. You hear about aliens living among us. But you never actually believe it. Until you see it for yourself. A couple months ago, I was just a regular father. Working full time at Christopher’s Auto’s as a mechanic. I had a beautiful 17 year old daughter. Straight A honor student. Cheerleader and debate captain. She had her whole life ahead of her. Until he showed up….he was the new kid at school. Your typical bad boy rebel. I tried as any father does to keep his daughter away from such types. But they never listen. Little did I know, he was no ordinary kid. He was an extraterrestrial. Living on earth. For what I couldn’t say. All I know is one night she went out. And I got a call from her 4 hours later. “Daddy…..” I checked her location from my phone and drove as fast as I could. When I got there, what I saw was horrifying. Something that I couldn’t explain. His 2024 Camaro had crashed into Jason’s Grocery. Her boyfriend threw the driver door off its hinges. He stood up and looked at me. And gave me a smile that made my blood run cold. His eyes were black. He had a greenish glow about him. I ran to her side of the car….all I saw was her blood that covered her and the seat…she was gone…my little girl…I looked at him with an anger and despair I had never known before. “I’ll kill you!!” “You’ll wish you never laid eyes on my daughter!” He appeared in front of me within seconds and threw me across the parking lot. “Shame”, he said, I’ll have to go find me a new one”

I, F(30) is married for 10 years na. My husband M(29) is a good povider. Mabait at maalaga sa kids, tumutulong sa house chores. May itsura at malambing. Yun nga lang, malambing kahit sa katrabaho.
Since good looking si mister, bata pa at mahusay din manamit, di maiwasan may ma-aattract sa kanyang katrabaho. First one was in a private company. Mas bata din yung girl and same sila ng mga tipong style and looks. Husband loves shoes kaya malakas dating sknya pag ganon din yung girl. I am the typical tita kasi pag pumorma. Not a sneakerhead.
He kept denying the affair at sinasabi palaging ako lang nag iisip non until 4 months ng gaslighting and denying, naretrieve ko deleted phone calls nya. Again, it was all because of this tiny voice na naguutos saken to check his phone that day. They were talking for like 10-15 minutes, 6x nung araw lang na yun. Before that, there's this kutob na bigla ko lang naramdaman out of nowhere. Alam mo yung kinabahan ka bigla at napaisip, bakit lagi syang late umuwi, bakit palaging OT daw, bakit di sya tumatawag or chat pag nasa office and so on. All this time tama lahat ng hinala ko at kutob.
Nagkaayos kami and we tried to start again since I can tolerate pa dahil flirting stage pa lang sila. But nauulit sya this time. Bigla ulit nakaramdaman ng kutob at takot out of nowhere after 4 years na ok naman kami. Sa government na sya nag wowork now at madalas ang out of town seminar. I dont know if overthinker lang ba talaga ako or what. I tried to communicate with him pero balik sa "ikaw lang nagiisip ng kung ano-ano" stage kami. Ang bigat sa dibdib.