Urdu maa ki choot me bete ka land

i joined allen digital after my 10th boards, first two months went smoothly. gradually, i started getting distracted and eventually i lost control over myself and literally stopped studying. kal karungi kal karungi kar kar ke 11th ke finals aa gaye. i passed but at what cost. i was once a topper and now i was barely passing. woh toh qismat achi thi isliye 11th nikal gaya. 12th mein i thought now i will get serious and study. again, i did the same blunder. gave uo on studies altogether. i accept my mistake. distract hoke jo maine harkatein ki hai, khud ka hi time waste kiya 2 saal, ab mujhe regret ho raha. but the catch is, 10th mein maine papa ko bola tha mujhe law karna hai, papa said no, isme koi scope nahi hai. i come from a family jaha mummy papa have always controlled all my decisions. +2 ke admission ke time maine bola papa ko ki jee ki tayyari karni hai (lmao) toh phe le leti hu, manageable rahega, usme bhi papa ne mana karke cs dilwa diya. they have always controlled me. itna controlling environment hai ki mujhe school ke alawa kabhi bahar jaane nahi milta. kabhi bhi nahi, unless parents ke saath hu. fir woh mujhe hi blame karte ki tu itni naive kyu hai, kuch kar kyu nahi paati, itni socially awkward kyu hai. khair, this doesn't matter. mujhe arts lena tha aur law karna tha but mere paas pcb aur pcm wala hi option tha. mujhe laga pcb lungi toh neet ke ratrace mein fasungi aur niklega bhi nahi (lmao pt 2) isliye pcm choose kiya. uss time mere paas byju (maa ka loda, iskka course kabhi mat lena) ka subscription tha toh unhone mummy papa ko iit ke sapne dikha diye, jaldi jaldi mein jee hi choose kiya maine bina kuch soche samjhe. problem yeh hai ki, mujhe samajh nahi aa raha mujhe drop leke clat dena chahiye ya jee. iss baar padhungi because yeh last chance hai. papa ki retirement hai and i don't have any male figure in my life jo mujhe financially provide kare. being the oldest daughter, i have to take control. clat dungi toh 2030 mein graduate karungi, bohot late ho jayega. jee dungi toh 2029 mein graduate karungi, yeh theek thaak hai. abhi toh cuet de rahi hu, isse mujhe kuch zyada expectations nahi hai kyuki fir upsc ki tayyari mein lagna padega aur nahi nikla toh na ghar ki rahungi na ghat ki. ba ki degree ka hi shaadi ka card bann jayega. papa keh rahe nda ka exam dedo, but mujh mein na discipline hai na willpower yeh karne ka. clat december mein hai. papa toh yeh bhi keh rahe ki agle saal ca ka exam de dena lol, blud wants me to study subjects of all streams. mujhe starting se lagta tha ki mujhe pcm mein interest nahi, i am in a dilemma kyuki i don't know mujhe pcm mein interest nahi ya fir maine padhayi nahi ki isliye mujhe yeh lagta hai. mujhe toh ab samajh nahi aa raha mera interest kis cheez mein hai. i feel lost. iss saal boards mein 75% wala criteria bhi clear nahi hua, isc se hu isliye hamara improvement hot raha hai, jee ka plan bana toh improvement dena padega july mein, clat ka criteria toh clear ho gaya hai. help kardo, advice chahiye, i am serious this time (lmao pt 3). tl;dr : 2 saal makkari ki, mastikhori mein time waste kiya, karna law tha par jee kiya parental pressure mein, drop lekar clat du ya jee.

Urartian: Ale (he says) Kurdish: Ale ئەڵێ (he says)
Urartian: Shuri (sword) Kurdish: Shur شوور (sword) Armenian: Sowr
Urartian: Kuri (foot, leg) Kurdish: Qul قول (foot, leg)
Urartian: xur (deep) Kurdish: xuqul/kur خووڕ/قوول/کوور (deep),
Hurrian: agul (carve) Kurdish: 'kol-[în]' کۆڵین : (to digg), kêla: (plow)
Urartian: shini (you, plural) Kurdish: hin هین/هون (you, plural, cf. sh>h a regular sound change in Kurdish)
Urartian: apa (he/she/it) Kurdish: awa, aw/ava, av cf. Kurdish p>w and p>v ئەوە (he/she/it)
Urartian: Sale (kid) Kurdish: Zaro زارۆ (kid) Armenian: jar (he-goat)
Urartian: tali (stick) Kurdish: têla (stick, cf. Kurdish a>ê)
10) Urartian: papi/bab/babani (mountain top) Kurdish: pope پۆپە (head)/ bani بانی (mountain top)
Urartian: qal/kar (kill/slay, subjugate) Kurdish: qir قڕ (kill, slay, cf Kurdish a>i)
Hurrian: shur (war) Kurdish: sher شەڕ (war)
Urartian: bidia (turn) Kurdish: bada-n بادان (turn)
Urartian: da (give) Kurdish: da, دا (give, Iranic and other IE languages have a similar lexeme)
Urartian: xus/hush (throw) Kurdish: xis-[tin]/hawish-[tin] خستن/هاویشتن (throw, cf Kurdish u>i)
Urartian: karbe (rock, stone) Kurdish: karra کەڕا (rock, stone) Armenian: qar (rock, stone)
Urartian: quira (earth, dust) Kurdish: qur, xol قوڕ/خۆڵ (earth, dust)
Hurrian: arte (earth, soil) Kurdish: ard ئەرد/هەرد (earth, soil, cf Kurdish rt > rd)
Urartian: $erab (dry) Kurdish: chora چۆڕا (dry) Armenian: caraw (dry)
20) Urartian: eue (and) Kurdish: u ئوو (and) but see even Iranic ''ut''
Urartian: tur ( to leave) Kurdish: tor-[an], تۆران to leave
Urartian: ul (to go) Kurdish: lu-wan لوان (to go)
Urartian: ulhu (order) Kurdish: ol ئۆل (religion)
Urartian: bura (slave, servant) Kurdish: bora بۆرە (commoner, low-class)
Urartian: xarxar (destroy) Kurdish: xirxal خرخاڵ (destroyed)
Urartian: ale (but) Kurdish: lê لێ (but)
Urartian: duli (grape) Kurdish: trê, tirî ترێ (grape, cf. l>r and u>i) Armenian: toli (grape)
Urartian: kapi (capacity measure) Kurdish: kap/qap کاپ/قاپ (capacity measure)
Urartian: nah (to bring) Kurdish: hên-an/han-în هانین/هێنان (to bring)
30) Urartian: pare (toward) Kurdish: pîr پیر (toward),
Urartian: pile (water canal) Kurdish: pil-û-sk پلووسک (rain canal)
Urartian: tan (lay down) Kurdish: dan-[an] دانان (lay down)
Hurrian: id- (hit, strike) Kurdish: -d- (hit strike); ([lê] d-[an])
Urartian: teq- (to thump, to break) Kurdish: teq-[în] تەقین (to thump, to break)
Urartian: uzgi (power, strength) Kurdish: wuze وزە (power, strength, cf. Kurdish u- > w-)
Urartian: mari (lord, horseman) Kurdish: mir میر (lord, compare also with the Semitic ''Amir'')
Urartian: shu/shia (to go) Kurdish: chu, چوو (to go, cf. also Iranic ''shiyaw'')
Urartian: euri (lord) Kurdish: hêwir هێور (brave)
Urartian: xarari (calm) Kurdish: oqre ئۆقرە (calm), Armenian:
40) Urartian: zar (orchard) Kurdish: zar زار (orchard) Armenian: car (tree)
Urartian: ur (to place down) Kurdish: wer-[in], وەرین (to place down, cf. Kurdish u-> w- )
Urartian: wal, (to win) Kurdish: wêr-an وێران (to dare)
Urartian: zelbi (descendant) Kurdish: zol زۆڵ (bastard)
Urartian: zeld, (to shatter the enemies) Kurdish: zal زاڵ (to shatter the enemies)
Urartian: qarqar (throat) Kurdish: qurg قورگ (throat, compare also with the Irano-Kurdish garû, and Persian galu, there is also another word in Kurdish: qurquroska)
Hurrian: kut/kud (to make fall, to kill) Urartian: qot (piece) Kurdish: kut کوت (piece), kut-a کوتان (to smash), kud (to kill)
Urartian: xubi (valley) Kurdish: qopi قۆپی (valley, vale, plain)
Urartian: xare (to march, to raid) Kurdish: xar غار (to march, to raid)
Hurrian: Hiuri (smoke) Kurdish: Hulm هوڵم (steam)
50) Urartian: $ue (river, lake) Kurdish: chom/gom چۆم/گۆم (rive lake) Armenian: cov (lake)
Hurrian: tiv (word) Urartian: tiw (to speak) Kurdish: diw-an دوان (to speak)
Urartian: abeli/aweli (attach, increase) Kurdish: awale/awela ئاواڵە/ئاوەڵا (open)
Urartian: an, (no) Kurdish: na, نا (no; there is also a similar equivalent in Iranic)
Urartian: ari-beri Kurdish: birin برن (to carry, there is also a similar equivalent in Iranic)
Urartian: ewani/ebani (land) Kurdish: -wan وان (suffix used after place-names)
Urartian: kulune (side) Kurdish: qulin-chk قولینچک/ qurne قوڕنە (side, corner) Armenian: koln
Urartian: man (to stay) Kurdish: man مان (to stay), (resembles even Iranic, cf. New Persian ''mandan'')
Urartian: mana Urartian: me (prohibitive particle) Kurdish: me مە (prohibitive particle)
60) Urartian: pahi (cattle) Hurrian: pedari (cattle) Kassite: badar (bull, cattle) Kurdish: patal پاتاڵ (cattle) Armenian: paxre
Urartian: par, to take off Kurdish: pirr [-dan] پڕ (to take off, cf. Kurdish a>i)
Urartian: kamn (old, earlier) Kurdish: kavn/kawn کەڤن/کەون (old, cf. m>v but also Iranic ''kohan'' which has led to Kurdish ''kon'')
Urartian: pe? (under) Kurdish: pe? پێ (under, foot, cf. even Iranic pey)
Urartian: shid (build) Kurdish: chê-[kirin], چێ (build cf, kurdish d>nil)
Hurrian: awari Kurdish: awari ئەواری (land, country, field, cf. kurdawari, کوردەواری / warê me وارێ مە) (Armenian agarak has been suggested as an Armenian loan from 'awari'. Kurdish has even 'garak' with the same meaning). Urartian: ur (territory)
Urartian: qapqari Kurdish: gamaro (p>w>m cf Kurdish ziman Urartian: sher (hide) Kurdish: sheshar شێر/وەشارتن (hide)
Urartian: quldi (uninhabited) Kurdish: kawil (کاول) (annihilate,destruction)
Urartian: ar- (give) Kurdish: ar- (give, dialectal as in Slêmanî, for example: ''bi-ar-ê'': بیەرێ ''give him'')
70) Urartian: ture (destroy) Kurdish: ture تووڕە (angry)
Urartian: aba (desire) Kurdish: awat ئاوات (desire), aw-in ئەوین (to love)
Urartian: ada (again) Kurdish: idi ئیدی (another, anymore)
Urartian: shal-i (year) Kurdish: sal ساڵ (year, but Iranian ''sard'', New Persian has also ''sal'') Armenian: tari
Urartian: šeh-i/eri/e, living Kurdish: zhiyar ژیار (living)
Urartian: arnu-ia (come to the aid of) Kurdish: hana هانا (come to the aid of, cf Kurdish a- >ha- )
Urartian: lak- (to destroy) Kurdish: Rûx-[an] رووخان (to destroy)
Urartian: 'are (granary) Kurdish: harr هاڕ (granary, cf Kurdish ha-<-a, notice 'zimharr' زمهاڕ, meaning 'winter granary')
Urartian: ieshti (here) Kurdish: hêsthte هێشتە (now)
Urartian: meshe (part, tribute, share) Kurdish: mûche مووچە (part, tribute, share)
80) Urartian: pi$ushe (joy) Kurdish: pishû پشوو (holyday, vacation)
Hurrian: sheshe (six) Kurdish: shesh شەش (six, but it is the same even in Iranic)
Urartian: izidu (admonish, command) Kurdish: ezidi ئێزیدی (name of a native religion in Kurdistan)
urartian: yarani (kind of cultic building, altar) Kurdish: yari یاری (name of a native religion in Kurdistan)
Urartian: aleu (dignity) Kurdish: alewi ئالەوی (name of a native religion in Kurdistan)
Urartian and Hurrian: /-i/, /-iye/ (his, her, its) Kurdish: /-i/, /-y/ ی (his, her, its)
Hurrian: /-v/ (your) Kurdish: /-w/ و (your)
Urartian: ushanu (award, bestow, feel affection for ) Kurdish: wuchan وچان (rest, reprieve)
Urartian: napahia (submission, bondage, domestication) Kurdish: nawi نەوی (low, a low level, position or degree), (p>w)
Urartian: tur (defeat, destroy) Kurdish: dor- دۆڕ (defeat)
90) Urartian: sal-zi (steep, abrupt) Kurdish: sila سڵا (height)
Urartian: sil-e (woman, doughter) Kurdish: selar سەلار (mistress of the house, beautiful woman) (note ''Selardi'', a lunar goddess of Urartu)
Urartian: lutu (woman) Kurdish: lute لووتە (quoquettish woman)
Urartian: uldie (vineyard) Kurdish: lote لۆتە (grapes hanged in order to be sun dried in a vineyard)
Urartian: nikidu (water) Kurdish: niqdo/niqût نقووت/نقدۆ (water infiltration, water dropping, water penetration), (plus some other cognates of the word)
Urartian: kan/kain (in front of) Kurdish: kin کن (in front of, near) (but cf. also Iranic ''kenar'')
Urartian: haš-ia: (be interested in) Kurdish: haz حەز (be interested in, love, like)
Urartian: d-u-: (do, cause to do) Kurdish: da/di: ده/د (do, cause to do, used as a preffix for verbs)
Urartian: shalur (medlar) Kurdish: shalor شەلۆر (nectarine) Armenian: salor (plum) (clearly borrowed via Kurdish)
Urartian: mure (house) Kurdish: mal ماڵ (house)
100) Urartian: urishi (weapon) Kurdish: hereshe هەڕەشە (threat), /(there is also ''huruzhim'': هوروژم attack)
Hurrian: shini (two) Kurdish: shingil شنگڵ (twin, twin fruit)
Urartian: egur-hu (free) Kurdish: xorayi خۆرایی (free)
Urartian: bad-gul (surround) Kurdish: bawe-xulê باوەخولێ (turn around, also a kids game)
Urartian: aish-ti (leap, jump) Kurdish: hej-an هەژان (quake)
Urartian: ibirani (whole, complete, full) Kurdish: pirani پڕانی (majority)
Hurrian: hinzur (apple? pear?) Kurdish: hencor هەنجۆر (unripe melon)
Urartian: kut-u (reach) Kurdish: (geh<*ged) گەهشتن/گەیشتن (reach)
Urartian: ai/ay: (look, take care) Kurdish: aw-ir ئاوڕ (look)
Urartian: di/erasia (fear) Kurdish: tirs ترس (fear, but cf. also Iranic ''tars'')
110) Urartian: Ti/er-usi, measure for liquid Kurdish: Telîs?تەلیس measure of unit
Hurrian: ben Kassite: ban Kurdish: minal مناڵ (child)
Kassite: nadz (shade) Kurdish: nisê نسێ (shade)
Kassite: ulam (son, child) Urartian: alaue (man) Kurdish: law لاو (young boy)
Hurrian: çugi Kassite: tsugi Kurdish: chuk چووک (small)
Hurrian: ewri (dog) Kurdish wer-în وەرین (barking of dog)
Hurrian: shiye (watery) Kurdish: she شە (moisture)
Urartian: zainua (high) Kurdish: zinar زنار (high cliff, high boulder)
Hurrian: shalmi (ashes, to burn) Kurdish zhilemo ژیلەمۆ (burning ashes)
Urartian: amash (burnt) Kurdish mêsh مێش (burnt ashes) (cf. ê 120) Hurrian: puhi (nose) Kurdish: (kepû) کەپۆ (nose)
Urartian: shepuiaru (spoil) Kurdish: sheprêwشپڕێو (disorderly)
Urartian: mesh- (distribute, share) Kurdish: wesh-[an] وەشان (distribute, share)
Urartian: teribi (monument) Kurdish: tirb ترب (monument, grave) (not be confused with Arabic 'turbat': soil)
Hurrian: fur-i (viw) Urartian: wur-i (view) Kurdish: wuria وریا (viewer, careful), awur ئاووڕ (sight), (even the Kurdish verb ''ruwan''-[in] (view) is likely connected to the Urartian ''wur'', rarther than being a metathesis for Iranic ''negar'')
Hurrian: halv- (enclose) Kurdish: hal- هاڵ (enclose)
Urartian: kul-me (wealth, prosperity) Kurdish: kel-k کەڵک (profitable, usefulness)
Hurrian: pâl (false) Kurdish: fêl فێڵ (fraud)
Hurrian: tapsh- (destroy) Kurdish: tawjm تەوژم (pressure), tapi (destroy)
Hurrian: apxe (louse) Kurdish: aspe ئەسپێ (louse)
130) Hurrian: kapp- (fill) Kurdish: kipp کپ (filled)
Hurrian: azhoge (meal) Kurdish: azhge/zig (stomach)
Hurrian: kul- (to speak) Kurdish: qul- قوول (to speak aloud)
Hurrian: timeri (black) Kurdish: tem تەم (darkness)
Urartian: tara-gie (powerful, strong) Kurdish: daraqat دەرەقەت (to be powerful, to be strong)
Urartian: tam-hu (eliminate separate) Kurdish: toq-[andin] Urartian: shi-u (carry away) Kurdish: shi-[andin] (send)
Urartian: anda-ni (right) Kurdish: and ئاند (right)
Urartian: irb-u (take away grab) Kurdish: rev-[andin]/rif-[andin] (take away, grab) (but cf. also Iranian 'robudan', take away, grab)
Urartian: pit- (beat apart, destroy) Kurdish: pis-/pichr- (beat apart, destroy)
140) Urartian: tishni (heart) Kurdish: dine دنە (encourage) (cf. t > d & sh > nil)
Urartian: ti-ni (name) Kurdish: deng دەنگ (voice)
Urartian: bauše (word) Kurdish: wuše وشە (word)
Urartian: durba (revolt, rebel) Kurdish: tola (revenge)
Urartian: hut-ia (to ask) Kurdish: qut-abî (student)
Hurrian: fir (remove, untie) Kurdish: fir, firê (throw)
Hurrian: halme (singing) Kurdish: hore هۆرە (singing)
Hurrian: havur (heaven) Kurdish: hawr (cloud), (note also Indo-Iranic abra)
Urartian: agu (lead away) (of IE origin?) Kurdish: ajo-[tin] ئاژۆتن (lead away, drive)
Hurrian: asti (woman) Kurdish: astê (name of a beloved woman in Kurdish folklore)
150) Hurrian: tav/(-b) (to cast metal) Kurdish: taw (thaw, melt)
Hurrian: ai (if) Kurdish: ai (if)
Hurrian: alilan (lament) Kurdish: lalan (lament)
Hurrian: çabalgi (fault) Kurdish: çapal چەپەڵ (dirty)
Hurrian: xiyari (all) Kurdish: xir (all)
Hurrian: çere (donkey) Kurdish: ker (donkey)
Hurrian: çik- (break) Kurdish: shik- (break)
Hurrian: xîri (hour, time, moment) Kurdish: xêra خێرا (soon, hurry)
Hurrian: xizli (coiled) Kurdish: cexiz جەخز(coiled)
Hurrian: xub- (to break, to destroy) Kurdish: qup- (to break, to destroy)
160) Hurrian: istani (between, among) Kurdish: astang ئاستەنگ (obstacle)
Hurrian: izikun- (to wail) Kurdish: zikan- (to wail)
Hurrian: kakari (sort of ritual bread) Kurdish: kullêre, kellane (sort of ritual bread)
Hurrian: magunni (desire) Kurdish: magirani (desire)
‌Hurrian: shakari or sagari (sprout, bud) Kurdish: chakara چەکەرە (sprout, bud)
Hurrian: arushal (hurry) Kurdish: halasha هەڵەشە (stressful)
Hurrian: heni (now) Kurdish: henu-ke, niha, neha (now)
Hurrian: parili (crime) Kurdish: palamar پەلامار (attack)
Hurrian: adi (thus) Kurdish: dai (thus)
Hurrian: ak-i/u (other) Kurdish: -ka (other)
170) Hurrian: we (thou) Kurdish: ê-we (you)
Hurrian: buru (strong) Kurdish: wure ورە (strength)
Hurrian: çam (rip) Kurdish çam (bend)
Hurrian: zurgi (blood) Kurdish: zûx (blood), (compare, xwênaw=zûxaw)
Hurrian: xahli (cheek) Kurdish: kulm (cheek)
Hurrian: halwu (fence made with stones) Kurdish: hêl هێڵ (fence)
Hurrian: xawirni (lamb) Kurdish kawir کاوڕ (young sheep)
Hurrian: xamaz- (oppress) Kurdish chaws- (oppress)
Hurrian: hendz (constrain) Kurdish: hêndj (constrain)
Hurrian: xerari (sinew) Kurdish: kiroje (sinew)
180) Hurrian: xeshmi (bright) Kurdish: gesh (bright)
Hurrian: kalgi (weak) Kurdish qals/qirj (weak)
Hurrian: nali (deer) Kurdish: nêrî (male adult goat)
Hurrian: nawn- (pasture) Kurdish: naw- (pasture)
Hurrian: ul- (to, eat, to devour) Kurdish: lawar( la-war-) (to devour)
Hurrian: ubi (stupid, insane) Kurdish: hapa (stupid, insane)
Hurrian: ashxu (high) Kurdish: shax (mountain), also 'asê' means: uppward, high.
Hurrian: kaziari (high mountains of the Mesopotamian valley) Kurdish: kazh (high mountain)
Hurrian: kewiranna (the senate, the old men) Kurdish: gewran (the big ones, the adult ones)
Hurrian: kuzh- (to keep, to retain) Kurdish: kush- (to hold in hands, to press in hands), alt: Kurdish qoz- (to catch)
190) Hurrian: nekri ( Hurrian: shalhi (to listen) Kurdish: shil (listen)
Hurrian: siba (dry) Kurdish: zuwa زوا (dry)
Urartian: dibi (building, room) Kurdish: diw دیو (room)
Hurrian: shu (day) Kurdish: shawa-ki (morning, day)
Hurrian: shirat (narrate) Kurdish: shirove (narrate)
Hurrian: tishan (very much) Kurdish: tizha تژە (full)
Urartian: sutug (tear away, unjoin) Kurdish: shetek (knot)
Urartian: gey (anything) Kurdish gi گ (anything)
Hurrian: baz (enter) Kurdish: baz (pass by)
200) Hurrian: xeban-: (to set moving) Kurdish: xebi- خەبتین (to be active)
Hurrian: hamadz-: (to oppress) Kurdish: chaws- (to oppress)
Hurrian: haz- (to hear) Kurdish: bihiz-: (to hear)
Hurrian: xaz (to oil) Kurdish: xiz (oily, slippery)
Hurrian: pas- (to send somebody) Kurdish: pas- (to send, as in 'hal pasardin': 'to send into exile')
‌Hurrian: shagari (ram) Kurdish: shak (young sheep)
Hurrian: pal (know, understand) Kurdish: fêr (learn)
Urartian: -kai (position, in place) Kurdish: -ka (location suffix)
Urartian: muš- (true, fair) Kurdish: mušur موشوور (fairness)
Hurrian: abi (in front of) Kurdish: ba (in front of, near)
210) Hurrian: shimi (sun) Kurdish: shem (sun) (focilized in shemshemekwere, ''blind for the sun'': ''bat''.
Urartian: derzu/derju (order, arrangement) Kurdish: darêj- (order, arrangement)
Urartian: tep- (throw down) Kurdish: tep- (throw down)
Urartian: atqan: (to consecrate) Kurdish: tarxân (to consecrate)
Urartian: shuki (as) Kurdish: waki < hoki Hurrian: hur (drink) Urartian: xurishe (irrigator) Kurdish: qurishke قوریشکە (cup)
Urartian: ulx (flow out) Kurdish: bilqبڵق (b Urartian: alga-ni (mountain) Kurdish: Lêj لێژ (abrupt, steep)
Urartian: auiei (somewher) Kurdish: awê ئەوێ (there)
Urartian: puluse (inscription, stele) Kurdish: psule (voucher, receipt)
220) Urartian: niribe (herd) Kurdish: ran (herd)
Urartian: iese/ieshe? (I, pronoun) Kurdish: ez ئەز (I, resembles also the old Iranian 'azm', but which one is 'az' actually derives of? Armenians claim Armenian 'yes' (I) is derived of Ur. 'iese
Urartian: armuzi (family, clan, generation) Kurdish: hoz هۆز (clan) + rama (seed, from to-rama)
Hurrian: hemz (surround) Kurdish: amêz, hembêz ئامیز (hug)
Urartian: zani (cry out) Kurdish: zhan, jan, ژان (agony)
Hurrian: karshi (lips) Kurdish: kalpa کەڵپە (animal lips)
Hurrian: wirwir (loosen) Kurdish: wilwil ولوڵ (loosen)
Kassite: ash (earth, soil) Hurrian: esh (earth, soil) Kurdish: ax ئاخ (earth, soil)
Urartian: qarmexî (gift, present, sacrifice, celebration) Kurdish: qelin قەلین (gift, dowry)
Urartian: -atuhi (-ness) Kurdish: -ati (-ness)
230) Urartian: aman- (vessel, pot) Kurdish: aman- ئامان (vessel, pot)
God of lightning and storm Hurrian: Teshup Urartian: Tesheba Kassite: Tishpak Kurdish: Tishk تیشک (light, radiance)
Hurrian: shu (hand) Kurdish: shop (hand palm)
Hurrian: chilman- (to break, vanish) Kurdish: chilmis- (fade)
Urartian: shur (wall around a castle, fence, borders of the kingdom) Kurdish: shure (wall around a castle, fence)
Hurrian: xalwu (fence made with stones) Kurdish: xal خەڵ (fence made with stones)
Hurrian: ya/ye (who, which, what) Kurdish: ya/ye (who, which, what)
Hurrian: tun- (to win) Kurdish: tuna توونا (defeated, destroyed)
Hurrian: taridi (pot) Kurdish: tirar (pot)
Hurrian: kol (let off) Kurdish: kol (let off) (as in ''le kol bunewe'')
240) Hurrian:shir (to be suffiecent) Kurdish: têr (to be suffiecent)
Hurrian: ha (take) Kurdish: ha
Hurrian: tijari (spindle) Kurdish: teshi (spindle)
Hurrian: ábri (stock of wood-logs) Kurdish: awirdu (stock of wood-logs), awirig (oven)
Hurrian: baq- (destroy) Kurdish: baq- بەقین (explode)
Hurrian: bashi (mouth)Armenianlake Urmia Kurdish: bêj (to say), (common a>ê)
Hurrian: pashixi (message) Kurdish: pazhux (answer)
Hurrian: tad- (love) Kurdish: dalal (beloved) (common d>l)
Hurrian: tagi (beatiful) Urartian: taugi (clean) Kurdish: daq دەق (cheerful)
Hurrian: hild-/held- (high, raise, elevate) Kurdish: hild-/held- هەڵدان/هڵدان (rasie, elevate)
250) ‌Hurrian: kabli (copper) Kurdish: paqir پاقڕ (copper)
Kassite: kukla (slave) Kurdish: kukla (doll), kukm (homeless)
Hurrian: kumdi (tower) Kurdish: kumadj کۆماج (column)
Hurrian: kubakhi (hood) Kurdish: kumik (hood)
Urartian: korde (uncultivated, desolate) Kurdish: kode (uncultivated, desolate)
Hurrian: kundzi (to kneel) Kurdish: kudik (knee)
Hurrian: Xiríti (trench) Kurdish: Xir (trench)

I calculated my neet 2024 marks to be 437/720 and kal class 12th ka result aaya toh woh bhi itna khaas nahi tha, 81.2 percent aaye hai kyuki maths m marks chale gye. Meri maa boli ki itne marks m DU m bhi admission nahi milega. Mere parents are searching for private mbbs colleges. Mujhe Amity University Noida m bsc in neuroscience ka degree dikha, kyuki neurology m mujhe interest hai. Please suggest kya Karu, aur if you can suggest me some new options please wo bhi bta dijiye.
I won't take drop kyuki competition boht badh Raha hai aur mujhse ye neet ka natak ek saal aur nahi hoga.

So imma final year CS student, aur bhai mere job nahi lagi hai, par bhai kuch karne kaa jonoon hai, maa baap ko kush karna hai aur apna future bhi banana hai, so pls guid me...
Background : from tier 2 private cllg, know programming well, (typically mern stack ka 14 aur 200+ leetcode wala ) mere ek baar toc mei acche aye the to subject thoda acha lagta hai mujhe 🙂 ab yaad nahi kuch, maths to ghatna yaad hai mujhe shuru se padha hai sab kuch ( 12th ke bhi thode concepts revise karne honge), aur baki sab subjecta ka bhi same haal hai DSA ko chhod kar bas programming aati hai muze
1) How and where to start 2) What are some good resources 3) What best in your opinion ( offline/online) 4) What are good online classes in you opinion or experience ?
TLDR : launde ne bass backhodi ki hai cllg mei GATE ke liye guidance maang raha hai

Jee maine 1st attempt me 30%tile 2nd attempt me 18 %tile ( ye soch ke sab tukke krdiya tha ki ab mains me isse se bura kya hi ho skta hai ) now CBSE boards result come & got 52.8% with Compartment in maths now, so relative calling me even I'm not reciving call , they call my mom& dad and tesing him/ her that apka ladka to kota gaya tha ye mains me fail kaise ho hogya vo sab vo phir bhi theek hai ye CBSE me bhi fail ho gya awww .
Ab Mai kya kru Mera jine ki ek vajah bhi nhi bacchi , at the end maa ka pyaar aa jata hai
Ab drop liya hai jee + cbse ( 2025 ) & now Everyone says that academics comeback is just a myth ! परंतु का मेरे पास खोने के लिए बचा ही क्या है !

Jee maine 1st attempt me 30%tile 2nd attempt me 18 %tile ( ye soch ke sab tukke krdiya tha ki ab mains me isse se bura kya hi ho skta hai ) now CBSE boards result come & got 52.8% with Compartment in maths now, so relative calling me even I'm not reciving call , they call my mom& dad and tesing him/ her that apka ladka to kota gaya tha ye mains me fail kaise ho hogya vo sab vo phir bhi theek hai ye CBSE me bhi fail ho gya awww .
Ab Mai kya kru Mera jine ki ek vajah bhi nhi bacchi , at the end maa ka pyaar aa jata hai
Ab drop liya hai jee + cbse ( 2025 ) & now Everyone says that academics comeback is just a myth ! परंतु का मेरे पास खोने के लिए बचा ही क्या है !

So aaj boards ka result aaya and guess what my stupid ass scored 78.8 percentage (with highest in biology 82 like wtf jabki mein jee ki so called prep kar raha hu
kal pw ka jo short test diya tha us mein 96/96 aaye 10 baje result aaya maa baap full khush ki chalo thoda sa hi sahi par comeback to ho raha hai (not judging my test but they judged my seriousness)
fir madarchod result aa gaya aur papa thoda gussa ho gaye even told me a waste ( I am not blaming my father and pliz don't type you don't deserve him and all those bullshit bro just stfu and don't judge my family from this single line and my perspective)
par fir jab shaam ko thoda eavesdrop kara to suna ki papa bole ki chicken le aaye kya but my mom denied it saying ki aaj somvaar hai (my family are all shivbhakts and they say i was blessed with three marks on my forehead full badassery)
Physics : 26 question diye the 17 ho gaye baaki nahi bane even tho fight pura kiya
Chemistry : Bawaal chiz padhi be Fe0.93O wali chiz majaa aagaya hands down the best class
Maths : jaisa chal raha hai aur haa sir ne aaj se quad eqn start kara
aaj bhot kam self study hui aur raat ko jagkar apne notes + maths ke hw attempt karunga

its gonna be a long trauma dump.
im 19f, appeared in 12th this year, this would be my first drop. vaise to iss sun pe lurker rehti thi, aaj laga maybe kuch bol hi du to atleast relief rahega kisko dhang se bataya to. vaise to life meri bekar nhi hai overall dekha jaye to. yaha pe logo ka padho bc achhi lagne lagti hai life, and phir agle din vahi rr.
i was five almost, jb mere nana ne pehli baar mujhe touch kiya tha. mummy papa ka office rehta tha and bhaiya ka school to akele chhodne ki jagah nana ko bula lete the vo log ki mera dhyaan rakhe. achha dhyan rakhe the (apna lolzzz). now that i think about the movements and the way he'd shake afterwards, pyare nanaji was most probably cumming in his dhoti holding his five year old granddaughter on his thigh. (i mean, ladke shayad better jaane, kabhi kisi se detail mein puchha nhi iss baare mein. after it had got some action and y'all are ejaculating, do you guys like, freeze for a bit a breathe hard? agar nhi to im sorry for the wrong allegations). anyways that happened for a while. uske baad ka mujhe kuch yaad nhi. tbh ye bhi nhi yaad tha, until 3-4 saal pehle jb i read a similar scene in a book and ye yaad aaya phir shock mein chali gayi. had two beautiful frnds jinko bataya iss baare mein and they tried to help me out as best as they could. andar se ye bhi lagta tha ki mummy ko kabhi pata bhi chala to nahi manengi, isiliye parents se thoda grudge rehta tha and ladti jhagadati rehti thi.
fast forward to present, mai apne best friend ke saath relationship mein aa gayi and slowly but surely, he made a great impact on my relationship with my family. like uski uske parents ke saath achhe relations hain and ladka bhi sahi hai (haa pyar krti hu usse, mar jaungi ek din) to convince kr liya mujhe ki mere parents bhi pasand krte hain mujhe. and tb se mere relations meri family ke saath significantly improve hue. i even started to trust them.
to kya hai na, mummy and nana ki jamti nhi hai (he's neither a good husband nor a good father), isiliye mummy unse baat nhi krti. ek din recently mummy unhi ke baare mein upset thi and maine mummy se bol diya ki "uss aadmi se to mujhe nafrat hai. royi hu bestfriend ko batate hue" and mummy was like mujhe batao but mana kar di ki abhi nhi.
agle din she came to me and said ki unhe raat mein neend nhi aa rahi thi ye sochte hue ki aisa unhone kya kar diya ki I don't trust her but trust my frnds? phir bohot bolne pe mai unhe puri baat bata di (utni detail mein nhi obviously) and she was very supportive. boli ki "maa baap important hote hain par bachcho se zyada nhi. mai to vaise bhi unhe ghar na bulati but ab to sawal hi nhi uthata. shakal nhi dekhungi unki". and mai apne room mein aake rone lagi ki maine apni maa ko galat samjha ki vo mujhpe yakeen nhi karengi.
then agle din, i think jb mai ghar pe nhi thi tb mummy bhaiya ko ye baat batayi and he told her abt how once i confessed to him i was a lesbian (bisexual boli thi but lauda hai), and pata nhi kaise, mummy ko convince kr doya ki im making this whole story up for sympathy and to seem cool.
mummy aayi and mujhse boli ki "tum jo batayi ho, vo sach mein hua hai ya jo tum ghatiya books padhti ho, uski vajah se dimag mein baitha li ho ki mere saath bhi kuch galat hua hai?" and phir asked me abt that lesbian wala and told me ki inhi sab vajah se my face has lost its innocence and mai kuch nahi kar paayi hu. kaise i didn't deserve the marks i got in boards and sabka entrance exam tha but sab ek event mein aa rahe the but tumne kuch padha nhi tha isiliye nhi aayi (true but jisko neet dena hota vo aise bhi na aata). and how she feels ashamed and unsafe to go out with me varna i would wander off with "bhaiya log". that other girls of my age look smart and innocent and good even of they're fat. and gori ladkiyo ka chehra nhi pink hai, but you have yellowish tone and you never look smart, tumhare andar vo cheez hi nhi. she ended her speech with, "tumhari vajah se maine apne baap ko galat samjha. agar tum jhoote ilzam laga rahi ho to uska anjam dikhega." and then very lightly said, as if she didn't believe it, "aur agar mere baap ne kuch kiya hoga to bhagwan batayenge."
since that day, i haven't been able to look at my family the same way. the love, trust and respect i had for them seems gone. uss din ke baad mummy achhe se baa ki but bhul nhi paa rahi unn words ko. isse pehle bhi aisa bohot kuch boli hain vo jo bura laga tha but ye Dil tod diya. i can't believe my first heartbreak is from my mother itself.
isse pehle bhi she'd questioned my character. mai maanti hu, mai chutiye bachchi thi. nhi samjhti thi kuch. school bus mein achhe bhaiya log mile the to sabko achha samajhti thi and apne age ke logo se ghul mil nhi paati thi. isiliye almost got tricked by a senior jo uss time 11th mein the (i was in 6th, koi dost nhi tha to attention ki bhukhi rehti thi). uske liye mummy branded me as "characterless". I WAS IN SIXTH, NHI PATA THA MUJHE KUCH. phir ek baar humlog kahi gaye the and mummy dusri seat pe chali gayi mujhko leke jbki meri dost pichhe ki seat pe thi. i tried going to her to uss time to mummy bas gusse se dekhi but ghar aake boli ki how im such a bad daughter, achhe ghaf ki ladkiya sirf apne mummy papa ke paas rehti hain but tumko to matakna rehta hai. tumhare jaisi ladkiyo ko characterless rehte hain, kisi ki nhi hoti hain. (this was in class 9th).
ho sakta hai mai apna side leke dekh rahi hu isiliye mai khud ko sahi samajh rahi. but galti kya ki maine ye to koi achhe se explain karo???
recent ye nana wala batane ke baad to bas yahi manati hu roz bhagwan se ki maar daale mujhe. sach nata rahi, jb dekhega na koi sirf meri mummy papa aur bhaiya ko saath mein, to itne perfect lagte hain. and mai manhoos ki yarah aa jaati hu beech mein. (mumma thinks ki mera chehra normal rehne pe mahoos lagta hai, i should be smiling har samay varna apni life barbaad ke dungi aisi shakal bana ke).
marne ka ya relapse krne ka (i used to self harm) roz mann krta hai, but apni best friend aur apne bf ke baare mein sochke ruk jaati hu. sach mein doni pagal pyaar krte hain mujhse. bestfriend ki life already laudi ho rakhi hai, aur nhi pareshan krna, bf ki life mein pehle hi bohot trauma the, ab badhane ka mann nhi. i promised him I'd helo him heal.
ab 15 aur 16 ko cuet hai but padha nhi hai kuch and pata nhi kaise niklega. nikalka bhi zaruri hai varna home life aur fucked up ho jaayegi plus ghar se niklungi to insabme dimag nhi lagega.
samajh nhi aa raha kaise padhu ab, aakhiri din bacha hai, sab kuch padha hai but revise krna hai. idk bhai, higheay sach mein sundar lagne laga hai (srsly)
edit: aaj matashree ko therapy de rahi thi. and pata chala she has shit communication skills and she meant to say ki hopefully ye sab mera vehem hai but boldi kuch aur. and batayi mumma bhaiya bhi bola ho sakta hai vehem ho but he cried when he first heard it. matashree se phir ladi khub ki baat nhi krne aata achhe se ro rahi hu kb se. tumlogo ke comments+ mummy se baat krke jo relief Mila hai na, thankyou yaar. literally verge of suicide se happy kr diye ho.

Maine hamesha dekha hai ki bacche maa baap se hi seekhte hai Mai dono se hi ouch nhi seekha or iss baat ka garv hai..... No bad habits Anything you name it I don't have any Earning myself 22 And financially responsible Behaves well
All members have bad behaviour Father drinks and smokes Mother eats tobacco Brother pan masalas and drink Sister over spending on unnecessary things + not financially responsible
I want to thank my father for my education because this is the only factor that makes me better than them by choosing not to do anything wrong as in terms of life
Are you different from your parents and siblings?

Just had I am having I dont know what the fuck it is just over it's not about jee its about everything my life will always collapse within itself and i will never be able toachieve anything in my life madarchod yeh mama kept on snoring in the night I couldn't sleep my head hurts and now some random ass fucking auntie and her child won't let me sleep (her daughter was in her home for a makeover or some shit and my sister and she are friends and she lost some good stuffworth 40k) she came yesterday aur mere mama tak ko dhundhna mein lagaya I was about to sleep at 12pm till 1:30 pm par yeh madarchod aa gaye sone ni diya ab main so ni para sir dard ho raha and even if I manage to sleep I will still end up sleeping at like 3or 4 am advanced 9 am onwards hai it's like always like everytime I can controll nothing people might as well spit in my face behenchod God gifted behen ka loda madarchod randi hu main bas chutiya sala jhant bhar ki jindagi usne ma bap bhai behen sab munh pe antagonistic hain bak bal khatam ni hoti conditionally supportive jab main give up kar chuka tha to sabne kaha padh loda lassan ab main padhna chahta hun to sari bakchodi inki abhi yad ati hai behenchod jhoothe hypocrites moody sale aur main chutiya madarchod kuch ni kar sakta kuch ni there is nothing my life had been fucked my life will be fucked and it will remain fucked I am at the end I cannot motivate myself even further I can do nothing nothing nothing behenchod sari willpower chus gayi hai madarchod madarchod madarchodadarchid madarchod madarchod behenchod how the fuck are people even happy with their lives why don't they just die what's the point what the fuck calm down Kuch ni hora yahan mental breakdown hai and I am not sure if I can recov- Stop stop stop. It's the only chance for me to take over my broken down fucked up psyche and you must not give in to the anxious force the bitch guy within you. Feelings are fucked and they must be burned at an altar. Feel feelings selectively. Many things, many thought patterns that you find yourself in are a result if past trauma, current conditions of your life, and much more. These feelings can lead to one taking drastic steps. The only way to counteract all of this is to give into pure rationality. Giving into pure rationality I must admit that I have no way of quantifying my condition other than mocks and I am too afraid to give mocks, and they will take a lost of time. And speaking logically, the emotional blow from a fucked up performance has a very high of hindering my progress and crippling my motivation, and thus I have convinced myself to forgo mocks. Rationally speaking I must maximize the mocks, but I have mentioned the caveat which lies, what I cannot do is give up. I must study. Keep on studying. Study no matter what. Study however. But study. Work with pen. Watch videos. It doesn't matter. I have to study. I have to give my full efforts, as much as I can. That's the best thing. And the rest of it I have to bet on luck and my mental performance while giving the paper, I have to maximize that. I will not be able to do jackshit in the exams in the time which is left, that's the truth, and in a month you cannot do jackshit either. But I will have to play on the only thing which I have, my mind, i will have to pray and make sure it works in the Advanced, simultaneously I will have to prepare myself emotionally for the blow that will come with the failure, because there are high chances. Then I will have to bludgeon and carry on anyhow. I will have to keep working hard. There is no other way. I will have to go to therapy, by now my mind has completely bifurcated into two personalities, and the bitch pussy crying voice will gave to be cured and dealt with, else it endangers the survival of us both. I will have to stidy. I will have to work hard. I will have to be me. I will have to be rational. I will have to be more emotionally intelligent. I will have to know to select feelings carefully. I will have to be present and hyper aware of everything. The alternative is a very dark path. Well my mind is opting for that alternative because life seems darker. The problem is that I don't feel anything. I am an amalgamation of basic animal instincts of survival and ambition coupled with executive functions and logical side, and I am as much part of myself as the emotional side is. And I see no logical sense to give up, because all the logic is pretty much predicated around survival and increasing entropy of the universal system; and I am a microcosm in my own right, a system of my own and my stability and survival and success is what all the reasoning is fundamentally based on - ergo, dying and giving up is not an option. The emotional side has to be modulated and controlled. I will have to logically induce emotions that will drive me and efficiently deal with and soothe the negative emotions, I will have to validate many scary emotions but at the same time I will have to completely reject, invalidate, ignore, and forcibly stop multiple emotions from festering, which is not healthy for normal people, but I do not lie within the norm if the norm is overall absence of stark dissatisfaction and disillusionment with life. That being said I do not think I am in a position to attempt studying, and it is incredibly hard to determine whether this is the bitch voice or the logical voice speaking. I do not think I will be able to nap either. But I do presume similar conditions will follow me while giving exams because past patterns do not support me being in the best condition while giving exams, and this is the best way to segway to positive emotions. Fuck it I am going to study. I feel tired. Everything is impossible. But I will study. When Thor has to slay Jormungandr he knows he is going to die, but he wields his mighty hammer and accepts his destiny and valiantly fights the great serpent, and dies. I am going to do the same. I know I will fail. I will grieve. I will cry. But not give up. I know cards are stacked up against me. But i will not give up. If I fight against overwhelming odds enough number of times then I will learn to create miracles, and that is a divine power in it's own right. I will learn to create miracles. I will fight against all odds and I might win, or I might lose. But I will keep on struggling, and eventually I will be the miracle maker. What if I fail to make any miracles??? Well, what were the chances that I was born as a dog? Or I was a table? Or I was nothing. My very existence is a miracle and I will create miracle. Humans were fish struggling on land and now they are off to conquer stars!!!!!! This is a miracle!!! Everything was pointless but we kept on struggling!!!! We achieved more than what we could think!!! Why must I give up!!!! Fuck it guys let me overdose myself with caffine and start studying the fuck. Imma do organic revision and pyqs. Organic ke behenchod sare 20 sal ke paper aaj hi nipta dunga madarchod ab bolo koi mock mock (I know it's not possible, but what did I say??) Ya fir definite. Aod. Rotation. Kuch nahi padhunga lekin padhunga aur is bhakalnde behen ke lode exhausted ass state mein padhunga ma chod dunga jindagi ki behen ki chut. Bollo bhagwati maiyaaa ki jai!!!

12th mein aaye hue mahina bhar ho gaya hai but pehle test mein 36 marks aaye hai.. can't even sit near my dad kyuki abhi puch lenge ki test mein itne kam marks kyo aaye, vo module lagayi ke nahi, ye kaam kiya ya nahi, unko bas improvement dekhna hai agle test mein baki kuch nahi... lekin jab se 12th mein aaya hu alag hi level ka burnout ho rakha hai.. waise bhi 11th kuch khaas nahi gayi upar se bohot zyada lethargic feel ho raha hai ki bas sota rahu.. bohot jaldi exhaust ho jata hu.. maa kasam itna paseena kabhi na bahaya meine.. mujhe drop nahi lena hai and isi saal selection laana hai kyuki mein abhi hi kaafi thak gaya hu.. weight bhi ekdum se badh gaya hai.. i need to get over this kyuki ye ek nahi do nahi pichle 15-20 din se chal raha hai.. aaise hi raha to kuch na hone wala.. single child hu uper se
Please guys help me end this or else i'm done for all my life.. it's a genuine request guys

1st: THOSE WHO ARE TAKING A DROP FOR 25 ADV...
PLEASE THINK B4 TAKING..
AND IF YOU HAVE MADE YOUR MIND THEN ALRIGHT...
THE ALLEN ASAT IS COMING UP WHICH I WANTED TO BRING YOUR ATTENTION TO.
THAT THE ALLEN ASAT IS ON 19 /26 OF MAY...
my problem.
Mko mere papa maa kara rhe hai drop ka whereas mujhe lena hai kyuki I didn't makeup to the mark...
Mera adv hai 26 ko orr papa ko mai ye nhi smajha paa raha hu ki mujeh drop lena hai..
Papa or mere me bilkul nhi banti orr papa bhut strict hai...
Ghar me bhi kaidi jaisa lagta hai.. Dictator hai wo insaan mujhe please help karo ki mai kaise manau..
ASAT bhi den hai orr ADV bhi.....
Mujhe koyi allen wala guide kare ki kaise sabse zada scolarship me le saku in low amt of time... Kyuki woo 19 may ko hai..
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This is my first and most probably last post here,I have qualified for JEE Advanced but it was a close call as I got 94.5 percentile , this year was my first year appearing for JEE and will be my last at least I think so I had hope for advanced as my chemistry especially organic chem was strong but for a few weeks I had pain in my lower back and groin areas it was unbearable and when we did some tests guess what? I had kidney stones at 18 and the cherry on the top was that they were 10.7 mm and 7.7 mm each in the left and right ureter , that is in the middle of it so you can't remove it with lithotripsy that is a shockwave treatment thing which breaks down the stone into smaller fragments that you can easily pass this treatment is the most minimalistic way to treat kidney stones without entering the body,but it had to be stuck in the ureter. The doctor suggested that I should go for ureteroscopy that a small tube will be passed in the ureter that breaks down the stone making it easier to pass. My parents immediately took me out of the hospital and called every single relative of mine to ask for some bullshitty AYURVEDIC MEDICINE from some Baba of sorts they said " Tujhe kya bada aasan lagta hai operation krwana ? Mera kuch nhi jayega tera hai insurance, mujhe kya jab cheer faad krenge na tab pata chalega." I know that it is quite uncommon for people my age to have to be operated but what can I do now? Kr li galti. Now that things have come to this I have shifted my focus from Adv to BITSAT as that is the only good option I have rn. I feel degected due to this thing I'm not able sit straight for hours, they say go and walk outside , when I try to tell them it pains too much they say it will pain but it will come down slowly slowly and you'll be able to pass it. Well I can't do much about it but the absolute worst of the things I have to face in my life is my parents fighting each other Ik fights happen in household but you ever heard your mum say" Madarchod apni maa ko bicha deta hai na tu logon ke saamne main bhi bich jau kya?!!" Ye sab bolte hain while being loud as fuck saari gali main sunta hain logon ko , I feel ashamed when I see my friends literally next door and on the opposite side of my house,I feel their eyes on me my mom doesn't go out much often so mostly nobody knows her. She shouts so loudly with the most vulgar of things you can imagine she calls me Chakka, bhadwa, and all sorts of things when I try to stop her yelling by placing my hand on the mouth she says that I hit her and beat her. Whenever my dad's home that is my dad works in a company overseas so he goes for 2 months and comes back again after 2 months, she fights with him everyday I admit that many a times he is wrong but she makes it into complicated things and bringing his mother into it too, the fight like mad animals they hit each other swear at each other in the loudest voice possible and the things are so vulgar the mods might take this post down maybe they will cz of the things mentioned above well it was jjst rant in the end so np ig.My family is so fucked up my mother she had me when she was 19 she did not belong to a financially stable family, has 3 brothers and she is the youngest of all she was married to a 40 year old something guy and had me , the man left her after she had me I still don't know the reasons and everyone around her rejected her but my grandmother was different she left everyone for her came to my side she was there for me and my mother for 14 years during which my other met my dad( not the biological one but for me this man is my only father even if not biological) they fell in love and well several years passed everything was going well my father got ED( I came to know about thus cz of these two fighting amd cursing at each other)and my other cheated on him a guy quite younger than her, I came home one day and saw the man in my house I asked who he was my mum said he is some known guy that came here for some auditions and couldn't afford to stay and hotel. He slept with me in my bedroom and well I say my mother and him fucking each other on my bed and while I saw this I started crying while keeping my voice low and closed eyes but I did not turn on the light, I screamed and rushed outside to go and call my neighbour so that he woukd call my father overseas my mom and the guy stopped me and told me nothing had happened and my mom came out from the other bedroom, its been 8 years since then but my mother and that guy still tallk to each other video call eacb other and I can't say anything cz who am I to say? " Tu meri maa hai kya ki mera baap jo mujhe sikhayega??" Exact words of my mother even when I caught her redhanded and told that I would tell father this bitch said she whaf the fuck is your father gonna do huh? " Jisko tu baap bol rha hain na woh sirf meri wajah se pal rha hain tujhe jiss din ye hath hatt jayega na uss din pata lagega tujhe naali ka keeda kahin ka" She raised me in adversities Ik her struggle but should I listen to all of this the man who also although not from the very start took care of me should I let him live a bubble , today my father knows everything but still he believes in mother absolute fool of a man he is she has cheated on him multiple times but just because he has three kids he is not taking divorce because who will watch the kids when he is not here. Its also not possible for my dadi to see us as my mother has always had bitter relations with everyone close to my father Today as well my dad left sometime ago for airport he is flying today this women gave him so much stress he had had brainstroke at the age of 40, my grandmother that is my mum's mother is here with us so she told me to get her medicines while I was going out with my father , she gave me 500 rupees eventhough I wasn't going to take it my father's upi wasn't working well yesterday so I thought that I should take the money for emergencies. So I took the money and after everything was done I came home forgetting that I had to take medicines for my grandma too I dropped dad at home and went out to get medicines while getting the medicines the shop next to it was closing so I quickly got 3 pack of chips for me and my brothers I did not use upi there as I thought giving cash would be fast.I paid the shopkeeper 60 rupees and he handed over 440 to me after which I gave 100 to a istri wala the bill was 5p but we both did bit have change so I told him that he could just give me next time and today my other asks me about WHY I HAD ASKED MY GRANDMOTHER FOR MONEY FOR THE MEDICINES.Even when I told her she told me why didn't I use paytm why did I TAKE MONEY FROM HER. She says If I did not use the money I should pay it back. I her the remaining money she still made a big deal out of it and told my father" ITNI BHI AUKAAT NHI HAI HUMARI JO MERI MAA SE PAISE MANGNE PAD RHE HAIN USKI MEDICINE KE LIYE" and made a scene out of it my dad was about to cancel his job because she said she would leave rn this happened an hour or two ago before this post was posted. I'm fed up with this shit I really am I wish to get into BITS and leave this family after I graduate and keep minimal contact with thsi hellhole. When I leave I ain't coming back never again.

MHTCET ne bhi chod diya bhai. centre was a crossover between a purgatory and a post-apocalyptic demolished building. room saala oven lagra tha. the chairs were uncomfy as fuck and it was extremely cramped up, no space to even keep your legs at ease. 2 logo ke beech nahi ke barabar jagah thi. aaram se koi bhi chaap sakta tha. who am I kidding? sabne chaapa chaapi kiye obviously 🤡 being nice is a fucking curse behenchod. a girl who was quite late was made to sit beside me and I helped her out (with the credentials filling or whatever) and then she made a small talk with me. yeah, okay nice cool. sab chill hai. paper chaalu hue 10 minute ke andar she starts peeking. and then says, “mei aapke answers dekh rahi hu🥰” MADARCHOD WHAT THE FUCK 🤡 ye kaun karta hai bhai? she literally declared that vo mera paper chaap rahi hai. meri sanak gayi. maine thodese loud awaz mei “NAHI🥰” bol diya sabke saamne toh uski phat gayi. I genuinely thought she was nice kyuki we even talked about how rigged the system is and how people with merit don’t get what they deserve due to cheaters. baaki baithe hue bsdko ne already cheating ke plans banake rakhe the but the invigilator was quite good and tried her best to not let anyone cheat (2 logo ke rough sheets and admit card leli thi) but of course, class itni badi, seats itni cramped up, bachhe itne harami, sabne bhara ke cheating ki. and mere mana karne ke baad bhi of course mere baaju waali ladki poora paper mera chaap rahi thi I couldn’t bring myself to complain uske baare mei and waste mera time.
and now the best part- mere 25 question choot gaye 🤣🤣🤣 I saw it everywhere ki you’re supposed to do Physics and Chem in 1.5 hours and Math in the next 1.5 hours, and thought ki ye ek ideal situation ka suggestion hai 🤣🤣🤣🤣 my pretentious self had no fucking idea ki Physics and Chem 1.5 ghante baad auto submit ho jaata 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣 and phir Maths khulta 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣 jiss site se maine mocks diye the vaha pe aisa kuch bhi nahi tha 🤣🤣🤣🤣 behenchod I panicked even more and asked the invigilator about it and she was holding back her laughter at my stupid face 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣 uske baad maine 30 minute mere existence ko question karne mei bitaaye aur baaki ka 1 ghanta pata nahi kisme 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣 kya gajab bhai 🤣🤣🤣 aakhri resolve bacha tha ye 🤣🤣🤣🤣 usme bhi fuck karke aa gayi 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣 mental health chudi padi hai 🤣🤣🤣🤣 drop is out of the question 🤣🤣🤣🤣 except for drop from 69th floor 🤣🤣🤣🤣 3 exams de diye already aur kahi kuch bhi nahi milega 🤣🤣🤣🤣 aaj papa ki disappointment is off the charts 🤣🤣🤣🤣 and the sexual tension between me and mere room ka fan is increasing by the very minute 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣
that is all. (mera rr sunne ke liye dhanyawaad, at least mere unfortunate stupid self se kuch toh seekhoge)

My name is maa chudaye seedhe main baat aur solution chaiye Me dropper tha aur fail hu ~95 percentile , me iit se kafi zyada obsessed tha logo ka dreams hota h engineer Banna lekin mujhe
btech aur engineering same hoti h yhe bhi nhi pata tha
mujhe sirf iit Jana tha phir sochta ki kya karna h life me aage Jake , .. me kafi zyada depressed hu if not iit then. No respect no good job , no good life , I am not interested in any govt. Job .
I just want to follow my passion whenever I crack iit but now I am just dying daily , I can able to SLEEP till 4 am wale up at 7 or 8 am not , today I take bath of more than 3 hour in bathroom juys crying and feeling guilty and regret doesn't want me to survive
Please help me . I am alone here please save

My name is maa chudaye seedhe main baat aur solution chaiye Me dropper tha aur fail hu ~95 percentile , me iit se kafi zyada obsessed tha logo ka dream hota h engineer Banna lekin mujhe
btech aur engineering same hoti h yhe bhi nhi pata tha
mujhe sirf iit Jana tha phir sochta ki kya karna h life me aage Jake , .. me kafi zyada depressed hu if not iit then. No respect no good job , no good life , I am not interested in any govt. Job .
I just want to follow my passion whenever I crack iit but now I am just dying daily , I can able to SLEEP till 4 am wale up at 7 or 8 am not , today I take bath of more than 3 hour in bathroom juys crying and feeling guilty and regret doesn't want me to survive
Please help me . I am alone here please save

My name is maa chudaye seedhe main baat aur solution chaiye Me dropper tha aur fail hu ~95 percentile , me iit se kafi zyada obsessed tha logo ka dreams hota h engineer Banna lekin mujhe
btech aur engineering same hoti h yhe bhi nhi pata tha
mujhe sirf iit Jana tha phir sochta ki kya karna h life me aage Jake , .. me kafi zyada depressed hu if not iit then. No respect no good job , no good life , I am not interested in any govt. Job .
I just want to follow my passion whenever I crack iit but now I am just dying daily , I can able to SLEEP till 4 am wale up at 7 or 8 am not , today I take bath of more than 3 hour in bathroom juys crying and feeling guilty and regret doesn't want me to survive
Please help me . I am alone here please save

So I currently ended up with my 12th boards (ab to bs result ka wait hai 😔) I never really considered JEE to be that important cauze i felt like ki bhyi kyu log itna piche bhaag rhe hain isme marks laane ke jb 90% Wale ko bhi acha college ni milega and ki skills pe focus kyu ni krte (always liked to do programming, ai and pirating games) And also found those people wierd who only have the dream to land in IIT (like wtf your only goal in life is to just get that tag) If their is some kind of fault in my mentality, please scold me 🥺🥺

Yesterday, while at college to submit my last sem pending assignments, I experienced a moment that left a lasting impact. As my teacher was in a meeting and asked me to wait for an hour, I took a walk to a nearby tapri and lit a cigarette. Surrounded by college students, I found myself seated near a Swiggy delivery guy.
Our eyes met, and unexpectedly, he opened up to me, his story filled with heartache. He began by saying, "Bhai zindagi mai padhai jarur karna aur bhot padhai karna. Padhai ke bina kuch nahi hai. Mai roj rota hu bhai. 700 rs kamata hu din ke. 500 ghar deta hu 200 ka petrol dalwata hu. Bete ko english medium mai padhara hu jisse aage chalke ye na kehde ki baap ne mere liye kuch nhi kra. Pure din bas ek 30 rs ki biryani ki plate mai rehta hu bhai. 10 rs kharchne ke lie bhi sochna padta hai. Yeh cigarette mere dost ne dillayi mujhe. Subah 6 bje rote hue nikalta hu aur 11 bje rote hue ghusta hu. Sote waqt bas yeh maangta hu ki moksh miljaaye. Agar maa baap saath hote toh shayad asa na hota n aaj. Choti umar mai gundagardi kari. Nahi maani kisi ki baat, ab toh bas marjaau toh badhia. Bas bhai bura mat banna lekin bhot padhna. Jeb mai paise ho jab apne kamaye hue jitne nashe chaho karna. Bas bhot padhna. Maa baap ke lie padhna. Apne is bade bhai ko yaad rakhte hue."Ordering chai for us both, I offered him a small gesture of comfort.
This encounter amplified my sense of responsibility and compassion. It was a powerful reminder of the challenges many face and the importance of striving for a better future, not only for ourselves but for the well-being of those around us.This touching encounter illustrates the profound effect that one person's story can have on another, and how empathy can deepen our understanding of life's complexities.

Chemistry madarchod chutya bhadwi bhenchod chutmariki lodi. Chemistry ki chut me 79434659684949 lawde Chemistry randi ki aulad Chemistry ke bhosde me dunya ke saare lawde Chemistry madarchod Chemistry bhenchod Chemistry bhadwi Chemistry bhadwa Chemistry lodi Chemistry loda Chemistry chutya Chemistry ki maa ki chut Chemistry ki maa ki gand kali Chemistry ki maa ka bhosda
Thompson, rutherford, neils bohr aur dalton ke foursome me wo log tetrahedrally arragned the ya phir square planar?

This is quite a long rant so bear with me please , I was born in a village and because my parents wanted me to have the best quality education. My mom and me ( my dad works outside) and my little bro moved to nearby city known for its quality education, i was just 7 or 8 at that time. My dad's earnings were not quite much at that time it was like 20k or something a month which is quite low tbh so we like rented a 1bhk more like just 1bedroom kitchen and toilet. I somehow got into a school a small school but it was enough at that time for me, My family were living paycheck to paycheck, my mom you know to save money did quite some things you know not buy fruits, buy only the cheapest vegetables. Even though i was just a child i knew what was happening around me , my mom would sometimes cry about this thing and believe me i was such a brat( not a rich one) i hated my mom coz she did not buy me cool things and ice creams or whatever shits. I had a aunt nearby she was kinda cool and they were rich so i was jealous of them coz her children would always have the nice clothes on , had ice creams like everday and they had TV ( i did not ).
After sometime like 3-4years i got into this like good school like top 10 in my city and i worked my ass off to get there tbh . It was a richie rich school and its just admission fees was twice my dad's monthly salary but he made sure i got into the school . Now my monthly fees was 20-30% of my family's income so i had Quite some pressure on my shoulders and i felt it. I would never hear the end of it from my aunt , grandparents and other chutiye rishtedaars.
Fast forward now my dad earns pretty good its just been 4-5 years since he got a better job and our family's life has taken quite a turn. I can tell you it has taken quite a turn coz i go to a good university its fees is quite much and i eat like ice creams everyday not everyday but jo bhi he and finally my father has been able to buy a land on the outskirts but like kharid hi li he because all our relatives made us and my dad especially feel bad for not owning any property , that he has been working for so many years and he doesn't own any assets .
The thing is this growing up with so much expectations from my parents and with no money i have become introvert and like a serious introvert coz i wanted to save my daddy's money so i never went out even though my friends begged me to come with them and i don't like seeing other people pay for my food or entertainment even though my parents have money now jyada nahi he but thoda bahut he. I now don't like to go anywhere there is this habit inside of me somewhere ki papa ka paisa bachana he. I have never told anyone about this not even my best friend coz i don't feel most comfortable telling this part and i haven't told my friends that i live on rent idk why but maybe that i just don't want them to judge me differently then they do now.
Now the thing is i am quite mature for my age or that's what some people say, though i try to be childish in front of my friends and family that's just a mask i am wearing for people not able to see ky sadness inside. Ab i want to just earn so much money that my dad or mom won't have to worry about money coz i have literally seen them crying about this thing. And also there is this story my dad did not tell me but told my bro and he told me that,
Once when my dad was working he did not had any shoes with him and the one he had were quite torn so he found some shoes on the streets and kept them for himself. This story makes me cry coz i just don't want my parents to go through that phase ever again so i plan on working hard to get them the life they deserve .
This was it lol it was quite a long rant lol . If you have any similar story to share do share. Thanku for reading this .