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A while ago I saw a post in here which highlighted an instance where Bimmy explicitly referred to the Frankenstein monster as just "Frankenstein" in one if the early AVGNs, a scandalous occurrence being that he's to this day one of the most uptight, loud and obnoxious preachers of the church of "Frankenstein's the name of the doctor, not the monster"
But would you believe our Chosen One broke his own golden rule again, multiple times in the same video and around the same time (heh) period, too?!
The video that I'm referring to is episode #3 of his classic Godzillathon: King Kong vs Godzilla
As you may or may not remember some of the original plans for that film included Godzilla fighting the Frankenstein monster and a script had already been written, but at some point Toho struck a deal with whatever company owned King Kong and they decided to make him Godzilla's adversary for the film (please forgive any factual errors, I'm a little rusty on my Godzilla trivia)
Bames tells us a variant of this piece of information and even says that the movie was originally supposed to be called "Godzilla vs Frankenstein"
...alright, nothing too strange so far, he's just stating what the original title was supposed to be....
But then he starts talking about how energy from a bunch of lightning makes King Kong stronger and brings him back to life and he adds, at the 1:48 mark: "...another indication that he was originally meant to be FRANKENSTEIN"
All this while showing a photoshopped picture of the Toho Frankenstein monster standing next to Godzilla followed by a picture of the Boris Karloff creature!
.....he just called the monster Frankenstein....again!!!! It's the name of the doctor, not the monster, Bimmy, what are you doing?!
Then he does it AGAIN!
At 3:18: "...but before production Toho decided to change FRANKENSTEIN (accompanied by the same Karloff picture) to Godzilla"
And this is after he specifically named Doctor Frankenstein, who was supposed to create a monster by "sewing together pieces of different animals", which makes it even more abhorrently blasphemous.
Only after the second strike does he start calling it "the Frankenstein monster". I guess no time to re-record the voiceover for the earlier parts, huh Bim?
Our Messiah, our voice of reason has cheated us again? Does he even care about his cause? The reason why he's on this Earth?
To remind people that the name of the monster is not Frankenstein?!
What else can I do but quote the epic words of another Internet has-been which perfectly fit the situation:
"BETRAYAAAAAAAAAAL!"

That's why she's so beside herself with rage. If we look at her entire deal with Randall, she looked at him as her meal ticket who would definitely cheat on her, then she could be the scorned lover and win the public's favor, as well as his money.
Their relationship was always transactional. She never cared about love & true partnership, she wanted the money & connections Randall could provide and wanted to lock in a kid so she could secure access to his money when she left (which she planned from day 1). Lala knew he was a drug using scumbag fucking around with young women bc she WAS one of those young women & was with him when he was doing drugs. While she was still partying she was happy to partake and party with celebrities and pretend like she wasnt just some random bitch from Utah whose biggest accomplishment was sucking dicks for money.
She was happy to bide her time until a kid came and as soon as she had that meal ticket, all the rumors of Randall (which had always been around) sUdDeNLY started mattering to her. A woman with a newborn baby surely would hit the sympathy jackpot. I think the plan was always to leave with a newborn for maximum effect. So after the season, but before the reunion, she made her move. Blow up one of the many Randall rumors, and get her soap opera performance ready for the reunion where she can sit and fake sob about how blindsided & disgusted she was. By ensuring she missed that season for filming, she thought she was locking in an entire season following HER on how could this have happened? the sad, scorned lover with a newborn? how is she doing? how will she get through this? tonight at 9, follow the riveting story of a racially appropriating sugar baby who sucked dicks for 1 hour jet rides, left in the dust by the married-with-kids man she shamelessly and knowingly home wrecked.
the Randall doc came out in May 2023 which is when the finale/reunions air for each season so she planned on having her moment all season (we saw previews for S10 of her clearly talking to Randall that we never ended up seeing so we know it was originally in the cards), really taking it home at the reunion, then that documentary coming out right then when people are paying attention, then proceeding to go on a media tour fake crying to whoever would listen about how "DANGEROUS" this man was & how "SCARED" she was and thank God her & her baby made it out in time from this MONSTER. *clutches pearls* what a true survivor, this dick suckin' Lala Kent is. 🥲
....until SCANDOVAL. not only did that shove the entire story arc of S10 in an entirely different direction, it took all of the attention or care away from her sham of a breakup. Because ultimately, no one gave a single fuck about her leaving Randall, nor that he cheated on her. No one was surprised some fat ugly producer who left his wife & kids for a 20something would do the same thing again. We were about to get force fed that stupid ass storyline and Scandoval spared us all from that farce. And as a result, all the cheating/dramatic breakup attention she would've gotten went entirely to Ariana, Tom, and Raquel instead. And not just that, but how incestuous, egregious and depraved the details surrounding the affair were, combined with being an exceptionally slow ACTUAL (world/political/economic/sports) news week, the entire world paid attention more than they ever would have, and the affair blew up bigger than anything Bravo has ever seen.
Cut to Lala SEETHING, absolutely fucking SEETHING, that not only was her entire storyline she'd plotted and planned for YEARS punted, but punted for a story she desperately tried to contrive, but which was 9000x more insane, organically. An affair involving the longest relationship on the show with a best friend? And the best friend/mistress being by far the LEAST suspected person on all of Bravo to pull that shit? and because it was such a massive ordeal, has continued now to the next season as well, so any attempt of her dragging her Randall pity party back AFTER s10, had no hope bc it was just too far since it happened (and no one cared from day 1 anyway). So her whole game she laid out and planned for literal YEARS was now swept out to sea, as she watched the Ariana ship floating along and accidentally becoming the exact sympathy-winning, opportunity-getting, beloved star she had always wanted to and tried to become.
So not only was her years planned end goal of being the ultimate victim & getting all this attention for being the scorned lover of some evil Hollywood producer NOT achieved, Randall doesnt even have any money for her to mooch off of (which was her other half of the plan), and Ariana became America's sweetheart & the ultimate peak sympathy-earning victim, the very season Lala planned on desperately trying to earn that exact crown through her plotting. and once Lala was no longer able to leech off the popularity of the scandal to get extra money/opportunities (e.g. Send it to Darrell), the true fury of her storyline attempt being usurped set in.
She views her years long play as being thwarted by Scandoval. but Lauren's shit with Randall would have never, in a million years, have become what Scandoval was. EVER. but since Scandoval overtook it, she probably thinks it WOULD have bc we never got to see it NOT be (even though all the fans know damn well none of us cared). And so that brings us to today. Lala is blind with rage, bitterness, and envy and can't even pretend to be nice to Ariana anymore bc Ariana is everything she wanted to be. And isn't, nor will ever be. This is what happens when you don't live authentically, Lauren.

1. Kolm pitching and confidence.
In a series that had many interesting storylines such as Jorgensen’s and Behen’s first series with their new teams, Evan’s first official series in MLW after being drafted with the first overall pick in the past draft and Cheetam’s first series as manager it was Preston Kolm who caught my eye the most.
I thought that surely Jorgensen would get the ball for game 2. Instead, manager Tommy Coughlin decided to go with Preston, clearly, he impressed him in the offseason, and he certainly impressed me as well. He showed great command, his pitches looked sharp, movement was working, and you could see that as he got deeper into the game his confidence was rising, he even broke out a Kracht-esque sidestep pitch for a strikeout. He ended up with a no hitter and a near perfect game just ruined by a single walk.
Now, with no intention of ruining the Mallards hype party, it is important to note that the Gators are probably not the most competitive team in the league, and their offense might be the weakest of all teams. They only scored one run in 9 innings (granted, the Mallards scored 2) but still, it was an amazing first outing for Kolm.
What was interesting to watch is that the confidence was not only bounded to pitching, but it carried over to everything else. He made some nice defensive plays in the field including a really tough one. At the plate he reached in 4 out of his 6 plate appearances.
I will follow his progress closely as the season goes on, but the Mallards suddenly have really nice depth in their rotation, with 3 very capable arms on the roster.
2. Sawyer Behen can pitch!
Coming into this series many eyes where on Behen, and for good reason. After the very loud and controversial trade that saw Behen land with the Gators, there is a lot of pressure on him to perform this year, especially with the comments he made during the offseason, and if this series is any indication of what we will see from him, ohh boy did the Gators win this trade. After Jorgensen’s departure the Gators will need to fill the franchise player vacancy. And while I don’t think Behen can be enough of a hitter to fill that void, he showed he can be the face of the Gators pitching staff. Behen looked unhittable, and aside from a Robles rocket to left field, no one really made strong contact off him. His final line was 7IP, 1ER, 16K and 9BB. With Behen at this level on the mound, rookie Evans talent and Cheetam as a third arm the Gators quietly have a solid rotation, capable of winning games even against the most dangerous offenses as they nearly did in the 3 games against the Mallards.
3. Gators rookies are here!
Aiden Richard joined the Gators as an undrafted free agent, and while I’m sure it was not the debut he hoped for, as he went 0-2 and had a whoopsie play in right field that resulted in a Robles home run which ended up being the winning run for the Mallards. He looked good. He was responsible for one of the few Gators’ hard-hit balls, unfortunately it went just foul instead of what would have been a monster home run. But his swing looks good, he clearly has power and I think as the season goes on and as he racks up more plate appearances, he will be a good player for the Gators.
As for fist overall pick Jeremy Adams it was mixed bag, he started off great with a well hit ball to open the series for the Gators but wasn’t able to get any hits after that. Still, he managed to reach base 4 times in 10 PA’s. Which was the best mark on his team. The swing looks dangerous and there is definitively a power threat in there. I think it will take some time for him to adjust to MLW pitchers and rules, but I am confident he will figure it out. However, what really impressed me was his pitching. It is normal for first year players to struggle as pitchers, but Evans looked as comfortable as a veteran star pitcher. He only allowed one run in 3 innings of work and that run should have a major asterisk next to it, as Richard pushed the ball over the fence on a batted ball that would have never made it past the fence without some help. Overall, I loved what I saw from him on the mound, and Behen now must be absolutely remarkable if he doesn’t want to lose his spot as the guy in the pitching rotation. I would go as far as to say that Evans might already be the best second arm in the league, (if he will be the second arm for much longer is really in question) to say he has ace potential is an underestimation.
4. What happened to the Mallards offense?
If you would have told me that the Mallards would manage only 2 runs in the whole series against the Gators, I would have called you crazy. Nevertheless, that is exactly what happened, and I have no idea what to think about it. I had previously called the new Mallards offense the best assembled lineup in modern MLW history. The fact that they couldn’t really get anything going against a rookie pitcher and a 2.48 ERA pitcher in Behen is honestly, surprising. There is no point in trying to analyze why this happened. Its too small of a sample size. Let’s just call it an off day for them, but its something that is worth paying attention for their next series.
5. What happened to the cheat code?
I believed Cheetam could return to his usual form as a hitter, after an awful 2023 season, but it was a torrid start. If the Gators want to play playoff baseball this season, they need Cheetam’s bat to wake up. He is now the leader of this incredible young team, and I fear that if they keep getting no production out of him their season will be a short one.

Hey everyone, I'm primarily playing high power and cEDH, so your "typical" 8 to 10 on the scale, and mostly in Esper, Abzan or WUBRG colors. Recently I came to the conclusion I should build a lower powered deck than my other ones as it's otherwise more difficult to find fair matchups at my LGS.
The commanders I typically play are Tivit, Raffine, Thalia and The Gitrog Monster, Go-Shintai of Life's Origin as well as Sefris of the Hidden Ways. A lot of control elements, card draw and value engines which is typically my flavor coming from a more competetive background.
For a new deck I'd like to explore something more thematic and I am really a big fan of the Cyberpunk genre but had a hard time finding something enjoyable so far given that there is not much of it available through the past sets in Magic. Naturally, I tried out ninjas with Yuriko and Satoru Umezawa but realized that those decks become fairly stale after being really fun in the very beginning. Thematically fitting with some of the NEO cards, but I don't think I'd be having too much fun just cheating out crazy threats all the time which becomes too linear and predictable.
Next up I was considering to see how Shorikai plays out and possibly with a vehicle based subtheme. Shorikai itself is a crazy value engine but I'm afraid that the playstyle becomes too narrow as in focusing on sculpting the same hand over and over again to win through inevitability. For that I do have my other decks already.
Do you have any suggestions what decks or commanders to check out as well?

Here is an article I recently published on my Substack. If you'd rather read (or listen to an audio version) it outside of Reddit, you can do so here.
Why jump rope isn’t already touted as a leading running drill tool is completely beyond me. But then again…
I'm by no means an "experienced runner"—having started running in 2021 at the age of 34. So, at the time of this writing, about 3 years.
Despite this, I managed to silver-medal my age group in my first race ever.
And it was a 10k. And I was wearing barefoot-shoes.
And I had only been running before that race for about 3 months.
How the heck did I manage to pull this off?
The answer eluded me for a while. Then I remembered—ah, I’ve been jumping rope nearly every day for 2 years.
But how do those connect?
But first, why the heck would some guy start jumping rope at age 32?
About 2 years before I started running, I took up jump rope really just as a fun outdoor hobby.
Even though I was pretty inactive and a bit overweight, that’s not the reason I started skippin’.
One day, I came across some footage of boxer Lulu Hawton doing some jump rope training.
In addition to her seemingly effortless rope handling skills and rhythmic footwork, what caught my eye was a giant grin that spread across her face about 45 seconds into the video. While she was probably skipping to warm up for a match or a training session, something was abundantly clear.
She was having a blast.
And this was from a prize fighter! None of the usual boxer mean-mugging—she looked more like a kid on a carousel.
So, after buying a $10 jump rope on Amazon, I took to the driveway in my swim trunks (yes, I was so inactive, I didn’t own gym shorts).
And…whoo, did I suck.
After a few months of making puddles of sweat in my driveway as well as wheezing sounds so loud that I’m surprised the neighbors didn’t whistle EMS, I eventually got pretty decent at it.
And I lost about 45 pounds in 6 months—probably also from making some lifestyle changes merely to make jump rope less of a slog. Not the original plan, but hey, not too shabby.
After about a year, I found myself constructively critiquing other people’s beginner jump rope videos.

• “Unlock your boxer skip. Then you’ll be able to skip forever without getting tired.”
• “Here’s how to do Double-Unders, though they’re overrated.”
• “You’re skipping like it hurts. Relax and skip easy. Smile every once in a while and you’ll feel it all over.”

But how did that turn into running?
Though jumping rope is inherently enjoyable, 30-minute skipping sessions of staring at the wall without something in your headphones can be a bit drab.
One fateful day, about 2 years into being student of the jump rope, I began listening to the book Born to Run: A Hidden Tribe, Superathletes, and the Greatest Race the World Has Never Seen by Christopher McDougall.
Even before I got to the end of the book, running—just like jump rope— sounded fun**.**
Yeah, I know that sounds counterintuitive—unless you’ve read the book.
“I knew aerobic exercise was a powerful antidepressant, but I hadn’t realized it could be so profoundly mood stabilizing and — I hate to use the word — meditative. If you don’t have answers to your problems after a four-hour run, you ain’t getting them.”
Ok, ok—I’ll bite.
I proceeded to dive into all of the normal “Couch to 5k” running programs I could find and took my jump rope to a nearby park with a 1k walking path—sprinkling in running between jump rope sessions.
But something wasn’t adding up.
There was a lot of advice about walk-running to build endurance until one could run a block, two blocks, a mile.
Not to brag, but I wasn’t experiencing most beginner snags.
**“Ah, I know why—**I did most of my newbie wind-sucking two years ago!”
This isn’t to say I wasn’t still periodically sucking wind but after two years of consistent boxer skips and double-unders, getting gassed felt like part of the fun and not a medical emergency.
I also felt much springier than the average beginning runner—able to run for miles all over the city in the most minimal of footwear.
And so, I tried my hand at my first race—a donut-themed 10k. And silvered in my age group.
(Ok, there was only two of us…but my time was still respectable. 😂)
Running became an amazingly freeing activity, like getting my driver’s license for my legs.
But I still didn’t understand why running was coming easier to me than the average newcomer.
Digging still deeper, I unearthed another exciting revelation—this time from multi-decade sub-3-hour Boston Marathon runner and one of the foremost running experts on the planet, Dr. Mark Cucuzzella.
“Running with a jump rope is also an amazingly simple drill for posture, balance, and rhythm.”
In other words—form. Overall technique.
Digging a little keeper and experimenting on myself, I discovered just how similar proper running technique and proper jump rope technique were.
Both require:

• An upright, chest-leading, elbows-back, joint-stacked posture
• A soft mid-foot landing directly under your pelvis
• A quick loading and unloading of “leg springs” from your tendons and ligaments to reduce “stickiness” and wasted energy
• A proper supination (roll out) followed by a quick pronation (roll in) of the feet to help launch one’s body
• A steady core without dropping hips from side to side to reduce energy “leakage”

And so many other commonalities. The list unraveled before me on every run.
And like running, without proper technique, jumping rope just doesn’t work—though the consequences are different.
For a jump roper, due to the lower impact, the risk of injury is quite minimal.
Most newbie rope slingers will report sore calves, slightly tender Achilles tendons, and the odd shin splint if they go full Rocky at it. No need to worry, though—most of these injuries see themselves out as the skipper becomes more experienced.
However, for runners, the injury story is more severe.
The next time you’re at a park with a good path, take a seat on a bench and watch the runners. See if you can spot folks reaching far out in front of them with straightened legs—smashing heels into the pavement.
This style of running results in everything from screaming knees, plantar fasciitis, lower back pain, to hips issues.
But why do all of these occur to new runners, but rarely to new jump ropers?
Most new runners commit a major physiological no-no when they begin their running journey: they treat running like fast, aggressive, airborne walking.
“Well, what is it supposed to be?”
Synchronized jumping.
Simply put, proper running is nothing more than a series of coordinated single leg jumps through space with each landing compressing the springs for the next stride.
To compare this synchronized jumping to the aggressive airborne walking of heel-led running, you can test these in just a few seconds.
Step 1: Stand up.
Step 2: Kick off your shoes.
Step 3: Jump up and down three times.
How did you land?
Probably on your mid-foot, knee bent slightly, with your weight stacked above your pelvis.
And did you use your compressed “leg springs” to launch you into the following two jumps?
Oddly enough, if you were to add a jump rope to this, you would on your way to spinning side swings like Lulu Hawton.
If you were to take this same technique one foot at a time moving forward, you would be running in a way that increases speed, preserves stamina (springs!), and drastically decreases your likelihood of injury.
Let’s try the same test with a few tweaks.
This time, jump, but land on your heels.
Your knees probably remained fairly straight and you felt the impact in your ankles, knees, hips, and possibly even your lower back.
Now, imagine attempting to jump rope this way.
It simply doesn’t work.
Not only would there be no second jump due to the lack of spring but the pain would stop you in your tracks—even in cushioned shoes.
But if jump rope technique and proper running technique are nearly identical, what are aggressive heel landings doing in running?
While a jump roper landing on their heels would resemble Frankenstein’s monster in an express lane to an orthopedist, this is how many people perform the aggressive airborne walk—aka, a heel-striking, over-striding run.
But why do we run this way? Well, our shoes let us get away with it.
Thick heel cushioning and a bit of forward momentum do a great job of masking the pain of repeated blows against every joint up the chain—for a while, anyway. Eventually, the chickens come home to roost in the form of stress fractures, meniscus tears, plantar fasciitis, “runner’s knee,” IT-band syndrome, and more.
Not to brag (and maybe to knock on some wood), I have never experienced any of these injuries in my three years of running.
Is this because I’m some kind of running genius with all of the cheat codes? Haha, I wish! It’s simply sheer luck that I started out with jumping rope before running—an activity that shares the same injury-preventing techniques.
So, are the shoes totally to blame? No.
It is possible to run with proper form in shoes with raised, cushioned heels. But it’s not as easy.
When your heel is totally cushioned, you will be able to run with a heel strike in the same way you can hit your head against a brick wall while wearing a football helmet. And in both instances, it will eventually become less about the forces outside of the foam and more about the forces inside the cushion against each other that do the most damage.
“So, how can getting a jump rope help me become a better runner?”
Jump rope is a tremendous training tool for runners for the same reason why running barefoot can also be helpful—the feedback is immediate.
Though running with inefficient and injurious form is possible, the feedback from doing so isn’t so immediate. When it comes to jumping rope, however, you won’t get through too many skips if you don’t learn to utilize the springs in your legs. The rope doesn’t pull punches.
So, get a rope and get started.
If you’re new to jump rope, I would recommend acquiring two pieces of equipment.
Firstly, find a jump rope with a little bit, but not too much, weight to it. The weight will help you feel the position of the rope during it’s entire rotation and remain in better sync with your wrist spins
My favorite rope for this purpose is a 7mm PVC model called the Hererope, which costs a whopping $15. If you find this to be too thick or heavy, a cheap 5mm PVC model will work as well.
Secondly, to protect your rope and provide a nice jumping surface, I would recommend a large foam-rubber exercise mat. My favorite is a massive 78” mat for $32—which is probably the cheapest jump rope mat you will find.
When it comes to footwear, barefoot is ideal. This will help strengthen and mobilize your feet—including your likely overly-supported neglected arches.
And just how does one begin to jump rope?

• Keep a tall posture—imagining a string pulling you up from the crown of your head.
• Your chest should open, elbows back, hands about a fist’s width from your pockets.
• Jump from the balls of your feet, only high enough to clear the rope. When landing, let the skin of your heels “kiss” the floor—touching without taking on weight.
• Keep your knees slightly bent, using every landing to load your springs for the next take-off.
• Keep the cadence quick to maximize spring recoil. To help, listen to a song that’s at about 160 beats per minute, such as the song “Hey Ya” by Outkast (or a song of similar tempo) to get a feel for the speed for skipping rope. (For running, many recommend using “Rock Lobster” by the B-52s for cadence tempo reference.)

Start with short seasons hopping with both feet—maybe 30 seconds on, 30 seconds rest. Aim for minimal muscular activation, instead, using the recoil of your tendons and ligaments for suspension and launch as much as possible.
From jumping with both feet, move onto learning an alternating leg bounce—essentially a jog skip. Right, left, right, left—all while keeping an imaginary belt level with the horizon.
By now, you’re essentially running in place with an extremely efficient technique.
Now, apply your jump rope skills to your running!
This is going to seem quite bizarre, but it is possible (and even beneficial) to take your jump rope for a run.

• Start skipping rope on a road or path with the alternating leg bounce. Remember to keep your elbows back, shoulders relaxed, head pulled up as if tugged skyward by a string from your crown and your imaginary belt level with the horizon.
• Then, as though leaning forward just enough to give someone a kiss or have an imaginary umbilical cord lightly tugged, begin to jump rope forward.
• Remember to continue to land and load on your mid-foot—aiming to keep your weight under your pelvis just like skipping rope. Landing on your heels will likely snag the rope and keep your foot on the ground too long.
• As you proceed with this, remember how it feels—the quick foot turnover, the posture, the recoil in your leg springs, the core stability, and the lightness of it.
• In the middle of doing this, simply toss the handles behind you and keep running as though it was still there—still pretending to spin the handles.
• At a comfortable stopping point, run back to your rope—now using your hands in a wood-chop motion to counter balance your leg bounces while keeping your pelvis (imaginary belt) level and stable.

And there you have it!
You may find it quite helpful to return to this drill once or twice a week. Also if you find your form slipping a bit or becoming slugging mid-run, feel free to skip imaginary rope to try to correct your technique mid-stride. It will restore lightness and springiness to your running.
I still find myself bringing my wrists to my pockets and spinning imaginary jump rope handles if I feel my technique is collapsing a bit or if my running is becoming less springy.
And remember, most importantly—have fun. 👍
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So basically, I'm brainstorming a Mii cast with characters from mobile games, and I need help filling out some roles.
Basically, here's the ideas I have for the roles, so far.
Red from Angry Birds - Warrior (reference to AB Epic)
Thief from King of Thiefs - Thief
Flo from Diner Dash (Man, I miss playing that game. It's a shame I'll never play it again.) - Chef
Talking Tom from Talking Tom - Cat
Peashooter from Plants Vs Zombies - Tank
Bjorn from Peggle (Does that count?) - Horse
Parlsona and Stoowarb from My Singing Monsters - Lovey-Dovey Couple
Cheating Tom from Cheating Tom - Sassy Child
The Boogin King from Monsters Ate My Birthday Cake (If you don't know what that game is, look it up. It's such a good game. It's a shame it was removed from the app store.) - The Dark Lord/Ex-Dark Lord
Galvana from My Singing Monsters - The Great Sage
Cooking Mama from Cooking Mama - Roaming Gourmet
The Plumber from Kill the Plumber - Nintendo Fan
Om Nom from Cut the Rope - The King
Nibble Nom from Cut the Rope - The Princess
Boo from Cut the Rope 2 - The Prince from a Nearby Land
Toss from Cut the Rope 2 - Noble's Son

i have cptsd from constant invalidation and emotional neglect growing up, but i was always the biggest people pleaser. genuinely wanting to do everything for other people and nothing for myself, putting others completely before myself no matter what, really caring about other people to a fault. then my cptsd worsened when i got married and experienced SA and found out years later that my husband at the time was basically living a double life, cheating the entire time and also some worse stuff i won’t mention. but ever since that it was like a switch flipped and i became the opposite of what i’d always been. never wanting to do anything for anyone besides myself, putting myself before others no matter what, not caring about people even my closest friends most of the time.
i’m just curious if this has happened to anyone else, i feel like a monster honestly.

People say it's childish to be afraid of the dark. They say it's a symptom of an overactive imagination. And yet the same people- all people- know that you don’t go out at night, not without light or charm. And everyone knows, instinctively, in the marrow of their bones, that you don’t go out on a moonless night.
I had been out on a moonless night for days. Most people can’t tell, but once you're trained, you can- Darkness loves darkness. She likes to stretch her time out as long as she's possibly able. Everyone wants to spend time with kindred spirits. It’s nature, human or otherwise.
There’s nothing I can do about it, so I do my best to enjoy it. After all, you have to pick your battles, and my gun makes it pretty easy to figure out which ones I can win. She's a lovely gun. Big, which is fine with me, because I need all the power she can muster. Nine custom rounds rotate through, each enchanted by my own self. Not as effective as a professional enchantment, but I get by, and it’s a hell of a lot cheaper.
The only light came from the muzzle flare of my pistol. They smothered my campfire long ago, leaving me with only the vaguest sense of where they were, occasionally silhouetted against the trees when I fired. They were big, looming over me, high into the crooked trees and the moonless sky behind them. Who could say how long tonight would last?
I try not to cast on Nights, because it just acts like more of a beacon than I already am, but sometimes it just can’t be helped. My chest burned as I threw up a Buffer against a sudden wave of creatures, but they tore it down before it hardly had time to help. I bit down and cast a Warding, felt my arm burn harshly in the wild energy of the new moon and felt the following cold cut its way through my flesh and deep into my bones. Popping the spent rounds out with my right hand, my left knitted itself into the Ward shape automatically, trained by years of habit. Now I’ve really done it, I thought, because I could practically sense them perk up from miles off, even without casting a Seeing. It worked, though, and I was given brief respite for my efforts. I’d sure as hell pay for it in about 10 minutes, but for now I needed to stop bleeding and deal with the sensation of a drill pressed to the back of my skull.
“Skippers,” I growled. I hated Skippers.
The problem with Skippers is they’re small, harder to notice than anything else, and instead of trying to take off your head they try to get into your head. From there they can do whatever they want while you watch- make you walk off a cliff, bite off your own tongue, flay yourself alive. Like I said, whatever they want, and they're usually pretty mean. I’d seen them really go to work on all sorts of people, mostly people I knew and trained with. Hazards of the job- sorcerous training let you see a whole new world, but it opened you up to the threats that lived there, more so than regular folk. I was in worse shape than most sorcerers, which was part of what put me out at Night in the first place. Luckily, I’m better than most sorcerers, but it still meant I had to be careful.
To get rid of a Skipper, all you have to do is burn them off with a little Light. I'd needed the break- 3 of them dripped out of me right away, and a fourth started to run down my back as it tried to escape.
“Bastard.” I struck it with the handle of the gun as it slithered away. No sense wasting ammo on idiots like that.
The Ward wavered, the Night grew around me, and I hadn't even had time to heal anything. Damn.



Sam watched from behind the counter as the man walked through the door. Under the door, rather, as he had to duck to keep from hitting his head. He was pale, very pale, unlike the merchantfolk that usually came through the inn. His face was covered by a bushy beard, his hair was long, and his eyes were rimmed with red, but he could certainly be no older than 40. It was strange- for someone to come in so early in the morning, and look so tired- he must have been traveling all night, but he had no horse to be stabled.
The stranger was an armory- small blades and strange, bulbous jars jutted out from pockets and packs all over the man, daggers strapped to his legs, and even metal nubs in the knuckles of his gloves. What caught Sam's attention, though, was the man's huge gun, strapped tightly to his waist. He had never seen a gun that big, and the ammunition the man was carrying in the sacks around his waist must have weighed heavily on him, though he showed no signs of it.
“What does it cost for a room?” His voice did not match the tired, worn image in front of him. It was firm, and had the sound of recent laughter in it.
“Let me get my mom.” Sam began, starting for the back room. He never handled rooms.
“That's alright. You'll do fine. How much?” The man pulled out a purse, smaller than the other bags on his belt, and it was clearly much lighter than anything else he carried. “I’d like to find a bed and use it.” His voice did not betray him, nor did his hands, but the redness of his eyes did. They were a startling blue, and they seemed to contain nothing except exhaustion.
“I need your name,” Sam remembered as he directed the giant stranger to his room. The man's eyes, just for an instant, darted to one side before returning to Sam.
“Joan,” he said.
“O-kay.” Sam jotted the name down. “Two nights, food at 7 and 7, anything else you pay for.” He began to walk the man down the hall. “Strange accent. Are you from Melano, or Baden?” He didn’t really know what those accents sounded like, but he knew they were far from Newmark.
“No.” Joan walked into the room indicated with no further comments.
Sam stopped at the door while the man called Joan dropped his bags to the floor. “What kinda gun is that?”
“Mine,” he said simply, as he unbundled it’s holster from his belt. “I make the ammunition myself most of the time.”
“It's impressive. My paw was a soldier, and he showed me his old gun once, only it was a lot smaller than yours, and all rusted out besides, but-" Sam stopped as the man removed his cloak. There was a bright gash, still oozing dark blood, working its way up the man's side behind the thick leather plates. “Holy cripes! You oughta see a doctor, sor!”
Joan gave no indication that he could even feel the wound, nor did he instantly react when the boy cried out. “This? It looks a lot worse than it is. Rest, and solitude,” and here he looked at Sam, “will do me more good than any doctor from this town.” He moved to close the door, and against Sam's protest seemed to shut him out with no effort at all.
He ran down the hall to inform his mother of their newest guest.
I didn’t want the kid to see what I had to do next. It really wasn’t that bad- on the outside. Because we put so much ourselves in the spiritual world, the physical world didn’t matter so much. But it’s all tradeoffs. It had cut a pretty chunk out of me spirit-wise, and that hurt worse than any gash could. Really, I was better off than most sorcerers would’ve been with a cut like this- I had less to lose. Doesn’t make it hurt any less, though.
I Worked a minor Healing, but anything more would’ve taken more out of me than I could hope to regain, so the rest had to be resigned to sleep. Stupid. I should never have let anything get that close anyway, but it seemed like the Skippers were going crazy last Night.
I was too tired even to dream. A small blessing.

Waking up was not pleasant- I was stiff and sore, and still hurting something fierce. And cold, of course. Always cold. The physical wound had scabbed over, and I figured I would get away with just a minor scar. My innards were still shredded, but marginally less so than before, so I could breathe without grimacing. I expected I’d be laid out for a few days yet. Lucky, since Night had just passed, so things would be calm for almost the entire month now.
Exhausted as I had been, I had no Wards up, nothing even blocking the door. Nice going. Practically begging for a stray to wander in and eat you. As I flipped the coin I’d lifted off the kid, I examined the room for anything that might have snuck in, but it was clear. This time.
It was around this point that I realized how hungry I was. It had been (what felt like) days without a hot meal, and apparently this podunk little inn could provide, so I wandered out to the main room to see if I could scare up some food.
When the kid saw me, his eyes widened. That’s never a good sign. Recognition meant questions, and the answers to those questions usually meant getting pushed to the next town before I had time to heal. I had been hoping to score a decent meal and a bath, at least.



Sam could hardly believe his eyes. “Criminy, sor, but I didn’t expect you to be up at all! It's barely been a day!” The cut had been bleeding heavily, and very deep, he was sure of it, but now the man was clean and walking as if he had never been injured.
The stranger called Joan sat heavily at a table, ignoring the implied question. “Any chance of a man getting some food around here?” He inquired. “Or, perhaps,” and he glanced at the barrels of ale behind the counter, “some drink?”
San quickly filled him a tankard and plate from supper earlier, then sat himself at the table, as the crowd in the room dwindled down to a late few. The man interested him. He did not seem to interest the man, however, as Joan simply ate and drank in silence, apparently unbothered by his wound. He was still pale, almost deathly so, but Sam had heard tell of people from far north being much lighter than the tanned workers of nearby towns.
“Are you a soldier?” Sam didn’t know much about the war to the south, but occasionally troops passed through, and he had heard his ma talk in the back room about an extra levy because the Northern Kingdoms were allied. “I never saw someone carry so many weapons that weren't a soldier. What are those jars you carry? Is that them new bombs they been talking about? With gunpowder, only you throw the jar so it’s like a cannonshot?” Sam did not know much about weapons, either, but he saw so few soldiers come through that he had to learn what he could, if he was going to join the war when he was of age.
“Sure, kid.” Joan tapped his empty tankard on the table and placed down the coin he had been flipping. Sam ran to fill it up again before sitting back down.
“So did you come from the southern border, where all the fights are? What's happening? Are we winning? We have all kinds of the Northern Kingdoms working together, right? We must be winning!”
“The southern border? No, no, I didn’t come from the southern border,” he snorted. “That whole war is just nonsense anyway. The Northern Kingdoms, in some alliance or another, have had it out for Onis since time began. Maybe even before. The war is just an excuse to keep the money rolling in. Seems like there’s less and less of it than ever.” He mumbled this last part into his cup.
“That’s- that’s not true!” Sam's pa had fought, same as Sam would. “The war is important! Onis could really invade anytime! Besides, you said you were a soldier. If you aren’t fighting in the war, how can you be a soldier?” Joan did not answer, but he reached for his sleeve for a moment as if to roll it up, then seemed to catch himself at the last second. Was he a deserter? “Are you a deserter?” Sam blurted out, realizing a second late that he was pushing his luck. Joan just tapped his mug again.
Sam's ma hurried over. “So sorry for this one, sor, he has a bad habit of being curious.” She cuffed him on the ear and it smarted.
“It's no problem, mam.” The stranger smiled warmly, but in his eyes there was nothing. It was a chilling sensation. “He fills my cup just fine.” His ma dragged him off before Sam could object, and Joan got up before Sam could return.


Broder laughed as he took Flander for another hand. Three hands up, he was, and showed no signs of slowing. He stopped, though, as a big man in a heavy cloak came to the table.
“Deal me in?” His voice, deep and rich, did not match the weathered exterior. The man was no farm hand, that much was clear. More a mercenary sort. Broder glanced around the table, but no one seemed to object outright, so he shrugged. One more fool for the best poker man in the west side of Newmark. “Promise I know the rules.”
“Can you make ante, pal?” Jaten sized him up from across the table, suspicious from the long, ratty hair sitting on his shoulders and the general sense of dirtiness emanating from the man. He didn't notice what Broder had seen- nice leather, warm coat, and firm shoes. The man had some money, at least.
“He's good for it, Jaten. What's your name, stranger?” Broder gestured at the empty space next to him as he began to deal the hands. The stranger threw his ante, and Broder couldn’t hear much left in the purse. The poor ones were easy to sucker in.
“Joan.”
“You from Onis or something, name like that?” Cogen sneered.
“Na, man, listen to his voice, he's from up in Lansing or summat.” Garrett spat. “You're pickin a fight so you don’t have to deal with your shite hand.”
“That's not true, mate! Maybe you ought to keep an eye on your own mess in front of ya!” Cogen threw in extra to compensate. They all knew each other, knew the tics and tells and habits, but this stranger would be interesting.
That was what Broder thought, but as they went round for a few hands, the stranger losing more than he won, it became clear he was just another sucker thinking he could smash the small town guys. He had seemed confident at first- smug, even- but Broder had moved in with a predatory efficiency and would not let up. He offered to buy a round for everyone, apparently hoping for mercy, or to dull them, but the man seemed to be getting a bit red in the nose much faster than the well-seasoned drinkers of the little town of Aren, where there was little else to do but work or drink, or play cards. Broder began to really work on Joan for everything he had left, preparing to take the man for anything he could offer. The game was boring, and Broder needed beer money, so he went to end the man entirely.
What Broder did not expect was for the man to turn his whole plan backwards by dropping a flush when he should’ve had nothing. That cleared the table pretty fast, and Broder noticed the man's nose was really not that red at all.
The hand was nonsense. He couldn't have won, couldn’t have had those cards. “Alright, pal, roll up your sleeves, eh? Just a friendly game, here, after all. No reason to stay all formal-like.” Broder saw the other men nod their approval.
“Are you sure? Isn’t it possible, just a little, that I might be better at the game than you?” Joan smirked, taunting the men.
“Roll those up in here or we'll roll em up for ya out back,” Cogen growled. He was the biggest, aside from the stranger himself, and had a knack for bar brawling.
“Alright. No need to get snippy that I beat you so bad.” Cogen almost stood, but Joan began to roll up his sleeves. Right, then left.
His left arm was covered up to the elbow in fresh burn scars- a bright, angry red. If Broder squinted, he could almost see fine lines tracing letters across the harshly burned skin, but he didn’t have to. He knew what he was looking at.
“You're a bloody wizard, ye stupid bastard!” Garrett exploded. “Ye- ye bastard! You used magic on our all heads, ye did!”
Joan's eyes darkened briefly, but he did not react.
“Garrett's got the right idea- who's to say you weren’t using magic trickery to win the game, eh? Seems like something your lot would do,” Jaten added smartly. “It seems only fair you give us back the money you stole.”
“In the interest of accuracy, I am a sorcerer. Wizards do not leave their little towers and their little books. Besides, if I had used any magic, why would I stop now?” The stranger pointed out. “Wouldn’t it be easier to just leave, or to make you forget you ever saw me?”
“Well- there are 4 of us! Maybe you couldn’t do us in all at once, eh?” Jaten shot back. There was a chorus of affirmation from the group. “Be honorable, man, just give us the money back.”
Joan rolled his sleeves down. “If I had wanted to,” he began quietly, gravel in his voice, “I could make you all give me your land, your wives, and your unborn sons and you wouldn’t even remember your names when I was done. I did not cheat,” he suddenly smiled. “You boys just suck at poker.”
“Now listen here, son,” Broder began. “You may be some wizard from up north-"
“East,” Joan interjected.
“You may be some fancy wizard from up north,” Broder continued, “but don’t think that means you can insult us small-town folk. We might not have your ‘education’ or what have you, but we know from poker.”
Joan sighed. “I am leaving town in two days. Leave me alone for those two days, and I will forget your names, faces, and the name of this backwater town you live in. I did not cheat you.” He looked each of them coldly in the eyes, and Broder saw that all the mirth and cheer that had been there earlier had been drained, replaced with nothingness. Not even hatred, or anger, but simply blank space. The stranger stood up with a groan, signaled for another round of drinks, and trudged to the back of the inn. None of the men followed.


I was lucky none of these farm hicks knew anything about casting, or else they’d have known I was bluffing. It didn’t seem like any of them could actually read my burns, because if they could’ve, they would’ve known I could only cast a couple Bindings, and that’s if I wasn’t hurting like hell.
What was most insulting, more than calling me a wizard, was that they thought I cheated to beat them at cards. I don’t need to cheat at cards. I had slipped a bit of coin out of their pockets as I brushed by, but that was hardly cheating. Just good, honest thievery. And to call me a wizard? I ought to burn down their houses anyway, just for that. I was cold just thinking about it.
Still, I had to accelerate my schedule and leave tonight. I hated to do it, but I needed to be three towns over by the time they decided to kick the shit out of me. Bastards.
Amidst my wrathful musings I became aware of a presence at the door.
It was that kid. What had he seen? I ran the scene over again and realized he had been watching the end from the table he had been cleaning. Sloppy. He'd tell everybody. I couldn’t kill a kid the way I would've those guys in front, and I didn’t want to besides. Kids have always had a hold on me, and it pissed me off. It wasn't like I could remember why. Besides, I didn’t exactly mind the town knowing; it just meant I’d have a tougher time sneaking out, and I was tired enough that it bugged me.
“Sor?” He nudged the door open, but not all the way, I noticed. “I saw your tattoo. What do they mean? My ma said not to ask, but those men seemed pretty upset out there. I asked them and they said you was a wizard, but I didn’t think they were real. Are you a wizard? Are those tattoos your clan or something?” He spoke fast, like he thought I would cut him off, or cut off his head. “What are you doing?”
I spoke carefully to mask my distaste for his questions. “I am not a wizard. Wizards hide in their towers and ask questions nobody is curious about.” I hoped the dismissal would be clear.
It was not.
“If you aren’t a wizard, what are you?”
“What I am right now, kid, is packing, and what I’m going to be in a minute is gone. Scram.” I looked around and realized that aside from the bags I could clip to my belt, I had nothing else with me. Damn.
“Well, whatever you are, sor, I know those marks mean you're bound to help people-" that wasn’t true “-and those men out there maybe won’t tell you, but I will! See, sor, we're in mighty need of a wizard these days, on account of a monster been stealing the livestock and trashing the lumber yards and-" he slowed his speech a bit, but before I could get a word in he continued- “and I think it took the Granlenses daughter, only cause they won’t tell anyone where she went but I haven’t seen her in town at all and she used to come help me with my chores some days and it’s been a long while, maybe a month or so. Anyway, nobody’ll believe me when I tell em, and I haven’t seen it exactly, but I’m sure there’s a monster!”
“Kid, you know not every stroke of bad luck is a monster, right?” People don’t believe in monsters or magic until it’s convenient for them, which means they know nothing about it, which means most of the time they’re just making up stories to get me killed or run off, or else they’re just plain dumb and attribute every case of rainy weather to a made up beast.
“I know that! I just know there’s a monster around here! Look, sor, I’ll help you find it even, and-"
“I charge for my services and I don’t take kids on field trips when I work. Are you going to pay me?” Most of the time, threat of payment was enough to deter all but the most determined, or most superstitious, folk.
“I bet if you kill it the whole town will pitch in! Please, sor, I just wanna help out, and it seems like you could fix us all up only nobody wants to ask.” He wasn’t lying, I could tell, but kids are always seeing things that aren’t there. On the other hand, sometimes kids are better at seeing what’s right in front of them.
And when it turned out to be nothing, it meant I had an excuse to stay an extra night without getting an attempted beating, probably.
“Alright, kid. Where was this monster last?” Hired by a kid who probably couldn’t even get on a horse on his own. If anyone caught wind of this, I’d never hear the end of it.

So basically, I'm brainstorming a Mii cast with characters from mobile games, and I need help filling out some roles.
Basically, here's the ideas I have for the roles, so far.
Red from Angry Birds - Warrior (reference to AB Epic)
Thief from King of Thieves - Thief
Flo from Diner Dash (Man, I miss playing that game. It's a shame I'll never play it again.) - Chef
Talking Tom from Talking Tom - Cat
Peashooter from Plants Vs Zombies - Tank
Bjorn from Peggle (Does that count?) - Horse
Parlsona and Stoowarb from My Singing Monsters - Lovey-Dovey Couple
Cheating Tom from Cheating Tom - Sassy Child
The Boogin King from Monsters Ate My Birthday Cake (If you don't know what that game is, look it up. It's such a good game. It's a shame it was removed from the app store.) - The Dark Lord/Ex-Dark Lord
Galvana from My Singing Monsters - The Great Sage
Cooking Mama from Cooking Mama - Roaming Gourmet
The Plumber from Kill the Plumber - Nintendo Fan
Om Nom from Cut the Rope - The King
Nibble Nom from Cut the Rope - The Princess
Boo from Cut the Rope 2 - The Prince from a Nearby Land
Toss from Cut the Rope 2 - Noble's Son
Handsome Pig and Gale from Angry Birds Stella - Prickly Couple
Chopin Jr from Rhythmstar (fine game) - Dancing Guide
Stella from Bubble Witch - Mischievous Witch
As you can see, I'm still missing quite a few Miitopia characters, so I need your help for ideas of which mobile game characters could fill in those roles.
And, if you think there's a character that could fill a job role well, tell me about it.
Also, if you think you have a better character in mind for a role than the ones I picked, then tell me about it. Any character from any mobile game franchise is a welcome pick, as long as it's fitting (yes, even Genshin, I guess.)
Also, I can't decide whether or not I should leave Sunflower from Plants vs Zombies out, or make her a Flower or a Pop Star.
If you've got any ideas for any of this, tell me in the comments.

First of all, I hate that the way season 2 was developed from the book caused a rift between the Sharmas.
Edwina is truly cruel to Kate in e7 Harmony. At the failed Bridgerton ball she notices how happy Kate and Anthony are while dancing together. And then she tells Kate that her own heart is far kinder than Kate’s. This upsets me greatly because Kate was doing EVERYTHING for Edwina. Keeping the Sheffield’s conditions a secret was misguided and could have been approached better, but Kate was willing to live her life as a governesss without a husband in India far away from her sister and Anthony in order to keep her feelings hidden. She did everything she could to suppress her feelings and was willing to live a life of longing so her sister could have a good husband. She did not ask to develop feelings for Anthony. Why does Edwina wish to punish her so harshly? Can’t she see that Kate was willing to sacrifice true love and happiness for Edwina to be married to Anthony? And in truth, Anthony is the one who screwed everything up by publicly revealing his affection for Kate at the wedding, yet Kate is getting the brunt of the punishment.
Mary’s behavior is abhorrent to me as well. Kate stepped up to take care of the BOTH of them after her father died, and Mary isn’t even her birth mother! I imagine from the way Kate tells things that Mary had an incredibly hard time after her husband’s death which left her incapable of handling her household and taking care of her daughters. So Kate, who has now lost both of her birth parents, steps up to the plate to handle things. She even secures them a comfortable life of nobility by bargaining with the Sheffields. And Mary feels the right to be angry at her? Not only for that, but for developing feelings for Anthony?
I’d like to reiterate, Kate did not ask to fall in love with Anthony. She did everything she could to avoid it, and would have been willing to entirely give up her chance at true love just so her (step) mother and sister could have a comfortable life. And yet they’re so cruel to her. I can almost understand Edwina’s point of view, because she is still so young (despite stating to Kate that she is a grown woman many times, she is still basically a child), but I cannot understand Mary’s at all. As a matter of fact I cannot help but wonder if part of Mary’s reaction is because Kate is not her biological child, which makes it easier for her to be angry at Kate.
Anyway, that’s my rant. Kate did not deserve nearly any of the cruelty and admonishment she received for her mistakes.
Edit: yikes, a lot of you are acting like I said Kate is a martyr for emotionally cheating with her sister’s fiancé and claiming that I’m using Edwina as a scapegoat for Kate’s actions. That’s not what I said at all.
Edwina ABSOLUTELY has the right to be mad and upset and feel betrayed and anything else she might feel. She was lied to by everyone around her. But she’s also acting like Kate fell in love with Anthony on purpose and conspired to ruin her life when that couldn’t be farther from the truth. Kate just wanted to see her sister have a comfortable life.
I don’t think Edwina is a monster, nor do I want to use her as a scapegoat. If anything Anthony should carry the most blame because he should have never made Edwina apart of his “dutiful loveless marriage” plan. He never should have proposed to her. He never should have made it up to the altar with her. I think he is mostly to blame for the events of the season, yet Kate shoulders most of the criticism.

Hi all. I've been on a bit of a bender today - thinking about my childhood playing games like Club Penguin, Moshi Monsters, Bin Weevils, Free Realms and Star Wars: Clone Wars Adventures. I have memories of another game I used to play in that pre-2012 period, which I think featured pandas as the playable species? It was definitely something similar to a panda, at least. It was definitely in the same style as CP and BW, I'm trying to discern the name of the game, and whether it might still be up/has emu'd servers.
Platform(s): Windows, probably Mac (and Linux?) too since, from memory, it's a web browser game (Which, I suppose, means the odds of it still existing in its original state are slim.)
Genre: Uhh... Kiddy MMO? I dunno how else to explain it.
Estimated year of release: Probably mid 2000s, given that by 2010 I'd mostly switched away from the first 3 games I mentioned above, and onto stuff like ROBLOX. I stayed with SW:CWA and Free Realms a bit longer, and I don't remember playing this game much concurrently with those two and ROBLOX.
Graphics/art style: 2d graphics, that sort of cutesy art style where there's detail but it's still very kid friendly from Moshi Monsters and Bin Weevils. Edit - I recall the game having a somewhat 'oriental' style for at least some of the areas present in the game.
Notable characters: Pandas, I think?
Notable gameplay mechanics: Generic stuff for a Club Penguin/Bin Weevils style game. Mini-games and such, basic as hell character customisation.
Other details: I'm from the United Kingdom of Great Britain, and currently in my early 20s. I believe Bin Weevils was UK-only, so this game may be as well.
I know I haven't given really any information on this subject, but that's because my memories are so damned hazy. I just want answers on what this game was.
EDIT:
Ruled out thus far: Panfu, Pandanda, Kung Fu Panda World, Pet Pet Park, Animal Jam, Secret Bear World, Franktown Rocks, Rolypolyland, Poptropica, Furcadia

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So after 3 years, she slowly faded away by becoming less attached, then in around 1-2 weeks she blindsided me and left without ever looking back..
When we met again 3 weeks later she said that leaving me and escaping from me was the best thing she ever did and that she was so happy and chill and glad she did it... While I wanted to meet her to talk and hopefully come back with her, I Will.never forget her face saying it's been the best thing she ever did... She destroyed my soul and my well being, I can't believe she could say something like this... How is it possible that she's been so cold and hurtful... Like why would you do that? I may have been unfair to you, you may feel I didn't treated you well, you may think I did some. Mistakes, but how come. After you left me out of. The blue after blindsiding me, you come to this conclusion in front of my face with pride when I ask you "how are you, how's the last 3 weeks been?" when I am visibly devastated
Well... This was 3 weeks after the breakup, now 2 and half months later I feel.like I was almost over her, didn't check her socials for 10 days but today I relapsed, I saw her doing my sport (which I introduced her into) ((scuba diving)) basically she copied my passion.. And also her with friends in clubs with a revealing dress, same as other pictures, she shows her body more
I feel. Like I don't recognize this person, like she acted as a serious, trustworthy girl when she was with me, always dressing with large clothes and now I see a party girl who dress with revealing clothes,goes to the disco, publish revealing videos and pics of her on insta...
She ghosted me and never looked back and the last message was mine asking for. Some. Pictures and telling her I miss her
When I look at her face in the Instagram pictures my feelings are not that I miss her, I honestly look at her face and say to myself "you can distract yourself, you can give the impression to the world that you are living your best life, you can convince yourself that I was holding you back, you can find comfort in external achievements and new hobbies, but we both know that you can not escape the true opinion you have about yourself, your sense of inadeguacy, your lack of self awareness, the lack of internal cleanliness, you know you behaved badly with me, you know you hurted me so much, you know you did the same with your ex, with other guys, you know you cheated with others and maybe with me, you know that you never said the truth to them or to me, you know that you havent been reliable, honest, clean, with yourself and with others, you know you are escaping and running away from situations and uncomfortable truth, you know you have a bad reputation of yourself, you can escape from these thoughts and feelings, you can distract however you want but that sense of inadeguacy, of moral uncleanliness, your lies, your betrayal, your lack of honor, value, integrity, the fact that you know you could have acted well and instead you acted badly, will always hunt on you, you may not realize it consciously, but, you will always feel that sense of stress, of pain, of inadeguacy that you are running from all your life"
I see her face and say "you know you did hurt me a lot, you know you didn't behave correctly, how is it possible that I knew all these things about you, I loved you so much with all myself, while you were preparing for this behind my back, while. Leaving me oblivious of all this, how is it possible that you were hiding all these things and you made me feel like a monster while it's the vision you have of yourself, you were projecting on me things you felt about yourselves "

For those of you who play locally (with strangers at events, in tournaments, etc), how do you get better at playing without wasting other people’s time?
For background, I played master duel for a while and on a couple of online YGO sites (unofficial ones, you know). I have been playing IRL with my brothers and a handful of friends for like fifteen years. I really want to get into playing locally because my nearby game store recently became an OTS, but I am… short on confidence, I guess? My memory isn’t great, so I often have to talk my way through chains to make sure I’m resolving effects in the right order and not accidentally breaking any rules. I often need to ask my opponent for patience while I reread cards. Time has not improved my ability to remember what my own damn cards do, so I have accepted I will probably be a slow duelist until I die.
It works out fine with my friends because they know I’m just kind of stupid, and not trying to cheat or waste time. It’s also okay online because most sites have inbuilt reminders when a card’s ready to activate. But I’m terrified of being the annoying guy at the event that nobody wants to duel with because his turns take five full minutes.
So how do you guys improve your memory? And how much patience do you give/expect from people at events? I’m not expecting to win (I play Dark World because I think the monsters are cool, lmao), just to meet new people and play the game more.

The relationship has been 8 years now with 2 kids from a previous relationship on his side and 1 kid from a previous relationship on my side.
As any new relationship, there were really hard times. Especially with both of our previous relationships. Fights were awful. Screaming matches. So many times we ended up almost breaking up. But we always calmed down and talked it out. Fast forward to a few years ago. Things were quite stressful before covid. I was working 2 jobs, trying to pay off the car we got. Between job hopping and him jumping around from job to job, things were stressful and money was tight. Then covid hit. At that point, I was so scared. Everything shut down and we had billsto pay. As things started getting tighter financially, our relationship became stressful again. Fights for no reason. And I'm not going to say he started them. Because a lot of the time, it was me. I said something or picked at him, and it would lead to blow ups. I've said and done hurtful things. I soon began to resent him because I was working my ass off at 2 jobs and he wasn't working 40 hours a week. It began to grow. I tried to talk to him about it but we only had one car. Things were sorted and we got into a routine. He took over the budget and finances 2 years ago. He has also recently within the last 5 years gotten really big into investing. Which has cause quite a few fights between him and I which never goes anywhere. It's always "even with investing, money is still there" or "I only do this one thing for myself, can't I have that?" But the problem is not investing. The problem is that he constantly tells me we don't have money for groceries, or gas, or snacks, or whatever. But he has all our extra money in the market. And heaven forbid he has to pull it back for something, I never hear the end of it. It's brought up in every discussion about money after that. "We wouldn't be in this conversation if you didn't spend the extra money when your dad was in the hospital" or "you didn't need to start buying Java monsters just because I get energy drinks" or "we would be rich if I didn't have to pull that money to pay the monthly payment on the car" and it's exhausting. But he turns it around on me. Every time. "I did this because you did/said this". I started working on my trauma with a therapist in 2022 because I knew I had problems. I knew I had things to change and correct. I have been growing and learning how to deal with my anxiety, insecurity, and trust issues. It hasn't been easy and it's not over. I'm constantly working on myself. I started school in 2023. 6 months ago, the Sunday after Thanksgiving, my bf broke up with me. And there were a million reasons why. From, we need to work on us, to we need to work on ourselves, to we need to think about what's best for the kids, to I need to make sure he was what I wanted once I'm independent and have my own place, to he's never really been single and just needs to figure stuff out, etc. You get the point. This begins the last 6 months of my confusing nightmare. Constant accusations of starting drama at his work place, constant belittlement, accusations of cheating while I'm taking time at my sister's, backhanded compliments, arguments for no reason. This entire time, there has been some drama at his.workplace revolving around another girl. Now, I know what you're all thinking, and I'm really starting to question if I'm crazy. It started off as "I started talking to her because we went through something similar (ex abandoned you with nothing)" then "I was trying to get perspective on our relationship from a non-bias party" then "I was just trying to get to know her" keep in mind, this entire time, I have 0 clue what's going on because I work from home and really only have 2 friends. My dad has been in the ICU since February and 5 days in, he tells me that since me dad is okay, we need to figure out his issues at his job. My dad had 2 brain bleeds and a stroke. I went to my sisters that night. He keeps accusing me of starting all this drama to make him look bad and to paint an awful picture of him. But every time I deny it, he says you wouldn't be in denial if you weren't hiding anything. You're obviously hiding something. I walk on egg shells around him because he just blows up out of nowhere. I don't leave the house because it's easier to prove I'm sitting at home then it is to prove I'm not cheating if I'm out with my sister. He's accused me of sleeping with his best friend, his dad, my sister(yes you read that right), and my female friend from work. Yes all I do is work from home, go to school online, and see the kids. We moved into an apartment a month and a half ago because his dad didn't want him there anymore. He couldn't deal with his own son. My sister hates him. This is just the gist of it. There's so much more. I just feel worthless. His feelings and needs take priority and mine may get acknowledged. Today is mother's day. I had homework to do. I got up, made coffee, was talking to him, and he blows up. He starts talking about how if he finds out who's starting all this crap, he's going to beat the crap out of them. His exact words were "I told my friend I wanted to get to know her and he goes and dates her behind my back" keep in mind, we got back together 3 months ago. I tell him he sounds like a kid whose toy got stolen. Which makes him blow up more. How me showing up at his job the exact moment when he got back from break and the manager decided to lock the doors was intentional and planned. How my best friend went through the drive through earlier and I should stop having people spy on him. And I snapped. Told him I'm sick of his shit. I'm sick of being told I'm doing something wrong when I'm not.
I'm no peach. I have anger, jealousy, and self-esteem issues. But I'm sick of being told its all in my head. I'm sick of being made to feel like I'm crazy. I feel so isolated and alone and just from how he is, I know if I try to break up with him he's going to automatically assume there's someone else.
I need perspective. I need advice. I need anything that can help.

Edit: shit, typo in the title. and I can't edit it that sucks
I'm going to be blunt, I do find it a huge missed opportunity that some races only have one champ representative. Particularly when it comes to three.
Troll, Minotaur and Brackern.
I'm going to preface this by saying I know why they haven't done another champion of either these three races. They're sort of an artifact form when random game designers wanted a troll, minotaur and scorpion champion and didn't really think about their place in the lore. As such, it's understandable why there would not be as much interest and expanding these races with other champion. I still think there's interesting things you can do coming up with new champion for these three groups.
Let's discuss Brackern first. Of the three, it's pretty understandable why we will probably only get one representative (Skarner) anytime soon or ever for that matter. Three reasons.

1. The rework was a little over a month ago so they just revisited this race, and probably don't want to do it again anytime soon.
2. They are just scorpions. God scorpions, but still just have the basic body plan of scorpions. It would be hard to make another one a champion that's distinct from Skarner.
3. Finally and the most understandable reason. Skarner has been a pain to implement into the game since he was first created. Every time the designers have talked about him it always includes frustrations about his design. His vgu especially took a long ass time to finally get down to a state that he was ready to go.

With all these reasons, it's very understandable if they never make another Brackern champion again but I still think you can get some decent ideas out of it.
One interesting tidbit of the new lore are The broodmothers, significant leaders of the race and the ones that raise all the kids. A broodmother champion could be a fun concept, using babies to attack. I also think you can cheat the concept a bit. While they are described as scorpions in the lore, We have not seen what other Brackern look like exactly. They could get really creative with the designs and make it easier to implement them into the game.
Next up is the trolls. Trundle is a fun antagonist, but it's a shame that he's the only perspective we have on trolls. I think it would be cool to have a troll character who wasn't completely aligned with trundle.
I'm going to go a bit fanfic here but it would be interesting to have a troll that's on the side of good. Maybe someone who against trundle in some way and has to align themself, be grudgingly, with humans. Considering ashe, a mostly good alliance character is quite hateful towards trolls, it could be an interesting avenue for character stuff. And before people type in the comments something like. "The trolls in League of Legends are like the orcs in Lord of the rings. They are pure evil creatures." How could you forget the wonder that is Braum's color story TOMB OF THE TROLL BOY where Braums saves a troll boy from an evil trap. This isnt an insignificant story either, this is how he got his shield. Trolls do you have the capacity to be more than monsters and it would be interesting for the designers to come up with something for that.
The minotaurs I feel like is the biggest missed opportunity of the three. Alister story is quite interesting. A man who tried to protect his homeland from Noxus but in the end was enslaved and nearly became a beast before being shown kindness. Now he's travels the countryside fighting against Noxus whenever he can and trying to search for the person who freed him. And that's basically the entirety of alistar story. Besides updating it to remove the parts about the now non-canon League. A problem that is shared with a bunch of champions, but at the very least it seems to definitely be canon considering it matches up pretty well with other pieces of Minotaur lore we have.
Of the three races the minotaurs have certainly got the most exposure outside of our purple cow. Particularly in LOR. There's a huge thing where many freely joined the empire rather than fight them, and have integrated deep into the military. The new Minotaur champion writes itself. In fact, they technically made it a few times in LOR like with Aurok Glinthorn. In fact, put him in the game. He's cool.
There's also minotaurs that fled to Demacia and are now part of their armies, which once again writes itself. Why is LOR much better with the lore. I think of the three I'd be most interested in what they do with another Minotaur champion.
That's all I have to say on this front. Sorry this has been a bit of rambling, but this is always been in the back of my mind and I kind of wanted to vent it out.
Edit: shit, typo in the title.

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Disclaimer: it is my first time reading the book. I am still getting used to the story and its culture. I am also dyslexic. Please give me some grace, dont attack me 🥲. Thanks!
OMG THE ENDING OF THE FIRST BOOK IS SOOOO GOOD. I feel like the TV show completely butchered it :(
Post BJR horrible assault:

1. OKAY. ELLEN MACKENZIE WAS A MODEL😎 She had many admirers and men in love with her. I love how much she comes up in the books. The whole "yeah I gave her this present but she didn't marry me" theme had me giggling like an idiot. Brian Fraser was a real winner!!!
   
2. In the show Jamie immediately has the attitude of "I don't wanna be saved" and doesn't even want Claire to heal his hand.
   
3. In the book Jamie is more calm. And allows Claire and the monks to help him and heal him. Claire does her best to fix Jamie's hand without him complaining.
   

Even in the middle of this nightmare, Jamie seems to not have lost his sense of humor and his usual charming self. He made two penis jokes through this 🤣🤌🏼 what an absolute icon.

1. J+C's connection in this last chapters truly made me believe that they're soulmates. I don't believe in this in real life ofc, but you bet I now believe it in the outlander world. ❤️
   
2. Loved the friendship and connection between father Anslem and Claire and how this took her through a bit of a spiritual/religious journey!
   
3. The ceremony to say "goodbye" to Jamie was very beautiful. I feel like, even if you're not religious, this scene will touch you for sure. It made me shed a few tears.
   
4. I liked the nuance that father Anslem brought to the topic of Claire being married twice. Does it counts as cheating? Frank and Jamie are from two different times and they can never exist together. Also I loved it when he said "if you want to go back to your other husband only out of duty but your heart is elsewhere, I don't think that's a good idea" (paraphrasing)
   
5. Claire's whole 'ritual' to bring BJR's memories back to Jamie while he is dying so that he would fight for his life is waaay more intense and brutal in the book. "If Jamie have had all of his strength, he would have killed me".
   
6. When Jamie opens up about what happened with BJR, he says that Randall wanted him to say "I love you" (ew) but then he calls Jamie "Alexander"?!?! I IMMEDIATELY thought of Alex Randall! Just like Claire!! Even before I read the next line!! In the show it seems like the only redeeming quality he has is that he loves his brother but now I am thinking... was he picturing himself assaulting his younger brother?!?! that leaves BJR with ZERO redeeming qualities and truly makes him the ultimate psychopathic monster. I am not surprised per se but dang... there goes the only one good thing that sadist had
   
7. Jamie being sooo romantic and so thankful to Claire because she healed his hand ❤️❤️ and how HE was the one that initiated intimacy with her!! His healing was so brutal but the final result was so beautiful and how he found his way back to Claire!!! We didn't get this in the show. NOT EVEN A BIT AND I HATE IT SO MUCH.
   
8. HOT SPRING SCENE. HOT SPRING SCENE. Absolutely beautiful and romantic!! Physical intimacy is such am important thing for this couple and this last moment really showed how Jamie was on a good path to healing. We didn't get this in the show. NOT EVEN A BIT.
   

Instead we got an extremely long and graphic torture scene between BJR and Jamie that doesn't EVEN appear in the books. And Jamie's trauma still goes on for a while, "I never thought I would be happy again" he says as Claire tells him she is with child. In the book they are sharing an intimate, beautiful moment, he is happy, telling her how much he loves her when she tells him the news. Enjoying the healing time together in the nice warm water. I will never forgive the writers of the series for completely ignoring these moments that were so important for the growth of Jamie and Claire's relationship.
Now I gotta wait till next month until I can start reading/hearing the next book as I am using monthly audible credit and I already used this month's for the first book lol. Oh well.

All my Doom posts so far, with descriptions. Lots of HQ content you may have missed. Some posts of the most value to me have their descriptions highlighted in bold.
Seek for high-resolution art by keyword "HQ" and image resolutions in square brackets "[]". Enjoy!
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https://www.reddit.com/Doom/comments/1cfpmfl/running_doom_using_only_spinda_patterns/ — Running DOOM Using Only Spinda Patterns
https://www.reddit.com/Doom/comments/1c4ghk5/doomhtop_running_doom_using_htop_console_utility/ — doom-htop — running Doom using 'htop' console utility.
https://www.reddit.com/Doom/comments/18exqwy/doom_at_30_the_best_doom_mods_to_celebrate_three/ — DOOM at 30: the best DOOM mods to celebrate three decades of destruction Stuff
https://www.reddit.com/Doom/comments/13gccc5/this_is_for_my_cake_day_doom_3_box_inside_cove — This is for my cake day — Doom 3 box inside cover art, retouched by me [4096x2939]
https://www.reddit.com/Doom/comments/126gqeo/d3themed_uac_pda_locked_amoledsized_1920x3420/ — D3-themed 'UAC PDA LOCKED' AMOLED-sized (1920x3420) wallpaper by me. In case you've been looking for something like this.
https://www.reddit.com/Doom/comments/11krwgu/discussing_the_new_gog_release_and_redux_21_news/ — Discussing the new GOG release and Redux 2.1 news
https://www.reddit.com/Doom/comments/11gxz17/early_doom_4_trailer_from_2012/ — Early Doom 4 trailer from 2012
https://www.reddit.com/Doom/comments/zo0addoom_christmas_bauble/ — Doom Christmas Bauble
https://www.reddit.com/Doom/comments/xwvjxd3themed_uac_pda_amoledsized_1920x3420_wallpape — D3-themed 'UAC PDA' AMOLED-sized (1920x3420) wallpaper that I made based on another web-found image
https://www.reddit.com/Doom/comments/xu6t76/eating_doom_3_imp_fanart/ — Eating (Doom 3 Imp fanart)
https://www.reddit.com/Doom/comments/xtscj3/infinity_machine_the_most_advanced_cheating/ — Infinity Machine (the most advanced cheating utility ever) in PC Gamer 1995-05
https://www.reddit.com/Doom/comments/wlp2do/doom_is_infinite_a_page_of_an_article_in_pc_game — Doom is... Infinite! A page of an article in PC Gamer (USA), 1995-05
https://www.reddit.com/Doom/comments/wfdbce/doom_3_has_turned_18_big_boy_now/ — Doom 3 has turned 18! Big boy now!
https://www.reddit.com/Doom/comments/wa1b49/doom_2022_a_movie_made_of_cardboard/ — DOOM (2022) — A movie made of cardboard
https://www.reddit.com/Doom/comments/w515k0/found_it_doom_3_roe_box_inside_cover_art/ — Found it! Doom 3 RoE box inside cover art, retouched by me [6192x4494]
https://www.reddit.com/Doom/comments/vy7gfl/only_the_n64_could/ — Only the N64 could...
https://www.reddit.com/Doom/comments/vvi1we/doom_64_ad_in_nintendo_official_magazine_63/ — Doom 64 ad in Nintendo Official Magazine #63 (1997-12) [5090x3507]
https://www.reddit.com/Doom/comments/vsk37e/another_original_official_d3_screen_in_hq/ — Another original official D3 screen in HQ [4000x3000]
https://www.reddit.com/Doom/comments/voynii/doom_fanart_by_trycon_3840x2160/ — Doom fanart by Trycon [3840x2160]
https://www.reddit.com/Doom/comments/vo5yvg/doom_64_reloaded_for_the_doom_64_remaster_steam/ — Doom 64 Reloaded for the Doom 64 Remaster (Steam, GOG, Bethesda.net, Game Pass)
https://www.reddit.com/Doom/comments/vir5adat_bitch_5120x2880/ — Dat bitch! [5120x2880]
https://www.reddit.com/Doom/comments/vi1e28/d3modded_pc_case_presumably_all_of_these_pictures/ — D3-modded PC case. Presumably, all of these pictures were taken in 2007 at the Maker Faire in California.
https://www.reddit.com/Doom/comments/v7hthf/hq_original_d3_screenshot_used_for_wallpapers_and/ — HQ original D3 screenshot used for wallpapers and arts [4000x3000]
https://www.reddit.com/Doom/comments/v6596t/just_an_art_3256x2035/ — Just an art [3256x2035]
https://www.reddit.com/Doom/comments/v4gymw/d64_fanart_by_cynder_024/ — D64 fanart by Cynder_024
https://www.reddit.com/Doom/comments/v35vh5/how_bout_doom_64s_mother_demon_reboot_based_on/ — How' bout Doom 64's Mother Demon reboot based on this art by Markus Neidel?
https://www.reddit.com/Doom/comments/v2cfyo/does_anyone_have_this_art_in_hires_maybe_original/ — Does anyone have this art in hi-res? Maybe original D3 RoE box to scan from and share? [Found: https://www.reddit.com/Doom/comments/w515k0/found_it_doom_3_roe_box_inside_cover_art/]
https://www.reddit.com/Doom/comments/v2afqk/tsundere_demon_gf/ — Tsundere Demon GF
https://www.reddit.com/Doom/comments/v0w9bd/doom_poster_by_ambientflush/ — Doom poster by AmbientFlush
https://www.reddit.com/Doom/comments/uusyjs/my_take_on_the_doom_3_icon_of_sin_3068x1536/ — My take on the Doom 3 Icon of Sin [3068x1536]
https://www.reddit.com/Doom/comments/utnxrk/hell_demon_skull_art_by_kenneth_scott_retouched/ — Hell demon skull art by Kenneth Scott, retouched and with brightness equalized by me in order to make it look the closest to the release version while keeping the maximum detail.
https://www.reddit.com/Doom/comments/uqm64h/doom64_icon_of_sin_from_the_d64ifier_mod/ — Doom64 Icon of Sin from the D64ifier mod
https://www.reddit.com/Doom/comments/upesmd/jpeg_version_of_my_earlier_post_pcgamer_127/ — JPEG version of my earlier post — PCGamer #127 09-2004 inside cover retouched by me [4532x3160]
https://www.reddit.com/Doom/comments/up8twa/d3_imp_author_unknown_1255x1673/ — D3 Imp, author unknown [1255x1673]
https://www.reddit.com/Doom/comments/uomzsthis_is_for_my_reddit_cake_day_pcgamer_127_092004/ — This is for my Reddit cake day — PCGamer #127 09-2004 inside cover retouched by me [4532x3160]
https://www.reddit.com/Doom/comments/ul3c14/doom64_poster_from_nintendo_power_95_of_april/ — Doom64 poster from Nintendo Power #95 of April 1997, my restoration attempt [1783x3867]
https://www.reddit.com/Doom/comments/ujgxi9/doom_the_movie_2005_behind_the_scenes/ — Doom The Movie (2005) Behind The Scenes
https://www.reddit.com/Doom/comments/u94wj5/d64_mancubus_poster_gamepro_096_september_1996/ — D64 mancubus poster, GamePro #096, September 1996 [3000x3600]
https://www.reddit.com/Doom/comments/u8hhxj/cacodemonomania/ — Cacodemonomania
https://www.reddit.com/Doom/comments/u7qkja/doom_bloodfall_dlc_art_3058x4000/ — Doom Bloodfall DLC art [3058x4000]
https://www.reddit.com/Doom/comments/u5ferq/the_ultimate_3d_virtual_reality_game/ — The Ultimate 3-D Virtual Reality Game
https://www.reddit.com/Doom/comments/u0heb6/doom_3_hellsign_upscaled_3480x3480/ — Doom 3 Hellsign upscaled [3480x3480]
https://www.reddit.com/Doom/comments/tng2ds/pda_1260/ — PDA 1260
https://www.reddit.com/Doom/comments/sdzof6/ai_textures_version_10_addon/ — AI textures - version 1.0 addon
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its now been 3 months since everything, this lasted for around 5 months.
Long novel incoming sorry but im deeply struggling to understand it and its complex.
Hey all. I really cant talk about this to anyone without hurting her; so sit down this is a doozey. Needless to say I have not so great mental health, in high school I was in a pretty bad emotionally abusive relationship, I was pretty badly abused and pushed everyone I knew away and was in a pretty much severe depression and severe anxiety for around 6 years, I assumed one day I would sleep it off, and think normal but that never happened.
Anyways I get to college and really dont put myself out there to meet anyone else. Come to my senior year and my grades are pretty good, but this is when I meet her, and I think shes gorgeous. I eventually work the effort to talk to her, and we become ok friends for about a week or so. During this time she would always message me and one time we stayed up until 2am in the university rec room just talking. This felt pretty damn good, for once it felt like somebody actually wanted to know about me, during this time she even looked up my house address and parents facebook without me even telling her their names, anyways a few days or aobut a week later she says shes going on a trip to visit her BF, I was devastated and cried, she says "that must be a punch in the balls, you had me mindfucked there for a while though, being in a LDR your always looking for something new etc" "i always had this mindset that this guy is great but I gotta tell him i have a boyfriend etc", even when I asked about her bio once(this is all on me however, I should of asked, I cried for other unhappy personal reasons aswell). It probably should of ended there.
But it didnt the next day I ask if she was okay if we were still friends and she says yes, she apologizes for not telling me sooner. We become pretty great friends, eventually we tell each other about pretty personal secrets, I tell her my high school experience, I tell her things I have never told anyone else in my life, like my suicide attempt in high school, she helps me explore some things about me like my sexuality, she even puts makeup on me which I love, and she reveals she also did not have the greatest high school experience and she has self harm scars, she later tells she SHs since she has a pattern of cheating in relationships; this only makes me feel more like a piece of shit and youll find out later. I genuinely for the first time in my life feel a purely platonic connection with someone. The nights where we sat by the pond for hours just tlaking about movies and tv shows filled my soul with so much warmth, I loved these moments I truly developed a platonic connection with her and cared so much about her. Shes in a LDR with this guy who I dont know(she later says she never brings him up because it makes me sad and I look away(should of ended then)), we begin hanging out quite regularly, I do some things I shouldnt have done at this time, I noticed she vapes and smokes so I begin to buy her vapes(she never asked me to)(im 21 and shes 19), and I begin to vape and smoke cigarettes, she never asked me to, looking back this should not have happened, but I genuinely enjoyed seeing her happy and talking to her. She used to always say with the vapes "Now I have a reason to talk to you", why? Why would you need a reason to talk to your friend? It only made me want to buy them more.
Things start getting bad and she even mentions at this point shes likely emotionally cheating with me, which only scares me; that any day any moment any time this person who I genuinely enjoy and is my best friend could have to cut all contact with me, my mental health becomes absolutely horrendous due to this and this was always a very scary fear I had throughout all this,
I even tell her at one point it feels like im on a seesaw and im stuck and have to constantly battle catching feelings and keeping my only close friend. If i really cared about her it should of ended here, but it didnt, I should of stopped it. She begins to touch me, relativelly platonically(?)(Asking to bite me, biting me, rubbing my chest and carresing my arms) and sharing food, at first I sit there and dont touch back and sit there; I dont want to hurt her. Why would I hurt someone I care about? After a while I call her out on this and say like why are you touching me, I really cant touch back she says something along the lines of "I think im using you as a replacement for the lack of attention in a LDR", she later says she thought about it and I cant provide that for her and shes just showing her affection, but this continues, what was I doing wrong? Why cant I provide that?
Eventually I convince myself its after alot of weeks that its platonic and I touch back with the same things the arm on the shoulder, the shoulder rubbing etc. We would have smokes together roughly every night which would usually be hidden in a stair enclave where we would hug each other etc. One of her responses during this time when I mentioned how bad it would look if somebody saw us doing this she said "It would be worse for you"?? How would it be worse for someone who is not known to be in a relationship?? My self esteem was the lowest it has ever been in its life, I told myself that perhaps one day things would somehow magically change. Someone finally seemed to really like me?
Eventually as you could imagine things escalate, this involves her sitting on my lap once(forward facing, saying inapprioate things etc) in her room, her letting me rub her thighs and do her hair and rub her feet and bare legs. I should of cut contact but she was the only person who knew me, and understood me in my life. I didnt want to hurt her, I didnt want to hurt myself, but I did both. The big event happens just before Christmas, we go out and we cuddle for a while in the backseat of my car where she asked if we could cuddle in the backseat, then we head back, while in the car prior she shows me lewds on her phone(I showed her a lewd of mine prior), we both get buzzed then we go out to the pond and were looking in each others eyes holding each other and she asked to kiss my cheek, I say sure, she kisses my cheek and my chin just below my lips, which makes me feel euphoric then says "You know it would still be platonic if I let you kiss me, then I wouldnt actually be kissing you",
I wanted to so very bad, I wanted to with my whole being, I lean in, lean out before eventually saying "you have a boyfriend, If I kiss you your going to hurt yourself and I dont want to hurt you", she says "wow you have more morals than I do", "must be because your older etc" and tries to move on from it fast and dance with me, well I emotionally break the fuck down like you've HURT yourself because of this for fuck sake, she says "I didnt want to kiss you, I love my boyfriend, even if I broke up I wouldnt want to ever date you, you have too much baggage", "if we kissed I would block you and stop talking to you", the person who just asked me to kiss them, the person who has been biting me and touching me for weeks wouldnt even date me? Would block me if i did what she told me to do??? This absolutely destroyed me. I didnt know what to think. I basically had to yell at her and ask her "Why did you just try to kiss me." anyways this ends with both of us crying, her saying "I dont know what to do with the love given to me etc" me almost puking and eventually with me consoling her.
The next day we go get yogurt and I say shes my best friend and we simply need strong boundaries because I dont want to hurt her. If I should of stopped anytime it should of been now. I buy her a Christmas present and things end ok, breaks go by and im mentally gone, im at the lowest I've ever felt in my life, I feel insane, depressed, just psychotic. She messages and we talk everyday of the break(s), we say how much we miss each other etc, shes my buddy she really is, she knows everything about me, I know alot about her, and shes honestly my best friend, and I loved talking to her, she always would be there for me, I really appreciated her, we had alot in common; but I was hurting extremely bad, I felt like I was in a awful position. Anyways we return from the break into the new semester and I feel like im being used, I feel like a doormat, I feel like dirt. Things escalate here, I help her code and give her anything and everything she needs to succeed, I loved watching her succeed, because shes my best friend y'know? Anyways things get pretty bad, and we hang out alot, we always hug and I play with her hair and share our food and were pretty close, at one point I kiss her cheek for a week before realizing thats weird and made her uncomfortable and stop it, there was a week where she would cuddle with me in my bed and I moved her hand from my chest once saying stop I dont want to hurt you, she would say how happy I make her and we would rub our faces together and rub our noses together, we would watch shows together and I would rub her legs and put my hand around her. Looking back now it makes me feel sick and gross and confused, I convinced myself it was platonic.
I would pretty much be repeating often during any intimate event "I dont want to hurt you; I dont want to be the person to hurt you.", but it made me feel so very good, how do I navigate this? She would say I was the highlight of her days, the highlight of her semester, how sad she was I graduate soon, how she wishes I was in her grade, how im not a chore to talk to or hangout with. I certainely didnt fully stop these physical actions now because I was selfish, because I was ignorant. She would rub my head as we drove and put her arm down my shirt and while I was driving, etc. She would often also say "Why havnt you killed me yet...you must hate me etc." but why would I? She was my closest friend I ever had in my life. Things get super bad here, we head out and I buy her a vape(she did not ask) and we have another tough conversation about things, with the usual, "Im not breaking up with my boyfriend but your so lovable" and I get super emotional and hurt,
I really didnt want to hurt anybody. Anyways I get drunk; shes sober, and she lets me into her room a hour later as we were going to go see live music and she sits on my lap again forward facing and non-platonic things occurred, it doesn't go as far as sex but a line is crossed and we both immediately stop, but she cheated; I hurt her. I hurt her bad. I never wanted to hurt her. I never wanted to hurt anybody. The guilt is beyond anything I ever experienced and I cant even understand how she feels. She downplays it, I almost cut myself because of the shame I felt that night, the next day im crying really bad to her and tell her she should probably tell her BF if she really loves him, she says "ok i will, he will still love me tho" "doesnt this scare you? I fuck around" "this guy called me cute the other day" "you deserve better" , I then tell her not to tell her BF, because im scared and didnt know what to think to do. I should of not stopped her and walked away then. We stay close friends for around 2 weeks after this event with a bit of contentation afterwards. There was a time I got super emotional and basically told her I wish there was a camera or a third party watching this to see what you were doing to me with all this rubbing and cuddling and affection, which made her pretty much storm away from me and me saying sorry im wrong and begging her to just talk and I have a panic attack. Eventually she realized because of a outside voice that she had to tell her BF(her roommate walked in on us as that event in her room was done unfolding) , she said her BF broke up with her and she needed space, me being a selfish asshole was unable to do that, I didnt want someone I cared about harming themselves because of me, she stated the day prior she was "going to get whats coming to her" I wanted to be there for her more than anything, I get extremely drunk throughout the week and I send her messages about how absolutely terrible I felt and how much she meant to me and of selfish ideals, I then saw her outside and ran up to her, she ran away and she couldnt even look at me.
The next day she said that was unacceptable, which it absolutely was, and even before that event she didnt see room for friendship since it was never"real", what does that mean? I still dont understand it, how was it never real? She then blocked me, said she would call the police on me if I approach her again. she would still absolutely avoid me even 2 months after.
During that time after I tried to apologize, I tried to make amends, I tried to give my closure, I tried to seek closure, All met with disgust, hatred and anger. She would literally will sprint away from me full speed as I stand. She stayed at a event I was presenting at and looked away from me for the whole hour, then very obviously took pictures of me then sprint away full speed as I sat there. That hurt me beyond belief. I never in my life had someone dead sprint away from me like im a monster. I dont know whats wrong with me or why she would think I would hurt her after everything she knows about me, after everything, but I dont blame her. She said she was sorry for her decisions before this and I had little to be sorry for, and gave me a blanket "im sorry for my decisions" but how do I have little to be sorry for if I was treated as im a abuser? I should hate her guts, she even said she led me on, she knew how bad that would hurt me, she dangled happiness infront of my face for months, she ruined my senior year, shes filled my brain with pain and resentment and betrayal, she caused me to become ostracized, to become an outcast. I never felt that low in my life, I never felt that extreme level of emotional pain. I honestly feel forever damaged. But for some reason I still have this deep care for her and I shouldnt, I still hope with all my being she passed and succeeded. I hope shes okay. If she fails or hurt herself over this I dont think I could ever forgive myself. It feels like she trusted me and I betrayed her, but I dont know.
I can't stop thinking how scared and confused and sad she was on the last day we talked, how can I forgive myself for doing that to someone, it haunts my dreams and beats me to my knees everyday. I was usually very sad when i was hanging out with her. And if she for some reason forced herself to do those things with me because she felt bad for me then I don't know how I can live with myself, I never asked for those things, but I should of stopped them, I knew they were wrong, Im sorry.
Just recently I managed to find her BFs insta which was hard since she never spoke about him and I have no friends and theres still pictures of them together so now what do I do? Do I message him 3 months after the fact and tell what happened? Do I show all the proof I had all the things that occured all the videos all the photos the months? It'll likely just make me seem estranged its just so unfair. Why not just leave me alone why put all this into my head even after I told her how bad this would hurt me. If im not the bad guy then why put the image of someone in my head sprinting away from me like im a monster. There has to be something im missing, I dont understand how you can move on from something like this. The closest friend I ever had dead sprint away from me, the person I would talk to every single day for 5 months straight absolutely hates my guts and my whole being. I dont want to try anymore. I gave it all the little I had.
Im not a victim, im not a saint, I didnt stop my actions, I played a role and Im forever sorry, I lost someone I cared about and someone who maybe at one point actually cared about me. Im sorry. I dont know how to view this. I just want someone to talk to and someone to understand me, I just want someone to tell me I wasnt blind, for someone to tell me this doesnt define me, for someone to say your going to be okay, because as of now im 2/2 for being hurt badly in a relationship(I dont even know what to call this), any insight I get online I always have to type in "ex" to get relevant results which only makes me more confused She couldnt even wish me happy birthday or give me the present she bought me, i spent it all alone. I graduate college in 3 days, I have a ok job lined up which I hate.
I have a not so great home life, I dont know what to do with myself or how to live with myself after all this, why would I do this to myself, why do I struggle forming connections? why do I hurt people I care about? It felt real to me. I now talk to maybe 2 people, im bisexual and live in the middle of nowhere and have nobody. I dont want to talk to anyone ever again. Theres more to it perhaps, she used to always say " i hope im doing him more good than harm etc" but i dont know how leading someone on who has emotional trauma helps them, maybe we both should of left each other alone. I really did like talking to her, and liked hearing what she had to say, but ill likely never talk or see her ever again. I dont want to go down this road again. I dont want to hurt anybody. I have panic attacks when I go to her hallway or if she sees me I feel like i have to document everything I do, i feel like a weirdo loser. I constantly breakdown. I spend most of my days sleeping and waking up feeling immense internal guilt and hatred and pain. Anytime I try to talk to someone about this im seen as estranged, im disregarded, the only thing I can do is tell my side with proof and videos, but I dont want to hurt anybody anymore but it so unfair; im tired of being hurt.
If you read all this then I deeply appreciate you. I have nobody to talk to this about.

Star Wars: Episode III - Revenge of the Sith (2005) Lock on to him, R2. Master, General Grievous's ship is directly ahead- Master, General Grievous's ship is directly ahead- the one crawling with vulture droids. I see it. Oh, this is going to be easy. - Oddball, do you copy? - Copy, Red Leader. Mark my position. Form your squad up behind me. We're on your tail, General Kenobi. Set S-foils in attack position. This is where the fun begins. Let them pass between us. They're all over me. - Get them off my- - I'm gonna go help them out. No. They are doing theirjob so we can do ours. Missiles. Pull up. - They overshot us. - They're coming around. All right, R4. No, no. Nothing too fancy. Surge all power units, R2. Stand by reverse thrusters. We got 'em, R2. Flying is for droids. - I'm hit. Anakin? - I see them. Buzz droids. R4, be careful. You have a- Oh, dear. They're shutting down all the controls. Move to the right so I can get a clear shot at them. The mission. Get to the command ship. Get the chancellor. I'm running out of tricks here. In the name of- - Hold your fre! You're not helping. - I agree. Bad idea. I can't see a thing. My cockpit's fogging. They're all over me. Anakin! - Move to the right. - Hold on. You'll get us both killed. Get out of here. There's nothing more you can do. I'm not leaving without you, Master. Get him, R2. Watch out. R2, hit the buzz droid's centre eye. - Yeah, you got him! - Great, R2. The general's command ship is dead ahead. Have you noticed the shields are still up? Sorry, Master. I have a bad feeling about this. There they are. Get them. R2, locate the chancellor. The chancellor's signal is coming from right there- the observation platform at the top of that spire. I sense Count Dooku. - I sense a trap. - Next move? Spring the trap. R2, go back. I need you to stay with the ship. Here. Take this and wait for orders. What's the situation, Captain? Two Jedi have landed in the main hangar bay. We're tracking them. Just as Count Dooku predicted. Destroyers. Drop your weapons. I said drop 'em. - Roger. - Roger, roger. Those are Jedi fghters all right. - Did you press the stop button? - No. Did you? There's more than one way out of here. We don't want to get out. We want to get moving. R2, activate elevator 31174. - Come in, R2. - What that? R2, do you copy? R2, activate the elevator number 31174. Get back to work. That nothin'. Activate the elevator 31174. R2- Always on the move. R2, switch on the comlink. R2, can you hear me? R2? R2! R2! Stop. Stop. R2, we need to be going up. Hands up, Jedi. R2, do you copy? R2, do you hear me? R2, we need to be going up, not down. Hey, you! That's better. You stupid little astro droid. Oh, it's you. My eyes! My eyes! - What was that all about? - R2 has been- - No loose wire jokes. - Did I say anything? - He's trying. - I didn't say anything. - Chancellor. - Are you all right? Count Dooku. - This time we will do it together. - I was about to say that. Get help. You're no match for him. He's a Sith lord. Chancellor Palpatine, Sith lords are our speciality. Your swords, please. We don't want to make a mess of things in front of the chancellor. You won't get away this time, Dooku. I've been looking forward to this. My powers have doubled since the last time we met, Count. Good. Twice the pride, double the fall. Get- I sense great fear in you, Skywalker. You have hate. You have anger. But you don't use them. Good, Anakin. Good. Kill him. Kill him now. I shouldn't. Do it. You did well, Anakin. He was too dangerous to be kept alive. Yes, but he was an unarmed prisoner. I shouldn't have done that. It's not the Jedi way. It is only natural. He cut off your arm, and you wanted revenge. It wasn't the frst time, Anakin. Remember what you told me about your mother and the Sand People? Now we must leave before more security droids arrive. Anakin, there's no time. We must get off this ship before it's too late. - He seems to be all right. - Leave him, or we'll never make it. His fate will be the same as ours. Prepare for attack! All batteries, fre! Fire! Elevator's not working. R2, activate elevator 3224. - Reverse stabilizers. - Reversing stabilizers. Magnetize! Magnetize! Fire the emergency booster engines. We're levelling out, sir. Easy. We're in a bit of a situation here. - Did I miss something? - Hold on. - What is that? - Oops. R2. R2, shut down the elevator. Too late. Jump! Let's see if we can fnd something in the hangar bay that's still flyable. R2, get down here. R2, do you copy? General, we found the Jedi. They're in hallway 328. Activate ray shields. Ray shields. Wait a minute. How did this happen? We're smarter than this. Apparently not. - I say patience. - Patience? Yes. R2 will be along in a few moments... and then he'll release the ray shields. See? No problem. Don't move. Do you have a plan B? Ah, yes. The negotiator. General Kenobi. We've been waiting for you. Excuse me. - That wasn't much of a rescue. - You're welcome. And- Anakin Skywalker. I was expecting someone with your reputation to be a little... older. General Grievous. You're shorter than I expected. Jedi scum. We have a job to do, Anakin. Try not to upset him. Your lightsabres will make a fne addition to my collection. Not this time. And this time, you won't escape. R2. Crush them! Make them suffer! Come. Now! Stay at your stations! Get him! Get him! Run! Don't bother with them. - Keep the ship in orbit. - Yes, sir. You lose, General Kenobi. Get out of here! Run! Time to abandon ship. All the escape pods have been launched. Grievous. Can you fly a cruiser like this? - You mean, can I land what's left of it? - Well? Under the circumstances, I'd say the ability to pilot this thing is irrelevant. Strap yourselves in. Open all hatches. Extend all flaps and drag fns. We lost something. Not to worry. We are still flying half a ship. Now we're really picking up speed. Eight plus 60. - We're in the atmosphere. - Grab that. Keep us level. Steady. Easy, R2. Fire ships on the left and the right. - We'll take you in. - Copy that. - Landing strip, straight ahead. - We're coming in too hot. Another happy landing. Coming, Master? No. I'm not brave enough for politics. I have to report to the council. Besides, someone needs to be the poster boy. Hold on. This whole operation was your idea. Let us not forget, Anakin, that you rescued me from the buzz droids. And you killed Count Dooku, and you rescued the chancellor... carrying me unconscious on your back. All because of your training. Anakin, let's be fair. Today you were the hero... and you deserve your glorious day with the politicians. All right. But you owe me one, and not for saving your skin for the 10th time. Ninth time. That business on Cato Neimoidia doesn't count. I'll see you at the briefng. Chancellor Palpatine, are you all right? Yes. Thanks to your two Jedi knights. They killed Count Dooku, but General Grievous has escaped once again. General Grievous will run and hide, as he always does. He's a coward. But with Count Dooku dead, he is the leader of the droid army. And I assure you... the senate will vote to continue the war as long as Grievous is alive. Then the Jedi Council will make fnding Grievous our highest priority. - Watch it. - Excuse me. - Come along, R2. - The Republic cannot praise you enough. Thank you, Senator Organa. It couldn't possibly be as bad as all that. Now there I agree with you. In fact, I could do with a tune-up myself. But the fghting will continue until General Grievous is spare parts. I will do everything I can in the senate. - Excuse me. - Certainly. I've missed you, Padm. There were whispers that you'd been killed. I'm all right. It feels like we've been apart for a lifetime. And it might have been, if the chancellor hadn't been kidnapped. I don't think they would have ever brought us back from the outer rim sieges. - Wait. Not here. - Yes, here. I'm tired of all this deception. I don't care if they know we're married. Anakin, don't say things like that. Are you all right? You're trembling. What's going on? Something wonderful has happened. Ani, I'm pregnant. That's wonderful. What are we gonna do? We're not gonna worry about anything right now. All right? This is a happy moment. The happiest moment of my life. Yes, Lord Sidious? General Grievous... I suggest you move the separatist leaders to Mustafar. It will be done, my lord. The end of the war is near, General. But the loss of Count Dooku- His death was a necessary loss. Soon I will have a new apprentice- one far younger and more powerful. Ani, I want to have our baby back home on Naboo. We can go to the lake country where no one will know... where we can be safe. I can go early and fx up the baby's room. I know the perfect spot. Right by the gardens. You are so... beautiful. It's only because I'm so in love. No, it's because I'm so in love with you. So love has blinded you? That's not exactly what I meant. But it's probably true. Anakin, help me! What's bothering you? Nothing. I remember when I gave this to you. How long is it gonna take for us to be honest with each other? - It was a dream. - Bad? Like the ones I used to have about my mother, just before she died. And? And it was about you. Tell me. It was only a dream. You die in childbirth. And the baby? I don't know. - It was only a dream. - I won't let this one become real. This baby will change our lives. I doubt the queen will continue to allow me to serve in the senate. If the council discovers you're the father, you'll be expelled- I know. I know. Do you think Obi-Wan might be able to help us? We don't need his help. Our baby is a blessing. Premonitions? Premonitions. These visions you have- They're of pain, suffering. Death. Yourself you speak of, or someone you know? Someone. Close to you? Yes. Careful you must be when sensing the future, Anakin. The fear of loss is a path to the dark side. I won't let these visions come true, Master Yoda. Death is a natural part of life. Rejoice for those around you who transform into the Force. Mourn them, do not. Miss them, do not. Attachment leads to jealousy. The shadow of greed that is. What must I do, Master Yoda? Train yourself to let go... of everything you fear to lose. You've missed the report on the outer rim sieges. I'm sorry. I was held up. - I have no excuse. - In short, they are going very well. Saleucami has fallen, and Master Vos has moved his troops to Boz Pity. What's wrong, then? The senate is expected to vote more executive powers to the chancellor today. That can only mean less deliberating and more action. Is that bad? It'll make it easier for us to end this war. Be careful of your friend Palpatine. Be careful of what? - He has requested your presence. - What for? He would not say. He didn't inform the council? That's unusual, isn't it? All of this is unusual. And it's making me feel uneasy. I hope you trust me, Anakin. Of course. I need your help, son. What do you mean? I'm depending on you. For what? I don't understand. To be the eyes, ears and voice of the Republic. I'm appointing you to be my personal representative on the Jedi Council. Me? A master? I'm overwhelmed, sir. But the council elects its own members. They'll never accept this. I think they will. They need you. More than you know. Allow this appointment lightly the council does not. Disturbing is this move by Chancellor Palpatine. I understand. You are on this council... but we do not grant you the rank of master. What? How can you do this? This is outrageous. It's unfair. How can you be on the council and not be a master? Take a seat, young Skywalker. Forgive me, Master. We have surveyed all systems in the Republic... but have found no sign of General Grievous. Hiding in the outer rim Grievous is. The outlying systems you must sweep. We do not have many ships to spare. What about the droid attack on the Wookiees? It is critical we send an attack group there immediately. He's right. It's a system we cannot afford to lose. Go I will. Good relations with the Wookiees I have. It's settled then. Yoda will take a battalion of clones to reinforce the Wookiees on Kashyyyk. May the Force be with us all. What kind of nonsense is this? Put me on the council and not make me a master? It's never been done in the history of the Jedi. It's insulting. Calm down, Anakin. You have been given a great honour. To be on the council at your age- it's never happened before. The fact of the matter is you are too close to the chancellor. The council doesn't like it when he interferes in Jedi affairs. I swear to you, I didn't ask to be put on the council. But it's what you wanted. Your friendship with Chancellor Palpatine seems to have paid off. That has nothing to do with this. The only reason the council has approved your appointment... is because the chancellor trusts you. And? Anakin, I am on your side. I didn't want to put you in this situation. What situation? The council wants you to report on all the chancellor's dealings. They want to know what he's up to. They want me to spy on the chancellor? - But that's treason. - We are at war, Anakin. Why didn't the council give me this assignment when we were in session? This assignment is not to be on record. The chancellor is not a bad man, Obi-Wan. He befriended me. He's watched out for me ever since I arrived here. That is why you must help us. Anakin, our allegiance is to the senate, not to its leader... who has managed to stay in offce long after his term has expired. The senate demanded that he stay longer. Yes, but use your feelings, Anakin. Something is out of place. You're asking me to do something against the Jedi code. Against the Republic. Against a mentor and a friend. That's what's out of place here. Why are you asking this of me? The council is asking you. Anakin did not take to his new assignment with much enthusiasm. It's very dangerous, putting them together. I don't think the boy can handle it. I don't trust him. With all due respect, Master, is he not the chosen one? Is he not to destroy the Sith and bring balance to the Force? So the prophecy says. A prophecy that misread could have been. He will not let me down. He never has. I hope right you are. Sometimes I wonder what's happening to the Jedi order. I think this war is destroying the principles of the Republic. Have you ever considered that we may be on the wrong side? What do you mean? What if the democracy we thought we were serving no longer exists... and the Republic has become the very evil we've been fghting to destroy? I don't believe that. And you're sounding like a separatist. This war represents a failure to listen. Now you're closer to the chancellor than anyone. Please, ask him to stop the fghting and let diplomacy resume. Don't ask me to do that. Make a motion in the senate, where that kind of a request belongs. - What is it? - Nothing. Don't do this. Don't shut me out. Let me help you. Hold me. Like you did by the lake on Naboo. So long ago, when there was nothing but our love. No politics, no plotting, no war. - You wanted to see me, Chancellor. - Yes, Anakin. Come closer. I have good news. Our clone intelligence units... have discovered the location of General Grievous. He's hiding in the Utapau system. At last. We'll be able to capture that monster and end this war. I would worry about the collective wisdom of the council... if it didn't select you for this assignment. You're the best choice, by far. Sit down. Leave us. You know I'm not able to rely on the Jedi Council. If they haven't included you in their plot, they soon will. I'm not sure I understand. You must sense what I have come to suspect. The Jedi Council want control of the Republic. They're planning to betray me. - I don't think that- - Anakin. Search your feelings. You know, don't you? I know they don't trust you. Or the senate. Or the Republic. Or democracy, for that matter. I have to admit, my trust in them has been shaken. Why? They asked you to do something that made you feel dishonest, didn't they? They asked you to spy on me, didn't they? I don't know what to say. Remember back to your early teachings. All who gain power are afraid to lose it. - Even the Jedi. - The Jedi use their power for good. Good is a point of view, Anakin. The Sith and the Jedi are similar in almost every way... including their quest for greater power. The Sith rely on their passion for their strength. They think inwards- only about themselves. And the Jedi don't? The Jedi are selfless. They only care about others. Did you ever hear the tragedy of Darth Plagueis the Wise? I thought not. It's not a story the Jedi would tell you. It's a Sith legend. Darth Plagueis was a dark lord of the Sith... Darth Plagueis was a dark lord of the Sith... so powerful and so wise... he could use the Force to influence the midi-chlorians... to create... life. He had such a knowledge of the dark side... he could even keep the ones he cared about... from dying. He could actually... save people from death? The dark side of the Force is a pathway to many abilities... some consider to be unnatural. What happened to him? He became so powerful... the only thing he was afraid of was... Iosing his power. Which eventually, of course, he did. Unfortunately, he taught his apprentice everything he knew. Then his apprentice killed him in his sleep. It's ironic. He could save others from death... but not himself. Is it possible to learn this power? Not from a Jedi. All Red units, over here! Palpatine thinks General Grievous is on Utapau? A partial message was intercepted... in a diplomatic packet from the chairman of Utapau. Act on this we must. The capture of General Grievous will end this war. Quickly and decisively we should proceed. The chancellor has requested... that I lead the campaign. The council will make up its own mind who is to go... not the chancellor. A master is needed, with more experience. I concur. Master Kenobi should go. I agree. Aye. Aye. Very well. Council adjourned. The droids have started up their main power generators. - Then now the time is, Commander. - Yes, sir. Charge! Head for cover! - You're gonna need me on this one. - I agree. However, it may turn out Just to be a wild bantha chase. Master. I've disappointed you. I haven't been very appreciative of your training. I've been arrogant, and I apologize. I've just been so frustrated with the council. You are strong and wise, Anakin, and I am very proud of you. I have trained you since you were a small boy. I have taught you everything I know. And you have become a far greater Jedi than I could ever hope to be. But be patient, Anakin. It will not be long before the council makes you a Jedi master. Obi-Wan. May the Force be with you. Goodbye, old friend. May the Force be with you. Fortunately, most of the cities are concentrated on this small continent here. On the far side. I'll keep them distracted until you get there. - Just don't take too long. - Come on. When have I ever let you down? Very well. The burden is on me not to destroy all the droids until you arrive. Save your energy. I can't. Don't give up, Padm. Obi-Wan's been here, hasn't he? He came by this morning. What did he want? He's worried about you. He says you've been under a lot of stress. I feel lost. Lost? What do you mean? Obi-Wan and the council don't trust me. They trust you with their lives. Something's happening. I'm not the Jedi I should be. I want more. And I know I shouldn't. You expect too much of yourself. - I found a way to save you. - Save me? From my nightmares. Is that what's bothering you? I won't lose you, Padm. I'm not gonna die in childbirth, Ani. - I promise you. - No, I promise you. Greetings, young Jedi. What brings you to our remote sanctuary? Unfortunately, the war. There's no war here- unless you brought it with you. With your kind permission, I should like some fuel... and to use your city as a base as I search nearby systems for General Grievous. He is here. We are being held hostage. - They are watching us. - I understand. Tenth level, thousands of battle droids. Tell your people to take shelter. If you have warriors, now is the time. Take the fghter back to the ship. Tell Cody I've made contact. - Is he bringing additional warriors? - He didn't say. It won't be long before the armies of the Republic track us here. I am sending you to the Mustafar system in the outer rim. It is a volcanic planet. - You will be safe there. - Safe? Chancellor Palpatine managed to escape your grip, General. Without Count Dooku, I have doubts about your ability to keep us safe. Be thankful, Viceroy, you have not found yourself in my grip. Your ship is waiting. Hello there. General Kenobi. You are a bold one. Kill him. Back away. I will deal with this Jedi slime myself. Your move. You fool. I've been trained in your Jedi arts by Count Dooku. Attack, Kenobi. Army or not... you must realize you are doomed. I don't think so. Cover that corner. Master Windu, may I interrupt? General Kenobi has made contact with General Grievous... and we have begun our attack. Thank you, Commander. Anakin, deliver this report to the chancellor. His reaction will give us a clue to his intentions. Yes, Master. I sense a plot to destroy the Jedi. The dark side of the Force surrounds the chancellor. If he does not give up his emergency powers... after the destruction of Grievous... then he should be removed from office. The Jedi Council would have to take control of the senate... in order to secure a peaceful transition. To a dark place this line of thought will carry us. Great care we must take. Chancellor. We've just received a report from Master Kenobi. He has engaged General Grievous. We can only hope that Master Kenobi is up to the challenge. I should be there with him. It's upsetting to me to see that the council... doesn't seem to fully appreciate your talents. Don't you wonder why they won't make you a Jedi master? I wish I knew. More and more I get the feeling that... I'm being excluded from the council. I know there are things about the Force that they're not telling me. They don't trust you, Anakin. They see your future. They know your power will be too strong to control. You must break through the fog of lies the Jedi have created around you. Let me help you to know the subtleties of the Force. How do you know the ways of the Force? My mentor taught me everything about the Force. Even the nature of the dark side. You know the dark side? If one is to understand the great mystery... one must study all its aspects... not just the dogmatic narrow view of the Jedi. If you wish to become a complete and wise leader... you must embrace a larger view of the Force. Be careful of the Jedi, Anakin. Only through me can you achieve a power greater than any Jedi. Learn to know the dark side of the Force... and you will be able to save your wife... from certain death. What did you say? Use my knowledge. I beg you. You're the Sith lord. I know what's been troubling you. Listen to me. Don't continue to be a pawn of the Jedi Council. Ever since I've known you, you've been searching for a life... greater than that of an ordinary Jedi. A life of signifcance... of conscience. - Are you going to kill me? - I would certainly like to. I know you would. I can feel your anger. It gives you focus... makes you stronger. I'm going to turn you over to the Jedi Council. Of course. You should. But you're not sure of their intentions, are you? I will quickly discover the truth of all this. You have great wisdom, Anakin. Know the power of the dark side. Power to save Padm. So uncivilized. Master Windu, I must talk to you. Skywalker, we just received word that Obi-Wan has destroyed General Grievous. We're on our way to make sure... the chancellor returns emergency power back to the senate. He won't give up his power. I've just learned a terrible truth. I think Chancellor Palpatine is a Sith lord. A Sith lord? Yes. The one we've been looking for. - How do you know this? - He knows the ways of the Force. He's been trained to use the dark side. - Are you sure? - Absolutely. Then our worst fears have been realized. We must move quickly if the Jedi order is to survive. Master, the chancellor is very powerful. You'll need my help if you're going to arrest him. For you own good, stay out of this affair. I sense a great deal of confusion in you, young Skywalker. There is much fear that clouds your judgement. - I must go, Master. - No. If what you've told me is true, you will have gained my trust. But for now, remain here. Wait in the council chambers until we return. Yes, Master. You do know, don't you... if theJedi destroy me... any chance of saving her will be lost. Master Windu. I take it General Grievous has been destroyed then. I must say you're here sooner than expected. In the name of the Galactic Senate of the Republic... you're under arrest, Chancellor. Are you threatening me, Master Jedi? The senate will decide your fate. - I am the senate. - Not yet. It's treason then. You are under arrest, my lord. Anakin, I told you it would come to this. I was right. The Jedi are taking over. The oppression of the Sith will never return. You have lost. You will die! He's a traitor! He is the traitor! I have the power to save the one you love. You must choose. Don't listen to him, Anakin! Don't let him kill me. I can't hold it any longer. I can't. I'm weak. I'm too weak. Help me. Help me! I can't hold on any longer. I am going to end this once and for all. You can't. He must stand trial. He has control of the senate and the courts. He's too dangerous to be left alive. I'm too weak. - Don't kill me. Please. - It's not the Jedi way. He must live. - Please don't. - I need him. Please don't! Power! Unlimited power! What have I done? You're fulflling your destiny, Anakin. Become my apprentice. Learn to use the dark side of the Force. I will do whatever you ask. Good. Just help me save Padm's life. I can't live without her. To cheat death is a power only one has achieved... but if we work together... I know we can discover the secret. I pledge myself... to your teachings. Good. Good. The Force is strong with you. A powerful Sith you will become. Henceforth you shall be known as... Darth... Vader. Thank you, my master. Rise. Because the council did not trust you, my young apprentice... I believe you are the only Jedi with no knowledge of this plot. When the Jedi learn what has transpired here... they will kill us, along with all the senators. I agree. The council's next move will be against the senate. Every single Jedi... including your friend Obi-Wan Kenobi... is now an enemy of the Republic. I understand, Master. We must move quickly. The Jedi are relentless. If they are not all destroyed, it will be civil war without end. First I want you to go to the Jedi temple. We will catch them off-balance. Do what must be done, Lord Vader. Do not hesitate. Show no mercy. Only then will you be strong enough with the dark side... to save Padm. What about the other Jedi spread across the galaxy? Their betrayal will be dealt with. After you have killed all the Jedi in the temple... go to the Mustafar system. Wipe out Viceroy Gunray... and the other separatist leaders. Once more the Sith will rule the galaxy! And... we shall have... peace. Sergeant, over here! Hurry! All of them! All Red units, let's move it! Come on. Let's go! Commander, contact your troops. Tell them to move to the higher levels. Very good, sir. By the way, I think you'll be needing this. Thank you, Cody. Let's get a move on. We've got a battle to win. Yes, sir. Commander Cody... the time has come. Execute order 66. Yes, my lord. Blast him! Come on! Execute order 66. It will be done, my lord. It will be done, my lord. Master Skywalker, there are too many of them. What are we going to do? The chancellor's offce indicated Master Anakin returned to the Jedi temple. Don't worry. I'm sure he'll be all right. - What's going on here? - There's been a rebellion, sir. Don't worry. The situation is under control. I'm sorry, sir. It's time for you to leave. And so it is. Get him! Don't worry about him. Let him go. All these Wookiees are dead. Move to the east. Yes, sir. Goodbye, Tarfful. Goodbye, Chewbacca. Miss you I will. Hopefully we'll be able to intercept a few Jedi... before they walk into this catastrophe. Did you fnd Kenobi? Sir, no one could have survived that fall. Start loading your men on the ships. Move it. Emergency code 913. I have no contact on any frequency. Master Kenobi. - Repeat. - Master Kenobi. Senator Organa. My clone troops turned on me. I need help. We havejust rescued Master Yoda. It appears this ambush has happened everywhere. We're sending you our coordinates. Hush! Not so loud. Are you all right? I heard there was an attack on the Jedi temple. - You could see the smoke from here. - I'm fne. I came to see if you and the baby are safe. What's happening? The Jedi have tried to overthrow the Republic. I can't believe that. I saw Master Windu attempt to assassinate the chancellor myself. What are you gonna do? I will not betray the Republic. My loyalties lie with the chancellor... and with the senate and with you. - What about Obi-Wan? - I don't know. Many Jedi have been killed. We can only hope that he's remained loyal to the chancellor. Anakin, I'm afraid. Have faith, my love. Everything will soon be set right. The chancellor has given me a very important mission. The separatists have gathered on the Mustafar system. I'm going there to end this war. Wait for me until I return. Things will be different. I promise. Please, wait for me. Well, he is under a lot of stress, R2. Take care, my little friend. Oh, my lady, is there anything I might do? No, thank you, 3PO. I feel so helpless. How many other Jedi have managed to survive? Heard from no one have we. I saw thousands of troops attack the Jedi temple. That's why I went looking for Yoda. Have we had any contact from the temple? Received a coded retreat message we have. It requests all Jedi to return to the temple. - It says the war is over. - Then we must go back. If there are any stragglers, they will fall into the trap and be killed. Suggest dismantling the coded signal, do you? Yes, Master. There is too much at stake. I agree. And a little more knowledge might light our way. The plan has gone as you had promised, my lord. You have done well, Viceroy. When my new apprentice Darth Vader arrives... he will take care of you. We're receiving a message from the chancellor's offce, sir. - Send it through. - Yes, sir. Senator Organa, the supreme chancellor requests your presence... at a special session of Congress. - I will be there. - He'll be expecting you. - Could be a trap. - I don't think so. The chancellor will not be able to control the thousands of star systems... without keeping the senate intact. If a special session of Congress there is... easier for us to enter the Jedi temple it will be. R2, stay with the ship. Welcome, Lord Vader. We've been expecting you. And the Jedi rebellion has been foiled. What's happened? The chancellor's been elaborating on a plot by the Jedi to overthrow the senate. The remaining Jedi will be hunted down and defeated. Not even the younglings survived. Killed not by clones this Padawan. By a lightsabre he was. Who? Who could have done this? The attempt on my life... has left me scarred and deformed. But I assure you. My resolve has never been stronger! Stop! In order to ensure the security and continuing stability... the Republic will be reorganized... into the frst Galactic Empire! For a safe and secure society. So this is how liberty dies. With thunderous applause. The war is over. Lord Sidious promised us peace. We only want- I have recalibrated the code, warning all surviving Jedi to stay away. For the clones... to discover the recalibration a long time it will take. Wait. Master. There is something I must know. If into the security recordings you go, only pain will you fnd. I must know the truth, Master. It can't be. It can't be. You have done well, my new apprentice. Now, Lord Vader... go and bring peace to the Empire. I can't watch any more. Destroy the Sith we must. Send me to kill the emperor. I will not kill Anakin. To fght this Lord Sidious, strong enough you are not. He is like my brother. I cannot do it. Twisted by the dark side young Skywalker has become. The boy you trained, gone he is. Consumed by Darth Vader. I do not know where the emperor has sent him. I don't know where to look. Use your feelings, Obi-Wan, and fnd him you will. When was the last time you saw him? - Yesterday. - And do you know where he is now? Padm, I need your help. - He is in grave danger. - From the Sith? From himself. Anakin has turned to the dark side. You're wrong. How could you even say that? I have seen a security hologram... of him... killing younglings. Not Anakin. He couldn't. He was deceived by a lie. We all were. It appears that the chancellor is behind everything, including the war. Palpatine is the Sith lord we've been looking for. After the death of Count Dooku, Anakin became his new apprentice. I don't believe you. I can't. I must fnd him. You're going to kill him, aren't you? He has become a very great threat. I can't. Anakin is the father, isn't he? I'm so sorry. - Milady, let me come with you. - There's no danger. The fghting's over. And this is personal. As you wish, milady, but I strongly disagree. I'll be all right, Captain. This is something I must do myself. Besides, 3PO will look after me. Oh, dear. Do you know? I think I'm beginning to get the hang of this flying business. The separatists have been taken care of, my master. It is fnished then. You have restored peace and justice to the galaxy. Send a message to the ships of the Trade Federation. All droid units must shut down immediately. Very good, my lord. I saw your ship. - What are you doing out here? - I was so worried about you. Obi-Wan told me terrible things. What things? He said you've turned to the dark side. That you... killed younglings. Obi-Wan is trying to turn you against me. He cares about us. Us? He knows. He wants to help you. Anakin, all I want is your love. Love won't save you, Padm. - Only my new powers can do that. - At what cost? You're a good person. Don't do this. I won't lose you the way I lost my mother. I am becoming more powerful than any Jedi has ever dreamed of. And I'm doing it for you. To protect you. Come away with me. Help me raise our child. Leave everything else behind while we still can. Don't you see? We don't have to run away any more. I have brought peace to the Republic. I am more powerful than the chancellor. I can overthrow him. And together, you and I can rule the galaxy... make things the way we want them to be. I don't believe what I'm hearing. Obi-Wan was right. You've changed. I don't want to hear any more about Obi-Wan. The Jedi turned against me. Don't you turn against me. I don't know you any more. You're breaking my heart. You're going down a path I can't follow. Because of Obi-Wan? Because of what you've done. What you plan to do. Stop. Stop now. Come back. - I love you. - Liar! You're with him! You brought him here to kill me. Let her go, Anakin. Let her go. You turned her against me! You have done that yourself. You will not take her from me! Your anger and your lust for power have already done that. You have allowed this dark lord to twist your mind... until now you have become the very thing you swore to destroy. Don't lecture me, Obi-Wan. I see through the lies of the Jedi. I do not fear the dark side as you do. I have brought peace... freedom, justice and security to my new empire. Your new empire? Don't make me kill you. Anakin, my allegiance is to the Republic, to democracy! If you're not with me... then you're my enemy. Only a Sith deals in absolutes. I will do what I must. You will try. I hear a new apprentice you have, Emperor. Or should I call you Darth Sidious? Master Yoda. You survived. Surprised? Your arrogance blinds you, Master Yoda. Now you will experience... the full power of the dark side. I have waited a long time for this moment... my little green friend. At last the Jedi are no more. Not if anything to say about it I have. At an end your rule is. And not short enough it was. If so powerful you are... why leave? You will not stop me. Darth Vader will become more powerful than either of us. Faith in your new apprentice misplaced may be. As is your faith in the dark side of the Force. Hurry. Careful timing we will need. Activate your homing beacon when you're ready. There's no sign of his body, sir. - Then he is not dead. - Double your search. Yes, sir. Right away, sir. Tell Captain Kagi to prepare my shuttle for immediate take-off. - Yes, Master. - I sense Lord Vader is in danger. Into exile I must go. Failed I have. I have failed you, Anakin. I have failed you. I should have known the Jedi were plotting to take over. Anakin, Chancellor Palpatine is evil! From my point of view, the Jedi are evil. Then you are lost! This is the end for you, my master. It's over, Anakin. I have the high ground. You underestimate my power. Don't try it. You were the chosen one! It was said that you would destroy the Sith, not join them! Bring balance to the Force, not leave it in darkness! I hate you! You were my brother, Anakin. I loved you. Master Kenobi. We have Miss Padm on board. Yes. Please, please hurry. We should leave this dreadful place. Is Anakin all right? Your Majesty, this way. There he is. He's still alive. Get a medical capsule immediately. Yes, sir. Right away. Excuse me, Master Yoda. Obi-Wan Kenobi has made contact. We'll take her to the medical centre. Quickly. Medically, she's completely healthy. For reasons we can't explain, we are losing her. - She's dying? - We don't know why. She has lost the will to live. We need to operate quickly if we are to save the babies. Babies? She's carrying twins. Luke. Oh, Luke. - It's a girl. - Leia. There's good in him. I know. I know there's... still- Lord Vader. Can you hear me? Yes, Master. Where is Padm? Is she safe? Is she all right? It seems, in your anger, you killed her. I? I couldn't have. She was alive. I felt it! Hidden, safe the children must be kept. We must take them somewhere where the Sith will not sense their presence. Split up they should be. My wife and I will take the girl. We've always talked of adopting a baby girl. She will be loved with us. And what of the boy? To Tatooine. To his family send him. I will take the child and watch over him. Until the time is right, disappear we will. Master Kenobi, wait a moment. In your solitude on Tatooine, training I have for you. Training? An old friend has learned the path to immortality. One who has returned from the netherworld of the Force. Your old master. Qui-Gon? How to commune with him I will teach you. - Captain Antilles. - Yes, Your Highness? I'm placing these droids in your care. Treat them well. Clean them up. Have the protocol droid's mind wiped. What? 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