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I know that it’s been 2 weeks since the repease but god, it is not what i expected.
But first, i’ll tell the good things in the movie. The titanic parody, the south park parody and Mr. Puzzles’ villian song are really great.
But the rest of the movie is meh
They hyped us for this event for 1 year and have made it look like it’s going to be the biggest enemy the SMG4 Crew will face. But it looked like the movie’s plot was written while the movie was created. Mr. Puzzles needs five stars to be so strong? Then how many stars did he have in IGBP when he created a keyboard that unleashed a goop on the castle? They left so many secrets unrevealed. The only thing we know about Mr. Puzzles was that he was a lonely TV addict who “got into television”. And honestly, what about Mario? The livestream and the episode prior to the movie made it like he was gonna have a big role. Instead he was a dumbass who only wanted to watch TV. The only reason he came after Mr. Puzzles is the TV Dumbhead turned off the Teletubbies show. AND if Mr. Puzzles does return, what’s he gonna do? Do the same or Try to do the same. 5/10

I am a college-aged adult (a young adult, basically.)
Sexually, I am quite repressed. However, whenever I do think about men sexually, I tend to imagine myself with a darker skinned man (to me, darker skinned tends to mean either asap Rocky’s complexion, or just someone who is darker than a typical white man, like Fez from That 70s Show. I will typically imagine myself giving a blowjob or having sex with a man, I think in part because when I last had a boyfriend two years ago - a dark skinned black male, who was overweight - that was the first sexual thing I ever did with, well, anyone. I haven’t done anything sexually with anyone since, and haven’t had a boyfriend since.) I have trouble envisioning myself having sex with a white man, unless it’s someone who I’m very attracted to like Jake Gyllenhaal, and even then something about it doesn’t feel right.
I am not attracted, in general, to the average white man. I had a big crush on David Bowie in middle school and still felt attraction toward him when I watched him perform live in the 1970s on YouTube some months ago, because of his aura. I was also wildly attracted to Jake Gyllenhaal in “Donnie Darko” about two years ago and wrote a fanfic about three years ago about how handsome he was in “Brokeback Mountain” (from Ennis’ perspective.)
I am probably the least attracted to Asian men, but I really don’t mean that in an offensive way, I just haven’t felt attraction toward an Asian male in about a decade (literally.) I don’t think it will happen again. There are probably a variety of reasons as to why the attraction isn’t there (lack of media representation, stereotypes, probably other things idk.)
The two guys in high school who I was most attracted to were lightskinned and mixed race. One was conventionally attractive - someone who non-black people agreed was very cute - and had colored eyes. The other was slightly above average in 9th grade, but gradually became average (I was no longer attracted to him when he became average. He looked something like this: https://www.instagram.com/reel/CyMJ4kvPgvq/?igsh=MzRlODBiNWFlZA==)
I notice that the white men who I have been attracted to tend to have blue eyes, typically a blonde hair and blue eyes combo.
I have been attracted to multiple Mexican/latino men, although they were above average. I briefly had a bit of a crush a few years ago on Benny from the sandlot.
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So i have another medical issue going on i was going to the doctor for but while there my heart rate (despite being anxious at the doctors) was 68 bpm. Now, two years ago i had to stop wearing my Apple Watch bc it freaked me out how at night it would get down to 34 bpm. I went to my primary doctor about this, but as the US medical system does, they want to test for everything else first. With my long term injury related health going on I can’t really stop to get a sleep study done right now in order to get my doctor to allow me to book with a cardiologist months and months later for a heart rate no one seems that concerned about. But is it weird? I thought 60s resting tends to be… for the athletic. I am smaller so I think the doctors assume that/don’t believe me when i say I genuinely get extremely winded going up stairs and can not run for more then 15 seconds without actively feeling like my heart is going “too fast” it’s going to beat out of my chest despite ALWAYS being low. I have never seen my heart rate unless exercising or anxious above an 79. Is that weird?

As much as I’d love to get a tattoo of a bachelorette puking on the side of the road with a lime scooter, I don’t think that would translate well for a tattoo.
What are some things that make Nashville uniquely Nashville? The question sounds simple at first, but when thinking of tangible things that are made by/for locals, I’m having trouble.
I’ve spent the last 10 years in Nashville and would like to get a tattoo representing my time here, but I won’t get the skyline (as it’s ever changing), nor anything “western” themed as it isn’t representative of the city.
Bonus points if it’s something to do with East Nashville (although I spent my first few years on white bridge, rip to the days inn destroyed for the 7/11). If anything here inspires me, I’ll be sure to DM the commenter updates on the tattoo.

Hi folks! I just remembered this experience from last year, and thought I’d share it here. I was once traveling to my grandparents house in eastern Washington state, and I decided to stop off at a Burger King and go through the drive through and grab a snack.
Well, I pulled up to the drive through and it was pretty full. I debated whether to go somewhere else but by then I was hungry and I didn’t want to drive around looking for a small drive through like. The city I was in is pretty big and has a lot of restaurants, so I was worried that everywhere would be like this.
Anyway, I could see the line was moving slowly but it was moving, so I decided to just commit myself to waiting. Besides, I was making good time in my travels anyway and a break from the focus of interstate driving was nice.
As I waited, a state trooper pulled in behind me, probably in-between calls and just trying to grab a quick lunch. I didn’t really think much of it as I ordered my food, but once I got to the first window to pay, I decided what the heck. I don’t know what the trooper’s day had been like, and I wanted to make it a little brighter for him if he had just come from a bad call or something. So I asked the lady I if I could pay for his meal on top of mine. It ended up being about another $15-$20 but you know what I didn’t mind.
As soon as I pulled up to the next window and got my food, the trooper pulled up to the window to pay, and I kind of watched him in my rear view mirror while I waited for my food to be ready. When the lady said his food had been paid for he got the biggest smile on his face. He actually got on his PA and said thank you. I waved, got my food, and pulled up to turn back onto the road.
He got his food and by then the road had cleared so I pulled out and headed back to the interstate. I lost sight of the trooper for a bit, but to my surprise he turned up on the on-ramp. He and I got on to the interstate, and he honked his air horn a couple times and sped ahead. I waved.
I don’t know what that trooper’s day was like. He could have come from a bad call or had something going on in his life. I don’t know. But I hoped that me paying for his meal brightened his day. Sure it was an extra cost but it was well worth it.

Hi everyone! So I apologize in advance but this will be a long post.
I waited a year to get into a pelvic pain clinic in my state that I heard amazing things about due to having vaginismus (I’m trying to get Botox but that’s a whole other story) I also spoke with the doctor about my extremely painful periods and when I am ovulating. She immediately blamed it on my copper iud. I explained that I was having these issues before the iud and I only got it because my nuerologist needed me to stop hormone bc immediately. Before I took the pill I had awful cramps and once I stopped they were back. She did not seem to care at all. She told me I needed to get the iud out. I explained I can’t, hence the vaginismus diagnosis that I got while getting my iud and the initial reason for my referral to her. I told her more of my symptoms like butthole cramps that are debilitating (sorry tmi?) she said that was because of my pelvic floor spasming from my vaginismus even though I explained it happened during cramps. She then told me I needed to take norethindrone. I explained I didn’t feel comfortable taking hormones due to 1. Not knowing how I will react to them(I was even hesitant when I took the combo pill) 2. I have adhd and this is a med you have to take at the same time daily She did not care and was not going to take what I was saying seriously about my symptoms or concerns for the meds. So now 2.5 weeks into this med I am angry at the flip of a switch and I get so anxious at night, I feel like garbage about my appearance and I think the med is causing acne because that was not really an issue before. The cramps I got daily at first when I started the med around the same time and they were awful, not they are randomly throughout the day and don’t last as long. I started spotting 1.5 weeks ago and every day it is getting heavier.
Has anyone else had similar side effects and also just a doctor who straight up does not listen or care? Any advice is very welcome

Hey all! it’s my first post on this sub reddit. I had a few questions regarding my pc and if I should build a new one or just upgrade some parts. I originally built my pc when the 30 series dropped a number of years ago.
my current specs:
Motherboard: MSI B550- A Pro
CPU: AMD Ryzen 7 3700X 8-core
Gpu: MSI Gforce RTX 3060 TI
Ram: corsair vengeance rgb pro (2x8) 16gb
SSD: 1TB
Power supply: 800 or 850 watt power supply (don’t really feel like opening my case up right now my bad lol)
The cooling is subpar and the case doesn’t allow for much airflow. Recently i’ve gotten into games like star citizen, and have been running most of the games i play regularly at the max frame rate without much stuttering or frame drops (Destiny 2, R6, Forza, ect.) i still get solid performance on most games but the newer releases tend to get lower frame rates than i would like. I don’t know what would be more cost effective, getting parts to replace the ones getting bottlenecked/ the old ones. Or the other option being building a new pc with way more modern parts and basically building myself a dream supercomputer. I was planning to potentially sell my computer and using that on top of money i already have set aside for a build.
TLDR: Don’t know if i should upgrade my first build pc or sell and build a new one with modern parts.

I just recently bought a new 2024 Kia Niro SX Touring and I couldn’t be happier. I did happen to get the extended warranty though. What concerned me was the infotainment system. I love the system, but because there’s so much electronics I was worried about the chance of it malfunctioning. And there’s only 3 years/ 35k on the standard warranty. The dealer said that fixing that could be 8k alone, which opted me to get the extended warranty which covers it for 10 years. It was about 3,500 dollars though and now I’m having some pretty serious doubts about it. What are your opinions on it? I’m thinking of just going back and canceling it altogether. This is my first car with advance tech like this so I’m not sure if I can trust it not failing in the long term.

Where Can I watch Fury vs Usyk live streams on Reddit? The Fury is getting on a bit. He's not going to be as mobile as he used to be. Coming in heavy only compounds that. Even a slimmed down Fury is bigger and stronger than Usyk, so why risk gassing out or being unable to catch the smaller man?
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Does anybody else think that Tyson fury is looking a bit too thin to fight usyk? If you get me. It looks like he's lost ALOT of weight. His weight is his biggest advantage. If he looses more than he usually does, I think he'll struggle against usyk there's no way he'll outbox him. as he won't have much weight for him to lean on usyk and also unpopular opinion, I do think it's fishy. He wasn't in good shape for the feb 17th usyk fight and now he got "cut" it's given him lots more time to train doesn't it seem strange?
I pirate everything: games, movies, software, and even made my own plex server. But lately I have gotten really into Usyk & Fury Boxing and haven't found a great way to watch Boxing for free live.
The Fury v Usyk live stream sees the undisputed heavyweight championship defend his strap against the popular Californian pugilist. Here's everything you need to know to watch online with and without a PPV. Tyson Fury and Oleksandr Usyk will take the ring on Saturday May 18) at Riyadh, Saudi Arabia. Here are all the ways to stream live free online.
I don't care if there is a small delay or anything, but it needs to be at a good bitrate at 1080p or it isn't worth watch for me. Also preferably I would want a way to watch it on a smart TV in some way but im expecting to sacrifice that luxury honestly.
ESPN, ABC or Boxing Network. I'm sure you can stream as well as way to watch it but I want to see what you guys recommend.
How to watch Fury vs Usyk live streams in Canada
It's a similar picture for our friends in the great white north, where DAZN is showing the Fury vs Usyk fight in Canada for a PPV fee of $69.99. Again, for that price, you get a month's subscription to the streaming service included.
How to watch Fury vs Usyk live streams in Australia
Let's not forget about boxing fans Down Under, too. The Fury vs Usyk live stream follows the lead of other countries around the world in that it is also via DAZN. In Australia the PPV fee comes in at AU$34.95, again with a full month's access included for non-subscribers to catch all the action.
How to watch the Tyson Fury vs. Oleksandr Usyk live stream in the U.S.
Americans can watch the Fury vs Usyk live streams with a DAZN PPV. That'll set you back a hefty $69.99 but the good news is you'll get a full month's subscription to the U.S. streaming service after you watch all the action live and uninterrupted.
After that first month, a subscription to the U.S. streaming service will set you back $19.99 on a 12-month contract, $24.99 if you pay month-by-month or $224.99 if you pay up front for a year's access.
How to watch Fury vs Usyk live streams in the U.K.
It's better news for fight fans in the U.K. where there is no extra PPV cost to watch Fury vs Usyk live on DAZN. That means the bout is included as part of a regular DAZN subscription.
Subscriptions to the streaming service cost as low as £9.99 per month if you got the annual commitment package, and £19.99 on the Flexible monthly pass.
How to watch Fury vs Usyk live streams in the Riyadh, Saudi Arabia
It's better news for fight fans in the Riyadh, Saudi Arabia. where there is no extra PPV cost to watch Fury vs Usyk live on DAZN. That means the bout is included as part of a regular DAZN subscription.

Long story short I 26M found my gf’s spam twitter 25f, I have to admit first of all that it was a huge violation of her privacy and I know I was wrong. We talked about it and have moved past it. However it is over a year later and I still think about what I saw.
To start my gf is very supportive and a very good and attentive partner. She has been a huge inspiration to me as I pursue my career and strive to become a more self aware and emotionally developed individual. I love her dearly we have been together 2 years
During this time we had just moved together and its safe to say I had gotten complacent in the relationship. I was not planning and executing dates like i should and I wasn’t doing my part in house upkeep. (I have long sense improved these things, it was my first time in this situation and needed to get into the flow of things, I’m very loving but if im not mindful that will just manifest as me saying “I love you” 100 times a day and constant hugs. And thats not everyone’s love language ) I say this because this was during the time i checked her spam twitter, she was acting distant not returning any affection or engaging with me but hadn’t said why when I asked. When i checked the page she trash talked me almost everyday, most of it I can understand. But to this day certain things still hurt and cast doubt on this relationship for me. She said that she loves sex often but can’t even see herself being intimate with me because I didn’t do “anything strong, sweet, or expensive like its nothing.” She talked about things she would do if we broke up and how i sounded naive whenever we’d be drinking and I started talking about how much I loved her and will be with her forever. But what sticks with me the most is when she compared me to her ex and how she was so wildly attracted to him she wanted to have sex with him all the time and how I “have no game” and am a huge turn off to her. I took it on the chin because after we talked I saw all the ways I could improve and I got to it. I know I probably have no right to say this but it hurt because i felt like she was a safe space for me until that point. Fast forward a year and some change later I have improved my faults and we have no major issues at this time. However our sex life has gradually gotten worse to now we may only have sex a couple times a month. We have talked about it multiple times but its starting to feel like she is giving me the run around. I can’t help but think back to the tweet i saw where she belittled me in comparison to him and think about if i were him this wouldn’t be happening. She has made multiple small comments that indicate she compares us that could have easily gone over my head but didn’t. Once i confronted her about it but she denied and truthfully it could have been my insecurities getting to me but its also a good chance I caught something she didn’t want me to.
Now we rarely have sex, anytime I try to flirt with her its almost always dismissed and she rarely initiates. Honestly I could have made the compromise if it was an issue of mismatched libido because i genuinely love her and our relationship. But knowing it because she has some sort of aversion to me being myself and potentially sees me as less than her ex its like a bullet i can’t swallow. For some background he is a software engineer most likely making well into the 6 figure range and im a veteran who is currently in school to be a radiographer then mri technologist. I am a fairly skilled options trader and I work as a security officer while in school. My income is about 80-90k gross so im not financially struggling but obviously im not making engineer money. Not to sound arrogant at all but im a pretty handsome guy but I have a lot of emotional volatility, I can be difficult sometimes and she doesn’t deserve that when im a jackass because im having big emotions. I was diagnosed with ADHD a few years back so im really forgetful and it can be a struggle keeping a cool head when life does its thing. (Not an excuse in the slightest I always take full accountability for poor behavior) I confide in her a lot when I’m overwhelmed and I wonder if it has made me look weak. I’m not sure what course if action to take moving forward?
TLDR- I found my partners spam twitter and on it she belittled me in comparison to her exe. We had just moved together and I was failing to meet her needs as her partner. A year has passed and it still bothers me

okay so i made a post when i first started QoS, and here’s my take for after. it’s always the last 100 or so pages man, it’s all i can think about. go grab some popcorn, here we go. i love rowen and aelin, i don’t care about the age gap and i know he was a douche canoe in the beginning but IMO aelin needed to be humbled. she needed someone to push her and to tell her no. i love rowan and that’s that. Manon, you miss girl.. thank you for finally getting off your high wyvern witch shiz and understanding it’s okay have feelings, my gosh. that took long enough. i still really want her to back Terrasen when it comes down to the big bang though. i hope the realizes what Perrington, i mean Erawan, is AKA a bag of crazy nuts. Im so proud of Aelin for how far she’s come and her acceptance in becoming Queen. the growth man🥺 i love her story and what she stands for. i do want to know how arobyn found her though. did he off her family? did he send assassins to off her family? idk but i am sure as heck glad he’s offed. he deserved he, he was always a POS but that ring stunt?!?! oh goodness. Lysandra, girl you did that!!! i wanted to hate you because of the beginning of the series but i don’t, not even a bit. you have grown so much and you really played the part well when needed. thank you for your hard work. i really want to see you happy and fall in love. maybe Aedion?!?! i can kinda see it… Aedion to me is just there so far, he’s a huge part of aelins journey in building terrasen but nonetheless just there… he does get points though for being willing to sacrifice himself for rowen. Poor Chaol though, that guy was done dirty. He too was a douche canoe however, i did want to see him happy. and he is with Nesryn (love her) but that man can never catch a break. hopefully the SC can help with the back issues. My guy Dorian, long time no see. Glad to see you’re back, maybe not better than ever, but at least you’re not a wimp anymore. and thank goodness you weren’t a goner because that collar almost had ya, woof…. please seek help about the nightmares and keep working on controlling that power. you give me golden retriever vibes with a hint of spice and i’ve always loved that about you. i think i have ptsd though from other books because in the back of my head i question if the demon dude is gone. i sure as crap hope. lastly THE KING BRO WTH. DIDNT SEE THAT ONE COMING. i thought he was Earwan but was i wrong. i still have trouble if i believe him or not about wanting to have done the right thing all these years but not having control. it makes sense, but also id definitely make up some stuff if i was on my death bed. but he did wish to be unalived so there’s that too. i hope we learn more about that situation because so many unanswered questions. also i want to learn more about Elide. she popped up out of nowhere where and we don’t have enough about her. so far she’s a badass and i hope she finds celaena aka aelin and rallies with her. plus someone fix the girls leg please.
thanks for reading! :) onto the tandem!

I’m 28, got an insurance settlement at 21 and was reckless with my money. Maxed out a credit card when I was out of that money and haven’t paid it in over a year. My limit was only 3k, I have 2 things in collections totaling 3k as well. What are my first steps? I’ve been with my girlfriend for 3 years now and want to be able to provide a house,a car, and responsible adult things in the future. I wasn’t able to get an apartment without a guarantor and it woke me up, I’m at a 625 credit score and have a small loan I’ve never missed a payment on in 29 months now. But that’s kind of all.

I am taking the July bar in NY. I need to sign up for Barbri or Themis. They are both the same price. I will also sign up for adaptibar and possibly critical pass if I need it up. But, I am debating if I should sign up for Babri or Themis. I know this question has been asked a million times, but am hoping someone can advise me what is best for someone who has been out of law school for the last 8 years.

1. Graduated law school in 2016
   
2. Signed up for Barbri twice. Took maybe 1/4 of it each time and never put really any time into it other than last two weeks. Failed both bar exams. July 24 is the first time I will be taking the bar since 2020.
   
3. I read that Themis’ lecturers are shorter, not as detailed, but give you black letter of the law. Where as if Barbri’s are more detailed. I remember a few Barbri lectures and yes they were very long and detailed. However, I did learn from them. But because of the length of the lectures, I struggled to spend time practicing MBE essays etc. Again I did not leave myself enough time
   
4. I will have 8 weeks to study. I fear because I have been out of school long, not practicing and not studied in years that these topics may take a while to come back. While I don’t want to have to listen to very detailed lectures and read very long outlines, I also don’t want to not be given good enough explanations or taught lectures that I can’t grasp the concept.
   

Based on this, do you advise Themis or Barbri? Hearing that Themis’ lectures are more just summaries of the black letter of the law concerned me because what if I don’t get that area or struggle? Are the themis lectures detailed enough to learn/grasp the topics if I’ve forgotten them? Does Themis include physical textbooks to work through like Barbri. I do better reading and with writing on paper. Also, how prone is Themis to crashing. That’s another concern I keep reading.
I’m happy to supplement Themis or Barbri with adaptibar and anything else. Obviously I would all love shorter lectures and not as detailed lectures but not if it doesn’t really teach you the subject. But I would love to know what’s recommended for people who have been out of school and not practicing for a while
Thanks!

I work at a community college in CA and I love my job. I work in basic needs programming. As of now, my “department” is just me and my boss who is the director of our basic needs programs. We are both very busy and rarely have down time.
My college just announced a reorganization plan that involves adding student life under my director. This means the two of us will be tasked with overseeing student government and planning/executing all of the student engagement events. Most schools have a student engagement director or several people dedicated to only student life. We don’t have anyone assigned to student life currently, and it’s been a clear gap in our workforce as everyone is spread thin trying to tag team the student engagement work.
As I do all of the admin work for our department already, this reorg will cause a huge addition to my daily tasks. In the first year of this reorg, no one will be hired into my area to help out. Further, no mention of additional compensation has been mentioned. For more context, my job requires two years of experience and a bachelors degree. I have 6 years of experience and a Ph.D. I love my job, and it pays well, but I want to use the reorg as an opportunity to negotiate a raise.
My school pays employees on a step scale starting at A. You move up one step each year or 5% ish pay raise annually. I’m on step C. I’m nervous to ask for step E. What do you think is a reasonable ask?

I’m turning 19 next week. I am a part-time cook at Pizza Hut making no more than $400 bi-weekly. (Kansas wages smh.) I haven’t had a job for 5 months until I found this one, and if I want to get another job, it won’t be until August. (Personal reasons.)
Since I went 5 months without a job, expenses racked up and now I only have $200 left in my checking and $100 in my savings, but I do have another $400 on my Webull invest app. I have never owned a credit card and I have no debt.
I also have a working Toyota Corolla with only 150k miles so that’s a plus.
After taking a semester of college, I hated it so much to the point I got depressed and so stressed I almost gave up on living. So in other words I’m not planning on going back anytime soon lol. I am still living with my parents but since I’m not going to college they require me to start paying for my car insurance, my essentials (clothes, groceries, etc.), and at some point rent.
I have a total of 3 years in experience with making pizzas. Dominoes and Pizza Hut only though, so I can’t say I have much experience making pizza from scratch. No experience in starting a business, let alone running my own.
My biggest fear is failing and not ever being able to start my own business. I don’t want to disappoint my parents and make their lives even harder by not making enough to go and live on my own, especially in 2 years when I’m 21. All of my siblings are going to college and I was the only one who took the risk and dropped out.
What are the major first steps I need to take to start? Does anyone have a plan they used to start their own pizza business? Has anyone else been through my situation and how did you get through it?
Any help/advice would be greatly appreciated.

I’m 27 and have no job. My only jobs have been as a party DJ every now and then but haven’t done anything with that for the longest time. I enrolled in college and I’m half way through a digital design degree. I’ve had some mental health issues and struggles that have kept me from achieving normal milestones that other people my age have so getting a job at 18 like lots of other people, was a little hard cause I was in bed fighting for my life basically.
I’m still struggling a little bit but I’m much better now. Thing is that I’ve become pretty lazy after it all. Depression will do that sometimes. My school workload feels too much to be able to sustain a part time job; I know others do it but for me particularly, it feels like too much. I already spend about 10 hours a day just on school work, some day I work all day just on school stuff. Anyway, that’s besides the point.
I saw on a different subreddit that people who are making lots of money actually sort of like working, regardless of what it is, as long as it makes them money. Me? I just want to do art, ngl. I’m not a business man, I don’t have the money drive, and I’m worried that not having said drive and the entrepreneurial mind for finding ways to monetize whatever it is I do, whether that’s books, music, graphic design, etc, will keep me from achieving a financial stability in the future.
I’ve always had money problems, or well, my parents have. I’m tired of being worried about money and I do want to work. I’m hoping I can get an internship on my last year in school so I can graduate with some experience, but beyond that, idk what to change in me and my mindset to make it more likely to achieve a financial stability, and ngl, this specific degree isn’t known for making lots of money, I mean, graphic design is pretty underpaid. Only UX design seems to be somewhat okay money wise but in my country it’s still lower middle class money.
I just want some advice on how to change my mindset or tips on things I could do to reach a better economic future. Also important to note that I want to immigrate to a first world country. It’s one of my biggest dreams and life goals of mine, and I’m worried that graduating at 28/29 with a digital design degree and only an internship under my belt at best, and no masters, will make that borderline impossible and it’s making me sad. I would really appreciate some hopeful thoughts but also a kind reality check and potentially tips on how to pivot towards the future I want.
Thanks :(

So my first therapy session is Thursday. It’s taken me a long, long, time to make this first step. Last week I finally just came clean to my wife about my on-going sex and porn addiction. It was eating me alive inside and I just couldn’t go on living with these secrets.
She’s being supportive but her idea of me is completely shattered. Everything she thought I was is a lie (she said).
She keeps asking if getting it off my chest has made me feel any better but the truth is…no. I feel so stupid for admitting everything to her. I feel so judged. I feel so inadequate and inferior. I feel like I’ve let my family down. We aren’t telling the kids. But I still feel awful. I feel like the secret was safe with me and now I risk exposure to our friends and family and I’m sick to my stomach.
So sick that I’ve become impotent. Sex is the last thing on my mind right now. I feel zero desire to have sex or masturbate right now.
I’ve deleted all of my “favorites” from my phone. I’m posting using my “fake” profile that I used to pursue my fantasies and fetishes on. I’ve deleted my profiles on the sites I used for hookups and escorts. I’ve deleted all my email accounts that I used to hide my activities.
I’m praying that this therapist can help me overcome my addictions. I’ve been a porn addict for decades. I was molested as a young teen by a man who lived across the street from me. He used porn to groom me basically. Because of what happened to me as a teen when I became an adult I sought out xxx arcades with GH's, joined sex finder apps, gay dating sites, used Backpage for casual encounters with men and trans women, hired trans escorts routinely, everything and anything to try to and satiate my appetites. I used people as human Fleshlights to get me off for years.
I finally woke up and realized what I have been doing and how hollow and empty and ashamed I am.
I truly hope I can overcome this and find a way to enjoy intimacy with my wife without the use of porn, fetishes, etc., again.
I hope I didn't give too much details. Just trying to give context.
I feel so lost right now.
I hope I'm doing this for the right reasons. Thankfully there is no law enforcement component to this. But I am very afraid of how far I can go if I don't get help now.
Thank you for creating this space. I have nowhere else to turn for support, advice, guidance. Until Thursday.

My husband and I have been married for 6 years together for 12. Have one son and have lost two pregnancies since, both requiring a D&C to end the pregnancy. The first one required an out of state procedure because we found out at 16 weeks the baby wouldn’t make it and abortion is banned at 15 weeks in our state. Husbands dad and gf are both historic republicans having voted for trump. I’ve been hinting for a while now that we should have a convo with husbands dad about who they’re voting for. Husband says if he’s voting for trump what do I do? Never talk to him again? I kinda think uhhhhh yeah? He’s against us if he is.

I am a college-aged adult (a young adult, basically.)
Sexually, I am quite repressed. However, whenever I do think about men sexually, I tend to imagine myself with a darker skinned man (to me, darker skinned tends to mean either asap Rocky’s complexion, or just someone who is darker than a typical white man, like Fez from That 70s Show. I will typically imagine myself giving a blowjob or having sex with a man, I think in part because when I last had a boyfriend two years ago - a dark skinned black male, who was overweight - that was the first sexual thing I ever did with, well, anyone. I haven’t done anything sexually with anyone since, and haven’t had a boyfriend since.) I have trouble envisioning myself having sex with a white man, unless it’s someone who I’m very attracted to like Jake Gyllenhaal, and even then something about it doesn’t feel right.
I am not attracted, in general, to the average white man. I had a big crush on David Bowie in middle school and still felt attraction toward him when I watched him perform live in the 1970s on YouTube some months ago, because of his aura. I was also wildly attracted to Jake Gyllenhaal in “Donnie Darko” about two years ago and wrote a fanfic about three years ago about how handsome he was in “Brokeback Mountain” (from Ennis’ perspective.)
I am probably the least attracted to Asian men, but I really don’t mean that in an offensive way, I just haven’t felt attraction toward an Asian male in about a decade (literally.) I don’t think it will happen again. There are probably a variety of reasons as to why the attraction isn’t there (lack of media representation, stereotypes, probably other things idk.)
The two guys in high school who I was most attracted to were lightskinned and mixed race. One was conventionally attractive - someone who non-black people agreed was very cute - and had colored eyes. The other was slightly above average in 9th grade, but gradually became average (I was no longer attracted to him when he became average. He looked something like this: https://www.instagram.com/reel/CyMJ4kvPgvq/?igsh=MzRlODBiNWFlZA==)
I notice that the white men who I have been attracted to tend to have blue eyes, typically a blonde hair and blue eyes combo.
I have been attracted to multiple Mexican/latino men, although they were above average. I briefly had a bit of a crush a few years ago on Benny from the sandlot.
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This is a very long one. Trigger warning ⚠️
I (19f) have been in and out of long term/short term facilities since I was 12 years old. I’ve had suicide attempts and have been diagnosed with major depressive disorder. This is definitely not my first experience with a therapist. Over the years I’ve had over 6+. Not because they haven’t worked for me all the time, but because they either move onto another facility or I move onto another phase in life.
Last year I adopted a new therapist “Mere” thanks to my older sister “North”. My current Therapist “Tina” who I’ve been working with for the past 3 and a half years, switched to a facility where my insurance only covers 30 min sessions. North didn’t think that was enough for me at the time since I wasn’t doing so well mentally. The therapist she recommended worked closely with her own and offered 1hr long sessions, so I agreed wanting to try something new since my old therapist seemed to not specialize in trauma and ptsd. Kerr was highly recommended for those topics.
We started our sessions not soon after my sister offered. The first couple months were hard. Our personalities seemed to clash. Not because mine was bad, but because I was deeply depressed. I was not a joy to be around and everyone seemed annoyed with my constant melancholy. Even my therapists seemed sick of me.
Over time I learned to adapt my personality to be more palatable. My therapists loved it now that I was interacting with them and making jokes. I treated them more like friends now instead of therapists and they seemed to appreciate that. I found it funny because a lot of my issues I explained to them was faking my personality to fit into the crowd and adapt. Due to me being f a people pleaser. They didn’t see anything wrong with the change since I seemed to be getting better mentally.
I was better. I wouldn’t attribute much of my success to my therapists tho. It was nice to have someone to talk to since at the time I had no friends, but they didn’t seem to know how to handle my constant depression so I started to hide it from them. Even from myself. Over time I was able to function a lot better. I switched my sessions to only once every two weeks and I was planning on ending them all together since I was doing so well on my own and haven’t need much help in a while.
It seems that I ah e bad luck. Right when I was at my peak recovery and condition, I was raped on the first day of the new year. I spiraled back into my deep deep deep depression worse than any other relapse I had before. I survived on Benadryl and ice cream for weeks. I took the pills so I didn’t have to be awake to long. I ate only food that I liked the most (mainly unhealthily) my health declined.
My mental health was the worst of it tho. The day after the rape occurred I had a session with my newer therapist. I start telling her the details of my assault. The shock was still fresh in my brain and my memories were scrambled. I greatly blamed myself. I thought I was the weirdo.
Mere only confirmed my sentiments. Before I could fully list out the details of the night it happened she immediately started to spew accusations of my intentions that night. Saying phrases like “Well when someone is pleasuring you it’s hard to say no and there’s nothing wrong with that”
I shut up then and just agreed with her but something still didn’t sit right with me. I went on Reddit and there was mixed opinions about it. A lot of ppl validated my feelings and others thought It was my fault. After fully processing this event and fully remembering it in its entirety I can say confidently that what happened to me was rape.
The next session we had I was able to tell the full story. Mede had just said “Oh. Well you didn’t mention all this before. That’s definitely not ok”. The thing is tho, she was the one to cut me off and make assumptions instead of trying to pull out the full story. She knew I had extreme ptsd and I probably wouldn’t be able to give an in-depth detailed explanation of what happened. She still insulted me anyway and brushed me off.
I thought this to be weird but I brushed it off. When you think k you’re in the presence of a professional you don’t often question things especially if you aren’t in the mental space to do so. So ignored her.
There have been times where she’s been short with me. One time she had asked to switch a 12pm session to 5pm. When I refused she said she’d have to charge me a cancellation fee. It seemed that she just wanted to get paid for that session still and wanted to guilt me into paying. I refused and explained that she was the one who cancelled on me and she immediately backed down realizing I wouldn’t be easily pushed around. I didn’t think much of it then.
Another time. I had gone to this tattoo parlor to get my belly button pierced. I took videos and pictures of the process. She requested in our session that week to see the pictures. I agreed to send and emailed them to her in two emails. In one there was all the pictures of the parlor, the. The other had the videos of the full process. Accidentally I had added one singular picture of me. I was at school and I took a picture in the schools bathroom. There was nothing indecent about it I just accidentally pressed on that picture as I was sending the others. IT happened a lot when using your iPhone to email and I didn’t really notice.
She brought it up the next session and started to berate me for sending that singular pic out of all the obvious other intended pictures. She said it’s inappropriate to send her pictures of myself. I explained to her the accident and she seemed shocked. All she said was “oh well ok”. I don’t know why she got so triggered I’ve always kept good boundaries with her. I can’t believe she immediately started accusing me for one picture of me posing in the mirror while having a turtle neck in a jacket and everything.
Those are just a few of the shady things she’s done. Now back to current time. After I was raped. I still continued sessions with her and tried to get back on track. She wasn’t really helping. I would have extreme panic attacks on therapy video calls with her and she seemed at loss of what to do. I distanced myself from her and I started to get a little better, but then I started to have issues with some of my friends. That added onto my load of issues and started to push me to the edge.
I called my therapist the night of my attempt. I try not to call her after hours but I was in genuine crisis. I had spent the whole day being practically verbally abused by one of my friends. I was cracking slowly it surely and I reached out for help.
Otp I expressed to her how I felt betrayed by everyone around me. I asked her why everyone felt it was ok to treat me wrong whenever. Why wasn’t I able to find peace? Why I couldn’t find ppl who cared? My parents are emotionally abusive as well. That all stems into my ppl pleasing habits. I’ve let a lot of ppl take advantage of my nature because I’ve been conditioned to since birth. She knows my history and why I am the way I am. Instead of consoling me she yelled at me. “Well you knew they were bad ppl!” “If you knew they were bad ppl why are you blaming them you just need to stop hanging around bad ppl”. She then told me she had to go and hung up. She did ask me if I was safe but of course I lied. She knows I always try to see the best in ppl. I don’t see the bad till it’s too late most times. Her words stung like acid. I had been prescribed some sedatives to calm me during panic attacks. I had taken two but they weren’t helping. After that call I took the whole bottle. I didn’t want to die alone so I called my mother to stay in my room with me. Then I drifted into a deep sleep for hours into the next day’s afternoon. I had fallen asleep around 10 pm. I woke up the next day around 3pm still kicking but disordered.
I spent two weeks in a mental hospital. During that time I do t have access to my phone. I had my sister contact everyone that needed to be. Even Mere. She knew I was in there. I didn’t call her while I was there bc I was still upset at her after everything.
I was discharged but I didn’t set up a session for weeks. She emailed and called me once but I didn’t respond till I was fully settled back into my routine and okay enough to talk to her. I emailed her this
“Hallo, Sorry. I didn’t mean to ghost you. I just needed some time to get myself together. I called you just now. You are probably busy. I hope everything is doing well on your end. Sorry again. Sent from my iPhone”
I had planned to set up an appointment in the future to talk to her about everything but by the time I checked my patient portal a week or so later I had been discharged with no warning. No calm text or email.
I set up a meeting with her over the phone for 45 mins. When she first came onto the call the first thing she said was “I saw that you put our appointment for 45 mins. I changed it to 30 bc you know I did discharge you”. I thought it was pretty rude so instead of explaining everything I told her about how I didn’t have my phone in the hospital and the hospital themselves didn’t notify her because they were disorganized and were extremely unprofessional. It’s not like she wasn’t updated by my sisters anyway. When I got my phone after I got home I saw texts from her asking if I was still having a session with her. Knowing that I was in the hospital. It seemed she either didn’t care or didn’t believe I was in the hospital. In fact when she had spoken over the phone with one of my sisters she had lied to them about that night. She had told her “After I got otp with her I immediately started praying for her because I m ew something was deeply wrong” how delusional of her to say after she yelled at me and hung up.
Anyway after I explained my reasoning for going MIA she started to realize how fucked up she was and asked me how I was doing. I didn’t say much because I was done with her and she obviously didn’t intend of hearing the full story since she shortened our session. She started asking me why I didn’t want to continue therapy and seemed confused why I didn’t seem to beg her to re admit me. I told her I was done with therapy. She seemed concerned and said that she discharged me because she thought it’d be better for me to find an in person therapist. I knew it was a shitty excuse. I quickly hang up on her and don’t address anything.
I’m only processing this now because I’ve had much bigger things going on. I’m only now realizing how fucked up her behavior was. If I hadn’t spoken to her the night of my attempt I probably wouldn’t have tried to kill myself. I feel cheated out of help. I don’t feel angry at her I have to reserve that for someone more worthy of my rage. I only wished she didn’t use the fact that I would never call her out on her behavior usually. She knew my temperament and took advantage of that. I don’t think I’ll ever trust a therapist again. She victim blamed me, mocked me, berated me in my time of need, and then abandoned me on baseless assumptions that could’ve been easily cleared up if she actually listened to what my sisters and I were saying. She didn’t even say sorry when we were talking. Or express any remorse besides embarrassment for jumping to conclusions. SMH.
TLDR: My therapist berated me for trusting ppl in my life the night of my suicide attempt. Then Discharged me from her care without consulting me first. Blamed me for all her mistakes and jumped to conclusions randomly then never apologized for the baseless accusations. I am at a loss for words and at a loss for trust in therapy again.

As the title says, but I will go into more depth about how bad the situation is.
For starters, I (F20) and my boyfriend (M21) both work for the same small business. I’ve been there since June 2023, he’s been there since August 2023. Originally the business was located in my hometown, so I moved back down with my BF and we got an appt here in town in Aug ‘23. We didn’t live far originally, but still. Our lease was up at our old place and so we got a new one.
Fast forward to beginning of this year. I’m talking first few days of January, she hits us up and tells us we’re moving the company about 45 minutes away to SATX (added location for state specific laws if there are any). She was going to pay me an extra $6/hr and my bf and extra $7/hr to follow her. We agreed.
Few more months go by and April 4th rolls around. Our payday. I get paid on time no prob. My bfs pay is late, but my boss finally sends it April 9th. Sucks, illegal, but overall wasn’t too bad. Around this time we plan a trip to the beach with my Bf’s sister May 6-9. We just needed to pay her for our cost of splitting the house we were going to stay at. No problem I told her, we will have two paychecks between now and then to pay you with. I even cleared the dates with my boss immediately.
Few days after, my boss asks us if we’d like to work from home. Same pay, same job duties, just don’t have to commute to work anymore. Hindsight, this was the beginning of the end, but hindsight is a bitch and doesn’t matter. Anyways, we agree again.
The weekend of April 19th-21st we were invited to go out of town to visit our friends and celebrate one of their birthdays. Originally, we weren’t going to be able to make it because we worked Fridays and Saturdays; but since we now worked from home we made the trip out there. It’s about 2 hours from home for us. Well i had enough gas in my car to get us up there, and we were supposed to be paid April 19th, no biggie. Except very big biggie because she didn’t pay us then. Or the next day. Or the next. So essentially we were stranded. Luckily our friend lent us gas money to get home. This is the start of our problem.
Over the next week it’s a constant back and forth of her saying she’s going to pay us, and then not paying us. I told her multiple times that we needed to be paid our next paycheck on time because it was going to be used for rent, and to pay for the trip we were taking in a couple weeks. May 2nd rolls around, our next payday, and nothing. She proceeds to ghost us for the weekend.
Luckily, my boyfriend’s sister was extremely understanding and is letting us pay her back whenever we eventually get paid, so we were still able to go to the beach. We were able to borrow some money from our roommate to be able to do some stuff while we were down there. The money lasted us one day. While i was still extremely grateful to be able to go on a vacation, I had plans. I had things i wanted to do, places i wanted to eat, etc. And i was not able to do a good majority because we didn’t have the money we were supposed to.
Which brings us to today May 14th. Utilities were due yesterday. We have not been paid still.
In total, out of about the $3000 she owes us, we have only been paid $850. $850 fucking dollars since APRIL 19th. I’m at my wits end. We’ve filed a wage claim with the Texas Workforce Commission, I was able to get a new job waiting tables but I don’t even start until next Tuesday. Any advice would be greatly appreciated. We don’t have the money to sue her because she hasn’t paid us. We are hungry because we can’t buy groceries. Our main source of food has been eating with my mom, and even then, we have to save the food we get to be able to make more than 1 meal come from it. We have flies in our bathroom attracted to my cats litter box because we have no litter to change it. Please, anything helps.
TLDR; my boss has only paid us $850 out of about $3k since April 19th.

Hey!! I’m very excited to be starting my first career as a 4th grade teacher! I know there have been a few posts on advice for new teachers that I will for sure be taking into consideration. However, I am a bit anxious about co-worker related drama- when I was student teaching, a teacher had a rough day and took it out on me. I felt bad, wondering if I did anything wrong, but my cooperating teacher told me that I didn’t do anything wrong and that she will talk to her (that’s when she told my CT she had a bad day- didn’t apologize though). I wasn’t part of the conversation, but the next day I made sure to be professional and give that teacher the same respect and grace.. but it still makes me nervous for this coming year😬 (I know miscommunication is inevitable but how can I handle it since I won’t have a cooperating teacher to side/reason for me?). Also, I live in a small apartment and won’t be able to set up my room until August- I am nervous about not having everything I need for my classroom in time because I don’t have enough room to store things. I could get a storage unit, but money is a bit tight :(
Sorry, I’m rambling! I’m trying to give myself grace and remind myself I won’t be the most perfect teacher during my first few years but oh gosh! I just want to make sure I’m on the right track!
Thank you so much!