Indrajaal successfully demonstrates the curtain of the misconception which is created by the Indian God Indra. The miracle of the net enables taming of the creatures and amassing the power to enslave and command other living beings by bending their minds. In the ancient India, Vashikaran was the great technique that used to be the ruler’s and suitor’s invincible tool for gaining power over another person along with the help of the mystical ways. Sur Indrajaal Vashikaran includes the mind, emotion, relationship, and magical event manifestation through the using of mystical or supernatural powers.
Indrajaal Vashikaran
Origins and History
Indrajaal Vashikaran is believed to have been born in the Indian lands from the very ancient times. When the wandering sages and saints invented rituals, sorcery, black magic and charms, they intended to gain mastery over the happenings and people. Also, the Hindu holy books and texts as well as the ancient western spiritual traditions present such references as to mind control techniques. Through generations, the masters of the hidden vashikaran, handed down the techniques that were based on oral communication which was guarded day and night until today.
Back in the medieval ages, kings and rulers wanted to be the magical masters to do yog sadhanas and control their enemies. Myths describe us of their special rituals which are reserved for powerful witches of their tribe used dolls, artifacts, gems and herbs. Kath Bahador was even a court astrologer of the emperors of the Mughal dynasty, who was full of magic and mysticism that was used to gain access to their superiors.
Not only the smart people could communicate with the spirits using such spells. And outside the professional level, people too experimented: for instance, to repair their love, relationships, riches, and success, they used vashikaran. The last variable we can mention is the esoteric science of Indrajaal Vashikaran which is the most used science in Indian subcontinent.
How It Works?
Indrajaal Vashikaran is based on the idea that there is a cosmic energy that binds everything in this universe together. Through meditating one could achieve this by unconsciously concentrating all one's spiritual power without following any specific types of poojaas, havans, rituals or the meanings of the mantras and other objects to the desired person.
And so, one can assert that social interaction is not merely about picking up someone's belongings such as hair, nails, or clothes but it also involves an act of ritual in which the energy linkage is believed to be formed. Not only the services of phantom chants, yantras, crystals or photographs but also they play an amazing role in this process. I through equal parts of devoted belief, visualizing images vividly, and praying to either gods or their opposites, the process of shrinking the will of the other person begins.
The Practitioners
There are people who are born to be good practicing black magic in some parts of the country and are known to be Vashikaran specialists. They are known as masters of the mental manipulations. Many let the word vashikaran be associated with them and others take baba, guru and magicians as conjurers and shoddy magicians. Apart from them different assemblies and love spells employ the same methods such as tying lemons, chilies, using ashes and so on.
When it is about the extraordinary means to make a living and the turning points of one's career, one may need to be informed with something specific and personal only. These tantriks are the invisible asset in the policy of the conspiring politicians during elections in favor of their desirable candidates to produce a satisfactory result. Altogether, there are ornaments that have privacy related to gemstones, rudrakshas, money, wealth, and relationships.
In this area there exists the misgivings of frauds and cheats where a person promises something that never happens. To have entanglement with a good person right from the beginning is vital if you are going to look for a vashikaran specialist.
Controversies Around It
In spite of the fact that astrology has been practiced for many years, this conflict remains an issue whose point of contention is just as valid as always. The argument put forth by her opponents is that it is unethical magic, which is manipulative and is performed against the person who has no free will.
Furthermore, the instances of people being financially abused to think that vashikaran is a technique which can be used to control others are now many. The lady is involved unfairly in the Vashikaran which she has nothing to do with rather she is the one that is charged with the serious accusations.
But, they admit that the Olympians do not interfere with someone's being or fate unless needed. This is how they see it: undoubtedly the use of one's brain, desire, and lead conduct into the way another person think. A child thinks about a parent the exact way as a parent thinks for a child. Teachers play a central role in a student's achievement helping them gain more knowledge.
Those participants treat each other imaginatively as they can just to please one another. We can say that vashikaran is a concentrated form of this nature power that can be described by the metaphor in the poetic form, manifesting in the physical and mental levels both of the sorcerer and the target person.
The offbeat element of Indrajaal Vashikaran has been to inspire my thinking with attention for a long time. The same thing applies to both the small and the strong powers; they must rely on wisdom and caution so that the evil of good is not done.
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Chapter 1: the event
It was the fall of my intern year as I bean my off service trauma rotation. This month was ubiquitously notorious for being the most labor intrusive and least productive rotaion of our emergency medicine program. Knowing this I entered with the intention of simply surviving the month.
Another intern and I let’s call them A for sake of ambiguity, we’re the first emergency medicine residents to roste on the trauma services that year. A shaky start would be an understatement. In the words of chance the raper “like my grama with the Parkinson’s playing operation.” Would better describe it. Medically we did well. We were very competent and completed our work daily, but communication and coordination was non existent. Our Cheifs had informed us that Tuesday was our day of and the Trauma cheif residents had minimum communication with us, or our Cheifs as it seams when A and I did not report on Tuesday they sternly made their dissatisfaction known.
I have struggled with insomnia sense the age of 10. Had 2 sleep studies by this point in my life and been prescribed nearly every sleeping aid on the market. The 80-94 hr work weeks of our trauma rotaion only worsened my insomnia. My lack of sleep likely contributed to a less than prime adaptive immune system and 2 days out of my trauma rotaion I contracted strep like symptoms with associated nausea, requiring me to call for a sick day the next day. No the first day that I felt too ill to work. I was not fully aware of the reporting process. I reported to my Chiefs, but I did not believe I could come to work tomorrow with amble time and notice, however I was somewhat delayed in letting their Cheifs know, because the surgical chiefs rotated every few days and I did not know who my was going to be the next day. The second day which I had to call out sick I was able to locate the cheif for the next day and reprot according to our university’s protocol, which requires that if a resident feels they are not fit for work they must not come in and the university must have staff coverage without any fear or implementation of punitive actions.
I had finally survived to the last week of my trauma rotaion and I could see the light at the end of the tunnel. What I could not see was the pile of stress, shitty diet, lack of mental well ness and sleep deprivation which I was pushing down to reach the light. By this time I had seen a psychiatrist regularly for sleep medication. I had mentioned to him that I had been experiencing more stressed lately and feel that I might be depressed. he reassured me that it was likely only due to my circumstances, given the difficulty of the trauma rotation and wish to reassess once the rotation was over. Looking back I had to fill the habit of drinking more than I usually do. My only on nights before I have days off became 1-2 beers every other night. All of this repressed unhealthy shit finally pushed bad on September 23rd. That night I was at work even later than usual, I stayed up later than usual and couldn’t seem to fall asleep. With the stress of only having minimal sleep and knowing I only had 2 more days of trauma left, I took an extra dose of my sleeping medication.
I opened my eyes to the fighting sight of sun beaming in my window and I instantly knew I was late. (Sense I hadn’t seen the sun in a month) . Due to my need for scrupulous sleep hygiene I have been sleeping with my phone of and away for me. I rushed to grab it and watched as the little Apple logo seamed to glow on the screen for an eternity. Then in conjunction with its fading I saw 3 missed calls from my director, a text from college A and 2 missed calls from the surgical director. Still, I was able to calm myself, knowing that resident A had been late to this rotation by a few hours 2 other days and nothing came of it. I called my director back and he asked me to report to his office where I was greeted by my director, my coordinator and another emergency medicine facility.
With the only explanation of: “we just want you to get better”, I was handed a letter, to my relief it did not entail my termination, but a declaration of administrative leave and a requirement to undergo an evaluation at a well known university in Florida.
Lake any other savvy millennial, I did my research. By research I mean numerous google searches and screeches thru the depts of redit. To my dismay I discovered that in order for a residency program to fire you, they must first initiate an administrative suspension. I would soon find out however, being terminated would have been a delightful outcome compared to what ensued.
I spend the next few weeks in the wallos of regret and depression. I indulged in higher qualities of alchohol then I ever have before. I all but ceased communing with peers, and abruptly stoped any physical activity I had once enjoyed. Frightened as I was I was ensured, it will be ok “we just want you to get better”
Chapter 2 The evaluation : guilty until proven innocent I did exactly as instructed and scheduled an evaluation, I supposed that this was either a mental evaluation to assess if I’m fit for work with plans of termination or it actually was an evaluation to better treat my insomnia. To this day I regret my ignorance, and wish I had researched the process more. The Hindi / sand-skrt idea of Hamsa 🪬 is that in order to do any good you must have full knowledge or else good intentions can result in harm. I truely believe my director had good intentions, however but him and I did not have full knowledge of the nature of this evaluation.
Looking back see how easily I could have avoided my troubles by asserting legal aid at this point or even by researching this evaluation process more in depth. If one searches impaired practitioner program which I now know this evaluator works for, the search entire will populate 5 or 6 layferms along side their home website and there is a valid reason for this.
If one every finds themself in this process I employ you to bring a DSM to your evaluation or at least be familiar with the most common use disorders in the DSM-5, because your evaluation will turn into a dance of questions where the evaluator attempts to trap you in a round about way to stating something that may qualify for one of the diagnosis. I have provided an image from the DSM-5 below outlining AUD, which the evaluator concluded that I had the most severe from:
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Example***** Here are 10 examples of how he fraudulently assessed me taken directly from his assessment note.

1. Evaluator: Have you ever stoped drinking in the last year.

Me: yes I stoped every week day, I was only drinking on the weekends, until two weeks ago.
-Evaluator uses stoping and starting every week to qualify for 2 or more unsuccessful attempts to stop in the last year “There is a persistent desire or unsuccessful efforts to cut down or control alcohol use.”

1. Evaluator Have you ever had withdrawal symptoms

Me no
Evaluator Well Have you ever had a hangover? You know that’s a from of acute withdrawal
Me: yes in college, I had a few but that was years ago and I’m pretty sure the pathophysiology is different.
Evaluator uses this to count for withdrawal symptoms even tho is was more than a year ago

1. Evaluator: Have you even taken your sleeping medication on a day or night which you drank? Me: Yes, I took my prescriptions are prescribed but I never drank close to bed

Evaluator: qualified this as dangerous behavior with alcohol (where the DSM gives examples such as unprotected sex and drunk driving). The sleeping medication I was on is not a benzodiazepine therefore it is not deadly with alcohol. I personally have seen many patients in the ED who have taken their entire bottle of the medication and drank copious amounts, we just monitor them over night and rehydrate them

1. Evaluator Has anyone told you you drink to much or been worried about you Me: No I drink much less than my friends

Evaluator what about your girlfriend? Me: well she actually doesn’t drink at all she doesn’t like it. She often buys me beer for The Weeknd’s tho. One time we went to a movie and she got a little irritated because I waited for beer then complained about them not having any craft beer. So she said, “you couldn’t have just said no” and drank something else. However, she apologized after and said it’s worth waiting if it’s my only day off.
Evaluator said this qualifies for continued drinking despite causing significant relation consequences, ie divorce.

1. Evaluator : you have sleep issues I hear, and your chart says you’ve had depression in the past, don’t you know that alcohol can effect your sleep and mood Me: yes that’s why I never drink within 3 hours of sleep.

Evaluator but you knew this and still drank
Evaluator: qualifies for drinking despite unwanted physical or psychological effects (this should be recurring to effects the alcohol is causing, I have had insomnia sense the age of 10 long before I took my first sip)
7 evaluator you were late for work and told my you had a drink the day before
Me: Yes but I was late because I didn’t sleep and took double my sleeping meds, I will never do that again
Qualifies for 2 significant work or school issues in the past year ( a therapist and other psychologist ensured me that being late on or a few days doesn’t count they typically are getting fired or failing) ( moreover, this would assume I was late do to drinking it’s self and also assume if happened more than once)

1. • Alcohol is often taken in larger amounts or over a longer period than was intended

He never once asked anything related to this question yet said I qualified in his final report 9. A great deal of time is spent in activities necessary to obtain alcohol, use alcohol, or recover from its effects. The evaluators logic here was sense I was late for work and I had 2 beers the day before I must be taking long to recover from it (this is assuming I missed due to alcohol)

1. Tolerance drinking more to require the same effect: this he checked as true in his final note however it was never even discussed in our evaluation. I did mention to him that I’ve been drinking more than I had earlier in the year frequency wise, but they said nothing to do with quantity or needing more.
   
2. Wanting to drink so bad you can not think of anything else: this is the only qualification of SAUD my evaluator said I did not have.
   

Moreover, without legal help I was not aware that I could obtain a second evaluation or even oppose going to get evaluated at all, but that wouldn’t have mattered seeing I still thought this was for my health and wellbeing as seen when I was asked why do you think you are here to today, to which I replayed “so that I can be evaluated to see what is needed to get back to work”.
To maks the ordeal more infuriating the evaluator continues to ingratiate himself and lie through the process telling you, “it will be fine as long as you are 100% honest”, “anything you say in here is between you and me” or “you slipped up once with your meds, I know your residnecy program they will probably just want a few more out patient tests”
Two weeks later I received a phone call right before I left for an out of state vacation to visit my nice for her birthday. During the call I was informed that I would be required to complete a partial hospitalization program (PHP) lasting “6-10 weeks” which would coast from 15-50 grand not including doctor visits or housing which is billed separately. I suppressed this inconvenience, enjoyed my vocation and reported when I returned, knowing that I must complete this soon so I may return to work with due to the fact that my payed time off would soon be diminished. At this time I had not yet heard of the organization PRN.
Chapter 3 Guilty till proven innocent: The diagnosis
Shell shocked I arrived to a in patient psychiatric unit and was rapidly cleared to progress to treatment without detoxification. During my 90 day of forced rehabilitation I met a few other individuals who were unjustly and fraudulently forced into treatment. I began to look up to one of these such members of the men’s community, who I will refer to as patient X for ambiguity sake.
Unlike me patient X did have alcohol use disorder. He spent many clinic days drinking to avoid alcoholic withdraws. The curious component of his story is that he admitted his depravity, saught help and through his own journey became sober. The bodies at be, namely his local physician, Health monitoring program, rejected his personal path to sobriety and forced him to undergo 90 days of in patient treatment before he could practice medicine again. When he checked in to rehab he had been sober for over a year.
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As for me I spend many sleepless nights pondering how consuming a legal substance in a moderate amount could throw me into significant legal financial issues. My labs my toxicology, my story and my collateral from colleagues from colleagues all indicated light to moderate alcohol use but my evaluators word stood as the word of God.
More frightening was the director of this rehabs acknowledgment of this. The director who happens to also coincidentally be the evaluator, stated to me as well as to staff on multiple occasions: “ I suggest inpatient treatment for everyone who is reported”. “This is safer for me not to miss anyone who could harm patients, and I figure there must be a reason someone reported them.”
I am still elucidating the reason why I was determined guilty and proven innocent, however I can say from my 90 day stent that the majority of the patients at this rehab needed to be there. This program is saving lives of both providers and patients, however it is destroying the lives of those wrongfully accused.
Chapter 4 your lisense rehab or jail : Upon arivil I was sent to a detox hospital underwent a medical examination and was “one of the lucky ones” who required no detoxification and could report directly to PHP. Like everyone else, I spent 90 days in a PHP, being as 6-10 weeks is simply a lie they tell patients to decrease the change of resisting the treatment. When discussing the topic one therapist sated “if we told patients 90 days they would never come.” She then attempted to justify the treatment by outlining the story of a patient she had called who “didn’t make it to treatment” and killed themselves”. It is my belief that it is not the lack of PHP which impelled such professionals to take their life, but them realizing that they now will be obliged to undergo 90 days of PHP, 5 years of PRN monitoring with a loss of autonomy and hundreds of thousands of dollars taken from them that induced their hopelessness. For even if these professionals were truly mentally unstable in their addictions, in every case it was only following a phone call where they were informed they must undergo treatment that they took their life’s. By this time I still haven’t the slightest clue what PRN was.
Despite the security these programs provide for many my 6 main issues with them can be summarized in : 1. Kick backs: evaluators are directors of treatment clinics 2. The reported are guilty till proven innocent 3. The price, the overflow of money these places drag in from both patients and state universities is appalling, they charge separately for every visit and test 4. Although they make the claim that they are individualized, they are anything but. Every patient gets the same stay and treatment from the doctor drunk on the job and the one who was late to a shift 5. They force voluntary treatment. remember that friendly evaluator who promised he had your best interest at heart, so you opened up and told him everything about your substance use/ developmental / family history, well if you don’t stay for 90 days he will be “normally obliged” to tip the board of medical off to you.

1. The programs have overstepped their intended jurisdiction. -these programs work well if they function how they were intended at their inception. Cite original purpose. Originally these programs were designed to protect physicians and civilians from impaired practitioners; being healthcare workers who were impaired at work. Over the years, these organizations have extended their authority to encompass individuals with substance use disorders When not at work and also those who are in training to become healthcare professionals. Take for example myself compared to a physician who is impaired at work. A doctor who arrived for duty under the influence would surely benifit from the extensive testing, therapy and accountability enforced via these programs. In accordance the 20,000$ per year cost is appropriate when only making up roughly 7% of their yearly salary vs nearly half of a residents. In my case with my loss of income from employment, coast of treatment and monitoring, this year I will be required to pay 20,000$ to work. Yes, I will be losing money to work. Even if did indeed have a substance use disorder this level of monitoring wouldn’t not be considered appropriate.

Dispite all of the miscomings of this System My time spend in PHP was indeed helpful, as I believe it would be for anyone. Time for exercise, a reprieve from work and weekly counseling. A sample structure of my day to day schedule is provided below for insight:
Structure The general structure of these rehabitation centers is as follows: 1. One week of orientation phase, where you are not allowed in electronics or contact with the outside world world. Therefore, if you’re going, bring some things you would like to read or study. 2. In phase 2, you can use your phone however you cannot leave campus. You must stay in the dorm on campus. These shitty 1 room run down apartments with two other roommates will cost you about $1000 a week, they are required for at least four weeks and they are billed separately, no insurance will help you out here. 3. In phase 3 you can commute to campus if you beg your therapist and live very close. Whether you’re on campus or living off-campus, you are allowed to leave up to four hours per day. If you commute, you’ll be required to take a sober link decide you must Breath, alcohol test into every 6 hours. Like everything else in this program you must pay for this separately, a few hundred dollars a week. You advanced to other phases by completing assignments, however, assignments are limited by required built-in time, intrusive, scheduling, and reviewing. Therefore, if you do everything as rapidly as possible phase 1 will take one week phase 2 will take three weeks.
Every day schedule:
7:30: wake up, report to the front desk to inform them that you haven’t ran away yet and take and prescribed medications. They keep all your medications and require that you report to take them; for me this was antidepressants in an attempt to dispel the depression I contracted from being forced into treatment and whatever off label medication they were attempting to treat my ADHD with, since control medications were forbidden.
8 am: community group assessments This consisted of other patients presenting their assignments amongst the large group, on the weekends this was often an hour later and 12 study regularly took the place of assignment presentation.
10 am: process group. This was a two hour group therapy session with 6 to 12 other professionals in a therapist and training or occasionally a licensed mental health therapist.
1 pm: recreation This was generally about an hour of some sober themed craft or activity. Once a week this time slot was used for yoga.
2 pm: this was another time slot used for patients to present assignments as well as for individual therapy sessions. Each patient had one individual therapy session lasting 30 minutes per week.
3pm: This was time allotted to work on assignments or go to the gym on your sex specific scheduled gym day.
5pm: this time was used for guest speakers or another 12 step study group.
6 pm : this was generally an off-campus 12 step group
10 pm: report to the front desk and let them know you still haven’t ran away and take and Medication which are prescribed to take at night, then return to your cot bed in your room with 1-2 other roommates.
I found the community to be one of the most beneficial aspects of the PHP program. I was in a cohort of chill ass professionals of the same occupation who were always there to help each other.
Assignments The curriculum of the PHP consisted of assignment based on every step of the 12th step program. Generally, a patient would be required to complete an assignment on their own, review it with other patients, then faculty and finally present the assignment in front of the whole treatment group. You’re only given one assignment at a time and there are multiple steps to each which all requires scheduling this ensures that no matter how determined a patient is a full 90 days of treatment is required to complete all the assignments.
AA structure -the obsolete nature of AA has been verified in numbers studies, but I will refrain from divulging here and lend that endeavor to Dr. Lance Dodes very thorough discussion on the subject,in “the sober truth “
In all sincerity, if I truely did have a severe use disorder this experience could have been life saving. I only wish I could have used my 50 grand for someone who has spent their life time In addictive without reprieve. My first conversation when I was given my phone back was how I wish my father could be able to attend this PHP.
Chapter 5 reporting and PRN Self reporting What they ask you What you should tell them
There’s a third-party agency called professional resource network. Every state has their own. This agency works as a liaison between you and whatever credentialing service your occupation requires. Essentially they ensure your monitoring after treatment. Stake governments and licensing boards trust them, mainly because they monitor with the highest level of intrusiveness. This alleviates much work for state governments and licensing boards because once an individual is being monitored by a professional resource network, then they are deemed appropriate for duty and no further investigation/litigation needs to occur, as long as the monitored individual completely complies.
Because I was never impaired at work I was never reported to this agency. The general workflow of things someone would report you to professional resource network, then the resource network would contact you, and then you would be required to report for an evaluation at a treatment center, which would inevitably result in a suggestion I’ve treatment at that given treatment center. In my case I was sent to the treatment center without PRN being involved. Thus, two weeks into treatment. I was notified by my therapist that I needed to call PRN and self report. I attempted to resistance given that I did not have a problem and was not individually seeking help. I asked what happened if I didn’t self report. I was told that in order to stay in the treatment program I had to report to PRN. This meant either I report to PRN or I get kicked out of the treatment program and lose my job.
When you report to PRN they will ask you why you are in treatment. They will then list off every substance imaginable, asking you if you have ever tried the substance and when your last use was. Ultimately, they will obtain your discharge information from your treatment center, so it is in your best interest to report only what was found in your biochemical testing. If it wasn’t in your hair, I would argue that you don’t have a use disorder regarding that substance and it’s not relevant. I don’t believe it’s important for them to know that you smoked weed when you were 12.
Chapter 6 The contract:
Before being discharged from a treatment facility, a professional resource network will have you sign a contract. A little known fact which I was oblivious to is that contracts can be negotiated. Though this isn’t it possible, it is highly improbable that you can negotiate your contract since PRN has a power to delay your clearance to return to work.
Contractor almost never personalized, and I have not heard of a contract which is not a five-year agreement. You will sign releases of information so that PRN has access to all of your information which was gathered at the treatment facility. You must have a therapist, psychiatrist, primary care, doctor, and a addiction, medicine psychiatrist. You assign releases of information for all of them. You will be required To commit to: 1. three mutual aid meetings a week which you must log. I log smart recovery meetings. 2. Weekly therapy sessions with an approved mental health therapist from their list 3. Monthly doctors appointments with an addiction medicine psychiatrist 4. Yearly appointments with a primary care physician 5. Monthly appointments with a psychiatrist 6. Daily check-ins on a random drug testing app ( you will agree to weekly urine tests, a peth test 4 times a year, a hair test twice a year and a little caveat that says anything else they deem, clinically reasonable) 7. Quarterly update reports which you are required to obtain from a workplace monitor, therapist, addiction, medicine, psychiatrist, primary care physician and any other doctor you are seeing. 8. You must upload all of your prescriptions into a mobile application every single time you get them refilled and are not allowed to take them until they are approved. 9. Attendance of a PRN group via zoom. This is a local group you are assigned along with other monitored practitioners. There is a fee of roughly 130$ a month to attend this required group. For me all of these requirements coast around 20,000 a year. If you ever have a positive test even if it is the result of contamination from rubbing alcohol or unintentional ingestion of alcohol/ allergy medication your contract will rest to 5 years from the time of positive test. Once your five year contract is completed, you must ask to be released from monitoring. At that point they will search for any reason to keep you under monitoring. This could be dilute urines, daily check ins or a week where you did not attend mutual aid meetings. Every certification and license which you apply for will likely ask you if you were under a monitoring program/ have been treated for substance use. You must give an explanation and check yes. As far as licensing programs are concerned, if you were under the monitoring of PRN, you are safe, however they group practitioners who have had behavioral issues with practitioners who were diverting drugs from work. Therefore, keep in mind that you will be labeled as a sever addict.
7 Back to work and only work. During treatment your only goal is to return to work, however when you return your experience will be drastically distinct from what you remember. For me, I was now working in isolation. Missing six months of my training meant that no other Resident was on the same rotation as me. My coworkers at all formed friend groups. When I returned I was greeted with much concern for my well being. No one would speak to be about my absence, however everyone knew there is only one reason a resident would leave for 6 months then return. My Accdeemic meetings were consisting of attending telling me “I have a target on my back now” and “ I have to preform even better than others” in the light of my time missed. If this wasn’t alienating enough, the majority of Resident events, sponsored by recruiters and my university revolved around alcohol to which I had to give some excuse to why I can not partake with others. I’m fortunate that I do not have an addiction, because these stressful conditions along with the daunting amount of dead and requirements imposed by PRN are enough to make any addict relapse. While I was at treatment, I was in the dative with Samyr stories a physicians whose addictions got the best of them. Physicians who did not make it to treatment, often taking their own life. These stories were presented as a warning. Your addictions will kill you without our treatment was the message. When, in reality I did not hear one story in which the addiction killed physician. Every physician who didn’t make it to treatment took their life after being told they must report to a treatment facility. Perhaps they knew what this entailed and it was not their addiction or getting caught which caused them to end their lives, but the unmanageable and often unreasonable burden that treatment would put on their lives.
9 How to escape So your fucked your in PRN and should be or you should and now your recovered and want to terminated your contract.

1. You ask to be released early done at 1/2 time ( good luck)
2. You have “good reason” (no one has ever been let out of contract because of this reason, the verbiage is far too vague)
3. You serve all your time and they let you out(maybe, as discussed earlier, they would do everything they can to keep you in your contract as long as your practicing)
4. You can’t practice medicine anymore

10 Layer up butter cup : I cannot emphasize the extent to which legal help is required in this process. You much seek it and seek it early. Lawyers can provide many avenues to you early in the process. Once you have committed to treatment, gone for evaluation or are in a PRN contract , this is very little that you or legal help can do. Spend a few thousand dollars when you are accused and save the 20-30,000 later.
After you have been evaluated if you disagree as I did, then this is the process you must undergo. 1. Hire a occupation, defense, lawyer 2. Prove you don’t have an addiction, this is done by having an alternative evaluator with similar credentials state that either you don’t have an addiction or that PRN’s level of monitoring is not medically appropriate ( this will need to be a multi day neuropsychological evaluation, which will cost about $5000). 3. Your lawyer must draft in writing that the medical level of monitoring is not required such as another medical professional and send this to PRN 4. PRN will tattle on you to the board of medicine. 5. The board of medicine will conduct an investigation. 6. At the end or when they believe they have enough reasonable evidence to the board of medicine will suspend your license or claim, you must comply with the PRN contract to practice. 7. At this time your lawyer will defend you in the state court against the board. This is costly but much less than the coast of a 5 year PRN contract 8. If you win you will likely suggest an alternative level of care such as gonna get therapy every week. If you lose, than you wasted a fuck ton of money and are still bound by your PRN contract.
Overall this entire process has coast me Over all coast:
My finances for this year only including PRN and rent are as follows:
120-200$ every week for testing 480-800/ month
65 every week for therapy 195/month
125 every month for PRN group
About 50-69 every month for 2 doctor apts
So at least 745$/month at the lowest
Treatment at the recovery center coast 20,000 for me out of pocket and
I wasn’t payed for 6 months with no FMLA because I am a first year. At the 1 year mark I will have made 26,000 this year after taxes And payed About 29,000 on PRN alone
Rent is 1,000 so that’s 12,000 a year
Just in rent and PRN alone I will be at 26,000- 41,600 -15,600.
I will be in debt by at least 18,000 at the 1 year mark
Coast of treatment center 20,000 (with insurance) For each year of PRN roughly 20,000 Add that to 6 months of attending salary which was delayed due to my treatment time: at least 150,000 Layer coasts along with other evaluations 25,000 Missing 6 months of residency pay 30,000 Coast of 1 year in monitoring: 245,000 Coast of 5 years 325,000
If my case progress to a trail I will require an extra 20,000 in court coasts
Chapter 11 My secondary eval: Dr sushi After I arrived at my treatment center I challenge my evaluation multiple times. Each and every time I was discharged and often accused of alternate mental health/ substance abuse issues to discourage my advances. I was never given the opportunity to undergo alternative assessment, however PRN guidelines state that you can obtain a second option within 7 days of your first. This is a mute point, however, because you will not receive the results of your evaluation until over a week after it is conducted and the second evaluation must be conducted by another PRN hired evaluator of their choosing. During my stay in rehab I contacted PRN multiple times to attempt another evaluation/ legal help. They warned against both stating they were a “waste of money” and “pointless”.
After completing my treatment with the guidance of many addiction, experienced physicians, mental health counselors and psychiatrists recommendations I sought in a secondary evaluation. I chose a highly qualified professional with over 30 years of experience to conduct an extensive neuo psycho social evaluation of me. One that I was sure would be more extensive than the evaluation I received at treatment and more importantly an unbiased evaluation.
The results from my evaluation not only showed that I did not have a substance abuse problem warranting PRN level monitoring, but also that PRN was falling to allow adequate treatment of other conditions such as my ADHD. My evaluation showed my ADHD was not only untreated by PRNs attempt at using non controlled medication, but also in the top 3% most severe presentations of ADHD. My evaluator went on to explain my results by questioning why my treatment center even mandated I undergo neuro cognitive evaluation. The only neurodiverse findings were my IQ, my dyslexia and my ADHD. However, a neuo cognitive examination can be billed separately by treatment centers, therefore they always recommend one.
Chapter 12 Amongst its greed, intrusive nature and faulty accusations, professional recourse network function highly proficiently at the task they were designed to; protective physicians and patients from physicians who are impaired at work. In this domain they save lives, offer second changes and protect the public. When they act beyond their intended jurisdiction by imposing unnecessary monetary demands on practitionersin training, accuse practitioners without proof or act on behavior exemplified outside of a work setting they unjustly and inappropriately attack the week and innocent.
Proposed reform: As a trainee my universities malpractice insurance covers me for mistakes made at work. If a learner mistakenly harms a patient, then the university stands on their behalf. If the learner does something wrong under a teachers direct guidance, then the teacher is at fault. This makes sense logically as well as pragmatically. The state entrusts large amounts of money to hospital systems and universities to train resident physicians. A portion of this money is allocated to malpractice insurance. This should extend to accused impairment.
Suppose a training university was required to cover rehabilitation and monitoring of a resident of whom they claim is impaired. Alternatively they have the option of firing the trainee. This would reduce the number of innocent trainees being accused of impairment, make the process of rehabilitation more fair and provide a better use for tax payer derived dollars, which hospital systems are given to train residents. The truly impaired could still seek help, less false accusations would be made and with the employers having the ability to fire at the moment of impairment, there would be less chance of impairment at work.

This is how things are falling apart, and coming together nicely for those who were tortured through tyrannical systems, and did not deserve it. Have faith in god, if it steers you towards the side of good vs evil, because it truly DOES matter. That is the great culling happening soon, and it wasn't a slaughter of every bad person, it was a sterilization, and being left behind, that the bad people get. The good people get to "ascend" into something much bigger than what we have created on earth. That was our great judgement. If you are good, you will "transcend our world", If you were bad, you will not.
The sterilization will happen soon because the alignment of the planets of the 2 or ???# distant species is stretching. We are going to lose contact soon in the coming years probably, but I am not sure when. It's all about saving the right souls, and leaving the wrong ones to rot in an endless loop of time, a spiral towards the center of a giant black hole, sucking in the rest of the galaxy. We will see the development of technologies that can never be used to save us now anyways, taking place. They will tell you everything you ever dreamed of knowing about fields and gravity and time, if you are staying on earth, because it no longer matters. We couldn't even devise the level of tech required to escape the "fields" now. They really were our last chance.
It's way too late for the people doing this to us, but please everyone, have hope for your own soul if you are truly good inside. I implore you to have faith in something bigger than what humanity can create. Let the goodness shine until it's over, because it WILL go noticed, just not by ourselves. The brighter you shine as a good person, the more likely you are to get access to a life raft on this sinking ship. Have faith in a higher power, and it really isn't humanity that you need to have faith in anymore.
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• Robert W. Christie

Any and all perspectives help more than you know. I don’t have anybody to really talk about this with so any guidance is appreciated. It’s a lot to read, I might yap but with reason
I’m 19 years old and have just finished my spring semester of college. I went to a big college out of town, my main financial aid fucked me over so I had to switch at semester to my home state’s university. Anyway, this year was kinda tough for me lost a couple family members & my boyfriend had it rough, lost his best friend and dad within a few months of each other. Then in March, we find out I’m pregnant. I wasn’t sure what I wanted but didn’t really get to make a choice, soon after I miscarried. It was difficult so I went back to hometown & finished semester online while staying with boyfriend until I needed to move my stuff out of dorm.
My boyfriend is 19 and we’ve been together a year & a half, but known each other since middle school. We dated in 8 grade until he had to move out of state, he moved back & we started hanging out again. My circle is small & I don’t really make/have any friends but he’s my best friend. Even if we wouldn’t have chose to date after he came back to town, ik we would’ve been good friends. My family liked him or seemed to at least, especially my mom.
It’s well known in my family that my mom and I just don’t get along. She kept me quite literally locked away as the Cinderella child until I left. I could only do stuff if she wasn’t in a bad mood/something didn’t need cleaned/ a child didn’t need to be picked up/dropped off. After a while I figured out life is better if i deal w it instead of push back harder. My friends in high school never invited me ANYWHERE, I didn’t know how to use a crosswalk until I was 14 lmao I was so sheltered sorry ANYWAYS, I turned 18 and it was like I had a brand new mother until her fear of me leaving wore off.
Long story short, the summer before I left for college (last summer) my mom & I got into a fight, I didn’t have anywhere else to go so I moved in with boyfriend. My mom did the absolute most, wouldnt let me get any of my stuff or car for a few weeks (I had purchased almost EVERYTHING for myself since I was 15, including my car that she told me since I bought it as a minor I couldn’t have it under my name :/ ), almost got me fired from my job & ambulance ended up being called from how much of a tantrum she threw. It was so ridiculous that she refused to tell anybody what happened when people asked because she said it’s too embarrassing for her.
Just like that, she flipped. My boyfriend had a rough upbringing which she knows some stuff about. She took that and twisted the narrative to make him seem like some sort of charity case that took advantage of her generous & good graces. She calls him the hungry kid who hangs out w her daughter. He’s no longer allowed at her house lmao just out of spite. He never said a word to her or about her even when she had the worst to say about him, he never was disrespectful or showed up to the house either so idrk why she said that. Even when I moved out & she drained my entire savings I had worked for since I was 15, he never said anything bad about her just that i was going to be okay & he’s gonna help me figure it out.
Not only that but she shunned me for a long time, refused to talk & look at me after I moved out. My little brother was 5 and didn’t really understand & my mom didn’t bother to explain or kid proof it, just let him scream, cry, & claw at my legs whenever I’d leave the house to go home. I felt so guilty & like I had to compensate so I’d stress out & make sure to see my siblings every single day till I left for college.
If you’re still reading thank you sm.
Fast forward to today, left for college & it didn’t work out, finished semester online, and am back in my hometown. Over breaks in college I’ve stayed at my moms cause she expected me to and her & I’s relationship has gotten so much better with distance. Between her and boyfriend, they were my biggest & only support especially with the miscarriage. But the only conversation they’ve had is when him and I went to talk to my mom in person when I found out I was pregnant. Not sure where she stands with him idrc but I’m sure she probably hates him more since we did technically make her worst fear as a mother come true.
Im living with her now, mainly cause I don’t want to be isolated again & i physically cant deal with the debilitating anxiety and guilt every day, I wanted to try to focus on healing & resting before I start classes in the fall. Boyfriend’s family situation is getting v challenging for him, hes gonna get a place regardless. I really just want a space where I’m not feeling constantly overstimulated & I miss living with him a lot honestly. We make the best team & it’s so easy with him. I catch myself getting so excited looking at furniture even from the thrift or think ab cooking w him. I miss him making breakfast for me before I wake up and folding laundry together and grocery shopping. He’s paying 6 months rent in advance so that I won’t have to worry about getting enough hours & can enjoy summer and actually rest. Both of us independently have a pretty thick cushion to fall back on too just in case. So finances aren’t a problem I think?
My mom isn’t too keen on the idea. I think she doesn’t want me to make the same mistakes she made, which I understand because I was also there when she was left with half of every pair of shoes she owned, I mean he took literally half of everything. Even in the case that we do break up and then I’m stuck with an apartment with my ex and have completely fucked myself over, at least I made my first mistake & learned from it? Idk what to tell my mom or how the conversation should go. I don’t wanna be shunned again but then again I’ve never once been able to just do something and justify it with “it’s my life”. Advice/thoughts/bullshit/opinions? Have a blessed day, I appreciate your time & input more than you know.

Hi, I'll try and keep this quick but informative but I really dont know what to do.
Backstory: New girl at work (24). She's been amazing to talk to and work with though she's told me in private she's had issues with her bf.
She's recently broken up with her ex but he's one of those tough guys got out of prison type dudes. So he's stalking her. He climbs over her fence and harasses her friends. It comes in burts. He can be here everyday for a week sitting outside her house then you don't see him for a month. Police are already deeply involved within this but its not helping much since she won't charge him.
Fast forward to today: He confronted her at her house when she had another guy over. He called her names and stuff and put hands on the guy.
The week prior she had come back from Italy with other work friends and was sick. When I told her to go home If she's sick but she insisted on staying due to money reasons. Even though she had a high temp that she says she couldn't feel. We make good money at our job so I'm was wondering why she was struggling even though she goes on holiday a decent amount with her friends.
Also she told me she was talking random medication instead of going to see a doctor.
When I heard she didn't come in again yesterday I messaged her and she told me she was not great mentally and felt terrible. But it was weird the way she said it to me it was almost like a suicide note wrapped in tinfoil.
So I went over to see her as I knew where she lived. When I got there she broke down crying saying she feels like a screw up and she can't do anything right. She compares herself to other allot and cares deeply of what people think of her.
Regardless later on I found out she was smoke allot of weed, tobaco and taking ketamine likely to deal with the what she's going though. She also told me she's living off a almost maxed credit card.
Yesterday she asked to borrow a little money off me. Nothing major so I gave it to her. But I don't want to enable her to drive herself deeper into debt or make a choice she regrets.
I genuinely don't know what to. I want yo give her some money so she can figure stuff out but i dont think that will help due to her state of mind right now. She's very emotional and fragile right now and I see she needs help. I've never had to deal with this in my life so any help is greatly appreciated. If you need more context I'll tell you as a reply. Thank you for taking the time to help her.

This was a question that I have come across a few times recently. Basically new coders (or people thinking of becoming a coder) are wondering-What happens if I make a mistake? Will I be get fired? Be in trouble? I could see why this would be a concern. Medical coders are held to a very high standard both by ourselves and the industry.
But let's think about this--what happens if a coder makes a mistake? Let's start by saying--no one is perfect. Every single person who is working now as a coder, has made mistakes at one point or another.
The thing that most companies look for is your average accuracy rate. I don't have an exact number of what all places are, but in my experience (which is radiology coding) a coder had to always have a 95% or above accuracy rate. Different places audited coders at different times. Sometimes it was monthly. Sometimes it's daily. It really depends how the company is set up. Another thing to keep in mind too--was it a CPT or ICD-10-CM mistake? Usually a CPT error is counted differently against a coder than an ICD-10-CM error. In other words--it's worse to make a CPT mistake than a ICD-10-CM mistake because there is a more likely chance the claim will be denied because of this. So what happens to the coder? It depends how often you're making mistakes. Everyone makes a mistake once in a while. So if this is a rare occurrence for you--in short--nothing happens. Maybe your manager will let you know about it, but that is it. I think what's important here is how you handle it. I think medical coders by nature are perfectionists. So if we hear we make a mistake...we don't like that and may get defensive about it.
If you're told you made a mistake and truly don't think it was a mistake, you can bring proof (an authoritative source) to your manager and talk about it. Just be careful here--all places are set up differently and managers are different. Sometimes it might be best not to say anything. But if it's really bothering you--yes, it's ok to say something. Sometimes auditors make mistakes too and I'm telling you this as an auditor--there have been times that I marked something as incorrect when it really wasn't. Does that happen often? No. But it has occasionally. I don't mind when coders tell me to recheck something. I've had coders come to me an explain their thought process and use sources. If I can see their point of view--there has absolutely been times when the coder proved me wrong. I don't think that makes me a bad auditor--all it means is that I'm human too. So in short--everyone in the industry will make mistakes sometimes.
If you're wondering what happens to the actual claim that was coded wrong--usually a corrected claim will be sent in if it denied because of the error. In my experience the person who originally coded the report is not the same person who does the corrected claim--but it may work different elsewhere.
My whole point in writing this really, is don't let being afraid of making mistakes stop you from pursuing medical coding! It is an awesome field to be in.
*This post originally appeared on my blog

So my ex and I (23f, 25f) broke up a little over 3 months ago. It was really brutal, I was blindsided, but at the same time I hurt her quite a bit as well. We were really toxic towards the end and I genuinely think this was for the best.
Like an hour and a half after we have the breakup conversation, Im at home trying to process things and she texts me a picture of her mom’s dog wearing a kansas city chiefs shirt and says “I fear you would have left me over this anyways” (Context for anyone who doesn’t care about sports, I just straight up don’t like the Chiefs and they were playing in the super bowl again that weekend). I didn’t respond at all and just felt really hurt, we broke up under strange circumstances and I was left feeling like she just didn’t like me and I was resigned to the fact that she didn’t respect me anymore, so getting a joke text within 2 hours of breaking up hurt a lot tbh. Like what was I supposed to say?
Fast forward two days, I didn’t respond to her dumb joke and she texts me at like midnight saying “Im sorry, I’ll learn forgiveness, you were my best friend and I hope we can be friends again” and then says a bunch more stuff the next morning like “We should talk soon”, “nobody understands me like you, I just want to speak with you about this and nobody else but we can’t and it sucks”. My sister and my friends told me to block her but I held strong for some reason. I just couldn’t let go.
Then a few MORE days later I decided to respond with no words, I send her the laundry/taxes meme from Everything Everywhere All at Once, partly because it was sentimental and we did have a really special relationship at one point, and also because lowkey the last thing I dropped off for her was her W-2 and her laundry. She responds saying we should talk soon, and says all kinds of stuff like “I miss you lots”, “Maybe we just need time to be our own people”, “Im still wearing the ring you gave me” (context: It wasn’t a promise ring or engagement ring or anything, just was one of the first birthday presents I ever got her and was one of the first gifts I ever bought someone where I spent real real money on, so it at least meant SOMETHING to us), and a whole bunch of other sentimental stuff, concluding with “Im here whenever you’re ready to speak.” These messages all really hurt me and multiple ppl told me to block her but once again, I just couldn’t bring myself to.
Now, a few more days go by and she texts me about a performance one of our mutual friends’ invited us to. She asked if I was gonna go and said if I was then she would back out. This just bothered me SO MUCH, not only had I forgotten all about this performance and had zero intention of going given the state I was in, but it was just a question that NEEDED an answer, I couldn’t just leave her on read again, right? I responded and kinda showed too much of my feelings and how hurt I was, and we spoke a bit over text. She admitted she handled our breakup inappropriately and also said that marriage was still a possibility for us (Mind you, in our final argument as a couple she pointed at me and goes “Does this even look like marriage material?” which I still think about to this day). It was….jarring. I pretty much clung on to that hope. Then at the end she completely switched her stance and said SHE needed time and that she would let ME know when she was ready for a conversation, saying she needed two weeks.
Fast forward a few weeks, we had been in contact only to exchange our belongings, but she blocked me after I told her she could leave one of my hats in the mailbox if she didnt want to see me. So I message her dad a week later in order to get my things back and get that all sorted. However, one of my friends informed me that she was speaking to a boy in one of her psych courses who had been hitting on her. This kinda sent me down the rabbit hole and I message her dad again asking for some of my stuff back. Mind you, Im still blocked at this point so if I wanted it back, I had to go through him. The thing she still had of mine was my nice pillow which i had given to her to take to her dorm, and even a few days after the breakup she had said stuff like “Im still sleeping on the pillow you gave me” so at this rate I just wanted it back. Her dad immediately assumed I had blocked her and he tried to speak to me like I was his kid and I told him “your daughter is the one who blocked me” and he got really embarrassed. I get unblocked and get my pillow back bc I dont know how youre still sleeping on it while speaking to the first dude that hits on you (Mind you this girl swore she was a lesbian and was always worried I would cheat with a boy). I get the pillow back, she compliments my hair bc I had gotten it done, and we go on our separate ways.
Now, I messaged her a couple more times because I kept finding stuff of hers at my place. Id dropped some of it off at her dad’s place bc he lives in town. Fast forward to my birthday exactly 2 months after we breakup, she texts me at 9pm saying “Happy birthday” and nothing else. Wtf. I didn’t reply and I actually was super lonely on my bday so she was the last person I wanted to hear from.
I think I made the mistake of trying to bring one of her things to her a week later because I was visiting a friend who lived by her campus. This is where I feel she thinks I might be the one trying to drop breadcrumbs. It was super awkward, i just handed her her stuff and she said something completely inaudible but sounded like “take care” or something along those lines. And NOW is where I make the ultimate mistake of asking why that was weird once she got back into her building. She was basically like “im still healing, don’t message me unless theres stuff of mine thatyou have. I dont want to speak to you for a very long time if not ever”. So in 2 months I go from “im here whenever youre ready” to “dont speak to me ever”.
I told her that I am still healing too and dont even want to have a conversation yet, and I make the mistake of asking why she bothered telling me happy birthday if thats how she feels. The response i got from her was “I did it because it would have felt bad not saying anything, I wont say it again next year”. I got blocked permanently a few messages later.
So basically, just go no contact and stick to it. I should have taken my friends advice and blocked her a long time ago, and because I didnt I got my hopes up and got hurt again. Apologies for the long post, but seriously sometimes people just say things because they are emotional and not because they mean them. I held out for hope for way too long.
Apologies for the long ass post
Edit for context about our relationship: We dated 4 years and in the end I was the one who fell apart, wasn’t taking care of myself, etc. We were far from perfect for each other long before that, but had been through so much together and loved each other very much. Ultimately I hurt her over and over and held in the times she hurt me and never worked on forgiving her. I was very resentful towards the end and I 100% do not blame her for leaving, we were just wrong for each other plain and simple. Loved each other but became two passing ships in the night who only let our true feelings show when we were arguing. I want whoever she is with to treat her far better than I, and I got the impression that she felt the same about me... even if she clearly has been hurt by the times that I HAVE spoken to her since breaking up. Ultimately when we broke up I was 100% set on going no contact because I had assumed that’s what she wanted, because I knew we were no good for each other. That is why it all hurt so much when she reached out and gave me chances to redeem myself after we broke up. But I was too afraid to squash that hope in fear of hurting her more. I want nothing but the best for this person, and while I tell myself it was a waste of time from time to time when Im feeling upset, I have so many incredible memories with her, even though there were a lot of bad ones too. It was still a massive growing experience and fuck is it sad that we just couldn’t stick it out in the long run. We were each other’s first love, and we both tried so fucking hard to make it work in spite of everything going on around us. God bless her at the end of the day, I’ve forgiven her for the hurt she caused me, and we owe each other nothing. I never expected her to say she would work on forgiveness, I was left feeling like I shouldn’t deserve it. This has been an incredibly long post so if anyone has read this thank you, you can heal from this and you got this. This sub has actually been helpful, a lotta other people are feeling the same way you are. You’re not alone and you can heal.

Look. I'm no misogynist. I believe in equality in all things in life. Be it gender, race, religion, sexual preference, etc.
But I've been on the receiving end of a lot of abuse from women in my life. My mom, my sister, an ex girlfriend. And consciously. I'm fully aware that 3 people don't represent a whole gender and it's not cool to hold it against them. But then I get on social media and see some of the things women on there say. And all and all it's quite soul-crushing.
I dont wanna be that type of guy and above that I don't even think it's fair. But I can't help but to Harbour some negative feelings toward women. I try to remember that a lot of men have treated me pretty poorly as well, and in general do far worse stuff. But the psychological torment I've gotten from those 3 women effects me in ways I really wish it didn't.

Hi there! I am Yassir, I am from and live in Morocco. A few things about me:
I am from Rabat but currently in Khouribga for school, I like listening to alternative music (alt metal/alt rock) which may or may not include melancholic music (which I like).
My hobbies include Chess, videos games, coding. I stopped reading but I'm planning on getting back to it cuz I think there's a lot of fun that can come from that, I occasionally read web toons, I watch youtube and tv shows/movies.
I am an introvert and as such (unsurprisingly) can get awkward irl, but I would say I am very sociable for the most part, if I'm talking to you for an extended period of time then that definitely means that I am enjoying your company :)
Who am I looking for? For now someone I can talk to and meet in Rabat or Khouribga maybe, I'd love to get a new friend (not that I have none atm hehe).
Anyways, thats it for now, Cya ;)

First off: if you’re here to say “Other people have bigger problems!” Or “You’re too soft”, then you may leave now.
Okay. Now for the people that have stayed, Here’s my story.
I (15M) genuinely dislike my life. For most of my life, i was the kid in school who had a busy schedule everyday, and i still am. I barely spend any time at home. For example, in Tuesdays, we have school from 7:00AM to 5:10 in the fucking afternoon. 5:30 i have singing class until 6:30. At 7:00 i have basketball practice until 9pm. Only then i can arrive home. I absolutely hate this.
Also let’s talk about school. I fucking hate school and i think it is a disgrace among our world. Every Tuesday and Thursday, we have class for 10 hours straight (Mind you i live in Brazil). Also, our teachers are a bunch of assholes, and they let it show in their tests. While on the topic, my father doesn’t accept any grade under 80%. I’m talking like “Oh you got a 77%? Why am i even paying for you to go to school then?”. This happened just yesterday. This is not an over-exaggeration at all.
A little more about my dad: He loves to tell me how good of a student he was when he was young. In public school… In Brazil… IN THE 70’S… Fyi, even nowadays the public school system in Brazil sucks so bad people are afraid of even getting near one. Now imagine it 50 years ago! My dad is nuts and things i must be absolutely perfect just cause he was above average in a poor education system many decades ago.
If anyone finds a way to change my life with somebody else’s, please reach me out, cause i’m in need.

Hey im a Trilingual Canadian living in Montreal.
Im looking for chatty friends to pass the time with and maybe become besties.
I'm 420 friendly easy going non judgemental and I adore clingy people lol.
I adore learning about peoples interests hobbies passtimes what have you.
I have 1 old pupper and Would love people who enjoy sharing pet pics too!
I play games here and there nothing crazy but i do have a switch, and got a pc again!
I listen to almost anything music wise and will watch almost anything tv wise (I am really easy going promise lol)
I love to cook aswell take walks and hikes.
All ages welcome aslong as we click.
If anything sounds good hmu with a chat and lets see where it goes!
Random hello voice clip:
https://voca.ro/18R16nJb0G4O
If we get along and you are open to it we can call too.
Hope to hear from you soon!

So we’ve been together for 6 months now and I had to leave for the summer (we’re college students). It’s really has sucked we used to hangout a lot (probably way too much). We both are extremely insecure people and all our fights have been because of mistrust and jealousy. I’ve also been cheated on before on the past and I’ve been going to therapy for years trying to learn how to trust and love myself but I’ve barely made any progress.
For the last week or so my bf has gone cold and it’s because he’s insecure and doesn’t trust me. He has sort of a right though. There was one time I went to go hang out with a guy without telling him (I was kinda mad at him it was stupid of me) and we both have established that we aren’t super comfortable with hanging out with the opposite sex. We talked it through a few times and he said he forgave me but of course hasn’t forgotten. Now that we’ve been a part he’s been thinking about that incident a lot and also thinking about the people I’ve slept with previously (one is a black guy) and is insecure. I’ve told him that I chose him and he’s the best I’ve ever had but of course that doesn’t do anything. I really don’t want him to feel this way because I know myself how much it hurts but I can’t seem to help no matter what I say.
I know people are going to say well you both aren’t meant for a relationship and that may be true but we’re never going to learn or get over these insecurities by just breaking up and having the same stuff happen in the next. I want to work on our problems TOGETHER. That’s what relationships are about if you really love them and I do really love him. I know I would never cheat but actions are louder than words saying that won’t make him feel better. How do you think I could help him be more comfortable? I really don’t want our relationship to end but it hurts so much seeing him like this and he’s so different now.
TLDR: My boyfriend has gone cold because he keeps thinking about my past and mistakes I’ve made before now that we are a LDR. I really want to help him since I suffer from insecurity and jealousy as well.

Hey all,
Would love to make new friends here. I am from England and kinda struggle making friends in real life. Struggling with my mental health at the moment so would love to stay in contact with people. I enjoy gaming on my Xbox, I play FIFA, call of duty, forza, WWE. I’m a massive WWE fan and love football. If we have things in common or you would just like someone to talk to then hit me up.
Have a pleasant day all:)

hi lovely ppl, a few posts ago i told this story about a guy. Its now a few weeks/months later and i just feel so confused. so hear me out.
its not a shock that this guy has a lasting impact on me, i still think about him everyday, because it was such a weird experience and it still feels like unfinished business.
nevertheless i chose to focus on myself to figure out why i act a certain way in some situations and how i can improve myself to stop doing this in the future. Im definitely more focused on college and work now and making everything ready for my moving abroad to south korea.
Even tho im so focused on my goals, i do did some things that may not be the best way to handle situations. bc it also makes me feel more confused. Since me and him are not talking, i hooked up with 3 different guys, im not sure if thats alot, but the point is i was trying to figure out if its just the sex that kees me connected to him. Turns out its not.
Thats the issue im confused about, no matter who i hook up with or talk to, its just not him?. my daily life is v busy but he is just always in the back of my mind, i also keep seeing all these signs of him, or people asking me about him. like when i choose to let it go, it just always come back in any kind of way? (im spiritual, dont get me wrong lol).
Reaching out to him is not really an option since were not on speaking terms, and i need to focus on my college till end of june. But the thing is im also scared, and wondering how he feels, its the afraid of the unknown that gets me ig.
Does anybody have advice how to deal with feelings like this?
thanks lots

My girlfriend and I have been together for about a year, we live together, and I have so much love for her.
When we first met, I knew she did coke but I was very firm on the fact I couldn’t date anyone who does it as I come from an addictive family and I know how this sort of thing plays out. I knew it could have been a problem but didn’t know the extent of it. Where I live and with our age, coke is very normalized. Most of my friends do it. As far as I knew, she stopped doing it and I believed her.
Flash forward to 6 months later, I could tell things have been off. We’ve been bickering a lot more and she just seemed kinda mean and irritable to me as of lately. We got into a really bad fight about house responsibilities, we came up with a solution and went to bed but something just wasn’t sitting right with me. It was 5am and I couldn’t sleep, so I went through her phone. I knew something was wrong, I felt wrong doing it and I know it’s an invasion of privacy but I don’t regret it.
I found texts from her and her MOM talking about doing coke. Coming up with elaborate lies on how to hide it from me and her dad. I woke her up and confronted her. I learned she’s been doing it at work, with my best friend (who I specifically asked not to ever give her any) and with her mom. Since December. I asked her why she didn’t tell me sooner And she just started crying about how she has been needing help but didn’t want to put it on me. Granted, 2024 has been the absolute worst year of my life, so I don’t think that is just an excuse.
I’m not even mad about the coke necessarily, I’m mad she lied. I’m mad my best friend lied to me about doing it with her.
I was ready to kick her out but then I realized the only place she has to go is her moms and I don’t want to do that to her if she genuinely needs and wants help, but I’m also worried if I don’t end it now and she slips up again, I’m going to feel even more stupid than I already do. I know she has the potential to be better, and I want to see that, but another part of me feels like I can’t come back from this.
Her and the group of friends we have right now (which includes my best friend, her wife, and another friend) is the most loved and appreciated I’ve ever felt in my life. I have had the worst year of my life and they have been the only thing keeping me going. They bring so much joy into my life, they are so supportive of everything I do, so kind and genuine, but this is broken my heart. Part of me wants to say fuck it all, drop them all, and run away. But a bigger part of me has so much love for them and wants to see it through, but I’m scared if I do that and they lie again I’m going to feel even more stupid than I already do. They both have apologized profusely to me.
My family told me that people mess up and if I love them I would give them one more chance, but stubbornly I had a boundary and it was crossed. They lied about it for six months. I feel betrayed, naive, and dumb.
Do I follow my heart and see it through? Or do I do the logical thing and drop all of them & move on? If I go with the first option, how do I set boundaries again and make things fair with me and my girlfriend?

Hello Everyone!
So a few weeks ago we adopted a lovely dog who has been bounced around a lot. She came to us with the name Bella, which we don't care for (way too many dogs named Bella) so we decided to rename her - which wasn't hard as she didn't actually know her name.
We have been calling her Whiskey but now we feel that we ought to change it yet again - which also won't be hard as she doesn't really know her new name yet anyway.
Reason for the change: Well personality wise she just isn't a whiskey. She is extremely sweet, very well behaved, but she is a little dim (doors confuse her). Like you really couldn't ask for a more well behaved dog and she has many good qualities. Thinking thoughts deeper than "oh a chicken nugget crumb" are just not her strong suit.
But more importantly - our next door neighbour and at least two other people in our immediate area have dogs named Whiskey so it's just too confusing.
Looking for name suggestions!

An old thing and random to bring up now, but just a thought of mine.
I think most of us agree that the point of these fake-outs is to show the reactions to these deaths, mainly the family "deaths" being the biggest reaction thus far.
I think it's honestly because of the scene playing it up for comedy, with them being in an onsen and explained in pixel art. People will still think it's cheap that they lived, but to delve deeper, it felt as if it was mocking the viewers for thinking otherwise (not the intention at all).
Obviously, even IF they took that scene more seriously, people would still complain that they’re alive, which would completely change the show. But personally, I think adding that little cute explanation of his parents being alive, sadly muddled the point of Mob’s reaction and his friends trying to calm him down, even lying despite not fully knowing.
I’d think just having Sho saying that they’re in a safe location is good enough, it’d feel less cheap and more importantly, still shows the seriousness with Mob and Claw.

TL:DR - I like meeting people and I'm decently interesting I think at least, come say hey? :)
Pretty much title, I'd love to speak to people from all over, if it clicks and becomes long term that would be pretty ideal, I'm genuinely not fussed about where you're from, I think the idea of speaking to people from all corners of the world is just interesting to me. I did my hell week at work, so 6 days in a row, but very soon I'll be going germany + austria for a 10 day trip and I'm hypeddddd. I'd love to chat to folks for this week, during the trip and maybe for a long while after too!? :)
As for myself, I think I'm pretty lovely, but I'm fairly biased I'll admit. I work from home in a insurance sales jobs, its fine mostly but I'm semi looking for something else. I've travelled a lot in the last few years to a number of places, Singapore, Palawan and Manila in PH, Jamaica and Canada, then a number of European countries and planning more for 2024 + 2025 hopefully! I was in Bosnia for a few days in March, have a trip to Hamburg + Salzburg later this month and hoping to do Italy + Turkey trips later this year.
I tried my hand at languages (I sucked at Turkish, was decent at German then promptly forgot it, as when I was there I didn't need it), picked up painting and playing the piano and I'm as useless at painting as I ever was, but its fun. I work out, but its mostly to try and lose weight while still having a major sweet tooth and really enjoying a meal out, so losing weight progress is relatively slow going. Beyond that I'm the typical tv/videogames/sports fan honestly.
I'm pretty easy going though if its not working I always like a bit of closure, the disappearing act bothers me, a simple heads up is appreciated but besides that I'm quite laissez-faire. I do prefer speaking to women but it's not a hard rule, I just find guys often get a bit intense online. In terms of intentions it doesn't matter to me, friends is perfectly lovely, if we click and it's benefits or flirting too, equally lovely but its not the goal. I do prefer putting a face to people and vice versa as well, if its a dealbreaker I totally get it so thought I'd add that in here too
If you want to swap straight to snap just add your username as well Include your basic details in your message, the usual about me stuff is fine, don't feel the need to match the rambling essay above! :)

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So there was this guy (M21)I (F20)was dating for a little bit about 4 months up until this point. And our relationship was not perfect, but I would always try to maintain some communication even though it’s scary af!! Before in the past he would have some flaky issues and stuff and before I continue, listen this is only my side of the story and I’m sure he’s probably dealing with his own issues.
I thought we were getting closer, he started really welcoming me into his world :) which for him, is a step closer. I really thought things were going good. We had our own little jokes. I also told him I loved him (I’m kinda wondering if maybe it wasn’t the right time?)
And one day I made a comment about a family member maybe reaching out to him randomly (they’re like. 10 so they’re nosey, and always wants to be in the know with me) and he took it the wrong way entirely but I think it was wording on my part. He broke up with me because he couldn’t trust me, and that he can’t be with someone who’ll allow people to see our private moments together. Which in my opinion feels like such a slap in the face because I know personally that I respect the shit out of this dude.
I think he thought that I just. Allowed my family member to look through our chats, and he just. Blocked me without hearing my side of the story or even communicating with me. I can’t tell if I did something wrong, like this feels so drastic. Doesn’t seem like him at all. Like it feels incredibly impulsive
I reacted pretty poorly after this, I really wanted him to hear me out and since I’m blocked I resorted to a pay phone and lowkey looking anYWHERE online to contact him. I managed to tell my side of the story, and somewhat throw away my dignity and try convincing him to not break up with me and then he just blocked me again :/. I don’t know I’m just I’m just confused. I’m gonna try move on from him, but what do you think was happening with him? Was I in the wrong?
My friends don’t think I’m in the wrong,and that I at least tried. Blocking me was really mean on his part however :”) TLDR: my ex bf broke up with me over text and blocked me and I’m not sure why

Hi,
Im a 23M from Romania and I'm looking for someone to share my love with (or maybe find a good friend who knows).My hobbies are gaming, anime ( i know very original, also im not fat since a lot of people think of that when they hear those hobbies) but i also enjoy learning about different cultures around the world, history and I would really love to travel ( especially in Japan and the Nordic countries) or to go on some trips in nature and maybe some mountain climbing. I also plan to go to the gym but you know how it is, just a plan for now =)
I'm on the introverted side and I don't really enjoy going to clubs or parties where there are a lot of people, but I dont mind it if you want to do it once or twice. I much prefer a cozy place, I am more of a vibe person, maybe a nice meal with a beautiful view. I'm also just a bit shy at the beggining but I open up fast, just the "first move" is kinda hard for me.
I would prefer to be from Romania ( or a close country, from Europe) so we can maybe meet irl if things go well, LDR its pretty hard usually. We can also exchange pictures pretty early on if you want.
I don't really want to write a whole lot more since I would prefer to talk about this stuff over the reddit or discord chat so if you are interested send me a messege and lets see if we click or not.

My bf is 28 and once in a while, he gets his down days which can last a couple day or weeks. This happens when he suppresses himself to the point where he gets into this state of depression. He has a lot going on and to think about like his family who he doesn’t live with, i feel like he feels guilty that he isn’t able to provide tor them. He also feels guilty with the fact that one day he would need to introduce himself to my parents and he feels his career and life isn’t going anywhere for him to be proud of himself. He has also completely neglected his health, never goes to the gym but promises that he will and that his gym days are fast approaching but it has been months since he went. He also neglects his diet and doesn’t eat. He is losing a lot of weight and just laughs at himself but I know that bothers him. The things he says are just becoming words, actions rarely follows. He is having his depressive episodes now and he’s just quite mean. He shouts when im just trying to talk and ask him whats wrong, he says “how am i supposed to know what’s wrong, it’s everything” i try to get him to break it down and try to see his big “everything” as more manageable things so that he can get out of the funk but he says that somehow I always make it about me. I do admit when he’s like this, it hurts me and I worry and so I talk to him but at the end of the day, I want to help. But i also know that he needs his space and I give it but he doesn’t communicate how long he needs so when I go back to talking with him, it’s a big issue of i never give him enough space. Im so lost and frankly quite frustrated. I do love him, he is one of the few people who I can just laugh like crazy with. Should I give him time? Should I just give him all the space he needs? He doesn’t believe in therapy or any sort of help and so even when he does get out of this funk that he is in now, i know somewhere down the line, he will get into it again. Any advice is appreciated!