Farewell message to friends

Hey there, so a little over a year ago or more, my friends, let's call them Jennifer (25F) and stevie (30F) started dating secretly without me knowing. Now for some context, Stevie already has a boyfriend, let's call him Joe (30M) that have been dating for a very long time, at least over 10 years or more and also live together. Me and Jennifer are irl friends and we are online friends with stevie and Joe.
For the first couple of years of knowing each other, I have noticed here and there that Jennifer has been quite flirty with stevie on calls and was always pretty close with her. Stevie has known for a while that jennifer has had a crush on her and wanted to date her but has a boyfriend already so didn't want to date until she left Joe.
One day, stevie told me whilst on a call alone that Jennifer was thinking about pretending to "date" an old friend of ours, well call him Tom (27M) whom she has dated before but left him as she realised she doesn't like men romantically) for money stability as she didn't have a job at the time and was just gonna date him for his money.
I was shocked about that but then she also told me that she was also thinking about "dating" me for the exact same reason so she could get me to pay for her things. I was very hurt when she told me this as I didn't think my own friend would be like that and would just use me for money.
Well a couple months go by and she didn't date me or Tom which was fine because I don't want that for me or him. Jennifer got on a call with me as Stevie got upset by Joe. She wouldn't tell me anything other than Joe isn't exactly the best boyfriend in the world as I tried to ask her why, she just wouldn't tell me. I just left it as I didn't want to pry too much into it.
A couple days later, I got on a call with stevie who told me that she doesn't really think she romantically likes men and prefers woman and I try to help her calm down as she is upset. She's really scared since she lives with him and since he's from another country, she thinks he'll have nowhere to go if she leaves. I'm more of a listener myself as I'm never really good with advice on relationships as I have only been in one and that ended pretty badly, so I just listened to her to help her feel heard and make sure she's alright, she managed to calm down.
Fast forward to about a year and slowly, I start seeing Jennifer call stevie wife and her partner online. We are artists and they draw for each other and would call eachother love/ wife/partner, just small little things like that. I just thought it was them just giving each other silly little nicknames until one day, Stevie had drawn Joe and posted it saying "here's my friend" and that moment, I clicked and thought wait a minute. Are they dating? I didn't really want to ask as I saw that stevie was still with Joe and would talk to each other and play games together still.
Well, in the next couple of months, Jennifer goes to see stevie at her house for a couple weeks to spend time together. I didn't think too much of it until they sent pictures of them hugging and being very close together, which again, I can't really say anything about as friends can be really cuddly but was a little suspicious. About a month or two passed after they saw each other and I got on a call with stevie by herself.
I worked up my courage to ask if they were dating each other, and she said wasn't it obvious? She said that they had been dating for a couple months prior to her coming over and apparently they aren't together anymore as she feels like shes more of a mom to Jennifer than a partner (like Jennifer would call her mama and stuff like that and would act a little childish) I was stunned to say the least, she even told me that she would kiss like a fish, which did make me laugh a little but at the same time, I was so concerned for Joe, since they live together?? And wasn't they together? I asked about Joe and she said oh, he doesn't really know at all and doesn't need to know since he's been logged out of the relationship awhile.
Anyway, I kept my mouth shut as I didn't wanna lose my friends (I only really have them to talk to as I'm pretty bad at making friends) and didn't speak about it to Joe (me and Joe don't really talk, it's only memes we send eachother every once in a while) I saw them keep posting art and Jennifer would still keep calling her wife and other things, so I did get in contact again with stevie to ask are they still together and she's said no, but Jennifer wants to keep up the wifey talk and still wants to be called her partner. Which made me a bit suspicious.
Now we're coming up to last year, Ive been saving up my money and stevie asked if I would like to go see stevie for once with jennifer. So me and stevie started to just make a little silly plan to and to see if Jennifer wanted to go and see stevie together, but as soon as we bought this up to Jennifer, she went extremely quiet. She started to talk and said "well I wanted to see stevie in the winter time on my own" since she didn't wanna travel twice since that's quite expensive, which I fully understand.
I messaged stevie quietly saying she hates the idea and maybe we should just forget about it and stevie said no, I want you to come along since I haven't seen you yet and Jennifer has come to see me before a couple times. So we kept slowly trying to see if she would turn her mind around and in the end she did.
We visited each other and had a wonderful time. Jennifer even gave out gifts to stevies family and even Joe (she gives him birthday gifts each year which also makes me feel bad that he doesnt know shes been dating his girlfriend).
So now we are coming up to more recently. I have noticed that stevie and Jennifer have been quite distant with me. I will always be the one reaching out to them, they'd be playing games without me a lot more and calling eachother instead of the group chat. Like we'd play games together and talk to each other a lot. Don't get me wrong, I understand that they'll probably just want to hang out together by themselves and that's completely fine, it's just so strange that we even went a whole week without talking until I reached out to them.
We started talking to each other again and stevie was talking about us all meeting up together again this year which made Jennifer, yet again really quiet and hesitant to go with me.
As we don't talk that often recently, I started asking whenever we were online about when shall we plan to see each other, but they would say they're too tired to search it up and plan.
Until one day, they started being really secretive around me about meeting up together. They planned to just see each other this year and I kinda felt a little annoyed that they had to hide it from me. Like if they wanted to meet up with just them two, that's great and I'm happy that they'll get to see each other but to just blatantly forget about the plans that we were supposed to make just kinda made me feel like I was in their way and that they really just don't wanna meet up with me again.
It does sometimes feel like Jennifer seems really annoyed that I'm hanging around them both and she just wants stevie all to herself. She always seems a little annoyed when Joe comes over on the call to give to love to stevie and kisses. But at the same time, she buys Joe gifts on his birthdays so I'm just so confused.
I just feel like Jennifer is possibly slowly trying to get rid of me and Joe to keep stevie all to herself and it makes me so angry and hurt that she would try to do this
Stevie also doesn't like cheating but still I feel so horrible knowing that she might still be seeing Jennifer behind his back, even though she pretty much cheated on him anyway.
How do I get around to telling Joe about this? I'm so nervous of the outcome and what will happen.

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Hello! 👋🏽
Do you like to talk a lot? Do the other people in your life find you annoying? I won't!
I'd love to meet someone who likes talking and starting conversations a lot, because I am bad at it! It can be short-term, but I would much prefer something long-term! please tell me in your few first messages whether you want it to be one-time or not lol
If you can't start conversations then please don't text me, because I can't either :'( I can just keep the convo going, but if you can start convos, then please send a DM! You can talk about anything you want, or just rant about your day, anything tbh. I'll listen and share what I have to say too so you won't feel like you're talking to a brick wall!
Tell me what stuff you like, and I'll talk about mine! Saying our hobbies/interests here will give us less to talk about in DM's. And I believe that friends who are into wildly different things can still make connections.
BTW my timezone is GMT+3, if you don't care about timezones then neither do I.

So I haven't seen my friends in a while and I think it might be my own fault. I can never be bothered to meet them, when I can just message them instead.

As the title says, I'm bored and wanna have some fun convos. If you decide to message me, please introduce yourself a bit with at least your asl, or tell me a joke. Other then that, let's just vibe :)
So a little bit of info about me: I'm studying to be a primary school teacher, no clue why, I just thought it'd be fun and it is lmao. I love football (soccer), I hang out a lot with my friends and listen to a lot of music. If you wanna know more don't be shy, ask me anything you want. See you soon I guess? Maybe? Who knows?

NEED YOUR ADVICE AND OPINION.
So, I have a friend. I met him in January last year, and we’ve been friends since. We’re not ‘best friends’, but we’re really good friends. We hit it off with each other so much, and our conversations have always been fun.
We didn’t meet each other every day, just occasionally when our group of friends would meet. But at the end of last year, he started to act weird. He created distance every time our group of friends met, and we never talked anymore. Back then, I thought maybe he was stressed about something, or maybe he just didn’t feel like talking to me anymore. Anyway, I was confused but didn’t ask him about it.
Then earlier this year, he said that he wanted to talk to me about something. We talked, and that's when I knew that he has feelings for me. We decided to keep our distance because, of course, he has a girlfriend.
But as we grew more distant, I started to think about him more and more. At one point, I even began to miss him, which was a total disaster. I’ve always adored him, but I thought of him only as a friend. However, after that talk we had, I think something shifted for me, and I realized I don't just adore him; I'm in love with him.
So, I was thinking of keeping all of this to myself. But one day, he again told me he wanted to say something, so we talked, and we discussed the things we did in our previous discussion. That day, he asked me how I felt too, and stupidly, I impulsively told him the truth.
This is where everything got even more disastrous. We discovered that keeping our distance made us think about each other more, so why not just act normal and start hanging out with our friends again? We didn't interact much almost not interacting at all actually, but this new arrangement felt kind of better for me. I still liked him, we still hang out with our group of friends, and the feelings didn’t press me as much, and most of the time, I just ignored it. Occasionally at night, I still stressed over it, but that was it.
Then, around 1 months after that, my depression relapsed, and things became very grim for me. But he didn’t know about all of this.
A few days ago, we talked face to face. He said he’s going to marry at the end of this year and get engaged in the summer. He said he wanted to create more distance between us, probably meaning he wanted to stop hanging out with our group of friends, because whatever he's feeling for me is still the same, and he must do this. I agreed with him, and we both also agreed that we cannot be friends anymore.
After we talked, he messaged me and said that the talk we had might be our last one. He said that he's actually very hurt, thank you for being his friends, he said that it feels like we’re soulmates but maybe we met several soulmates in our life and not all have to end up together, etc. Then, stupidly again, I impulsively poured out my feelings because I was just so overwhelmed. He always thought that I was okay and fine with all of this. He never knew that I was actually that sad about all of it. I also said that I wish him the best in life and that maybe we shouldn't see each other for a while because I just can't (i’m indicating that we should totally avoid each other, since we live in the same neighborhood, and i dont even want to accidentally met him in groceries store). I just don't want to see him anymore because it's just too hurtful.
He didn't reply until the next day, and he said that we cannot end it like this; we have to talk again. But I refused. I just don't want to see him. He respected my decision and replied with long messages. In his message, he said that if he knew about all of this in January or February, things might have turned out differently, which I think is bullshit. Maybe I don't actually want things to turn out differently because I don't want to steal him from his girlfriend.
Anyway, lately, I've been crying so much until my head hurts, and I just don't know how to feel fine again. I miss him so much, and I don't know what to do. Every time I cry, I just say to myself that it's better this way. If I'm not crying like this right now, his girlfriend might be the one who's crying, and I wouldn't like that.
But I'm just so exhausted from all of this sadness. Can you guys please tell me how to be okay? Just being truthful, you can also judge me. Maybe some harsh words can wake me up.

I've been in a long distance relationship since August, we met thru a dating app. It started off intense, nonstop texting until midway thru and I realized that was all she wanted. Intimacy became difficult for me and I just generally became more suspicious of what I meant to her. A lot of it was lack of communication on my part. I'm a quiet person and I don't have a lot of experience making relationships work. I had these flawed ideas that I was supposed to wait until she wanted to call, avoiding my own needs. I started to grow (small) resentment toward her. Eventually I just shut down around December after getting fed up with being dry texted and didn't respond for a few days until she rightfully questioned my actions and we started talking again. Fast forward to now and I repeated the same thing only now I've been honest with her about how texting-only has affected me and just my issues with being vulnerable.
Between this we've had petty arguments, mostly focused around me wanting more than just texting. The times I have tried to make efforts to arrange a call there was always something preventing it. Once when we played the game together and she told me she was over a family member's house and again after one of our "arguments" and the weekend we were supposed to call she ended up sick. Throughout the time we've been together I've made points about wanting to hear her voice (I've sent her voice messages so she's heard mine), but admittedly I never just told her "hey I'm calling you now." Her reasoning for not calling is that it's just something she doesn't do and I respect it but it also just makes me wary of pressuring her about it.
Now I'm in this situation where we're talking about ending things and I feel like for my own mental health maybe I need to. She hasn't done anything wrong, besides her dry texting me at times, she's almost always responding to me instantly. Which makes me feel worse when I'm out with friends and take hours. It's my lack of communicating and us just preferring different ways of talking that led to this and I really could just use some advice?
fwiw: there isn't any concern that she isn't who she says she is.

Hello Everyone,
I am a 23-year-old gay male living in the Middle East within a strict Islamic household. I am facing a significant issue and am in need of help and support. Three years ago, I confided in someone who was once my closest friend about my sexuality. Regrettably, he immediately threatened to expose me to my family, friends, and colleagues. In a state of panic, I severed all contact with him and apologized, as he possesses WhatsApp messages from when I came out to him. From that moment until now, I have lived in constant fear, haunted by the thought that he might contact my family and reveal my secret. Honestly, I have contemplated fleeing the country. However, what keeps me here is my education, as I am a senior medical student. I would greatly appreciate any guidance to help me think clearly.
P.S.: In my country, the LGBT community is largely disregarded, so seeking assistance from the police is not a viable option.

Since October we've seen so much of these protests. And I do have a problem with them and not because they support the Palestinians. But rather because the vast majority of them don't actually condemn hamas. I wouldn't have an issue if they clearly wanted peace and justice for everyone. Instead they seem to unquestionably believe the nationalist narrative of one side. I tried to ask questions to one of them, where would Israelis go, since their map included all of Israel under Palestine, they said they'd go back to Europe. I know that I shouldn't have talked to a lot of them too, and that as a result I ended up even being seen as very antagonistic and pro Israel, but that's only because I felt like everyone is there against me, no one is solidary with the Jews and Israelis who get attacked all the time, and that's extremely unfair.
A lot of stuff written there is also pretty extreme, like the global intifada, dismantle Israel, long lube our martyrs, and others. A lot also wrote about the liberation of some prisoners who literally killed people.
And even if I decide to just ignore these graffitis and protests. What about my classmates? I haven't had that much luck either. A lot seemed nice and I thought maybe we'll become friends, but in the end a lot of them posted messages about Israel, some of it about all Israelis being settlers, all Israelis being extremists, all Ashkenazi Jews being white, hamas being a resistance movement etc.
And it's very concerning to me how normalised it all is. And as a result I even shared some pro Israel and Jewish posts about the Jewish experience.
And unfortunately I feel like even tho it is a controversial issue, it's not really a balances battle. Here, the vast majority of people are pro Palestinian, and often to the extreme, and so I feel like my side is the underdog and unfair.
And especially when I heard about how dangerous it is for the French Jews to live there, I actually wanted to actively fight against antisemitism, to share my Jewish ancestry with others, etc. And yeah, the fact no one cares about French Jews is very unfair.
Anyway, it's crazy how these people literally have a similar rhetoric as the Nazis used to have in the past. And yet it's very accepted at the so-called "progressive" university.
And to be fair I have wanted to disconnect of the politics, but all these protests and posters which never ended only made them think about them all the time. And the fact that my classmates shared such terrible things too. It's so heartbreaking and sad to see people so radicalised by a conflict they have zero relations with, probably because of social media. But yeah all this made me much less concentrated unfortunately. And the fact that you never know whether your "friend" will try justifying terrorism in the next week is just insane.
And even tho I'm not even Jewish I try to fight against injustices like antisemitism and I also have Israeli family, why would I support people who want them all dead?
But this attitude of others is what leads me to be too political too, and forget the rest of my studies.

Me (39F) and my ex husband (39M) divorced a few years ago. We have three kids together.
I will admit that the divorce was due to my infidelity. I was in an almost 2 year relationship with someone i thought i was in love with. My ex husband found out and confronted me, i was tired of living a lie, and i confessed which i think he should have given me some credit for. I did not try to lie, and also told him it was not the first time i had had an affair because i wanted to be honest with him. I ended up leaving the house for two weeks and went to visit my cousin in another state. After a couple of weeks, he asked if i wanted to try couples counseling. He didnt want the family split up and deal with disrupting their lives, the kids were all teenagers and would be adults soon, could we wait until they were 18. I told him no, i had made my choice. To be fair, we had been living seperate lives for about 5 years prior to the divorce (seperate bedrooms, didnt eat dinner together, totally seperate lives). So it wasnt like we both didnt see this coming but he was still pretty upset.
He was very amicable during the divorce, but I do have regrets. The man i was seeing didnt end up leaving his wife, and in my affair fog (and guilt) i gave my ex husband everything. The house, car, didnt ask for alimony, didnt request child support, just that he pay the expenses for our kids extra curriculars. I do regret not asking for child support because i am now trying to support myself and kids with only my income.
Anyway, during most of my divorce my ex was fine. We had a shared birthday party, i was allowed to come to the house whenever i wanted. It was great.
My ex husband met someone a couple of weeks before our divorce was finalized, so we were still married. She didnt reach out to try and meet me so i found her at a basketball game and introduced myself. She smiled and said hi and told me her name and then returned to her conversation. Completely ignoring me which I felt was disrespectful. I let it go.
Immediately after our divorce was finalized my ex shut down. He stopped running to grab things for me when i needed them (prior to this hed run and grab me stuff for work if i couldnt leave). He stopped responding to my friendly texts, wouldnt help me move when i was moving to a new apartment from my old one, I showed up to the house at one point and he text me after that he doesnt want me in his house anymore (it was my house for almost 15 years and my kids live there half the month). I truly felt like this was his new girlfriend, because everything was fine up until she showed up in the picture.
A few months later I find out she has kids. I was extremely upset because i was not told any of this about her. I knew nothing about her at all from him. On top of that, i found out she is not the primary parent. Her kids live with their dad 80% of the year apparently. I admit i did react harshly (as any parent would do when they find out this info) and texted my ex that i was very upset as he never told me she had kids and i did tell him that due to her custody arrangement i was concerned she was a child abuser and i told him i would like sole custody of our children and would be contacting an attorney. I did this, but a background check on her came up clean so i did not proceed (im still not convinced on this because just because she didnt get caught doesnt mean it didnt happen) but after that things got sour. I tried explaining that I was only concerned about my kids but he didn’t care.
A year goes by and one of my friends said she had seen her and she looks pregnant. Turns out this genius accidentally knocked her up. I texted him and asked if they were expecting and he said yes. I did fly off the handle because I was not told this by him. I had to find out through the grapevine. I was humiliated because i had no idea. They had a huge gender reveal with all of my kids and her kids and were actually celebrating this. So my kids are being taught that getting someone pregnant after a year is acceptable. I understand accidents happen but it should be presented that way and not with a party with my kids present.
At this point im concerned for my kids safety, but i figured it was the first relationship post divorce and he would probably leave her soon enough anyway. But now shes went and got pregnant so shes going to be around my kids permanently. I told him again i wanted her away from my kids because she could be dangerous and i know nothing about her and she has not even attempted to get to know me to make me feel more comfortable. i told him those concerns that she doesnt want to get to know me and obviously has cast judgement on me for my past. That is the only reason i could think that she wouldnt try to get to know me or respect me enough to talk to me in public. I also told him my concerns that everything was fine in our coparenting relationship until he met her.
My ex told me “she hasnt judged you. She is offended because you have repeatedly called her a child abuser and have told people that she is dangerous to be around children. Some of the kids friends wont even come over to our house anymore and youve humiliated her. The custody arrangement she has is because her ex moved away while she was in PA school and she knew she couldn’t give them the life they would have with their dad during that time. A child abuser would not be getting their kids every summer and every holiday. You also get upset and tell me she doesn’t care about our kids because she wont drive them to school. Shes too scared to be alone around them because of your accusations, and shes also tried to not make the situation worse by stepping on your toes”.
I am frustrated because he doesnt seem to understand where i am coming from. ANY mother would be concerned about this given her custody arrangement and i am being treated like im a monster by him. I have a right as a mother to know who is around my kids.
Im frustrated because i see pictures of them taking just her kids to the childrens zoo. I confronted him on this and he said he didnt think our teenagers would want to go to a petting zoo, so he took them during my custody time, but next time would invite all the kids.
Its been a few years now, theyre still together, and i feel like she has started majorly overstepping. She sent me a message with concerns about my daughters mental health and told me that i should try talking to her when she goes back home because she was “concerned”. This is the only time shes ever initiated contact with me and its about my kids (i dont need his girlfriend contacting me about my kids, he needs to). At the time i didnt see any issue with my daughters mental health so i ignored it. A few months later, i get the same thing. That shes “genuinely concerned” about her mental health as my daughter seems to be depressed, shes torn the house apart, and some of the little things she says are indicating she might be depressed and it is “presenting as anger”. At the time i thought my daughter just had severe anger problems and i didn’t need some random girl messaging me about MY children. I flipped out and threatened to sue her if she contacted me again because at this point two texts about the same thing was excessive and I felt harassed. My daughter ultimately did get diagnosed with major depressive disorder and is on medication now and is doing well, after her guidance counselor reached out to me (which is who it should have come from to begin with, or her dad, but not the girl my ex husband is playing house with).
Theyre now engaged, and i still feel like he cares way more about the child they had together (and her kids) than the children we share together. Ive talked to my kids about moving in with me full time and told them they do not deserve the way their dad is treating them and acting as if he replaced them. They said no, they like the arrangement theyve had over the years and he coaches their sports teams so that would be weird anyway. I agreed with that and let it go.
I just want to know if anyone else has ever been in my shoes or advice on how to move foreward. I want my coparenting relationship back, but no matter how friendly i am to my ex he sends me one word answers. Never responds to my “how are you” texts. Only responds to me if its about the kids (and sometimes will respond to them about the texts i send. If one of the kids needs money he sends it directly to them and doesnt even acknowledge my text message). I do feel like he is being coached by his fiance and that she has turned him against me, and with her in the picture for the foreseeable future i am worried it will never change. Its clear she does not like me and i think shes making him hate me too and i dont know how to move foreward. All of my divorced friends seem to have great coparenting relationships and this whole thing is so embarassing that i just tell them my ex and i are still best friends but with the way im treated in public at the kids games it feels like they probably know that isnt true. I just want to know how to mend things with my ex. If i had known things would get this bad i would have just stuck it out for another few years.

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Me (39F) and my ex husband (39M) divorced a few years ago. We have three kids together.
I will admit that the divorce was due to my infidelity. I was in an almost 2 year relationship with someone i thought i was in love with. My ex husband found out and confronted me, i was tired of living a lie, and i confessed which i think he should have given me some credit for. I did not try to lie, and also told him it was not the first time i had had an affair because i wanted to be honest with him. I ended up leaving the house for two weeks and went to visit my cousin in another state. After a couple of weeks, he asked if i wanted to try couples counseling. He didnt want the family split up and deal with disrupting their lives, the kids were all teenagers and would be adults soon, could we wait until they were 18. I told him no, i had made my choice. To be fair, we had been living seperate lives for about 5 years prior to the divorce (seperate bedrooms, didnt eat dinner together, totally seperate lives). So it wasnt like we both didnt see this coming but he was still pretty upset.
He was very amicable during the divorce, but I do have regrets. The man i was seeing didnt end up leaving his wife, and in my affair fog (and guilt) i gave my ex husband everything. The house, car, didnt ask for alimony, didnt request child support, just that he pay the expenses for our kids extra curriculars. I do regret not asking for child support because i am now trying to support myself and kids with only my income.
Anyway, during most of my divorce my ex was fine. We had a shared birthday party, i was allowed to come to the house whenever i wanted. It was great.
My ex husband met someone a couple of weeks before our divorce was finalized, so we were still married. She didnt reach out to try and meet me so i found her at a basketball game and introduced myself. She smiled and said hi and told me her name and then returned to her conversation. Completely ignoring me which I felt was disrespectful. I let it go.
Immediately after our divorce was finalized my ex shut down. He stopped running to grab things for me when i needed them (prior to this hed run and grab me stuff for work if i couldnt leave). He stopped responding to my friendly texts, wouldnt help me move when i was moving to a new apartment from my old one, I showed up to the house at one point and he text me after that he doesnt want me in his house anymore (it was my house for almost 15 years and my kids live there half the month). I truly felt like this was his new girlfriend, because everything was fine up until she showed up in the picture.
A few months later I find out she has kids. I was extremely upset because i was not told any of this about her. I knew nothing about her at all from him. On top of that, i found out she is not the primary parent. Her kids live with their dad 80% of the year apparently. I admit i did react harshly (as any parent would do when they find out this info) and texted my ex that i was very upset as he never told me she had kids and i did tell him that due to her custody arrangement i was concerned she was a child abuser and i told him i would like sole custody of our children and would be contacting an attorney. I did this, but a background check on her came up clean so i did not proceed (im still not convinced on this because just because she didnt get caught doesnt mean it didnt happen) but after that things got sour. I tried explaining that I was only concerned about my kids but he didn’t care.
A year goes by and one of my friends said she had seen her and she looks pregnant. Turns out this genius accidentally knocked her up. I texted him and asked if they were expecting and he said yes. I did fly off the handle because I was not told this by him. I had to find out through the grapevine. I was humiliated because i had no idea. They had a huge gender reveal with all of my kids and her kids and were actually celebrating this. So my kids are being taught that getting someone pregnant after a year is acceptable. I understand accidents happen but it should be presented that way and not with a party with my kids present.
At this point im concerned for my kids safety, but i figured it was the first relationship post divorce and he would probably leave her soon enough anyway. But now shes went and got pregnant so shes going to be around my kids permanently. I told him again i wanted her away from my kids because she could be dangerous and i know nothing about her and she has not even attempted to get to know me to make me feel more comfortable. i told him those concerns that she doesnt want to get to know me and obviously has cast judgement on me for my past. That is the only reason i could think that she wouldnt try to get to know me or respect me enough to talk to me in public. I also told him my concerns that everything was fine in our coparenting relationship until he met her.
My ex told me “she hasnt judged you. She is offended because you have repeatedly called her a child abuser and have told people that she is dangerous to be around children. Some of the kids friends wont even come over to our house anymore and youve humiliated her. The custody arrangement she has is because her ex moved away while she was in PA school and she knew she couldn’t give them the life they would have with their dad during that time. A child abuser would not be getting their kids every summer and every holiday. You also get upset and tell me she doesn’t care about our kids because she wont drive them to school. Shes too scared to be alone around them because of your accusations, and shes also tried to not make the situation worse by stepping on your toes”.
I am frustrated because he doesnt seem to understand where i am coming from. ANY mother would be concerned about this given her custody arrangement and i am being treated like im a monster by him. I have a right as a mother to know who is around my kids.
Im frustrated because i see pictures of them taking just her kids to the childrens zoo. I confronted him on this and he said he didnt think our teenagers would want to go to a petting zoo, so he took them during my custody time, but next time would invite all the kids.
Its been a few years now, theyre still together, and i feel like she has started majorly overstepping. She sent me a message with concerns about my daughters mental health and told me that i should try talking to her when she goes back home because she was “concerned”. This is the only time shes ever initiated contact with me and its about my kids (i dont need his girlfriend contacting me about my kids, he needs to). At the time i didnt see any issue with my daughters mental health so i ignored it. A few months later, i get the same thing. That shes “genuinely concerned” about her mental health as my daughter seems to be depressed, shes torn the house apart, and some of the little things she says are indicating she might be depressed and it is “presenting as anger”. At the time i thought my daughter just had severe anger problems and i didn’t need some random girl messaging me about MY children. I flipped out and threatened to sue her if she contacted me again because at this point two texts about the same thing was excessive and I felt harassed. My daughter ultimately did get diagnosed with major depressive disorder and is on medication now and is doing well, after her guidance counselor reached out to me (which is who it should have come from to begin with, or her dad, but not the girl my ex husband is playing house with).
Theyre now engaged, and i still feel like he cares way more about the child they had together (and her kids) than the children we share together. Ive talked to my kids about moving in with me full time and told them they do not deserve the way their dad is treating them and acting as if he replaced them. They said no, they like the arrangement theyve had over the years and he coaches their sports teams so that would be weird anyway. I agreed with that and let it go.
I just want to know if anyone else has ever been in my shoes or advice on how to move foreward. I want my coparenting relationship back, but no matter how friendly i am to my ex he sends me one word answers. Never responds to my “how are you” texts. Only responds to me if its about the kids (and sometimes will respond to them about the texts i send. If one of the kids needs money he sends it directly to them and doesnt even acknowledge my text message). I do feel like he is being coached by his fiance and that she has turned him against me, and with her in the picture for the foreseeable future i am worried it will never change. Its clear she does not like me and i think shes making him hate me too and i dont know how to move foreward. All of my divorced friends seem to have great coparenting relationships and this whole thing is so embarassing that i just tell them my ex and i are still best friends but with the way im treated in public at the kids games it feels like they probably know that isnt true. I just want to know how to mend things with my ex. If i had known things would get this bad i would have just stuck it out for another few years.

My boyfriend (27 M) and I (26 F) have been dating for 2.5 years. I misplaced my phone a couple days ago and he let me borrow his work phone in case of emergency. He texted me on his work phone from his personal phone, so I opened the message and saw a text from 1.5 years ago that he had sent himself of another woman naked. I also found the photo saved in his hidden album on the work phone. I asked him who it was and he said it was his friend's ex girlfriend. He told me that he was out drinking with his friends and one of them pulled the photo up. He asked his friend to send the photo to him, and the next morning he sent it to his work phone to hide it from me. He says that he had seen the girl's "thirst traps" on instagram and that it felt cool to see what was underneath her clothes. He says that he didn't realize how disrespectful and upsetting it would be for me and that he only looked at the photo a couple of times and then forgot about it. He said he originally kept it in case he was ever having a "big boob craving" but never jerked off to it because it felt disrespectful. I asked him why he couldn't just look up big boob porn if he was having that "craving" and he said it feels more disrespectful to watch porn than to look at a picture of a girl you know and that "it's just different when you know the person." He has always shouted his loyalty for me from the rooftops and this does seem like a one-off situation, but it bothers me that the photo was still on his phone after a year and a half. He swears that he forgot it was there and hasn't looked at it in a year.
I told the girl in the photo about the situation and she is disgusted by her ex, but confirmed that she barely knows my boyfriend and did not send the photo to him.
Side note: We have had big trust issues in the past with him gambling huge amounts of money and lying about it, but he joined gamblers anonymous 6 months ago and has seemed to be making a lot of positive changes since then. Other than the gambling and lying and this new information, he is the perfect person for me. He is kind and thoughtful and we have a lot of fun together and fit perfectly into each other's lives. He loves me very much, but has no sense of priorities, discipline, or consequences.
AITAH if I end our relationship over this?

Basically on roblox there is this guy named Anthonin and basically i met him in driving empire while driving a car, i was bored that time so i decided to follow people, i followed him and he was speaking french so i pulled up my translator beacuse the one in roblox wasnt working and basically he started saying really nice things to me like me being a generous man. Then we went on to playing Zyleak's mm2 and he was so kind saying stuff like "Gg" but since french is hard i was translating his messages in the translator, im so happy still to this day that we are friends, and we still play togheter (infact he was in my game while im writing this reddit post!)

my boyfriend (m21) and i (f18) recently had a fight about sa pag-inom niya.
i told him before pa kami mag-start mag-date about my abusive ex who always drank alcohol when he got me pregnant.
i was okay naman nung una na umiinom bf ko kasi he gives me assurance and everything and i trust him. but for some reason, biglang na-trigger nanaman 'yung trauma ko about that.
inobserve ko muna sarili ko. 'yung mga sumunod na times na uminom siya, talagang sobrang bigat sa damdamin ko.
so i talked to him about it, and he said to me na hindi na muna siya mag-iinom.
but the following week, he did. and nasundan pa 'yun ng madaming beses, hindi ko nalang pinansin dahil ayaw ko naman din na sakalin siya at i really want to make this relationship work.
naisip ko rin kasi na issue ko 'yun sa sarili ko na need kong ayusin, kaso umabot ako sa point na umiiyak na ako and nagkaka-panic attacks tuwing umiinom siya.
so i talked to him again about it. but this time i only got a "hindi ko alam gagawin ko" from him, so i never brought it up again. naisip ko na "okay sige, i'll get used to this nalang dahil it's my problem"
before siya umuwi sa kanila, we spent the night together. magkalayo kasi kami. then kinabukasan, before ako umuwi sa amin, he said na hindi siya iinom pagkauwi niya. na inaya lang siya ng friends niya kumain.
later that night, andito na ako sa amin and nakauwi na rin siya dun sa kanila. nagtaka ako kasi ang bagal ng replies niya and tipid lang. then nung sinabi niya na inaantok na siya, i had a gut feeling na uminom siya.
so i asked kung uminom ba kako siya, oo raw. tapos ayun nanaman, i cried a lot and sobrang bigat ng dibdib ko. i told him na matulog na kako siya.
and when he did sleep, nakipag-cool off muna ako sa kaniya. 2 days no contact, ni hindi niya nireplyan last chat ko. i have to message him pa yesterday para lang magchat siya.
he said sorry and asked if pwede kaming magkita because pupunta siya sa city namin.
okay, sige kako. sobrang wala ako sa mood nung nakita ko siya at i was still mad at him. kumain lang kami sa labas, then after namin kumain he asked me kung gusto kong mag-motel.
i didn't want to kasi hindi pa kami okay, pero i said yes para makapag-usap na rin kami somewhere private.
when we got there, we did talk naman. but i hated his reasonings and hanggang ngayon hindi pa rin ako okay.
like "kaya hindi ko sinabi na mag-iinom kami kasi ayaw kong may ma-trigger nanaman sa'yo", but that's the point. alam niya kung paano ako magrereact pero ginawa niya pa rin.
he promised me na hindi na mauulit, and asked for forgiveness. but somehow, i am not convinced. now, parang nawala na tiwala ko sa kaniya.
after namin mag-usap, we had s3x. pero medyo labag sa akin. but i couldn't say no, i don't know why.
now, i feel so drained and ang cold ko nanaman sa kaniya because of that.
usually, i'm good at communicating pero ngayon, i don't know why nahihirapan ako.
ano ba ang dapat kong gawin?
edit: nalaglagan ako ng baby last year, i am childless as of now

What do I do? I’m a late bloomer and I’m struggling with this
After spending a few days working on this, there has been some progress. To summarize: I've been dating this girl for 9 months. About a month ago, I confessed my love for her, but she didn't say it back, instead expressing affection in other ways. A couple of weeks later, she ghosted me for a weekend, apologized, and we had a conversation. During that conversation, I went to her place seeking comfort because one of my friends had passed away. That's when she mentioned she wasn't sure about continuing the relationship because our feelings weren't on the same level. We agreed to give it another month, and that week was amazing. However, now she's ghosting me again, but for a longer period. We talked on Monday, but this time, I've been feeling limited in what I can say. I haven't reached out since, and it's been radio silence. She mentioned that her grandmother in the UK is getting worse and she's been reconsidering our relationship. She's been dismissive lately.
I've been working every day for the past two months and doing therapy for a few weeks. I've lost 40 pounds due to a lack of appetite, but I'm coping. Physically, I'm getting stronger, but mentally, it's tough. I'm tempted to send a voice note just to check in and let her know I'm here. I've done a lot for her, like making her birthdays, Valentine's Day, and Christmas special, and she was good to me at some point.
On the bright side, I've been doing well for myself. I recently styled an MLB player, got sponsored, and was interviewed for Style Canada, but I still can't find happiness.
During therapy on Monday, I was crying and asked my therapist for advice. She couldn't tell me what to do, but she suggested I block her on TikTok and Instagram, where she often posted about her social life, which made it harder for me to move on. She'd be partying while I was here crying, and it felt like she was trying to compete with me since she wants to start taking content creation seriously. I have a big following already and offered help, but she declined.
The reason it's been hard for me to let go is because she showed me how to have fun and be myself. We went to many concerts and had late-night adventures together. She was also my first sexual partner at 26 years old and the first girl to make my birthday special.
Blocking her felt like a weight lifted off my shoulders, and it feels like life is just beginning now.
The last time we talked was on Wednesday when I saw her. She barely kissed me and wasn't "feeling it." I even got her food and flowers. She said she was meeting a guy friend and looked excited, which made me jealous because she's been avoiding dates with me. She said she'd try on a dress I made for her that night but later messaged me saying she was going to bed because she finished her tasks late. I said okay and left it to her to message me, but I haven't heard from her yet.
I was the first guy to meet her mom and she met my family. Then, one day she went cold turkey. She said she had love for me but wasn't in love with me and that since she never been in a relationship she had nothing to base it on (which I didn’t buy). She also said that she came from a broken home and can't give me what I want, but at the beginning, she said she could (I want what my parents have; they've been together for 35+ years with strong faith).
How do you guys handle this? I'm a late bloomer at 26 years old and have OCD.

Well the person texted that from an e-mail that includes my name, but is not an e-mail I use or hosted. Also I found out that one of my presentations is saved in an folder with a Hebrew name which looks odd to me, because I should not have any Hebrew folders, but I don‘t know if thats connected to the e-mail(the name of the folder is just „documents“ but in Hebrew). That is what stands inside the e-mail:
Hello pervert, I've sent this message from your iCloud-mail.
I want to inform you about a very bad situation for you. However, you can benefit from it, if you will act wisеly.
Have you heard of Pegasus? This is a spyware program that installs on computers and smartphones and allows hackers to monitor the activity of device owners. It provides access to your webcam, messengers, emails, call records, etc. It works well on Android, iOS, and Windows. I guess, you already figured out where I’m getting at.
It’s been a few months since I installed it on all your dеviсеs because you were not quite choosy about what links to click on the intеrnеt. During this period, I’ve learned about all aspects of your private life, but оnе is of special significance to me.
I’ve recorded many videos of you jerking off to highly controversial роrn videos. Given that the “questionable” genre is almost always the same, I can conclude that you have sick реrvеrsiоn.
I doubt you’d want your friends, family and co-workers to know about it. However, I can do it in a few clicks.
Every number in your contact Iist will suddenly receive these vidеоs – on WhatsApp, on Telegram, on Instagram, on Facebook, on email – everywhere. It is going to be a tsunami that will sweep away everything in its path, and first of all, your fоrmеr life.
Don’t think of yourself as an innocent victim. No one knows where your реrvеrsiоn might lead in the future, so consider this a kind of deserved рunishmеnt to stop you.
I’m some kind of God who sees everything. However, don’t panic. As we know, God is merciful and forgiving, and so do I. But my mеrсy is not free.
Transfer 800 USD to my Litecoin (LTC) wallet: ltc1qt23qg369w4hhrke2spyq8ay3yyd3xuznexnkz4
Once I receive confirmation of the transaction, I will реrmanently delete all videos compromising you, uninstаll Pegasus from all of your devices, and disappear from your life. You can be sure – my benefit is only money. Otherwise, I wouldn’t be writing to you, but destroy your life without a word in a second.
I’ll be notified when you open my email, and from that moment you have exactly 48 hours to send the money. If cryptocurrencies are unchartered waters for you, don’t worry, it’s very simple. Just google “crypto exchange” or "buy Litecoin" and then it will be no harder than buying some useless stuff on Amazon.
I strongly warn you against the following: * Do not reply to this email. I've sent it from your iCloud mail. * Do not contact the police. I have access to all your dеviсеs, and as soon as I find out you ran to the cops, videos will be published. * Don’t try to reset or destroy your dеviсеs. As I mentioned above: I’m monitoring all your activity, so you either agree to my terms or the vidеоs are рublished.
Also, don’t forget that cryptocurrencies are anonymous, so it’s impossible to identify me using the provided аddrеss.
Good luck, my perverted friend. I hope this is the last time we hear from each other. And some friendly advice: from now on, don’t be so careless about your online security.

We've been together with my girlfriend for more than a year now and over the past few months it has become apparent that she is a very insecure type. There are reasons behind her low-self-esteem and its development. According to my girlfriend in a previous relationship she wasn't treated with respect, didn't feel important and didn't receive adequate love. She was cheated on at least once which led to her contracting a sexually transmitted disease on one occasion. Additionally comments were made about her physical attributes by her ex bf that she wasn’t feminine enough which ultimately led her to undergo plastic surgery.
I'll try to summarize some of the important events that have stemmed from her jealousy, insecurity, low self-esteem and overall, the thoughts swirling around these incidents.
Events
1.) After being together for half a year one evening we slept at my place and before going to bed we had dinner that I cooked. She noticed a long, light-colored, blondish piece of hair in my bed. When she asked whose it could be I calmly, jokingly said, "I don't know, probably sat on it somewhere." It seemed like her world collapsed and she didn't believe me. I explained to her that I work in a 500-person office, I attend university with thousands of people and I have three sisters - one of whom has the exact hair color she found - so there could be plenty of possibilities. I live in a small studio apartment where I throw washed clothes on the bed and hang them on a drying rack next to it.
2.) Three months later laying on the bed I was scrolling through my phone while she was behind me seemingly watching TV. The next day she questioned me via a voice message about who I was chatting with on Instagram. She saw what seemed like a new conversation, you know the kind where you still see the other person's profile picture in large size. I looked back at my chat history and I had such a chat with a male friend with whom I played music together in a bar. She told me it's a lie and she distinctly remembers that I was chatting with a girl, meaning I can't consider her crazy or hallucinating in this case. If I were to show her that there was no conversation with another girl, it's because I deleted it – she said.
3.) Two months later while I was cooking dinner she suddenly started crying from three meters away in my bed. It turned out she noticed that there were fewer condoms on the shelf than before and she saw it, then concluded that I must be cheating on her. As additional information it's worth noting that when we had been together for three months she started taking birth control pills, so only one condom from the pack had been used. The rest remained on my shelf, but I noticed they would expire sooner or later, so I gave some away for friends.
4.) A few weeks later it was my friend's (Tom) birthday. Four of us guys planned to go out for the night as I was invited to this scenario. On the day of the event Tom was chatting to a yet uninvited friend of his (Jake), who mentioned that they (Jake + his GF) were planning to go to the same venue, so he (Tom) invited them as well last minute to join four of us, who eventually brought his girlfriend as well. I didn't really enjoy the party, I sat in a chair, had a few drinks, then looked at vinyl records online and followed three old acquaintances on Instagram from the suggestions the social media platform gave me. One of them was a girl. At the club, I met a former female colleague, with whom I used to work in a shopping mall during college, so we exchanged a few words at the party, and since we weren't moving together at the party anymore, I said goodbye and wishing all the best to her on Instagram before I went home. She replied the same, to which I didn't respond at all. She got mad for days and the argument here was:

• why could that friend's girlfriend come, while she (gf) wasn’t invited.
• one morning she saw the conversation in the previous messages with my former colleague in the bottom of the chat history, whom I bumped into and exchanged a few words with at the party.
• it turned out she has an application that monitors my Instagram profile and saw that I followed that girl acquaintance. I agree that it was stupid and drinking alcohol is not an excuse.

5.) A few weeks later, I planned for us to go hiking over Easter Saturday. I got sick a week before, then the symptoms came out on her two days late. Since we got sick we didn't talk about the hiking trip that week. On Saturday afternoon, I wasn't feeling well yet, but I pulled myself together and went to visit my mother for lunch and almost postponed sleeping together with my gf that day so I could rest for the next day and have the strength to go to my grandparents in the countryside for lunch as well. She didn't want to come with me to any of the family events, which is not a problem at all, because it’s time consuming, she was sick as well and she usually comes to these events. On Sunday morning before I went to my grandparents, she asked what the plan was for Monday. I had arranged a beach day with my friends for that day 2-3 weeks earlier, and it seemed likely that I would recover by then. She was completely shattered and started crying, saying there was no point in this relationship like this. I make plans with everyone except her, even though we meet three, four, or five times every week, while with my friends and family it's once a month or even less.
6.) The last incident was a few days ago when I bought delayed ejaculation gel, which she noticed and got veeery angry that I didn't tell her right away. I mentioned to her several times before that it would be nice to have a gel sometime in the future, so she can have orgasm more often in case I’m tired, mentally stressed from work and not in the mood. She also noted that since my friend's birthday I always take my phone with me to the restroom and for bathing. She bet it’s because of my former colleague I met and she finds it suspicious that I'm being secretive. Indeed, often the phone is with me and mostly in my pocket. She also pointed out that she thinks I don't use my phone in front of her as often anymore and this is surely deliberate. To be honest, since she imagined that I might be chatting with someone out of thin air, I wouldn't want to give any further opportunities for such nonsense. In summary, there hasn't been any effort on my part to deliberately use my phone less in her presence.
Extra information
+1.) Since the first and fourth event she started seeing a psychologist twice, but after the second run’s fifth occasion she decided it wouldn't help her and it's just a waste of money. We agreed that she needs to figure it out through reading books and maybe listening to podcasts about anxiety and I’ll do my best to assure that she is the most awesome and prettiest girl for me. After that no effort was made for months about this topic by her, so no books and no podcasts. A week ago we had an argument and she subscribed for an audiobook provider, but that’s it.
+2.) One morning, after we woke up she told me about her dream. She dreamt that I have two girlfriends besides her.
+3.) Her mother is also an extremely insecure woman. She covered her partner's shop window so that no other woman could see inside because she became jealous. She asked my girlfriend to call her partner from an unknown number and threaten him to confess that he cheated on her etc.
My thoughts
Is there a way for such a person to change? I fear that it would intensify later in case we move together or something. Perhaps I need to figure this out for myself, but I'm curious about others opinions as well.
We have a lot in common, but I just have the feeling that it might be a ticking bomb and I waste my time as getting closer to my thirties. I had to watch through how my entrepreneur father's life was destroyed by my mother (never had a job) once she felt existentially stable purely from the wealth my Father generated and took more 70% of it.

I’m interested in the trust and not whatever narrative each side is pushing. I’m not an AK hater who’s here to spam Kendrick Lyrics or a AK simp who believes anything he says. I don’t want a victim getting no justice or an innocent man unjustly punished.
Hearing both sides, I think the girl got too drunk with AK’s homies and did some shit she seems to have regretted. It’s clear she didn’t remember everything that happened that night and whether she only lost memory vs lost consciousness is what separates if she was SA’d by his friends vs willingly participated and felt badly afterwards. The police seem to believe the latter but that doesn’t mean it didn’t happen either.
Alcohol reduces your inhibition, so you might do shit you may not normally do or do shit consciously but have no memory afterwards but that doesn’t mean you were raped. However, if you become unconscious or to the point that you can’t consent, that’s a whole other story. We need more info than a still photo to determine that, and shit could have started concentually and became not consensual later.
I believe AK definitely had sex with her in the morning before he found out what happened at his pool. This is clear from the text message saying he will get tested and also from the alleged recorded phone call where he accuses her of being loose. He omitted this when telling the story for whatever reason, but also never explicitly denied it. He might be embarrassed by being the last to board a train he thought he was the conductor of and basically being humiliated in his own house, or if you believe the lawsuit he was the mastermind behind it.
From the actual evidence provided sofar, I believe he was not a part of it and whatever sexual contact they had was consensual. In the text messages afterwards, He sounds salty and and in his feelings which is consistent with someone who did not approve of what took place. She sounds remorseful and regretful and more upset she is losing a relationship than at an alleged assault. Moreover, not once did she accuse him of doing anything to her, and all her anger is towards his friends. In fact it seems like she wasn’t even aware of what happened until he confronted her and showed her the same picture she is using to sue him with. Why would you assault someone and then confront them with the evidence that you assaulted them?
Of coarse my opinion can change if more evidence comes out. I would love to see her statement to the police and that recorded wire conversation with AK. Did she at any point accuse AK of SA too in the days following? Her words right after the incident mean more than what some lawyer cooked up in a civil suit 2 years later.

I have 2ish longterm online friends going back 3-4 years now and semi-recently; this past summer we made a new friend who played with the entirty of it. During the school year we don't talk or play as much but, we still talked ocasionally. This is great for me as I don't have any irl friends so even during the periods we don't talk much the small catch up is always nice.
Recently this new friend didn't reply when I messaged him in our discord server which was odd as he usually replys right away. I didn't think much of it, could be asleep or actually busy. Then I noticed he's simply never online anywhere.
On steam it shows he hasn't played anything all week and hasn't even been "online" the past 2 weeks. I distictly remenber him mentioning steam opening everytime he powers on his computer and mentioning he can turn it off. He said it was conivent and kept it so that means he hasn't powered on his computer at all.
Which hey maybe he's taking a break from video games but, he uses his computer for work or just generel media really so that wouldn't make sense.
I also asked some other people who know him and well they hadn't heard from him either.
He's also had health issues in the past. So I really think he just died.
There's no way for me to be %100 sure. I know what state he lived in and his full name but, it's pretty generic.
I don't know how to feel about it. I'll never be able to know anything and it really sucks. It makes me worry about my more longterm online friends. They'll also not know if I die either. I'd just dissapear without answers.

Just going to come out with this, Life is hard. Everyone knows this and mostly just accepts that there will be things that we deal with as the whole of humanity. But that's just the thing right? We're all in this together, fighting through this thing we call life. Some may appear to have it together but oftentimes appearances are deceiving and sometimes to a detrimental degree. Yes, I'm struggling. I'm struggling so fucking much and all I want to do is cry while someone holds me. "She's doing so well! I talked to her yesterday and she was making so many jokes! " Yup, I can have moments of strength but no I'm not doing well. I have been alone, for a very long time even though the relationship only ended weeks ago. I've been alone for years and now I'm grieving something I can never get back and that's time. I want to say that I don't regret any time we had together but I do have regrets. Regrets that only surfaced after I realized how much I put myself into the relationship only for the 7+years relationship to be ended through a paragraph in messages. And then be told it should've ended 6 years sooner but didn't want to "upset" me. Of course I'd have been upset but then I could've moved on, like yourself, that much sooner and you wouldn't have to lie and pretend to me. And then I wouldn't have lost my best friend too. But then, to do something so needlessly cruel and not even give a face to face, well, life's already fucking hard but we don't have to be assholes to each other and make it fucking worse. I grieved my relationship long ago, now I'm grieving for the person I thought I knew but guess I didn't. It's best for us this way, neither of us were happy although we tried to fake it. I just hope in your next relationship, you give your partner everything I was denied. And I won't let myself be in another relationship where I feel so alone. I will take all the snuggles, all the little adventures together, all the time that they want to spend with me without an agenda or ask me "how long is this going to take" while spending time with me on my birthday. I will take any and all of the sex offered instead of once every 2-3 years because even though you made me feel like shit, I know I'm not unattractive or undesirable to some. I am worth it. Life is fucking hard but sometimes you come away with more knowledge after the pain. It doesn't feel like it in the moment but I know I'll come through this and I have the knowledge and courage to say what I need whenever I get back to dating. And I don't wish him ill. I want him to figure it out and I want him to be happy but he needs to work on himself and be kinder to himself first. Life sucks and is hard enough, I will still be kind to those around me because I don't know their struggles just like they don't know mine.
So please be kind and help those you are able to if you're able to and not to the detriment of yourself. Thank you for reading something I needed to put out there, even if it was rambling.