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2024.05.29 05:40 South_Candle_8380 No one showed up to my birthday
Yesterday was my birthday 21st, and this year I wanted to celebrate it with friends. I don't have any family where I am and I haven't celebrated it since I was 11. My Fiance wanted to plan this year out for me, so I gave him full control.
2 days before one by one friends he invited months ahead called and said they didn't take off work so they can't come. They offered to show the week after on his birthday but not mine. (I'm not upset at my boyfriend he really did try hard). Months ahead of my birthday I kept asking my Fiance should I give him a group of my friends numbers, so its more then just our friend group. He didn't do that so when I called other friends asking them if they wanna hang out, they understandably had thing they were doing. (I asked if they could hang out the day before, of or after)
The part I'm most upset about is my so called best friend of 9 years. This marks the third years she's missed my birthday. This year she had nothing planned for her own birthday and was bummed out. So I took her on a day out we went to the mall, I bought a bunch of presents we went out to eat. She asked me to get a matching outfit and I did.
The day before my birthday my Fiance had tickets to a rage room. He bought it months in advance for 4 people. I called my best friend she said she would make it after work. I got 1 friend to come. An hour before we had to go she texted that she couldn't make it because she was at a mall 40 minutes from me. Mind you she got off at 5 and we were supposed to get her a 7. But she said she would call off the day of my birthday to spend time with me throughout the day and go to my birthday dinner.
The day of my birthday she sends me text saying happy birthday. I wait hours to see if she was gonna come and spend the day with me. I wasn't replying to messages so we asked her boyfriend (Who is coincidentally my boyfriends best friend of 19 years) if she's coming and he said not that he's aware of. I look at her story and she wasn't at work but a BBQ. She took off of work, I gave grace and waited for the time of my birthday dinner. She texts 1 hour before asking what I'm doing. I said getting ready for my dinner, I asked if she was still coming.
She said "I don't wanna be a third wheel so no". At that point I burst into tears. I sent an okay and that was all. Me and my Fiance went out to eat by ourselves. But, I called a friend that I have never been out with before and we all went to a bar and played darts and games last minute. I had a blast doing that. My birthday cake was delivered a day late so today me and my love sang happy birthday to me.
At this point I'm just depressed/disappointed I think this friendship is over. This was supposed to be a milestone birthday. Next year I might just travel to my family. But its the point that I try so hard for everyone else to feel special on their birthday and not many seems to give the same energy back. I think a valuable lesson was taught. People will make time for who they want to make time for. I thankful to everyone who showed up
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2 days before one by one friends he invited months ahead called and said they didn't take off work so they can't come. They offered to show the week after on his birthday but not mine. (I'm not upset at my boyfriend he really did try hard). Months ahead of my birthday I kept asking my Fiance should I give him a group of my friends numbers, so its more then just our friend group. He didn't do that so when I called other friends asking them if they wanna hang out, they understandably had thing they were doing. (I asked if they could hang out the day before, of or after)
The part I'm most upset about is my so called best friend of 9 years. This marks the third years she's missed my birthday. This year she had nothing planned for her own birthday and was bummed out. So I took her on a day out we went to the mall, I bought a bunch of presents we went out to eat. She asked me to get a matching outfit and I did.
The day before my birthday my Fiance had tickets to a rage room. He bought it months in advance for 4 people. I called my best friend she said she would make it after work. I got 1 friend to come. An hour before we had to go she texted that she couldn't make it because she was at a mall 40 minutes from me. Mind you she got off at 5 and we were supposed to get her a 7. But she said she would call off the day of my birthday to spend time with me throughout the day and go to my birthday dinner.
The day of my birthday she sends me text saying happy birthday. I wait hours to see if she was gonna come and spend the day with me. I wasn't replying to messages so we asked her boyfriend (Who is coincidentally my boyfriends best friend of 19 years) if she's coming and he said not that he's aware of. I look at her story and she wasn't at work but a BBQ. She took off of work, I gave grace and waited for the time of my birthday dinner. She texts 1 hour before asking what I'm doing. I said getting ready for my dinner, I asked if she was still coming.
She said "I don't wanna be a third wheel so no". At that point I burst into tears. I sent an okay and that was all. Me and my Fiance went out to eat by ourselves. But, I called a friend that I have never been out with before and we all went to a bar and played darts and games last minute. I had a blast doing that. My birthday cake was delivered a day late so today me and my love sang happy birthday to me.
At this point I'm just depressed/disappointed I think this friendship is over. This was supposed to be a milestone birthday. Next year I might just travel to my family. But its the point that I try so hard for everyone else to feel special on their birthday and not many seems to give the same energy back. I think a valuable lesson was taught. People will make time for who they want to make time for. I thankful to everyone who showed up
2024.05.29 05:20 Hot_Issue4237 Is a birthday text worth it?
His birthday is in 2 days and I’m contemplating on sending him a happy birthday text on the day. I know deep down it’s probably not worth anything, but at one point he was my soulmate.
We were together for about 5 years, give or take the occasional splits we had. Engaged for a year of that. Then almost a year ago we had our big split. I moved out and even moved states away.
We’ve both left it on “don’t contact me” but we’ve both broken that rule before. He broke it for my birthday last year. (Granted he sent it a day late)
This has been on my mind, and I know on his actual birthday it will be the only thing I’ll be able to think about. So I figured I’d seek advice first
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We were together for about 5 years, give or take the occasional splits we had. Engaged for a year of that. Then almost a year ago we had our big split. I moved out and even moved states away.
We’ve both left it on “don’t contact me” but we’ve both broken that rule before. He broke it for my birthday last year. (Granted he sent it a day late)
This has been on my mind, and I know on his actual birthday it will be the only thing I’ll be able to think about. So I figured I’d seek advice first
2024.05.29 05:19 Emergency_Advisor512 27[F4M] Grand Rapids Michigan, single currently seeking for a serious relationship
Have made several posts in the past. I have been into series of relationship and none worked out. was either betrayed,cheated on and beaten up...The longest was about 3yrs with a guy ,he was caring at the beginning of our relationship untill i later discovered that my best friend is sleeping with him for real in which i caught them and all i got from my ex-bf was a dash of slaps and beat from him...I cried and planned not having any relatioonship again untill my grandma adviced me that its not the end of life,so i am giving this a trial and hoping to find someone with cute heart.
I was 5 years old when i lost my mother, and I lost my father on my 20th birthday 💔💔 that’s so sad and very heartbroken .. have never been happy I don’t think have experienced happiness 😪😭
I had a failed suicide attempt early this year, since then I've been trying my best to stay positive. I eat healthily, exercise regularly, sleep 8 hours a day, but I feel like I'm burning out. I don't know how long I can hold on.
used to think I would be happy person without marrying sômeone. I thought I should focus on my career first before trying to find someone... However, loneliness is sabotaging that belief. The older I get, the more lonely I become lol... And when I am lonely, my heart throbs, my body runs out of energy and I will end up lying there feeling empty…. everything seems boring.
When I am alone, I think of the bad memories I had And I become sad. My whole body loses energy so fast ,Most of my friends have a partner . Some just busy with work and everytime I wanna reach out, none is beside... That time, I realize I need someone...yes, this is embarrassing but I need someone to help me feel happy in this life
And now I’m seeking for a caring man , supportive someone capable of taking care of me and spoiling me , someone who can give to support me , someone that would make me feel like a woman. Spend time together, a man who is truthful and trustworthy.. I sell toys for kids that’s what I do to earn a living
About me personally: I pride myself on being very sweet, kind, and caring. I do a lot for the people I love, I wear my heart on my sleeve, and I'm very empathetic. I'm also smart, thoughtful, and a deep thinker. I appreciate emotional maturity , want kids, commitment. I'm a hopeless romantic so I'm looking for the real deal, someone who is ready to build a life with me.
If you know you're not ready for a serious relationship, please don't waste my time, because l've had enough hurt my life.
Also, please be sure to attach a photo of yourself if you message me and I’ll send mine too
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I was 5 years old when i lost my mother, and I lost my father on my 20th birthday 💔💔 that’s so sad and very heartbroken .. have never been happy I don’t think have experienced happiness 😪😭
I had a failed suicide attempt early this year, since then I've been trying my best to stay positive. I eat healthily, exercise regularly, sleep 8 hours a day, but I feel like I'm burning out. I don't know how long I can hold on.
used to think I would be happy person without marrying sômeone. I thought I should focus on my career first before trying to find someone... However, loneliness is sabotaging that belief. The older I get, the more lonely I become lol... And when I am lonely, my heart throbs, my body runs out of energy and I will end up lying there feeling empty…. everything seems boring.
When I am alone, I think of the bad memories I had And I become sad. My whole body loses energy so fast ,Most of my friends have a partner . Some just busy with work and everytime I wanna reach out, none is beside... That time, I realize I need someone...yes, this is embarrassing but I need someone to help me feel happy in this life
And now I’m seeking for a caring man , supportive someone capable of taking care of me and spoiling me , someone who can give to support me , someone that would make me feel like a woman. Spend time together, a man who is truthful and trustworthy.. I sell toys for kids that’s what I do to earn a living
About me personally: I pride myself on being very sweet, kind, and caring. I do a lot for the people I love, I wear my heart on my sleeve, and I'm very empathetic. I'm also smart, thoughtful, and a deep thinker. I appreciate emotional maturity , want kids, commitment. I'm a hopeless romantic so I'm looking for the real deal, someone who is ready to build a life with me.
If you know you're not ready for a serious relationship, please don't waste my time, because l've had enough hurt my life.
Also, please be sure to attach a photo of yourself if you message me and I’ll send mine too
2024.05.29 05:16 goosemooserooster AITAH for getting mad at my mom for not telling me about her graduation
For context, my parents had me and my siblings really young and my mom wasn’t able to get a degree because she had to raise us. My mom ended up going back to school when I was 15. I am now 19. and this year she graduates with her bachelor’s degree finally.
My mom was hesitant about walking the stage. As far as I was concerned, no one had told me that she was going to be having a graduation. Well, my birthday is in June. It is a very hard birthday for me this year, as I am still recovering from major surgery i had in May, and my closest friends aren’t here this summer due to out of state internships. Because I knew this would be a hard birthday, I wanted to have a nice dinner with all of my family. 2 weeks I had texted in our family group chat talking about how I wanted to have my birthday dinner at this place. We had talked about what day it would work for all of us since the month of june is crazy for us this year. My siblings are traveling, i’m traveling, my parents are traveling, we all have busy work schedules. So it was important we figured out a date where we would all be here. We decided on June 9th to have my birthday dinner, no one had an objection to the date. After figuring that out, I quickly made reservations as it is hard to get a reservation at this certain restaurant. They are usually fully booked weeks in advance. I was able to get the last reservation in June. I was really excited and looking forward to my birthday, I didn’t before because i thought it would suck.
So fast to today, my mom told us that she will be walking graduation. I was really happy until she told us what day it would be. At night on June 9th. I immediately got mad at her and started crying. I got mad at her because she didn’t tell anyone about this. She knew the dates her graduation would be on, but didnt tell anyone the dates. She knew the dates when we discussed the plans for my birthday dinner. She didn’t say anything. I understand that it was a possibility that she wouldn’t walk graduation. But if she had told me ahead of time or at the time when we were discussing my birthday dinner plans, “Hey we can’t do that day, I may or may not be walking graduation” I would’ve not made plans to have my birthday dinner that night. But she didn’t say anything. I’m also mad at the fact that I won’t be able to celebrate my birthday anymore with my family. Like i said, our schedules are too busy these next few months and June 9th was the only day that would’ve worked. And the restaurant Is completely booked up, so it’s not like i can make another reservation. So i’m mad that she didn’t tell me and i’m mad I won’t be celebrating with my family or go to a restaurant that i’ve been wanting to go to.
I’m not talking to my mom at the moment and have been hiding in my room since she told us at around 4. My siblings think i’m overreacting and calling me unappreciative of my mom because she gave up school to raise us and now she’s finally getting her degree. I understand that. i’m very proud of my mom, don’t get me wrong. But i’m mad at the situation she put me in for my birthday. My siblings and dad aren’t taking me seriously and thinking i’m being a baby about it.
So AITAH?
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My mom was hesitant about walking the stage. As far as I was concerned, no one had told me that she was going to be having a graduation. Well, my birthday is in June. It is a very hard birthday for me this year, as I am still recovering from major surgery i had in May, and my closest friends aren’t here this summer due to out of state internships. Because I knew this would be a hard birthday, I wanted to have a nice dinner with all of my family. 2 weeks I had texted in our family group chat talking about how I wanted to have my birthday dinner at this place. We had talked about what day it would work for all of us since the month of june is crazy for us this year. My siblings are traveling, i’m traveling, my parents are traveling, we all have busy work schedules. So it was important we figured out a date where we would all be here. We decided on June 9th to have my birthday dinner, no one had an objection to the date. After figuring that out, I quickly made reservations as it is hard to get a reservation at this certain restaurant. They are usually fully booked weeks in advance. I was able to get the last reservation in June. I was really excited and looking forward to my birthday, I didn’t before because i thought it would suck.
So fast to today, my mom told us that she will be walking graduation. I was really happy until she told us what day it would be. At night on June 9th. I immediately got mad at her and started crying. I got mad at her because she didn’t tell anyone about this. She knew the dates her graduation would be on, but didnt tell anyone the dates. She knew the dates when we discussed the plans for my birthday dinner. She didn’t say anything. I understand that it was a possibility that she wouldn’t walk graduation. But if she had told me ahead of time or at the time when we were discussing my birthday dinner plans, “Hey we can’t do that day, I may or may not be walking graduation” I would’ve not made plans to have my birthday dinner that night. But she didn’t say anything. I’m also mad at the fact that I won’t be able to celebrate my birthday anymore with my family. Like i said, our schedules are too busy these next few months and June 9th was the only day that would’ve worked. And the restaurant Is completely booked up, so it’s not like i can make another reservation. So i’m mad that she didn’t tell me and i’m mad I won’t be celebrating with my family or go to a restaurant that i’ve been wanting to go to.
I’m not talking to my mom at the moment and have been hiding in my room since she told us at around 4. My siblings think i’m overreacting and calling me unappreciative of my mom because she gave up school to raise us and now she’s finally getting her degree. I understand that. i’m very proud of my mom, don’t get me wrong. But i’m mad at the situation she put me in for my birthday. My siblings and dad aren’t taking me seriously and thinking i’m being a baby about it.
So AITAH?
2024.05.29 05:13 ObjectDry4301 Goated developers Pt:2 + mod developers
I failed to include the hardworking aspects of the Warpfrog team because i truly aplaude the hard work that they put into making this game and they push through the challenges and the thing is when some updates are delayed not everyone is mad because of the great game they already have and the fact is this is a heavenly sent game that can be the grounds to all of Vr MMO's that can be made and truly i know the developers, the gfx designers to everyone in the Warpfrog team that work on blade and sorcery are the best of the best by sheer hard work and honestly even doing better than game studios like ubisoft with overpriced games(except for xdefiant i am happy for that one improvement) To the point of thank you developers and thank you modders and the developers allow their modders to have freedom to mod their game which is something i dont see other vr games doing
Now for the mod developers you are some of the greatest developers of blade and sorcery because i feel like both the modders and developers are both great because modders provide potential stuff devs could add and also things like the yamato and even aspects like good sheaths and things like mystic hands.
To both developers whether its kospy, baron, the warpfrog team and then modders like hughjohner who is legendary in the modding community along with this i thank both of the community, the modders, the developers for this game, its mod, the sheer fun moments that can come from mods and just the regular physic stuff on its own
This game is a vr game with a physic sandbox element which makes it hard to mod and develop so i say with all of my heart thank you guys for the masterpieces that are graced apon this world and the fact some of my favorite youtubers would not have the funniest videos from blade and sorcery
Me and the community say are thanks again whether for some of us(including me) getting through tough times(for me it was a family member dying on same month of my birthday) or its even things like fun on daily basis to fill up some peoples world of light and modders you bring the special pieces to this community the fact is that blade and sorcery would not have as much content it would have if modders did not exist
To the supporting devs, to the hard working devs, to the hardworking modders, to the hard working people that just help to improve the games with mods or just the updates that bring it to this high special
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Now for the mod developers you are some of the greatest developers of blade and sorcery because i feel like both the modders and developers are both great because modders provide potential stuff devs could add and also things like the yamato and even aspects like good sheaths and things like mystic hands.
To both developers whether its kospy, baron, the warpfrog team and then modders like hughjohner who is legendary in the modding community along with this i thank both of the community, the modders, the developers for this game, its mod, the sheer fun moments that can come from mods and just the regular physic stuff on its own
This game is a vr game with a physic sandbox element which makes it hard to mod and develop so i say with all of my heart thank you guys for the masterpieces that are graced apon this world and the fact some of my favorite youtubers would not have the funniest videos from blade and sorcery
Me and the community say are thanks again whether for some of us(including me) getting through tough times(for me it was a family member dying on same month of my birthday) or its even things like fun on daily basis to fill up some peoples world of light and modders you bring the special pieces to this community the fact is that blade and sorcery would not have as much content it would have if modders did not exist
To the supporting devs, to the hard working devs, to the hardworking modders, to the hard working people that just help to improve the games with mods or just the updates that bring it to this high special
2024.05.29 05:12 ConfectionNo1605 Baking and Cooking Escapades
 | I lovee cooking and baking for the people i love :) 1- A seafood boil i made for my dad because he loves crab submitted by ConfectionNo1605 to u/ConfectionNo1605 [link] [comments] 2- a tres leches cake i made with fresh fruits and homemade whipped cream for my cousins 3 - Surf and turf i was making for my sister’s 25th birthday! I made the lobster and steak paired with seasoned rice and sautéed mushrooms. Didn’t get a good picture of it before we dug in 🤭 but i hope she liked it Trying to remember things that bring me joy rn because lately after something happened w a boy i feel a little bad about myself lately. Not really happy but i’m trying |
2024.05.29 05:09 jawest1991x I 32m share a kid with my ex 30f and want her back more than anything in the world.
Just as the title suggests I'm seeking advice on how to get my ex back. I 32m and her 30f were in a relationship for just shy of 6 years. For context, her and I dated for about a year when I was 19. That ended with her going through psychosis and leaving me for that reason. She basically vanished, but fast forward 5/6 years, she reached out to me after I had broken up with another ex and very clearly wanted to try and get back together. For the first 4 years it was amazing, we were very in love. Covid came around and I lost my job, we then lost our apartment and wound up at my parents house. Her, myself and my 2 children lived there and over the next 2 years things devolved into regular fighting, little to no sex, her basically separating herself from me until finally pulling the trigger and leaving me last July. I suffered from a bad anger problem, and ultimately that was what drove her away from me over time. The yelling and screaming and outward anger was not healthy for her or myself. Since last July I have been in therapy and sorted a lot of shit out and have begun to heal that side of myself. I've also worked on self improvement and weight loss, ect. Really trying to change myself, because I was very unhappy with what my actions had cost me.
Thankfully we have had little to no issues co parenting and sharing custody of our daughter. She also pretty frequently will take my stepson when she has our daughter. They are still very close, her and my son. I feel like that is a good thing? But I'm unsure
So with that pretext I need advice on what to do to get her back. I've read a lot of posts on here about getting your ex back. The thing I'm stuck on is that most of those methods rely on separation and true time apart. We do not have that, since we broke up I've seen her 1 or more a week for custody exchanges. So I am unsure how to navigate this process.. I brought up the topic of her and I in late January (6 month mark) and we talked about revisiting things. Most of her answers to direct questions about her and I were answered with "I can't answer that question right now".
What do I do? She's agreed to go with both kids and I this coming weekend to an exhibit in our city that's a balloon exhibit. This will be the 1st time we have hung out since February when we were together for my daughter's birthday party. I'm happy to answer any questions that may help me get advice pointing me in the right direction.
TLDR I share a kid with my ex that I was verbally abusive to, and want her back more than anything.
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Thankfully we have had little to no issues co parenting and sharing custody of our daughter. She also pretty frequently will take my stepson when she has our daughter. They are still very close, her and my son. I feel like that is a good thing? But I'm unsure
So with that pretext I need advice on what to do to get her back. I've read a lot of posts on here about getting your ex back. The thing I'm stuck on is that most of those methods rely on separation and true time apart. We do not have that, since we broke up I've seen her 1 or more a week for custody exchanges. So I am unsure how to navigate this process.. I brought up the topic of her and I in late January (6 month mark) and we talked about revisiting things. Most of her answers to direct questions about her and I were answered with "I can't answer that question right now".
What do I do? She's agreed to go with both kids and I this coming weekend to an exhibit in our city that's a balloon exhibit. This will be the 1st time we have hung out since February when we were together for my daughter's birthday party. I'm happy to answer any questions that may help me get advice pointing me in the right direction.
TLDR I share a kid with my ex that I was verbally abusive to, and want her back more than anything.
2024.05.29 04:53 nuggetni to text or not text your ex happy birthday?
 | i know I know, why are we even wasting 5minutes on an ex? ive just always opted to take the high road and lead with kindness. I just can’t decide here. submitted by nuggetni to ExNoContact [link] [comments] our breakup was savage. a text from him and then some kind of no contact. he was always the first to ever reach out, but casually and briefly. he did end up chasing my siblings bestie after 2 months of “healing”. i mailed a birthday card with a gift card last year, even though we were already a few weeks split up. he thanked me for the gesture and for being me but, I think he mistook it bc he also mentioned we shouldn’t think to get back together—even though i didnt hint to it. I just knew how sad I felt readjusting, and wanted to still be kind on the last bday of his I thought I would acknowledge. unfortunately, when my birthday came around a few months later, he did not reach out… maybe at that time he was still riding the high of a rebound, and only now he’s actually starting to feel remorse and process the break up. that leads me to today. part of me feels like I should match his energy and not greet, but I would feel guilty. I don’t want to start convo, but I don’t want it to be assumed unkind to ignore the day. maybe im not completely ready to bury it. he has since apologized at the end of last year and once more a month ago. I will attach his latest apology. he was definitely the villain in the end, but after seeing this second go round of apologies, although we’re kind of no contact still, I kind of want to greet him—in case he’s really changed and to the least deserving of acknowledgement. pros and cons of texting? will I look silly or send mixed signals? he’s probably still with the other girl, so I could be made a fool of for texting ex happy birthday… but he’s the one still with his rebound but texting me that treating his girl good only backfires bc of my memory. im not sure if his reaching out again was closure for him, or if passively putting the ball in my park.. |
2024.05.29 04:44 ThrowawayRoblox87728 My 16th Birthday Sucked and I Don’t Want To Be Happy
I posted about this on my profile a while back, but my 16th birthday absolutely sucked. I’m mostly back online now, so I guess that’s good, but damn, I don’t feel happy anymore, and I don’t want to. I put on a fake smile each day.
I can’t really talk to anyone about it. There’s always this “oh, mental health awareness” movement but then when people try to talk about it, you get shoved away. The only reason they care is because it interferes with their lives. I need to clarify I’m not depressed or anything, I filled out screenings last week at my annual checkup, but it still sucks.
I’ve felt really sad lately though. I’m sad that all my friends get to experience their 16th birthday, a milestone birthday, normally, while mine went down the drain, and I will never have that experience or be this age again. I don’t wish malice on them of course, but I hope someone out there gets it. Christmas went a similar way, so now I’m dreading that too this year. Every time I seem to be happy, something always comes along and ruins it. I’m scared to relax and be happy, to the point I actually feel GOOD when I’m stressed out in some way.
My parents are acting like it was no big deal, and are trying to act all normal, especially my dad. I feel like a background character in the lives of others, like if I were to die tomorrow not much else would change. My dad can never accept he‘s wrong, he says that I cannot “outshine the master” with any form of criticism, and then they happen to wonder why I’m so distant from them and don’t trust them with anything. I don’t want to be around them, it’s literal poison yet all my needs are being met. It’s so loving but so toxic, and I have such a weak heart that is too loving and forgiving of other people. I feel so dirty when they try to give me a hug or high five, like I’m laying in a pile of mud.
I’m not being abused physically, but damn I’m tired. I made a plan previously to travel around Christmas and my birthday in the future to make up for it, but I‘m never getting that time back, so there’s no point. I’d only be doing it to remind myself of my past sadness anyway. And I don’t know how I’m going to be able to afford to move out when I’m 18 given current trends. My own parents have said such horrible things to me that I can’t just move on from, saying that I’m a monster who leeches off other people, and that I am not welcome at their funerals. The only reason they want me to be successful is so that if they die early, I can take custody of my little sister. And then they boast about how they are so much better than their parents because they don’t resort to physical beatings. Granted, I’ve said horrible things too, but I was either a little kid or had horrible things said to me first.
On the subject of that, I hate the thought of my birthday so much now. The thought of someone making me a cake or saying Happy Birthday to me makes me cringe back to the prehistoric era. I’m absolutely dreading my 17th birthday, and I just simply wish there was a button to skip that entire week. I wish my family, my friends, and society collectively forgot about my birthday. I’m even contemplating deleting all my birthday and Christmas photos from the past, so I don’t have to look at them.
I love coding and making things, but even that just feels depressing now. I can’t really make anything as that’s not allowed too much after how my 16th birthday went, so I just don’t want to make or even think of anything at all. And when I do get the chance, I just feel like shutting it down and going to bed.
I just want to feel loved unconditionally. I just want to be able to embrace someone in a warm long hug, cry in front of them, and not have it be used against me down the road. I don’t want therapy (imo it’s thousands of dollars for a talk buddy who nods their head and gives generic bs) but I just want to be able to trust someone with my deepest thoughts. But everyone I’ve ever trusted either betrayed me, abandoned me, or used it as ammo in an argument.
I recently reconnected with my old best friend from childhood after nine months after he betrayed me for a girl, and it just doesn’t feel the same. It feels amazing, yes, but it’s like something is missing.
I’m just simply tired and don’t even know what to say anymore. I have so much to say but not the words to do it. I see this as the start of a new life, one I’m not seeking to alter in any way. I’m not looking for input or commentary, but I’ll go clinically insane and perhaps take my stress out on others if I don’t channel it somewhere.
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I can’t really talk to anyone about it. There’s always this “oh, mental health awareness” movement but then when people try to talk about it, you get shoved away. The only reason they care is because it interferes with their lives. I need to clarify I’m not depressed or anything, I filled out screenings last week at my annual checkup, but it still sucks.
I’ve felt really sad lately though. I’m sad that all my friends get to experience their 16th birthday, a milestone birthday, normally, while mine went down the drain, and I will never have that experience or be this age again. I don’t wish malice on them of course, but I hope someone out there gets it. Christmas went a similar way, so now I’m dreading that too this year. Every time I seem to be happy, something always comes along and ruins it. I’m scared to relax and be happy, to the point I actually feel GOOD when I’m stressed out in some way.
My parents are acting like it was no big deal, and are trying to act all normal, especially my dad. I feel like a background character in the lives of others, like if I were to die tomorrow not much else would change. My dad can never accept he‘s wrong, he says that I cannot “outshine the master” with any form of criticism, and then they happen to wonder why I’m so distant from them and don’t trust them with anything. I don’t want to be around them, it’s literal poison yet all my needs are being met. It’s so loving but so toxic, and I have such a weak heart that is too loving and forgiving of other people. I feel so dirty when they try to give me a hug or high five, like I’m laying in a pile of mud.
I’m not being abused physically, but damn I’m tired. I made a plan previously to travel around Christmas and my birthday in the future to make up for it, but I‘m never getting that time back, so there’s no point. I’d only be doing it to remind myself of my past sadness anyway. And I don’t know how I’m going to be able to afford to move out when I’m 18 given current trends. My own parents have said such horrible things to me that I can’t just move on from, saying that I’m a monster who leeches off other people, and that I am not welcome at their funerals. The only reason they want me to be successful is so that if they die early, I can take custody of my little sister. And then they boast about how they are so much better than their parents because they don’t resort to physical beatings. Granted, I’ve said horrible things too, but I was either a little kid or had horrible things said to me first.
On the subject of that, I hate the thought of my birthday so much now. The thought of someone making me a cake or saying Happy Birthday to me makes me cringe back to the prehistoric era. I’m absolutely dreading my 17th birthday, and I just simply wish there was a button to skip that entire week. I wish my family, my friends, and society collectively forgot about my birthday. I’m even contemplating deleting all my birthday and Christmas photos from the past, so I don’t have to look at them.
I love coding and making things, but even that just feels depressing now. I can’t really make anything as that’s not allowed too much after how my 16th birthday went, so I just don’t want to make or even think of anything at all. And when I do get the chance, I just feel like shutting it down and going to bed.
I just want to feel loved unconditionally. I just want to be able to embrace someone in a warm long hug, cry in front of them, and not have it be used against me down the road. I don’t want therapy (imo it’s thousands of dollars for a talk buddy who nods their head and gives generic bs) but I just want to be able to trust someone with my deepest thoughts. But everyone I’ve ever trusted either betrayed me, abandoned me, or used it as ammo in an argument.
I recently reconnected with my old best friend from childhood after nine months after he betrayed me for a girl, and it just doesn’t feel the same. It feels amazing, yes, but it’s like something is missing.
I’m just simply tired and don’t even know what to say anymore. I have so much to say but not the words to do it. I see this as the start of a new life, one I’m not seeking to alter in any way. I’m not looking for input or commentary, but I’ll go clinically insane and perhaps take my stress out on others if I don’t channel it somewhere.
2024.05.29 04:36 froggenton What games do you recomend?
Im buying a DS for my birthday coming later this year. I love collecting "old" games and is one of my dreams to own one. I've been eyeing one in a used stuff store ( i dont know what theyre called in the US) and i already have a list, but more the merrier. Here it is:
New super mario bros
Super mario 64 DS
Sonic rush
Sonic colors
Mario kart DS
Resident Evil Deadly silence
Pokemon white
Pokemon black 2
Pokemon platinum
Rythm heaven
Kirby super star ultra
Mario e Luigi bowser inside story
GTA chinatown
Tetris DS
Ace attorney
LEGO indiana jones
Rayman DS
And maybe another LEGO or Spiderman game idk. I think a licensed game fits in a collection
Not to mention it comes with a GBA slot, wich i want
Pokemon emerald
Sonic advance 2
Sonic battle
Godzilla domination
Maybe some of GBA video for the memes?
Anyway. I love 2D and 3D platformers, colleathon or not. Also, i dislike RPG´s but a fan of horror games. Also tell me if one of them is ass. Thanks in advance. (also Heartgold or Soulsilver?)
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New super mario bros
Super mario 64 DS
Sonic rush
Sonic colors
Mario kart DS
Resident Evil Deadly silence
Pokemon white
Pokemon black 2
Pokemon platinum
Rythm heaven
Kirby super star ultra
Mario e Luigi bowser inside story
GTA chinatown
Tetris DS
Ace attorney
LEGO indiana jones
Rayman DS
Dementium - The Ward
Nanco museumAnd maybe another LEGO or Spiderman game idk. I think a licensed game fits in a collection
Not to mention it comes with a GBA slot, wich i want
Pokemon emerald
Sonic advance 2
Sonic battle
Godzilla domination
Maybe some of GBA video for the memes?
Anyway. I love 2D and 3D platformers, colleathon or not. Also, i dislike RPG´s but a fan of horror games. Also tell me if one of them is ass. Thanks in advance. (also Heartgold or Soulsilver?)
2024.05.29 04:34 picigu10 I'm a monster
I had a man who loved me. It was Christmas Eve when I asked him out, expecting a quick no but I knew I would have regret not telling him for the rest of my life. He didn't respond for almost 20 minutes and I thought I lost him. Then I was met with screenshots of him talking to his brother about me and how he had feelings for me. He and I talked for so long that we nearly missed our family events. When we were together, my life finally seemed like it had a purpose. Making him happy. He would call me his forever partner, his soul mate, and we'd talk for hours every day about things like when we could move in together and have a family in the future. Me and him connected so well, I haven't ever been so close to anyone in my life, and I've been through several relationships, maybe it had something to do with us having autism and the same interests. Over time he became really dependent on me and I let myself slip into doing the same thing. I know that thus far, these behaviors are probably really weird for a relationship and things seemed to be moving too fast, but I didn't care, he made me feel amazing. His friend group that I had to hang with was toxic to say the least, I tried telling him that maybe he should find better people but he insisted that he wanted to be there because his brother was there. The negativity eventually got to me though and I began to slowly fall apart and lose my confidence. My whole day became reliant on him and if he wasn't happy I wasn't either. The problem was that he was the same way.
Months go by and he admits something to me that scared me. He cuts himself and he planned on taking his life on Christmas before I reached out to him. I did everything I could to make him feel comfortable and safe. For a while, it worked. Then May came around. May was the toughest month we ever had. We had our final exams in May, and both of our birthdays came around. By some cruel ploy of the universe, neither of us could be there for each other's birthdays due to work and family screwing us over. Things were off to a bad start. Later down the line, I found out my dog I've had since I was a boy has cancer and has to be put down soon. I also had my wisdom teeth pushing in but in extreme pain even though I was told there'd be no impactions, then I found out that I had no insurance... I started feeling weak and abandoned. The same morning he messaged me about how therapy went and said he was going to get testosterone to help affirm his gender. I didn't know much about it at the time but it scared me because not only did he say he wanted biological kids but he had a huge problem with body dysmorphia and I thought that the second puberty would have pushed him over the edge. I never told him no but I said it was a bad idea and that we should have waited until things were more stable and we had a clearer vision of our life. At least that's what I tell myself, maybe I really am this horrible that I'd tell him that so that way I can strip him of his identity and because he needed me for validation, I could withhold it until I got something I wanted. Well he obviously didn't take it well and took a night to himself. I then started repeating the words people from that group said to me, calling myself names and saying that I was horrible as a partner. Which made it worse because he said it felt manipulative and I didn't let him have his emotions. The next day I sent a "heartfelt" apology where I said that I was supposed to make him feel safe and supported and make a place for him, and he caved and accepted the apology. Later that night I got a call from him, black-out drunk where he said some super out-of-character things for him, sexual things. I was into it but he was at a friend's house so it's not like we could have acted on it. He promised that we'd do something later that day. Later that day though he was actually working doubles and I didn't know until I repeated to him what he said while drunk. He didn't believe me. I was in a bad situation and just said you know what, I'll handle myself. Later that night he called and we played a game like we planned to do but he seemed cold and distant. I asked what was wrong, he said nothing. He gets an "emergency call from a friend" which I later find out was him trying to get away from it and talk to his brother who tells him to break up with me. He did. I didn't get a chance to say goodbye and only found out through his brother that I triggered PTSD that I didn't know he had about someone who had done... Awful things to him in the past.
I took days without eating and sleeping and finally reached out for help like I should have done, to begin with. I started improving myself, lying and saying that it wasn't me, slowly regaining my confidence, and I took people's advice. Just to note that I've been through four relationships and never were they this hard, even one that lasted 4 years. After three days, I get a call from him in the middle of the night, begging me to take him back. I almost didn't because I didn't want to hurt him again but I was just so excited for him to be in my life again, that I said yes and apologized, and told him about all the efforts I've been making to turn my life around. He called me his and I called him mine... But his siblings didn't agree and yelled at him for it. We slept over the phone and I finally got more than an hour of sleep. I woke up and we said we loved each other and got to work. Then he texts me. Saying that it was selfish to do that and he wasn't ready for a relationship. That he just wanted to be friends instead because he couldn't handle me not being in his life. I insisted that if we talked we had to start at least dating again because I can't handle watching someone else do what I promised I'd do for him. But he said he'd think about it. By the end of the day, I called him back crying and saying that I really couldn't suppress my affection for him. I asked him if it was easy for him and he said no. I asked him if he still loved me, he said yes. I asked if we were still soulmates... No. I asked if there was even a non-zero percent chance he might see us being together in the future. He said no. I cried so hard, it was probably the weakest I ever felt. I said I was sorry for what I did and that I was awful and he tried reassuring me that I was a good person, but good people don't do this, especially not to those they love. We both said sorry for almost an hour, just not wanting to say goodbye. He told me I made him feel invincible, untouchable, loved, cherished, and worthy. He said he wouldn't be able to move on, and I said that I'd wait for him if he ever felt like he could forgive me. He said not to do that to myself. He thanked me for being the first person to ever truly love him, then he said goodbye.
I'm awful. I took something so beautiful and destroyed it. I made the only person who ever loved me feel like they could never move on and I destroyed their confidence. I hate being in a world where we don't share our first kiss, a home, a family. I know I'm overdramatic and a bitch and it's my fault so I shouldn't be upset about it but I can't help it. We were supposed to be a team.
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Months go by and he admits something to me that scared me. He cuts himself and he planned on taking his life on Christmas before I reached out to him. I did everything I could to make him feel comfortable and safe. For a while, it worked. Then May came around. May was the toughest month we ever had. We had our final exams in May, and both of our birthdays came around. By some cruel ploy of the universe, neither of us could be there for each other's birthdays due to work and family screwing us over. Things were off to a bad start. Later down the line, I found out my dog I've had since I was a boy has cancer and has to be put down soon. I also had my wisdom teeth pushing in but in extreme pain even though I was told there'd be no impactions, then I found out that I had no insurance... I started feeling weak and abandoned. The same morning he messaged me about how therapy went and said he was going to get testosterone to help affirm his gender. I didn't know much about it at the time but it scared me because not only did he say he wanted biological kids but he had a huge problem with body dysmorphia and I thought that the second puberty would have pushed him over the edge. I never told him no but I said it was a bad idea and that we should have waited until things were more stable and we had a clearer vision of our life. At least that's what I tell myself, maybe I really am this horrible that I'd tell him that so that way I can strip him of his identity and because he needed me for validation, I could withhold it until I got something I wanted. Well he obviously didn't take it well and took a night to himself. I then started repeating the words people from that group said to me, calling myself names and saying that I was horrible as a partner. Which made it worse because he said it felt manipulative and I didn't let him have his emotions. The next day I sent a "heartfelt" apology where I said that I was supposed to make him feel safe and supported and make a place for him, and he caved and accepted the apology. Later that night I got a call from him, black-out drunk where he said some super out-of-character things for him, sexual things. I was into it but he was at a friend's house so it's not like we could have acted on it. He promised that we'd do something later that day. Later that day though he was actually working doubles and I didn't know until I repeated to him what he said while drunk. He didn't believe me. I was in a bad situation and just said you know what, I'll handle myself. Later that night he called and we played a game like we planned to do but he seemed cold and distant. I asked what was wrong, he said nothing. He gets an "emergency call from a friend" which I later find out was him trying to get away from it and talk to his brother who tells him to break up with me. He did. I didn't get a chance to say goodbye and only found out through his brother that I triggered PTSD that I didn't know he had about someone who had done... Awful things to him in the past.
I took days without eating and sleeping and finally reached out for help like I should have done, to begin with. I started improving myself, lying and saying that it wasn't me, slowly regaining my confidence, and I took people's advice. Just to note that I've been through four relationships and never were they this hard, even one that lasted 4 years. After three days, I get a call from him in the middle of the night, begging me to take him back. I almost didn't because I didn't want to hurt him again but I was just so excited for him to be in my life again, that I said yes and apologized, and told him about all the efforts I've been making to turn my life around. He called me his and I called him mine... But his siblings didn't agree and yelled at him for it. We slept over the phone and I finally got more than an hour of sleep. I woke up and we said we loved each other and got to work. Then he texts me. Saying that it was selfish to do that and he wasn't ready for a relationship. That he just wanted to be friends instead because he couldn't handle me not being in his life. I insisted that if we talked we had to start at least dating again because I can't handle watching someone else do what I promised I'd do for him. But he said he'd think about it. By the end of the day, I called him back crying and saying that I really couldn't suppress my affection for him. I asked him if it was easy for him and he said no. I asked him if he still loved me, he said yes. I asked if we were still soulmates... No. I asked if there was even a non-zero percent chance he might see us being together in the future. He said no. I cried so hard, it was probably the weakest I ever felt. I said I was sorry for what I did and that I was awful and he tried reassuring me that I was a good person, but good people don't do this, especially not to those they love. We both said sorry for almost an hour, just not wanting to say goodbye. He told me I made him feel invincible, untouchable, loved, cherished, and worthy. He said he wouldn't be able to move on, and I said that I'd wait for him if he ever felt like he could forgive me. He said not to do that to myself. He thanked me for being the first person to ever truly love him, then he said goodbye.
I'm awful. I took something so beautiful and destroyed it. I made the only person who ever loved me feel like they could never move on and I destroyed their confidence. I hate being in a world where we don't share our first kiss, a home, a family. I know I'm overdramatic and a bitch and it's my fault so I shouldn't be upset about it but I can't help it. We were supposed to be a team.
2024.05.29 04:33 afuntaco Need some honest advice, opinions…
Never thought I’d seek out help from Reddit. But seeing how responsive folks are on here, figured I’d give it a shot.
Warning: this will be a long read.
So I’ve been with my now-wife for over 4 and a half years, with the last about 8 months of that time being married. 3 years ago, my wife was offered an incredible job opportunity out of state (maybe 2 to 2 and a half hours away) and she decided to take it after asking my opinion about it. When I gave my opinion on it, I specifically told her to think about it from all angles and put herself first before me as much as she could. I also told her that if she backed out and if it don’t feel right, then don’t do it. She assured me and insisted she thought about everything and wanted to go through with it. Naturally, I followed suit. After all, not living in the state that I spent my entire life living in for the rest of my life was nothing more than a wet dream of mine on a good day. I always thought that it would be just that: a wet dream that would never become a reality. But here I was: all of my dreams coming true and they were all becoming true because of HER, not me.
Basically, from the moment my wife and I got here, she’s been acting like a child and wanting to move back where we used to live. During this whole time (3+ years-present), she hasn’t done a single thing to get acclimated with her new surroundings. Her cop out she likes to use is “well I go to work functions” which, to me, it’s a cop out she can’t use because she’s done nothing with any of the opportunities to form new connections and friends. So I find that cop out to be moot. She doesn’t even try for me, her husband. She wants to try and sit here and throw toddler-induced temper tantrums that are completely self-inflicted, to which I confront her and simply say “well then do something about it” to which she says “I have no desire to”.
This “lack of desire” as she put it appears to me that it’s far extended to other areas of life and our relationship. I can’t count the amount of times I’ve planned so many surprises for her with her wants and needs at the forefront. So many times I’ve surprised her “just because”. All the times I’ve gotten her flowers “just because”. Making her favorite dinners and the such. But I hardly (or if at all) ever have it reciprocated. All I ever crave for is reciprocation. Nothing more, nothing less. Whatever I do get from her, it’s because I specifically ask for it. For the third year in a row, she asked me what I want to do for my birthday. The past 2 years she put no effort into my birthday at all. No planning, no surprises, nothing. I wonder if we’re gonna have a repeat of the last 2 years…
I proposed to her towards the end of 2021, in hopes that being engaged and further planning our future would get her to act more like an adult and not a child. 2022 was the year from hell and any progress I thought she made was undone. We already were in a legally binding contract with the wedding venue at that point. So it was either have the wedding or be out almost $20,000.
Fast forward to end of 2023. We get married. Best day of my life and for her as well. She ended up getting pregnant on our honeymoon unexpectedly but not unsurprisingly because we never used condoms and never actually tried to prevent it from happening. In December, she unfortunately miscarried and it was the hardest time of our relationship and in our marriage. Moving onto a few months ago, I got let go from my job for the first time in my life and, thankfully, I was able to get back up on my feet quickly. Recently, we’ve been looking at getting a bigger place and I thought we were on the same page for a change. Just last week, I found out she’s pregnant again and now all of a sudden once again, she’s throwing “I don’t wanna live here” at me just as we got on the same page recently. It feels as if she’s going to use this pregnancy as a crutch against me as leverage to get what she wants. I find it fascinating that “a child” (my grown ass wife who’s almost 4 years older than me) is pregnant with a child once again. I was heartbroken when the miscarriage happened because I was excited at the prospect of becoming a father, and while part of me is excited once again, I just feel so uneasy under these conditions and with how she’s being. She was very unpleasant to be around with her pregnancy hormones going up and down and I fear it’s going to be more of the same this time too.
I don’t feel like it’s fair that I have to give up my happiness and put my needs to the side when she clearly has “no desire” to do the same for me. I don’t feel like it’s fair for so many other reasons, but her own self-inflicted reasons ain’t it to me.
I thought marriage would change her and make her realize it ain’t about just her. It’s not even about only me. It should be about us, what’s best for us, and so on. If there is a soul more wrong than mine, I don’t know them…
I’m open to any and all suggestions, advice, constructive criticism, and the such.
Thank you all in advance.
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Warning: this will be a long read.
So I’ve been with my now-wife for over 4 and a half years, with the last about 8 months of that time being married. 3 years ago, my wife was offered an incredible job opportunity out of state (maybe 2 to 2 and a half hours away) and she decided to take it after asking my opinion about it. When I gave my opinion on it, I specifically told her to think about it from all angles and put herself first before me as much as she could. I also told her that if she backed out and if it don’t feel right, then don’t do it. She assured me and insisted she thought about everything and wanted to go through with it. Naturally, I followed suit. After all, not living in the state that I spent my entire life living in for the rest of my life was nothing more than a wet dream of mine on a good day. I always thought that it would be just that: a wet dream that would never become a reality. But here I was: all of my dreams coming true and they were all becoming true because of HER, not me.
Basically, from the moment my wife and I got here, she’s been acting like a child and wanting to move back where we used to live. During this whole time (3+ years-present), she hasn’t done a single thing to get acclimated with her new surroundings. Her cop out she likes to use is “well I go to work functions” which, to me, it’s a cop out she can’t use because she’s done nothing with any of the opportunities to form new connections and friends. So I find that cop out to be moot. She doesn’t even try for me, her husband. She wants to try and sit here and throw toddler-induced temper tantrums that are completely self-inflicted, to which I confront her and simply say “well then do something about it” to which she says “I have no desire to”.
This “lack of desire” as she put it appears to me that it’s far extended to other areas of life and our relationship. I can’t count the amount of times I’ve planned so many surprises for her with her wants and needs at the forefront. So many times I’ve surprised her “just because”. All the times I’ve gotten her flowers “just because”. Making her favorite dinners and the such. But I hardly (or if at all) ever have it reciprocated. All I ever crave for is reciprocation. Nothing more, nothing less. Whatever I do get from her, it’s because I specifically ask for it. For the third year in a row, she asked me what I want to do for my birthday. The past 2 years she put no effort into my birthday at all. No planning, no surprises, nothing. I wonder if we’re gonna have a repeat of the last 2 years…
I proposed to her towards the end of 2021, in hopes that being engaged and further planning our future would get her to act more like an adult and not a child. 2022 was the year from hell and any progress I thought she made was undone. We already were in a legally binding contract with the wedding venue at that point. So it was either have the wedding or be out almost $20,000.
Fast forward to end of 2023. We get married. Best day of my life and for her as well. She ended up getting pregnant on our honeymoon unexpectedly but not unsurprisingly because we never used condoms and never actually tried to prevent it from happening. In December, she unfortunately miscarried and it was the hardest time of our relationship and in our marriage. Moving onto a few months ago, I got let go from my job for the first time in my life and, thankfully, I was able to get back up on my feet quickly. Recently, we’ve been looking at getting a bigger place and I thought we were on the same page for a change. Just last week, I found out she’s pregnant again and now all of a sudden once again, she’s throwing “I don’t wanna live here” at me just as we got on the same page recently. It feels as if she’s going to use this pregnancy as a crutch against me as leverage to get what she wants. I find it fascinating that “a child” (my grown ass wife who’s almost 4 years older than me) is pregnant with a child once again. I was heartbroken when the miscarriage happened because I was excited at the prospect of becoming a father, and while part of me is excited once again, I just feel so uneasy under these conditions and with how she’s being. She was very unpleasant to be around with her pregnancy hormones going up and down and I fear it’s going to be more of the same this time too.
I don’t feel like it’s fair that I have to give up my happiness and put my needs to the side when she clearly has “no desire” to do the same for me. I don’t feel like it’s fair for so many other reasons, but her own self-inflicted reasons ain’t it to me.
I thought marriage would change her and make her realize it ain’t about just her. It’s not even about only me. It should be about us, what’s best for us, and so on. If there is a soul more wrong than mine, I don’t know them…
I’m open to any and all suggestions, advice, constructive criticism, and the such.
Thank you all in advance.
2024.05.29 04:31 TrainingJury3357 moonology
I wish there was peace enough for me to write like electric for you like we used to. Maybe some day soon I can finally rest.
I shared a poem I thought you might like. I hope when you wake up and read it, it fills your day with the zest of a warm orange sun. I hope it’s a happy day. Heart to open palm offerings of light. Let me raise you up. Let me believe in you.
Did you know it’s only natural for the moon to be drawn to the suns light? I’ll reflect it back at you.
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I shared a poem I thought you might like. I hope when you wake up and read it, it fills your day with the zest of a warm orange sun. I hope it’s a happy day. Heart to open palm offerings of light. Let me raise you up. Let me believe in you.
Did you know it’s only natural for the moon to be drawn to the suns light? I’ll reflect it back at you.
2024.05.29 04:29 Altruistic_Attempt23 AITA for not wanting to go to Orlando for my birthday
I'm turning 17 and for my birthday my mom's taking me and my 4 siblings to Orlando, since I live in FL, I've been to Orlando for plenty of my birthdays / holidays.
I hate it.
The claustrophobic hotels, the water parks, the long claustrophobic car ride, Im just not a fan at all. I don't mean to sound ungrateful, I love my family, I love my mom, but I hate trips to Orlando (or any road trips tbh it's not not my thing). I actually told her multiple times prior that I didn't want to go to a water park or Orlando, every time she asked what I wanted to do for my birthday the answer was "I'm not sure, I just know I don't want to go to Orlando" and then she excitedly told me we were going to Orlando a few days ago.
The thing is me and my brother are sharing this birthday since we were born 5 days apart, (he's turning 7). I know if I bring it up it'll be "well it's his birthday too". He would enjoy any thing, he's 7. It's MY birthday too. Why not do smth we both enjoy, instead of just him and labeling it as "his too" yk? But at the same time I feel really ungrateful and snobby.. Like it's around a 600$ trip, but I kinda just wanted a BBQ in the back yard or smth small. Or even just going out for dinner or a pool party or smth.
I just can't imagine spending my birthday weekend, happily, in a car for 2 hrs, then a small hotel (with 5 other people, 2 adults and kids ages 11, 7, 3 and 8 months) for 2 days, followed by another 2 hr car ride. On top of that, I'm not really a big fan of water parks in general. (And I've said this on multiple occasions)
I just feel really ungrateful towards my mom, but at the same time I really don't want to do that for my birthday, and Ive made that clear way before, like MONTHS before my birthday was coming up. I just kinda feel like an ass for ruining her plans, I haven't talked to her abt it yet bc she seemed rlly happy abt it, but it makes me rlly frustrated yk?
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I hate it.
The claustrophobic hotels, the water parks, the long claustrophobic car ride, Im just not a fan at all. I don't mean to sound ungrateful, I love my family, I love my mom, but I hate trips to Orlando (or any road trips tbh it's not not my thing). I actually told her multiple times prior that I didn't want to go to a water park or Orlando, every time she asked what I wanted to do for my birthday the answer was "I'm not sure, I just know I don't want to go to Orlando" and then she excitedly told me we were going to Orlando a few days ago.
The thing is me and my brother are sharing this birthday since we were born 5 days apart, (he's turning 7). I know if I bring it up it'll be "well it's his birthday too". He would enjoy any thing, he's 7. It's MY birthday too. Why not do smth we both enjoy, instead of just him and labeling it as "his too" yk? But at the same time I feel really ungrateful and snobby.. Like it's around a 600$ trip, but I kinda just wanted a BBQ in the back yard or smth small. Or even just going out for dinner or a pool party or smth.
I just can't imagine spending my birthday weekend, happily, in a car for 2 hrs, then a small hotel (with 5 other people, 2 adults and kids ages 11, 7, 3 and 8 months) for 2 days, followed by another 2 hr car ride. On top of that, I'm not really a big fan of water parks in general. (And I've said this on multiple occasions)
I just feel really ungrateful towards my mom, but at the same time I really don't want to do that for my birthday, and Ive made that clear way before, like MONTHS before my birthday was coming up. I just kinda feel like an ass for ruining her plans, I haven't talked to her abt it yet bc she seemed rlly happy abt it, but it makes me rlly frustrated yk?
2024.05.29 04:28 Strange_Public_1897 Ahh rebounds…
I feel like since summer is approaching in the northern tropical hemisphere, that means rebounds and summer flings are going to be on the up and up.
So I’m here to help those who may not be aware of what a rebound actually looks like in paper and maybe have no idea they were in one at some point.
Heck, it can help many keep a grounded view of their ex is currently rebounding. It’ll help you cope a bit easier when you make sense of why they may have just suddenly in 60 days or less randomly jumped into a new relationship far too soon!
Anyway, let’s dive into this topic.
A rebound relationship means starting a new relationship before emotionally healing from a recent breakup.
Some people may use rebounds to suppress their emotions, get revenge on their ex, or avoid feeling alone.
The signs of a rebound relationship may be challenging to recognize, but emotionally unavailable people often focus on their past partners and fear commitment.
A rebound relationship typically develops when one person remains hyperfocused on their previous partner, keeping them from being fully present or invested in their new partnership.
Someone may harbor old feelings for an ex, whether positive or negative. Getting into another relationship before emotionally healing from the last one can leave their new partner feeling alone, invalidated, and underappreciated.
Here are ten signs you’re in a rebound relationship:
However, your partner may be unintentionally rebounding, and your relationship is not necessarily doomed. There are many different reasons people look for rebound relationships.
Sometimes they want to improve their self-esteem or get over someone they love.
Common reasons people seek rebound relationships include:
• To get over an ex: Getting into a new relationship can help people find a resolution over an ex-partner.
• To form an emotional connection: Someone may seek out a new relationship for the emotional connection they crave. When done in a forthcoming way, this can actually be healthy and even healing.
• To make their ex jealous: People who start new relationships and parade the new partner around often do so to make their ex jealous.
• To fill a void: Many people with anxious attachment or low self-esteem struggle with being alone. They might immediately find a new partner to avoid this uncomfortable feeling.
• To prove to themselves their recent breakup wasn’t their fault: A person may seek a rebound relationship if they worry about how they look to outsiders. Perhaps they are embarrassed or worried that they look bad to mutual friends and family after a breakup.
What to Do If You Are in a Rebound Relationship?
If you are in a rebound relationship, take a deep breath. You may blame yourself for the situation, but you probably couldn’t have prevented or changed the relationship.
You cannot force someone to be ready for commitment, and you do not deserve a partner who does not love you.
Here are a few tips on how to cope with being in a rebound relationship:
• Trust yourself: You know true love and care when you feel it. Don’t let a rebounding partner convince you otherwise.
• Focus on what you can and cannot change: Remember that being a rebound is not your fault. You cannot change the person, so focus on moving forward and finding a partner who values you (if you are ready).
• Practice self-care: Focus inward on your needs. What will help you recover from this situation? Turn to activities that bring you joy and pleasure.
• Leave the relationship: Consider breaking up with your partner if they are not meeting your needs. A rebound situation can be okay, but only if you are comfortable with the relationship boundaries.
• Lean on your support network: Seek support from friends and loved ones. They can provide much-needed guidance during challenging times.
• Get back out there: Don’t let this bad experience turn you off from dating. Many good people are out there waiting–just watch out for the rebounders!
Hopefully this helps answer a lot of questions, helps many learn the signs of one, and puts to rest any thoughts about ex’s for anyone in the group what a rebound actually looks like thru and thru.
Edit: Typo(s)
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So I’m here to help those who may not be aware of what a rebound actually looks like in paper and maybe have no idea they were in one at some point.
Heck, it can help many keep a grounded view of their ex is currently rebounding. It’ll help you cope a bit easier when you make sense of why they may have just suddenly in 60 days or less randomly jumped into a new relationship far too soon!
Anyway, let’s dive into this topic.
A rebound relationship means starting a new relationship before emotionally healing from a recent breakup.
Some people may use rebounds to suppress their emotions, get revenge on their ex, or avoid feeling alone.
The signs of a rebound relationship may be challenging to recognize, but emotionally unavailable people often focus on their past partners and fear commitment.
A rebound relationship typically develops when one person remains hyperfocused on their previous partner, keeping them from being fully present or invested in their new partnership.
Someone may harbor old feelings for an ex, whether positive or negative. Getting into another relationship before emotionally healing from the last one can leave their new partner feeling alone, invalidated, and underappreciated.
Here are ten signs you’re in a rebound relationship:
- They Were in a Recent Breakup. The time needed to heal from a breakup depends on many factors, such as emotional investment and connection. People struggling with a recent breakup often seek ways to fill the void of a former partner. Therefore, you may be the rebound if your partner has ended a relationship within the last few months.
- The Relationship Is Moving Very Fast. Your partner may be rebounding if the relationship is progressing faster than typical. People in rebound relationships often want to convince themselves (and others) that the relationship is genuine. They may push you to have sex, define the relationship, or even move in with them sooner than expected.
- They Keep Comparing You to Their Ex. Another warning sign of a rebound relationship is constant comparisons to an ex. A rebounding partner views your actions, looks, and personality through a specific lens, expecting you to behave and appear the same as their ex.
- They Have a Fear of Commitment. While commitment issues do not always hint to a rebound relationship, they can show the person is not ready to move forward with you. You may struggle with this, especially if you are willing to commit to this person.
- The Focus of the Relationship is Sex. You may be in a rebound relationship if your partner is only interested in sex. Pay attention if you only get together for sex or avoid doing activities together outside of the bedroom.
- Their Ex Is Always Around. Your partner may see you as a way to get back at their ex if you “coincidentally” run into them frequently. Your partner could monitor their ex’s social media to keep tabs on their location so they can “accidentally” run into them. In this case, you are the decoy used to create jealousy in the ex.
- They Aren’t Trying to Get to Know You. A major red flag is when your new partner doesn’t care about important information, like your birthday, college major, or dog’s name. They may not be not interested in getting to know the real you, seeing you only as a stand-in for their ex.
- They’re Always Posting on Social Media. Many rebounding people want their exes to see how “happy” they are with their new partners. For example, they may excessively post videos and pictures of their relationship with you. This behavior is out of jealousy and spite, not genuine love for you.
- They Seem Really Bitter or Angry at Their Ex. A big sign someone is not over their past relationship is having unresolved bitterness or anger about an ex. Speaking poorly or bitterly about an ex is often a sign of a rebound relationship. They are not ready–or able–to move forward with you.
- You Have a Bad Feeling Something Is Off. Our gut usually tells us when something isn’t right. You can’t quite put your finger on it, but the relationship just isn’t working. Perhaps you feel they are being dishonest or untruthful about their past relationship. Trust your gut.
However, your partner may be unintentionally rebounding, and your relationship is not necessarily doomed. There are many different reasons people look for rebound relationships.
Sometimes they want to improve their self-esteem or get over someone they love.
Common reasons people seek rebound relationships include:
• To get over an ex: Getting into a new relationship can help people find a resolution over an ex-partner.
• To form an emotional connection: Someone may seek out a new relationship for the emotional connection they crave. When done in a forthcoming way, this can actually be healthy and even healing.
• To make their ex jealous: People who start new relationships and parade the new partner around often do so to make their ex jealous.
• To fill a void: Many people with anxious attachment or low self-esteem struggle with being alone. They might immediately find a new partner to avoid this uncomfortable feeling.
• To prove to themselves their recent breakup wasn’t their fault: A person may seek a rebound relationship if they worry about how they look to outsiders. Perhaps they are embarrassed or worried that they look bad to mutual friends and family after a breakup.
What to Do If You Are in a Rebound Relationship?
If you are in a rebound relationship, take a deep breath. You may blame yourself for the situation, but you probably couldn’t have prevented or changed the relationship.
You cannot force someone to be ready for commitment, and you do not deserve a partner who does not love you.
Here are a few tips on how to cope with being in a rebound relationship:
• Trust yourself: You know true love and care when you feel it. Don’t let a rebounding partner convince you otherwise.
• Focus on what you can and cannot change: Remember that being a rebound is not your fault. You cannot change the person, so focus on moving forward and finding a partner who values you (if you are ready).
• Practice self-care: Focus inward on your needs. What will help you recover from this situation? Turn to activities that bring you joy and pleasure.
• Leave the relationship: Consider breaking up with your partner if they are not meeting your needs. A rebound situation can be okay, but only if you are comfortable with the relationship boundaries.
• Lean on your support network: Seek support from friends and loved ones. They can provide much-needed guidance during challenging times.
• Get back out there: Don’t let this bad experience turn you off from dating. Many good people are out there waiting–just watch out for the rebounders!
Hopefully this helps answer a lot of questions, helps many learn the signs of one, and puts to rest any thoughts about ex’s for anyone in the group what a rebound actually looks like thru and thru.
Edit: Typo(s)
2024.05.29 04:26 shebebutlittle555 How do I (21F) start caring less when my parents (57M and 56F) start to fight?
Hello, everyone. This is a completely stupid issue, I know, but it’s something that’s really been bothering me and I could use some help with it.
My parents (ages listed above) often have extreme fights. Nothing physically violent, mind you, but more like a lot of screaming/swearing/insults (e.g. “fuck you”, “you bitch”, etc.) These fights can go on for well over two hours, and often happen in short bursts (like, they’ll fight for an hour, then somebody will leave the house, then they’ll start up again.) They often do this in front of their kids (me and my brother, also 21), and sometimes even incorporate us into the fights. It’s been this way pretty much for as long as I can remember—I think my earliest clear memory of a fight is from when I was about six. Needless to say, it was incredibly frightening to witness.
The problem is that to this day, if I even get a hint that a fight is coming, I start to panic. I’m home right now to celebrate my birthday, and tonight was a particularly tension-filled night. I’ve become hyper-attuned to my parents’ moods, to a degree that is actively uncomfortable to me. Over the years my ability to predict fights has become scarily accurate. I’m some kind of emotional weather reporter, I can tell from the slightest signals when something is off. (I hate having this talent.) I feel like what should be a joyous occasion has suddenly turned into a reenactment of my worst childhood memories, and I don’t know what to do. Even now, I feel like my whole body is wired with adrenaline and my brain is screaming at me to somehow make this better, make it good, make everybody happy.
What do I do here? How do I disengage? How can I balance having a relationship with my parents, whom I love, with keeping myself sane and removed from their drama? My brother seems to have mastered this pretty well, but I’ve really struggled with it. Has anybody else navigated a situation like this? I feel like there’s nobody in my real life that I can talk to and I just need to get this out.
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My parents (ages listed above) often have extreme fights. Nothing physically violent, mind you, but more like a lot of screaming/swearing/insults (e.g. “fuck you”, “you bitch”, etc.) These fights can go on for well over two hours, and often happen in short bursts (like, they’ll fight for an hour, then somebody will leave the house, then they’ll start up again.) They often do this in front of their kids (me and my brother, also 21), and sometimes even incorporate us into the fights. It’s been this way pretty much for as long as I can remember—I think my earliest clear memory of a fight is from when I was about six. Needless to say, it was incredibly frightening to witness.
The problem is that to this day, if I even get a hint that a fight is coming, I start to panic. I’m home right now to celebrate my birthday, and tonight was a particularly tension-filled night. I’ve become hyper-attuned to my parents’ moods, to a degree that is actively uncomfortable to me. Over the years my ability to predict fights has become scarily accurate. I’m some kind of emotional weather reporter, I can tell from the slightest signals when something is off. (I hate having this talent.) I feel like what should be a joyous occasion has suddenly turned into a reenactment of my worst childhood memories, and I don’t know what to do. Even now, I feel like my whole body is wired with adrenaline and my brain is screaming at me to somehow make this better, make it good, make everybody happy.
What do I do here? How do I disengage? How can I balance having a relationship with my parents, whom I love, with keeping myself sane and removed from their drama? My brother seems to have mastered this pretty well, but I’ve really struggled with it. Has anybody else navigated a situation like this? I feel like there’s nobody in my real life that I can talk to and I just need to get this out.
2024.05.29 04:23 GrownUpGirlScout June 13th, I Can See You, Mean, and Taylor Starting a Fire in Liverpool? PART TWO-ICSY Video and Taylor's Selves Escaping and Setting Fire to her Past
 | In part one, I discussed my theory that the music video for Mean featured characters who were representations of either Taylor herself or explorations of her personal experiences with being bullied by mean people. submitted by GrownUpGirlScout to GaylorSwift [link] [comments] With that in mind, I think the video for I Can See You is a continuation on that idea and theme, as well as a easter egg for a resolution to the story Taylor is telling. In the I Can See You video, the first character we are able to fully see is Presley Cash. She has 3 stars drawn on her cheek, a direct connection to her character in the Mean music video, who was working as a "star" at a diner. https://preview.redd.it/yjsytt34883d1.png?width=1469&format=png&auto=webp&s=d5601419d3926dac8433f552d975946b0f6db26c When Presley Cash came out on stage after the premier of the video, she was wearing an outfit featuring sequin stars. https://preview.redd.it/9gcdb8wi883d1.png?width=1201&format=png&auto=webp&s=887c26701351cb1bdc0b786fe60bc9c167f48e67 Also of note? Presley Cash's birthday is June 13!!! This past December she posted on instagram a behind the scenes "photo" (its one still image, but it has a video transition sort of filter over it, and the song playing during it is ME!) from the video shoot on Taylor's birthday saying "it’s a “blondies born on the 13th kind of thing”. The hashtags on the photo include #mastermind, #gemini, #sagittarius, #June 13, #December 13, and #twinning. Sagittarius (the archer, Taylor's sign) is a fire sign while Gemini (the twins, Presley's sign) is an air sign. Fire needs air to burn... https://preview.redd.it/5p9ppgy5b83d1.png?width=1370&format=png&auto=webp&s=d40ef2616553e6260d17f9bfecfdc07518cde90e Next, we are finally able to see a clear shot of Joey King as she is working on breaking into the vault. https://preview.redd.it/f0h1xfswb83d1.png?width=1533&format=png&auto=webp&s=85e12e58dcf4a6f3c5cfab8ecb6e66a18a0b5627 She gets through the security lasers, makes it to the "Speak Now Museum" outside of the vault and is joined by Taylor Lautner, who jumps down from the ceiling. https://preview.redd.it/3ro0j6kec83d1.png?width=1493&format=png&auto=webp&s=fc61fb6e2e59dfedcbec86c013d5f0b01bda261a They walk through the "museum" while Taylor paces back and forth inside her vault. There are A LOT of pieces, all from the Speak Now era, but all from different contexts. There are set pieces from her Speak Now tour, there are clothes from tour, clothes from award shows, musical instruments, outfits from press and media and music videos. King and Lautner are walking together through these artifacts and they come to the dress Joey King wears in the Mean music video. Inside the case with the dress, there is a photo of King with Swift as a child, and there's a moment where Lautner and King are acknowledging one another and acknowledging a connection to this moment from the past. In this shot, you can see that the 4 outfits prominently featured are all from the Mean music video-train track Taylor's dress, the dress she wore with her hair braided and her band, then the dress she wore when she finally performs for King at the end of the video. Buuuut, King's dress is pretty much the only outfit in the entire "museum" Taylor did not wear herself during this time period. She could have included it just as a nod to King being in the video, but then it's a little odd to me she didn't include any other costumes worn by other people in her music videos? I think it's a way of pointing out how the girl from the Mean video is a notable part of Taylor's personal history from this time. https://preview.redd.it/hbmdv7d7e83d1.png?width=1502&format=png&auto=webp&s=73b5faf69fef103d9950b4b378a5cd99ba8e5087 There seems to be only one other outfit in the museum which was probably not worn by Taylor herself and the clearest view of it is off to the side of King's dress when we see the picture of her inside the dress display. https://preview.redd.it/mxpz1ar1g83d1.png?width=2651&format=png&auto=webp&s=cedb448965fba077b9ee62ac7f3fb2189b31b335 I've seen some different ideas of what the outfit might be-some theories it may be the outfit the boy in the Back to December video is wearing and other theories about it being an outfit Taylor was photographed wearing during that era. But I wonder if it might actually be this outfit, the suit worn by the "bullied young boy" from the Mean music video. https://preview.redd.it/pcltbyw2h83d1.png?width=2268&format=png&auto=webp&s=ca6707c1bd456e0860de903e6ea3483d7bcbefa1 It's VERY difficult to see clearly what that outfit is but to me it would make a lot of sense for it to be the suit the "bullied young boy" wears. One-because it would be a nod to an important character in that music video, who otherwise goes somewhat oddly unacknowledged in I Can See You. Two-It would, I think, establish more strongly the link between the "characters" from Mean being being versions of Taylor because they are the only pieces in the museum we see which Taylor did not wear (or use) herself. I think they're meant to be a stronger visual clue than just outfits which happened to be in her music video-because why would those be the ONLY other non-Taylor worn outfits featured? And why did she SPECIFICALLY want to draw us back to Mean at all in I Can See You? I did not see any outfits worn by Presley Cash in the museum, which I was surprised by because I kind of expected it. But, then I began to wonder if--the version of Taylor who is a "star" isn't stuck in this past, isn't stuck in the vault? That version of Taylor she portrayed in the Mean video-the girl whose peers try to come after her and dull her shine, who gets smarter, who goes to the city and works hard, she is already free-and that's why she is the one coordinating the escape? I dunno. But I think it was certainly an intentional choice. So I mentioned in the last part that I find it notable and interesting that Taylor chose to cast Taylor Lautner in this video. While yes, the video is general-Speak Now-era heavy, she is still FOR SURE drawing our attention to Mean. Instead of speculating on why the original actor who played "bullied young boy" wasn't cast, I'm going to speculate on why Taylor Lautner WAS. 1-I think she wanted the roles of the original Mean "characters" and those versions of herself/that story to be featured and called back upon, and so she wanted the 4th character to be included and she wanted the 4th character to be male. I don't think that Lautner is supposed to be the "adult" version of the boy from the Mean video necessarily, but I think he's supposed to be a stand in for someone who represents a part of Taylor which was bullied and ridiculed for her relationships choices (both public and private) during that time, specifically. I also think it's a bit of a Theylor thing, making the intentional choice to cast a "part" of herself as a man-as a way of expressing herself while throwing people off the idea that she may be identifying with that particular part of the story is a very Taylor thing to do. 2-His name is Taylor and she REALLY likes to point out the "Taylor? Taylor? Taylor? Which one's the real Taylor!?" of it all, as illustrated in the meme she posted on Instagram when announcing the video. Swift, Lautner, and his wife (also named Taylor) recreated the classic Spider-Man meme where a bunch of spider men are pointing at one another, trying to figure out who is the real Spider Man. In the caption of the instagram post she writes "Tale of 3 Taylors". Hmmmmm. Which 3 Taylors is she telling the tale of? She cast someone who would specifically make the narrative of the video "Taylor rescues Taylor from vault where she is being held hostage." https://preview.redd.it/hwxysw2pr83d1.png?width=1235&format=png&auto=webp&s=7a2b8eb544fe37ed321498c333ef864701641bcf 3-I think Taylor Lautner is a big honking arrow pointing at the PR-meta aspects of Taylor's past. I personally don't think Taylor Lautner was a beard, but I absolutely believe he was a PR relationship. I think casting him points people back towards this and maybe gets them thinking about WHY he of everyone she's "dated" is someone with whom there's never really been any hint of animosity. And if she got along with him so well and still seems to get along with him well, why does no one ever speculate she's still singing about him being the one who got away? Casting him in this and inviting him to the stage during tour and inviting his wife to tour and being friendly with them all seems to cement him VERY firmly in the Speak Now era, as well as pre-empting possible speculation, knowing her next release is going to invite a TON of speculation. As the music video continues King and Lautner break into the Vault where Taylor is being held. Vault Taylor's behavior throughout the video is interesting as well. She is waiting, she is anticipating, she is preparing. She isn't trying to get out. She sits on a bench lounging and looking at the walls where there are hash marks either counting up or counting down the days. She carefully uncovers her music on the wall. She listens for her rescuers. When they finally arrive, she looks relieved and happy to see them, but she doesn't seem surprised necessarily. But also, she also very obviously KNOWS them and TRUSTS them immediately. Knows and trusts them enough to rescue her. Knows and trusts them enough to follow them into gunfire. https://preview.redd.it/qzsetls9z93d1.png?width=1979&format=png&auto=webp&s=b25dcb13b60bbc4c3044bca3b0b7d5093a5b0e7a I don't think it's completely outside the realm of possibility that it's meant to be seen as her knowing and trusting Taylor Lautner (her ex boyfriend-he is as far as it seems supposed to be playing "himself" in this video?) and Joey King. But then, who is King supposed to be? The actress who played a character in one of her music videos over ten years ago? Or that "character" now grown? Maybe she was and still is supposed to be a representation of Taylor's fans but...I dunno. It makes a lot more sense to me for it to be a moment of Taylor recognizing parts of her self or even metaphorical parts of her past, and that being the reason she trusts them. Taylor has made it VERY clear that she sees herself as always ending up alone in a battle and feeling as if she's the only one she can trust. https://preview.redd.it/dxho8m9le93d1.png?width=2457&format=png&auto=webp&s=6ec5a821c19d264f54f48ef59f54826c20d29f3a With Speak Now (TV) already in hand (again, as if she was ready to go, anticipating a rescue) the three run from the building while ducking bullets as the glass surrounding the artifacts of Speak Now shatter. https://preview.redd.it/oltfwwc2g93d1.png?width=2712&format=png&auto=webp&s=5856aef1ee58c785dae66f79962326f74d8d3808 Presley Cash flips a switch that begins an explosion just as the three exit the building. I again think this is a subtle indication of Taylor's trust of the people involved in this heist, that she seems to know and accept that in order to escape she HAS to blow up some of the most deeply personal parts of her history. An indication that they are people she trusts COMPLETELY to get her and her music (the most important part of her past) out safely. Again, I think the only person Taylor truly trusts to pull this off is herself. https://preview.redd.it/fc4w54l5j93d1.png?width=2415&format=png&auto=webp&s=61aefbd4e6c0af666562fe59c72ae8c2fc6d12c9 Taylor gives the building where she has been held captive one last look, and her companions yell for her to get into the van. https://preview.redd.it/ncaymbk8j93d1.png?width=2835&format=png&auto=webp&s=4c67a819740179f55cca448f5af6d4503b4dab98 They drive away https://preview.redd.it/gkjit9k0k93d1.png?width=2776&format=png&auto=webp&s=b607f90f58bd6de7118f3e6730edbe37bf1ea3b7 I believe ALL of this is connected to the upcoming 100th show on June 13 in Liverpool. I think I Can See You set up an entire premise that something is going to happen in Liverpool that is going to destroy the public image of her past. She and her music are going to escape, but all of these memories that WE recognize of HER also have to be lost in order for that to happen. She just KEEPS using all of this burning, exploding, destructive imagery-but what has she burned down? As far as the public narrative goes, Taylor's plans to re-claim her music has not had to include a total and compete destruction of anything. It started off as a very risky move, but by the time this video was filmed I think it was clear Taylor's entire re-record project was going to be a huge success-she even uses the final shots to tease the next one, further indicating that she had a Plan with this video. The Liverpool Film Office has a post talking about Taylor filming the video. It includes a list of locations which gives even more evidence that Taylor was very thoughtful about where she chose to film this video in particular.
ANYWAY. Thanks all for clowning around with me a bit on this. =) Truly Taylor's burning, exploding, escaping, destroying imagery takes up a TON of space in my brain and it just keeps getting more and more intense and the countdown is getting closer and closer and yeah. I can't stop making connections!!!! And I'm very excited to see what the rest of this year brings!!!!!! |
2024.05.29 04:21 lcfamigli Is this too far gone?
 | I found rooted node cuttings of an aurea monstera on fb market place. I decided to treat myself for my birthday this upcoming Thursday because ive always wanted one. ANYWAY I picked it up today at 715pm and as soon as I got a decent look once I got home I got a bad feeling because of the yellowish and dark spots & decided to look at the roots - they were ALL black and rotted, to the point where I had to cut to the very bone of the node. submitted by lcfamigli to plantclinic [link] [comments] I feel like there's no hope here, but am I wrong? I made a makeshift greenhouse with sphagnum moss and plastic cups. Should I try to get her back with water propagation instead? I've never tried the moss way, but I want the best chance possible and it's really hard to put this small piece in water. I am placing her in an east window which will get bright indirect light daily (one of my other monsteras are nearby and thrive in this spot) Thankfully the seller refunded me and apologized. I told them I'd be happy to give the money back if I can rehab her but I'm feeling disappointed and hopeless. I know most plants WANT to live and all my other monsteras bounce back, but this is my first aurea and I'm super nervous. Any tips or even hopeful comments would help |
2024.05.29 04:20 carla343434 Stoic poem I wrote
Sharing a poem I wrote, inspired by how I felt in the moment while following my heart, travelling the world with my family, and not listening to anyone else’s opinion of what I should do with my life … :)
Would love to receive feedback about what you felt and perhaps how you interpreted it.
❤️❤️
“And it is true,” she said, “that you hold the key, to not only your own happiness, but to the creation of your reality aswell.”
She looked up at the starry night sky, and smiled at its beauty.
“For you see, everything is made up of consciousness. We are in a thinking universe and all possibilities exist right now, in waves.”
Her essence exuded wisdom beyond her years.
“Your thought is what wills.” She continued.
“You are the creator of your own destiny. You are the ruler of those waves.”
💫💫
submitted by carla343434 to StoicMemes [link] [comments]
Would love to receive feedback about what you felt and perhaps how you interpreted it.
❤️❤️
“And it is true,” she said, “that you hold the key, to not only your own happiness, but to the creation of your reality aswell.”
She looked up at the starry night sky, and smiled at its beauty.
“For you see, everything is made up of consciousness. We are in a thinking universe and all possibilities exist right now, in waves.”
Her essence exuded wisdom beyond her years.
“Your thought is what wills.” She continued.
“You are the creator of your own destiny. You are the ruler of those waves.”
💫💫
2024.05.29 04:15 carla343434 Stoic poem I wrote
Sharing a poem I wrote, inspired by how I felt in the moment while following my heart, travelling the world with my family, and not listening to anyone else’s opinion of what I should do with my life … :)
Would love to receive feedback about what you felt and perhaps how you interpreted it.
❤️❤️
“And it is true,” she said, “that you hold the key, to not only your own happiness, but to the creation of your reality aswell.”
She looked up at the starry night sky, and smiled at its beauty.
“For you see, everything is made up of consciousness. We are in a thinking universe and all possibilities exist right now, in waves.”
Her essence exuded wisdom beyond her years.
“Your thought is what wills.” She continued.
“You are the creator of your own destiny. You are the ruler of those waves.”
💫💫
submitted by carla343434 to Stoicism [link] [comments]
Would love to receive feedback about what you felt and perhaps how you interpreted it.
❤️❤️
“And it is true,” she said, “that you hold the key, to not only your own happiness, but to the creation of your reality aswell.”
She looked up at the starry night sky, and smiled at its beauty.
“For you see, everything is made up of consciousness. We are in a thinking universe and all possibilities exist right now, in waves.”
Her essence exuded wisdom beyond her years.
“Your thought is what wills.” She continued.
“You are the creator of your own destiny. You are the ruler of those waves.”
💫💫
2024.05.29 04:08 SunnyFLVet67 Struggling Single mom of 2 in between job's -- Amazon Grocery List Request
Hello I am a single mother of 2, I left my previous job of 3 years to get a dream job in hospitality, however the hospitality job does not start until 6/14 and I probably won't see a paycheck until 6/21 or even later from what I've been told via training schedules and my last paycheck was half of what it was supposed to be, putting me in a tight spot.
I've managed to get my bills covered somehow but not the groceries....
I cannot get food stamps or unemployment in time before the new job starts.
My daughter turns 5 on the 9th.... and while I was barely able to celebrate my other daughter's birthday earlier in the year, I hope to makee it up to them by Christmas with the new job.
Title says it all, I made a wish list for the things that would help from Amazon
I sorted it by priority and put the only thing I "needed" myself (coffee!) at the bottom of that priority...
https://www.amazon.com/hz/wishlist/ls/2ZSBSOW570VO3?ref_=wl_share
(Since I won't be able to buy my beautiful little princess anything for her birthday and she saw me shopping on Amazon....She asked me to "get her any disney outfits" for her birthday -- Considering I won't be able to afford them with a lot of hesitance, ugh.... I did add a few things that she wanted at the bottom of the priority list as well. and i don't expect that to happen, it's fine.
The food is all that's important and honestly Amazon is rather expensive I could get what I need to get by from walmart for $75 -$100 I decided to make a post as these seem to have a lot better luck than just asking for "money")
I do have a cash app but honestly I'm just trying to survive and give her a little happiness on her big day and the groceries are what's important now that bills are covered.
Anything helps.
I know that there are SOME decent people out there in this world still and I usually do everything I can to keep Karma on my side.
Rather if you are negative or positive in the replies for my desparation and post that makes me feel like less of a mother, I truly hope you are blessed and thank you either way
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I've managed to get my bills covered somehow but not the groceries....
I cannot get food stamps or unemployment in time before the new job starts.
My daughter turns 5 on the 9th.... and while I was barely able to celebrate my other daughter's birthday earlier in the year, I hope to makee it up to them by Christmas with the new job.
Title says it all, I made a wish list for the things that would help from Amazon
I sorted it by priority and put the only thing I "needed" myself (coffee!) at the bottom of that priority...
https://www.amazon.com/hz/wishlist/ls/2ZSBSOW570VO3?ref_=wl_share
(Since I won't be able to buy my beautiful little princess anything for her birthday and she saw me shopping on Amazon....She asked me to "get her any disney outfits" for her birthday -- Considering I won't be able to afford them with a lot of hesitance, ugh.... I did add a few things that she wanted at the bottom of the priority list as well. and i don't expect that to happen, it's fine.
The food is all that's important and honestly Amazon is rather expensive I could get what I need to get by from walmart for $75 -$100 I decided to make a post as these seem to have a lot better luck than just asking for "money")
I do have a cash app but honestly I'm just trying to survive and give her a little happiness on her big day and the groceries are what's important now that bills are covered.
Anything helps.
I know that there are SOME decent people out there in this world still and I usually do everything I can to keep Karma on my side.
Rather if you are negative or positive in the replies for my desparation and post that makes me feel like less of a mother, I truly hope you are blessed and thank you either way
2024.05.29 04:07 Dude3243121221 I thought it was going to be different this time,and I dont know what to do anymore.
hello,first post here Its late and I dont want to get into much details,but Im in highschool and she is another one,we both were the same age when it all happened (16)
Two years ago (If I remember correctly?) I met this girl from my school and we got a relationship that ended for a number of reasons: She basically forced me to do stuff and aslo I am pretty sure she was kind of cheating of me (flirting with her best friend) and I cut off all contact after the school break,now last year I coped with seeing her daily and all that and nowadays I have surpassed the trauma from that,but it was hard because it was my first relationship,but anyway I beat it and promised myself that I wouldnt fall in love again until I was a full thinking adult.
I broke it,around october-november of last year I was desperate to find someone to love again,and now I know I was an idiot but I just wanted someone to love me,damn how stupid can one be?
As I said I was desperate and one day I met this girl from my neighbourhood in a supermarket around december of last year (again),at first I didnt think much of it,I just took it as an ocassional meeting,but next day she sent me a text to talk a bit,we talked for a bit and I found out she was basically an opposite gender version of me,wich was something I wanted,heck we even got in call that lasted around two hours just chatting about each others interests,so we planned and a few days later we hanged out around the neighbourhood and after hanging out the whole day she told me she liked me,now at first I didnt know what to say but I said I liked her too,after that we hanged out for three months and it was amazing at first and I was happy,but it would soon became what I feared,a relationship only moved by intimacy,now she told me that she wanted to "try some stuff together" and I knew where that was going but I wanted to make her happy and I said maybe,after that if just went downhill like in my first one but it was worse because I wasnt being forced I was enjoyng it and I hated that I was completely ok with it,so I decided I wanted to break up with her,but I still didnt want to hurt her,but then something terrible happened: she cheated me,not only that she TOLD me that she cheated on me and was expecting that I would forgive her the story she told me was that a new kid came to her school and started flirting with her,she flirted BACK and even told him that she wanted to "give a chance with him" all of this was because one saturday I couldnt hang out due to finals and she did that,when she told me I couldnt belive she was expecting me to forgive her somehow.Worst of all,everything happened only 10 days before my birthday.
So a few weeks later I broke up with her via text and blocked her,and since I have been tryng to cope with it but its hard as she lives exactly outside my house and I have done my best to avoid her (wich has been kind of succesfull) and distrcact myself,but it isnt working the grief the regret and the anger are eating me alive,I havent slept well this month because of this and I just cant take it anymore,I need help and I dont know what to do,she even called me onc (I didnt accept the call) and I honestly went to this subreddit as a only hope as I cant find help anywhere,any advice on what to do would be appreciated a lot,am I an asshole? or was she in the wrong I dont even know anymore
thank you for any help you can provide.
(sorry for any mistakes or bad english,it is not my main lenguage)
submitted by Dude3243121221 to BreakUp [link] [comments]
Two years ago (If I remember correctly?) I met this girl from my school and we got a relationship that ended for a number of reasons: She basically forced me to do stuff and aslo I am pretty sure she was kind of cheating of me (flirting with her best friend) and I cut off all contact after the school break,now last year I coped with seeing her daily and all that and nowadays I have surpassed the trauma from that,but it was hard because it was my first relationship,but anyway I beat it and promised myself that I wouldnt fall in love again until I was a full thinking adult.
I broke it,around october-november of last year I was desperate to find someone to love again,and now I know I was an idiot but I just wanted someone to love me,damn how stupid can one be?
As I said I was desperate and one day I met this girl from my neighbourhood in a supermarket around december of last year (again),at first I didnt think much of it,I just took it as an ocassional meeting,but next day she sent me a text to talk a bit,we talked for a bit and I found out she was basically an opposite gender version of me,wich was something I wanted,heck we even got in call that lasted around two hours just chatting about each others interests,so we planned and a few days later we hanged out around the neighbourhood and after hanging out the whole day she told me she liked me,now at first I didnt know what to say but I said I liked her too,after that we hanged out for three months and it was amazing at first and I was happy,but it would soon became what I feared,a relationship only moved by intimacy,now she told me that she wanted to "try some stuff together" and I knew where that was going but I wanted to make her happy and I said maybe,after that if just went downhill like in my first one but it was worse because I wasnt being forced I was enjoyng it and I hated that I was completely ok with it,so I decided I wanted to break up with her,but I still didnt want to hurt her,but then something terrible happened: she cheated me,not only that she TOLD me that she cheated on me and was expecting that I would forgive her the story she told me was that a new kid came to her school and started flirting with her,she flirted BACK and even told him that she wanted to "give a chance with him" all of this was because one saturday I couldnt hang out due to finals and she did that,when she told me I couldnt belive she was expecting me to forgive her somehow.Worst of all,everything happened only 10 days before my birthday.
So a few weeks later I broke up with her via text and blocked her,and since I have been tryng to cope with it but its hard as she lives exactly outside my house and I have done my best to avoid her (wich has been kind of succesfull) and distrcact myself,but it isnt working the grief the regret and the anger are eating me alive,I havent slept well this month because of this and I just cant take it anymore,I need help and I dont know what to do,she even called me onc (I didnt accept the call) and I honestly went to this subreddit as a only hope as I cant find help anywhere,any advice on what to do would be appreciated a lot,am I an asshole? or was she in the wrong I dont even know anymore
thank you for any help you can provide.
(sorry for any mistakes or bad english,it is not my main lenguage)