I could type a simple message saying that I'd like to find a genuine female platonic best friend for life that feels like family, but it's more detailed than that. I just prefer to be transparent and detailed about a lot of things up front so there's minimal confusion and/or misunderstanding. So here we go.
About Me: - 47 years of age - black male - heterosexual - married with toddlers - USA / North Florida - introvert (INFJ-A for those into MB) - ex-Christian, agnostic / atheist - day job (Multimedia Developer) - ambitious entrepreneur (a builder) - neurodivergent - self-aware - reserved and level headed - silly, sarcastic, and corny - genuine, authentic, and an empath - very selective about the people in my life - very loyal to those I esteem a real friend - kind of a nerd/techie about filmmaking, music, new technology, crypto, AI, etc. - somewhat frugal and budget oriented
Interests & Hobbies: - filmmaking, composing music, animating, voice overs, photography, web development - bowling - billiards - game nights (card games, Jenga, Taboo, etc.) - movie nights (theater or binging at home) - sci-fi, thrillers, dystopian, comedy, horror, cartoons, superhero, space documentaries, action, adventure - chilling at the beach - even though I'm kind of a homebody, I enjoy walking and jogging - small road trips or cultural travel with a small group - trying new restaurants out - retro video games
Not Into: - not into smoking, vaping, 420, drinking, drugs - i have no tattoos or body piercings - never been the party type - not into big and overcrowded social events - not a dancer - not a huge risk taker
Lacking: - close friendships/family for in-person support and community
Needs: - someone that can genuinely understand/relate to the hardships of being an ex-Christian turned atheist - someone who can handle a deep level of openness (listening and sharing) without being judgmental and jumping to conclusions about things - someone who genuinely desires a close family like bond and is willing to put the time and effort into building it - someone that's not a smoker, drinker, and not into drugs and 420 products (I've spent too much time trying to fit in with people that smoke, drink, and do 420. I'm tired of making "I'll be the designated driver" jokes. I just need someone who's not into those things either.) - please be comfortable with my age if you are 15+ years younger. As I look maybe 10 years younger than my age and may be more open minded than many people my age, big age gaps can pose relatability issues. Just be mindful
As I'm open to platonic online friendships/family, I know I won't do as well with them long-term since I'm really hoping to make some long-term in-person friendships/family connections which would include meeting and hanging out in real life. Again, just being up front and transparent.
But with that being said, I haven't found anyone in my area that I feel connected to. So it only makes sense to consider people from anywhere. But the chemistry has to be there. But if anything is going to last, we'd have to figure a way to connect in person.
Also, I don't care about your orientation, if you are married, single, have children, are poly, or whatever. I'm just looking for someone I can connect with that feels like family.
Anyway, I always feel like I can't articulate what I'm looking for properly, but if this post piqued your interest and you feel you might be someone I'd like to connect with, send me a message.

In June 2021 I found out that a former client named suman som who had done black magic to me. He asked me to message his "psychic" about how he is working on my energy. I did not know what it means for him to work on my energy at that point, but I would soon find out he was referring to black magic. I also do not believe in psychics and I understand that both Islam and Christianity consider the practice of divination to be sinful, and most psychic claim to have the ability to perform divination. But because he was a client and I wanted to do what he said, I emailed the psychic. The first thing she told me is "black magic was done to you by suman som, he did this out of jealousy of Sylvia. She was a sex worker that had a genuine attraction to you"
The moment I read the statement "black magic was done to you" I suddenly felt as though I had no free will. Literally all my actions felt controlled by suman som. See I had not believed magic was real up until this point. After asking several friends if they believe black magic is real I would come to find out you can see black magic in the form of a chord connected between two auras if you know how to do astral projection. Through asking friends they would all tell me that roughly 1/3 of the US population has had black magic done to them. i would soon discover that if you tell someone with black magic that "black magic was done to you" they snap out and realize they have no free will. I stopped talking to the psychic mostly because if she is aware someone with black magic will snap out when told, she must have done white magic before. White magic is also a sin according to both Muslim and Christian scholars.
While I had black magic first done to me in 2019, it would appear that as soon as suman met me he did black magic to me. After meeting suman and having black magic done to me I started to engage in unethical behavior. I started a business where I would buy visa and Amazon gift cards on a website called paxful. While not illegal due to the special license paxful had, it was unethical because the gift cards mostly come from scams.
A few months after finding out I had black magic done to me I punched two police in the face. I literally called 911 and when two police showed up I punched them both in the face leaving one with a black eye and a second officer with a broken nose and deviated septum. This may have been sinful if both poli ce are not cable of seeing black magic through astral projection.
While in jail for this I would tell inmates black magic was done to you by someone. If they said they felt strange after hearing that then I would explain some officers are free of magic and can see they have black magic using astral projection. I then instructed them to identify these officers and punch them in the face like I did. Over the course of 2 years I was in jail roughly two dozen inmates punched jail guards in the face for not fixing black magic. This may have been sinful or May not have been I don't know.
I also engaged in premarital sex after finding out black magic was done to me. The witch suman som told me to hire prostitutes for him so I did that and also hired some for myself. This made him jealous because some of the prostitutes had genuine attractions to me and asked if we could date each other. The prostitutes never asked suman to date so he got very angry at me at one point and kicked me out of his apartment over this.
My question is whether I can be forgiven for all this? My lack of free will forces me to continue the paxful business and while it's not illegal, It is unethical and I want to stop doing it right now.
My question truely is whether I will still enter paradise?

Live Music

• Joshua "Tennessee" Worthy, Mill Top Tavern, 12:00 pm – 4:00 pm
• Cliff Dorsey, Pierre's Pub, 1:00 pm – 5:00 pm
• Mike Cook, Backyard Island Cafe at Meehan's, 1:00 pm – 5:00 pm
• ZaZa Flamenca, Bin 39 Wine Bar, 1:00 pm – 4:00 pm
• Mark Evans, Fish House & Oyster Co., 5:00 pm – 9:00 pm
• Sue Seymour Westcott, The Tides Oyster Co. & Grill, 5:00 pm – 8:00 pm
• David Watt Besley, The Tides Oyster Co. & Grill, 5:00 pm – 8:00 pm
• House Cats, Marina Munch, 5:00 pm – 8:00 pm
• Dewey Via, Backyard Island Cafe at Meehan's, 5:00 pm – 8:00 pm
• Aaron Esposito, Embassy Suites by Hilton, 5:00 pm – 8:00 pm
• Ace Winn, DJ's Clam Shack, 5:00 pm – 8:00 pm
• Claire Vandiver, Guy Harvey Resort, 6:00 pm – 9:00 pm
• Bret Blackshear, Crabby's Beachside, 6:00 pm – 9:00 pm
• Wes Register, Mellow Mushroom — St. Johns, 6:00 pm – 9:00 pm
• Christian Powers, Mellow Mushroom — Anastasia Island, 6:00 pm – 9:00 pm
• King Eddie and the Pili Pili, The Cellar Upstairs Wine Bar & Restaurant, 6:00 pm – 10:00 pm
• Walt Kulwicki, Oasis Deck & Restaurant, 6:00 pm – 9:30 pm
• Duffy Bishop Band, Fuzion 904 Eatery, 6:00 pm – 9:00 pm
• Green With Envy, Pierre's Pub, 6:00 pm – 10:00 pm
• Allen Arena, Hurricane Patty's Bar and Grill, 6:00 pm – 9:30 pm
• One Good Ring, 7:00 pm – 10:00 pm
• ZaZa Flamenca, River & Fort, 7:00 pm – 10:00 pm
• Dave's Not Here or Jerry's Other Hand, A1A Ale Works, 8:00 pm – 12:00 am
• Kyra Livingston, Meehan's Irish Pub & Seafood House, 8:00 pm – 12:00 am
• Vegas Gray, Tradewinds Lounge, 9:00 pm – 1:00 am
• Alan Dalton and Terry Campbell, Mill Top Tavern, , 9:00 pm – 12:00 am

First Coast Opera: The Stranger's Tale

• First Coast Opera and the Romanza Festivale present a free performance of The Stranger's Tale, on Friday, May 17, 2024, at noon, at the Ancient City Baptist Church.
• Funded in part by the Romanza Festivale of the Arts and by the National Endowment for the Arts, this opera premiered in 2005 with an original libretto by Nelson Sheeley. First Coast Opera's Artistic Director, Curtis Tucker, wrote additional music for the production.
• escribed as a "story of faith and hope," and written as a companion piece to Stravinsky's L'historie du soldat (A Soldier's Tail,) The Stranger's Tale focuses on modern homelessness and its impact on the unhoused and their communities. Using drama and music, set in a park near a park bench, the entire piece is centered on an unnamed man who is experiencing homelessness.
• At the 2005 premiere, reviewers said that the writing was sincere, the music accessible, and that it was a hit with the audience.
• Admission: Free
• When: Friday, May 17, 2024 at noon.
• Where: Ancient City Baptist Church, 27 Sevilla Street, St. Augustine, Florida.
• First Coast Opera will accept donations at this event to benefit the Homeless Coalition of St. Johns County.
• This event is part of the Romanza Festivale of Music and the Arts, an annual festival of two weeks of historical, cultural, and creative events celebrating all things St. Augustine. From May 3 -19, the nation's oldest city will be jam-packed with music and dance concerts, living history events and historical tours, live theater, and art exhibits.

Romanza Festivale: Author Visit with Elizabeth Randall

• Elizabeth Randall, freelance writer, and author of six non-fiction books and one mystery, will visit with fans and writers at the Voorhees Mission building at St. Cyprians Episcopal Church on Friday, May 17, 2024, from 3:00 to 4:00 p.m. This event, presented by Romanza Festivale, will include wine, cheese, and conversation.
• A retired English teacher, Ms. Randall is an adjunct instructor in English composition at Seminole State College in Sanford. Two of Ms. Randall's non-fiction books feature events in St. Augustine. At this event, Ms. Randall will focus on Murder in St. Augustine, the Mysterious Death of Athalia Ponsell Lindsley. This murder, in 1974, is still discussed and debated among St. Augustine residents.
• Admission: Free.When: Friday, May 17, 2024, from 3:00 to 4:00 p.m.
• Where: In the Voorhees Mission House (on the grounds of St. Cyprians Episcopal Church) at 130 Martin Luther King Avenue, St. Augustine, Florida 32084.
• This event is part of the Romanza Festivale of Music and the Arts, an annual festival of two weeks of historical, cultural, and creative events celebrating all things St. Augustine. From May 3 -19, the nation's oldest city will be jam-packed with music and dance concerts, living history events and historical tours, live theater, and art exhibits.

Before Juneteenth: Emancipations in Florida

• In 1865, 11 days after the end of the Civil War, two years after President Abraham Lincoln's Proclamation, emancipation * was proclaimed in Florida. On Friday, May 17, 2024, from 3:00 to 4:30 p.m., the Lincolnville Museum and Cultural Heritage Center (LMCHC) hosts an event to explain and discuss emancipation in Florida.
• The afternoon will begin with a short documentary, Before Juneteenth: Emancipations in Florida. This documentary is being presented in several Florida communities this season, and Regina Gayle Phillips, LMCHC's executive director is featured in the film. There will be a virtual question and answer session after the viewing with Dr. Tameka Hobbs, Charlene Farrington, Dinizulu Gene Tinnie, and Brittany Flowers.
• Dr. Hobbs, from Fort Lauderdale, is a historian, educator, and activist
• Ms. Farringtion is the museum director of the Spady Cultural Heritage Museum in Delray Beach
• Mr. Tinnie, of Miami, is an artist, educator, and activist
• Brittany Flowers is a filmmaker.
• Admission: $10.00 per person. When: Friday, May 17, 2024, from 3:00 to 4:30 p.m.
• Where: Upstairs, at the Lincolnville Museum and Cultural Heritage Center, 102 Martin Luther King Avenue, St. Augustine, Florida 32084.
• Free parking is available in the front and back of the building and paid parking is available at a lot across Martin Luther King Avenue. The entrance to the second-floor room is off Pomar Street. There is an elevator.

St. Augustine Concert Band Season Finale

• The St. Augustine Concert Band will perform their season finale concert from 7:30 to 9:00 p.m. Friday, May 17, 2024, in the Center of the Arts at R.J. Murray Middle School.
• This season finale concert, "Imagination," will feature works from modern-day prominent composers. Composers Brian Balmages, Dakota Peterson, Todd Salter, and others have all written thought-provoking, challenging, and moving compositions. * The concert will take the audience on a journey of imagination, allowing them to experience the power and emotion in each work.
• First established in the early 1900s with a small military-style band of some 16 members, the acclaimed St. Augustine Concert Band now features about 70 performers, from amateurs to students and semi-professionals, all from the surrounding area.
• Admission: Tickets are $20.00 for adults and $5.00 for students with ID. Children under age 12 are free.When: 7:30 to 9:00 p.m. Friday, May 17, 2024
• Where: R.J. Murray Middle School: Center of the Arts, 150 North Holmes Boulevard, St. Augustine, Florida 32092
• This event is part of the Romanza Festivale of Music and the Arts, an annual festival consisting of two weeks of historical, cultural, and creative events celebrating all things St. Augustine. From May 4 through May 19, 2024, the nation's oldest city will be jam-packed with music and dance concerts, living history events and historical tours, live theater, and art exhibits.

Megan Moroney at The Amp

• The St. Augustine Amphitheatre welcomes Megan Moroney on Friday, May 17, 2024, at 7:30 p.m. Doors open at 6:00 p.m.
• Hailing from Georgia, country music artist Megan Moroney is steadily climbing the industry ladder. "Tennessee Orange" earned her a prestigious award at the Country Music Television Awards. "I'm Not Pretty" achieved notable success, reaching the top 40 on the Billboard chart while capturing the hearts of fans and country music enthusiasts.
• Acknowledged by Rolling Stone for her natural talent, Megan consistently shares her music across multiple streaming platforms.
• Admission: Ticket prices range from $29.50 to $54.50. Tickets can be purchased online or at the St. Augustine Amphitheatre Box Office, which is open on Thursdays and Fridays from 10:00 a.m. to 6:00 p.m. and on Saturdays from 8:30 a.m. to 12:30 p.m.
• When: Friday, May 17, 2024, at 7:30 p.m. Doors open at 6:00 p.m.
• Where: St. Augustine Amphitheatre is located at 1340 A1A South in St. Augustine, Florida 32080.
• Parking Information: The Amp St. Augustine is located on Anastasia Island next to Anastasia State Park. Limited paid parking is available in The Amp's Main Lot, but only with advance purchase of a Premium Parking ticket. Free satellite parking areas are located within one mile of the Amphitheatre, at R.B. Hunt Elementary and at Anastasia State Park (see map below).
• Shuttle Information: The St. Augustine Amphitheatre shuttle system begins its run 45 minutes before show time. The shuttle will pick up event patrons at four designated shuttle stops: the R.B. Hunt Elementary School Soccer Field, the west entrance of the Anastasia State Park Main Parking Lot, the Loop at the Anastasia State Park, and the entrance of the St. Augustine Amphitheatre. To see the full shuttle route, please see the map below.
• Shuttles will run continuously until approximately 45 minutes after the scheduled start time of a concert. For anyone wanting to leave before the end of a show, shuttles will begin taking people back to the satellite parking areas one hour before the event is over. The driver will not depart The Amp until the shuttle is more than 50% full.

Romanza Festivale: Con Brio

• The Romanza Festivale presents the Con Brio String Quartet on Friday, May 17, 2024, at 7:30 p.m. This internationally acclaimed string quartet will perform in a free concert at the First United Methodist Church on King Street.
• The four talented performers, Valentin Mansurov and Marina Lenau on violin, David Pedraza on viola, and Aziz Sapaev on cello, are all based in Southeast Florida. Members of the quartet are from Russia, Uzbekistan, Mexico, and Ukraine, each has received competitive awards and scholarships, and each performs in several of the area's music ensembles.
• "Con Brio" means "with panache," and it is with panache that this talented and multicultural quartet brings their skills, energy, and worldliness to every concert. One of the headliner acts for 2024, the concert on May 17th will include works from great composers.
• Admission: Free
• When: Friday, May 17, 2024, from 7:30 to 9:00 p.m.
• Where: First United Methodist Church, 118 King Street, St. Augustine 32084
• A Romanza Festivale 2024 event.
• This event is part of the Romanza Festivale of Music and the Arts, an annual festival consisting of two weeks of historical, cultural, and creative events celebrating all things St. Augustine. From May 3 -19, 2024 the nation's oldest city will be jam-packed with music and dance concerts, living history events and historical tours, live theater, and art exhibits.

Dustin Sims at Cafe Eleven

• Café Eleven welcomes Dustin Sims on Friday, May 17, 2024, at 8:00 p.m. Doors open at 7:00 p.m.
• With a massive following and a knack for humor, comedian Dustin Sims continues to captivate audiences unapologetically. Originating from Oxford, Alabama, Sims swiftly became a beloved figure, renowned for his comedic sketches that chronicle his eccentric escapades and misadventures.
• Among his standout sketches are "Talkin' to Myself," "Wives Love to Be Right," "Best Funeral," and "My Kids Don't Do Mornings."
• Admission: VIP Tickets cost $45.00 if purchased in advance and $50.00 on the day of the show. General seating tickets cost $32.00 in advance and $35.00 on the day of the show. Purchase tickets in advance online or purchase them at Café Eleven on the day of the show.
• When: Friday, May 17, 2024, at 8:00 p.m. Doors open at 7:00 p.m.
• Where: Café Eleven, 501 A1A Beach Blvd, St. Augustine, Florida 32080. On the corner of A1A and 11th Street, one block from St. Augustine Beach.

Sampoorna Hatha Yoga and Japa Meditation at Essential Energy Spa

• Every Friday, starting March15th
• Essential Energy Spa
• 3440 U.S. 1 S, Suite 202
• St. Augustine, FL 32086
• 10 am - 11 am
• Admission: $25

2025 Pin Up Paws Calendar Contest

• May 17 @ 12:00 am - 11:59 pm
• It’s that time of year! The St. Augustine Humane Society Annual Contest for the 2025 Pin Up Paws Calendar begins at 8:00am on May 1, 2024. The “Sweet Things” themed calendar will showcase the winning pets in all their adorableness.
• Submit a photo of your pet and start rooting for votes, each vote worth $1.00. Voting is May 1, 2024 at 8:00am through Saturday, July 13, 2024 at 8:00pm. And, you can vote as many times and for as many pets as you wish!
• The Pet with the most votes becomes the cover pet for the 2025 Sweet Things calendar. The next twelve pets with the next highest amount of votes will be a monthly pin up pet. All pets will enjoy a professional photo shoot with award-winning photographer Addison Fitzgerald.
• Prizes: *First-Place pet (along with being on the cover) also receives a $100.00 gift certificate to the Columbia Restaurant, two tickets to the Pin Up Paws Party, and two copies of the calendar. *Second-place winners receive a $50.00 Columbia Restaurant Gift
• Certificate and two calendars. *Twelve runners-up will be featured with their submission photos and a description. *The top 80 pet fundraisers will have a small photo on a collage page.
• The 2025 calendar will be revealed at the Pin Up Paws Party on Thursday, October 24, 2024 at The White Room.
• Date: May 17
• Time: 12:00 am - 11:59 pm

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Live Music

• Joshua "Tennessee" Worthy, Mill Top Tavern, 12:00 pm – 4:00 pm
• Cliff Dorsey, Pierre's Pub, 1:00 pm – 5:00 pm
• Mike Cook, Backyard Island Cafe at Meehan's, 1:00 pm – 5:00 pm
• ZaZa Flamenca, Bin 39 Wine Bar, 1:00 pm – 4:00 pm
• Mark Evans, Fish House & Oyster Co., 5:00 pm – 9:00 pm
• Sue Seymour Westcott, The Tides Oyster Co. & Grill, 5:00 pm – 8:00 pm
• David Watt Besley, The Tides Oyster Co. & Grill, 5:00 pm – 8:00 pm
• House Cats, Marina Munch, 5:00 pm – 8:00 pm
• Dewey Via, Backyard Island Cafe at Meehan's, 5:00 pm – 8:00 pm
• Aaron Esposito, Embassy Suites by Hilton, 5:00 pm – 8:00 pm
• Ace Winn, DJ's Clam Shack, 5:00 pm – 8:00 pm
• Claire Vandiver, Guy Harvey Resort, 6:00 pm – 9:00 pm
• Bret Blackshear, Crabby's Beachside, 6:00 pm – 9:00 pm
• Wes Register, Mellow Mushroom — St. Johns, 6:00 pm – 9:00 pm
• Christian Powers, Mellow Mushroom — Anastasia Island, 6:00 pm – 9:00 pm
• King Eddie and the Pili Pili, The Cellar Upstairs Wine Bar & Restaurant, 6:00 pm – 10:00 pm
• Walt Kulwicki, Oasis Deck & Restaurant, 6:00 pm – 9:30 pm
• Duffy Bishop Band, Fuzion 904 Eatery, 6:00 pm – 9:00 pm
• Green With Envy, Pierre's Pub, 6:00 pm – 10:00 pm
• Allen Arena, Hurricane Patty's Bar and Grill, 6:00 pm – 9:30 pm
• One Good Ring, 7:00 pm – 10:00 pm
• ZaZa Flamenca, River & Fort, 7:00 pm – 10:00 pm
• Dave's Not Here or Jerry's Other Hand, A1A Ale Works, 8:00 pm – 12:00 am
• Kyra Livingston, Meehan's Irish Pub & Seafood House, 8:00 pm – 12:00 am
• Vegas Gray, Tradewinds Lounge, 9:00 pm – 1:00 am
• Alan Dalton and Terry Campbell, Mill Top Tavern, , 9:00 pm – 12:00 am

First Coast Opera: The Stranger's Tale

• First Coast Opera and the Romanza Festivale present a free performance of The Stranger's Tale, on Friday, May 17, 2024, at noon, at the Ancient City Baptist Church.
• Funded in part by the Romanza Festivale of the Arts and by the National Endowment for the Arts, this opera premiered in 2005 with an original libretto by Nelson Sheeley. First Coast Opera's Artistic Director, Curtis Tucker, wrote additional music for the production.
• escribed as a "story of faith and hope," and written as a companion piece to Stravinsky's L'historie du soldat (A Soldier's Tail,) The Stranger's Tale focuses on modern homelessness and its impact on the unhoused and their communities. Using drama and music, set in a park near a park bench, the entire piece is centered on an unnamed man who is experiencing homelessness.
• At the 2005 premiere, reviewers said that the writing was sincere, the music accessible, and that it was a hit with the audience.
• Admission: Free
• When: Friday, May 17, 2024 at noon.
• Where: Ancient City Baptist Church, 27 Sevilla Street, St. Augustine, Florida.
• First Coast Opera will accept donations at this event to benefit the Homeless Coalition of St. Johns County.
• This event is part of the Romanza Festivale of Music and the Arts, an annual festival of two weeks of historical, cultural, and creative events celebrating all things St. Augustine. From May 3 -19, the nation's oldest city will be jam-packed with music and dance concerts, living history events and historical tours, live theater, and art exhibits.

Romanza Festivale: Author Visit with Elizabeth Randall

• Elizabeth Randall, freelance writer, and author of six non-fiction books and one mystery, will visit with fans and writers at the Voorhees Mission building at St. Cyprians Episcopal Church on Friday, May 17, 2024, from 3:00 to 4:00 p.m. This event, presented by Romanza Festivale, will include wine, cheese, and conversation.
• A retired English teacher, Ms. Randall is an adjunct instructor in English composition at Seminole State College in Sanford. Two of Ms. Randall's non-fiction books feature events in St. Augustine. At this event, Ms. Randall will focus on Murder in St. Augustine, the Mysterious Death of Athalia Ponsell Lindsley. This murder, in 1974, is still discussed and debated among St. Augustine residents.
• Admission: Free.When: Friday, May 17, 2024, from 3:00 to 4:00 p.m.
• Where: In the Voorhees Mission House (on the grounds of St. Cyprians Episcopal Church) at 130 Martin Luther King Avenue, St. Augustine, Florida 32084.
• This event is part of the Romanza Festivale of Music and the Arts, an annual festival of two weeks of historical, cultural, and creative events celebrating all things St. Augustine. From May 3 -19, the nation's oldest city will be jam-packed with music and dance concerts, living history events and historical tours, live theater, and art exhibits.

Before Juneteenth: Emancipations in Florida

• In 1865, 11 days after the end of the Civil War, two years after President Abraham Lincoln's Proclamation, emancipation * was proclaimed in Florida. On Friday, May 17, 2024, from 3:00 to 4:30 p.m., the Lincolnville Museum and Cultural Heritage Center (LMCHC) hosts an event to explain and discuss emancipation in Florida.
• The afternoon will begin with a short documentary, Before Juneteenth: Emancipations in Florida. This documentary is being presented in several Florida communities this season, and Regina Gayle Phillips, LMCHC's executive director is featured in the film. There will be a virtual question and answer session after the viewing with Dr. Tameka Hobbs, Charlene Farrington, Dinizulu Gene Tinnie, and Brittany Flowers.
• Dr. Hobbs, from Fort Lauderdale, is a historian, educator, and activist
• Ms. Farringtion is the museum director of the Spady Cultural Heritage Museum in Delray Beach
• Mr. Tinnie, of Miami, is an artist, educator, and activist
• Brittany Flowers is a filmmaker.
• Admission: $10.00 per person. When: Friday, May 17, 2024, from 3:00 to 4:30 p.m.
• Where: Upstairs, at the Lincolnville Museum and Cultural Heritage Center, 102 Martin Luther King Avenue, St. Augustine, Florida 32084.
• Free parking is available in the front and back of the building and paid parking is available at a lot across Martin Luther King Avenue. The entrance to the second-floor room is off Pomar Street. There is an elevator.

St. Augustine Concert Band Season Finale

• The St. Augustine Concert Band will perform their season finale concert from 7:30 to 9:00 p.m. Friday, May 17, 2024, in the Center of the Arts at R.J. Murray Middle School.
• This season finale concert, "Imagination," will feature works from modern-day prominent composers. Composers Brian Balmages, Dakota Peterson, Todd Salter, and others have all written thought-provoking, challenging, and moving compositions. * The concert will take the audience on a journey of imagination, allowing them to experience the power and emotion in each work.
• First established in the early 1900s with a small military-style band of some 16 members, the acclaimed St. Augustine Concert Band now features about 70 performers, from amateurs to students and semi-professionals, all from the surrounding area.
• Admission: Tickets are $20.00 for adults and $5.00 for students with ID. Children under age 12 are free.When: 7:30 to 9:00 p.m. Friday, May 17, 2024
• Where: R.J. Murray Middle School: Center of the Arts, 150 North Holmes Boulevard, St. Augustine, Florida 32092
• This event is part of the Romanza Festivale of Music and the Arts, an annual festival consisting of two weeks of historical, cultural, and creative events celebrating all things St. Augustine. From May 4 through May 19, 2024, the nation's oldest city will be jam-packed with music and dance concerts, living history events and historical tours, live theater, and art exhibits.

Megan Moroney at The Amp

• The St. Augustine Amphitheatre welcomes Megan Moroney on Friday, May 17, 2024, at 7:30 p.m. Doors open at 6:00 p.m.
• Hailing from Georgia, country music artist Megan Moroney is steadily climbing the industry ladder. "Tennessee Orange" earned her a prestigious award at the Country Music Television Awards. "I'm Not Pretty" achieved notable success, reaching the top 40 on the Billboard chart while capturing the hearts of fans and country music enthusiasts.
• Acknowledged by Rolling Stone for her natural talent, Megan consistently shares her music across multiple streaming platforms.
• Admission: Ticket prices range from $29.50 to $54.50. Tickets can be purchased online or at the St. Augustine Amphitheatre Box Office, which is open on Thursdays and Fridays from 10:00 a.m. to 6:00 p.m. and on Saturdays from 8:30 a.m. to 12:30 p.m.
• When: Friday, May 17, 2024, at 7:30 p.m. Doors open at 6:00 p.m.
• Where: St. Augustine Amphitheatre is located at 1340 A1A South in St. Augustine, Florida 32080.
• Parking Information: The Amp St. Augustine is located on Anastasia Island next to Anastasia State Park. Limited paid parking is available in The Amp's Main Lot, but only with advance purchase of a Premium Parking ticket. Free satellite parking areas are located within one mile of the Amphitheatre, at R.B. Hunt Elementary and at Anastasia State Park (see map below).
• Shuttle Information: The St. Augustine Amphitheatre shuttle system begins its run 45 minutes before show time. The shuttle will pick up event patrons at four designated shuttle stops: the R.B. Hunt Elementary School Soccer Field, the west entrance of the Anastasia State Park Main Parking Lot, the Loop at the Anastasia State Park, and the entrance of the St. Augustine Amphitheatre. To see the full shuttle route, please see the map below.
• Shuttles will run continuously until approximately 45 minutes after the scheduled start time of a concert. For anyone wanting to leave before the end of a show, shuttles will begin taking people back to the satellite parking areas one hour before the event is over. The driver will not depart The Amp until the shuttle is more than 50% full.

Romanza Festivale: Con Brio

• The Romanza Festivale presents the Con Brio String Quartet on Friday, May 17, 2024, at 7:30 p.m. This internationally acclaimed string quartet will perform in a free concert at the First United Methodist Church on King Street.
• The four talented performers, Valentin Mansurov and Marina Lenau on violin, David Pedraza on viola, and Aziz Sapaev on cello, are all based in Southeast Florida. Members of the quartet are from Russia, Uzbekistan, Mexico, and Ukraine, each has received competitive awards and scholarships, and each performs in several of the area's music ensembles.
• "Con Brio" means "with panache," and it is with panache that this talented and multicultural quartet brings their skills, energy, and worldliness to every concert. One of the headliner acts for 2024, the concert on May 17th will include works from great composers.
• Admission: Free
• When: Friday, May 17, 2024, from 7:30 to 9:00 p.m.
• Where: First United Methodist Church, 118 King Street, St. Augustine 32084
• A Romanza Festivale 2024 event.
• This event is part of the Romanza Festivale of Music and the Arts, an annual festival consisting of two weeks of historical, cultural, and creative events celebrating all things St. Augustine. From May 3 -19, 2024 the nation's oldest city will be jam-packed with music and dance concerts, living history events and historical tours, live theater, and art exhibits.

Dustin Sims at Cafe Eleven

• Café Eleven welcomes Dustin Sims on Friday, May 17, 2024, at 8:00 p.m. Doors open at 7:00 p.m.
• With a massive following and a knack for humor, comedian Dustin Sims continues to captivate audiences unapologetically. Originating from Oxford, Alabama, Sims swiftly became a beloved figure, renowned for his comedic sketches that chronicle his eccentric escapades and misadventures.
• Among his standout sketches are "Talkin' to Myself," "Wives Love to Be Right," "Best Funeral," and "My Kids Don't Do Mornings."
• Admission: VIP Tickets cost $45.00 if purchased in advance and $50.00 on the day of the show. General seating tickets cost $32.00 in advance and $35.00 on the day of the show. Purchase tickets in advance online or purchase them at Café Eleven on the day of the show.
• When: Friday, May 17, 2024, at 8:00 p.m. Doors open at 7:00 p.m.
• Where: Café Eleven, 501 A1A Beach Blvd, St. Augustine, Florida 32080. On the corner of A1A and 11th Street, one block from St. Augustine Beach.

Sampoorna Hatha Yoga and Japa Meditation at Essential Energy Spa

• Every Friday, starting March15th
• Essential Energy Spa
• 3440 U.S. 1 S, Suite 202
• St. Augustine, FL 32086
• 10 am - 11 am
• Admission: $25

2025 Pin Up Paws Calendar Contest

• May 17 @ 12:00 am - 11:59 pm
• It’s that time of year! The St. Augustine Humane Society Annual Contest for the 2025 Pin Up Paws Calendar begins at 8:00am on May 1, 2024. The “Sweet Things” themed calendar will showcase the winning pets in all their adorableness.
• Submit a photo of your pet and start rooting for votes, each vote worth $1.00. Voting is May 1, 2024 at 8:00am through Saturday, July 13, 2024 at 8:00pm. And, you can vote as many times and for as many pets as you wish!
• The Pet with the most votes becomes the cover pet for the 2025 Sweet Things calendar. The next twelve pets with the next highest amount of votes will be a monthly pin up pet. All pets will enjoy a professional photo shoot with award-winning photographer Addison Fitzgerald.
• Prizes: *First-Place pet (along with being on the cover) also receives a $100.00 gift certificate to the Columbia Restaurant, two tickets to the Pin Up Paws Party, and two copies of the calendar. *Second-place winners receive a $50.00 Columbia Restaurant Gift
• Certificate and two calendars. *Twelve runners-up will be featured with their submission photos and a description. *The top 80 pet fundraisers will have a small photo on a collage page.
• The 2025 calendar will be revealed at the Pin Up Paws Party on Thursday, October 24, 2024 at The White Room.
• Date: May 17
• Time: 12:00 am - 11:59 pm

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Four months ago, a friend added me to an Instagram group with many people my age. It was the day before Valentine's Day, February 13th, and since I was single, I decided to play a prank on a girl I didn't know by asking her if she wanted to go out with me. It was just a joke and not serious at all.
To my surprise, she quickly understood that it was a joke, and we started talking privately. The more we talked, the more we realized we had a lot in common. We began talking every day, understanding each other deeply and never judging one another.
A week into our conversations, I went to a psychologist and was diagnosed with depression. I wasn't very surprised because I had been feeling quite sad and unmotivated for the past few weeks. I trusted her enough to tell her about my diagnosis, even though we had only been talking for a week. She understood and supported me through it.
From then on, we started talking about more personal things. I discovered that she wasn't as happy and cheerful as she seemed either. Then, Ramadan began, and those were some of the best moments I had with her. Every evening when I went out, we would call each other and share stories. It was truly incredible.
In Algeria, during Ramadan, there's a beautiful atmosphere in the evenings. However, we didn't live very close to each other. She lived in Bejaia, and I lived in El Kseur. Given that we were only 14 years old, it was quite difficult to plan a meeting, especially during the school year. Despite the distance, we kept our hopes up.
Then came the beginning of the decline. One day, we were chatting as usual, and since I had class, I said goodbye to her, and she did the same. When I came back home and sent her a message, I noticed that her name had changed to "Instagram User." She had blocked me.
I tried sending her messages on all her accounts, but each time she would block me and leave me on read. The first few days were terrible, some of the worst in my life. After two weeks, I remembered that I still had her phone number, so I sent her a text message thanking her for all the help she had given me and saying goodbye.
To my great surprise, she replied, "Hey (my name), I’ll explain later why I blocked you. I’m sorry, I’ll explain because I don’t have much time now. I hope you’re doing well." I waited another two weeks, and she added me on Instagram again, on a secondary account where I only had my close friends since I had deactivated my main account.
We started talking again, but less frequently, and she was less talkative. After a week, she would only reply to me at night and didn't want to continue the conversation. I sent her a message addressing this issue before going to sleep. The next day, my phone was stolen.
Remember when I told you that I had deactivated my main account to be on the secondary one? I had forgotten the login details of the account where we were talking. I tried everything but couldn't get back in. I asked a friend to send her a message to unblock me on my main account, but I still don't know if she replied or not.
I recovered my SIM card and sent her a text message, but she hasn't replied. Last night, I had a dream. It was blurry, but I remember that she had blocked me on all social media, and my heart exploded with sadness because she was all I had.
I suspect that I might have fallen in love with her a few weeks ago. She is very open-minded and has never judged me. I'm so afraid of losing her because she means so much to me. I know I should try to move on, but I can't help but feel that I should try to talk to her again. What if she responds and we start talking like before? All this pain would just be a bad memory.
I worry that I might never find someone like her again. She showed me Lil Peep, and I love listening to his music, but it reminds me too much of her. I feel like she genuinely appreciated me. What if she only kept talking to me all this time just to avoid hurting my feelings?
I tried to reach out to her in various ways but received no response. I even asked a friend to check if she had replied. She still hasn't replied to my SMS. She means so much to me. With her, I felt understood and loved. Without her, I feel terribly alone.
After the incident with my stolen phone, I tried everything to get back in touch with her but failed. She was unique. I've felt incredibly alone all my life, but with her, I felt loved. I miss her terribly, Girl, you mean everything to me.

I'm really hoping they add another solid match to the DoN card. The Men's TNT championship will be a banger, but I'm not hyped to watch either women's championship match or Swerve vs Christian, I think all 4 in ring matches will include some form of outside interference and with AitA and the cage match, I just want one solid in ring match with no interference. I'll watch the PPV regardless. Really wish they didn't have to add Jericho vs Hook in some form, as I'm sure they will add that match by next Wednesday. I enjoy all of the performers, but it is kind of a forgone conclusion how the matches with unfold. I really think Ospreay vs Strong is more up in the air than people think.

Leeds United 4 - 0 Norwich City

Leeds scorers: Ilia Gruev (7'), Joël Piroe (20'), Georginio Rutter (40'), Crysencio Summerville (68')
Aggregate score: Leeds United 4-0 Norwich City
Venue: Elland Road, Leeds, England
Referee: Jarred Gillett
Leeds United:

Starting XI	Notes	Subs	Notes
Illan Meslier		Karl Darlow
Archie Gray		Liam Cooper	83'
Joe Rodon		Charlie Cresswell
Ethan Ampadu		Connor Roberts	74'
Junior Firpo		Jamie Shackleton
Glen Kamara		Jaidon Anthony	74'
Ilia Gruev	7' 54' 83'	Daniel James	69'
Wilfried Gnonto	69'	Joe Gelhardt
Georginio Rutter	40' 56' 74'	Mateo Joseph	74'
Crysencio Summerville	68' 74'
Joël Piroe	20' 74'

Manager: Daniel Farke (Germany)
Norwich City:

Starting XI	Notes	Subs	Notes
Angus Gunn		George Long
Jack Stacey		Danny Batth
Shane Duffy		Jacob Sørensen	81'
Ben Gibson	63'	Kellen Fisher
Dimitrios Giannoulis	63'	Grant Hanley
Marcelino Núñez	6'	Sam McCallum	63'
Kenny McLean	90+1'	Borja Sainz	46'
Jonathan Rowe	37' 81'	Christian Fassnacht	63'
Gabriel Sara		Sydney van Hooijdonk	81'
Ashley Barnes	81'
Josh Sargent	46'

Manager: David Wagner (United States)
MATCH EVENTS
1': We're off!
4': Summerville gets the one-two and skips through the defense and fires but puts it high from wide.
6': Marcelino Núñez comes in late on Rodon, dangerous free kick coming
7': GOAL LEEDS!! They score the free kick! Ilia Gruev finds the gap at the near side! That's awful goalkeeping by Gunn who was hours late to jump.
20': GOAL LEEDS!! Gnonto fires a long forward pass to the far post, Gunn hesitates and doesn't get there, Joël Piroe heads it in!!
22': SAVE!! Ampadu misses on an interception, leaving Sargent one on one with Meslier but Meslier comes out quickly and smothers the chance!
35': A Gruev interception launches a Leeds attack, but Gnonto's low shot is easily saved.
37': Jonathan Rowe carded for diving
40': GOAL LEEDS!! Georginio Rutter smacks it in off the underside of the post!!
43': Another break by Leeds!! Gnonto is all alone! Oh but the shot is saved, another unimpressive finish by Gnonto.
45+2': Gunn dives to put away with a cross but gives it right to Gnonto! He tries to find room to shoot but he's blocked on the line by Giannoulis!
HT Leeds United 3-0 Norwich City [3-0 on agg.] Leeds are flying, and Norwich are likely flying home.
46': Norwich substitution: Borja Sainz on for Josh Sargent
46': We're back!
46': SAVE! Leeds nearly score a fourth goal just thirty seconds after the restart, but Gunn blocks the one-on-one chance from Piroe at close range.
51': Summerville's header skims over the top corner
51': Summerville cuts around the backline and fires from wide, blocked by Gunn at the near post.
54': Ilia Gruev with the tactical foul
56': Georginio Rutter lunges into Sainz
63': Norwich double sub: Sam McCallum and Christian Fassnacht on for Ben Gibson and Dimitrios Giannoulis
68': GOAL LEEDS!! Gnonto fires, again Gunn saves but again Gunn spills, it's comes over to Firpo who cuts it back to Crysencio Summerville who knocks it in easily! Gunn has been just awful.
69': Leeds substitution: Daniel James on for Wilfried Gnonto
74': Leeds triple sub: Connor Roberts, Jaidon Anthony and Mateo Joseph on for Georginio Rutter, Crysencio Summerville and Joël Piroe
81': Norwich double sub: Sydney van Hooijdonk and Jacob Sørensen on for Ashley Barnes and Jonathan Rowe
83': Leeds substitution: Liam Cooper on for Ilia Gruev
90+1': Kenny McLean into the book for a bad challenge
FT Leeds United 4-0 Norwich City [4-0 on agg.] Demolition! The Canaries bow out pathetically and Leeds moves on to Wembley

Hey y’all! I’m getting back into writing letters and am looking for some new penpals. Letters are so much fun to send and receive and keeping the tradition alive it so important. I’m a stationary nerd who loves to see différent people’s writing styles and stationary selection. I also just love getting to know new people!
Would love to find some people on here with similar interests or just those who are open to writing back and forth. I’m a female veteran and conservative Christian who works in a stem field. I also enjoy reading, gardening, k-dramas, traveling, trying new foods, and serving in the community. I worked in a card shop for a bit so I love stationary and also have written many letters myself. Encouraging people and learning from others is something I’m looking to grow in. Let me know if you’re interested and we’ll see if it’s a good match!

Leeds United 4 - 0 Norwich City

Leeds scorers: Ilia Gruev (7'), Joël Piroe (20'), Georginio Rutter (40'), Crysencio Summerville (68')
Aggregate score: Leeds United 4-0 Norwich City
Venue: Elland Road, Leeds, England
Referee: Jarred Gillett
Leeds United:

Starting XI	Notes	Subs	Notes
Illan Meslier		Karl Darlow
Archie Gray		Liam Cooper	83'
Joe Rodon		Charlie Cresswell
Ethan Ampadu		Connor Roberts	74'
Junior Firpo		Jamie Shackleton
Glen Kamara		Jaidon Anthony	74'
Ilia Gruev	7' 54' 83'	Daniel James	69'
Wilfried Gnonto	69'	Joe Gelhardt
Georginio Rutter	40' 56' 74'	Mateo Joseph	74'
Crysencio Summerville	68' 74'
Joël Piroe	20' 74'

Manager: Daniel Farke (Germany)
Norwich City:

Starting XI	Notes	Subs	Notes
Angus Gunn		George Long
Jack Stacey		Danny Batth
Shane Duffy		Jacob Sørensen	81'
Ben Gibson	63'	Kellen Fisher
Dimitrios Giannoulis	63'	Grant Hanley
Marcelino Núñez	6'	Sam McCallum	63'
Kenny McLean	90+1'	Borja Sainz	46'
Jonathan Rowe	37' 81'	Christian Fassnacht	63'
Gabriel Sara		Sydney van Hooijdonk	81'
Ashley Barnes	81'
Josh Sargent	46'

Manager: David Wagner (United States)
MATCH EVENTS
1': We're off!
4': Summerville gets the one-two and skips through the defense and fires but puts it high from wide.
6': Marcelino Núñez comes in late on Rodon, dangerous free kick coming
7': GOAL LEEDS!! They score the free kick! Ilia Gruev finds the gap at the near side! That's awful goalkeeping by Gunn who was hours late to jump.
20': GOAL LEEDS!! Gnonto fires a long forward pass to the far post, Gunn hesitates and doesn't get there, Joël Piroe heads it in!!
22': SAVE!! Ampadu misses on an interception, leaving Sargent one on one with Meslier but Meslier comes out quickly and smothers the chance!
35': A Gruev interception launches a Leeds attack, but Gnonto's low shot is easily saved.
37': Jonathan Rowe carded for diving
40': GOAL LEEDS!! Georginio Rutter smacks it in off the underside of the post!!
43': Another break by Leeds!! Gnonto is all alone! Oh but the shot is saved, another unimpressive finish by Gnonto.
45+2': Gunn dives to put away with a cross but gives it right to Gnonto! He tries to find room to shoot but he's blocked on the line by Giannoulis!
HT Leeds United 3-0 Norwich City [3-0 on agg.] Leeds are flying, and Norwich are likely flying home.
46': Norwich substitution: Borja Sainz on for Josh Sargent
46': We're back!
46': SAVE! Leeds nearly score a fourth goal just thirty seconds after the restart, but Gunn blocks the one-on-one chance from Piroe at close range.
51': Summerville's header skims over the top corner
51': Summerville cuts around the backline and fires from wide, blocked by Gunn at the near post.
54': Ilia Gruev with the tactical foul
56': Georginio Rutter lunges into Sainz
63': Norwich double sub: Sam McCallum and Christian Fassnacht on for Ben Gibson and Dimitrios Giannoulis
68': GOAL LEEDS!! Gnonto fires, again Gunn saves but again Gunn spills, it's comes over to Firpo who cuts it back to Crysencio Summerville who knocks it in easily! Gunn has been just awful.
69': Leeds substitution: Daniel James on for Wilfried Gnonto
74': Leeds triple sub: Connor Roberts, Jaidon Anthony and Mateo Joseph on for Georginio Rutter, Crysencio Summerville and Joël Piroe
81': Norwich double sub: Sydney van Hooijdonk and Jacob Sørensen on for Ashley Barnes and Jonathan Rowe
83': Leeds substitution: Liam Cooper on for Ilia Gruev
90+1': Kenny McLean into the book for a bad challenge
FT Leeds United 4-0 Norwich City [4-0 on agg.] Demolition! The Canaries bow out pathetically and Leeds moves on to Wembley

I’ve been struggling for a long time with my mother-in-law’s social media. She often uses it as a way to attack anyone who thinks/feels differently than her. She calls people libtards, praises the idea that women should just be moms, says racists things, and hateful speech towards LGBTIQA+. Is very ugly towards progressive Christianity- saying you’re loving people to hell. It makes me so mad but I feel I can’t play victim card because I keep looking at her stuff instead of just ignoring it. When I was in my 20s I once got into an argument trying to stand up for others and she said I was loving people to hell. She also started reposting the verse Matthew 18:6 “if anyone one causes one of these little ones—those who believe in me—to stumble, it would be better for them to have a large millstone hung around their neck and to be drowned in the depths of the sea” When we were supportive of her daughter coming out.
I have two kids now- age 4 and 5. I worry about them forming a close relationship and then feeling all this shame from her if they don’t turn out how “she wants them to.” My husband enjoys being around them because they are very kind in person. He also works for them and they’ve provided the family with a lot of money and it feels like a power dynamic is happening. Anywho; I always feel torn. I want to love them and have peace in the family, but I get so scared for my kids and don’t want them affected by this stuff when they get older. I also don’t think it’s fair that I go looking at this stuff either- if I wasn’t looking at her profile- I wouldn’t know. I guess I’m wondering what would you do? Should I got to therapy? I went for two years and had made progress but I don’t know how much I can do without my husband also being on board with how to handle our kids and how much they see them. I sometimes want to not go on trips but then I worry about not being there to protect my kids. I want to be a loving mom and make sure they don’t feel shame from their grandmother. I also want to support my husband in his relationship with his parents. But I also feel incredibly angry and upset by all the hate speech.

I'm a 32NN at the moment, im sure, last i measured i was an m and it was nearly a year ago but im still growing or whatever I ask for one to an R just incase when i grow older i can go back to that shop (well, if paypal STILL isnt an option) My back hurts alot, and paypal just isnt it so i cant do ewa michalak unless my moms friend helps overseas Im starting to wonder its just my moms phone is broken and thats why i cant pay off the custom order. we tried everything even a new card
Is elizabeth valentine any good? Is their size calculator accurate?

i’ve recently told her and made a comment about her everyday little judgmental comments about my personal life. im still not graduated from highschool so i have to live with her until. i told her how she avoids every problems about her and gaslights other people into thinking they are in the wrong. and also how judgmental she is. she responded to me about how i view her as a typical asian tiger mom that’s strict and judgmental and she isn’t. im the crazy one that views her as this person. she said all her comments werent meant that way and was just curious about my personal life. and to be honest, she is supportive to whatever i do but is extremely judgmental and used whatever of my personal information to embarrass me infront of people or with her friends. it’s because of this power struggle that she’s projecting because her parents favors her little sister more and the victim card she uses everytime she’s losing in an argument or doesnt go her way. she’s also been manipulating me my whole life; indoctrinating me into christianity as a child by forcing me to go to church events for hours or making me demonize my father as they were constantly fighting.(my oldest memory with both of my parents were when i was 5 years old standing behind my mom while they were yelling and fighting)(also, my asian dad did physically abuse me and my older sister as a child for dumb reasons while he was drunk 7 years later soooo she wasnt wrong but i was still fucking 5). these types of reasons led me to distance the shit out of her and become separated from both of my parents. she would now say “ you were so bright and talkative, who are you now?” i needed to vent about this and did to my older sister but she snitched on me (my whole family thinks im just crazy and im coping). its because she still is dependent on my mom (she’s 19 in college). she’s dependent on my mom because my dad was her abuser but she fails to realize both of our parents were abusers. one mentally and one physically.
anyways, im already planning out to cut them off after i graduate college as i cant cut them off yet because i also want a career and a future. my parents sees me as like a retirement plan and believes that im going to treat them well when i have some type of job but little do they know they’re not getting a single fucking penny.
my question is how the fuck do i keep my mind straight until i finish college? i still didnt finish high school yet (got one more year left) and i just want to know how to deal with this bullshit. its building up stress and this hidden disgust and anger i feel everytime she gaslights me or acts like the victim when we have an argument. or when she tries to get something out of me.
i understand how she probably wants to know what’s going on with me as i distanced with her but im not fucking falling for this shit again.

70's Alt Rock -King Crimson-Lark's Tongue In Aspic
80's Alt Rock - Talking Heads-Remain In Light
90's Alt Rock- Nirvana- Never mind
2000's Alt Rock-The Strokes-Is This It
2010's Alt Rock Tame Impala-Lonerism
Alt Country -Wilco-Summerteeth
Alt Hip Hop-MF Doom- Mad villainy
Art Rock-Dark Side Of The Moon-Pink Floyd
Brit Rock- The Clash- London Calling
College Rock-REM-Murmur
Emo Rock-My Chemical Romance-Welcome To The Black Parade
Experimental Rock-Swans-To Be Kind
Goth-The Cure Disintegration
Grunge- Soundgarden-Superunknown
Hardcore Punk- Black Flag- Damaged
Heavy Metal-Black Sabbath-Paranoid
60's Hard Rock-Led Zeppelin I
70's Hard rock-Led Zeppelin-Physical Graffiti
80's Hard Rock- AC/DC-Back In Black
90's Hard Rock-Nirvana-In Utero
2000's Hard Rock-Queens Of The Stone Age-Songs For The Deaf
2010's ˙Hard Rock- Tool-Fear Inoculum
Indie Rock-Joy Division-Unknown Pleasures
Indie Folk-Big Thief-Dragon New Warm Mountain I Believe In You
Lo-Fi-Neutral Milk Hotel-In The Aeroplane Over The Sea
New Wave-Elvis Costello-This Year's Model
Progressive Rock- Tool- Lateralus
Punk- Ramones-Rocket To Russia
pop punk-Green Day-Dookie
Post Punk- Wire- Pink Flag
Shoegaze-My Bloody Valentine-Loveless
Blues-Nina Simone-Sings The Blues
Blues Rock-The Rolling Stones-Sticky Fingers
Avant Garde- Captain Beefheart & His Magic Band-Trout Mask Replica
Baroque Pop-The Beach Boys-Pet Sounds
Symphonic Rock-Moody Blues-Days Of Future Past
Comedy/Novelty album-Adam Sandler-They're All Gonna Laugh At You
Stand Up Comedy-George Carlin-Back In Town
Americana-The Band-The Band
Bakersfield Sound-Buck Owens-Best Of Buck Owens
Bluegrass-Old & In The Way-That High Lonesome Sound
Outlaw Country-Willie Nelson-Redheaded Stranger
Classic Country-Johnny Cash-Live At Folsom Prison
Country Rock- The Flying Burrito Brothers-The Gilded Palace Of Sin
Dance/Club-LCD Soundsystem- This Is Happening
Christmas /Holiday Album-Vince Gauralidi-A Charlie Brown Christmas
EMD/Techno-Burial-Untrue
Ambient-Brian Eno-Music For Airports
Electronic Rock-Radiohead-Kid A
Space Rock- Spiritualized- Ladies And Gentlemen We Are Floating In Space
Synthpop-Depeche Mode-Violator
Synthrock- New Order-Power, Corruption and Lies
Industrial-Nine Inch Nails-The Downward Spiral
Krautrock- Can-Tago Mago
Folk-Bob Dylan-The Freewillin' Bob Dylan
Folk Rock-Bob Dylan-Blood On The Tracks
Southern Rock-The Allman Brothers Band-At Fillmore East
80's Hip Hop-The Beastie Boys-Paul's Boutique
90's- Hip Hop Wu-Tang Clan-Enter The Wu-Tang (36 Chambers)
2000's Hip Hop-Outkast- Stankonia
2010's Hip Hop-Kendrick Lamar-To Pimp A Butterfly
2020's Hip Hop-Run The Jewels-RTJ 4
East Coast Hip Hop- Nas- Illmatic
West Coast Hip Hop-NWA-Straight Outta Compton
Southern Hip Hop-Outkast -Aquemini
Midwest Album-Kanye West-My Dark Twisted Fantasy
Trap-Travis Sott-Rodeo
Instrumental Hip Hop- DJ Shadow- Endtroducing....
Indie Pop-Belle And Sebastian-If You're Feeling Sinister
Noise Rock-Sonic Youth-Daydream Nation
Post-rock- Godspeed! You Black Emperor-Lift Your Skinny Fist Like Antennas To Heaven
Acid Jazz- Medeski ,Martin, and Wood -Shack-Man
Trip Hop -Portishead- Dummy
Gospel -Aretha Franklin-Amazing Grace
Christian- Sufjan Stevens -Illnoise
Jazz-Miles Davis-Kind Of Blue
Avant Garde Jazz-Ornette Coleman-Shape To Jazz To Come
Swing/Bebop-Art Blakey & The Jazz Messengers-Art Blakey's Jazz Messengers w/Thelonious Monk
Jazz/Fusion-Miles Davis-In A Silent Way
Jazz Rock-Miles Davis-Bitches Brew
Jazz/Funk-Herbie Hancock-Head Hunters
Jazz/Rap-A tribe Called Quest-The Low End Theory
Latin- Los Lobos-Kiko
Speed Metal/Thrash- Metallica- Master Of Puppets
Black/Death Metal-Deafheaven-Sunbather
Symphonic Metal-Haken-The Mountain
Glam Rock -T.Rex-Electric Warrior
Hair Metal-Guns N Roses-Appetite For Destruction
New Wave Of British Heavy Metal-Iron Maiden- Number Of The Beast
Sludge-Electric Wizard- Dopethron
Nu Metal-Korn-Korn
New Age-Popol Vuh - Hosianna Mantra
Pop-Prince-Sign O' The Times
60's Pop- The Beatles-Revolver
70's Pop- Carole King-Tapestry
80's Pop- Peter Gabriel-So
90's Pop-Madonna-Ray Of Light
2000's Pop-Madonna-Confessions On A Dance Floor
2010's pop-Robyn-Body Talk
2020's Pop- Perfume Genius-Set My Heart On Fire
Adult Contemporary- Billy Joel-The Stranger
Europop- ABBA- Arrival
Latin Pop-Ruben Y Seis Del Solar-Buscando America
Dance Pop-Dee-Lite-World Clique
Dream Pop- Mazzy Star-So Tonight I Might See
Power Pop- Weezer-Blue Album
R&B- Marvin Gaye-What's Going On
60's R&B-Aretha Franklin-I Never Loved A Man The Way I Loved You
70's R&B- Stevie Wonder- Songs In The Key Of Life
80's R&B- Janet Jackson- Control
90's R&B Album- Lauryn Hill-The Miseducation Of Lauryn Hill
2000's R&B- D'Angelo-Voodoo
2010's-R&B-Beyonce-Lemonade
2020's R&B- SZA-SOS
Disco-Donna Summers-Bad Girls
Doo Wop- The Chantels- We Are The Chantels
Funk-Funkadelic-Maggot Brain
Motown- Marvin Gaye-Let's Get It On
Neo-Soul-Erykah Badu-Baduizm
Psychedelic Soul- Curtis Mayfield-Curtis
Soul-Aretha Franklin-Lady Soul
Reggae-Bob Marley- Exodus
Ska-The Specials-The Specials
Swing Revival-Big Bad Voodoo Daddy-Big Bad Voodoo Daddy
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I've seen people struggle with the Gambler Challenges and the games, so I decided to make a full post with some tips for those challanges and an explanation of the games.

Gambler Challenges

Rank 1: Win five hands of Poker. — The description on how to play the game is gonna be further down. I suggest going all in. Going all in might make your opponents fold which would get you to win. You can also play poker in the mission “Who is Not Without Sin” since the wins are scripted there.
Rank 2: In Blackjack, double down and win the hand five times. — The description on how to play the game is gonna be further down. Double down if you’ve got 9, 10 or 11 without an ace. When you double down you’ll only receive one more card before standing with the cards you’ve got.
Rank 3: Win three games of Five Finger Fillet. — Look at the hand of your opponent when it’s their turn to see what buttons you have to hit. It’s not in a row, so when the game gets too hard leave and go somewhere else to continue playing.
Rank 4: Bust one poker table out in each location (Flatneck Station, Saint Denis, Valentine). — You need to bust one player out by making them lose all of their money. It’s easier the fewer opponents you have. Just go all in immediately. If you go all in and lose your money, quit the game and run away from the poker table a bit or sleep and then come back to join again.
Rank 5: Win three rounds of dominoes without drawing any tiles against two or fewer opponents. — The description on how to play the game is gonna be further down. It’s just about winning a round not the whole game so this is quite easy. Play and be lucky enough to not draw for three rounds.
Rank 6: Beat the blackjack dealer in two locations (Rhodes, Van Horn Trading Post). — Simple, you just need to beat the dealer in each of those locations, which is literally just playing the game and winning.
Rank 7: Beat the five finger fillet opponent in each location (Strawberry, Valentine, Van Horn Trading Post). — Basically the same as the third challenge. You just have to win 2 out of 3 rounds in one game to make your opponent leave the table in each location.
Rank 8: Win three hands of blackjack, with three hits or more. — The shittiest challenge R* could have come up with. Just bet the lowest amount of money each time if you care about saving money. Ties unfortunately don’t count. Good luck.
Rank 9: Win three games of dominoes in a row. — Make sure the table you’re at only has one opponent. It’ll be faster and easier for you to win that way. If you feel like you’re losing the game, quit while it’s your turn to make sure you don’t lose your streak. The one with the most points will win so play for points.
Rank 10: Win three hands of poker in a row. — Probably the easiest gambler challange. Make sure you already did the mission "A Fine Night of Debauchery" in Chapter 4. Then first, go to your story missions and replay the mission "Who is Not Without Sin". Accept to play poker before continuing the mission. It has two scripted poker games so you'll win each time. After finishing those make sure to continue and finish the mission. Then replay "A Fine Night of Debauchery". After getting to the poker game and winning it, since it's also scripted, you should have finished the challange.

Game Rules

Poker
Google the 10 poker hands and a ranking of them to look at while you’re playing if you don’t know them. The color of the cards doesn’t matter. The number and what kind of face card it is does matter. You'll get two cards at the beginning of the game and you'll keep those throughout the entire game. No one should see your cards, but since it's in RDR it doesn't matter. There's another set of cards in the middle of the table. Those are the cards everyone sees and everyone uses. They’re called „community cards“. After everyone made their bets there'll be a new card that'll get revealed in the middle. You have to create one of the hands I mentioned earlier, like a Royal Flush for example, with the two cards you've got and the community cards. If you've got a 6 and an 8 and there's a 7, 9 and 10 in the middle you've got a Straight Flush. You'll either bet high if you're sure of yourself and your cards (and the hand you might build), or you'll bluff by betting high if you've got terrible cards to make them think you've got amazing cards. You'll achieve that by betting higher, technically raising the pot each time. The NPCs might fold making you win. You can also give up your cards and lose your money by folding if you’re unsure of your cards. You might want to do that if the person before you bet too high and you don’t want to call (bet the same amount as they did) or raise the amount. It‘s to minimize your loss.
Blackjack
You’re at a table and either you’ve got other players or not but you’ve always got a dealer sitting in front of you which you’re (and other players are) playing against. You’re now making a bet and then trying to get as close to 21 as possible without surpassing 21 with the value of your cards. Each of the face cards are worth 10 and an ace is either worth 11 or 1 depending on whether 11 would make you surpass 21 or not. If it would make you surpass it the ace turns into a 1. If it wouldn’t it stays at 11. The dealer will give you two cards. If you got a 3 and a 7 that makes your total card value a 10. Now you’d “hit” meaning getting another card. If the card you got was, for example, a Queen your card value would be at 20. You can stick with that which you should or you can ask for another card and hope for an ace, since that’d make your value a perfect 21. You’re essentially just trying to be the one that gets closest to 21 or exactly 21 without surpassing that amount. After each of the players decide to stick with the amount they’ve got the dealer will reveal their cards and add more cards or stay just like you did. The one closest to 21 wins. If the other players didn’t surpass 21 and got amounts of, for example, 19 and 17 and the dealer is also under 20, or even surpassed 21, your 20 wins.
Dominoes
it’s relatively simple. If you’re doing it for the gambler challenges I suggest you always join a table with only one person sitting at it so you only have one opponent.
The main goal while playing is to be the first person with an empty hand. It’ll start with one person laying a domino in the middle of the table. Now you essentially just match the numbers of your domino to the dominoes that are on the table. If the first domino was a 6:5, you need to look for a domino in your hand that has either a 5 or a 6 on it. So 5:(any number) or 6:(any number). The 6 on your domino and the 6 of the domino on the table will face each other. That’ll continue that way. If you cannot match any numbers from your hand to the dominoes that are on the table you’ll need to draw another (or multiple) domino/dominoes until you can actually place another. The second goal is to reach a certain amount of points. In an “All Fives” game (which I recommend because it’s a bit easier) you need to be the first to reach 100 points. A game of dominoes will spread into multiple directions but each end is what you actually need to focus on. If all of these open ends add up to a multiple of 5 (5,10,15,20,25, …) you’ll be awarded points. So if your opponent laid down a 4:5 and you add a 5:6 both open ends added together make up 10. 6:5 5:4 The numbers in the middle (in this case 5:5) do not matter. Only the ends matter which in this case are a 6 and a 4. You’ll probably have multiple open ends as soon as you’re further into the game, but the rules stay the same.

I've seen people struggle with the Gambler Challenges and the games, so I decided to make a full post with some tips for those challanges and an explanation of the games.

Gambler Challenges

Rank 1: Win five hands of Poker. — The description on how to play the game is gonna be further down. I suggest going all in. Going all in might make your opponents fold which would get you to win. You can also play poker in the mission “Who is Not Without Sin” since the wins are scripted there.
Rank 2: In Blackjack, double down and win the hand five times. — The description on how to play the game is gonna be further down. Double down if you’ve got 9, 10 or 11 without an ace. When you double down you’ll only receive one more card before standing with the cards you’ve got.
Rank 3: Win three games of Five Finger Fillet. — Look at the hand of your opponent when it’s their turn to see what buttons you have to hit. It’s not in a row, so when the game gets too hard leave and go somewhere else to continue playing.
Rank 4: Bust one poker table out in each location (Flatneck Station, Saint Denis, Valentine). — You need to bust one player out by making them lose all of their money. It’s easier the fewer opponents you have. Just go all in immediately. If you go all in and lose your money, quit the game and run away from the poker table a bit or sleep and then come back to join again.
Rank 5: Win three rounds of dominoes without drawing any tiles against two or fewer opponents. — The description on how to play the game is gonna be further down. It’s just about winning a round not the whole game so this is quite easy. Play and be lucky enough to not draw for three rounds.
Rank 6: Beat the blackjack dealer in two locations (Rhodes, Van Horn Trading Post). — Simple, you just need to beat the dealer in each of those locations, which is literally just playing the game and winning.
Rank 7: Beat the five finger fillet opponent in each location (Strawberry, Valentine, Van Horn Trading Post). — Basically the same as the third challenge. You just have to win 2 out of 3 rounds in one game to make your opponent leave the table in each location.
Rank 8: Win three hands of blackjack, with three hits or more. — The shittiest challenge R* could have come up with. Just bet the lowest amount of money each time if you care about saving money. Ties unfortunately don’t count. Good luck.
Rank 9: Win three games of dominoes in a row. — Make sure the table you’re at only has one opponent. It’ll be faster and easier for you to win that way. If you feel like you’re losing the game, quit while it’s your turn to make sure you don’t lose your streak. The one with the most points will win so play for points.
Rank 10: Win three hands of poker in a row. — Probably the easiest gambler challange. Make sure you already did the mission "A Fine Night of Debauchery" in Chapter 4. Then first, go to your story missions and replay the mission "Who is Not Without Sin". Accept to play poker before continuing the mission. It has two scripted poker games so you'll win each time. After finishing those make sure to continue and finish the mission. Then replay "A Fine Night of Debauchery". After getting to the poker game and winning it, since it's also scripted, you should have finished the challange.

Game Rules

Poker
Google the 10 poker hands and a ranking of them to look at while you’re playing if you don’t know them. The color of the cards doesn’t matter. The number and what kind of face card it is does matter. You'll get two cards at the beginning of the game and you'll keep those throughout the entire game. No one should see your cards, but since it's in RDR it doesn't matter. There's another set of cards in the middle of the table. Those are the cards everyone sees and everyone uses. They’re called „community cards“. After everyone made their bets there'll be a new card that'll get revealed in the middle. You have to create one of the hands I mentioned earlier, like a Royal Flush for example, with the two cards you've got and the community cards. If you've got a 6 and an 8 and there's a 7, 9 and 10 in the middle you've got a Straight Flush. You'll either bet high if you're sure of yourself and your cards (and the hand you might build), or you'll bluff by betting high if you've got terrible cards to make them think you've got amazing cards. You'll achieve that by betting higher, technically raising the pot each time. The NPCs might fold making you win. You can also give up your cards and lose your money by folding if you’re unsure of your cards. You might want to do that if the person before you bet too high and you don’t want to call (bet the same amount as they did) or raise the amount. It‘s to minimize your loss.
Blackjack
You’re at a table and either you’ve got other players or not but you’ve always got a dealer sitting in front of you which you’re (and other players are) playing against. You’re now making a bet and then trying to get as close to 21 as possible without surpassing 21 with the value of your cards. Each of the face cards are worth 10 and an ace is either worth 11 or 1 depending on whether 11 would make you surpass 21 or not. If it would make you surpass it the ace turns into a 1. If it wouldn’t it stays at 11. The dealer will give you two cards. If you got a 3 and a 7 that makes your total card value a 10. Now you’d “hit” meaning getting another card. If the card you got was, for example, a Queen your card value would be at 20. You can stick with that which you should or you can ask for another card and hope for an ace, since that’d make your value a perfect 21. You’re essentially just trying to be the one that gets closest to 21 or exactly 21 without surpassing that amount. After each of the players decide to stick with the amount they’ve got the dealer will reveal their cards and add more cards or stay just like you did. The one closest to 21 wins. If the other players didn’t surpass 21 and got amounts of, for example, 19 and 17 and the dealer is also under 20, or even surpassed 21, your 20 wins.
Dominoes
it’s relatively simple. If you’re doing it for the gambler challenges I suggest you always join a table with only one person sitting at it so you only have one opponent.
The main goal while playing is to be the first person with an empty hand. It’ll start with one person laying a domino in the middle of the table. Now you essentially just match the numbers of your domino to the dominoes that are on the table. If the first domino was a 6:5, you need to look for a domino in your hand that has either a 5 or a 6 on it. So 5:(any number) or 6:(any number). The 6 on your domino and the 6 of the domino on the table will face each other. That’ll continue that way. If you cannot match any numbers from your hand to the dominoes that are on the table you’ll need to draw another (or multiple) domino/dominoes until you can actually place another. The second goal is to reach a certain amount of points. In an “All Fives” game (which I recommend because it’s a bit easier) you need to be the first to reach 100 points. A game of dominoes will spread into multiple directions but each end is what you actually need to focus on. If all of these open ends add up to a multiple of 5 (5,10,15,20,25, …) you’ll be awarded points. So if your opponent laid down a 4:5 and you add a 5:6 both open ends added together make up 10. 6:5 5:4 The numbers in the middle (in this case 5:5) do not matter. Only the ends matter which in this case are a 6 and a 4. You’ll probably have multiple open ends as soon as you’re further into the game, but the rules stay the same.

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Venue
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Match Card

#	Match			Notes	Time Limit
1	El Desperado, Boltin Oleg & Katsuya Murashima	vs.	Kevin Knight, Tiger Mask IV & Shoma Kato	Six Man Tag Team Match	20
2	HAYATA & Tomoaki Honma	vs.	House of Torture (Yoshinobu Kanemaru & Yujiro Takahashi)	Tag Team Match	20
3	Los Ingobernables de Japon (BUSHI, Titán & Tetsuya Naito)	vs.	United Empire (TJP & Callum Newman) & Blake Christian	Six Man Tag Team Match	20
4	KUSHIDA [4]	vs.	Francesco Akira [2]	BOSJ 31 B Block Match	30
5	DOUKI [2]	vs.	Drilla Moloney [0]	BOSJ 31 B Block Match	30
6	Ninja Mack [4]	vs.	SHO [2]	BOSJ 31 B Block Match	30
7	Hiromu Takahashi [0]	vs.	Dragon Dia [0]	BOSJ 31 B Block Match	30
8	Robbie Eagles [2]	vs.	Taiji Ishimori [4]	BOSJ 31 B Block Match	30

A Block

	PTS
Blake Christian, Titán	6
El Desperado, Kevin Knight, Clark Connors	4
Kosei Fujita, Yoshinobu Kanemaru, HAYATA	2
BUSHI, TJP	0

B Block

	PTS
KUSHIDA, Taiji Ishimori, Ninja Mack	4
DOUKI, Robbie Eagles, Francesco Akira, Taiji Ishimori, KUSHIDA, Ninja Mack, SHO	2
Dragon Dia, Drilla Moloney, Hiromu Takahashi	0

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Written 5/8/2024- updates attached below

I tried posting this on kendrick almost a week ago and it got no response, I messaged the mods to ask about Karma restrictions or account age requirements and they never replied. I made a new account and it was the same issue, but I found out last night I wasn’t fully banned, so I figured I’d throw it up and see if anyone finds it valuable. It’s written for people who have no prior knowledge of the rap game/music business. I don’t have to go as hard on obscuring names this time. One of the influencers I mentioned in my last post is known for doxxing and threatening violence against people who mention the many contradictions in their stories. (Sorry for any typos/mistakes I want to go to bed.)
Origins
I believe the current Drake and Kendrick Lamar beef is either completely or partially fabricated by certain industry leaders or the parties involved in an effort to distract from something bigger going down behind the scenes. If you were an influential label owner facing major accusations, and you needed to deflect media attention from yourself, recreating one of the most defining moments in rap history during the social media era would be a way to do it. It also wouldn’t hurt that two of the biggest rappers in the world were already sending shots at each other in their music for years prior. The public consensus is they are simply two famous rappers who hate each other and fighting over the spot for the top like in the 90’s. Only people who were directly involved could paint a more cohesive picture of the whole story. Even when all the cards drop, there is a good chance the average person won’t be able to find direct sources on their own and will continue to support their favorite artists and dismiss any evidence of their crimes like the drizzy subreddit or Ak fans.

As I said the beef between Kendrick and Drake has been brewing in the background for years, with both rappers sending shots and sneak dissing each other over the course of at least 8 years. The most agreed upon origin story is the first diss was the 2016 Big Sean and Kendrick collaboration, “Control,” and Drake responded with, “The Language”. Things stayed relatively lighthearted for a while and both were intentionally vague for many years. Before I go deep into the Kendrick and Drake stuff, it’s really important to examine some of Drake’s prior beefs because they add a ton of context to my theory. In my opinion Kendrick and Co. started scheming all of this some time around Mid 2020-Mid 2022, well after the whole Pusha T beef had transitioned into the Kanye beef.

What exactly started the beef is debatable, but at the time many attributed it to rumors of Drake pursuing Ye’s ex Amber Rose. Unfortunately the timeline isn’t 100 percent clear, and if I included every detail this would be at least 200+ pages so I’ll stick with the important stuff. The ultimate outcome of the Pusha T battle in 2018 was the revelation of Drake’s son Adidon that he had previously been hiding from the world along with getting Ye directly involved in the beef.

Here are some more examples of Drake antagonizing Ye and of him trying to use women as pawns to get material for his diss tracks. The Drake line, “Yeah, I probably go link to Yeezy, I need me some Jesus, but as soon as I start confessin' my sins, he wouldn't believe us," could be a reference to sleeping with Kim Kardashian, trying to double down on his threats to harm him or his family, or it could be a double entendre. Another example is using the name Kiki in another song, which was apparently one of Kim’s nicknames. Some other possible examples include the theories he may have tried the same thing with Kendrick’s wife Whitney around 2020-2021 in an attempt to use as ammo against Kendrick, which I’ll go into later. I don’t listen to much of either artist's music, but there are probably many of other examples in Drake’s catalogue that I’m leaving out. There is also his song Omerta released in 2019, which I'll go into below.

“Your baby mother call me when she lonely My tailor see me twice a week, he like my homie Forever grateful, forever thankful Diamond necklace, but she wears it on her ankle”

(Probably referring to Kim Kardashian since she had a few pictures with her wearing diamond ankle bracelets and was trying to make it into a trend.

“I plan to buy your most personal belongings when they up for auction”

(There were various rumors floating around for a while that Drake was blackmailing Ye with something and he was fighting to keep it from the public. I thought about it and this line might be referencing a sex tape with Kim or her little sister who me was very touch before she turned 18. In 2022 there was a whole storyline on Kim’s show where Ye flies to LA to prevent her second sex tape from being released.)

West Hollywood, know my presence is menacing
Cosa Nostra, shady dealings
Racketeering, the syndicate got they hand in plenty things The things that we've done to protect the name are unsettling But no regrets, though, the name'll echo Years later, none greater
Death to a coward and a traitor, that's just in my nature, yeah
(Drake and Ye both frequented the Delilah Nightclub located in West Hollywood and lived closeby on the same street for a while.)
"I don't carry cash 'cause the money is digital
It's the American Expresser, the debt collector"

(Sounds a lot more like it could be crypto to launder or send large amounts of ill gotten gains. It started becoming mainstream around them)

"Last year, niggas really feel like they rode on me
Last year, niggas got hot 'cause they told on me
I'm 'bout to call the bluff of anybody the fold on me"

These lines stood out because they could be referring to Ye telling the public about Drake's alleged threats a couple months before the songs release. This happened not long after the release of Sicko mode which was towards the end of 2018 as well. Ye was discussing the incident on Twitter and reached out to Drake and Travis to talk to him in private. In the next set of tweets Kanye publicly accused Drake of threatening him and his family in a major way. Surprisingly Ye seemed genuinely scared and amongst his, “crazy rants,” some of the stuff he said makes a ton of sense in hindsight. This also the beginning of his second serious public struggles with Bipolar disorder after being committed in 2016 shortly after an on stage rant where he calls out Jay Z for selling out and says he's afraid he might kill him.. As someone who shares the same diagnosis, I have a pretty good understanding of mania and psychosis and firmly believe that it's important not to write people off right away due to their mental illness. Some of my most thoughtful, creative, and productive periods were inspired by mania. Industry bigwigs have also been using mental illness to discredit influential black celebrities and visionaries going back decades, but it really picked up in the 80’s.

Dave Chappelle has gone into this a lot in the past and claims he experienced something similar before he quit show business and dipped to Africa. Their stories have a lot of interesting parallels if you’re familiar or curious. I remember he actually visited Ye at his house in Wyoming after he was reported to have had a, "mental breakdown," during his presidential run in 2020 thus marking his third breakown in six years.. The reason I put it in quotes is because it happened right after he publicly accused Kim of cheating and delivered his legendary speech on abortion. Dave went as far as going on live tv and telling the public he wasn’t crazy, he was just really struggling because he was the only one at the time fighting against the narrative, which can often be a suicide mission or a ticket to obscurity. These are three examples of someone speaking up and being deemed crazy, two years later came the nazi stuff and I'm sure we'll have plenty in store for 2024.

This is just the tip of the iceberg when it comes to the very common pattern of artists dying or having their careers destroyed either after they try to leave their label or threaten to reveal industry secrets. A few more interesting industry connections I made in my research include the connections between:

T.U.G. records and J Cole's independent label Dreamville are both managed by Interscope Records, whose parent company is Universal Music Group.

Universal Music Group also hac Drake's label OvO label as well as Ye and Kendrick's old labels on their roster before they left to form their own independent labels in 2022 (around the same time the disses between Kendrick and Drake started escalating). Finally Bad Boy Records, which is owned by Diddy, and Motown Records who own Diddy's other R&B label Love Records, are also both owned by Universal. This means every label I mention is currently or was previously owned by Universal Music Group.

Ye tried for years to get out of his contract with Defjam, which happens to be ran by Jay Z who is known to be a close associate of Diddy. Jay would always used his money and power to fight against it. Ye even spoke out publicly on a few occasions, including when he said Jay Z was trying to kill him during one of his concerts. My theory is after years of getting nowhere and having his reputation skewered, in 2022 Ye finally said, "Fuck it," and dropped all the anti- Semetic stuff intentionally in a successful attempt to force his label to into using their morality clause, which requires labels to drop an artist if they're accused of any major controversy that could hurt the label’s profits. For the fourth time in four years the media reported he was having a breakdown. Even though they tried to punish him by cutting off all of his sources of income and freezing his accounts he still managed to bounce back pretty quickly. It was often reported how much he was losing, but it rarely discussed how he still was filthy rich in spite of the retrictions. His label wanted to discourage other artists from trying the same thing. My theory is he might have bought Kim or Kylie's alleged sex tape and used it for his own leverage. For Kendrick, his transition to his independent label ApLang went a lot smoother, but he had to split ownership of his new label with the previous manager owner Dave Free. Sadly it's still difficult for new or more niche artists to establish themselves without the some help.

He may be a lot of things but Ye isn’t dumb just because he has a mood disorder and the guys at the top know this, which is why I think he has really played up his diagnosis when it benefitted him. He’s still one of the most talented musicians in the game and I really think he sees his bipolar like a superpower as he says. It’s like his own invisibility cloak. He can go off his meds for a little, make an album after staying up for 72 hours, go on a “psychotic” twitter rant dropping facts throughout, then start up again once he makes enough news headlines. I think it’s worth noting the first divorce rumors in 2020 coincided with Ye’s abortion speech during his presidential run and the cheating accusations. that led to him dropping out and moving to Wyoming, and a couple months ago in February 2024 he was committed again.

The point I’m making is bipolar is complex, but pretty manageable especially if you have a ton of money to find meds that work for you and a good doctor and can keep substance abuse and stress at a manageable level. I think Ye is smart enough to know this, but it’s just safer for him to really play up the mental issues in the media. He’s proven he can literally say whatever he wants after getting cancelled and the average person is just going to write it off as psycho babble. While bias in health care is a sad fact of society, if you can use it to your advantage I say go for it. It might’ve just kept the microscope off of him long enough to plan his attack.

Ye v. Drake: Quotes of 2018
(Start of the beef, drake threats, and suspicion towards Kardashian family. )

“ It’s not about rap. It’s about family. We have to be close as a family and never let these people infiltrate just for radio spins”

“We need to show the world that people can talk without people ending up dead or in jail.”

”This is a man speaking to a man that has been placed in the program to fuck with Kanye West head and set me up“

”See when you care about your family you don’t let no man push you to do nothing that could risk your freedom“

These first four tweets by Ye were all in reference to perceived threats made by Drake after their beef escalated circa 2018. He began speaking on the industry and talking more about his psych hospital commitment two years prior and how he thought they were going to kill him. It's pretty obvious how the whole thing was planned by the sketchy doctor who called it in and his physical trainer who has a ton of connections to weird shit involving his celebrity clients.

I found interesting that Ye might not have been the first major league rapper whose life Drake threatened. During a similar period of mental illness the up and coming rapper XXXtentacion accused Drake of stealing his flow and dissed him a few times. Not long after he made a post online saying if he dies, it was Drake who did it. There are tons of conspiracies online, but none of the evidence is strong enough to draw a definitive connection. Also while it maybe be coincidental, Kendrick’s latest album Mr Morale also painted the picture that Kendrick was dealing with some serious personal issues. Some lines throughout the album may have been used to bait Drake into escalating, but it wasn’t until The Weekend, Future, and Metro Booming dropped, “We Don’t Trust You,” then Drake and J. Cole dropped, “First Person Shooter,” which was followed a couple days later with, “Like That,” where Kendrick started the chain of events that has led us to today.

Kanye vs. Drake: Quotes of 2020

Summary: Ye runs for president and gets suppressed for saying what very well could be the truth and was immediately deemed insane by the media. Kim did a couple interviews and everything he said was immediatly false. There is almost guarenteed to be some sketchy shit going down revolving her and her family. Ye was absolutely terrified of her keeping the kids away from him and it seems like there are still efforts being made to this day to paint a certain image of him for ulterior motives.

Below are six more quotes from a fan taking a deep dive into his 2020 tweets courtesy of u/ thehatstore42069 on Yeezy
”NORTHY I AM GOING TO WAR AND PUTTING MY LIFE ON THE LINE AND IF I AM MURDERED DON’T EVER LET WHITE MEDIA TELL YOU I WASNT A GOOD MAN,” West, 43, wrote in the tweet, adding, “WHEN PEOPLE THREATEN TO TAKE YOU OUT OF MY LIFE JUST KNOW I LOVE YOU”

"I need a public apology from J Cole and Drake to start with immediately... I'm Nat Turner... I'm fighting for us."

"the utmost respect for all brothers" and said "we need to link and respect each other... no more dissing each other on labels we don't own"

"Ye is constantly trying to tell people that his family does not have his or his kids best interests at heart. He goes on to list others, linking them together with the thinking emoji. These people include rap artist Drake and Larsa Pippen, wife of Scottie Pippe. Kim K is goddaughter to Pippen's daughter, showing how close the families actually are. All of these families that associate with Ye through Kardashian connections, as well as Drake, have been accused of the same thing Kris has. EVERY SINGLE ONE of these people have mixed race children that are groomed from a young age to fuck around with celebrities so the parents can remain famous. Drake on numerous occasions has been accused of grooming girls and then getting handsy on their 18th birthday.”

“These labels want their artists to make them money and they dont care about anything else. When Kanye says things like this in an attempt to expose him, the first thing they wanna do is drug him up and put him back in the studio.”
“Righteous indignation is typically a reactive emotion of anger over mistreatment, insult, or malice of another. It is akin to what is called the sense of injustice. This is how they keep the black man down. Keep people outraged about trivial things and distract them from the real issues in the world. The real problems in the industry. If you tell people enough times that they are unequal or discriminated against they start to believe it. Drug them when they step out of line and toss them aside when the checks run out. Ye is realizing he is pawn in a bigger game, and now that he has all these roots in the game such as Yeezy or the Gap or his music, too many people cant risk (Afford) a Ye who speaks his mind.”
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Amongst the twitter rant, Ye warned about the predatory nature of record deals and discussed trying to get out of his own deal, and said again how his life may be in danger if it wasn’t already and was doing anything he could to protect his kids. The most fascinating part to me though is the public call to arms he made to Drake, J Cole, and Kendrick on twitter. After inviting them to all link up, he said, “It’s time to get free, we will not argue amongst each other while some guy we don’t know in Europe is getting paid and putting that money in a hedge fund.” I believe if Ye was able to pull off this meeting, there is an ever so slight chance that all four artists might be working together to take down a greater enemy. Weirdly there have been times throughout the last couple years where these supposed enemies were photographed together being friendly or praise each other in interviews, then out of no where the disses would start flying again.

To wrap things up I want to share my a few of my theories about the Drake/Kanye beef

A. Everything is exactly as it seems and the beef is over. Ye let his mental illness ruin his life and career so Drake simply picked another target after Ye stopped putting out disses. All of these connections are just a coincidence and all of this was choreographed to boost Drake and Kendrick’s music sales and possibly distract people from the Diddy trial and possibly the complicated geopolitical issues currently facing the U.S.

C. There is also the possibility that all four rappers are in cahoots and Drake’s dirt isn’t as extreme as people are theorizing, at least in comparison to the rest of the business. This could explain why everything has played out like a movie and how they were able to predict each other’s moves so well. This could either mean they’re all just trying to boost their sales or they’re all trying to take down the “slave masters,” as Ye calls them, and change the dynamic of the music industry in favor of the artist.

D. They may be trying to help their friends in the industry who are being abused or in shitty contracts. I know a lot of famous rappers have done a lot of collaborations with Jhene Aiko and Anderson Paak, who were both signed to T.U.G. records which I mentioned above in the connections to Universal Music Group. Considering they are both frequent collaborators with all of the artists involved on both sides, it’s not unlikely they may have played some part in influencing the takedown.

T.U.G was started by Chris Stokes with his partner Ketrina Askew. Back in the early to mid 90’s were gaining popularity attracting lots of young up and coming talent. They often collaborated with Diddy and his associates. In the 2000’s Raz B from the boy band B2K claimed he was molested by Stokes and his friend Marques Houston, then quickly retracted his claims. Years later he came forward again and said we was bribed into silence and that the rest of the victims were bribed with hush money and had another singer corroborate his story and they came forward together to level the accusations. After some of his former B2K members made fun of him for his claims and accused it of being a shakedown, Raz B revealed Stokes and Houston had preyed a lot of the children associated with the label including at least one of the former bandmates and paid them off.

I thought it was worth noting that the second whistleblower named Quindon Tarver died young in a car crash after mentioning his abuse again a few years prior. He seems to have left the industry not long after the incidents occurred and has few credits to his name. To this day Raz B is still trying to get his justice, while Stokes and his partner Askew, who was also involved in the abuse are still running the label to this day. Askew also has a ton of lawsuits, accusing her of using shady tactics to try to foreclose on houses. (Don’t quote me if a lawyer wants to take a look just google her full name), and has been tied to a ton of LLCs, similar to Drake. This is a good example of a shitty record deal, but I'm sure they have countless other friends in the industry who have even worse. While they were never convicted even Chris Stokes' wife confirmed it to be true.

E. The theory I personally think fits the narrative best and is the most realistic conspiracy is that Kendrick and possibly J. Cole went to the meeting, but not Drake due to his close relationship with Lucian Grange, the president of Drake’s label. Silence often speaks louder than words and this could explain why Kendrick was so ruthless and put so much effort into finding dirt on Drake. Ye, Cole, and Kendrick co-writing would be like the rap allstar team and if J. Cole wasn’t involved, it would also answer the question of whether or not he baited Drake into the battle by asking him to feature. I don’t think Drake is really their primary target though, which would explain letting him off easy. Compared to his bosses and their bosses he’s a small fish. If you take the big guys down you stand a better chance of landing a bigger blow on their operation.

Another really interesting connection is Kendrick and Ye were both signed under Universal Music Group and they both got out of their deals around couple months apart in 2022. As we speak U.M.G’s CEO Lucian Grange, who is often acccused of giving Drake special treatment, is facing charges related to sex trafficking by no other than P Diddy. This could very well explain the timing of it all. The craziest timeline would be Diddy masterminding all of this and using his connections to get it done and all the allegations are bullshit. The guy does seem pretty confident all things considered and constantly posts himself in his Batman costume which could mean he’s a vigilante.

It seems like there's a slight religious angle as well. (Ye and Diddy are both very vocal advocates of Christianity and Drake and Lucian Grange are both Jewish.) Obviously this is a reach, but they’ve been saying rap music was specifically promoted by mostly white label owners in the 80’s to help in the ongoing effort to expedite the systematic oppression of those living in black neighborhoods and the destruction of their family systems. Apparently it was an intentional decision to heavily promote rappers that promoted the very things that were destroying their neighborhoods. (So people know I'm and atheist and have zero agenda, I just thought it was interesting, please stay away from anything antisemitic. War is wrong on both sides.)

*** If my favorite theory is true, there is a possibility the Kendrick and Ye are going after Drake due to their mutual disdain for him and because he’s got a ton of power to dominate the charts and hog the radio airtime like Meek Mill and OG Maco claimed years ago. Even him dropping a record the same day as you could really fuck your album sales up. I’m also sure some of the many rumors throughout the years have had a least some truth and he will most likely snitch to avoid cell block one. I think that Drake could have been instructed to instigate this whole mess in order to draw attention away from the UMG charges brought about by Diddy. Or on the other hand it could be that Kendrick, Ye, and possibly Cole, may have had intel that Drake was going to be involved in the Diddy trial and are just gonna let the receipts show themselves. It might not have been the original plan, but they’ve already accomplished their mission of humiliating him, assuring he couldn’t use his influence to slide through the cracks, and taking over the throne.

Please take everything I say with a grain of salt I have no connection to this world or lifestyle. Regardless I believe all of the knowledge above does a pretty solid job at painting a picture of what may have let up to this and what may have been the source.
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More details found the last couple days…

Drake and Diddy Connections+Coincidences

Drake- In the P Diddy wig video from 2016 he talks about going to party with Drake, Cash, and The Weeknd in Toronto. Drake is also one of Birdman’s protégées who is known for being a predator and is rumored to have used label artists to lure young women.

Travis Scott- Interview where he comes out and says Diddy tried to lure him. Still has a long history of associating with him, video of him running from Diddy, his connection to Ruby Rose while underage.

Tim Westwood- Diddy had connections with sex offender Tim Westwood who also inspired the Drake song, “Westwood”. They also both were victims of drive by shootings along with The Weekend and they were all facing some type of allegations.

T.I.- Also has been associate with Diddy through the years, in 2021 his kid died and 11 women can forward at the same time to accuse him and his wife of drugging and assaulting them. Clearly someone wanted to fuck his life up. Possibly due to him getting arrested so many times for wild shit and people wondering how he continued to get away with it shining a light on how powerful industry lawyers are. He also had recently talked about having a gynecologist check to see if his daughter is still a Virgin, which sounds like it could have been an industrty secret. Could have been because he worried about someone trying to take advantage of her to get to him? Regardless that shit is fucking insane.

50 Cent- Has been saying pretty much the same thing as Travis Scott and has trolled Diddy for most of his career. It came out that his wife was a sex worker who was possibly recruited Diddy to help ruin his career. It sort of worked, which raises the question if 50 Cent is the only victim.

Ray J- Him and his sister worked with T.U.G. records when they were very young. Chris Stokes in the nineties who had connections with Diddy. He has been involved in a lot of sex scandals and allegedly may have played a part in Whitney Houston's death. (Which is also allegedly connected to Michael Jackson's death and both were deemed suspicious and happened during their final tours when their masters (song rights), became more valuable than their lives. Sony Records and Tommy Motolla, who also abused Mariah Carey when she was trying to start her career. These are just a few of the alleged examples of labels taking out musicians when they were worth more dead, another is the signing of high risk artists and requiring them to get life insurance so they can profit beyond releasing all their posthumous records. Also the ever so common story of the rising star artist that die at 21 after their first album or two.

He also partied with Diddy in Vegas with along Floyd Mayweather and a bunch of other famous industry people and athletes.

Tory Lanez- Tons of blackmail, also was signed by Interscope under UMG. got sent to prison for ten years after trying to leave his label. Also history of SA and and other allegations of violence towards women.

French Montana- On Diddy's label, close with Rick and Khaled, tons of drug and sexual assault allegations, also dated a Kardashian. Generally grimy.

DJ Khaled- Diddy said he could get anything in Miami, either referring to drugs or women, could explain his connections and lack of any notable talent. (New update, he was one of the first to promote Chris Alvarez’s instagram not long after he turned 18).

Rick Ross- Diddy said some weird shit about him and licked his lips and kissed him at a show. Ross is also signed to Bad Boy under Diddy. He ended up getting involved in the current feud and spamming social media nonstop dissing and threatening Drake.

A lot of the back and forth was both of them threatening to release dirt on each other. One strange coincidence I found was Drake recently trolled Ross about the 20 million dollar renovation to his home on Star island, where Diddy is currently residing. It’s rumored back in the day that P Diddy was caught in a room full of rich guys on ecstasy possibly at the beginning stages of a gay orgy. Drake also mentioned in the same tweets about Rick Ross that Birdman owned a house on the island and asked Rick Ross why he didn’t help him out.

Considering Ross is so sketchy and Drake claims the house isn’t that big, that’s a ridiculous amount of money. He may be covering up evidence, or creating tunnels in his house to escape if shit pops off and Drake might know what’s good. Interestingly enough Ross is very close with French Montana and also signed to Bad. He said his beef was related to something involving French, and Drake’s tweet popped up the same day the info came out concerning the Chris Alvarez stuff.

The famous line from U.O.E.N.O.

Meek Mill- “OG Maco called himself defending his friend Quentin Miller by substantiating the ghostwriting claims and agreeing with Meek. He hit up Twitter saying, "Some of us been knew. Meek just put it in the air. Sucks to have to compete with 6 n****s and get compared to”

Meek mill also had a short beef with Drake, some disses included lines referring to TI’s homie pissing on Drake at the movie theater, which is also interesting considering the current case against him. He also dropped a line saying Diddy almost got a domestic charge when he smacked Drake, which could either be saying that Drake is like a woman, or saying he was Drake’s boyfriend/sugar daddy.
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I thought it was interesting how the beef just kind of disappeared and even Meek said it didn’t seem genuine. Considering the allegations against Meek in the Diddy trial, and his rumored affair with Kim contributing to ending Kanye’s marriage, Meek Mill definitely did some dirt on him.

“Niggas frauds I told the truth, don't ask me shit
All this industry fake enemy and rap shit”

“Money make a sucker that told look trill again”

One of the many chapters in Drake's history in which he is seen paying his way out of trouble and starting beefs randomly.
“Now when that shit went down with Chris, you wrote a check”
This line is referring to Chris brown beef, another beef that was lost to time. All I can remember off the top was someone throwing a champagne bottle at the other’s entourage.

Ty Dolla $ign- Huge feature artist, close with Ye. Grew up in the industry and talks about growing up on the road and being in the studio with his dad and Rick James who was should have already been in prison for life for dragging, torturing, and S assaulting multiple women and children throughout his career and was himself a victim of the industry. May be part of Ye's motivation, considering their recent close working relationship.
The end.
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Our new nanny has been with us for only 2 months, so I don’t really know what she likes. But she’s truly amazing and her birthday is coming up, so I do want to celebrate her and get her something.
All I know is that she’s in her 50’s, married with two adult kids. She’s religious (christian) and doesn’t drink, enjoys cooking, and takes the bus daily to commute.
My husband and I plan on getting her a small sugar-free cake (she’s diabetic), a card, and giving her a day off (day after her birthday), but any advice on what would make a great birthday gift? Is cash the best gift? If so, how much is standard or is there a such thing?
TIA!

(Might be the wrong tag, not sure what I need) I feel like I've lost my purpose, I know for certain I've lost drive. This year has been hell in the short 5 months. Like the 1st days of January I woke up feeling heavy and depressed and the next day my USMC recruiter called me saying I've been DQ'd by BU-MED and I'll have to do more physical therapy, so I did that and in the end it was of no use, got full denial in March so my childhood dream of being a Marine was crushed. I got DQ'd for joint stiffness in my ankles, there was no issues with them other than the movement of bringing my toes towards my shin (easy way to describe the movement). Now to backtrack to Valentine's Day. Already didn't like the holiday for whatever reason. But later that night after a kickboxing class, I go to my room to eat and get on a phone call with my (at the time) boyfriend and then I hear my grandma come into the house crying so I go check on her and she told me that my mom died, just died. She's been fighting cancer since the pandemic, last time I saw was before things got bad and she looked terrible, and I think the most heartbreaking thing was that her hair was just barely there, my biggest memory of my mom was her hair, in my family we all have this thick beautiful hair. And I haven't seen her since then. So I've been dealing with her losing her and the fact my stepfather (hate him and his family) won't give my mom a burial or even a memorial. Nothing, he gave her nothing. When he'd start fights and shit with her that would stop me from going to visit her, and I barely got to visit her while I could. But anyway, last thing, my boyfriend broke up with me last month in April, like completely out of nowhere, we were having no problems, no fights, the previous days we were talking about me coming over to his (like we did ever weekend) and fooling around. But the previous day I was having a breakdown, I don't know what triggered it but at some point during work I just snapped, started feeling crying and running out. And then he texted me at some point the next saying "we need to talk" and I started having a panic while I'm just waiting for him to pick me so we could go to his house, he was my safe space, the only place I could feel vulnerable. He said that he wanted to grow as a person, it didn't sound like that, like there was another reason. And then at some point he said he didn't want to be out of my life and wanted to continue being friends, and I just said "no". The reason I said "no" is because I knew I couldn't love him as a friend. When I meet him in German class at the beginning of this school year, something inside said "he's the one" and I feel head over heels, and I'm from the southern Oklahoma, my last guess is that I would ever fall for a man, but I did. And I loved no matter his imperfections. And the few things we didn't agree on my love still never faltered. And I used to have this dream since I was like 13 or 14 and it was always the same, 2 kids running around, dog with them, golden sunset, sitting on a porch talking with somebody I obviously loved, every crush, and the one girlfriend I had before my ex I never heard their voice for saw their face the person's face and voice was like blurry, if that makes sense. But after I got with my ex and had the dream, I saw his face and heard his voice, and after that I was deadset on marrying him, I didn't tell him about that dream after it happened because that morning I was getting bitched at by my grandparents about something (by the way, they weren't happy about my gay relationship, their old southern Christians). I told him about that dream after we broke up, I sent him a Google doc because he flaked on us meeting up and talking and just told him a lot. And I used to have this thing with that could help like see tomorrow, sense it, whatever, it doesn't make sense but now it's gone. He was the first good thing to happen to me in a while, and he was the last thing I had. The only thing I "have" is an army contract for the infantry and I never wanted to join the Army. And I promised myself a long time ago that I'd never live for myself, only for somebody else. But now, I'm just this mess that's struggling with no purpose, no drive, nothing, I have no friends, no good family, no lover. I have nothing. My only hope is that I can talk to him and maybe get back together. But I doubt that'll happen, he just ignores me now.

Years ago I met my husband working in the pharmacy department of a major US drug chain. We worked in separate stores. I was a supervisory pharmacy technician in my store and he was a staff pharmacist in his. One of my duties was to oversee training of new pharm techs in our area and train existing techs to be supervisory techs. I would literally have to sign off on the training certifying techs were ready to go to their stores and capable of doing their jobs. Both mine and husband's pharmacies had great staffs and were leaders in the district.
Eventually, my store got a new store manager who we'll call K. For whatever reason, K decided that she wanted to engage in a little nepotism and help a fellow store manager's daughter (D) become a supervisory tech. The problem was that D wasn't even a good regular pharmacy tech and we had just shipped her off to a slower store because she preferred texting her boyfriend in the back instead of filling prescriptions and refused to work her fair share of weekends. I told K that this girl would become a supervisory tech over my dead body (pharmacy manager was totally behind me on this as was the district pharm tech supervisor). K then began a campaign of retaliation and would write me up for the most mundane things ever. In fact, the only time in my career I was ever disciplined is when K was my manager. I think she was hoping to replace me with another supervisory tech who would help her with her goals. It didn't really bother me. I knew I was performing well above expectations and wasn't bothered by her being petty. Besides, replacing me with D would hurt her way more than it would hurt me.
I'm chilling at drive-thru one day and one of my staff comes running in, grabs me, and says, " K is getting transferred to [husband's store]." My heart sank because I knew K would be the kind of person to take things out on my husband. He's a very kind, non-confrontational man, and not one that would do well with the type of game playing K enjoys. Sure enough, she starts writing him up for ridiculous things. She even went up to him one day and said, "Why are you married to South-Style-134? She's fire and you're ice. I just don't get why you like her." Hubs was shook and didn't really answer her. (As a side note, the supervisory tech at my husband's store literally went to K on day one and told her that D wouldn't be promoted there either lmao).
So K continues her campaign against me via my husband until Valentine's Day. Now, I don't really care about Valentine's, so my husband doesn't go out of his way for it. Our stores usually sell red roses only for Valentine's and the roses are featured in the weekly ad. Husband had made it his tradition to pick some up for me with a sweet card on his lunch break. This particular year, husband was going to do the usual but couldn't find the flowers. He searched all over the store and just as he's about to give up and just get me candy or something else, he finds K talking with the district operations manager (K's boss). My husband goes over to both of them, looks at K and says, "hey, where are the flowers from this week's ad?" K gets flustered and says, "we don't have any." K's boss asks if they sold out. K is forced to admit she didn't order any in the first place. K's boss is clearly pissed and tells her to immediately call the neighboring store and get some from them. K had to drive an hour round trip to get flowers from the other store. She does make it back before husband's shift is over so he buys the first bouquet. He brings them home and tells me the real gift is the story of how he got them and embarrassed K in front of her boss.
Epilogue: K was transferred yet again not long after this, so my husband was thankfully free of her. She was later asked to tender her resignation for a myriad of questionable practices of which the flower incident was minor, but it's still fun to think that we may have started the process of exposing her for being subpar.