Hi I’m from east coast of the U.S. Im 19 male single im of Latin decent. I’m 5’7” I have an athletic build. I graduated from highschool awhile ago. I plan on going to the military. So about me I like to workout if you wonder my work out plan it’s this upper and lower body then rest or push then pull then leg then I end it with rest. in my freetime I’ll play video games like cod(I mostly play zombies), resident evil, far cry, ghost of Tsushima, Minecraft, madden, nba 2k, forza horizon, gran turismo,gta. I like going hiking or walking on the beach or the park. I plan on getting a motorcycle at some point. I would like to use the dirt bike and go on the dirt and mud roads. I also would like to use jet ski as well.
so I’m looking for a serious relationship with someone. Hopefully to spend time together. I’m looking for a partner (18-21) im not a sub/bottom just want to let people know

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OP posted screenshots of their Animal Crossing island titled “Welcome to Knotted 🤍” “i'm a new player and am incredibly excited for this forever island! what's your favourite memories when you first started out?”
The other members of the sub associate this word with furry porn, zoophilia and bestiality
OP actually named their island after a cafe they visited in Korea
there's this cafe named knotted when i visited korea https://knottedstore.com/ and it gave me super happy cozy vibes... i just wanted a cozy island what's happening 😭
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“Knotted” “It’s a yarn thing, right?” “Right?”

I didn’t think anything of it until I learned a new term from the comments 💀

You aren’t allowed to say anything anymore without it having something dumb urban dictionary meaning that people will mock it for

Are you only going to have wolf villagers on your island?

Or only dog villagers.

OP really dropped this on us and dipped :/

this is their only post too, really what was the thought process

i can't figure out if i want it to be intentional or not

(OP) i didn't dip i just went to sleep 🥹

How'd you get the island name?

The poor thing named their island after a bakery place they like 😭

The bakery is selling salty cream bread 😔

Why am I being down voted? it's literally their front page ya dumb dumbs https://knottedstore.com/ 😂

i’m wondering that too lol

You don't wanna know. Normies don't like learning what Furry terms mean. Let's just leave it at that.

I would let the name slide if it wasn't Animal Crossing. You definitely knew what you were doing.
Ok, Someone keep the male Canine Villagers (Dogs/Wolves) away from this island, particularly the more innocent ones like Lucky and Biskit, they're too pure for this island. Furry jokes aside, have fun with your first time. And take it from another furry, the game is far more enjoyable when you specifically DON'T lewd the adorable animals. Ankha is already embedded in pop culture as the dancing cat from that video, let the others stay innocent. If you really feel the need for attractive anthro canines, Beastars exists, and Backdoor Labrador is a thing because of it.

Please go read OPs comment I'm dying over here this can't be real life

(OP) i feel invaded 😶

That's a cute name! It's a shame the internet ruins everything, though : I hope you have fun!

It absolutely is not, unless the island is pretzel themed, the name is icky. As a scientist studying humans and animals, it icked me

My suggestions for Villagers: Butch, Biskit, Bones, Walker, Shep, Kyle, Fang, Dobie, Chief, and Wolfgang 🚀👌
Why is everyone complaining about knotted, do you guys freak out when your hair gets tangled or something 😭

It has dirty connotations to some people. Knotting is something that happens when dogs or wolves mate. A lot of people know the term because of explicit furry content, werewolf fanfiction, and stuff like that.

Pornifying a children’s game 😭

What a peculiar thing to say…

While stories about the gay experience are important, I'm more interested in stories that feature gay men. Now sometimes the two can co-exist, like Knock at the Cabin where a couple that happens to be gay are held hostage and they naturally (as well as the audience) suspect they are being targeted for being gay, but nothing about their homosexuality is a motivation for why this is happening. The thing is I would like to see gay protagonists featured in a way straight people are.
Like Jurassic Park, Alan and Ellie's heterosexuality is not discussed in any political or cultural way. Ellie being a woman and themes of feminism/sexism is discussed, but her relationship with Alan as heterosexual woman is never brought up because they're straight. It's not likely, but with Jurassic World 4 featuring Jonathan Bailey - I would love to see our first gay male protagonist. He's a paleontologist and his scientist boyfriend (played by Drew Starkey) have to save the day.
Another example is The Mr. and Mrs. Smith television show is apparently an anthology. Would love to see a Mr. and Mr. Smith. Then there are action genres like John Wick. What if instead of the dead wife, there's the dead husband? Hopefully with the DCU under James Gunn, we get to see an adaptation of Midnighter and Apollo as the first gay superhero leads (Phastos in Eternals was great, but he wasn't the lead - Ikaris and Sersi were). And not to take away from the lesbian representation, but I would love to see a gay male lead and romance be the forefront of a AAA game like Ellie and Dina in The Last of Us.
So what types of gay male stories in movies, television, and video games would you like to see?

My older male cat (10 y/o) usually humps while kneading. We neutered him late, around 6 months. 3 weeks ago we got a new female kitten (4 months-ish). They’re getting along well, they usually play fighting and cleaning each other while the other is asleep habits. I made a post previously about things but I got it on video this time! So the trill he does is something he started when she came, he does this almost every time he “spins”. He also meows softly at her during this, not with hissing or growling.. Any ideas what this is about?

I'm a 23 year old male and I've never been in a relationship. The friends that I do have don't share similar interests so I feel like I'm slowly losing them. I don't smoke, don't do drugs, don't drink, don't go to clubs/bars. I'm not religious, conservative (not to get political), and go to the gym 6 days a week.
The gym is my only passion. I picked up a part time job aside from my full time job to occupy myself because I geniunely don't know what to do outside of my full time job and the gym. The people at my full time office job are not people I would regular hang around with. Only other thing I do is video games here and there because I have no idea what else to do. Weekends, I'll go to the gym and often work a 4 hour shift from job 2. I just get so bored and have no interest in other things.
I don't know if people like me exist but I just wish I could have some friends that had similar interests like the gym and sports (while also not being jocks/partiers). I want to find the girl of my dreams and treat her like a queen... but I've never had a girlfriend and I have no idea when I ever will. Where does a non-partying gym bro find my people and a future partner?

Hey there! I need help sorting out feelings and understand myself better. I’m going to a gender therapist now so this would be something to go alongside my therapy.
I grew up having a normal and happy childhood (for an autistic boy) and had boy interests and was fine being a boy and referred to as one. I simply did not think I was a girl at all for most my life and I was fine with being a guy but did not love it. I did not connect to most of the boys and men in my life and gravitated more towards women and girls as I grew up as I felt more connected to them. I did not like violence and wasn’t interested in guns or violent video games or scantily clad women or being hyper masculine throughout my life and still don’t like that stuff. I only started questioning my gender a year and three months ago. I initially identified as genderfluid but after a few months settled on trans woman and have identified as such since my egg cracked early October last year. I haven’t started hrt or present fem in public and I’m only out to a few people. I resonate a lot to tomboys and butch punk types, though also to bubbly kawaii princess types too. In my mind I wonder whether I’m really a woman or just a guy overthinking and hyperfixating on gender. I tried being my old male self again after my egg cracked and tried decising but that didn’t feel right and after a couple of days of going back to being a guy I just feel awful and want to go back to being a woman. I love being called a lady and she/her pronouns. I don’t like having facial hair and don’t want to grow a mustache. I have had bottom dysphoria even before I questioned my gender and considered myself as trans but now I’m in a certain type of peace with my male parts even though I hate it and would prefer having female parts. I’ll never have authentic female anatomy and that sucks. I now play as a woman in video games even though I never played as such growing up and I just can’t go back to being a guy as it isn’t the same. I don’t want to impregnate a woman and doing so just makes me feel weird and awful and not comfortable inside. I don’t want biological children and tried making scenarios where I marry a woman but it doesn’t feel right and the scenarios are always short lived.
Sexuality is a can of worms. I started puberty with mild sexual feelings and really I only had a transformation kink with some sporadic interest in anime women and like flirting with a girl in high school in a short lived relationship, but my desire to have sex with a woman wasn’t very strong and I was able to contain whatever desire I did have. I noticed when I was 19/20 I just wasn’t into women like straight men were and initially identified as het greyace. I started feeling attracted to guys when I turned 21 after sewing cute anime men and identified as bi curious for a while. I noticed that over time I continued to feel little to no attraction to women while having mild to moderate attraction to men and my transformation kink. My TF link doesn’t involve MTF TG stuff and was always involving me turning into a creature. I notice I want a boyfriend more than I want a girlfriend now and I just don’t resonate with straight guys or lesbians. I feel like I force myself to find women attractive but it makes me feel worse in the long run. I am happy being single and not in a relationship. I try imagining myself as a guy intimate with a woman and it just feels off nowadays. I tried having waifus but I never really connected with any of them and they were all short lived.

I have noticed a lot of commentary about how men who approach women are universally seen as "creeps" and that is just wrong. People need to stop labelling men who have no ill intent as bad people. Obviously, guys that want to sexually assault women, spike their drinks, or don't take no for an answer are bad but men who try to talk to women then back off when the first time they say they aren't interested are not bad.
I don't know about everyone on the internet, but I live in a democracy where freedom of speech is a key value. Men like women and should have a right to talk to who their attracted to. Online dating is not a valid option for all men. Clubs are ok, but they aren't all of that either. Most people who say "join a club" have no idea what they are talking about, especially if they are advising people who moved to a new city.
First, some people join clubs where there are few women (comic book clubs, wrestling clubs, etc.). Second, some individuals are in clubs where there aren't many people within their age range. Third, men are advised to join clubs that they like and not be weird by joining something just because a lot of women are in it (rightfully so). You might join a club with maybe two attractive ladies, one might have a boyfriend, and another might not be interested.
I swear us guys are damned if we do and damned if we don't. We live in a society where most things are seen as black and white; there seems to be little empathy. A lot of ladies online aren't even calling for a middle ground, like an acceptable way to make approaches and instead are telling guys to cut it out entirely. Our happiness is important just as that of women is.
I heard a female writing that women aren't men's to just claim everywhere. That is not what approaching is about for most guys, it is only about discovering "what if". Back when I made approaches, I didn't do it because I felt a need to smash every pretty girl I saw (but I'll admit that becomes less true in bars if two people are flirting or dancing). I made approaches to see if I could meet a nice companion to hang out with and date.
Then people will turn around and wonder why a guy is single for years with no serious relationship. After a while that same guy could become single-for-life. People wonder why guys cheat, but it kind of makes sense when they feel they are limited in who they are allowed to date and that they have to just settle for who they know because they're seen as weird for wanting to meet new people.
I think society is heading to the point of no return. Don't get me wrong, as a guy I know there are extremist males who believe ladies are all promiscuous and are dating multiple men at once. I've heard rhetoric that men should never get married and should "pump and dump". What is odd to me is that more and more people seem to land on their end of the spectrum rather than being closer to moderation.
I might end up being single forever because people are too complicated. Some women are so selfish to complain that multiple men reject them, but if all those guys walk away as soon as you say no then that isn't a big deal. For the guys who don't, address that issue, and that sort of behavior. That's like saying we should abolish weight classes because some male boxers can beat competitors 20-40 pounds bigger than them in the heavyweight division,
Just as some ladies think men are selfish for approaching them, I think those same women are selfish for saying men can't. Who are you to limit freedom of speech and expression? As long as it is not harassment, that is not just. I have just as much a problem with male simps who worship women and make it harder for other men to find the real solution.
Just because one guy met the love of his life at 22 in college or another one is ok with being single doesn't mean everyone is like that. Only a small percentage of men even get desired matches online dating. A few cannot speak for the majority. Also consider that some men are autistic or awkward and do not know how to go about finding partners. People need to focus on intentions, if the intent is well then at least try to understand.
Why should I go to a club twice a week every week even if I like it to meet one person and date them? That doesn't even make any sense. Most dates don't last long anyway. Maybe I'm lazy and only like to go out every two or three weeks. Why should I change who I am just to date someone? It's crazy...
I guess more men might have to consider adoption or having pets instead of children because it really is that difficult now.
I'd like to add that the media leaves a misleading perception to young men and society should not totally blame us for not initially knowing which approach might be best. Some of our fathers grew up in a different time when a direct approach was more accepted (my father was a football quarterback and openly met women anywhere, he also bought them drinks and doesn't have the issues I had). Music videos, films, and some shows illustrated men just meeting the women they liked as if it was easy.
It was not uncommon to see men cold approaching ladies before collecting their numbers, dating, and falling in love. The dating scene is complicated and isn't going to make a lot of sense to many guys. Furthermore, we live in an individualistic society where we can get almost anything we want when ordering things online, we have Amazon, we have microwaves, and there are fast food restaurants. Dating is so different because we have such little control, not just because of consent (which I learned from an early age) but because of how our approaches are perceived as guys and the high standards assigned to us.

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In 199X, Japan was rocked by strange incidents.
Recently, mysterious and unexplainable incidents have taken place that have rocked the country. In high schools all over, students have been mysteriously disappearing with no clue as to their whereabouts. Furthermore, it appeared that these unspeakable acts were occurring in direct defiance of the school system. These disappearances were taking place in many different locations simultaneously, and many thought that they were being staged by an organized crime ring.
It was also rumored throughout the world that these acts were being plotted by either school officials or agents of a rogue foreign government.
Taiyo High School Gorin High School Pacific High School Gedo High School Justice High School

Batsu Ichimonji

"The Hot-Blooded Transfer Student"

Profile	-
Sex:	Male
Birthday:	January 1
Blood Type:	O
Height:	171 cm
Weight:	64 kg
B-W-H:	95-72-80 (cm)
Nationality:	Japanese
Home Life:	Batsu lives with his mother, Shizuku
Likes:	Straight things, ninja, his mother
Dislikes:	Dogs (he was bitten by a dog when he was little and though he can't remember it, the trauma fuels his dislike), crooked things, unfair things
Special Talent:	Eating fast
Best Subject:	Physical education
Worst Subject:	Anything else
Club:	He has not joined any club yet.
Part-Time Job:	A part-time job is prohibited at Taiyou, but before he sold newspapers and milk in order to help out his mother.

Personality: Impulsive, foul-mouthed, and belligerent, but at heart, he's got a strong sense of justice. Batsu has a tender side and a kind heart that shows when he takes care of his mother. But, because of his tendency to be forward and rough, Batsu is often misunderstood.
Story: Batsu's mother Shizuku, who raised him alone since he was a small child, suddenly vanished from her job at Taiyou. Batsu entered Taiyou in hopes of finding his missing mother. While investigating, Batsu learned of a mysterious new school called Justice High. With high hopes and a powerful spirit, Batsu enters the fight.
Short Story: A Day of Youth, The Warmth of a Mother

Hinata Wakaba

"Stormy Highschool Girl"

Profile	-
Sex:	Female
Birthday:	April 12
Blood Type:	O
Height:	155 cm
Weight:	41 kg
B-W-H:	78-56-78 (cm)
Nationality:	Japanese
Home Life:	Hinata lives with both her parents and an older sister Asaka, a college student.
Likes:	Cake, rare things, hand-to-hand fighting techniques
Dislikes:	Dirty things, bugs
Special Talent:	Moving her body, karaoke
Best Subject:	Social studies, Japanese, physical education
Worst Subject:	Calligraphy (she can't stay still)
Club:	She doesn't belong to one officially, but many people ask for her help in the clubs
Part-Time Job:	None (school rules prohibit it)

Personality: She's smart and excels in all sports. Her winning spirit makes her a bit of a smart-aleck, and curiosity makes her a lively, cheerful, modern schoolgirl. Her hand-to-hand techniques possess the heavenly talent and an excellent fighting sense. Through training via a correspondence course, her skill is at the level of those competing in national tournaments. Because she just can't keep still, she goes running around off campus after school. She loves cake and always eats it on the way home from school.
Story: The rundown of her alma mater Taiyou High is an important thing, and she wanted other students to fight with her, but no one would follow her. Then Batsu came to move into the downtrodden place. Since they both have mutual purposes, they seem to be set to go out together, however, in a moment, Batsu refuses Hinata's offer to work with him. But since Hinata just can't keep still, she goes along with Batsu against his will.
Short Story: Tiny Cake Heart

Kyosuke Kagami

"The Mysterious Public Man"

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Sex:	Male
Birthday:	April 4
Blood Type:	B
Height:	182 cm
Weight:	66 kg
B-W-H:	95-75-79 (cm)
Nationality:	Japanese
Home Life:	Kyosuke lives alone in a luxury apartment near a college
Likes:	Chess, Shougi, Mirrors (he looks at one for about 30 minutes each day)
Dislikes:	Sweat, hard work
Special Talent:	Calligraphy, flower arrangement
Best Subject:	Math, Science
Worst Subject:	Nothing particular
Club:	Member of the moral committee
Part-Time Job:	None (school rules prohibit it)

Personality: The opposite of Batsu. Cool and calculating. He almost never shows his emotions and each pose and appearance he takes stands out with his coolness. He doesn't show it on the outside, but inside he holds a strong sense of justice. After a pose, he makes it a habit to touch his glasses with his right hand.
Story: Wherever there's information to find on Batsu's mother, Kyosuke and Batsu fight together in search of information. But it looks like Kyosuke has an important secret that he can't tell Batsu…
Short Story: Kyosuke's Morals Diary

Shoma Sawamura

"Explosive Slugger"

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Sex:	Male
Birthday:	October 10
Blood Type:	O
Height:	162 cm
Weight:	57 kg
B-W-H:	92-78-80 (cm)
Nationality:	Japanese
Home Life:	Shoma lives with both his parents, his brother Shuuichi (3rd yeasenior at Gorin), and his (paternal) grandfather; Shoma's father sent Shuuichi to train at Yakyuu (Baseball) Sparta (apparently a rigid baseball camp)
Likes:	Pro baseball, baseball video games
Dislikes:	Big and strong people, basketball, volleyball
Special Talent:	Baseball (Big surprise, isn't it?)
Best Subject:	Physical education
Worst Subject:	Music, English
Club:	Baseball club
Part-Time Job:	No time for that!

Personality: Has a quick temper and hates to lose. Has a strong sense of justice, but because he's so impulsive, he's always at a loss for what he tries to do. Because he causes wild fights during games, he's established himself as a regular member of the club by no particular means necessary. He's extremely self-conscious about his height; he always fights with Natsu, who is tall, and tries to make a fool of him. He throws the fight right back at her, but she always turns it around. It turns out Natsu was an old friend from childhood, and now that she's growing up and becoming more of a woman, her casual, less combative actions have caused a lot of tension...
Story: His older brother, an ace pitcher from the same school, Shuuichi, was attacked by someone. To clear his brother's humiliation of being cut off from turning pro, to find out the truth, and for revenge, Shoma goes to raid other schools.
Short Story: A Youth of Pursuing Baseball

Natsu Ayuhara

"Powerful Attacker"

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Sex:	Female
Birthday:	February 14
Blood Type:	B
Height:	182 cm
Weight:	?? kg
B-W-H:	92-59-83 (cm)
Nationality:	Japanese
Home Life:	Natsu lives with both her parents and an older brother, Shun (a first-year college student); Natsu's father is a former national superintendent.
Likes:	Cake, Effortful people
Dislikes:	People that bully the weak, liars, little bugs
Special Talent:	Cooking, making sweets
Best Subject:	Home economics, physical education, Japanese, English
Worst Subject:	Art
Club:	Volleyball club
Part-Time Job:	None

Personality: Natsu is a smart, outspoken "big sister" type with a winning spirit. With her sharp-edged personality, she hates people that bully the weak, lies, and insects. She's tall, and her strong-minded, "mannish" personality just might be the ruin of her. Every day, her shoebox becomes more and more full of love letters from other girls. On the other hand, since she scares away all the guys at school, Natsu's grateful to know a guy who doesn't hesitate to fight with her every day like Shoma. Although her boyish qualities stand out, she also has a cute side that yearns for romance and a womanly side that shows that she is an excellent cook.
Story: At Gorin High, each club's highest-ranking member was attacked in a series of coinciding events. Natsu and two others that go to the same school as she, Shoma and Roberto, got together and discussed it all, then set out as a team of three to find the cause of their investigation.
Short Story: Spiking Towards Tomorrow

Roberto Miura

"Genius (Goal)Keeper"

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Sex:	Male
Birthday:	November 16
Blood Type:	A
Height:	177 cm
Weight:	73 kg
B-W-H:	101-82-88 (cm)
Nationality:	Japanese
Home Life:	Lives with his parents and two younger brothers (twins named Nelson and Elton, both third-year elementary school students (3rd grade))
Likes:	Soccer and everything related to it, guns
Dislikes:	Gloomy things
Special Talent:	Quickly firing a gun (He has never fired a gun with real bullets)
Best Subject:	English, physical education
Worst Subject:	Japanese, math
Club:	Soccer Club
Part-Time Job:	None

Personality: A student that's quarter-Brazilian (his nationality is Japanese, however.) His Brazilian blood brings a cool and shy side to him. He's awfully quiet and a loner, but when he sees needy people at a shelter, he can't leave them alone. Of Gorin's team of three, he plays an inside role of watching over the other two. Every time the other two argue, Roberto makes it a daily routine to turn around and shrug his shoulders. He's usually cool, but when he gets in a soccer match, he becomes one hot-blooded jerk. If he's making the deciding shot, he puts his whole body into it, expressing the joy that's sure to follow.
Story: Natsu and Shoma's uneasy combination is on the hunt for criminals. However, so the two don't run around wildly, he looks over them. He is worried that this action might hinder his chances of becoming a professional soccer player.
Short Story: The Sun Visor of Promise

Roy Bromwell

"Strong-Armed American"

Profile	-
Sex:	Male
Birthday:	May 2
Blood Type:	B
Height:	181 cm
Weight:	85 kg
B-W-H:	122-82-88 (cm)
Nationality:	U.S.A.
Home Life:	Lives alone in his father's holiday villa (at home in America, he lives with both his parents and has two older sisters)
Likes:	Fashion, high-class brands
Dislikes:	Japan, Japanese people, cowardly, foul things
Special Talent:	Arm wrestling (Boman is a good rival)
Best Subject:	Anything
Worst Subject:	Nothing
Club:	Football
Part-Time Job:	No need to work, his family is wealthy

Personality: As the star quarterback of an unbeatable American football team, he's the guy all the students want to be. Though he's capricious, and just a little less than serious. To make matters worse, he tries more than anyone else to look sharp. Though, if one looks through all of that, one will find a really frank and basic side to him that really hates cowardice. Because he was repeatedly told about how his grandfather lost his leg in the Pacific War (World War II) when he was little, Roy despises most things Japanese.
Story: Because his father is working to make Roy become a diplomat, he makes Roy transfer to Japan at Pacific High School unwillingly. However, Roy has yet to like being in Japan, and from his uneasy placement there, he gets a request from his father to check out the disturbing goings-on at Justice High.
Short Story: Top Ten Japan Dislikes!

Tiffany Lords

"Sexy Cheerleader"

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Sex:	Female
Birthday:	December 23
Blood Type:	B
Height:	164 cm
Weight:	?? kg
B-W-H:	93-56-86 (cm)
Nationality:	U.S.A.
Home Life:	Lives alone in the Pacific High dorms (Because she has a lot of money, it's a single, plush room complete with air conditioning, a heating system, and catered meals)
Likes:	Roy, dancing, her family, ice cream
Dislikes:	Nattou (fermented soybeans)
Special Talent:	Exciting displays of affection (I wouldn't call -that- a special talent...)
Best Subject:	Music, physical education
Worst Subject:	Japanese
Club:	Cheerleader
Part-Time Job:	Tiffany has the looks, and her family has the money. She has no desire to work, and probably never will.

Personality: She's proud that everyone recognizes her beautiful face. A cheerful and bubbly (bubble-headed) "American funky girl". Her present interests are fashion and love, and she doesn't miss the chance to go to the dance club on weekends. Because she is always in a haze and playing around, she doesn't have thoughts of the future in her head at all. On a more positive side, she has a cute side that misses her parents in America, who never miss the chance to send her presents or call her on the phone. Before they were sent overseas, Roy and Tiffany went to the same school; since she has come to Japan, she fell deeply in love with him. She recalls something bothering Roy, who usually isn't easily disturbed.
Story: Tiffany joined Roy in the investigation of Justice High Roy's father ordered, in hopes that Roy will somehow turn around (to face her).
Short Story: Tiffany's Day Out ♥

Boman Delgado

"The Fighting Clergyman"

Profile	-
Sex:	Male
Birthday:	July 30
Blood Type:	A
Height:	200 cm
Weight:	101 kg
B-W-H:	138-90-95 (cm)
Nationality:	U.S.A.
Home Life:	Lives alone in the Pacific dorms (he doesn't particularly have a lot of money, so it's a four-man room)
Likes:	Praying
Dislikes:	Violence
Special Talent:	Cooking
Best Subject:	Theology, Philosophy
Worst Subject:	Math, Science
Club:	Chorus
Part-Time Job:	Volunteers at church on Sunday

Personality: Acts like a true adult; gentle. A devout Christian who never misses mass on Sunday. He is well aware of how big and strong he is; he often warns himself silently of this fact. To clear his mind, after a fight, he just can't avoid Boman asking God for forgiveness. He fights the way he believes and never neglects to take his pendant into his closed hands and move into a thankful pose towards God.
Story: As Roy and Tiffany go to investigate Justice High, Boman joins in to watch over those two.
Short Story: Boman's Beautiful Sunday

Eiji "Edge" Yamada

"The Bloody Knife"

Profile	-
Sex:	Male
Birthday:	April 1
Blood Type:	AB
Height:	173 cm
Weight:	60 kg
B-W-H:	88-59-72 (cm)
Nationality:	Japanese
Home Life:	Lives with his parents, an older brother, and an older sister (both upstanding socialites)
Likes:	Army Knives
Dislikes:	His real name, Seriously hard work
Special Talent:	Knife throwing, attacks with dangerous weapons, verbal attacks
Best Subject:	Nothing
Worst Subject:	Everything, especially math
Club:	No club (juvenile delinquents don't belong to any)
Part-Time Job:	He has tried several (video stores, coffee shops), but none of them ever worked out. He is currently jobless.

Personality: Edge's personality can be described in one phrase: "irresponsible and unfair". No matter how he looks toward his opponents, he's got an army knife waiting for them without them knowing about it; hence his popular nickname "Army Knife's Edge". If his clothes get wrinkled a little, he has a habit of grabbing his collar or chest area and fixing it afterward. Edge hates his given name, and if you call him by his real name he gets mad.
Story: Ever since the "boss of Gedou" Daigo disappeared, Edge leans a spying ear to the other schools in pursuit of his whereabouts.
Short Story: Best Knives From All Over the World

Akira Kazama

"Kung-Fu Rider"

Profile	-
Sex:	Female (while at Gedou, this was unknown until she removed her helmet)
Birthday:	March 3
Blood Type:	AB
Height:	160 cm
Weight:	?? kg
B-W-H:	??-??-?? (cm)
Nationality:	Japanese
Home Life:	Lived with her older brother, and now lives alone.
Likes:	Bikes, her older brother Daigo
Dislikes:	Talking
Special Talent:	Chinese martial arts (Taikyokuken/Tai Chi Chuan), cooking (Japanese home dishes)
Best Subject:	Japanese, Social Studies, English
Worst Subject:	Physical education, music (for secret reasons)
Club:	Thinking of joining one after finding Daigo
Part-Time Job:	Maintaining motorcycles at a bike shop.

Personality: Silent. Akira usually hardly ever speaks out. Possesses a cool-headed, spirited personality. Under the helmet lies an Akira that no one knows
Story: Because Akira's own brother, Daigo, has become one of the missing, Akira enters Gedou High. Being treated as "Daigo's little brother", Akira joins up with Gan and Edge and gathers information.
Short Story: Daigo: A Man Among Men

Gan Isurugi

"Superhuman Gang Leader"

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Sex:	Male
Birthday:	January 3
Blood Type:	O
Height:	198 cm
Weight:	115 kg
B-W-H:	170-159-165 (cm)
Nationality:	Japanese
Home Life:	Lives with both parents, three younger brothers, and three younger sisters. (Holy crap!)
Likes:	Rice balls
Dislikes:	Studying
Special Talent:	Sumo, eating a lot, eating fast
Best Subject:	Physical education
Worst Subject:	Almost anything except physical education
Club:	Although he officially belongs to the sumo club, he never attends it
Part-Time Job:	Sometimes he does one-day jobs that require physical strength (road construction, moving company, etc.)

Personality: Possessing immense physical might, Gan's only boast is his strength in fights. He doesn't have a grasp on even the most basic things, and he'll believe just about anything. In fact, if someone sneaky tried to take advantage of Gan, he'd still draw not much more than a blank from the big guy; Gan's a dunce of a character. More than anything else, Gan looks forward to having three meals a day. At every meal, he has no less than a mountain-sized helping of rice stacked five times over in a bowl.
Story: Because Daigo, the "boss" to all the gangs at Gedo, disappeared, Akira (who Gan believes is Daigo's little brother) suggested a conference about the search for the missing students; Gan joined in too and went on to play a part in the search.
Short Story: The Thriving Time of Gan

Hideo Shimazu

"Mobile Teacher"

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Sex:	Male
Birthday:	May 5
Blood Type:	A
Height:	165 cm
Weight:	68 kg
B-W-H:	93-80-85 (cm)
Nationality:	Japanese
Home Life:	Left his home, a dojo in Kyushu, and has lived alone since
Likes:	Japanese literature (he is a Japanese language teacher), Japanese-style meals, students
Dislikes:	Disputes, cowardly things
Special Talent:	Karate, cooking, laundry, cleaning (since he has lived alone for so long)
Best Subject:	Japanese (language/literature)
Worst Subject:	N/A
Club:	N/A
Part-Time Job:	None (Teachers are prohibited from having part-time jobs)

Personality: He's gentlemanly and possesses a strong sense of justice, but his speech and social skills are poor. He leads a serious personal life; he doesn't smoke, nor does he drink. He is in his 40s and presently looking for a wife. It doesn't look like it, but Hideo is really a 9th dan master of karate, and the reputable Shimazu style is evident in his actions. After his father, the director of the dojo, died, a large quarrel over the estate began. The fight became charged with hatred and the inheritance was taken out of his own hands.
Story: Per Justice High's director Raizo's directive, Hideo was to act as a scout to search around the local schools in search of talented students for the school; however, in the process of scouting, he begins to have doubts about the school's methods.
Short Story: Mobile Teacher G Hideon

Kyoko Minazuki

"Devil In A White Robe"

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Sex:	Female
Birthday:	June 7
Blood Type:	B
Height:	173 cm
Weight:	?? kg
B-W-H:	87-56-89 (cm)
Nationality:	Japanese
Home Life:	Ever since being transferred to Justice High, she lives with both her parents (she's their only daughter)
Likes:	Sake (Japanese rice wine), horse racing
Dislikes:	All kinds of household duties
Special Talent:	Orthopedics, Surgery
Best Subject:	Biology, Chemistry
Worst Subject:	N/A
Club:	N/A
Part-Time Job:	Even though part-time jobs are forbidden for teachers, it seems she has been moonlighting as a writer, writing articles for a weekly publication.

Personality: Originally an assistant at a certain school of orthopedic surgery. An expert in orthopedics and anatomy with the control of a surgical genius. Both witty and beautiful, clearly intelligent, elegant, and full of style. The male students never fail to come into her infirmary with fake illnesses and such, as she is the object of their yearning. When she puts on the white coat, she transforms into an energetic woman doctor that is full of intellect, but when she takes it off, she also has a slovenly, careless side. She'll drink a lot and her domestic skills (i.e. cleaning and cooking) are horrible.
Story: Per Justice High's director Raizo's directive, Kyoko was to act as a scout to search around the local schools in search of talented students for the school; however, in the process of scouting, she begins to have doubts about the school's methods.
Short Story: School Infirmary in the Early Afternoon

Raizo Imawano

"Wild Animal Principal"

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Sex:	Male
Birthday:	October 3
Blood Type:	O
Height:	188 cm
Weight:	124 kg
B-W-H:	165-163-170 (cm)
Nationality:	Japanese
Home Life:	A mystery...
Likes:	Sirloin steak
Dislikes:	Lying, crabs, and lobsters
Special Talent:	Conquering Japan
Best Subject:	N/A
Worst Subject:	N/A
Club:	N/A
Part-Time Job:	N/A

Personality: A thick-nerved man who doesn't bother with petty things; He has a disposition that is both hearty and cheerful. Toward himself, he is strict; he is strong-willed, his convictions are piercing, and he only makes his mind up once. He has an unusual way of getting things done and a preeminent, natural charisma, and has the power to take down massive organizations.
Story: As Raizo had feared, as the effects of the Imawano family's special training methods had created many a top-notch talent at his academy (Justice) and the academy had gotten all the more famous, opposition from the Imawano family to the public release of the teaching methods Raizo had been the only child to inherit was high, and his life was targeted. In addition to this, just to drive the nail into the coffin, the Imawano clan pressured Raizo mentally because of their opposition to his plans to give his own child extra special education, usually reserved for gifted students. Because of this, Raizo hid himself from both his wife and very young son. However, Raizo was never free from his sadness. Afterward, he did nothing but keep on, for the sake of the academy. Gradually, his family's opposition came to an end, and one day, as Raizo was making his rounds at the academy, he noticed a student both scholarly and physically strong, with outstanding grades. His name was Hyo, and the students were well aware of his abilities and popularity. Since his wife and son have disappeared, Raizo, who forgot all about his plan of succession decided to groom Hyo mainly for the eventual inheritance. Because he had put so much work into the academy, Raizo's body was already beginning to lose its ability to overexert itself. Raizo was having thoughts of retiring after Hyo graduates, leaving the academy in Hyo's hands. In actuality, Hyo is an illegitimate child of the Imawano clan. He has, at the behest of some family members, planted the seeds of a secret mission: to "revive a group of assassins" and "rule Japan with terror and mayhem".
Short Story: From the Teacher's Desk

Hyo Imawano

"Detestable Madness"

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Sex:	Male
Birthday:	April 4
Blood Type:	B
Height:	183 cm
Weight:	67 kg
B-W-H:	95-76-80 (cm)
Nationality:	Japanese
Home Life:	A mystery...
Likes:	Political power, Japanese swords
Dislikes:	Love, friendship, willpower
Special Talent:	The Art of Brainwashing
Best Subject:	Anything
Worst Subject:	Nothing
Club:	Head of Student Council (Not a club, but..)
Part-Time Job:	He doesn't do such "poor, mundane" things

Personality: Cold and cruel. To reach his goals, he'll do anything. His aggressive personality is based on that of his father, Mugen Imawano. He controls other people with his powerful brainwashing techniques, but Hyo is unaware that since he was a small child, he has been brainwashed by his father; he has a "father complex".
Story: Hyo uses his abilities, which surpass those of everyone else at Justice High, and his charisma as a weapon to turn all the academy's students into his own personal followers. One time, Raizo went overseas to inspect a high school at which he had planned to make a joint venture with Justice. Hyo used this opportunity to put a plan he had been warming up into motion. He brainwashed those of the best mind and body at schools everywhere in one fell swoop and brought them into his own personal army. Three months later, Raizo returned home to find a drastically changed academy, with a fanatic cult that worshipped Hyo as its master. It was hopeless for Raizo, who easily fell to Hyo's brainwashing. Hyo's ambition was nearly coming to perfect fruition; however, he had found yet one more obstacle. Word that Raizo's wife and son, long said to be dead, were still living had surfaced. With the blood of Raizo, the ninja's blood continuing the family line and thus being the rightful heir to Raizo's inheritance, this could pose trouble not even Hyo could handle. Hyo then decides to kidnap Raizo's wife Shizuku, so that he can lure his son, Batsu Ichimonji out of hiding and into his grasp.

Akira Kazama

"Pure Rider"

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Sex:	Female
Birthday:	March 3
Blood Type:	AB
Height:	160 cm
Weight:	?? kg
B-W-H:	81-62-83 (cm)
Nationality:	Japanese
Home Life:	Lived with her older brother, and now lives alone.
Likes:	Bikes, her older brother Daigo, her friends at Gedou
Dislikes:	Talking
Special Talent:	Chinese martial arts (Taikyokuken/Tai Chi Chuan), cooking (Japanese home dishes)
Best Subject:	Japanese, Social Studies, English
Worst Subject:	Physical education, music
Club:	None
Part-Time Job:	Maintaining motorcycles at a bike shop.

Personality: This Akira is a docile, gentle girl that is the complete opposite of the rough and commanding helmeted biker. Her personality changes instantly when the helmet is removed or replaced…
Story: Because Akira's own brother, Daigo, has become one of the missing, Akira enters Gedo High. But after rescuing her brother, she returns to her original gentle persona.

Sakura Kusagano

"The Fighting School Girl"

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Sex:	Female
Birthday:	March 15
Blood Type:	O
Height:	157 cm
Weight:	42 kg
B-W-H:	80-60-84 (cm)
Nationality:	Japanese
Home Life:	Lives with both her parents and her younger brother, Tsukushi
Likes:	White rice, running
Dislikes:	Playing video games against her brother
Special Talent:	Her cooking is relatively good (but it looks awful)
Best Subject:	Physical education, English (conversation)
Worst Subject:	Math
Club:	None (Go-Home Club) Sakura got where she is today because generally, she tries her hand at athletic clubs, but since her interests change with the weather, she doesn't stay in a single club very long.
Part-Time Job:	Inexperienced (She once was going to work at a supermarket, but she wished to work in the stock room rather than work the cash registers)

Personality: A high school girl who trains all day and all night in the art of hand-to-hand fighting just so that she can meet "that person". She's always full of energy, cheerful, and unaffected; she can never settle down. She loves to give her body a good workout, but now she's in a street-fighting haze. Her fighting sense is a truly special, natural gift, and it seems the techniques she uses now are imitations of what she has seen in her endeavors.
Story: When she hears that her close friends (naturally, Hinata and Natsu) have gone off to fight some great evil, Sakura gets her hopes up, thinking, "Maybe there'll be strong people fighting there..." With that thought in mind, Sakura runs off to give her friends some support. "It'll be great training for when I meet 'him'," Sakura says; it doesn't seem her motives are quite as sincere as they should be...

Daigo Kazama

"The 'Boss' Of Gedo High"

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Sex:	Male
Birthday:	September 15
Blood Type:	AB
Height:	190 cm
Weight:	89 kg
B-W-H:	100-88-95 (cm)
Nationality:	Japanese
Home Life:	Lives with his younger sister, Akira
Likes:	Enka (modern Japanese ballads), straight things, heroic movies (things full of health and vigor)
Dislikes:	Caterpillars, crooked things
Special Talent:	Telling people about what makes a man
Best Subject:	Japanese language (especially reading/writing kanji, a set of characters inherited from China)
Worst Subject:	None
Club:	None
Part-Time Job:	None

Personality: He's harsh, but tender at heart, and prizes gang morals. He possesses magnetic charisma. He never fights unfairly (certainly, he doesn't condone two-on-one fights). Naturally, his thoughts are with his younger sister; his existence is one where a man of his standing usually falls.
Story: When the kidnappings perpetrated by Justice High had started, Daigo, aware of the worries that arose because of them, set out to face Justice High in search of the truth behind it all. There was no way that Daigo could have known that at that time, he was another one of Justice's targets.

Nekketsu Hayato

"The Burning Red Jersey"

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Sex:	Male
Birthday:	August 15
Blood Type:	O
Height:	191 cm
Weight:	80 kg
B-W-H:	111-89-92 (cm)
Nationality:	Japanese
Home Life:	N/A
Likes:	Bright red jerseys, fighting spirit, sexy and nice women
Dislikes:	Disregarding manners, things his parents didn't find important
Special Talent:	Slapping things down with the shinai (bamboo fencing stick), putting in a fighting spirit
Best Subject:	Physical education
Worst Subject:	Puzzling subjects
Club:	None
Part-Time Job:	None (Teachers are prohibited to have part-time jobs)

Personality: Taiyou High's number one lady killer; as hot-blooded as his name implies. He developed his own sense of justice. Corporal punishment was also one of his own ideas. His students draw a ferocious, inescapable, unstoppable force from Hayato's own sense of justice.
Story: When his students at Taiyou were attacked, Hayato became suspicious of the elite academy, Justice High. He joins Batsu, Hinata, and Kyosuke in the fight, watching over them.

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I'm an irredeemable monster who deserves nothing but suffering and a slow painful death.
I'm an irredeemable monster who deserves nothing but suffering and a slow painful death.
I'm an irredeemable monster who deserves nothing but suffering and a slow painful death.
I truly don't know what to do anymore, I'm completely lost.
I'm a 20 year old male with autism and possible OCD.
There are many things I want to talk about so this is going to be really long and unorganised.
From age 18 up until last year, I viewed and masturbated to CP, and the way I went about getting hold of it is equally bad, if not worse. I cannot express in words the shame and remorse I feel for this.
I know most of you hate me now and I don't blame you, and I guarantee you I hate myself more for it.
The most confusing part about it is I don't find children attractive, there's no groinal response, urges, desires, arousal, nothing. I don't even take a second glance or stare, the only thing I have is intrusive thoughts. Recently I was sat in the corner of a crowded bus, and since there was nowhere else to sit, three boys, none of which could have been older than 13 sat by me, one next to me, and the other two across from me, to which I felt nothing of that nature whatsoever.
I'm sexually attracted to males 20 and over, and I'm romantically and sexually attracted to females 20 and over, I wouldn't even date an 18 or 19 year old.
My instincts when I've been around children in recent times is purely parental and protective.
I'd never hurt a child, especially in that way, I'd slit my wrists or set myself on fire before I did that, I might just slit my wrists anyway.
I'd run into a burning building, I'd run out onto a busy road, I'd give my life to save a child's life.
I don't go out of my way to be around children, I find them for the most part irritating, I don't hate them though. Throughout my entire life I preferred the company of adults. I even live across from a playground ffs.
I'm scarred for life by some of the things I saw in those images and videos, how the hell could someone do something like that?! I want to climb through the screen and protect those kids, give them a hug and let them know nothing can hurt them anymore.
I stumbled across an image hosting site when I was 16 whilst trying to find material involving my peers again, and the site hosted lots of cropped images of teens on webcams and older kids on webcams (it was obvious what they were doing), and on the page for the accounts, it usually displayed an email where stuff could be traded, but I didn't pursue that until 2 years later.
I went about acquiring it through sending old images and videos of myself, and in a lot worse way as well.
Starting from 14 up until last year, I very occasionally placed my phone in the bathroom and filmed my friends urinating, this happened definitely less than ten times, and most of them I deleted from everywhere, but I kept one and a screenshot of a few others, I started posting these images, as well as my own nudes, on an old reddit account which was deleted not long after, I made sure to hide their identities while doing this, I enjoyed the attention and compliments I would get, and I loved bigging up my friends and seeing them get compliments.
Then I used this content to acquire the bad stuff years later, including the stuff of me.
I had an Idea that this was considered wrong but I didn't understand how it could have been harmful.
This happened to less than 5 friends, all the content I had I have long since deleted and wiped any access to, and I have no intention to do this again, but the main issue is the fact that copies could have been made of it, and I accidentally sent the uncropped video once. There's the possibility none of this stuff is out there, but it's still vile and repulsive.
One of them was my closest friend, who I had known basically all my life, I broke down to him and told him what I had done and what I believe does me to this awful, reprehensible place, and you know what he did? He told me he forgave me and that some video possibly being out there doesn't phase him and his life isn't ruined at all and it will go on either way.
But he understandably said we can't see each other anymore, that he still loves me, believes I'm a good person and wants me to live a good life and make the world a better place, which was a dream of ours.
It's extra difficult because we were so close, we had experienced so much together, held all the same interests and beliefs, and I loved him only like family could, so the fact I committed this vile act of betrayal rids me with so much shame, and deservedly so. In a way I find it harder to get through because I didn't understand the true consequences of my actions and how this could have affected him and others, it would be less confusing and easier to accept I'm just the lowest form of humanity that way.
The other two friends I stopped communicating with, I wiped the account, wiped the content from all areas they were stored on, deleted what they were stored on, everything, and there is a possibility it's not out their at all.
I displayed other problematic behaviours from a young age, all to do with boundary issues, I sometimes used to touch my friends when I was 12 but never their actual genitals, and I used to jokingly show my erection to people as well.
The only constant that I knew for certain is wrong is genuine rape and molestation, which is a line I know for certain I could never cross, and never will.
From a very young age (around 3 or 4) my mother would do very inappropriate party tricks around me with her friends late at night when they were drinking, her friends would call me sexy, and as I got older and hit puberty, she started making comments about my bulge and other things despite the fact I hated it and told her so.
When I was 7 I was groomed and molested by an 8 year old boy, I wanted him to help me pass a level on my DS game and he said he'll do it if I have sex with him, me being 7 I didn't understand what that was and with him being older I complied. We were naked during this, he fondled my genitals and got me to do the same to him, he inserted his fingers into my anus as well.
When I was 10, two of my close friends groomed me, they simulated blowjobs on each other and got me to do the same to them.
When I was 11, my 12 year old friend groomed and molested me despite me protesting, he got me to get in my bed with him and he rubbed up against me. Earlier that day he also got me to sit in his lap whilst cuddling me from behind, we were wearing underwear.
When I was 13, that same friend when he was nearly 14 and another friend who was already 14 groomed and molested me in my pool again, I had an erection in the pool and jokingly showed one of them it, and it escalated from there. They both got naked and got me to do so, I protested but eventually gave in to the pressure, they also showed each other their genitals and got me to do the same, later that boy got me to sit in his lap again whilst the older boy rubbed up against me.
There was also just the normal experimenting stuff, one of my friends used to show me his erections and I would do the same.
All of my friends were going through puberty and their bodies were changing and so was mine, which I found incredibly fascinating and arousing, and I had seen most of my friends genitals and some other students genitals throughout growing up, so me being young and autistic, I became very curious.
Kids before finishing Elementary/Primary School were swearing and talking about sex, then as I got older (11) kids were drinking, smoking, doing drugs, talking about masturbation habits and apparently having genuine sex. Then by the time I was 13, there was a lot of students taking nudes, nudes being spread around school and nudes being leaked (including mine, which distressed me for a few days, but only because people knew they were mine, if they were spread around but they didn't know it was me, I wouldn't have cared), kids with condoms and other stuff etc.
I started watching non-pornographic sexual content online (sex scenes from movies, TV shows, games etc) at age 9 which I would genuinely get an erection from watching.
At age 10 I hit puberty (testicles largened) and I started masturbating to non pornographic stuff. Including videos of animals mating. I also tried to find stuff involving my peers and found a fake video of stuff suggestive of that.
At 11 I started to grow pubic hair and had my first ejaculations, as well as discover porn, there was also an image I masturbated to which depicted a boy of my age giving oral to a man, and I had my first crush which was on a 12 year old boy who was another friend, who I would masturbate to. This crush lasted a number of years, but he was straight so it couldn't go anywhere. This was also the age I started taking nudes and videos of me masturbating.
At 12 I started to grow underarm har and facial hair began to appear on my upper lip, I was watching porn very heavily at this point.
At 13 my voice had broken and I was nearly my full adult height, this was also the age I first masturbated to a non-sexual nude image of a child. As well as videos of stuff like naturism and videos of circumcision (I don't have a pain or gore fetish, I would just blank it out and focus on the genitals.)
By 14 I was my full adult height, I had adult sized ejacualtions and my penis had fully grown. And that is when I started posting my nudes online. To which I would have sexual conversations with adults, not knowing I was setting myself up to be groomed and have something normalised in my head which shouldn't be.
By 15 I was growing facial hair, as well as chest and abdominal hair. And I found a shotacon involving a boy my age having sex with an adult woman, and I would pretend to be him.
At 17, a 19 year old flirted with me and got me into sending nudes to him, and he did the same, which I didn't see as bad and despite it being technically illegal, I still don't.
I also did the same when I was 19 with a 17 year old stranger online, but they were very willing and I didn't pressure them, no personal info was shared between us.
I also messaged a 15 and 14 year old at some point but stopped myself from letting it go any further. And cut them off before anything could be shared, or any messages could be exchanged for that matter.
And when I started watching the CSAM, it was mostly teens 9n webcams that I watched, I was lured into thinking that this content isn't kids being assaulted or anything (which it is) and due to my experiences twisting my view, I thought kids were enjoying it (which they weren't) since I would have had enjoyed it at that age (which I wouldn't have), it wasn't until I saw unmistakable suffering which is when I stopped and vowed to never go there again. It was mostly stuff involving boys, the stuff involving girls I just found too revolting. I wanted to relive those experiences, go back to a time I was happier. It felt safe and comforting. It was relatable.
All of these experiencs warped my views and understanding of things, desensitised me and made me believe things were ok that weren't and that kids aren't as innocent as they are seen to be (which they are). I have never commited rape or an act of molestation and never will, these are acts I've always seen as vile and disgusting.
I've suffered with mental health issues for a long time as well.
I've struggled with feelings of self-hatred and worthlessness since around 9 or 10.
I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety at 13, I've been self harming and suicidal since I was 14, I've also been attempting suicide since 15.
I've always felt like the odd one out, I always felt like I was the worst at everything, I was the one who was left out of games at school, the one who was always picked last in sports.
I was bullied a lot growing up, by students and occasionally teachers alike, and even my boss at my first job.
My mother is a heavy drinker, narcissistic and has been emotionally and occasionally physically abusive to me since I was 14 (telling me she hates me and that everyone else hates me, tells me how horrible I am, tells me that I should kill myself and do everyone a favour, threatened to stab me in my sleep, hit me on the occasion, bit me, threw things at me, including heavy things and glass, strangled me). There was also manipulation tactics like gaslighting, she alienated me from others by telling her friends and family how awful I was. Pushed me into meltdowns and got me to lash out, to which she called the police and got me arrested and made me look like the bad one on multiple occasions.
She was the only one I ever felt loved by unconditionally growing up, and now I don't even feel that from her.
My father was a drug addict who died when I was 14, I saw him less than ten times my whole life, he grew drugs in my room when I was an infant, my most distinct memory is him coming to my house very late one night when I was around 9 or 10 talking about demons and bad spirits.
Addiction runs in my family (my father's father is an equally heavy drinker, his mother is a drug addict who ran a brothel), so the addictive tendencies have been past down to me.
I probably was addicted to porn by 13, and had been feeding it for years without knowing it.
My adopted grandfather died when I was 4, and my adopted grandmother (which I lived with from birth) who was my guiding light, died less than a week before my dad did.
The only father figure I really had (who was an alcoholic but otherwise very good with me) was my mother's partner who she met when I was 6, and he died when I was 8.
I was also very close to my mother's best friend, who had been more of a mother to me than my actual one had been some time died when I was 17.
My mother had an abusive ex who stalked her and threatened to set fire to the house, who also left ranting letters and stood in the back garden at night, so we lived in fear of stuff like that for over a year from when I was 12 through 13.
She also had an abusive lodger who was an even heavier drinker than she is, so from when I was 14 through 16 I witnessed them physically fight, both get arrested and on a few occasions I had to defend her from him, and he raped her without me knowing.
Many of my friends have betrayed me over the years (I know I'm one to talk) but when this started to happen I would have never dreamed of betraying anyone, personal stuff was shared about me which I trusted them with, there was a lot of bad talking about me without me knowing. My toe closest friend turned on me at age 12 and isolated me from my other friends, I blamed myself at the time which I why I moved schools at 13 since I thought I was just making everyone miserable.
I didn't get diagnosed with autism until I was 19 despite trying to get it since I was 12, it hurt knowing I had been paying my whole life for being different, feeling ashamed of who I am (and rightly so now really), wondering why what I said was offensive, why I didn't understandfulky why this was wrong, why I was so sensitive to jokes, why I took e everyhing literally, why I made impulsive and reckless decisions without understanding the consequences of them.
I was never considered attractive and was ridiculed for it (girls used to jokingly flirt with me to torment me at school). I'm 5'6, always have struggled with weight, hairline started receding at 16, eczema so my skin is always red, dry and flaky, really bad diastema and acid reflux which means it's really hard to make my breath smell nice and my teeth are very worn because of it. I have had sex with someone who was older than me and we were both consenting adults, and we were both very respectful of boundaries.
I was also desensitised to other things like gore and violence, I played a lot of violent video games when I was a kid, my mother is really into controversial shock movies (she got me to watch Cannibal Holocaust with her when I was 11).
The worst part about all of this is the fact all my friends who I love would hate me if they knew about what I've done so, none of them would trust me anymore or respect me, which is what friendships are all about right? So in a way they feel strange, they feel fake.
I can never find a relationship or true love because nobody wants to date a serial sex offender.
I hate knowing the fact I'm a sex offender, it's eating me alive.
I'm not registered and there is no real proof of what I did, so I can't turn myself in or anything.
I want to do good in the world, I have so much love to give, but it feels wrong me helping people because it feels like there is a sinister undertone to everything I do.
I've always enjoyed being charitable, I love giving money to the homeless or putting change in a donations box.
I feel guilty whenever I feel hapoy since I don't deserve to be, the only things that I enjoy now are food and playing video games, it's the only job I get out of day to day life.
The only fate I deserve is being stabbed to death in prison or something.
All I want is to be loved and accepted despite my flaws and mistakes, but I never could be.
The only other person I've told is my mother, who has been supportive.
I've been on antidepressants since 18 and I've begun therapy, but I'm not hoping or expecting anything good will happen from this. I've been in and out of therapy since I was 11.
I had dreams, I had aspirations, I wanted to change the world for the better, I wanted to have a son, not to hurt him, but so he doesn't end up like me, but I reliase that is not possible. I don't deserve to be around children.
I started missing my childhood and wanting to go back at around 13, all I wanted was to relive memories.
I hate keeping secrets, but I have no choice but to keep this one.
I want to identify with good people, but I can't.
Every good thing I do is invalidated now.
I forgive everyone who has wronged me in anyway, since I'm worse than them.
I just pray I can go out doing good, doing the right thing.
I am no better than Jimmy Saville, Ian Watkins or any of them types of people.
If you want to motivate me to end it all, feel free.
If you have read through all of this, thank you.

hi. im 18 and for the past i'd say 7 years i have been wanting to be a girl but only a few years ago have i discovered that trans people actually exist, and ever since then i have been thinking non stop about how can i be trans with minimal risk for my safety and my general well being.
the biggest issue is i live in the middle east and come from a religious family, so if i even dare to say i might be something other than a straight male to my family they would condemn me forever and actively try to stop me from being myself. i've thought about going to collage to the uk, but the cost of living there is insane and if i come out there my parents would probably not pay me anything. so im just sort of stuck here until i get a decent job and after that i'll be able to do whatever i want. but the thought of having to eventually ditch everyone i ever knew here because they don't want to accept who i am really saddens me.
i want to get a job as an artist in the video game industry which is nowhere to be found here anyways so i'll probably move out either way but it's still scary to think about abandoning my home and the people who raised me. and even if i go with that plan im not even sure if i'll be able to get a job that'll be able to generate enough money for me to move out. it's just a really tough situation that im not sure how to get out of. for the time being im trying to keep my trans identity in the back of my head while trying to apply for collages here so i can get a degree that gets me a decent job so then i can focus on moving out and then coming out. however it's been kind of hard because i've been feeling real sluggish and just sad ig. i didn't get a very good academic score to get accepted into these good collages. i got a decent score but not good enough to get one of those high end collages that everyone wants to get into because they have good degrees that bring guaranteed jobs with good pay. it's just really overwhelming and draining.
so i guess did anyone have a similar experience with being trans? and is there any advice you'd like to share? or just simple kind words, i still really appreciate it. that is all.

We found what we assumed is an abandoned kitten near a heavy traffic road by our house in Ceres, California. Upon inspection, we thought the kitten had lost an eye because of how badly crusted over and puffy it was. The 2nd eye was not much better off and we didn't think the kitten would survive the day, let alone half the week. Neither my partner nor I have much experience with sick kittens and we've been doing a lot of googling.
We've been applying vetericyn plus (Google said safe for kitten eyes) that we had laying around the house for the various other animals we have in the pastures (horses, cows, dogs, chickens) with a warm wash cloth to its eyes which are now both open. While the swelling is gone and the eyes themselves appear well, the kitty continuous to have crusty and weepy buildup. It was initially yellowish in color the first day, but has slowly become more clear the last couple of days. We are currently facing some financial difficulties and heavy medical bills so a visit to the veterinarian office is just not possible for us at the moment, nor are we able to buy special food/formula for the kitten (though we are trying our best to at least give it a fighting chance). It's been living in our loosely fenced garden (dogs in the area are not kitten friendly). We set up a cardboard box with some old clothes for blankets, a small bowl of water and additional food. We estimate that it's between 4-5 weeks old but these are rough guesses made from Google kitten descriptions. The kitten appears to have most of its important teeth in (though they are still small) and we think the kitten is male (watched YouTube videos detailing some ways to tell kitten genders). We don't have a scale but the kitten does not seem to be malnourished nor bloated, and now that it has both eyes open it is very playful, runs to greet us and is very energetic albeit a bit skittish and fearful of sudden movements and loud noises. It's been warm, but doesn't feel feverish and as mentioned, doesn't appear to be lethargic or otherwise unhealthy. No panting or wheezing, but it does sneeze 2-3 times a day that we've seen (but note that we live in a very dusty/sandy area, with high pollen producing orchards nearby).
That said, we are still concerned about the eyes and without a mother nursing it we've tried giving it small amounts of cows milk (no goats here, unfortunately), regular access to water. We've given it some crushed hamburger meat (cooked), tuna (canned), scrambled eggs, and diced hotdog meat. It has been eating and drinking small amounts throughout the day, and didn't appear to have diarrhea (feces seemed pretty typical although a little dark) and seems to have regular urination . It does appear to be a bit clumsy, not sure if it's because it is a kitten and young or if it's eye related.
It has shown >some< typical grooming habits (licking paws, privates) and isn't matted or scraggly like one might expect an abandoned kitten to be. But it's fur is getting dustier as the days go by, and it's got little specks of white in its coat (does not appear to be lice, did not see signs of fleas)- dandruff? Dirt/sand? Or perhaps some type of pollen/plant product. I tried to comb it out but the flakes are too small. I have not seen him do a thorough coat cleaning.
I'm looking for any advice/suggestions/tips or insight but my biggest concerns are: Are there any other human or cheap OTC animal products that might be helpful for treating the eyes? Or any signs/symptoms we should check for to better identify the cause of the eye discharge? We can't do a lot to improve the diet, but will the human-food meats actually harm the kitten? Is it safe to give the kitten a warm water bath? It may know how to groom itself (not sure at what age kittens pick this up or if it is instinctual), but is there anything we could do that might help it learn if not? While we didn't find any fleas, it does appear to have some itchiness- perhaps dry skin is the cause of the flakes, though there are a lot of small ants in our area too. I wasn't sure sure if bathing it would worsen the dry skin, and was hesitant to apply any flea prevention for the same reason and because we are unsure of its age.

So I posted something similar to this on a body Dysmorphia subreddit hoping to get some advice. And in the last few days, I've started spiraling down a hole a lot, and I'm starting to question my identity as a person a lot too. I'd like some advice and help from others here who might feel similarly, or can tell me if how I'm feeling aligns with gender Dysphoria or not.
This is uh also a slight rant too BTW so it's long.
To preface this, I never once stopped to question if I'm a boy or girl growing up. It never bothered me at such an extent, and my personality wasnt too feminine or masculine for the most part I feel, maybe leaning towards more masculine. I liked boy things I liked sports, I liked action, I liked being rowdy, but I also liked being artsy, very caring towards those I live, I preferred just making friends with girls even at a very young age rather than either doing the whole 'Boys vs girls' thing and I never really cared about entering a relationship with one. and I never once stopped to question my personality and I was proud of that.
But I never thought of myself as a 'Boy' per se. I was aware I was one, I am still aware I am one right now. But I never really associated my gender with who I was as a person, to me it had no weight on who I was. It was more or less, just an accessory. And despite that, All my life I've resented taking pictures and doing video calls. Everytime I looked at mine I always was disturbed because the person I saw wasn't who aligned with my own perception of myself. Everytime I look into the mirror I almost have to stand there and convince myself 'That's me, that's who you are, you ain't that bad'.
There are defintely parts of me I don't like but if I'm being honest, I haven't ever had a vehement hatred of anything about myself. It's not that I consider myself ugly (I don't consider myself a conventionally attractive man. In fact I don't think I ever received a compliment for how I looked, not even family, only jokes and contempt. but it really never bothered me because I know everyone's got a type for something and I truly don't care how I look to other people, just how I look to myself) but it's the fact that the person I see in the mirror, the person I see in pictures and the person I see in video calls just, doesn't align with the person I envision myself as. Everytime I'm away from my my reflection or photo, I don't even know what I look like from memory, and I never envision my body alongside my inner self if that makes sense. And it's confusing it's really confusing for me. Because it's not that it has that dramatic of an effect on me because hey as long as I don't see myself then who cares, but it started to bother me after I started deciding to dress and style myself to try to form that connection. I'd grow out my hair more, try out my own clothes (all still masculine by the way, I never trudged my toes towards feminine clothing), but I just never was able to see who I envisioned. And what's more confusing is, I don't know if it's because of my body or my gender or if I'm over exaggerating it because of having unrealistic standards
But the kicker is that recently, I have had way too much time to myself. And because of all that time, I've done some introspection and I realised, I am someone who:

1. has never cared about their appearance/clothes, just threw on what was comfortable for the longest time. Because in the end I used to never feel like it looked good anyways.
   
2. has never cared about working on myself for others or how my overall face or body looks, because to me i never had a strong enough connection between me and my body to really care about how my body reflects me, because I always used to believe that 'oh my body doesn't represent my personality, people should look beyond it'.
   
3. has always hated photos, video calls, hell even reflections until recently. I built up the mantra over time that 'oh everyone looks bad in front of a camera' but sometimes it physically hurt to be reminded that how I look, is in no way reflective of how I feel.
   
4. realised now, I think I've been jealous of my female cousins (who I am incredibly close with) my whole life. I'm really similar to one of them and I always used to think 'if I was a girl, I'd prolly be like her', except she was much happier and appeared more confident in her attire and body, so I always wondered why I could never be like that. And I've always envied how they could rock their styles so awesomely (which, can I say what in the fuck why do women get a billion options and men get the same flavour of t-shirt and pants with different ranging colours from Navy, Grey and blue? ?), how they could freely experiment with their hair as much as they want, how it felt like they were more in tune to their body than I was in mine
   
5. has been able to disassociate myself from my body a LOT as a kid. I used to think I was doing this for fun, because it was such a weird experience when I was younger. But I used to dissacociate myself from my body a LOT, and I'd be able physically be able to discern myself from my body it felt like a true out of body experience. I never thought about this a lot as a kid, but recently I've started wondering if there's something more beyond that. Because I do have a seperate monologue, I dont associate my body with myself, everytime I look into the mirror there's a minor surprise of 'OH right, that's me' and I have been experiencing this a lot now recently, but out of my control. And come to think of it, I don't even know if I really feel connected to my body at all even during daily life. Because all of my memories feel out of body. Idk how to explain it fully im sorry
   
6. has had some fantasies I'm uncomfortable sharing but I will say, I've researched a bit and even read the Gender dysphoria bible, and I will say that there's a chance those fantasies might be indicative of something too.
   
7. never felt strongly about pronouns and feels like my gender is just an accessory. In fact I used to experiment and wonder when I was younger during covid in other discord servers (I was bored okay) how it would feel to just change my pronouns and act as NB or a girl or she/they, he/they etc. And all, all of them felt equal to me. I didn't mind being called any of them. I thought I'd get like a lil fun joke of 'hehehe I'm going undercover muahahaha' but I kinda enjoyed it at times it kinda felt nice not having a gender tied to myself. It's just me.
   
8. tends to prefer playing women in games. Not just video games, but even TTRPGS (Dnd my beloved). This isn't always the case, I do like to play as the guy sometimes too, and I used to always do it in pokemon games to feel like I was the trainer himself. But these are games I can't really control the design of. So, enter BG3 and DnD. Games largely built on this idea of creating your own custom characters to tell stories and inhibit fun personalities. So yeah anytime I actually got to make my own character in games like these, always women. Like once was it a man, but usually always women. Closest I really got was a shapeshifting genderfluid changling, who also preferred more feminine pysiques anyways. And before I get called out for 'Oh you just are attracted to the bodies of women that's why you like them' youd be partially right, but also all of my Dnd characters I built upon traits of myself, I like to insert a lil bit of me into all of them. And most of those traits I give to female characters because it just feels like it embodies them the best... It feels like it embodies these traits of mine the best.
   
9. I did used to think a lot of 'what if I was a girl' when I was younger up. In none of these thoughts did I imagine myself acting any more feminine than I do now, and never thought about sex change or relationships, but I did think about 'maybe I'd be more comfortable to be in a girls body, because then I'd be able to actually show myself through my hair, style, colours etc as opposed to this one'. Granted, my primary frame of reference was my cousins again. I would never change my personality, I think i actually would've enjoyed growing up as a girl but I dont think I'd act any less boyish than now, but I would feel more comfortable with my feminine traits too. And I'd be so comfortable exploring my style and fashion too. I'd go through them all, goth, street, tomboy, artsy, you name it id try it. And I'd defintely would experiment with my hair as much as I could too because oh my God you women have the most fun hair options ever and then guys just have 'short, short but skin fade, short but it's an inch longer so we call it long, short but it's to the side so it's different, bowl cut'
   
10. I live in the moment. I have diagnosed adhd and I'm starting to suspect maybe a little ASD too. Idk if this will be relevant in the slightest, but because of that I don't really stop a lot to think in the present, nor do I look into the past that much or think about my future too hard. Which has been a detriment to my life at times, and unsurprisingly it's one now, because I feel like all this time, I never really stopped to think about why I never felt that connection, and maybe if it's even normal for there not to be one. So I don't know if this has been a much deeper issue than I thought for years, and I truly an unable to understand how to plan my future with this.
    

And I thought this was just body Dysmorphia. Again I never hated my body outside of being shown it, and if I looked in a mirror long enough I could usually trick myself into liking it. But I used to be very fat, I used to have a really awful looking haircut, I have a huge ass nose and I have a shit ton of body hair that grows back so so fast (and I mean a lot of body hair I do not like it even as a dude), and I've never had clothes that gave off my style, always stuff my parents picked out.
But it can't, just be body Dysmorphia can it? I've taken steps to try to rectify these feelings so I've lost a lot of weight, I've grown out my hair to something I actually like, I've started to experiment with clothes i actually like more. And now when I look in the mirror I see.... A more attractive version of my body. No connection, no me. Just a more attractive version of my body. In fact the only feature that felt like me, was my long, messy, wavy hair, and it's actually the only part of myself I'm extremely particular of now, because it's the only thing I feel connected to. And it's weirdly, the only part the people around me want to change the most. Want to neaten it or shorten it etc.
And that's when I started to wonder. That's when I started to wonder why, after all that work, do I not feel that connection. Why do I still feel weird seeing photos of myself. Why have I started to wonder if I was always uncomfortable in my body, but never understood the reason why. Why is it, that I feel as though women are able to express themselves better than men ever could? Why is it that I feel envious of my cousins at times, despite loving them with all my heart? Why have I begun to wonder, if maybe, just maybe, there's a chance I'd have felt more myself, in a woman's body, than in a mans body.
IDK maybe this isnt a conventional experience that anyone shares, maybe this isn't Dysmorphia at all but I'm hoping to get some perspectives here. Because I don't think I hate being a boy all togrthrr. There are aspects I dislike, sure, but I never out right hated it. But I do feel a disconnect. Hell I don't even like the idea of face revealing to close online friends, not out of fear of being perceived as being ugly, but because I enjoyed being faceless so much since I could envision myself how I wish, without them having a vision of what I actually look like. I know they'd never judge me at all and my closest friends are trans too, so they'd of course would never judge me if I were to show them. But I just, enjoy not having to worry about my body not reflecting me.
Part of me has always thought 'What if I was a girl? What if I had less hair? What if I had a different body type as a boy? What if I had better fashion?would I feel the connection then? Is the connection even that important?' and it never helped that I don't even have any role models that represented me physically in anyway, and it doesn't help that when I try to imagine who I envision myself as now, I can't even decide on what to envision. I wish I had that body connection Because without it, it feels harder to want to show my personality through my body.
And that's the kicker now. I don't know if I wanna commit to either option either??? The ideas of HRT and obtaining a more feminine physique, face and hair sounds amazing (although that's a whole nother can of worms filled with fear, doubt and internalised transphobia, no hate to yall ladies at all I just don't think I would ever be able to pass as a woman to myself considering my height, masculine features and body hair, and I'm worried it's too late for HRT to make any dramatic changes since I'm 18 turning 19). But I would be lying to you if I said I didn't like some aspects of being a boy too. I like the social ease of being a dude, I liked certain parts of me (I would never consider SRS, I like that part of me), I liked the strength and sometimes even my powerful frame and there are some times where I do actually feel comfortable expressing myself as a dude, and I do sometimes see myself in the mirror. but there are times where I think I would've preferred to have a woman's body, and to be able to explore all of the awesome fashion designs, to feel closer to my female friends, to be able to look directly in the mirror at my body and hopefully, see myself. Hell maybe ideally I woulda liked to be a tomboy because then that's pretty much the best of both worlds.
And that's my main fear. My main fear is that I don't know if I'm Cis with just a lotta issues to work through, Trans but too afraid to take the leap, or Bigendegenderfluid, because if I had shapeshifting powers or the ability to switch between genders at will, my God I would be so happy because I like both extremes, but as I am now I am way too masculine to even be able to switch genders to make myself see a female face (I wanna emphase myself because I do strongly believe trans women are women, the people closest to me are trans and I support and accept them fully, but I'm critical of myself passing so much because to me, gender has always seemed like an accessory. Not something that embodies you, but something that reflects you. I don't want to end up giving myself more dysphoria if I end up failing to recognise myself more).
I'm so sorry that this became long as hell to read. I don't even think I worded it out half as precisely as I would've liked so I'll write a lil tldr.
TLDR: I don't know if I'm a dysphoric Cis male, a closeted Trans woman, genderfluid/bigender, or just insane at this point. And I'm scared that if I choose to explore outside of cis, I'll get more dysphoria
Any and all questions are welcome. I'd probably be able to explain myself more to one of yalls questions, than try to explain myself here anyways. I know no one can decide their gender but themselves, but I guess I want some perspectives and ideas on if this does relate to trans stories, or if it does ring with gender fluidity, or if maybe I do need to just do some more introspection.

As Asian American and Pacific Islander heritage month draws to a close here in the United States, I wanted to share a collection of write-ups featuring the stories of Asians/Pacific Islanders who are currently missing or whose cases have not been resolved. This is an expansion of a piece I post annually and therefore may it sound similar. These are mostly my pieces as well as a few other cases that I have remembered reading about over the last year or two including some cases recommended by readers. Feel free to add other cases which have stuck with you down in the comment section. I hope to garner some exposure for these lesser known cases.
Khoi Dang Vu was a deaf American man who went missing from his family’s home in 2007 in Vancouver, Washington. He left on a rainy night without his coat, bike, or any belongings. His case is now considered a homicide and no trace of him has ever been found. True Crime Bullsh*t, an investigative podcast, has surmised that Vu may be a victim of serial killer Israel Keyes. The FBI considers the case a kidnapping. Khoi is of Vietnamese descent. My write up here- https://www.reddit.com/UnresolvedMysteries/comments/g89b2z/what_causes_someone_to_leave_their_home_in_the/
https://www.fbi.gov/wanted/kidnap/khoi-dang-vu
Slideshow made my Khoi's sister- www.youtube.com/watch?v=8IuTeb58vH0&t=0s
Wallace Guidroz went missing from Tacoma in 1983 when he was only two years old. His father took him to a park, went on a walk with a mysterious man, and then when he returned Wallace was gone. Wallace has never been seen again. He is of Korean and African American descent. HIs father is the prime suspect in his disappearance. https://www.reddit.com/UnresolvedMysteries/comments/mdtktl/2_%C2%BD_year_old_wallace_guidroz_disappeared_while/
https://charleyproject.org/case/wallace-guidroz
Helen Doe is an unidentified decedent who died in a semi-truck crash in Kalama, Washington in 1991. Although she is believed to be Native American, Asian, Hispanic, and mixed heritage cannot be ruled out. Her story can be found here. A new facial reconstruction can be see here. https://unidentified-awareness.fandom.com/wiki/Helen_Doe
full write up- https://www.reddit.com/UnresolvedMysteries/comments/lnv1b9/extensive_write_up_on_the_bizarre_case_of_helen/
https://www.koin.com/news/special-reports/the-mystery-of-helen-doe-kalama-crash-1991/
Grays Harbor Jane Doe was found in 1984 off of a logging road in Southern Washington state. She was middle aged and believed to be of Asian descent. The DNA Doe project is working on her case. You can read about her here. https://unidentified-awareness.fandom.com/wiki/Grays_Harbor_County_Jane_Doe
In 1963 the body of an unidentified man was found floating in the Spokane River in Spokane, Washington. The man had most likely drowned. He is believed to be of Asian descent but white and mixed descent could not be ruled out. His story, as well as the stories of 16 other unknown persons from Spokane can be found here. https://www.reddit.com/UnresolvedMysteries/comments/liqj98/extensive_write_up_on_17_of_spokane_countys/
https://www.doenetwork.org/cases/1670umwa.html
Gary Ridgway aka the Green River Killer terrorized the Pacific Northwest for decades. What many people do not know is that the Green River task force is still in operation. Ridgway confessed to 71 murders, but only around 49 bodies have been found meaning there are more victims waiting to be discovered or reported missing. Two of Gary Ridgway’s known victims were of Asian American or Pacific Islander backgrounds. Marie Malvar, who was of Filipino descent, and Kimi Kai Pitsor who was native Hawaiian, but there may be more. To read about the stories of these young girls as well as other victims of Ridgway you can start here. https://www.reddit.com/UnresolvedMysteries/comments/gpbcll/what_everyone_has_wrong_about_ridgway_extensive/ (please keep in mind that with the recent IDs of these does this write up is now out of date).
https://kingcounty.gov/depts/sheriff/about-us/enforcement/investigations/green-river.aspx
Diane Nguyen Robbins was only 13 in 1985 when she was last seen in King Co. Washington. She disappeared with her 21 year old friend, Molly Purdin, who was later found murdered. Both Diane and her friend were from Kennewick, Washington but Molly’s was found in northern King County. Molly had been assualted and died via blunt force trauma. Gary Ridgway is a suspect in both cases. An unknown serial killer is also a suspect in Molly amd Diane's case. Diane is of Vietnamese and white descent. https://charleyproject.org/case/diane-nguyen-robbins
Edward Ryan Makuahanai Aikau, usually known as Eddie Aikau, a famous lifeguard and surfer, was credited with saving over 500 people at Waimea bay on Oahu’s north shore during his tenure as lifeguard. In fact not one person was reported drowned during Eddie’s shifts at the beach. In 1978, 31 year old Aikau had decided to join the Polynesia Voyaging society, a group who planned to travel from Hawaii to Tahiti using only outrigger canoes. Shortly into their journey one canoe sprung a leak and eventually capsized 12 miles south of Molokai. Eddie paddled on his surfboard towards Lanai in a valiant effort to summon help, but soon disappeared. The US Coast Guard were able to save all the passengers and a huge search was launched but Eddie was never found and is presumed drowned. Eddie Aikau is a household name in Hawaii and in the surfing community. Competitions bearing his name and t-shirts, bumper stickers, and other items inscribed with “Eddie would go” are a constant reminder of his legacy and memory. Eddie was of Native Hawaiian and Caucasian, mostly Portuguese, descent. His story can be found here. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Eddie_Aikau
Rachel Mellon, sometimes reported as Rachel Mellon Skemp was a 13 year old who disappeared from her Illinois home when she was home sick one day in 1996. Her step-father is the primary suspect in her disappearance and diary entries from several months earlier reported that her step dad had touched her inappropriately and tried to kiss her. Rachel is of Asian descent but her family reports she is often mistaken for Greek or Italian. Her case can be found here. https://charleyproject.org/case/rachel-marie-mellon
Hang Lee, a 17 year old girl, went missing from St Paul Minnesota on January 12th 1993. Hang was last seen with a friend Kia “Nikki” Lee. She left home with this friend between 6:00 and 7:00 p.m. but when Nikki returned home an hour later, Hang was not with her. Nikki initially told authorities Hang had left with some unidentified young men. She later changed her story and said Hang had gone to a job interview with Nikki's own employer, Mark Steven Wallace, at Wallace's small painting and carpentry business on Iroquois Avenue. Wallace told Nikki that he was looking to hire another employee and she suggested her friend Hang as Hang was looking for a new job. Nikki thought that this request from Wallace was odd as he did not have enough work to hire another employee at that time. Nikki eventually told authorities that she and Hang went to Wallace's place of work and drove around with him in a white truck before switching and driving around in a tan Chevy Cavalier. Wallace dropped Nikki off and then left with Hang in the car. Wallace also told Nikki to not report what happened to the police. After a few interviews with the police Nikki retained an attorney and is no longer cooperating. Wallace denied involvement but also retained an attorney. Wallace is the prime suspect in the disappearance of Hang Lee. He has a record which includes rape, kidnapping, stalking, and drug possession. Hang Lee has never been located and her mother and 13 siblings are still looking for her. Hang is described as a sweet and naïve teenager who is only 17 and 1993. She was 5 ft tall and weighed 90 lb. She was last seen wearing a lightweight black leather jacket, a black t-shirt with "Skid Row" written on the back, black jeans or slacks, sneakers and several pieces of jewelry, including two silver bracelets. She is described as an Asian female with black hair and brown eyes. Her parents moved from Lao (sometimes spelled Laos in the US), and she is Hmong descent. She speaks both English and Hmong. She left behind her purse, a paycheck, and all of her other belongings. Full article https://charleyproject.org/case/hang-lee
Deborah Palmer was only 7 years old in 1997 when she was last seen getting ready for school. Her mother said goodbye as Deborah left the home to walk a few blocks to her elementary school in Oak Harbor, Washington. When Deborah’s mother tried to drop off lunch a few hours later, she was shocked to learn that her daughter never arrived. Five days later, Deborah’s body was found on a beach a few miles away. She had been but not sexually assaulted. Her case is cold and unsolved 25 years later. Deborah is of African American and Filipino descent. https://www.q13fox.com/washingtons-most-wanted/little-girl-doesnt-show-up-for-school-but-shows-up-days-later-dead-on-a-beach
In September of 2019, Tampa native Paulino Norberto Del Mundo Japor Jr. decided she wanted to go on a 10 vacation to Cozumel, Mexico but during a layover in Dallas she called her sister and asked for help getting a ticket back to Florida as she had changed her mind about going to Mexico. Her family said on the phone she sounded “desperate” and “incoherent.” She never boarded a flight home or boarded her plane to Mexico. Her last known whereabouts were documented on security tapes from the Dallas airport. Her phone and bank account have not been used since that day and she was never seen again. Paulino is a transgender woman who went by the names Paula, Paulina, or Pauline. Although Paula had lived as a woman for years she had not medically transitioned and it appears she still used Paulino Norberto as her legal first and middle name. She is of Filipino descent and her family is still hoping for answers. https://charleyproject.org/case/paulino-norberto-del-mundo-japor-jr
In 1999, Xuan Cao, a 53-year-old man from China, was visiting the USA as part of a tour group. His tour group had just gotten to a hotel in North Bergen, NJ, when Xuan said he was going out to make a phone call. He disappeared and never came back. He left behind his passport and all of his luggage. It is not believed to be a voluntary disappearance. Some online slueths thinks that he may be this John Doe. (TW post mortem photo- https://www.namus.gov/UnidentifiedPersons/Case#/1507?nav It has been submitted as a match but not yet ruled out.
In 1990, Tu Thi-Cam Tran, a student at the University of Maryland, Baltimore County, vanished one night on her way back to her car from the University Center. Tu, who was of Vietnamese descent, was 24 years old at the time, and in her senior year at UMBC. She went missing in the small window of time between leaving her classroom and getting into her car. Here's a write-up on her case with some more information. https://charleyproject.org/case/tu-thi-cam-tran
Ashok Kuman Narain was last seen in Eugene, Oregon in either 1987 or 1988 where he lived with his wife and young daughter after moving from Fiji several years earlier. In 1987 the dismembered body of a pregnant woman and the body of a toddler were found floating nearby in Washington and Oregon. 20 years later these bodies were identified as Raj Mati Narain and Kamnee Koushal, the wife and daughter of Ashok, after Raj’s brother read a story about the unidentified bodies online. He had not heard from his sister since 1987 when Raj’s letters back to her family in Fiji mysteriously stopped. Ashok is wanted for questioning but his whereabouts are unknown. Authorities are looking for a white 1980 Toyota Tercel with the Oregon license plate number KUV762, which disappeared with Ashok and may be connected to Raj and Kamnee's homicides. Both Oregon and Washington authorities are investigating his disappearance. Most sources say the family is of Indo Fijian descent, however, the Charley project now reports that Ashok is of native Fijian descent. You can read their tragic story here. https://charleyproject.org/case/ashok-kumar-narain
Queens Jane Doe was an unidentified woman who fell to her death accidentally after falling off an elevated train platform in Queens, New York in January, 2000. She is described as an 18 to 28 year old Asian or Pacific Islander woman who is 5 ft 1 in in height and weighed 113 lb. She had brown eyes and 7” straight dark brown hair. She was wearing a dark brown Albert Duke brand leather jacket, a blue and white plaid button-up shirt, a dark colored bra, blue jeans, white underwear, and black Euro sneakers or boots. She was also wearing earrings. Her identity is still a mystery to this day. You can find more information here, https://unidentified-awareness.fandom.com/wiki/Queens_Jane_Doe_(January_2000)) but please be careful as post-mortem photos are available of this woman.
In 2011, Mansoor Riaz, a Microsoft software engineer, vanished one night from his Bellevue, Washington apartment. Riaz is of Pakistani descent. His story can be found here.
https://www.reddit.com/UnresolvedMysteries/comments/msgolf/a_software_developer_at_mircosoft_vanished_from/
https://charleyproject.org/case/mansoor-riaz
Yuan Xia Wang went missing near Washington DC when she was headed for a doctor’s appointment. Yuan had been found at Dulles Airport when a man who was smuggling people into the country was detained and Yuan was one of his charges. Police became suspicious when Yuan who was supposedly a Thai citizen could not speak or understand Thai, but rather spoke Mandarin. Yuan told authorities her parents in Fuzhou, China had paid money for this man to get her into the country using a Thai passport. She was supposed to live with an aunt in the US, but she didn't know where or who this person was so she was placed in foster care for the time being. Other reports say that her smuggler was supposed to take her to a hotel in Alexandria, Virginia. Her foster parents hired a Mandarin speaking babysitter to stay with her until she was enrolled in at a local middle school. Yuan went missing only a few weeks later while on the way to a doctor's appointment. She reportedly got off the school bus and was supposed to take a cab to the doctors but vanished by the time the cab arrived. Although Yuan said she was 12, she was 5’ 6” in height and most people thought she was probably around 15 at the time of her disappearance. She is of Chinese descent and speaks Mandarin. Police believe she either ran away, was kidnapped by her family members or smugglers, or met with foul play. She may have been seen in Kansas city in 2008. Sadly her dentals, fingerprints, and DNA and not available. https://www.reddit.com/UnresolvedMysteries/comments/jbtixc/yuan_xia_wangmissing_from_lincolnia_virginia/
https://charleyproject.org/case/yuan-xia-wang
Su Cha Kim a 54 year old shop owner from Twin Falls, Idaho Was found murdered in her massage parlor in 1997. Her case is unsolved and cold. Unfortunately, little information is available online. https://www.reddit.com/UnresolvedMysteries/comments/njhce2/the_1997_murder_of_su_cha_kim_in_twin_falls_id/
https://magicvalley.com/news/local/twin-falls-police-hope-passing-years-will-help-solve-cold-cases/article_7c83fca5-9dfd-5fd6-915f-063719bc0117.html
Faloma Luhk, 10, and Maleina Luhk, 9, disappeared while waiting for their school bus in As Teo, Saipan, Northern Mariana Islands, on May 25th, 2011. The girls were last seen sitting on a concrete slab at 6:10 a.m. across the road from their bus stop, only 300 feet from the home they shared with their grandparents. The bus arrived and left without them at 6:30 am but the girls were not reported missing until they didn’t come home after school that day. The 12 mile long island of Saipan was searched thoroughly by friends, family, locals, and the FBI but no trace of the girls or their things were ever found and their disappearance remains one of the most well known mysteries from the Northern Mariana Islands. Both girls are described as Pacific Islander females with brown hair and brown eyes. In 2011, Faloma had bronze colored highlights in her bangs, and Maleina had a large birthmark on her left cheek. She is reported as small and short for her age. A distant family member by marriage, who was later arrested for domestic violence, is the prime suspect in the case. He has never been named publicly. https://www.saipantribune.com/index.php/disappearance-of-luhk-sisters-marks-10-years/
https://www.guampdn.com/news/local/10-years-later-fbi-still-looking-for-luhk-sisters-who-went-missing-from-saipan-bus/article_f22e2472-cc38-50ac-a187-2ad5f3795155.html
Dong Chull Jung disappeared within minutes in Lakewood, Washington. The 78 year old was residing at the Golden Lion Motel on Tacoma Way in Lakewood, Washington. The establishment has long been a hotbed of criminal activity and violence since at least the 1990s. On average the police responded to incidents at the 24-room hotel over 100 times per year. November 22nd 2003 was one of those times. On that day witnesses called the police after hearing a “disturbance” in Dong’s room. When the authorities arrived, they found a giant pool of blood on the floor as well as Dong’s prescription eyeglasses, but Dong was nowhere to be found. According to the News Tribune, a paper out of Tacoma, one week before Dong’s disappearance he was granted a temporary domestic violence protection order from a Paul C. Jung, who might be Dong’s adult son. In June of 2003, someone named Hae Sung Jung, got a restraining order against Dong. Hae might be the estranged wife of Dong, but this isn’t known for sure. There are vague reports that Dong was having “marital issues'' at the time of his disappearance. Very little information is available in the case. The Golden Lion Inn was finally torn down in 2017 but the fate of the elderly man who resided within remains a mystery. Dong is described as an Asian (Korean) male, with brown eyes and thinning gray hair. He is 5’6'' and weighs 135 lbs. Dong wears prescription eyeglasses but they were left behind when he vanished. If you have any information regarding the disappearance of Dong Jung please call Pierce County Crime Stoppers 253-591-5959. https://charleyproject.org/case/dong-chull-jung
Gordon Kaipo Kealoha, 59, disappeared along with his dog Mahina in 2011. They were last seen fishing near Honolulu where they lived on July 8; Gordon cherished Mahina and brought her almost everywhere he went. After his disappearance, Gordon's white minivan was found abandoned, and his dinghy was found in the water, floating away from his home. Gordon is 6'1 and 250 pounds, and he is of Native Hawaiian descent.
https://charleyproject.org/case/gordon-kaipo-kealoha
Amber Aiaz and Melissa Fu were mother and daughter who went missing In November, 2019 from Irvine, California. The story of their disappearance and possible kidnapping is complicated. I would suggest reading the story here or here if you are interested in the details but the basic story is this. Amber's husband, Cheng Zhang, reported his wife and stepdaughter missing to the police about a week after they were last seen. He said that a Chinese man and woman came to his door, put something on his face and he passed out. He reported that when he woke up he found blood and evidence of a struggle in the apartment. He also found a note telling him not to report his wife and daughter missing to the police for at least several days and continued to get notes over the next week. He did what the notes instructed for the next several days. When he finally did report his wife and stepdaughter missing, police were skeptical of his story to say the least. Several months later police reported that they had found nothing to indicate that Cheng’s story was untrue, including over 40 hours of interviews with him and 44 days of around the clock surveillance. In the past Amber had told acquaintances that she was a very wealthy woman who had millions of dollars to her name. While this was not true, authorities speculated that Amber may have been kidnapped for ransom only for her captors to find out that her story of riches was nothing more than a farce. Amber's money has not been touched in either her Chinese or American bank accounts. Both mother and daughter left behind their passports and there's no indication that either of them have entered China.
Amber is described as a 34-year-old Chinese woman who is 5'9 and weighed 180 lb. She has black hair and brown eyes. When last seen she was wearing a black shirt, a black vest, black fitted pants with white writing on them, and light colored shoes. She may use the name Mei Yi Wu or Meiyi W. Wu.
Melissa is described as a 12 or 13 year old Chinese female with black hair and brown eyes. She was 5 '11” in height and weighed about 200 lb. She was last seen wearing a black tracksuit.
Cheng described the unidentified abductors as a Chinese couple in their 40s. Both had average builds. The woman was reported to be about 5’8” and had her black hair tied back in a bun. The man was of average build about 190 lb. and 5 '10”. He had short black hair. The couple may have been driving a black Cadillac and they may have been seen near the apartment complex that day by other neighbors.
Destiny Dee Sanith was last seen by her family on March 3rd, 2022 in Williamstown New Jersey. At about 2:30 in the afternoon on March 3rd, she asked her mom if she could borrow the car to go visit a friend in South Philadelphia. When Destiny did not return in the evening, her mother learned that she never made it to her friend's house that day. New Jersey police had contact with Destiny at about 5:20 a.m. on March 4th in Folsom New Jersey. Destiny and her car were near a strip mall at the time. What exactly happened is not clear but police reported they helped Destiny move her car into a parking spot and then gave her a ride to a Wawa convenience store about a mile up the road. Destiny's family has reported that they have surveillance video of Destiny entering and then later leaving the Wawa store after purchasing a drink. At about 9:00 a.m. she was seen leaving the store with a drink crossing the road, turning into another convenience store and then going behind the building and out of view. This is the last known sighting and location of Destiny Sanith. On March 5th when Destiny had still not returned home she was reported missing to the police and her family learned about her interaction with the police on the morning of March 4th. Destiny has not been seen or heard from since.
Destiny is described as an Asian female 27 years old, who is 5'6 and height and weighs about 170 lb. She reportedly has short wavy brown hair and brown eyes. She was last seen wearing black sweatpants, a black Nike sweatshirt, a backpack, white and red Air Jordan sneakers, wearing earrings and carrying a coffee. She has a tattoo of the Virgo symbol on her right hand. Her nickname is Dara. Her family has set up a GoFundMe to help find Destiny and hire a private investigator. Full article here.
Binyu Chin and his brother, Huaiyu Chin, disappeared from San Diego, California on January 12, 2019. They lived with their mother and stepfather at the time of their disappearance. They were abducted by their non-custodial father, Foong Lian Chin. Foong has lived in New York City, San Deigo, Baja California, Mexico. He immigratged from Signapore in the 1980s. The boys have not been seen since. https://charleyproject.org/case/binyu-chin
Kevin Nguyen, age 25, went missing on Decemeber 8th 2018. He was last seen at a bar in Fort Wayne, Indiana. He had been asked to leave after an altercation. You can read his story here- https://charleyproject.org/case/kevin-n-nguyen
Myong Keun Noah, who went by the nickname Mike, was seen by his family at around 7:00 p.m. on May 1st, 2007 in San Bruno, CA. Mike owned a private car company called E Limousine Services that he ran out of his home. That evening Mike told his son that he had to leave to pick up a 7:30 p.m fare. He did not tell his son where he was picking up the fare. Mike's wife was at an evening class at the time. Neither Mike or his black Lincoln town car was ever seen again. His car was new and didn't have permanent license plates, but had the transportation carrier permit number TCP 18525 printed on the back bumper. It had a transponder that registers when it enters San Francisco International Airport, but the transponder did not register a trip to the airport that evening. A search of parking areas at both the San Francisco Airport and the Oakland Airport did not locate Mike or his car. Mike's bank account and his phone have not been used since May 1st, 2007. Mike had no history of running away or dropping out of sight, he had no reported mental health issues, no personal problems, and no enemies. Police report that they are baffled by his disappearance. Mike was a US Army veteran and a naturalized American citizen. He had one teenaged son with his current wife and two adult children from a previous marriage however, no one in Mike's family has heard from him since May 1st, 2007. Mike is described as an Asian male, 60 years old in 2007, with brown eyes and black and gray hair. He is 5 ft 8 in in height and weighs about 165 lbs. He was last seen wearing a black suit with a white shirt. He may spell his last name “Noh.” He is of Korean descent.
https://www.sfgate.com/bayarea/article/SAN-BRUNO-Wife-police-plead-for-help-finding-2559008.php
https://charleyproject.org/case/myoung-keun-noah
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Title is pretty self-explanatory—I’m an 18 y/o lesbian who has always pretty much known I was gay, yet took me several years to come to terms with it. I first came out to my mom as generally “not straight” in 2019/2020, and then finally came out fully as a lesbian last summer. It was difficult news for her to handle and she pulled out the usual stops of “well, what about that one male crush you had at age 6” etc.
I thought she was starting to come around, but today she randomly asked me if I thought content on social media “has influenced” my being a lesbian. She apparently went on TikTok, typed in “gay”, and scrolled through videos of “hot women talking about being gay” or “kissing other women, basically soft-core porn” to support her assertion. She pulled up the “22% of Gen Z-ers identify as LGBTQ+” statistic as well, saying that perhaps social media has “made queerness seem more appealing to younger people.”
I was fucking floored. My mom is a psychologist with a PhD. You think she’d understand that social media cannot change a person’s sexuality??? I also feel like her argument discredits a lot of the shame and fear I felt about my lesbianism growing up. I just feel so heartbroken and betrayed and truly do not know how to respond.

If life were a video game and I could edit my avatar (me) from what the game gave me (basic white male) I would edit it to be female. I've played female characters pretty much forever and never thought anything of it until people pointed it out. I also always saw myself as a badass woman in like games and I guess also mentally? Idk, I know what kind of woman I would be if I was one. I'm currently experimenting with some presentation but it's odd considering I'm in a male body it doesn't look right to how I imagine. I guess hormones are a way to "edit" or change so to speak in real life, and alter how your body looks. So is this a trans thing people think about? I'm currently living my life as an average cis man. I'm also questioning my sexuality if that means anything

Hey all,
So a bit about me, I'm a 24 year old male from the USA. I'm a bit of a nerd, liking reading books (love philosophy like Kierkegaard) a bit of crime stories, some horror, some scientific non fiction books and I have a few atlases as well. I love geography. :) As of late, I haven't been as invested in my interested due to a bit of depression but I am improving quite a bit.
I love video games. I'm currently working on a few, including Black Mesa, Dark Souls III, and an unhealthy addiction to Warframe at the moment.
I also have a blog I've been working on as a bit of a passion project where I work on video games and write about them, take screenshots along the way, write out reviews and updates and so on. Would love to share if I connect with anyone :) Even just something for you to read out
I like all things astronomy as well. Would love to discuss planet names and cool places in space.
I love building Legos, so far a few space ones and the set of Seinfeld, would love to see what you've made : )
Music may be most important and closest to my heart. I love alternative music, shoegaze, classic rock, classical (classical guitar in particular <3), jazz, some metal.
I play guitar passively and I also have a bass too! I like keyboard, I know my way around some sheet music and tablature and I overall just like talking about music theory in general but not in a profound way or anything.
I hope to hear from some friends soon! Only looking for something casual as I haven't been on this site in a long time and I'm not looking to shy away from coming back so soon.
Feel free to send a message even just to say hi, take care :)

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