i'm 20F my mom is in her late 40's ,my mom and dad are together.
I first caught her when i was 15 years old, i was young and a teenager back then and that really had a bad effect on me, IT SCREWED ME UP MENTALLY cause i never thought that my mom would do that, she was an angel to me.
i remember reading her texts and seeing that she was texting a family friend, they were talking dirty, calling each other on the phone etc, i remember that she secretly sent him a huge amount of money (my dad's money because he provides), and i remember him sending her a picture of his id card and stuff still don't know why.
i also remember them sexting a lot, her sending him some adult pictures of her (which made me go insane) and him sending her corn videos, that was soo disgusting .
at that age i knew that i was not mature enough to take the right decision, i was confused , and that's why i didn't tell my dad, but i told my brothers and they refused to believe me. one day i faced her about it and i cried begging her to stop texting that man and she told me she will stop.
my relationship with her changed a lot during that time, she started hating me a lot, and becoming more aggressive towards me.
then i took the decision to not give an f anymore, i thought maybe she will get bored at some point or realize that she's doing something wrong as a mom of 5 kids and if my dad founds out then i'll pretend that i knew nothing so i don't loose his trust as well.
5 years passed by and she is still in the same situation as before and even worse, i remember 2 years ago i checked her second phone(that i didn't know she had) and i saw that she had a fake profile on facebook and its full of dudes in her dms and weird ass groups i was like WHAT THE ACTUAL F* i was shocked then i put the phone away cuz i had enough.
Yesterday, a weird number called her and it was another man i pretended that nothing happened and that i didn't see her phone ringing.
it was yesterday when i realized that she's still going through the same pathway.
what should i do? i don't care about her life, if she's happy with those men then be it, i'm actually worried about my dad, he has abnormal anger issues. he will probably murder her if he founds out, and i'm worried about my reputation as a woman of such society, i don't do these stuff and i never had a boyfriend.
my question is :how can i put an end to this ? should i play dumb for the rest of my life til dad founds out and something bigger happens or just move on and move out ?
btw i come from a conservative 3rd world country, the things that my mom is doing are considered as very shameful and dangerous acts, especially as a woman it's risky here and she knows it. Even if my father murders her one day no one can do anything, men murder women here, yesterday our neighbor stabbed his wife to death, and all the blame was put on her, i'm really worried.

My goal is to check whether windows updates failed or not, and I found two scripts that appearently do that, however one script provides a lot more info than the other and the result seem very different, can someone tell me which one to use? here they are:

Convert WUA history ResultCode to a human-readable name

function Convert-WuaResultCodeToName {
param (
[Parameter(Mandatory=$true)]
[int] $ResultCode
)
switch ($ResultCode) {
2 { "Succeeded" }
3 { "Succeeded With Errors" }
4 { "Failed" }
}
}

Get Windows Update history

function Get-WuaHistory {
$session = New-Object -ComObject 'Microsoft.Update.Session'
$history = $session.QueryHistory("", 0, 50) ForEach-Object {
$Result = Convert-WuaResultCodeToName -ResultCode $_.ResultCode
$_ Add-Member -MemberType NoteProperty -Value $Result -Name Result
$_ Add-Member -MemberType NoteProperty -Value $_.UpdateIdentity.UpdateId -Name UpdateId
$_ Add-Member -MemberType NoteProperty -Value $_.UpdateIdentity.RevisionNumber -Name RevisionNumber
Write-Output $_
}
$history Select-Object Date, KB, @{l='Category';e={[string]$_.Categories[0].Name}}, Title, Result
}

Get the last 50 Windows Update events

Get-WuaHistory

and :

Set the console output encoding to UTF-8

[Console]::OutputEncoding = [System.Text.Encoding]::UTF8

Ensure the PSWindowsUpdate module is imported

Import-Module PSWindowsUpdate

Define the event log query for successful updates

$query = @"



*[System[Provider[@Name='Microsoft-Windows-WindowsUpdateClient'] and (EventID=19 or EventID=20 or EventID=21)]]



"@

Get the update events

$updateEvents = Get-WinEvent -FilterXml $query Select-Object TimeCreated, Id, Message

Convert the output to a single string with a wide width

$output = $updateEvents Format-Table -AutoSize Out-String -Width 4096

Display the output

Write-Host $output

do they not serve the same purpose?

So there’s this girl that I was talking to for like 2 months. We’re both seniors and are going to the same college so it was really easy to bond and throughout the two months we really connected with each other. Like after about a month we were mutually committed to each other and we would talk on the phone all night, talk throughout the day, and be there for each other whenever it was needed. The only real problem is that I tend to overthink a lot, as I’ve had bad anxiety issues in the past. This windiest is compounded by the fact I was played in my last relationship by a girl who said she loved me and swore she was loyal that was talking to other dudes and picked them over me. But anyways, I would try to express how the overthinking made me feel to her but I really wanted to get her on a call because other than seeing her we only exchanged voice notes and never really got on calls. This expanded my intuition and made me think I was getting played so I did some mild research. We follow each other on Ig and she has a lot upwards of a thousand followers, which also set some alarm bells off in my brain because I knew she was most likely lying that I was the only want for her and everything. Also, just through like looking at her post comments, I saw that she still had her ex bfs flirty comments up there for a while when we were talking and that she still followed him, making me think that I was possibly going to be a rebound. Also, based on her TikTok reposts, she was just starting to get over him when she told me they had been done for three months so I didn’t know what to believe. But while we were talking, me and her shared everything with each other like past trauma, current issues, and I play guitar so I would sing love songs to her or send them to her(corny Ik) so she told me that she’s been deeply traumatized in past relationships and that her ex was the worst of them all because he would use her for her body and I think she implied some abuse so I knew to be gentle with her. She also said that no guy had ever put in so much effort to talk to and understand her and that it was so different and special to her. So everything is going good and I really like this girl, like more than anyone before. And like I said, we’re going to the same college so we both like follow the college posting accounts and follow people that are going to be her classmates. So one day, I follow someone a guy in there with my major, but when I do I realize my girl already followed him. So I go back to the college account (which consists of 90% girls) and realize that she hasn’t followed a single girl on there and follows basically every guy. This makes me feel awful because just logically, on an account with 90% girls being posted, can you following every dude but no girls be considered as anything but looking for replacements or new guys to talk to? So in the heat of when I found this out, I send her a pretty stern voice note in a tone I regret asking why she’s following that ratio of girls to guys when she has deemed me as “perfect”, “the one”, and “her favorite ever” and when she’s said we’re locked in and committed and I’ve agreed. Like at this point I wasn’t even looking at other girls anymore so it was really hurtful. So she responds nds with saying she follows everyone(not true) and that I’m reading way too much into this and that she’ll unfollow if there is a problem and now she feels confused and off about me. She also said she knows I don’t trust her now. She said she was going to get gas and after that, she ignored all of my texts for a week but always viewed my stories so I knew she just didn’t want to talk to me. This really breaks my heart because she told me she wasn’t like that and she would never just leave. So after a week, she finally responded and said that “I’m sorry and that I should’ve said something and I didn’t want you to think I left so easily. I have a on my plate rn and you’re such a sweet guy and I really hope this could work in the future but I have too much rn I’m sorry.” So I respond saying that I understand I’m not the most important thing in her life and that I was sorry for making her think I didn’t trust her because I do and I just wanted to understand her pov. I also said that I want to be a safe space for her and that she can communicate that with me bc let’s be honest, no one is too busy to shoot out a 5 second text update. Plus, it was too coincidental it came after our first real negative communication. So it’s been over a week and she still hasn’t responded to me so I assume I’ve been ghosted. I miss her so much and I’ve been trying to move on but I blame myself for this so it’s harder to move on then if I got played. Was that the breakup text she sent? It hinted at the future and I know I shouldn’t take her back but I know I would because of how much I miss her. Was I out of line to question her following because I knew I probably should’ve stayed away from the topic but I wanted to communicate how it made me feel. I feel like she def got a friends opinion and then decided to ghost because she seemed more apologetic at first. Is this even a ghost and did she ever really mean what she said about me being the one for her and her favorite guy ever? I want honest opinions on the situation and please don’t just give me the move on talk. I really just can’t and I feel like I’ve messed everything up and that I may love her. Should I call her? I don’t want to seem desperate.

Was tempted to make a video to show more than tell and still might, but things are still very, very early and always subject to change.
My previous Japanese language study is obviously giving me a big head start. Knew this would be the case when I went to Taiwan a couple of times and could recognize more than a few words which really helped me get around. Obviously pronunciation, vocabulary, and grammar would be radically different, but I was also aware of that. The unknown traditional Hanzi (focusing on that since it's easier given my Japanese study background) will not be the main problem, just the tones and pronunciation and thousands of words using those Hanzi.
Also, I have the benefit of going in with a set plan based on my own experience learning (and re-learning) Japanese using self-study tools: Anki, text analyzers, browser plug-ins, audio books, pop-up dictionaries, etc.
Current plan is as follows: Do the first 90 lessons of the older Pimsleur Mandarin course with serious supplementation:

• Anki - I'm using a transcript (complete for Mandarin I Lessons 1 - 30) and webpage with vocabulary and starting dialogue for all 90 lessons to generate the cards. They'll have English, PinYin, Simplified and Traditional for both the vocabulary and an example sentence. The cards will be two per word - PinYin word/sentence (audio recognition, but I'm not bothering with actual audio for Pimsleur), and English word/Clozed traditional hanzi sentence (production where preferably the English word would instead be an image/Chinese definition).
  
• Trimsleur - My term for taking Pimsleur lessons and removing the English prompts and long pauses with two second pauses. For a 30 minute lesson, I have a 10 minute pure Chinese audio that's also comprehensible. Meant for comprehensible audio immersion (and repeating/shadowing).
  
• ACHTT - stands for "All Chinese Half The Time" which is my term for Ken Cannon's suggestion to watch every episode of a show in Japanese twice: once w/ English subs for the comprehension, then once more w/ Chinese subs or no subs for the immersion. I take it one step further by ripping the audio with a program uses the subtitles to remove long non-spoken portions (CIA or compressed immersion audio).
  

So current plan just for the 90 Pimsleur lessons is:

1. Review due Anki. For these, I have strict fail and soft fail rules for each card type. "Audio" cards (PinYin word/sentence) I have to know which hanzi are used and the meaning of the word - this is a strict fail. The soft fail (I hit "hard" UNLESS the spacing will be over 6 months) is the stroke order of the hanzi and meaning of the example sentence. The Clozed Delete card I also have know the Mandarin word, it's hanzi, and it's tone for the strict fail. The stroke order and meaning/reading of the clozed deleted Mandarin sentence is a soft fail.
   
2. Do the Pimsleur lesson with the transcript (in part I at least). Pause to initially answer the English prompt then play and repeat the Chinese phrase. When the new word is introduced, go to it's Anki card to add pronunciation notes (the transcript has a few pages of charts for this) along with HanziHero as needed for Hanzi meanings and notes (super important for Hanzi that are new to me). Now, Pimsleur is normally a 30 minute lesson, but doing it this way makes it last about an hour or so.
   
3. Activate the new vocabulary in Anki (custom study option) and see how much is remembered. I set cards to long learning time (1m 10m 1440m 3600m) with graduation done at 1 week. This is also great because Pimsleur cannot tell if I remembered anything or not and balance accordingly. Anki can.
   
4. Watch one episode of Peppa Pig Mandarin at 75% speed with English sub, then rewatch with traditional Chinese subs. Peppa Pig is slowed down because the normal episodes are sped up on purpose in most languages. Any other show I would likely leave at original speed.
   
5. Update my comprehensible immersion audio playlist. It'd be 4 copies of today's Trimsleur lesson, 3 copies of yesterday, 2 copies of two days ago, and 1 copy of three days ago (so Lesson 8 x4, Lesson 7 x3, Lesson 6 x2, Lesson 5 x1). In addition, it'd be the last four days of Peppa Pig ripped audio. This is about two hours of audio in total. I then play these on random, and the most recent lessons are played more often.
   

The comprehensible audio is played a lot of the time passively in the background. I can be doing anything else and not notice, but it'll be there whenever I do take a aural snack (pay attention to what's being played). I DO NOT want to repeat the major mistake in my early Japanese study of playing incomprehensible Japanese audio (rips of TV shows I watched) near 24/7. Found out that comprehensible that frequently refreshed is key to training your brain to follow along without thinking as well as repeat without effort.
Again, I'm only on lesson 8 with a handful of vocabulary words under my belt. Still, I can read aloud all eight of the introductory dialogues in traditional Mandarin. I'm also noticing the words as they pop up in Peppa Pig.
Gonna hate moving on to Pimsleur Mandarin part II as there's no transcript. However, there are websites that'll transcribe the Trimsleur audio (and maybe even the Pimsleur if I wanted) which'll simplify doing the lessons like I'm doing now.
After Pimsleur, I plan to do deep dive study methods (read subtitles along with Chinese subs, pausing only to look up meaning of unknown words and phrases), then after 10 hours of reading (at beginning stages this might be only 1 hour of actual Chinese audio) use subs with MorphMan in Anki to get 100 most common words that are within my learned vocab range. All that means is if I know 1,500 words then MorphMan will only look for new words from 3,000 most common that's also the most common in the read material stopping at 100 new words if that before starting reading up again.
Hopefully this all makes sense. Like with Japanese, I'll freely share whatever resources I can and answer whatever questions people have (if I have time). Obviously I'm in the beginning stages so maybe don't expect much.

I’ve been struggling with intensely dry hair for the first time in my life. I was wearing my hair back in a bun every day for work, and between the super fried dry hair and twisting it back every day, half my hair was snapped off. Every time I brushed it I would rip more and more hair out. Eventually, after about 8 months, I gave up and had my hair cut short, about ear level. My hairdresser used olaplex during the haircut and dye, and for a few weeks I could finally run my fingers through my hair. Now, after about a month, it’s going back to the horrible condition it was in.
I use bed head recovery shampoo, olaplex 3 and an argan oil conditioner in the shower, with My Organics Angel Potion (an Italian goji berry belated leave in conditioner) after, and every now and then a Marc Anthony Strictly Curls leave in.
My hair is in awful condition!! I’ve been in bed with covid this week and my hair has literally been standing upright because it dried that way and no matter how much I brushed it down, it would pop right back up for two days. It feels like straw. I’m at my wits end. I don’t know what else I can do.
I am willing to spend money on things if they’re going to work, but this has gone on for so long and I have thrown so much money at hair products without any results, that I don’t think I can afford to keep doing it.
Oh, and to point out how thirsty my hair is, I spent a week in Darwin a month ago. My hair was actually in the best condition it’s been in for years while I was up there! It was full and soft and silky, until the last day or two when it finally started getting a little frizzy.
I know this isn’t normal, but I have no idea what to do with it.
Does anyone have suggestions for upper end chemist range, lower end hairdresser range products that might help?

So there’s this girl that I was talking to for like 2 months. We’re both seniors and are going to the same college so it was really easy to bond and throughout the two months we really connected with each other. Like after about a month we were mutually committed to each other and we would talk on the phone all night, talk throughout the day, and be there for each other whenever it was needed. The only real problem is that I tend to overthink a lot, as I’ve had bad anxiety issues in the past. This windiest is compounded by the fact I was played in my last relationship by a girl who said she loved me and swore she was loyal that was talking to other dudes and picked them over me. But anyways, I would try to express how the overthinking made me feel to her but I really wanted to get her on a call because other than seeing her we only exchanged voice notes and never really got on calls. This expanded my intuition and made me think I was getting played so I did some mild research. We follow each other on Ig and she has a lot upwards of a thousand followers, which also set some alarm bells off in my brain because I knew she was most likely lying that I was the only want for her and everything. Also, just through like looking at her post comments, I saw that she still had her ex bfs flirty comments up there for a while when we were talking and that she still followed him, making me think that I was possibly going to be a rebound. Also, based on her TikTok reposts, she was just starting to get over him when she told me they had been done for three months so I didn’t know what to believe. But while we were talking, me and her shared everything with each other like past trauma, current issues, and I play guitar so I would sing love songs to her or send them to her(corny Ik) so she told me that she’s been deeply traumatized in past relationships and that her ex was the worst of them all because he would use her for her body and I think she implied some abuse so I knew to be gentle with her. She also said that no guy had ever put in so much effort to talk to and understand her and that it was so different and special to her. So everything is going good and I really like this girl, like more than anyone before. And like I said, we’re going to the same college so we both like follow the college posting accounts and follow people that are going to be her classmates. So one day, I follow someone a guy in there with my major, but when I do I realize my girl already followed him. So I go back to the college account (which consists of 90% girls) and realize that she hasn’t followed a single girl on there and follows basically every guy. This makes me feel awful because just logically, on an account with 90% girls being posted, can you following every dude but no girls be considered as anything but looking for replacements or new guys to talk to? So in the heat of when I found this out, I send her a pretty stern voice note in a tone I regret asking why she’s following that ratio of girls to guys when she has deemed me as “perfect”, “the one”, and “her favorite ever” and when she’s said we’re locked in and committed and I’ve agreed. Like at this point I wasn’t even looking at other girls anymore so it was really hurtful. So she responds nds with saying she follows everyone(not true) and that I’m reading way too much into this and that she’ll unfollow if there is a problem and now she feels confused and off about me. She also said she knows I don’t trust her now. She said she was going to get gas and after that, she ignored all of my texts for a week but always viewed my stories so I knew she just didn’t want to talk to me. This really breaks my heart because she told me she wasn’t like that and she would never just leave. So after a week, she finally responded and said that “I’m sorry and that I should’ve said something and I didn’t want you to think I left so easily. I have a on my plate rn and you’re such a sweet guy and I really hope this could work in the future but I have too much rn I’m sorry.” So I respond saying that I understand I’m not the most important thing in her life and that I was sorry for making her think I didn’t trust her because I do and I just wanted to understand her pov. I also said that I want to be a safe space for her and that she can communicate that with me bc let’s be honest, no one is too busy to shoot out a 5 second text update. Plus, it was too coincidental it came after our first real negative communication. So it’s been over a week and she still hasn’t responded to me so I assume I’ve been ghosted. I miss her so much and I’ve been trying to move on but I blame myself for this so it’s harder to move on then if I got played. Was that the breakup text she sent? It hinted at the future and I know I shouldn’t take her back but I know I would because of how much I miss her. Was I out of line to question her following because I knew I probably should’ve stayed away from the topic but I wanted to communicate how it made me feel. I feel like she def got a friends opinion and then decided to ghost because she seemed more apologetic at first. Is this even a ghost and did she ever really mean what she said about me being the one for her and her favorite guy ever? I want honest opinions on the situation and please don’t just give me the move on talk. I really just can’t and I feel like I’ve messed everything up and that I may love her. Should I call her? I don’t want to seem desperate.

I wanna just preface by saying that I know I'm partially responsible for this shift in dynamic; I've always been an introvert and not always the most stellar friend because of it. I've said no to plans, I've bailed, shit happens, right? I know that's on me. Relationships go both ways. I'm at the point where I'm afraid to try and take the initiative, though. I'm afraid of the potential rejection.
My core friend group is my three siblings and our partners. I'm only actual literal siblings to one of them, the other two are my cousins (and siblings to each other), but we're close as can be and have been our whole lives. Our moms (sisters) are each other's best friend and their respective firstborns (one of whom is me) were born only six weeks apart from each other. We have a lot of cousins but we're separated enough from the closest ones to our ages that we were always our own little "demographic" in the family, so to speak.
I'm very close with my sibling, and despite my cousins being the only cousins who lived out of town growing up, almost an hour away, they're the ones we saw the most. We did everything together. The four of us share so many memories. I love them all dearly. We're all grown up now, we all have a partner and are either married or engaged by this point, and I love all the plus ones too!
But
I've always been a shy and introverted person. My siblings, I was NEVER timid with; I'm effortlessly comfortable with them, always have been. But, being the type of introvert who can be drained by social situations, as I got older and had to work soul crushing jobs, and ESPECIALLY when I had a job with wildly unpredictable hours making it difficult to make/stick to plans, I didn't always say yes to invites.
Saying that, I see how it's not totally fair. They've all cancelled plans too, it's normal. But something is different with me. Something changed. The first time I felt left out, we were teenagers and I was waiting for them to call me to hang out at the mall, and they neglected to do so. When I called them, they were all already there. Without me. I was devastated.
That's just a one-off mistake though. As we grew older and were able to drive ourselves to places I like to think we did a lot together. Fishing, hiking, board game nights, movies, just hanging out. But then covid hit, and something is different now.
Along with the pandemic came the most difficult period of my life. I was going through the grueling process of helping my once long-distance partner immigrate so we could be together, and I was facing severe emotional abuse at the hands of another friend group. I was just so... defeated a lot of the time. Tired. Hating myself. Struggling to get out of bed some days. Just wanting to stew in my misery. Quarantine made it harder, because even the option to see them all was gone.
My sibling was the only one able to attend my wedding when we had to uninvite everyone. Fine, that's nobody's fault. It sucks, it hurts, but I get it. I don't really have the right to complain, and I don't want to anyway, I don't blame anybody.
It was because of social restrictions that I was the only one not there for my cousin's proposal. I understand why I was the one left out, but fuck, it still hurt. I'm the only one of the four of us who had no part in cousin's wedding. I understand not being part of the wedding party, but I wasn't ever even asked to help with... anything. Not even just decorating the hall. They all stayed in a cabin the night before, which I understand where I wasn't part of the party, I wasn't part of that but... Fuck I didn't even KNOW I was the only one left out until the day of, made all the worse with my partner not being able to attend. I'd never felt so alone in such a big crowd. But, that day wasn't about me. I hid and had a little cry but I pulled it together and got through it. I had to leave early to catch a flight, so I missed the real party, but again that's nobody's fault. And I don't want to make anyone feel bad about how sad it all made me. I don't want to sour that day.
A little while ago, cousin invited me over for some gaming, and I had to cancel last minute due to a migraine. I felt awful and apologized profusely. They and my sibling played together another day instead, I later learned.
More recently, I heard my sibling mention in passing that there was a day out fishing with cousin. We used to do that together, all three of us. Why wasn't I invited? But these two are the best friends you'd ever see, and I get they wanna do things together themselves sometimes.
Last week, cousin invited me to a board game night, but my partner was working and I didn't wanna be a third wheel with cousin and his spouse having just had some devastating news. I'd only just heard of said news a few hours before and was admittedly afraid of the idea of being the only other one there but... Turns out I'd've been the fifth wheel. I wish I had known. I would've gone.
This weekend, we lit our firepit for the first time and I asked in the group chat if anyone wanted to come and hang out. No takers. That's ok, it was very last minute anyway. Maybe another time.
Just today. Pictures on FB. Cousin took a week-long vacation and the others joined up with them now and then. Fishing, hiking, just hanging out.
I read this awful post once. "Every group chat has a second group chat excluding one member. If you're not part of that chat, it's you."
It's me.
But I have no right to complain. Like I said, cousin got some bad news and I don't want to pile on. My sibling's wedding is being complicated by in-law drama, so now's not the time to be sad over my ruined nuptials. That trip was about my cousin's partner proposing to her, I shouldn't make it about me. My spouse is a total homebody, he's not too bothered that as my plus one he's being excluded too. He knows I'm hurt by these things, but I don't want to worry him when he's adjusting to the stresses of a new job, so I can't talk about it like this with him right now.
These are the main recent examples. I know this is just a few incidents. I know they might seem small or petty to some. I know I'm still loved... don't I? When I was beckoned to join my siblings for a photo at the wedding, just the core four of us and the bride... For a second there, a terrible fleeting moment, I didn't believe it was me they were beckoning. Why would they? It's me.
It's only me.
If they don't want me there for the good times, why would I ever want to burden them with my bad feelings.

I'LL TRY TO KEEP THIS SHORT BUT I NEED SOME GUIDANCE. FOR THE PAST 20 YEARS I'VE BEEN DEALING WITH A SLOW INTERMEDIATE BUT PROGRESSIVE ISSUE THAT I COULD NOT POINT A FINGER ON. IT ALL STARTED WHEN I WAS ABOUT 20 years old.
I noticed weakness and fatigue that was unlike anything ive ever noticed.
My gait seemed to change a bit. I felt tingling in my face and my entire right shoulder front and back would burn for days with no let up. My R shoulder seemed to not even be in its correct position. I would constantly try to put in place but it just never seemed to get better. My hips would feel dull as would my right leg. As if the muscles were just kind of there. I felt my jaw and it seemed to be out of place and droopy.
This was the intial complaints inwrote down all that time ago.
Fast forward to 2024
All of those initial symptoms are still here. The symptoms i described would ignite last for a few months and i would have recovery. Sometimes years of little to know signs. But they would always come back. For 20 yrs this has occured. Ive been diagnosed by my neurologist with dystonia/cervical stenosis. He put me on gabapentin and ive been in therapy. But the symptoms never were really helped. Maybeited slightly but always there seapecially as of.late.
There are times(more often than not lately) with overwhelming frustration and depression. Not understanding the condition i was in or why these strange symptoms were present caused major problems with everday normal life. I have thought and thought about this situation. Am i crazy are these symtpoms in my head no body understands me etc... The last 20 years has been a daily struggle.
My prognosis now is seemingly starting to progress.
The last 2 years ive noticed signifigant changes in my posture. I almaot dont know how to stand. my back muscles seem to be frozen. My spine now hunches me forward. At the same time when i stand my pelvis seems to arch back as well as my back. My right shoulder blade is excessively winged now and my left scapula is starting to do the same. I now have mild pectus excavatum. Thats progressed fast over the last 5 years.
My face looks droopy. My right eye wont close. I could go on and on
The thing that struck me is when i was researching this disease. It seemed like i was checking every box on the symptom list.
Never having been able to figure this out i pray this is the right step
What if i can put a name to this torment.
TLDR:
SYMPTOMS IVER THE LAST 20 YEARS MIMICK THE SYMPTOMS OF FSHD. I HAVE NEVER UNDERSTOOD WHAT WAS HAPPENING AND STILL DONT. EVEN MY NEUROLOGIST HASNT MADE THIS AN OPINION. I JUST FOUND OUT ABOUT IT BY RESEARCH. PLEASE HELP ME FIGURE OUT HOW TO PROPERLY DIAGNOSE THIS. WHERE DO I GO AND WHO DO I TALK TO ABOUT THIS.
THANK YOU

i'm 20F my mom is in her late 40's ,my mom and dad are together.
I first caught her when i was 15 years old, i was young and a teenager back then and that really had a bad effect on me, IT SCREWED ME UP MENTALLY cause i never thought that my mom would do that, she was an angel to me.
i remember reading her texts and seeing that she was texting a family friend, they were talking dirty, calling each other on the phone etc, i remember that she secretly sent him a huge amount of money (my dad's money because he provides), and i remember him sending her a picture of his id card and stuff still don't know why.
i also remember them sexting a lot, her sending him some adult pictures of her (which made me go insane) and him sending her corn videos, that was soo disgusting .
at that age i knew that i was not mature enough to take the right decision, i was confused , and that's why i didn't tell my dad, but i told my brothers and they refused to believe me. one day i faced her about it and i cried begging her to stop texting that man and she told me she will stop.
my relationship with her changed a lot during that time, she started hating me a lot, and becoming more aggressive towards me.
then i took the decision to not give an f anymore, i thought maybe she will get bored at some point or realize that she's doing something wrong as a mom of 5 kids and if my dad founds out then i'll pretend that i knew nothing so i don't loose his trust as well.
5 years passed by and she is still in the same situation as before and even worse, i remember 2 years ago i checked her second phone(that i didn't know she had) and i saw that she had a fake profile on facebook and its full of dudes in her dms and weird ass groups i was like WHAT THE ACTUAL F* i was shocked then i put the phone away cuz i had enough.
Yesterday, a weird number called her and it was another man i pretended that nothing happened and that i didn't see her phone ringing.
it was yesterday when i realized that she's still going through the same pathway.
what should i do? i don't care about her life, if she's happy with those men then be it, i'm actually worried about my dad, he has abnormal anger issues. he will probably murder her if he founds out, and i'm worried about my reputation as a woman of such society, i don't do these stuff and i never had a boyfriend.
my question is :how can i put an end to this ? should i play dumb for the rest of my life til dad founds out and something bigger happens or just move on and move out ?
btw i come from a conservative 3rd world country, the things that my mom is doing are considered as very shameful and dangerous acts, especially as a woman it's risky here and she knows it. Even if my father murders her one day no one can do anything, men murder women here, yesterday our neighbor stabbed his wife to death, and all the blame was put on her, i'm really worried.

For starters, I tried on dozens of helmets at this point. I went to the cycle gear store a few times and wore the helmet around for 30 mins around the store.
Head measurement is 58.5, so I’m between the suggested Medium and Large.
That being said, I tried on a very broken in RF-1400 off the wall and went with a new RF-1400. At the time my beard was very full so o attributed my feeling of my beard touching the chin area as just that.
Well I trimmed my beard heavily and I can still hardly squeeze a finger between my chin and the helmet, when it’s on. I can feel the cardo microphone on my face just a bit.
I guess what I’m wondering is how close should your chin / lips be from the inside of the helmet.
Also, I HATE taking the helmet on and off because it’s like Ace Ventura climbing out of the mechanical rhino 🦏, pulling my hair and face. I wear a balaclava to combat hair pulling.
Did I buy the wrong helmet for my head? I know the x-fifteen has more room on the chin for the hydration system.
I did try Arai and other brands, fwiw

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**A Sign of Affection**
[Romance, Drama]
A hearing-impaired girl navigates life and love when she meets a multilingual traveler. Their growing relationship highlights the beauty and challenges of communication beyond words. Through their bond, they learn to understand and support each other, revealing the profound connection that transcends barriers.
**A Silent Voice**
[Drama, Slice of Life]
A former bully seeks redemption by befriending the deaf girl he once tormented. Their journey explores guilt, forgiveness, and the power of empathy as they navigate the complexities of friendship and self-acceptance.
**Adachi and Shimamura (Yori)**
[Yuri, Slice of Life]
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**After the Rain**
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So this is going to be a lot so if you want to read be prepared for a long story lol.
So my dad and I had a big falling out recently. It started a couple months ago in November when my parents were separating. My mom had moved out a month or two prior and still had some of her stuff at the house. My dad (unprompted) had texted her telling her to get all of her shit out of the house or else he was going to burn it and he had thrown some of her stuff in the front yard. (He just had surgery and was on medication that could have affected his judgment but this was still not out of character for him) So my mom, myself, and my husband went to the house to help her get her stuff. We were getting some of her things from the yard and he had come outside and he and I began arguing. He thought that my mom was trying to turn me against him but truthfully, she has always treated me better than him and he wasn’t the best to me growing up so I was always closer to my mom. I told him he was being a childish asshole and he was a shitty father. He told us we all need to leave and went inside to get a rifle probably to “defend his property” or whatever around the time we were arguing my sister (who has a different dad) and her husband pulled into the driveway to help pack. They had their month old infant in the car with them because he was too young to be separated from his mother and they didn’t expect things to blow up so much. My dad ended up pointing the gun at pretty much everyone. He pointed the gun at the car with my sister and her family and right at my husband’s head. I don’t think realistically he could have pulled the trigger easily because he just had surgery on his dominant shoulder and he was using his other hand to hold the gun up. But the fact remains that he pointed a gun directly at my husbands face and at the car where my sister and her family were. If anyone knows anything about guns one of the most important rules is you don’t ever point a gun at anyone unless you intend to shoot (like in self defense situations). He taught me how to shoot so he definitely knows this and should know better. I figured the situation may blow up so I had my pepper spray in my pocket and ended up having to use it on my dad when he first pointed the gun at my sisters car. After that we left and my mom was in the u-haul the whole time on the phone with the police. We went to a nearby gas station and the police met us there and got our stories and my dad ended up getting arrested. He texted me the next day saying he’ll have nothing to do with me or my family from that point forward.
Flash forward a couple months later, my dad and I have been no contact. A family friend had called my sister and I because she was concerned about the well-being of my mother. She said that my parents admitted to doing meth the night before my sisters wedding and it started as an occasional thing then became an everyday thing for them. She was doing what she could to help but they live 4 hours away so there’s only so much they could do. The reason she called to tell us was she was concerned now that they were separated she would fall back into it and the last time she saw my mom a few weeks prior she seemed to be tweaking. We didn’t confront my mom immediately because we wanted to think about what to say and we didn’t want to put the family friend for telling on my mom because that would ruin their 20+ year long friendship. A few days later my dad happened to text and say he was concerned about her and wouldn’t say why. My mom, probably doing damage control, texted saying he’s texting everyone bc he thinks she’s on meth. I used my dad texting about it as an excuse to try to get more information. He ended up telling me a lot about their past drug use and my sister and I confronted my mom about it a few days later. She basically denied everything and was hurt we believed my dad. Which we would have never believed him if it wasn’t for the family friend telling us but we couldn’t tell her about that so we just let it be basically. We don’t think she’s on it currently because she doesn’t seem tweaky and has gained some weight since the separation.
Apparently then my dad and I had thought we had made up since we’ve been talking recently. My husband was going to the town my dad lives to fish and he saw my dad coming to our town so he immediately turned around and sped back to our house and called me to let me know. My husband had me text my dad and tell him not to come to our house and he said he was going to the meat market in our town and sent the picture of the sign to show me where he was. He was offended that I told him not to come by so he drove past our house. We were expecting him because we knew us telling him was in innovation in his mind to come by and when he drove past my husband flipped him off and my dad slammed on the breaks and got out of the car. My husband pulled his gun out since he saw him as a threat and told him to leave immediately and they got into an argument. Nothing happened other than my husband punched his truck and he agreed not to press charges as long as he pays for the damages so we ended up doing that so my husband doesn’t have anything on his record.
So for a bit of background, my dad had a kid, who ended up not being his kid, with someone before my mom and him got together who is 5 years older than me. I think he in his heart knew the child wasn’t his, and he treated the child horribly. I was so young while he lived with us so I didn’t realize how bad it was but just for perspective, some of his “punishments” were to run laps for god knows how long and whenever he was grounded he would have to just sit in his room on his bed and do nothing. He was kept in his room basically his whole childhood. He had issues with lying as I was told and “nothing worked” so they resorted to extremely harsh punishments. If you could even call it punishments. One of them was he was only allowed to eat break and milk for however long. I was just a kid so I would just think “oh he’s in trouble again bc he’s bad it’s fine” but as an adult I would NEVER treat any child like that no matter how “bad” the kid is. It disgusts me to think about. For a bit during the drama in between the two incidents my dad was alluding to the fact that he may commit suicide. I know this is terrible to say but honestly now I hope he goes through with it. The fact he’s my dad and I still have love for him makes me feel terrible for hating him but I know if he was anyone else and I knew how he was I would hate the fact he exists on the same earth as everyone else. I’ve always seen my mom as a victim but I’m coming to terms I guess with the fact that she was an adult who allowed her children and the child she was caring for to be abused and/or mistreated over a man. And participated in some instances. She tried to defend sometimes but not nearly enough. She’s pretty old fashioned so she believes in putting her husband first and while that’s not the worst thing in the world, you can’t put a terrible man over your innocent children. my husband and I told have children but we have nieces and nephews and if I saw him treating them the way my mom allowed my dad to treat us, I’d be a widow bc there’s no way I’d allow that type of behavior.
I know this was a lot but I guess what I’m asking for is any advice? There’s a lot more nuances that I could add but it’d make for an even longer post lol. What are y’all’s thoughts?

Sorry this is long.
So, last week a few things happened. Had an old couch hauled away, which my 2 cats used to enjoy sleeping under and behind. I then rented a carpet cleaner. Did the whole house. Before this, since about late 2020, I had out of box pee incidents as well. 2 on my bed (Mattress protector and bedding saved me there), one in the corner of my bedroom. All of these coincided with trips away. The cat in question frequently sleeps in my bedroom and unless its me, hides there when someone is here. What didn't help was that while on telework for the covid stuff, I was the only one home 24/7 and while my go-to pet sitter knew them as kittens, over a year went by where they never saw her. The one cat in question basically sleeps all day in my room. So, when i started taking trips to see friends and family again, I chalked the incidents to him being spooked to come out.
Cut to now. Couch gone, loud machine present. He pees once while I'm upstairs using the machine, which is also where the litter boxes are. So, he pees. I think, ok, scary machine. He had to go. Not happy he peed on a just cleaned floor but ok. Douse it in a enzyme cleaner I still had. The smell of that stuff is honestly worse than the pee smell. Machine goes back. He has now peed 4 MORE times since. 3 in the vicinity of the 1st one, 1 up ion my bedroom in the corner that has been clean and incident free since those trips. I started closing my door for trips so that he was forced to stay downstairs, which seemed to have worked because he stopped hiding on her.
Now I'm a bit freaked out. So I called my vet. I get told i should bring him in to be checked for urinary issues, but they are booked solid and I was put on a "fit in" list. This feels outrageous. They book SO tight they cant be available for a potential emergency? Just this morning I located what I think were 2 MORE accidents. Again, in the vicinity of what I THOUGHT were cleaned up living room messes.
I'm at my wits end. I don't know what to do to make it stop. They have two large, regularly cleaned boxes upstairs. Hell they used to be perfectly fine sharing ONE. I know its # of cats +1. My house layout SUCKS for that. I can only fit these 2 top entry boxes where they are now. The entire bottom floor is an "open" floorplan with a stupid tiny half bath. There's literally nowhere down there for one that isn't just in the middle of the room. If this isn't a temporary urinary tract issue, then I have no idea what to do. Add to that i have a brand new couch arriving Thursday and I may lose it if he pees on THAT. I also don't know if I should start calling other vets/hospitals to get him in today. I'm kind of pissed my current vet has given me ZERO idea of when they might be available and in the meantime he may keep on peeing everywhere. I was already annoyed they switched my cats from a 3 year to 1 year rabies booster. Still feels like an odd cash grab or something but that's another issue.
I need help. Should I drop this vet? If its NOT a urinary issue, what in the hell do I do short of ripping up the carpet to ditch every trace of previous accidents. (a switch to LVP was planned but there's no way in hell that happens till at least next spring).

First: I hope this is okay to post here & I appreciate anyone who chooses to reply.
Second, a CW: this story mentions substance use and sex.
Third: my partner uses they/he pronouns, so I will be switching between the two in this post.
Okay, so long story short, I did mushrooms with my partner a few months ago. For some background, we're both experienced with psychedelics; they currently use them (esket and straight ketamine, mostly) therapeutically, and I've taken them (LSD, shrooms, DXM, MDMA, MDA, etc.) recreationally in the past. He has only been aware of his system for a little under a year, but he claims to feel closer to other parts of himself when he is on them.
During the trip, it seemed like I was having the usual experience one would have on shrooms, but his experience and behavior seemed to be completely different than mine. They switched between tasks, running around the house with an energy I'm not used to him having.
We had planned beforehand to have sex near the end of the trip. Eventually he settled down, and we did. However, while we were, I noticed changes in his face, how he responded to my touch, and what he wanted to do. They looked different, sounded different, and acted differently. At some points, it definitely felt like I was having sex with different people.
Up to this point, I believe I've only met two other parts of his system: a little and a very self-destructive one. He believes his usual front is the protector of the system, and this is the one I'm in a relationship with.
I've struggled to explain this feeling to them since. Since I was on psychedelics and am aware of his DID, could it simply be that I was experiencing the effects of the drugs or imagining it? Or did I meet some of the other parts that night?

I’m currently working on a short post about suicide among Elves, and came across a fascinating little parallel between Maglor and Elwing. In the published Silmarillion, Elwing, the mother of Elrond and Elros, throws herself into the Sea with a Silmaril when the remaining sons of Fëanor attack the Havens of Sirion. Elrond and Elros are then fostered by Maglor (in the published Silmarillion; in various other versions it’s either Maglor or Maedhros). In the published Silmarillion, Maedhros later kills himself by throwing himself into a fiery pit with his Silmaril, which is already a parallel to what Elwing did earlier. Maglor, meanwhile, throw his Silmaril into the sea and drowns his sorrow with dirges—rather than himself. But in other versions, Maglor did kill himself, and it appears that he did so by throwing himself into the Sea with his Silmaril:

• “The remaining two Silmarils are regained from the Iron Crown – only to be lost. The last two sons of Fëanor, compelled by their oath, steal them, and are destroyed by them, casting themselves into the sea, and the pits of the earth.” (Letters, Letter 131, p. 150)
• “The other two Silmarils were also taken by the Valar from the crown of Morgoth. But the last surviving sons of Fëanor (Maedhros and Maglor), in a despairing attempt to carry out the Oath, stole them again. But they were tormented by them, and at last they perished each with a jewel: one in a fiery cleft in the earth, and one in the sea.” (Concerning the Hoard, transcription mine).

Both Letter 131 and “Concerning the Hoard” are late-ish texts (from the 1950s and 1960s). At this point, Maedhros is intimately and indelibly associated with fire, so I assume that Maglor is the brother who throws himself into the sea. But if so, then he really does very much exactly what his foster-children’s mother did so many years earlier. Of course, Elwing survived—and Maglor, in these versions, drowned, and with him, his Silmaril.
Sources:
The Letters of J.R.R. Tolkien, JRR Tolkien, ed Humphrey Carpenter with the assistance of Christopher Tolkien, HarperCollins 2006 (softcover) [cited as: Letters].
Manuscript “Concerning the Hoard”, link

Hi! I'm fairly new to Sky and I started in the middle of the Nine Colored Deer, and Days of Love which makes me sad because I didn't get any cosmetic since I didn't know how the Days of X works.
I'm searching for a light buddy/buddies. We don't need to talk since I'm shy :) (and not really good with English.) We also don't need to trade hearts, I'm open but I'm scared to lose candles that I worked hard for. I am usually online 2 hours after the daily time set to candle run and do the quests.
Here are my friendship codes...

1. 82PK-1AZ6-5HGG
2. 3CXV-EH8G-Q06B

Only two for now since I send the others and they yet to accept. I didn't know there's a limit. I am gonna edit this post when I can make new codes again. Thank you honk honk honk

I'm so tired, all I can do is lay on my back and just stare into nothing, closing my eyes opening my eyes, it doesn't matter, I just lay there as almost all of my senses get cancelled, feeling nothing from the outside world, somewhy i start feeling my heart beats, at every limb, at every finger, at my face, I feel it pushing blood into my vessels, and pulling it out of my veins... It's painful... It's annoying, I want it to stop... I feel like reaching into my chest and pulling my heart out of it... As I pull it it takes with it every vessel, every vain, every artery out of my body, as a sensation of emptiness slowly seeks into my limbs while my vessels are being pulled out of my body like hair from dough

19 male. when i was 17, i had two premolars extracted (for no reason i agree with) and braces until i was 19. this has resulted in my maxilla becoming recessed when it was once a prominent part of my face. my jaw (which had no extractions) has now grown to meet where my maxilla would have been. i wear a retainer on my upper jaw at night when i sleep and mew all day out of habit. will my wisdom teeth grow out and lead to more forward growth that i once had before the teeth were taken out? and what can i do to push my maxilla up and forward to where it once was?

My workdays are intense. But I know I’m not the only one. The last two times I went on a date in the middle of the week I came home exhausted. The dates themselves lasted only about 1.5-2 hours b/c it was a “school night” and they were fine, but I know I would have been able to enjoy the time more if I weren’t so drained inside. My weekends are typically packed so midweek dates to get to know someone new make sense. But somehow my body seems to disagree.
A person I’ve been trying to land on a day / time with for weeks now is suggesting we find a time midweek since my next free Sat or Sun is a ways out. I immediately remembered that feeling from the last two times. It felt like hiking up a hill after 10 hours of hiking.
For those with demanding jobs, what are your tips and tricks for getting a second wind after work?