ABYG IF GUSTO KO NA MAKAWALA SA RS KO NGAYON?
My Boyfriend(20) and I (21) are in a relationship for 3 years now. I have met him when I was 18 turning 1st year college and he is turning grade 11 since nakailang stop siya. Simula nung naging kami hindi nako nakakasama sa mga friends ko since lagi nya ko binibigyan ng dahilan bakit hindi sila mabuting impluwensya sakin hanggang sa nasira na ung circle and sobrang tanga ko para mapaniwala nya dahil since highschool pala kasama ko na mga friends ko and sabay sabay kaming nagaaral we even graduated with high honors, sabay sabay nageenroll sa mga universities (sadly di pinalad na magsama sama sa college) my whole college life since 1st year college up until 4th year college wala akong college life with friends, always rekta uwi dahil di na ko marunong makipagsocialize since kami palagi magkasama.
When I was 3rd year college first sem, he is 1st year college, everything went downhill, simula nagkaron siya ng kaibigan sa college binabalewala na nya ko iniiwan ako sakanila para gumala siya with friends, he is even proud na may nagkakagusto sa kanya sa circle nila. Sinasabi nya lagi na gusto nya magenjoy ng college dahil hindi niya naranasan sa highschool yun dahil homeschool siya. Lagi nya ko sinasabihan sumama sa friends ko para di ako mabored pag umaalis siya (lagi siyang naka do not disturb pag kasama friends nya kasama ung nagkakagusto sa kanya) na pakiramdam ko naiwan ako sa ere dahil sinanay nya ko ng kaming dalawa lang nilayo nya ko sa mga kaibigan ko tapos ngayon iniinsist nya ko maghanap bago friends para di siya naiistorbo.
Second sem nagstop siya dahil nagkaproblema at dito din nagkaron ako mga friends since bumalik ung pagiging masayahin ko lagi na din ako nakikisalamuha kaya nakahanap ako mga kaibigan sa college, and sumasama loob nya everytime nagkkwento ako sa kanya tungkol sa friends ko, and everytime din na magpapaalam akonsa kanya to hangout with my friends bigla nyang sasabihin "alis din kami ni ano(ung nagkagusto sa kanya" with lines na "di naman kita pinipigilan may kanya kanya na tayong buhay"
ABYG kung gusto ko na makipaghiwalay and pakiramdam nya ginagantihan ko siya sa ginawa niya? kahit hindi naman dahil lagi naman ako naguupdate sa kanya with pictures pa.

If I wait around for someone who actually has knowledge about this topic, I'll prob get a reply by the time I'm graduating from uni so don't hesitate to answer my question after you read and get a general picture of my situation, whoever you are.
I got a score of 1260 out of 1600, in May D-SAT (640 from the Reading and Writing Section and 620 from the Math Section). I'm taking it again in the 1st of July. Unlike pretty much everyone else, I'm not taking the SAT for applying to a Uni/College in the US. I'm gonna use it to apply to a school in Istanbul, Turkey.
I'm Turkish, I live in Turkey and in our country we have a national university exam. It's the kinda exam that consumes students' joy of life throughout 12th grade and in terms of level of difficulty, SAT is nothing compared to it. It's the product of a corrupt system anyway; on average, turkish students who take the test are able to answer only 7 questions of math out of 40. It's literally designed for failure; the questions are meant to be unperceived. And if you wanna study in Turkey (which I do) or if you, financially, don't have a chance to study abroad, you gotta study hard and take it. But I learned that those of us who have another citizenship, other than the Turkish one, have alternatives. I was born in the US therefore have a USA citizenship. I'm a dual citizen. The alternative way for me is renouncing my Turkish citizenship, becoming American only, taking the SAT and applying with the score I get from it, as if I'm a foreigner who wishes to study here. Anyone who has such chance would jump on it and that's what I'm doing. But since this is a procedure that's done so rarely, what I must achieve to guarantee acceptance isn't so clear. This kinda leaves me in an uncertainty. I was able to find the minimum scores some universities I'm considering, require for applying: A uni requires min. 1200 (min. 650 from Maths), another one requires min. 1100 (min. 550 from Maths), another requires min. 1300 (min. 680 from Maths). The reason why they also have requirements specifically for the Math section of the SAT is bcuz the major I want to study is Architecture, that's why. Anyway, a college I'm also considering requires 1000 (min. 600 from the Maths) for application. I have two other colleges in mind but I just can't find the base points they necessitate. I know that my worries probably seem unnecessary when you look at these numbers cuz my performance seems fine but there are some important points that must be taken into consideration, as well: The Turkish Ministry of Education has established a certain quota for studying Architecture as a foreign student. And as if that quota isn't limitating enough, schools themselves are given the freedom to reduce that quota as they wish, so they do! Consequently, the quotas of the Architecture programs of these schools I'm looking into, range from 3 to 40, in a country with a population of 85 million lol (One of these published quotas is 3 students, another is 4, another's 15, another's 30 and another one's 40). But that's not all; also, they're not obligated to fill that quota they determine, to the brim, so they don't! Additionally, there's the fact that these are only the D-SAT scores that are required for applying (u need a score higher than the established minimums so that they don't immediately throw ur application in the trash can). It's not like u can start packing once your SAT score exceeds those published min.s. The way I see it, there's no guarantee of anything unless you get a score as high as 1400, 1500 or a perfect 1600. But obvi I'm not sure if "the way I see it" is accurate. So I wanted to ask you redditors about your thoughts. What do you think??
Approx. what score would be ideal for me, in ur opinion?
Thank you in advance :)

Are they essentially the same stuff? I didn’t realize I was out and no one local has any in stock. I’ve ordered some blue Lazer but it won’t be here for a few days and with the weather and work and life, today and tomorrow are the only days I’m going to have for a while so I’d like to go after these ground violets today.
Not sure if food coloring is more permanent/staining or just more expensive per ounce because it’s food grade or if it’s perfectly fine to use.
Thanks.

Hello!
I'm starting BScN program this fall & was wondering if anyone could suggest easy/interesting electives for 1st year to score pretty well on to get good grades & cruise easily.
Thanks! 😊

Hello!
I'm starting BScN program this fall & was wondering if anyone could suggest easy/interesting electives for 1st year to score pretty well on to get good grades & cruise easily.
Thanks! 😊

Hello!
I'm starting BScN program this fall & was wondering if anyone could suggest easy/interesting electives for 1st year to score pretty well on to get good grades & cruise easily.
Thanks! 😊

Hello!
I'm starting BScN program this fall & was wondering if anyone could suggest easy/interesting electives for 1st year to score pretty well on to get good grades & cruise easily.
Thanks! 😊

Hello!
I'm starting BScN in uOttawa collab program with Algonquin this fall & was wondering if anyone could suggest easy/interesting electives for 1st year to score pretty well on to get good grades & cruise easily.
Thanks! 😊

Hello!
I'm starting BScN in uOttawa collab program with Algonquin this fall & was wondering if anyone could suggest easy/interesting electives for 1st year to score pretty well on to get good grades & cruise easily.
Thanks! 😊

Hey ya'll, it's Devil, your friendly neighborhood mod man again... though I won't be called that for much longer here.
Thank you
First of all, from the bottom of my heart, I want to thank each and every one of you. The past few months have been incredibly troubling for us all, but you guys have made it easier to find my way through it. The community and the podcast will always hold a special place in my heart. For three and a half years I have worked as a mod of FUCKFACEPOD to build a thriving community of comment leavers. In that time we have done incredible things together.
We left our mark on Place in 2022, we held meetups at RTX, the mod team even tried streaming for Extra Life one year. And when the company was closing down around us, and we moved to a new subreddit, we quickly built a brand new space full of the same joy and humor that defined the old subreddit. However... this will unfortunately be my last stop.
It is with deep sorrow that I tell you all that I have been removed from the moderation team of this subreddit. After three and a half years, I will no longer be a moderator here for subreddit. I am so incredibly proud of this community and how far we have come. I will be forever grateful to the podcast, and to all of you for the memories and the laughter you guys gave to me.
But this isn't goodbye forever. I'll still be hanging around the subreddit as a regular ol comment leaver. I also will continue to moderate for SoAlrightPod so go check out that place. I will also continue modding for roosterteeth at least for now, though I do plan on leaving that one soon.
Goodbye
To ANEGGG I say thank you. I cannot overstate the impact Rooster Teeth has had in my life. From my very first Achievement Hunter video in 8th grade, to the final episode of the Rooster Teeth Podcast. You guys are what ignited my passion for creating things, and you're what pushed me to pursue a degree in Film. Seeing you guys pop up in the subreddit has always been a joy (Eric's comments are always fucking hilarious) and I was overjoyed when I got to meet some of you at RTX 22/23. Thank you.
To the OG mods of FUCKFACEPOD I say thank you. Some of you have only been mods for a months before we had to switch subreddits and you all adapted to the change wonderfully. The rest of you have been in the game almost as long as I have. I couldn't have asked for a better group of people to have worked with, nor better friends to accompany me. Thank you.
And finally, to the community I say thank you. I've had some pretty dark moments over the past few years, but being able to come to this subreddit and laugh at whatever random bullshit was happening has always managed to pull back into the light. I say this of not just the F**k Face/Regulation Pod community but for the wider Rooster Teeth community as well. Thank you.
I leave you now with this Spotify playlist I made.
Reminiscing
Now if you'll forgive me, I'd like to do some reminiscing about my time here:

• January 2021: u/Johnathan_Wickerino, creator of FUCKFACEPOD invites myself and three other mods to help him run the expanding subreddit.
• November 12th 2021: Myself, another mod, and a couple community members host F**kers & Flagons, a DND Extra Life stream. We raise $500.
• April 1st 2022: Place opens it's doors once more. While the Discord server is playing an April Fools prank by rebranding to a Face Jam server, the subreddit is working to build the F**k Face logo on the canvas.
• April 2022: A few weeks after Place, we celebrate the 100th episode of F**k Face.
• June 2022: FUCKFACEPOD Crosses 10,000 members. We celebrate by inviting people to play Halo Infinite. This was originally supposed to be a tournament, but due to lack of participation we just screwed around in custom games for a few hours. Thank you to Andrew Panton for joining us for the occasion.
• July 1st 2022: RTX opens it's doors in Austin for the first time since COVID. Through masks and face shields, we come together as a community once again. One of the other mods Trix hosts a community meetup outside the convention center which Geoff shows up to.
• January 2023: The first draft of many is released. We all gather round to listen to the Falls Draft.
• April 2023: The very first live Sloppy Joes Bingo takes place late at night on RTTV
• July 7th 2023: Nobody knows it yet, but this will be the final RTX. This year is my first and only year as a Guardian. While walking on the convention floor, Eric calls me over and asks me for a pen. As I hand him the pen I tell him who I am. When he's done signing autographs and taking pictures, he hands me a huge stack of baseball cards with his face on them and tells me to do as I will with them. I spend the whole weekend passing them out to people. When I get home I mail the leftovers out to 43 people.
• July 9th 2023: As Trix hosted the meetup last year, I host it this year. This year was thankfully indoors and out of the Texas sun. Two community members come to the meetup with bootleg golden gurplers and start passing them out to people. Another member brings a F**k Face Summer of 98 Yearbook which all of us happily sign.
• December 25th 2023: It is Christmas morning. Christmas has never really meant anything to me since I'm Jewish, but as I look at my phone and see a notification announcing we have hit 20,000 members, I definitely start feeling the Christmas Spirit.
• January 24th 2024: Myself and a few other members of the community play a game of Quiplash 3 using a custom F**k Face themed prompt pack. The video features a special introduction by Andrew Panton, as well as a recorded message by Eric.
• March 6th 2024: If this were to happen one week later I'd be able to make a "Beware The Ides Of March" joke. It is on this day that we learn that Rooster Teeth is being shut down.
• May 11th 2024: After two months of housekeeping and negotiations, Rooster Teeth is finally dead. Many of it's podcasts are now going independent, while others are forced to rebrand.
• Today: Who the fuck knows...

Goodbye

If I wait around for someone who actually has knowledge about this topic, I'll prob get a reply by the time I'm graduating from uni so don't hesitate to answer my question after you read and get a general picture of my situation, whoever you are.
I got a score of 1260 out of 1600, in May D-SAT (640 from the Reading and Writing Section and 620 from the Math Section). I'm taking it again in the 1st of July. Unlike pretty much everyone else, I'm not taking the SAT for applying to a Uni/College in the US. I'm gonna use it to apply to a school in Istanbul, Turkey.
I'm Turkish, I live in Turkey and in our country we have a national university exam. It's the kinda exam that consumes students' joy of life throughout 12th grade and in terms of level of difficulty, SAT is nothing compared to it. It's the product of a corrupt system anyway; on average, turkish students who take the test are able to answer only 7 questions of math out of 40. It's literally designed for failure; the questions are meant to be unperceived. And if you wanna study in Turkey (which I do) or if you, financially, don't have a chance to study abroad, you gotta study hard and take it. But I learned that those of us who have another citizenship, other than the Turkish one, have alternatives. I was born in the US therefore have a USA citizenship. I'm a dual citizen. The alternative way for me is renouncing my Turkish citizenship, becoming American only, taking the SAT and applying with the score I get from it, as if I'm a foreigner who wishes to study here. Anyone who has such chance would jump on it and that's what I'm doing. But since this is a procedure that's done so rarely, what I must achieve to guarantee acceptance isn't so clear. This kinda leaves me in an uncertainty. I was able to find the minimum scores some universities I'm considering, require for applying: A uni requires min. 1200 (min. 650 from Maths), another one requires min. 1100 (min. 550 from Maths), another requires min. 1300 (min. 680 from Maths). The reason why they also have requirements specifically for the Math section of the SAT is bcuz the major I want to study is Architecture, that's why. Anyway, a college I'm also considering requires 1000 (min. 600 from the Maths) for application. I have two other colleges in mind but I just can't find the base points they necessitate. I know that my worries probably seem unnecessary when you look at these numbers cuz my performance seems fine but there are some important points that must be taken into consideration, as well: The Turkish Ministry of Education has established a certain quota for studying Architecture as a foreign student. And as if that quota isn't limitating enough, schools themselves are given the freedom to reduce that quota as they wish, so they do! Consequently, the quotas of the Architecture programs of these schools I'm looking into, range from 3 to 40, in a country with a population of 85 million lol (One of these published quotas is 3 students, another is 4, another's 15, another's 30 and another one's 40). But that's not all; also, they're not obligated to fill that quota they determine, to the brim, so they don't! Additionally, there's the fact that these are only the D-SAT scores that are required for applying (u need a score higher than the established minimums so that they don't immediately throw ur application in the trash can). It's not like u can start packing once your SAT score exceeds those published min.s. The way I see it, there's no guarantee of anything unless you get a score as high as 1400, 1500 or a perfect 1600. But obvi I'm not sure if "the way I see it" is accurate. So I wanted to ask you redditors about your thoughts. What do you think??
Approx. what score would be ideal for me, in ur opinion?
Thank you in advance :)

If I wait around for someone who actually has knowledge about this topic, I'll prob get a reply by the time I'm graduating from uni so don't hesitate to answer my question after you read and get a general picture of my situation, whoever you are.
I got a score of 1260 out of 1600, in May D-SAT (640 from the Reading and Writing Section and 620 from the Math Section). I'm taking it again in the 1st of July. Unlike pretty much everyone else, I'm not taking the SAT for applying to a Uni/College in the US. I'm gonna use it to apply to a school in Istanbul, Turkey.
I'm Turkish, I live in Turkey and in our country we have a national university exam. It's the kinda exam that consumes students' joy of life throughout 12th grade and in terms of level of difficulty, SAT is nothing compared to it. It's the product of a corrupt system anyway; on average, turkish students who take the test are able to answer only 7 questions of math out of 40. It's literally designed for failure; the questions are meant to be unperceived. And if you wanna study in Turkey (which I do) or if you, financially, don't have a chance to study abroad, you gotta study hard and take it. But I learned that those of us who have another citizenship, other than the Turkish one, have alternatives. I was born in the US therefore have a USA citizenship. I'm a dual citizen. The alternative way for me is renouncing my Turkish citizenship, becoming American only, taking the SAT and applying with the score I get from it, as if I'm a foreigner who wishes to study here. Anyone who has such chance would jump on it and that's what I'm doing. But since this is a procedure that's done so rarely, what I must achieve to guarantee acceptance isn't so clear. This kinda leaves me in an uncertainty. I was able to find the minimum scores some universities I'm considering, require for applying: A uni requires min. 1200 (min. 650 from Maths), another one requires min. 1100 (min. 550 from Maths), another requires min. 1300 (min. 680 from Maths). The reason why they also have requirements specifically for the Math section of the SAT is bcuz the major I want to study is Architecture, that's why. Anyway, a college I'm also considering requires 1000 (min. 600 from the Maths) for application. I have two other colleges in mind but I just can't find the base points they necessitate. I know that my worries probably seem unnecessary when you look at these numbers cuz my performance seems fine but there are some important points that must be taken into consideration, as well: The Turkish Ministry of Education has established a certain quota for studying Architecture as a foreign student. And as if that quota isn't limitating enough, schools themselves are given the freedom to reduce that quota as they wish, so they do! Consequently, the quotas of the Architecture programs of these schools I'm looking into, range from 3 to 40, in a country with a population of 85 million lol (One of these published quotas is 3 students, another is 4, another's 15, another's 30 and another one's 40). But that's not all; also, they're not obligated to fill that quota they determine, to the brim, so they don't! Additionally, there's the fact that these are only the D-SAT scores that are required for applying (u need a score higher than the established minimums so that they don't immediately throw ur application in the trash can). It's not like u can start packing once your SAT score exceeds those published min.s. The way I see it, there's no guarantee of anything unless you get a score as high as 1400, 1500 or a perfect 1600. But obvi I'm not sure if "the way I see it" is accurate. So I wanted to ask you redditors about your thoughts. What do you think??
Approx. what score would be ideal for me, in ur opinion?
Thank you in advance :)

Hi!👋🏽 I am an incoming frosh at De La Salle College of Saint Benilde in the BSBA-HRM program. I live in the province and I am new to Manila.
If any fellow senior Benildeans see this post, I have a few questions about what to expect at Benilde and what not to expect.
▫️As a freshman student in the BSBA-HRM program (Bachelor of Science in Business Administration majoring in Human Resource Management), where will my campus be located? Is it in the SDA building? ↘️ (follow-up question): ➖ If my campus is located in the SDA building (if ever), is it required to always enter the main building instead of going straight to the specific school building?
◽️Are there different designs for the school ID lanyards?
◽️As a freshman, what things are suggested to bring on the first day of class?
◽️What are the unique attributes of Benilde that make the school stand out?
◽️As an incoming 1st-year college freshman, what is the estimated class schedule?
◽️How is the grading system; is it five being the highest and one being the lowest or vice versa?
any additional comments, tips, and suggestions are welcome. 💚

My son is in 2nd (entering 3rd) grade and joined a local recreational summer soccer league. It’s regional so no kids from his school are on his team, and it draws kids from all over. The league that hosts has a great reputation and parents, myself included, love it. They have competitive soccer beginning at 3rd and 4th grade level, which requires try out.
I signed my son up and the league coordinator asked if I was interested in volunteer coaching. I volunteer in my son’s classroom once or twice a week for an hour each, I do parent activities at school, and I’d generally consider myself pretty involved with his grade. I use attention getters his teacher uses (“shhhh! Waterfall.. eyes on me”) when I have a big group and I always try to check in with kids and find something to remember about them.
The recreational handbook for coaches states, literally: “1st and 2nd grade boys: the point is to get them moving and engaged. Practice is held for 30 minutes with volunteer trainers, then 30 minutes by coach. Coach leads full 1 hour game.” There are no instructions for how scrimmage should be conducted and when I asked the coordinator he said “just have them play and make sure to sub out.”
I have never played soccer as an adult, and I didn’t as a kid. I figured I’d watch some videos online and read some guides. When the ball goes out, it gets thrown in. I told the coordinator I had no experience coaching and he said it wasn’t an issue.
The kids on our team are probably all in 1st grade with a couple exceptions (my son included). They’re all much more rambunctious than I expected but nothing I can’t handle; that said they don’t have a lot of focus and I didn’t expect them to. There are a few parents who are REALLY eager to step on the field and did so during the game, and even asked why I had specific kids do certain things (eg: why didn’t he kick the ball in instead of throw?). I tried to be cordial and kind and say “It’s recreational! I just want them to move and get familiar, first game is always tough!” But that seemed to frustrate one parent even more. None of the parents seem super interested in chatting with me post game, and I feel like I may be doing something wrong. A few of the kids lamented my lame post-game snack and asked where the Gatorade was.
Have you coached recreational sports for kids? Do you have tips on how I could make this season good for them and handle the parents? Again, I know I don’t have the /skill/ in terms of the sport, but they’re in 1st and 2nd grade. In my mind it’s a win they want to play, listen, and engage with their teammates in sportsmanship.

Hiwalay mama ko and papa ko and hindi rin naman sila nagpakasal. Gusto talaga ng papa ko mapakasalan yung 1st gf nya and yun din yung una nyang panganay kaso galing sa political family yung girl and they don't want him for their daughter. Second panganay nya, sa ex-gf ng tito ko. Ayaw naman ng pamilya ng tatay ko dun sa girl kasi nga ex na ng tito ko tapos yung tatay ko naman yung sinunod. Nagkaron pa sila ng ilang anak after. Pangatlong panganay nya yung ate ko, dapat magpapakasal sila ng mama ko kaso hindi nakakuha yung tatay ko ng certificate of no marriage (CeNoMar) kasi pineke pala nung pangalawang girl yung signature ng tatay ko and ng lola ko as witness, so in papers, sila yung kasal, hindi ko lang alam if valid talaga. Hinayaan na rin ng pamilya ng tatay ko kasi may anak rin naman daw dun. Wala rin naman pake mama ko kasi ayaw rin ng family nya sa papa ko, coming from a family of lawyers sila mama, and my maternal grandmother threatened her na hindi na susuportahan if magpakasal sila.
As mentioned and halata naman sa story, hindi ganun kasuccessful yung pinanggalingang family ng papa ko. Nagkkwento yung paternal grandmother ko na galit sya dun sa 2nd girl kasi parang tae lang nila tinapon papa ko (her words) nung nawalan ng work. Years after, nakapag abroad yung papa ko and saka lang sila nag paramdam ulit. Sumugod pa yung girl and her mom sa bahay ng lola ko para pilitin sya magbigay ng sustento. Sa mama ko pinapadala yung pera pero si papa nagddictate magkano ibibigay dun sa isang pamilya nya. Tanda ko pa nun nagrrange sa 15-25k per month dun sa isa nyang pamilya kasi nga nagaaral mga anak tapos samin malaki na yung 10k/month e nag aaral din naman kaming magkakapatid. Buti na lang academic scholar kami hanggang college.
Now, matatanda na kami, naghiwalay na rin parents ko nung grade 4 ako, i stayed with my mom until HS tapos sa papa ko naman nung college kasi mas malapit sa university na pinasukan ko.
Year 2021, they found out na may loan yung papa ko sa sss na hindi nabayaran, coincidentally same year and month na pinanganak yung isa nyang anak dun sa pangalawa. Lumobo na yung interests and penalty, it reached near 100k. Kinausap ng tito at tita ko kaming magkakapatid sa pangatlo kung mababayaran daw ba namin yung loan ng papa ko sa sss tapps moving forward, bigyan yung papa ko ng pera pangbayad sa sss contribution para may pension. Pumayag naman kami dun, pero nainis na yung kuya ko kasi bakit kami lang eh ang dami naman anak nyan? Kung tutuusin yun yung binuhay nya, hindi kami? Hindi rin naman na naghihirap yung mga anak nya sa pangalawa.
Pag birthdays pa ng mga anak nya sa pangalawa nageedit pa sya ng pictures to post with long message and shits, tapos kami message lang. Ito rin reason bakit nagttravel na lang kaming magkakapatid out of country pag bdays namin.
Recently, naging sakitin na papa ko, may tatlo syang HMO card galing saming magkakapatid sa pangatlo, and take note na never sya nagkaron and naging beneficiary ng mga anak nya sa pangalawa. Kinausap na naman kami na ipacheck up and ipahospital if necessary, tapos excluded na naman sa responsibility yung mga anak sa pangalawa.
Umiiwas na ako sa kanya kasi everytime i see him, sumasama lang loob ko, and siguro may inggit din. In a normal family siguro, ang disrespectful ko tignan sa pag iwas pero naiisip ko lang naman bakit during his ups, yung pamilya nya sa pangalawa yung nakikinabang, pero pag sufferings and downs, kami na yung sasalo? Ako ba yung gago?

i have a girlfriend, we got together last year and this march was our 1st year being together. we were in high school then, now i moved to another country. we're doing ldr.idk when im going to see her again, we used to be so close, she was my first love and i was the first for her. we used to talk a lot, i've never been close to someone like this, including my parents. when i was a kid i used to be alone, no one would talk to me, when i found her i felt something that i never did. i prayed for her to never leave when she left. when her parents found out they told me to leave, now she talks to me without her parents knowing about it. recently her texts are getting dry, i have to ask for everything. she doesnt talk all day, when she goes to sleep she just sends a picture of her, says i love you with some emojis and sleeps. its just that she doesnt talk to me all day, i just cant be the same person i used to be before that, i have attachment issues, and i feel like she doesnt understand that, ive tried explaining but she apologizes every time and never changes it. whenever she goes offline she doesnt say anything and comes back after an hour or two. i have literal breakdowns in that hour, i keep crying i cant control it, i have parents but i dont show it to them. i say that im using the restroom but all i do is cry, and when she comes back its already night for her and its the same thing again, it happens all day and i cant keep doing this. she cries when i ask her to leave me. i cant keep doing this, i dont want to make her cry, i love her. i cant sleep or do anything in peace. i have so much ahead of me, i have good grades, i go to a good college, i have loving parents, but i cant do this relationship thing im so clingy i cant even have my food, its like i ran away from a hospital where they treat patients with mental disorder. i hate being like this all day. i tried everything to not think about anything, but its been a week since i said that and i still cry everyday. i felt like if i had it off my chest it would be somehow better. idk if ill make it to next morning, but i hate doing this everyday.

Hello! Gusto ko lang mag rant dito abt my daily struggles. I am a civil engineering student and I don’t know how I can still manage to pass my subjects despite being a working student. Tbh, wala na akong natututunan masiyado. Before, I was an academic achiever, ‘di nawawala sa top and never nagkaroon ng grade na 85 below but after going to college dun nagstart na average student na lang ako. I can’t focus on my subjects kasi nga pagod ako from work. Puyat at palaging pagod. Breadwinner din kasi ako sa amin and wala talagang natitirang extra and kinukulang pa nga to the point na I had to file a leave for a sem sa school namin pero nauwi sa 3 sems kasi walang wala talaga ako. Pagbalik ko feeling ko napag-iwanan na ako ng lahat. Yung mga batchmates ko 3rd year na and ako 1st year pa rin. Palagi rin ako absent sa school kasi nga walang pera. Wala akong baon kahit pamasahe hindi talaga sapat. Sobrang hirap din makipagkaibigan as an irreg kasi sila sila may cof na. Actually nagdadalawang-isip na ako whether itutuloy ko pa ba ‘to kasi parang imposible naman o ititigil ko na lang kasi sobrang hirap na. The thing is may isa pang bagay na naghihinder sa akin to continue and ayun yung health ko. I have an illness tho ‘di naman ganun kalala. Seizures happen siguro mga once a month or every two months. Sobrang hirap na ako maging estudyante at breadwinner. Gusto ko ‘tong course na ‘to pero pakiramdam ko hindi siya para sa akin:,(

My first best friend, who I'll call Melissa, and I met in kindergarten and were both 5 at the time. We both looked and smiled at each other. That was the day we became friends and it was the most happiest day of my childhood. I sat next to her and we were hanging out with each other every day.
We would do so many things at school with each other. We would sit on the carpet to play with the items the teacher put out for the class each morning. We would always do fun activities in the gym. We would sit at lunch, laugh about funny things we told each other, and hang out at recess every day. My favorite moment was when we were on the swings to see who would go the highest and just look at each other and smile. We did go to other parts of the playground but the swings was our favorite.
When we weren't in a classroom together with our teachers due to them having a different assigned classroom, we would still hang out in lunch and in recess because they released everyone at a certain time by grade level. For example, if we were in 1st grade and students were in a different classroom, the 1st graders would all be released at the same time while the other students in different grades remained in the same classroom. So even if Melissa and I were in different classrooms, we would always meet up and have a great time.
In 3rd grade, I found this girl who I'll call Leah. Leah and I would do pretty fun things together since we were in the same classroom and were hanging out with each other, but I'd still go and hang out with Melissa sometimes. I introduced Melissa to Leah and we basically became a friend group, or at least I thought it was a friend group.
During this time I was constantly having to pick sides with some of our things we were making up as kids. First, it was who I was to sit with at lunch. (Sometimes I wasn't lucky enough to sit with either of them because of a rule where we had to sit in a boy-girl pattern to apparently make everyone quieter during lunch time.) Then it was with some group or clan we made up during recess, Melissa was in "unicorn squad" and Leah was in "girl squad" (I made up the name of girl squad.) I would try to bring them both together but Melissa's friends and Leah's friends didn't get along too well. I had no other best friends besides the both of them and it kinda broke my heart to see them not get along as well as I was with them. Then on a very traumatic day in fourth grade that I still regret for the rest of my life, Melissa and Leah both came up to me and said "You have to pick one best friend." I said I wanted them both to be my best friends but Leah kept pushing that I only pick one. Then we made up a stupid contest to see who would win (my idea) and I was a little tired of it and made Leah win. I have never seen such a sad look on Melissa's face when we were about to leave for home. I ran after her and apologized, I tried to comfort her and I think it worked since we stopped the argument.
Later on in the year of 4th grade, Melissa and Leah had some new friends they were hanging out with. I was fine with it at first, but seeing as their friends were experiencing many joyful moments with my best friends without me, I grew hatred towards their friends. I became jealous of what they were doing. I tried everything as a 9 year old girl could possibly do to keep the relationship going between me and my best friends. I still sat with both of them at lunch and joined them in recess. When they were busy hanging out with their friends, I was left alone, wandering around the playground, doing the things my best friends and I used to do but alone this time. It became depressing just thinking about memories of me and my friends playing together in the past and having fun. Now I had to have fun but alone as I watch my best friends have fun with theirs instead of me. I became even more depressed and angry seeing other random friendships because they were having fun and not me. I felt so alone, hurt, betrayed, so much emotion. This grew into more extreme hate towards the friends of my best friends.
In 5th grade, I did everything I could to have fun with them, but for some reason, something felt off. We hung out less. We didn't sit at lunch every day. Then I found out something shocking. Leah was hanging out with other girls who would give her lunch money, (I gave her lunch money for quite a long time now so we would get snacks with my money I gave her) and was making videos with these girls. I then hated the girls because apparently in my mind, they were controlling and possessing my friend. They stole her away from me. Leah and I still hung out and I considered her my friend because I didn't understand the concept of being used for money. Leah would always invite me to make videos but I wasn't comfortable. I realized how much of a fake friend she was but I still gave her a chance to change but never happened. I went to hang out with Melissa more after this but this felt a bit off too. She was hanging out with this one girl a lot. She seems pretty happy to be with her instead of me more. Melissa was into anime and I wasn't, so that drifted us apart but I didn't see it. I wasn't really into any of my best friend's interests because I was still depressed and full of rage against these girls. I grew to hate everyone and everything and I only wanted to be with Melissa.
It was near the end of the year when I went to go with Melissa in the playground where we always used to go, the swings. She constantly kept moving away, switching swings of just walking away from me. This hurt a lot coming from a close friend like her. I went to hang out with Leah because I still had no friends besides the two of them. Leah as well, left me behind and I was there alone again. All this just fueled my anger against everything. I hated other people, I hated activities, I hated everything, including myself. I thought this was weird since I didn't express my hate that badly towards these other girls, although I did want them to through horrible and horrendous things because in my mind, they were stealing my friends. They took away the people who made me happy. I was getting worse from my mental health because I wanted nothing but my happiness and my best friends back. I had a few thoughts of kidnapping my best friends so they could be with me forever. I would be happy and experience all the happy moments we would share together again. It was pointless anyway because I was just a 10 year old and couldn't do anything.
During these final months before everyone was all homeschooled for a year, I noticed whenever I tried to be with Melissa, she moved away from me again. I tried many times to catch up with her but she continued moving away. I thought absolutely nothing of it because of a funny joke by the teachers saying we hung out too much and we should be separated. I found it funny because at the time, our friendship was strong and I thought nothing would ever separate us from having fun. So I just thought about it as if she was playing around with that joke. I gave up catching up after Melissa because I was tired and I thought she was playing the joke on me. It turns out, I overheard something she said and she said I was too clingy. I didn't know what it meant and I thought she said a funny word and thought nothing of it. Later on she asked me for a break. I said that it was fine and I thought she meant a break for one day (I thought breaks were meant to be short at the time) and we left each other alone.
It came a few days later where she said she didn't want to be my friend anymore. I then went to hang out with Leah, who I didn't hang out with for a long while, said she also didn't want to be friends with me anymore. I was broken by their words but I just thought it was all a joke to me, because I thought it was dumb to unfriend someone for hanging out with them every day.
Fast forward to 6th grade where we were homeschooled for a year, I was full of hope that I was going to be friends with Melissa again after a long time. Then came 7th grade where I was 12 and I continued to sit with her at lunch again, but this time I felt nothing. There were no fun conversations like we usually had back in elementary. I just felt like I wasn't meant to be there. I still felt the same loneliness, rage, and sadness back like I was in 5th grade. That's when I finally realized I was no longer her friend, and I had so much hate in myself for taking a year to realize I had been blind to all of this. I never felt so much sadness like that in my life. The two friends I had left me, I was really depressed by this reason, and now I constantly question myself wondering what I did wrong. I still grovel over them both. It's been a few years now. Did I do something wrong?

Hi! I (bi 20f) am dating a (straight 22m) person I met online 3 years ago. For context, in the whole time we’ve known each other, I have only met him in person once and it cost over 1K. When we met, I was grieving my late fiancé. I had met her (let’s call her R) when I was 10, and we both had a crush on each other. We started “dating” in 5th grade and never broke up. We were together for just short of 8 years and she had proposed to me when we were 16. Our wedding was planned for Aug 19th, 2023, the day we met. On Feb 1st 2022, she was it by a drunk driver and died in a hit and run. My now bf helped me grieve in health ways and called everyday to make sure I got out of bed to eat. A year ago, he asked me to be his girlfriend and I said yes. Well, R’s birthday was last week and I had a breakdown about it, and bf got upset. Saying things like “so I’m not enough to make you happy?” And “it’s already been 2 years, get over it”. I told him it’s not that easy and I lost someone I thought I was going to be with forever. This made him even more angry and he stormed off. He hasn’t returned my calls or texts since then and I don’t think I did anything wrong. Should I apologize or wait for him to come to me? I really like him but I’m not sure I LOVE him after this.
TLDR: fiancé of 8 years died and bf is mad at me for being upset on her birthday 2 years after she died.