Dost ki biwi ke saath suhagraat

I don't understand wtf is going or nta chup kyu he ...itni shaanti kyu he nta ki taraf se?Kal exam hai bhai Kisi ka toh 10 baje se hai lekin abhi tak admit card access nhi ho pa rahe he what kind of management is this?? next about delhi postponed and aab normalisation hoga Bro fuck NTA 13 lakh bacho ke saath khel rahe he mc Guys me toh Beth ke padh leta hu kabhi bhi kuch bhi ho sakta he

So I gave my 12 boards in year 2022, scored decent percentage(86%) CBSE board so like every other aspirant I thinked let's take drop for 1 year... When I gave jee with 12 I scored around 50 percentile(was not taking any coaching or any sorts of tution,na hi 11 12 mai koi tuition lo boards ke liye yt se padhta tha sirf) so when I write exam after one year of drop I scored 62 percentile in my first attempt aur second attempt mai 69 percentile.... I was shattered whole year I think ki agar 130-120 bhi le aya to state ke nit mai easily ho Jayega kisi circuital branch mai(I belongs to HP, here a general male candidate can easily get any circuital branch if you score 96-97 percentile due to home state quota). So I thought ki ab to kuch nhi hoga but fir ek din ek dost ne bola ki Bhai tu second drop lele.. I thought is year 96 percentile 140 Tak bani hai moderate shift mai to agar ek saal acche se padha to 160-180 tk le aunga(My first mistake ki maine apna goal hi chota seat Kiya like 180 number) Second drop le liya.. starting mai sab sahi ja raha tha up to July scoring good marks in mock like 110-120ish.Iwas happy ki chalo last year se progress ho rhi hai exam Tak 160-180 ho ji jayega...I didn't join any offline coaching was preparing from my home by pw prayas batch( My second mistake ki maine apne comfort zone Mai reh kar padhai karna decide Kiya, I know ki most of log aap mai se bolenge ki Bhai online Ghar se padh kar bhi ho jata hai and I completely agree with you but the thing is if you are preparing online for such big competitive exam you need to be disciplined which In my case was lacking)cut to Second drop result I scored same percentile like last year... Fully fucked up I know ki kuch nhi milega is pe aur kismat itni acchi ki is year 2024 jab exam Diya to first attempt 27 Jan shift2 thi aur second attempt mai 6 April shift 1 which you guys know ki dono mai hi high marks pe low percentile bni hai due to several reasons but mai apni failure ko is se nhi excuse kar raha.. I didn't study properly and I failed that simple ... Jab se exam aya hai zayda tar Ghar pe hi rehta hun aur ab bas suicidal thoughts hi ate haii... Most of the time depressed rehna ... Mai apne aap ko koi bahut bekar student nhi manta agar mehnat krte lag ke to ho jata but ab vo time chala gya aur mai bas ye cheez is liye idhar likh Raha hun kyunki ye sab baate sab log nhi smj sakte ... I hope ki mai mar jaun jitna jldi ho sake taki ye sab baate sochne nhi pdhe

Jee ni hua pehle s1 me to socha chlo 2nd me nikal lunga fir boards diye boards theek gye the meko laga tha 75+ ajayenge Aram se fir lag gya jee ke liye behenchod paper se 1.5 hafte pehle asthma hogya poore curriculum ki ma chudgyi dhang se ni padhpaya aur vo bi ni nikla result aya as expected me bits me judgya tayyari set thi mocks me 220+ board ka result aya aur m chudgya pehle to meko laga tha bits consider 60% in boards fir asal criteria ab dekha to lole lag gye ... Mere parents mere board ke result se bahut khush hai ham bahar bi gye the maine bahut situations tackle kri kyuki aur Maine ek tution ni lagai in whole 11/12 so they were proud that I was on my own but uhe abi bi lagra me bits dunga par I'm not eligible kis muu se btau bhai unhe 😔 mere rishtedar ache hai dost ache hai in these terms but bimario ne apni ma chudwali poore 2 saal yehi hua hai

So let me start by telling abt how my jee journey has been till now. Mera bachpan se (mtlb 5th-6th) se hi IIT B Jane ka sapna tha 🤡. Mujhe nit aut iits ke bare mein kafi pehle se pata hai. Kyunki mere papa nit trichy se hai, chacha nit warangal aur dusre chacha IIT B se hai (under 100 air thi). Isliye bachapan se hi soch Raha hoon ki IIT B jaunga. There was no pressure from my parents to do engineering. 10th mein 96 percentage the (100 percetage in maths and science). 10th ke result ke baad bada confidence aaya 🤡. Fiitjee aur aakash dono ke entrance mein 75% scholarship mil gayi. Aakash ki coaching join ki. 11th ke aadhe khatam hone Tak aukaat pata chal gayi thi, isliye tha ki bas NIT T miljaye. Let's cut to the present. Baki ki story kisi aur din. 11th poori barbaad hogayi. 12th mein mehnat karke saara portion khatam Kiya upto mains level. Physics and Chem ka 75% portion advanced level Tak tha. Mocks mein bhi acha score karna laga. Jan AYJR mein expected 99.2 %ile Tha. But got the dreaded shift 27 S1. Result ke din zindagi upside down hogayi soch Raha tha ab focus hokar advanced ke liye padhunga lekin sirf 97.1 percentile bani ( scored 205 marks). 27S1 ke sadme se jab Tak nikal paaya tab Tak boards aagye the. Boards ke baad 1 mahina tha jee S2 ke liye. Mai bas revision karta tha aur mocks deta tha. Score kafi fluctuate hone laga tha. Kabhi score 220+ to kabhi 180. Easy questions mein silly errors karne ki buri aadat hogayi thi. AYJR April mein silly errors ke Karan sirf 98 percentile expected aai. Fir 4S2 mein 60 questions attempt karke aaya. Score check karne par sirf 182 hi Bane. Maths mere expectation se bohot lengthy thi, iske Karan mark for review questions ko check karne ka time hi nahi mila aur wo almost saare mark for review galat hogaye. Chem ke ek question mein structure correct banaya lekin no of bonds galat gin liye. I could have genuinely scored 225+ easily but due to me being stupid gave a lot of time to maths and fucked up physics and chem. Sirf 98.2 percentile hi bani.. Ab advanced se koi hopes nahi, maths adv level ka ghanta kuch nahi aata. My father wants me to go to bits, lekin I can't seem to justify the 24 lakh fees. We don't have a ton of money and 24 lakh is a very significant amount for us. Jab bhi padhne jaata hoon, man hi nahi hota, somehow I just don't get motivation to study for bits.. Drop ke liye papa maan nahi rahe. I genuinely believe ki drop year mai I will do better because burnout is not an issue for me (atleast for now) aur social life ki chinta nhi hai. 11th aur 12th itne lonliness mai guzri hai ki ab farak nhi padta. Sirf ek acha dost ban paya. Aur 10th ka friend group poora break hogaya. Ek ladki, kafi close friend thi ab msg karne par reply bhii nhi deti. Last proper female interaction 10th mein hi tha.. Anyways it is what it is. You guys suggest what should I do now. Take a drop or prepare for bits?

So yesterday board exams came out . I didn't know because my father took my phone with him(I don't know why) and I woke up late. My bestie called me and told me that results are out so I checked my result on my mom's phone. I got 87% and got scolded by her which I deserved. I called my dad from my mom's phone and told him the result and he was happy and it and congratulated me. At about 2 when he came back he assured me that I scored good. Then I got a call from by bestie on my mom's phone ( my phone was in my dad's office switched off) that all the students have came to school with sweets and meeting teachers, and asked me we should go too. I asked my dad if I can go he totally denied saying kya karna hai jaake, tumhari dost ke 75% aaye hai vo kyu itna kar rhi hai jaane ke liye. I didn't say anything as I don't expect than to let me go ANYWHERE. Me and my bestie have been making a plan to hangout to a mall, play on trampoline there, eat something and come back and our one more female friend would go with us . I asked him in evening about this and he totally denied. Ulta daantne lag gye. Maine kaha aap hi chor dena aap le lena bas hum teen ladkiyan hai. He shouted on me and kehte abhi toh Agra hoke aaye hai(Mera Mann bhi nhi tha). Before you say itna toh sabke karte hai , they have NEVER allowed me to hangout anywhere even with only girls boys ka toh sawaal hi nhi hai . Main almost ab college main hu muje laga ab toh kahi jaane denge. Par nahi school bhi nhi jaane de rhe teachers ko mithai Dene ke liye ki tumari dost ke 75% aaye hai usko kyu itni Khushi ho rhi hai. I have always seen my friends hanging out with eachother but I have never spent any time with my friends other than school . Aakhri baar main apni bestie last board ke exam main mili thi. 10th Main kehte the 12th main jaane denge . Ab 12th bhi ho gye, result bhi ho gye admission bhi ho gya fir bhi nhi . Mera kabhi boyfriend nhi Raha hai na koi hai aur na hi maine kabhi koi aisi har harkat ki hai ki unko Shak bhi ho. Ek 11th main tuition thi school ke paas Jana pe main padti bhi thi aur friends bhi the par ek baar paas ke ek book shop pe apni friend ke saath gayi thi toh unhone woh bhi churwadi aur colony main koi tuition lagwa di . They don't even let me go to to a shop with my friend. Meri ek friend apni friends ke saath Amritsar gyi hai aur baaki bhi saare bacche kahi na kahi gye hai par sirf main hi hu jo kahi nhi Jaa sakti. I cried a lot last night ki kya reason hai ki Ghar se nahi nikalne dete aur kyu nhi nikalne dete and I got my eyes swollen this morning. I don't know mere hi parents aise kyu hai . Kyu mujhpe itna Shak karte hai and more thing that I forgot to tell that I'm almost in college and I still have to submit my phone at night to my parents.

So yesterday saw my 10th result bohot bura laga mere dada ji ka bday tha unhe pata chala ki result aya kyuki mere ek cousin Jo same 10th mai hai usne pehle hi apna result bata diya tha usse 96% aye aur muje 75-85 ke bhecch mai aye offcourse real percentage nhi reveal kar rha kyuki mere dost bhi follow karte Mera acc coming back mere dada ji ka phone ya papa ne phone handover kiya and I was literally shaking bohot bura lag rha phele mene happy birthday wish Kiya fir unhe result bataya aur unhone acha mene toh bola tuje acha hi yega aur mai rone lag gaya unhone pata chala ki mai roo rha tha toh muje samajha rhe thi ki kitne aye isse koi farak nhi padta and all but mai aur baat hi nhi kar paya fir mere bua (woh cousin ke mom ka) phone aya mene ekdam dhere awaz mai result bataya aur fir emotional hogya unhone ne bhi bola acha hai roo mat mere mai aur baat karne ki himaat hi nhi I feel like my parents don't deserve me baki sare dost 90+ la rhe hai aur sabke mumi status wagera laga rhi i feel bad and ashamed ki mene apne parents ko kitna disappoint kardiya mere mumi bohot sad thi but papa bole tikhe hai jo huya so huya ab agee pe dhyan de but kya karu kush samajh nhi a rha hamesha woh result yaad a rha hai raat mai soh nhi pa rha ekdam ese daar sa gaya hu sab dost maza kar rhe aur muje breakdown ho rha hai panick attacks a rhe....... I know I will do better sabko disappoint kardiya tution wali ma'am ko mumi papa ko family ko 🥲

Bc kitni bhi koshish Karu ,nhi bhul paa rhi use .Uski smell , uske saath padhe hue chapters ,uski baaten ,sb yaad hai .1.5 years ho gye uski shakal dekhe , use mujhse ghanta kabhi koi fark pda , uski kuch antics se vaapas delusion me aa jati thi ki probably vo bhi kuch sochta hoga ,well , mat Mari gyi thi meri.Insta pe use stalk kar kar ke usse ajeeb sa parasocial attachment bna liya hai where I know his entire kundali without him telling me ,his taste in women(jisse main koson dur hu), everything about his college(I've become an expert at iit now). Neet khatm ho gya, use batane ki formality bhi kr li(aur bekar ke 1 ghante ki baaten🤡) ,ab khatm ho jaye ye .I can't listen to the music I like cause it reminds me of him , bhul jana chahu to bhi papa bhi use ek fortnight me mention kr hi dete hai (vhi in sab fasad ki jad hai) , universe hi har cheez mujhe use bhulne hi nhi deti .I wish vo kbhi mujhse aise baat nhi krta .Uske compassion aur empathy ne meri maar li . College jaungi is sal to shayad koi aur mil jaye ,but I still wish to eradicate his memories forever .

Guys i have something to say , i have lost all respect for siwet , i hate him even more than Akriti now . Why? i will explain in points 1. He dumped Nayera on national television while he was the one who started things with her 2. He made Nayera feel terrible all this while 3 . I finally understand Nayera’s anger towards Siwet , imagine being on national television, someone starts showing love for you , you fall for the person, you actually get serious , you get dumped , that too on national television just because you confront the person for saying they didn’t find you hot and the connection is just for show. 4. Now if you guys remember even while leaving Nayera had feelings for siwet while siwet didn’t shed a tear nor actually say something meaningful before she left . 5. Nayera cane out and got to know he dis the same with akriti , tried to form a connection 6. Nayera sharef certain intimate moments woth siwet , which apparently for siwet wasn’t a huge deal but it was for Nayera. 7. Now the person keeps on denying anything was there , imagine nayeras anger, actual reason of her anger wasnt why siwet did what he did , but i was always about why didnt he accept it . NGL anyone would be mad 8 . Now between lakshay siwet and anickaa, lakshay is obviously wrong , i already said in this sub before that he isn’t a green flag , he’s just another average guy . I hated how he kept taking anick’s name everywhere in a bad light , and in the show i freakin hated how he talked to Anicka 9. Also when Anicka cried , why didn’t lakshay once come and talk to her , kitne gire hue ho bhai ? or drame ke lie diamond h ye h wo h , dikh gya ab 10. Lakshay is nothing but a hawabaaz jo bs bate bolta h . Siwet se kuch ni lad pata or anicka se akele me disrespectfully bat krta . i mean grow up! 11. baki the way he is trigerred, obviously yashika is his girlfriend, shame on him for still participating in splits. 12. Coming to the person red color was invented for . Siwet once again defamed not just one but two girls online .firstly yashika , the way he talked about anicka in his live , i am disgusted. 13. saying stuff like bar bar anicka ka call a rha h , i am breaking up with her , mujhe esi ladki ke sath ni rehna , ab mujhe in log ki ladai se koi mtlb ni hai kuch bhi kare. Bro mtlb live pe tu kya dikhana chahta hai , anicka is desperate for you , and tujhe ni rehna uske saath , bhai he sucks . esa kese krskta koi kisi ke sath . imagine the embarrassment for Anicka , These are personal matters man . Stop fucking selling yourself for some views . Bechari Anicka kare kya ? I’m proud of her today , she didnt lose her calm after constant hate from both lakshay and siwet fans and now when siwet brokeup she didn’t shit about him on live. Didn’t make it ugly . So respect for her 14. Now is when anicka would actually be TRAUMATISED. 15. Hence nayera was right when she said , tera sath jo hai wo zyada traumatise krega Honorable Clown Mention: Loving how akriti’s clown fan pages on the basis of what siwet said , are making reels that what about when digvijay spoke ill about Akriti 🤡 And akriti so full of herself is sharing them and enjoying the sudden sympathy, lol have a spine , siwet was the one harassing you a while back, and people like digvijay and sachin were actually in support of her . Also in courtroom they were supposed to bring out stuff about one another , yashika hasnt agreed to participate in the show so digvijay is absolutely right in taking stand for this .

Hi guys, I’m from Delhi (21m).I cleared foundation in may 22(self study,first attempt) and appeared for CA inter group 1 in may23(got 57 in accounts). But phir ek mentally unstable girlfriend milgyi glti se jisne life ki watt lagadi. Bhai ab tk trauma ata h us ldki ka hrdin ki tune mujhe chora toh sucide krdungi ya apne haath ki nas kaat lungi ya mera baap tujhe maardega mere marne k baad . May23 se may24 agya aur Maine Abhi tk exam dobara nhi diya kisi bhi group ka. But right now I’m thinking of giving exam of g1(new scheme) in sept24 but kuch samjh ni ata ki du ya na du . Is it possible for me to do CA inter g1 in the next 3 months. Accounts and law are the subjects that are within my reach but I don’t know about taxation. Toh kya 3 months sufficient h taxation cover krne k liye aur g1 k exam dene k liye. Ab toh sala guilt feel hota h ki kyu ek saal barbaad krliya poora us ldki k chakkr Mai. Ideal scenario for clearing CA BHI ab at the age of 25-26 h jo pta ni kyu bahut jada lgra h . It feels like Mai baaki bachon se bahut pechen rehgya hu aur ek discarded child bngya hu apni family ka. No one forces me to earn because my brother is a well earning individual but I don’t getting motivation aur satisfaction that I will clear or not. Please help me!!!!
Also should I go for self study or take coaching from my previous tutor(inter wala) because I’m very lazy and procrastinate if left alone at home without any friend circle.
SORRY FOR MY BAD GRAMMAR ek dost ya bade bhai ya ek mentor ke naate hi kuch bata do toh bahut bhala hojayega🙏

I am an avg student till 9th I used to give re-examination for passing.. after covid I started studying in 10th I got 78% then in 11th I choose PCM because I was good in maths (till that time) I joined an offline coaching institute for JEE preparation
2.5 saal maine bohot mhenat kari maine bohot sacrifice kara sare dost chor diye kahi ghumne firne nhi gai koi maze nhi kare school bhi dummy kar liya.. Sunday's pr jb coching ki chutti hoti thi mai akeli vaha jake self study krti thi class khatam hone ke baad bhi 2hr extra rukti thi self study kr liye.. mere teacher's bhi bohot tarif krte the infact dusre class mai jakr batate the... Last december ke time mai district ho gai bohot self doubts hone lage (stress overthinking toh rooz ka tha mere liye) still itne mehnat ka koi result nhi nikla mere sirf 81%ile aye, I am genenal mera cutoff bhi clear nhi hua muje koi top ke college nhi mil rahe
Ab mai sirf yahi chahati thi ki koi accha private college mil jage acchi jage pr maine bohot college search kare fir maine Pune Jane ka dicide kara coz mere bohot relative rehte hai vaha toh parents easily bhej denge... But aisa nhi hua or bohot fight ke baad bhi muje kahi bahar nhi Jane de rahe ab muje bhopal ke hi koi private college mai admission Lena padh raha hai.. aise log jinne kabhi padhai nhi Kari sirf chill kara vo log bhi vahi a rahe hai jha mai ja rahi hu.... Mere itne hard work ka koi matlab nhi nikla ... I am literally a failure in my life 😭

Hello, I'm 18male and I am looking for people who are interested in same things as me as I am currently working on myself
Mai kaafi time se Ghar mai baitha tha ish wajha se hamesha apni age ke Longo se piche raha hu like introvert hu , society ke bare mai jada nahi janta ,Longo ki normal conversation ka part nahi ban pata par sab mai improve Krna chahta hu apni health, personality,looks, knowledge ish liye mai aise dost banana chahta hu jo log mujhse ange ho life mai or meri help kar sakhe life mai ange barhne ke liye main abhi currently apni English pe kaam kar raha hu or health pe home workout follow karta hu or badminton khelne jata hu or Mera kisi chijz mai intrest nahi hai boring Banda hu bus thora anime dekha hai or marvels ki movies phase 4 Tak ho gaya kuch interesting nahi hai baat krne ko jeevan mai ish liye dost bhi nahi hai toh agar koi intrested hai mujhse dosti krne mai or sayad Mera jaise apne aap ko improve karne mai toh dm me
Koi bhi gender age ka ho chalega bus timepass nahi karna

Namste sabhi ko mai mai ek jee aspirant hu and mai mhuje bas interest hai kafi politics waghera me aise koi motive nhi hai ki upsc karna hai bus Mai ye puchna chahta hu ki kya mai jee ke saath thoda thoda maze ke liye syllabus padh sakta hu upsc ka heavy nhi sirf short time ke liye mai break me phone use karta hu usse accha knowledge lena chatha hu ek din mai dada ji ke saath baitha tha or mai psychology waghera dekh leta hu tho unko aise kuch cheezein batayi tho unko accha laga bus yahi puch na tha ki kya mai thode amount me kuch interest ke liye padh sakta hu jee ke saath saath phone dekhne se accha hai ig sorry mai ik gali khaunga harkaton pe par Mann hai kripaya guide kardjiye 🙏

its gonna be a long trauma dump.
im 19f, appeared in 12th this year, this would be my first drop. vaise to iss sun pe lurker rehti thi, aaj laga maybe kuch bol hi du to atleast relief rahega kisko dhang se bataya to. vaise to life meri bekar nhi hai overall dekha jaye to. yaha pe logo ka padho bc achhi lagne lagti hai life, and phir agle din vahi rr.
i was five almost, jb mere nana ne pehli baar mujhe touch kiya tha. mummy papa ka office rehta tha and bhaiya ka school to akele chhodne ki jagah nana ko bula lete the vo log ki mera dhyaan rakhe. achha dhyan rakhe the (apna lolzzz). now that i think about the movements and the way he'd shake afterwards, pyare nanaji was most probably cumming in his dhoti holding his five year old granddaughter on his thigh. (i mean, ladke shayad better jaane, kabhi kisi se detail mein puchha nhi iss baare mein. after it had got some action and y'all are ejaculating, do you guys like, freeze for a bit a breathe hard? agar nhi to im sorry for the wrong allegations). anyways that happened for a while. uske baad ka mujhe kuch yaad nhi. tbh ye bhi nhi yaad tha, until 3-4 saal pehle jb i read a similar scene in a book and ye yaad aaya phir shock mein chali gayi. had two beautiful frnds jinko bataya iss baare mein and they tried to help me out as best as they could. andar se ye bhi lagta tha ki mummy ko kabhi pata bhi chala to nahi manengi, isiliye parents se thoda grudge rehta tha and ladti jhagadati rehti thi.
fast forward to present, mai apne best friend ke saath relationship mein aa gayi and slowly but surely, he made a great impact on my relationship with my family. like uski uske parents ke saath achhe relations hain and ladka bhi sahi hai (haa pyar krti hu usse, mar jaungi ek din) to convince kr liya mujhe ki mere parents bhi pasand krte hain mujhe. and tb se mere relations meri family ke saath significantly improve hue. i even started to trust them.
to kya hai na, mummy and nana ki jamti nhi hai (he's neither a good husband nor a good father), isiliye mummy unse baat nhi krti. ek din recently mummy unhi ke baare mein upset thi and maine mummy se bol diya ki "uss aadmi se to mujhe nafrat hai. royi hu bestfriend ko batate hue" and mummy was like mujhe batao but mana kar di ki abhi nhi.
agle din she came to me and said ki unhe raat mein neend nhi aa rahi thi ye sochte hue ki aisa unhone kya kar diya ki I don't trust her but trust my frnds? phir bohot bolne pe mai unhe puri baat bata di (utni detail mein nhi obviously) and she was very supportive. boli ki "maa baap important hote hain par bachcho se zyada nhi. mai to vaise bhi unhe ghar na bulati but ab to sawal hi nhi uthata. shakal nhi dekhungi unki". and mai apne room mein aake rone lagi ki maine apni maa ko galat samjha ki vo mujhpe yakeen nhi karengi.
then agle din, i think jb mai ghar pe nhi thi tb mummy bhaiya ko ye baat batayi and he told her abt how once i confessed to him i was a lesbian (bisexual boli thi but lauda hai), and pata nhi kaise, mummy ko convince kr doya ki im making this whole story up for sympathy and to seem cool.
mummy aayi and mujhse boli ki "tum jo batayi ho, vo sach mein hua hai ya jo tum ghatiya books padhti ho, uski vajah se dimag mein baitha li ho ki mere saath bhi kuch galat hua hai?" and phir asked me abt that lesbian wala and told me ki inhi sab vajah se my face has lost its innocence and mai kuch nahi kar paayi hu. kaise i didn't deserve the marks i got in boards and sabka entrance exam tha but sab ek event mein aa rahe the but tumne kuch padha nhi tha isiliye nhi aayi (true but jisko neet dena hota vo aise bhi na aata). and how she feels ashamed and unsafe to go out with me varna i would wander off with "bhaiya log". that other girls of my age look smart and innocent and good even of they're fat. and gori ladkiyo ka chehra nhi pink hai, but you have yellowish tone and you never look smart, tumhare andar vo cheez hi nhi. she ended her speech with, "tumhari vajah se maine apne baap ko galat samjha. agar tum jhoote ilzam laga rahi ho to uska anjam dikhega." and then very lightly said, as if she didn't believe it, "aur agar mere baap ne kuch kiya hoga to bhagwan batayenge."
since that day, i haven't been able to look at my family the same way. the love, trust and respect i had for them seems gone. uss din ke baad mummy achhe se baa ki but bhul nhi paa rahi unn words ko. isse pehle bhi aisa bohot kuch boli hain vo jo bura laga tha but ye Dil tod diya. i can't believe my first heartbreak is from my mother itself.
isse pehle bhi she'd questioned my character. mai maanti hu, mai chutiye bachchi thi. nhi samjhti thi kuch. school bus mein achhe bhaiya log mile the to sabko achha samajhti thi and apne age ke logo se ghul mil nhi paati thi. isiliye almost got tricked by a senior jo uss time 11th mein the (i was in 6th, koi dost nhi tha to attention ki bhukhi rehti thi). uske liye mummy branded me as "characterless". I WAS IN SIXTH, NHI PATA THA MUJHE KUCH. phir ek baar humlog kahi gaye the and mummy dusri seat pe chali gayi mujhko leke jbki meri dost pichhe ki seat pe thi. i tried going to her to uss time to mummy bas gusse se dekhi but ghar aake boli ki how im such a bad daughter, achhe ghaf ki ladkiya sirf apne mummy papa ke paas rehti hain but tumko to matakna rehta hai. tumhare jaisi ladkiyo ko characterless rehte hain, kisi ki nhi hoti hain. (this was in class 9th).
ho sakta hai mai apna side leke dekh rahi hu isiliye mai khud ko sahi samajh rahi. but galti kya ki maine ye to koi achhe se explain karo???
recent ye nana wala batane ke baad to bas yahi manati hu roz bhagwan se ki maar daale mujhe. sach nata rahi, jb dekhega na koi sirf meri mummy papa aur bhaiya ko saath mein, to itne perfect lagte hain. and mai manhoos ki yarah aa jaati hu beech mein. (mumma thinks ki mera chehra normal rehne pe mahoos lagta hai, i should be smiling har samay varna apni life barbaad ke dungi aisi shakal bana ke).
marne ka ya relapse krne ka (i used to self harm) roz mann krta hai, but apni best friend aur apne bf ke baare mein sochke ruk jaati hu. sach mein doni pagal pyaar krte hain mujhse. bestfriend ki life already laudi ho rakhi hai, aur nhi pareshan krna, bf ki life mein pehle hi bohot trauma the, ab badhane ka mann nhi. i promised him I'd helo him heal.
ab 15 aur 16 ko cuet hai but padha nhi hai kuch and pata nhi kaise niklega. nikalka bhi zaruri hai varna home life aur fucked up ho jaayegi plus ghar se niklungi to insabme dimag nhi lagega.
samajh nhi aa raha kaise padhu ab, aakhiri din bacha hai, sab kuch padha hai but revise krna hai. idk bhai, higheay sach mein sundar lagne laga hai (srsly)
edit: aaj matashree ko therapy de rahi thi. and pata chala she has shit communication skills and she meant to say ki hopefully ye sab mera vehem hai but boldi kuch aur. and batayi mumma bhaiya bhi bola ho sakta hai vehem ho but he cried when he first heard it. matashree se phir ladi khub ki baat nhi krne aata achhe se ro rahi hu kb se. tumlogo ke comments+ mummy se baat krke jo relief Mila hai na, thankyou yaar. literally verge of suicide se happy kr diye ho.

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17M. Today cbse boards result came out. And I got 68% and I feel devastated.
I tried to do jee coaching and school simultaneously but I couldn't. I used to feel sleepy in classes so much that my eyes felt like burning. I was just not interested in this rat race.
My father is the most toxic person I've ever met. He doesn't even talk to strangers with respect or politely. I couldn't clear jee and my father scolded me a lot and today he said even more stuff that I couldn't take in.
I got horrible percentile in JEE. I know this is not the end of life and these grades don't define someone's potential or life. I accept I couldn't perform well and learnt my lesson through bad decisions.
But aaj papa ne bola "tera ky hoga, pura future barbad krliya h", "2 saal kuch pdhai nhi kiya bas phone chalaya, game khela, timepass kiya", "har ek exam me fail hogya", "ab aage ki padhai chhod de, labour ka kaam kr ky krega pdh kr", "5 lakh barbaad krdiya school or coaching me".
I wasn't like this always. Maine 8th tak boht competitions, olympiads wagera kiya h. Mujhe nhi pata mai jee coaching kyu le liya. Ky hogya mere saath mujhe nhi pata.
He called me and said "apna laptop and phone tod de aur photo khich kr bhej". Kyu todu mai apna phone jab maine freelancing krke khud ke paise se kharida th.
I'm not joking but he called me "ch*tiya and mc" too for not scoring good marks. He even scolded my mother and sister for all this. Bas yahi bolte raha ki mat kr aage ki padhai, sab barbad krliya h ab mera kuch nhi hoga kahi.
Aaj pehli bar saalo baad meri aankho se aasu aagye. Aaj mere se control nhi hua aur mai chhat pr jakr silently andr se cry kr rh th.
He has his ego problem and anger issues. Idk what's his problem. Hamesha se aisa toxic behaviour raha h. Kabhi game khelne nhi diya to jab bhi time milta th bachpan me mai game khelte rhta th kyuki brain aisa sochta th ki ghr me nhi h yeh abhi jitna marji khel leta.
Bachpan me cash me paise diye th aur bola rkhne and maj spend krdiya kyuki bhai bachha th curiosity thi. To jis din pata chala jhapad mar diya and bache hue cash phad diye.
To ab dar lgta h kuch krne se. Mai kahi bahar nhi jata hoon ghumne ya kuch khane. Aaj tak restaurant nhi gya. Bs ek bar dosto ke sath movie dekhne gya hoon Oppenheimer. Ek do bar cafe me gya hoon dost ke sath. Sab apne hi paiso se pay kiya hoon. Pocket money ka concept hi gayb h mere ghr me. School wale goa trip pr legye but 15k mai mangne se ghabra rh th to nhi gya.
Ab weird sa introvert bn gya hoon. Dost birthday party pr ya ghumne bulate h to mai nhi jata kuch bahana krdeta hoon. Female interaction to hai hi nhi ab.
Ek din meri didi ka pata nhi sayd result acha nhi aaya th to bola ki books road pr lejakr jala de. Mai chhota th tab.
Aaj to bole meri mummy ko ki mujhe ghr se bhaga de.
He never accepts constructive critisism about him. For him other's opinions and views dont matter. He only boasts how much money he has spent on education and shit.
Heck he never gave his BA exam himself. Someone else wrote instead of him.
Ky aisa behaviour acceptable bhi hai aaj ki society me? I think he's psychotic and needs a psychiatrist. Like wtf man.
Kahi se koi support nhi mil rh mujhe. Bs lg rh andar se toot gya hoon aur ab kuch nhi h jeene ko. Bs mera friend mujhe support kr rh kyuki uske bhi kam percentage aaye h. Atleast uske ghr wale jyada understanding h and samjhte h ki yeh the end nhi hai.
Mera dream h Germany me pdhna. Mai kuch projects banaya hoon ek dost ke sath apne coding skills se jisse mujhe kafi acha revenue mil jata h. To friend EU ka hai and we've been in contact for long time now.
To ek saal yaha local college me pdh kr next year bachelors Germany ke liye apply krunga yeh mera plan th. Along with learning german language.
Bs isi hope se mai filhal jee rh hoon ki ek din yeh sapna pura hoga and mai finally yeh toxicity escape kr paunga. Mera wo dost financially help bhi krdega if funds ki kam pdegi to uss time. Papa ke to paise bhi use nhi hoga to bhad me jaye mai ja rh apne raste.
Bs aur kuch nhi kehne ko h

Tho bhaiyo Aaj mere class 10 ka result aaya aur eng+top 5 jod ke mere bann rahe hai 93.8% . Abhi yaha pe kaii log kahenge flex kaar rha hai ye wo but I am literally in tears rn . Maine expectation tho 96-97 ki rakhi thi par utne nahi bann rahe . Pata nahi iska kuch hoga ki nahi. Mere 95 marks hai science , Hindi aur it me aur maths me 93 hai ( mujhe set 3 Mila tha tho overall I ain't disappointed). Mujhe social me khali 90 mile hai aur English me 91 . Mai English me honestly 100/100 expect karr rha tha aur social me bhi 93+ expect kar rha tha . Mai soch rha hu ki inhe rechecking ke lie dedu. Top 5 Mila kar Mera score hua 469 aur agar 6 marks ass ho gae tho I'll get that 95%. Tell me should I go for re evaluation or no . Mera dost Jo Mera academic rival hai uske 97.4% aae hai . Isse mujhe bhot bura laga kyuki pehle hamare beech khali ek se do marks ka difference rehta tha

kya karu bhailog
mein class10thclass tk regular school me padh rha aur dusre school ke ek teacher se math ki coaching padh rha tha us teachear ne mujhe behla fusla ke apne school me le aaya lekin phir July tk meine jee krne ka socha aur kota aa gaya aur waha pe non attending kara liya meine unse kaha ki non attending ki fees kam kardijiye to wo bsdk wala teacher kam nhi kr rha tha to meine usse bahut request ki (hum itni feees kaise denge coaching ki fees bhi emi pr de rhe h hostel ka alag) bahut kehne pr wo total 60k for both class in (2023) pr maan gya lekin aaj usne mujhe phone krke kaha ki 11th me to kam kr di 12 th ki puri lagegi aur mujhse 50k ke maang rha h ab mein apne papa ko bataunga to wo bahut gussa honge kyuki meine unse 60 k dono class ka bola tha aur apni me marzi se us school mein admission karaya aur mere kota aane ke baad hum finacialyy itne stable nhi rhe aur yaaha marks bhi nhi aa rha taane aur denge me socha kisi aur school se 12th krlu jaha kam fees ho pr mera ek dost bola transfer karane me itna aasan nhi h some
please helppp🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺😭😭😭 mujhe kisi ne bataya reddit ke baare me to meine post kiye to pata nhi kya karma low dikha raha h mujhse kuch samach nhi aa rha papa datenge bahut

So Mera eak dost hai uspe 6 subject hai uski agar 5 subject mai cs ko jode toh 74.6 arahe hai aur PE ko jode toh 76.2 arahe hai uski querry yeh hai ki josaa mai 75% criteria ke lie eligible hai ki nhi please help him 🙏 specially seniors

Everybody as of now in the sub, around me and including me has got more than expected. But please ab comparison karne mat baith jana. Ki usko mere se jyada kaise aaye, kaash do, teen number or mil jata. Because you know it yourselves what did you expected and what did you got. Relatives ke bacho ke jyada tho bura mat maano kush raho wo bhi aapse chote hai ya aapke barabaar hai. Relatives pe गुस्सा mat Karo kyuki unke saath bhi aisa hu hua hai.
Kush raho. Haste raho. Aapke sabke aage ka safar jitna aap deserve karte ho usaay jyada acha ho.
धन्यवाद

Hey there This is an anonymous story teller I belong to a normal middle class family Main bhi zyadatar ladkiyon ki tarah ek chote se shehar ki ladki hoon jiske bade-bade khwaab hain Hum aksar logo ko TV par dekhkar unse inspiration lete hain unhe apna idol bana lete unki tarah banna chahte hain Main bhi unhi mei se hi ek hoon Main bhi bachpan se hi TV par actresses ko dekhkar unki tarah acting karne ki koshish karti thi Lekin sabse zyada jo cheez mujhe attract karti thi vo thi Dancing. Bachpan se hi mujhe dance ka bahot shauk tha. Main humesha dance related shows dekh kar unke steps mirror mein copy karne ki koshish karti thi. Mera humesha se hi ek dream tha ki life mei ek baar bas ek baar mujhe ek bade se stage par hazaaron audience ke samne perform karna hai. I wanted to take dance classes to learn it in a better way but couldn't because I come from a background where dancing is considered a taboo and people who continue to do it are shamed upon. Kai baar koshish kiya lekin ghar vale nahi maane. Even though meri mummy kaafi supportive thi humesha se but mere baaki family members ko bilkul pasand nahi tha toh phir maine bhi zidd chord di. Lekin shauk to ab bhi tha. Isiliye shauk pura krne ke liye main apne kamre mein hi dance kiya karti thi. Even though maine on stage perform nhi kiya tha but koi bhi mujhse meri hobby puchta tha to main sabko Dance hi batati thi. Isme logo ki ek baat mujhe bahot khalti thi ki log pehle se hi assume kar lete the ki ladki hai to iski hobby toh dance hi hogi ye jataake ki unhe iske alawa aur kuch nhi aata hai. Ye baat mujhe bahot zyada chubhti thi phir maine socha ki ghar vale dance ke liye toh maan nahi rahe toh kuch aur hi kar lete hain jisse unhe bhi khushi mile aur baaki logo ko bhi dikha saku there's is no limit to a girl's potential So I started playing basketball and slowly I got better and began to represent my school at different places. I also started oration to build my confidence to speak in public.I played numerous basketball matches, did so many stage programs as a host. Main 12th mein thi uss time when I came to know ki mere ghar ke bilkul peeche hi dance class khula hai Toh maine phir mummy se bola mujhe vo join karna hai kyunki ab mere paas hardly 3-4 mahine hi bache the 12th boards se pehle.Mummy maan gayi but humne socha ki hum(mummy aur mai) kisi ko nhi batayenge iske baare mein. Phir daily subah mein jab sab so rhe hote the main dance class jaati thi phir vahan se jaldi jaldi practice karke ghar aake phir dubara school jaati thi Mere dance ko vahan ke logo ne kaafi appreciate kiya ki meri body kaafi fast move karti hai aur main bohot confident rehti hoon dance karte waqt.Tab mujhe realise hua ki wo speed mujhe basketball se mili hai aur confidence mere oration ki vajah se.Then I thought whatever I did till date added on to my dancing skills.I kept practicing for as long as I can.Still kuch hi time kar paayi ye sab Phir boards start hogye phir college.
College mei maine soch liya tha ki yahan to atleast dance perform karungi . Phir maine dheere dheere participate Kiya programs mein. Mujhe aur mauke milne lage dheere dheere mujhe one of the lead dancers bhi bana diya. Competitions mein participate karna start kiya vahan bhi kaafi recognition mila Isi ke saath hi maine apni kuch friends ke sath Dance videos social media par post karna shuru kiya aur bohot hi kam time mein use logo ne dekhna start Kiya aur kaafi taareef ki. Dance video ke views 100 thousands and millions mei jaane lage. And then I got my first collaboration video with an artist with the help of one of my school friends. So right now I'm just working on myself to build a community a space where I get the recognition,I longed for since my childhood.
I will definitely give my name out once I reach somewhere because at this moment I'm in the middle of nowhere. So till then let me be an anonymous story teller 😉
Thankyou 🤗

Hey there ! This is an anonymous story teller I belong to a normal middle class family Main bhi zyadatar ladkiyon ki tarah ek chote se shehar ki ladki hoon jiske bade-bade khwaab hain Hum aksar logo ko TV par dekhkar unse inspiration lete hain unhe apna idol bana lete unki tarah banna chahte hain Main bhi unhi mei se hi ek hoon Main bhi bachpan se hi TV par actresses ko dekhkar unki tarah acting karne ki koshish karti thi Lekin sabse zyada jo cheez mujhe attract karti thi vo thi Dancing. Bachpan se hi mujhe dance ka bahot shauk tha. Main humesha dance related shows dekh kar unke steps mirror mein copy karne ki koshish karti thi. Mera humesha se hi ek dream tha ki life mei ek baar bas ek baar mujhe ek bade se stage par hazaaron audience ke samne perform karna hai. I wanted to take dance classes to learn it in a better way but couldn't because I come from a background where dancing is considered a taboo and people who continue to do it are shamed upon. Kai baar koshish kiya lekin ghar vale nahi maane. Even though meri mummy kaafi supportive thi humesha se but mere baaki family members ko bilkul pasand nahi tha toh phir maine bhi zidd chord di. Lekin shauk to ab bhi tha. Isiliye shauk pura krne ke liye main apne kamre mein hi dance kiya karti thi. Even though maine on stage perform nhi kiya tha but koi bhi mujhse meri hobby puchta tha to main sabko Dance hi batati thi. Isme logo ki ek baat mujhe bahot khalti thi ki log pehle se hi assume kar lete the ki ladki hai to iski hobby toh dance hi hogi ye jataake ki unhe iske alawa aur kuch nhi aata hai. Ye baat mujhe bahot zyada chubhti thi phir maine socha ki ghar vale dance ke liye toh maan nahi rahe toh kuch aur hi kar lete hain jisse unhe bhi khushi mile aur baaki logo ko bhi dikha saku there's is no limit to a girl's potential So I started playing basketball and slowly I got better and began to represent my school at different places. I also started oration to build my confidence to speak in public.I played numerous basketball matches, did so many stage programs as a host. Main 12th mein thi uss time when I came to know ki mere ghar ke bilkul peeche hi dance class khula hai Toh maine phir mummy se bola mujhe vo join karna hai kyunki ab mere paas hardly 3-4 mahine hi bache the 12th boards se pehle.Mummy maan gayi but humne socha ki hum(mummy aur mai) kisi ko nhi batayenge iske baare mein. Phir daily subah mein jab sab so rhe hote the main dance class jaati thi phir vahan se jaldi jaldi practice karke ghar aake phir dubara school jaati thi Mere dance ko vahan ke logo ne kaafi appreciate kiya ki meri body kaafi fast move karti hai aur main bohot confident rehti hoon dance karte waqt.Tab mujhe realise hua ki wo speed mujhe basketball se mili hai aur confidence mere oration ki vajah se.Then I thought whatever I did till date added on to my dancing skills.I kept practicing for as long as I can.Still kuch hi time kar paayi ye sab Phir boards start hogye phir college.
College mei maine soch liya tha ki yahan to atleast dance perform karungi . Phir maine dheere dheere participate Kiya programs mein. Mujhe aur mauke milne lage dheere dheere mujhe one of the lead dancers bhi bana diya. Competitions mein participate karna start kiya vahan bhi kaafi recognition mila Isi ke saath hi maine apni kuch friends ke sath Dance videos social media par post karna shuru kiya aur bohot hi kam time mein use logo ne dekhna start Kiya aur kaafi taareef ki. Dance video ke views 100 thousands and millions mei jaane lage. And then I got my first collaboration video with an artist with the help of one of my school friends. So right now I'm just working on myself to build a community a space where I get the recognition,I longed for since my childhood.
I will definitely give my name out once I reach somewhere because at this moment I'm in the middle of nowhere. So till then let me be an anonymous story teller 😉
Thankyou 🤗