Mommy teaches son to make love

I am new here. I (f) just spent the better part of an hour on my hands and knees, cleaning urine off of the floor, end table (and everything on it), dog toy box, side of the couch, etc... because my husband drunk and half asleep, pissed all over it. He got up out of bed, I asked him what he was doing... He left the bedroom, I followed still asking. And he just pissed, everywhere. I got him to stop and go the rest in the toilet.... But as much as I tried, I wasn't able to get him conscious enough to help me clean it up. I had just gotten a shower too, when I finished I had to get another. I have to be at work in like 6 hours. 😭 And before you ask, no he has never been a sleepwalker. Not once in our 12 year relationship.
I've felt like his drinking has ramped up on and off a few times over the years.... And there have definitely been a few incidents. He's gotten pretty nasty with me a few times(not physical, but just his attitude and yelling at me). He's puked all over our bathroom. Thank God I was able to get him to clean that, even if I had to go back over it to make sure it was actually clean. But this? This is like a whole new level. I didn't even know he had drank that much! But he got started long before I got home from work I am sure.
I'm just. Incredibly frustrated. A little mortified. Worried for our future... And worried for his health. We have discussed the topic several times, and he often admits he drinks too much, and then cuts way back for a while. How should I approach this? Ideally I would like him to stop all together. Keep in mind he is a very reasonable and loving husband when sober. I definitely think there is hope for him to stop. I just mainly needed somewhere to vent, and maybe get some advice for what I should do next.
Thanks for reading.

I have struggled with a profound fear of being seen my entire life. It has ruined my career and my social life. When my first novel was published, all I felt was embarrassment, even though it was well-received.
I haven't been able to write for the last seven years because I'm afraid someone will read what I write. I have a phenomenal therapist, and the last two years of doing Internal Family Systems therapy has helped me so much. In order to face my fears, I decided to launch a YouTube channel recently. (It's literary criticism with a true crime twist.) I don't expect it to get big, and it's probably better for me emotionally if it doesn't. I just want to dip my toes into being seen in the world and have nothing terrible happen. (Yes, my therapist knows and approves.)
Here's where my ndad comes in. Movies have always been his passion, especially golden era films. He knows a tremendous amount about how the studio system worked then, and he's taught film. He raised me and my sister on film, bought us a video camera and taught us to make out own movies. Even when my relationship with Dad was really hard, like when I was a teen, we could go to the movies together. Hell, we were in different states for the Oscars this year, so we Zoomed the entire ceremony together.
Anyway, my father's narcissism is the type where he wants me and my sister to be extensions of his glory, so when we do something he likes, he wants to get involved. To my surprise, he has decided that he loves my channel. He sent me quotes from the videos that he felt were worth writing down (does anyone else's boomer parents do this?) with little complements. It was sweet, and I thanked him. I even asked for ten minutes of his help to film a little segment for the third video, and I credited him under a family nickname
I guess he was flattered, because now he LOVES the videos. Of course, I know how this goes now, and so do you. His involvement in the production - which was previously limited to him holding the camera for a 15-second bit - is now paramount. Yesterday he said he needed to talk to me about my third video, and I thought, Okay, here it comes, the other shoe!
He said, "Your glasses are often crooked in your videos. Is there a way to straighten them on your face?"
I burst out laughing because A. I thought it would be so much worse, and B. My glasses sit crooked because one of my ears sits higher than the other by about a quarter of an inch. I think fixing it would require surgery.
I thought I'd gotten off easy, and my boyfriend and I laughed about it. That's when the email arrived. Now, keep in mind, Dad lives next door. (My partner and I live in one half of a duplex. My parents live in the other half at various times throughout the year, sometimes together, sometimes singly. They have a second home near my sister.) My point being, he didn't have to type all this up. We see each other multiple times per day. We had brunch together a few hours before I received the email!
The email contains a list of issues he sees with my videos. Complaints about turns of phrase I overuse. Framing recommendations. Backhanded compliments. A few real complements. He ends it by referencing the nickname I gave him in the credits. He says he looks forward to being called that nickname by a fan that the two of us will one day meet at an awards banquet for independent filmmakers. (This will never happen, by the way. I make two-hour-long literary criticism videos. The grandiosity he's applying to me-as-extention-of-him is downright oppressive.)
It's there a gentle way to disengage him from my project? I'm not actually planning on running the channel indefinitely, and I'd like to feel like I can do what I want for the life of this project. That's part of the growth I was hoping I would get from this, to trust my own instincts and judgment. Although, learning to manage Dad in artistic areas would also be well worth learning.
I'm thinking of responding, "I'll consider it. Thanks." What do you think? Too abrupt? Too avoidant? I'm open to suggestions here. I really do love my father and value the relationship we have. Yeah, he shook me when I was a baby and threatened to break my legs so I'd never walk again when I was nine, but he's old now. He's quit drinking. The more I understand narcissism, the better and easier our relationship gets. I know it doesn't get better for most people in our position, but it did for me and Dad. So please remember, when you make your suggestions, that this is a relationship I'd like to preserve. Thanks in advance.

We have been dating for 3 months and all her close family members are aware of our relationship. It is only her relatives that are not aware. We got to know each other through a mutual friend and she lives overseas. Recently I supported her financially so we could meet in person and decide if we are going to make this relationship work or not. I planned whole lot of activities and trips. She has said she loves me. The problem is with how she tries to not acknowledge me on her IG.
I just noticed she disabled my comment on her picture that I took and she posted. All I said was how beautiful she looks.
What annoys me is why she did not tell me? Is this a red flag and should I even bother asking her for clarification?

Basically, Roaches unknowingly traveled with me from NYC up to upstate NY. We've been trying to get rid of them for a while now.
I see 5 a month at most in our home now. Is this bad?
Well, my Father is under the belief that roaches love garbage and food. If either is left out, then you will have roaches. He believes that if we stay clean and keep spraying over the counter insecticides, they'll go away.
I keep telling him that it seems like a never ending battle where I bleed money out of my pocket to buy spray that I end up having to apply every other day. We're also relatively clean, but they still pop up.
I complained about the bathtub roach, and he just says that he doesn't know what else to do.
I told my Father that none of this is normal and we never used to live this way. I never had to clean my room once a week or more before.
He just keeps telling me to stay clean and keep spraying, and they'll go away.
I said I planned on hiring an exterminator, and he advised me not to. So I listened and kept up with the cycle.
I saw one just climb inside the bathtub, and there's no food in there... just water. I complained about the bathtub roach, and he just says that he doesn't know what else to do and hes still against the exterminator.
I regret listening to him now and im no longer listening. I'm getting an exterminator even though hes against it. I'm just frustrated because i'm trying to get him to be home when the exterminator visits.
However, he doesn't even know what days hes off.
One week he told me he was going to be off Monday of the following week. When that Monday got closer, and right Before I called the exterminator... I call him to make sure hes off on Monday. He said no...
I got angry and said, "Thank god I called you before I called them"!
Currently I keep trying to find a date when I know hes usually home, but somehow he ends up not being home.

I'm building a new cab with a 32" playfield and am looking to order some parts for the back panel.
I love the look of DMD's but I'm reading through the pinscape build guide and I read this:

The problem is that the sub-pixel structure on the RGB LEDs is way too obvious; it makes the individual dots look too small. It's very noticeably different from the plasma and monochrome LEDs. That's a first-hand opinion, too: I have machines with both kinds of displays at home, and to my eye the video display looks more like the real thing.

What is the general consensus? DMD or video screen?
If I do go with a DMD which are some of the better ones to look at?
Thanks

So I (female 22) have been in an on again off again situationship with (male 24) let’s call him Aaron. I met Aaron a year ago under some very messy circumstances. We were coworkers and just got out of very serious relationship. We were friends but eventually grew feelings for the other and just ended up together. For a number of reasons that would make this post entirely too long he and I broke up. We both want different things out of this relationship. He works 6/7 days a week which leaves him to be distant and too tired to go out on dates and spend any time outside of the bedroom. He says that he owes credit cards so he works hard and long to pay them off. But all we ever do Is my coming over 2 days out the week (which I find sus) and watch movies and occasionally smoke Mary Jane. But I want more out of a relationship and he admits that he can’t provide that. Leaving us to break up until his finally situation lightens. However we still talk every day and see each other occasionally, essentially still acting like a couple without the title. (Yes I know I sound like a dumb ass) but I love this man. He is everything I want in a person but can’t provide what I need in a partner. Now that leads us to my current situation. There’s this guy (21 male) who I’ve known since high school. Let’s call him Derek. Derek and I were best friends in high school and I did have a crush on him one point in time. However due to Covid we kind of drifted apart and have kept contact here and there over the years. But last Friday I found myself out with a few friends and he just so happened to tag along which is completely fine with me as he is still a friend of mine and my high school girl crush feelings are long gone. But after a lot of drinks we ended up kissing at our booth for a while. Throughout the whole night he and I engaged in a lot of flirting and a lot of kissing but nothing more. Derek and I’s mutual friend from high (female 21), Debra saw our interactions and decided to instigate a situation where she stated to Derek “not to play with my emotions because I have feelings for him” she then went on to tell me to “leave Aaron alone and once and for all try Derek because he has feelings for me.” although I was very much intoxicated I knew I wanted nothing more from Derek other then his lips on mine and our flirtatious banter. He was very much a playboy and still a friend of mine. I had no intentions of setting wedding dates and renting uhauls with this man. For once I enjoyed doing something carefree fun and just plane impulsive. I overthink and hide a lot of the time especially with my situation with Aaron. I just wanted to have fun. No expectations. But the next morning I felt entirely guilty. Like I cheated on Aaron even though we aren’t together. My friends say I’m being stupid but I still feel guilty because at the end of the day if roles were reversed I would be extremely hurt. Then again I still have a desire to see Derek again and kiss him maybe even more. Am I an AH?

Hi folks! I’m (26F) and I matched with another 26F , we had a few messages here and there and I really like our conversation and I think she is super interesting . I asked if she would like to meet up and she was busy all of last week bc she had finals and that she can meet up after . I said, no worries and to take her time and that I would love to meet her when she is available; but it has been over a week and she hasn’t messaged back . I have mostly been ghosted on the app and have struggled just getting first dates with folks . I am really tempted to double text her just in case finals and life got in the way but would it be creepy for me too ? I want to make sure I’m respectful and not creepy and I would really love to meet her .

Hello all, the following story is an experience that happened 2 years ago, and now I'm finally at peace enough to speak on it without sadness taking over. To begin I'd like to give some background, I (35M) am a 6 foot tall black Navy vet from the Mid-Atlantic part of the US, fan of hiphop, boxing all the typical urban kid stuff, but a bit of a nerd. Not much trouble with the ladies either, even though like most men I have a dry spell from time to time. The ghoster lets call her Shauna (36F) is Half Vietnamese/French. So here it goes, I was sitting in the lobby of the Amtrak at Penn Station in Baltimore December 30,2021 preparing to take a train to Massachusetts to see some friends. As I'm waiting a small woman (Shauna) approaches me to ask if I'd watch her belongings while she smoked. I obliged as it wasn't a big deal, she profusely thanked me and went to smoke, so soon after she was confused about which train she was scheduled to be on. I simply took a look at her ticket, and to my surprise she was going to be on the same train as I was. This was an interesting development as our conversation revealed we had quite a bit in common (martial arts, anime, music) She was intrigued by my ability to freestyle rap, and put me on to EDM. The train ride with her was short but the conversation was great. I'll admit at the time I didn't think she would be interested in my beyond that but to my surprise we exchanged information. Fast forward about a week and a day after my attempts at contacting her she reached out, apparently at the Griz Festival her phone had shattered and she had to navigate the streets of Philly back to Baltimore. She reached out to me numerous times and we had gotten closer throughout January 2022, it was finally in February that we were able to see each other (work schedules). It was then we decided to become official. I was generally upbeat about this as yes I found her attractive, but also enjoyed her company. Now there were SEVERAL red flags that I overlooked due to this, she had a litany of mental health issues, but at the time I surmised that since she was getting help (I'm also in therapy), that these issues can be navigated through. Things changed in March, I was sure we were solid when mid conversation she had an episode, and apologized before hanging up the phone. I was confused as to what to do, so I did my best to reassure her I wasn't going anywhere, but was met with silence. I knew she didn't have any spoons left so I tried to give her some of mine (mental health speak for time and energy). This went on for a few days and I began to grow concerned, each day I'd reach out to see if she was even alive and more silence. It was then on the last Friday in March (right before the Will Smith slap at the Oscar's) that I had awakened to find that she had blocked me. So that was jarring, and later on soul crushing. Out of nowhere someone that you were building things with can disappear. We had summer plans and I was making major repairs on my car so we could go camping (something she loved to do). I was broken for awhile due to that, and sessions with my therapist only helped me get to why I was so distraught over something that was so brief. I haven't heard from her at all, and truly wish her the best. So TLDR: met a beautiful stranger on a train, which blossomed into something I was led to believe would be long term, got ghosted then blocked.

Four months ago I loaded my two youngest kids into our rental car and drove around for almost 3 hours. They love car rides. I put on their favorite music and we stopped to get ice cream cones. What they didn't realize was I was looking for something to crash into that wouldn’t hurt anyone but me. When I found what I was looking for I pulled over, took them out of the car, and called 911 to tell the dispatcher where I was leaving them. I wrote out my sister's number on a piece of paper so the cops would call her. It was incredibly selfish of me but I couldn’t handle life. If you read any of my posts you will see why I lost my wife and two oldest boys almost 6 months ago.
I couldn’t drive away like I thought I would be able to. The cops came and after I talked to them for about half an hour I was taken to the hospital where I would spend the next month. A whole month of inpatient treatment. I got on meds and I was forced into multiple therapies a day. It ended up saving my life. I was able to properly grieve in a way I never would have been able to by myself while being dad to my two other kids who don’t understand death. Unfortunately I went a month without pay and now we are getting evicted in a week. Leading up to my wife's death all we talked about was money and her getting a job after being a SAHM for a decade because we were broke. I was working two jobs and it wasn’t enough. I was getting ready to be promoted but that didn’t happen.
My community helped a ton already but I couldn’t catch up. I almost regret getting help because going a month with no income is impossible to survive. I texted my landlord and asked what I should do with all of our furniture and belongings because I can’t afford a Uhaul and storage unit right now and he said to “just leave it”.
I could live in a box under the bridge if I had my family with me but now I have a house full of memories with material possessions I worked so hard for just to lose it all too. I told myself working so much and being away from my family would be worth it in the end and when my kids got older they would understand. My two oldest kids won’t be getting older. I didn’t get enough time with them. My two youngest will grow up without a mom.
I’m grateful that my sister is letting us move into her spare room. We were estranged for about a decade and my boys already love her. We will have very limited space so I’m forced to decide what stuff do I save? Do I make sure my youngests has all their toys and clothes or do I only take half so I have room to save some of my oldests things too? I need things to remember them because there are days where I wonder if they even existed because how in the hell are they not here? I’ll have my memories but sometimes I need to physically hold something of theirs. The other day it was a spider man toothbrush.
The thought of “just leaving it” next week has me spiraling because I still feel them here. Ready or not we have to go and I’m devastated.

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I’m just lonely recently. I do okay with women. But it’s hard out here. My last gf was amazing also I have my dog I take care of and my job takes a lot of my time. I’m looking for someone. I’m 6’2 180lbs if that is of interest. I’m an introvert at heart but have to step out of my comfort zone for work. I love horror movies. I love documentaries. I do sudoku’s everyday. I try to read a book a week. I love dogs more than people. They don’t judge. Rock and alternative music is my thing. But I have a sweet spot for emo. Idk why. I’m recently into rock climbing. It’s hard but I love it. I have always wanted to get a tattoo but have never brought myself to do it. I love romcoms. They are the only thing that makes me cry. That’s a bit about me. Reach out if you are interested.

Every final fantasy has his epic final dungeon. The one that is crippling you with super strong enemies, epic vibes, and rare save points. What feelings did those dungeons give you?
1) Chaos Shrine. I can't ask so much from the very first FF. It's a really generic map, actually. The most epic thing here is Garland's story itself, it gives me some sadness, not much the map, really.
2) Pandemonium. This one is beautiful but I have only seen it in walkthrough, so not living it in first person, I can't really say how it makes me feel. But it surely is a pleasure for the eyes.
3) World of Darkness. That was difficult. I don't remember any save point and the monsters were though, so it made me feel thrilled the whole time. The concept is cool but it's nothing special to look at. I like it a little more in the 3d remake and gives me victory vibes.
4) Lunar Subterrane. Scary one. The enemies are very strong and there is only one save point very, very far from the entrance. I find it really good conceptually. Graphically not so impressive, it's just a cave. But man the Red Wings ost really makes it epic! And I like the fact that even on the moon itself you are not only going to explore the surface.
5) Interdimentional Rift. I find this one super fascinating since it is sorta connected to all Final Fantasy worlds, with Shinryu and all. It also has maps which are all different in tilesets and atmosphere. It's pretty good and makes me feel really lost.
6) Kefka's Tower. This one also fears me, but I don't particularly like it even if it comes from one of my absolute favourite games. The atmosphere is kinda creepy tho, and the iron tileset (same as Vector) is intimidating. Well made final dungeon. And Kefka is easily my favourite villain.
7) Northern Crater. One of the most beautiful yet strange locations in the game. It's atmospheric and all the green light makes it pretty eerie. I can feel the nuclear intoxication on my skin when I enter it. I think this is the purpose.
8) Ultimecia Castle. Aww, beautiful. The first time I didn't know how to play and got annihilated. The place is scary and very beautiful at the same time.
9) I am sorry, but I only watched the ending on YT. So I don't even remember if Memoria or Crystal World Is considered the final dungeon here. But I remember the Crystal world being very beautiful and eerie.
10) Inside Sin. Maybe my favourite final dungeon aesthetically and even conceptually. It is dangerous to navigate, but it doesn't scare me tho. Instead, it makes me feel pretty sad for all the lost things it contains. I see it almost like an abstract place, like a spiritual journey. Beautifully done.
10-2) Farplane. I like the Farplane of X-2 more then the one of X since you can physically walk in it (and the all-cold coloured palette of the flower field instead of the warm one is a personal preference, not to mention the x-2 OST in that place!). But the very final part where the final boss is is strange and unsettling.
12) Pharos at Ridorana. I love the lore of this place and it is a pretty epic final dungeon. It's huge, and you keep going up and up facing really strange phenomenas. One of the best to me, makes me feel thrilled the whole time.
13) Orphan cradle. Now this is on par with X's inside Sin aesthetically speaking, because it is really beautiful to look at, and confusing. I remember staring at it instead of moving on with the game at the time.
And that's all from me. What about you?
PS: and I am sorry if my english isn't perfect. I try to write instead of asking some AI to translate for me, so I can exercise.

My girlfriend (26f) I've been dating for four months and tonight she sent me a link to baby photos and I (28m) responded with saying "one day in the future." She asked in response "next year" I told her we aren't there yet. She then sent me text saying I was like her ex because he didn't want a baby either. (for added context she's still in college and we are not living together yet) I loved this girl I do but this really hurt and affected me. I was quite shocked to receive such a response and cannot even begin to think of a response back. She's been a wonderful girlfriend making me smile and laugh. I don't want to rush anything especially having babies when we haven't had a discussion about them nor do we have the money or time. I'm incredibly confused and hurt and need to know if someone can relate to this situation. Any advice would be appreciated.

I’m rewatching and I’m realizing that Mariko very much liked John pretty early into the show. Yknow why? Because whenever John spoke very disrespectfully or belligerently, she ALWAYS mistranslated to make his words seem MUCH kinder than they actually were so that he didn’t get his head cut off. Idk, it so little, but kinda cute how much she loved him to purposely misconstrue his words in front of the likes of Toranaga and Buntaro just to spare his life.

I’m 29F and recently posted about having a low AMH (0.6). My doctor says we need to TTC immediately and if we don’t fall pregnant within 6 months, it’s on to IVF.
I’m feeling many complicated things as I wasn’t quite planning on having children yet, but now I’m scared of not having any at all. My partner of 4 years (43M) has a teenage daughter from a previous marriage and before we started dating he wasn’t planning on having any more children. Once we got together I was clear that I wanted to start a family. He said it initially wasn’t something he thought he would be doing, but he would love to have a child together and feels he is happiest when he’s a dad.
Despite this, I can’t help but feel the gravity of this whole situation is hitting us differently. I feel like he’s in a situation where he’s had and raised his daughter (and a step son from previous marriage) and if it happens for us, it happens otherwise no biggie. Where I feel I’m faced with a timeline I never expected and a journey ahead that we all know can be so difficult, with the fear of not being able to do this easily or at all.
Also, how do you not feel resenemnt towards other people? Two of my sisters have had severe drug problems and have had 2 kids each and multiple pregnancies that have been aborted. One sister no longer has custody of her children and the other lost hers to child safety for two years when they were younger etc. I love children, have a masters of education and have always wanted to be a mum. Don’t drink, smoke or do drugs. I’m as healthy as I possibly can be. How do I accept this diagnosis?

I keep this story short, my in-laws absolutely hate me. Their hatred did not truly show until I had been married to my husband for a year. Over the last year I have been told by my in-laws that I ruin every family event I attend, that no one in the family and extended family can stand to be around me, that my family is too perfect, that I have stolen their son from them, that I am not truly part of the family and I never will be, that I have ruined their lives and torn their family apart and on and on. One day they say that they love me and then the next I am blamed for everything going wrong in their lives. It got to the point that my husband and I both agree that we needed to cut contact for the time being. I have recently learned that his mother is a massive narcissist and that his father has sever anger issues. These have been issues through my husband's entire life.
To try to get them to come to Jesus and treat me with a little respect I made the point that how they treat me will directly affect their relationship with any future grandchildren. I told them that if they can't even treat me with a little respect and kindness how do I know that they will not treat our children the same way. I have been so hurt by them that I don't want to drag my future children into this and I am worried what my in-laws may do to them or say to them if they are ever alone together. My husband 110% agrees with me on this end. He has also told them that if they do not treat me with respect or push the boundaries that we have set that there will be no contact with them in the future.
They recently cam over to our house and instead of seeing that they needed to mend out relationship they accused me of threatening them and that we can not take away their rights as grandparents. That they can come see their future grandchildren whenever they like despite how our relationship goes, and they say that their relationship with me has nothing to do with their relationship with their grandchildren.
This is all crazy to me because we don't even have children yet, but as my husband and I want to start a family in the next year or two this has been weighing heavily on my heart. I don't want our children to suffer the same emotional abusive that my husband and I have endured. (The emotional abuse started for me about a year ago, but after talking extensively with my husband a lot of abusive has been happening during his entire life, including childhood.) My in-laws have mentioned about taking us to court and I want to know if they have any right? Should I start gathering evidence now on the off chance that they do? What if they demand to be in the hospital when the baby is born? What if they show up to our house and refuse to leave? Do grandparent rights ever trump parent rights as long as the parent is alive and capable of taking care of the child? I truly hopes it never gets to that point but I also want to be prepared.
If you have read all of this, thank you. I greatly appreciate it.

I lost all of my friends and everyone i know hates me. I’ve gotten severely bullied for 12 years. my girlfriend tries so hard to make me feel loved but it’s not something i can feel and i know she’s tired and won’t tell me. i’ve gone out of my way for everyone my entire life and all that got me was raped and abused by my ex partners. i was 2 years clean of self harm until everything went to shit. I graduate in less than and month and I don’t want to make it that long i don’t care about anything and living in America isn’t helping any of this. I hate waking up. i’d give someone my bank information if it meant they would kill me. i haven’t been happy in so long im so tired.

DAE feel like OCD makes the fear of emotional intimacy and vulnerability worse somehow? Like, I'm afraid because I feel like if I get too close to someone, that something will happen to them or the friendship I have with them. In some cases I'm afraid I will act inappropriately on accident and cause irreparable damage to my closest relationships. Sometimes I even doubt my friends' intentions toward and feelings about me. I have so many doubts and fears about my loved ones and have had them for so long that I only recently got diagnosed because I finally realized they were excessive. It's like I don't trust myself to be a good enough friend to have close friendships. And not to mention, the closer I feel I am to someone, the more I feel the need to overstep and overinvolve myself or try to overcontrol because of my fears. It's really a struggle for me to let go of that feeling of control, so much so that I'm ashamed of it, and end up pushing people away so they don't see that side of me.

Hey there, I'm 27 and from the Midwest US. Having an uneventful day and I'd love to pass the time with a fun chat! I also used to teach for a while so if you have questions about being teacher I'd love to answer those!
If I were to describe myself I'd say I'm a more outdoorsy person with very indoor hobbies. Love a good hike, driving around while listening to music, reading, also been into MMOs my entire life.
Hit me up if you're interested! Let me know your age/gender when you reach out so I know a bit about who I'm talking to.

i honestly would never pursue it because i know the pay isn’t good and there’s a lot of drama in the workplace from what i’ve heard (but honestly what kind of career doesn’t have drama).. but i love the idea of showing up to a school and being able to do fun lessons with children. and i love janine with her cute outfits, that also makes me want to be a teacher 😭 maybe im delusional but i love the idea of it!!!

For some of the season, I wanted OKC to make a big run for the Finals out West. I'm glad they got the 1 seed causd OKC is an incredible young team, & SGA is my guy, & I happen to be a big UK (Shoutout KAT to obviously)! Anyways..I had watched highlights from games the day after, & watched some games of the TWolves over the regularcseason, & I fell in love w/ Ant. I've always had a soft spot for Naz Reid, but man..Ant was a fucking menace all year long. What he's done in the playoffs, & in Game 4, is something I can't say I've seen from someone his age since I started watching basketball back in 2002. An absolutely career-defining game up to this point in his career. I can hear it like a legend or some mystical Folktale already.."Remember Game 4 Ant against the Suns in the First Round of the 2024 playoffs?"...
But yea..He's one of my favorite players to watch, & I really want to see ya'll win the West this year. The Wolves surprised everyone w/ their play & performance, & the win seemed like it was a carved in stone moment for them to belong on the list of best NBA teams this year. They seem to have a great core to compete for a while. Here's to a hopeful Knicks-TWolves Finals! Fuck Joel Embiid!

I was stalked by a 21 year old man when I was a freshman in college. He showed up wherever I was and sent me sexually explicit messages and videos. This man said he fantasized that I had lost my legs in my traumatic accident so that he could kiss my stumps and make me feel beautiful. He confessed to almost raping his ex girlfriend. When I blocked him, he found my dorm building, got in, and somehow found my room at 1am at night. He waited there for a while, and when I didn’t respond, he concluded I must be hurting myself and reported me to my campus’s police for a wellness check, where I was forced to bring up bad memories to two strangers. He messaged my friends and boyfriend at the time months afterwards talking about how much he loved me.
I blamed myself for this, as I had responded to his first messages. I had been excited to go to college already having made my first friend, and he made me feel like I was worthy of admiration and attention. I had struggled with my self-esteem for most of my childhood and adolescence, and he found me at my most vulnerable time.
Watching Baby Reindeer has helped me find empathy for myself, and forgive my 18 year old self for responding to him in the first place and for not taking action until a lot had already happened. Richard Gadd’s bravery has helped me heal in multiple ways. Thank you Richard Gadd, for giving me this.