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2024.05.14 00:06 Southern-Hospital388 Might be getting screwed by my recruiter
I joined the DEP around June last year while going into my senior year of high school. I joined so early because I was promised to get any job that I qualified for. I chose AG contract, which I got and was happy with. Saw my name and social on the contract with my ship date. As of 2 1/2 weeks ago the recruiting office Gunny pulled me into the office after a PT and told me my contract was changed as well as my ship date for reasons unknown. And I told them to fix it or I won’t ship. And they said no problem we should get it fixed in the next week or two. Fast forward now, just got off the phone with my recruiter and he said it hasn’t changed. And that the best course of action is to go to MEPS on my ship date and refuse to sign unless they give me AG. Or go talk to the Sergeant Major. I would much rather get it sorted before going to MEPS and being peer pressured into signing some contract I don’t want. And I’m also worried cause he said I would be kicked out of the DEP if I did refuse. I’m not sure what to do. We have a DI function in two weeks that they say is mandatory and i have been thinking as using that as a bargaining chip. What do you guys think?
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2024.05.13 23:58 musical-amara Rip and Tear: A Decade of Doom
In the annals of gaming history, few titles command the reverence and adoration as the legendary Doom franchise. Born from the minds of John Romero, John Carmack, Adrian Carmack, and Tom Hall, Doom would go on to lay the foundations for just about every modern video game that exists. It was a true tour de force, a success story few could scarce ever imagine.
Released in 1993, Doom was an immediate smash hit, thanks in no small part to its shareware format, which allowed users to experience the first few levels of Knee Deep In the Dead, and then order the full game via the phone number included. Players could then share the floppy disk with their friends, and so on, and so on. It was a truly revolutionary system, and within a single year, Doom had sold over 2 million copies.
The history of the Doom franchise is one of innovation, ultra violence, and controversy (1999's Columbine High School Massacre), and that reputation is one that continued with 2016's DOOM. DOOM was officially revealed at Quakecon 2014, ten years after Doom 3. Players had long resigned to Doom being considered a dead franchise. A reboot had been in the works for a number of years prior, but never got released, having been quietly cancelled by id in 2010. The future was bleak, but the 30 second long teaser ignited a spark that had been burning dimmer every passing year.
Then came E3 2015.
The hype was unreal. The trailer had everything that fans could possibly want. Gore, intense violence, insane run n gun gameplay, a rip-roaring soundtrack and the MFING CHAINSAW. But fans had been let down before. Would it really hold up its promises?
Yes. Yes, it would.
PART I: Presentation
When DOOM burst onto the scene in 2016, it did so with a visual and auditory spectacle that left players awestruck. From the moment the game boots up, players are made aware that this is not your average shooter. You are greeted with a deep, commanding voice. "Rip and tear, until it is DONE."
Immediately, players are greeted with a scene of carnage and the Doom Slayer chained to a table, which, of course, he instantly breaks free from. A zombie attempts to relieve the Slayer of his life but is beaten to the punch with a prompt skull smashing. After putting the other zombies to rest, he interacts with the panel in the corner, is greeted by one Dr. Samuel Hayden, who attempts to justify the outbreak, and decides he would rather kill shit than listen to excuses and destroys the monitor.
That is the introduction to this game. It never wastes the player's time. We aren't here to listen to long droning monologues or watch MGS style cutscenes. id Software knew their audience, and knew what that audience wanted, and they deliver in spades. This introduction sets the tone for the entire experience: relentless action, unapologetic violence, and a protagonist who is as unstoppable as he is uncompromising. The Doom Slayer's disdain for exposition and his single-minded focus on annihilating demons resonate with players who crave a pure, unadulterated gaming experience.
By eschewing lengthy cutscenes and exposition-heavy dialogue in favor of fast-paced gameplay and visceral action, id Software delivers a game that respects the player's time and delivers exactly what they came for: non-stop demon-slaying action. In an era where many games are criticized for padding their runtime with unnecessary filler, DOOM stands out as a shining example of how to create a focused and engaging experience that keeps players coming back for more.
Rather than bombarding players with lengthy exposition or intrusive cutscenes, DOOM opts for a more environmental storytelling approach. Throughout the game, players can discover audio logs, read text-based terminals, and observe environmental details that provide context and background to the events unfolding around them.
The story of DOOM revolves around the Doom Slayer's mission to stop a demonic invasion unleashed by the Union Aerospace Corporation (UAC) on their Martian facility. As players progress through the game, they uncover details about the UAC's experiments with Hell energy, the origins of the demonic invasion, and the Doom Slayer's own mysterious past.
While the story may not be front and center in DOOM, it nonetheless adds depth and richness to the game world, enhancing the overall experience for players who choose to engage with it. And for those who prefer to focus solely on the action, the story remains secondary, allowing them to enjoy the game on their own terms.
That's all well and good, but what about the actual gameplay? Simply put, it is exhilarating. From the moment you are given control of the Slayer, players are thrust into a frenzy of blood and violence, and it never lets up. At its core, DOOM is a first-person shooter that harkens back to the genre's roots while injecting it with a healthy dose of modern flair. The gameplay is fast-paced, frenetic, and utterly unapologetic in its brutality. You're not just a player – you're the Doom Slayer, a force of nature hell-bent on eradicating every last demon in your path.
Central to the gameplay experience is the game's combat loop, which revolves around a delicate balance of aggression and strategy. In DOOM, there's no hiding behind cover or waiting for your health to regenerate – you're constantly on the move, strafing, dodging, and leaping across the battlefield as you unleash a torrent of bullets, rockets, and plasma upon your enemies.
Weapons include the iconic shotgun, heavy assault rifle, plasma rifle, rocket launcher, and the devastating BFG 9000, among others. Each weapon offers different firing modes, such as single shot, burst fire, and continuous beam, providing players with tactical options in combat. A key aspect of combat is the Glory Kill system, which allows players to perform brutal finishing moves on staggered enemies. Glory Kills not only provide health and ammo but also contribute to the flow of combat by encouraging aggressive play. It is incredibly satisfying to watch the Slayer rip an imp in half or stomp their head into the pavement, and doing so rewards you with a large return of health.
The Chainsaw mechanic is another integral part of combat, allowing players to instantly kill most enemies and gain a large amount of ammo in return. However, Chainsaw fuel is limited and must be managed carefully. Like Glory Kills, watching the chainsaw tear demons apart is incredibly satisfying. Certain demons require more fuel but provide the player with more ammo in return. Balancing which demons you chainsaw and which ones you choose to Glory Kill is an important part of combat.
Exploration is key to progression and is rewarding to those players who choose to do. Hidden throughout the levels of the game are Argent Cells, Praetor Tokens, and Rune Trials. Each of these provide upgrades to your health/shield/ammo, suit, and passive abilities respectively. Also hidden throughout the game are levers that lead you to classic levels from Doom 1 and Doom 2, which then unlock the full level of its respective game, playable from the main menu. You can also find toy models of the Doom Slayer, which unlock various character models to view. On some of these models, the Doom Slayer will perform a unique action when picking it up, such as fist bumping the classic Doomguy. It's a nice and cute little touch added by the developers that does a little to add character to the Slayer, who is a silent protagonist.
id Software masterfully blends modern game design with a deep reverence for the classics, paying homage to the series' storied history while introducing new elements that propel the franchise forward. Central to this approach is the game's character design, which strikes a delicate balance between nostalgia and innovation. At its core is the iconic protagonist, the Doom Slayer, whose design pays homage to the original Doom Marine while incorporating modern updates that make him feel both familiar and fresh. With his battle-worn armor, imposing stature, and silent demeanor, the Doom Slayer is the embodiment of raw power and unrelenting rage.
The game's roster of enemies is a veritable who's who of classic Doom foes, reimagined for the modern era. From the lowly possessed soldiers to the hulking Cyberdemon, each enemy is lovingly crafted to capture the essence of its 1990s counterpart while introducing new mechanics and behaviors that keep players on their toes. Whether you're facing off against the agile Revenants, the relentless Hell Knights, or the grotesque Cacodemons, every encounter is a nostalgic trip down memory lane, punctuated by the satisfying sound of demon flesh being torn asunder.
But the main story is not where it ends. DOOM has an arcade mode, where players can run through the levels again, this time trying for high scores and medals while collecting 1 Ups. It's important to move fast and have accurate aim; the more kills you chain together, the bigger your score is. Getting hit reduces your score. At the end of the level, your score is tallied against others on a leaderboard. It's a great way to incentivize players to keep playing, in order to get a better and better score.
There is also multiplayer, where players compete in various game modes such as classic deathmatch, warpath and free for all. Players can become demons by collecting runes on the battlefield and this gives them a distinct advantage; demons are larger, stronger and more resilient. Players are bizarrely restricted to only two weapons and a loadout in multiplayer, which blew my mind. Loadouts. In a DOOM game. The demons are also massively unbalanced and if one team manages to get a particularly powerful demon such as a baron of hell, then it's a guaranteed win. All in all, the multiplayer just isn't great. You are better off replaying the story or arcade mode, or even SnapMap.
SnapMap is id Software's proprietary level editor, and it puts every other editor on the market to shame. SnapMap is an incredible, intuitive, easy to learn system allowing players to create their own multiplayer, co-op and single player maps. There is an extensive tutorial system that teaches users the basics, and goes up in depth, covering how to use AI triggers, switches, combinations, object layering, actions, recalls, audio cues, etc. Never have I ever seen such an in-depth interface on a console game before. While it is only surface level in the grand scheme of things, SnapMap is a great introduction to teaching users how game development works, and I urge everyone to try it out at least once.
Part II: The Music
In DOOM, the music isn't just a background accompaniment – it's a driving force that propels players forward, electrifying every moment of the gameplay experience. Composed by the incredibly talented Mick Gordon, the soundtrack of DOOM is a relentless onslaught of metal and electronica that perfectly complements the game's fast-paced action and visceral combat. From the moment you boot up the game, you're greeted by the iconic strains of the main theme, a haunting melody that sets the tone for the epic journey that lies ahead. As you traverse the game's environments, the music shifts seamlessly between atmospheric ambience and pulse-pounding metal.
But it's not just the composition of the music that makes it so memorable – it's also the way it's integrated into the gameplay itself. Mick Gordon's dynamic scoring system ensures that the music evolves in real-time based on the player's actions, ramping up in intensity during combat encounters and dialing back during quieter moments of exploration. This creates a sense of momentum and flow that enhances the overall pacing of the game
One of the standout features of the soundtrack is its use of unconventional instrumentation and sound design. Mick Gordon's signature sound combines distorted guitars, pounding drums, and industrial noise to create a sonic palette that is as brutal and unforgiving as the game itself. From the deep, guttural growls of the synth bass to the ear-shredding shrieks of the guitar solos, every element of the music is designed to evoke a sense of chaos and destruction, mirroring the relentless carnage unfolding onscreen.
Of course, no discussion of the music in DOOM would be complete without mentioning the iconic tracks that have become synonymous with the game. From the adrenaline-fueled "Rip & Tear" to the bone-crushing "BFG Division," each track is a masterpiece of composition and production, perfectly capturing the essence of the DOOM experience and elevating it to new heights. Mick Gordon's composition for the DOOM soundtrack is a tour de force in heavy metal and industrial electronica, meticulously crafted to evoke the essence of the game's frenetic gameplay.
The backbone of the soundtrack is the distorted guitar, which provides the driving force behind many of the tracks. Gordon's use of extended-range guitars and custom-tuned instruments gives the music its signature low-end punch, while his aggressive playing style adds a raw, visceral energy to the sound. In addition to guitars, Gordon incorporates a wide range of electronic and synthetic elements into his compositions, including synthesizers, drum machines, and sampled sounds. These elements are used to create atmospheric textures, rhythmic patterns, and dynamic effects.
One of the most innovative aspects of Gordon's sound design is his use of audio manipulation techniques, such as granular synthesis and spectral processing. These techniques allow him to deconstruct and manipulate audio in real-time, creating complex textures and effects.
Perhaps the most revolutionary aspect of Mick Gordon's composition for DOOM is his dynamic scoring system, which adjusts the music in real-time based on the player's actions. This system, known as "MIDI-controlled dynamic music," allows the music to seamlessly transition between different layers and variations depending on the intensity of the gameplay. Gordon achieves this dynamic effect by dividing each track into multiple stems or layers, each representing a different element of the music (e.g., drums, guitars, synths). These stems are then triggered and mixed in real-time using MIDI data generated by the game engine, allowing the music to adapt and evolve dynamically as the player progresses through the game.
Part III: Building a Legacy
All too often in this industry, legacy franchises are either left in the dust to be forgotten, or brought back to a limp fanfare, only to be thrust back into the shadows of the past. This happens for a myriad of reasons, and I believe the biggest one is that they don't respect their legacy, and they don't respect the players who engage with them.
At its core, DOOM is a game that understands what players want: fast-paced action, engaging gameplay, and a sense of empowerment. By focusing on these core principles, id Software created an experience that resonated with players old and new, capturing the spirit of the original games while pushing the series forward. Central to this approach is the game's unwavering commitment to respecting the player. From its minimalist storytelling and streamlined level design to its intuitive controls and dynamic difficulty system, DOOM prioritizes the player's experience above all else, ensuring that every moment of the game is engaging, immersive, and satisfying.
One of the most notable ways that DOOM respects the player is through its approach to difficulty. Rather than imposing artificial barriers or punishing players for their mistakes, the game encourages experimentation and mastery through its responsive gameplay mechanics and adaptive enemy AI. Players are given the freedom to approach encounters in their own way, whether it's through brute force, cunning strategy, or a combination of both.
Another key aspect of DOOM's player-centric design is its emphasis on accessibility. From its difficulty settings and intuitive user interface to its robust accessibility features, such as colorblind modes and customizable controls, the game ensures that players of all skill levels and abilities can enjoy the experience without feeling excluded or overwhelmed.
But perhaps the most important way that DOOM respects the player is through its commitment to fun. At its core, DOOM is a game that prioritizes the player's enjoyment above all else, delivering a seamless and exhilarating experience that keeps players coming back for more. Whether you're blasting demons with a shotgun, exploring hidden secrets, or rocking out to Mick Gordon's pulse-pounding soundtrack, DOOM is a game that never stops prioritizing YOU.
DOOM's legacy is one of respect – respect for the player, respect for the franchise, and respect for the medium of video games as a whole. By prioritizing fun, accessibility, and player agency, id Software created an experience that not only honors the legacy of the original games but also sets a new standard for what a modern first-person shooter can be. And for that, we owe them a debt of gratitude.
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Released in 1993, Doom was an immediate smash hit, thanks in no small part to its shareware format, which allowed users to experience the first few levels of Knee Deep In the Dead, and then order the full game via the phone number included. Players could then share the floppy disk with their friends, and so on, and so on. It was a truly revolutionary system, and within a single year, Doom had sold over 2 million copies.
The history of the Doom franchise is one of innovation, ultra violence, and controversy (1999's Columbine High School Massacre), and that reputation is one that continued with 2016's DOOM. DOOM was officially revealed at Quakecon 2014, ten years after Doom 3. Players had long resigned to Doom being considered a dead franchise. A reboot had been in the works for a number of years prior, but never got released, having been quietly cancelled by id in 2010. The future was bleak, but the 30 second long teaser ignited a spark that had been burning dimmer every passing year.
Then came E3 2015.
The hype was unreal. The trailer had everything that fans could possibly want. Gore, intense violence, insane run n gun gameplay, a rip-roaring soundtrack and the MFING CHAINSAW. But fans had been let down before. Would it really hold up its promises?
Yes. Yes, it would.
PART I: Presentation
When DOOM burst onto the scene in 2016, it did so with a visual and auditory spectacle that left players awestruck. From the moment the game boots up, players are made aware that this is not your average shooter. You are greeted with a deep, commanding voice. "Rip and tear, until it is DONE."
Immediately, players are greeted with a scene of carnage and the Doom Slayer chained to a table, which, of course, he instantly breaks free from. A zombie attempts to relieve the Slayer of his life but is beaten to the punch with a prompt skull smashing. After putting the other zombies to rest, he interacts with the panel in the corner, is greeted by one Dr. Samuel Hayden, who attempts to justify the outbreak, and decides he would rather kill shit than listen to excuses and destroys the monitor.
That is the introduction to this game. It never wastes the player's time. We aren't here to listen to long droning monologues or watch MGS style cutscenes. id Software knew their audience, and knew what that audience wanted, and they deliver in spades. This introduction sets the tone for the entire experience: relentless action, unapologetic violence, and a protagonist who is as unstoppable as he is uncompromising. The Doom Slayer's disdain for exposition and his single-minded focus on annihilating demons resonate with players who crave a pure, unadulterated gaming experience.
By eschewing lengthy cutscenes and exposition-heavy dialogue in favor of fast-paced gameplay and visceral action, id Software delivers a game that respects the player's time and delivers exactly what they came for: non-stop demon-slaying action. In an era where many games are criticized for padding their runtime with unnecessary filler, DOOM stands out as a shining example of how to create a focused and engaging experience that keeps players coming back for more.
Rather than bombarding players with lengthy exposition or intrusive cutscenes, DOOM opts for a more environmental storytelling approach. Throughout the game, players can discover audio logs, read text-based terminals, and observe environmental details that provide context and background to the events unfolding around them.
The story of DOOM revolves around the Doom Slayer's mission to stop a demonic invasion unleashed by the Union Aerospace Corporation (UAC) on their Martian facility. As players progress through the game, they uncover details about the UAC's experiments with Hell energy, the origins of the demonic invasion, and the Doom Slayer's own mysterious past.
While the story may not be front and center in DOOM, it nonetheless adds depth and richness to the game world, enhancing the overall experience for players who choose to engage with it. And for those who prefer to focus solely on the action, the story remains secondary, allowing them to enjoy the game on their own terms.
That's all well and good, but what about the actual gameplay? Simply put, it is exhilarating. From the moment you are given control of the Slayer, players are thrust into a frenzy of blood and violence, and it never lets up. At its core, DOOM is a first-person shooter that harkens back to the genre's roots while injecting it with a healthy dose of modern flair. The gameplay is fast-paced, frenetic, and utterly unapologetic in its brutality. You're not just a player – you're the Doom Slayer, a force of nature hell-bent on eradicating every last demon in your path.
Central to the gameplay experience is the game's combat loop, which revolves around a delicate balance of aggression and strategy. In DOOM, there's no hiding behind cover or waiting for your health to regenerate – you're constantly on the move, strafing, dodging, and leaping across the battlefield as you unleash a torrent of bullets, rockets, and plasma upon your enemies.
Weapons include the iconic shotgun, heavy assault rifle, plasma rifle, rocket launcher, and the devastating BFG 9000, among others. Each weapon offers different firing modes, such as single shot, burst fire, and continuous beam, providing players with tactical options in combat. A key aspect of combat is the Glory Kill system, which allows players to perform brutal finishing moves on staggered enemies. Glory Kills not only provide health and ammo but also contribute to the flow of combat by encouraging aggressive play. It is incredibly satisfying to watch the Slayer rip an imp in half or stomp their head into the pavement, and doing so rewards you with a large return of health.
The Chainsaw mechanic is another integral part of combat, allowing players to instantly kill most enemies and gain a large amount of ammo in return. However, Chainsaw fuel is limited and must be managed carefully. Like Glory Kills, watching the chainsaw tear demons apart is incredibly satisfying. Certain demons require more fuel but provide the player with more ammo in return. Balancing which demons you chainsaw and which ones you choose to Glory Kill is an important part of combat.
Exploration is key to progression and is rewarding to those players who choose to do. Hidden throughout the levels of the game are Argent Cells, Praetor Tokens, and Rune Trials. Each of these provide upgrades to your health/shield/ammo, suit, and passive abilities respectively. Also hidden throughout the game are levers that lead you to classic levels from Doom 1 and Doom 2, which then unlock the full level of its respective game, playable from the main menu. You can also find toy models of the Doom Slayer, which unlock various character models to view. On some of these models, the Doom Slayer will perform a unique action when picking it up, such as fist bumping the classic Doomguy. It's a nice and cute little touch added by the developers that does a little to add character to the Slayer, who is a silent protagonist.
id Software masterfully blends modern game design with a deep reverence for the classics, paying homage to the series' storied history while introducing new elements that propel the franchise forward. Central to this approach is the game's character design, which strikes a delicate balance between nostalgia and innovation. At its core is the iconic protagonist, the Doom Slayer, whose design pays homage to the original Doom Marine while incorporating modern updates that make him feel both familiar and fresh. With his battle-worn armor, imposing stature, and silent demeanor, the Doom Slayer is the embodiment of raw power and unrelenting rage.
The game's roster of enemies is a veritable who's who of classic Doom foes, reimagined for the modern era. From the lowly possessed soldiers to the hulking Cyberdemon, each enemy is lovingly crafted to capture the essence of its 1990s counterpart while introducing new mechanics and behaviors that keep players on their toes. Whether you're facing off against the agile Revenants, the relentless Hell Knights, or the grotesque Cacodemons, every encounter is a nostalgic trip down memory lane, punctuated by the satisfying sound of demon flesh being torn asunder.
But the main story is not where it ends. DOOM has an arcade mode, where players can run through the levels again, this time trying for high scores and medals while collecting 1 Ups. It's important to move fast and have accurate aim; the more kills you chain together, the bigger your score is. Getting hit reduces your score. At the end of the level, your score is tallied against others on a leaderboard. It's a great way to incentivize players to keep playing, in order to get a better and better score.
There is also multiplayer, where players compete in various game modes such as classic deathmatch, warpath and free for all. Players can become demons by collecting runes on the battlefield and this gives them a distinct advantage; demons are larger, stronger and more resilient. Players are bizarrely restricted to only two weapons and a loadout in multiplayer, which blew my mind. Loadouts. In a DOOM game. The demons are also massively unbalanced and if one team manages to get a particularly powerful demon such as a baron of hell, then it's a guaranteed win. All in all, the multiplayer just isn't great. You are better off replaying the story or arcade mode, or even SnapMap.
SnapMap is id Software's proprietary level editor, and it puts every other editor on the market to shame. SnapMap is an incredible, intuitive, easy to learn system allowing players to create their own multiplayer, co-op and single player maps. There is an extensive tutorial system that teaches users the basics, and goes up in depth, covering how to use AI triggers, switches, combinations, object layering, actions, recalls, audio cues, etc. Never have I ever seen such an in-depth interface on a console game before. While it is only surface level in the grand scheme of things, SnapMap is a great introduction to teaching users how game development works, and I urge everyone to try it out at least once.
Part II: The Music
In DOOM, the music isn't just a background accompaniment – it's a driving force that propels players forward, electrifying every moment of the gameplay experience. Composed by the incredibly talented Mick Gordon, the soundtrack of DOOM is a relentless onslaught of metal and electronica that perfectly complements the game's fast-paced action and visceral combat. From the moment you boot up the game, you're greeted by the iconic strains of the main theme, a haunting melody that sets the tone for the epic journey that lies ahead. As you traverse the game's environments, the music shifts seamlessly between atmospheric ambience and pulse-pounding metal.
But it's not just the composition of the music that makes it so memorable – it's also the way it's integrated into the gameplay itself. Mick Gordon's dynamic scoring system ensures that the music evolves in real-time based on the player's actions, ramping up in intensity during combat encounters and dialing back during quieter moments of exploration. This creates a sense of momentum and flow that enhances the overall pacing of the game
One of the standout features of the soundtrack is its use of unconventional instrumentation and sound design. Mick Gordon's signature sound combines distorted guitars, pounding drums, and industrial noise to create a sonic palette that is as brutal and unforgiving as the game itself. From the deep, guttural growls of the synth bass to the ear-shredding shrieks of the guitar solos, every element of the music is designed to evoke a sense of chaos and destruction, mirroring the relentless carnage unfolding onscreen.
Of course, no discussion of the music in DOOM would be complete without mentioning the iconic tracks that have become synonymous with the game. From the adrenaline-fueled "Rip & Tear" to the bone-crushing "BFG Division," each track is a masterpiece of composition and production, perfectly capturing the essence of the DOOM experience and elevating it to new heights. Mick Gordon's composition for the DOOM soundtrack is a tour de force in heavy metal and industrial electronica, meticulously crafted to evoke the essence of the game's frenetic gameplay.
The backbone of the soundtrack is the distorted guitar, which provides the driving force behind many of the tracks. Gordon's use of extended-range guitars and custom-tuned instruments gives the music its signature low-end punch, while his aggressive playing style adds a raw, visceral energy to the sound. In addition to guitars, Gordon incorporates a wide range of electronic and synthetic elements into his compositions, including synthesizers, drum machines, and sampled sounds. These elements are used to create atmospheric textures, rhythmic patterns, and dynamic effects.
One of the most innovative aspects of Gordon's sound design is his use of audio manipulation techniques, such as granular synthesis and spectral processing. These techniques allow him to deconstruct and manipulate audio in real-time, creating complex textures and effects.
Perhaps the most revolutionary aspect of Mick Gordon's composition for DOOM is his dynamic scoring system, which adjusts the music in real-time based on the player's actions. This system, known as "MIDI-controlled dynamic music," allows the music to seamlessly transition between different layers and variations depending on the intensity of the gameplay. Gordon achieves this dynamic effect by dividing each track into multiple stems or layers, each representing a different element of the music (e.g., drums, guitars, synths). These stems are then triggered and mixed in real-time using MIDI data generated by the game engine, allowing the music to adapt and evolve dynamically as the player progresses through the game.
Part III: Building a Legacy
All too often in this industry, legacy franchises are either left in the dust to be forgotten, or brought back to a limp fanfare, only to be thrust back into the shadows of the past. This happens for a myriad of reasons, and I believe the biggest one is that they don't respect their legacy, and they don't respect the players who engage with them.
At its core, DOOM is a game that understands what players want: fast-paced action, engaging gameplay, and a sense of empowerment. By focusing on these core principles, id Software created an experience that resonated with players old and new, capturing the spirit of the original games while pushing the series forward. Central to this approach is the game's unwavering commitment to respecting the player. From its minimalist storytelling and streamlined level design to its intuitive controls and dynamic difficulty system, DOOM prioritizes the player's experience above all else, ensuring that every moment of the game is engaging, immersive, and satisfying.
One of the most notable ways that DOOM respects the player is through its approach to difficulty. Rather than imposing artificial barriers or punishing players for their mistakes, the game encourages experimentation and mastery through its responsive gameplay mechanics and adaptive enemy AI. Players are given the freedom to approach encounters in their own way, whether it's through brute force, cunning strategy, or a combination of both.
Another key aspect of DOOM's player-centric design is its emphasis on accessibility. From its difficulty settings and intuitive user interface to its robust accessibility features, such as colorblind modes and customizable controls, the game ensures that players of all skill levels and abilities can enjoy the experience without feeling excluded or overwhelmed.
But perhaps the most important way that DOOM respects the player is through its commitment to fun. At its core, DOOM is a game that prioritizes the player's enjoyment above all else, delivering a seamless and exhilarating experience that keeps players coming back for more. Whether you're blasting demons with a shotgun, exploring hidden secrets, or rocking out to Mick Gordon's pulse-pounding soundtrack, DOOM is a game that never stops prioritizing YOU.
DOOM's legacy is one of respect – respect for the player, respect for the franchise, and respect for the medium of video games as a whole. By prioritizing fun, accessibility, and player agency, id Software created an experience that not only honors the legacy of the original games but also sets a new standard for what a modern first-person shooter can be. And for that, we owe them a debt of gratitude.
2024.05.13 23:58 ryley_hey25 My life is so sad, and my life just started… here’s the story….
I just graduated elementary school, and I got my first kiss from my friend from school I’ve known since kindergarten. I just found out that my other crush (I have a crush on a news reporter, don’t make fun of me) has a friend but he kissed her on the cheek… um.. hello!? Are you guys just friends, I’M SO JEALOUS!!! (For ur information…) My pfp is a drawing of me and my news reporter crush kissing… little you know, that was the picture where he kissed that other girl! I just wanna love him! I can’t even go a day without seeing his face… and his smile and eyes, OH MY GOD… I’m gonna explode 🤯. He’s just too cute… I need him so badly… ahh! I had 5 dreams of him for the past 4 months! I had a dream where we kissed in some random palace in London, the 2nd one was when we kissed outside of a H-E-B parking lot, the 3rd one was when I kissed the TV screen when he was on tv, the 4th one was where we kissed in Moscow on a balcony at night wearing cozy clothes, and the 5th one was when we danced under the Christmas tree in the White House when the White House was closing down at midnight and we danced to “lady in red” by Chris de Burgh. That’s how much I love him, so don’t mess with me! And my dad yelled at me like a ww2 soldier at me, don’t ask why… but it made me cry for an hour, and my mom was calming me down. My dad is very strict and he doesn’t believe that I have PTSD and childhood trauma from him, he just doesn’t give a shit about how I feel bout him. I called the depression phone number and they gave me advice to calm me down, I was in the closet alone with nobody, just me on the phone with some stupid person in the line. My life is so sad, I know this is life, but my life just started, I only lived in this world for 12 years and people say in YouTube shorts, they say that the world is ending next year, can those bitches just leave my life alone and let me have a good life?! I have a news reporter crush and a crush at school!!! They still don’t give a shit bout me, I commented “Fake” on the post and one guys said “They are scientists, they are not wrong.” THEY DON’T GIVE A GODDAMN SHIT ABOUT ME! THEY WANT ME TO DIE!!! Get me out of this world! NOW! My dad is strict, my news reporter crush I had is broken now, people want me to die, I HATE MY LIFE, I HATE EVERYONE, EXCEPT FOR MY CRUSHES, THATS IT, YES BITCH… THATS IT!! JUST GIVE ME SOME HAPPINESS!!! 🖕🏻💔😖😭
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2024.05.13 23:56 _squeeee Did I Fuck Up My Relationship With My Son?
I have a 19 year old son. He’s my oldest. He works full time and goes to school full time at a community college. We’ve been helping him with his car payments and also he’s on our cell phone plan.
I landed a new job a few months ago after being laid off. I’ve finally caught up with my bills but last month was rough. His car payment is due on the 17th of each month. I told him I wouldn’t be able to give him the $250 on the 17th but I was going to get paid that Friday. He got into his feelings and said that he really needed it. I asked him why are you short on money when you don’t pay rent or utilities? And you had enough money to buy a pair of expensive sneakers but you’re asking us to subsidize your life? He said the shoes were a birthday present to himself. I eventually gave him the money as soon as my direct deposit hit.
Last night I needed to go to the store and I asked him if he could drive me. My husband’s RA was flaring up so he couldn’t drive either. I couldn’t drive because I wasn’t feeling well (I’ve been having migraines a lot lately).
My son’s response? He said he doesn’t feel comfortable doing anything for me or his dad anymore because when he really needed the $250 we didn’t come through even though he was aware that I was unemployed for 4 months and that I needed to catch up on MY bills. The bills that keep the lights on, the internet, the mortgage…things that he never had to worry about.
I told him we are no longer helping him with his car payments and he needs to get his own cell phone plan. He said that my response says a lot about the kind of parent/person I am. Whatever the fuck that means. I just felt so disrespected and unappreciated.
We’ve always had a great relationship so I don’t know how $250 could possibly just destroy it. He’s never gone without. He wasn’t abused as a child. We gave him a childhood that I never had (I had a really strict mother and wasn’t allowed to do normal teenager stuff). I don’t remember ever being mean to him or made him feel like he wasn’t valued.
We haven’t spoken since last night. I’m hurt. I don’t have a relationship with my parents because they traumatized me during my childhood. I don’t want it to be that way with my son.
I don’t even know how to approach him after we’ve cooled off. All I know is that no one has ever hurt me like he did on Mother’s Day of all days.
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I landed a new job a few months ago after being laid off. I’ve finally caught up with my bills but last month was rough. His car payment is due on the 17th of each month. I told him I wouldn’t be able to give him the $250 on the 17th but I was going to get paid that Friday. He got into his feelings and said that he really needed it. I asked him why are you short on money when you don’t pay rent or utilities? And you had enough money to buy a pair of expensive sneakers but you’re asking us to subsidize your life? He said the shoes were a birthday present to himself. I eventually gave him the money as soon as my direct deposit hit.
Last night I needed to go to the store and I asked him if he could drive me. My husband’s RA was flaring up so he couldn’t drive either. I couldn’t drive because I wasn’t feeling well (I’ve been having migraines a lot lately).
My son’s response? He said he doesn’t feel comfortable doing anything for me or his dad anymore because when he really needed the $250 we didn’t come through even though he was aware that I was unemployed for 4 months and that I needed to catch up on MY bills. The bills that keep the lights on, the internet, the mortgage…things that he never had to worry about.
I told him we are no longer helping him with his car payments and he needs to get his own cell phone plan. He said that my response says a lot about the kind of parent/person I am. Whatever the fuck that means. I just felt so disrespected and unappreciated.
We’ve always had a great relationship so I don’t know how $250 could possibly just destroy it. He’s never gone without. He wasn’t abused as a child. We gave him a childhood that I never had (I had a really strict mother and wasn’t allowed to do normal teenager stuff). I don’t remember ever being mean to him or made him feel like he wasn’t valued.
We haven’t spoken since last night. I’m hurt. I don’t have a relationship with my parents because they traumatized me during my childhood. I don’t want it to be that way with my son.
I don’t even know how to approach him after we’ve cooled off. All I know is that no one has ever hurt me like he did on Mother’s Day of all days.
2024.05.13 23:54 Ok_Percentage245 My Grandma. please help me fond ways to deal with this pain.
my grandma was my everything. she was the reason i was alive, she was my reason to keep on going. she was there for me when nobody was, she was my grandma, mom, rock, caregiver, anchor, best friend and every person you would ever need in your life.
she was amazing, she packed me lunch, made me food, made me tea, made me breakfast, cared for me, loved me, watched my stupid "poppies" because i wanted to watch it, watched the news with me, took me to do fun stuff, studied with me, took me to eat out, took me to do so many things.
she supported me, loved me and she was just perfect. i would give so much and do so much to have her back. i would do so much to just give her one last hug. so to my grandma: dankie. vir alles. vir die persoon wat ouma was, en vir die persoon wat ouma my gemaak het. dankie vir alles wat ouma vir my gedoen het en vir alles wat ouma my geleer het. dankie dat ek die beste paar jaar van my lewe langs ouma kon wees. ek is bitter lief vir jou en wens jy was nog hier.
my grandma never failed me, she never dissiapointed me, she was never mean to me, she was never bad to me. she was always good to me and she cared so well for me. having that abruptly taken away from you hurts so much, i wasnt able to say goodbye and i wish i could. i wish i was able to give her one last kiss and tell her i love her and how much she meant to me.
i miss her so fucking much man, everything she said, did and believed in. i miss everything about her. her passing has caused the most pain ive ever felt in my life. i will never be the same as i was, i will never be anything like i used to be. this will stick with me forever. learning that she was in the hospital was already bad. but when that doctor said she was gone, it was like my whole heart, life, future and everything i had was ripped out of me. without my grandma, i was nothing, nobody. i was insignificant.
that phone call killed me, it ripped all of me away and threw it in the ditch. those first few days were painfull but the next few years were the worst. the worst pain ive ever experienced, a constant dreading feeling, a constant feeling of never having anything ever again, along with my family being the way they are, it was not much help.
the feeling that i felt on that night was empty. i felt like nothing, i felt numb and just dead. nothing felt real, i couldn't accept the fact that shes gone, everything ive ever had is gone, the most amazing woman ive ever met, was just gone. no goodbye, nothing. it was like a spear piercing through my heart. a slow growing pain that just seems to grow even more when i didnt think it could. subtely killing relationships, hobbies and me. it was like nothing ive experienced before.
the loss of my grandma was like the loss of my mother. she was my mother. her loss was the reason for everything, the person i am now and the person ill be in 50 years. i will never mive forward and never be okay.
i will always walk around with this pain. the rest of my life will be for her, all the pain and all the suffering is because of her. im not mad at her, im mad at the universe. for putting me through that at such a young age. she didn't see me go to high school, never saw me finish primary school, never see me get married, and ill never forgive myself for not being way better for her. she deserves the absolute world. i love her so much and will never forget her.
i like to think that in the end it will all be okay but in reality, i know it wont. i know there will always be a part of me that is gone. a mother figure, my mother. my best friend. my everything. its gone, i will only see her once i get to heaven and it hurts so much. i wish she was still here, with me. i would literally sell everything i own if it means i get to see her one last time and hug her. i would sell myself to just hug her and kiss her one last time.
i never want to experience such a pain ever again. i just want to be okay nowadays. i just want to feel normal. i want to feel like everything is going to be okay.
in reality i walk around every day with the worst pain you can imagine inside my heart, people dont see it becuase i hide it. some days it hits me harder than others and my whole day is fucked, my whole mood changes. i get quiet. its because something someone said or did reminded me of her and then its just a whole spiral of emotions.
i dont understand. what did i do? say? who did i hurt? what made me deserve this. ive been dying inside slowly but surely for the last 4 years and it never seems to get better. the pain just comes back and its stronger every time. it just comes in and escapes different every now and then. i can't seem to move past it, get over it. it just keeps hurting me further and further. it just keeps killing me.
i suffer in silence. ive just been trying to survive these last few years and its been hard. it was all going so good, i was so happy and everything was perfect and then suddenly, its all gone and ill never have it again. ill never truly be "okay" or "stable". ill always be this emotional wreck that doesnt know what to do. society says, you're a man, you shouldn't cry. while others say that having emotions is fine.
just the thought of my grandma can ruin everything. like first its all happy and then it just stabs me in the back.
all this was the reason i started vaping. that few seconds of a head rush felt so good, one time where i can focus on something other than the deafening pain constantly eating at me. it was like an escape, and i know im an addict but ive noticed that since i stopped, ive been getting happier. like the vaping just reminds me of the pain and why i do it. i need to find other things that make me happy to replace it.
the reason i became depressed i personally think is the fact that after my grandma passed, there was nobody. nobody at home i could talk to. i was just there, with my Playstation, feelings and thoughts. nobody ever spoke to me and nobody ever tried to speak to me. ive never been asked if im okay, if i need anything, if anyone can do something for me. after her death it was just me, at 13 years old, against the world. constantly battling with my parents, and constantly trying to handle the pain. it was me, and only me.
to this day, nothing is able to bring me back to life fully.
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she was amazing, she packed me lunch, made me food, made me tea, made me breakfast, cared for me, loved me, watched my stupid "poppies" because i wanted to watch it, watched the news with me, took me to do fun stuff, studied with me, took me to eat out, took me to do so many things.
she supported me, loved me and she was just perfect. i would give so much and do so much to have her back. i would do so much to just give her one last hug. so to my grandma: dankie. vir alles. vir die persoon wat ouma was, en vir die persoon wat ouma my gemaak het. dankie vir alles wat ouma vir my gedoen het en vir alles wat ouma my geleer het. dankie dat ek die beste paar jaar van my lewe langs ouma kon wees. ek is bitter lief vir jou en wens jy was nog hier.
my grandma never failed me, she never dissiapointed me, she was never mean to me, she was never bad to me. she was always good to me and she cared so well for me. having that abruptly taken away from you hurts so much, i wasnt able to say goodbye and i wish i could. i wish i was able to give her one last kiss and tell her i love her and how much she meant to me.
i miss her so fucking much man, everything she said, did and believed in. i miss everything about her. her passing has caused the most pain ive ever felt in my life. i will never be the same as i was, i will never be anything like i used to be. this will stick with me forever. learning that she was in the hospital was already bad. but when that doctor said she was gone, it was like my whole heart, life, future and everything i had was ripped out of me. without my grandma, i was nothing, nobody. i was insignificant.
that phone call killed me, it ripped all of me away and threw it in the ditch. those first few days were painfull but the next few years were the worst. the worst pain ive ever experienced, a constant dreading feeling, a constant feeling of never having anything ever again, along with my family being the way they are, it was not much help.
the feeling that i felt on that night was empty. i felt like nothing, i felt numb and just dead. nothing felt real, i couldn't accept the fact that shes gone, everything ive ever had is gone, the most amazing woman ive ever met, was just gone. no goodbye, nothing. it was like a spear piercing through my heart. a slow growing pain that just seems to grow even more when i didnt think it could. subtely killing relationships, hobbies and me. it was like nothing ive experienced before.
the loss of my grandma was like the loss of my mother. she was my mother. her loss was the reason for everything, the person i am now and the person ill be in 50 years. i will never mive forward and never be okay.
i will always walk around with this pain. the rest of my life will be for her, all the pain and all the suffering is because of her. im not mad at her, im mad at the universe. for putting me through that at such a young age. she didn't see me go to high school, never saw me finish primary school, never see me get married, and ill never forgive myself for not being way better for her. she deserves the absolute world. i love her so much and will never forget her.
i like to think that in the end it will all be okay but in reality, i know it wont. i know there will always be a part of me that is gone. a mother figure, my mother. my best friend. my everything. its gone, i will only see her once i get to heaven and it hurts so much. i wish she was still here, with me. i would literally sell everything i own if it means i get to see her one last time and hug her. i would sell myself to just hug her and kiss her one last time.
i never want to experience such a pain ever again. i just want to be okay nowadays. i just want to feel normal. i want to feel like everything is going to be okay.
in reality i walk around every day with the worst pain you can imagine inside my heart, people dont see it becuase i hide it. some days it hits me harder than others and my whole day is fucked, my whole mood changes. i get quiet. its because something someone said or did reminded me of her and then its just a whole spiral of emotions.
i dont understand. what did i do? say? who did i hurt? what made me deserve this. ive been dying inside slowly but surely for the last 4 years and it never seems to get better. the pain just comes back and its stronger every time. it just comes in and escapes different every now and then. i can't seem to move past it, get over it. it just keeps hurting me further and further. it just keeps killing me.
i suffer in silence. ive just been trying to survive these last few years and its been hard. it was all going so good, i was so happy and everything was perfect and then suddenly, its all gone and ill never have it again. ill never truly be "okay" or "stable". ill always be this emotional wreck that doesnt know what to do. society says, you're a man, you shouldn't cry. while others say that having emotions is fine.
just the thought of my grandma can ruin everything. like first its all happy and then it just stabs me in the back.
all this was the reason i started vaping. that few seconds of a head rush felt so good, one time where i can focus on something other than the deafening pain constantly eating at me. it was like an escape, and i know im an addict but ive noticed that since i stopped, ive been getting happier. like the vaping just reminds me of the pain and why i do it. i need to find other things that make me happy to replace it.
the reason i became depressed i personally think is the fact that after my grandma passed, there was nobody. nobody at home i could talk to. i was just there, with my Playstation, feelings and thoughts. nobody ever spoke to me and nobody ever tried to speak to me. ive never been asked if im okay, if i need anything, if anyone can do something for me. after her death it was just me, at 13 years old, against the world. constantly battling with my parents, and constantly trying to handle the pain. it was me, and only me.
to this day, nothing is able to bring me back to life fully.
2024.05.13 23:53 WestChildhood3792 I think wife's co-worker makes inappropriate comments to her, but she doesn't stop him
I need someone to tell me I'm in the wrong here, because atm I feel like she's not doing her part to hold up the agreement between us.
My wife is very successful, as am I. We both work in completely unrelated fields. I (40m) work in a female-dominated field, and she (37f) works in a male-dominated field. And I would say that we're both moderately attractive people on many levels, and we work with people who are also moderately attractive. So mild flirty-banter is a bit common, and that doesn't bother either of us. We've talked about this particular subject before and both seem to be in agreement: As long as it's just innocent stuff here and there and nothing further then we're good with it.
However, we saw a tik-tok video a few weeks ago that had couples switch phones so they could go through each other's texts and social media to search for cheating. We gave each other our phones and went through everything, and it was all clean. So no problems for the most part. The only thing I found was a couple things she said to her ex-husband, with whom she has to communicate regularly because they have a son together.
Before Christmas this year, we were looking into gifts for their son, and I know he loves to ski and I love to snowboard, so it's one of the things that he and I get to do together that we both love doing. So, when people like grandparents/etc. reached out to us looking for gift advice, I suggested pooling money so we could get him a season pass for a local resort. And if that happened, I would buy myself a season pass so we can go together.
I suggested my wife bring it up to her ex who was looking for ideas, but we ended up not getting him the season pass and went with another gift idea. Well, as I was going through her phone right in front of her that day, I found the communication back and forth about that season pass with her ex. She said, "Well ____ wants to get him a season pass to ski, but I really think it's his way of coming up with an excuse to buy himself one." and they had a chuckle and that was the end of it. When I found it, that bothered me a little bit for two reasons: (A) that wasn't true, I really was looking for a gift for him, even though I will admit it was something I wanted to do with him, and (B) I felt like I was a punchline for a joke between her and her ex that I wasn't allowed to know about until I found it in their texts. Not once did she question it when I brought it up in front of her, it was only talking with her ex that she shared her true opinion on the matter.
And then a few minutes later, as I'm scrolling through their texts, I found one that said 'happy birthday' on his actual birthday. That alone doesn't bother me. What bothers me about it though is that on that same day, we were getting ready for work in the morning, she looks at the calendar and goes "oh, it's _____'s birthday" to which I replied, "cool, you gonna text him and tell him happy birthday?" to which she replied, "no, but I'll remind [our son] to call him." I thought nothing further about it. Until a few days before we did the phone swap, I remembered that an ex-gf of mine was having her b-day that week. I asked my wife, "should I text her to say happy birthday?" totally joking of course. But she looked at me a little upset and said, "absolutely not." I just said okay and chuckled and again thought nothing of it. So a few days later, when I'm reading their texts and I found that she actually did tell him happy birthday, I was a little taken back because her response was a resounding no when I suggested I would do the same to an ex of mine. Seemed a bit hypocritical.
Up to this point though, I don't really think too much about it moving forward. But then, we're sitting in her car driving a couple hours, and she asks me to check her work phone for something since she's driving. I do that, and while the phone is open, I see a text from a co-worker of hers that catches my eye. I remembered that there was borderline banter between she and her ex, which made me curious if she'd talked like that to other men. So I open the text chain, and start scrolling. I make it to about 6 months back in time reading their texts. At two separate times over the last few months, he says to her "I love you" to which one of those times she responded with a heart emoji. There was also a time where she says she needs to discuss a work thing with him and asks if he has time, to which he replies, "for you I always have time," to which she replies with another heart emoji.
On the one hand, I can see how she's just trying to get by without ruffling feathers with her co-workers. But on the other hand, I feel like the fact that she's not saying anything to the effect of 'I'm married' to this guy, or asking him to calm down with the flirting, I feel like she's borderline enabling those interactions. And the stuff with her ex-husband is another issue that doesn't bother me as much, but it hurts a little to know that she's still pretty flirty with him despite all that she said he did to her leading up to their divorce.
tl;dr: wife is flirty with her ex-husband, and doesn't tell a co-worker of hers to stop (what I consider to be) coming onto her despite being married. Am I over-reacting?
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My wife is very successful, as am I. We both work in completely unrelated fields. I (40m) work in a female-dominated field, and she (37f) works in a male-dominated field. And I would say that we're both moderately attractive people on many levels, and we work with people who are also moderately attractive. So mild flirty-banter is a bit common, and that doesn't bother either of us. We've talked about this particular subject before and both seem to be in agreement: As long as it's just innocent stuff here and there and nothing further then we're good with it.
However, we saw a tik-tok video a few weeks ago that had couples switch phones so they could go through each other's texts and social media to search for cheating. We gave each other our phones and went through everything, and it was all clean. So no problems for the most part. The only thing I found was a couple things she said to her ex-husband, with whom she has to communicate regularly because they have a son together.
Before Christmas this year, we were looking into gifts for their son, and I know he loves to ski and I love to snowboard, so it's one of the things that he and I get to do together that we both love doing. So, when people like grandparents/etc. reached out to us looking for gift advice, I suggested pooling money so we could get him a season pass for a local resort. And if that happened, I would buy myself a season pass so we can go together.
I suggested my wife bring it up to her ex who was looking for ideas, but we ended up not getting him the season pass and went with another gift idea. Well, as I was going through her phone right in front of her that day, I found the communication back and forth about that season pass with her ex. She said, "Well ____ wants to get him a season pass to ski, but I really think it's his way of coming up with an excuse to buy himself one." and they had a chuckle and that was the end of it. When I found it, that bothered me a little bit for two reasons: (A) that wasn't true, I really was looking for a gift for him, even though I will admit it was something I wanted to do with him, and (B) I felt like I was a punchline for a joke between her and her ex that I wasn't allowed to know about until I found it in their texts. Not once did she question it when I brought it up in front of her, it was only talking with her ex that she shared her true opinion on the matter.
And then a few minutes later, as I'm scrolling through their texts, I found one that said 'happy birthday' on his actual birthday. That alone doesn't bother me. What bothers me about it though is that on that same day, we were getting ready for work in the morning, she looks at the calendar and goes "oh, it's _____'s birthday" to which I replied, "cool, you gonna text him and tell him happy birthday?" to which she replied, "no, but I'll remind [our son] to call him." I thought nothing further about it. Until a few days before we did the phone swap, I remembered that an ex-gf of mine was having her b-day that week. I asked my wife, "should I text her to say happy birthday?" totally joking of course. But she looked at me a little upset and said, "absolutely not." I just said okay and chuckled and again thought nothing of it. So a few days later, when I'm reading their texts and I found that she actually did tell him happy birthday, I was a little taken back because her response was a resounding no when I suggested I would do the same to an ex of mine. Seemed a bit hypocritical.
Up to this point though, I don't really think too much about it moving forward. But then, we're sitting in her car driving a couple hours, and she asks me to check her work phone for something since she's driving. I do that, and while the phone is open, I see a text from a co-worker of hers that catches my eye. I remembered that there was borderline banter between she and her ex, which made me curious if she'd talked like that to other men. So I open the text chain, and start scrolling. I make it to about 6 months back in time reading their texts. At two separate times over the last few months, he says to her "I love you" to which one of those times she responded with a heart emoji. There was also a time where she says she needs to discuss a work thing with him and asks if he has time, to which he replies, "for you I always have time," to which she replies with another heart emoji.
On the one hand, I can see how she's just trying to get by without ruffling feathers with her co-workers. But on the other hand, I feel like the fact that she's not saying anything to the effect of 'I'm married' to this guy, or asking him to calm down with the flirting, I feel like she's borderline enabling those interactions. And the stuff with her ex-husband is another issue that doesn't bother me as much, but it hurts a little to know that she's still pretty flirty with him despite all that she said he did to her leading up to their divorce.
tl;dr: wife is flirty with her ex-husband, and doesn't tell a co-worker of hers to stop (what I consider to be) coming onto her despite being married. Am I over-reacting?
2024.05.13 23:52 WestAsterisk Questions about Chattanooga 70.3 this weekend
First Ironman branded event for me and first 70.3 in general.
Any chance Ironman would cancel a race due to rain? Forecast doesn't look great with 50% chance of rain during the entire race.
Is there anywhere to see my actual swim start time? It says age group race start is at 7:03 AM. Looks like we jump in the river in pairs every 5 seconds. Is it first come first serve in the line? I'm guessing with thousands of people my actual start time will be later.
Am I allowed to carry my cell phone in my bike shorts during the bike and/or run as long as I don't use it (I would carry it with my in case of an emergency only)?
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Any chance Ironman would cancel a race due to rain? Forecast doesn't look great with 50% chance of rain during the entire race.
Is there anywhere to see my actual swim start time? It says age group race start is at 7:03 AM. Looks like we jump in the river in pairs every 5 seconds. Is it first come first serve in the line? I'm guessing with thousands of people my actual start time will be later.
Am I allowed to carry my cell phone in my bike shorts during the bike and/or run as long as I don't use it (I would carry it with my in case of an emergency only)?
2024.05.13 23:52 Ok_Percentage245 My Grandma. please help with ways i can deal with this pain
my grandma was my everything. she was the reason i was alive, she was my reason to keep on going. she was there for me when nobody was, she was my grandma, mom, rock, caregiver, anchor, best friend and every person you would ever need in your life.
she was amazing, she packed me lunch, made me food, made me tea, made me breakfast, cared for me, loved me, watched my stupid "poppies" because i wanted to watch it, watched the news with me, took me to do fun stuff, studied with me, took me to eat out, took me to do so many things.
she supported me, loved me and she was just perfect. i would give so much and do so much to have her back. i would do so much to just give her one last hug. so to my grandma: dankie. vir alles. vir die persoon wat ouma was, en vir die persoon wat ouma my gemaak het. dankie vir alles wat ouma vir my gedoen het en vir alles wat ouma my geleer het. dankie dat ek die beste paar jaar van my lewe langs ouma kon wees. ek is bitter lief vir jou en wens jy was nog hier.
my grandma never failed me, she never dissiapointed me, she was never mean to me, she was never bad to me. she was always good to me and she cared so well for me. having that abruptly taken away from you hurts so much, i wasnt able to say goodbye and i wish i could. i wish i was able to give her one last kiss and tell her i love her and how much she meant to me.
i miss her so fucking much man, everything she said, did and believed in. i miss everything about her. her passing has caused the most pain ive ever felt in my life. i will never be the same as i was, i will never be anything like i used to be. this will stick with me forever. learning that she was in the hospital was already bad. but when that doctor said she was gone, it was like my whole heart, life, future and everything i had was ripped out of me. without my grandma, i was nothing, nobody. i was insignificant.
that phone call killed me, it ripped all of me away and threw it in the ditch. those first few days were painfull but the next few years were the worst. the worst pain ive ever experienced, a constant dreading feeling, a constant feeling of never having anything ever again, along with my family being the way they are, it was not much help.
the feeling that i felt on that night was empty. i felt like nothing, i felt numb and just dead. nothing felt real, i couldn't accept the fact that shes gone, everything ive ever had is gone, the most amazing woman ive ever met, was just gone. no goodbye, nothing. it was like a spear piercing through my heart. a slow growing pain that just seems to grow even more when i didnt think it could. subtely killing relationships, hobbies and me. it was like nothing ive experienced before.
the loss of my grandma was like the loss of my mother. she was my mother. her loss was the reason for everything, the person i am now and the person ill be in 50 years. i will never mive forward and never be okay.
i will always walk around with this pain. the rest of my life will be for her, all the pain and all the suffering is because of her. im not mad at her, im mad at the universe. for putting me through that at such a young age. she didn't see me go to high school, never saw me finish primary school, never see me get married, and ill never forgive myself for not being way better for her. she deserves the absolute world. i love her so much and will never forget her.
i like to think that in the end it will all be okay but in reality, i know it wont. i know there will always be a part of me that is gone. a mother figure, my mother. my best friend. my everything. its gone, i will only see her once i get to heaven and it hurts so much. i wish she was still here, with me. i would literally sell everything i own if it means i get to see her one last time and hug her. i would sell myself to just hug her and kiss her one last time.
i never want to experience such a pain ever again. i just want to be okay nowadays. i just want to feel normal. i want to feel like everything is going to be okay.
in reality i walk around every day with the worst pain you can imagine inside my heart, people dont see it becuase i hide it. some days it hits me harder than others and my whole day is fucked, my whole mood changes. i get quiet. its because something someone said or did reminded me of her and then its just a whole spiral of emotions.
i dont understand. what did i do? say? who did i hurt? what made me deserve this. ive been dying inside slowly but surely for the last 4 years and it never seems to get better. the pain just comes back and its stronger every time. it just comes in and escapes different every now and then. i can't seem to move past it, get over it. it just keeps hurting me further and further. it just keeps killing me.
i suffer in silence. ive just been trying to survive these last few years and its been hard. it was all going so good, i was so happy and everything was perfect and then suddenly, its all gone and ill never have it again. ill never truly be "okay" or "stable". ill always be this emotional wreck that doesnt know what to do. society says, you're a man, you shouldn't cry. while others say that having emotions is fine.
just the thought of my grandma can ruin everything. like first its all happy and then it just stabs me in the back.
all this was the reason i started vaping. that few seconds of a head rush felt so good, one time where i can focus on something other than the deafening pain constantly eating at me. it was like an escape, and i know im an addict but ive noticed that since i stopped, ive been getting happier. like the vaping just reminds me of the pain and why i do it. i need to find other things that make me happy to replace it.
the reason i became depressed i personally think is the fact that after my grandma passed, there was nobody. nobody at home i could talk to. i was just there, with my Playstation, feelings and thoughts. nobody ever spoke to me and nobody ever tried to speak to me. ive never been asked if im okay, if i need anything, if anyone can do something for me. after her death it was just me, at 13 years old, against the world. constantly battling with my parents, and constantly trying to handle the pain. it was me, and only me.
to this day, nothing is able to bring me back to life fully.
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she was amazing, she packed me lunch, made me food, made me tea, made me breakfast, cared for me, loved me, watched my stupid "poppies" because i wanted to watch it, watched the news with me, took me to do fun stuff, studied with me, took me to eat out, took me to do so many things.
she supported me, loved me and she was just perfect. i would give so much and do so much to have her back. i would do so much to just give her one last hug. so to my grandma: dankie. vir alles. vir die persoon wat ouma was, en vir die persoon wat ouma my gemaak het. dankie vir alles wat ouma vir my gedoen het en vir alles wat ouma my geleer het. dankie dat ek die beste paar jaar van my lewe langs ouma kon wees. ek is bitter lief vir jou en wens jy was nog hier.
my grandma never failed me, she never dissiapointed me, she was never mean to me, she was never bad to me. she was always good to me and she cared so well for me. having that abruptly taken away from you hurts so much, i wasnt able to say goodbye and i wish i could. i wish i was able to give her one last kiss and tell her i love her and how much she meant to me.
i miss her so fucking much man, everything she said, did and believed in. i miss everything about her. her passing has caused the most pain ive ever felt in my life. i will never be the same as i was, i will never be anything like i used to be. this will stick with me forever. learning that she was in the hospital was already bad. but when that doctor said she was gone, it was like my whole heart, life, future and everything i had was ripped out of me. without my grandma, i was nothing, nobody. i was insignificant.
that phone call killed me, it ripped all of me away and threw it in the ditch. those first few days were painfull but the next few years were the worst. the worst pain ive ever experienced, a constant dreading feeling, a constant feeling of never having anything ever again, along with my family being the way they are, it was not much help.
the feeling that i felt on that night was empty. i felt like nothing, i felt numb and just dead. nothing felt real, i couldn't accept the fact that shes gone, everything ive ever had is gone, the most amazing woman ive ever met, was just gone. no goodbye, nothing. it was like a spear piercing through my heart. a slow growing pain that just seems to grow even more when i didnt think it could. subtely killing relationships, hobbies and me. it was like nothing ive experienced before.
the loss of my grandma was like the loss of my mother. she was my mother. her loss was the reason for everything, the person i am now and the person ill be in 50 years. i will never mive forward and never be okay.
i will always walk around with this pain. the rest of my life will be for her, all the pain and all the suffering is because of her. im not mad at her, im mad at the universe. for putting me through that at such a young age. she didn't see me go to high school, never saw me finish primary school, never see me get married, and ill never forgive myself for not being way better for her. she deserves the absolute world. i love her so much and will never forget her.
i like to think that in the end it will all be okay but in reality, i know it wont. i know there will always be a part of me that is gone. a mother figure, my mother. my best friend. my everything. its gone, i will only see her once i get to heaven and it hurts so much. i wish she was still here, with me. i would literally sell everything i own if it means i get to see her one last time and hug her. i would sell myself to just hug her and kiss her one last time.
i never want to experience such a pain ever again. i just want to be okay nowadays. i just want to feel normal. i want to feel like everything is going to be okay.
in reality i walk around every day with the worst pain you can imagine inside my heart, people dont see it becuase i hide it. some days it hits me harder than others and my whole day is fucked, my whole mood changes. i get quiet. its because something someone said or did reminded me of her and then its just a whole spiral of emotions.
i dont understand. what did i do? say? who did i hurt? what made me deserve this. ive been dying inside slowly but surely for the last 4 years and it never seems to get better. the pain just comes back and its stronger every time. it just comes in and escapes different every now and then. i can't seem to move past it, get over it. it just keeps hurting me further and further. it just keeps killing me.
i suffer in silence. ive just been trying to survive these last few years and its been hard. it was all going so good, i was so happy and everything was perfect and then suddenly, its all gone and ill never have it again. ill never truly be "okay" or "stable". ill always be this emotional wreck that doesnt know what to do. society says, you're a man, you shouldn't cry. while others say that having emotions is fine.
just the thought of my grandma can ruin everything. like first its all happy and then it just stabs me in the back.
all this was the reason i started vaping. that few seconds of a head rush felt so good, one time where i can focus on something other than the deafening pain constantly eating at me. it was like an escape, and i know im an addict but ive noticed that since i stopped, ive been getting happier. like the vaping just reminds me of the pain and why i do it. i need to find other things that make me happy to replace it.
the reason i became depressed i personally think is the fact that after my grandma passed, there was nobody. nobody at home i could talk to. i was just there, with my Playstation, feelings and thoughts. nobody ever spoke to me and nobody ever tried to speak to me. ive never been asked if im okay, if i need anything, if anyone can do something for me. after her death it was just me, at 13 years old, against the world. constantly battling with my parents, and constantly trying to handle the pain. it was me, and only me.
to this day, nothing is able to bring me back to life fully.
2024.05.13 23:52 Deathkiss0922 Wanted to share a recent win!
My credit score has gone up over 100pts since January, this might not be much in the big scheme of things but I’m incredibly happy with how things have been looking up for me financially! I have $24K saved and don’t know much about personal finance as someone who grew up below poverty line, learning every day from this sub but not really taking too much action as I’m still struggling money-wise so looking to hold onto what I can! Any budgeting advice would also be greatly appreciated! And new ways to up my credit score?! I don’t pay for my own phone bill as my partner insisted on paying for mine but anything else I could put in my name that isn’t expensive would help lol! Thanks in advance - someone with no real finance experience or knowledge
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2024.05.13 23:51 CabinetNecessary6178 My Primarch GF Lore Chronicle: El’Lenore Johnson’s Brave Warrior (F! Lion’s SO)
Preamble: This is based on the Primarch GF’s AU created by u/Sweet_older-sister and will mainly cover what they’ve been doing after the heresy and during 40k.
Disclaimer: This current version is the “good” route so most will be somewhat happy/hopeful but will still be (mostly) canon compliant
What happened
After El’Lenore’s duel against Luther was over, the Brave Warrior aided the Dark Angels in subduing and capturing Luther and led the procession to inter their lover within the Rock. Once that was done, the Brave Warrior was entrusted with being the first warden of the Rock, overseeing the imprisoned Fallen captured after the fall of Caliban and personally guarding Luther’s cell. Several years later, after a conversation with the now mad Luther and the Watchers in The Dark, the warrior wrote down what was discussed onto a journal which was given to the then Supreme Grand Master of the Dark Angels before departing from the Rock to Holy Terra, before completely disappearing from all official Imperial records. However, during the 34th millennium there was an odd record written by an unknown Interrogator Chaplain of the Dark angels stating that the “Dark Oracle” (the now mad Luther) had repeatedly spoken of a warrior being trained by an old king fishing by the lake surrounded by four shadows.
After ten millennia of disappearance from all records, the Brave Warrior have suddenly reappeared beside the reawakened El’Lenore, acting as her second in command and right hand much like Luther once did before his betrayal while leading the redeemed fallen, now dubbed the Risen alongside Zabriel who acts as the Primarch’s emissary.
Fun Fact: After their reunion in the 41st millennium, the couple can sometimes be seen hunting monsters together on the planet Catachan. According to the Primarch El’Lenore she once mentioned that it reminded her of her childhood and that she considers it to be a “great place for a date” where she and her brave warrior could reconnect and relax together to make up for lost time.
Credits
u/Sweet_older-Sister for making the AU a reality
u/Duncan6795 for the “Brave Warrior” nickname for the SO
u/NadiaFortuneFeet for the female name of El’Lenore Johnson
This is my first time writing something like this, I hope you guys enjoy it and any feedback and criticism is welcome.
Moreover, depending on how well this does, there may be more about each of the Primarch’s SOs in the future.
Thank you for reading 😁🙏
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Disclaimer: This current version is the “good” route so most will be somewhat happy/hopeful but will still be (mostly) canon compliant
What happened
After El’Lenore’s duel against Luther was over, the Brave Warrior aided the Dark Angels in subduing and capturing Luther and led the procession to inter their lover within the Rock. Once that was done, the Brave Warrior was entrusted with being the first warden of the Rock, overseeing the imprisoned Fallen captured after the fall of Caliban and personally guarding Luther’s cell. Several years later, after a conversation with the now mad Luther and the Watchers in The Dark, the warrior wrote down what was discussed onto a journal which was given to the then Supreme Grand Master of the Dark Angels before departing from the Rock to Holy Terra, before completely disappearing from all official Imperial records. However, during the 34th millennium there was an odd record written by an unknown Interrogator Chaplain of the Dark angels stating that the “Dark Oracle” (the now mad Luther) had repeatedly spoken of a warrior being trained by an old king fishing by the lake surrounded by four shadows.
After ten millennia of disappearance from all records, the Brave Warrior have suddenly reappeared beside the reawakened El’Lenore, acting as her second in command and right hand much like Luther once did before his betrayal while leading the redeemed fallen, now dubbed the Risen alongside Zabriel who acts as the Primarch’s emissary.
Fun Fact: After their reunion in the 41st millennium, the couple can sometimes be seen hunting monsters together on the planet Catachan. According to the Primarch El’Lenore she once mentioned that it reminded her of her childhood and that she considers it to be a “great place for a date” where she and her brave warrior could reconnect and relax together to make up for lost time.
Credits
u/Sweet_older-Sister for making the AU a reality
u/Duncan6795 for the “Brave Warrior” nickname for the SO
u/NadiaFortuneFeet for the female name of El’Lenore Johnson
This is my first time writing something like this, I hope you guys enjoy it and any feedback and criticism is welcome.
Moreover, depending on how well this does, there may be more about each of the Primarch’s SOs in the future.
Thank you for reading 😁🙏
2024.05.13 23:51 Badmomclub3 Am I really a liar or do I just live with a narcissist?
A bit of information:
Me(30f) stays home with our two toddlers while my husband (35m) works either five 8 hour or four 12 hour shifts of work at a non labour intensive job. I do all the cooking, cleaning, errands, grocery shopping, and appointments and most of the child rearing. I don’t ask him to do laundry, dishes, floors etc. Our oldest child is challenging as she is autistic. I had a job but he found it difficult to do what I do, his words, so I had to quit.
And now to the problem. I have to ask to spend any amount of money. Doesn’t matter if it’s for diapers, groceries or a coffee. I have to ask if it’s $2 or $200. I also have to say exactly what I spend it on. So if I go to Tim Hortons and get a coffee and donut but only say hey I’m going to Tim Hortons for a coffee I get in trouble because I lied since I didn’t mention the donut. He gets notified on his phone of how much and where I spend any money so I don’t think I should have to tell him exactly what I buy. I don’t buy clothes for myself or anything like that. He also times how long I’m gone. If I say I’m going to get groceries at Walmart but also stop at the dollar store next to Walmart, I lied and he can’t trust me. If I say I’m going to my drs appointment and stop to grab a coffee or a carton of milk as well, I lied since I didn’t say I was stopping. Then there are the times where I’ll hear a child cry so I’ll send him to check on them and he will say they aren’t crying and I need to quit lying. Or I’ll say there is dishes everywhere and he will say I’m lying because they are only on the counter and the table.
At this point I don’t know if I’m actually lying or subconsciously doing it because I’m scared of how he will react. I don’t think it’s lying if I grab two things instead of one…
I’m miserable and I tell him that but he says he’s happy and if I leave he will make sure I don’t get the kids. I do love him but I hate feeling like I’ll get in trouble for every little thing I do. I feel like a child when I’m an adult….
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Me(30f) stays home with our two toddlers while my husband (35m) works either five 8 hour or four 12 hour shifts of work at a non labour intensive job. I do all the cooking, cleaning, errands, grocery shopping, and appointments and most of the child rearing. I don’t ask him to do laundry, dishes, floors etc. Our oldest child is challenging as she is autistic. I had a job but he found it difficult to do what I do, his words, so I had to quit.
And now to the problem. I have to ask to spend any amount of money. Doesn’t matter if it’s for diapers, groceries or a coffee. I have to ask if it’s $2 or $200. I also have to say exactly what I spend it on. So if I go to Tim Hortons and get a coffee and donut but only say hey I’m going to Tim Hortons for a coffee I get in trouble because I lied since I didn’t mention the donut. He gets notified on his phone of how much and where I spend any money so I don’t think I should have to tell him exactly what I buy. I don’t buy clothes for myself or anything like that. He also times how long I’m gone. If I say I’m going to get groceries at Walmart but also stop at the dollar store next to Walmart, I lied and he can’t trust me. If I say I’m going to my drs appointment and stop to grab a coffee or a carton of milk as well, I lied since I didn’t say I was stopping. Then there are the times where I’ll hear a child cry so I’ll send him to check on them and he will say they aren’t crying and I need to quit lying. Or I’ll say there is dishes everywhere and he will say I’m lying because they are only on the counter and the table.
At this point I don’t know if I’m actually lying or subconsciously doing it because I’m scared of how he will react. I don’t think it’s lying if I grab two things instead of one…
I’m miserable and I tell him that but he says he’s happy and if I leave he will make sure I don’t get the kids. I do love him but I hate feeling like I’ll get in trouble for every little thing I do. I feel like a child when I’m an adult….
2024.05.13 23:48 linkmatador10 How much is the minimum I could ask for for my main account, I need to compose the screen of my cell phone, it is missing 2 card for the 3rd album and I have them in my other account just to send
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2024.05.13 23:48 Ken-Popcorn Flightless?? or Pete and the Ladder to Heaven
 | I have three birds, all seemingly happy and healthy. I leave the cage open. One of them, Gladys will occasionally take a loop around the room and immediately return to the cage. submitted by Ken-Popcorn to Parakeets [link] [comments] 2, Tony has never left the cage, and shows zero interest in doing so.The third bird (Pete, on the bottom in the pic) is the big question mark. I found him several times on the floor. When I try to pick him up, he’s like an Olympic runner and hopper, but he does not fly. I don’t think he can fly, or had never learned how to fly.So, I built him a ladder and haven’t found him on the floor since, but never actually saw him use it. But, today when I was cage cleaning he literally fell off the top of the cage and dropped to the floor like a rock. When I tried to get him to check he ran behind the sofa, so I knew he was mobile. I turned my back for a second and when I looked down he was on the ladder, and he went up that ladder and into the cage so fast that I couldn’t get my phone out of my pocket quickly enough to capture it. So I know now the ladder works. Has anyone experienced anything as strange as this? |
2024.05.13 23:47 kingofspain9 My wife (37f), who’s put a lot of pressure, responsibility, and blame on me (38m) since the birth of our second born, has been acting more self-interested and less involved in the last two years. Has it always been like this?
Did I just miss the signs? Or is this a temporary problem?
I met my wife (Natalie) 8 years ago via dating app. Our courtship was pretty straightforward and I really liked that about her. We communicated well, liked doing some of the same things, and were both comfortable going out of our comfort zones with each other.
This is something I’ve always admired about her, but in recent years—or, really, since we got married—that hasn’t been reserved for me.
Our relationship was very easy to start with. We were doing small things to acknowledge each other. We paid attention to what each other wanted. We often wanted to do the same things and we left a lot of space for each other to have fun with our friends.
The sex has never been great. There were a few times where it was good, but it was mostly pedestrian or outright bad. This was the first time I’d ever experienced anything like this. But it wasn’t a big deal to me at first.
We shared very similar dreams of wanting to get married, having a family, living on the west coast (of the US), and having a life partner to share a life with.
Natalie was also an incredibly considerate girlfriend for a large chunk of our dating life. When I lost my job, she took her lunch break to buy lunch for me at my favorite sandwich spot and dropped it off at my apartment personally. Little things like this made me feel cared for. She wasn’t very good with money, but I was, and I figured we could balance a budget together.
As we got engaged, I was very happy. Sex is a part of a relationship, but it’s not the most important part, I thought. We were having sex once a month at this point. This was doable for me. I have a much higher sex drive than this, but I was happy, and my happiness was more important than sex.
Things got a little weird after we got married though. Suddenly she was much harder to please. Her wedding was her vision. I know very little about weddings, so I was fine with this, but when it came time to choose a song, she didn’t listen to me and picked out a song I didn’t like. She was stressing a lot more about the day than getting married to me. I felt like I was just a guy who could’ve been anybody.
She also began putting me down to coworkers on occasion (which I told her wasn’t ok and she … eventually … stopped). She started having a much harder time at work and when that started, she became more critical of things I did. Then she began being critical of everything. We were having sex maybe once every two months and I was doing the initiating. She began to say stuff that was kind of insulting or a huge turnoff during sex—one particular instance, I thought things were going well, but she asked 7-10 minutes in “when are you going to be done” while I was doing all the work. I tried to have a few earnest talks about it and said “my goal is for both of us to have fun and I’m willing to be more adventurous and do whatever you want to do.” This resulted in her saying “ok,” and then nothing came of it.
But we still shared our goals. We got a house together and started planning for a family.
We got pregnant on the first try.
We had our first child just before the pandemic, which turned out to be pretty damn challenging, but we worked together really well throughout all of it. We were a great team, taking care of the baby and working remotely and doing small things for each other.
We took basically a year off from sex after our first child was born, which I was totally fine with, and I wanted her to feel like she could initiate with me. I tried to make myself as available as possible to her and keep the channels of communication open. I emphasized how important it was for me that she wanted to have sex. When she was ready, she initiated, and we began trying for a second kid (this time we had sex 2 times before getting pregnant).
We had our second child in August 2022 and this is when things started going downhill. The birth was really difficult for her physically. She lost quite a bit of blood.
(Small aside, I had saved enough money for us to get a new car. Her work didn’t pay enough coverage for maternity leave so I said we can either have a new car or you can have a longer maternity leave. Although she kept arguing with me that she wanted both, she relented eventually and chose the longer maternity leave).
The first month was rough. She was unhappy the entire time. It was clear she developed post partum. I was trying to take care of both kids and her emotional needs, but it clearly wasn’t enough. I asked and then later begged her to go to therapy and she refused for several months (I’ve been in therapy for years, fwiw). We got into fights nightly, initiated by her, about things that clearly didn’t matter in the long run—fights about stacking the dishwasher, about how I wasn’t doing enough (I was taking our first born and then our second born to daycare every day, I was doing the dishes and taking out the trash regularly, I was playing with our kids all the time, i was offering to ease whatever load she felt was unbearable). She complained I was on my phone too much and not present when the kids were having independent play time. The last one was annoying, but I agreed to put my phone away more. I tried my best to keep the peace in this time. (Also, if it isn’t obvious enough, we weren’t having sex).
I began walking on eggshells. I tried to remain focused on us trying to get along. It seemed like she was trying harder to fight. There were multiple fights where I brought up an issue as gently as possible and she talked for an hour about some issue she was having with me until I apologized. When I did, she would say thank you and the fight would be over. One time, she recognized the initial thing I brought up and said sorry about that after two hours of talking in circles, but only after I apologized for something first.
I grew very tired of this but tried to keep my head up and told myself this was a temporary problem.
At some point in here, we had a fight that was so brutal, I had a panic attack. I’d never had one before in my life. It felt like all of the frustration and sadness she felt was directed at me in anger and that was the only way she could express it. I can’t tell you how devastating this was. I felt completely trapped. I felt like there was no winning in our relationship for me and that I have to put her feelings first if I want to be happy every once in a while.
Out of the blue, she went to a therapist for a session. (This was seven months after the birth of our second child.) i was relieved and thought this was the start of us getting better.
The next month was good: we were communicating well, we weren’t having sex, but we had a good family dynamic. She wasn’t blaming me for things. This I could live with
Eventually, we got into a fight. It was somewhere toward the end of the month. It wasn’t a terrible one, but it was bad. I went to my therapy session that night and talked to my therapist about how I didn’t realize we hadn’t had a fight in a month. I was strangely happy about it when I realized that. I went home to tell her how nice it was to realize she and I were getting along so well and that therapy seemed to be helping her. Then she got indignant. She said that she’s always been like this and I just haven’t noticed.
I was confused on why we were fighting all of a sudden and she dropped a pretty big bomb on me: she hadn’t been in therapy for a month. She went for one session and stopped.
I had my second ever panic attack right then and there. She said she would go back to therapy only if it was couples.
I cannot emphasize enough how “I just hadn’t noticed” wasn’t the case. I like to give her credit as much as I can. I regularly give her words of affirmation, let her know I love her, buy her flowers on bad days, etc. I’m not saying I’m a perfect partner, but I try to please her as much as I can. I’m a pretty astute observer too. It was like she was living in a different reality.
She began joking, around this time, of having a third kid. I said absolutely not. I had always wanted 3 but I wasn’t willing to go through this again. I asked her to stop joking about it because I was serious. I said things need to get better before I can even think of saying yes to that idea.
(I think maybe her mom talked to her at some point here because she joked like that in front of her mom and I said absolutely not and the joking abruptly stopped.)
The fighting continued. The different realities continued.
As our youngest turned 1, I was unsure why I was in this relationship at all. I had contemplated divorce and even brought it up because I was so tired of all the fighting. This wasn’t the relationship we had dreamed of.
Shortly after our youngest’s first birthday, we got the chance to go on a weekend trip just the two of us, no kids. We took it. It was expensive because that’s what she wanted. We did a whole spa day, at my suggestion. We had nice dinners. We had sex once on that trip. It was fine, but it felt like she wasn’t into it, which, I realized while writing this all out, is how it’s always been. Maybe she’s just never been that into me. Maybe she’s in her own world most of the time and I’m some attaché.
The fighting began cooling off the last few months. She’s still very critical and judgmental. She’s started fewer fights, however. Things were going well until earlier today.
Two weeks ago, she had a week-and-a-half long trip planned with her friends to Palm Springs. When she first asked, I said that’d be asking a lot, but I’m happy to support her if she needs it. She went on that trip and spent nearly our entire tax refund ($3000) on it.
As it stands, our youngest is almost two and our oldest is 4. They’re both wonderful children and I love them very much.
They were a bit of a handful while she was gone. Our kids tend to act out a bit when one of us goes on vacation. This was the case. As I tried to let our children know mama would be back, they struggled with regulating their emotions. She’s taken trips like this in the past and they did the same thing. Usually in those cases though, I’ll make sure I have a weekend trip lined up for me. I don’t have one planned any time soon. I’m too drained to think about it and we have no money.
Then, yesterday, on Mother’s Day, she told me she expects me to take the kids out of the house while she gets to do whatever she wants (which, that’s fair, but I was clearly sick and still recovering from the week and a half she was gone). This was after I had bought her flowers, a gift, and taken her out to dinner the night before for a date night. She spent all of Mother’s Day gardening and didn’t interact with our kids until about an hour before bedtime.
What kept me in the relationship for a long time was that, in spite of the not great sex, we were a great team and we communicated well and my other needs were met. Now it feels like we’re not even a team anymore and I’m the bag man.
I’m really struggling to figure out a few things.
TLDR: my wife and I have always gotten along personality-wise (and not sex-wise), but since the birth of our second child 2 years ago, her personality has become a lot more self-interested and ive maybe become too accommodating. Has it always been like this? I’m struggling to understand why I’m in this relationship now.
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I met my wife (Natalie) 8 years ago via dating app. Our courtship was pretty straightforward and I really liked that about her. We communicated well, liked doing some of the same things, and were both comfortable going out of our comfort zones with each other.
This is something I’ve always admired about her, but in recent years—or, really, since we got married—that hasn’t been reserved for me.
Our relationship was very easy to start with. We were doing small things to acknowledge each other. We paid attention to what each other wanted. We often wanted to do the same things and we left a lot of space for each other to have fun with our friends.
The sex has never been great. There were a few times where it was good, but it was mostly pedestrian or outright bad. This was the first time I’d ever experienced anything like this. But it wasn’t a big deal to me at first.
We shared very similar dreams of wanting to get married, having a family, living on the west coast (of the US), and having a life partner to share a life with.
Natalie was also an incredibly considerate girlfriend for a large chunk of our dating life. When I lost my job, she took her lunch break to buy lunch for me at my favorite sandwich spot and dropped it off at my apartment personally. Little things like this made me feel cared for. She wasn’t very good with money, but I was, and I figured we could balance a budget together.
As we got engaged, I was very happy. Sex is a part of a relationship, but it’s not the most important part, I thought. We were having sex once a month at this point. This was doable for me. I have a much higher sex drive than this, but I was happy, and my happiness was more important than sex.
Things got a little weird after we got married though. Suddenly she was much harder to please. Her wedding was her vision. I know very little about weddings, so I was fine with this, but when it came time to choose a song, she didn’t listen to me and picked out a song I didn’t like. She was stressing a lot more about the day than getting married to me. I felt like I was just a guy who could’ve been anybody.
She also began putting me down to coworkers on occasion (which I told her wasn’t ok and she … eventually … stopped). She started having a much harder time at work and when that started, she became more critical of things I did. Then she began being critical of everything. We were having sex maybe once every two months and I was doing the initiating. She began to say stuff that was kind of insulting or a huge turnoff during sex—one particular instance, I thought things were going well, but she asked 7-10 minutes in “when are you going to be done” while I was doing all the work. I tried to have a few earnest talks about it and said “my goal is for both of us to have fun and I’m willing to be more adventurous and do whatever you want to do.” This resulted in her saying “ok,” and then nothing came of it.
But we still shared our goals. We got a house together and started planning for a family.
We got pregnant on the first try.
We had our first child just before the pandemic, which turned out to be pretty damn challenging, but we worked together really well throughout all of it. We were a great team, taking care of the baby and working remotely and doing small things for each other.
We took basically a year off from sex after our first child was born, which I was totally fine with, and I wanted her to feel like she could initiate with me. I tried to make myself as available as possible to her and keep the channels of communication open. I emphasized how important it was for me that she wanted to have sex. When she was ready, she initiated, and we began trying for a second kid (this time we had sex 2 times before getting pregnant).
We had our second child in August 2022 and this is when things started going downhill. The birth was really difficult for her physically. She lost quite a bit of blood.
(Small aside, I had saved enough money for us to get a new car. Her work didn’t pay enough coverage for maternity leave so I said we can either have a new car or you can have a longer maternity leave. Although she kept arguing with me that she wanted both, she relented eventually and chose the longer maternity leave).
The first month was rough. She was unhappy the entire time. It was clear she developed post partum. I was trying to take care of both kids and her emotional needs, but it clearly wasn’t enough. I asked and then later begged her to go to therapy and she refused for several months (I’ve been in therapy for years, fwiw). We got into fights nightly, initiated by her, about things that clearly didn’t matter in the long run—fights about stacking the dishwasher, about how I wasn’t doing enough (I was taking our first born and then our second born to daycare every day, I was doing the dishes and taking out the trash regularly, I was playing with our kids all the time, i was offering to ease whatever load she felt was unbearable). She complained I was on my phone too much and not present when the kids were having independent play time. The last one was annoying, but I agreed to put my phone away more. I tried my best to keep the peace in this time. (Also, if it isn’t obvious enough, we weren’t having sex).
I began walking on eggshells. I tried to remain focused on us trying to get along. It seemed like she was trying harder to fight. There were multiple fights where I brought up an issue as gently as possible and she talked for an hour about some issue she was having with me until I apologized. When I did, she would say thank you and the fight would be over. One time, she recognized the initial thing I brought up and said sorry about that after two hours of talking in circles, but only after I apologized for something first.
I grew very tired of this but tried to keep my head up and told myself this was a temporary problem.
At some point in here, we had a fight that was so brutal, I had a panic attack. I’d never had one before in my life. It felt like all of the frustration and sadness she felt was directed at me in anger and that was the only way she could express it. I can’t tell you how devastating this was. I felt completely trapped. I felt like there was no winning in our relationship for me and that I have to put her feelings first if I want to be happy every once in a while.
Out of the blue, she went to a therapist for a session. (This was seven months after the birth of our second child.) i was relieved and thought this was the start of us getting better.
The next month was good: we were communicating well, we weren’t having sex, but we had a good family dynamic. She wasn’t blaming me for things. This I could live with
Eventually, we got into a fight. It was somewhere toward the end of the month. It wasn’t a terrible one, but it was bad. I went to my therapy session that night and talked to my therapist about how I didn’t realize we hadn’t had a fight in a month. I was strangely happy about it when I realized that. I went home to tell her how nice it was to realize she and I were getting along so well and that therapy seemed to be helping her. Then she got indignant. She said that she’s always been like this and I just haven’t noticed.
I was confused on why we were fighting all of a sudden and she dropped a pretty big bomb on me: she hadn’t been in therapy for a month. She went for one session and stopped.
I had my second ever panic attack right then and there. She said she would go back to therapy only if it was couples.
I cannot emphasize enough how “I just hadn’t noticed” wasn’t the case. I like to give her credit as much as I can. I regularly give her words of affirmation, let her know I love her, buy her flowers on bad days, etc. I’m not saying I’m a perfect partner, but I try to please her as much as I can. I’m a pretty astute observer too. It was like she was living in a different reality.
She began joking, around this time, of having a third kid. I said absolutely not. I had always wanted 3 but I wasn’t willing to go through this again. I asked her to stop joking about it because I was serious. I said things need to get better before I can even think of saying yes to that idea.
(I think maybe her mom talked to her at some point here because she joked like that in front of her mom and I said absolutely not and the joking abruptly stopped.)
The fighting continued. The different realities continued.
As our youngest turned 1, I was unsure why I was in this relationship at all. I had contemplated divorce and even brought it up because I was so tired of all the fighting. This wasn’t the relationship we had dreamed of.
Shortly after our youngest’s first birthday, we got the chance to go on a weekend trip just the two of us, no kids. We took it. It was expensive because that’s what she wanted. We did a whole spa day, at my suggestion. We had nice dinners. We had sex once on that trip. It was fine, but it felt like she wasn’t into it, which, I realized while writing this all out, is how it’s always been. Maybe she’s just never been that into me. Maybe she’s in her own world most of the time and I’m some attaché.
The fighting began cooling off the last few months. She’s still very critical and judgmental. She’s started fewer fights, however. Things were going well until earlier today.
Two weeks ago, she had a week-and-a-half long trip planned with her friends to Palm Springs. When she first asked, I said that’d be asking a lot, but I’m happy to support her if she needs it. She went on that trip and spent nearly our entire tax refund ($3000) on it.
As it stands, our youngest is almost two and our oldest is 4. They’re both wonderful children and I love them very much.
They were a bit of a handful while she was gone. Our kids tend to act out a bit when one of us goes on vacation. This was the case. As I tried to let our children know mama would be back, they struggled with regulating their emotions. She’s taken trips like this in the past and they did the same thing. Usually in those cases though, I’ll make sure I have a weekend trip lined up for me. I don’t have one planned any time soon. I’m too drained to think about it and we have no money.
Then, yesterday, on Mother’s Day, she told me she expects me to take the kids out of the house while she gets to do whatever she wants (which, that’s fair, but I was clearly sick and still recovering from the week and a half she was gone). This was after I had bought her flowers, a gift, and taken her out to dinner the night before for a date night. She spent all of Mother’s Day gardening and didn’t interact with our kids until about an hour before bedtime.
What kept me in the relationship for a long time was that, in spite of the not great sex, we were a great team and we communicated well and my other needs were met. Now it feels like we’re not even a team anymore and I’m the bag man.
I’m really struggling to figure out a few things.
- What the hell happened?
- I understand there may be some identity issues—about being a mother and wanting it or not wanting it—as well as just being overwhelmed. But why wasn’t that the case after our first child?
- Not having sex has stunk and would’ve at least helped in this awful time. Why does she not want to have sex with me?
- What am I doing in this relationship still?
TLDR: my wife and I have always gotten along personality-wise (and not sex-wise), but since the birth of our second child 2 years ago, her personality has become a lot more self-interested and ive maybe become too accommodating. Has it always been like this? I’m struggling to understand why I’m in this relationship now.
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2024.05.13 23:45 KrissyKris10 25 dice 🎲 5/13/24
25 dice 🎲 5/13/24
https://mply.io/vV05Dd5AE3M
♡•☆•♡•●•°KRISTEN'S HELPFUL HINTS°•●•♡•☆•♡:
☆●•IF YOU ARE UNABLE TO CLAIM THE DICE LINKS•●☆ Depending on what the message says, for example, if it says "already claimed," then it has already been claimed. If you're positive that you haven't claimed it yet (sometimes, the link will look MUCH different even though it's the same), try the following: ●Close out the game completely and then try the link again. This happens frequently, and it is a quick fix. ●If it takes you to the app store to download the MonopolyGO app, you should open up the link by holding your finger down on the link text until options pop up. Choose the "open in Safari," "open in browser," or "open in app" option. This is a way to overcome those iPhone shenanigans (happy Android user right here, lol 😁🙌).
I post the new dice links that Scopely releases daily, so make sure to check either the sub or the "posts" section on my profile. You could also follow me to get notified about my new posts, which are mostly just Monopoly Go dice links.
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https://mply.io/vV05Dd5AE3M
♡•☆•♡•●•°KRISTEN'S HELPFUL HINTS°•●•♡•☆•♡:
☆●•IF YOU ARE UNABLE TO CLAIM THE DICE LINKS•●☆ Depending on what the message says, for example, if it says "already claimed," then it has already been claimed. If you're positive that you haven't claimed it yet (sometimes, the link will look MUCH different even though it's the same), try the following: ●Close out the game completely and then try the link again. This happens frequently, and it is a quick fix. ●If it takes you to the app store to download the MonopolyGO app, you should open up the link by holding your finger down on the link text until options pop up. Choose the "open in Safari," "open in browser," or "open in app" option. This is a way to overcome those iPhone shenanigans (happy Android user right here, lol 😁🙌).
I post the new dice links that Scopely releases daily, so make sure to check either the sub or the "posts" section on my profile. You could also follow me to get notified about my new posts, which are mostly just Monopoly Go dice links.
🎲🎲🎲 😉☺️😁😃🤗🥰🫡 🎲🎲🎲 I hope this helps!!! 🎲🎲🎲 😉☺️😁😃🤗🥰🫡 🎲🎲🎲~😁😉 If you feel like these dice links that I post are useful, throw an upvote on them for visibility so others can more easily see them. 😉😁~
2024.05.13 23:40 KrissyKris10 25 dice 🎲 5/13/24
25 more dice 🎲 5/13/24
https://mply.io/vV05Dd5AE3M
♡•☆•♡•●•°KRISTEN'S HELPFUL HINTS°•●•♡•☆•♡:
☆●•IF YOU ARE UNABLE TO CLAIM THE DICE LINKS•●☆ Depending on what the message says, for example, if it says "already claimed," then it has already been claimed. If you're positive that you haven't claimed it yet (sometimes, the link will look MUCH different even though it's the same), try the following: ●Close out the game completely and then try the link again. This happens frequently, and it is a quick fix. ●If it takes you to the app store to download the MonopolyGO app, you should open up the link by holding your finger down on the link text until options pop up. Choose the "open in Safari," "open in browser," or "open in app" option. This is a way to overcome those iPhone shenanigans (happy Android user right here, lol 😁🙌).
I post the new dice links that Scopely releases daily, so make sure to check either the sub or the "posts" section on my profile. You could also follow me to get notified about my new posts, which are mostly just Monopoly Go dice links.
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https://mply.io/vV05Dd5AE3M
♡•☆•♡•●•°KRISTEN'S HELPFUL HINTS°•●•♡•☆•♡:
☆●•IF YOU ARE UNABLE TO CLAIM THE DICE LINKS•●☆ Depending on what the message says, for example, if it says "already claimed," then it has already been claimed. If you're positive that you haven't claimed it yet (sometimes, the link will look MUCH different even though it's the same), try the following: ●Close out the game completely and then try the link again. This happens frequently, and it is a quick fix. ●If it takes you to the app store to download the MonopolyGO app, you should open up the link by holding your finger down on the link text until options pop up. Choose the "open in Safari," "open in browser," or "open in app" option. This is a way to overcome those iPhone shenanigans (happy Android user right here, lol 😁🙌).
I post the new dice links that Scopely releases daily, so make sure to check either the sub or the "posts" section on my profile. You could also follow me to get notified about my new posts, which are mostly just Monopoly Go dice links.
🎲🎲🎲 😉☺️😁😃🤗🥰🫡 🎲🎲🎲 I hope this helps!!! 🎲🎲🎲 😉☺️😁😃🤗🥰🫡 🎲🎲🎲~😁😉 If you feel like these dice links that I post are useful, throw an upvote on them for visibility so others can more easily see them. 😉😁~
2024.05.13 23:40 KrissyKris10 25 dice 🎲 5/13/24
25 more dice 🎲 5/13/24
https://mply.io/vV05Dd5AE3M
♡•☆•♡•●•°KRISTEN'S HELPFUL HINTS°•●•♡•☆•♡:
☆●•IF YOU ARE UNABLE TO CLAIM THE DICE LINKS•●☆ Depending on what the message says, for example, if it says "already claimed," then it has already been claimed. If you're positive that you haven't claimed it yet (sometimes, the link will look MUCH different even though it's the same), try the following: ●Close out the game completely and then try the link again. This happens frequently, and it is a quick fix. ●If it takes you to the app store to download the MonopolyGO app, you should open up the link by holding your finger down on the link text until options pop up. Choose the "open in Safari," "open in browser," or "open in app" option. This is a way to overcome those iPhone shenanigans (happy Android user right here, lol 😁🙌).
I post the new dice links that Scopely releases daily, so make sure to check either the sub or the "posts" section on my profile. You could also follow me to get notified about my new posts, which are mostly just Monopoly Go dice links.
submitted by KrissyKris10 to Monopoly_GO [link] [comments]
https://mply.io/vV05Dd5AE3M
♡•☆•♡•●•°KRISTEN'S HELPFUL HINTS°•●•♡•☆•♡:
☆●•IF YOU ARE UNABLE TO CLAIM THE DICE LINKS•●☆ Depending on what the message says, for example, if it says "already claimed," then it has already been claimed. If you're positive that you haven't claimed it yet (sometimes, the link will look MUCH different even though it's the same), try the following: ●Close out the game completely and then try the link again. This happens frequently, and it is a quick fix. ●If it takes you to the app store to download the MonopolyGO app, you should open up the link by holding your finger down on the link text until options pop up. Choose the "open in Safari," "open in browser," or "open in app" option. This is a way to overcome those iPhone shenanigans (happy Android user right here, lol 😁🙌).
I post the new dice links that Scopely releases daily, so make sure to check either the sub or the "posts" section on my profile. You could also follow me to get notified about my new posts, which are mostly just Monopoly Go dice links.
🎲🎲🎲 😉☺️😁😃🤗🥰🫡 🎲🎲🎲 I hope this helps!!! 🎲🎲🎲 😉☺️😁😃🤗🥰🫡 🎲🎲🎲~😁😉 If you feel like these dice links that I post are useful, throw an upvote on them for visibility so others can more easily see them. 😉😁~
2024.05.13 23:40 Advanced_Froyo_8230 It's the Energy. Not the Number of Days
Many people do not notice benefits even after retaining for a large number of days. The main component of semen retention is energy not the number of days. We preserve semen because it is energy and that energy can do wonders.
If you do not notice benefits it is because that energy level is not there. Many people enjoy benefits quickly. Some even inside the first week. If you do not notice then that energy is being consumed elsewhere.
If you suffer from this, then the very first step is to figure out what is it consuming you. Stress, anxiety, other bad habits such as alcoholism and gaming etc. Mind I mention the worst of all is excessive screen time. Here are the most common things depleting that energy that you so painstakingly gather during semen retention.
1- Excessive Screen Time
This is the number one. Mindlessly scrolling through social media or even spending time on your phone excessively. I am of the belief that Semen retention goes hand in hand with NoSurf because of principles. No surf is even harder than semen retention but it is worth every penny. Go no surf and notice the benefits. The magnetism increases ten fold. This will be the hardest yet the most rewarding thing you can do. The combination of semen retention and NoSurf is the ultimate cheat code to be unstoppable.
2- Bad Company
Avoid bad company for the death trap it is. Avoid friends who are toxic and of an abusive tongue. Do not go out with them. Do not sit with them. Kindly turn them down. You will be like your friends. A man walks upon the way of his friend. Ever feel your life getting sucked out of you when you are with some people? Yeah that's your energy getting wasted and used up by people who do not deserve it.
3- Drugs
It is all about the principle. You cannot make your body pretend something it is or it is not. P*rn is a form of addiction. A form of instant gratification that prioritizes instant gratification over long term and sustained happiness. Drugs are the same. Be true to principles, not to practices alone.
4- Doing Wrong to Others.
Doing wrong to others kills the soul. Be kind and generous to people. Help the needy and the poor. Be respectful to the elderly. When you see someone being dealt with unfairly speak up for them. A dead soul that does wrong to others cannot benefit from anything, God, his word or the energy amassed through semen retention.
5- Looking and Lusting at Women
Women are our other half. Respect them. Do not view them as objects. They have value being our other half and hence fulfilling us and us fulfilling them. Avoid women who dress explicitly. Do not look at them for they are a trap. They are worthless, valueless women who just desire your attention and you running after them. Focus on your own self and women will flock to you. Do not be desperate for attention. Nobody likes someone who is desperate for their attention. They only look at them as losers.
The Things that Help you on Semen Retention and avoid the things listed above:
1- Fasting
Fasting is so so underrated. Let me tell you if you try to avoid the things listed above via will power you will fail. Miserably. The only way you can truly change your habits is by fasting. When you are fasting, do productive things like reading books etc and they will form into habits.
2- Being with Good Company
Find your bros doing semen retention and share your daily experiences with them. Daily sit down and talk it out and it will ignite a new fire in you to be a better you. Bad company kills. Likewise, good company gives you a new life. This is one thing missing in our community. We need to create a community or groups where we can talk about and daily share our experiences. Discord servers do no good. What we should do is to create groups of 5 or whatever number and these people should daily interact with each other. Grow together.
submitted by Advanced_Froyo_8230 to Semenretention [link] [comments]
If you do not notice benefits it is because that energy level is not there. Many people enjoy benefits quickly. Some even inside the first week. If you do not notice then that energy is being consumed elsewhere.
If you suffer from this, then the very first step is to figure out what is it consuming you. Stress, anxiety, other bad habits such as alcoholism and gaming etc. Mind I mention the worst of all is excessive screen time. Here are the most common things depleting that energy that you so painstakingly gather during semen retention.
1- Excessive Screen Time
This is the number one. Mindlessly scrolling through social media or even spending time on your phone excessively. I am of the belief that Semen retention goes hand in hand with NoSurf because of principles. No surf is even harder than semen retention but it is worth every penny. Go no surf and notice the benefits. The magnetism increases ten fold. This will be the hardest yet the most rewarding thing you can do. The combination of semen retention and NoSurf is the ultimate cheat code to be unstoppable.
2- Bad Company
Avoid bad company for the death trap it is. Avoid friends who are toxic and of an abusive tongue. Do not go out with them. Do not sit with them. Kindly turn them down. You will be like your friends. A man walks upon the way of his friend. Ever feel your life getting sucked out of you when you are with some people? Yeah that's your energy getting wasted and used up by people who do not deserve it.
3- Drugs
It is all about the principle. You cannot make your body pretend something it is or it is not. P*rn is a form of addiction. A form of instant gratification that prioritizes instant gratification over long term and sustained happiness. Drugs are the same. Be true to principles, not to practices alone.
4- Doing Wrong to Others.
Doing wrong to others kills the soul. Be kind and generous to people. Help the needy and the poor. Be respectful to the elderly. When you see someone being dealt with unfairly speak up for them. A dead soul that does wrong to others cannot benefit from anything, God, his word or the energy amassed through semen retention.
5- Looking and Lusting at Women
Women are our other half. Respect them. Do not view them as objects. They have value being our other half and hence fulfilling us and us fulfilling them. Avoid women who dress explicitly. Do not look at them for they are a trap. They are worthless, valueless women who just desire your attention and you running after them. Focus on your own self and women will flock to you. Do not be desperate for attention. Nobody likes someone who is desperate for their attention. They only look at them as losers.
The Things that Help you on Semen Retention and avoid the things listed above:
1- Fasting
Fasting is so so underrated. Let me tell you if you try to avoid the things listed above via will power you will fail. Miserably. The only way you can truly change your habits is by fasting. When you are fasting, do productive things like reading books etc and they will form into habits.
2- Being with Good Company
Find your bros doing semen retention and share your daily experiences with them. Daily sit down and talk it out and it will ignite a new fire in you to be a better you. Bad company kills. Likewise, good company gives you a new life. This is one thing missing in our community. We need to create a community or groups where we can talk about and daily share our experiences. Discord servers do no good. What we should do is to create groups of 5 or whatever number and these people should daily interact with each other. Grow together.
2024.05.13 23:38 ThaBiGGDoGG Kat Ocean Chat On Discord (I Already Removed Mine After She Stopped Talking)
April 2, 2024
katocean. — 04/02/2024 6:15 PM
I have a few contacts now via twitter.
[6:16 PM]
I just love people who are all about saying fuck the establishment. To a degree.
[6:16 PM]
Wow!
[6:17 PM]
I got one that is banned permanently. Then a throw away one. And then my main one im vocal on
katocean. — 04/02/2024 6:23 PM
Oh YOU ARE BLUE BALLS SECURITY?!?!
[6:23 PM]
Lmaooooo
[6:24 PM]
[6:25 PM]
Damn there alll out early today. Now Jess is live
[6:26 PM]
Absolutely!
katocean. — 04/02/2024 6:34 PM
Awee shucks, well its been a nice distraction
[6:34 PM]
Who do you think is your favorite streamer of the Squirrels to watch?
katocean. — 04/02/2024 6:45 PM
It was. A long but fun day
[6:47 PM]
But my stupid ex made me go out the night before and up till like 3AM. I was pissed.
[6:48 PM]
So I just rolled out of bed at like 1230-1 and uber down
[6:48 PM]
No make up or anything and threw comfys on and dipped
[6:48 PM]
Well thank you. I was a hot mess express
[6:49 PM]
5'7
katocean. — 04/02/2024 6:52 PM
katocean. — 04/02/2024 7:05 PM
Big plans for tonight?
[7:12 PM]
Watching the streamers! I just made it on Jess' poster! Shes putting all our names on her poster
katocean. — 04/02/2024 7:28 PM
STOPPPP
[7:29 PM]
Where was that???
[7:29 PM]
Aweee shucks stopppp
[7:32 PM]
Danks
[7:34 PM]
Did DOA say he was coming back?
katocean. — 04/02/2024 7:36 PM
Ahhh okay. Ill just stick on Jess' live for now
[7:40 PM]
Why??
[7:42 PM]
I try and not to be a rude person. I like engaging in conversations with people
katocean. — 04/02/2024 7:44 PM
Your boy just went live
[7:48 PM]
Ill head over cause jess is just writing names on her poster lol
[7:48 PM]
Shoot streets is live
[7:48 PM]
And yellin at the 5-0
[7:48 PM]
Gotta watch that
katocean. — 04/02/2024 7:59 PM
Wow
[7:59 PM]
UNDER CONTROL
katocean. — 04/02/2024 8:15 PM
Nah.
[8:15 PM]
I dont have much of an appetite
[8:16 PM]
But Chris' chipotle does look good but Im always disappointed when I get it. Plus Im saving every nickel and dime I have right now. So deff not ordering out or anything for a while.
[8:19 PM]
What do you know how to make besides pizza?!?!
[8:19 PM]
Lol
[8:21 PM]
Meatloaf
[8:21 PM]
Spaghetti good
[8:21 PM]
Chicken long as its well done lol
katocean. — 04/02/2024 8:22 PM
Hahaha im picky and get weird food adversions. I like everything fully cooked and well done
katocean. — 04/02/2024 8:47 PM
Ruhhh rooh!
[8:49 PM]
Its just starting to sleet / snow over here
[8:49 PM]
And my dog wont stop bothering me to go out. Im like ANNA PUP HUSH YOU DONT NEED TO POTTY EVERY HR
1
April 3, 2024
katocean. — 04/03/2024 7:38 AM
Sorry I fell asleep so early last night
[7:40 AM]
Thank you! Just woke up, its deff snowing but not much yet
[7:41 AM]
Yay for April! And snow! You never know what youre gonna get in the midwest
katocean. — 04/03/2024 7:47 AM
No I applied for an apartment yesterday so hoping to hear back today... applying for another one today. Thats about it. Im temp staying in Wisconsin at my moms. Trying to return to work next week
[7:47 AM]
How about you??
[7:52 AM]
We both live such exciting lives right now
katocean. — 04/03/2024 7:55 AM
How? My life is so messed up right now. I cant wait to get back to normalcy soon. Back in my own place, working, my daily routine etc
[7:57 AM]
[7:57 AM]
katocean. — 04/03/2024 8:12 AM
Whose that?
katocean. — 04/03/2024 8:24 AM
Ewww
[8:24 AM]
Omg
[8:24 AM]
Lord
[8:24 AM]
Stop
[8:24 AM]
Wtf
[8:24 AM]
I look like a night crawler
[8:31 AM]
Gah idk what you're definition of beautiful is but that is NOT it
katocean. — 04/03/2024 8:33 AM
Wtfff lmao. That girl was NOT PLAYIN WITH YA
katocean. — 04/03/2024 8:53 AM
Boy you and your pizza I like plain cheese but a GOOD and mean has to be good, bacon, chicken, bbq hits every once in a while
katocean. — 04/03/2024 9:15 AM
Ewww
[9:15 AM]
No
[9:15 AM]
I dont even like hot dogs.
katocean. — 04/03/2024 9:24 AM
Apple duh
[9:24 AM]
You're probably an android weirdo
[9:24 AM]
K bye
[9:30 AM]
katocean. — 04/03/2024 9:58 AM
I dont really drink pop but If I do it has to be coke. I used to like pepsi then I went to Europe and they only had coke... so then bam I made the switch ever since
katocean. — 04/03/2024 11:07 AM
Mmm I guess horror. I prefer documentaries, war movies especially about WW2, Drama, biographical movies, etc
[11:08 AM]
I'm more of a serious person with a purpose
katocean. — 04/03/2024 2:22 PM
Im just annoyed AF
[2:23 PM]
The application process for these two places are driving me up the fucking wall
[2:23 PM]
Its easier to buy a fucking gun then it is to apply for an apartment
[2:23 PM]
And im just beyond livid right now
[2:23 PM]
All I want to do is cry
katocean. — 04/03/2024 3:05 PM
Do you have a million dollars you can send me? That would be helpful, okay Ill take 100k... i wont be greedy
[3:05 PM]
Thank you
[3:06 PM]
I want to go home so badly. I want nothing to do with my ex. I dont even want to see him but I want to be back in my "home" until I have somewhere of my own again
[3:06 PM]
I hate that all my stuff is still there, that im at my moms
katocean. — 04/03/2024 3:31 PM
You have a better mind set then me
katocean. — 04/03/2024 3:38 PM
Karma works too slow for me
[3:38 PM]
And never seems to happen
[3:40 PM]
Damn lol
[3:40 PM]
Or did YOU break it?!?! Lmao
katocean. — 04/03/2024 3:50 PM
Oh lord I dont want to get into politics. But I am NOT a Trumper. I will say that. I'm a pretty liberal activists and wouldnt be a social worker if I wasnt. But I will say, from a fiscal standpoint I am more conservative as I got older & on my own. And I do recognize that we do better as an economy usually when a republican is president. But thats all Im gonna say about that
[3:52 PM]
Oh god I know. I wish we didnt have to go through these two bafoons again. I want new fresh faces, younger faces with progressive ideas. But I pretty much hate both sides at this moment in time and govt in general
katocean. — 04/03/2024 3:57 PM
Agree
[3:58 PM]
Im about to be in therapy for the next hr so my lack of responses will be why
katocean. — 04/03/2024 6:04 PM
I know I just sped through his stream and caught up. Im worried they are keeping his phones and computer and fur coat. Cause the officer is like "for further investigation"
katocean. — 04/03/2024 6:26 PM
Just relaxing. Contemplating if Im going to eat dinner or not.
katocean. — 04/03/2024 6:44 PM
No way sir
[6:44 PM]
Im in a depression funk
[6:46 PM]
I can give you my instagram if you want
[6:46 PM]
But deff no selfies right now
katocean. — 04/03/2024 6:52 PM
You can find it idk how to link it
[6:52 PM]
Still have all my pictures with my ex tho
[6:52 PM]
Just havent felt like deleting yet
[6:53 PM]
Also please if you see him tagged dont message him or anything. Even if you think thats being helpful.
katocean. — 04/03/2024 7:06 PM
No bueno
katocean. — 04/03/2024 7:20 PM
No bueno = No good
katocean. — 04/03/2024 8:38 PM
Thank you
April 4, 2024
katocean. — 04/04/2024 9:12 AM
Morning, thank you. You as well
katocean. — 04/04/2024 11:54 AM
Go to St. Louis Scientology Squirrel right now
[11:54 AM]
Shes in the St louis org
[11:54 AM]
Under cover live
[11:54 AM]
Recording
[11:54 AM]
But keep it on the DL. We dont want to many people knowing
[11:55 AM]
On YY
[11:55 AM]
Yt**
[11:55 AM]
katocean. — 04/04/2024 12:06 PM
No but it was great. Cant wait for the full replay to be posted
katocean. — 04/04/2024 12:14 PM
My mom informed me she had the book back in the 70s and her & her first husband read it. And thought it was "interesting"... I'm like omg... I could have became a sciento! Thank god it was just a dabble into the book and nothing more
katocean. — 04/04/2024 12:22 PM
Oh god
[12:22 PM]
Probably one I hate
[12:22 PM]
Oh and to answer your question earlier... yes, I want to move to the PNW badly. Thats my dream
[12:22 PM]
[12:25 PM]
Pshhh i know why its your favorite picture... creepy old men lol
[12:25 PM]
But I did post it as a thirst trap sorta bahahaha
[12:25 PM]
I've lost nearly 80lbs this last year
[12:26 PM]
I always was skinny but the last 5-6 years I put sooo much weight on. I got up to 210 and now down to like 130
[12:27 PM]
Which is great. But id love for other parts of my life to fall in place so i can just be happy overall
[12:27 PM]
Do you try and work out? Or anything?
[12:27 PM]
Maybe LESS pizza XXXXX! Lol
[12:27 PM]
Jk
[12:28 PM]
Have you talked with your doctor on getting on like Wegovy or Ozempic? Do you have insurance?
[12:28 PM]
It was a life saver for me
[12:28 PM]
Yeah fool. I found ur fb too. XXXXX XXXXX
[12:28 PM]
[12:29 PM]
I gotta know who im randomly talking to
katocean. — 04/04/2024 12:29 PM
But you have nothing besides memes and rando pictures that i can see and emoji bits or whatever lmao
[12:30 PM]
Get yourself on like Tinder or Bumble or Ok Cupid or somethin!
[12:30 PM]
But you deff have to have pictures
[12:31 PM]
I dont know. Im not in any place to give dating advice. I cant even fathom doing that at all right now. Im just ready to be single and build myself back up.
[12:31 PM]
Sheesh
[12:31 PM]
Im sorry
katocean. — 04/04/2024 12:37 PM
What do you think the issue is? Like not placing blame on you or anything... but when you do a deep dive into yourself what issues or things do you think makes it hard for a women to want to pursue anything further with you?
katocean. — 04/04/2024 12:53 PM
The snap chat thing is a little creepy IMO
[12:53 PM]
So Im not surprised you arent getting much traction from that
[12:53 PM]
Yeah not having a car is a huge hinderance
katocean. — 04/04/2024 1:11 PM
No. My mom does alll the time. Shes actually watching it right now lmao. I find them cheesy AF. Ha. One of my ex's & cousin are extras in those show allll the time
katocean. — 04/04/2024 1:22 PM
Only medical show I can watch is Greys Anatomy. And its because Ive been watching it since I was 16... and just cant give it up. 19 almost 20 years now.
[1:22 PM]
And I was and like "oh god this would never happen IRL" lmao
[1:23 PM]
Its the story lines for me of the characters. Not necessarily the medical aspects and patients.
katocean. — 04/04/2024 1:31 PM
I dont watch the Good doctor. I watched like 2 episodes when it first came out and I couldnt get past his insane autistic melt downs
[1:31 PM]
Lmao Im an asshole
[1:32 PM]
Cute what?
[1:34 PM]
Lets see how fast Sciento dad blocks me
katocean. — 04/04/2024 1:41 PM
Oh fuck me
[1:42 PM]
Probably Kathy hopefully
[1:42 PM]
And not Kathleen lol
katocean. — 04/04/2024 2:07 PM
No
[2:07 PM]
Lol
katocean. — 04/04/2024 2:31 PM
Lol!
[2:31 PM]
Me and Scientology twitter back at it right now
[2:31 PM]
[2:31 PM]
I love the attempting gaslighting
[2:33 PM]
Hahaha i love toying with these little fuckers
katocean. — 04/04/2024 2:48 PM
katocean. — 04/04/2024 3:18 PM
No thank you
[3:18 PM]
Maybe 5-10 years ago
katocean. — 04/04/2024 7:19 PM
Hey I took a really long afternoon nap just woke up
[7:20 PM]
Lol
katocean. — 04/04/2024 7:28 PM
Probably like a deep purple
katocean. — 04/04/2024 7:38 PM
Yeah pretty close
katocean. — 04/04/2024 9:30 PM
No
[9:30 PM]
Lol
[9:30 PM]
Sorry
April 5, 2024
katocean. — 04/05/2024 8:31 AM
Sleeping, Ive been going to sleep early these days by like 9-10 ish or so
[8:32 AM]
Honestly, right now, I wake up wait for the day to go by just so I can go to sleep
[8:32 AM]
Im contemplating on returning to work next Tuesday
[8:37 AM]
I wish
katocean. — 04/05/2024 8:52 AM
Basically between 1,300-1,400 fml
[8:52 AM]
All 1 bedroom, 1 bath
[8:52 AM]
Sucks
katocean. — 04/05/2024 10:19 AM
Oh wow
[10:19 AM]
What kind of jobs do you do?
[10:19 AM]
What does your daughter do for work? Did you finish college with a degree or nah?
[10:24 AM]
How do you bring in any income, if you don't mind me asking? Are you on like disability?
[10:25 AM]
Like surveys?
katocean. — 04/05/2024 10:27 AM
Ahhh okay just curious
[10:27 AM]
You gotta get on that and get that money
[10:33 AM]
My favorite up and coming person right now is HonestAv
[10:33 AM]
https://open.spotify.com/album/11ZfrqRpeCnGBAbJ8e50kH?si=E9lWAq4mTTibq7p9Yo25EA
[10:33 AM]
I relate to his songs so much
katocean. — 04/05/2024 10:34 AM
Nah but his songs and lyrics are so relatable
[10:40 AM]
Ha. Im conservative. No more thirst traps.
katocean. — 04/05/2024 11:01 AM
Aweee thats nice of her for something so simple
[11:01 AM]
My ex is my age
katocean. — 04/05/2024 4:32 PM
Awee sorry to hear about your gmas cat, hope its ok!!
katocean. — 04/05/2024 7:08 PM
Ha
[7:09 PM]
I put in a few more inquiries. I do have a back up plan for May though.
katocean. — 04/05/2024 7:20 PM
HOT
[7:20 PM]
hahahahah
April 6, 2024
ThaBiGGDoGG — 04/06/2024 3:34 PM
Not sure what I did that made you upset. I wish you lots of luck with what you are dealing with. I'm always here if you wanna talk.
submitted by ThaBiGGDoGG to u/ThaBiGGDoGG [link] [comments]
katocean. — 04/02/2024 6:15 PM
I have a few contacts now via twitter.
[6:16 PM]
I just love people who are all about saying fuck the establishment. To a degree.
[6:16 PM]
Wow!
[6:17 PM]
I got one that is banned permanently. Then a throw away one. And then my main one im vocal on
katocean. — 04/02/2024 6:23 PM
Oh YOU ARE BLUE BALLS SECURITY?!?!
[6:23 PM]
Lmaooooo
[6:24 PM]
[6:25 PM]
Damn there alll out early today. Now Jess is live
[6:26 PM]
Absolutely!
katocean. — 04/02/2024 6:34 PM
Awee shucks, well its been a nice distraction
[6:34 PM]
Who do you think is your favorite streamer of the Squirrels to watch?
katocean. — 04/02/2024 6:45 PM
It was. A long but fun day
[6:47 PM]
But my stupid ex made me go out the night before and up till like 3AM. I was pissed.
[6:48 PM]
So I just rolled out of bed at like 1230-1 and uber down
[6:48 PM]
No make up or anything and threw comfys on and dipped
[6:48 PM]
Well thank you. I was a hot mess express
[6:49 PM]
5'7
katocean. — 04/02/2024 6:52 PM
katocean. — 04/02/2024 7:05 PM
Big plans for tonight?
[7:12 PM]
Watching the streamers! I just made it on Jess' poster! Shes putting all our names on her poster
katocean. — 04/02/2024 7:28 PM
STOPPPP
[7:29 PM]
Where was that???
[7:29 PM]
Aweee shucks stopppp
[7:32 PM]
Danks
[7:34 PM]
Did DOA say he was coming back?
katocean. — 04/02/2024 7:36 PM
Ahhh okay. Ill just stick on Jess' live for now
[7:40 PM]
Why??
[7:42 PM]
I try and not to be a rude person. I like engaging in conversations with people
katocean. — 04/02/2024 7:44 PM
Your boy just went live
[7:48 PM]
Ill head over cause jess is just writing names on her poster lol
[7:48 PM]
Shoot streets is live
[7:48 PM]
And yellin at the 5-0
[7:48 PM]
Gotta watch that
katocean. — 04/02/2024 7:59 PM
Wow
[7:59 PM]
UNDER CONTROL
katocean. — 04/02/2024 8:15 PM
Nah.
[8:15 PM]
I dont have much of an appetite
[8:16 PM]
But Chris' chipotle does look good but Im always disappointed when I get it. Plus Im saving every nickel and dime I have right now. So deff not ordering out or anything for a while.
[8:19 PM]
What do you know how to make besides pizza?!?!
[8:19 PM]
Lol
[8:21 PM]
Meatloaf
[8:21 PM]
Spaghetti good
[8:21 PM]
Chicken long as its well done lol
katocean. — 04/02/2024 8:22 PM
Hahaha im picky and get weird food adversions. I like everything fully cooked and well done
katocean. — 04/02/2024 8:47 PM
Ruhhh rooh!
[8:49 PM]
Its just starting to sleet / snow over here
[8:49 PM]
And my dog wont stop bothering me to go out. Im like ANNA PUP HUSH YOU DONT NEED TO POTTY EVERY HR
1
April 3, 2024
katocean. — 04/03/2024 7:38 AM
Sorry I fell asleep so early last night
[7:40 AM]
Thank you! Just woke up, its deff snowing but not much yet
[7:41 AM]
Yay for April! And snow! You never know what youre gonna get in the midwest
katocean. — 04/03/2024 7:47 AM
No I applied for an apartment yesterday so hoping to hear back today... applying for another one today. Thats about it. Im temp staying in Wisconsin at my moms. Trying to return to work next week
[7:47 AM]
How about you??
[7:52 AM]
We both live such exciting lives right now
katocean. — 04/03/2024 7:55 AM
How? My life is so messed up right now. I cant wait to get back to normalcy soon. Back in my own place, working, my daily routine etc
[7:57 AM]
[7:57 AM]
katocean. — 04/03/2024 8:12 AM
Whose that?
katocean. — 04/03/2024 8:24 AM
Ewww
[8:24 AM]
Omg
[8:24 AM]
Lord
[8:24 AM]
Stop
[8:24 AM]
Wtf
[8:24 AM]
I look like a night crawler
[8:31 AM]
Gah idk what you're definition of beautiful is but that is NOT it
katocean. — 04/03/2024 8:33 AM
Wtfff lmao. That girl was NOT PLAYIN WITH YA
katocean. — 04/03/2024 8:53 AM
Boy you and your pizza I like plain cheese but a GOOD and mean has to be good, bacon, chicken, bbq hits every once in a while
katocean. — 04/03/2024 9:15 AM
Ewww
[9:15 AM]
No
[9:15 AM]
I dont even like hot dogs.
katocean. — 04/03/2024 9:24 AM
Apple duh
[9:24 AM]
You're probably an android weirdo
[9:24 AM]
K bye
[9:30 AM]
katocean. — 04/03/2024 9:58 AM
I dont really drink pop but If I do it has to be coke. I used to like pepsi then I went to Europe and they only had coke... so then bam I made the switch ever since
katocean. — 04/03/2024 11:07 AM
Mmm I guess horror. I prefer documentaries, war movies especially about WW2, Drama, biographical movies, etc
[11:08 AM]
I'm more of a serious person with a purpose
katocean. — 04/03/2024 2:22 PM
Im just annoyed AF
[2:23 PM]
The application process for these two places are driving me up the fucking wall
[2:23 PM]
Its easier to buy a fucking gun then it is to apply for an apartment
[2:23 PM]
And im just beyond livid right now
[2:23 PM]
All I want to do is cry
katocean. — 04/03/2024 3:05 PM
Do you have a million dollars you can send me? That would be helpful, okay Ill take 100k... i wont be greedy
[3:05 PM]
Thank you
[3:06 PM]
I want to go home so badly. I want nothing to do with my ex. I dont even want to see him but I want to be back in my "home" until I have somewhere of my own again
[3:06 PM]
I hate that all my stuff is still there, that im at my moms
katocean. — 04/03/2024 3:31 PM
You have a better mind set then me
katocean. — 04/03/2024 3:38 PM
Karma works too slow for me
[3:38 PM]
And never seems to happen
[3:40 PM]
Damn lol
[3:40 PM]
Or did YOU break it?!?! Lmao
katocean. — 04/03/2024 3:50 PM
Oh lord I dont want to get into politics. But I am NOT a Trumper. I will say that. I'm a pretty liberal activists and wouldnt be a social worker if I wasnt. But I will say, from a fiscal standpoint I am more conservative as I got older & on my own. And I do recognize that we do better as an economy usually when a republican is president. But thats all Im gonna say about that
[3:52 PM]
Oh god I know. I wish we didnt have to go through these two bafoons again. I want new fresh faces, younger faces with progressive ideas. But I pretty much hate both sides at this moment in time and govt in general
katocean. — 04/03/2024 3:57 PM
Agree
[3:58 PM]
Im about to be in therapy for the next hr so my lack of responses will be why
katocean. — 04/03/2024 6:04 PM
I know I just sped through his stream and caught up. Im worried they are keeping his phones and computer and fur coat. Cause the officer is like "for further investigation"
katocean. — 04/03/2024 6:26 PM
Just relaxing. Contemplating if Im going to eat dinner or not.
katocean. — 04/03/2024 6:44 PM
No way sir
[6:44 PM]
Im in a depression funk
[6:46 PM]
I can give you my instagram if you want
[6:46 PM]
But deff no selfies right now
katocean. — 04/03/2024 6:52 PM
You can find it idk how to link it
[6:52 PM]
Still have all my pictures with my ex tho
[6:52 PM]
Just havent felt like deleting yet
[6:53 PM]
Also please if you see him tagged dont message him or anything. Even if you think thats being helpful.
katocean. — 04/03/2024 7:06 PM
No bueno
katocean. — 04/03/2024 7:20 PM
No bueno = No good
katocean. — 04/03/2024 8:38 PM
Thank you
April 4, 2024
katocean. — 04/04/2024 9:12 AM
Morning, thank you. You as well
katocean. — 04/04/2024 11:54 AM
Go to St. Louis Scientology Squirrel right now
[11:54 AM]
Shes in the St louis org
[11:54 AM]
Under cover live
[11:54 AM]
Recording
[11:54 AM]
But keep it on the DL. We dont want to many people knowing
[11:55 AM]
On YY
[11:55 AM]
Yt**
[11:55 AM]
katocean. — 04/04/2024 12:06 PM
No but it was great. Cant wait for the full replay to be posted
katocean. — 04/04/2024 12:14 PM
My mom informed me she had the book back in the 70s and her & her first husband read it. And thought it was "interesting"... I'm like omg... I could have became a sciento! Thank god it was just a dabble into the book and nothing more
katocean. — 04/04/2024 12:22 PM
Oh god
[12:22 PM]
Probably one I hate
[12:22 PM]
Oh and to answer your question earlier... yes, I want to move to the PNW badly. Thats my dream
[12:22 PM]
[12:25 PM]
Pshhh i know why its your favorite picture... creepy old men lol
[12:25 PM]
But I did post it as a thirst trap sorta bahahaha
[12:25 PM]
I've lost nearly 80lbs this last year
[12:26 PM]
I always was skinny but the last 5-6 years I put sooo much weight on. I got up to 210 and now down to like 130
[12:27 PM]
Which is great. But id love for other parts of my life to fall in place so i can just be happy overall
[12:27 PM]
Do you try and work out? Or anything?
[12:27 PM]
Maybe LESS pizza XXXXX! Lol
[12:27 PM]
Jk
[12:28 PM]
Have you talked with your doctor on getting on like Wegovy or Ozempic? Do you have insurance?
[12:28 PM]
It was a life saver for me
[12:28 PM]
Yeah fool. I found ur fb too. XXXXX XXXXX
[12:28 PM]
[12:29 PM]
I gotta know who im randomly talking to
katocean. — 04/04/2024 12:29 PM
But you have nothing besides memes and rando pictures that i can see and emoji bits or whatever lmao
[12:30 PM]
Get yourself on like Tinder or Bumble or Ok Cupid or somethin!
[12:30 PM]
But you deff have to have pictures
[12:31 PM]
I dont know. Im not in any place to give dating advice. I cant even fathom doing that at all right now. Im just ready to be single and build myself back up.
[12:31 PM]
Sheesh
[12:31 PM]
Im sorry
katocean. — 04/04/2024 12:37 PM
What do you think the issue is? Like not placing blame on you or anything... but when you do a deep dive into yourself what issues or things do you think makes it hard for a women to want to pursue anything further with you?
katocean. — 04/04/2024 12:53 PM
The snap chat thing is a little creepy IMO
[12:53 PM]
So Im not surprised you arent getting much traction from that
[12:53 PM]
Yeah not having a car is a huge hinderance
katocean. — 04/04/2024 1:11 PM
No. My mom does alll the time. Shes actually watching it right now lmao. I find them cheesy AF. Ha. One of my ex's & cousin are extras in those show allll the time
katocean. — 04/04/2024 1:22 PM
Only medical show I can watch is Greys Anatomy. And its because Ive been watching it since I was 16... and just cant give it up. 19 almost 20 years now.
[1:22 PM]
And I was and like "oh god this would never happen IRL" lmao
[1:23 PM]
Its the story lines for me of the characters. Not necessarily the medical aspects and patients.
katocean. — 04/04/2024 1:31 PM
I dont watch the Good doctor. I watched like 2 episodes when it first came out and I couldnt get past his insane autistic melt downs
[1:31 PM]
Lmao Im an asshole
[1:32 PM]
Cute what?
[1:34 PM]
Lets see how fast Sciento dad blocks me
katocean. — 04/04/2024 1:41 PM
Oh fuck me
[1:42 PM]
Probably Kathy hopefully
[1:42 PM]
And not Kathleen lol
katocean. — 04/04/2024 2:07 PM
No
[2:07 PM]
Lol
katocean. — 04/04/2024 2:31 PM
Lol!
[2:31 PM]
Me and Scientology twitter back at it right now
[2:31 PM]
[2:31 PM]
I love the attempting gaslighting
[2:33 PM]
Hahaha i love toying with these little fuckers
katocean. — 04/04/2024 2:48 PM
katocean. — 04/04/2024 3:18 PM
No thank you
[3:18 PM]
Maybe 5-10 years ago
katocean. — 04/04/2024 7:19 PM
Hey I took a really long afternoon nap just woke up
[7:20 PM]
Lol
katocean. — 04/04/2024 7:28 PM
Probably like a deep purple
katocean. — 04/04/2024 7:38 PM
Yeah pretty close
katocean. — 04/04/2024 9:30 PM
No
[9:30 PM]
Lol
[9:30 PM]
Sorry
April 5, 2024
katocean. — 04/05/2024 8:31 AM
Sleeping, Ive been going to sleep early these days by like 9-10 ish or so
[8:32 AM]
Honestly, right now, I wake up wait for the day to go by just so I can go to sleep
[8:32 AM]
Im contemplating on returning to work next Tuesday
[8:37 AM]
I wish
katocean. — 04/05/2024 8:52 AM
Basically between 1,300-1,400 fml
[8:52 AM]
All 1 bedroom, 1 bath
[8:52 AM]
Sucks
katocean. — 04/05/2024 10:19 AM
Oh wow
[10:19 AM]
What kind of jobs do you do?
[10:19 AM]
What does your daughter do for work? Did you finish college with a degree or nah?
[10:24 AM]
How do you bring in any income, if you don't mind me asking? Are you on like disability?
[10:25 AM]
Like surveys?
katocean. — 04/05/2024 10:27 AM
Ahhh okay just curious
[10:27 AM]
You gotta get on that and get that money
[10:33 AM]
My favorite up and coming person right now is HonestAv
[10:33 AM]
https://open.spotify.com/album/11ZfrqRpeCnGBAbJ8e50kH?si=E9lWAq4mTTibq7p9Yo25EA
[10:33 AM]
I relate to his songs so much
katocean. — 04/05/2024 10:34 AM
Nah but his songs and lyrics are so relatable
[10:40 AM]
Ha. Im conservative. No more thirst traps.
katocean. — 04/05/2024 11:01 AM
Aweee thats nice of her for something so simple
[11:01 AM]
My ex is my age
katocean. — 04/05/2024 4:32 PM
Awee sorry to hear about your gmas cat, hope its ok!!
katocean. — 04/05/2024 7:08 PM
Ha
[7:09 PM]
I put in a few more inquiries. I do have a back up plan for May though.
katocean. — 04/05/2024 7:20 PM
HOT
[7:20 PM]
hahahahah
April 6, 2024
ThaBiGGDoGG — 04/06/2024 3:34 PM
Not sure what I did that made you upset. I wish you lots of luck with what you are dealing with. I'm always here if you wanna talk.
2024.05.13 23:34 colbbs Finally took the R1S car camping! Love it but have questions about camp mode.
 | Love love love the size, this is why I wanted it! It was perfect with all the storage options. I got the Exped Megamat Auto and it fits perfectly definitely recommend. submitted by colbbs to Rivian [link] [comments] Camp mode: This might just be because I’m unsure but I have a few questions.
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2024.05.13 23:30 grand_total Bring Your Own Phone Offer
I've recently signed up with Freedom Mobile Prepaid. I'm happy with the service I'm receiving so far and do not anticipate that will change.
At the moment I'm on a prepaid plan that has Digital Discount ($5) and Bring Your Own Phone ($5) discounts applied. What worries me is what happens after the Bring Your Own Phone discount expires after 24 months. Has this discount been running long enough that users have had it expire? If so what happens, is it magically replaced by another discount or do users simply have to pay $5 a month more?
submitted by grand_total to freedommobile [link] [comments]
At the moment I'm on a prepaid plan that has Digital Discount ($5) and Bring Your Own Phone ($5) discounts applied. What worries me is what happens after the Bring Your Own Phone discount expires after 24 months. Has this discount been running long enough that users have had it expire? If so what happens, is it magically replaced by another discount or do users simply have to pay $5 a month more?