Love things to say to my boyfriend

Hey guys,
As the title says, I am looking for someone who can send me the mod file for castle Volkihar Redux for Skyrim SE.
I tried to download it via Bethesda to no awail. Trying with several new accounts, also no success. Even purged my game and the only thing that this achieved was to make me curse this stupid ass system that Bethesda has implemented.
Can someone help a fellow Skyrim enjoyer out?
Cheers guys!

Hi 😊! I am a 21 year old woman (or, I will be 21 in August) from norway and in my freetime I like to read, watch movies and be with my family. While I like to have fun and find stuff to do I'm not much of a partier and my idea of fun is more like trying out new food, exploring the city, watching a movie etc... Along with this my faith and God is really important to me, and I strive to live for Him.
I am looking for a relationship that can turn into a marriage, and I thought I’d try my luck on this sub.
I feel like I should let people here know this before someone maybe thinks about contacting me:
I am a bi-romantic lesbian. I am not an asexual. However, I am on this sub because I want to find an asexual man that I can marry someday.
Something that is important to me is that the man that I'm marrying is asexual, but that he is okay with doing some sexual things, and I'd love it if you like kissing and cuddling. I get that this may be a bit of a strange post and I hope that I didn’t offend anybody, if we start talking then I'd love to explain everything.
I hope that you didn't get completely put off by these things, haha. God bless you :)

Hi, I want to preface this by saying I'm an ex-Windows user and relatively new (1 year) Macbook user.
One of the things I miss the most is the Windows explorer vs. the Finder.
Here is my current problem and maybe some of you might help with an easy solution. I'm a videographephotographer. I'd love to see at a glance some info about my files (ex. Video length, video and image dimensions in px, video frame rate, etc.)
I know that the Finder doesn't let us pick all the info we want to see, like the hundreds of options that Windows Explorer lets you choose from.
I've read so far that I either have to put the video/photo files in the native "VIDEO" or "PICTURES" folder on the MAC to see this info. This is impossible for me though, as I have many projects and the files are split into folders Can't dump em all in one place. If these folders can show me the info, why not all folders?
Also, I've read that you can open QuickTime and Command+I to open the inspector and see the info, but that is not a viable solution. I don't want to have to open each and every file and then do a command just to see basic info.
I've searched but haven't seen an option for me to simply see file info... Maybe some of you have some tricks? Thanks.

To preface this story; my boyfriend and I have been dating for 6 months, and he is utterly wonderful to me. He’s everything I’ve ever wanted and despite me struggling with trust and not believing I’m wanted, he’s shown me consistently since the day we met that he only has eyes for me. He has struggled with severe OCD all his life while I have severe ADHD and have recently also been diagnosed with OCD (specifically ROCD).
He is a very conventionally attractive man and gets a lot of female attention, which has always felt difficult but he turns it down without blinking an eye every time. I also get a fair amount of attention which I instantly shut down, but my boyfriend deeply struggles with RJ. I have a promiscuous past (despite actually a low body count) and he has found the idea that i’m not untouched extremely difficult. He also will admit his area of weakness is communicating his fears and worries, which culminated in one of his biggest OCD episodes ever.
In February he travelled to a different country for a week which was our first time being long distance even for a short period of time. He went to work at a gym event and was posting lots of content of himself in that environment, and received a number of suggestive messages in response from random girls. We hadn’t been able to talk much that week, he was severely jet lagged, and had had a large fight with a family member that day. The OCD thoughts that had been plaguing him for around a month beforehand came on very strongly, and he was suddenly convinced that I didn’t love him and was cheating on him (due to a few things he had misinterpreted but not spoken up about). In the peak of this, a girl sent him explicit pictures, and in a fit of rage he sent one back. He immediately blocked her before she even opened it and called me crying, which is very rare. He told me he had had this moment of clarity after where he realised how much he fucked up and had given into his OCD and that he never wanted anyone else and never wanted to hurt me.
I struggled with this information at first because trust is a very difficult thing for me, but I stayed calm and tried my hardest to think rationally. Logically, I really do get what went on for him that led to this, and I trust that he didn’t do it out of lust or any desire to cheat on me. It’s been eating him up inside ever since because a big part of his OCD is thinking he’s an awful person and having a massive conscience and he hates to see me hurt. The problem is, my OCD causes me to completely obsess over things like this and I can’t get it out of my head. I find myself secretly questioning everything even though I logically understand the reasons. I want to move past it so badly and it’s causing him so much anguish to see me hurt by his actions, even though I assure him I’m actually just being hurt by my OCD. I also know with almost 100% certainty he will never do anything like that again. Any mistakes he ever makes he only makes once, because he takes learning from them extremely seriously.
I suppose my question is, how can I get my feelings on board with what I know is logically true? I don’t want to create distance between us, and I certainly am not considering breaking up. I just don’t want to allow my thoughts to tarnish him.

Let's say I have all the necessary apks and ROMs. What things do you see useful to buy? I've been thinking about getting a couple of controllers, an SD card, and an HDMI adapter for my phone in case I wanted to play on TV. Do you see anything else necessary to improve the gaming experience?

I am so sick of my coworker and I’m THIS close to telling on him to my manager.
I’ve been trying my best to help him over the last 3 months because he was struggling with the work and training. I offered to help him bc I felt bad and thought I could train him on a few things he needed further training on. My manager thanked me because even he was struggling to train him. But mind you, he’s been here 2 years!
It’s been 3 months, I’ve provided my time, I’ve created step by step documents for him, and even recorded a session he can go back to and this human STILL acts brand new. He’s asking the dumbest questions, getting mad and blames others when he doesn’t understand something, he gets rude too. Recently, he randomly took a medical leave, meanwhile I still see him post on social media all the things he’s doing and dumbass things he’s saying on Twitter. He looks perfectly fine and my guess is he conveniently took time off because he had 15 projects due within the next two weeks that have now been pawned off to me and a few others.
I’m so sick of him and his bs. Zero clue why he is still here. Side-note, he always posts on social media while he is supposed to be working. He’s honestly useless and I want him fired. He’s taking valuable space from others. My manager is aware of his shitty work ethic and even he seems over it, but he keeps saying “we’re working with him”. Enough is enough, he’s the stupidest person I’ve ever met. I’m so close to telling my manager that right now that he’s on leave he is perfectly fine on Instagram.
I know I’d be a snitch, but GUYS I have been pushed. I refuse to get any more messy projects from him to work on

The afterlife looks different from how they remember it was described. Instead of the pearly gates, it was the River Styx. Instead of a male angel, it was a female grim reaper. However, they eventually made it to a plane in the sky all the same, and now they face a wall in their new abode, staring at 3 things: a ration of breakfast given to them, a black rose left behind by the reaper, and a golden band you were given by this plane's caretaker.
Which do they choose?
Rules:

1. Disclaimer: This is not canon unless you choose for your OC to be dead in their canon. Also, they are in the Lycanian afterlife here, probably displaced. Your OC will eventually go to their respective afterlife after some communication, unless they are any flavor of irreligious or non-spiritual (atheist, deist, agnostic, spiritual not religious, etc). To add, if you yourself are religious, I do not mean any harm by my depictions of some afterlives, so if something turns up historically inaccurate, do say something. I always take critique.
2. No IDC OCs. Gods and OP OCs are allowed, but they have to fit in this prompt.
3. No CRP for this one. The gods briefly described here are normally pacifists, unlikely to harm anyone.
4. Please don't one-liner me on your intros. I need to improve my literacy.
5. Just have fun.

I understand that most are loving the new patch, and I am glad for you. I mostly like the item changes and various QOL things.
But, the game has become too easy for me to enjoy. I enjoy arpgs by playing HC and seeing how far I can get. After playing about an hour and a half last night, I was left feeling frustrated. I could pretty much ignore all enemy mechanics and could go multiple levels without bothering to open my inventory to equip better stuff. I was unchallenged and I was bored and it led to frustration.
I understand most people don't feel that way, but I honestly can't enjoy the game as it is right now.
So, I have two suggestions that might help people like me looking for some challenge.
Option one - a "nightmare mode" or whatever name they want to give it. Toggleable on character creation and just makes the game harder. Personally I'd like to see an increase in monster HP and monster damage. Maybe also less frequent drops. 50/50 on whether I'd like to see less experience or not.
Option two - just let us skip to level 100. I personally would rather not do that, but if that's where the challenge is and option one isn't feasible/acceptable for some reason, then so be it. I'd prefer to work my way to 100, but I simply don't have the patience to grind for hours through stuff I find unfun until I get there. Just let me skip straight to it if that's where all the fun is going to be.

I'm a regular person hanging out on this Reddit group, which feels pretty chill. But, man, everyone seems to be on different pages, and it's pretty baffling. I'm not the sharpest tool in the shed when it comes to investing – actually, I'd say I'm a clueless idiot most of the time. But if there's one thing I've learned from messing up, it's to keep my eyes open. I'm willing to gamble a bit, but I like to watch the market closely first. I got burned pretty bad with Fisker because I got caught up in the hype for a quick profit, and it backfired big time.
I've been reading other posts, and I see people throwing money at stocks like GME, BB, AMC, SINT, and FFIE. Sure, the stock market's all about betting on companies you believe in. I was set to go all-in on GameStop, AMC, and FFIE, but then I thought better of it and decided to wait and see how things would unfold. Right now, AMC and GME stocks have dropped by more than 20%, which might be a golden chance to buy.
But here's the thing – I was tempted to put all my money on one stock that I thought would skyrocket. However, I'm realizing that I'm not making much sense. I see other people getting so excited that they're not thinking straight, and that's a surefire way to lose money. At this point, I'm torn between choosing a stock to invest in or just continuing to watch from the sidelines, for a good low point to enter. We don't know what Roaring Kitty will do next. What I'm trying to say is, with all these posts flying around, it's super confusing, and I don't get how we're supposed to stick together when everyone's betting differently on these meme stocks, (everyone) as in people in other Reddit groups. Has anyone else paid attention to this?

I (34F) am currently in the process of divorce, which has been mentally exhausting but thanks to therapy and a lot of work on myself I’m reaching a peaceful agreement.
I’ve had recently reconnected with an old flame back from university days. I was clear from the start that I did not think it was a good time to explore anything beyond platonic, however he (34M) insisted that he had been waiting on his chance with me for over a decade and that he is ready to date me despite my divorce not yet being finalised. I was very cautious at first , accepting the odd coffee date here and there as I like to take things slow before becoming intimate, especially given the circumstances.
He, however, was very insisting, full of compliments, generous, chivalrous, talked about marriage and family, even children’s names. Within 1 month, he referred to me as his girlfriend. This caught me by surprise, but I just assume some people are more spontaneous and a serious conversation about “what are we” wasn’t needed. He told all his friends about me. Because he is an old friend, and actually one who warned me about a toxic ex of mine in the past, I felt he was very caring and safe , and eventually I let my guard down and decided to let him in. For my birthday, he got flowers, took me out for dinner, even got me a necklace and a little music box. I’ve asked him if he was falling in love with me and he said yes.
Then eventually I let myself be intimate with him. It’s been mind blowing every single time.
I work a 9-5 kind of job that involves travelling from time to time. He works in a busy hospitality environment, mainly nights. I did ask from the start if he did not consider this an incompatibility, which he reassured me it wouldn’t be and managed to fit each other in our busy schedules. He always insisted on paying too, despite me being the one who earned the most. He booked us on a trip to his home country with his family. Again, a little bit too fast for me , but I have no logical reason to refuse.
Then something happened. He told me about his schedule for the week in order to fit some time together. Because he had a training event that may involve dinner with colleagues the following day, I told him I would see him in 3 days instead. But he insisted that he would see me the next day. I told him it really was ok if he couldn’t meet up, but he was determined to meet me. So the next day, I told him ok, I’m finished with work, let me know how you’re getting on. He said he thought he was finishing within the following hour. As I needed to buy some stuff anyway I told him I would then see him in town. Comes to the meeting time and he texts “I am staying for dinner , can’t get out of it” to which I say: it’s ok, that’s why I suggested not to meet today but when we both have free time. And I went home. He texted me but I only saw it after I finished cooking my own dinner: “are you ignoring me ?” At this point , I found it a bit strange that after technically leaving me stranded he was asking if I was ignoring him. But of course I replied and made nothing out of it. However , I found it a bit rude that he didn’t even apologise for his sudden change of plans.
We met that Friday and it was great. Said he’s meeting me the next day , usual time (a few hours before he starts his shift) but he overslept and had to go to work. Again, not a problem. However the same thing happens the following day (Sunday) but this time I don’t hear from him until he’s been working a few hours already. “Guess what time I woke up”. I saw the message and put my phone on the side , as I had low battery and was out socialising with friends. Didn’t think this required an immediate response. Later on in the evening I come to a multitude of messages accusing me that I’ve changed my style of messaging and that something was off. I explained exactly what happened and that he had nothing to worry about. We agreed to meet up next day. We did. He brought up the “incident” again. I apologised , I expressed that I did not like being messed around with my schedule as I’m usually quite busy and there has been a few instances already and no apologies, we made up and went for dinner and after , to have a few drinks where he normally works. He made a point it was gross misconduct to drink at his work. Well, we get there , he necks two shots and informs me the date was over and he decided to jump in and help. No apologies. I left and told him I found this very rude. At this point my gut feeling is starting to tell me something’s off.
There’s a few more instances of me having to chase him to clarify whether or not to meet. I find this a bit exhausting to do. Not every time we agreed , we met as he was busy either sleeping or working. Or his phone died. Then when we have some time together , which is scarce , he is constantly on his phone replying to everyone , so I find this behaviour very confusing and ultimately, rude.
Last planned date , after checking with him several times , I got theatre tickets and paid deposit for dinner. He reassured me it was going to happen and that he was very excited. He doesn’t reply to my last messages for a solid 15h, so I ask him why is he treating me like this when he doesn’t like the same done to him ? The day before this, he messages me saying “little bit of a pickle but have to work tomorrow”. At this point , I’ve had enough with my time being wasted and not a single apology. So I texted him back that “I need a break from all this, sorry”. He just reacts with a thumbs up which is infuriating to say the least (we are talking 14 years of friendship) so I asked him : “is that it? Are you even sorry ? “ to which he says : “sorry for what, having to work? “ to which I reply: no it’s not even about tickets or rotas or plans , is about emotional neglect and lack of consideration. He says he’s not willing to discuss it as his out with his team and I said I agree is not the time and place. But he carried on texting me saying that he doesn’t think it will work out and that he needs someone smart and not someone who lives in la-la land. I firstly explain that I had already broken up with him earlier, so no need to turn the tables and that I know I am smart and why trying to belittle me? He continued lashing out that I am not smart , I am not brave, etc. and that he wins at all these qualities. I come to the conclusion that he’s the one scared of vulnerability and trying to compete against me, which is weird and childish.
Now the weight in my chest has lifted and I think I’ve dodged a bullet , however part of me wonders if I have been too harsh breaking up by text with someone who struggles with emotional intelligence and self regulation?
Many thanks in advance

i '23F' a medical student have been in a long distance relationship with my bf '24M' for almost two years now (he's bisexual) , it was open for the first year cuz he wasn't sure or ready to be committed although I expressed being against an open relationship from the first place, but he ended up calling it that..he kept partying nd meeting girls and guys while not telling me everything ( i heard some from him by asking directly and some from mutual friends) fast forward few months, i was there with him each step of the way.. he graduated from college and got drunk that night , slept with a married man, he called me the next morning and told me what has happened .. realizing he fucked up as soon as i started crying..i broke up with him then but he said he as some stuff to say and he's gonna be here tomorrow and i met him with my sister.. he managed to convince me that I'm important to him that's why he came all the way here,, that he doesn't wanna lose me and i accepted that. And suggested we make it official and get exclusive, if his way didn't work we'll try mine After that we had our first night together, it was my birthday it went on perfectly, he started working online(e commerce ) around that time and got a scholarship to france as well (he isn't going yet), we had minor fights about him not bringing me gifts at all, except for our first date ever and on my birthday, i noticed that he doesn't like spending money on me and loves it when i pay for dessert or stuff on our dates.. cuz i started working as wel in selling beauty products but as u know.. med school is hard and being on antidepressants doesn't help much, i sleep alot, have brain fog, forget and skip evening classes and lately he started talking to me like I'm lower than him in some ways, he sometimes talks like I'm lazy and when i confront him he plays the vic.tim, he gets really jealous if i met guy friends and when i ask he says he's not jealous, he gets mad whenever i don't follow what he says, or when i don't follow what i say word for word.. even dumb stuff i don't feel like he's in love with me, it's like he's pretending, it's all an act.. each and every problem is my fault no matter what happens..he has to be right and get me to admit that I'm wrong and apologize.. On a daily basis our talks are nice and we call all the time then whenever something small occurs he doesn't stop blaming me and/or making me feel guilty till i cry or have a mental breakdown just to mske himself right My best friend said he's probably gay because there are signs of that and is just playing the long game to have someone to pay the bills if his projects fail.. lately he started saying bad stuff and just explode at me,and say really mean stuff like (go f** urself) for not going o class then say it's in my best interest, and he said that cuz he cared about me, even though it's in a disrespectful way.. i argued against that but he got mad and kept twisting stuff My sister took my phone and asked him to stop doing this then he hang-up and I'm so desperate now I don't know what to do anymore! Please analyze the situation and tell me what to do? Am i being dramatic?

For context, I(16f) have an extreme aversion for prawns and any seafood for no particular reason. I went to a Japanese restaurant with my mom and I ordered and green onion Okonomiyaki(there was no list of ingredients), my mom ate some and I asked "is there prawn in it?" she didnt reply, i asked "could that white chewy thing be radish?" she said "it could be." Only while I was eating the last piece, did she say yes there was prawn and squid in it, and she had known since eating her second piece, I then proceeded to spit it all out and drink 3 large cups of cold tea to get the taste out of my mouth, I know it's a bit irrational. She lied to me about this despite knowing well my extreme aversion to seafood, and I then was like, "can you not lie to me next time, please, you know how much I don't want to eat prawn". She then proceeded to get mad at me, saying "I wasn't lying, I just didn't tell you", "It's all in your head", and "I'm wasting my money buying food for you, next time I won't bring you out to try new foods ever again." and proceeded to give me the silent treatment and walk really fast to the car, when I got in, she slammed the doors, when she got home she did basically everything with silent anger. When i got home I tried to make myself throw up for an hour, felt like dry heaving, nauseous, and disgusted, so I drank an unhealthy amount of water and brushed my teeth forever. AITA?
Ps, Whenever I do something that upsets her, she is like "Fine, I'll never...again", gives me silent treatment then never resolves the problem(asian household things) and things go back to normal. The worst of it was when I was like 12 or 13, I don't even remember what i did, but she didn't talk to me for a week while I was isolated at home, and she sent me a text with information I only wrote in my diary. my dad had to peace keep and make her talk to me again. Sorry for the rant.

I've been into watches since I was about 16. Coming from a lower middle class background, I went to a private high school where a lot of the kids around me had Rolexes, Panerais etc. from their parents. Naturally started building a little collection of my own, full of little super cheap watches such as Vostoks, Seikos, even saved up to buy a Steinhart!
Ten years later, I still like watches a lot. Now finding myself in a position where I am making decent money, have a career etc. and could probably buy a nice piece in the $10k range in 2-3 years, without causing any major financial risk to myself. But 2-3 years can also feel like a hell of a long time to be waiting for something you strongly desire.
I think a lot of people find themselves in this situation. Could buy a really nice piece if they stayed disciplined for a few years, but have-to-stay-disciplined. But what a ton of guys end up doing when faced with this, is to start buying mid range stuff. Midos, CWs, Longines, Seikos etc. you name it. On here, I see a lot photos of collection where someone collected 5-10 pieces in the $200-2000 range. This turns into a spiral that goes on forever, and they might never end up with that one truly nice piece they've always wanted.
I'm not here to say that buying midrange stuff is irrational or that it doesn't make sense. Nothing about collecting watches makes sense. Nobody needs a watch in 2024. But I would love to hear from people who've been in this situation. If you went on a midrange buying spree, and never ended up getting that Omega or Rolex you actually wanted, how do you reflect on that experience? Would you do the same thing again, given the choice? And if you are one of the few who actually managed to stay disciplined and then finally got that huge payoff after years of grinding, how did you deal with the years in-between where you couldn't have what you wanted? Tough place to be as well.
Personally, I once again find myself strongly desiring to purchase a watch. I can't buy the one watch I truly love (Rolex Datejust, fluted, mint green) without compromising the rest of my financial plans. For that reason, I find myself looking for something in the sub $1k range that I can "wear for now". I really like the ice blue Tissot Powermatic 80 for this. But I also know that I shouldn't do it, stay disciplined, and just wait for my Rolex. It's a damn tough spot to be in.
Would love to hear from all of you who've experienced something similar.

Walmart no longer sells clothes in my size at all and these clothes are becoming absolutely irreplaceable because of my sensory needs. My biggest concern is people lying saying they don't have my stuff when they obviously do.
Everyone from my sister's kids to the residents at the evangelist group home have managed to run off with my shit that way. I even had my stuffed animal from infancy stolen by my sister's ex's kid in plain sight even though it was released when I was born and he was born in 2011.
I'm okay without my game CDs for right now since I backed up "all" the files onto cloud storage, but it still sucks that I can't just back them up with the CD in case something goes wrong. If they're not stolen by someone else and used as DVDs, they're otherwise lost in my parents' roach infested hoard from when I tried to install the games over on their computer (even the computer desk is hoarded).
I do what I can to protect my belongings and keep them in my room, but it's just not enough because of my memory loss. I've already put my initials on all my clothes and it's still not enough to prevent them from being mixed up with someone else's laundry.
The only way to prevent my clothes from getting mixed up with other people is to just not wash them at all. The room with the washing/drying machine at my parents is hoarded up to the ceiling and the floor is caked all to hell in dog shit.
I would love to go to a laundromat, but I haven't been given money in months and can't afford it (that's if my parents will even let me go over there since I can't drive). My parents are the type to dictate where we go or else they get pissed off and frustrated due to their illnesses.
The whole "don't ask anything of anyone" mantra has been drilled into my head since the age of three. Absolutely no socialization with the public outside of school or church. Even then, my parents didn't really want me talking to other kids anyway.
In fact, I'm still running into issues to this very day with my case manager wanting to set me up for doctor's appointments only for my guardian to tell everyone no and not even take me to the doctor at all. I've tried getting the guardianship repealed only for everyone to tell me no because they believe my parents love me and want what's best for me.
To be honest, I might be developing selective mutism as I just don't have the words to say anymore. Everyone online says you just have to abide by this disorder and communicate in other ways, but I don't get to have that option where I live.
There is no alternative communication outside of speech in my area. If you don't talk verbally, you're pretty much destined for the psych ward. Even my own therapist got pissed at me for not asking for help even though it results in everyone either ignoring me, straight up lying to me, or telling me there's nothing they can do.

Context: I (20F) and my fiance (20M) currently live in his mothers house while we save up for a house and start our careers. We pay the majority of rent and utilities. So we're not staying there for free. And FMIL lives off government assistance and child support.
In January the whole situation went down. Taxes were due and my fiance was under his mom has a dependent. However since he's working a really good job he's made too much to be considered a dependent and financially independent to be claimed for child support. Meaning when he and his mother file for taxes, she won't receive the same amount of money as she used to. Which upset her and she reached out to ask if her son would claim her and his little sister as dependents. That she will claim disability and make it seem like he is the sole provider for the whole family.
She asked him this while he was working and then got another message from his older sister asking if he was going to claim his mother and sister as dependents or me since I don't make much money from my job and he is providing mainly for me. He texted back that he would have to ask me.
This blew his phone up. They asked him why would he need to talk to me? That this was messed up and how his mother was really counting on him to do this favor.
He called me and I told him that he needs to think about his options here. Do what he wants to do because he's going to be the main one affected on if he chooses to stay on government assistance or not.
In the end he said no to his mother. He did not want to be on the case any longer because it has caused a lot of issues for him so far. Ex: getting a decent job, setting up a savings account, applying for credit. All things you can't do or it is extremely hard to do while receiving help.
His mother was pissed. Saying that I involved myself into family matters that don't concern me. How I've manipulated her son and that I'm controlling him into making decisions where I benefit from. I don't think I did anything wrong considering I simply told him to do what he wants. But idk maybe I should have just kept my mouth shut.

I've had a lot of time to think about this being alone throughout the years.
So why am I alone and without a family or wife at age 34? I'm good looking, in excellent physical shape and a very good conversationalist. The mystery is very deep, and I've had questions about why that is, but here are some things I've learned about life and myself in my ample time spent in solitude.
I am the only person that can make me feel guilty. For years and years I was conditioned into believing that if I liked to masterbate it would send me to hell. Through much introspection I was able to transcend my religious upbringing as a child. I am now only accountable to myself. Do I feel empathy? Yes, I definitely do. I have great emotional depth, which is perhaps why I have failed at relationships in the past
I am able to see the destructive things that society does more clearly and distance myself from them. Drinking alcohol, being on social media constantly, etc.
I am comfortable with my silence and in silence. Those who are uncomfortable with my silence are themselves unsure of themselves. I don't feel the need to make small talk with anyone. If someone wants to start a conversation I will gladly accept it..but I don't break silence for anything. Why is that ? Because I am comfortable in my own skin. Ive overcome many obstacles and the only person that has been there the entire time ? Three people. Me, myself, and I.
I can do what I want when I want to. I don't have someone who depends on me for their happiness. And I already know what happens when I try to find happiness in another person. Its called codependency.
I don't feel pressured into any kind of role. Thats what a partner wants from me. Someone who will work a job to be able to afford kids someday. I'm happier not having to work all the time because of those pressures. I realize almost everyone is not like me in this sense, however there are alternative ways of life. And i myself am not buying what society has to offer.
My spiritual life is amazing. Everyday is a synchroncity. I feel closer to my own personal SELF.
Anyways, this is why I want to stay single. I suppose if some woman wants to live with me in my one bedroom, I would perhaps be open to that...that's true love after all, with no conditions whatsoever.

I really am sick of this. My parents have been doing this since I was 6, The main thing is my dad. My father is blind and makes it his personality, he's calm at times but if your voice is tired, he snaps like "DON'T GIVE ME THAT ADDITUDE" or mumbles "Oh f***" and If you try talking serious he just sighs and ignores me. On the other hand, we have my mother, She's been through all lot of stuff so she does have trauma I believe. Still one of the things she does is horrible, Let me play the conversation basically:
Me: " Mom, do you think maybe you can set an appointment for me to get checked for a mental illness?
Mom: "Oh gr-, Honey, If i can do it without all this things today, anyone can, also you never show signs of any mental illness s**"
I have looked up my symptoms and secretly checked with online doctors , I have a high rating in Autism or ADHD but my parents are strict so knocking and privacy isn't real here, for example if you close the door as you use the restroom you get yelled at for probably doing weird things in there. Another example, if I bring up something that happened to my friend and stop speaking, they need to know. Most times I'll say "No they asked me to keep it private" while my dad and mom say "B**** tell us. Is she doing drugs? Stop f***ing being so god darn secretive!" Yes they openly cussed around me since birth,. I'm only realizing its bad now. I do know that there is something wrong with me, at night for a good 15 minutes in my head I just hear laughing. Straight up laughing for 15 minutes. Each night.
I also have very weird habits, I love the sight of blood and killing just sounds fun-ish but also horrible? or something. I also stalk people for fun, its a weird addiction that kinda makes me excited, I will physically stalk and track everything about someone and randomly stop. My mom also hates that I'm "In this phase" I do not think I am in a phase and think I need mental help. But I guess self harm and anorexia doesn't need help in her eyes. My parents are both homophobic and are only fine with Lesbians, Bi, or Gay, Anything else n their eyes is "mentally ill f***ers" If I came out as non-binary lesbian my mother and father would most likely hate me.

I made a promise that I won’t kill myself, but I didn’t think I would feel really bad again. I don’t know where to start, I am lying again, hiding again and feeling so much but at the same time nothing. I don’t think life is worth living. I don’t think there is anything I can look forward to in this life. Love is fleeting, relationships too. What remains with me is pain. I don’t want to bother anyone anymore. I don’t want to burden the last couple of people who were patient enough with me to listen to all my venting. So I think killing myself would benefit everyone around me. My parents wouldn’t have to pay money for food for me anymore or pointless birthday presents. My friends could enjoy their life and my closest person could move on and fall for someone prettier and happier than me. I don’t see any negative consequences only benefits. Yesterday I started planing how I could do it. I came up with two very good plans, that are definitely deadly. Yet I can’t shake the feeling that if I break that promise it would be selfish and I would hurt him really bad. At the same time I am almost certain he is a liar and that he doesn’t care that much about me. Or maybe it’s just my mental illness, idk… Maybe I am just severely mentally ill. But I can’t shake the feeling that he will hurt me, I’m so on edge. And he did tell me to stop speaking about suicidal things, so I am trying to just lie. Lie about how I feel, I’m fine good happy I am meeting with a friend haha I am all good. Whatever. It doesn’t matter. How can I break that promise without it affecting him? Maybe I should lie and tell him I met someone else or that I hate him. Before going through with my plan I should make him despite me. Truth is I don’t want to die? But I have to for all of this to end. All these voices in my head and all these emotions and I am tired of everyone around me not being compassionate or even making my feelings about themselves. Would it be selfish? Or do I have the right to do it?

I've been on a few trips with my bf that have been overnight to a few days long. He's also spent the night at my place. I've never seen him brush his teeth but I know he has a toothbrush and toothpaste. Besides that I didn't notice anything unusual about his hygiene until our past 2 out of town trips.
We went to visit his mom who lives a few hours away. We got there Friday evening after making the drive and then doing a few touristy things that afternoon. He didn't shower that night but I know he did before we left so I thought okay fine. Personally I'm big on not bringing outside filth to the inside. I don't wear shoes in my house and I change as soon as I get home. We had a long day Saturday, a lot of it outdoors. It was hot and I know we both sweat a fair amount. I showered that evening but again he didn't. Sunday while I was doing my hair and makeup he did finally take a shower.
We took another trip to visit my mom who lives a few hours away. Again we got there Friday and I showered that evening but he didn't. I know he did before we left so fine. Saturday we were out and about all day and I took a shower when we got back but again he didn't. Sunday and no shower still. We ate breakfast together, hung out a bit, and then left.
My mom lives in a small one bed one bath apartment so it was obvious anytime someone was using the bathroom. I knew she'd notice because she and my sister pay attention to that sorta stuff all the time. My mom asked me later what was up with him not showering the whole time we were there.
I'm not exactly sure how to bring it up to him because besides the mental turn off of not wanting him to bring the fifth of the day into the same bed I'm in, he actually doesn't smell. I'm saying this as someone who was repulsed by the various smells of my previous relationship. He somehow legitimately doesn't have bad breath or any detectable body odor. I've smelled him after work where he basically sweats all day so I know he can smell bad. He just doesn't seem to on non work days.
I wouldn't know how to bring it up or if it's worth bringing up because I can't even say that he smells and it's a turn off or whatever. I also can't say a whole lot because honestly I only brush my teeth in the morning. We don't live together so it's not like he smells awful and I'm nose blind. I also understand not wanting to shower every day. I literally didn't this past Sunday and Monday because I was just lazy. Granted I was home alone and not around anyone but I also don't wash my hair for awhile unless I have plans because I have oily root issues and everything I've read said washing it too often makes it worse.
So is this an issue?

Hi all! I've been recently diagnosed with ADHD & am learning what a huge effect it's had on my life without me having any idea.
I know I'm going to be called into my director's office at work due to performance issues today. I have this one task out of a bunch of other tasks that I'm responsible for that I just can't seem to get done. I've procrastinated on it way too long. Like months too long.
It feels like it's constantly at the back of my mind taunting me. I also feel like this particular task that's plaguing me is the reason why I find myself being less productive on my other tasks that I'm responsible for. I get things done but not as quickly as I know I should.
Could this one hurdle be the source for how I'm performing in all aspects of my job? I may be able to give this particular task to another co-worker if I'm able to articulate how my ADHD is affecting me. I love my job & don't want to lose it. I really hope this makes sense. Thank you for reading!

So imma start of by saying that I'm in therapy, so that's sorted.
I have difficulty doing things regularly, in a timely manner, with most habits I want to add to my life. Studying, exercising, socializing...
I brought it up to my therapist, she said to start small and stick with it till I feel good enough to go further.
I tried that and it worked, for a while. Started going on walks, studying everyday for 15 mins, hanging out with my family a little bit more.
Then when I felt it was right, I started going to the gym 3x a week, studying for an hour a day.
I wasn't perfectly sticking to it, but that didn't bother me because I had been practicing these new habits for longer than I ever had before. Earlier I would lose steam in a day or two. This time I had kept going for a month.
But then what happens everytime, happened. I fell off. And I can't get myself to get on it agian. I feel so hopeless. Is it going to be like this forever? I know I should give myself grace and compassion but it hurts so much to start again. I can't even get to myself to do tasks for 5 mins anymore.

Hi All,
Over a year ago a friend (whom I've worked with for several years) and I partnered with a company to build a small agency. They own several restaurants among other ventures that they felt we could assist with (we do digital marketing). We brought over our clients. The agreement for myself was a base salary of $85k/yr and 5% ownership of said agency. Pay schedule was weekly. I have paystubs and W2 to prove this but nothing on paper stating salary. The base salary was paid from the umbrella company, not our specific agency we were creating.
All was fine up until about 6-7 months ago when we were told our Direct Deposits had to be paused and manual checks were to be given as they were having some "issues". Started getting checks every 2 weeks (sometimes mine would come every 3 weeks.
Fast forward to about 3 months ago, I went to check into a hotel and my debit card was denied. I checked my bank account and found I was negative around $1.5k due to my last check bouncing. Was told they were having some issues with money due to a loan not being paid back and that things should be back to normal within a couple of weeks.
The last payment I received was via wire on February 29th because my bank stopped taking any checks from me (I bounced 3 or so of them and was brought negative several times because of all of this). About 3 weeks ago, their main bread winner (a restaurant in downtown) had their doors locked, due to not paying rent, we received an email stating that all salaried employees payroll was basically stopping until they received this financing that is now apparently coming from "Mexico" - It all seems like a crock of BS at this point. But he's basically stopped paying salaried employees, I imagine, to keep the doors open on these other couple restaurants.
I've never been in a situation like this, so am unsure of what to do really. We've still never been laid off. He just keeps saying it's coming. As a salaried employee, it's my understanding we're owed money up until we're laid off or this ship sinks? At this point I'm owed over $14k and my lease is up in the middle of June. To top it off, I've basically ran through everything I have, minus a CD that I'd really prefer not to touch. Obviously getting a lawyer involved is the right move, but do I also go to the Department of Labor? The company is based in Dallas, however I've been living in Arkansas for about 8 months (this was all approved and agreed upon prior to joining with this company) but will be returning back to DFW after this lease.
Thanks for any guidance.