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I (30 M) am still fighting over this conflict with my ex-girlfriend who I’ll call Jane (27 F) who ended up cheating on me after dating for 5 years. Me and Jane were childhood friends for as long as I can remember. I never thought in a million years that she would do this to me, or be this type of person who would cheat. I thought we had a great relationship with our normal ups and downs like any other couple. About a year ago I was contacted by some girl I didn’t know through social media, I don’t usually respond to messages sent by people I don’t know but this girl who I’ll call Sam sent me a message saying that Jane was cheating on me. Somehow she knew about Jane, I told her to please provide any proof she had. She ended up sending me screenshots of text messages of her friend, who I’ll call Kevin (28 M) and Jane texting each other, sending explicit messages, and talking some other sexual crap that I can’t describe on here. The thing that shocked me the most was the text Jane had sent about her being pregnant, fucking pregnant! We were talking about having a baby at the time before I discovered the cheating, and we did initiate intimacy with protection of course. I was fuming to say the least. Sam had sent me a video of Kevin drunkenly admitting about sleeping with Jane without protection. Sam told me she had gotten a hold of Kevin’s phone while he was out and was left unlocked. She wanted to let me know about this issue because she didn’t want me to have false hopes of me being the father to the kid that could possibly not be mine. I thanked her and asked how she found me, she said she had found Jane’s social media account that was linked back to me in a post. Jane’s social media is open, but she doesn’t really use it that much, other than making posts about us or shopping accessories. I thanked Sam for letting me know and saved all the screenshots she had sent me along with the video. Jane was visiting her mother at the time, so I took the liberty of packing Jane’s stuff and other important essentials she owns. Jane came home later that day looking all happy and jittery. I had to put on a fake smile when she delivered the news that she was pregnant and hugged me. I told her we should go out to celebrate, and she agreed, not knowing of what I have in store for her. I ended up driving her back to her mother’s place as she was confused as to why we were there, I told her that she could drop the act already and told her that I know about the cheating. She looked like a deer in headlights if I’m describing correctly. Of course, she tried to deny it until I showed all the screenshots to her that I got from Sam. Jane ended up breaking down and confessing that the cheating was in fact true, I asked how long was the cheating going on and Jane was a bit hysterical before telling me that she was seeing Kevin behind my back for the last 2 years. I then asked if they had worn protection when she was cheating on me with Kevin, she said no. I told Jane we were done and to never contact me again. She lost it and started crying even harder after I took out her belongings from the trunk of my car. She refused to get out of the vehicle, and she begged for another chance, Jane even told me that she would have the a-word if it means staying with her. I kinda got spooked hearing that. I didn’t expect her to go so low with that option. I told her that whatever she decided is not gonna undue the damage she has done to both of us, I ended having to get Jane’s mother involved and explained the situation to her and showing her the evidence and conversation I had secretly recorded Jane’s mother apologized for her daughter’s actions and after a couple of minutes Jane finally got out of my vehicle and I drove off without looking back or giving her a chance to speak to me again. I ended breaking down myself after I got back home and couldn’t eat or sleep right after what happened, and this was a repeated cycle that lasted for a couple of months. It’s been almost a year now, and I’ve nearly recovered from the incident, but the scars are still there. Just 2 weeks ago Jane messaged me since the break up and told me she wanted to get back together, I told her no straight up and blocked her. Then a few days ago Jane showed up at my front door, not gonna lie she looked like a total mess when I saw her through the doorbell camera, and she was asking me to speak to her, I didn’t let her in, so I told her what the hell she wanted. Jane said that Kevin ended up ghosting her soon after she gave birth to the baby and they don’t know where Kevin is, I told her that it was her problem to deal with and reminded her that Kevin was the guy she left me for. She begged me to help her because she had not gotten any sleep, and she’s basically on her own, her parents ended up kicking her out of their house after she gave birth. Jane said that cheating on me was her biggest mistake and that she doesn’t like being a single mom and taking care of a kid on her own, she asked me if I’m willing to take care of her kid as if it was my own. I got pissed and told her F off and that as far as her and I are concerned there is no her and I anymore. I said that her kid she made while cheating on me was not problem, I told her every ounce of love and respect I had for her died the moment I found about the cheating. In case most of you aren’t aware I was the unfortunate victim of being stood up at my own birthday party when I was 8. Nobody showed up, out of all of my friends I had, Jane was the only one who showed up. Jane left soon after while crying, her friends are now blasting me on social media for not stepping up and telling me that I’m not a real man after all that Jane has done for me, and that I owed it to her. They also said that even though she made a mistake she was there for me, so it would be horrible of me to not be there for her and the kid. What should I do regarding this matter? I feel bad that she was there for me growing up, but I can’t forgive her for what she did. What should I do?

Let me begin by saying that I went into this book apprehensive but hopeful, having seen it with nought but two 3-star ratings. I assumed it had spelling/grammar flaws and was fully prepared to power through them.
However, that is not what I found.
For you see, this wasn’t a book. Sure, it was available for purchase on the Amazon store, but do not let that deceive you. This book is the mad scribblings of a wattpad fanfic writer brought onto the big stage.
Am I saying wattpad just to bash on those users? No. I say wattpad because the author advertised their wattpad account in the first chapter.
Now, I can look past an advertisement. Life these days is filled with them. But it comes in conjunction with other major flaws. Firstly, the chapters are short. We’re talking 2-4 pages a chapter, and every chapter opens with an image, and ends with one too. These images are frequently the same, and serve no real purpose in the story.
Then, we have the author’s notes that very clearly came straight from wattpad, asking the reader to comment their thoughts on xyz. These could’ve been edited out, and the story would’ve been better for it.
With the more meta elements out of the way, let’s talk story.
good gods the story is bad.
The premise is interesting, a MC is the villainess in a novel whose fate is death, and she remembers her past life as someone who read the novel. (Mind you, this is extremely similar to one of the most popular posts on cyoa, the one about being an otome villainess. But hey let’s not judge, maybe it’s coincidence that the story is extremely similar to the exact choices you can make in the cyoa)
Anyways, I’m sure many of you have encountered a story where—for lack of a better descriptor—things just happen. No real struggle or sequence of events other than the plot being dragged along by the author. People meet MC and just like her. The love interests for the novel’s heroine just want her. She’s the top academic student which makes the crown prince (who in the novel is the one who got that title) desire her. Hell, it’s so obvious that the author wants you to think she’s badass. Why do I say that? Well, in one of the chapter by chapter author’s notes, they say word-for-word, “isn’t our main character badass?” She’s frequently described as both the most beautiful ephemeral creature in the room, but surprise surprise she’s actually emotionless and a master manipulator and so god’s damn cool just like her already.
This is a fanfiction poorly masquerading as a novel, and I thoroughly warn against wasting your time reading it.

Hello, I am a beginner tennis player looking for other beginners (or more advanced that don’t mind playing with someone starting out). I started playing last year and I’m keen to get out as much as possible. Please DM me if you’re interested!

A month ago my (19M) gf (17F) started ghosting me. One day, everything was fine. We talked and we did have an argument but it was okay. That was on a Friday. Saturday morning, everything was okay. We talked and joked and laughed. Sunday we hardly spoke but we did. Monday she didn’t contact me whatsoever until that night. She said the dog they had that lived in India passed away and she needed space. Okay, that’s fine. Tuesday, one of her friends messaged me. Said he knows what it’s like to be in my position whatever that means, and that “she will come back” and “everything will be okay.” (The relationship was long distance) And when I asked how he got my number and what’s going on, he just said she’d explain. I was confused and scared and worried so I messaged her and I asked what’s going on. Her only response was “Idk. I’ll tyyl.” So I begged and begged for an explanation, only to get left on seen. That’s when I realized, I was begging for nothing. She didn’t care about me. She didn’t love me or want me anymore. I wasn’t sure how it changed so quickly, but I knew her and I knew the way she was treating me wasn’t like her. So I told her I was sorry but I couldn’t be with someone who would be so willing to treat me like that and allow her friend to message me, and yet not explain a single thing. We were together for 4 years. I thought I was okay, but the past few days have been hard. Filled with nightmares and I can’t stop thinking about her. I messaged her again and it got met with nothing. She went from being the most loving girlfriend in the world, to a stranger who couldn’t care less about me within a couple days. How do I get over this? How do I stop thinking about her and wanting her back? I want the pain to stop.

Hey guys,
I’ve always wanted to get a pet bird that can talk, I think it’s the coolest thing ever. After much negotiation with the family, we decided to look into getting a bird.
Im posting this here because there are many bird subreddits, but not one strong one for just general bird keeping.
I’ve kept fish for a little bit when I was younger, other than that, I have no experience with keeping animals.
My questions are: What should I know before getting into this? What’s a good species of bird to start with? I know they get pricey, what’s a species that is easy to take care of and is affordable? (I’m looking at spending no more than $400 for everything) Is a talking bird a good pet for someone with a small amount of animal keeping experience?
Thanks so much for reading friends!

Let me start by saying that I've been in therapy for years and I have yet to find it useful or have a positive take-away from it. I honestly feel talk therapy is just not for me.
I've been seeing the same therapist for roughly 2.5 years and I don't feel it's a good match. However I felt the same thing with my previous therapists... which makes me question, am I able to find someone that will ever be a good fit?
Anyway, I was seeing her twice a week every week for almost a year. I'm burnt the fuck out. I started canceling at least one of those appointments because I can only have someone tell me to do box breathing and self massage so many times before I legitimately snap. I've tried to tell her that these methods simply do not work for me. Her response is always something like, "it takes time" "over time it will become natural" "studies show..." I don't care, these do not work for me. So I took a break for about a month and a half. I felt more at ease with things. Unfortunately I went back.
Here is where I'm struggling. I feel like my therapist is obsessed, which I know sounds ridiculous. My examples: I'll cancel a Monday appointment on the Thursday or Friday prior, or reschedule. Monday rolls around and she still calls me, leaves a message, repeat at least once. Then she will call me through the week, leave messages and/or email me. Like you see I canceled/rescheduled and I have an appointment for a later date, why all of that behavior? Then when I do go back, she will literally ask me or say, "I thought you were mad at me".... like lady, you're 60 something and I'm your patient. Why is this coming out of your mouth?
Am I overreacting? I know the tendency is there 🙃 but I just feel like it's a strange situation.

Hello everyone,
I’m looking for a fanfic I’ve read quite a while ago. It’s a Feysand one and I remember that Azriel took her with him on his morning run. Feyre was engaged (?) to Tamlin but starts to live with the IC. I remember that Emerie owned a store where Feyre drew a painting and yeah. It was posted on AO3 but I can’t find it anymore… maybe someone knows the name or has even downloaded it and could send it?
Also I’m always open for more Feysand recommendations 🌌

basically this is my new blog about my personal life and my wacky unfortunate adventures. i hope you enjoy. here’s a summary of what’s been going on lately.
my grandad has been diagnosed with stage 3 incurable cancer and he also has dementia. this has taken a huge toll on my already weak mental health. this man is my bestfriend and like a father to me, so it’s just a matter of time until i lose him, i try not to think about it by spending time on my studies and friends but it’s not working.
my friends are a whole different topic, don’t get me wrong they are great and i love them but i recently realized spending time with them just exhausts me more, i hate that i feel that way. they are the most loving and supportive group of people i have ever met but my mind tells me im just a stranger they picked up and they actually don’t like me.
i’ve noticed i need professional help but i cant bring myself to get it, i feel like im just a nuisance to be around and i shouldn’t bother others about my overthinking and problems as others have it way worse than me. that’s always on my mind. “others have it worse”.
i’m an empty shell of a human, i have no real personality, i stole it from others so they can like me. don’t even get me started on the whole relationship crush thing.
i’ll start anyways, everytime i find someone im interested in and i always hold myself back and admire from afar as i feel like i would ruin them, and when i do shoot my shot it always fails. i think it’s because of my looks. my uneven face, my hair, my body, my hands, my everything. i have some days where i look put together and somewhat attractive and most days i look like i just crawled out of a sewer. my humor makes up for it though, i always thought of myself as the backup friend, the friend who makes others look good.
this is already a lot and i hope people who read this finds humor in this blog which is basically comedic relief. this is entry 1
-le’clair

I lost my wife to suicide 5 years ago. She was only 26. She jumped from the golden gate bridge. I keep having this reoccurring dream that she isn't dead but faked her death so she can start a new life with someone else in secret. In the dreams I am always trying to call her or find her and talk to her but it's always her mom or sister or my siblings that talk to her in the dreams and give me vague answers. In the dreams I experience torment, I am constantly going somewhere, looking for her, trying to find her, always calling or texting her. When I wake up I have to remember her funeral and her deceased body in order to snap back into reality because after I wake up for the first few minutes I can't separate the dream from reality. Most of the time when I wake up from these dreams my heart hurts and I am in tears. The first 3 years I would have these dreams multiple times a week. Not it's less common but I still get them once every 2 months but it still hurts just as much. Has anyone else experienced anything like this? I just have this strong feeling that there is some message in these dreams that I just can't figure out.

Hi I recently joint LoL and really like playing veigar but im not that comfortable with items etc. Can someone explain what to build in my games with veigar, idealy with what to buy at the start and when to sell items and when to counterbuild with which items? World apreciate it ☺ Thank u

I just started working this year.. for three different companies actually and have a huge sense of victory 5 years after my cervical level spinal cord injury.. but I also have one potentially crippling scenario that's evolving with my current landlord. I owe rent today for the last month of a 12-month lease. He has shown himself to be less than honorable and I'm fully suspecting him to try to keep the deposit which is worth $1,850. I made him sign a paper after 3 months stating he would not keep the deposit because of the floors as they become worse since they weren't installed properly initially. But he's continued to make comments about how my power chair is the cause but we had someone evaluate it and determine it wasn't done properly in the first place so we would continue to get worse but the chair could be an instigator. I don't want to withhold the last month's rent because then it puts me in breach of contract and I'm depending on that money being returned to be able to continue navigating life. I did just start working but don't have the capital for someone to unrighteously keep what should be properly returned. I'm not a victim and I'm not a complainer. But I do want to feel that I've asked enough questions and the right ones to be able to I feel that there's some confident path forward.. thank you for any responses and input!

I (28F) started a new job earlier this year and there's this one cute co-worker (27M) who I fancy. At first, he was just there, existing. But these past two months, my eyes always trail him inside the workplace and I sort of developed a crush on him. I also noticed we have similar interests.
He's a gentleman, kind, and a happy-go-lucky soul. A competent person and always help those in need. I don't really have a chance to talk to him daily since he's working at another small building but I always try to greet him with pleasantries and put on a smiley face if I saw him. Initially, when I started working here, he was sort of awkwardly polite with me but he became more friendlier now though like he'll be the first one to greet me. He's also not a dry texter when we talked about work (like using emojis and use sticker).
Over time, we had chances to work together (along with some other co-workers). I noticed and thought that through his body languages, he's interested in me. Some of the things he did:

1. Always mirroring my body gestures
2. Keep glancing towards me when I'm not looking
3. But when I caught him, he prolong the eye contact (never shy away. like he wanted to read me or something)
4. He put his belongings exactly next to mine (when the office literally has so many empty spaces where he can place his stuffs and he knew they were mine)
5. He always stand or sit near me (once he sit next to me when we were having a meeting)
6. Very good and attentive listener when we're chatting

There's more of these signs too. Like literally at least one thing happened per working day. But today I found out he's actually taken and looks content. I feel so devastated because I thought he was giving me green signals and had a thought of confessing to him one day. Maybe I'm just delusional or blind after all because I like him so much 😭 Any advices on how can I move on? Because it's clearly not appropriate to make advances to someone who's taken.

alright guys i was diagnosed in february but i’ve had symptoms since 2020 that worsened after i got covid in dec 2022.
okay so i used to be a HUGE thrill lover, not afraid of heights, planes, etc. bro now i am a scaredy cat of everything and it makes me so sad. the past couple of times i had to fly on a plane my heart rate would stay over 100 the entire flight. i was scared of every shake of turbulence, something i wouldn’t have even thought of twice before.
idk if anyone else relates to heightened anxiety or not doing things like that that you used to love. it’s so frustrating bc i feel like a shell of a person now that’s afraid of everything. i’ve even started getting crazy motion sickness when someone else is driving, i’ve never had anything bother me like that before.
this is basically a rant but i also wanted to know if any of you guys have gone through something similar with POTS. i’m currently on propranolol, 20mg twice a day. i’ve been titrating up since february with very little difference honestly. i have noticed my heart rate being lower than it used to be, but i still FEEL like it’s always high during certain activities if that makes sense???
i’m just so frustrated of always feeling on edge and never being able to relax. i hate leaving the house now bc i’m scared i look crazy when i experience any symptoms which worsens my anxiety and then my POTS too 😵‍💫 i try not to care what other people think but damn why is it so embarrassing to pass out or feel dizzy in public????
anyways POTS is dumb and i needed to rant i love you guys <3

To start, my 4 year old cat has been to the vet MANY times for this issue. And I apologize for the long post. I hope someone reads it and can offer some advice if anyone has been in a similar spot.
He has had diarrhea ever since I got him a few months ago. At his first vet visit, his fecal sample tested positive for coccidia. That cleared up pretty quickly with treatment (ie, tested negative after the meds). But once the med course was over, his poop was more runny than ever and the bloody mucus was still there.
He has now been on powdered Tylan for a few months and that has eliminated the blood. He was also switched to hydrolyzed protein which has definitely made the diarrhea better - it is no longer straight up liquid but is still not solid by any means. He still poops a lot of clear mucus.
I’ll also add that he has been on gabopentin essentially since I got him for anxiety/stress. He just recently started on Prozac as well. This is another issue on its own- he no longer has bald patches from severe over grooming but is still quite jumpy when he’s off the gabo (aka when he tricks me into thinking he ate it) in a way that makes me wonder if it is pain that the gabo is masking. But if I were to bring him into the vet for this (again), I don’t know what I’d want them to look at specifically to get to the bottom of this - he has had blood work, fecal tests, skin tests, urine tests, an X- ray and plenty of physical exams in which they said he is physically fine (aside from the diarrhea issue) but likely stressed.
There is also another odd thing that the vet hasn’t been able to give me a clear answer for- he has always dropped little tiny “rabbit poops” (don’t know what else to call them) in places he was sitting or playing or kneading or what have you. On and off severity and size. He is not physically pooping these times, they just appear I guess?? Other than this, he has never had an “accident” outside of the litter box. I have noticed his anus seems to look a little longe oval shaped compared to other cats - he used to have bleeding there but not anymore.
He seems fine, always playful, curious and hungry, sometimes sleeps a lot but I figure it could be the gabo. So is it even an issue worth chasing again? Is it possible to be a normal healthy cat with long term diarrhea (/IBD, I’m assuming)? He drinks water all the time so I’m not worried ab dehydration from the diarrhea. I saw some comments on another Reddit post saying they fixed this on their own with different diets, I would be really nervous to take him off his strict HP diet.
Thank you to anyone who took the time to read, I really appreciate it. This is my first cat and I want him to have a long and happy life with me.

*Warning, long post*
Something that I have been pondering my orb about for a long time, is the (causal) relationship the planes have with each other and how they affected another, either directly or indirectly.
I will start with an overview of the planes and their known (meaning explored in canon and kanon sources) relationships with each other. I added sources for some of the statements, because I am a nerd, mainly Exploring Eberron. They might not be perfectly precise though, and some parts of my statements may be from other sources, so sorry if I forgot to add them.
It is a common theme of eberron that the planes are largely self-contained, unchanging, concept-dominated realities, safe for a few exceptions (Dal Quor, Thelanis, Dolurrh), and that they do largely not interact with one another. Furthermore, their inhabitants either don't care about the happenings on other planes (ExE 144) or simply study/monitor them, like the panopticon of Daanvi (ExE 151) or the schoolars of Syrania (ExE 189-190, 193). (Addition: Curiously, this part is a bit contradicted by the astral plane section of Chronicles of Eberron (Page 113), which states that outer planar immortals use the astral plane to travel between the outer planes. Examples are an archfey being transported to daanvi for judgement or a syranian virtue traveling to the infinite archive. So there appears to be some kind of interaction and interest for another among the outer planes.)
The material plane is the centre of the planar system where all the planar concepts come together, and it feels the effects of the planes the most, due to manifest zones, wild zones and the lunar phases.
The likes of Daanvi, Kythri, Xoriat, Lamannia, Mabar, Irian, Fernia, Risia, Shavarath and Syrania are not affected by happenings on neither the material, nor other planes. Events that transpire in the material, for example, no matter how cataclysmic they may be (like the eon-spanning reign of the overlords, the reality-transforming experiments of the Daelkyr and the destruction of the moon cyra, are simply (seemingly) inconsequential to them (Except for Daanvi's Solar of Dal Quor, Tyrala, who vanished after leaving to investigate Dal Quor after Cyra's destruction (ExE 150)).
On the other hand, the likes of Dolurrh, Dal Quor and Thelanis strongly feel the effects of events on the material, and to some degree even another.
Dal Quor's dream of the age is very likely (We don't entirely know) determined by the collective emotions and dreams of the mortals of the material plane, over extended periods of time (ExE 153). The Age of the Dreaming Dark was probably ushered in due to the destruction of Cyra and the detremential consequences it had for the giants and the material world as a whole.
Similairly, Thelanis is affected by the stories mortals tell, and their archfey are actively manipulating events on the material plane to make sure that they stay in power, grow in power, or that a rival looses power (ExE 195). Furthermore, the Feyspires of the Moonlit Valey manifest regulairly in specific manifest zones of the material plane, during the coterminous phases of Rhaan, leading to even greater interaction with the material. Thanks to the mourning, some or all of these might even be (If one wants it to be so in their eberron) permanently manifested on the material plane (ExE 196). Additionally, some of the Feyspires are even linked to other planes, like Shae Tirias Tolai to Dolurrh (https://keith-baker.com/silver-and-bone/) or Taer Lian Doresh (ExE 154).
Dolurrh is logically affected and based on the continued precept of mortals dying. The mortal soul passes to dolurrh after death and is proccessed through the planes natural effects (ExE 156-157), and later on through the more precise processing by the librarian, the smith of souls or the queen of the dead herself (ExE 157-158). All in all, every event that transpires in dolurrh is connected to the precept of mortal death, which makes sense, as it is its purpose to serve as the end of the journey, or the beginning of the next (ExE 156). While something like this has probably never happened before, if by some means no mortals would die anymore, dolurrh's existence would essentially be defunct. This is more of a strong hypothetical, yes, but my point for these planes stands.
Drastic changes on the material will change cause drastic changes to the three aformentioned planes. Mortal dreams and feelings change the theme of Dal Quor's heart, mortal stories and tales change the themes of thelanis and mortal soul processing is essentially the entire 'economy' of dolurrh, so to speak.
For the final part of this overview, I want to talk about Xoriat. In Exploring Eberron (Exe 199) it was established that the Xoriat exists out of time and that the daelkyr can reshape the material plane as they see fit, by manipulating its position in the maze of reality. This happened at least once and possibly even numerous times. When the prime material plane is changed and the former incarnation discarded, it does not simply change the present, but also the past and the future. Thus Xoriat's influence is not simply limited to time-travel, but even the alteration of the timeline itself into an alternate reality. When this happens or happened, some things remain(ed) unchanged. The progenitors, as the creators of the multiverse, always remain, but their battle might have transpired differently. As described in the Keith's blog post on Gem Dragons (https://keith-baker.com/dm-gem-dragons/), in 'Githeberron' Khyber might not have destroyed Siberys' body, but instead his mind, giving an explanation for the source of psionics as opposed to arcane magic. This was called the 'Dream of Siberys', as opposed to the Blood of Siberys, and the Gem dragons are the children of eberron infused with the Dream of Siberys. In the comments, Keith even suggest that in Githeberron or another alternate reality, Khyber was broken apart by Eberron and encased a wounded Siberys to stabilize him, creating a Ring of Khyber and a underworld of siberys instead. In the same comment, he states that the maze of reality can only affect the material plane and the outer planes remain unchanged, supporting the concept that they were constructed as the building blocks of material reality.
With these points in mind, I have been wondering about the impacts and consequences of the following hypothetical a canon events. I would like to hear your opinions on these.
Age of Demons: During the Age of Demons, which supposedly lasted since almost the beginning of time and for eons, the godlike overlords reigned over the mortal children of eberron and the celestial children of siberys uncontested. There was nothing but suffering, misery, agony, fear, it was literal hell on eberron for most of the world's history. - During that time, how would this have affected the planes? As far as I know, this was never adressed before in any capacity. - Did the perpetual suffering of mortals lead to a permanent nightmare dream of the age on Dal Quor? - Did this constant of mortal suffering lead to the layers of Thelanis being mainly defined by sorrowful and dark stories, for misery is all mortal-kind knew during this age? - Did Feyspires manifest on eberron during that time, and if so, what relationship could the fiends have had with the fey?
Reality-Rewrite by the Daelky: As mentioned in the overview, the daelkyr have, at least once, fully rewritten the entire history of the material world. While I already pointed out that most planes are self-contained and either don't care or mostly don't care about the material, there are some things that are bugging me about the premise of this entire concept. - If the planes are unaffected by the meddling of the daelkyr with the material, does that mean that, for example, the infinite archive of daanvi contains the knowledge of not just the entire history of our prime material plane, but every other prime material plane that has ever existed? And if not, does that mean its archives are being rewritten everytime the prime material changes, thus meaning it is affected indirectly? - The same goes for the vault of memories of dolurrh. Are the stored memories of mortals erased and replaced by those of the dead of the new reality, or does the vault contain the memories of the dead of previous incarnations of the material plane? - Similairly to the parts about thelanis and Dal Quor during the Age of Demons, are the Dream of the Age and the stories of Thelanis rewritten to fit the themes of the newly imposed material reality, or do they stay the same? - On that note, do you think the Daelkyr have to conquer a world first to be able to reshape it with the maze of reality, or can they just do it at any time? If the former is necessary, how is it possible that a single dragon, Vvaraak, had the knowledge of how to (potentially) permanently halt the advancement of the daelkyr and prevent them from rewritting reality as we know it? It seems absurd that no one in the past incarnations of reality had that idea before, especially as Githeberron was described as a far more harmonous and united world (See Sardior https://keith-baker.com/dm-gem-dragons/), with just as powerful and knowledgable dragons. (Note: This point can probably be easily resolved by keeping the incomprehensible and enigmatic plans of the daelkyr in mind, for they may be even want to be bound and knew this would happen.) - Finally for Xoriat, if the planes are unaffected, does that mean that they may have remains of mortals or mortal meddling of past incarnations of the material in some of their layers? For example, the frost giants are living on risia, essentially preserved forever, due to the plane's properties. If that is the case, would the astral plane not be the only plane with remains of past incarnations of eberron, as described in Chronicles of Eberron (Page 114). And if the remains vanish once the material is rewritten, these planes are also indirectly affected by the meddling of the daelkyr
Destruction of Cyra and the moons in general: The destruction of the moon cyra, by the Cul'sir dominion, is a monstrous fact in itself, with immense implications. - If the moons are the anchors of the outer planes to the material, and are an essential part of the material plane itself, what would happen if they are all destroyed? Would the material plane even be able to continue to properly function, or would it only affect manifest zones and have no other effect whatsoever (as it seems to be the case with Dal Quor, and to some extent Xoriat with the Gatekeeper seals). If the later is true, why do the moons exist in the first place? What is their purpose in the fabric of the material plane (Except for being a really cool gameplay and narrative tool for interplanar shenanigans)? - Regarding the former part, do the dragons simply have the power to destroy the moons and cut of all the planes from the material forever? They teached the giants arcane magic, and while the giants likely developed the means to destroy the moon themsevles, the dragons could surely do it as well without many problems. - Another curious fact is mentioned in the Dal Quor section of Exploring Eberron (Page 159), which states that not even planeshift or astral travel can get you to Dal Quor or vice versa. The later is further elaborated on in the astral plane section of chronicles of eberron (Page 115), which states that the color pools (which allow interplanar travel between the planes and the astral plane) of Dal Quor are impossibly black and inaccessable. With these two things in mind, are the moons not evidently much more important to the multiverse as a whole than just for the material plane? Without the moons, interplanar travel by any means is impossible, for any plane. To further emathize on my former point with this, do the dragons simply have the power to destroy the fabric of the entire multiverse by blowing up the moons? That would be incredibly wild and almost absurd, and I cannot imagine that the inhabitants of the outer planes would simply not care, if their only means of interplanar travel is destroyed by the seemingly irrelevant mortals. - Finally, this also brings up a wild question regarding my penultimate part about the previous section for the daelkyr: Could one theoretically blow up Lharvion and prevent the daelkyr from ever meddling with the material plane again, and thus preventing them from altering reality? Also, if the effects of the destruction of cyra are present in the timeless astral plane, which contains countless remains of stuff from the previous incarnations of eberron, and even prevent the other planes from reaching Dal Quor, does that mean Cyra has been wiped out from all possible incarnations and alternate timelines of eberron? This hypothesis is probably the wildest one in this whole post!
Finally, I want to ask you all: What theories do you have about the planes and their interconnections? How do they interact in your eberron, if at all? What things transpired between them in your eberron and what wild events occured in your planar systems?
With all that said, I think I finally reached the end of my essay. Thanks to anyone who takes their time to read this post and I am very curious about your opinions and theories. Cheers! ^^

When I first saw it, like many I thought it was about nothing but a kooky character study and a series of interconnected set pieces; while I do think PTA's films are sort of getting to that point- where he comes up with a couple characters and then wraps a semi interesting "a ha!" point around them at the end- I see now that The Master is one of his most metaphorical films and also clear cut messages, to the point it seems almost deceptively too simple.
The central question, of course, is who is The Master and who is the slave? Dodd and Freddie are such great foils because they are polar opposites, but in a much more interesting dynamic rather than oil and vinegar together. Freddie is pure id, all animal emotion and lust, and unfortunately he encounters not someone who can heal or fix him but Dodd, the snake oil salesman. Dodd is the superego and Peggy would be the ego in the equation. It becomes a clash of ideologies: Freddie is an undomesticated beast who undoubtedly needs to be housebroken, Dodd is a know-it-all who pretends to have the answers but is really full of shit, and just wraps it up in a more socially acceptable veneer than Quell. It's probably the case that he sees Freddie as a challenge- if he fixes someone as hopeless as him then his Cause "works" thus validating himself- but it's just as likely that it gives him the warm and fuzzies to feel like he's taken up a cause celbre, The Great Unwashed, to position himself as morally superior to. Freddie just wants a friend but he does start to become loyal and change, or at least sees that he has to change to be fulfilled.
By the end it's clear that the title is not referring to Dodd but asking the viewer to consider who really is the master of their domain. Is it one who is uninhibited and pure id, unbound by the constraints of society's whims, versus someone who likes to think they're in control but is merely repressively uptight and self righteous? Or does Freddie eventually become the master of himself and thus possesses the only true power that matters, in that he aspires to change and become a more honest citizen, while Dodd is forever a slave to his own bullshit, peddling his snake oil pitch to the end? Perhaps Freddie is indeed just domesticated by Dodd by the film's end and a slave to a different set of emotions, who knows.
I myself prefer the theory that There Will Be Blood, The Master and Punch Drunk Love represent a thematic trilogy about man in his absolute state, learning to become a better person as he's reincarnated over time and tries to be better than his inherent nature, becoming happier. Daniel is monstrous id, Freddie is a cretin who nonetheless doesn't kill anyone and seems to tame his baser instincts, Barry gets the 'tune' right and becomes his best self and the only one to end up happy and in love. PSH as the Mattress Man gets rejected as the buffoon he is, perhaps proving how full of it Dodd indeed was! This seems to be the ultimate descent of the Eli preacher character; taking advantage of people throughout time by weaponizing religion until eventually even Mattress Man doesn't believe what he's saying. As Daniel/Freddie/Barry are on an upward trajectory, Eli/Dodd/MM are on a downward one, as he is incapable of change and mastering himself. The middle part really ties the whole thing together thematically and is brilliant, even if PTA didn't intend all this but on a philosophical or subconscious level.
I'm sure these observations were not lost on anybody who saw the film and have probably been echoed many times before, but just adding my two cents. Really great flick.

Also posted in Hidradenitis, but maybe someone here has regular acne and HS and has a doctor to recommend?
Looking for a dermatologist who can navigate oral retinoids for extreme oiliness in patients who also have HS. I’m dealing with a combo of extremely oily skin/hair, body acne (almost none on face), scarring, blackheads, and “maybe” HS (diagnosis has gone back and forth, but I have multiple DEP and it's quacking like a duck).
The oiliness is out of control and in places I cannot treats with topicals. With my last dermatologist, my next step was supposed to be isotretinoin. I do still think oral retinoids are my best bet, but there was a communication style mismatch with my previous provider, and I want solid communication before starting oral retinoids.
If HS wasn’t in the picture, I think this would be as simple as “just start isotretinoin”. But given the HS, I’m wondering if acitretin first might be a good idea. Or if there's other things I can do to reduce the risk of isotretinoin worsening my HS.
I know there’s significant risks to any oral retinoids, and I really want to find a dermatologist who can sit down with me and work out ways to mitigate those risks and generally go at this in an informed and collaborative way.
What I’m looking for:

• clear communication
• collaborative approach
• the kind of person who likes a good puzzle
• trans-friendly
• good with HS
• experienced/comfortable prescribing oral retinoids
• MGH (or MGB broadly), will consider a different Boston-area hospital system if there’s someone elsewhere who is an absolutely perfect match though

I know wait times are rough right now, but are there any providers who match that description?

Me (24F) and my boyfriend (28M) met 17 months ago on a dating app. At the time we were both in different countries and had set our location to a place we were both planning to visit. He asked me on a date for new years eve and even bought an event ticket for that night when we were both supposed to be there . Unfortunately a few days before my flight I got sick and never got to visit that country or see him there. I was expecting us to stop talking and I was talking/dating afew other people since I thought him and I would never meet in real life but to my surprise we started talking every single day and he was the sweetest guy I had ever met . We got to know each other pretty good to the point that he kept asking me to move to his country. After around 4 months of talking online he told me he’s getting a ticket and coming to see me for a week . And that’s when we had our first phone call , over that phone call he said he needs to tell me something because it might be a red flag for me and he just wants to be honest about it , he said he has dated a stripper before me (around 2 years before me) but they were never official and it was something casual just because he was lonely and she was pushy. To be honest I didn’t like hearing that but I was still okay with it. Fast forward to our first week together, we went on date every single day , we went to really nice restaurants and bars and he was putting in so much effort into our dates, we eventually spent the weekend together and that’s when he gave me a gift along with a letter telling me how much he loves me and then we were intimate for the first time and spent the entire weekend in his hotel room .
He went back to his country for work and came back to see me after 5 weeks and we had another amazing week together and that’s when I told him that I love him too so we got alot closer and talked about our past, about how he used to be a party boy and into drugs but he’s changed now and people we have dated and exes , and in a funny conversation the topic of body count came up and I told him mine is 3 and he said he has been with 6 people in total which was shockingly good in my opinion. He also told me that the last time he slept with someone was a year before me because he’s not into one night stands or casual sex because he is emotional and can’t just have that with anyone and that was very respectable and admirable in my opinion and made me fall in love even more . I was honest with and told him the last time I had slept with someone was a month or two into us talking but there was no emotion connection with that person, he was upset but he said he understood that we weren’t that serious back then .
He came back for the 3rd time after 2 weeks and that’s when we got an Airbnb and spent the whole week together cooking and talking like a married couple in love , on the same week we ran into a girl in our airbnb building and she was so happy to see my bf , she jumped to hug him and gave him a kiss on the cheek but my bf seemed kinda uncomfortable. After the interaction I was curious to know how does he know someone in my country so I asked him who she was and he said she is his high school classmate that lives in the same city as him now and she just got married so it must be a coincidence that she’s visiting too.
He was back to see me for another week after 2 weeks and at that point we both knew we are offical and that neither of us has even talked to anyone else for the past 4-5 months but we still didn’t put a label on it because I was so afraid of doing long distance and the fact that I was going to move to a country even further away from him in a month. On that week we went and got an STD test together and I even got an IUD so we don’t have to worry about using protection anymore. He knew that I had this unreasonable fear of contracting HIV and this was him being supportive and calming my nerves.
Afew weeks later I moved to a different country around 17000 miles away and when I was looking for a place there we decided to lease an apartment together and furnish our home together because he was planning on moving there to live with me . He came to visit me for a month and we had more amazing days together and became officially girlfriend and boyfriend .he was the sweetest most loving and understanding guy ever.
We did 3 month of long distance and I missed him so bad that I decided to leave everything behind and sell my stuff to go travel with him for 3 months and also go and visit his family and his hometown , it was hard but we made it work and we were both on cloud 9 for the first 2 weeks together. And after meeting his family things were even more serious , they all loved me and keep asking him when he’s going to propose and end the long distance and I even got invited to his brother’s wedding.
One night my trust issues got the best of me and decided to check his phone ( I know it’s bad) I didn’t see anything too bad as his chats were mostly deleted but I came across a chat with that high-school classmate I mentioned earlier and I found out that they had been on a few dates and that he had sent her the same sweet questions as he sent to me word for word. I also saw that they spent the night together and he had a hickey on his neck from her . I also saw that before meeting me he was sliding into girls dms calling them hot and being sexual and I was sooo shocked just because the image he showed me of himself was so so different. I gave him a chance to come clean in the morning but he kept on lying to my face till I showed him the chats , even then he denied ever sleeping with her . I was so hurt that so early in our relationship he could lie to my face for no reason .
I was upset so I left our villa to stay at a hotel, he kept texting and calling and begging me to give him another chance and go to dinner with him and I did, he was so apologetic he was so upset and he kept saying all he wants is to go back and never lie to me so I asked him to come clean about anything else he has lied about . I went over everything with him and asked if they were lies too? he said no . I decided to stay and give us another chance .
Just 3 days after that night I asked him if I can delete his exes number that is a stripper off his phone in front of him he said yes and when I went to delete it I saw their messages , it wasn’t from 2 years before me ! The last message was 15 days before meeting me and turns out she was actually his friend’s girlfriend and they were secretly seeing each other… I was so heartbroken I couldn’t believe he is a person like that and that he has lied to my face again! He used to always say he hates cheater and that he has been cheated on before so he would never do anything like that but in the chats they were making fun of that girl’s bf which was his friend.
He started apologising again and told me there is more, there is someone else he has slept with shortly before me and that whole not sleeping with anyone for a year and no one nights stands was lie to make me fall in love with him . I forgave him again and decided to help him not feel ashamed about his past .
4 days later I asked him to send me our STD test results from months ago to me again because I lost it and my doctor wanted see it he started looking at his emails and said he can’t find it so I offered to help him look and I found it in his trash folder, but again I wanted to give him a chance so I asked if he has deleted it? He said no ! Turns out he was tested positive for a very minor and not dangerous STD and because he felt ashamed he edited the results when he sent it to months earlier. And deleted it afew days prior. His excuse was that I’m very anxious and fearful about STDs so he didn’t want to worry me because the doctor said it doesn’t need a treatment , And again I was convinced .
A few weeks passed and we were arguing a-lot because of trust issues but we were trying to get help and work on the relationship, he even confessed that there were more small lies he has told me , like saying some of the girls he was following were his friends or friends of friends when in fact they were girls he had met on tinder before meeting me . I struggled to understand why he would lie to me about stuff like this when I had never showed to be a jealous or not understanding GF .
A few weeks later we were doing better and travelling different countries together and I thought we’re done with lies so one night I was overthinking and asked him about a blocked number I saw on his phone that first time I looked through it , I asked who’s number that was because It had the country code of the country I lived in when we first started dating. He reassured me that it’s probably a scam number and that I was overthinking but I wasn’t convinced so I put it into google and it brought up so many escort websites from that country. For a whole week I begged and cried for him to tell me the truth to tell me I’m not crazy and what I’m seeing is right but he denied it every time for a whole week and even cried because I couldn’t believe him till one morning when I promised him I won’t leave if he just tells me , he confessed that on that first week after or first or second date when he went back to his hotel room he looked at escort sites and texted them but kept swearing that he never saw one and to him it just like watching porn . Once again I was in disbelief because he used to always say people that pay for sex are evil and are using girls that might have been trafficked for sex , I was also heartbroken and disgusted that he could do that in my city , somewhere that was my home and he was supposed to be there just for me and the fact that I’d have been on the same bed we had sex for the first time and the same room he told me he loved me in only 2 days later …
He blamed it all on porn and his porn addiction, I was shocked because I never had a problem with him watching porn I had even asked him if he wants to watch it together but he always seemed not that interested. He said that he has had trust issues and the reason why he went on an escort site in the first place was to make sure I wasn’t one … Honestly I didn’t know what to do with that informations ! How could he even possibly think that but it doesn’t bother me what bothers me is thinking that he got on 5 hour flight and took me on all those nice dates thinking I might be an escort?? And when he realised I wasn’t he looked for a real one ? Like he was disappointed that I wasn’t an escort? After 5-6 months of talking to me all day and night . I couldn’t not understand and will never understand .
Because of my promise I stayed and went to therapy ever since then he keeps saying I know all of his dark side and secrets and there is nothing else he would lie to me about. He’s been super apologetic and putting up with my anxiety and hearing out my hurt and looking for ways to fix our relationship and trust.
Our trip ended and we are doing long distance again and I told him I won’t be like before because it takes time to rebuild trust he understood and said it’s fair for me to look for things or have doubts . The other night i was looking at his email to make sure there are no more escort or things like that and I saw an email from a almost a year before me , it was from a flowegift shop that he has bought me flowers from which was very meaningful to me .
I saw that he had sent the same flower to that stripper girl that he claimed he was never in a relationship with only difference is hers was way more expensive and it had a note saying she is his world and there was another flower order worth 500$ sent to the same girl and the note was he is sorry for not keeping his promises and that he is in love with her more than he could have ever imagined.word for word of how he has apologised to me.
He has been telling me for over a year now that he never told that girl he loved her without me ever asking him . So I asked him if he has ever bought her flowers? But I also sent him a text saying he doesn’t owe me anything from his past and he shouldn’t worry about hurting my feelings and just tell me truth because I love him . He said no . Afew hours later he said he remembered that it was one time and it was from the same shop but what he got me was better and once again without me even asking he said no but I never loved her and never told her I lover her . I gave him the benefit of the doubt and asked if there is a chance he doesn’t remember ? Maybe because it was over text ? He said no there is no way he wouldn’t remember saying something like that .
I sent him the email and all he had to say was that he wasn’t lying he just didn’t remember… And he kept saying but that’s all , I never got her anything else (like that’s the point) but I also saw another email in his trash folder and it was another gift order to the same girl and he deleted that email the same day so there is no way he wouldn’t remember those gifts …
I’m so done and over the lies but I’m starting to blame myself for asking things for caring about the past , my mind keep telling me at least he didn’t cheat on you . But then I remember he lied to me about things I never even asked for cared about. I remember that he might have been interested in me because he thought I might be an escort not because of who I am .
He has been the kindest and nicest person to me and has done everything to make sure I’m okay during our relationship . Am I doing something wrong? What to do ? I’m so confused

Hi! Good morning, good afternoon and good evening
I'm looking for a nice woman that can help me. I am still a virgin and want to have my first time. I noticed that going on dating apps doesn't work, secretly I wish reddit would work, and I'm to shy to go to women when I go out.
About me
I'm a 27 year old male from the Netherlands, currently living in Arnhem, originally from Amsterdam and wish to go back someday. I'm in between 135 and 138 kg and 2.05 meters tall. I have a dadbod but want to lose weight. My eyes are dark blue and I have dark blonde hair. I like cuddles and love to give them!
My hobbies are gaming, making music, traveling and watching series. I just binged Fallout and started playing Fallout again because of it. I like watching anything but I mostly watch anime, sci-fi, horror, thriller, comedy and documentaries. At the moment I'm playing Greedfall, War Thunder and FC24.
What I'm looking for
I'm mostly looking for someone that loves to teach or explore with me. A connection would be nice, be it friends or romantic. A connection would make it a lot better I think. I prefer you to be experienced however if you are a virgin and want to explore with me that would be amazing! I prefer someone that's blonde and likes to be active. Someone around my age, 20-30, a bit older or younger is fine. As long as you are 18+. I prefer taller women. It is all a preference and eventually I'm more attracted to your personality. So if you don't fit to description you can definitely send me a message too.
I'd love to get to know you a bit on chat or message but would like to switch to a different platform when we have a connection. If we are both feeling like meeting we could meet and see if the connection is still there.
I can host and travel. I do have housemates but they are gone for most of the weekend and I can take a day off.
If you read this far, I do hope I made you interested and we can chat. If you aren't interested but want to chat or play games together you can definitely hit me up. I'm always looking for more people to meet!

Many thanks to u/LieutenantRayne for helping my learn about the DLC through their guides.
What you'll get from this guide: Great economy, great living standards, victory in Verdosam, a new alliance with Derdia and Morella, a new wife (the inferior romance choice but alas), a new heir, reunification of the peninsula without war (no torturing Axel, sad!), the grace of god and ultimate political power.
Achievements you'll get: Prologue, chapter stuff, Great Unification, Intermekopum alliance, Wruceh's Second Coming, True Master of Crisis (unsure about that one), Glovurius axa Rizia axa Pales, The Prince, Fall from GRACE, Domineering, Mine All Mine, Ready To Love Again, Case Closed, My Rule Continues, Game Of Spoons or Two Birds for Beatrice, So It Is and Make Yourself Great Again.
Notes: Be polite even to your enemies and say Halaita alot.
PROLOGUE - Visit family in Zille, close friebds with Pabel, university (+1B), crackdown on traitors (+1A), rebuild (+1B), truly love your wife, family got in the way of work, vacation with wife and daughter, solace in faith, meet duke and agree with him, lie to dad, don't tell anything to your father, gold and tax focus (+2B and +1B per turn). Absolutism, Diversify (+1B), Third Way and no military spending (+1B).
TURN 1: A(8/+3) B(11/+6) E(3/+1).
Decrees=> Sovereign Transition and Clemency (-1A), Raise base income tax (-2A, +1B per turn), Geological Survey (-2A, -2B), Zpana Dam (-2A, -5B, 4T to complete, +3E per turn on completion) and Expand Esqiris Gas Field (-1A, -3B, 3T to complete, +2E per turn on completion).
Events=> No speech at coronation, allow vina in the council, small parade at Port Drazon, host concert (-1B), no sanctuaries restoration :( and football auto-skips due to lack of budget.
TURN 2: A(3/+3) B(7/+7) E(4/+1).
Decrees=> Housing for the poor (-1A, -1B) and Build Qalus Gold Mine (-1A ,-3B).
Events=> Oil dries up, trade talks with Sordland (invite Elena): Accept alcohol deal "is there a way to rephrase this?" accept resort deal "less gaudy", investigate dad's death thanks to Pabel (leave him out of the suspects), donate to Arufelde (-1B, makes dealing with Morella easier), build statues of all the family (-1B, +1A), in the hunt go with Hugo but tell him Vina and Rico are cousins after that go back with your daughter, ignore commie propaganda (we need to get in Hegel's good side) and be polite with Smolak regime.
TURN 3: A(5/+3) B(8/+7) E(4/+0).
Decrees=> Monqiz Port and Naval Expansion (-1A, -3B, 2T to complete, -1E per turn on completion) and Sallabes Consumer Park (-2A, -2B, 2T to complete, -1E per turn on completion).
Events=> Fund Golden Guard and focus on Su Omina (-3B), denounce Su Omina, accept Rumburg MAXIMUM energy deal (-3E, +2B and -2E per turn), deny police transfer to idiot Rico, tell manus to fuck off and don't let him dance with Vina, allow safe passage for Goldoncondists, rizz Lucita up (grab ger hand, don't le go etc) and refuse deal with Rusty but have lunch with him.
TURN 4: A(6/+4) B(9/+9) E(0/+0).
Decrees=> Build Tank Factory (-3A, -4B/ ONLY AFTER WINE TRADE SOARS!!!)
Events=> Disperse protests by force (+1A), Pales Stuff: Say u wanna talk to Axel and DON'T initiate blockade - Say to him to keep the field in exchange for something, "don't let hostility colour the negotiations", "predecessors were out of line", "caught between superpowers", "how big of a parachute?" - Pay what he asks and tell him about your daughter (-5B, -3B per turn and +3E per turn later), send 500 equipment abd 50 support vehicles to Verdosam, tell Alvarez to fuck off - at the AN meeting: don't interrupt Smolak, applaud him politely, don't applaud Lespia, don't confront Hegel, Speech: "Honor to adress assembly", focus on unity, Smolak is being understandable and you'll count with his transparency, "Morella looking is east is understandable", offer help to Morella, say a compromise with religious travellers is possible, "regarding Pales", "golden age" and "end cycle of violence" - attend H.o.D and give rights to all workers (-2B, -1B per turn, industrial power weakened), NO Wehlen cooperation (We won't get Smolak in the alliance but he's an asshole anyways), wine trade soars (+2B) - Wine Event Speech: "fruits of our lands", "yes, even Sords", "doubts about stability", "with your help", "proud son of Valenqiris", "richly rewarded", "rise a glass to a reunited Rizia" and "you're here to drink wine" - Invite Lucita to open the bottle, rizz her up, say good night to staff, play drinking game (No Pablo), get something to wrong to gwt drunk, say you're lonely. If things goes right Lucita will knock on your door and have sex with you,. Sordland Investment auto-skips (no money).
TURN 5: A(8/+4) B(5/+5) E(0/+1)
Decrees=> Build Military Eq. Factory (-1A, -2B), Build Support Vehicles Factory (-2A, -3B), Sell 1st Batch of Military Eq. (+2B/ immediatly AFTER football auto-skips AKA after Hegel's Call) and enforce Wruceh education (-3A).
Events=> Agreement with Wehlen: *Import Oil and Medicine, *Export Wine and Small Arms, *Aid against BFF, *Ban Bluds and *Grant Wehzeks equal rights to work. Fund no organization in Zille, continue investigating Du Omina (-1A) and ask about Iza and give control to Lucita, tell Titus to look into Hugo, Football auto-skips :), complain to Hegel about the late hour so you can cut Lespia out for ships, be polite to Alma and DON'T eat the cookies (they're horrible), tell her about spliting Lespia's shares 50-50 between you and Morella, at plane - Speak with Derdia, Energy Agreement and Pollution reparations (-1B/ Make sure to do this in the plane to get the toy bird), Vina diplomatic envoy, send sordish tourists back home, Gas Field meeting - Tell Vina to be diplomatic envoy, "Absolutely not!", "single", "handsome" - Scrap Boat (-1A).
TURN 6: A(4/+3) B(8/+7) E(4/+4).
Decrees=> Enact investment in Public Transport (-2A, -3B, 1E/ FIRST THING TO DO AT THE START OF THE TURN! If u don't u get transport crisis), Excavation of Topes (-2A, -2B, 2T to complete) and Medium Energy Sale (-3E, +2B/ AFTER council meeting to avoid energy crisis - always one step ahead of Torpor).
Events=> Massive Global Media Campaign (-3B/ SUPER IMPORTANT!), send 1 infantry div. to confederacy, DON'T start war, Axel talk - Shake hand, don't interrupt, "peace", "peaceful resolution", let soldiers leave immediatly, "i do not underestimate the gravity", "what would we gain?", "I'm starting to suspect that", "someone else", "Lespia", "this is precisely the point", "why wouldn't he?" and "anything for peace"(-1B), sign paper and talk about cooperation and friendship (+6E, +6E per turn).
TURN 7: A(3/+3) B(8/+8) E(13/+7)
Decrees=> Abolish Blasphemy Law(-3A/ SUPER IMPORTANT).
Events=> Invite Sal to H.o.D, don't fund Zille, Grand Wiseman Talks - Let Titus fight don't talk to him or interrupt him, Trade deal (-2E, +2E per turn) and mediation with Morella - Send 1 ship and 1 sub to confederacy, Hugo will tell Toras are happy, order Manus arrest, rid Rico of his title put Iza under your control, tell Hugo you're but that's it, improve enviroment (-3B), Azaros and Lucita will be happy, go to private lounge with her.
TURN 8: A(6/+7) B(16/+9) E(13/0).
Decrees=> Increase Health and Education Funds (-2A, -3B), Tenant Protection Laws (-2A, -1B), Remove Provincial Police and Levy Obligation (-8A, -2B/ SUPER IMPORTANT/ Do it AFTER meditation investment/ U get enough authority for it through the dissolution of the H.o.D) and Small Energy Sale (-1E, +1B/ Necessary to remove Provincial Levy Obligation).
Events=> Host banquets to celebrate victory (+2A,-2B,+2B per turn), don't reveal Lespia evil doings to the world, be polite to drunk Alvarez and reveal the your findings at the end of the conversation so he can offer a deal to arrest Rusty - take it, arrest Rusty, nationalize his assets by buying shares (-2B), invest in renewable energy (-3B), welcome brave sailors back home, invest 1A in Derdia-Morella talks (SUPER IMPORTANT), close H.o.D (+A), -3B for Intermekopum, (SUPER IMPORTANT) , Smolak will ask the AN for a referendum, AN Stuff - Vote Nay to island claim, interrupt smolak bullshit speech, in your own speech talk about the importance of treaties, how bad people are treated by Wehlen, how Wehlen doesn't respect democracy and that Weheln wants to stela land, if done correctly AN will vote against referendum and you'll get Zille back (hooray!) - Talk to Vina about marriage with Axel respect her but tell this is the best for Rizia - she'll say yes :) - don't give ring her so u can give to Lucita, marry Lucita through Sal, be polite at the weeding and reveal your own with Lucita (Taddeus Azaro will have an orgasm).
TURN 9: A(9/+9) B(11/+10) E(12/-1)
Decrees=> lower conscription to 18 (-2A, -2B, +1000 men) and Launch Anti-Narcotis Campaign (-1A, -1B/ reduces tourism and doesn't last. Now is the best time).
Events=> Derdia-Morella Talks: offer -250 men, vote yes to new MITZ, offer -5E for Intermekopum (alliance formed +10A), Accept aid from Valgsland (+2B), leave Grace (middle finger if Sordland Save or correct spoon shit), Zille is returned! Give it to yourself (Great Living Standards + Cucked Sazons = No unrest), Wruceh Guardians (-1B) and Pales Unification Plans (-2B).
TURN 10: A(15/+19) B(17/+9) E(8/+1).
Decrees=> Expanded Border Guards (-2A, -1B/ Now because it reduces tourism and it's one less red modifier).
Events=> In the meeting with Titus say Luciat is innocent, declare that Hugo is guilty but just keep an eye on him (he's loyal and much better than his smooth-brained son), execute Manus and Rusty for all to see, drink with Axel and reassure that palensians will be respected, declare Theocracy, make your son the heir to get achievement and Azaros on thw jubilee, finally, enjoy becoming Rizia's Lisan Al Gaib and lead your people to paradise.
Hope you enjoyed the guide! I might make one for a reformist + Pabel romance run. No promises though.

This morning was my last straw with them. I'm officially cutting them off. Unless they text first, I will not be the one begging for the smallest things from them. I am done. Everytime I want to do something, my friends always find a way to reject me even though they'll make plans with each other and post about it on social media. They'll start interrogating me on the smallest details, asking me forceful questions that make me uncomfortable. I'm not saying this is completely their fault, but as someone who wants to take a bit of risk in life, my friends are just not compatible with me, which, I admit, is probably my fault for making them my friends. They prefer doing things in the 'safer way', but I prefer to sprinkle in a little risk here and there to spice things up. In elementary school, I was a HUGE risk-taker, but since becoming their friends in high school, I've eased off the risk-taking a substantial amount, even finding myself following in their 'safe' footsteps. But it's like driving most big roads have bumps, turns, and cracks in them, hardly ever do you come across a perfectly paved road (those are usually found in small roads lined with houses). I think they see this as a submission on my part, the fact that I'm so easily brainwashed to their ideals. Yes, I did change myself for them to like me, but the fact that they're abusing this little 'power' that they have over me now is going too far. Also, just to add on, they're big homebodies, and use the 'I commute!' card way too much. Like...I commute too? I'm only physically on campus a couple days a week, but I make the most of it, so why can't you? How do I find compatible friends?

I know this is unnecessarily long, so if you are not in the mood for reading, I understand. But I would greatly appreciate anyone who would take the time to read my story that is probably TMI and badly in need of some editing. I just really need some advice from people whose heads are less cloudy than mine.
My fiancé M/42 and I F41 have been together for about 4 years and have known each other since high school. I knew he was a recovering addict when I got together with him but I fell head over heels in love and didn’t see the relapse on the horizon that would occur shortly after the honeymoon phase and would eventually almost kill me - I took a swipe of some mystery powder and touched it to my tongue (fentanyl) thinking it would help me get through the most stressful day of my life as i was ceaning out his place while I was packing him up for detox. It was a total freak accident, I’m not an addict, never done anything like that in my life, I’m a single mom and a kindergarten teacher, but I loved him so much I just followed him down the rabbit hole and honestly just became so disoriented in this world I (naively) didn’t understand or even realize I had signed up for.
Anyway, He literally saved my life, and said I also saved his, because that day is what motivated him to get and stay clean for good despite being an active heroin addict for the majority of his life.
He worked an incredibly thorough program, and he gained more friends, money, and more overall success in 2 years than I’ve been able to scrounge up in an entire lifetime. And it’s no surprise honestly. He’s a special person. Absolutely brilliant, charismatic, driven, and has a heart of gold.
Within a year of getting sober, he moved me and my daughters into a gorgeous home adjacent to a golf course, bought luxury vehicles for both me and him, convinced me to quit my teaching job which was making me miserable, so I could finally be fully present for my girls, and then put a giant diamond ring on my left hand. He completely spoils us. We went from having nothing to having every tangible thing, we could possibly need.
The stability that he provided for us meant the world to a single mom who was barely making ends meet, but it was always just the icing on the cake for me. He’s my best friend in the world, he makes me laugh so hard my mouth hurts from smiling, he show me that he loves even the parts of myself that I don’t find lovable. I found my soulmate.
His program started slipping after 2 1/2 years (last November). He was already struggling in his role of being a stepfather, and we were fighting a lot about parenting stuff. He has a lot to learn, has little patience, and seems to have very unrealistic expectations of my kids. He wanted Parenting to be this effortless thing, and he just doesn’t get that it’s not. And that kids are not always going to behave themselves and that doesn’t mean there’s something wrong with them. so we were fighting a lot.
In December, he started complaining about his chronic back pain again (a real issue for him as he’s had five back surgeries due to a snowboarding accident in his early 20s-this was during that height of Purdue Pharma and what got him hooked on pain meds)
While I know he was legitimately in pain, it was also a red flag because pain was the culprit for his last relapse. He decided to go in for a sixth surgery and was told he would have to wait three months. He found a surgeon who has made a lot of profit off of him over the years (as he’s a PI attorney) and was willing to prescribe him generous amounts of pain pills to get him through the three months of increasing pain that he was experiencing. He spent the next three months in bed, depressed, checking out, taking pills depressed, checking out- as I became increasingly suspicious that his behavior was much too loopy for the amount of medication he was being prescribed. I fell into the role of his nurse, and his babysitter. Making sure he didn’t text to nonsense to clients, making sure he didn’t fall and make his back worse, making sure he wasn’t interacting with the kids, etc
I knew he wasn’t being honest with me, but he just kept gaslighting me. It honestly felt like he was psychologically tormenting me, treating me as though I was totally paranoid, heartless and out of line. I thought after the surgery, it would finally get better. I made a promise that I would be there for him because he had never had anyone there for him for the previous surgeries and it had been a really traumatic experience for him in the past. I really stepped up and tried so hard to his rock. The hospital experience was horrific, mainly because no amount of diloted was relieving him of the pain. None of the nurses understood why he needed so much more than everyone else, but I think his tolerance had just become so high.
After that nightmare was finally over I was really counting on things getting better, as the plan was for him to taper off the meds, live pain-free, and get back to normal. It didn’t go that way. It just kept getting worse and no matter how many times I told him that I didn’t trust him he just had an excuse for an explanation for everything. He is a master manipulator and I listened to him do it to everyone, doctors, the pharmacist he formed a “friendship” with, literally everyone.
On Mother’s Day, it got to a point where he couldn’t hide it anymore. He disappeared for the day, Ended up, passing out at a gas station and was unreachable for hours, when he finally came home, the car was all fucked up and he claims it was someone else’s fault. He went straight to his home office and I didn’t see the rest of the night until I walked in on him smoking crushed up pills. After that, he confessed everything to me, including the time that he told me not to check the mail because he had a special surprise for me to thank me for all the love and support I gave him To help him through his surgery. it turned out he had drug dealers sending him drugs in the mail. Needless to say there was no surprise for me me. Just heartbreak and betrayal. I felt like a fool.
I was still processing this the next day when , after insisting on taking a photo of me in these designer sunglasses he purchased for me out of guilt. I asked him not to take my photo, because I had tears in my eyes, but he insisted. He was napping next to me and I opened his phone to erase the photo. we’ve always had each other’s passwords, and have looked through each others photos before for various reasons, sharing photos, etc. I cannot emphasize enough how much I trust his loyalty to me when it comes to anything other than drugs.
But for some reason, all of my photos, the ones I was taking on my phone were showing up in his feed. I was so confused, so I started scrolling through deleting unflattering double chin pictures of myself when I came across that menu photos organized based on face recognition. One of them was his ex. I remember him telling me he deleted all of his photos of her the first time he told me he loved me.
I opened it and scrolled through hundreds of pictures of their happy life together. The pictures got more and more sexual, one of her with her legs spread, another another of them in the bathtub together, her kissing him while he had his hands around her neck, another screenshot of her naked in the shower with a thumbnail shot of him in the corner obviously jerking off to her on FaceTime. Because I’m a masochist I decided to take it one step further and look in his video folder. I found a There I found a thumbnail shot if a close-up of him penetrating her. I watched it and it just completely crushed whatever was left of me.
I’m normally a really passive person, and I just completely lost my mind. I reacted as though I had caught him cheating on me. I just couldn’t handle the physical evidence of such a close up shot of him being inside another woman. It’s stupid because I know, like me, he has a past. Obviously he’s been with other women. Obviously he’s been attracted to them. But it just scarred my brain, I literally haven’t even been able to eat since because I’ve been so nauseous. I know it’s ridiculous, because this is a reality I was well aware existed, but seeing it with my own eyes… I don’t know what to say. Other than that I need a lobotomy.
He says he erased all of those videos and photos from his phone, and something weird happened where all of his photos from the cloud just re-uploaded when he got a new phone. He’s not a technical person and I actually believe him because, aside from being a complete liar when it comes to drugs, he has always show me the upmost, integrity, love and loyalty. So it’s not that I don’t believe him. I just can’t get that image out of my head.
I can’t tell if this intense emotional reaction I’m having would be the same reaction anyone would have if they saw what I saw, or if I’m combining the feelings of betrayal over the gaslighting and the relapse…, the last four months of feeling completely invisible, hopeless, and like he was choosing drugs over me. My mind is like mush and I seriously can’t differentiate between these two very separate issues. I’m so confused, but that’s what gaslighting does to you. It makes you question your reality.
He said that he’s finally willing to go into detox, so at this point, I have waited this long, it would be silly not to stick around and see if he’s finally going to put an end to this. What’s getting me is that he’s still making excuses, still not seeming very remorseful, and is still so deep in self-pity that he doesn’t seem to have any awareness of how badly I’m hurting because of him. It feels like he just doesn’t care. anyone who’s ever loved an addict knows that feeling well.
I’m in Al-anon, and I’m well aware of all of the things I should be doing, focusing on myself, etc. but I’m just not doing well, and I can’t seem to find my way out of this dark hole. Anyone who has made it this far deserves some sort of a Reddit badge of honor. This was more of an autobiography than a simple question. I just wanna hear some outside input because I don’t trust my own mind right now. I’m willing to take your criticism, just please be kind. I know I’ve made mistakes, I’m just hurting so badly. I can’t seem to sort through this. Thank you so much if you took the time to read all of this and still want to respond. You have no idea how much it means to me.