Mom seduces daughterp

M4A or M4M only for literate and mature players,text me if interested

2024.06.09 17:46 yourmomishot2004 M4A or M4M only for literate and mature players,text me if interested

Sharing my roleplay fantasy for first time for cuck
Hello cucks, I am Ashish age 20M a semi para bull player who is fluent in Hindi and English who is looking to fuck your sexy single mom like Alia, Shraddha, Kiara, Disha and malavika Mohan ( other actress works too ) I can play as your bestie who has betrayed you and slept with your lonely mom. Otherwise I can play as your elder cousin who had seduced your mom.
Your mom character is young and single and after divorced she has been ignored by family and others that’s when I will seduce her and breed her. I love to include breeding stuff.
So I am looking for cucks or role players who can play these single mommies for me, I will satisfy you and make you cum. For that you have to feed pics as well and act as a good and literate player otherwise don’t text me.
Here is my short intro
( it’s night 11 pm, I uploaded a picture of myself exposing my abs on Instagram story from the gym. I am Ashish your son bestie whom you know since childhood and is known as good mature boy )
Also we can play on telegram ( fuckyourmommy2003)
So cucks or literate players ( who can play as F text me )

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2024.06.09 11:26 Leather_Echidna494 my roads are misplaced and its texture are bugged

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LightsOn.esp
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Hwybee Silver Desire.esp
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2024.06.09 03:26 Slugy_slush (Coming of age?) book where a girl believes a guy likes her but he is actually having an affair with her mom

Hello, I am trying to find a book that I read a looong time ago and can’t remember the name. All I can really remember is that the girl and her family go on vacation and while there she meets an older man (in his twenties?) that she believes likes heshe’s trying to flirt with. She spends time with him and her mom while on the vacation believing that he is using her mom as a shield to see her but in reality he’s using her as a shield to carry out an affair with her mom. I was talking about wild books I’ve read in the past and I can’t remember it for the life of me. Other random things I remember:
1) She has a kissing/sex scene with a bell hop boy that she ends up hating because of his pimples
2) She tries to wear a way to mature dress to seduce the affair guy and there’s the whole scene going on and on about putting perfume on; she also gets sent back by her father to put on more age appropriate clothes in front of everyone, thereby humiliating her.
3) When she first meets the affair guy I believe she is at the hotel pool and involves a dropped sandal.
4) There is a court? Owneboss? Scene where the bell hop boy is accused of forcing himself on her and she lies, getting him in trouble (can’t remember if it was legal trouble or not)
5) and FINALLY after ALL THAT the last thing I remember was that this book took place sometime after WW2 and 1980s because one of the plot points was either finding jewish art that was stolen by natzis or finding the money from someone selling it. I don’t really remember how this tied into the book but yeah.

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2024.06.08 18:26 SaladDioxide 95744

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2024.06.08 16:00 MommyViperC Does this look like he is enmeshed to his mom/ If so, is there hope for change or not?

Hi all!
I feel like I am going crazy at this point but I will try to sum my situation up:

Been in a beautiful relationship with my ex (27M) since May 2023 until January 2024 (around 8 months). He broke up with me In January after we have visited his mom in my home country for New Years. (I have been studying and working in the UK since 2015) It was the first time i met her in my home country and i could see that she did not like me, always looked at him when speaking with me, she got upset because i was ordering food and did not always liked her food but i was struggling to eat it. When we were playing cards she was playing with him and putting cards over mine on purpose when it was my turn. They got up to go shopping together while wanting to leave me in the house just (when we agreed that all 3 of us would go out). I basically felt like he changed to 180 while he was around her, always agreeing with her. I had a terrible time and would always hide in his room and cry. He was there for me and hugged me but i feel like i was more of an inconvenience and she did not actually want to get to know me. The whole time we were there she spoke about herself, her diet, her hair, her neighbors, her family and how my ex sacrificed himself after his father died when he was 17. I think she has a lot of insecurities but is always bragging about it. She seemed to be really concerned with money (my ex is working in the UK to support her and sends her money as he is her only source of income). Every time i was there and tried to buy stuff for myself or us, she would say it s expensive even though it was with my own earned money.
After we came back in January, he broke up with me saying he cannot give up his responsibilities towards his mother to be with me. His mother told me to my face while i was there that I am the problem and they are eating anything, i am just fussy and pretentious. (they even eat recycled cake - after it s been sat there for ages and it is dried) . He tried to stand up for her but it seemed fake to me. So he dropped me in Jan like nothing happened. Then i noticed that 3 months after he started posting sad stuff on tiktok.
I reached out to him a month ago (April) and he wanted to come and meet me to discuss. He kept all the gifts i gave him and never got rid of anything, he said he has not moved on and he broke down crying 2 times in a row, for hours after telling me that i was the problem cause i was disrespectful ( it looked like his mom s words into his head) , He said he does not know if he loved me or if he does not and he needs to sort himself out. He said he needs a therapist and suffers as his sister and mom are very controlling, he is not free to make his own choices and needs a break. I have told him how i think his mom has enmeshed him and he seemed to agree with me. He was eager to find a solution but the next day he changed his mind.
I went no contact and he started posting sad stuff again, sent him the ' When he s married to mom' book and the 'Silently seduced' one, in hopes that it would enlighten him at least to seek therapy. I don't know what to do anymore. Everyone is telling me to let him go, yet I am still hoping he will seek therapy and recognize the abuse his mom puts on him since he was 17.
P.S We knew each other since we were young as we had a distance relationship back when i was 17-18 but we broke up back then and reconnected in 2022. Before me, he had a relationship of 5 years until 2020.

I have done my best and even sent him the books after reading them. We have many memories together and he said he loves me, then he got confused about it while crying. I just don't know what to do. What is your advice?

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2024.06.08 15:58 MommyViperC Is there a possibility of change or not?

Hi all!
I feel like I am going crazy at this point but I will try to sum my situation up:

Been in a beautiful relationship with my ex (27M) since May 2023 until January 2024 (around 8 months). He broke up with me In January after we have visited his mom in my home country for New Years. (I have been studying and working in the UK since 2015) It was the first time i met her in my home country and i could see that she did not like me, always looked at him when speaking with me, she got upset because i was ordering food and did not always liked her food but i was struggling to eat it. When we were playing cards she was playing with him and putting cards over mine on purpose when it was my turn. They got up to go shopping together while wanting to leave me in the house just (when we agreed that all 3 of us would go out). I basically felt like he changed to 180 while he was around her, always agreeing with her. I had a terrible time and would always hide in his room and cry. He was there for me and hugged me but i feel like i was more of an inconvenience and she did not actually want to get to know me. The whole time we were there she spoke about herself, her diet, her hair, her neighbors, her family and how my ex sacrificed himself after his father died when he was 17. I think she has a lot of insecurities but is always bragging about it. She seemed to be really concerned with money (my ex is working in the UK to support her and sends her money as he is her only source of income). Every time i was there and tried to buy stuff for myself or us, she would say it s expensive even though it was with my own earned money.
After we came back in January, he broke up with me saying he cannot give up his responsibilities towards his mother to be with me. His mother told me to my face while i was there that I am the problem and they are eating anything, i am just fussy and pretentious. (they even eat recycled cake - after it s been sat there for ages and it is dried) . He tried to stand up for her but it seemed fake to me. So he dropped me in Jan like nothing happened. Then i noticed that 3 months after he started posting sad stuff on tiktok.
I reached out to him a month ago (April) and he wanted to come and meet me to discuss. He kept all the gifts i gave him and never got rid of anything, he said he has not moved on and he broke down crying 2 times in a row, for hours after telling me that i was the problem cause i was disrespectful ( it looked like his mom s words into his head) , He said he does not know if he loved me or if he does not and he needs to sort himself out. He said he needs a therapist and suffers as his sister and mom are very controlling, he is not free to make his own choices and needs a break. I have told him how i think his mom has enmeshed him and he seemed to agree with me. He was eager to find a solution but the next day he changed his mind.
I went no contact and he started posting sad stuff again, sent him the ' When he s married to mom' book and the 'Silently seduced' one, in hopes that it would enlighten him at least to seek therapy. I don't know what to do anymore. Everyone is telling me to let him go, yet I am still hoping he will seek therapy and recognize the abuse his mom puts on him since he was 17.
P.S We knew each other since we were young as we had a distance relationship back when i was 17-18 but we broke up back then and reconnected in 2022. Before me, he had a relationship of 5 years until 2020.

EDIT: Before i went to meet her in December, he told me he wanted her to move in with us as we planned to move in here in the UK together. I was shook. As soon as she did not like me, he changed his personality to 180 degrees towards me.
I have done my best and even sent him the books after reading them. We have many memories together and he said he loves me, then he got confused about it while crying. I just don't know what to do. What is your advice guys?

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2024.06.08 15:56 MommyViperC What can I do to support my ex?

Hi all!
I feel like I am going crazy at this point but I will try to sum my situation up:

Been in a beautiful relationship with my ex (27M) since May 2023 until January 2024 (around 8 months). He broke up with me In January after we have visited his mom in my home country for New Years. (I have been studying and working in the UK since 2015) It was the first time i met her in my home country and i could see that she did not like me, always looked at him when speaking with me, she got upset because i was ordering food and did not always liked her food but i was struggling to eat it. When we were playing cards she was playing with him and putting cards over mine on purpose when it was my turn. They got up to go shopping together while wanting to leave me in the house just (when we agreed that all 3 of us would go out). I basically felt like he changed to 180 while he was around her, always agreeing with her. I had a terrible time and would always hide in his room and cry. He was there for me and hugged me but i feel like i was more of an inconvenience and she did not actually want to get to know me. The whole time we were there she spoke about herself, her diet, her hair, her neighbors, her family and how my ex sacrificed himself after his father died when he was 17. I think she has a lot of insecurities but is always bragging about it. She seemed to be really concerned with money (my ex is working in the UK to support her and sends her money as he is her only source of income). Every time i was there and tried to buy stuff for myself or us, she would say it s expensive even though it was with my own earned money.
After we came back in January, he broke up with me saying he cannot give up his responsibilities towards his mother to be with me. His mother told me to my face while i was there that I am the problem and they are eating anything, i am just fussy and pretentious. (they even eat recycled cake - after it s been sat there for ages and it is dried) . He tried to stand up for her but it seemed fake to me. So he dropped me in Jan like nothing happened. Then i noticed that 3 months after he started posting sad stuff on tiktok.
I reached out to him a month ago (April) and he wanted to come and meet me to discuss. He kept all the gifts i gave him and never got rid of anything, he said he has not moved on and he broke down crying 2 times in a row, for hours after telling me that i was the problem cause i was disrespectful ( it looked like his mom s words into his head) , He said he does not know if he loved me or if he does not and he needs to sort himself out. He said he needs a therapist and suffers as his sister and mom are very controlling, he is not free to make his own choices and needs a break. I have told him how i think his mom has enmeshed him and he seemed to agree with me. He was eager to find a solution but the next day he changed his mind.
I went no contact and he started posting sad stuff again, sent him the ' When he s married to mom' book and the 'Silently seduced' one, in hopes that it would enlighten him at least to seek therapy. I don't know what to do anymore. Everyone is telling me to let him go, yet I am still hoping he will seek therapy and recognize the abuse his mom puts on him since he was 17.
P.S We knew each other since we were young as we had a distance relationship back when i was 17-18 but we broke up back then and reconnected in 2022. Before me, he had a relationship of 5 years until 2020.
I have done my best and even sent him the books after reading them. We have many memories together and he said he loves me, then he got confused about it while crying. I just don't know what to do. What is your advice guys?

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2024.06.08 14:14 MommyViperC Is there still a chance that he realizes what his mom puts him through?

Hi all!
I feel like I am going crazy at this point but I will try to sum my situation up:

Been in a beautiful relationship with my EX boyfriend (27M) since May 2023 until January 2024 (around 8 months). He broke up with me In January after we have visited his mom in my home country for New Years. (I have been studying and working in the UK since 2015) It was the first time i met her in my home country and i could see that she did not like me, always looked at him when speaking with me, she got upset because i was ordering food and did not always liked her food but i was struggling to eat it. When we were playing cards she was playing with him and putting cards over mine on purpose when it was my turn. They got up to go shopping together while wanting to leave me in the house just (when we agreed that all 3 of us would go out). I basically felt like he changed to 180 while he was around her, always agreeing with her. I had a terrible time and would always hide in his room and cry. He was there for me and hugged me but i feel like i was more of an inconvenience and she did not actually want to get to know me. The whole time we were there she spoke about herself, her diet, her hair, her neighbors, her family and how my ex sacrificed himself after his father died when he was 17. I think she has a lot of insecurities but is always bragging about it. She seemed to be really concerned with money (my ex is working in the UK to support her and sends her money as he is her only source of income). Every time i was there and tried to buy stuff for myself or us, she would say it s expensive even though it was with my own earned money.
After we came back in January, he broke up with me saying he cannot give up his responsibilities towards his mother to be with me. His mother told me to my face while i was there that I am the problem and they are eating anything, i am just fussy and pretentious. (they even eat recycled cake - after it s been sat there for ages and it is dried) . He tried to stand up for her but it seemed fake to me. So he dropped me in Jan like nothing happened. Then i noticed that 3 months after he started posting sad stuff on tiktok.
I reached out to him a month ago (April) and he wanted to come and meet me to discuss. He kept all the gifts i gave him and never got rid of anything, he said he has not moved on and he broke down crying 2 times in a row, for hours after telling me that i was the problem cause i was disrespectful ( it looked like his mom s words into his head) , He said he does not know if he loved me or if he does not and he needs to sort himself out. He said he needs a therapist and suffers as his sister and mom are very controlling, he is not free to make his own choices and needs a break. I have told him how i think his mom has enmeshed him and he seemed to agree with me. He was eager to find a solution but the next day he changed his mind.
I went no contact and he started posting sad stuff again, sent him the ' When he s married to mom' book and the 'Silently seduced' one, in hopes that it would enlighten him at least to seek therapy. I don't know what to do anymore. Everyone is telling me to let him go, yet I am still hoping he will seek therapy and recognize the abuse his mom puts on him since he was 17.
P.S We knew each other since we were young as we had a distance relationship back when i was 17-18 but we broke up back then and reconnected in 2022. Before me, he had a relationship of 5 years until 2020.

What is your advice guys? I have done my best and even sent him the books after reading them.

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2024.06.08 14:12 MommyViperC Is he going to make his mind up about his mom?

Sorry if it s in the wrong place, been told that it is an EX issue and not a MIL problem.
I feel like I am going crazy at this point but I will try to sum my situation up:

Been in a beautiful relationship with my ex (27M) since May 2023 until January 2024 (around 8 months). He broke up with me In January after we have visited his mom in my home country for New Years. (I have been studying and working in the UK since 2015) It was the first time i met her in my home country and i could see that she did not like me, always looked at him when speaking with me, she got upset because i was ordering food and did not always liked her food but i was struggling to eat it. When we were playing cards she was playing with him and putting cards over mine on purpose when it was my turn. They got up to go shopping together while wanting to leave me in the house just (when we agreed that all 3 of us would go out). I basically felt like he changed to 180 while he was around her, always agreeing with her. I had a terrible time and would always hide in his room and cry. He was there for me and hugged me but i feel like i was more of an inconvenience and she did not actually want to get to know me. The whole time we were there she spoke about herself, her diet, her hair, her neighbors, her family and how my ex sacrificed himself after his father died when he was 17. I think she has a lot of insecurities but is always bragging about it. She seemed to be really concerned with money (my ex is working in the UK to support her and sends her money as he is her only source of income). Every time i was there and tried to buy stuff for myself or us, she would say it s expensive even though it was with my own earned money.
After we came back in January, he broke up with me saying he cannot give up his responsibilities towards his mother to be with me. His mother told me to my face while i was there that I am the problem and they are eating anything, i am just fussy and pretentious. (they even eat recycled cake - after it s been sat there for ages and it is dried) . He tried to stand up for her but it seemed fake to me. So he dropped me in Jan like nothing happened. Then i noticed that 3 months after he started posting sad stuff on tiktok.
I reached out to him a month ago (April) and he wanted to come and meet me to discuss. He kept all the gifts i gave him and never got rid of anything, he said he has not moved on and he broke down crying 2 times in a row, for hours after telling me that i was the problem cause i was disrespectful ( it looked like his mom s words into his head) , He said he does not know if he loved me or if he does not and he needs to sort himself out. He said he needs a therapist and suffers as his sister and mom are very controlling, he is not free to make his own choices and needs a break. I have told him how i think his mom has enmeshed him and he seemed to agree with me. He was eager to find a solution but the next day he changed his mind.
I went no contact and he started posting sad stuff again, sent him the ' When he s married to mom' book and the 'Silently seduced' one, in hopes that it would enlighten him at least to seek therapy. I don't know what to do anymore. Everyone is telling me to let him go, yet I am still hoping he will seek therapy and recognize the abuse his mom puts on him since he was 17.
P.S We knew each other since we were young as we had a distance relationship back when i was 17-18 but we broke up back then and reconnected in 2022. Before me, he had a relationship of 5 years until 2020.

What is your advice guys? I have done my best and even sent him the books after reading them.

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2024.06.08 07:45 bazuna229 Cultural and family pressure to stay married

I just joined this group after a dizzying spell of article reading on Google. I am 44/f, married 20 years to 44/m. We have 3 kids together ranging 10-15.
I keep going back and forth on whether I should leave and am feeling guilty, gutted and unsure. Long story, will try to condense as much as possible. Please excuse typos.
I married the nice / laid back guy after dating a bit. Grew up with strict catholic parents who feel divorce is blasphemous and you stay in the marriage to work it out.
I was a virgin before marriage, but had experienced dating and other things, just not intercourse. Again, married the nice guy who didn't pressure me to have sex. We were 24, I had graduated college and had an ok job. He was still figuring things out and had a part tine job. I married for the potential I saw in him.
Fast forward wedding night, he did not want to sleep with me. I tried to seduce him, it didn't work. Tried this for 3 days, still nothing. We went on a honeymoon where I thought we would be intimate, still nothing. I brought it up in conversation, he said I (wife) wasn't ready. To which I said I was, at this juncture we had been married a week. Finally I just put the moves on him, and.we became intimate but he stopped half way through and again said I wasn't ready. Mind you, we had done everything but intercourse pre marriage and it was enjoyable.
This has been our sex life for 20 years. We have gone years without it. When we do have sex, it's not intimate and then we go months/ years without.
Obviously we have 3 kids so in 20 years we have had it. When I bring it up he says it's because I don't initiate and lay there like a log. I have tried everything to spice things up - lingerie, toys, games, communication, counseling. It's so difficult when I feel my partner is not attracted to me. He has never said I love you. He is emotionally distant and checks out a lot. On his phone/ TV.
Financially I make a lot more than him. Therw were times I worked 2 jobs, was a full time mom and took care of 80% of the household tasks. When I would bring up the feelings of feeling undesirable, feeling like a roommate and feeling taken advantage of (work and house chores) he always would get defensive. He claimed I was unhappy because he didn't make enough money and that would never change. He claims that he is not as smart as me, doesn't hold degrees and therefore couldn't live up to my needs. I have told him that his making less is not the issue. The issue is that he is unmotivated, doesn't share his goals with me, is not affectionate and I feel lonely in the marriage.
We have had this conversation a few times. Each time he will say he will change, but we fall into the same pattern. I asked him to plan something for us to do together ( I am the one who always has to plan things for us to do). He says he will but doesn't. His " taking me out" was grocery shopping yesterday. He claims he doesn't know what I like, so I should decide and he will just drive us there. I was brutally honest and said I felt like he treated me like his mother figure and that I wanted an equal. I want a partner who is driven, ambitious, has goals, wants to f his wife, wants to be intimate and be equal with all our mundane things.
I stay because of my family but each day a die a little more inside. Does it get better? How do you not feel guilty for leaving? I worry about him and how he would make it financially/emotionally.
I worry that my kids would not adjust to separate homes. I know my parents would leash hells fury on me for not being the good catholic girl. I worry about everyone's feelings but myself because that's how I was raised. Mom has mental illness and was an absentee parent so I had to step up and be mom even as a child.
Anyway, so sorry for the novel but if there us anyone with words of advice would love to hear it.

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2024.06.07 00:45 Balmorran-Queen-3157 AITA for thinking it would be better to be homeless than live with my narcissistic mom

First, I want to say, I FUDGIN LOVE YOU CHARLOTTE!!! Second, I wouldn't have realized that my mom is narcissistic without your channel so thank you so much oh wise Potato Goddess of Pettiness and Tomfoolery!!!
To start (and give a little context), my mother is the sort of person who believes every conspiracy theory, votes for angry men, and is also extremely religious. All of her views she claims are "in line with what God would want". But, there's just one gigantic problem: my mom is a narcissist. I, (31F), live with my mom, mostly because I can't get a job, but also because my mother has so thoroughly manipulated me and everyone around me that I can't get a job here. I do love my mother, after all, she did give birth to me and as a religious person myself, I do feel that for that reason alone, I do owe her some small measure of respect, but it gets harder every day. When I say she's a narcissist, I mean this: My last relationship ended because she slept with him. That's right, my mother, who is in her sixties, got my boyfriend black-out drunk and slept with him. And somehow, SOMEHOW, it's my fault because I should have known what a terrible person he was. She got him drunk, SHE seduced him, and SHE slept with him but I'm the one at fault for yelling at her about it. When I confronted her, she immediately broke down in tears because she "hasn't had any seggs in over a decade and he was just so good-looking."
Mind you, even though I don't have a job, I do everything, literally everything physical, yard work, housework, you name it I do it. Mostly because my mom is tiny, maybe five feet tall, and she's also getting close to seventy, so I am happy to do most of the things I do. But, even though I make her coffee, make her breakfast, lunch, and dinner and help her decide what to eat for all of those meals, cook them, clean them up, and bring them to her in her bed so she doesn't have to move, if I forget anything, leave a dish unwashed, or trash or she has to wait too long to eat, I'm suddenly lazy, unmotivated, abusive, and narcissistic. Every bad thing I've ever done gets brought up every time we fight. Both of her failed marriages are my fault, even her last husband, the absolute perv, r wording me was my fault. Yeah, she blames me for her having married a pedophile who r-worded me from the age of 8 until he finally left when I stole his credit card and ran it up because I just wanted to go to jail to escape him and her. I was sa'd in school and her response was to say "You probably deserve it, after all, it's not like you're a very interesting person or very smart. The best thing about you is your (insert disgusting description of my body), honestly, I'd take it as a compliment. Probably the closest you will ever get to a real relationship."
I have three older siblings, and they very rarely call, my sister has gone no contact and my brothers are just trying not to make her focus on them. I don't want to blame them but I feel hurt and abandoned here with a monster. I honestly would prefer to be homeless than to be here any longer, but I cant because she'll hunt me down and browbeat and guilt trip me until I come back with her. I want to leave but I just feel trapped. So AITA?

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2024.06.05 23:11 TechnicalAd2963 Anyone else born with hypo? What has your experiences been like so far?

I’m a 22yr old guy, and was diagnosed with hypothyroidism since birth. I’ve been required to take levo for it ever since then, but never really took the time to learn about it until recently.
I just took the medication every morning and got used to eating later in the day around 11ish. As a kid I gave my mom a hard time being inconsistent with taking the pills and lying about taking them too. During Highschool, I would go months without taking medication, and knowing what I know now, I wish I had stayed consistent, since I used to get extreme episodes of depression randomly, fairly sure I stunted my own growth for not taking my meds enough, and times where my dry skin would make my body very ashy that I wouldn’t like to change in the locker rooms.
I got much better at taking my meds into adulthood after my doctor prescribed me a new dosage and gave me a basic rundown of symptoms for being negligent about it.
I didn’t know it was common in women, and could even be developed later in life. I thought you were born with it and that’s it. Didn’t know it caused depression, lethargy, dry skin, constipation, etc.
My whole life I didn’t really know about hypothyroidism, and barely joined this subreddit and am so surprised of everyone else’s stories here.
Any other guys here who have been diagnosed at birth? Interesting stories to share? The longest I’ve been off my meds was 8 months seducing sophomore year, an, unsurprising, was one of the toughest times for me.
Do share!

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2024.06.05 20:40 CT_Phipps 10 Queer Indie SFF Books to Read for Pride Month by Esme Rosalyne

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By Esme Rosalyne (shared on behalf of Before We Go blog)
It’s the most wonderful time of the year! No, not Christmas… It’s Pride Month babyyyy! And you know what that means, time to celebrate by sharing some of my favourite indie SFF books that spread the queer joy and embrace queerness in all its messiness and beauty.
Now, if you are still wondering why queer representation in books is so important and invaluable, I will just point you to this thread by Dani Finn (whose books are also gloriously queer, definitely give them a shot). No more words needed.
For the recommendations I am bringing you today, I decided to combine three of my favourite things in the world: queerness, indie books, and the SFF genre. Each of these books made me feel seen or helped me become more understanding of other experiences from people under the queer umbrella, while also taking me on a wonderfully imaginative and exciting fantasy adventure that provided a comforting escape from real life.
Whether you are part of the LGBTQIA+ family or just an ally curious to learn more, I personally think these authors are so skilled that the stories they tell will resonate with anyone on a deep emotional level. I tried to highlight the stories told by diverse voices and those that showcase the wide range of unique experiences from all across the wide spectrum of queer love and identity, so I hope you find a tale that speaks to your soul. Enjoy!
Legacy of the Vermillion Blade by Jay Tallsquall
Legacy of the Vermillion Blade is a book that intrigued me with its premise of a character-driven high fantasy tale with authentic ace representation and delightful queer-normative world building. And as someone who is questioning their sexuality and leaning towards the ace spectrum, this story meant more to me than I can say.
Talon’s journey of self-discovery (which is semi-autobiographical for the author) was equally tragic and beautiful to witness. The message of “it is never too late to embrace your true authentic self” really hit home and made this story so emotionally impactful. I really appreciated how Talon is allowed to be vulnerable, flawed and messy in his relationships, because that made him such a sympathetic and relatable character.
Legacy of the Vermillion Blade is first and foremost a deeply intimate character study, but the fantasy elements provide such a comforting, lush, and safe backdrop to Talon’s emotional journey. I am so glad that this story exists and I highly recommend it for anyone who wants their fantasy to be character-driven, diverse and full of emotional turmoil. This is a fantasy journey I won’t soon forget.
Breaker of Fates by Vaela Denarr & Micah Iannandrea
Breaker of FatesMixing the rich world building, hysterical humour, and queer messiness of A Chorus of Dragons with the deeply emotional trauma and healing themes of The Tithenai Chronicles, Breaker of Fatesis a brand new own-voices queer epic dragon fantasy that will make your queer heart scream and drag you across the entire spectrum of emotions!
Now, Breaker of Fates is not a romantasy or erotic fantasy, contrary to the vibes the cover might give off. Instead, it offers a refreshing and delightfully diverse twist on epic dragon fantasy and transports you into an unapologetically queer-normative world, where all types of genders, sexualities, pronoun preferences, disabilities, races, and cultural backgrounds are represented and embraced. Though all that is not to say that this story glamourises queerness, quite the opposite in fact. Here, the queers are nuanced. They are both heroes and villains, and we get to explore queerness in all its beauty and tragedy through the eyes of our lovable yet deeply flawed protagonists.
Dangerously seductive and effortlessly funny characters, complicated feelings, beautiful polyamourous love, found family vibes to die for, and raw explorations of queer grief, trauma, and healing; what’s not to love?
The Switchboard by Christina K. Glover
The SwitchboardFilled with endearingly oblivious chaos queers, unexpected found family vibes, lots of magical mayhem, and plot-necessary pasta breaks, The Switchboard is a delightfully quirky and highly imaginative low-fantasy romp perfect for fans of T. Kingfisher and Good Omens (the show).
See, Henley and Kit are both just a certified Hot Mess in their own way, and I absolutely love them for it. Not only do they both have an extremely compelling backstory that we slowly get to uncover and dig into, but their tentatively developing friendship (and maybe more?!) was also just so heartwarming. THIS is how you do a delicious slooooow (like, agonisingly slow)-burn, the tension was killing me (just accept it and KISS already!!) and I was eating up all the emotional turmoil!
And this might not be a chunky book, but don’t let that fool you into thinking that it lacks substance in any way. Especially the exploration of memory and trauma through the memory-exchange magic system is quite powerful, adding a touch of tragedy that beautifully balanced out the more ridiculously fun moments. Every single aspect of the story is just so seamlessly interwoven, resulting in a shockingly spectacular and brutally bittersweet climax sequence that left me desperate for the sequel in the best way possible.
The Fall Is All There Is by C.M. Caplan
The Fall Is All There Is is a wonderfully weird, unapologetically unhinged, and darkly entertaining gendreblendy gem of a book. It throws all genre conventions and reader expectations straight out the window, and that is exactly where its irresistible charm lies.
Within a couple of pages I just knew that The Fall Is All There Is was going to be a book for me. Petre’s intoxicating and disturbingly intimate first person narration immediately pulled me in, and he has quickly shot up to the top of my list of favourite SFF protagonists. As a neurodivergent gay man who lets his emotions rule his actions and who acts before he thinks, he is not the most conventional or even likeable fantasy protagonist. But dammit, if I didn’t love him with all my heart!
Caplan did an absolutely magnificent job of portraying Petre’s chaotic and frenetic headspace, and I loved the moments of quirky writing where Petre almost breaks the fourth wall and asks you directly if you know what he is feeling. He demands you to place yourself in his shoes, and that did absolute wonders for my investment and immersion. The panic, the fear, the anxiety, the hyperfixations, the frustration, the hysteria, the bewilderment, the anger, the paranoia; I related way more deeply to Petre’s intense emotions than I would probably like to admit, and I was honestly revelling in the chaos of it all.
I honestly thought I would never find another reading experience that would come close to Tamsyn Muir’s The Locked Tomb series, but The Fall Is All There Is might have just done so. And trust me, that is the highest of high praise for me.
Of Honey and Wildfires by Sarah Chorn
of honey and wildfiresYou know those authors whose writing and stories just speak to you on a deep emotional level? Yeah, Sarah Chorn is absolutely one of those authors for me.
Of Honey and Wildfires is a delightfully unconventional fantasy western following three characters across several timelines, which all converge beautifully in the end. They live in a world where a magical oil called Shine is a much sought-after commodity, even though it can do more harm than good if you are not careful.
As with all of Chorn’s works (also HIGHLY recommend The Necessity of Rain), this world and its characters are just wonderfully and casually diverse, in all aspects. Race and queer identity are big yet subtle themes in this story, with trans representation and sapphic love being woven into the narrative in the most authentic ways.
All the representation is handled with so much love and care, and I especially appreciated how sexuality and gender never become a main point of contention in the story. It’s just part of the human experience, which is what this book is all about. Whether you can personally relate to these characters’ experiences or not, you will undoubtedly empathise with them and feel for their struggles. Chorn just knows how to capture raw human emotion in an achingly beautiful way, tugging on your heartstrings in ways you won’t be ready for.
Breeze Spells & Bridegrooms by Sarah Wallace & S.O. Callahan
Breeze Spells & BridegroomsIn Breeze Spells and Bridegrooms, Sarah Wallace and S.O. Callahan take all the best elements from Bridgerton (the show), except make everything a bit more magical and a lot more queer! Allow yourself to be transported to a delightfully queernormative Regency London in this cozy, diverse, charming, dazzling, and highly amusing historical fantasy romance!
What starts out as a tentative alliance full of snarky remarks and exasperated sighs between an anxious academic and a (seemingly) haughty, arrogant Fae soon builds into a very tender, passionate, supportive, and heartwarming dynamic that will just light your heart on fire, even if it stays very low spice (thank all that is holy!).
I just adored how wonderfully and casually diverse the world and cast of characters in Breeze Spells and Bridegrooms is; not only in terms of gender and sexuality, but also in terms of body types and mental health issues. The beautiful and authentic plus-size, demisexual, neurodivergent, non-binary, and social anxiety representation were all just so lovely to see, and I also appreciated that there is little to none miscommunication in this entire story. Like, you can actually talk to each other about your fears, doubts, and anxieties, what a concept?!
So, if you are looking for a diverse, slow-burn, and low-spice queer historical fantasy romance with endearing characters, silly Regency Era sensibilities, steaming cups of tea, juicy gossip, and a dash of magical light academia, then I can’t recommend Breeze Spells and Bridegrooms highly enough!
Legacy of the Brightwash by Krystle Matar
Yes, get your bingo cards out, I am gushing about Legacy of the Brightwash again. This story is part of my DNA at this point, and I will never stop pushing this book in everyone’s faces.
Legacy of the Brightwash is easily one of the most compelling and emotionally engaging books I have ever read. Every single element of this genre-blendy gem of a book just works for me. The gaslamp atmosphere and grimy city setting, the murder mystery, the extremely flawed and complex characters with their messy and complicated relationships, the political scheming, the hard-hitting themes, the slow-burn romance, the found family vibes, the casual queerness, the soul-stirring prose… this book is just perfection to me. Absolute perfection.
Though set-up as a fantasy murder mystery, at its core Legacy of the Brightwash is a very introspective and character-driven story about the brutality and (ironic) injustice of a justice system, about the cost of convenience, about fighting back against the system, and most of all, it’s a story about love and the hope for redemption.
Oh and what’s even better, the sequel, Legacy of Brick and Bone, is even more gloriously gay. I truly cannot recommend this series highly enough, it is at the top of my all-time favourites list for a very good reason.
Merchants of Knowledge & Magic by Erika McCorkle
Merchants of Knowledge and Magic is a story of truly epic proportions, and to say it is unique would honestly be the understatement of the year. Filled with diverse and slightly unhinged characters, interdominional travel, dangerous secrets, riveting mysteries, page-turning intrigue, and breathtaking world building, this is the diverse and refreshing dark epic sci-fantasy you didn’t know you needed.
As an aroace, intersex, human-dragonfly hybrid Merchant of Knowledge, Calinthe is not your typical run-of-the-mill fantasy protagonist. Together with her closest companion Zakuro, whose illusionist magic keeps her ‘abominable’ gender hidden, she travels the various planes of the Dominion to gather the most valuable secrets for her demonic employer.
Seriously, the character work and development of the interpersonal relationships in this book absolutely rock. Especially the relationship between Calinthe, our aroace, intersex, human-dragonfly hybrid Merchant of Knowledge protagonist, and her closest companion and illusionist Zakuro just gave me life. As someone who is questioning if they are on the ace-spectrum, I loved how the deep-seated bonds of love, loyalty, and trust between Calinthe and Zakuro are fully established without any grand romantic or sexual gestures. The representation feels so authentic and their relationship tugged on my heartstrings in all the best ways.
Though, as wondrous, whimsical and entertaining as this story can be, the author doesn’t hold back on mixing in some truly dark, dirty, and depraved elements. Themes of bodily autonomy, religion, gender discrimination, sex slavery, rape, torture, and domination are explored in a brutally raw and honest way, which makes the emotional impact of this story higher than you could possibly ever have imagined.
Merchants of Knowledge and Magic is nothing short of a masterpiece. This unapologetically weird, diverse, queer, imaginative, indulgent, and deliciously dark gem of a book will keep you on your toes from start to finish.
The Erstwhile Tyler Kyle by Steve Hugh Westenra
Steve Hugh Westenra: The Erstewhile Tyler Kyle, showing a light blue TV with pink knobs with the words "Click, like, subscribe" on it and a blood spatter beneath it and a red curtain behind it.Now, as soon as I saw that this quirky queer adult horror comedy had ‘Buzzfeed Unsolved’ and ‘Twin Peaks’ vibes, I simply could not resist picking it up. The Erstwhile Tyler Kyle smoothly blends elements of horror, comedy, mystery, fantasy, pyschological thriller, and romance to create an utterly captivating and refreshing story. It will creep under your skin and take you on a wild emotional rollercoaster, leaving you competely reeling in the best way imaginable.
This story follows Tyler Kyle, a snarky 30-year-old actor who somewhat reluctantly runs a ridiculously popular cryptid investigation show with his best friend Josh. As a sceptic, he has never been extremely invested in any of their investigations, but now a new mystery with a very personal touch has presented itself. After receiving a mysterious video of his mom, who abandoned him 18 years ago, he flies out on his own to the eerie and secluded Echo Island where dark and twisted secrets are just waiting to be uncovered. And no, this is definitely not also a perfect excuse to run away from his feelings and escape his queer panic after drunkenly making out with his “straight” best friend in a hot tub… not at all.
It’s absolutely beyond me how the author managed to get me SO invested in this dynamic when they are separated for the majority of the story. I believed in their bond from the very first page and the more I read, the more I started wishing they could just get their happily ever after already. But the bisexual-panic and the slow-burn are just to die for, and I was totally eating up the drama.
I would highly recommend The Erstwhile Tyler Kyle if you are looking for a quirky character-driven horror comedy that will seduce you with its hypnotising and poetic prose, riveting mystery, emotionally engaging character work, depraved dark humour, and delicious doses of repressed queer longing. I absolutely loved it!
Bones to the Wind by Tatiana Obey
Bones to the WindBones to the Wind is everything I didn’t know I needed from a coming-of-age fantasy. It’s fierce, brutal, unapologetic and overall just extremely fun. All I knew before going in was that it had a desert setting, fierce female characters, a deadly competition, windships, and a queer-normative and sex-positive society. And I don’t know about you, but I was sold!
On the surface, this is the story of our three messy and flawed protagonists, Rasia, Kai and Nico, as they are about to start their coming-of-age Forging trial. But amidst all the action and chaos, there’s plenty of soul-searching and self-discovery that make this story so deeply emotionally impactful.
There’s a huge focus on the exploration of gender and sexuality, which was handled with so much care and authenticity. I mean, throw a couple of easily aroused young adults into a high stakes situation and it doesn’t take long for things to get steamy. But what I loved about the romances here is that they are so realistically and painfully messy. These characters might act as if they know what they are doing, but in reality they are just experimenting and hesitantly stumbling in the dark. And when they mess up, they have to deal with the harsh consequences of their actions, which I found so refreshing and satisfying to see.
Safe to say I absolutely adored this story. It’s not perfect, but it’s unapologetically fierce, fun, brutal and wild, which just worked for me on every single level. If you like the sound of coming-of-age fantasy with strong women, a deadly competition, queer and sex-positive relationships, complex sibling bonds, windships, dragons and mystical elemental magic, then Bones to the Wind is the book for you.
And just like that, we’ve come to the end of glorious list already. I had a wonderful time gushing about some of my favourites, and I hope you enjoy them just as much as I do if you give them a shot.
While I am providing this list now because it is currently Pride Month, I highly encourage you to give these books (and any and all other queer books) more love and attention regardless of the time of year. Queerness can and should be celebrated all day, every day. Cheers, happy reading, and have a wonderful Pride, my loves!

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2024.06.05 09:23 OnAccountOfTheOccult Following the threads of Vera: from Nabokov’s Lolita to Thaïs in Greek history

I just finished the show last night and I have so much to say 😭 I don’t know where to start. I tried searching to see if anyone has talked about this yet but I couldn’t find anything. We all know there are heavy allusions and parallels with Nabokov’s Lolita in the show.
Here is my added insight and little tangle of thought:

Nabokov’s wife was named Vera.

On the handwritten draft of Lolita, he wrote: “For Vera.”
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In Mr. Robot, Vera wanted to show Elliot the truth. But “the truth” was hidden from us through unreliable narration, like the truth is obscured by Humbert Humbert’s unreliable narration in Lolita.
Like Humbert, Vera was a murderer and a rapist. On the first page of Lolita, Humbert is writing from his jail cell and states, “You can always count on a murderer for a fancy prose style.” In Mr Robot, Vera’s dialogue was poetic and metaphorical, almost Shakespearean, and certainly embellished. Very fancy.

A butterfly that isn't real: Polygonia thaïsoides.

On the same page as “For Vera”, there is also a drawing of a butterfly (“Polygonia thaïsoides Nab.”). Nabokov was a lepidopterist, but he liked to draw fictional butterflies and he played with language to name them. Polygonia thaïsoides doesn’t actually exist. But the name is interesting:
The beginning of the word: ”thaïs."
Thaïs is a Greek feminine name (note that Vera is a feminine name too) meaning beloved; bandaged; the bond.

In s4e06, Vera said to Elliot: "Me and Elliot are linked on a spiritual plane. I got to come at him on the same level I find myself, and breaking him only gets you so far. I gotta break him so I can build him up. I need to wound his soul so I can be the one to heal him."

In history, Thaïs was a Greek courtesan who accompanied King Alexander the Great on his campaigns. Alexander the Great is considered one of the greatest military strategists and leaders in world history. He was also ruthless, dictatorial, and ambitious to the point of regarding himself as divine.

Viewing the show through a mythopoetic symbolic lens, we can see parallels between Alexander the Great and Elliot. Elliot recognises how he has regarded himself as divine at the end of s4e13: "Then again, I don't even have a name. Just a guy trying to play God without permission."

A slight side bar to this point: at Alexander's the Great's wedding, there was a violent altercation between Alexander and King Philip regarding the lawful successor of the kingdom, which led to Alexander being exiled from Macedonia alongside his birth mother. This reflects the scene from s4e13 where Elliot and Mr Robot argue on the beach at his apparent wedding. Elliot wanted to take the place of the untraumatised version of himself in the false reality (to be the successor of that metaphorical kingdom) so badly that he committed murder - or he thinks he did. Elliot becomes aware that he is in false reality where none of the trauma happened; that he doesn't belong there; that it and the people in it exist for a reason. He created dream-versions of his mother and father (i.e., not his birth mothebirth father) who exist in the false reality.
When Elliot is interacting with his dream-mother in s4e12, we hear Elliot say: "This doesn't sound like my mom. This sounds like someone who loves their son. Everything's changed." After Elliot and Mr Robot talk on the beach at the wedding, he is thrust out/exiled from the false reality, back to the true reality where he was hurt by his birth mother and father.
At the conclusion of a symposium, Thaïs incited Alexander to burn Persepolis in revenge for the destruction of the Acropolis. Thaïs delivered a speech which was intended partly as a graceful compliment to Alexander and partly to amuse him. She declared that all the hardships she had endured in wandering about Asia had been amply repaid on that day, when she found herself revelling luxuriously in the splendid palace of the Persians, but that it would be an even sweeter pleasure to end the party by going out and setting fire to the palace of Xerxes, who had laid Athens in ashes. She wanted to put a torch to the building herself in full view of Alexander, so that posterity should know that the women who followed Alexander had taken a more terrible revenge for the wrongs of Greece than all the famous commanders of earlier times by land or sea. Her speech was greeted with wild applause and the king's companions excitedly urged him on until at last he allowed himself to be persuaded, leaped to his feet, and with a garland on his head and a torch in his hand led the way. (reference)

In s4e07 Vera said, "We took control of all the favelas in both the Dominican and Haiti. I was running everything and everyone from the president to the campesino. And by day 87, I finally had my own island. Then on the 88th day, I got bored."

Further, Vera said that a shaman "told me I had to reopen that path, that I had to reconcile with the man who closed it. For he was meant to be my partner. Then and only then can I go home again. That's why we sitting here right now, Elliot. That's why I came back. I owned the wrong island. I'm gonna take over New York, and you gonna be my side when I do."
Keep in mind Vera's desire for Elliot to become his partner; to take control of New York - and how Vera's desire is perhaps partly rooted in his resonance with Elliot's rage.
Both Thaïs and Vera were motivated by revenge, and neither felt satisfied. Thaïs' speech was intended to persuade Alexander to tap into his rage and take revenge.

Recall Elliot being persuaded by Vera to hear the truth from Krista in s4e07. After confronting the truth about his father, Vera encourages him to scream; to get in touch with his rage. He does. But Elliot blames Vera:

Elliot: "You did this. You did this to me." Vera: "I did it for you." Elliot: "No. No, I don't believe you!" Vera: "I did this because I could see this wound on your face."
The suffix of the word: “-oides.”
“-oides” means “likeness,” and is used by taxonomists for species that resemble other species.

This directly reflects Elliot's multiplicity of selves, as well as his alters resembling his family members - but not actually being them. In Lolita, Humbert becomes fixated on Dolores Haze partly because she resembles "an initial girlchild" from his own childhood. Humbert portrays himself as someone he is not, to exploit and control Dolores. In fact, the entire work of Lolita resembles something it is not. It resembles a love story because Nabokov created Humbert, an unreliable narrator who wants to seduce you, the reader; to convince you of a false reality. You can always count on a murderer for a fancy prose style. Would you prefer a comfortable lie or an uncomfortable truth? What are you not seeing? Not everything is what it seems.

This post was way longer than I expected. I have successfully procrastinated. Some threads deviate more than others and I'm sorry if there are formatting issues...but let me know your thoughts!

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2024.06.05 06:03 cooperseggs Mother of the bride tries to seduce groom but backfires in her face

Hi Charlotte! Huge fan, love the new Reddit page and love reading the never ending tea that my fellow potatoes have to offer! Now onto the tea that I am here to share....
About a year ago my (25m) best friend (26fm) got married to her fiancé (26m). For a bit of background my friend was an only child and grew up in a very hostile environment and was facing constant judgement from her mother. Her mother was very vain and was what she called “the absolute best of the best”. Her mother would constantly compare herself to my friend and would judge her, whether it was looks, grades, achievements, etc. My friend, being the absolute QUEEN she was didn’t let her mother’s constant judgement put her down in any way. She knew her goals and worked very hard in order to achieve them. Whenever she had a setback her dad was always there to comfort and support her while her mother scoffed saying how she could’ve done the same thing in a heartbeat. This behavior lead my friend to slowly distance herself from her mother over the years so that she wouldn’t have to be bombarded with her mother’s judgement. When we graduated and went to college they rarely spoke unless it was during the holidays. Fast forward a couple of years and the pandemic hit, with social distancing regulations my friend couldn’t have happier. Eventually after restrictions loosened, me, my friend,, and a few others went to a nice restaurant to chat and catch up. As dinner ended the waiter informed us that the bill had been covered by someone else. We were all shocked and confused as to who paid our bill. Turns out it was my friends coworker who was there with his friends that night and he had noticed her. She had collaborated with him on a project for the company they worked for and got to know him a bit. They exchanged numbers that night and soon they began talking more and more frequently. They began dating almost a month after that dinner and really connected with each other. They had shared many common interests and grew close and closer each day. When she introduced her boyfriend to her family everyone loved him, including her mother which was very odd considering she judged anything that came her way. She seemed to really be interested in him and would interact with him whenever she got the chance. Fortunately my friend told her boyfriend about her mother’s past judgement, so when her mom began running her mouth about how perfect of a woman she was her boyfriend had mentally prepared himself. My friend would eventually get engaged and when she broke the news to her mother, again surprisingly she was thrilled. My friend invited me to be the “Man of honor” to which I gladly accepted. Throughout the wedding planning her mom was very critical of my friends choices for the wedding, as if it was her own. To her mom it was either the color scheme was tacky, the seating chart was botched, even the roles in the wedding were all wrong. Nothing ever seemed to be up to her standards. Even when my friend was trying on wedding dresses, her mom had something to say about each one. One dress she commented on she said that the dress would look better on her than on my friend because it was meant for a much more appealing woman. OH HELL NO!! I was fed up with her to the point that I asked her if anything “appealing” would ever come out of her mouth because me and everyone else were done listening to her bull crap. She backed off finally after she received many death stares and side eyes. My friend found a dress that looked absolutely amazing on her and right then and there she knew that it was the one. Fast forward to wedding and everything is in place and people begin to file in for the ceremony. Note that the color scheme for the wedding was ocean blue and turquoise. My friends mother shows in a tight RACE CAR RED dress barley going below her hips! Nobody notices yet, so her mom takes to opportunity to ask my friends fiancé for help in another room. Minutes later everyone is wondering where the groom is, when all of a sudden someone very loudly yells for help! Me, My friends in laws, father of the bride, rush over to find the noise coming from behind a locked door. We get it unlocked to see my friends mom topless!! While trying to kiss my friends fiancé! He had called for help because my friends mom was chasing him around trying to seduce him! I was shocked, the in laws were disgusted, and my friends father was furious. My friends mom rushed to get reclothed while my friends father was screaming at her, asking what in the hell was happening. I helped the groom back to ceremony and the in laws called for security to have my friends mom removed. Well long story short she was removed while my friends father yelled to her that they were getting a divorce. The ceremony had finally begun, the groom had a smile on his face and my friends dad had calmed down. The reception was a blast, we partied, we ate, and we had the time of our lives!! After the wedding my friends husband and her father explained what had happened before the ceremony. By the time they were telling her this my friends mom had already moved in with a relative of hers. The venue had sent the father the security camera footage of my friends poor husband being chased by the topless banshee. My friend was livid, she called her mom and screamed at her for the constant judgement over the course of her life while calling her shameless before she hung up and blocked her on everything. After that her father filed for divorce, he kept everything even with the protests of my friends mom because the amount of evidence stacked against her was undeniable. Ever since then my friend and her husband have lived happily in wedded bliss. They’ve invited me and a few other people to celebrate a year of happiness and the downfall of a witch.

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2024.06.03 22:17 ThrowRAjustfriend my girlfriend had an emotional affair. 2 months post d-day. struggling with forgiveness.

my girlfriend had an emotional affair and broke up with me. i am considering reconciliation
my girlfriend and i have been together for 3 years.
i am 21 and she is 20. we have lived together basically the entire time and we have been living apart since d-day 2 months ago.
my girlfriend is a fearful avoidant partner. i can tell she loves me very much and that she cares. when we lived together, she cooked me meals everyday, she tried (and succeeded) with making me laugh, she got into my interests and music to feel closer to me, she was always so kind and sweet. she kissed me to sleep every night, held me when i cried.
i broke her trust 2 years ago when she found out about my porn addiction. i would frequently watch pornography and play interactive porn games. she was cheated on several times (7-8) by her ex-boyfriend and it has lead to a lot of insecurity within her.
i told her i would never watch it again because it bothered her so much. this was a really hard time in our relationship. she has a higher sex drive than me yet i proceeded to continue and watch it (and hide it) but she discovered it every single time that i did. we had open access to each others devices and i hid it on every single device i owned. she found it. every time.
she told me she felt she was ugly, that she felt like she wasnt enough for me. she was insecure, she felt uncared for. she told me she wasnt mad at me, she told me she was disappointed and angry that i had lied to her and hid it. she discovered it 3 times before i finally realized i was truly hurting her and stopped. she forgave me every time
she still struggles with feeling like she cannot trust me all the way. i have seen her confidence go up and down but she was never that same girl as before. but our relationship has grown stronger. it has gotten better but she tells me it still crosses her mind- but not as often as before.
around 3 months ago, she found out that her mom was at risk for post-stroke dementia. she did not take this information well and grew distant from me. combined with stress of living independently for the first time, struggles with depression, she was always open about her feelings.
she told me (before her infidelity) that she felt like i was pushing her away and that she feared the end of our relationship. she told me she felt loved by compliments and words of affirmation. she would bring this up every once in a while (once a month 3-4 months before her infidelity) and that she needed security because of her past, not because of me. these discussions would end with her sobbing, basically begging me to show that i loved her. but as a man i am afraid to open up. i avoid conflict. i kept running away, fearing to show my vulnerability. the more she begged, the stronger i felt hurt. i couldnt speak up. i didnt know what to say. i couldnt even look her in the eyes.
everytime she has opened up to me, she ends up getting so upset that she told it felt im not listening, when i was. when i would cry, she would pull me into her arms and tell me that it was okay and she wont ask anymore because it makes me upset.
i told her i couldnt give her what she wanted. she would get angry.
during these times.. even if she raised her voice a little, she would catch herself and eventually calm down, and apologize for raising her voice at me but would tell me her inner child felt triggered by my avoidance. it made me feel worse that every time i hurt her.. she had to console me. but i am just too afraid to open up. we would leave this discussion at that until she brought it up again. before her infidelity she brought the issue of her feeling insecure in our relationship frequently. i could feel her slowly drawing away, the girl i once knew slowly began to turn cold. before her infidelity. she was angry all the time.
during her infidelity, she avoided me completely. i feel like maybe a bit of this is my fault. she assures me that her infidelity was nothing on me and that it was her poor decision and that i shouldnt blame myself because i did nothing wrong.
2 months ago, i was wondering why she was acting so distant. i got on her phone and discovered she had an emotional affair with a man online. it began innocently. that night, she asked me if i wanted to drink with her. i told her no- but i would be on my computer if she decided to join me. she told me it was okay and stayed in the living room. this man flirted with her and she rejected his advances at first. he told her that he felt that he was taking advantage of a drunk her( she told him she was drunk). she began to vent to him that night. she told her she felt alone, that nobody truly loved her, and that she was so tired of fighting for the bare minimum sometimes. the man kept flirting with her that night and she rejected his advances every time. she did not speak to him for a few days but he continued to reach out to her. he complimented her every second he got. she never complimented him back but she began to send innocent selfies. he would try and seduce her and i could tell from the texts she was uncomfortable. but.. a few days later, she folded. the man and her began sexting. he would ask her for nudes and she was always hesitant and would say no. he would beg her and tell her that he would send her money. they exchanged nudes (she sent 3-4) but that was it. they never met up. (i have her location on life360, she never leaves the house without me)
i guess she found out that i found out and one night, she sat me down and told me everything. she proceeded to break up with me that night. she told me that she hurt me and she couldnt look at herself in the mirror and see a stranger. that what she did was wrong. that she felt guilty. tears streamed down her face, horror, shock. i did not say anything. i told her , “i knew this was coming” and went to bed. i left the house the next morning and have not lived with her since. the morning i left, she begged me to stay. when i told her no, that i loved her but i couldnt stay anymore. that i could never move past this. she was no longer in contact with ap and blocked him on every platform before she broke up with me. she didnt even try to hide it. this affair was in plain sight. they were in a relationship for 4 days before she broke it off. she told AP in the breakup that he meant nothing to her.
i was in shock. i was hurt, i felt less of a man for letting this happen. i felt ugly. reinforcing my insecurities.
some of this is my fault. she would ask me to help around the house and i never did. i felt attacked- and would blame her for things that she didnt do around the house to try and feel better about myself. i told her that when she raised her voice at me it was painful. now; instead of yelling, she goes quiet because “she doesnt want to hurt me” she proceed to clean the whole house herself. she begged me to compliment her and praise her like she had been doing to me for the past 3 years. everyday she would compliment me, tell me i was handsome, have sex with me whenever. she would constantly tell me she was proud of me and that i meant the world to her. every day, she complimented me all day. she gave me little handmade notes, gifts, left cute little messages on my computer for when i got home from work. she would send me nudes without me asking and i would always ignore them.
i told her that it was my fault. she would always tell me it wasnt my fault, it was hers. that she should have just gone to me for validation. she told me she was weak, she was just a horrible person.
she has began therapy and counseling. she and i talk everyday still. she kept talking to me even when i would leave her on read. for a month i wanted nothing to do with her. but, a month after no contact i reached back out to her and told her that i would want to try again in the future; just not right now. that i need to heal, and learn to forgive her. that we cant be together because i dont want to resent her. that right now, i dont want anyone else but i just need to be alone to heal. she respected my wishes and gave me space. she tells me that she will do anything to make this right.
i just dont know how to forgive her. we say good morning and goodnight every day. when i’m not busy, i get back to her whenever i can. she is constantly texting me, updating me with her day. she tells me every day how much she loves me and how much guilt and shame she feels. she tells me that the pain that she feels right now is nothing to what i am feeling. she tells me that she is hurt so badly that she hurt me. she tells me her intentions were to never hurt me; but to validate herself. she writes me paragraphs about how she is sorry and wants to fix everything. she tells me there are no excuses for her behavior and that she is doing everything she can to discover who she is and change that horrible part about herself that she had no idea even existed. she showers me with gifts, compliments, any chance she gets. she writes me poems, she writes me letters. she even hand wrote me a 300 page book on how much she loves me. this was stuff she did before her infidelity as well, so please dont take it as she is lovebombing me.
i tell her i love her everyday. i call her baby and even if its hard to text her at times, i love her with all of my heart. we meet up twice a week and go out on dates. she and i even have intercourse on the days we see each other. i can still do this because, she didnt ever fuck another guy.
she is promising me that she is trying to discover what is wrong with her and that she is working with her therapist to finally develop healthy coping skills. she has picked up into reading the bible and trying to guide herself to self-forgiveness. she is writing apologies for my friends, family, etc. (unprompted) because even if she hurt me she still hurt them as well because they trusted her too. she wants to give me my space but also fears losing me.
i worry that i wont be enough for her and that i cant give her what she needs. i feel like i am not the right man for her.
i want to be with her again one day but i dont know how to navigate my emotions. i feel i cannot trust her. but i believe that she wont do this again- but i must shield my heart for the time being.
how can i trust her? i did the same thing to her years ago (albeit in a different way, i still broke her trust in me) and she was so forgiving and helped me navigate my addiction. why wont my body let me forgive her?

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2024.06.02 23:11 First_Shop4530 How to build a straight-forward, simple, yet unique magis system?

(please keep in mind the following story i'll be talking about is a romantasy.) Now before i begin this is just something im doing for fun. I am in no means a writer nor talented at it. However, i wish to do this for myself. I came up with the ideas while watching الحشاشين (a biography about the order of the assassins, a ramadan show that came out this year) a few days ago with my mom and now it doesn't seem to want to rid itself out of my head. The plot is pretty basic and cliche but nevertheless! It's about my FMC, Astoria Valiante, who's an assassin. One day she gets a commission to kill the king of Vesperia for 1,000 silvers. Blinded by the amount of silvers, Astoria immediately accepts the commission. Now, it seems this particular commission (i know i said it a million times, bear with me) was timed perfectly with a royal ball (why did it happen? i'm not sure yet) and Astoria manages to steal an invitation from a noble. Well she tried to seduce the prince, Julius Lloyd, and succeds. Only to end up betraying him and killing the king. As i said before, this is pretty cliche, i think. I still wanna write it, though. For the magic system I've been trying to think of something that has to do with psychology but anything is fine. Any tips on how to think of a magic system or straight up suggestions would be great! Also, if you happened to read all of this (which im sure you did) and happen to have ideas for some of the missing plot points I'd appreciate those suggestions as well!!

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2024.06.02 23:01 First_Shop4530 How to create a suitable, simple magic system for my story?

Now before i begin this is just something im doing for fun. I am in no means a writer nor talented at it. However, i wish to do this for myself. I came up with the ideas while watching الحشاشين (a biography about the order of the assassins, a ramadan show that came out this year) a few days ago with my mom and now it doesn't seem to want to rid itself out of my head. The plot is pretty basic and cliche but nevertheless! It's about my FMC, Astoria Valiante, who's an assassin. One day she gets a commission to kill the king of Vesperia for 1,000 silvers. Blinded by the amount of silvers, Astoria immediately accepts the commission. Now, it seems this particular commission (i know i said it a million times, bear with me) was timed perfectly with a royal ball (why did it happen? i'm not sure yet) and Astoria manages to steal an invitation from a noble. Well she tried to seduce the prince, Julius Lloyd, and succeds. Only to end up betraying him and killing the king. As i said before, this is pretty cliche, i think. I still wanna write it, though. For the magic system I've been trying to think of something that has to do with psychology but anything is fine. Any tips on how to think of a magic system or straight up suggestions would be great! Also, if you happened to read all of this (which im sure you did) and happen to have ideas for some of the missing plot points I'd appreciate those suggestions as well!!

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2024.06.02 21:15 Odd-Mind1278 Am I a victim, or am I overthinking it?

I'm using an old unused account, but I've been contemplating this for weeks now and really need to know. I don't know how to start off a post, and I'm writing this with a hint of panic. I've seen a lot of posts on here that I relate to A LOT, but I need to know if what I directly went through is CI. I've been feeling very angry at this realization and need to know if I'm just overthinking it. I'm sorry for the lengthy post,
For starters: I'm female (16f). In my early childhood, my mom would always spread the notion about how "mother knows best", that mothers know everything, have a third sense, and that I should only trust/rely on her, this also resulted in my mother saying how she is the only one allowed to touch me in intimate places, which confused me a lot when future situations occured (I'll discuss this later). There was a lot of talk about how mothedaughter love is so special and that no one would understand it, which I think affected how I see the situation and why I'm so confused. I feel a bit guilty because I would also touch my motheother female family members chests at a very young age because I thought this was normal. Which is why I'm very conflicted, I feel like I'm at fault too.
I honestly cannot remember much from my childhood, I've dealt with a lot so I've blurred and destroyed it all. I do remember my parents going through a rough time, their relationship was rocky and this resulted in my mom sleeping in my room for awhile. I distinctly remember the amount of emotional pressure I went through, I remember constantly having to take care of my moms emotional needs, she was clearly going through a lot and was depressed. But I was really young (around 5-7 I believe) and I personally believe no child at that age should have to be tasked with comforting an adult. She'd constantly come to me complaining about whatever my father did, or what women he was talking to, but of course I didn't understand the situation and tried my best. I brushed this entire situation with how my mother often talked about how we were "best friends" but I still can't help but feel like that was a lot of pressure on such a young child.
My tween years (9-10) are when I started to really question our relationship, this was when I was really exposed to touch and nudity by my mother. I started to get really shy/embarassed about changing in front of my mother. I did not have a lock on my door (never did) so she would often just enter when I was naked and such, the first couple times about it I told her I didn't like it and I was embarassed. I often be laying down on me or my parents bed in a sleep dress that would often times slip up and show my underwear, I believed that showing underwear or being naked around that age was normal, because it's my mom, it should be fine. And a lot of those times when I'm laying down, she would fondle my butt and/or bite my buttcheeks. I ALWAYS said stop and or that I didn't like it, and she would ALWAYS say "I'm your mother, I've seen all of you, it's fine." She'd also make comments about how I should be "careful of boys" because of my butt, and how "lucky" my future partner would be. At some point I just started to laugh it off but I always felt weird about it. I think around this age (but I believe this could be earlier even, maybe until 6-9 years old) she also would "inspect" my body, basically she would count the moles on my body. This included some VERY private parts. I thought this was normal and brushed it off.
When I (12-13) started to develop and my mom would constantly make comments on my breast size, how large my chest was and also make (more) comments about my butt. Constantly I would hear about how I need to be careful from boys/men because I might seduce/attract them. And more comments about how my future partner would be very lucky. I could be sitting in my room without a bra/changing and she'd comment something along the lines of how big they were, and I would always tell her to stop. She'd also slap/squeeze/fondled/whatever you wanted to say/ my butt a lot at this age. Around this time she was really busy with work so we didn't talk much, but I started to realize she was being abusive. She'd often gaslight me and played an act that I was trying to manipulate her whenever I cried, she'd say I was shedding "crocodile tears" (she still does it) and be a HUGE hypocrite.
At 13-14 I was still changing around her, and I still thought it was normal, the touching/groping was a lot less frequent but it still occured. At this point I was very aware with how uncomfortable I was, but any attempts to tell her to stop were useless, so I simply just dealt with it. I still thought it was normal to change and be nude around her, until I was talking with a old friend of mine, she was offering to do tattoos on my back or areas that can be easily hidden under the shirt, to which I declined by saying my mom might see, she then asked "Your mom watches you change?" in a shocked/unhappy manner which made me realize it might not be as normal as I thought. It was around this time she started pushing the notion of how she (my mom) and I were best friends and how I could trust her with everything. I don't know why, but she started to be very emotional around this time, I can't name any specific incidents but I always felt like I was taking care of a toddler, and it was back to the whole "caring for an adults emotional needs" situation again.
Also around this time frame (14-15) was when my situation with her really started to get worse. I honestly felt like she was dumping all her emotional needs onto me. I have a load of mental health issues and problems, and me and my mother would ALWAYS (almost everyday) have fights regarding it. There were times where it got really heated and intense, and I would be crying, then she would tell me: "You think you have issues? I'm the one that is suffering mentally, not you. I should be crying." And would often victimize herself, sometimes I feel like she's right. But then I remember that my anger and hatred towards her would have been completely avoided had she just treated me with genuine care. I feel guilty for hating her and feeling no love, but looking at past events I can't help but feel like it makes sense why I feel this way. I felt like the actual parent in the situation was me, considering the amount of times I just gave up in the end and decided to just deal with her emotional immaturity. Lots of dumping emotional baggage and other stuff onto me, who's still (and always was) VERY young.
I just need to know if what I've gone through is CI, and that I have a right to feel upset and angry over this, and that I'm not just overthinking or overreacting. I feel ashamed and embarassed to admit all this, and I might delete this. But I just need answers.

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2024.06.02 17:55 Equal_Information761 AIW for yelling at my mom for opening my mail?

This literally just happened lol; I (16F) met a friend (18F) while working at a restaurant for a year. We’d grown very close and started hanging out outside of the workplace. I noticed my mom started to act weird when the friend had picked me up from our house for the first time. The friend is a masc lesbian and I guess my mom felt really uncomfortable with me around her because she might’ve “tried to seduce me”. I can acknowledge that my friend is attractive, but there’s never been sexual tension to a massive degree—just gal pals.
She had a celebration that she really wanted me to come to so, of course, I did. We had a really fun time and even cried together because we weren’t going to see each other as much (she’s moving). After I left, she texted me to send my address so she could send me a thank you letter. Couple days later, I received it and it was so beautiful and thoughtful so I texted her back and thanked her. I set the letter back up on my bookshelf as a decoration and kinda forgot about it.
Later in the week, I find out that my mom had gone into my room, took the letter, read it, and posted it to her fucking facebook story. There was nothing to hide in the letter, but it felt so humiliating. The fact that she read it in a teasing tone too made it so much worse. In the letter, my friend was saying how much she loved me, how good of a friend I was to her, my kindness, etc., and I felt exposed and so, so angry. I cry when I’m upset so when I barged into her room, I was flooding with tears. I don’t remember all of what I screamed, but it was a series of questions and comments like “are you fucking serious? why would you do that to me? i hate you ! :D”. I don’t hate my mom, but I strongly dislike her sometimes. And I will say, I was being a bit dramatic. But yall have to understand that my mom has always pushed my boundaries like this; she’d have to have known I’d come to a breaking point like this eventually.
So let me know! AIW for yelling at my mom for opening my mail?

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2024.06.02 01:41 Current_Potential_67 PLEASE HELP

What I know is that in one scene these two girls live in a remote woods away from anyone and they find an injured boy in the woods. I guess he was camping near their home. I think it’s set in a world overtaken by some infection or disease and the girls were wearing masks. They asked if who he was and if he was infected. In another scene one of the girls tries to seduce him. I think their mom is skeptical of him, And the boy is being hunted down or chased by outsiders. I’m trying so hard but I can’t find it

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2024.05.30 12:02 francisdejesus123 My collection

Small but getting there.

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