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Hey Guys,
I saw a lot of posts regarding VR and ROG Ally Z1E but I wanted to ask something more specific regarding that topic.
I love to play BeatSaber and bought the Z1E ROG Ally because I saw a YT Vid who shows that BeatSaber works good./playable (if VR wasn´t so much important for me I would rather buy a steam deck :-D)
I tried it with my Quest 2 and Virtual Desktop but when I start a map I have a lot of stutters and drops. So, firs I bought a dock for wired connection to my router. I didn´t tried it, yet if it works better now but I wanted to know do you have some tricks and tweaks for me what to set for to improve the performance? For example how many VRAM shall I set for VR Gaming? Any specific settings in Virtual Desktop or SteamVR that you recommend?
Any recommendations and help is highly appreciated because I think that these devices are great and I want to use the whole performance of it.
Thank you in advance.

Hey all, I'm looking at a esp32 as a potential tool for cooler monitoring.
Im a technician for a microbrewery, we have coolers that go out to bars that serve our product. 80% of my job is figuring out why beers are not pouring well, 90% of that issue is temprature related or there's no power.
No power? No cooling.
So I'm looking to install a esp32 with LoRa (some of the places don't have WiFi, for example, festivals, street parties, and other pop up events)
I want to relay live temperature information to a mobile app or to a database I can log into via my phone while I'm on the road. It would also be nice to have the logs or a graph to view fluctuations in temprature.
Im aiming to put together one unit as a prof of concept and see how it works out.
Can anyone reccomend a board, what would be needed for said project and maybe any advice that I might need?
Many thanks. If it works out, I owe you guys a beer 🍻😁

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Well, it will be my second post so I listed it to summarize it and not lengthen it. 1) I, a young adult of (19) gastronomy student, finished high school in 2021, I chose this profession for some reasons because it was to my liking, since my childhood and to not fall under the pressure of my parents, for time. . choose. a race 2) Even though this career has a 2-3 year stimulus, I have not been able to get used to my group and student environment, I am too quiet and reserved, which made my classmates ignore me and they were fine with that until this moment . moment . it happened to me. It affected me since they separated me in class issues, and I left the educational centers, the worst thing is that I repeat this pattern in this period 2022-2024, I went through 4 educational centers 3) I am going through my 4th educational center and I see that a problem has arisen, unlike the others, regarding the issue of treatment, my colleagues refer to me with strong adjectives towards me, that is not all, a Chef instructor Also the last time I felt humiliated by that cheff instructor was at a showcase where the guy literally "explained" to the other instructors that he was eventually shy and new to the experience, but didn't wait to get to the classroom to insult me ​​and encourage others to do so, many times I consider myself a person who is sensitive to what they say to me, the problem is 4) I don't want my parents to find out, either because of the problem that may arise with the instructor or the Study Center. 5) Although to be honest something tells me to leave the place because of the harassment, although to a certain extent it bothers me to go through a Fifth institution, but I can't find a place where I feel comfortable, I simply accept. . In academic matters I have an average of 16/20, a good scale in my country. 6) There are times when I wonder why this happens to me, I don't sleep thinking about how long I'm going to last doing it, saying it but it's difficult Yesterday, I decided to skip classes discreetly, especially so as not to see the face of that instructor and my classmates. I know that some say why you don't defend yourself from insults to my classmates, because I don't do it for him. The fact that I don't want to fall as low as a person like them, and I keep the issue of the instructor to myself, I don't want my parents to find out, although I don't know how long I'll last.

I'm not sure if incels are a very outlandish concept here in SG. I'm not proud of being an incel and I never thought that I would become one. However, I do believe that one day I will get past this phase.
For context, I think I have it slightly better than most incels. I'd say my face looks below average, but I'm a lot taller than the average guy in SG, slightly above 190cm, am decently well built since I've been hitting the gym for over a year, am financially stable thanks to my savings, side income and family background.
So you must be thinking: I have everything a 23 year old could want in life. I ORDed around a month ago, I'm currently taking a few months to consider my future job and am figuring out how to expand my side businesses that I've been running for awhile. I'm free, I drive a nice Porsche (Dads 3rd vehicle so it's not mine), have money to do and buy whatever I please, am genetically advantaged in height and body build. Why would I become an incel?
Every guy my age is going to uni, where they get to make many new friends, experience the hall/uni life, talk to other girls. If not, almost every guy has a friend group that has a girl inside. Even if they don't, one of the friend in the group would have a friend that is a girl, and through him you'd be able to have mutuals etc. I have close to zero exposure with the outside world. It's not that I don't want to go out, it's that I don't have reason to. The only times I go out are to gym, have supper alone, pump petrol. I am on 3 different dating apps, at one point 5. I'll get to that in a second.
You know sometimes you see someone attractive, you'd glace at them? Throughout my life, even up till now, I've never caught a girl giving me attention. Which leads me to the incel mindset.
Think about it. I've seen girls on social media and in public sometimes. Most of them date guys that are either super handsome with thick eyebrows, tall and huge, clear skin, good fashion sense. You do occasionally see some girls date guys that are average or even below average looking, but the harsh truth is that the girls themselves aren't very attractive. I know I'm a hypocrite.
Girls don't want guys that treat them well or give them attention. For some reason, girls only like guys that don't know that they exist or treat them like trash. If an average looking guy kept giving a girl attention and tried chasing her, do you really think she'd fall for him if there's a good looking guy that she likes but doesn't like her back? In SG, girls can choose whoever they want, I don't know why. Guys will fall for you if you're even remotely attractive and if you spend enough time with him. Chances are, and a girl uses this to her advantage, the better looking guy will fall for her if she gives him attention. So she chooses to friendzone the average looking guy and take a chance at dating the better looking guy, because she knows that there is a high chance that he'd start to fall for her.
There's this saying where 80% of girls go for the top 10% of men. I am not in that 10% because of my trash social skills with girls and average/below average face. I've been on dating apps for 3 years, and at this point I'm done with them. At first, I'd slowly swipe the girls and consider if she's really my type. But now I just spam like because the girls that I like don't like me back. I get like 1 match every 2 weeks, even being on multiple dating apps. Skill issue? Do you really think she'd swipe on me when there are better looking guys on the apps? And the fucking shittiest part is when I match with a girl that i'm interested in, I send the first message (because in sg thats how its supposed to be), and then the next morning i wake up she unmatches. In the 3 years I've been on dating apps I've gone on 0 dates. I had 2 conversations with girls that I was interested in. only for 1 to ghost me and for the other to unmatch me.
This is what I deduce from my experience with girls on dating apps and my ex. I'm financially stable, I'm tall, I'm well built. Yet I'm unable to get the attention of a girl. This is because of my face and my awkwardness/lack of ability to speak to girls because I don't have much experience. If I were good looking, the second part wouldn't matter because the girl would be the one trying to carry on the conversation. Because of this mindset, I've slowly started to resent girls because of their mindsets. Whenever I'd see a girl at my gym/in public, I start to feel a sense of hatred and sadness. I can't explain why. I don't think I'd make a bad boyfriend. All I want is to start a family and my girlfriend and I work together to build our family and our own home. But I don't have the chance, no girl would want to even give me a chance because I'm not handsome.
TLDR: Height/muscles/mannerisms don't matter, as long as your face looks good you're set.

Another Free Comic Book day has passed and another Mommy would not let her kid have a free comic.
So I thought I would tell the tales of other times when similar events occurred.
This tale begins the way all the others do. With a kid that wanting a pack of the evil Pokemon cards. As soon as the girl spotted the cards the typical mad mommy face appeared and the usual quote was quoted.
"YOU DON"T NEED THAT."
Girl said that she wanted them because they were fun.
Mommy, "You keep losing them."
So I asked the kid how she loses them. Her response was that she didn't lose them, her mother always threw them out. (I believed her)
So I asked her why she kept throwing them out to which she replied that she didn't and that her kid was a scatter brain.
I responded that I hear this all the time and that the mother does throw them out. Again I asked.
Now she retorted with the "I don't like them" reason.
Then she asked her father to buy her one, but he took one look at his wife and giggled nervously, took the pack out of her hand and tossed it on my table.
So I decided to have a little more fun. I told the mommy that today was her lucky day. It was free comic book day and the kid could take a free comic from the box on the table.
"SHE DOESN"T NEED IT."
Wow even free you won't relent. I asked the father what he thought. More nervous giggling. (Get a pair sir.) Girl thanked me for trying and mommy yelled at her for wasting her time. Mommy grabbed her by the arm so she couldn't take a book.
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Another fine parent said that she wasn't going to waste her money on this shit. I informed her that her kid could take as many of the free books from the display so she didn't have to spend a dime on the kid.
Rather than thanking me, she said that was even worse.
I basically asked her WTF (without cursing) that meant.
The kid stated that she hated that he liked comics and always was looking for an excuse not to buy them for him and I took that excuse away. As he was saying this she walked away and yelled at him to move along.
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The worst and funniest one I had was when the father and son were selecting a few age appropriate books. The mommy saw this and pulled the books out of the kids hand, yelled at the father, "I SAID NO" shredded them and slammed the pieces on the floor.
The father looked at her and stated that he said yes and the kid could have them.
She went wide eyed and yelled back for him not to defy her.
He walked back to my stand, apologized, and asked if he could have a few more. All the while she was screaming that he better not do it.
Of course I said yes and recommended that he hold on to them.
All the way down this aisle she tried to grab them. Then about halfway down he finally had enough and yelled "WTF is your problem??" and to knock it off. She didn't.
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About 15 years ago, I had to close my account with my distributor and the last time I officially did the giveaway I counted the number of parents that did this. I usually did this for the month of May as keeping the books was taking up space.
I did two markets at that time, one in PA and the other in NY.
I had 48 parents that would not let the kids have free books. 45 were the mother, 2 of the fathers blamed the mother and the third was like the guy in the first incident.
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One of the markets I used to do had a Halloween party every year. So instead of giving away candy I would give a kid a free book. Most parents did let the kid have them except for one.
When I told them the giveaway when the kid did "Trick or treat" she stated that the kid wanted candy.
Kid stated that he wanted a comic. That was better.
She told the kid. "No, you want candy"
Kid. "No, I want this."
Mother, (Well you get the picture.)
Kid. "No you want candy. Every year you steal my candy.
Mother got mad and told the kid that now he wasn't getting anything. We both knew that anyway. So he took a freebie and thanked me and the mother told me that I should be giving candy because that's what the kids really want.
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Wasn't sure where to share this but knew I has to post it somewhere as it could help someone out there that was in the same situation as me!
I had been sexually active for years with boyfriends with only one UTI (urinary track infection), I went to the doctors and that's when I learnt UTIs were a thing. A year or more later I got a new long term boyfriend and after a few months together I kept getting UTIs, I was with him for 4 years and got a UTI every 1-3 months. I was going to the doctors every time in SO much pain. I thought it was just the guy.
I got another new long term boyfriend that I've been with now for almost 3 years. Our first year together I still was getting UTIs. Crying on the toilet, passing blood, trying to get through to a doctor. I even went for full STD checks and blood tests. Got to the point I had to take antibiotics every time after sex and taking d-mannose like sweets. In the second year of our relationship my boyfriend suggested not using condoms. Although I've been on the pill for many years I didn't see having sex without a condom as an option, ever. I'd always used condoms as a form of contraception a long with the pill. We thought we'd give it ago. Over a year ago, we stopped using condoms and I haven't had a UTI since!! Isn't that crazy?? After years of pain, crying, running to the toilet, getting out of work, going to the doctors, taking who knows how many antibiotics...I just had to stop using condoms. I also realised that lube give me UTIs, I haven't used lube in ages, so many it's the lube on the condoms? I'm not sure but who cares? It worked!!!
TLDR: Over a year ago we stopped using condoms and I haven't had a UTI since!!

As someone who is anti Triple H I’d rather have someone completely different. I wish it could’ve been Rock but he’s too busy with Hollywood. We need a younger guy who has the positives of Vince without none of the negatives. Triple H is too indoctrinated into the same toxic AEW stuff of chasing workrate guys over actual stars.
I also think he’s too much like the old regime because remember Triple H and Stephanie is a huge part of the reason for the post Attitude/RA era decline of WWE.
Vince let them have way too much influence on the booking. Vince did not rule with an iron fist all of the time. If he liked you he gave you control. Remember how on Cena and Orton recommendation Mr Kennedy was axed? Or how Vince let Triple H/Cena bury so many guys? Gave guys like Triple H, Michaels and Brock everything they wanted. Yet turned around and had strict rules for his ultimate money makers Austin and Taker. So no I’m not pro Vince just because im anti Triple H.
And for reference I actually loved Triple H the wrestler. A top 5 heel all time with 2001 Austin, JBL, Hollywood Rock and NWO Hogan for sure. But as a booker Triple H is terrible in my eyes. When Rock was booking look how much better things got.

Hey guys - I recently bought myself a new Trek Checkpoint and I’ve been loving it. I do however spend 90% of my riding time on nice smooth roads, so I’m thinking I’ll invest in some road wheels. I was just wondering if anyone could give me an idea how many km/h I could expect to gain. I ride pretty leisurely at 20km/h (13mph) at the moment

Hi guys, I just did this podcast and am definitely feeling anxious about how much I rambled on about what to me seems not very helpful/disjointed/annoying? I personally can hear how anxious I was talking about this whole situation, so many things I wish I said/didn't say. Nitpicking for real, but if you give it a listen/if this is interesting to you, was me sharing my experience helpful for you? AHH SO ANXIOUS!
https://open.spotify.com/episode/0Sb8sNtVdLsGQ6A4A8mpZm?si=fd1d76ae5de24ae3

(continuation of part 2)
III. e) The Mobius FF x FFVII collaboration
Alright, back to our suspension world-hopping! Let’s visit the realm of Mobius FF, —more specifically, the collaboration between Mobius FF and FFVII—, where I found the most substantial evidence for my theory.
In case you’re unfamiliar with the Mobius FF (MFF) world and games, let’s begin with a bit of a summary of the parts relevant to us. The story takes place in a world called Palamecia, to which people from other worlds are inexplicably summoned. The vast majority of those who are brought there don’t remember anything from their worlds of origin or their lives before Palamecia except their names: these amnesiac people are called Blanks. The main character is Wol, accompanied by a guiding fairy of Palamecia named Echo. Echo knows a lot about the mechanisms of Palamecia, as she’s tied to the realm. The leader of this world is Vox, a being who manifests only as a voice. The first thing all Blanks remember before they wake in Palamecia is Vox telling them the rules of the realm. Incidentally, the crystals of the MFF world are teleportation crystals.
III. e) i. Devs’ Statements
Let’s review some of the MFF x FFVII Remake collaboration devs’ statements before diving into its story.
For both the MFF x FFVII Remake collaboration and the Remake project, Kitase took on the role of producer while Nojima supervised the screenplay and wrote the scenario. The project leader was none other than the Remake trilogy’s Hamaguchi, who told a SE interviewer the following:

“We would love for you to play the [MFF x FFVII] collaboration event as you look forward to [Remake’s] release” (“Celebration of the Overseas Release of the Steam Version and FINAL FANTASY VII REMAKE Collaboration Event”, Square Enix).

He later hints at the collaboration’s storyline:

“This collaboration is focused on Cloud, so the other characters will not make an appearance. Players will join Cloud, who has gone astray in Palamecia, on his adventures and see how the story unfolds based on his decisions. Content-wise, FINAL FANTASY VII fans will surely become fraught with emotion as events unfold in-game (laughs).”

Kitase concurs on the emotional aspect of the collaboration in the same interview:

“When it comes to the story, I seek two things– ‘mystery’ and ‘[…] emotional impact’.”

Clearly, fans of FFVII are supposed to react emotionally to the events of the collaboration. With these statements in mind to give us perspective, we can get into the plot points relevant to our analysis. MFF x FFVII Remake comes in two parts, the relevant plot points of which I will describe and analyze one at a time.
III. e) ii. Eclipse Contact
1) Fact-Finding
Part one of the MFF x FFVII Remake collaboration event is called Eclipse Contact. It came out in 2017 on Aerith’s birthday, February 7th, and its release campaign ran until March. In Eclipse Contact, Palamecia welcomes someone new: Cloud Strife appears in the realm with very little recollection of his core world of FFVII.
Cloud isn’t a Blank, since he recalls the mako reactors in Midgar upon his arrival in Palamecia, and also remembers that he was hired by Avalanche to blow them up:

“Echo: How did you end up in Palamecia?

Cloud: I… That day... I remember now. A job. I had taken a job. I was hired muscle protecting clients. They wanted to stop the reactor... We used a train to get past security... Was it at night? Something happened... Next thing I knew, I was floating through darkness. Then [I woke up here]”.

This piece of dialogue reveals that Eclipse Contact Cloud’s memories end at the very moment when Avalanche arrives at reactor 1 in OG (disk 1, chapter 1): the very beginning of the game. Consequently, Cloud does not remember anything that happened from the beginning of the OG timeline onwards.
Wol and Echo are intrigued by Cloud’s strange case: non-Blanks rarely arrive in Palamecia. The following text appears on the screen shortly after they meet:

“Perhaps he is not truly who he thinks he is.
Perhaps everything is illusory, a dream.
Only one thing is certain, that he must press on, one step at a time, toward the light that shines from the promised land.”

Just like he did in FFT’s Ivalice, Cloud feels the need to find the Promised Land in MFF x FFVII, despite the fact that he lacks memories of the OG timeline. Though Cloud doesn’t remember anything beyond the train ride to reactor 1, he does remember the Promised Land (at least somewhat). This is odd, given that in OG, Cloud didn’t learn about the Promised Land until several chapters into the game.
Wol and Echo agree to help Cloud figure out why he’s here, since there’s clearly something strange going on with his presence in Palamecia. In fact, Cloud brought Midgar’s mako reactors with him somehow, transplanting them onto the landscape of Palamecia. The group decides to bomb these reactors, following Cloud’s instincts in the hopes that it will jog his memory.
Now for my favorite part. After blowing up another reactor, the group is surprised by the appearance of a crystal. A piano rendition of Aerith’s theme begins. When Wol tries to touch the crystal, something akin to a force field rejects him. When Cloud approaches it, however, the crystal responds to his hand by flashing with light. As it begins to glow, Wol concludes that the crystal is linked to Cloud and Cloud alone. Let’s examine the resulting dialogue:

“Echo: This is the light in your memories. The light of home.

Cloud: Home? But I don’t—

Echo: If you don't remember… then your home is lost to you.

Cloud: Then my memories are gone.

Wol: Do you want to reclaim your past?

Cloud: Not interested... I am what I am now. Not what I was.

Wol: Then tell me… This light. If you can’t remember it, what does it mean to you?

Cloud: It's a warm light... I feel at peace. If this place —home— is as warm and peaceful as this light, then I want to go there.

Echo: You can't go there... Not back to the past.

Cloud: I see.

Echo: But even if you can't go back to the past, you can go forward. If you wish for it strongly enough, the crystal will show you the way. The way to a new world. The way to your Promised Land. […]

Cloud: So... Should [I] take [my] chances and make a wish to this crystal?

Wol: Go ahead. It’s your crystal.

Echo: I should warn you that once you start on this journey, there's no coming back.

Cloud: The past is the past. I want to go to a place where everything is new. I’m ready.“

What follows is a moment I call the wishing scene (13:43-14:34). Cloud closes his eyes and wishes on the crystal. It flashes, and suddenly, rainbow-colored ripples of light appear around it. Aerith’s theme is replaced by a slightly modified version of “Midgar, City of Mako”, the track that plays during the opening cutscene of Remake. You can recreate the modification by listening to “Midgar, City of Mako” from 2:00 to 2:23, then skipping to 3:00 and listening until 3:18. You may recognize the musical motif that kicks off the wishing scene as the Lifestream motif, which has become symbolic of the mysteries of the Remake trilogy, as it often plays during scenes where unexplainable plot deviations from OG occur— more specifically, deviations involving multiverse shenanigans. For instance, it plays during MOTF 4. It also plays in Rebirth after Cloud blocks masamune as Aerith is shown dying anyway.
Cloud disappears with his crystal, after which Echo speaks to Wol about Cloud’s journey:

“Echo: Each person gets the Promised Land they justly deserve, not the one they really need. If you’re a bad person, you go to a bad place. If you expect nothing, you get nothing. Even the journey there makes you look deep within yourself to find out who you really are. Cloud should be facing his own past as we speak. It’s cruel, but necessary. That battle was a long time coming”.

Apparently, at least in the context of this collaboration event, the Promised Land can be a reward or a punishment, depending on which you deserve. Echo explains that Cloud will have to face himself and his past on his way to his Promised Land. This means that the Cloud that appears in Eclipse Contact must next embark on a journey that will confront him with his past, test his mettle, and ultimately lead him to the Promised Land he justly deserves.
III. e) ii. 2) Fact Analysis
There’s a lot of vital information to dig into here, mostly provided by Echo. She claims that the crystal’s light is linked to Cloud’s memories of home; Cloud has to have known this home in the past, as it could not otherwise exist in his memories. MFF Cloud must be a post-OG Cloud. Unfortunately, Echo indicates that whatever Cloud’s home is, he’s lost both it and his memories of it. Despite this, Cloud describes his home as warm and peaceful, concluding that he wishes to find it. Though Cloud can’t return to the past, Echo tells him that if he wishes it strongly enough, the crystal can guide him toward a new world, where his home and his Promised Land exist in the future. The fact that Aerith’s theme is playing all throughout these descriptions of Cloud’s lost home, his Promised Land and the past that he can’t return to makes it extremely obvious that these concepts all point to Aerith. Aerith is Cloud’s lost home. Wherever Aerith is, that’s his Promised Land. The time spent with Aerith before her loss is the past he tragically can’t return to. You might have clocked the similarities between Eclipse Contact’s mention of Cloud’s lost home and DFF’s mention of Cloud’s lost dream: in both these titles, Cloud’s home and dream are equivalent to his Promised Land. It’s confirmed yet again that Aerith is the one Cloud hopes to return to, just like every soul returns to the Lifestream. At this juncture of my research, I was curious as to why the last thing Cloud remembers before waking in Palamecia is the run-up to the Reactor 1 bombing mission in OG (disk 1, chapter 1). This mystery will have to persist for a while longer.
The alarm bells in your head might’ve been triggered by the mention of the wishing scene’s rainbow ripple effects— and rightfully so. This visual cue has sparked passionate debate in the fandom since its appearances in Rebirth, as seen in these pictures:
Zack Choosing To Get A Cure For Cloud, Rebirth Chapter 14; Creating a New World/Timeline
Aerith Pushing Cloud Out of that World/Timeline, Remake Chapter 14
Cloud Blocking Masamune, Rebirth Chapter 14; Creating New World/Timeline
You might have read or heard that this rainbow effect signifies that a character has entered another timeline, created a portal to another timeline, created a new timeline or is being shown different timelines. Indeed, whenever the OG timeline is deviated from in a significant way, this effect appears. The pictures above present multiple examples of these shifting realities.
One might propose that the rainbow ripples in Eclipse Contact and Rebirth are unrelated because of the long period between their respective release dates. This long in-between period indeed makes it likelier that the effect was used without forethought in Eclipse Contact, forgotten over the years, and incidentally reused in Rebirth as a plot-important visual cue with no connection to Eclipse Contact. I’m inclined to disagree since the crystal is specifically described as a vessel that can take Cloud “to a new world” by Echo, which is a bit on the nose. Regardless, it’s plausible that there’s no connection. That is, it would be, if the rainbow effect didn’t show up in Remake too.
When the Whispers are finally defeated in chapter 18 of Remake, a burst of the rainbow ripple effects indicate the emergence of multiple worlds, newly freed from the restrictive clutches of fate (1:16:36-1:16:47). Shortly thereafter, Sephiroth takes Cloud to the Edge of Creation and invites him to join forces with him. Cloud refuses, and Sephiroth says the following:

“Seven seconds till the end. Time enough for you. Perhaps. But what will you do with it? Let's see.”

The question “What will you do with it?” implies that the answer is unknown, meaning Cloud is no longer bound to the OG timeline by fate: many alternate futures lay ahead. Sephiroth is telling Cloud and the audience that now, the mystery of the Remake trilogy has become “Which future will Cloud bring into existence? Which among the infinite possible timelines will his choices result in?” After pondering this aloud, Sephiroth leaves Cloud alone to consider the rainbow effects in the sky (1:19:23-1:19:36). Because they generally represent alternate or changing timelines, it’s safe to assume that the rainbow ripples here represent the myriad of possible worlds that Cloud’s actions in those seven seconds could generate. After all, Sephiroth was just talking about them, and chapter 18’s description in Remake reads as follows:

“In a world beyond, Sephiroth shows Cloud a vision of the planet seven seconds before its demise. Having strayed from the course destiny set for them, they strike out on a path towards an unknown future."

This explains why the player is shown Cloud staring at those colors in the apocalyptic sky at world’s end, directly after hearing Sephiroth’s cryptic words: those are all the alternate “unknown future” timelines ahead of him, now unravelled from fate. Amongst those rainbow ripples lies the answer to the question “What will you do with [the seven seconds]?”
Given that Remake was released in 2020 and Eclipse Contact came out in 2017, the major story elements of the Remake trilogy —including the eventuality of alternate timelines— had to have been planned out at the time of Eclipse Contact’s release: while the MFF x FFVII Remake collaboration was being made, Remake was also in production. Also recall that the collaboration event and the Remake trilogy share a codirector in Hamaguchi, a writer in Nojima and a producer in Kitase. Based on all this, it’s more than likely that the rainbow ripples in the Remake trilogy and inEclipse Contact represent the very same thing: alternate worlds and timelines. All this to say that when the rainbow effect appears around the crystal in the Eclipse Contact, it means the crystal is acting as a vessel to another world, just like Echo said.
But that’s not all Echo said: she also mentioned that this other world would take Cloud to his home, to his Promised Land. We’ve already established what that means for Cloud, what it’s meant since two whole decades at the time of Eclipse Contact’s release: this crystal will take Cloud to Aerith. So, where exactly did the crystal take Cloud? In what world can he meet Aerith again?
The music that plays during the wishing scene gives us a huge hint. As I noted before, the track playing in the background is a slightly modified version of Remake’s “Midgar, City of Mako”, which plays in the introduction cutscene of Remake. This is a musical cue that the ending of Cloud’s journey in Eclipse Contact and the very beginning of the Remake trilogy are closely related. Add the fact that the devs wanted players to experience this collaboration event before playing Remake, and it becomes undeniable: the crystal that appeared to Cloud in Palamecia —which offers to lead him to his home and Promised Land, meaning to Aerith—, took him to the world of the Remaketrilogy.
Eclipse Contact is huge. The whole crux of my theory lives and dies right here. However, we still have part two of the MFF x FFVII Remake collaboration event to analyze as well as its promotions to look into before I can drop the thesis on you, so bear with me in order to receive the most thorough analysis of all this possible! I want to give you every drop of proof I can!
III. e) ii. MFF x FFVII Remake Fatal Calling
1) Fact-Finding
Fatal Calling came out February 1 of 2018, and its release campaign ended in March. The game opens with a cutscene: Cloud is floating, seemingly unconscious, through a sparkling, green current of light. The current flows into a circle of bright, white light, surrounded by rainbow ripple effects as Cloud is driven toward and into it. An orb floats along with him. The Advent Children theme “The Promised Land” plays, a choir of mournful, aching, mutedly desperate souls engaged in a lamenting prayer. Sephiroth’s voice echoes:

“Sephiroth: It’s time. You may turn your back on the past, lock your memories away. Hide reality beneath a layer of illusion. But destiny will not die so easily. Yes. At memory’s end you may plead for it all to go away. But the past is a curse, binding your soul. It’s time. Wake to your fate. Rise to your destiny.

Cloud: (In a half-conscious grunt) Reunion…

Sephiroth: The light will lead you. Wake to your fate. Rise!”

Sephiroth’s mentions of Cloud hiding under an illusion and repressing his memories are no doubt allusions to Cloud’s past, which was complicated and darkened by Hojo’s experiments. It makes sense, then, that Cloud responds with “Reunion”. Fatal Calling indeed focuses on Cloud’s relationship to his past, his identity and Sephiroth. Everything involving Nibelheim —where everything started—, Sephiroth’s manipulation, and Hojo’s experiments are on the table. Also noteworthy if not out of place is Sephiroth’s evocation of fate.
Cloud enters a battle with Sephiroth with the help of Wol and Echo, who are surprised to see him back in Palamecia. Cloud tells them about the orb seen floating along with him in the opening cutscene: though he calls it a materia, he doesn’t know how or when he acquired it. Based on his behavior, it appears that Cloud remembers just as little about the events of OG as he did by the end of Eclipse Contact. Wol informs Cloud that whoever he heard speaking to him on his way here was probably Vox pretending to be Sephiroth.
As the group advances, Cloud recalls Midgar and decides they should go there next. At one of Midgar’s mako reactors, the group encounters Sephiroth, who speaks to himself:

“It's still not enough. This... this is but a pale imitation of the power I desire.”

Once Sephiroth has disappeared, Cloud explains what he remembers: Sephiroth was the greatest SOLDIER of all and a hero to Cloud, though Cloud can’t remember what exactly ended this admiration. As players of FFVII OG, we know the event in question is the Nibelheim incident, wherein Sephiroth slaughtered the town’s residents, including Cloud’s mother, after learning of his past. The former war hero also severely injured Tifa, whom Cloud presumed dead when he found her in the old mako reactor with a vicious slash on her chest. Cloud is agitated by the gaps in his memory, so the group resolves to follow Sephiroth for answers. When they find him again, Sephiroth causes Cloud to experience a piercing headache with the mere mention of the Reunion. They fight, but Sephiroth is too powerful— he skewers Cloud with the masamune and taunts his unconscious body:

“Sephiroth: A puppet. I won’t kill you. Not yet. Not until you know true despair.
Wol: If you want despair, we got plenty to go around. Palamecia’s full of it.
Sephiroth: Yes, this planet knows suffering. But it is not the world that was promised to me. I must go home. Tell Cloud, if he wants to see me again, he should face his memories. I will await him there, in the land of memory, where it all began. In Nibelheim.”

Sephiroth darkens Cloud’s materia, turning it black. Later, Wol explains to Cloud that Sephiroth stole the light from his materia, taking Cloud’s strength along with it.
Once Cloud has woken up, the group travels to Nibelheim to uncover the truth about Cloud’s memories. Cloud slowly gathers pieces of his past, shown to the player as titled, diary-like text written from various perspectives. Cloud learns the truth about SOLDIER, Jenova cells, Sephiroth, and what happened in Nibelheim. Let’s examine a few of these diary entries:

“A Warrior’s Tale: There's a girl in Nibelheim I think about. Warm. Cheerful. More grown-up than a child. Haven't talked to her much, but she seems nice. She's going to be leading the SOLDIERs to the mountain reactor. Maybe if I get into the survey team I'll get a chance to talk to her? Nah. She's out of my league.”

Young Cloud’s crush on Tifa is on full display! This must be a memory from his time as an infantryman accompanying Zack and Sephiroth to Nibelheim.

“Tale of the Nameless: I drift along in the mako, asleep. Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Give me a number. I… I… I am… The Reunion. The Reunion must happen.”

This entry could be taken from any one of the Nibelheim survivors’ perspectives, as they were all bathed in mako and turned into Sephiroth clones. I would venture to say this is Cloud’s perspective though, given the reference to this iconic line from OG:

“Cloud: Professor... please give me a number. Please, Professor...
Hojo: Shut up, miserable failure.” (disk 2, chapter 2).

The trio encounters Sephiroth near the old Mt. Nibel mako reactor. Because Sephiroth stole the light from his materia earlier, Cloud goes into the confrontation already drained of his strength. However, when Cloud lifts the materia in his hand, it lights up and creates rainbow ripples in the air around him, similar to those seen in Eclipse Contact and Rebirth. Cloud is healed of his injuries: he closes his eyes for a moment, wearing a peaceful expression. Sephiroth is displeased, but recovers quickly:

“Sephiroth: The guiding light… it healed you.

Wol: […] here, near the mako reactor, the materia regained its light. And your strength returned […]. [Sephiroth]’s here so he can steal the power you've stored inside that materia.

Sephiroth, with a short laugh: I have all the power I need. Cloud. What strength you’ve regained is yours. Use it to fight me. It’s time. Let’s decide this, in this land lost to despair. The prize is home. The Promised Land. There to answer the call of destiny.”

With this second evocation of fate, Sephiroth disappears.
Cloud, Wol and Echo find Sephiroth at the Northern Crater. He mocks Cloud for believing the orb in his possession is materia. Sephiroth waves a hand and his signature black and purple fog surrounds Cloud, immobilizing him. Sephiroth claims that the power Cloud regained at the Mt. Nibel reactor was Sephiroth’s all along. Now that it courses through Cloud’s veins, Sephiroth controls him. He calls Cloud his puppet and finishes with the following before the two vanish, leaving Wol and Echo alone:

“Now, let us return. Back to the Promised Land. The time of the Reunion has come.”

After Cloud finally breaks free and defeats Sephiroth with the help of Wol and Echo, the villain makes a final threat:

“Very good, Cloud. You’ve destroyed an illusion. But the time will come to abandon your illusions and face reality. Then, you will know true pain.”

Sephiroth disappears for the last time, his body surrounded by his signature dark fog and the rainbow ripples. A piano rendition of Tifa’s theme begins. Cloud’s orb rises into the air and becomes a crystal, with the same shape and glow as the one we see in Eclipse Contact. The following dialogue is illuminating:

“Cloud: I will fight. The light will lead me where I need to go.

Wol: You sure? Wasn’t that [crystal] Sephiroth’s?

Cloud: I heard Sephiroth's voice, at the end. Inside me. Whatever he put in me, it’s still in there. Someday I’ll settle that score. If I can't avoid destiny, I might as well face it head-on.

Wol: Yeah. That was quite a speech, Cloud. Surprised you made it through without laughing.

Cloud: Yeah, forget I said it. I will too.

Echo: Forgetting won’t make it go away. Even if the words fade from memory, your dream will never disappear. Not until it becomes real.“

The crystal shines as though in response.

“Echo: See? See, that's how the light of hope works. Hope can turn your dreams into reality.

Cloud: Yeah. I guess so. I might forget this world, but I won’t forget hope. And my reality, that’s for me to live.”

Tifa’s theme ends. Cloud approaches the crystal, and disappears in a beam of blinding light. Once Cloud has vanished with the crystal, Aerith’s theme begins playing. A few pale feathers with a slight orange tint (the color of MFF) float down onto the floor where he stood seconds before. The image fades to black. The credits roll, and Aerith’s theme continues all the way through.
Once both the final name in the credits and Aerith’s theme fade, we’re surprised by a sudden, troubling image: Sephiroth appears in a frightening flash, standing amidst the flames of Nibelheim. When his image fades to black, the collaboration title *“Final Fantasy VII x Mobius Final Fantasy”*appears on the screen. The FFVII title is surrounded by the 1997 meteor logo. Then, a flash of light: the titles reappear, except this time, they read “Final Fantasy VII REMAKE x Mobius Final Fantasy”. The new Remake Meteor logo replaces the 1997 version. As soon as these changes to the FFVIItitle and meteor logo occur, Aerith’s theme returns. It plays on until the game ends a few seconds later, the screen fading to black.
III. e) ii. 2) Fact Analysis
The introduction cutscene shows that MFF Cloud travelled from Eclipse Contact to Fatal Calling via Lifestream. It’s unclear how much time has passed in between, but the atemporal nature of the Lifestream makes the question irrelevant. My theory that MFF Cloud has died is corroborated by the way he’s depicted in the opening cutscene: his eyes are closed and his body is limp as the Lifestream carries him.
Eclipse Contact ended with Echo’s claim that Cloud will face his true self and confront his past while he journeys to his Promised Land. This description resembles what Cloud experienced in the OG Lifestream sequence (disk 2, chapter 8). Indeed, Fatal Calling revolves around the same topics the Lifestream sequence addresses: the truth about the Nibelheim incident, Hojo’s experiments, young Cloud’s crush on Tifa, etc. The opening cutscene shows Cloud being transported to his Promised Land and facing his past on the way there, just like Echo said he would.
Let’s now take a long detour to examine the song that plays during the opening cutscene of Fatal Calling: “The Promised Land” theme from Advent Children. The title and general subject of this song are obviously relevant to the cutscene, but there must be more to its inclusion than that. Perhaps the lyrics can help us understand its appearance in the opening cutscene of Fatal Calling. Here are the unofficial English lyrics (translated from the original Japanese lyrics by an anonymous fan and verified by me via DeepL):

“Why do we cling together?
Why do we give punishment to lesser hearts?
The planet did not forgive us
Did not forgive us
The planet did not forgive us
Did not forgive us
The pulse of veins flows through the earth
A faint, faint pulse
Of a heart drawn to death
A gentle life returns to the planet
Is it necessary to sacrifice souls?
Why do we cling together?
Why do we beg for forgiveness
In the Promised Land?” (“‘The Promised Land’ (theme)” by Final Fantasy Wiki).

The song appears to be a regretful lament of human behavior, expressed by the repetition of “Why do we […]?” questions. The behaviors listed are all typically human ones: the terms “[clinging] together” and “[giving] punishment to [the] lesser” express the uniquely human nature of tribalism and the consequences of the fear and hatred it can generate, and “[begging] for forgiveness in the Promised Land” is likely a reference to the human hypocrisy of only feeling sorry for one’s crimes when judgement day arrives. This last line describes a scenario where someone remains passive or ignorant in the face of something important, only to realize its essentiality once it’s too late. The repeated“The planet did not forgive us” lines reflect the fear of being condemned forever because of one’s mistakes, as though the planet is a deity one has sinned against. The lyric describing a pulse in the earth is obviously about the planet being alive— a reference to the Lifestream. But the pulse is faint and weak and the planet is dying, perishing because of mankind’s greed. This is an indictment of mako energy. The line “A gentle life returns to the planet” refers to an innocent’s soul returning to the Lifestream after death, while the next lyric “Is it necessary to sacrifice souls?” protests the “sacrifice” of the planet’s soul energy for mako production. In all this darkness, this song’s mention of “forgiveness in the Promised Land” leaves a modicum of hope for a better place, however meek, even though mankind might not deserve it. The song “The Promised Land” is both a lament of mankind’s ways and a plea for mercy, with religious and/or spiritual undertones. The song’s themes seem to be: the Promised Land itself, regret and shame, the sins and foolishness of mankind, the death of innocents, grief, Cetra spirituality, and a meek, quiet hope despite it all. The most interesting aspect of the song is its antithetical portrayal of death as a thing of both despair and hope, condemnation and salvation, cruelty and mercy, suffering and relief. Maybe we can glean more information about this theme’s significance in the world of FFVII if we examine the contexts in which it appears.
Importantly, the song plays in Marlene’s introductory narration of Advent Children, meaning its themes are related or similar to the film’s. I highly recommend listening and watching it again, even if you remember this iconic segment. Marlene references Aerith’s sacrifice as the image of Cloud lowering her into the water is shown. Note that Marlene says “Sadness was the price to see it end” (2:36) after we are shown Aerith’s death and her subsequent unleashing of the Lifestream (1:49-2:24): Aerith’s innocent life was sacrificed for the planet’s survival. The lyrics “A gentle life returns to the planet” and “Is it necessary to sacrifice souls?” suit Aerith’s situation quite well.
The theme also plays in Advent Children as Kadaj dies in Cloud’s arms (1:45:00-1:47:55), hearing Aerith’s gentle voice and reaching up to take her invisible hand. Here is what Aerith says to him in his dying moments as “The Promised Land” plays:

“Aerith’s voice: Kadaj?

Kadaj: Huh?

The dark sky has gone with Sephiroth. Healing rain starts falling from bright clouds. The rain no longer hurts Kadaj.

Aerith’s voice: You don’t have to hang on any longer.

Kadaj: Mother! Is that…?

Aerith’s voice: Everyone’s waiting, if you’re ready.

Kadaj nods his head slightly in acceptance. He holds out his hand, and slowly evaporates into the Lifestream. Cloud watches […]” (Advent Children).

Kadaj is brought into the Lifestream by Aerith as she provides rain from the Lifestream. All those with geostigma are healed by the rain, and Tifa feels Aerith’s presence as the party celebrates:

“Tifa, looking out at the falling rain […]: Somehow, I knew you were there. Thank you” (Advent Children).

Cloud stands in the rain with a smile —his first in the whole film—, closes his eyes and basks in Aerith’s healing with his face upturned. He is finally at peace:

“Cloud’s expression is one of peace as the [Lifestream] rain patters against him” (Final Fantasy VII Advent Children English script, “[83] Atop the Shinra Building”).

One thing is clear: the track “The Promised Land” accompanies Aerith. It only makes sense, since we’ve seen overwhelming evidence that she is Cloud’s Promised Land, and since she occupies the Lifestream —which some consider the Promised Land as it is where souls go after death— during the events of Advent Children. Note that when the piece plays, Cloud is shown either mourning Aerith and releasing her into the river at the Cetra capital, or basking in her presence, smiling with relief at the peaceful feeling that she’s somewhere near: these two opposing scenes reflect the song’s antithetical portrayal of death.
Additionally, the song’s themes of regret, shame concerning one’s sins and a small hope perfectly describe Cloud’s character arc and feelings in Advent Children. Cloud regrets his inability to save Aerith, which he considers a sin. Further, he only realized how important she is to him once it was too late to tell her. And of course, he harbors a fragile yet important hope that he’ll be reunited with her in the Promised Land:

“‘Can sins ever be forgiven?’ — Cloud asks this to Vincent, who mutters a brief answer. For both of them, ‘I couldn't protect my loved one’ is the sense of guilt that they carry, so their words resonate with weight” (FFVII 10th Anniversary Ultimania Revised Edition, “Chapter 2: Character in FFVIIWorld”, “Vincent Valentine”, “In Advent Children”, page 72).

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"’It is my sin that I couldn't protect my loved one’ — under this assumption, Cloud closes off his heart. What will the reunion with Aerith bring him? ‘I... think I want to be forgiven. Yeah, I just want to be forgiven’” (FFVII 10th Anniversary Ultimania Revised Edition, “Chapter 2: Character in FFVIIWorld”, “Cloud Strife”, “In Advent Children”, page 40).

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“Cloud, after seeing Aerith’s hand reach for him through the Lifestream: … I think I'm beginning to understand.
Tifa: What?

Cloud: An answer from the Planet… the Promised Land... I think I can meet her... there” (disk 3, chapter 3).

Just as the song and Marlene express in the introduction of the film, Aerith was innocent, and her sacrifice generated great grief. Cloud finally experiences peace when he feels her presence in the healing rain, and he smiles: he’s glad to be with her again, even if it’s only for a brief moment of tangential respite.
The scene depicts Aerith guiding Kadaj into the Lifestream as the song plays, tying her to the concept and theme song of the Promised Land once more. This connection is later solidified by Tifa’s thanks to the late flower girl. All of this evidence shows us that this musical theme is intimately linked to Aerith, as it never plays in her absence. After all, the song speaks of sins, the death of innocents, forgiveness, grief, a small sense of hope, regret and the afterlife: all themes relevant to Cloud’s feelings surrounding Aerith’s death in and outside of Advent Children.
The Remake OST also includes a version of this piece called “The Promised Land - Cycle of Life”. This iteration of the theme begins playing in the wake of the first bombing mission, right after Sephiroth taunts Cloud with his mother’s dying words in Sector 8 (chapter 2). Sephiroth appears to Cloud surrounded by flames, evoking the Nibelheim massacre, and the theme begins playing in the background once he disappears, continuing (13:17-15:30) as Cloud walks through the sector, encountering fires and destruction all around him. This version of the Promised Land theme is meant to emphasize the deaths of the innocent Nibelheim townsfolk and the innocents in Sector 8. This dreadful atmosphere is amplified by the cries of despair that ring all around as Cloud passes by NPC Sector 8 residents. Perhaps the themes of tribalism and mankind’s sin are relevant to this scene as well, since Shinra and Avalanche are two distinct and warring groups whose quarrels, regardless of their necessity, result in the deaths of innocents. The theme of guilt also emerges, reflecting the Avalanche members’ feelings upon seeing the unintended collateral damage of the explosion. “The Promised Land - Cycle of Life” plays until Cloud encounters Aerith on Loveless. So it seems in this scenario, the heavy weight of death and despair is lifted when Cloud meets the lively, cheery Aerith. Once more, Aerith is central to the musical theme of the Promised Land, as well as to the concept itself.
I also noticed that a version of the song plays as Cloud and the party ready to enter the Forgotten Capital to save Aerith in Rebirth’s chapter 14: it truly adds the weight of her upcoming death to the scene.
Back to Fatal Calling, the scene where Cloud regains his strength is quite mysterious. Wol says Cloud’s orb regained its “guiding light” light because of its proximity to the mako reactor. In the moment his strength is replenished, Cloud is shown tilting his head back and closing his eyes: this is reminiscent of the scene in Advent Children when he stands under Aerith’s healing Lifestream rain, feeling at peace. The rainbow ripples shining from the orb indicate that something is crossing the boundaries of worlds. Since the mako reactor pumps up the Lifestream, being near a reactor also means being physically near the Lifestream. This means Aerith’s spirit is within proximity. In my opinion, Aerith was able to heal Cloud from the Lifestream, just like in Advent Children. However, Aerith is not in Palamecia with him: her healing had to travel there through the Lifestream, transcending the boundaries of worlds, hence the rainbow ripples.
Let’s now address the appearance of Tifa’s character theme in Fatal Calling. Since Fatal Calling is all about discovering Cloud’s past in Nibelheim and then in Hojo’s lab, it makes lots of sense for Tifa’s theme to play as the crystal appears. In OG’s Lifestream sequence (disk 2 chapter 8), she’s the one there helping Cloud sort through his past instead of Wol and Echo. Cloud even picks up a piece of his childhood crush on Tifa in Fatal Calling as a shard of his memory. After all, this crush was the catalyst for him joining SOLDIER, and everything that transpired in consequence:

“Cloud: That was the first time I heard about Sephiroth. If I got strong like Sephiroth, then everyone might... If I could just get stronger... Then even Tifa would have to notice me” (FFVII OG, disk 2, chapter 8).

Additionally, it’s fitting that her theme should begin right after Sephiroth speaks of “[abandoning] your illusions and [facing] reality”, considering that Cloud’s false persona was concocted by Jenova using Tifa’s mistaken impressions of Cloud:

“While being tended to by a station worker in the Sector 7 Slum train station, [Cloud] was reunited with Tifa, and using the abilities of Jenova’s cells, formed a new personality” (FFVII 10th Anniversary Ultimania Revised Edition, “Chapter 2: Character in FFVII World, “Cloud Strife”, “Cloud Behavior Record, Compilation of FFVII”, page 40).

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“(Image caption:) A new personality takes shape the moment he sees Tifa” (FFVII Story Playback, “Story Check: Tifa’s Flashback”).

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“Tifa (to Cloud): Deep down, you're a pretty nice guy. Didn't see it when we were kids, but...” (Remake, chapter 14).

I'm a 16-almost-17-year-old boy and I feel like a weirdo. I don't like parties, smoking, drinking, or social media. I know all about the saying 'You're young, it will come, don't rush it.' I've never had a partner, and I could say that I've tried several times, but it's just not happening. I've never been as concerned about it as I am lately, mainly because almost everyone in my social group has a partner.
I've tried to pursue a girl once, and she told me she saw me as a friend. I don't care about it anymore. But seeing so many people together, so many couples having a good time, people talking about how wonderful it is to have a partner, it makes me think, am I alone? Why are so many people together and not me? Maybe I'm lesser or there's no one interested in me?
I've received positive comments from friends and girls in general. They say it's very different talking to me compared to other guys, that I'm a bit more mature, that I actually listen to them. I suppose... that's a good thing?
I heard a saying, 'Good guys finish last.' I don't know if it's true, but it doesn't concern me as much as it seems. I would really like to be with someone, but I see less and less love, less affection, and appreciation for the other person. What I see is physical attraction, focus on someone's status. I read and research a lot about the human mind, especially during adolescence, and the aforementioned behavior is normal. But as I said, it concerns me less. I'm in exams and I only think about finishing to go on vacation, starting at a gym, working on a project I have planned, and thinking about others that are on the way.
So, in conclusion? Am I weird for not having a partner? Am I less of a man for not attracting girls?

sorry for novel i wrote- i get carried away sometimes. if you do read this, thank you
So i’ve known that i have DID ever since working with my therapist and getting diagnosed by her late 2023. I have all of the symptoms, amnesia, others in my head with different preferences, being blurry, derealization and depersonalization, etc. (i’m seriously dumbing down the entire plethora of symptoms but you guys get the point)
but sometimes i read other system’s experiences and i feel a little out of place. like i don’t fit in because i can’t fully relate. i think it’s mostly insecurity about us not being a “real” system (although obviously there’s no guidelines on how to be the perfect system), and it makes me feel like i’m an outcast? that’s not the right word im looking for but it’s a similar feeling.
i have parts/alters/headmates/buddies- whatever you want to call them. but i don’t have fictives, i thought i didn’t have gatekeepers for a while and when they come out in therapy to talk we feel like we’re faking because it feels like i (current host) is partially conscious for it, but immediately after the session and we switch back to me being in control, i don’t remember the parts of the session with the gatekeepers, and then the rest of the week we just remember little bits and pieces.
i feel like there are lots of little tiny instances of things occurring that are so nuanced, no one else in the DID/OSDD community could relate to, although i know we’re just psyching ourselves out about it.
i don’t fully understand how two alters (or more) could be in a relationship with each other if they’re in the same body. i don’t think it’s wrong at all, but since i haven’t experienced it i don’t understand it no matter how many posts i look at to have it explained. same thing with fictives. i know what they are, and how an alter like that can manifest, but i don’t understand how a fictive couldn’t understand that they’re not in the universe their source material is from- again, because i haven’t experienced it myself.
i see some systems who have alters that are stuck in time- like 2014 or 1999, and end up coming back from dormancy, and get freaked out. i only had that happen once, but it wasn’t time related- we had an episode of thinking nothing was real and was traumatized by it since it was drug induced. i can’t compute how an alter might be completely unaware of something, or only “come to” after years and think it’s still the same year they left. everyone in my system (as far as i’m aware, some parts have decided not to come out yet) knows what’s up, what year we’re in, and the base-line important stuff like our age, name, state we live in, who the president is, etc. it’s just the little things that slip by some of the alters, like a conversation they had when i wasn’t fronting and i come back to the same person and i’m like “what?? i don’t remember that…” even when alters hide things from others, unless it’s a traumatic event or something like that. aside from my gatekeepers which i learned existed recently, there isn’t much we all don’t know has happened. in a academic way, it’s really fascinating, but as a person who sees others in the community experience it- it’s wild in a “wow that can happen?? what if that happens to us?!?!”
maybe it’s because we’re still so new to this and are still working on getting our entire system just stable as a baseline, that we’re just over all uncomfortable being aware we’re all here. as the host, sometimes it’s so alien to remember that i’m not alone up there, but everyone up their is “technically” still me, because they’re just fragments of my ego states. we still have trouble asking for someone to front or even respond, when other times it’s like 40 radios on different stations chattering all up in our head. sometimes we don’t even know if someone is co-fronting with me (host) or if it’s just me, OR if we’re blurry. it feels so muddy all the time and fluid that we can’t tell what’s going on half the time.
i write a lot, so i’ll end this little ramble here, but i guess i feel lost about our own symptoms and confused about when other systems we see “out in the wild” experience things we never have. i don’t necessarily feel less-than, but it feels like we’re just… not right? sorry, alexithymia makes it hard to properly describe our feelings and thoughts. feeling very jumbled at the moment.
for those who are further along in treatment and stabilizing your system, is it like this forever? are we always going to be like a paint palette that someone decided to mash all the colors together- not knowing what color is which or where it started? we’re very confused and almost embarrassed that we aren’t experiencing similar things to other systems while also afraid what we do experience is strange or out of the ordinary…

I am a survivor main but I do play killer quite often as well. When you guys play killer are you ever surprised by how many people don’t know what “red light green light” or “slug racing” is? I won’t lie I am a nice killer and i’ll get everyone to second hook and then let them free. But I find it so funny how many people i’ll down at the end and carry them all to exit gate and they just keep crawling 🤣 I just go in the corner and play sad 🤣🤣

I'm a junior engineer with a decent grasp of C++ and a good sense for linear-algebra/math/physics, and thought learning graphics programming seemed interesting (plus a friend told me that learning graphics programming and Vulkan will be really good for my CV for many companies where I live). I started this tutorial series but I'm on video 4 and its a lot. I think the guy explains things well but considering how much there is in just setting up the code I am wondering if this is really the best way to start learning.
I started googling and saw some say it is best starting with Vulkan, others said it is better to start with OpenGL, some said OpenGL but only if it is modern OpenGL and nothing outdated (which I wouldn't know the difference of as a graphics beginner), and some said to start with something else like DirectX.
Now I'm not complaining, and I am willing to put in the work. I just don't know the best way to start learning Vulkan and graphics programming. Could you give me some advice on where I should begin? Should I push through with Vulkan or should I learn something else first? And do you have a good suggestion for where to start ie a good tutorial regardless of answer?
As I said, I am a bit confused on where to start, as some have said https://vulkan-tutorial.com is a great start while others have said it is outdated and https://www.vkguide.dev is better.

i’m trying to buy legitimately my dream car on facebook marketplace. the guy seems really cool and the car is in really good condition. i am fully aware that buying cars online, he could sell it before im financially ready or for whatever reason i can miss out. i’m prepared for that possibility but i am also trying to do whatever i can to make sure i dont miss out.
i dont have a very good pick of influences in my life to go to with these questions so i’m honestly pretty desperate, but anyways here goes.
hes asking for 8k for a 97 honda del sol. its got fancy parts added and an underglow kit and its really good quality. i will need a loan but i can save up most within a few months and he said if i can get a timeline he will hold the car for me.
i told him around 6 months but i can save up around 4k in around 3-4 months (the extra 2-3 would give me a buffer for hour changes and paycheck fluctuation) and id either have to take out a loan or he said we could do payments.
my main question is, i’m trying to be honest without sharing too many details so A- would it be too much of a pushover move to say i understand if my timeline doesnt work for him and B- would it make me appear like a slacketoo poor if i were to mention needing a loan
i’m 21 and this would be my first big purchase on my own but seeing as im already so motivated to be able to get this car i i think its the push i needed to get out and be more independent.
so if anyone can give me advice or tips on how to go about this i would greatly appreciate it.

Hi guys! I've been enjoying this watch for a few weeks now and sometimes I can barely get 12h of charge - how many times do you recon should I wind it? I do 40+ turners, do you think they are enough or that I may have a problem to the mainspring? Thank you!!

I (19m) am insecure about a lot of things,the first one is my height ,I am just 5'5 ,you could say my body did not grow after the seventh grade,I have really short arms ,feminine fingers and surprise surprise little pp. also I am ugly .Now these are not the worst parts, If I had to just live with myself maybe I would have made my peace,but lets be real I am going to get married to some girl,now here is where the problem begins. I took a drop for jee this year but still I am getting 91 percentile, I might get into some lower nits or go to some private engg college if i want cs. So the problem is I cant get the thought that my future wife is going to get railed by multiple dudes , while I have and will spend the rest of my 20s working for my career,if I work hard through my college years ,grind all those 4 years and secure a high paying job,who am I going to do it for,some chick who is sucking dick right now ,making out in public bathrooms and hooking up with strangers, It is easy to say that no seal no deal but lets be real what are you going to say to a 28 yold women that why is she not a virgin? are you going to ask her body count in an arranged marriage when they leave you for 5 mins to talk?are you going to say to your parents get me a younger girl so might be she would be a virgin?All the grind that I did was for some women's 30s?
I just get really depressed when I think about it,If I go to the gym it is not going to increase my height,i will only put on a little muscle and the look like short bull. I worked this hard , so many sacrifices and what do I get from god. I know I am not an attractive person ,so if a girl marries me,she would be only be doing if for money, like she whored around in her 20s but now need to settle down so here i come. I will never be loved for what I am ,and I know you would be laughing by know but mann this hurts , it hurts like hell. The best I can pray for that she does not cheats on me or files for divorce and takes half my stuff away. Like I want to know from you guys, all those insta reels with link in bio of indian girls getting railed don't you wonder that ,that gurl might be your future wife ( i am not into any cuck stuff) like what if you married her and after six moths you found a video of her and her ex, I keep getting crazy about these imaginatory scenarios .
I know I am in the wrong here , She loved a guy and had sex with him,big deal, but the thought that the first time we have sex ,she is going to think about all those dudes who were better than me, there is going to comparison and i am going to fail just like i fail myself everytime. How I am going to love such a women and have kids with her?? I know for a fact the the first time i have a child i am going to think about am i the father,that is the level of paranoia that i have. Please help me , every day I wnt to kill myself ,I cant live more like this loser, I don't want to be that dude in the porn movies, Some of you might be laughing at me right now but I don't know what to do, I have cried multiple times while writing this. I sometime think that i will never marry but what sort of life it would earn and fuck prostitutes..Why did god made me this way why,why is there so injustice ,what sin have i committed to deserve this? PLease help me out of this misery

I finished uni last year in a degree that specialised things like UX/UI/CX/web design/data visualisation, JavaScript and product design but the only problem is tech market and economy no one is hiring in my country, my mental health wasn’t great last year so I didn’t apply much and I went travelling early this year. Everywhere is being hit even my brother may be laid off as a consultant in a smaller company. I did have a final interview with a company the other day I’m hoping I get but it’s a graduate program and I wouldn’t start until February. If I do get rejected idk what I’ll do I’ve seen people who interned at major tech companies are also struggling to find a job and the market apparently might not improve until next year. I’m currently feeling like a failure I’m living at home but I’m getting $800 a fortnight from the government which is alright so I’m saving some in my bank. Everywhere wants experience even internships want 1 year experience . I have a mentor who’s given me recruiters to reach out ti. I’ve been told my industry is hard to break into and saturated which sucks
Before I started my degree it had a really high rate of employability and there were so many jobs then I graduated at one of the worst times, I know a girl from my degree who’s been looking for a job for 2 years in the industry
I have a portfolio and a resume which I’ve been told both are good and I’ve done things like designathons and contributed to VR research as part of a phd study all I lack is industry experience I’ve been told by people in the industry all my other stuff looks good
So far I’ve only been exploited by businesses that lied to me, one guy even said he wasn’t exploiting me when he was because he said he’s not paying me he wants me to get experience and work 10 hour days for free which is illegal in my country, he also lied about the role. I also worked with a guy that wanted me to be at senior level and I was the only designer there and it was just him and me.
The market is so bad that there’s a company who keeps posting jobs for unpaid work and ask for years of experience for a remote only position and their company has been running for 5 years with no website/posts on linkeldn and the ceo doesn’t even know what his idea is and has nothing to show for it in 5 years. So it’s being run illegally
I’m looking for
customer experience roles, customer support, product expert roles, digital design, product design, CX design, UX/UI roles but there’s nothing or they want experience
Or any other fields I can look into with a degree?
So what job can I do in the meantime? I did after school coding teaching and holiday camp coding teaching but the after school work is only 1 hour and holiday camp was only the school holidays so not much of an income. I’ve previously worked in hospitality but I struggle due to a slight disability where my hands are really shaky. I’ve also done retail for years but I got harassed so much by customers. So does anyone have any other suggestions I was considering swim instructor or something. Thanks! Who knows how long it’ll take to get a job I’m losing hope because of how bad the market is while my siblings have jobs, may take another year then what do I do? Go back to uni and get more debt to change careers?
I’m feeling like a failure at 24 when others have careers and I can’t even start my career I feel like I chose the wrong industry. Hopefully I land the job I think I find out next week

prior to this post may post pa ako tungkol kay guy
this - https://www.reddit.com/OffMyChestPH/s/LdBK3YlU1f
LONG STORY POST (sorry)
natatawa ako. nalulungkot. naiinis— hindi ko alam anong mafifeel ko actually, kung kailan tinapos ko na lahat tsaka naka-buo!
so, siya pa nagtanong last time kung dinatnan na daw ba ako kasi kung hindi bibili na siya ng pregnancy test. tapos napaisip at napabilang nga ako, tangina. oo nga. parang isang buwan na akong hindi nagkaka mens. tapos right after nag PT na ako lahat faint line, 6 PTs yun pero may isang medyo malinaw na 2 lines tapos the rest faint lines na. nagpa book na din ako sa GP and refered me to do a ultrasound which is hindi pa ako nakakapag pa book due to 6 days ang work ko and supeeeer busy. ini insist naman niyang samahan niya ako and siya na mag book but kako ako na bahala sa lahat.
nung sinabi ko sakanya to, galit ako. minessage ko siya ng sobrang haba nanaman at masasakit na words lol. na kako pagod na akong maging parausan niya kung yun man intention niya at kung hindi niya makita worth ko i said leave me fucking alone, find someone and get a bitch he'll going to mess with! lol
eto ang reply niya na paisa isang text haha — "I never think that you will think like that. Thats horrible way of thinking i never want any side chicks. Believe me i loved you and it is still there because i told my sis too about u that how you took care of me. Fucking you are rude. How many times you attempt to falsely make me a bad person? I never underestimate you but you do a lot to me. you are a short tempered person!"
after niyan tumatawag siya but hindi ko sinasagot at blinock ko. pati sa whatsapp umabot siya na kausapin ko daw siya hindi ko din nirereplyan then kagabi, nagutom kasi ako pag-uwi nag toast ako ng bread tapos sabi niya "why don't you want to atleast communicate?" kako "what for?" sabi niya ang tigas daw ng ulo ko. tapos sabi ko "you know my last resort is to go back in the philippines." sabi niya "no. you can't take the baby like that, i will come with you if ever." which is sinabi niya ulit kaninang umaga. kako impossible, kasi ang ganda ng trabahong iiwan niya dito. engineer siya dito tas iiwan niya? no way. sabi pa niya happy daw siya if ever man, tapos hahanap na daw siya ng house for us to rent ng kami lang. ang sabi ko sakanya "i don't want you to decide such things just because this situation happened. i am fine, you don't have to worry cos i can handle things." sabi niya lang "no."
ayun, nag-usap ulit kami kaninang umaga, at siya pa mismo nag iinsist ng conversation. sabi niya saakin ulit kung gusto ko daw ba magpasama sa doctor humindi ulit ako. and based on him feeling ko for citizenship na yung papers niya kaya sabi niya kailangan niya pang mag work ng 2 years for visa conditions and all good na siya kaso daw, hindi nga daw planned tong nangyari kaya hindi kami ready financially and emotionally. kako sakanya, naiiyak ko na to lahat. na inexpect ko ng magiging single mom ako, tinanggap ko na yung fate ko, nag desisyon na akong kaya ko to dahil may trabaho naman ako at sinabi ko nga din sakanya sa msg before na kahit kailan hindi ko kailangan ng support at kahit anong tulong niya.
panay ang text, kamusta daw pakiramdam ko, gusto ko daw ba dalhan ako ng food, uminom ng madaming tubig, wag masyado maglalalakad and such. ngayon pa siya nag gaganito kung kailan pawala na yung pagmamahal ko sakanya. ako ngayon ang cold at petty saaming dalawa. hindi ko din alam. sa pamilya ko walang nakaka alam ng sitwasyon ko ngayon for sure madi-disappoint sila saakin though right age to marry and build a family naman na din ako pero hindi lang nila din ine expect kung sakali na hindi pala ako mag eend up sa ex fiancé ko. (which is different story to tell lol)
to be honest hindi pa din nag sisink in saakin mga nangyayari ngayon, basta lagi lang akong nahihilo malalang cravings and bugnutin. wala akong magather na thoughts ngayon, sobrang blangko ko.
matalino naman ako, may magandang work, hindi naman ako chaka, pero bakit pagdating sa pag-ibig sobrang bobo ko? sobrang bobo sa totoo lang.

I finished uni last year in a degree that specialised things like UX/UI/CX/web design/data visualisation, JavaScript and product design but the only problem is tech market and economy no one is hiring in my country, my mental health wasn’t great last year so I didn’t apply much and I went travelling early this year. Everywhere is being hit even my brother may be laid off as a consultant in a smaller company. I did have a final interview with a company the other day I’m hoping I get but it’s a graduate program and I wouldn’t start until February. If I do get rejected idk what I’ll do I’ve seen people who interned at major tech companies are also struggling to find a job and the market apparently might not improve until next year. I’m currently feeling like a failure I’m living at home but I’m getting $800 a fortnight from the government which is alright so I’m saving some in my bank. Everywhere wants experience even internships want 1 year experience . I have a mentor who’s given me recruiters to reach out ti. I’ve been told my industry is hard to break into and saturated which sucks
Before I started my degree it had a really high rate of employability and there were so many jobs then I graduated at one of the worst times, I know a girl from my degree who’s been looking for a job for 2 years in the industry
I have a portfolio and a resume which I’ve been told both are good and I’ve done things like designathons and contributed to VR research as part of a phd study all I lack is industry experience I’ve been told by people in the industry all my other stuff looks good
So far I’ve only been exploited by businesses that lied to me, one guy even said he wasn’t exploiting me when he was because he said he’s not paying me he wants me to get experience and work 10 hour days for free which is illegal in my country, he also lied about the role. I also worked with a guy that wanted me to be at senior level and I was the only designer there and it was just him and me.
The market is so bad that there’s a company who keeps posting jobs for unpaid work and ask for years of experience for a remote only position and their company has been running for 5 years with no website/posts on linkeldn and the ceo doesn’t even know what his idea is and has nothing to show for it in 5 years. So it’s being run illegally
I’m looking for
customer experience roles, customer support, product expert roles, digital design, product design, CX design, UX/UI roles but there’s nothing or they want experience
Or any other fields I can look into with a degree?
So what job can I do in the meantime? I did after school coding teaching and holiday camp coding teaching but the after school work is only 1 hour and holiday camp was only the school holidays so not much of an income. I’ve previously worked in hospitality but I struggle due to a slight disability where my hands are really shaky. I’ve also done retail for years but I got harassed so much by customers. So does anyone have any other suggestions I was considering swim instructor or something. Thanks! Who knows how long it’ll take to get a job I’m losing hope because of how bad the market is while my siblings have jobs, may take another year then what do I do? Go back to uni and get more debt to change careers?
I’m feeling like a failure at 24 when others have careers and I can’t even start my career I feel like I chose the wrong industry. Hopefully I land the job I think I find out next week

Can you describe your experience with the word “connection” (emotional connection, human connection)?
Hi. I’m an autistic dude in my 30’s. For context, I’ve avoided interacting face to face with people pretty much my whole life. I have a really hard time with the word “connection” as it pertains to interpersonal relationships. I think the core disconnect is that I don’t think I’ve ever experienced “connection”. Or if I have, I didn’t naturally apply that name to it. I’m trying to puzzle it out because:
1) apparently women want an emotional connection in relationships/before sex. I’ve sought out dating/sex my whole adult life. The crushes that I’ve had dates with, I just felt amazing around that person. That’s as far as I understood it and then they would ghost me after 1 or 2 dates. I had no idea that what women want is an emotional connection. Now that I know that, I’m trying to figure out what the hell that actually means.
2) I need to know the actual definition of the word, because I need to know if I’m making a connection with someone. What am I supposed to feel in my body? What is supposed to actually happen? What is the other person supposed to feel or do? I can’t make progress towards being emotionally connected until I know these things. My current friendships are quite shallow (apparently), so clearly emotional connection doesn’t “just happen” for me. I need to be able to know what I’m doing and if I’m making progress so that I can correct course if I’m not doing it right, or if I am doing it right, tell myself “keep doing what you’re doing”.
I’ll start with what got me thinking about it again and then what my history with the word is.
So the other day I was hanging out with some friends and there’s one guy in the group who is dating. He apparently had been out multiple times with this girl he met on a dating app. I know I’m supposed to be happy for him, but when I hear about this sort of thing, I’m just baffled. How did he have a conversation with her over the app? What did they start with? It seems to have something to do with connection, I guess. I seemingly don’t know how to have a conversation, and that’s not something I could’ve asked him, people just look at me weird when I say something ultra-beginner like “how do I have a conversation”. It just pissed me off because this dude is recently divorced and he’s already been on multiple dates with this other woman. This is the 3rd friend I’ve had that has been divorced and started dating again, and they all get further than me in 1/10th the time! The other two friends are already re-married! Meanwhile I’ve never made it past a 2nd date. So clearly I’m missing something.
My friend was talking about said girl and ended it with “connection! That’s the important thing!” Which is what got me confused and thinking about the word.
So, from my perspective, “human connection” is a totally new idea to me. I literally never heard anyone in any capacity, whether it be online, face to face, or in media of any kind, talk about “connection”, emotional connection, or human connection. Then all of a sudden a few years ago people started saying it all the time. Not everyone, but I’ve heard it from multiple people now. Many people have said that it’s the most important thing on earth. Why is something that many people consider to be the most important thing on earth…something that wasn’t even on my radar until a few years ago? What the hell?
My confusion comes in because I can’t tell what my friend’s history with the word is. Is he just as clueless as I am, and is just using the word because they’ve heard other people say it and their best guess is that what they are experiencing is connection? Or did they experience a connection at some earlier point in their life and somehow someone was able to label it as “connection” for him? Does it somehow feel like a “connection” so people naturally apply that label? Maybe his family frequently talked about connection? That seems weird though because it seems impossible to talk about “human connection” with the people you might connect with - people seem to get really uncomfortable with it. I guess because if you don’t know what an emotional connection is, and they do, they probably don’t want to be around you.
Looking it up, the term emotional intelligence was coined in 1990. It seems like that’s around the same time “emotional connection” was coined. So….the most important thing on earth didn’t have a name until 1990? What? What did people in the 70’s say to refer to it? Did they not have connections? What did people in the 1920’s say without this term existing? I just don’t get how something so recent is supposedly so crucial to being a human and interacting with others.
Furthermore, what does it say about my life that I had only heard this term recently? I’m not thinking like “boo hoo for me, his life is better”, more like “other people have been living in an alternate reality to me where connection is very important and for some reason they never helped me with this concept, and they won’t help explain it to me now because I’m supposed to just get it. And they think this experience of connection is universal and everyone gets it.” Not understanding it seems to signal to them that I haven’t been living in their reality.
So what’s your history with the word? Did you have a “connection” with someone, and then, not having heard the word, you said to yourself “this feels like a connection!”. Or had you heard the word first and then applied it to your situation once you had a connection with someone? Do you feel as weird about it as I do, like you missed the memo that said the definition of the word and told everyone to start using it? Did your family talk about the concept when you were growing up?
I wasn’t sure where to post this, so if you have a recommendation for a sub where I can ask people that are understanding of Autism, but also has NT people on the sub, I’m all ears.