Girl friend ki bhabhi ko choda

For context, I’m dating my girlfriend for almost a year now. When we were just starting, we agreed na i-disclose everything about our pasts - mga naging ex, body count, fling, etc. I was honest naman sa side ko and sinabi lahat ng sexual experiences ko. Sa part niya naman, nagkwento rin. She made me believe na yun na lahat yun. Part ng kwento niya ay yung naka one night stand niyang classmate sa college, na workmate niya ngayon. I asked her before if naging sila ba or something, pero she assured me na one night lang talaga yun and di na nasundan. I asked sino nakakaalam, silang 2 lang daw at ako ngayon.
Bothered ako for the longest time at may kutob talaga ako na it was more than that. Why? Nakita ko pic niya nung college, 4 girls and 1 guy. So nag ask ako kung sino yung guy. Took her a while to answer. May mga pics din akong nakita na magkasama sila and the dates don’t make sense based sa kwento niya na they stopped talking na daw. Later on, inamin niya rin na yun yung guy na naka-one night stand niya after ko siyang awayin on that day (2 months of dating pa lang kami nun).
Then recently, hindi ko alam. I was at the church pero may parang bumulong lang sa akin to check again yung information na yun. Weird nga kasi ang random talaga. So when we were having dinner na, I asked her if naging honest ba siya sa buong relationship namin. She said oo naman. I asked again. Multiple times. Same answer. I even assured her na if there’s something to confess, now is the time kasi I’m giving her free pass. All I wanted was her honesty. I even specified na about sa one night stand din yung tinatanong ko.
Then I said, “okay. Since sure ka na dyan, go to your messenger, open your best friend’s convo, and type . Them boom! Many messages pointing na nagkasomething sila ng guy. She said stop na daw - invasion of privacy na. Then I asked her last time to message her best friend this - “BFF! Naalala mo ba yung one night stand namin ni ?”. Nagreply si BFF niya na “ahh oo. Nakwento mo nga. Pero di ko masyado maalala. Ano meron?”
Confirmed! Tama ang kutob ko. Then ayun na yung kwinento niya lahat na they had sex more than once. They were on and off. Magulong usapan. Etc. She was just afraid daw na baka di ko siya matanggap kasi it was a messy story. Guy was a douche and she just tolerated it.
Idk. I’m so down right now. I felt betrayed for the longest time. Di ko alam kung kaya ko pa ba siyang pagkatiwalaan. Di ko nga rin alam if valid na mafeel ko to ngayon given na di pa naman niya ako kilala when they interacted. I could accept her kung sinabi niya lahat sa una pa lang. Ang ikinagagalit ko ay yung how convincing she was when she was telling me na it was just one night stand. Kasi I totally believerd her. Nagagalit ako kasi for almost a year hindi man lang niya inamin sa akin. Hindi ba siya na guilty?
Ngayon, workmates sila pero my girlfriend is leaving na next month for another job. Di ko alam kung anong gagawin. Makikipagbreak na ba? Pagkakatiwalaan kaya ulit? Di ko talaga alam.
Give me some words of wisdom please?

Hi All, I am M(27), I am currently in Banglore and my girl ( 24 ) is in Allahabad, We were in a long-distance relationship
We had been dating for last 9 months and it was going great as well but in January end my family members started looking for a girl for me in an AM setup and I used to refuse every girl as I wanted to marry her and she was also kinda ready but never told me directly. Initially, my girl only initiated the idea of getting married as my Family members had started looking for someone and they were quite active. She told me she wanted to marry me and asked me to talk to my parents first as my parents are a bit strict about these things .
During Holi time we had a fight and it got sorted as well, After Holi, she went to her Mausi's Home for a couple of weeks with her Mummy, And she shared about me with her mausi in the hope that once the time comes she will help her to convince her family specially her mummy and papa about me as we both are from different castes ( She is OBC & I am ST ) .
I also shared about her with My Family members (Bhaiya, Didi, Jija & Bhabhi ) except Papa & Mummy ( as their thinking is still a bit old about all these especially Papa ), as they will understand and help to convince Papa, Mummy for our weddings.
But Once she came from Mausis Home She started behaving differently and things started turning bad , she starts ignoring me my texts and call I had to convince her then she told me that Mausi is saying your papa won't agree for all these and all , Intially the girl only said to me that caste won't be an issue at her home , everyone one is chill and multiple people have gone through Love Marriage setup and also she said if you are such a good guy earning enough and from a Tier-1 Enginnering college , then it would be easy to convince her family not an issue , After listening to all these , then I only got into a relationship with her then only I became serious as I never wanted anything short term or anything.
But after coming from Mausis home, after every 2 days, she was getting changed her behavior and all and she starts ignoring me and every day saying breakup again and again.
I used to do a lot of things her, I am Literally in love with her, This is the first time I fell for someone before that I was focused on my career and family responsibilities so I always avoided dating anyone. Once our family got stable then only I started dating so basically last year only I started dating and she is my first Love, She had a relationship in past for 3 or 4 years.
She was trying to break up with me again and again and I was convincing her again and again
Last month she broke up with me and cut me off fully, The Last time I cried in front of anyone was when I was in class 3 or 4th after that I never cried in front of anyone, even my grandfather whom I loved so much when he died ( I was in class 10th ), I didn't cry, I stopped my tears coming down, now after all these years I cried for her I cried in front of her on phone multiple times to not leave me alone, I was shattered, I was crying all night alone in my room no one was there to tell me or stop me, I live here in Banglore alone in a flat with my flatmates, I was in my room for 3 days straight, didn't drink water for 2 days and hadn't food for straight 3 days, I was shaking and shivering and I was getting sudden panic attacks and sudden burst of emotions, I never cried this much in my life, I was getting suicidal. after 3 or 4 days I got up and went to her hometown to convince her.
Reaching Allahabad was also painful, I wasn't getting any direct flight to Allahabad so booked for Varanasi flight from there took a bus to Allahabad and stayed there for 2 days to convince her. It was such a harsh weather that I puked multiple times in Allahabad in such a hot and sunny weather, as a person who hadn't had food for 3 or 4 days it was hard for me.
I gave her a handwritten note and a flower bouquet we had dinner and she got convinced as well and that night I accompanied her to home and I was happy, but deep down I was afraid, as again coming to Allahabad when you are not mentally and stable and a bit ill as well and you hadn't had food, sleep and all and coming all alone In hope that I will convince her, I even didn't know how to find her as she had blocked me and whether she will reply me on insta or not ? But I was happy that she was okay after meeting me and she was happy and things will be okay, next day I gave her chocolates that I had bought specially for her during my trip to Bali and we talked and had lunch together and things were fine I had plan to go on Monday but since I was not feeling well so I left on Sunday only and left for my Hometown ( Varanasi ) instead of going to banglore .
But after few days she again started behaving the same and within few days it was again came back to normal and 3 days before I came back to banlgore , she totally ignored me like I never existed at all because of that I lost my senses like I couldn't believe and had an minor accident as well because while riding the bike I was so in grief that I couldnt' control my self on a highway I almost had a near to death experience , nothing happened to me just got a minor injury nothing . I stayed for 10 days at home that time , and in last 3 days she totally cut me off and I was shattered and since I am home I couldn't cry as well 24*7 everyone used to be with me only as I was home after a long time ..
I thought before going to banglore Ill go and meet her once again but I had one important project going on so I had to leave for banglore, I was holding my tears for so long that the day I again came back , the moment I sat in the cab for my flat I started crying in the cab I was crying for straight 1.5 hours while way back to my flat , this is also a kind of first time for me crying in front of a random guy . this time I couldn't control my self I cried like a baby in front the driver , I was trying hard to hold my tears and hiding my face, the cab guy understood and he was also behaving like he is not seeing me. once I reached home I cried and cried whole night , I called here msged her she didn't picked my call didn't reply .
So for 7 days I didn't call or text her I was trying my best to be first a stable person , one day one of my friend , she said , jab itna mehant kiye hi ho to ek bar last time try kar hi lo, So I tried again and called her msgd her and but rat ko bat huyi us din to but she was same like earlier stone cold and , she is saying she lost interest in me , ab wo vibes nahi aati we are different and all , also why should I settle for less If I can get better ( her mausi's world I guess ) , she saying mummy bol rahi this kuch Acche riste hai don't worry and all and blah blah , and she in past while breaking up time also said once I was trying and I thinks its not working anymore .
that day I got devasted more, as earlier I thought because of family pressure and caste issue she is backing but this time I got her different side , I still couldn't believe I thought these are her Mummy or Mausi's word not her because the girl whom I know cannot do all these to me she is open minded and a good person and she was the one who iniated the idea for marriage and opening up to our family.
that time meri didi ka ek bat mujhe yad aaya , Didi ne mujhse bola that, ki tum usse pyar karte ho aur Shaadi karna chahte ho , kya wo bhi tumse pyaar karti hai na ?
that night again I cried and again started getting headache and panic attacks and started shivering and again suicidal thoughts started coming.
Now last week one of my friends she told me about one new caffe in Banglore to try out , so we went and we did shopping together , while coming from there she was forcing me hard to go to her flat and was saying she is alone at her place her flatmate she is not there and she was trying hard to convince me for watching Netflix series together and she was breaking the touch barrier again and again I can sense what she was implying so I kept denying not in mood and all so that I can go to my place.
so I came back to my place, and became emotional and sad as I never ever even thought of touching a girl other than her , Since the day I meet her It became so different for me, I lost interest in every girl except her I stopped talking to all other girls from my circle so that she never feel insecure and also I lost interest as well, She is the only girl whom I can think of spending my life or anything . So next day I again tried to contact her , maine call ya msg nahi kiya hota but I coudln't control this time, I cannot think of another girl anymore except her.
I wanted to talk to her , msged her in morning on Whatsapp did some texting but we couldn't talk on phone as she was busy , then again I tried to call in afternoon but no luck then again in evening and again at night time , this time I also lost my patience and maine bhi bhala bura keh diya aur gusse me as a slang gali nikal gaya ( gali uske liye nahi that wo as a slang hi nikla tha ) within a seconds we cut the call she blocked me again and I texted her use bhala bura bola and all usne bola, aaj tumne gali dekar dikha diya and I am proud of my decision and all I also said you used me to get over your ex. and blah blah some random things like you were depressed I helped you overcome this and I also don't want jo har 2 din me palat jata ho apni bat se.
the line that she said na ki, I am proud of my decision , it hurt me , sari rat yahi line meri dimag me chalta raha, I am a overthinker guy, so ye thoda jyad hi hurt kar gaya. Agle din subah maine use snapchat me msg kiya ki mere sath kuch hua tha I felt bad I thought only you would understand isliye tumko ping kiya tha convince karne nahi aaya tha. and sorry for my kal ke behaviour ke liye. bye take care. its been a week and she hasn't read that msg and and I guess unfriend bhi kar diya hai ( waise snapachat usi ke wajah se hi install kiya tha warna I hate snap )
In Past I used to write shayari and poems for her and used to tel her the lines that I used to write for her. I also used practice her favourite songs and used to sing and record and send her. In past she used to to say to me you are a perfect package, anyone would be lucky to have you , she used to say tum gym bhi jate ho , daru waru, ciggrete wagairah kuch nahi karte ho ghumne phirne ka shauk hai family responsibilities handle karte ha , itna kamane ke bad bhi attitude nahi hai , tumse aadha kamane wale ladke bhi udane lagte hai , tum perfect ho and all she used to be very happy with me , rat bhar bat karna and other plannings and everything , I was happy being single but once she came to my life I became more focussed, I still cannot belive she got changed yahi sab sochta hu to lagta hai ki ek bar phir try karu.. I love her.
Now today while talking to my sister she again asked me about her, I told her ki Didi aisa kuch nahi hai bhool jao , Did bolne lagi ki Papa mummy ko humlog mana lenge bas tum ready ho to bata do. maine saf mana to kar diya
but after that I got emotional, I thought I will write a letter and post it and will try to convince again I wrote a long 5 page letter lying right now on my bed but I don't know what to do. Please help me what should I do ?

I am 21 right now and I hate this gaali culture a lot, a lot I can't tell. Well I also tried it in 11th to look cool and gave up just in a day coz I was hating myself doing it. I was pissed when a youtuber to whom I have been following for past couple of years said that vo friend hi kya Jo gaali deke baat na kare. I know bogs will get offended but bro what gaali Dene se dosti pakki hone ka genuine logic do, yeh Mt bolna ki hm ladko me esa hi hota hai tum nhi samjhoge.
Nowadays I am seeing 3-4 year old kids cussing each other, from where they learn, from the older boys and girls who think they look cool, well if that's cool, try that infront of your parents. Is this right?
I watched vlogs of some influencers and reality shows contestants who present themselves as gentlemen but what they again do, they cuss in every second sentence. Why so, it looks cool (according to them).
I was in relationship with a boy, he used to ask me to use cussing words in regular life because apparently his other friends gfs would also do that. Well I did cuss, but to him while breaking up.
It's annoying guys. Stop doing it. It's not cool.

My sister gave up her good career from bc she was gonna start a business w/ her "best friend" who doesn't have work experiences since after grad, nagbusiness agad. After a year, medyo naging matumal kita ng business nila lately, so need nila ng funds. So my sister decided to apply for a job to support their business. Ngayon, yung business partner nya, nagalit kasi bakit raw biglang nagdesisyon bigla na babalik na sa work edi ala daw sya kasama sa business nila. Kesyo sya nga raw dinecline nya mga opportunities kuno nya (na unaware ate ko na meron daw pala) para sa business, tas yung kapatid ko daw biglang gaganon. Isara na raw yung business kung ganon tutal di naman daw kumikita at palugi na. Eh yung kapatid ko, gustong isalba kasi ang dami na nyang sacrifices and di naman din biro yung ininvest nila dun. TSAKA SA TOTOO LANG HA, yung kapatid ko halos utak nung business na yon (kung mababasa mo to, aminin mo sa sarili mo yon). Ang hiling lang nung ate ko, kung ayaw na raw talaga nung isa, eh maghire na lang ng tao at itrain nya atleast a month tsaka nya ilet go.
Edi nagmeet sila kasama parents nung both sides to know what will happen kasi sobrang ready sumalo nung nanay ko dun sa business dahil nga dream din ng kapatid ko yun. To cut the story short, ayaw na raw talaga nung isa kahit anong mangyare. Buo na raw desisyon nya.
Edi ako, inask ako nung mom ko na kung pwedeng ako muna pumalit sa ate ko sa business while nasa office kapatid ko. De go kako support lang ako. Tapos nung training week ko with my ate, kasama namin yung hinire nila. Edi tatlo kami dun na nagtuturuan, aba etong si partner biglang pumasok nang padabog, as in hinambalos yung pinto at nakabusakal yung mukha na akala mo naman talagang napakagaling. Tapos pinagdadabugan kaming lahat dun, edi ako as a sister, nagalit ako kasi nakatatlong balik dun sa pwesto nil nang nagdadabog at nagbabanta sa kapatid ko na "yung usapan natin, isang buwan". Di na ko nakapagpigil, talagang minura ko sa galit ko. Bastusin ba naman kapatid ko sa harap namin. Tas nag-eskandalo na ang gaga, bakit ko raw sya minumura, sino raw ba ko, ngayon lang raw ako nakatungtong sa business nila feeling may-ari na ko. FEELING FAMILY BUSINESS RAW. Kesyo di raw nya kailangan pera namin dahil MARAMI NAMAN SILANG PERA. Ni wala naman daw kaming natulong sa kanila. (Baka ipamukha ko sayo ko mga ininvest ng parents ko to support that business). Tas nagmumura sya lahat na ata ng mura nasabi. Kesyo nasa loob daw kulo ko (wth, girl, di kita kinakausap ever since dahil sa treatment mo sa kaptid ko). Sobrang scandalous, tipong napapatingin mga tao sa labas sa sobrang lakas ng boses nya. Tas kung anu-ano sinabi na napaka-one sided ko raw, tanga raw ba ko or nagtatanga-tangahan. Basta, wild. She has gone crazy talaga. Pinalayas ako, lumayas raw ako dun sa pwesto nila, so i did. While walking out, pinagtitinginan ako ng mga tao. It was so bad na kailangan maghalfday ng mom ko sa work bc my sister called her for help, kasi nga sobrang hysterical yung isa.
Btw nung sumugod sya sa pwesto, paiba iba statement nya, nung una diba nagbabanta na 1 month lang, tas nung naghysterical na sya, my sister calmly asked her na diba nag-usap naman daw the day before that wherein sinabi nyang ayaw na nya, tas sagot nya di pa raw yun sure, wala daw syang ganong sinabi. WTF, CRAZY!!! Also, pinalayas nya rin pala yung hinire nila, at sinabihan na sayang raw yung skill nya at wala syang mararating sa business na yon dahil pasara na raw yun. Kahit yung isang customer na papasok, pinalayas haha jusko.
Okay basta long story short, it was really bad that my whole family cried, even her mom while hearing that (imagine), bc of disbelief and the disrespect we've all went through bc of that person. Lagi nyang rason na kaya raw nya nagawa yun ay dahil minura ko sya. Ofc, pagdabugan at pagbantaan ko nanay mo sa harap mo at ng ibang tao, tignan ko kung makuha mong manahimik.
Then something happened days after that, biglang nagboost yung business. As in. Ode yung isa, g na g na ulit.
After a month from that incident, etong kapatid ko, napaka mapagpatawad naman pala. Ayun magkaibigan na uli sila habang kaming tatlo ng magulang ko parang tanga all these time. Ang akin lang, everytime na sumasagot kapatid ko sa magulang ko or kahit sakin, at the back of my mind gusto kong sabihin na "kung meron kang dapat salbahe-hin ay di kami, kundi yang kaibigan mong bulok". Imagine, your whole family have experienced the worst treatment, we've all been cursed and disrespected by that person tapos okay na pala kayo all these time. I was even mentally traumatized, even now na kwinekwento ko, nanginginig ako sa galit. Sagot naman nya, para sa business, sus bs. Nakakabadtrip talaga. I am ranting this now bc we just found out na lumabas raw sila to celebrate their employee's 1st month in their business. (the same person na pinaalis at sinabihang wag nang bumalik dahil wala syang mararating sa business na yon) Again, bs.
Di ko lubos maisip pano nya natanggap uli yung taong yun, eh napakawalanghiya nga. Sobrang tinetake for granted pa ng kapatid ko yung parents ko like minsan aadvice-an lang, nagagalit agad na akala mo namang lagi syang minamasama. Pero nung time naman na tinalikuran sya nung bs nyang kaibigan, samin rin naman sya lumapit. Di ako para manumbat pero nakakasama ng loob na di pala malala enough para sa kanya yung nangyari to draw boundaries with that person. You can be business partners naman without being totally friends.
Dami ko pang gusto sabihin pero kailangan ko lang talaga ilabas muna to.

Context - aaj mera paper tha . Centre me mein 2 ghnte phele hi chali gyi thi . Biometrics ke baad hum apne assigned seat pe baeth gye the aur baat krni start krdi. Mere side wali ladki ne bataya uske 630 marks h . Humne around 1 ghante baat ki .

1. Iss ladki ke 630 marks h , tabh bhi isne cuet , ipu cet , nest , some teaching related exam , AIIMS nursing , AIIMS paramedical aur bhi kyi exam form fill kiye h.
   
2. Meine pucha aapko confirm nhi tha ki kya hoga neet me . To usne kha ki last year uske 160 marks the . Aur iss saal neet ki koi ummed nhi thi. Paper dete wakt hi usse pta tha ki uske 400 se 500 aayenge . Par marks 630 aa gye . Usne khud bola ki usse shyd grace marks mile . Meine smile krte hue kha ki wo to sirf haryana me hua tha na ? Fir wo chup ho gyi aur topic change kr diya .
   
3. Paper khtm hua aur teachers hamari rough sheet collect kr rhi t hi , tab hmne firse baat krni start ki (we were in group of 6 ) . Hum answer discuss krne lge aur usko ek simple ques me bhi problem aa rhi thi . Usko physics ke chapter ka open aur close end wala formula tak nhi pta( v /4l ) . Humne aur bhi kuch ques discuss krre , wo kuch nhi bol rhi thi aur meine pucha aapne ye wala kiya . Usne mana kr diya . Usne bhut saare ques nursing exam me chodd diye the ?? " kyuki paper tough tha " . Like paper sach me tough tha , par bio toh easy thi . Wo usme bhi kh rhi ki lengthy h . Purey paper me usne head down hi kiya tha . End me usne kha ki jitna aata tha usne utna hi kara . Jaate jaate bhi usne thi kha ki paper tough tha .
   

I am not judging anyone here , just telling what i saw and heard . Just asking ki grace marks Delhi walo ko bhi mile h kya ? Exam today - AIIMS nursing This girl also said her many family members are doctors. Still , she is getting EWS quota .

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Jori stood at the edge of the alleyway, pressed up against the wall of The Wandering Fowl as she peered into the narrow street’s depths. Humming echoed from within; a soft, gentle tune that originated from the girl that stood on the snow covered path.
Her sister.
Aria’s attention was not focused towards the end of the street, but rather on the large furred beast in front of her. The auroc groaned gently as the girl moved her brush, patting the bovine as she was lost within the rhythm of her own tune. She reached up and scratched the beast behind its horn, provoking a satisfied bellow from the large animal as it nuzzled up against her. Aria’s giggle broke her melody, ringing out with the same innocent tone that a child’s laugh could only produce.
Just like any other girl.
Pain panged in Jori’s heart, a dull ache that still possessed enough bite to make her clutch at her chest. She looked towards the ground, eyes focusing on the sack that sat at her feet. Its cloth had been pushed to its limit, burgeoning from what had been stuffed within. Jori was content to lose herself for a moment, to forget about the growing hollowness in her stomach, but she was brought out of her trance with a tap on her arm.
“Jori?” Jon asked, her brother’s tone a mix of worry and apprehension.
“I… I’m…” she swallowed, “we could just leave it here. She doesn’t need us bothering her after all she’s been through.”
She started to move away from the alley, but her brother caught her shoulders.
“We’ve come this far Jori, and she leaves today,” he said, his tone heavy, “we can’t back away now.”
She frowned at him, “Brave words for the one making me go first.”
Jon scratched his head, “You’re the oldest, you gotta take charge in these things.”
Jori opened her mouth to respond, but froze as she saw the tremble in her brother’s fingers.
She sighed, “Ok, I’ll do it,” steeling herself, Jori slapped her cheeks, straightened her back, and spun around.
Only to jump at who she saw.
Though he was without armor or helmet, Helbram was easily recognizable in a small town like Redhaven. He was tall, taller than most in the village, but not so much that it would make him a giant, and there were farmers that possessed broader frames than him. However, none carried the same presence as the adventurer. There was an air to the man that threaded the line between gentle and imposing, as if he could switch between the two at the drop of a hat if needed.
As he loomed over the siblings, he trended towards the latter.
He may have been brought into the village in an unconscious state, but any sign of his incapacitation had vanished over the fortnight that it took for him and his party to recover, letting the full weight of his gaze settle over Jori as he looked the two over with unblinking eyes. His vision eventually settled on the bag next to Jori’s feet, and, after a moment of study, a smile broke from his emotionless guise.
He leaned against the wall and tilted his head towards the alley, “Go to her, we will give you some peace.”
Jori tilted her head, eventually realizing that the “we” Helbram mentioned included Leaf, who stood behind him closer to the tavern’s door. The half elven man looked at them with a frown, one that did not reach his eyes, and turned his gaze back to the street, saying nothing.
Jon prodded her in the back, which was enough to get her moving. She picked up the bag and walked past Helbram, marching into the alleyway with enough force behind her steps to echo through the narrowed path.
Echoes that made Aria turn towards her.
As the sisters’ eyes met, both froze. Jon stumbled into Jori’s back, but upon seeing Aria looking at them stopped in his tracks as well. Their sister’s eyebrows were raised in surprise, and the girl leaned against the auroc at her side for support. Her hands clutched at her brush, and the small shake to her fingers revealed the trepidation that the girl felt at the sight of her siblings. It was a sight that made Jori’s heart fall.
But she pressed on.
She walked closer, taking cautious steps towards her sister as she held the bag in front of her. Aria did not react to her approach, but Jori settled at stopping a stone’s throw away. She knelt down and opened the bag.
Revealing the bundles of clothing within.
“We didn’t know how much you needed…” Jori started, “and we didn’t know what your sizes were, so we gathered all we could.”
“We made sure there weren’t any holes in ‘em either,” Jon added in haste, “they may have been ours but they should last you a long while,” like Jori, his eyes were focused towards the ground and not the girl in front of them.
Their sister said nothing.
“We put some blankets in there too,” Jon said, “I know the cold doesn’t bother you but-”
Jori stomped on her brother’s foot. He winced, but upon realizing what he said kept his lips sealed. Cautiously, she looked up towards Aria, staring at the girl’s lips to avoid her eyes.
No reaction.
They stood in silence, the air between them growing more hollow by the moment. It was an emptiness that started to creep back into Jori’s heart, a sense of futility that told her to turn around and walk away. She clenched her hands into fists and pushed that instinct to the side, forcing herself to look her sister in the eye.
“I’m sorry,” she said, the words cracking as her vision blurred, “for abandoning you, for being scared of you. For being an awful, awful sister,” she blinked furiously to keep her tears from falling, “you deserved so much better, and I know there is nothing I can do to make up for what I have done.”
“What we have done,” Jon said, his voice a trembling mess, “I’m sorry too. Sorry for being such a poor brother, for thinking that what I had done was the only… the right thing to do,” he closed his eyes and took in a deep breath to steady himself, “It’s not our place to say this, but we hope wherever you go you find the happiness you deserve.”
Still, Aria did not respond.
Any bravery that the siblings held vanished at their sister’s silence. Jori’s gaze fell and, when nothing else was said, she spun around to leave, grabbing her brother’s arm.
“I can’t forgive you.”
Jori’s heart shattered to pieces.
The instinct to run swelled within her, to flee from the burden of guilt that crashed against her shoulders. The shake in her brother’s arm told her that Jon felt the same, but neither of them moved.
Whatever was to be said, they deserved.
“The words are there… but as I try to say them, I can only see you as you were before,” Aria said, “The ones who laughed and played outside my door as I could only look on. The ones who ignored me as they continued to be happy, to be loved. I can’t say it, not after all this time.”
Jori could hear the weeping in her sister’s voice, but neither her nor Jon could bring themselves to look back as their own tears streamed down their faces.
“But I can say thank you,” Aria’s footsteps drew closer, “for the clothes… and for trying to save me.”
It was the sibling’s time to be silent.
“We may never see each other again, but I hope the best for the both of you.”
An impulse washed over Jori then, an urge to turn around and embrace her sister, to cry into the girl’s shoulders and let her do the same, to be like siblings should have been.
But it was too late for that.
“We hope the best for you too,” Jori said, unable to face her sister. She went to say more, but the words caught at her throat.
Unable to take anymore, Jori ran, letting the desire to escape take over. She hurried past the Helbram and Leaf into the street, her steps carrying her far enough into Redhaven that they were out of sight. Jon was at her side, and when their sprint could carry them no further they collapsed to the ground, chests heaving as their sobs hindered their ability to catch their breath.
Tears flowed from their eyes, unending as they traced down their cheeks, splashing onto the street as they continued to cry. They ignored the stares of the townsfolk that walked by, too lost in the tide of emotions that carried them this far. When the tears finally slowed, Jori could still feel the sorrow within her chest, the pain that dug into her heart, unable to leave.
But it had faded.
Their sister’s words did not relieve Jori of the burden of guilt, but it had reduced it to a dull ache. One that she could live with.
Must live with.
Jori wiped the tears from her eyes and stood up. She held a hand out to Jon and, after her brother wiped his face, he took it with a firm grip as she helped him up. They met each other’s gaze and shared a nod. They had to continue on, to be the best that they could be, for their sake.
For their sister’s wishes.
___
Aria watched her siblings disappear from the alley’s exit. When they were gone, the grip on her brush relaxed and she let go of the breath that she was holding. She looked towards the bag in front of her and knelt down. Curiosity fueled her hands then, placing the brush down and pulling a piece of clothing from the parcel. It revealed itself to be a shirt as it unfolded, the size only a tad larger than what she needed. It was weaved from a white cloth, and in every way was unremarkable.
Yet the sight of it made her happy.
Her thoughts were interrupted by the sound of oncoming footsteps. Helbram and Leaf approached, and while the usual frown-faced man looked at her with some concern, his companion was more relaxed, yet somehow focused at the same time.
Helbram knelt down in front of her, “Are you alright?”
Aria nodded, “I don’t know if it was the right thing to say.”
He put his hand on her head, “Yours is a situation that is a bit more complicated than right or wrong,” he admitted, “and in such times it is better to instead ask this: did you do all that you needed to do?”
She looked down, thinking for a moment, but moved her gaze up to match his, “Yes, I did.”
Helbram smiled at her, “Then that, for now, is all that matters,” he ruffled her hair and stood up, taking the bag into his hand. He held it out for her to put the shirt back into it and held it out to Leaf, who took it as he walked over to Bessie.
“I’ll get her sorted out,” Leaf said, “now go do what you have to do.”
Helbram let out a breath and looked to Aria, “Are you ready?”
She nodded, one that he returned.
He turned towards the tavern’s side door, but waited for Aria to walk ahead of him before he followed. As they walked through The Wandering Fowl’s kitchen, she caught sight of both Elly and Jahora packing various foodstuffs. The taller woman bit into an apple absentmindedly as she peered into the tavern’s icebox. As she noticed them walk by, her ears perked up, and she met Helbram’s eyes with a knowing gaze. Jahora caught sight of them next, saying nothing but flashing Aria an encouraging smile as they walked through the door and into the tavern’s main hall.
She walked up the building’s stairs and down the hallway of rooms that composed its second floor. As her hand reached towards the door that lay at the end of the path, Helbram placed his hand on the doorknob in her stead.
“Are you certain of this?” he asked, his tone measured, but unable to hide the concern beneath.
The weight of the question gave rise to the doubt that sat beneath her determination. Given what had transpired… it would not be wrong of her to leave the door closed, to leave what lay beyond it behind her.
But her heart said otherwise.
Steeling herself, Aria straightened her back and took in a deep breath, “Yes.”
Helbram patted her shoulder, “Then do what you must.”
He opened the door and followed after her as she walked in, facing the two people at the opposite side of the room.
Cora and Erik.
The two Shade’s were still bound, their hands restricted behind their back with Sealing Cuffs while rope tied their legs together. In all practical ways they could do no harm, but that did not stop the flutter that Aria could feel stirring in her chest. Whilst Erik maintained a neutral expression upon noticing Aria, Cora’s own dejected guise shifted to surprise as her eyes fell upon her. Surprise that gave way to something else, though Aria could not tell what. The girl stepped further into the room, and while Helbram did not loom over her, he shifted his position so that she was never out of his reach.
Aria’s lips trembled as she searched for the words to speak, her breath shaking as they refused to form. She squeezed her hands in frustration, the fluttering in her chest now a rapid pounding as she could not form a sentence no matter how hard she tried. She’d ruminated over it far before this moment, yet the sight of the couple, their silence as they waited for her to speak, pushed all those thoughts from her mind. In its place she could only remember Erik and Cora as they were. That kindly man who fed her, who treated her as something more than a monster to be ignored, to be shunned. The bright woman who sat her in her lap and brushed her hair, giving her the warmth of a mother she never had.
She knew that is not who they were, that it was an act meant to make her like them, to feel indebted to them.
But it felt real, the happiness that it gave her was real, and it was that which stopped the words at her throat. She looked to the floor, unable to look at the two any longer, but took in a deep breath and closed her eyes.
“Thank you,” she said, “for taking care of me.”
It was a selfish thing to say, something that she could blurt out without damaging the fragile integrity of memories based on falsehood. She’d meant to confront them, but could only find the words to run away.
“Aria.”
She looked up, heart stopping as her eyes met with Cora’s. Gone was the woman’s previous madness, that twisted look in her eyes as she called her a name that was not hers. In its place was the same Cora that she always knew. The one who always wore a smile, who always looked at her with warmth. It was a falsehood, she knew that.
Yet it brought her comfort all the same.
“It is we who should say thank you,” she said, “for giving us a warmth that we’d not felt in so, so long. And it is we who should say sorry, for trying to take that warmth for ourselves.”
“Live your life, Aria.”
The girl’s gaze drifted to Erik, and she could see that man that she’d met in the alley, that man who made her feel like she belonged, and the memories of that moment brought tears to her eyes.
“Walk the path you want to walk, and let none steer you from it,” he said, “it is not our place to say such things, I know, but we should say it nonetheless.”
“May the Matron keep your path clear, your steps steady,” Cora said
Aria bit her lip, and she felt the impulse to walk up and embrace them, but she stopped herself. Even if they were sincere, she could not forget who they truly were, no matter how much her heart wished to. Still, the desire grew, and the tears started to flow down her face. She smiled at the couple and gave a firm nod, then turned and made for the door.
“You take care of her, you hear me?” Cora said to Helbram.
Aria felt his hand on her shoulder as she stopped at the door. He opened it and gently pushed her forward.
“Of that, you should have no doubt.”
___
Ren stood outside The Wandering Fowl, taking in the brisk Winter air as he stood in the street without a coat. The townsfolk looked at him as if he was mad, but that was no different than the look they’d given all of them upon their return. They did give him a wider berth today, but that was due to the wagon that had been moved to the street. A wheeless construct, the vehicle was held aloft by the crystal located in its undercarriage, one that radiated a green light as Aether coursed through it and the rest of the wagon. Various crates and bags were stuffed under its roof, and it was in the process of being loaded even further as Helbram’s party shoved various bags and foodstuffs into its bed. Had he not known that the magitek design meant that their auroc would feel little of the burden, he would have been inclined to feel pity for the beast.
Part of him still did as Elly stuffed a burgeoning sack of books into an already crowded space.
“Do you think you have enough?” he mused towards the group, “one would think you meant to start a village with all you’re taking.”
Helbram, who just walked out of the wagon’s bed, laughed. He walked up to the Cleric while dusting his hands.
“Winter will prove to be a harsh mistress this year,” he said, “and while I have every faith that our hunter is up to the task of keeping us provided, I’d rather not place such a burden upon him.”
“That, and we’d rather not taste bitter herbs for a spell,” Jahora said as she adjusted Aria’s coat, “a month away from such flavors is much too short.”
Leaf’s head poked from behind the wagon, “Oi, if the plants bite back then it's good for ya, don’t blame me for having the wisdom to recognize it.”
“Oh we have the wisdom,” Elly said as she joined Helbram at his side, “we just choose to embrace comfort in its stead.”
“Bunch of soft bellied louts, the lot of ya.”
Aria giggled as Leaf’s grumbles faded into the background. She took Jahora’s hand as the Mage guided her towards Ren. The smaller woman was all smiles when she looked at the girl, but as her eyes cut to the side wariness flashed through her features.
Leon sat on the stairs leading into the tavern. His hands were still bound, and rather than meeting anyone’s eyes he kept his eyes to the ground. Ren frowned as he looked at his companion, partially regretting his decision to push Leon to at least see the party off. He encouraged it anyways; the alternative just didn’t feel right.
He just hoped Leon felt the same.
As Leaf finished adjusting Bessie’s harness, he jogged up and joined with his companions, his caution towards Ren’s companion less concealed than the others as he glared in the Black Cloak’s direction.
“So where are you off to, after all this?” Helbram asked Ren.
“As we originally planned,” the Cleric said, “we make for Blade’s Rest, meeting up with a larger cohort before we travel back to headquarters,” he scratched his head, “Winter will prolong our travels a fair bit, but we’d best be moving as quick as possible now that we’ve fully recovered.”
“Of that, we are of similar minds,” Elly said.
“What of you? If you don’t mind me asking.”
“Whitebridge,” Helbram said, “it was where we were heading before all this, and we see no reason not to continue on.”
Ren rubbed his chin, “Whitebridge eh? That is quite the journey…” he looked to Aria. The girl was not cautious around him, he could sense that she was on edge. No doubt due to Leon’s presence. And given his companions actions… she had every right to be.
As he looked upon her, however, he thought towards Erik and Cora, about how they knew that she would be in such a remote village like Redhaven. As he did, he removed the symbol of Velendel from his neck and placed his hand over it. The matching eye on his forehead glowed with a golden light as he made an effort of will, casting a spell over the amulet that left it glowing for a moment before the light faded away. He walked over to Jahora and knelt down in front of the Mage, presenting the amulet to her. She looked at him in confusion, and did not reach for the necklace.
“I am not certain, but I believe someone may possess the means to find Aria from afar. That is the only way I can think of to explain why Erik and Cora decided to settle here of all places.”
“A Scryer, perhaps?” Elly inquired, “Though typically their reach is fairly limited.”
“For the average one, yes,” Ren admitted, “but were the Scryer a Shade… then it may very well be possible,” he looked back at Jahora, “concealment magics are not my speciality, but with enough of Velendel’s grace I do believe that wearing this will keep Aria from their watchful gaze, though the enchantment will need refreshing often. And I do recognize it is suspicious of me to provide this under such pretenses, but I ask that you trust me in this.”
Jahora looked into his eyes and, after a moment, took the amulet from him. She directed her attention to Aria, who had her eyes narrowed in clear effort to keep up with the conversation.
“Do you want to wear this?” she asked the girl, holding the necklace out to her.
Aria reached out and touched the amulet, brow furrowed as she ran her fingers along its various ridges, “It feels… warm.”
The girl nodded and let Jahora put it on her. When the Mage did, Aria looked at it again.
“It’s a bit ugly though,” she said before slipping it under her coat.
Ren snorted, “Of that, we are in agreement.”
“Are you certain of this?” Helbram asked, “I have little knowledge in the ways of divine magic, but a Cleric without their Symbol strikes me as something of a hindrance.”
“We’d hardly be that forminable if a bit of jewelry was our lifeline,” Ren said as he stood up, “Please, pay it no mind. Besides, this is the perfect opportunity to get a new one, perhaps one not so garish,” he winked at Aria, and she smiled at him.
“Well, thank you, again,” Helbram said as he held out his hand, “when we next meet, the round is on me.”
Ren smiled and took the man’s hand, “Multiple rounds, perhaps? I’ve a feeling my superiors will be placing me in a drinking mood soon enough.”
Helbram chuckled, “That can be arranged.”
As they let go of one another Ren clapped his hands, “I’ve delayed you long enough, you’d best be off before Spring sets in.”
The party smiled at him and made their way to the wagon.
All except Helbram.
The man marched towards Leon, who’s posture remained unchanging at his approach. Even if the Black Cloak didn’t look at him, Helbram held his hand out.
“Farewell Leon,” he said, “I hope if we cross swords again it will be as we did the first time, not the last.”
Leon didn’t look up.
Helbram sighed, but rather than drop his hand, he gave Leon a quick pat on the shoulder and went to join his party. Before long their wagon disappeared from Ren’s sight, and his companion still did not move.
The Cleric took a seat next to Leon, “It is going to be quite the burden if I have to transport three bound people,” he said.
The Black Cloak remained silent.
Frowning, Ren made to move back into the tavern, but stopped as Leon finally spoke.
“She seemed so… normal.”
“Aria? Yes, the seal is broken but she appears to be in control of herself,” Ren mused, “an interesting development for one as young as her, but it is not unheard of to gain control of one’s Shade.”
“It was out of control Ren, a power that I had not seen since… since…” he fell silent.
“And yet, there she was, hale and hearty as any child should be.”
“I know… I know,” there was a growing frustration in Leon’s voice, “And it has made me think. Had I called out enough, urged him enough… would he still be here today?”
Ren heart ached for his friend, “We can’t know that.”
“And yet, now we have an idea,” Leon said, “proof that such a thing is possible,” tears dropped from Leon’s face as he looked up, “I was so certain he was lost Ren, and the look he gave me told me he thought so as well, but there she was, in the same position, the same abyss of hopelessness, and she came back.”
There was nothing Ren could say to that.
“How many? How many have I killed thinking that they were too far gone? Thinking that I was putting an end… stopping tragedy before it could happen?” He buried his head in his hands, “I’m sorry Astraeus, I’m so sorry…”
Ren walked in front of his companion and pulled him up, “Look at me Leon.”
When he refused to do so, the Cleric forced his gaze up. The Black Cloak’s eyes were red, and the despair beneath them seemed bottomless.
“I understand your grief,” he said, “And I know that you need time to process all of it, but what you can’t let it do is drag you under. Doing so will not help anyone. It will not honor your brother’s memory.”
Leon closed his eyes.
“Let us make our way back to headquarters, and when we are in more stable conditions, we can work through all of this. We can’t afford to fall apart now, do you understand?”
His companion’s breaths slowed as he controlled himself. When his eyes finally opened, a measure of control had returned. Grief still sat behind them, but for now it did not overwhelm Leon, and that was all Ren could ask for at the moment.
“I understand,” the Black Cloak said.
“Good,” Ren unbound the man’s arms, “and when we get back, know that you will always have my aid. We’ll get through this, of that I have no doubt.”
Leon clasped his arm, “Thank you, truly.”
Ren returned the gesture, “What are friends for?”
___
Helbram yawned as he stretched, leaning back on the wagon’s driver seat.
“Don’t you start with that,” Leaf fussed, “We’ve been on the road for barely an hour.”
“I am afraid I must,” Helbram objected in an overly dramatic tone, “my injuries have left me weakened and unable to handle the wear and tear of the road.”
Leaf pressed his lips thin and rolled his eyes.
Elly snorted from within the wagon, “Perhaps you need a distraction? I could teach you how to use a needle so you may be of some use.”
Helbram looked back at her. The Weaver held the sleeve of a pair of pants in her hands, her hands moving with practiced precision as the needle in her fingers glided in and out of the cloth.
“Nonsense,” Helbram said, “I would only slow you down.”
“Perhaps,” she admitted, “but the company would be appreciated.”
She smiled as they both looked at Aria and Jahora. They both leaned against each other as they slept, a contentment on both their faces that was enough to banish any thoughts of waking them from their nap.
“Another time, perhaps,” Helbram said in a quieter tone.
“I’ll hold you to that.”
He flashed her a smile before turning back in his seat, noting Leaf’s now serious expression.
“Everything alright?”
His companion scratched his head, “Honestly I’m just feeling a bit out of my depth. I don’t know how to raise a child, nor one that happens to be a font of magic,” he sighed, “I’m just trying to process it all.”
Hebram rubbed his chin, “It is quite a lot to take in, I admit, but it is not as if you are doing this alone,” he snorted, “I know Jahora would raise quite the objection were you solely in charge of her care.”
Leaf laughed, “That she would… but still, it’s just… overwhelming.”
“It is, and the how of it all escapes me even now, but I know it is something that we must do.”
“Together,” Elly added.
Helbram nodded, “Together.”
Leaf shook his headband and chuckled, “Well now I just feel foolish. Onwards then?”
Helbram pointed down the road.
“Onwards.”

Hedge Knight Arc Four: The Cursed Child
End.
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Author's Note: And there we have it, the end of another arc. Still not gonna get over how I said this was going to be a shorter one and it somehow matched the last arc in length. Overall I'm happy with how this one turned out. It's smaller stakes than the last arc, but I think it was a good exploration of the characters, especially Jahora, Leon, and Aria, and that's kind of the reason I try and keep things small scale like this. I'm finding myself enjoying the character dynamics more and more as I write this story, and I feel like its important to explore these interactions fully to really build investment not only with the party, but any events that may happen to them. To that end I toned back the action a bit, aside from the duel, so we can have a full explosive finish. One that admittedly mentally fried me as I tried to make sense of all that as happening, but I think I prefer that over having action for action's sake.
But, the story will continue! Lots of threads were thrown out here and I did try to wrap up some of the immediate ones, but there are also plenty that could possibly be explored down the line. The focus will remain on Helbram and his party of course, but I do like giving the sense that there is something else going on within the world beyond what the party is seeing.
Let me know what you thought of this arc! Did you prefer this over the last arc and is there anything that stands out in this arc that you either liked/disliked. I'm always trying to improve and your feedback goes a really long way to making sure this is the best content I can make for you.
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Supposedly, last year dapat graduate na ako and maybe may work na now o di kaya I'm on my first year of med school. Unfortunately, shit happened and I had to spend an extra year as a college student. All my friends and batchmates that year, ayun interns na and there I was, all left behind. It was actually disheartening on my part na umabot pa sa point na di na ako nag-oopen ng IG to avoid seeing their posts. I felt bitter but I'm happy for them.
Last last week, kakatapos lang ng school year namin and now it's finally my turn to graduate! That extra one year I had to deal with actually taught me alot, from building self confidence, meeting new people and building friendships with some of them (coz heck literal na new people para sa akin mga co interns ko given na from online class kami, wala akong pake sa lower years, at di rin ako active sa school activities before and as a max introvert i wanna pat myself on the back for befriending some of them 😭), and doing things on my own (i have no one to yaya everytime may need asikasuhin sa school kasi graduate na nga mga besties ko 😭).
Kanina lang out of the blue, I decided to scroll through my twt dump acc and saw a screenshot from tiktok back on 2022, the year na I was super down, and it says: "when you finally start to realize the universe is forcing you to be alone so you can start depending on yourself and remove unhealthy attachments you placed on others. So you can start to grow on your own and as it should be without copying other's path or journey." and right there it just hit me :) LIKE, YES GIRL YOU JUST DID ALL THAT WITHOUT YOUR BESTIES! (syempre sa school/internship setting lang kasi all throughout my journey, my besties were and still there being supportive as ever).
Now, I have another thing na pinoproblema na naman. I'm turning 24, and after board exam, I'm torn with going straight to working or proceeding to med school... I've been thinking about this alot lately (walang problem financially and my fam is actually supportive) kasi I'll be spending another 4yrs+1yr during med school and shet 24+5 yo na ako at the end of all that 😭 ito talaga reason bakit ako napa-post tonight hahahaha but despite all of that, i think it would be a waste if i don't pursue it kasi andiyan na oh, I have a supportive fam who's willing to spend for me and personally, yeah, maybe I really do want to pursue it (shet I'm finally admitting it to myself! na gusto ko siya! dati pala 60% hindi at 40% oo ako). So, um. Yun lang. Kbye!

nakakainis like whys everybody so afraid of hanging out with me nang kaming dalawa lang. i've been inviting my different friends to these different events simula nung magbakasyon and hindi sila tutuloy kung walang ibang kasama. just today, my two completely different friends refused to go out with me to go to this event na super special to me. the first one na niyaya ko pumayag na siya but she insisted na may kasama kami and since friends ko rin naman yung mga yon, i agreed. tapos kanina lang biglang may sakit daw yung isa while the other one is bawal so kaming dalawa na lang dapat. maya-maya she messaged me again na shes sick or something and sa day 2 na lang daw and i know for sure ayaw niya lang nang kaming dalawa lang. so niyaya ko na lang yung isa kong friend instead. she sarcastically asked who else would come with laughing emoji when it's obviously just the two of us. close kami ng mga girls na to but idk something is just off. ive been receiving a lot of rejections from them and sa mga group chats ko naman, ako lang laging naghahabol sa kanila. like what is wrong with walking together in silence, for me super normal naman non. maybe we could spitball or something? isa pa it's not like wala kaming pinagsamahan, we've been in a room na kaming dalawa lang like all of them i thought we're all cozy sa isa't isa. lagi akong nag eefforts sa kanila but they none of them showed any interests at all.

Hello! Just wanted to ask for advice. My ex and I were together in high school (we're currently in college), it was a long-term relationship. We broke up because he emotionally cheated. It was actually him who initiated the break up since I was already too insecure back then. It has been 4 years since we have broken up. We had our closure 2 years after the break up and we have been "friends" since then. We had our closure at a time when we were both starting to meet someone new but it somehow failed - or so we thought. The girl he was trying to meet suddenly hit him up again since he have not sent her a message for a few days na. Tapos long story short, they were together. We barely kept contact naman unless necessary and met during batch hangouts lang. Ngayon, they have already broken up and we hung out with our other friends rin. It was different i guess in a way since masyado ata akong kinilig (?) sa chats namin a few days before the actual lakad. Tried really hard to remain "noncholant" when we met in person pero yung dynamics namin is to tease each other so I failed rin. I was shocked as to how comfortable he was, like the amount of skinship was beyond my exoectation (all wholesome ha). Talked to my friend after that ganap rin tas she said na halos the whole time kami magkatabj ng ex ko. I think he's really just comfortable, thinking na I am over it rin. Unfortunately, di rin ako very sure.
I know that we work together better as friends, I think. Pero there's just this feeling of having that person you like being so near yet so far. Maybe we're just really comfortable and know each other well kaya our conversations arw great, unlike the other guys I have met and his ex for him (he said it himself that they couldnt hold deep conversations). A friend of ours also asked whether we were each other's first or puppy love hahahaha. Ik it may sound cribge, but he was definitely my first (I dodnt the amswer the question then) pero he replied na puppy love langg. Probably explains how he was able to shake off all "feelings" we had before.
Should I just go out and seriously meet other people? It honestly scares me since it has been so long na and he still has this effect on me. Sana naman hindi na ganitoo pag mas tumanda na kami.

Hello! Just wanted to ask for advice. My ex and I were together in high school (we're currently in college), it was a long-term relationship. We broke up because he emotionally cheated. It was actually him who initiated the break up since I was already too insecure back then. It has been 4 years since we have broken up. We had our closure 2 years after the break up and we have been "friends" since then. We had our closure at a time when we were both starting to meet someone new but it somehow failed - or so we thought. The girl he was trying to meet suddenly hit him up again since he have not sent her a message for a few days na. Tapos long story short, they were together. We barely kept contact naman unless necessary and met during batch hangouts lang. Ngayon, they have already broken up and we hung out with our other friends rin. It was different i guess in a way since masyado ata akong kinilig (?) sa chats namin a few days before the actual lakad. Tried really hard to remain "noncholant" when we met in person pero yung dynamics namin is to tease each other so I failed rin. I was shocked as to how comfortable he was, like the amount of skinship was beyond my exoectation (all wholesome ha). Talked to my friend after that ganap rin tas she said na halos the whole time kami magkatabj ng ex ko. I think he's really just comfortable, thinking na I am over it rin. Unfortunately, di rin ako very sure.
I know that we work together better as friends, I think. Pero there's just this feeling of having that person you like being so near yet so far. Maybe we're just really comfortable and know each other well kaya our conversations arw great, unlike the other guys I have met and his ex for him (he said it himself that they couldnt hold deep conversations). A friend of ours also asked whether we were each other's first or puppy love hahahaha. Ik it may sound cribge, but he was definitely my first (I dodnt the amswer the question then) pero he replied na puppy love langg. Probably explains how he was able to shake off all "feelings" we had before.
Should I just go out and seriously meet other people? It honestly scares me since it has been so long na and he still has this effect on me. Sana naman hindi na ganitoo pag mas tumanda na kami.

So mera bestfriend hai jisne iss saal 12th kari uski 2 saal se ek bandi hai to pehle mai undono ke baare me thoda intro de du-----
Mera dost thoda shy sa nature ka hai par ladka ekdum sanskari hai padhai me bhi acha hai jee mains me 97percentile ayi uski gen category me....uski gf to bhai ekdum bawal hai dikhne me bhi aur vese bhi jee mains me 99.xx percentile ayi uski again ye bhi gen hai..bhai ko ye ladki 5 saal se pasand thi aur 3 baar reject bhi ho gaya tha ladki ne finally ha bola 11th ki shuru me
uske baad se mene jo apne dost me changes dekhe...log kehte ki jee prep me relationship me nahi padna chahiye par jo uske marks improve hue..uski bandi use padha bhi dia karti thi ..dono din me aadha ghanta nikalkar roz baat cheet kar lia karte the..ab baat ye hai mera dost kaafi emotional hai aur vo literally uss type ka hai like HE WORSHIPS THE GROUND SHE WALKS ON aur usne mujhe bataya bhi tha dono ke beech me kaafi passionate kiss bhi hogyi thi new year me jiski vajah se bhai ka pyaar aur deep ho gaya
ab ye baat hai 27 may 2024 ki...mere dost ki gf use bulati hai kuch imp baat krne ko..vo jab aata hai to use keh deti hai ki use breakup karna hai aur use ye kaafi time se karna tha par kia nahi kyuki use pata tha ki mere dost ki padhai affect hogi..usne ye tak kaha ki use vo kabhi vese pasand hi nahi aya vo uss time uska breakup hua va tha isliye uss ladki ne mere dost ko as a coping mechanism accept karlia..uske baad mere dost ne usse bahut baat karne ki koshish kari par usne suni nahi
phir aaj jee advanced ka result aya to institute ki taraf se choti si party hui usme mai bhi gaya hua tha mera dost aur uski ex bhi dikhe vaha...uski ex kisi aur ladke se kaafi close ho rakhi thi//muje ye thodi playgirl type lagti// ye dekhkar mera dost ekdum vaha se bahar chala gaya aur rone lag gaya...mene use iss haalat me kabhi ni dekha..usko lag raha hai ye sab uski galti hai
what should i do in this situation to help my friend..uska 7 saalo ka pyaar hai first love

So mera bestfriend hai jisne iss saal 12th kari uski 2 saal se ek bandi hai to pehle mai undono ke baare me thoda intro de du-----
Mera dost thoda shy sa nature ka hai par ladka ekdum sanskari hai padhai me bhi acha hai jee mains me 97percentile ayi uski gen category me....uski gf to bhai ekdum bawal hai dikhne me bhi aur vese bhi jee mains me 99.xx percentile ayi uski again ye bhi gen hai..bhai ko ye ladki 5 saal se pasand thi aur 3 baar reject bhi ho gaya tha ladki ne finally ha bola 11th ki shuru me
uske baad se mene jo apne dost me changes dekhe...log kehte ki jee prep me relationship me nahi padna chahiye par jo uske marks improve hue..uski bandi use padha bhi dia karti thi ..dono din me aadha ghanta nikalkar roz baat cheet kar lia karte the..ab baat ye hai mera dost kaafi emotional hai aur vo literally uss type ka hai like HE WORSHIPS THE GROUND SHE WALKS ON aur usne mujhe bataya bhi tha dono ke beech me kaafi passionate kiss bhi hogyi thi new year me jiski vajah se bhai ka pyaar aur deep ho gaya
ab ye baat hai 27 may 2024 ki...mere dost ki gf use bulati hai kuch imp baat krne ko..vo jab aata hai to use keh deti hai ki use breakup karna hai aur use ye kaafi time se karna tha par kia nahi kyuki use pata tha ki mere dost ki padhai affect hogi..usne ye tak kaha ki use vo kabhi vese pasand hi nahi aya vo uss time uska breakup hua va tha isliye uss ladki ne mere dost ko as a coping mechanism accept karlia..uske baad mere dost ne usse bahut baat karne ki koshish kari par usne suni nahi
phir aaj jee advanced ka result aya to institute ki taraf se choti si party hui usme mai bhi gaya hua tha mera dost aur uski ex bhi dikhe vaha...uski ex kisi aur ladke se kaafi close ho rakhi thi//muje ye thodi playgirl type lagti// ye dekhkar mera dost ekdum vaha se bahar chala gaya aur rone lag gaya...mene use iss haalat me kabhi ni dekha..usko lag raha hai ye sab uski galti hai
what should i do in this situation to help my friend..uska 7 saalo ka pyaar hai first love

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“.....”
Rika stared at her hand, at the backside of her palm, her skin color is that of an overripe and sweet sapodilla. She doesn't know what that thing is, but that's what her dad used to call it, apparently some sort of fruit, but she doesn't know what fruit is either. it’s slightly blue now, stained by the blood of a… thing. She looked at it, the… she doesn't know what to call it, pink thing… pink… pinky? Sounds good enough for her, she looked at pinky.
“hmm…”
Pinky is… weird? She's seen some weird things in her life, an irradiated wasteland can always hold a surprise, but this is… peculiar. In a way she couldn't really put her finger on, more so because she can't touch pinky for too long because they are really cold. But she wants to touch pinky, pinky is interesting. Pinky has four eyes, no hair, and a beautiful skin, she's almost jealous.
“.....”
Her curiosity took over and she scooted over to where pinky is, laying on her bed, with bandages on their tummy. She's honestly not sure why she instantly knows that pinky is bleeding, when she found them in that fire pit, created by that blue light that came from the clouds. Actually, she remembers it quite fondly. She remembered her dad coming back home, bleeding from his tummy, and asked her to fetch some bandages. He told her it was done by bad guys.
Poke
“Pinky? Are you awake?”
Poke
He told her bad guys don't like her, or dad, and want to kick them out. Dad said don't listen, and fight back, since then she really hates bad guys, and thought everyone but her and her dad are bad. She got a lecture for thinking that, and her dad told her not everyone is bad, some people are good, friends he called it, Rika never had friends before but she would love to have one someday.
Poke
“Hello?”
Poke
As Rika continuously poked Pinky, she wondered if Pinky is a bad guy or friend, or maybe they got hurt by a bad guy, are there bad guys in the clouds?. Pinky looks nice, they don't look like bad guys, but who knows, once her dad said that bad guys sometimes lie and make themselves look like friends.
“Wow…”
Pinky’s skin is cold, very cold, it hurts if she touches it too long, but if she touches it for just a few seconds, it’s actually comfortable. So Rika did just that, occasionally putting her palm on Pinky, and enjoying the cold. But suddenly Pinky doesn't feel as cold anymore, she was wondering why when Pinky woke up, and slapped her.
—
“AHH! Get away from me!”
“@#!”
Ciro’s not having it today, she just woke up, and expected maybe the white and yellow of her ship’s medical bay, the feeling of a soft bed on her back, hoping maybe all that she saw before is just a very long and weird dream.
“Shoo! Shoo!”
“...?”
It isn't, unfortunately. She woke up to the brown and black of a cave, and the feeling of what barely passes as a bed laying on rough sand and pebbles on her back, it is not in fact a very long and weird dream. It is, in fact, reality, reality is terrifying as they say and she would agree, as she immediately sees the creature again the very next second of her eyes opening.
“Shoo! Get out of here! D-d-don’t hurt me!...”
“€π?”
“W-what?”
It spoke…? In language she doesn't recognize, it seems… confused? She's not sure if whatever the creature is doing with its face counts as an expression. But it does seem… curious, undeniably so, it tilted her head at her, and looked at her with its curious brown eyes before leaning forward. That, of course, scared the soul out of Ciro.
“Eek! Stay away!”
Now it looks surprised, kind of. It backs away slightly, with their back facing the entrance of the cave, a harsh ray of sunlight peered through the cave’s mouth and some violent wind can be heard. It still stared at her, with that… admittedly… beautiful brown eyes, she's never seen it before. She found herself locking gaze with the creature, feeling a strange sensation as she did.
“Uhm…….. hi”
She suddenly strangely relaxed, as if she didn't just experience ejecting out of her exploding ship and meeting a foreign alien right after. But it got her mind calm, and more rational, now that she is, she should probably stop calling it creature, it's undoubtedly sapient. It had clothes, a terrifying helmet as she recalls, and clearly some decent technology, looking at… gnarly looking weapon resting on the wall next to them.
“π¥! ¥^# £¥¢@!”
It- no… they spoke again, it kind of sounds like an introduction, but it's not like Ciro knows what it means so who knows, could be a threat. They kept staring at her, rather inappropriately. Their eyes wandered to somewhere on Ciro’s lower body, and pointed at it with one of their five clawed fingers. She was about to think about the predatorial implications that the claw gave her, but she's too busy panicking about the wound on her stomach right now.
“Oh God…”
It’s patched up, neatly and appropriately, but also rather tightly. The moment she became aware of it the pain came rushing through like a busted dam. She held her stomach as she curled to a fetal position, tears coming out of her eyes.
“Argh…!”
That's when a hand grabbed her shoulder, she looked up to see the… she should really give it a name, the first thing to come out of her pained mind is critter, and she stuck with it. Critter was staring at her, they seemed to be worried, Critter looked around, before getting up and running towards a dark green colored backpack. Critter rummages through it, before finding what they were looking for, signified by them going what Ciro assumes to be “AHA!”
“Huh?”
They ran up to her and presented it in their hands, an assortment of what look like pills, they're giving her medication?
“I… i can't, i don't know what's in it, it can- ergh!... Mmph… it can kill me…”
Critter insisted, all the while looking at her with all the worry in the world, for a second she wanted to question why it’s so… passionate? The amount of compassion shown to someone they probably have never seen before, it’s kind of sweet. She would appreciate it, if she's not in great pain right now, with a shake of the head she refused the pills, leaving Critter confused and even more worried.
“Sorry… i can't”
Ciro closed her eyes, maybe if she can get her mind away from it the pain would recede. She got nothing, even though her kind is known for how well they can handle their own minds she can't seem to suppress it. But when something touched her head she calmed down, it felt warm, and comfortable, and soft. She opened her eyes again to see Critter…
“...?”
“Uh…”
Are they…. Are they petting her? They are, and it… it feels good, oddly so.
—
Rika caressed Pinky's, they seemed to be in pain and when she offered them painkillers, they refused, she was at a loss at how to calm them down, until she remembered something. When she was little, she found a stray kitten that wandered near her home. It was crying and she had no clue how to calm it down, until she touched the kitty’s head and petted it.
“Okay? Are you okay?”
Her dad didn't like kittens, made him go achoo achoo, he calls it… al… ler… gi…? Something like that, she's not very good at spelling. Doesn't matter though, Pinky looks to be enjoying it, they're not crying any more, that's good if you ask her. A couple of minutes pass, filled with nothing but oddly awkward silence and the sound of someone being petted.
“Hmm?”
When she was done Pinky had completely stopped crying and holding their tummy. At the same time they seemed to snap out of a trance, and looked at her, she replied with a smile, after remembering that Pinky doesn't speak like her.
“Hi!”
She tried anyway, surely anyone knows what a "hi" is right?. Surely, as sure as the lightness in her head, she felt it suddenly, it was unpleasant and it felt like someone was poking the inside of her head.
“Ow…. That hurts”
She laid down on the cave floor, and wondered why she's like this all of a sudden. She looked at dust carried by the wind outside. It might be that the air can be kind of funky sometimes, she should really cover the cave with a tarp. She did just that, though making sure the tarp’s color can blend in with the surrounding is a little hard when she can barely even focus from all the lightheadedness.
“There… set and sound… ow…”
She's still feeling it, even more severe now. Probably because it already got to her, oh well, what can she do? It should pass soon enough, she's been through more, a headache is not going to take her down, maybe. She sat down next to her rifle and sighed, messaging her head as she did, it relieved some of the pain, but didn't make it go away.
“Hmph…”
Maybe she should go back trying to talk with Pinky, maybe that can calm it down-
“Hey…”
“Huh?”
—
One thing Qo’kvells can do other than telepathically communicate with each other is… look into the mind of a non-Qo'kvell. Unethical, dishonorable, despisable, medically problematic, since it hurts anyone who isn't mentally capable, which everyone who is not a Qo’kvell. But… it can help, in some things. Like… knowing the ill intentions of others, or a problem in their mind, or getting to know them, or… learning their language.
“Ow…”
And she has never seen a language so complicated it hurts her head just thinking about it. Not until she probed Critter’s head, to see if there's a way to communicate, it visibly affected them, but they handled it far-far better than anyone else, most would pass out in the first 3 seconds, Critter seems mostly unfazed. From it, she knows a lot, but understands few, she did learn Critter is a she, so hey, fellow girls at least.
“Mmh… oh… I shouldn't have done this…”
And her intent is well, she's trying to help her, the pills she offered were painkillers, and she saved Ciro from her pod’s burning wreckage. She suppose she can thank her, but learning a language takes some time and brain effort, and it certainly hurts, so she holds off for now. Critter’s memory is hazy, and hard to reach, it’s almost like her brain is actively fighting against her telepathy.
Maybe I should say something… hmm… this is… a word for introduction right? I hope, please don't be a slur or something’
“Hey…”
“Huh?”
‘did it work?’
“H-hi…”
From Critter's memory, she learned that waving her hand seems to be some sort of introductory gesture, so she did that. She was expecting shock, but what she got was a very happy Critter, who seemed to instantly forget about their headache.
“you can talk!”
“A… small-”
‘wait, no that's wrong’
“Me… mean… little?”
‘That's also wrong, what in the lands below is this language?!’
“Who are you? What's your name? I'm Rika! I’m friend!”
She can barely understand that wall of words, she did hear a name… Wi… no, Ric… e? No, wrong again, Ri… ka…? Sounds… correct-ish. She also noticed she was being asked her name, she tried her best to piece it together using the strange letters of Rika’s language.
“am… Ce… ehm, no… Ci… Ciro”
“Ciro? Oh man… Pinky is not right at all”
She has no clue what Rika is talking about, and it’s probably best she doesn't question it. But now she has to ask the important questions. She tried her best to form a sentence in her head before trying to speak. She could just try and probe again, but her head’s not having it so neither does she.
“When… no, me mea- no… I mean… Where… am… i?”
“Hmmm? oh, we’re in a cave”
“I… know… I mean… what place?”
“What? Uh… Oh! Yes, you’re not from here, sorry, we’re in a desert! My dad calls it wasteland, i don't know why, i don't a see a lot of trash out here”
Wasteland? Desert wasteland? Ciro was curious, what kind of species prefers to live in a desert? Wasteland no less?
“Why?”
“The whole world is like this, dad calls it end of the world, i don't see anything ending out here, so i don't really know”
End of the world… Ciro realized the grim implications of that sentence and frowned, with a bit of pity towards Rika.
“”stranded in post apocalyptic planet, great””
“What? You speak weird again”
“Oh… apologiz- uh, i mean, sorry, it is n-native… mouth”
“Oh, i’ve heard of that, dad used to tell me other people can speak another way, can you teach me?”
Rika’s eyes light up, she seems oddly innocent and childlike in… well… apocalypse, for gods know how long. She suppose education isn't as strong as it used to be in that condition, but shouldn't Rika be a bit more… aware?
“N-no, it… hard”
“Aww… it’s fine, you can speak like me anyway, how do you do it?”
“I…”
She's not sure what to say, Rika probably doesn't know what telepathy is, or maybe and she does, Ciro’s got nothing on her culture.
“Just… special… thing, i can do”
“Ooh!... What is it?”
“Difficult… explain… t-to explain, i mean”
“It’s okay… are you good? You’re wounded, i took care of it but you were still hurt”
“Am… fine”
She's really not, but she's functional which is good enough, Rika’s work on her wounds was surprisingly exceptional.
“Great!... Hmm… do you want to go with me?”
“W-where?”
“Hold on! Let me get it!”
Rika ran to her bag again, and took out some sort of… square? It unfolded to a large rectangular shape, is it made of… paper?
‘Her species still uses paper?’
She was a bit confused, if they can make advanced medicine then shouldn't they be way past that? Then she was reminded by the sound of the violent wind outside.
‘oh yeah… apocalypse’
She ran back to him all excited, Ciro can practically taste the thick naivety of this girl as she spoke with the largest smile she has ever seen.
“We’re here, not too far away from my home, but that's not where I'm going! I wanna go here! Look!”
She pointed to a drawing that resembles a mountain.
“It’s a really tall mountain! My dad’s been there before! He said it looks very pretty!”
“What… for?”
“To meet someone! My dad said there's someone very special there! That I should meet them! He said it’s important for everyone too… but he wanted to tell me first!”
Rika kept mentioning this “”dad””, and Ciro is going to go out on a limb to guess this dad is her parent.
“Is… dad mother?”
“Wha? No! My dad is a man! Strongest man ever!”
‘so a father?’
“Where is… dad?”
All the light in Rika’s eyes disappeared, replaced with something that made Ciro uneasy. Even when only partially connected, she can feel a strong feeling of sorrow from Rika, if she was probing her head Ciro probably would have been dead or atleast incapacitated from the sudden emotional overload.
“I…. Sorry”
“It’s okay… but he told me to go here, he gave me everything he has, and taught me everything, he said it can save me, everyone, i don't know what he means… but i’ll do it, for him, it’s all he always wanted”
Her voice wasn't as energetic as before, far from it. Ciro noticed that Rika glanced at the terrifying looking weapon on the wall, it seems it's more than just a tool of self defense.
“Ah… anyway, do you want to come with me?”
Ciro weighted her choices, she doesn't know this planet, she doesn't know how it is like after whatever happened to it, she doesn't know if others of Rika’s kind are as friendly as her, or if they even consider her approachable at all, she doesn't know how to survive, she's not that kind of person. At this point, she's not even worried, she nodded in response to her question, and perhaps, in a pleasant turn of event, Rika lit up once again, back to how she was.
“So you want to be friends?!”
“Y-yes…”
‘that feels regrettable in the long run’
“Yeeee! First friend! Uhm… oh, i forgot to ask, where are you from? Why are you riding that light?”
“What?”
“I save you, from a burning pit, light from the sky landed there, are you from up there? Why are you here?”
Ciro decided it doesn't hurt to just tell Rika, she would probably be more impressed and excited than terrified that there are other civilizations out there.
“Am from… uh… space, above sky, i am a…. Ko’k ehm… Q… Qo’kvell…”
“Above the sky? In the stars?”
Ciro was right, she looks absolutely excited.
“Yes… my kind… explore stars, am explorer”
“Oh! Are you exploring down here? What is it like up there?”
“Hard… to explain, explain… later”
“Aww… okay… let's go now should we? Storm is smaller now, we can go”
Rika was right, the wind outside had calmed down.
“Shure… S-sure, i mea- AHH!”
Rika pulled her up from her sitting position, and tore through cover protecting the cave from the winds outside. Outside was… bright, and hot, unpleasant, they seemed to be in a valley between two mountains. All Ciro can see is a dry landscape where trees used to be, hinted by the dry stumps barely poking out of the gravel and sand. A complete terraformation is she has to guess, something hit this planet hard.
“Wait here! I'll go get my stuff first!”
Ciro wondered how Rika managed to survive all this, but the more time she spent with her the more it seems to her Rika grew up in all of this, not forced into it.
‘how long has it been?’
“Let's go! We’re still far from it!”
Rika came out of the cave, bag on her back and weapon in hand.
“Where… is… vehicle?”
“Oh! It’s right here!”
She walked up to a large rock and pointed to it, Ciro was confused until Rika grabbed it and it turned out to be some sort of camouflage cover. It was nearly invisible, blending in with everything else, and it's clear why that is, her vehicle isn't the most discreet. Two wheels, all black, armored plates for the front and rear were welded to a long metal pole which itself is bolted on the vehicle’s side, acting as a mount for the armor.
“Hmm…”
“Cool right? My dad made it himself! He said it can’t ever go down!”
“Good… protection”
The mostly rubber wheels are slightly spiky, and have large ridges, probably to get better grip on smooth sand, and spikes for snow maybe?. It has two seats, one in front, one in the rear, surprisingly comfy looking seats despite all its brutal aspects. Rika got on it, and inserted a metal key, and the vehicle let out a fearsome roar. A mechanical Ignition tells Ciro that Rika’s kind probably isn't incredibly advanced.
‘no offense Rika…”
“Come on up! Another storm is probably coming soon! We don't want to get stuck!”
“O-okay…”
She got up on the back seat, it’s apparently leather, she wondered what kind of animal it came from.
“Ready?”
“Ye- EEK!”
Rika accelerated without warning, causing Ciro to almost fall off, she held onto Rika by hugging her, it felt inappropriate, but she seems fine with it. Ciro’s fine with it too, she's oddly comfortable to hold, maybe it’s just the heat from her body, she noticed that in the cave when she was being… petted, Rika's kind must be hot blooded.
‘Sigh… stranded in a wasteland planet, with a species never encountered before… How lucky am i?’
It would be any star mapper’s wet dream, that's for sure, she just wishes it went a little different, less explosions and less being stranded.
‘if only you’re here, mom’

There's this guy that I really like. We're "legal" na sa both families, but still not official bf and gf. Naghihintay lang siya sa'kin. Ako naman, takot lagyan ng label kung ano talaga kami. If ever sagutin ko siya, he'll be my first. Pero in his case, pang-ilan na ako. That's where mostly my insecurity come from kaya di ko magawa-gawang sumugal sa "kami". Hindi naman ako doubtful if he's serious with me cuz I know he is. Kahit man sa past rs niya, he's the genuine type. 'Di ko lang maiwasan isipin na his treatment towards me is just the same sa past niya. Na I'm no special kasi ganito lang talaga siya magmahal, kahit sino pa 'yan.
He has this friend and also neighbor na he used to be in love with. Lately, napapansin kong nadaragdagan 'yong times na nagkakasama sila. May bf naman si girl, but I can't help but grow anxious. I told him this one time and sabi niya, one-sided lang naman daw 'yon dati. Walang mutual understanding na nangyari, just him liking the girl. That made me question, so kung ginusto siya pabalik ni girl, it could be sila pa rin 'til now?
Ayokong magpaka-praning pero what if it's the universe that's pulling them together again? Y'know, like red string theory. You could think you're in love with someone rn pero passing feeling lang pala kasi sa iba ka talaga itinadhana. Lalo na ngayon na sa malayo ako mag-aaral. Nasasaktan ako sa thought na he's always at the beck and call ng girl kapag may favor (usually nagpapasundo o nagpapasama sa gala) and ako, yearning for his presence dahil sa distance namin.
I can't make up my mind, Gusto ko nang tapusin kasi lagi nalang akong umiiyak everytime nagu-update siya na magkasama sila. Para na nga akong pinapatay ngayon pa lang na malapit pa kami sa isa't isa. Baka hindi ko talaga kayanin kapag nagkalayo na kami. Pero it's not that easy rin na tapusin. I grew close to his family na and botong-boto rin fam ko sa kaniya. It's just that I'm too insecure to love him fully.

I(22F) have a bf(M27) na pinapa cut off yung friend(23M) ko.
So where did it all start, nag start sya nung nag review sya for boards year 2020. so ldr kami amd ako schooling pa kaya naiwan dito sa procince namin and sya dun sa big city nag review. while he's away and nag review hindi naman nawawala yung communication namin. so may sari sari store kami and usually gabi ako naka toka magbantay. and dun nag start makilala ko si friend, boarders sya sa katabi naming bahay. and nagkq close kami kasi ex(b4 gf) nya lagi dito nagtatambay sa tindahan namin and dito na din dinadala bf nya para mag inom with their friends. so ff, close ko na lahat nf boarders sa katabing bahay namin.
back to bf, he's away and nag stay sa sa apartment na miz bous and girls. and there's one girl na ka boardmate nya na di ko vibes and when i told him to keep distance sasabihim mya ma how daw eh same lang sila building but magkaina floors pero yung girl always sa floor nila kasi bff yung ka roommate ng bf ko ma bakla. And may isa pang girl, classmate nya. matagal na akong may ayaw kasi one timw nabasa ko sa phone ng bf ko when nag sleepover kami na nag chat yung babae ng 'I need you' in the middle of the night and gising pa kami ni bf nun kasi nag iinom kami and I asked him what was that about. close lang daw talaga sila before, school pa. Si bf, ay super daming friends mix boys and girls, and there are girls na di ako comfortable and pinapa distance sya peeo na eend up as away dahil bakot daw pati frienss nya kino kontra ko na. one time lasing kami both nag away kami dahil sa friend nyang babae and instead na sundin nalang yung request kong nah distance sa frienda nya sinabihan nya ako ng "mas nauna ko pa sya/sila nakilala kesa sayo" ouch haha and after that di na akp mag reklamo ever sa friends nya.
so now, yung friend ko na lalake na boarders before ng kapithahay namin graduate na. so umuwi na sya sa kanila. di na sila nagkita ni bf. and nakita ng bf ko na super active mag react at comment sa fb post ko si friend. so nagtanong sya sino daw yun nad I honestly answered na boarders before, at nagalit sya bakit daw super close kami pero di ko ma pinansin.
FF, miss universe season. nag share ako ng post sa fb na how sad I am dahil hindi si stacey yung nanalo and nag comment yung friend ko na "same di rin nanalo manok ko" and nag reply ako ng "pinuyatan pa namam😭😭😭" and after ilang minutes nag chat bf ko super galit bakit daw ganon yung reply ko pa iyal iyak pa super oa gusto ng comfort sa iBang lalake mga ganon and parang na offene ako sa mga sinasabi nya kasi for me and sa friend ko wala talaga malisya yumg exchange of comments namin. sa super galit nya ini insist nya ma e unfriend ko sa fb yung friend ko pero sumagot ako na "ang pangit naman na e unfriend ko sya sa ganong rason. ikaw nga pa distance lamg sa mga girl-friends mo di mo magawa" and then dun sumabog yung galit nya super na sinasabi nya na mas pinipili ko daw si friend kesa sa kanya na bf ko.
So, abyg kung di ko ma unfriend yung kaibigan ko?

Need your thoughts. Okay lang bang makipag inuman ung asawa nyong lalaki sa friend nya nung college(girl) ng silang dalawa lang?
Nagulat kasi ako nagpaalam uminom ang asawa ko na nag aaya daw ang mga friends nya noong college. So ako akala ko madami sila, ending dalwa lang pala sila. Di ko alam kung dapat ba kong mainis kasi di nya manlang naisip marardaman ko dahil nakikipag inuman sya sa babae. What if ako gumawa non at kami lang din dalawa ng isang lalaki. hays

Need your thoughts. Okay lang bang makipag inuman ung asawa nyong lalaki sa friend nya nung college(girl) ng silang dalawa lang?
Nagulat kasi ako nagpaalam uminom ang asawa ko na nag aaya daw ang mga friends nya noong college. So ako akala ko madami sila, ending dalwa lang pala sila. Di ko alam kung dapat ba kong mainis kasi di nya manlang naisip marardaman ko dahil nakikipag inuman sya sa babae. What if ako gumawa non at kami lang din dalawa ng isang lalaki. hays

Sorry if this is a long post! I tried to squeeze in every detail para fair also. I really just need to get it off my chest. Please be kind to her as well kasi she's a really great person and doesn't deserve hate.
My ex (26F) and I (23F) have been together for almost 3 years and we broke up a month ago, reason for our break up is our circumstance. Hindi pa sya out sa family nya pero she's capable na kasi to live on her own if ever man hindi sya maaccept. Stable na kasi sya in all aspects. While on the other hand, na out ako sa family ko kasi they discovered our relationship dahil sa nag snitch sa amin. I was born and raised on a Christian family so pinaghiwalay nila kami nung na discover nila about us (this was one year ago).
We still secretly dated and still together even after ma discover ng family ko yung relationship namin. I fought for her still kahit patago bcs of how much I love her and she did the same. She was someone who loved me so much, and would do everything for me before. It was unconditional love na nag ooverflow din with the people around me kasi my friends can also see yung efforts nya for me and how much she loved me.
For the past 2 years of being together still she did everything for me, she loved me genuinely, wrote me songs, travelled almost every week just to see me for hours, wala syang pagkukulang sakin kahit LDR kami hanggang sa dumating sa point na parang sobrang nasanay nalang ako na ginagawa nya all those things for me na di ko namamalayan na to-took for granted ko na.
I thought I was doing my best at that time to love her with everything that I'm capable of as of the moment. My parents are very strict also to the point na every time I'm out with my friends or someone I need to take photos for proof lol. (They are over protective bcs I'm the bunso and baby pa tingin nila sakin lol) I've already talked to them about this, na adult na ako. Don't get me wrong, I grew up in a household na hindi toxic, lumaki ako with love and no trauma naman at all kaya hindi ko rin sila fully masisisi bakit hindi nila kami matanggap bcs of their beliefs. Madali lang sana iwanan kung puro trauma natanggap ko all my life but no, I know I was loved and cherished by them too and I'm so grateful for that.
My ex already wants to settle down with me, marry me and everything but I wasn't ready. Feeling ko I still have a lot to explore with myself, career, and in all aspects. Although sya na rin talaga nakikita ko sa future ko, I wasn't ready for it yet and sya ready na kasi stable na sya with everything. Until we had the talk na parang sino mas pipiliin ko, family ko or sya? I never thought that day would come na ganung choices na need kong piliin. Umaasa pa rin kasi ako na maybe someday we'll get both, na matatanggap pa rin kami no matter what. I really don't know how to answer kasi I love her so much but I love my family too. My fam also made it clear to me na they'll parang cut me off if ever sya piliin ko. Until parang na over na yung conversation na yun and di nalang muna namin pinagusapan.
Fast forward, a month ago. We had a talk again wherein we broke up na mutually bcs we said we need to work on ourselves first. We said that it's not a goodbye but more on see you later. We loved each other so much that we had to let each other go. 2 weeks after the break up I was just feeling fine, hurt but getting through and she's not. Her friends are telling me kung gaano na sya hindi nakakakain and puro inom nalang because of what happened to us. We were still talking from time to time during those 2 weeks just asking how's each other and all. (Even saying our I love you's still lol)
Until such time na parang in one snap everything just changed. Naging friends sya sa mga lesbians also na mga 30s na, then I discovered na she was talking to a girl na bigla. Doon nag sync in sakin lahat na break na kami, wala na sya sakin. For 2 weeks I was doing fine, then nung nalaman ko yun parang nabasag yung mundo ko. (There was no cheating involved, she didn't know the girl until 2 weeks after we broke up, I know this bcs we're all in one company lol)
I can't eat or sleep at all so I decided to travel sa kanila to ask kasi hindi ko talaga matanggap yung thought na parang sobrang bilis nya akong palitan. Then when I asked her, she said sorry, gusto nalang din daw talaga nya mag move forward sa life nya, yung na realize nya daw over the past 2 weeks ayaw nya na daw maging malungkot, ayaw nya na daw bumalik sa dati nung sirang sira sya (She became alcoholic at that time nung first relationship nya). Feeling ko avoidant kasi sya with the things that are happening.
She apologized kung mabilis pero sa past few days daw na nag ttalk sila she saw potential daw sa girl (34F), she saw what she's willing to offer daw na hindi ko kaya maibigay sa kanya. Although getting to know stage palang naman daw sila, but she also admitted na may nangyari na sa kanila. I was shattered, bcs I did my best to fight for us. Hindi ko maisip kung rebound nya lang ba to fill the void or talagang totoo na she really saw potential sa girl. I told her baka love bombing lang yun and all but she said no. Even her friends suddenly saw how quickly she changed, she turned into this ice cold queen na parang hindi na sya yun and it felt like I'm the one to blame kasi the pain that I've cause her made her change.
Even after all this happened, I still insisted to stay at her place for a week. I just really want to understand and parang sa sobrang sakit kinailangan ko to atleast gain myself back para pagbalik ko sa amin medyo clear na ako bcs I wasn't really functioning well. During my stay there, I witnessed how her and the new girl are talking, literally like same as we were staring before. (Sobrang brutal diba and martyr ko for insisting on staying there kahit alam kong masasaktan lang din ako lol). I really can't understand pa rin how it's possible or sobrang avoidant nya lang ba talaga to feel the pain of our break up or talagang naka move on na sya talaga. Sobrang sakit pero narealize ko na 2 years syang nagtitiis sa pain na nabibigay ko sa kanya ng di ko namamalayan so parang na jjustify ko pa sa head ko na deserve nya to be happy also? Also weird bcs during those times I was staying there we were still kissing from time to time.... I told her to tell the girl na nandun ako and that we're doing some stuff too but she said she can't kasi mawawala daw yung girl?? Sobrang different nya bigla from the person that I love before kasi alam kong hindi talaga sya capable of lying and all, which leads me again to the pain na she's feeling kaya she's doing these things? Sabi nya naman sasabihin nya rin daw eventually hahanap lang daw sya ng timing.. Parang sobrang bigla kaming naging toxic nung dulo just bcs of our break up.
I know how messed up it was na nung ending but our love was really beautiful, witness all the people around us and it just pains me to see how it ended. Even after our last day together we still agreed na parking lang kami, explore lang kami things and who knows once we're both ready we'll end up together pa rin. Now, I'm still in so much pain from the break up and she seems like she's doing fine na, hindi ko pa rin matanggap na parang sya okay tapos ako hindi pa rin haha. Hindi ko alam kung ako ba yung nag hheal ng tama kasi naffeel ko yung pain and sobrang avoidant nya na di pa rin nya niddeal pain ng break up namin or baka sadyang naka move on nalang talaga sya.
Ahhhhh I know how brutal and how bad this sounds sa kanya just because of this story but I swear she's really a great person. I think yung too much pain talaga nagpa cause sa kanya to do stuff na she's not doing before :/ It's so complicated and I just really want to get through.. and I'm so mindblowned by the fact that after everything that happened I still want her back in my life.

Hi. I'm F(26), currently joined this page and is new to reddit. I just want to seek some advice, and also I'm writing this to get this thing out of my chest. Please bear with me since 1st time ko pong gumawa nito.
I had a BF (24), he's a Men in Uniform from Cavite. We broke up 2 weeks ago. The reason was, I caught him talking to his girl bestfriend na pinagseselosan ko. Caught their convo sa imessage tapos nasa deleted na, buti nalang na recover ko pa. The unusual updates, them asking for pictures to one another, and their midnight calls. I discovered it day after our anniversary. During our first few months sinabihan ko na sya na hindi ako komportable sa kaibigan nya, nakikita ko kasi kung pano silang mag-usap na dalawa. Nilayuan sya nong girl and she's even aware na nagseselos ako sa kanya kasi sinabi ni EX sa circle of friends nila. Not until September last year, sya yung naunang mag reach out sa babae. Sya yung nangungulit, they even met just this year without me knowing it. When I found out, iyak ako ng iyak, nakapagbitaw ako ng hindi magagandang salita sa kanya, and I even threw away the things he gave me dahil sa sobrang galit ko. During that day pabalik na sya non sa Manila, by the way I'm living in a Province so we barely see each other lang, 1-2weeks every after 2 months or 3 months lang kami nagkikita since umuuwi lang naman sya pag bakasyon nila.
Worse thing happened, 1 week after we broke up, I found out I had a miscarriage. I had no idea na may laman na pala tyan ko since feb, naging kampante kami pareho since irregular naman ako. I bled for 2days after nong malaking blood clot na lumabas sakin, I went to the doctor immediately. The Doctor told me that they can't identify if I was really pregnant since hindi din ako nakapag PT. I had an ultrasound day after and nakitang may marks nga ng miscarriage. I informed him right away about the situation, he was worried (I think), he insisted to help sa gastusin sa check ups and cleaning tsaka sa gamot na iinumin. I was having a hard time that time and habang nakakausap ko sya I noticed na walang kahit anong guilt or remorse akong nakikita sa kanya. Sabi nya gusto nya na din daw makabuo kami, nabigay nga samin, pero binawi din agad. Gusto ko syang sisihin sa nangyari. Gusto kong isumbat na kasalanan nya ba't nangyari lahat ng yon. Gusto kong pagsisihan nya lahat. Gusto kong danasin nya din yung sakit na dinadanas ko hanggang ngayon. Hindi ko na alam ano ba dapat kong maramdaman. Patulong naman po. Pano ba'ko makakausad nito? San po ba ako magsisimula? Ilang gabi na po akong iyak ng iyak. Napapagod na ko. Nagkakaro'n nako ng mga negative thoughts na gagawin. D na po ako makapag isip ng ayos.

It's the year 20XX.
It's a sweet yet breezy night on the eve of Ganesh Chaturthi at Gokuldham.
The clock has just passed 8:30 p.m. and one can hear voices coming through the doors of the clubhouse.
The voices are rough and old, yet there's some sweetness to it. They are familiar voices. It's Bhide, Iyer and Popatlal, discussing about banishing someone from Gokuldham's Cultural Fiestas.
Bhide's still savoury about how he couldn't properly see off Sonu, who is spending her honeymoon in the UK. He keeps muttering "mein yeh Gada family ko chorunga nehi. Mujhe Sonu ko permission hi nhi dena chaiye tha 😠🥸!!".
Hearing this, the newly promoted Senior Scientific Research Head of his department, Mr S. Iyer, with a smirk, says " main toh abhi ke abhi usko ban karne ka bolta hain. Atmaram, yeh decision meh main tumraha hundred percent saath dega. 😈"
Adding to the conversation, a merry and ecstatic Popatlal says " Bhide, jo bhi ho, tum kisi aur ka gussa Tapu and Sonu peh maat nikalo. Un logo ko shanti se apna honeymoon manane do, bhai. 😪"
Bhide, with his frowning eyebrows, yells " haan Popatlal, tum toh bologe hi. Akhir shaadi-shuda jo ho gaye ho aab 😒. Jaab tum ek beti ke baap banoge na, taab tumhe pata chalega kitna tension hota hain! Choro yesaab, bhabi ko phone lagao aur pucho ki Mahila mandal hain kaha? Aur balance ka bahana maat dena please!! 😑"
With a bit of irritation, Popatlal agrees to Bhide and calls his wife.
A sudden phone starts ringing but is subdued by bursts of laughter coming from a group of jolly and giggling women climbing the clubhouse's stairs.
These are very familiar faces with a new one added to the flock. They are Daya Bhabi, Madhvi Bhabi, Anjali Bhabi, Komal Bhabi, Roshan Bhabi, Babita Ji and Mrs. Popatlal 😊😇.
Coming to the entrance of the society is a mediocre yet busy departmental store. The store is bigger than its predecessor "All-In-One Abdul's Soda Shop" but smaller than a typical commercial departmental store. Yet the customers keep flooding in, even in the late hours of the day. The owner is Abdul and today he's in a hurry. He won't be able to make it to the society meeting.
His wife called saying his little baby boy won't eat until his father arrives.
But, keeping Abdul occupied are three young men. Gogi, Goli and Pinku.
Pinku, sipping the masala soda, says " Goli, chinta maat kar, bhabi ko pata hi nhi chalega, pee le ek glass 😂".
Adding to it, Gogi says " oye Pinku! bilkul sahi kaha. Oye balle balle karke pee leh ek glass masala soda, Doctor Gulab Kumar!! 😇😂 "
Goli, in a grim voice, replies
" Gogi, Pinku tumlog engineers ho, doctors nahi. Tumhe kya pata yeh masala soda peene se mere diet peh kinta assaar padega! 😒
Aur Gogi, wo meri hone wali biwi hain, uski baat toh sunni hi padegi na. 😑 Abhi Mehta Uncle ko hi dekhlo. 🫤 Kabhi Anjali aunty neh baksh diya unko? 😓 Aur toh aur wo mummy se aur Abdul uncle se almost regularly meri khabar leti rehti hain. 😔
Aur Pinku, teri bhi toh girlfriend hain na? Tu kya uska baath nhi manta?! 😏"
Interrupting their gossip, Abdul hastily
says " Baccho, I mean Goli sena, jaldi peeo soda. Mujhe late ho raha hain!! 😓 "
Pinku adds " Abdul uncle, aab toh aap paas ke neighbourhood peh shift ho gaye ho. Chinta maat karo. Jaldi ghar pauch jaoge. 😄"
Coming to the much-celebrated compound of Gokuldham, stands a beautifully decorated pandal. Passing by it, are two men, heading towards the clubhouse from the A-wing. They are Sodhi and Haathi bhai.
Haathi bhai's everlasting smiles 😁😋 are spreading more as his son's wedding date is inching closer.
Sodhi's spirits are high as ever 😊👌, due to a hefty increase in sales, in his inaugural car showroom.
On their way, Sodhi has a quick glance to his right and finds the evergreen Taarak Mehta climbing the old, rusty metallic staircase attached to the B-wing. Sodhi zestfully raises his right arm, waves at Taarak, and shouts " Ooooo Mehta Saaab(Saheb) jaldi ajaao aap dono, humlog clubhouse meh wait karenge. 😊"
Mehta Saab(Saheb) turns, looks at them, nods with a grin and climbs all the way up.
Upon reaching the first floor, Taarak enters through a door and walks into a room to find three people talking among themselves.
It's an old familiar face sitting on the wheelchair, smiling and bidding adieu to the other two, Nattu Kaka and Bagha.
It's Champak Chacha in the wheelchair.
Taarak surprisingly greets everyone and asks
"arreh Nattu Kaka aur Bagha? 🤨 Ap dono yeha? 🤨 Iss vakt? 🤨 sab kuch theek hain na mere param mitra ke sath? 🤨"
Laughing to this Nattu Kaka says that he has come to thank "Seth ji" for increasing his salary for the third time in two years. 😊
While, Bagha, the newly appointed Manager of Gada Electronics-2, has come to thank "Seth Ji" for granting him a small vacation, which his wife, Bawri kept insisting on, ever since their marriage. 😄
After this,
Both leave hastily yet joyfully.
Then, Champak Chacha smiles and says to Taarak "arreh Mehtus! Jaa bedroom ke andaar ja. 😄
Waha beheta hain. Bohot Kush hain aaj. Jaa bedroom meh jaa. 😄 "
Taarak is taken aback by Nattu Kaka's salary hike and Bagha's wish fulfilment all done by his beloved friend, who is being joyful on top of it. He predicts something weird yet marvellous has happened to his beloved friend,
and, quickly storms to the bedroom.
Upon entering, he finds a joyous and grinning face sitting on the bed, with a suitcase full of money.
Taarak whispers "arre JETHALAL!! Kya baath hain bhai ... akhir hua kya ajanaak jo tum itne khush ho? 😃🤔"
a sharp and shrewd voice answers,
" .. MEHTA SAAB!! aiye! aiye! 😃😃
Kya batau apko ( ahh-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha ) 😄😄
akhir Sundaar aah hi gya pahar ke niche!! akhir lauta hi diya mere saare paise!! 😁😁"
Mehta Saab, with his protruding eyes, asks
" kaab? kyse? yeah chamatkar kyse ho gya? 😯😧"
Jethalal says " haan haan sab batahu 😮‍💨. Sab Bapuji ke kaaran hain 😁! Akhir Bapuji ki pravachan neh isko bhi badal dala!! 😌😮‍💨
Chaliye clubhouse jaate jaate sab vistar se batata hu!😄"
Mehta Saab nods to Jethalal and both head towards the drawing room.
Both seek Champak Chacha's blessings 😇
and head for the clubhouse.
It's a calm and beautiful night. 🌙
The stars are dazzling in the sky. 🌃
Jethalal and Mehta Saab have started strolling around the pandal, talking to each other before entering the clubhouse.
A mild breeze is blowing. 🎐🍃
Everyone is feeling the festive season.
It's a blissful night at Gokuldham.
It's almost 9 p.m.
Champak Chacha gets a phone call from his friend Ramji Kaka, and starts talking to him merrily.
Abdul has reached home by now and is having dinner with his family.
Goli, Gogi and Pinku are at Goli's house, having a sleepover because tomorrow's a holiday and they need to prepare for the function. Bhide will let them know of the plans later on.
Somewhere in Ahmadabad, ACP Mr Pandey has caught a much-wanted and notorious con man named Sundarlal. He is happy and is eyeing yet another promotion.
Back at Gokuldham, the Mahila Mandal has taken their seats in the clubhouse.
An annoyed Bhide is about to start the meeting. Suddenly Bhide’s phone rings!!
Bhide, with excitement and disappointment both, receives the call, yelling, “Haan Tapu, Sonu ko phone do 😒”
Tapu and Sonu have called Bhide to greet him and everyone else as they know everyone’s going to be there for the Ganesh Chaturthi meeting.
Upon knowing it is Tapu and Sonu’s call, almost everyone gets up and starts walking towards Bhide.
THAT TYPICAL CHAOTIC/INTENSE/DRAMATIC TMKOC BACKGROUND MUSIC STARTS PLAYING
Bhide starts lecturing Tapu, walking away from everyone.
Everyone starts running after Bhide's phone. 🤳🚶⬅️🚶‍♂️🚶‍♀️🚶‍♂️🚶‍♀️🚶‍♂️🚶‍♀️🚶‍♂️🚶‍♀️🚶‍♂️🚶‍♀️..
Bhide won't stop lecturing Tapu. 🤬 Tapu wants to talk to others. 😓
Sonu’s voice can be heard, saying, “Baba!!! main thik hoon, app Tapu ko mat danto!! 😥😓
Suddenly,
Jethalal and Mehta Saab enter the clubhouse!!
Iyer and Popatlal immediately start mocking Jethalal.
The Mahila Mandal wants to talk to Sonu.
Jethalal goes " Babitaa jiiiii.. 🤩"
Bhide, while screaming on the phone, hears Jethalal
and yells, " Jethalaaaaaaal!!!!! firse late?!!! 🤬"
Babita ji looks at Jethalal and says, “ Jetha ji! 😅😄”
Iyer goes, “Jethalaaaaal, tum kab sudhrega? 👿”
Popatlal starts saying, “Nhi cancel, meeting cancel!!
Jethalal tum bohot late ho. 😤”
All of a sudden,
Jethalal, Bhide, Iyer and Popatlal start arguing.
Tapu and Sonu want to talk to everyone.
Madhvi bhabhi screams, “Ahoo! aap phone do na!
Sonu see baat krni hai! 😡 Kyun Tapu ke piche padh gye ap?” Daya bhabhi wants to talk to Tapu.
Sodhi is trying to calm things down by grabbing Popatlal from behind.
Hathi bhai can’t even get up and is already feeling hungry!
Chaos has started hitting the roof.
Everyone has started talking and screaming.
The usual hustle and bustle has started.
Seeing all this, Anjali bhabhi turns towards Taarak and asks him to do something.
Taarak Mehta sees all this.
Turns towards us. Breaks the fourth wall. Smiles
and
Says, " Dosto, yehi hain humari Gokuldham Society! Aab vakt hain aapse vida lene ka. Paar aap dukhi maat hoiye ga.
Aap log baas HAASTE RAHIYE! MUSKURATE RAHIYE! Aur.. "
pauses, with a tear in his eye, smiles and says, " Dilo meh Yaadh rakhiye hum sabko.. Hum Hain..
TAARAK MEHTA KA OOLTAH CHASHMAH" :) THE TITLE SONG STARTS PLAYING
Thank you :)
(I HAVE NOT WRITTEN THIS IT HAS BEEN TAKEN FROM QUORA)

my girlfriend and i have been dating for a few months now. she's an intern and medyo malayo yung internship niya sa permanent address niya kaya she's living in an apartment near her job with her 3 friends (2 girls, 1 guy). during the first 2 weeks of her internship, may kinekwento siyang guy (lets name him T) na regular dun na medyo flirty and "gentleman" sa mga kapwa niyang interns, kasama na dun yung isa sa mga friends niya. i communicated with her na if it's alright with her medyo i-lessen nalang interactions niya with T and she agreed. ayaw niya rin raw makipag close sa mga boys dun kasi she finds them weird rin.
fast forward a month later, T is still flirty. Palagi niyang inaaya friend ng GF ko na makipag-inuman or mag meet-up sa apartment nila and dun mag-inuman. I find it weird kase may power imbalance na nagaganap. Although lahat naman na sila adults, one is a regular employee the other is a student-intern. Palagi ko pinagsasabihan GF ko na iwasan si T and sabihin rin sa friends niya na wag na masyadong makipag-interact kay T. One night, ininvite ng friends niya (yung 2 girls lang, wala yung guy na roommate nila) sina T and isa pang guy na uminom sa apartment nila. My GF was unaware na ininvite nila si T uminom pero wala na raw siyang nagawa and nahihiya siya ireject offers nila uminom kaya sumali nalang siya sa inuman nila. I was seriously hurt kasi my GF knew naman na i was uncomfortable with her having interactions with T and yung isang guy pero she proceeded to get drunk. I felt like my boundaries were crossed. Wala naman problem sakin if she drinks, get drunk, and have fun. All i want was for her to update me from time to time and to drink responsibly. Hindi ako makatulog that night because she went MIA for 2 hours, no updates from her. I was so scared kung ano na nangyayari sakanila because it was 3 girls who were small versus 2 guys na matangkad and malaki in an apartment na sila sila lang. Pakiramdam ko my heart was beating out of my chest and mind was on overdrive thinking about whats happening na sakanila. After calling her multiple times thank god sumagot na siya it was already 1am na and she needed to be awake and sober by 6am. When she answered medyo drunk na siya and she said not to worry kasi patapos na sila. We ended the call and i waited for her to reply sa messages kasi sabi nga niya patapos na sila. 2am na and wala pa rin so I called her again and this time she was so drunk to the point na nagsusuka na siya. At this point, galit na ako sakanya, sabi ko very irresponsible uminom on a weekday and may papasukan siya na internship na maaga. sinabi ko rin na she knew na i was uncomfy with her interacting with the guys bakit pa siya sumama na uminom.
the following morning, she was apologizing parin and nadulas siya na may 3rd guy pa pala silang kasama. Ang sinabi niya lang sa akin na kasama nila was si T and yung other guy na regular rin. She failed to mention na may isa pa silang kasama na di nila kilala pero friend ni T. Sobrang galit talaga ako when I found out. I was lied to and she explained na di niya lang sinabi kasi alam niyang mas lalo ako magiging concerned and magagalit if nalaman ko may 3rd guy pa. I was so mad, hurt, disappointed, and sad with everything that was happening. Never kong inakala na she would lie to me.
What sucks pa is she knows where I came from. my GF knew na may trauma ako sa cheating and lying because of my ex who cheated on me twice. my GF knew about how my parent's infidelity with each other kaya I was so mad when i found out she kept something from me and lied about it. She assured me na walang nangyarinh bad that night, nagkwentuhan lang raw sila. I want to believe her so bad pero wala, I just can't look at her the same way.
Naisip ko makipag-break kasi super dealbreaker ang lying sa akin. Nandun na yung takot ko na what if she lies again and it's going to be so difficult for me to trust her again. And ayoko rin sobrang mag-overthink of her every action if we ever continue the relationship. Iisipin ko nalang lahat is a lie and ayoko rin pahirapan yung GF ko to handle my overthinking and to reassure me all the time.
I asked people for advice, if I what I felt was valid or if OA lang ako. Valid naman raw na galit pero wag ko raw break-an kasi maaayos naman if pag-usapan lang ng maayos.
oa ba ako or valid nararamdaman ko? what can you guys advice me?

19F I ve been always hated by god, he took away my father when i was small and my mom got PTSD and she began ro act more abnormally and unconsciously after that taruma,
There was no source of income for me and my mom to live on our own, so my mama took us to their house, initially they would treat me ok, but as i grew and expenses for study became more my maiju started acting cheap,
She used to give more and more tanas to my mother and me and , wont give us foood properly . Ek din ma ra mummy hospital gatheu jachauna bhanera ani ghar farkida ta maiju tala lagayera bahira janu bhayexa, we waited hai for literally 5 hours bahira jado ma ani 10 bajetira farkepaxi, they said sathi ko birthday party ma gaako re, ani khana khaisakya re, tei bhayera hamile bahira bata magaune re although she knew we didn't have any money ani maiju janubho room tiraa ani mama le hamlai sorry ma kei garna mildaina vandai paisa dinuvo, ani kei magayera khau vannu vo,
Ani tespaxi ma aba financially independent huna kei garxu vanne soche although i was i just 18, and there was helpful dai who owns a cafe near thamel who knew my condition through his relatives (my mamas neighbours). So he made me bartender knowing my condition, i was making some money and almost all i used in savings katai pani afno personal expenses ko lagi ramailo garna kharcha varya xaina.
Although i got a job my maiju was still not happy, she began to brag about the expenses required to feed us and look after us, But its not trues my mama has got nursery buisness and 3 storey building where one flat is given to rent, Her actions became very cruel then ,ma padna basda main switch off gardine, mero ra tyo bartender dai ko barema very cheqp kura garne, mero mummy ra ma mathi awaj uthaune and what not,
I usually worked for 8 pm in cafe , but 2 days before day its was like some school batch reunion, so our cafe was busy , understanding the situation ma pani 8 baje nai janxu bhanna sakina tyo manxe lai jasle garna maile income kamairaxu, i thought it would be like upto 10 but went to 1, i called my mom around 9 to say it she was angry with me and said xito bhanda xito aaija ani maile mildaina bhanera hung up, Ani after 1dai dropped me to home, i called my mom to open the door but maiju came with sppiting cheap things lightly, and maile aaja dhilo kina vayo vanna napaudai she said sutera aais , koko sita sutis and stuff, i was literally speechless all the neighbors got out at balcony and started watching that i was just standing there in gate almost about to throw up, after 15 minutes of slut shaming and degrading me , i went in and i tried to hug my mom but she was angry to me too and mom also said yesto garxes ta aru le bhanihalxan ni, afnai xori yesto pari.
At that moment i decided to never to see this house again, i ranted about this situation in my gc and said i want to just leave this place or die, that day i hot personal dm from one of the girls in gc , although she had bullied and humiliated me in past, she looks like she was sorry and guilt tripping she said there is good job for me in India in her relatives buisness which can pay me good,
After listening this i immediately left the house, i dont care if they make my mom suffer now, i had tolerated so much for her just to be hated. Currently im at my cafe i haven't told anyone about this not even a single friends, the thing is that india janu aghi ive to take some documents from my college jun malai balla yaad aayo, masita hotel ma basne ni paisa xaina aba, india jana tei sathi le milaidinxu bhaneki xa, so ill have to wait for parsi, i have no place to live any fellow sisters would you allow me to stay at your place for 2 nights please help. I have nowhere to go.