After months of my practitioners barely giving me enough medicine to keep the yeast at bay following multiple rounds of powerful antibiotics. They said I qualified for the appointment based on the duration of my symptoms and the yeast not responding to traditional care. I have tested negative for STIs, autoimmune disorders, and multiple scans of my body have revealed absolutely nothing. Most of my tests have returned negative for yeast despite obvious yeast as witnessed by myself and several doctors.
My symptoms
Oral thrush mostly on tongue Burning tongue Sore throat Sore glands
Anal itching and discomfort Red yeast rashes Pain
Vaginal thrush Constant tingling and itching sensation across entire vaginal area
Severe low back and pelvic pain Occurs randomly Shoots down legs Hard to tell if nerve or muscular Started at same time as yeast
Symptoms flare with alcohol and sugar and with sweating
Has anyone gone to ID and had a successful encounter? I feel like this yeast is slowly killing me.

Why do deserts, especially baked goods, give me nausea and head aches but soda is fine?
I don't handle eating deserts well. Cookies and brownies seem to be okay in small amounts but other deserts make me feel awful, especially cake. I mostly avoid eating deserts, especially from restaurants.
However, I can drink soda and usually don't have a problem. It takes a lot of soda for me to start to feel bad, and most of the time it seems like it's more that I havent had enough water more so than the amount of sugar I have had. I can normally drink one or two glasses of juice but after that it will start to make me feel awful too.
Is there a reason the sugar in deserts would have such a bigger impact on me than soda? I know there's different types of sugars but I would think the soda ones would be worse. That doesn't seem to be the case for me. Obviously soda is really bad for you. I'm not arguing otherwise.
I am 25 years old, 5'10", 195lbs, mostly European ancestry. I am currently taking allergy medicine and allergy shots, but these are both fairly new. Sugar has been affecting me greatly since I was probably about 13 and it's getting worse

Conversational Uglies in Cafe
Hi guys. I’m aware this poem requires a bit of (medical) context so you can scroll to the end for it or you can just experience it blind. ( 1 2 )
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My body is whimpering these begs to stay alive.
But I withhold the medicine in a a literal gut wrenching tease (side effects include: severe abdominal pain).
There’s no cure for this disease and several names for this cruelty.
I’ll shuffle through them like a deck of cards. Make your bets now. How many hospital visits this year? Just one if I do this right…
When the lights go off and nobody’s home,
the report will say the house was last observed hollow,
because my body was eating itself to stay alive and all these ugly musings died with me.
What can I say? My liver’s a champion.
I’m lucky. That’s what the doctor said.
Ha.
On my deathbed, the boisterous cadences of my hunger will have followed me.
Echoing from the flimsy walls of this wicked anatomy.
(A moment of silence to let the teenage-edginess pass, please. The flesh must mock itself to save itself).
What was it for? I.E this self-inflicted torture.
A body in pain is easier to inhabit, that’s how it’s always been for me.
Even the anxieties are worth the way my collarbones jut in this sexy way.
“Too much, too much, Body. Rein it in. Tone it down.”
There’s a strategy to this, you see. The best killers are only briefly suspect.
My skin is yellow. My skin is dry. I’ll go blind one day. Not today. Two warring concepts. Who I Am and Who I Thought I Was.
(“You’re lucky.”)
Oh, how the dress clings…
Insert cartoonish sound effects of medicine being injected.
The swelling is instant. Of my body, and of the orchestra as my life is finally fed. (THE DRESS CLINGS! IT MUSTN’T! IT MUSTN’T!).
My bloodstream’s biased. Can’t listen to it. My brain chemistry is feeling conflicted about the whole ordeal but it’ll come around.
Self-love is important and I’m afraid the insulin metabolizes it, too.
I won’t let myself swallow my reality.
But this tiramisu serves my goals perfectly, friend (It comes in biscuit-cream-coffee-chocolate-devastation layers).
I’m supermodel-level agonized, baby. That’s the suffering we all strive for.
I make an idol of the grief.
The months keep track of themselves loudly. (Doctor in ICU: you’re just waiting for an accident to happen. (Girl has no response)).
Anyhow, a corpse can’t feel regret so I’m not too worried.
Just pretend you understand my humor (like how I pretend I don’t understand this sacrifice).
This one’s on me if you promise never to ask how I am.
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Context: Diabulimia is a complicated eating disorder where a diabetic will purposely withhold insulin to lose weight (as insulin is a hormone that helps sugar enter cells for energy and therefore cause weight gain). As insulin is withheld, the liver begins to breakdown fat and basically melt it into the bloodstream for energy. Weight is lost but the blood’s acidity rises as a consequence leading to DKA, fatal if not treated. If you or someone you know is exhibiting side effects of DKA or diabulimia, allow me to be cliche and advise you to seek help.

I’ve literally been hyperventilating/crying all night and all day.
I’m insulin dependent and my husband lost his job in January, so we lost our insurance. I had no insurance for all of April, but I had an insulin reserve so I was able to still take medicine the entire month.
Anyway, my state finally approved for me to have insurance at the beginning of this month but everything is messed up.
My endocrinologist is no longer covered by my insurance and they won’t approve my Dexcom sensor refills so far.
The insurance switched me from basaglar to lantus and from novolog to humalog as well. I had a pretty good hang of how to control my blood sugar before these switches. I still have some novolog left but am on the new lantus.
I started with a smaller dose than I took of basaglar even though they assured me it’s the same. I don’t know why, but for me it isn’t. My numbers keep rising higher and higher and crashing because I don’t know what I’m doing and how I’m dosing wrong. I’m on the same diet I was on before when my blood sugars were more under control, but I’m on less lantus, like half of what I was on and my blood sugars are going crazy. Super low at midnight then much higher when I wake up and all over the place the rest of the time.
I also have a problem with my toe and my insurance keeps not approving me to see a podiatrist, so I’m scared I’m going to lose my foot.
I found out this year I’m going blind from the disease. I really want to control it so I can keep my eye sight. My eye doctor was cruel when she diagnosed me and I sobbed in front of her while she told me I deserved for this to happen to me.
And I have non-stop extreme exhaustion and light headedness that my doctors won’t help me with even though I fainted and had to be hospitalized for it in January.
And I’m trying as hard as I can but this disease is much stronger than me and I’m so scared and so tired of people judging me. Please help me.

For context, I'm ND and 40 years old, and had my gallbladder removed about five years ago. My whole life, I've never been hungry when I wake up, and tend to be either repulsed by food first thing, or just can't make myself eat until I'm actually hungry later in the day.
Over the course of the last six months or so, I've been waking up actually hungry, with increasing frequency. I know it's such a small thing, but it's seriously throwing me off, bc it's starting to mess up my sleep by waking me up way before I need to be up. I've taken to eating a light snack before bed and it helped for a little while, but lately I've been waking up ravenous, so I'm not sure if the snack is making it worse, or just not putting enough of a dent in it. And the thing is, once I eat, I'm not even a little bit hungry for the rest of the day. I've taken Adderall for my ADHD for years, and this has never been an issue until recently.
This is just really puzzling to me, and my doctor hasn't found anything concerning about my sugar levels, so I can't help but wonder if this is another one of those oddities of perimenopause. And every time I try to ask the doc about these little oddities, he seems like a deer in headlights when I suggest it might be peri related...so I'm assuming that this is one of the few areas of medicine that he's not confident in. Anyone else deal with something similar, or have some tips for good snacks before bed that will help me stay full longer?

I talked to someone here who said they have a 6.1% a1c and that their endo said their control was amazing. But then according to this https://www.yalemedicine.org/news/prediabetes
"A result in the range of 5.7%–6.4% indicates prediabetes." and "But prediabetes itself is a serious health issue. “Prediabetes goes hand in hand with metabolic syndrome, the term for a condition that includes hypertension, obesity, and high cholesterol,” says Yale Medicine endocrinologist Anika Anam, MD. Each of those conditions raises the risk for serious issues, such as heart disease, stroke, and cancer."
And it is the sugar doing the damage, not the insulin resistance, as it says "That’s because the excessive sugar in your blood damages blood vessels and nerves throughout your body."
Doesn't make sense to me how endos only mention the health risks of a prediabetic a1c when talking to non type 1 diabetics. As if high blood sugar doesn't affect type 1 diabetics the same.

I finally started on injectable meds for the first time in my life. I was diagnosed type 2 at about age 14 but my initial diagnosis was insulin resistance and syndrome x at the age of 7. Most of my life my blood sugars have been controlled with medications like metformin and glipizide but after some trauma and getting older those medicines are no longer controlling my blood sugar and I recently started on a ozempic.
I am about 7 weeks on the medicine, 3 weeks at .5mg and it's having zero effect on my blood sugar.
Has anyone else experienced having no effect at the lower doses but seen success at the higher ones? I'm trying not to lose hope.

Sorry if this sounds selfish but this is really only a one time thing for a friend. I need someone to use there undetectable AI account to paraphrase this please.
IntroductionThe rise of fast food chains in the United States from 2000 to 2010 had an impact on both the culture and economy. This period saw an increase in obesity rates among Americans, which coincided with the growth of these eateries. In this essay we delve into the connection between the expansion of fast food franchises and the obesity epidemic examining factors that influence health. Through an analysis of data, health studies and relevant literature our goal is to provide an understanding of how consuming food has played a role in fueling obesity during this particular decade, in America.The Growth of Fast Food Chains
Between 2000 and 2010 there was a rise in the fast food industry. Popular chains such as McDonalds, Burger King and Subway expanded their reach by opening stores to meet the demand for budget friendly meals. Data from the U.S. Census Bureau shows that the number of fast food eateries increased by around 20% during this timeframe (U.S. Census Bureau, 2011). This expansion made fast food more convenient for a range of people, including kids and teenagers.
Obesity Trends in the U.S. (2000 2010)
The prevalence of obesity in America has been on a trajectory during the early years of the 21st century. According to the Centers for Disease Control and Prevention (CDC) the rate of obesity among adults rose from 30.5% in 2000 to 35.7% in 2010 (CDC, 2011). Similarly among children and teens aged between 2 and 19 years old obesity rates increased from 13.9% to 16.9% over that period. This continuous increase signals a concerning public health issue with impacts on illness rates, mortality rates and healthcare expenses.
The Impact of Fast Food, on Eating Habits
food is commonly known for its levels of calories, excessive saturated fats, sugars and sodium with little nutritional value. These aspects of food are closely associated with weight gain and obesity. Studies show that regular consumption of food is linked to consuming calories and maintaining poor eating habits (Bowman & Vineyard 2004). Research conducted by Pereira et al. (2005) revealed that individuals who ate food than twice a week were more likely to gain weight and develop insulin resistance compared to those who consumed it less frequently.
Influence of Socioeconomic Factors
The easy availability and affordability of food make it an attractive option for people with incomes. Fast food establishments are often concentrated in low income areas where residents have limited access to dining choices (Powell et al. 2007). This situation, referred to as "food deserts " , worsens the issue of obesity because disadvantaged groups tend to rely on food as their main source of nutrition.
Impact of Advertising and Promotion
The aggressive advertising tactics used by fast food companies also have a significant influence on eating behaviors particularly among young individuals, like children and teenagers.
Many businesses invest sums of money each year in marketing showcasing their products across platforms, like TV, the web and social networks. Kids are especially influenced by these strategies that highlight the appeal and ease of food reinforcing harmful dietary patterns early on.
The impact of obesity, on health is significant and variedObesity is a factor in chronic illnesses like type 2 diabetes, heart disease, stroke and certain cancers (Flegal et al., 2012). The rise in obesity rates has led to an increase in health issues putting a strain on the healthcare system. The financial implications of obesity are also noteworthy with studies indicating that medical costs linked to obesity made up around 10% of healthcare expenses in the United States during that time (Cawley & Meyerhoefer 2012).
Policies and public health effortsIn response to the escalating obesity crisis, different policies and public health efforts have been put into action at state and local levels. These initiatives aim to encourage eating habits through measures like food labeling requirements, restrictions on advertising foods to children and campaigns raising awareness about the risks of obesity (Koplan et al., 2007). Schools have been a point for intervention well, with endeavors to enhance the nutritional value of school meals and boost physical activity among students.ExamplesVarious real life examples and stories showcase the effectiveness of taking action to address the issue of obesity. For example, New York City put in place a set of strategies to combat obesity, such as displaying calorie information on menus and prohibiting trans fats in restaurant dishes. These initiatives led to improvements in people's eating habits and a slight decrease in obesity levels, within the community (Dumanovsky et al. 2011).ChallengesThe obesity epidemic still poses challenges despite the efforts to address it. Unhealthy eating habits deeply ingrained in society, the presence of the fast food industry and disparities in status all add layers of complexity to this issue. Moving forward it is crucial to focus on creating an environment that encourages choices for vulnerable communities. This entails advocating for policies that restrict the marketing of foods to children, enhancing access to options in low income areas and urging food companies to improve the health profile of their products.
Psychological marketingWhen it comes to food marketing companies go beyond advertising tactics by leveraging deep rooted psychological triggers that influence consumer behavior. Bright colors, catchy tunes and recognizable mascots are commonly used in food ads to build a memorable brand image. This technique is particularly effective with audiences like children and teenagers who're more susceptible and likely to develop lasting brand loyalties. Research indicates that exposure to these advertisements can lead children to prefer calorie, nutrient foods ultimately impacting their dietary decisions and contributing to weight gain (Boyland & Halford 2013).The impact of portion sizes
One overlooked but significant factor contributing to the obesity crisis is the increasing sizes of portions served by food chains. Over time portion sizes have substantially grown, with meals exceeding the recommended calorie intake for a single meal. Young and Nestles (2002) study reveals that fast food item portions have expanded over the years with some items now more than double their size. This phenomenon of "portion distortion" results in calorie consumption as individuals tend to eat when faced with larger servings often underestimating the actual caloric content.
Changes in lifestyle and time constraints
The contemporary way of life characterized by schedules and time limitations has also played a role in the heightened dependence on fast food. With an increase in dual income households and longer work hours many people find themselves lacking the time to cook meals. Fast food emerges as a solution offering cost effective options that align with busy routines. Nonetheless this convenience comes at a price as frequent consumption of food is linked to dietary patterns and increased calorie intake contributing to the surge in obesity rates (Smith, Ng & Popkin 2013).Another significant measure involves restricting the promotion of foods to children. By reducing kids exposure to food ads policymakers aim to lessen the impact of marketing on their eating habits. Some cities have also imposed taxes on beverages and unhealthy foods in an effort to discourage consumption through penalties. While the effectiveness of these strategies may vary they mark progress in combating the obesity crisis.
Approaches Rooted in Communities
Community based strategies for addressing obesity highlight the importance of initiatives and grassroots movements. Programs that concentrate on enhancing access to foods encouraging activity and educating community members about healthy eating have shown positive outcomes. For example community gardens and farmers markets can offer produce to residents living in areas with access to healthy food options promoting better dietary choices. Schools and community centers can also play a role by providing nutrition education and physical activity programs.
The Impact of Technology
Technology has increasingly become an asset in the battle against obesity. Mobile applications and wearable gadgets enable individuals to monitor their calorie intake and exercise levels offering feedback and motivating lifestyle choices.
Furthermore social networking sites can play a role, in advocating for public health initiatives and sharing details on diet and wellness. Although technology isn't a solution to the issue of obesity it provides avenues to involve people and groups in embracing healthier habits (Stephens & Allen 2013).
Future Directions and Recommendations
The approach to tackling obesity needs to be multi-faceted and should involve collaboration between government departments, health workers, local communities, as well as the food industry. In future, there is need for more efforts in creating an atmosphere that supports healthier selections particularly among the disadvantaged groups. This means that one should continue to campaign for policies aimed at reducing children’s exposure to unhealthy food advertisements, improving availability of healthy foods in deprived neighborhoods and encouraging manufacturers in the food sector to change their products into a healthier version.
Further still public health campaigns will try and focus on having balanced diets regularly done exercises. Schools and offices can succeed by developing well-structured meals alongside opportunities for exercising. More research is also needed to understand why some people are poor eaters or overweight than others.
Policy Proposals
To further combat the menace of overweight, policy makers should think about enacting a variety of evidence-based strategies. Some of them could be: Sugar-Sweetened Beverage Taxes: Taxes on sugary drinks can decrease consumption and raise funds for public health projects. Zoning Regulations: By controlling the number of fast food restaurants in given areas, intake will subside and encourage establishment of grocery stores among other healthier alternatives.Menu Labeling Laws: This makes sure that restaurants indicate calorie counts as well as other nutritional information to assist customers in making informed choices. School Nutrition Standards: Schools meals and snacks in the course of learning ought to meet recommended nutrition levels so that students are eating healthy. Addressing Behavioral FactorsBehavioral interventions also play a significant role in dealing with obesity. Cognitive-behavioral therapy (CBT) and other psychological approaches aid individuals to develop better eating habits and deal with triggers involved in overeating. Programs addressing weight control which incorporate behavior change counseling together with diet and exercise components show promise towards helping individuals achieve successful long term weight loss.Long-Term Commitment and Sustainable Change
Society must collectively make a commitment that will last over a long period to reduce obesity rates. The approach should be ongoing and flexible enough to accommodate changing circumstances and new information. For this change to be lasting, there must be continuous investment in public health infrastructure, research, and education. Therefore, significant strides can be achieved in reducing obesity rates by nurturing a culture that appreciates wellness.
Cultural Shifts and Public Perception
In addressing the obesity epidemic another critical factor is shifting public opinion as well as cultural norms with regards to food and health. The acceptance of fast food and oversize portions as normative has been one of the major drivers towards unhealthy eating habits over the past few decades. This would involve public health campaigns focused on what constitutes healthy balanced meals and promoting on good home cooked fresh meal benefits instead. To change public perception cooking classes nutrition workshops media campaign advertising preparation advantages of healthy meals at home for instance.
Strengthening Health Care Interventions
Routine screenings, counseling and support for weight management by health care providers are crucial in handling obesity. Obesity prevention and treatment should be integrated into primary care to ensure consistency and comprehensiveness in people’s health. Personalized advice can be availed by the healthcare practitioners and also set realistic targets as well as referring patients to dietitians or structured weight loss programs.
Advancing Research and Use of Proven Practices
To better understand the intricate contributors to obesity and curate effective interventions, it is important to sustain research. Longitudinal studies that follow diet patterns, activity levels, and disease outcomes offer useful information on how to prevent or reduce obesity. By exploring behavioral, environmental and genetic factors that affect obesity, this will enable us to make interventions that are specific for different populations and situations as well.
Conclusion
The period between 2000 and 2010 registered a sharp increase of obesity rates that is closely linked to the spread of fast food outlets across America. This public health menace can only be fought with multidimensional approaches that will change public attitude, improve education, enhance corporate accountability and support inclusive research plus health care interventions. By creating an environment where good health is appreciated through provision of necessary resources and support, we can achieve significant milestones in curbing cases of obesity within our population as well as overall improvement in their welfare.
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My Dad is bringing up a very important word,
"No"
Actually, I think that was his favorite word.
I had a great habit of using it when I was under his roof. What he said is usually what happens first. He was the head of the house and the leader of his own reality. When he was intoxicated or not, what he saw and thought in his mind came to life, even when it never took place in real time.
Why did I give him so much respect when he clearly was showing me toxicity in our relationship at home?
He pretended to be a person of high stature when we are in public. No one would have guessed his bad habits with substances at home and the way he acted behind closed doors. When I reached out for emotional support at school or church, I was mostly shunned by anyone that listened to my story. They taught me that my feelings were wrong and asking for help gets me in trouble. When I told my mom anything, she was busy at work and came home tired. She trusted everything my father would tell her and I got in trouble for speaking out for his behavior. I was kept at home and if anything that could get me out of the house was already planned to be declined if I asked to do anything.
It was hard to please anyone at this point.
I kept my room spotless and vacuumed everyday, just so my dad couldn't say no and tell me to clean my room if I had a friend standing next to me wanting to hang out.
I had one friend in my life that saw my father for who he really is and he scared her pretty bad. He chased me to her car when I was trying to leave my house, he was on oxy at the time. My friend hesitated and kept the car in the driveway and told me to go do what he said. I wanted her to drive as fast as she could away from him, because he took the battery out of my car and I couldn't leave to be with Suz.
Well, after that incident, I lost my friend. She told her parents what happened and she broke all contact with me and stopped talking to me at church. Rumors went around and her mom I sang with on stage started to be disrespectful towards me.
I learned a valuable lesson that day....
When you feel safe enough to speak out and let someone see your true self, you scare people away.
When I trusted someone, I was abandoned when they saw my life for what it is.
The truth was hard to swallow and I had to stay around my father regardless of trying to find help in some form of way I felt heard. I tried to be emancipated, I went to church and sought out resources, I researched about how to prevent suicidal tendencies, I was speaking to a child psychologist. I was working on being more respectful towards my parents, but when my dad got high and made up stories to be angry and attack me. I had no way to protect myself and prove that it was just my father being an addict going through a psychotic episode.
This is why the Lord forced me into psychology.
I didn't want anything to do with it! (Working in a psych ward.... It sucked.)
Suz was the first person to really allow me to learn how to understand it with her version of explaining reality. She is a psychic medium. A very good one! She was very outspoken, rude and funny.... I can take the hard criticism. Nothing amounted to the trauma my father already caused me to feel. I survived high school band.... My director was exactly like my father and I was verbally abused at school by certain individuals.
I kept it all to myself and I planned very strategically my way to "heaven". I kept a journal on purpose for someone to find later. I wrote about everything I was feeling and how I was being treated, my poems, other interesting facts about spirituality, death and dying.
Suz taught me how to have a "book of shadows"..... Well, she is a witch..... It shouldn't be scary when I say that, she was a very proud "light witch". She only worked for the good of humanity. Christianity shuns such practices, but it really is part of the culture before religion became a thing. She taught me so many things that my Dad made me swear I would never get involved in.....
My Dad went into psychology after he decided he wasn't going to be a pastor. His past marriage was a major roadblock for him that he lost faith in God and didn't feel it was right for him to lie on stage to other believers when he wasn't being honest about his own walk in faith anymore.
A divorce would literally kill my soul. I can't imagine what betrayal feels like until you promise your life in vows to someone and it doesn't work out....My Dad made sure to show me that marriage is a special connection and I had to be very cautious who I accept as my spouse. I never forgotten how important it was for him to see me with the right man, but he was so overprotective, he never allowed me to learn how to date or even go to a school dance.
I blame the drugs for interfering in our relationship as a family. My Father was a very smart man, until he took a pill, shot up, or drink... My dad worked in anesthesia, he knew how to mix his own concoction and by pass the system to get his fix. He was forced to retire don't worry, but his knowledge to get drugs was phenomenal all that he knew about medicine.
It really sucked that he knew psychology and ways to manipulate people to get what he wanted. He was a very skilled hypnotherapist on top of that. My family is the result of a head narcissist raising more products of himself.
If you see my family now, we are estranged for good reasons, but they still hurt me personally. I really tried to keep us together after my father passed away, but the rest of my family chose to ignore my advances to keep in contact. I'm not even invited to the family reunions.
It's okay, because we have a lot of family history of incest and "S.A." and I understand why we are not invited.... I know a lot of things about our family after my father passed away. I know why he turned to be a pastor and then went in psychology to help himself and others, but then he lost his way and turned to drugs to mask his pain. The enemy stepped in and my Dad gave into his weaknesses..... He tried and he fought hard. Even when he attacked me my whole life. I still sat there and listened to him and I was forced to listen and not leave the room, but then God showed me to talk back to my Dad.....
So, I started to read more about the Bible and relate to him.
That's why I went to church...
I went to church 4 times a week to get away from the house, but to also just understand why I want to end my life and know that I would go to heaven if I actually tried it.....I was worried about my Mom and how my actions would affect her, she was a big reason why I stalled my plans and then my Dad had this wise idea to get me to work at a mortuary. Told me to walk into one and ask for a job.
Crazy how I jump topics all of a sudden, but this is how my Dad and I got along with each other. Weird and comical. lol
If it wasn't about music, it was about spirituality. I was into a lot of death related shows because I was suicidal. If you remember any of these, they came out around the time I was in high school.
Six Feet Under
Dead Like Me
Dr. G Medical Examiner
1000 Ways to Die
Ghost hunters
Crime Scene Clean Up Crew shows.
I would walk in the dining room while he was chillin in his hospital bed. Watching Finding Big Foot.
"Hey DAD! check this out."
It was a nice distraction to his day. It brought up his own fears with common daily interactions because of my odd obsession with the topic of dying.
My father at this point in his cancer diagnosis, he was on something they call,
Palliative care.
My mom explained to me that it means he was going to die. Lovely how blunt my mother is, but that's how she said it without sugar coating it....
But it was in a way it would be under his terms. My father at this point died once while receiving radiation therapy. His heart stopped and was revived. When he woke up angry and violent towards at the medical team. He yelled at my mom that he was ready to "go". So, after that incident he got the right person to sign him up for his new journey to his death.
That was a weird way of telling you what palliative care is, but that's how I found out and understood that he had a "DNR" to his name after that incident. Sometimes he was in a hospice home for a few months to give us a break at home dealing with his drama.
My Dad was surrounded by death, so it made me really research death and dying very deeply. I was afraid for anyone to see the books I read because they were about taboo topics you shouldn't see a teenager obsessing over. Death and dying, crossing over, letting go of loved ones, suicide survivors, decomposition of human remains, the death process, how a body is embalmed, what medical examiners while cutting open a corpse.
Then I got into the spiritual side of things that involve the devil and crossing over. How to avoid walking back towards hell when you are deceived by dark forces. How to fight your inner hell and not be trapped in that mindset when you are passing away.
I would have the craziest dreams after learning about these topics. But in a weird way, all I wanted to do was sleep to escape my reality. I would talk to my Dad about the stuff I found about those topics and it helped him be closer to me as a father. Something my little brother doesn't understand and ridiculed about me when he criticized my relationship with him. He had his own way to being with Dad, but my way, was with deeper meaning and serious topics. Stuff only Dad and I knew what that meant. It wasn't supposed to make sense to my mom or brother the special talks we had when he was in pain laying in bed.
I showed my Dad the other side to life....
I helped my Dad not be afraid to die, and do it with dignity and strength.
I helped my Dad understand that his addictions didn't ruin our connection as father and daughter and that I wanted to forgive him for his past before he died. He really appreciated my understanding that the drugs turned him into a different person, but inside of him, God was always there. My father told me, because of me, I allowed him to find love for God again and he was closer to his Mom because I showed him to not be afraid of my friend Suz.
That my friend wasn't evil and she taught me so much about angels and spirits, he was learning about them because I had the best mentor in the world. She helped me find my relationship with my Dad, that brought me to be closer to God and because I learned about God in a metaphysical way, I helped myself grow in my own understanding to where I wasn't going to end my life.
I found a reason to live even through the pain of watching the enemy run through my family and take away everyone and everything that means something to me.....
(I would like to post this, but I know it's not ready. I have so much to say and I know my story will help someone else not be afraid.)
I am still writing my story.
This is the book I was supposed to write about....
The one about death and dying.
Not about my background in psychology.
*That is a message for someone else. hint hint... That is your topic to write about. I hope you receive that message with understanding and go forth wisely. You asked me to remind you, so I am, quietly...
I am working with others in a way the Lord leads me.
It takes up my energy from writing and I have to prioritize what is more important. When it comes to someone's transition. I feel led to help someone cross over. I've done this since I was a child. No one taught me to understand how I do this. I also dream about meeting certain individuals and speak to them about life and death, God allows me to remember my dreams and I share them with the people it is about.
Most times, God will send people to talk to me and then I learn about them dying or having a terminal illness that is difficult to get through. That is where I am reminded of my life with my father and my jobs in the medical field and bring up all that I learned about death, dying, spirituality, religion, crossing over, eastern medicine, etc....
Then I become friends, or we have nice conversations that are very engaging and healing in general. I am later told that I have helped them in some way and they are happy to have met me. Then my dad shows up in my presence and shows me how I am doing what I am supposed to and to trust my gut feelings from now on. He promised me when he was alive, he was always going to be by my side and teach me about life.
Now I finally understand what he meant by that and I now that I know how to
"Listen with my HEART"
That is how he spoke to his mom before he crossed over. I taught him how and he was able to go deeper with it since his soul was ascending and leaving the physical body. The dream state plays a big part of crossing over and communicating with loved ones. That is where my gifts come into play. I am sensitive enough to feel him and learn his lessons that he encourages me to write it all down.
I'm not the writer I wish to become yet, but as long as it's getting out there for someone to find, that's all that matters.
Don't forget to realize that we are all dying. Don't allow your diagnosis or reality to have you feel stuck in misery until you die. Don't allow the pain and confusion to stop you from gaining understanding to the karma you're experiencing.Being a medium for me has been traumatizing, because I had to earn my way to understanding. I had to experience hell in order to seek solitude and want to create peace with my sanity and not let the forces around me cause me to go insane. I went "within" so I can heal my trauma and know what triggers me to thinking about the negative side to things.
That is all the enemy fighting with you spiritually.
When we die, we lose our vessel, not our spirit.
We are the spirit having the human experience.
This isn't forever.
Thank God for that!
Pain does end, but learn what the pain wants to teach you about life around you. You will help someone else with your story when you're meant to cross paths.
Everyone in your life is there to teach you something.
Are you ready for the lesson?
Are you ready to understand your lesson?
So, it's crazy how I end up writing these posts, but they are all for a reason that I don't understand right now, but I'm doing as I'm told.
I'm not afraid of death, I'm not afraid of anyone stalking me because I speak of life in a way no one else has, because this is my story.
I don't know why I wrote it this way before I got here.
My destiny, I mean.....
I know my purpose now and of all the things I pushed away in my life, God forced me to go back into it and learn more about myself. The things I didn't want to face and be reminded about my Dad.... I just want to live my life in peace. I didn't want to think about my past love, but I meet people that remind me of my life back home and that person in particular.....
So, it's all hitting at once. It's a slow process, my father has been gone for 11 years now. I'm getting the hang of it now...... Writing this isn't a race for me, the lessons are exciting to finally understand why I went through them, but again.... Time helps me explain things better when I see it in a different perspective. I couldn't have accomplished that goal until I went through the pain and worked on my character to change my outcomes to my problems. I had to change myself first.
I hope those that are part of this journey with me understand that I am only putting out there tools to help them succeed.
I'm not going out of my way to create another trauma bond or narcissistic injury towards anyone. I love them very much and I want them to work on themselves and gain abundance correctly, not with the use of black magic and occult practices.
That's another story for another day. Suz wants them to know that she was in my life to warn me about my lessons in my future, but I can't run from them. I am here to learn lessons and teach others how to learn theirs.
That's all this is about.
Life is a stage, how do you want to play it?
I choose to grow and allow myself to see the positive to where I feel the emotion of bliss, love, joy and acceptance of all things coexisting together.
I be back soon,
I hope you have a nice weekend.
<3,
Tina,

Three original birthstones for June birthdays

Birthstones are gemstones that conduct a birth month and have a bizarre definition and historical point. Every month has its birthstone. Ordinarily, one month has one birthstone, but three months are the luckiest, they have three birthstones each. One such month is June. June birthstones are moonstone, pearl, and alexandrite. Consequently, if you were born in June, you have got an exceptional opportunity to pick your June birthstone according to your preferences and budget.

June birthstones №1: Pearls

From ancient times it was thought that stones have exceptional power and bring distinctive energy to those who wear them. Pearls can bring mercy, innocence, and faith. They have healing powers, curing various diseases, and even insanity. Pearls still apply as medicines in Asia. If the month of your birth is June, you are a fortunate person. You can wear pieces of jewelry with such a rare June birthstone. Its uniqueness lies not only in its astonishing features but also in its exquisite form because the color of pearls deviates from white to black.
Pearls are also called "gifts of the ocean" because they are the only gemstone that is created by living organisms - mollusks. Due to the special liquid that these microorganisms secrete around the pathogen pearls are created. This liquid is called nacre.
Today, many distinctive farms grow mollusks which create pearls. They are located in the most picturesque parts of the world away from civilization. Mollusks will never grow and produce a nacre in polluted water.

June birthstones №2: Moonstone

A moonstone also belongs to the group of June birthstones. It is a translucent blue-silver feldspar. It has got a name due to the blue-white and silver gradients, which are provided by its delicate structure. This is June's birthstone of inventive people, who are frequently in search. In Indian culture, it is considered a sacred rock and one that brings good luck.
As for the beneficial properties of the June birthstone, we can say that it has a very substantial effect on the human body, it can:

• relieve epileptic seizures
• calm
• reduce outbursts of uncontrolled aggression
• normalize sleep
• clean the blood
• relieve edema
• treat inflammation
• remove stones and tumors from the body

Plus, it is a very robust love June birthstone. Any decoration with a moonstone can attract real love to you. The foremost thing, it needs to be worn near a heart.
June birthstones №3: Alexandrite
Alexandrite, or the birthstone of the aristocrats, has a unique ability to change color depending on the lighting. This June Birthstone was invented by Alexandre the Second in 1833. He noticed it while searching for emeralds, and this stone was supposed an emerald. But later it turned out, that it is much harder than emerald, and also it has a unique capacity to change color. Alexandrite is clear, but very seldom colorless. Its most common color is bluish-green. Less common is olive with shades of yellow and brown. Ural alexandrite, which is properly respected by the standard of beauty, in daylight, has a bluish-green color, and in artificial -purple. Alexandrite is a June birthstone which requires a lot of money.
Sometimes people wonder which June birthstone is better to pick: pearl, moonstone, or alexandrite. In this case, you should follow your preferences or discover the healing properties of stones. Like pearls, alexandrite is considered a very prominent energy stone. Nevertheless, it is proper for people who are strong in spirit and persistent in their goal, to overcome all impediments. While pearls are a softer and calmer gem.
Regarding the medicinal qualities of alexandrite, its central purpose is to cleanse the blood and strengthen blood vessels. It is also believed that if the stone regularly changes color, the person who wears it should pay attention to blood sugar. is

Where is Better to Buy June Birthstone

You can obtain some pieces of jewelry with these novel stones at one2threejewelry.com. Especially, pay attention to the pearl dainty ring which will be excellent in the role of an engagement band.

Herbs and benefits
1- If you want to sleep, soak a lettuce leaf in hot water until it cools down and drink it, as it is a mild sedative and hypnotic. If you want something stronger than that, then you should take the saintly herb. If you want to sleep without medication, ask forgiveness more, as the devil will hasten your sleep so that you will not reap more good deeds.
2- You suffer from a general failure in the body that you do not know the cause of. You should drink rosemary tea and do not drink too much of it
You have general weakness caused by a lack of vitamins, so you should use molokhiya, as it is very rich in vitamins and minerals and does not lose its properties with excessive boiling. Sesame is also a tonic, and sesame and moringa are a good nutritional supplement, even for pregnant women.
3- If you suffer from anemia, do not eat lentils without drops of lemon in them. The iron in lentils does not benefit the body without acid. Molokhiya is also rich in minerals, and palmetto and spinach are also useful.
4- If you suffer from gases, you should use chamomile, anise, black lemon, or mint of all kinds, but do not eat them in large quantities, as these types reduce blood pressure.
5- If you suffer from constipation, you should eat peeled apples or senna, but do not eat too much of them. Dates are also beneficial, and green tea is beneficial.
6- If you suffer from fatty liver, you should use pumpkin juice to find results in less than a month
7- Jaundice or mullein. Sprinkle the juice of the tamarisk herb in the nose, which will remove it in two days. Or eat goat meat or pigeons smoked on the leaves of the tar tree.
If he is an infant, spread a thin melissa leaf (Yemeni Sidr) leaf under his bed and let him sleep on the bed, and it will usually go away in three days. This is what is proven in herbal medicine.
7- If your husband suffers from weakness and is embarrassed, if your blood pressure is moderate, then you should take whey herb and ginseng mixed with honey, with onion, pumpkin and carrot seeds added, and if you want it to be stronger, add royal jelly.
As for the diabetic patient, he should take zinc, which will benefit him in this, or dates, which are a tonic, and the sugar fructose generates the necessary energy without the need for insulin, as explained by Dr. Abdel Basit Al-Sayed in his book Encyclopedia of Herbal Medicine, Part 2.
8- As for the woman, she should take anise or soybean tea, as they raise the estrogen hormone, and fenugreek is also a stimulant. If she does not feel any feelings for her husband at all, this is due to a lack of iodine, and her cycle is often disturbed, accompanied by headaches.
9- If you suffer from severe depression, anxiety, and sadness, you should recite the Prophet’s Talbinah, as its results are amazing. The Prophet, may God’s prayers and peace be upon him, said: (It calms the heart and removes some sadness.)
It is also beneficial for the beauty of the face, and for permanent facial beauty, you should use the mate herb (Levantine Map), as it stimulates collagen in the skin.

Quick Summary

Luma Nutrition Berberine offers a high dosage of berberine hydrochloride aimed at supporting weight loss, appetite control, and blood sugar regulation. However, user feedback reveals mixed results, with some experiencing significant benefits while others report no effect or adverse side effects such as gastrointestinal distress and dizziness.
I think overall, it's a decent berberine supplement for various berberine related health effects.
But given the variability in effectiveness and the potential for severe side effects, it appears that Luma Nutrition Berberine may be overly hyped, especially for those looking for consistent and safe results in weight management and metabolic health.
For appetite suppression & weight loss, I'd rate it at 3, I'd rather recommend something like PhenQ and Instant Knockout for appetite management & weight loss (both are better appetite suppressants than Luma), while Blood Sugar Optimizer does a better job in blood sugar management , being my top pick as (Berberine + Ceylon cinnamon supplement).
Introduction
If you've stumbled upon Berberine while searching for natural supplements to aid weight loss or control appetite, you might be curious about what it actually does.
Berberine is a compound found in several plants that is often used in traditional Chinese medicine. It’s known for its potential to impact blood sugar levels and improve metabolic health. Recently, it's also been gaining attention as a weight loss and appetite control aid and as a natural supplement that cna have some ozempic like effects..
Luma Nutrition is just one of many brands offering Berberine, but they promote their product with some pretty appealing features like being all-natural and vegan-friendly.
If you're curious about trying Luma Berberine, especially for controlling blood sugar and cholesterol, it might do some good.
Now different people have different kinds of expereinces with Berberine.

From my own year-long experience with berberine, not Luma specifically but a similar product, I found that it really helped with things I wasn't even targeting initially—like my chronic migraines pretty much vanished, and to my surprise, my thinning hair got thicker. It also worked wonders for my sleep; I can pretty much clock out the minute I hit the pillow and get a solid 7.5 hours without a hitch. But don't expect miracles in weight loss—I didn't shed pounds, and frankly, it didn't make a dent in my appetite at all.

Now, it's important to talk about how you might feel when starting out and as you continue.
Early days, you might notice some mild stomach issues like gas because your body's getting used to it.
Berberine is tough to absorb, so take it on an empty stomach, about 30 minutes before you eat, to get the most out of it. Luma is no exception!
As time goes on, if you don't give yourself breaks from it, you might see some downsides.
For some people , taking it continuously may lead to some sexual dysfunction and mess with gut health, so I switched to a schedule—500 mg once daily for five days a week and then a break every few weeks.
This routine keeps the side effects in check and helps maintain the benefits without overwhelming my system. So, if you're planning to try it, consider a similar approach to manage any potential issues effectively.

Pros & Cons of Luma Nutrition Berberine

Pros:

• High Dosage: Each dose contains 1200mg of pure berberine hydrochloride, which is higher than many other berberine supplements on the market.
• Sugar-Free and Diet-Friendly: Suitable for individuals on vegan or gluten-free diets, and the capsules do not contain sugar, unlike gummy alternatives.
• Quality Assurance: The product is 3rd party tested for purity and quality, ensuring that what you consume is safe and effective.
• Made in the USA: Manufactured in GMP certified facilities, which guarantees a high standard of production and product safety.
• Veteran-Owned Business: Supports a veteran-owned business that is committed to providing customer support and addressing any product-related inquiries.
• Convenient Supply: Each bottle provides a 30-day supply, ideal for monthly subscriptions to maintain a regular intake without running out.

Cons:

• Potential Side Effects: Some users report side effects such as dizziness, intestinal distress, and heart palpitations.
• Inconsistent Effects on Appetite and Weight Loss: While some users experience benefits in terms of appetite suppression and weight loss, others see no effect, indicating variability in individual responses.
• No Return Policy on Amazon: The product cannot be returned if purchased through Amazon, even if unopened, which might discourage first-time buyers.
• Subscription Issues: There are reports of subscription delivery problems, including delays and receiving fewer capsules than promised.
• Does Not Suit Everyone: Not all users can tolerate the product; some report severe adverse reactions necessitating medical consultation.

Overview of Luma Nutrition Berberine
Luma Nutrition's Berberine comes in capsule form, which I found pretty standard for most dietary supplements. Each bottle contains 60 capsules, with a recommended dosage of two capsules per day.
This means each bottle is essentially a one-month supply if you follow the recommended dosage. The capsules themselves are a bit on the larger side, which might be a concern if you have trouble swallowing pills, but I managed fine.
One of the big selling points Luma Nutrition pushes is that their Berberine is made from all-natural ingredients, is vegan-friendly, and manufactured right here in the USA.
These are nice boxes to check off for anyone who's mindful about the ethical aspects of their supplements. They also claim that their product contains no GMOs, and is free from artificial fillers or dyes—something I appreciate since I try to keep my consumption of unnecessary additives to a minimum.
An independent company has verified the contents and safety of the product, which helps in building trust, especially if you're cautious about the purity of supplements. I found these details important not just for peace of mind but also because when it comes to supplements, you really want to make sure you're ingesting something safe and as advertised.

My Ratings Evaluation of Luma Nutrition Berberine as a Natural Ozempic Alternative

Blood Sugar Regulation

Rating: 4/5
Luma Nutrition Berberine contains 1200mg of Berberine HCI derived from Berberis aristata per serving, which is known for its potent effects on lowering blood sugar levels. Clinical studies have shown that Berberine can be effective in managing blood sugar, making it a strong natural alternative for mimicking some of the glucose-regulating effects of Ozempic. However, it might not be as consistently powerful as Ozempic, hence the deduction of one point.

Appetite Modulation

Rating: 3/5
While Berberine is primarily known for its impact on blood sugar and cholesterol, its effects on appetite are less direct. Some users report reduced appetite possibly due to better blood sugar control, which can decrease cravings and help with weight management. However, it's not specifically an appetite suppressant like Ozempic, so it scores a middle range for this category.

Metabolic Enhancement

Rating: 3/5
Berberine is reputed to have positive effects on metabolic health, primarily through the enhancement of glycolysis, which helps the body break down sugars more efficiently, and by improving insulin sensitivity. These actions can contribute to a higher metabolic rate indirectly. However, compared to Ozempic, which has a more direct role in enhancing metabolic outcomes, Berberine's effects are more moderate.

Energy Optimization

Rating: 2/5
While Berberine has been noted for its metabolic benefits, it is not primarily known for directly boosting energy levels. Users may experience increased energy indirectly through improved metabolic health and better blood sugar control, but it does not inherently contain energy-boosting properties like caffeine or other stimulants. Therefore, its capacity to support increased physical activity and vitality is limited and not as pronounced as the effects you might see with Ozempic.

Weight Management Support

Rating: 4/5
Berberine has shown promising results in supporting weight management through its ability to improve insulin sensitivity and enhance the breakdown of fats and sugars in the body. This can lead to reduced fat accumulation and support gradual weight loss, which aligns well with some of the weight loss mechanisms seen with Ozempic. While not as directly impactful as Ozempic, which is specifically designed for weight management in diabetic patients, Berberine holds its ground as a supportive supplement for natural weight management.

Safety and Tolerability Profile

Rating: 4/5
Berberine is generally considered safe when used appropriately, with common side effects being gastrointestinal discomfort such as cramps, diarrhea, or constipation. These side effects are typically mild and can often be managed with dosage adjustments. It is well-tolerated by most individuals, making it a viable alternative for those looking for natural supplements with minimal adverse effects. However, like any active compound, it's important to consult with a healthcare provider, especially for those with existing health conditions or those taking other medication.

Inflammatory Response Reduction

Rating: 3/5
Berberine has demonstrated some anti-inflammatory properties, which can contribute to overall health improvements, including enhancing insulin sensitivity and metabolic function. These benefits are crucial for managing conditions like diabetes and obesity, which are often accompanied by chronic inflammation. However, the anti-inflammatory effects of Berberine are not as extensively documented or as potent as those of some pharmacological treatments like Ozempic, which have broader systemic impacts. Therefore, while Berberine supports inflammation reduction, its effectiveness in this area is moderate compared to more targeted treatments.

Gut Health Improvement

Rating: 2/5
Berberine's impact on gut health is less clear and direct. Some studies suggest that Berberine can alter gut flora, potentially leading to improved gut barrier function and reduced permeability, which can indirectly support nutrient absorption and overall gut health. However, these effects are not as well studied or as pronounced as its effects on blood sugar and metabolism. Therefore, while there may be some potential benefits to gut health, they are not a primary function of Berberine, making it less effective in this category compared to Ozempic, which can have more noticeable effects on metabolic health and weight management through gut-related mechanisms.

Hello fellow fermenters,
I've recently ventured into making my own yogurt at home using probiotic capsules as recommended by Dr Davis. Specifically, I used Bacillus coagulans GBI-30, 6086 (from Digestive Advantage) and BNR17 (Lactobacillus gasseri), each in their own separate jars. The gasseri had excellent smell taste and consistency, the coagulans also has good smell and consistency, but is super bitter.
Here’s what I did:

• Milk Prep: I added 3tbs inulin and 1tbs sugar to 2L milk and started with boiling and then cooling the milk to kill any potential pathogens. I used A2 milk.
• Probiotics: Poured the milk into 2 X1L glass jars that was sterilised. Mixed each of the capsules in seperate cups and poured into these jars and mixed well.
• Fermentation: I fermented the milk at 43°C (109°F) for 35.5 hours using a sous vide bath to maintain a consistent temperature. The jars were sealed tightly and placed separately in the bath to avoid any cross-contamination.
• Refrigeration: After 35.5 hrs fermentation, I refrigerated the yogurt immediately.

Part of the above text was generated by chatGPT as I already had a discussion with it and it said its safe to consume the bitter yogurt. I dont know if I can eat it as it tastes like chewing medicine. But what could have gone wrong? I have a feeling if i try it out again, I will get the same bitter results. The capsules still have 5 months remaining on the expiry. Would fermenting at 115F help?
Appreciate any replies. Thanks and have a lovely weekend.

Hi. My 17 month old has recently decided to go for the gauntlet of diseases that started with what we thought might be pink eye but now everything is draining, she’s teething, she’s got congestion from the drainage, randomly got hives this morning, and when we went to the drs they said her ear was a little pink too. Fml. (Also now I’m sick, thanks bebe😅) SO I have like 4 different medicines to give her throughout the day plus eye drops. The only problem, well not only but the biggest, is she doesn’t like juice. She doesn’t really like anything sweet. I mean come on man you’re really telling me you don’t like apple juice?! No milk, chocolate milk, koolaid, pudding, apple sauce, nothing! We just took a month of every thing under the sun to fix her constipation because every damn thing the drs. recommended revolved around juice or sugar water. (Thank you miralax) and now I just can’t do it again. There has got to be another way. I’m exhausted. Help please!

I’m writing this to help others because if you’re reading this you probably have or have had a kidney stone. I am 38M and this was my first stone, I have had oxalate crystals in my urine for almost 20 years so this was a long time coming. I managed the oxalate crystals by not consuming certain drinks specifically soda and iced tea. 3 months ago I got a sharp pain in my stomach of which I had never had before, right away I knew something was wrong.
The next day I had a little bit of blood in my urine and figured the day had finally come that I got a kidney stone. The pain only lasted a few minutes and went away for 2 weeks so like an idiot I ignored it and it came back with a vengeance. I ate at this ramen restaurant twice in 2 weeks and drank a vintage cola with it both times (big mistake) then at the end of the 2’d week I had an impossible whopper meal from Burger King with a coke and fries.
The next morning I woke up and after a hot shower I started to feel a lot of dull pain around my kidney, it progressed very quickly to the point I was curled up in the fetal position on my bed screaming and crying into a pillow. My wife (37 weeks pregnant at the time with 2 kids under 5) brought me to the ER and I was in excruciating pain that would not let up, they hooked me up to IV and said they would give me morphine which I was hesitant to take and explicitly asked for Dilaudid because I was told years ago that the I only thing that works for kidney stone pain is Dilaudid. The nurse said “we will determine which medicines to administer”. Well 4 hours later I’m still hanging off a hospital bed puking and dry heaving in maybe the worst pain of my life after a few doses of morphine which might as well have been a Tylenol.
When it came time for the CTscan I couldn’t keep still because I was wrenching in pain and still dry heaving. Being a very spiritual person I asked God for strength to help me keep still so they could do the CTScan and thankfully I got through it. When I got back to my room they finally agreed to give me Dilaudid and let me tell you, it was like a light switch went off, the pain was 99% gone. I was discharged and told I had a 7x9mm stone stuck in my ureter.
I rested the next day on some Dilaudid they have me to take home along with some 600mg ibuprofen and flowmax. 2 days after my episode I was feeling great no pain it was like it went away for good. A week or 2 later I had another episode which was very mild it just felt like a 2 out of 10 on the pain scale, after a hot bath and a lot of fluids I felt better. Fast forward 3 months it was like it never happened, I had zero pain zero discomfort. The only issue I had during those 3 month was for a couple of days I was peeing very frequently and had a swollen prostate which caused some bowel problems. Then out of left field around bedtime I got leveled, the pain was almost as bad as my hospitalization except this time I was super nauseous and throwing up in pain. This time the pain was lower in my abdomen it was apparent that the stone was stuck and blocking urine.
After putting off surgery for 3 months hoping I’d pass it naturally I never felt so much regret. Fortunately my urologist saw me within a couple of days and was able to schedule surgery the following Monday. When I woke up from surgery I wasn’t in pain but I felt a little violated, you wake up with a stent in your kidney and a string (which is more like a guitar string) taped to your shaft. When I got home I took my first piss and let me tell you, I was not prepared. It was lightening, the sting and burn as intense I’m not gonna sugar coat it. That night I barely slept because of the urgency to pee, also the discomfort from the “string” that is slicing you a new urethra. Day 2 was better but the stinging when I peed was dreadful, I literally didn’t want to pee. I called my doctor and asked for something for the burn, they prescribed me this orange dye that seemed to help, idk why they didnt discharge me with this. day 3 was much better, i was back at work and the stinging had pretty much gone away. i found it hard to walk for 5-6 days, youll be taking alot of baby steps with the stent. Day 8 It wqs time to have my stent removed, i took flowmax in the morning and 600mg ibuprofen a few hours before. Removal was pretty much as I expected, uncomfortable but no pain it was over in 1 second. Today is day 11 post surgery I feel 100% back to normal.
EDIT: I meant to say this earlier, marijuana did wonders for my stent pain/uncomfortability. It’s much better and safer than taking some opioid.

DAY: MAY 16, 2024

• 5-16-2024MEN AT GREATER RISK OF MAJOR HEALTH EFFECTS OF DIABETES THAN WOMEN, STUDY SUGGESTS Men are at greater risk than women of the major health effects of diabetes (types 1 and 2), proposes a long term study published online in the Journal of Epidemiology & Community Health. Rates of cardiovascular disease, leg, foot, and kidney complications, and the sight-threatening eye disease diabetic retinopathy are all higher in men, regardless of whether they had diabetes for more or less than 10 years,
• 5-16-2024LIKELIHOOD OF KIDS AND YOUNG PEOPLE SMOKING AND VAPING LINKED TO SOCIAL MEDIA USE The more time spent on social media, the greater the likelihood that children and young people will both smoke and/or vape, suggests research published online in the respiratory journal Thorax. Clocking up a weekday tally of seven or more hours was associated with a more than a doubling in risk among 10 to 25-year-olds, the findings indicate, reinforcing concerns about the marketing clout of these platforms,
• 5-16-2024FIRST US TRIAL OF VARENICLINE FOR E-CIGARETTE CESSATION SHOWS POSITIVE RESULTS The first U.S. trial of varenicline for e-cigarette cessation shows promising results and warrants larger-scale trials, the researchers say. Researchers from Yale Cancer Center and MUSC Hollings Cancer Center published the results of their clinical trial of varenicline to help adults to stop using e-cigarettes
• 5-16-2024NEW FINDINGS ON THE EFFECTS OF GLUTEN Celiac disease is a chronic autoimmune condition that occurs in around 1% of the world’s population. It is triggered by the consumption of gluten proteins from wheat, barley, rye and some oats. A gluten-free diet protects celiac patients from severe intestinal damage
• 5-16-2024MANY PEOPLE ARE NOT AWARE OF THE HEALTH RISKS Many people are concerned about residues of chemicals, contaminants or microplastics in their food. However, it is less well known that many foods also contain toxins of completely natural origin. These are often chemical compounds that plants use to ward off predators such as insects or microorganisms. These substances are found in beans and potatoes, for example, and can pose potential health risks.
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I want to document this in case it is able to help people - and also for catharsis. I’m the kind of person that expresses themselves through language and I think writing things down really helps me process. I hope my account of the surgical abortion process in Australia is as helpful to others as some of the accounts in this sub were for me as I researched my options.
I’m almost 42 years old. I had never been pregnant and from about the age of 18, I knew that I didn’t want my own children for a multitude of reasons mostly connected to my mental health. I adore kids - my partner has two (11 & 5) and we have 50% care of them. I also work with young people and am the cool aunt to my two wonderful niblings.
When I found out I was pregnant, the main feeling I experienced was pure shock. In part, my decision to be childfree was a passive one. After decades of struggling with Eating Disorders, I was under the impression that I couldn’t conceive children. Whilst in relationships I have always counted on tracking my ovulation and periods as a safeguard against pregnancy and it has worked for the 20 years I have been sexually active. My partner and I had an accident in early March - I did take the emergency contraceptive - but it failed. I truly thought my period was late due to being perimenopausal. I took a pregnancy tests to confirm menopause was starting and was absolutely stunned to see that positive line come up so quickly.
Unfortunately, I took the test at 6pm on a Friday - which was 2 hours after the pregnancy advisory centre closed so after I broke the news to my partner, we had to just sit with the knowledge over the weekend. I spoke to the advisory centre first thing on Monday morning and they took down all my details and confirmed I wanted to terminate. They booked my in person appointment the following week. They sent me a lot of paperwork to complete before the appointment which including information about the medication and surgical option for termination.
I initially leaned towards the medication option because I would be able to access it instantly, but after reading a little and watching the videos the clinic sent, I was scared of the pain, the blood and actually passing the embryo and sac. I made up my mind to have the surgery before my initial appointment and I am so grateful that it is an option where I live that has no conditions attached to it.
The advisory centre where I live is discreet and secure. There were many different women there; younger, older, with partners, alone, with their mums. I went alone. I had an appointment with the nurse first; she confirmed that this was my choice and confirmed all of my details and told me about the surgery. She also took my blood sugar and blood pressure. After this I waited a long time to see the doctor. The doctor booked me in for the surgery - I was disappointed I would have to wait a couple of weeks because the first 4 were tough. She also did a dating ultrasound and asked if I wanted to see it - which I did. This is the only time I will ever be pregnant and I was curious about it. It was a small blob in a bigger blob dated at 6 weeks and 3 days.
As I was already experiencing a LOT of sickness and maxalon wasn’t helping, she prescribed me anti nausea wafers which really got me over the line and allowed me to keep working. We also discussed contraception - my partner is getting a vasectomy so I didn’t need anything prescribed.
The worst part was waiting for the procedure - it made me think a lot and I was frightened. It has been a long time since my last anaesthetic. I never doubted my choice, but I did naturally have those ‘what if’ thoughts. I also hated the experience of early pregnancy; I was so ill - no food or drink helped. The omelette that settled my stomach one day was violently puked out the next. I did confide in my sister (who was scheduled to fly overseas the day before my op) and my close friends. My partner provided much needed support as well. I found myself feeling sad and scared about the surgery and feeling lonely as well.
I had the procedure yesterday. The worst parts were the anxiety and the fasting. I was parched by the time I got to the hospital and couldn’t do anything about it. I took my anti nausea medication in the morning with a precious last sip of water. Once I found the day surgery unit, I waited until I was called. The pregnancy advisory have separated beds and nurses so you’re a little away from the general population. I was given the medicine to begin the procedure along with pain relief and then got into my gown and slippers. I had to pack all of my stuff into a bag and just leave my knickers out.
Waiting on the bed with no distractions was really difficult. I felt cold and pretty frightened - I had a heated blanket, but was shivering. I’m usually a hotbod, so I assume this was from the medication too. This was more uncomfortable than the mild cramping I was experiencing which was no different to day before period cramps or what I had experienced in early pregnancy. The nurse put my line in for me. After 45 minutes I was wheeled into theatre and walked to the operating gurney. The anaesthetic went in, the mask went on. There were a lot more people in the room than I expected. I started to cry a little bit - Shallows by Lady Gaga was on the radio. One of the nurses stroked my face and told me it was going to be ok.
Then I woke up in recovery about 20 minutes later and it was done. The procedure took 10 minutes and was confirmed successful by ultrasound - all whilst I was out. A nurse helped me with my panties and pad. I was given some pain medicine in my line and then taken up to recovery after about half an hour. The glass of water, juice and sandwich I got were some of the most delicious things I have ever eaten after fasting. My blood pressure was low on my obs so I got some saline. After I had eaten, my BP was good, so a nurse walked me to the bathroom and checked my pad and I was able to change. I was also encouraged to pee. The bleeding was less heavy than a period.
My partner came and got me and I was able to go home to his place for the evening. I had a smoothie bowl for lunch and then napped for a few hours. The bleeding reduced to almost nothing over the course of the evening.
This morning I woke up and did not instinctively vomit for the first time in almost 4 weeks. I can’t describe the relief. The bleeding has ceased completely and I’m only mildly uncomfortable with some light cramping as my uterus shrinks down to its normal size. There have been some emotions today - mostly relief, but also sadness. I made sure to book a follow up counselling session to debrief with someone. The entire process was free other than my uber to the hospital and the anti nausea meds.
I’m eternally grateful to the staff that cared for me and that I had this option to pursue. It is a basic human right to have this autonomy over my body. I doubt I’ll ever need to make a choice like this again, but if I found myself in this situation, I would chose the surgery and I wouldn’t be as scared and anxious.