Money talks video girls

I 14f have a family of 4. not including my grandmother who lives with us. Ever since i was young,my parents would constantly fight infront of me. every fight occurred in front of me. fights about money would happen non stop bc my father had a gambling problem. although my parents would fight, they would still end up talking like friends again after a few days like nothing ever happened. maybe that was the plus point? But anyways these are some of the worst fights that i can still remember in detail.
when i was 10, parents were fighting about money. i was sitting on the bed in my parents room ( i slept in the same room as my mum, father slept in the living room). this was day 3 of the fight, so constant slamming of doors and yelling. My father ended up strangling(not first time) my mother in front of me on the bed around 6pm. she wasnt hurt. after he left the house for a while. 8pm, fights resumed. ended up with everyone in the living room me crying and my sister coming out of the study room also crying. all windows were opened my mum saying she would jump down. she didnt. fight continued then my father called my helper (she was comforting me) to go get him cigerattes, worse thing he couldve ever done to me. soon ended with everyone going to bed angry.
Later that same year. my parents were fighting again, this time i was outside in the living room while my mother was in the bedroom. when my father came out of the bedroom after the shouting match my mother called me into the room. my father yelled at me and said if i even tried to go into the room he would kill me. being 10 i was scared and sat on the floor bawling my eyes out.
That was the start of my grudge i had. It just got worse whenever my mother told me about my father's gambling problem.
although the fights have stopped being as often i still resent my father and i dont think ill ever be close to him ever again (i was a daddy's girl till i turned 9)

Ever since I’ve borrowed my mums brand new car to drive while mine gets used by my brother (his is getting serviced), I’ve been too scared to drive my car to public places like a small shopping village carpark where people might notice, stare and judge me.
I feel so much more confident and able to drive to places in my mums car because it’s fully tinted, black from the outside, and has a reversing camera. I feel like no one can judge me and I’m safe to blast whatever music I want with people looking at me and they can’t think anything negative of an 18 y/o girl driving a nice car. It’s not even necessarily about the car, I just feel so uncomfortable because compared to my mums car it visually looks like there’s no tint however my mum says it has the darkest tint legally (it’s a 17 year old car that I grew up in so after 17 years surely the tint would be faded/gone by the sun).
When I drive mums car I just feel so safe and like I’m in a protective bubble that no one can see me or perceive me negatively and when I stop at a light in my car I feel like everyone’s watching me so I try to look busy and not awkward by drinking water, using hand sanitizer etc I JUST FEEL SO AWKWARD. My face used to literally turn red because my thoughts would go rampant; now I just feel paralysed and frozen with fear and try to calm myself to no avail.
Any tips on how to get over this? At present I don’t have the means or the money to buy a new car.

First post in ages, deleted this, but I’m back to get this off. I just turned 20 a couple months ago, have good friends, decent job, loving family, but my life has been rough for 6 years now, I’ve lost many friends , have gone through depression, agony even, best friend got with my ex and I told him it’s ok then stopped being friends with me, broke up with the girl I loved (different then that one my friend got together with) , got back together , crashed my car, broke up again and for good, she then totally abused me for months afterwords by doing everything she can to hurt me, still dealing with that, watched my best friend at the time crash into and kill someone , I saw all the aftermath and it was scarring , and more recently I have a legal thing going on and it’s totally effecting my life, and it’s for something I didn’t even do, it will pass over and things will go back to normal because I didn’t do anything but it will take time and until then my life is drastically effected and I’m spending lots of money on a lawyer, I’ve had so many bad things happen to me, and I just want to give up
Out of all those things the heartbreak of losing my girl was the worst, it was over a year and a half ago and I still think about her all the time, I loved her with all my heart and wanted to marry her. No girl after her makes me feel the same and now I hate talking to other girls because I’ve talked to countless girls and they just aren’t her. I know I’m young , and have friends and family, but I’ve gone though so much already and I’m just done. My best friend is about to move away in a couple months too. I don’t want to do this anymore. I just want it to all go away and to sleep forever. If anyone has advice I’d like to hear it. But I feel the way I do for a reason.

This past year I received a save the date from an old friend from high school. I was excited and flattered to receive it and more than anything, surprised. Other friends from that group were getting engaged or married and I wasn’t getting invited to anything because I just haven’t kept up with those people over the last few years. Which is normal, I wouldn’t expect to be invited to a wedding for someone I haven’t actually seen in 1-2 years. So in this case, I was particularly surprised. However one thing that put a bad taste in my mouth was that they excluded +1s.
I find this sort of odd, only because the wedding is being held in a location where it was much cheaper to have one and it’s at a location with no direct flights to it, at least from where most of the people I know currently live. At first i felt slighted that my girlfriend of over 2 years was excluded because I was invited to the bachelor party. I ended up going, having paid the $300 for the air BnB before finding out I couldn’t bring her. I talked to a closer friend of the grooms and he also said his girlfriend wouldn’t be coming since they hadn’t both met her. And it’s the same for me, they hadn’t met my girlfriend because they moved out of state about 4 years ago and we haven’t seen each other since then except for maybe one time. When I asked if I could bring her I was hit with “no sorry but we’d love to meet her at some point.” And like, isn’t that partly what these events are for? Because if I do see this guy again in the next 10 years it’s probably going to be at someone’s wedding.
I also brought it up (in a very careful matter) to one of the groomsmen that I’m kind of friends with and he called inviting +1s a slippery slope. I’m sure im wrong for this take, but I feel like +1s are just part of having a wedding. At least for every wedding I’ve been to outside my family it seems that way. And if you think people bringing their SO is going to make it too many people, then you probably already invited too many people. And it’s particularly weird for me because I’m already kind of fringe with this whole friend group so having my girlfriend there would’ve been nice.
TLDR; Friend invited me to wedding and is excluding +1s on the basis that’s it’s a “slippery slope” even though the wedding is at a cheaper location for them that all the guests need to spend additional time and money to get to.

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TL;DR: Matched with a seemingly great guy on Bumble, hit it off well, moved to texting and phone calls, only to have him "test" me on our first disagreement about who should pay on dates. Despite forgiving him, he responded with hateful accusations, leaving me to move on from his manipulative behaviour.
Hey everyone,
I need some advice on a situation that’s been bothering me. Here’s the full story:
I matched with this guy on Bumble recently, and we hit it off immediately. We spent hours texting and eventually, we moved to a phone call that lasted several hours. We got along so well that he mentioned he would have liked to take me out that day, but he already had plans with his friends to watch an F1 race and a football match. I appreciated his honesty and told him it was fine, and we continued talking throughout the day, even while he was with his friends. It was going SPLENDIDLY!
However, out of nowhere, he made a condescending comment about my Instagram, saying it looks like he’d have to sell a kidney to take a girl like me out. I found it extremely offensive and told him that while I’m financially comfortable and can pay for myself, I do have standards when it comes to dating. I expect a man who asks me out on a date to be willing to pay for it. If a man doesn’t pay, I see it as going out as friends, and I wouldn’t consider a second date. He then doubled down, saying he was new in town and unsure where to take me because I seemed to have an extravagant lifestyle.
I clarified that I didn’t expect an extravagant first date and had a favourite bar in mind that’s quite economical due to my regular patron status there. But I wasn't sure if I was interested in moving forward with him because this had gotten too weird and uncomfortable for me.
He then admitted he was TESTING me because he has a lot of money and didn’t want to be used for it. He accused me of being like other women who expect men to pay. I found this manipulative, insulting, and downright disrespectful and told him so and asked him to fuck right off! Just for the record - I am also well-off. Not only do I make decent money, but my parents are also financially well-off.
Despite my frustration, he apologised profusely and asked for a second chance, claiming he was wrong to test me and that he genuinely wanted to get to know me better. I told him I appreciated the apology but couldn’t get past the disrespect and the implications of his “test.” I made it clear that his behaviour had made me feel judged and uncomfortable, and I didn’t see how we could move forward.
He kept insisting, saying we could laugh about this misunderstanding later and that he’d make it up to me. I reiterated that I didn’t want to feel scrutinised or judged every time we interacted, and that this incident had soured my perception of him. I told him it was best to part ways and ended the conversation. He asked me to sleep on it, and I did.
The next morning, I sent him a text to formally close things off, but on a good note, saying:
"We definitely had a fun and interesting day, but we both know this isn't going to work out! I truly enjoyed our time together and our roller coaster of a conversation. Most people don't even have dates as fun and intriguing as this! But sadly, this is the end of the road for us. I do truly wish you the very best with everything, and I'm glad we ran into each other. Take care and be well! 💗"
He didn’t respond to that text, but he continued to view my Instagram stories, which I found really passive-aggressive. So, I followed up with:
"Hey, I noticed you didn't respond to my last message. I just wanted to say that I tried to be respectful and honour the conversation we had because I genuinely valued it. It would have meant a lot to hear back from you, even just a simple acknowledgment. Regardless, I wish you all the best."
His response to that was unexpectedly hostile. He accused me of being selfish and only caring about my own feelings. He claimed he had already responded to my earlier texts and accused me of being stubborn and ungrateful for the time he spent talking to me. His tone was rude and accusatory, which only reinforced my decision to end things.
I replied, explaining how his actions had made me feel judged and disrespected. I pointed out that despite enjoying our conversation, his test and subsequent behavior were major red flags. I told him I was disappointed by his hostility and that I was hoping for a more respectful closure.
He left my final message on “seen” and hasn’t responded since. Which is fine. Screw him.
I'm not looking for advice on how to get back with him. I’m just trying to process this and move on. Any tips on how to deal with such a disappointing end to what seemed like a promising connection? Because I hadn't been this super excited to go out in a VERY long time!
Thanks for reading.

17M…My attraction towards woman have been decreasing. During 13 to 16, I’ve never really talked to girls and always forced myself to like someone ( girl) but I DO find girls emotionally and sexually attractive like a lot but boys nah.
but recently I don’t find girls that sexually and emotionally attractive that much anymore. I mean from a point of view, IT IS a good thing to not see every girl and be horny. could be a hormonal change during the end of puberty or wut or in a middle of a sexuality change.
I’ve been batting this for months..And I’ve pretty much accepted whatever I’ve become. If I’m gay, I will just not be in a relationship forever( not homophobic tho) but if I’m straight / bisexual might get in a relationship with a girl. I’ve missed my time being very highly attracted to girls xd

the girl that I am currently with has recently broken up with her ex. they live in the same house but the guy (ex) is away for a month or so. We confessed our feelings for each other a few days before they broke up and I told her that we cant be proceed until you are out of a relationship. And so, after she broke up with him, we got together. the tricky part is that her ex is a friend of mine and he will be back in the house in approx 6 weeks. I offered her to move out and find a place together ( i understand it is early for such a discussion but given the context i think it is a better idea). at first she was open to the idea but a few days ago she said that that wont be necessary since she is thinking on moving back to her home country. the reason being that she only moved to here because she wanted to make money but she hasnt been able to do that, hence her desire to go back home. i am unsure on how to proceed as I have strong feelings for her. i dont want her staying in the same house with her ex, but also i am unsure as to what i mean for her because she is fine with living in the same house with her ex. what can I do?

Okay well, maybe not Potato, potato... But I mean on fairly low end devices, like a Snapdragon 680 ish...
These work for me on my Huawei y9 prime with a kirin 710f, which isn't very far off, but I've been able to run almost any game at full speed, with smooth audio as well.
I've watched many videos, on many different games, where they even go to advanced settings and hardware fixes etc. While some of them truly work, they mostly don't work for the others, these settings ive found to be consistent and with no graphical issues yet.. The difference with optimal def is night and day.
Also, I'd highlight what needs to change, if I don't talk about it, leave it at def.
I've tried with: God Hand, Rumble Racing, Samurai Western, WWE svr 07, Yakuza and Pes 14.
I hope it would work for your games as well.
So basically, you go with fast defaults.
-Dont touch the underclocking,
-1, 2 works for rate and skip respectively.
-cycle skip should always be at 2. You can make rate 0 to start with and see of you're comfortable with that, or leave rate at - 1 and change skip to 1, if you prefer that fps

• • 3 and 3 should be avoided for both skip and rate, the fps counter increases, but even you will feel the game run in slo mo.
• I personally put my frame limit at 110, can make the soundtrack off beat at times but the extra speed is kinda fun. See if you like it or just leave it at 100% normal speed.
  

Graphics settings

• resolution should be at 1x... Just leave it there. You used to play these games at 1x resolutions on screens bigger than your phone anyway.

-mipmapping off. Boosts fps, hasn't given me any issues
-trilinear filtering... Disabled, same as mipmapping

• Hardware download mode: The fast def would put it at unsynchronised but this caused some issues for me in God hand, the groundcover would disappear and reappear at intervals, also text would be blocked out in svr 07, so disable readbacks is used. Which does take some fps away, but is waay more stable and without issues.

-Bilinear upscaling: change to None. It takes a lot of fps.
Now in advanced, change vsync queue size to 3. It apparently causes input lag, but I guess it's not that high for it to be noticeable, as I haven't in any of my games, and I use a bt controller. But it does improve fps.
That's it. Some extra tips:
-Use Nethersx2 classic.

• Use pal roms, as 100% emulation speed is easier to get cos max is 50fps.

-Goodluck and hopefully now you can actually start to enjoy the ps2 games and not need to tinker the settings at frequent intervals

Obligatory on mobile so awkward formatting and throwaway because he knows my reddit account. Long story.
I come to ask the Reddit crowd to be kind with me as I legitimately have no idea what to do. My boyfriend and I have been dating for 7 months now and are on the verge of a break-up because of several reasons.

• His long term ex girlfriend has been harassing us for 7 months. I've blocked her everywhere but she is adamant on contacting me. Her messages usually vary from asking for forgiveness, her moving on, I'm ugly and other insults about my appearance and identity, how she was the third party, how I was the third party, how desperate I am, how she cares about me, how she plans to destroy my academic and social life, etc.
  
• They had closure sex a few days before we went on our first date. In his defense, we were not exclusive back then and I told him before in the past that I'd probably find someone like him but not him specifically to date; and that I didn't date; so he only confessed because I pushed him to under the impression he liked another girl. Ex girlfriend shared some of their deleted conversation and he had been refusing to meet with her. They only met that day because she had gone to the front door of their home and up until the end of their conversation he was angry and asking for her to leave.
  
• He confessed the closure sex happened before we agreed to start seeing each other exclusively. But he didn't tell me exactly when it happened, just that it was recent to that conversation. When his ex girlfriend told me by blasting my face on social media the exact dates, he denied it happened on those specific days. He assured me for 4 months that it did not happen.
  
• According to him, she had been pestering him for a few weeks prior to that meeting and promised to stop her advances if they had one final time together. They had sex and a few days later, he told me that I shouldn't worry about her possibly pestering us because he had already "fixed" the problem.
  
• Ex girlfriend was not satisfied and kept messaging for him to go back to her with clips of her slashing her wrists, warning him that she would really kill herself, sending goodbye messages, etc. He at first would respond and tried to call her a few times to check if she was still alive but ended their conversation after he had mailed her remaining stuff back to her (a few essentials: IDs, etc.) After that, she waited for him outside his house several times to beg either inebriated or sober. Other times she would send messages through financial apps with those short messages because he had blocked her on everything even GMail.
  
• He says he doesn't want to go back to that relationship because of how emotionally draining it was. I can vouch for this detail because he had been saying this even before we liked each other, and I had seen their correspondences with each other over the years. She had an unbelievable amount of fake accounts she would cycle through because she would get verbally abusive (you're ugly, you deserve none of the success you have right now, posting his nudes, sending wrist slicing videos, you're lucky I decided to love you, etc.) and would blow up over seemingly nothing. Her own admission, she would get into fits that would end up either getting them into physical fights or him trying to hug her and sort of hold her down until she calms.
  
• He has her blocked everywhere but would occasionally view her Tiktok. He says he isn't in love with her anymore and does not desire a relationship, just that a part of him still cares for her and feels bad because he had promised that he was never going to leave but did.
  
• Up until recently, she was trying to reach out to my friends (people she does not know) and had been telling them I was a third party. She made a groupchat and asked my friends not to tell me and my boyfriend (they did tell us).
  
• She had messaged me multiple times that she knew where I lived and studied and that she was going to wait for me outside my buildings. I didn't want to talk to her before because I had already seen her tendencies based on their correspondences and her messages to me, and I still don't want to contact her even now. She talks shit about my identity, my vag*na, my deceased parents, everything she can target to get under my skin.
  

My boyfriend is adamant he does not hold romantic feelings for her anymore and that he isn't staying because I'm the safer option (in the sense that I am avoidant and have admittedly blindsided my past situationships/ partners and could very well do the same with him). He tells me he's not settling for me and that he genuinely wants to make our relationship work because he knows he only has one shot with me and that he feels genuine for me. It is easier for the both of us to leave the relationship because both are avoidant people, but he is trying to go against his trauma and avoidant tendencies to remain with me. He just fails sometimes (checking her tiktok, etc.)
Currently, we are very open with one another and have good communication (regular relationship checks, we never get into screaming matches). He has never called me names, he takes responsibility for his actions and has accepted blame for every single event that has happened (the lying, the tiktok, ex's harassment) and has not done those since we discussed each issue. Another is that he has been improving himself and his tendencies that hurt me emotionally as well (fixing problems on his own and only informing me they exist well after the fact, not sharing emotions, etc.). I have trouble vouching for this because we had just become friends later in the previous year, but from what I can logically deduce it is true.
THE PROBLEM, finally. I am losing feelings for him because I feel underappreciated, undervalued, and I genuinely feel like I was his second option. Due to the amalgamation of the things we have faced together, I am misinterpreting the pain from those into distrust for him.
To his credit, and if you remove the harassment problem, he has been a good boyfriend to me. We used to regularly go out on dates (used to because both of us are swamped with work, so now he just invites me to future plans after we finish said work), he cooks me food and pays for my meals whenever I allow it (gifts and gestures like this make me feel like I'm a callgirl so we avoid it), bringing me to events I would enjoy (movie showings, concerts, recreational parks) for free (he pays), is physically affectionate, and accompanies me in my commute everyday to and from work regardless if we have fought each other that day, would physically go to me just to talk, spends hours past his curfew if our serious conversations have not finished, etc.
I genuinely still want to work on my trust for him, I want to gain it back and move past our problems. I want to be able to support him because I do know I would also be fucked up if I came from said experience. I don't want to leave him alone because I empathize with what he has gone through and the effects they have on him, but I don't know how to help him. More importantly, I don't know how to process my own feelings about the matter.
This is an incredibly long post and I realize the easier way would be to leave. But I want to give our relationship a fighting chance before we break up. It's not the smart choice, it's not the beneficial choice either. But it's a choice I'm still considering.
TLDR: Because of harassment and other problems, I feel unloved and underappreciated by my boyfriend and am falling out of love. How do I stop losing feelings for him because of circumstances?

I have a friend I really like, but he is obsessed with discussing finances. This person is a very odd individual; He is truly the cheapest person I’ve ever met, but constantly boasts about how much he has in savings. He is cheap to the point where he does not enjoy life and despite having a great paying career (guessing he makes over $300k), he won’t spend a dime on enjoying life so much to where he won’t even go to a restaurant.
He makes comments such as “people who have true wealth don’t spend it on pointless things” as to allude that he has wealth, yet his life is one of the most miserable I’ve known because he doesn’t enjoy life. The only thing he gets enjoyment of is saving money.
It’s taking a toll on our friendship.

I have a rowhome in the Northeast United States; built 1875. I have to repair a chunk of plaster that was water damaged that I’ve removed down to the brick in the affected sections.
As I understand it, I have to clean the area, add a PVA bond then add the plaster. I’ve seen some videos they talk about a two layer solution with the plaster, where they put a “hard wall” coat and then a finishing coat; a lot of the videos I watched were from England.
I went to Home Depot and I didn’t see these specific products, so I’m just wondering what is best to use? I remember when I had the facade of my house done, the guy doing it said that modern mortar would degrade the brick so I was wondering if it might be the same with certain modern plasters; pre-mixed or otherwise.
I’d just like to do this repair more-or-less correctly and not slam a piece of drywall in there and blend the edges.

Hi hello! 👋🏼 I'm looking for new connections, i just love meeting people and having conversations :)
so i'm 21 years old gal and i'm from Europe! I'm into various of basic things like music, tv shows, movies, animals, cooking, baking, video games and taking walks! I'm not going into too much details so we have something to talk about xD
I'm not too strict about your age because i don't really think there's age limit for friends but i would hope that you are at least 19 and not more than 32
I'm pretty sure that everyone here appreciates some effort so if you decide to message me (i hope you do) give me some effort and i'll do the same :) tell me bit about yourself, tell random fact or just ask something, it doesn't really matter as long as it includes more than "hi hru". If you don't know how to start conversation, just answer the questions i mentioned in my post :)
But i hope to hear from you, no need to be shy! :) I'm chill and kind!

Hi Im a 22m from Europe and looking for fellas to chat with. I can talk about any topic and am interested in cats, psychiatry, psychology, video games and running. I study english language teaching and got 2 cats. I would be interested in connecting with people here. I also reply pretty quickly :).

TLDR; 24F Constant arguments with mother, paying for house utilities, younger brother provisions, a few personal finances, mother wants to charge 800$ rent in what feels like retaliation, I want to move out but don't want to be in a bad financial spot.
I 24F college graduate, work a contracting position starting to make decent money. I have been working since i graduated for two years. I make 65K a year. i have been working here for a little under 6 months, before I was making 50k (Yay for the jump in salary). I max out my 401k, and I pay 185 a month for health insurance.
My issue here is my mother. The older I get, the less respect she seems to have for me as an adult simply on the basis of she is my mother so she can say and do anything she wants because she feels justified as she "only wants the best for me"
We recently got into an argument after I volunteered to her that i occasionally partake in marijuana. She got very agressive, very rude and then destructive of my property. I left the house for a week and then came back. In retaliation, she decided I now need to pay 800$ in rent. Whenever we get into a spat, suddenly I need to pay more. As my expenses are right now, i pay the electric bill which ranges from 330-365$, the Internet 93$, car insurance 240 (Theres three people on the car insurance for a total monthly bill of 424. I'm paying about half of it) and phone 100. I send the car insurance and phone to zelle through my mother. The 100 for phone is for my younger brother and my phone bill. Just the device and the insurance because my tmobile line is free. I also handle my younger brothers personal finances while he's in school. Money for groceries, clothes, books, etc.. things that he needs apart from his tuition and housing. Roughly let's say its about 300$ a month, . I do my share of the house work and grocery shopping for the home/ if my mother needs things from the store. When she needs something, she'll ask me if i need the money for it and then she will give me her coin purse and then a list of items to buy that clearly cost more than what I was given. I don't complain about it. I usually just set it down and use my own money to buy it without saying I need to be paid back and all as much as she claims she will pay me back etc..
We recently went on a small vacation and i paid for me and my younger brother, around 8k. Unfortunately a lot was going on around this time and my savings took a hit because of this. I've been rebuilding.
Whenever they do house renovations, my mother wants me to help pay for it. I live in the basement and recently paid 1.5k to help them redo the floors because the carpet bothered my mom so much. I kept saying we could get it cleaned, but she was against it and I gave in and paid for it. She now wants to put up a wall in my room, to separate my room from the laundry room so that (her reason is: she saw it in our neighbors home and thought it was good to allow some privacy in the basement. This was her idea, I didn't ask for it. I said from the very beginning that i don't have the money to pay for that. It's a pain having my room so open but I have never complained to her about it. She brought it up and said I have to pay the materials which I disagree to and it caused a slight argument.
She claims I don't pay rent or contribute to the house hold so it's only fair that I pay 800$ in addition. That paying for wifi should be counted as a "personal" expense because I need it to work my remote job, even though I completely disagree. The mortgage is about 2k. (Are you wondering if my dad helps pay anything? Because apparently what he does is he helps pay for the home is the mortgage). In talking with my father he has told me that he prefers i move out, that My mother and I can't handle disagreements and until i move out, theres no such thing as being treated like an adult because my mother simply wont see it that way.
I agree with him. As soon as my mother doesn't get what she wants out of me, or I do something or dress someway she doesn't agree, she becomes this super rude, and super aggressive person to me. The person i date, the clothes i wear, the things I choose to spend my money on. When i don't engage she will follow me around to yell at me and I will get annoyed and snap back by being petty or disrespectful in how I speak. Now it feels like teen years again. She is the only one I have this issue with.
It's one thing to say you need help with house finances so we should be able to sit down and discuss so that I have the ability to properly save and help out as much as i can where I can, but continuously using it as a power move..I feel slighted here.\
I have been wanting to move out for a while, this past year I was set back some, but the goal has always been to build enough to have a good emergency fund so I can move out. I told her to give me two months first and then she brought up how my dad said I wanted to move out. I explained that me wanting to move out has nothing to do with our argument as I had always planned to move out and I've expressed since I graduated school that I will not be staying home 'till I get married. This however has made me want to speed up the process.
I know realistically, two months isn't enough time for me to get to where I want to be, but while I'm working towards it, how do I move forward on this with her? Am I being unreasonable? I understand that in me saying give me 2 months, it was from a place of annoyance instead of straight up just saying no to 800, especially because i don't want to put myself in a bad financial spot even though part of me wants to say fuck it and figure it out if it means having my own sense of peace in my own place.

Hey, I will show the idea I've realised about changing the item order that I've usually done.
Explanation:
I was always the Null Talisman girl because - Hey.. damage, mana regen, stats! Awesome! On any Int hero I liked getting like 2 talismans.
However, I found out that well, my early lining isn't that strong on Muerta, some Q and double shots def can do some harassment but its all "balanced". I had problems with getting harrased too much and losing HP but I'm not that much into pots so I thought to myself, that maybe I'll get some HP regen...
Soo, I also found out I need some attack-speed asap to utilise the bonus damage from my ulti with quicker hits. So I kinda started thinking that I don't need the early damage items as much but more AS for the 6th lvl+.
It all clicked in my head suddenly about a quick item order that wouldnt waste money on these early toys.
To not spend money on some cheap HP regen, I left the base empty-handed with only Tangos..
I wasn't doing much untill I've gathered 1200 gold for Concoipeida aaand...
Rushing the HP regen and its other stats from it helped me laning and at the same time, followed the major item build order and didnt waste money on some minor HP regen.
So then, I could start buying the items for the Oblivion Staff because I still needed more mana regen to harras with Q and some AS so I got Orchid Malevolance + Threads.
The Silence from it was a pretty useful item to even help my team silencing some important guy etc xD
I always enjoyed Rod of Atos so having something similar of a helping clickable made me comfy
Theen, I've gained some gold and got Bloodthorn to get a big AS increase and start owning xD
So it combined pretty good laning experience with getting a major Item.
Buut, with that early no-item weak damage, I missed a good amount of last hits untill I got some levels and Cornucopia... So Im thinking about also getting a Quelling Blade and it would kinda pay for itself with better last hits I could score.
Also, ofc I didnt get any bonus HP so I had to be careful against Mages to not get caught by them. . Well, the silence helped against them, esp if we rushed them as a whole team they couldnt cast their spells before dying to nuke us.
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Howdy
I run a whole range of campaigns on behalf of local authorities, local government, and NHS in the UK, and keep coming round to the same question.
What is a decent outcome when you only have access to campaign figures, without societal context?
For example, if we're running a campaign around increasing awareness of breastfeeding facilities in a region, what do I count as a win? The commissioners rarely have budget to carry out an actual evaluation into whether there has been an on-the-street change (increased enquiries, more open perceptions to breastfeeding in public), so I need to rely solely on engagement figures. I can see a high percentage of viewers watch at least three quarters of video content, which suggests its engaging. I can see that we get lots of clicks to the campaign site. However, where I'm always asked to compare it to industry averages, the averages available are generally sales based, which doesn't feel relevant here, and it feels like a copout to compare it to different audiences (for example, the next closest thing I have to compare it to is a 'vaccination in pregnant women' campaign, which comes with all sorts of different preconceptions, so feels like a cheat!)
Another example would be that we've run a campaign exploring consent with youths; we've got loads of engagement and discussion on TikTok, and view ratios are (seemingly) high, but with a goal of 'Make sure kids are talking about this topic' I don't know the best metric to refer to as success for this. Whilst my response is largely "you can't find this out from digital metrics alone, you need to get a representative sample of youths from the region and see if they recall seeing the ads, and have they discussed them at all" the push back from my managers is that I need to hit them with a metric and an industry average. I'm a little stumped!
So, for anyone working in behaviour change/nudge, what are you using to make comparisons for success?
Thanks!

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Hi all. I've been on Bupropion 150SR 2X for over 6 weeks now. 38M. Right off the bat, I started noticing my desire to work and accomplish tasks was diminishing, and it's getting worse. I'll go entire workdays without actually working. I've lost the desire to exercise or leave the house. I've lost the desire to play video games or watch movies, go hiking or biking, things I loved. Instead, I fill my time browsing the internet and buying things I don't need, and getting stuck watching shorts, all things I've always tried to avoid. I'm also a bit more aggressive how I talk about people or situations.
I was prescribed 150mg SR 2x daily. This was to tread mild depression, ADHD, and for smoking cessation. I feel like it's made my ADHD much worse. It's doing nothing to help with depression, which was all about having a loss of desire to do the things I loved in the first place. And of course, my anxiety has gotten worse - something I talked to the doc about treating but he didnt seem to care about anxiety. I have more anxiety than depression in general. Perhaps it's my anxiety that is preventing me from working or going out.
And my sleep is absolutely terrible. It's 6am as I type this, I couldn't sleep a wink all night and most nights are bad. Doc even gave me 1mg lunesta to help, and I can stay awake through that just fine.
I've quit smoking since starting bupropion. Three weeks clean. It's still a daily challenge, but I think I can do it on my own now. I also very recently quit heavy alcoholism and smoking weed to help me sleep. So all my 10+ years of vices are suddenly gone. I'm left completely sober and more depressed and much more anxious than when any of this started. I'm doing all this for my health.
Anybody else experience similar? Doc mentioned trying a stimulant next. I'm quite familiar with Adderall, but in the long run, I don't want to be taking anything. I especially don't want to be on any SSRIs.

My phone vibrated. As did my smartwatch. I glimpsed up from my laptop, which was sitting in my lap so I could go over my presentation again. I was in the car, my boss was driving and we were headed to a conference, where both of us were supposed to speak. We were traveling for more than 7 hours now due to numerous traffic jams on our way.
Looking at my watch, I saw, it was the doorbell which caused the vibration. Already distracted from my presentation I pulled out my phone. Opening the doorbell app, I just so see, that my wife asks Becky, our young black dogsitter with her DD boobs into the house. "Curious" I thought, my wife hadn't told me, she wanted to go out that evening. It was a Tuesday, so it was her usual day for her Zumba class, but that would have meant leaving the dogs alone for about 1 and a half hours, so no need for a dogsitter. However, judging from what little I had seen, Becky was wearing an extremely short black latex skirt and a minimalist latex crop top, the full outfit barely covering her tits, ass and pussy. In addition to a black leather collar, it looked like my wife had ordered her in with other stuff in mind than just watching the dogs, even if there was the possibility, Becky's outfit was just due to the 30+ degree heatwave we were having.
A few minutes later, my phone vibrated again. It was a text from my wife. "Heading out to Zumba". She followed it up with a picture of her in her sports dress. Due to the heat she only wore tight short pants, a very tight revealing top and her sports bra. So her petite size combined with her chubby figure and her big tits were easy to spot. "Looking great" I answered. "Have fun, love you". "You have any plans later?" She asked. "No" I answered. "I won't be able to make it to swimming today. I'm not even at the hotel yet. So just dinner with my boss and then I will head for the bed." I replied. "Ok" was the only answer I got.
My boss and I checked into the hotel and found a place to eat, when I got another message from my wife. It was a shower selfie from the gym, showing her having her tits soaped up. I had to make sure, nobody saw my developing boner below a napkin. And this was also unusual, as my wife normally prefers to shower at home. What did she have planned. "Going out?" I asked her. I didn't get an answer for a while. Then I got another selfie. My wife was now wearing a long, tight, black PU skirt, and a black leather corsage, which was barely able to keep her G-Cups inside. She also had makeup on and her black hair with a tint of red worked perfectly with her black lipstick. A second picture showed, that she did not wear panties, but a buttplug. "Gonna surprise Becky" was her answer to my previous question. "Let's check whether she obeyed" was the next text I got, before I had an incoming videocall from the group my wife had created for the three of us. I excused myself from the table and left the table, while keeping the lid of my phone case closed. I took a Bluetooth headset out of my pocket and went outside to take the call. As soon as I did, I had to hold my breath. My wife held up her phone in her car in a way, that Becky and I had perfect view of her cleavage, while Becky was clearly sitting on our terrace, wearing the earlier described outfit, her legs spread apart and her camera clearly showing that she also had inserted a buttplug and additionally a vibrator in her pussy, pleasuring herself. From her position I could see, that there was a very slim, but not zero chance she could be seen by a passing neighbor. "Good girl" I heard my wife's voice. "Expect me home in 20 minutes. Keep going with the vibrator but do not come before I'm home or you will regret it". "Yes Madam" was Becky's answer. "Now put on a show for my husband" my wife again commanded. I watched the vibrator going in and out her pink pussy, which contrasted nicely with her chocolate skin, before commanding her, to take down her top, revealing her double D's to the camera (and potentially the neighbors). She was hesitant at first. "I will tell my wife of your disobedience" was all I had to say. However, as much as I loved the show, I could not watch it till the end, as my boss now also came out of the restaurant, having paid the bill. So I cut the connection and we went on our way to the hotel.
When we arrived at the hotel, my boss asked, whether we wanted to go for a drink at the bar. At the same time, my wife had already sent me a selfie with our car on the garage and her playing on her pussy, presumably watching Becky somehow. "Are you ready to watch" was the caption. So I thanked my boss again for the dinner and excused myself to my hotel room. "Give me a couple of minutes" was my answer to my wife. "Hurry up" she wrote, accompanied by a picture below her skirt, showing her pink pussy and her fluids already flowing down her legs. I quickly setup my tablet and connected it to the WIFI. While I was doing this I received several messages from my wife. The first one was a picture, showing a top view into her corsage, showing clearly, that it was unable to really tame her tits, with her areolas already visible. If a neighbor saw her on the way from the car to the house, he would have quite a look. I was secretly hoping for that to happen. I know some of the neighbors had already checked out Becky or other visitors to our house when they arrived in playtime "clothes" but my wife so far had mostly gone unnoticed by the neighbors. The second picture was a screenshot from one of our bedroom cameras on my wife's phone, showing Becky, lying on her back, her tits once again hidden by her latex top, her legs spread wide open towards the camera. Her skirt had moved upwards and was lying on her hips. The buttplug was replaced by a vibrator, and she also had a vibrator inserted into her pussy. I admired once again the contrast of her pink flesh to the dark chocolate color of her body. "I have the remotes" my wife wrote with a winking emoji. "Hurry up, I'm horny". "Me too" I thought, "and it's not helping that you send me these pictures". Finally I had an internet connection ready and connected onto our home VPN to access the cameras. "I'm in" I wrote to my wife. "Going in" was her answer.
While I waited for my wife to appear, I watched Becky on the tablet. She was still pretty much in the same pose as before and I could only imagine, that she was in this pose, because my wife had ordered her so. She really loved to submit herself to both of us, what made the evenings with her fun. Suddenly I could see her shiver and heard hear moans getting louder. I could see her fighting, but ultimately losing the fight against her orgasm, induced by the two vibrators in her pussy and ass, controlled by my wife. Only a few seconds later I hear high heels coming up the stairs and my wife entering the room. She had added black, knee high leather boots to her already seducing outfit and held a small whip in her hand. I saw Becky's eyes widen, it was a mixture of lust and fear. "You know you can tell me to stop at any time if it is too much," my wife said ."It is fine, I dreamed about playing with a whip, just haven't done it yet. But please be gentle, "was Becky's answer. "Did I stutter, when I told you not to come?" My wife now said in a fake angry voice. She followed it up with a lash onto her top and the boob below. I could hear the sound and I saw Becky flinch for a split-second. But her eyes told, that she was okay with what happened. "Sorry Madam. It was just to much pleasure you gave me with the vibrators," Becky whispered. "So now this is my fault you cannot control yourself?" My wife asked while still faking anger, followed by a lash onto the other boob. "No Madam, I did not obey your orders. What can I do to make it up?" "That will be up to me, I already have some ideas." My wife said to her, while she positioned a few whiplashes around Becky's pussy. You could already see the mixture of pain and lust in Becky's eyes.
From the messages before, and the show I got on camera my cock was already more than rock hard and I hurried to get rid off my pants and boxers, to release the pain this was causing me. That was when I realized, the blinds were still open, so I corrected this mistake quickly. No need to be seen masturbating in a conference hotel.
On my screen the action now got more intense. "Why are you still dressed?" My wife asked. I laughed out, because the short top and the extremely short skirt that was already hanging on Becky's hips could barely be counted as dressed, as she didn't even wear any underwear. "Get these skimpy clothes of your body" was the next command. To reinforce this statement two whiplashes onto each boob were added. Becky quickly got up, robbing me of the view between her legs and wanted to pull her top over her head, her back to my wife and the camera. She was interrupted by a whiplash onto her ass, as the skirt still was hanging on her hips. This time my wife seemingly had put more force into it, as for a short time you could see the impact on Becky's chocolate skin. "No need to hide. Make it a show for me and the camera". Becky obeyed. She turned around and started pulling up her top above her DD tits, covering them with her hands, playing a little bit by pushing them left right and up and down before performing a boob drop and finally pushing her top over her head. She let it turn around one of her fingers before throwing it on the general direction of my wife. While her boobs are a lot smaller than my wife's G-Cups, due to her taller but skinnier stature and chocolate color, those were my second favorite boobs. Her areolas were forward facing and she had quite a gap in between them. And they looked incredibly sexy in the current lighting, bouncing with every of Becky's movements. My wife nodded approvingly. Afterwards Becky started pulling down her skirt while moving laszivly. Her boobs and her hips moving while she slowly hid her pussy before revealing it again. She got down on her knees, spreading her legs for my wife and me before she got out of the skirt, pushed it aside and got up again. Unfortunately for her, the vibrator fell out of her pussy during this movement. A second later she got another whiplash on her pussy. "Did I tell you to loose the vibrator?" My wife said in a harsh voice. "No Madam." Becky said, lowering her head. "Well, then pick it up and put it where it belongs again. Becky started bending her knees and lowering her back, when she was once again interrupted by a whiplash targeted at her right tit. "Not like that. Turn around and bend over, we want to see your ass." I think I caught a short grin on Becky's face. She definitely did not mind what my wife did to her. She turned around, spread her legs so I would be able to see her face and upper body between them, bent over, wiggled with her ass, which of course also caused her tits to wiggle in front of her face. This of course also revealed the vibrator in her butt. Just when Becky had her fingers on the vibrator on the floor I could hear her moan and saw her legs shaking. My wife now stood besides her, facing the camera holding the remote in the hand that did not hold the whip. With shaking hands from arousal Becky tried to take up the vibrator again, and just when her fingers were there, my wife increased the intensity with the remote again, leading to Becky losing control and collapsing on the floor. As soon as her body hit the floor another whiplash hit her ass. "Am I talking incomprehensibly? You are not to come without my permission and you are asked to get this vibrator into your worthless pussy while showing your fucking ass. What is so hard about that?" While talking, my wife added additional whiplashes onto her ass with a couple of them also hitting the pussy area. "I'm sick of this, now get your worthless body onto the bed and open your legs to the camera". "Yes Madam" was the only answer from Becky. When she got up I glimpsed a look in her face and saw it was pure lust, despite the pain.
Up until now I had started playing with myself. The view and sound on my tablet were just to arousing. I realized, that I was already close to cumming, but there would be more action for me to watch. Nevertheless I couldn't stop, and a few quick strokes and I came in 3 high squirts over my upper body. In the meanwhile the action on the screen continued.
As ordered, Becky lay down as she had been before only now her tits were also clearly visible on camera. My wife bent down herself, making sure I got a good show and picked up the vibrator Becky had failed to pick up twice. She shoved it into Becky's pussy again, before she used the remote again to set both vibrators in Becky's ass an pussy to their lowest setting again. Becky's pelvis moved, as the overstimulation was to much again. My wife once again addressed her: "This should be about me, not you! Time you put your body to some use. Now get me out of my skirt." She ordered, standing next to the bed, with her ass to the camera. Becky sat up, her open pussy still facing the camera and giving me a prime look at her tits. She undid my wife's belt and started pulling down the skirt. My wife supported this with very erotic moves and just a few seconds later I had the perfect view onto the greatest ass in the galaxy. The right roundness, perfect size, perfect shape and feel and just overall perfect for me. My wife pushed Becky back onto the bed, while at the same time bending over, revealing the buttplug and vibrator she had in herself. This movement was also to much for her corsage and her tits fell out. "Make yourself useful and suck on my tits!" was her next command, to which Becky promptly obeyed while my wife made quite a show out of removing the vibrator from her pussy. She spread her legs, shaking that great ass and slowly pulled out the vibrator millimeter by millimeter and pushing it in 5 millimeters in again for every 10 millimeters she had pulled it out. When she was done, she climbed onto the bed sat up and pushed Becky's upper body down. She then climbed over Becky's face and began riding on her face. Becky understood what to do and gave her best to luck my wife's pussy. My wife's boobs jumped around on her chest, which made her abandon her whip and she started massaging and playing with them, while leaning slightly backwards. This gave me a great view and made me hard again in an instant. Also due to my wife's movements on the bed, Becky's tits started to wiggle, but she needed her hands to ensure my wife's thighs had sufficient space in between for her not to suffocate. This got more and more difficult, as my wife quickly approached her orgasm. It took her less than 2 minutes before she collapsed forward, her face more or less falling onto Becky's pussy. My wife catched her breath for half a minute or so, before she pulled herself up again, grabbed her whip and climbed down from Becky. Becky's face was covered in my wife's fluids, it almost looked like my wife had squirted onto Becky's face. Becky also sat up and catched her breath.
My wife held up Becky's face by placing her whip below her chin. "Good girl, seems like you are good for something. I think you have earned some reward." She said and gave Becky two gentle whiplashes onto her nipples, which made Becky moan again. My wife bent down beside the bed, showing me her great ass with the buttplug again and opened our toy drawer. She grabbed a blindfold and tossed it to Becky. "Put that on, and get on your knees, face to the camera." Becky went on her knees and elbows, what resulted in a harsh whiplash on her ass. "On your hands, not your elbows" and as Becky took to long for her liking, a second whiplash followed. Now Becky obeyed and stayed more upright. Next my wife went, and repositioned the camera, so now the camera was low enough to look between Becky's legs. Next, my wife pulls out a dual vibrator we had bought recently. She inserted the short part as advertised into her vagina and went behind Becky. She then removed the vibrators from Becky's pussy and ass and slowly started to insert the long part of the double vibrator into Becky's pussy. I was able to see Becky's surprised look through the blindfold, as my wife's pelvis touched Becky's ass and she realized, what was happening. The next surprise came, when my wife activated the vibrations and started fucking her Doggystyle. I was almost in heaven. Seeing a pair of DD tits bouncing in the big picture, and my wife's G-Cups also bouncing in the background while my wife grabbed Becky by the hips and gave her a pounding was an absolutely fantastic view. This went on for about 10 minutes, with me wanking of in my hotel bed, my wife pounding the dogsitter Doggystyle and the dogsitter moaning loudly. It seemed, the double vibrator had some kind of burst mode, as both women increased and decreased their volume in regular intervals. After 10 minutes the two women collapsed over each other from their orgasm and I also came again.
After everyone had catched their breath again, my wife told Becky she could go home now, she would still make the last train even with some time to wash herself. After Becky was gone, my wife and myself had video call under our showers. After that we said goodnight. My wife told me, to have fun on the conference reception the next day, but to not forget my camera...

I am bit confused and stressed since I am not Punjabi or Sikh. My boyfriend recently went to Punjab for his sister’s wedding and he started talking to his sister’s nanand. So that made me insecure and I asked him why do you talk to her daily like 1-2 hours on phone (we are in living together relationship in abroad). He told me you don’t have to feel insecure because in his culture he can’t marry anyone from same pind where his sister has been married. Is this true? Or I am just overthinking? (That girls knows that we are living relationship)