The cat in the hat text

So my ex and I (23f, 25f) broke up a little over 3 months ago. It was really brutal, I was blindsided, but at the same time I hurt her quite a bit as well. We were really toxic towards the end and I genuinely think this was for the best.
Like an hour and a half after we have the breakup conversation, Im at home trying to process things and she texts me a picture of her mom’s dog wearing a kansas city chiefs shirt and says “I fear you would have left me over this anyways” (Context for anyone who doesn’t care about sports, I just straight up don’t like the Chiefs and they were playing in the super bowl again that weekend). I didn’t respond at all and just felt really hurt, we broke up under strange circumstances and I was left feeling like she just didn’t like me and I was resigned to the fact that she didn’t respect me anymore, so getting a joke text within 2 hours of breaking up hurt a lot tbh. Like what was I supposed to say?
Fast forward two days, I didn’t respond to her dumb joke and she texts me at like midnight saying “Im sorry, I’ll learn forgiveness, you were my best friend and I hope we can be friends again” and then says a bunch more stuff the next morning like “We should talk soon”, “nobody understands me like you, I just want to speak with you about this and nobody else but we can’t and it sucks”. My sister and my friends told me to block her but I held strong for some reason. I just couldn’t let go.
Then a few MORE days later I decided to respond with no words, I send her the laundry/taxes meme from Everything Everywhere All at Once, partly because it was sentimental and we did have a really special relationship at one point, and also because lowkey the last thing I dropped off for her was her W-2 and her laundry. She responds saying we should talk soon, and says all kinds of stuff like “I miss you lots”, “Maybe we just need time to be our own people”, “Im still wearing the ring you gave me” (context: It wasn’t a promise ring or engagement ring or anything, just was one of the first birthday presents I ever got her and was one of the first gifts I ever bought someone where I spent real real money on, so it at least meant SOMETHING to us), and a whole bunch of other sentimental stuff, concluding with “Im here whenever you’re ready to speak.” These messages all really hurt me and multiple ppl told me to block her but once again, I just couldn’t bring myself to.
Now, a few more days go by and she texts me about a performance one of our mutual friends’ invited us to. She asked if I was gonna go and said if I was then she would back out. This just bothered me SO MUCH, not only had I forgotten all about this performance and had zero intention of going given the state I was in, but it was just a question that NEEDED an answer, I couldn’t just leave her on read again, right? I responded and kinda showed too much of my feelings and how hurt I was, and we spoke a bit over text. She admitted she handled our breakup inappropriately and also said that marriage was still a possibility for us (Mind you, in our final argument as a couple she pointed at me and goes “Does this even look like marriage material?” which I still think about to this day). It was….jarring. I pretty much clung on to that hope. Then at the end she completely switched her stance and said SHE needed time and that she would let ME know when she was ready for a conversation, saying she needed two weeks.
Fast forward a few weeks, we had been in contact only to exchange our belongings, but she blocked me after I told her she could leave one of my hats in the mailbox if she didnt want to see me. So I message her dad a week later in order to get my things back and get that all sorted. However, one of my friends informed me that she was speaking to a boy in one of her psych courses who had been hitting on her. This kinda sent me down the rabbit hole and I message her dad again asking for some of my stuff back. Mind you, Im still blocked at this point so if I wanted it back, I had to go through him. The thing she still had of mine was my nice pillow which i had given to her to take to her dorm, and even a few days after the breakup she had said stuff like “Im still sleeping on the pillow you gave me” so at this rate I just wanted it back. Her dad immediately assumed I had blocked her and he tried to speak to me like I was his kid and I told him “your daughter is the one who blocked me” and he got really embarrassed. I get unblocked and get my pillow back bc I dont know how youre still sleeping on it while speaking to the first dude that hits on you (Mind you this girl swore she was a lesbian and was always worried I would cheat with a boy). I get the pillow back, she compliments my hair bc I had gotten it done, and we go on our separate ways.
Now, I messaged her a couple more times because I kept finding stuff of hers at my place. Id dropped some of it off at her dad’s place bc he lives in town. Fast forward to my birthday exactly 2 months after we breakup, she texts me at 9pm saying “Happy birthday” and nothing else. Wtf. I didn’t reply and I actually was super lonely on my bday so she was the last person I wanted to hear from.
I think I made the mistake of trying to bring one of her things to her a week later because I was visiting a friend who lived by her campus. This is where I feel she thinks I might be the one trying to drop breadcrumbs. It was super awkward, i just handed her her stuff and she said something completely inaudible but sounded like “take care” or something along those lines. And NOW is where I make the ultimate mistake of asking why that was weird once she got back into her building. She was basically like “im still healing, don’t message me unless theres stuff of mine thatyou have. I dont want to speak to you for a very long time if not ever”. So in 2 months I go from “im here whenever youre ready” to “dont speak to me ever”.
I told her that I am still healing too and dont even want to have a conversation yet, and I make the mistake of asking why she bothered telling me happy birthday if thats how she feels. The response i got from her was “I did it because it would have felt bad not saying anything, I wont say it again next year”. I got blocked permanently a few messages later.
So basically, just go no contact and stick to it. I should have taken my friends advice and blocked her a long time ago, and because I didnt I got my hopes up and got hurt again. Apologies for the long post, but seriously sometimes people just say things because they are emotional and not because they mean them. I held out for hope for way too long.
Apologies for the long ass post

This is long; I’ll try to make it quick. My husband and I live in the country and we have two dogs. People constantly dump the dogs they don’t want out here though.
A few months ago, a young female pit bull was ditched and we called animal control and they couldn’t catch her. Eventually, she went under our neighbors fence and they kept her. The neighbor told me that she was chipped and the previous owner had cancer so they have to her another family and that family dumped her. They have 4 other dogs…
The dog is able to get out from their fence and has done so for a while now. She walks all over the neighborhood, goes into other peoples yards and eventually she started crawling under a low spot in our fence and coming to play with our dogs. She has the sweetest personality, she is loving and she is not aggressive to other people or dogs. I can see that for people who are scared of dogs or have livestock or cats, they are probably not a fan of roaming free. The neighbors know she gets out and the only attempt they made was to zip tie the hole in their fence and she busted through the zip ties in seconds.
Today, my husband is home from work and sitting in our living room. The dog comes through our back dog door and is bleeding from her face. We assumed she got into it with another dog . He snapped a photo and it looks like a piece of her cheek was hanging down. I text our neighbor and ask if they want my husband to take the dog to the vet as they are at work. They said “I don’t know. Not sure where one is”. 🙄🙄. My husband ended up taking the dog to our vet. They first quoted a cost of $400-600 and they would call with an update.
First phone call he gets with an update is that they looked in her mouth and she has a lot of broken teeth. They are going to keep working on her and will get back to us.
Second update is it’s worse than they thought. She was shot in the face. The bullet went in through her cheek, across part of her sinus and lodged in her jaw. They had to remove a piece of her mandible and she only has one viable tooth left on the right side. I asked them if we needed to be thinking about putting her to sleep and they said at this point no; she will look different and have to eat on one side of her face but she should be fine. They are keeping her overnight and we can go get her tomorrow.
Her owner next door has not asked for any updates. The fact that they haphazardly attempted to fix their fence and didn’t even care to ask how she was make us want to just tell them we are going to keep her.
My question is this: has anyone else had a dog who was shot in the face and survived? How was the healing process? I’m assuming soft food only but I guess I am bracing myself for the worst. We can offer her a safe and good home but I feel so terrible she is alone tonight and that some jerk shot her in the freaking face!!!

Or Wyvern Tickets or whatever they want to implement to finally ease a little bit of the stranglehold RNG has on this game.
I know this is what it's like in the main games too, but those also feature significantly larger drop amounts and the ability to fight any monster at will. Without those, the RNG goes from an annoyance to downright infuriating.
I just completed a quintuple Barioth HAT and got a single Tail. Five cats, five severed tails, one Barioth Tail. One out of the fifty I'll need in the next grade. That's wild. And they expect me to spend real money on tickets for the chance to have that happen again? I'm not even buying the Prime pass again until Kushala comes along and adds something worth doubling. I don't mind spending money on a game I enjoy, but only when I get something worthwhile in return.
I know this is just another voice shouting the same stuff that's already been said for almost a year now, but these bottlenecks are what sap my motivation to play. I'm fine with the Zenny grind, I'll get there eventually. I just need that melder. And I don't care if they monetize it or make the ratio something crazy like 50 rarity 1s for a rarity 2. At least then, every successful hunt would be a meaningful step towards something tangible and not just another roll of the dice.

Hi, I'm Ben. I'm a 25(M) player that's been playing ttrpgs in some format pretty much my whole life. I have some experience with a wide variety of games, including but not limited to DnD, Pathfinder, Mutants and Masterminds, Rifts, and Powers and Perils. I'd like to find a group to play a different system, preferably something within the World of Darkness games, which would be completely new to me. That said, I'm open to any system if you you think I'd be a match. My schedule is completely open at the moment, and I can work with any time zone.
As for a bit about me, I'm a fantasy/science fiction writer that has been playing ttrpgs since I was 5, I love cats, and I have a crippling caffeine addiction. I prefer long term, RP heavy, character driven campaigns with smaller groups. I'm not a huge fan of combat in any system I've ever played, and I think it's the weakest link in ttrpgs in general. I'm not a bigot, and I have no interest in playing with bigots. That's it. That's all there is to know.
I'm used to playing over discord voice chat, and occasionally using other websites like roll20. I'm willing to learn new websites or software, but I'm only interested in playing over voice chat, not text based games. Please feel free to shoot me a DM or leave a comment below if you think I'd be a good fit.

Hey, everyone. It's been a while since I've posted on this sub. Apologies for any formatting issues. I'm on mobile. All names used here are fake. If your name happens to match any fake names used, I promise I'm not talking about you. I'm talking about someone else entirely. The only real names used are the pets'.
TW: Pet loss, abuse mentioned, bullying in the workplace, ableism
Before I get into this, here are all the people involved:
My manager "Karen" (47F) Manager's boss "Shannon" (50sF) Newest coworker "Carol" (41F) Coworker 1 "Kelly" (27F) Coworker 2, the one I'm closest to, "Diana" (26F) Me (26F) Coworker 3, the youngest, "Sally" (20F) My old cat, Genny (pronounced like "Jenny", 13F) My kitten, Emmett (5monthsM)
Background: Back in March of this year, my cat Genny passed away unexpectedly while I was still at work and had about an hour left into my shift. The same day, after saying my goodbyes to Genny and paying for cremation, I was gifted a kitten who looks a lot like my old cat (a brown tabby), except he's a boy and he has different patterns in his fur. I see this as her way of saying that she doesn't want me to be alone. All of my coworkers were made aware of what happened. They all knew how much I cherished my girl. I was brainstorming possible names for the baby. The baby responded the most to the names "Emmett" and "Belphegor" or "Belphie" for short. I was a huge Twilight fangirl when I was younger. The series still holds a special place in my heart. I've always loved the name "Emmett". I've tried the name "Jasper" with the baby because I love that name too, but he never responded to it. I went with naming the baby Emmett and kept Belphegor as his middle name. His name is Emmett Belphegor.
As far as work is concerned, Karen is on medical leave currently and Shannon has been overseeing the house. I've been getting close to Carol, as she's disabled too (she's deaf, and I'm autistic) and I see her as like an aunt figure. Kelly and Sally (before she left) were very close. They both seemed okay with me. Diana and I are close too, or so I thought. Through Kelly and Sally working shifts with Diana, they've all seemed to turn on me and I don't understand why. I recently found out that there's been a lot of (false) shit said about me by all of my coworkers, except for Carol and higher-ups, behind my back. I've brought up concerns before, but I do it in good faith. I don’t do it to start shit. (Example: I've gently brought up concerns about Diana's lack of personal hygiene because I care about her, I wanted to see if I could do anything to help, and it was affecting everyone in the house.)
From what Carol told me, Kelly has spun the narrative to everyone in multiple group chats that I went ahead and named my kitten "Emmett" anyway, despite her apparently telling me not to because that's her ex's name and he was abusive towards her. According to Carol, Kelly said I'm "disrespectful" and have a "personal vendetta" against her. Over a name. None of that is true. I never named him Emmett to be malicious or attack Kelly in any way. I named him Emmett because I've always loved that name, I have a soft spot for Twilight, and he responded to that name the most. Thankfully, Carol and Karen stood up for me. You know, I would like to think at least Diana stood up for me and maybe Sally did too, but I know neither of them did. It'd be stupid to think otherwise. I don’t know about Shannon. Like, what does Kelly expect me to do, change my cat's name to appease her? I've had him for two months and he's used to being called Emmett or Emmett Belphegor! I like his name, he likes his name, my roommates like his name, and I'm not changing it.
I've also been told they (Kelly, Diana, and Sally) have been using my disability to hurt me even more, which is ironic, considering we all work with other disabled people in their homes for a living. Well...Sally's last day was on Sunday, and Diana's last day is on Thursday. Kelly's supposedly leaving in a couple weeks, but is "on the fence" now. They're all about supporting disabled people and helping them until they have to work alongside a disabled coworker, and it shows.
On Sunday, when I had been home for maybe thirty minutes tops, Kelly added me to a group chat with Sally and Shannon, where she sent pictures of two tiny things I forgot to do (it was just a couple things on the counter I forgot to put away and a few dishes I was meaning to wash and just forgot to), and proceeded to berate me over text for it. I was side tracked doing other things that needed to be done as well, and these two little things just slipped my mind. It wasn't intentional. It happens. All of them have left me with huge messes on multiple occasions, yet I've never done what Kelly did to me. Not a single time. But the moment I accidentally leave a couple things, it's apparently a huge issue? Okay. 🙄 It took everything in me not to scream at any of them through text and phone calls, or do anything stupid to myself.
The only reason why I haven't quit yet is simply because change is scary. It takes me a lot longer than others to fully process and adjust to change. I'm also afraid that the people I help won't be properly taken care of if I'm not there.
I've been breaking out in stress hives because of everything that's been going on. Not kidding. Apparently we're getting a couple new staff, so hopefully things will be okay until Karen gets back. I just need these people to leave already. I'm tired of being blamed for everything wrong that goes on in the house, when all I do is do my job to the best of my ability. I'm sick of the bullying, the alienation, and the ableism. I'm sick of being afraid to tell my higher-ups about what's been happening because of the fear I'll get fucked over instead of getting some kind of justice.
TL;DR: Most of my coworkers, except for ONE, have been starting shit with me for the stupidest things, bullying me, being ableist towards me, and making the work environment extremely hostile. It's affecting my mental, emotional, and physical health.

Studied for 5 months to get my CISSP early April, took a week off then spent 75-100 hours over a month on the CISM.
Resources Used

1. Gwen's Review manual - 9/10: Just the right level of detail, good quiz questions. Would be a 10/10 if it had an index!
2. Pocket Prep app -8/10: Good for sneaking in questions throughout the day. Information was all correct, but format and level of detail we're quite the same as the live-fire test
3. QAE book version-superposition of 3/10 and 10/10: content was super targeted and closely resembled live fire text BUT the answers are printed in bold directly beneath the questions in a way that makes them difficult to avoid while reading options
4. All In One - 5/10: gave up on the book pretty much immediately, but the included Total Seminars test bank has 400ish solid questions presented in a quality format

Test Experience
I did the at-home version. Initial setup was annoying but not particularly difficult. Proctor reached out to me saying my camera had cut out at one point but within 15 seconds told me to resume without anything having changed. Powered through all questions in 90 minutes flagging about 10, changing a handful upon review.
Summary
Overall, very passable if you have the CISSP content fresh of mind. No idea what career impact it will have, but the extent of new material can be learned through Gwen's short manual and a read through of the QAE alone. Excuse any spelling/grammar issues, I'm on my 2nd celebratory margarita.

A few days ago my friend called my work with an emergency with her very elderly cat. Her mom was out of town and she doesn’t drive or have anyone else in the area. I left work (getting an attendance point because I didn’t have PTO but frankly that wasn’t my concern) and rushed over to her so I could take her and the cat to the emergency vet. My friend is quite a bit younger than I am and just didn’t have as much experience as well as being really stressed so I called her mom to explain what was going on, explained everything to the vet, communicated what the vet said to her mom and ultimately made the decision to let the cat go. We sat with her while she passed and I held my friend until she said she was ready to go.
I was over at their house once the mom came home and she said she was so sorry the daughter was “all alone” dealing with all of this. I said simply “I tried to make sure she wasn’t all alone- jay, or the kitty- but I’m so sorry that it all went down the way it did and if there is anything else I can do please let me know”
A family friend at the table jumped in and said that if she felt alone she was alone and that’s what matters. I said I absolutely was not trying to disregard how she felt and I i absolutely shouldn’t have mentioned anything about how I was feeling. I apologized and we moved on with the service.
Later the family friend walked up to me and told me she was disappointed that I tried to make it all about me and I should be ashamed. She said all I did was “drive the car and hold her hand” which “doesn’t matter.” I didn’t mention the money or anything else because frankly that doesn’t matter.
I felt taken aback but once again apologized for anything I said that came across wrong as it wasn’t my intention however I understand it was out of line and genuinely apologize. This person huffed and told me that “kids your age know nothing” before stalking away.
I ended up giving my friend a hug with the keepsake I made from a picture I took and the footprint they gave us and told her if she needed anything to text me day or night. She told me thank you, that she appreciated me, I was her only real friend and I left.
I went home and found the family friend I talked to made a Facebook post for the memorial mentioning how my friend was “suffering alone” with “no support around” but managed to “pull through in the most difficult time of her life and do what she needed”. Ngl I’m not thrilled simply due to this friend and wondering if im the AH

Hey there! I am a 30 year old guy from Upstate New York looking for someone that wants to make an emotional connection, and would like to put efforts into conversations.
A bit about me: I'm 6’1". I get height can be a big deal for some women so I think it's best to just put it out there first 😅 I've got black hair, brownish black eyes. Average body, I'm muscular and wanting to start exercising both for health and a little bit for better shape. I like to think I'm fairly attractive but then most of us grew up with a relative always telling us we were not handsome or cute, etc. we can share pictures once we establish some comfort zone. If education is important, I am a college graduate with post-graduation degree as well. Now working as an engineer.
I have to lead with the fact that I can be pretty sarcastic at times. I also joke and (playfully) tease. I'm pretty easy going/chill and I like to keep things light and fun, but also enjoy getting into the really deep conversations as well. I'm a sucker for the whole good morning and goodnight text thing as well as checking in on those busier days. That doesn’t mean we have to just message good morning and good night for the whole week. Haha. I think most important part of knowing someone via online platform is initial conversations and if you don’t have enough time let me know otherwise that conversation is dead in no time.
I love animals. I've always felt very connected and attached to them and just enjoy interacting with them. While I am more of a dog person pet-wise, cats are still pretty cool in my book. Cats are more complex though I love the mysterious nature.
Anything outdoors is great in my opinion. Just feel like going for a walk? Let's do it. I do kayaking a bit in the summers, fish, hike, go for drives. I have the habit of occasionally stopping and taking pictures of plants and flowers I see around (I'm always down to share!). While sending me message write code - “I3U” so that I know it’s someone who actually read my post. Didn’t write in the end cuz some people might just skip to end. This doesn’t mean that you just send me the code. I am strictly gonna monitor now. I have skimmed through soo many texts and my innocent heart always gives chances, I am gonna try to be little strict this time.
It's not just the outdoors I love. I can also get down with chill days at home binging something on Netflix or playing something on my PC. Let's face it, I'm a bit if a nerd (everyone has something nerd about themselves) and if you like Jurassic park, board games, Any Mafia movies, gaming, etc we will get along great. I'm a sucker for horror movies as well and am always looking for recommendations. I listen to a lot of music. I shouldn’t brag but I listen to english ,german, Spanish, french and Hindi songs. Born and brought up in India. Hence, hindi songs.
A bit about (possibly) you: I'd prefer if you were in some sort of professional environment and ambitious. I'm not extremely picky about things like hair and eye color. Height is also not a big deal. If you're alot smaller than me and worried that it's something you’ll be insecure about, it's not. The big thing for me is personality. I think personality can make us a lot more or a lot less attractive. I want someone that is genuinely kind and sweet, someone that likes to laugh, someone that's not afraid to be goofy.
A final note: I'm a single guy and looking for someone dynamic. Sometimes I can respond immediately and sometimes it takes a minute due to the obvious circumstances. I also don't expect you to respond immediately to every message, I get that we all have lives and can be busy at times. It would be awesome if you are up for a voice chat. And please please when responding write something about yourself.
If any if this sounds remotely interesting to you, feel free to reach out via reddit dm or chat!

Hey there! I am a 30 year old guy from Upstate New York looking for someone that wants to make an emotional connection.
A bit about me: I'm 6’1". I get height can be a big deal for some women so I think it's best to just put it out there first 😅 I've got black hair, brownish black eyes. Average body, I'm muscular and wanting to start exercising both for health and a little bit for better shape. I like to think I'm fairly attractive but then most of us grew up with a relative always telling us we were not handsome or cute, etc. we can share pictures once we establish some comfort zone. If education is important, I am a college graduate with post-graduation degree as well. Now working as an engineer.
I have to lead with the fact that I can be pretty sarcastic at times. I also joke and (playfully) tease. I'm pretty easy going/chill and I like to keep things light and fun, but also enjoy getting into the really deep conversations as well. I'm a sucker for the whole good morning and goodnight text thing as well as checking in on those busier days. That doesn’t mean we have to just message good morning and good night for the whole week. Haha. I think most important part of knowing someone via online platform is initial conversations and if you don’t have enough time let me know otherwise that conversation is dead in no time.
I love animals. I've always felt very connected and attached to them and just enjoy interacting with them. While I am more of a dog person pet-wise, cats are still pretty cool in my book. Cats are more complex though I love the mysterious nature.
Anything outdoors is great in my opinion. Just feel like going for a walk? Let's do it. I do kayaking a bit in the summers, fish, hike, go for drives. I have the habit of occasionally stopping and taking pictures of plants and flowers I see around (I'm always down to share!). While sending me message write code - “I4U” so that I know it’s someone who actually read my post. Didn’t write in the end cuz some people might just skip to end. This doesn’t mean that you just send me the code. I am strictly gonna monitor now. I have skimmed through soo many texts and my innocent heart always gives chances, I am gonna try to be little strict this time.
It's not just the outdoors I love. I can also get down with chill days at home binging something on Netflix or playing something on my PC. Let's face it, I'm a bit if a nerd (everyone has something nerd about themselves) and if you like Jurassic park, board games, Any Mafia movies, gaming, etc we will get along great. I'm a sucker for horror movies as well and am always looking for recommendations. I listen to a lot of music. I shouldn’t brag but I listen to english ,german, Spanish, french and Hindi songs. Born and brought up in India. Hence, hindi songs.
A bit about (possibly) you: I'd prefer if you were in some sort of professional environment and ambitious. I'm not extremely picky about things like hair and eye color. Height is also not a big deal. If you're alot smaller than me and worried that it's something you’ll be insecure about, it's not. The big thing for me is personality. I think personality can make us a lot more or a lot less attractive. I want someone that is genuinely kind and sweet, someone that likes to laugh, someone that's not afraid to be goofy.
A final note: I'm a single guy and looking for someone dynamic. Sometimes I can respond immediately and sometimes it takes a minute due to the obvious circumstances. I also don't expect you to respond immediately to every message, I get that we all have lives and can be busy at times. It would be awesome if you are up for a voice chat. And please when responding write something about yourself.
If any if this sounds remotely interesting to you, feel free to reach out via reddit dm or chat!

Hey there! I am a 30 year old guy from Upstate New York looking for someone that wants to make an emotional connection.
A bit about me: I'm 6’1". I get height can be a big deal for some women so I think it's best to just put it out there first 😅 I've got black hair, brownish black eyes. Average body, I'm muscular and wanting to start exercising both for health and a little bit for better shape. I like to think I'm fairly attractive but then most of us grew up with a relative always telling us we were not handsome or cute, etc. we can share pictures once we establish some comfort zone. If education is important, I am a college graduate with post-graduation degree as well. Now working as an engineer.
I have to lead with the fact that I can be pretty sarcastic at times. I also joke and (playfully) tease. I'm pretty easy going/chill and I like to keep things light and fun, but also enjoy getting into the really deep conversations as well. I'm a sucker for the whole good morning and goodnight text thing as well as checking in on those busier days. That doesn’t mean we have to just message good morning and good night for the whole week. Haha. I think most important part of knowing someone via online platform is initial conversations and if you don’t have enough time let me know otherwise that conversation is dead in no time.
I love animals. I've always felt very connected and attached to them and just enjoy interacting with them. While I am more of a dog person pet-wise, cats are still pretty cool in my book. Cats are more complex though I love the mysterious nature.
Anything outdoors is great in my opinion. Just feel like going for a walk? Let's do it. I do kayaking a bit in the summers, fish, hike, go for drives. I have the habit of occasionally stopping and taking pictures of plants and flowers I see around (I'm always down to share!). While sending me message write code - “I2U” so that I know it’s someone who actually read my post. Didn’t write in the end cuz some people might just skip to end. This doesn’t mean that you just send me the code. I am strictly gonna monitor now. I have skimmed through soo many texts and my innocent heart always gives chances, I am gonna try to be little strict this time.
It's not just the outdoors I love. I can also get down with chill days at home binging something on Netflix or playing something on my PC. Let's face it, I'm a bit if a nerd (everyone has something nerd about themselves) and if you like Jurassic park, board games, Any Mafia movies, gaming, etc we will get along great. I'm a sucker for horror movies as well and am always looking for recommendations. I listen to a lot of music. I shouldn’t brag but I listen to english ,german, Spanish, french and Hindi songs. Born and brought up in India. Hence, hindi songs.
A bit about (possibly) you: I'd prefer if you were in some sort of professional environment and ambitious. I'm not extremely picky about things like hair and eye color. Height is also not a big deal. If you're alot smaller than me and worried that it's something you’ll be insecure about, it's not. The big thing for me is personality. I think personality can make us a lot more or a lot less attractive. I want someone that is genuinely kind and sweet, someone that likes to laugh, someone that's not afraid to be goofy.
A final note: I'm a single guy and looking for someone dynamic. Sometimes I can respond immediately and sometimes it takes a minute due to the obvious circumstances. I also don't expect you to respond immediately to every message, I get that we all have lives and can be busy at times. It would be awesome if you are up for a voice chat. And please when responding write something about yourself.
If any if this sounds remotely interesting to you, feel free to reach out via reddit dm or chat!

On my sister’s 21st birthday. She came up to me (F/17) and tried to give me a hug. I declined and my mother yelled at me calling me a bitch and trying to force me to hug her.
I am not close to my sister at all. When we were younger she molested me several times and I didn’t realize what was going on out until I was 14 and she was 18. I didn’t tell anyone until my mother called me a bitch in front of everyone. I pulled her aside into her bedroom and explained that my sister did some very messed up things to me and I don’t like being touched by her. My mother apologized and told me she understands. Nothing really happened after that. In my every day life I was cleaning up after my sisters huge messes, cooking food for everyone, and basically just doing everything. All while most of the food I made got throw away by my sister but If I got upset or didn’t make her food I’d still be the bad guy.
Eventually I brought it up to my dad. I honestly thought that he would be my protector but boy was I wrong… he denied that I was molested and said that what she did wasn’t even molest and that there was nothing he could do. He took no action and said nothing to defend me. I even told him that she did gross stuff to herself whenever she shared a bed with anyone. He spit in my face by saying “oh well at least she never shared a bed with me” and laughed it off. He didn’t care at all about me.
I don’t recall what led up to this but I confronted my mom eventually and told her over text the reason the dogs pee on the couch is to cover the scent of my abusive sister because she pisses and poops herself on furniture while wearing diapers. (She openly admitted this to everyone btw and threw away a poopy pissy diaper and also she makes the couch smell horrible) my mom came in screaming at me. I grabbed her by her shirt when she tried to block me from leaving the room and told screamed at her that that stupid bitch molested me. (Which she also denied it being molest when I explained what she did but it was DEFINITELY molest it just wasn’t rape… and apparently it needs to be rape for it to be serious)
My mother then told me if I don’t feel safe here then I can go live with my grandma. I said okay and left a few days later. My mom then talked about me behind my back telling my brother that I’m ungrateful and that I’m selfish for leaving and trying to get attention. I was only there for a few days and returned “home” I came back because I missed my cat and dogs and I knew my cat wouldn’t be getting enough socializing as I’m her mom. I’m still seen as a villian. And to top it off my sister had a friend over who was a total crackhead and I had my mom tell her to go home. She did. The next day the crazy bitch came running towards me aggressively in the road because she thought I was alone. I wasn’t my brother and my friend were behind me and when she saw them she left. My sisters explaination made it more clear she intended to hurt me. I am 5’2 and weigh 95 lbs. I’m extremely skinny and I have long hair. My sister is 5’ and weighs 250 lbs she has short hair. She claims her friend thought I was her.. I was wearing a tank top at the time to top it off...
When she got home I confronted her about this and that was her explanation. So I snapped. I screamed at her calling her a fat fucking pig. She freaked out screaming at me and left. Eventually she came back ready to punch me. My friend who is 6’3 was standing behind me when she put her fist up and she froze realizing shed probably get killed.
..tbh things are much worse now for different reasons but I’m scared to share more yet. I turn 18 on June 12th I might update then or when I move out idk. Maybe even before it depends.

My roommate moved in in March, so she’s been here about three months and she’s never cleaned a single thing. She never does her dishes, I do them every single time because they will sit there for weeks (I’ve left them to see) and I can’t handle there being dishes in the sink constantly. I asked her about a month in to not leave dishes with food in them out, because I don’t want fruit flys, she said “ok” (over text) and that’s all she said. Then the next day left a pot with Kraft dinner in it out for two weeks. Which she did eventually clean two weeks later… Last week she made ground beef or something, got in on the counter, on the floor and left her pan out with some still in there, which I don’t understand because she also used my bowl and put some leftovers in the fridge, but didn’t put all of it and still left food in the pan on the stove.. then she went to her boyfriends for literally a week and never cleaned it. She literally left ground beef on the fucking floor, who the heck does that?!? I messaged her about it and she ignored me. When she got back she used two more pans and didn’t clean them, so there were now three pans, one with ground beef, and a pot of Kraft dinner sitting on the stove for a week. I ended up cleaning the beef off the floor cause that’s disgusting. Last night she asked me to feed her cat because she was going to her boyfriends again for two days, so I told her to do her dishes before she leaves because wouldn’t you know it now there are fruit flies… and she said she would “if she had the time” and that she doesn’t like doing dishes when other dishes are in there and I had a SINGLE plate in the sink.. she ended up washing 1 pan before leaving, and leaving the beef one and Kraft dinner pot to “soak” and then left for two days. I don’t know how to address this, I don’t want there to be tension but I’m getting increasingly pissed off, and now there are fruit fly’s I can’t get rid off. She also has never cleaned the counters after using them, never has she swept the floor, she’s never cleaned the bathroom, I am seriously losing my mind I can’t be the only one doing this.

I 37F do not have a great relationship brother, 39M or my Mother, 56F. I only speak to one person in my family, sister (31F). I have diagnosed cPTSD and anxiety due to the treatment from my family as a child and, when I got older, an ex.
I recently graduated with masters degree, ceremony was states away. Throughout the time going to school my brother, B, was unkind putting down my area of study. It was frustrating to even speak to him. He is the kind of person to do or say things, just because he was told it was innapropriate to do or say.
My mother, M, has used me as an emotional whipping horse and has told me that she sees me as the weakest of her children. Anytime a sibling of mine, myself, sister (31F), or brother would accomplish something, she would compete with us to outdo us. I brought up that I had wanted to travel to walk the stage 2 or 3 times. Each time she deemed it unimportant, saying she didn't travel for her associates degree. The 3rd time, I had requested the tickets for myself and kids, plus.
I left Friday,10 hr drive. we enjoyed the graduation and a day of site seeing. It was a mini vacation. Other than letting everyone know I was on Do not diserve and wishing a happy mothersday to my mom. I drove home the next day and let everyone know why I was unavailable during the weekend. I sent them pictures of myself and the kids and a video of the kids putting on my gown and hat for me.
Both B and M began texting nasty words. I explained that I tried to invite M but she kept saying the travel wasn't worth it and that B really didn't have high reguards for my degree. My sister was the only one to say congradulations.
M denies me saying anything she misunderstood, then she sent a group text saying that she was going to do something that would hurt me emotionally. I told her that I needed time after that, space because I didnt know she was capable of it. Then she said I can't take her gkids away, I told her to please give me space so I can think about what she said and before I said something. She continued and i ended up blocking her.
My brother started calling me last night and i told him I did not want to speak, in messages he was being very hurtful words. I told him I loved him, but their reactions are frightening and I needed space. He called my phone many, blocked him. Then on messenger to continue to call, till I blocked him.
My sister sent me SS of him saying he will show up here this weekend, whether I would want him to or not. I sent out a group message that i asked for space, to please not come here, they are forcing me to call the police if they do. (My mom has been extremel during fights, as has my brother). Then another message came through that if I call the police they will hide at a neighbors till the police leave and then they will wait for me outside.
None of my friends say I am the AH, but with how they are reacting, AITAH for not telling them about the ceremony?

My roommate moved in in March, so she’s been here about three months and she’s never cleaned a single thing. She never does her dishes, I do them every single time because they will sit there for weeks (I’ve left them to see) and I can’t handle there being dishes in the sink constantly. I asked her about a month in to not leave dishes with food in them out, because I don’t want fruit flys, she said “ok” (over text) and that’s all she said. Then the next day left a pot with Kraft dinner in it out for two weeks. Which she did eventually clean two weeks later… Last week she made ground beef or something, got in on the counter, on the floor and left her pan out with some still in there, which I don’t understand because she also used my bowl and put some leftovers in the fridge, but didn’t put all of it and still left food in the pan on the stove.. then she went to her boyfriends for literally a week and never cleaned it. She literally left ground beef on the fucking floor, who the heck does that?!? I messaged her about it and she ignored me. When she got back she used two more pans and didn’t clean them, so there were now three pans, one with ground beef, and a pot of Kraft dinner sitting on the stove for a week. I ended up cleaning the beef off the floor cause that’s disgusting. Last night she asked me to feed her cat because she was going to her boyfriends again for two days, so I told her to do her dishes before she leaves because wouldn’t you know it now there are fruit flies… and she said she would “if she had the time” and that she doesn’t like doing dishes when other dishes are in there and I had a SINGLE plate in the sink.. she ended up washing 1 pan before leaving, and leaving the beef one and Kraft dinner pot to “soak” and then left for two days. I don’t know how to address this, I don’t want there to be tension but I’m getting increasingly pissed off, and now there are fruit fly’s I can’t get rid off. She also has never cleaned the counters after using them, never has she swept the floor, she’s never cleaned the bathroom, I am seriously losing my mind I can’t be the only one doing this.

This is my first time fostering. I was given a beautiful long haired black and white kitty. She has been a sweetheart but the rescue has been very…weird.
First, they gave her to me with poop all over her underside/stomach, her butt, her tail and some on her back. She was matted in random places. I didn’t notice this until I got home because they handed her to me in a crate and then gave me very basic info. I have a resident cat; the information was useless.
So I called, texted, and emailed them to let them know the circumstances. Why was she allowed to leave the rescue like this? They said she got straight off a 14 hour drive to the rescue a couple hours before I picked her up..
Poor thing was so uncomfortable it was depressing. They told me to take her back to the rescue on Friday… mind you it was Saturday when they told me this. So they wanted me to wait almost a week to get her clean and made sure to mention that if I got her groomed myself, they would not reimburse me.
At this point I felt so bad I just bit the bullet and got her cleaned. It was NOT cheap..
Anyways fast forward to today. She had jelly like diarrhea with a concerning amount of blood all over my kitchen floor. And the first couple days I had her, she pooped all over the bathroom floor multiple times. I believe she has severe inflammation. I let them know this; they directed me to their vet — who is overseas at the moment :/
So I texted the vet who told me to give her canned pumpkin and stop giving her wet food. Cool. But then I proceeded to tell her that the kitty is incredibly underweight and is eating anything she lays eyes on (I’m feeding her lots of food every meal). She has even jumped on my counter to rip through her dry food.
I mentioned that I don’t want to free feed her..The vet responded “Definitely free feed adult cats”
Huh??? Every vet I’ve been to with my resident kitty has advised against this. I don’t know if I want to foster with this place anymore.
Yes, I am new to fostering but I am almost 99% percent sure that this is not how this was supposed to go. Very confused.
What do you think?

Hey everyone! I'm seeking a language exchange partner for French. I try my best to keep a consistent routine, and I'd like someone to mostly correct my pronunciation and someone to practice speaking with once I'm a bit more advanced in a few months. My goal is to take the DELF B1 exam at the end of the year, and generally be able to speak the language well enough to travel and do an exchange semester in a French speaking country/maybe even move to study somewhere.
I can offer Arabic, which is my native language and English, which is my second language I grew up speaking at home(my family lived abroad for a long time and my siblings and I communicate in English, with my parents and friends from home in Arabic:) ). I can also offer a listening ear and my friendship, and some nice memes + cute pics of my cats and dogs from back home.
I started to learn German back in 2019 and I'm at a very comfortable level. I have been living, working and studying in Germany for 2 years now and use the language daily so I can help if anyone needs it (ofc I'm still also learning new things here and there, but I'm comfortable enough helping a bit if you're at a A1-B2 level).
I'd prefer someone who is in the same timezone GMT+2 (which most likely would be the case but I'm not sure ofc haha) and perhaps someone with time in the evenings 4x a week or so, but that's not a strict requirement. Also hopefully you don't mind texting or voice notes, because I'd like to practice as much as possible 😅.
If any other French learners want to be language buddies you can also hit me up! I try my best to dedicate time everyday for the language and actively practice writing and speaking, and I read in my free time or listen to stuff during commute.

This is my first time fostering. I was given a beautiful long haired black and white kitty. She has been a sweetheart but the rescue has been very…weird.
First, they gave her to me with poop all over her underside/stomach, her butt, her tail and some on her back. She was matted in random places. I didn’t notice this until I got home because they handed her to me in a crate and then gave me very basic info. I have a resident cat; the information was useless.
So I called, texted, and emailed them to let them know the circumstances. Why was she allowed to leave the rescue like this? They said she got straight off a 14 hour drive to the rescue a couple hours before I picked her up..
Poor thing was so uncomfortable it was depressing. They told me to take her back to the rescue on Friday… mind you it was Saturday when they told me this. So they wanted me to wait almost a week to get her clean and made sure to mention that if I got her groomed myself, they would not reimburse me.
At this point I felt so bad I just bit the bullet and got her cleaned. It was NOT cheap..
Anyways fast forward to today. She had jelly like diarrhea with a concerning amount of blood all over my kitchen floor. And the first couple days I had her, she pooped all over the bathroom floor multiple times. I believe she has severe inflammation. I let them know this; they directed me to their vet — who is overseas at the moment :/
So I texted the vet who told me to give her canned pumpkin and stop giving her wet food. Cool. But then I proceeded to tell her that the kitty is incredibly underweight and is eating anything she lays eyes on (I’m feeding her lots of food every meal). She has even jumped on my counter to rip through her dry food.
I mentioned that I don’t want to free feed her..The vet responded “Definitely free feed adult cats”
Huh??? Every vet I’ve been to with my resident kitty has advised against this. I don’t know if I want to foster with this place anymore.
Yes, I am new to fostering but I am almost 99% percent sure that this is not how this was supposed to go. Very confused.
What do you think?

Some things about me: both a dog and cat person, baseball fan, amateur home renovator (I’m fixing up a house at the moment before moving in). I’ve got a dry sense of humor and I use it as a self defense mechanism. I’m waiting for someone to “click” with. Haven’t felt that often. So let’s see if we do! I am all for texting to get to know someone. I’m not going to be expecting a constant stream of conversation. If you wanna do sporadic talks that’s fine too! I’m looking for someone to connect with and find out more about.

I (25F) started dating my boyfriend (30M) and we had an instant connection- everything was perfect. About 3 months in, he comes out of the shower and shows me that he has something on his downstairs. I looked at it and said “looks like herpes- you should go to the doctor”. He was shocked. He said something along the lines of “I can’t believe this- I’ve never had any STD before and this could be herpes?!” He was distraught…. Like acted like the world was ending and he couldn’t believe this was happening to him. I calmed him down & assured him that I know so many people that have it and it’s truly not a big deal. He says with tears in his eyes “will you leave me if it is?” And I was like “oh my god no it’s really not a big deal I promise”. At some point, he asks if I have it & gave it to him…..
So I drop him off at the doctor and he says “the doctor said it doesn’t look like herpes & he won’t give me the meds unless you come in & get tested”. I didn’t have health insurance at the time & I’d never had a breakout & was just tested for everything 2 months prior so I was like no… I was confused because I’ve been told they hand out valtrex like candy & the fact that they didn’t even test him just as a precaution so weird to me because I was pretty sure it was herpes.
Anyways, the little spot just goes away. Now keep this in mind, he was sharing a cat with his ex so they were in communication at this point.
Fast forward to like 6 months in, he has another one. This time though, him & his ex had cut all ties & she wanted absolutely nothing to do with him. He goes to the doctor, NOW it’s herpes. Interesting. But I believe him that he didn’t know and boohoo whatever & I stay and eventually get it as well (HSV-2 by the way).
Now fast forward to over a year in, he’s out of town. I’m cleaning up and I come across his old phone. Now look, I’m not one for going through phones but something inside of me told me to do so. So, I did.
I found texts from around the time of his first breakout, saying to her “you gave me something I’ll have to deal with for the rest of my life” and a voice memo saying “he was having a really bad one & needed some of the pills”. Along with all these other texts to his ex during the first month of us dating that looked like he was trying to get back with her.
So, I screenshotted the worst ones, circled them, left the phone with a note that said “open me”, and went to Hawaii with my friends.
Anywho, after screaming & fighting & all of that, he convinces me that he was actually just trying to manipulate her (he used the word manipulate) into giving him the cat by making her feel bad. And he started telling her that she gave him herpes after they broke up to make her feel guilty. And I believe it.
However, my intuition doesn’t let me live lmao. I am an anxious wreck. So about once a week for a year, I bring up a text that doesn’t make sense or another question I have about the situation. I BEG him to tell me the truth if he’s lying because it’s genuinely driving me insane. It’s all I think about. He swears up and down that he’s not lying. He even says “I honestly wish I was lying just so you could have some closure.” And would get frustrated at me for “always bringing up his ex”.
Anyways, life still goes on normally. He asks my parents for permission to marry me, etc.
Now it’s Christmas time. I was at home with my family. I told him during this time that I just can’t shake the feeling that he is still lying and it’s unfair that I keep bringing it up so I’ve decided to go on Prozac (he’s very anti depression/anxiety med bc “it changes people”). So the day after Christmas, he calls me and tells me the truth. I flip the fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk out. Because how could you lie to my face weekly when I BEGGED for the truth. My best friend spent probably a total of 300 hours while I talked through all of the evidence for a year. Like……. What. (Also I feel so fucking bad for my friend having to listen to this shit for so long).
Anyways, I chose to forgive him after a month of me just losing my fucking mind. And now, he’s going through a difficult time (seems like he always is) and just sooooo frustrated with life every day because the world is against him & everything goes wrong for him while my life is pretty good lol. And I think he resents me for it. It’s only been 5 months since he told me the truth & he’s getting frustrated when I complain to him, saying he’s picking on me (he said my outfit looked like I was a lesbian— also why is that an insult they have amazing style lmao) and just taking out his shit on me. Anytime anyone tries to help him, he sees it as an attack because he just has to be right.
Oh my god sorry this was so long and honestly just reading it back, I’m like girl………….. but what would you guys do? HAHA I’m so sorry but all I can do is laugh bc this whole thing is so rediculous. Oh, I’ve caught him in some other small lies as well that he didn’t fess up to until I presented him with evidence.
Anyways, do I break up with him? It’s been over 2 years now & the whole time it’s just been his problems & me helping solve them.
Edit : oh and when I bring something up that hurts my feelings, I’m “too sensitive”

I am a first time poster so please stay with me, ti may be long.
I 37F ran into a conundrum. I do not have a great relationship with my brother, 39M or my Mother, 56F. I actually only speak to one person in my family, which is my youner sister. I have diagnosed cPTSD and anxiety due to the treatment from my family as a child and, when I got older, an ex.
I recently graduated with a dual masters degree, where the ceremony was several states away. Throughout the time going to school my brother, B, was very agressive about it. Putting down, first my bachelors and then my masters program consistantly, throughout the 6 years it took to achieve both. It was frustrating to even speak to him. Not only that, he is the kind of person to do or say things, just because he was told it was innapropriate to do or say. He would want to "debate" even if it was wrong, very argumentative. So, I did say i had gotten my degree, but not about the ceremony.
My mother, M, has used me as an emotional whipping horse and has told me that she sees me as the weakest of her children, because I had gone through so much. She used that to control what I would do or say. Anytime a sibling of mine, myself, sister (31F), or brother would accomplish something, she would compete with us to outdo us. I decided to give her a chance, i had brought up that I had wanted to travel for my degree and walk the stage. I brought it up 2 or 3 times. Each time she deemed it as unimportant, stating that she didn't travel for her associates degree she had gotten a few months ago. The 3rd time, I had requested the tickets for myself and kids (and some other people I thought of as important to invite, this is unknown to my family to stop any other fighting).
I planned to leave friday morning, but a tragety for myself and my kids happened, that delayed it by a few hours, but we were on the road. While very emotional that drive, we enjoyed the graduation and a day of site seeing. It was like a mini vacation. I had never been able to do things like this before, and it was so relaxing and felt amazing. The kids had a blast. Other than letting everyone know I was on Do not diserve and wishing a happy mothersday to my mom, is was unplugged. I drove home the next day and let everyone know why I was unavailable during the weekend. I sent them pictures of myself and the kids and a video of the kids putting on my gown and hat for me.
Well all heck broke loose! Both B and M began texting that I was ungrateful and how dare I not invite them. I explained that I tried to invite M but she kept saying the travel wasn't worth it and that B really didn't have high reguards for my degree. My sister was the only one to say congradulations.
It has been two days and the messages are getting progresively worse. My mother denies me saying anything but I had proof, she said she misunderstood, then she sent a group text saying that she was going to do something that would seriously hurt me emotionally. I told her that I needed time to be away from her for that. I needed space because I didnt know she was capable of it. Then she said I cannot take her grandkids away, I told her to please give me space so I can decompress from waht she said and before I said something I would regret. She continued and i ended up blocking her.
My brother started calling me last night and i told him I did not want to speak, in text messages he was being very hurtful calling mehurtful words. I told him I loved him, but their reactions are frightening and I needed space. He called my phone 8 more times, till I blocked him. Then he switched to messenger with the same lingo and proceded to continue to call, till I blocked him there.
My sister sent me screeshots of him saying he will show up here this weekend, whether I woudl want him to or not. I sent out a group message that i asked for space, to please not come here, they are forcing me to call the police if they do. (My mom has been extremel during fights, as has my brother). Then another message came through that if I call the police they will hide at a neighbors till the police leave and then they will wait for me outside.
I live in housing, contacting police can get me evicted before I can line up a job for my career and relocate. None of my friends say I am the AH, but with how they are reacting, AITAH for not telling them about the ceremony?
There is more to the story, please ask, I know there are limits to what I can type. There are things that will be flagged if I mention how they react, so if there are questions I will write what it will allow.

I had the bunny hat on from the vending machine. I took it off, still no bone. I was gonna put it in the dog bowl for the dog that barks at us right before the cat meets the crow again.
I saved and reloaded and still nothing. Is it gone forever now cause I saved? Is there any way to make it respawn?
I updated before I opened the game so idk if that’s it or if that’s supposed to be the fix?

I wasn't planning on watching Thrice Upon A Time. I had not liked the previous films and they seemed like a very inferior product compared to the original anime. However, the good reviews and opinions I saw about it encouraged me to do so. I did it with as open and tolerant a mind as possible, knowing that there was a good chance I wouldn't like the film. "What's the worst that could happen? That I don't like it and continue to prefer the original series? At least I'll be entertained for two and a half hours," I thought. What I did not expect at all is the deep feeling of disgust and repulsion that this film provoked in me, in a way that no other film has provoked in years.
I hated the movie from start to finish. I could spend hours talking about the boring action sequences, about its ugly, excessive CGI that ruins the already ugly mecha, about its disgusting hypersexualization of fucking 14-year-old girls, about how Misato's plans don't make sense, about how Last Kiss almost made me tear my ears off, or its plot full of Deus Ex Machinas with concepts conveniently taken by Hideaki Anno from the place that his last name suggests; but the real reason I'm writing this is because I feel like these movies spit on everything the excellent original work represents.
Not only because as adaptations they fail miserably, but also because they retroactively damage the original work (we'll talk about that later).
Before I begin to explain why the rebuilds are bad adaptations, I want to warn that I am going to do a relatively exhaustive review of the 4 films, so this rant is going to be very long, like staying up late on a winter night with chronic insomnia. That said, let's start to see the reasons:
WHAT IS NEON GENESIS EVANGELION?:
To understand why rebuilds fail as remakes, I must first ask you, dear reader: What does Neon Genesis Evangelion mean to you? (it should at least be familiar to you, unless you've spent your life under a bridge) What do you think about when you read that title, apart from Shinji fucking in front of a comatose Asuka? What comes to mind when you hear the most famous opening in anime history, apart from Shinji strangling the otter against Happy Thursday's throat? (in more ways than one). If your answer is: "It's a mecha anime for emos with a coomer protagonist", that's fine, I respect that; but please press the red "X" in the top right corner of your screen, you can now leave.
Now, I'm going to get serious and explain my definition: Evangelion is a work about the hedgehog's dilemma and the difficulties of forming emotional bonds that human beings have, as well as the consequences of trying to separate from them for fear of rejection. It is not a story about heroes. It's not a story about saving the world. In Evangelion there are neither heroes nor villains, but rather a group of emotionally broken characters trying to be happy in a world just as broken as them. The real enemy of Evangelion is not the angels. It is the lack of communication and empathy.
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It is that same lack of communication and empathy that progressively causes everything to go to hell to conclude with a cathartic and bleak ending, but consistent with the themes of the work. It is therefore an existentialist work about human relationships disguised as a mecha anime. This, added to a unique visual style, daring direction, and mechas like never before seen on television, made Evangelion one of the most influential anime in all of history, as well as a true commercial success for Gainax Studio. Success that encouraged other studios to carry out projects such as Cowboy Bebop or Serial Experiment Lain, taking anime towards a new golden age.
Even today you can hear the echoes of that Third Impact of End of Evangelion in 1997. The list of works influenced by Evangelion both inside and outside of Japan is endless. Of course, it is not a perfect work, nor extensive in errors: its target audience is ambiguous, many of the biblical references are more for decoration than anything else, and several aspects of the ending(s) could have been explained better. However, many of these errors can be attributed to a lack of time and budget during the production of the original anime (which was quite chaotic and improvised); therefore, they are understandable and forgivable.
In summary, we can conclude that Evangelion is a dark, introspective, provocative and unique work (at least at its time). This is also combined with a unique visual identity and complex characters whose relationships intertwine and interconnect throughout the work. The sum of all these factors is what led Evangelion to be such a critically acclaimed work that it transcended its own genre and became an icon of popular culture. And this in turn constitutes the biggest mistake of rebuilds; because they commit the biggest sin that an adaptation can commit: denying everything that made the original work great.
ADAPTING WITHOUT A CLEAR PURPOSE:
One of the biggest problems with these remakes (as well as a clear example of what I'm saying) is their total narrative inconsistency. Let me explain: the first rebuilds movie (1.11) is a literal copy-paste of the first 6 chapters of the original anime, with practically the same scenes, dialogues and even music. This makes the film completely redundant and unnecessary (and makes one wonder why it exists); But in any case, the message is being conveyed that the purpose of these remakes is to adapt the original series as faithfully as possible to the cinema with a current animation style.
However, the second movie (2.22) is a... something. A pastiche of new and old things where the plot broadly follows that of the original anime, but with many things changed (of course, for the worse) and a different ending. All this compressing no less than 14 chapters of the original anime into two and a half hours. Here the message that one can infer is that it seeks to adapt the original story (very briefly) by changing and rearranging certain elements, now more in line with what an adaptation is.
However, then we get to 3.33 and... well, after a 14-year because reasons timeskip, we're now in a post-post-apocalyptic world (repetition intended) where ex-Nerv members fight against Nerv itself. Nerv in giant spaceships, there are mechas everywhere, Misato is a sociopath, and Shinji and Asuka still look exactly the same because "DAMN JEBA." Here we can infer that what is sought is to create a totally new story and take it in different directions than the original. The following movie (3.0+1.01) is the only one that is consistent with this purpose.
Whether all these narrative pirouettes were planned in advance or not (clearly not), we can see that there is a clear incongruity between what is intended to be done and what is finally done. All of this generates a strong narrative chaos where the elements and themes of the original anime are mixed with the new ones, creating a total inconsistency. Since also in 3.0+1.01 it is revealed (unfortunately to me) that everything is part of the same universe and this is not really a remake, the excuse of "they are different universes, they don't have to be the same" doesn't work either.
In fact, one thing that you will see me comment a lot throughout this article is the lack of narrative consistency of these remakes, especially in comparison to the original work.
A HEDGEHOG WITHOUT TICKS:
No character in Evangelion better embodies the central theme of the work than Shinji Ikari, its own protagonist. Shinji is not a hero: he is not brave. He is not a genius. He is not charismatic. He is not selfless. He doesn't want to save the world. His reason for piloting the Eva is to gain recognition and appreciation from others; especially from his father, whom he hates, but at the same time admires; He feels that she despises him, but he also wants (and needs) that she loves him. Shinji spends the entire series in the dilemma between escaping from what hurts him (classic avoidance behavior) or accepting it and moving on, even at the risk of being hurt again.
This theme is rock solid throughout the entire original series: from the first to the last chapter of the anime, and from minute one to the very end of End of Evangelion. Even the opening itself makes several visual references to Shinji's hedgehog dilemma. This can make Shinji an infuriating character for audiences accustomed to typical anime protagonists; but it's those same things that make Shinji such a unique and special character. He deconstructs and subverts the hero's journey. And it's not as if this hinders the plot: Shinji is not proactive, but he also does not spend the series crying, as many often claim.
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And as you may already be imagining, the Shinji of the rebuilds does not have a hedgehog's dilemma. Or rather, he has it, but only during the first movie (copy-paste of the original anime) and part of the second. This is a problem, because it creates a strong narrative inconsistency (again) where it seems that two Shinjis exist at the same time or that this one is bipolar. As of 3.33, Shinji's entire character arc is based on trying to redeem himself for his past mistakes first by unleashing "Almost Third Impact" (what a stupid name) and subsequently preventing Kaworu's death while trying to right said mistake.
Is this a bad thing? Not necessarily. The problem is that I have already seen the arc of the hero who fails to eventually rise up and succeed in 100 trillion works, while the hedgehog's dilemma in none more than in Evangelion (at least in my case). Which makes Shinji a much less interesting character. Some might argue that in 3.0 + 1.01 Shinji does have such a dilemma because he spends half the movie crawling on the ground; but there is not a hedgehog's dilemma, but rather depression for having seen Kaworu's head go KAWOOM (I know, the joke was very bad, but if he didn't do it, I would explode too).
End of Evangelion's Shinji did have such a dilemma because the reason for his depression was having been manipulated and used by someone he had previously opened up to and then forced to kill him, not for failing in his mission (in fact, he was very efficient in her mission to separate Kaworu's head from her body), which in turn brings sexual (and later, deadly) results for Asuka. I insist: narrative consistency. But this is not the worst: the worst thing is that at certain moments in these films, Shinji becomes the typical shonen savior hero, betraying the central point of his character in the original series.
https://youtu.be/E-x-f2OrWeA
A perfect example of this is the ending of 2.22, where the fight in chapter 19 (COINCENTLY from where the original anime starts to get more introspective) is transformed into a ridiculous shipping attempt, with Rei turned into a damsel in distress and Shinji into a savior hero while spouting all the typical cliché lines, topped off with a disgustingly cheesy ending. But of course, how could it end otherwise? With Shinji's Eva practicing cannibalism on Zeruel's corpse (the original scene)? Too disturbing for current times. Shinji and Rei fighting as a team to defeat him? Yes of course. Rei has enough not being in the kitchen. Besides, Asuka already takes care of that, hoping to receive her alpha male's cock as a reward.
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Because, like any good modern anime protagonist, Shinji now has a harem.
FETISHING WITHOUT CONTROL:
Of all the characters who are now part of Shinji's harem, the one who is most harmed by this is Rei (Asuka's case is different, and the other character is an infernal creation from Anno's sick mind). Not only because acting like a bitch in heat goes totally against her personality and because of the murky situation, considering that she is a clone of Shinji's mother, but also because her character is reduced to a mere fetish object that does things cute to produce tenderness in the viewer and make coomers buy their figurines.
Rei is an interesting character because he raises numerous existential questions based on the ship of Theseus paradox: the concept of identity, to what extent we can consider ourselves still ourselves, the construction and definition of a "self", etc. But here, her screen time piloting her Unit 00 is minimal (COINCENTLY most of it in 1.11) and her exploits are practically irrelevant or non-existent, also being reduced to a mere damsel in distress at the end of 2.22, as I said before.
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In 3.0+1.01 he doesn't even get to pilot an Eva. Her role in the film is to cause pity and produce tenderness with her total ignorance (I see that the idiot Anno forgot that all the Reis are born with basic knowledge) while she is seen with different hairstyles, different outfits, working as a farmer, taking care of a baby, etc. In short, a fetish object where she wants the public to value her for how "moe" she is instead of for her abilities or as a character. In Anno's mind, feminism advances in reverse. Ironic, considering that it was precisely Rei who unintentionally started the moe culture.
Of course, it goes without saying that Rei is not the only one who suffers from this extreme fetishization of her character in these films. Under the excuse of paying homage to End of Evangelion, Asuka now always wears an eye patch (needless to say it has nothing to do with having been injured there), a cap with cat ears, in addition to having a very convenient trend for the coomer public of walking naked and semi-naked through other people's houses. She sometimes puts on the plugsuit, but near the end of the movie, it is conveniently torn off, lest we forget that this is made by the Japanese.
One of the best examples of how this hareminication has destroyed the main female characters is in the elevator scene. In the original anime, Rei tries to advise Asuka in a time of particular vulnerability and depression. Rei's limited social skills, coupled with Asuka being Asuka, cause her to misinterpret the attempt to help as mockery and an act of condescension, triggering a slap from her towards Rei and a worsening of her already strained relationship and Asuka's mental state. Rei doesn't fight back because she knows that doing so would only make things even worse.
It is an excellent dramatic scene because it once again brings to the foreground the hedgehog's dilemma and the difficulties between human relationships, very much in line with what Evangelion is. In 2.22, this scene is gratuitously introduced and turned into two horny bitches fighting over which of the two will let their alpha male penetrate first, with a highly OC Rei stopping the assault attempt in a 100% gangsta way to make her see more "cool." The scene doesn't even make plot sense, because Asuka at that moment is not even depressed, and in the original anime this occurs at a much later time under a very different context.
and speaking of asuka...
SOMEONE CALLED ASUKA:
When I started watching these movies, I was afraid that Asuka's character had undergone modifications to make her more "palatable" to new audiences. What took me completely by surprise was how radically different this Asuka is from the original. So different that they can't even be considered the same character. To show it very clearly, we are going to review the personality of both:
Asuka from the original anime: An energetic and outgoing half-German, half-Japanese girl (actually it's 1/4, but who cares) who loves to be the center of attention and have everyone praise her due to the lack of parental love received during her childhood having been abandoned by her father and supplanted by her mother, who suffered from severe mental disorders. She is extremely proud and competitive because she feels that being Eva's pilot is the only thing that gives her an identity and purpose, which makes her tend to become quickly frustrated when things don't go her way and become defensive when she feels like she is being outmaneuvered. . He loves to make fun of others (especially Shinji), to the point of being cruel at times, but he does not do it out of malice, but rather to compensate for his enormous inferiority complex due to the rejection suffered by his mother and having witnessed her. committed suicide (and possibly even tried to kill her) the day she was chosen as Eva's pilot and came running to wish her a Happy Thursday. She admires Kaji and wants to fuck him because she hates her own adolescence, she needs to feel adult and independent due to suffering from a certain Electra complex for having lacked a true father figure during her childhood. She has a sweet and vulnerable nature, but she rarely expresses it to anyone except her best friend Hikari and I better stop this now because too much text.
Rebuild Asuka (hereinafter "Asuka"): A girl soldier created by Nerv as part of a series of clones who has always been alone and thinks she doesn't need anyone, although she secretly wishes to have a family. She hits and insults others for no reason, she yells a lot, never smiles or makes jokes, and hates socializing with others, which doesn't stop her from looking for Shinji's dick within 2 days of meeting him. She always plays video games while someone is talking to her and at night she talks to herself with a doll like an autistic person.
As we can see, these two characters not only look nothing alike: several of their traits directly contradict each other. Because they look alike, they are not even alike in aesthetics: the original Asuka had red hair and dressed in the traditional feminine way, while "Asuka" is light brown and dresses in a tomboy style (which I'm not saying is wrong, I'm just commenting to show the radical difference). It's not that they have changed Asuka: it's that they have directly murdered her to supplant her by someone with whom she only shares her first name (not even her last name). And needless to say, the change has been VERY for the worse.
To describe the first character, I had to spend 15 damn lines, and even then I had to leave out many important facets of his personality, his development in the original series and his entire character arc in EoE, because if I didn't have one endless bible For the second, 6 lines were enough for me, and I could have had more left over if I had been more concise. The first character is a complex and three-dimensional character, with multiple facets, edges and layers. She feels like a real person. The second character is a generic tsundere that you can find in any mecha anime of the week. She is not even comparable to the first; She's not even a good character.
We cannot speak of Flanderization because not even the most basic traits of the character have been respected. Nor can we speak of a deconstruction because that same absence of basic traits means that there is no character construction on which to stand in the first place. Obviously, this change greatly resents the interactions between characters: the original Asuka was a charismatic and fun character with the ability to drive the plot on her own (as soon as she appears in chapter 8 of the original anime she is already changing the entire dynamic between characters) , while "Asuka" is mostly only in the background or to fight; He doesn't even have a character arc as such. In fact, in 2.22 he has even less screen time than several supporting characters.
His chemistry with Shinji is also non-existent (and I'm not just referring to the romantic level) and they barely have any development together. They like each other here because... ehhhh... she likes how he cooks and he thinks she's hot? It's not that the AsuShinji (or ShinSuka, or whatever the hell it's called) here is forced: it's just that it doesn't even make sense. The only reason people still ship them together is because they did it in the 90s. Yūko Miyamura's performance also feels very lackadaisical and lacks passion, which is quite unlike her. Although perhaps this is intentional, since her character always talks as if she has the spear of Longinus permanently stuck up her rectum. In fact, the few times she says her iconic "Anta baka?" This one feels very forced, in addition to not having her characteristic high-pitched tone.
In short, the character has suffered the same fetishization as Rei (gamer girl, tomboy, one-eyed, etc.), but also with the aggravating factor that not even her basic characteristics have been respected here. This is especially disconcerting when we take into account that the rest of the characters have their original personalities more or less intact (albeit simplified). Even more disconcerting if we take into account that Asuka is possibly the most popular character in all of Evangelion, and even more so if we consider that she is Anno's favorite character (in fact, the initial idea was for Asuka to be the protagonist).
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Given this, the inevitable question arises: "Why?" What was the point of turning Asuka into an inferior and tsundere copy of Rei, even more so when there are already three clones? It has always been rumored that Asuka is not popular in Japan, but that is completely false. The only semi-rational explanation I can think of is that they did it to please the haters. It's no secret that a portion within the Evangelion fandom (and outside of it) hates Asuka with a passion. They see her as someone toxic and cruel who dedicates herself to screwing others for no reason, without understanding that you don't have to like a well-written character.
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What these people fail to understand is that Asuka's verbal abuse is a defense mechanism to avoid opening up to others, since Asuka constantly says things that do not fit with what she really feels or thinks (clear proof is chapter 16 from the original series). It's not like it matters much, considering they were never more than an extremely vocal minority. That the character is so popular is proof of this. The great irony of all this is that the new "Asuka" is a much more unpleasant and detestable character than the original, since she lacks the redeemable qualities of the original and her moments of comic relief.
And if until now I have been more or less benevolent with this remake, this is something I cannot forgive: because changing a character just because a group of people doesn't like it is one of the most cowardly and pathetic acts in the world. that a writer can fall. The fact that this was also at the expense of one of the best female characters in the history of anime and with a wonderful story arc makes it even more bloody. Any other halfway competent writer would have responded with this.
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...although if we go by Ockham's razor, the most likely explanation is simply that Hideaki Anno is mentally retarded.
A CHARACTER TO DESTROY A FRANCHISE AND BIND IT TO DARKNESS:
Mari Makinami Illustrious A.K.A María Iskariote (what an appropriate last name) is one of the worst creations ever made by humans. Not since the atomic bombs has humanity created something so horrible. Worse than the holocaust. Worse than fascism. Worse than Facebook memes. Worse than stepping on a lego. I would even dare to say that it is worse than pizza with pineapple. No character better reflects Anno's mental decline or better embodies all the problems of the current anime industry than this trash.
This character contributes absolutely nothing to the plot, he does not contribute at any time to its advancement, he lacks his own development or story, he does absolutely nothing relevant in the 3 films in which he appears, and he does not even have a defined personality. So much so, that all of her scenes could be eliminated or replaced by any other character and she would barely affect the plot, or not affect it at all.
The character is so frighteningly one-dimensional that she doesn't even show different emotions or moods during the three films in which she appears, always being perpetually happy and carefree even in tense situations for literally no reason. This leads to moments as surreal as her starting to sing and hum in scenes that are intended to be serious or dramatic (or so I think; perhaps what they wanted was to turn this into an unintentional comedy), again generating a gigantic narrative dissonance. The last third of 3.33 is the best example of this.
But that's not the worst: this character is clearly made for otaku coomers to masturbate to. She has almost every fetish possible: glasses/lenses (whatever they call it in your country), pigtails, miniskirt, schoolgirl, saying "nya", big tits, obsession with smell and tight outfits, etc. To make matters worse in 3.0 + 1.01 we discover that she is 48 years old, so we can also add the milf fetish. Evidently, her tits always bounce in her plugsuit (she would swear that never happened in the original series) and there are many close-ups of her ass. In addition to constantly making sexual advances towards Shinji, which also turns this piece of shit into a potential pedophile.
If the thing simply ended there, we could say that this character remains a mere annoying and unnecessary secondary character. Unfortunately, the character is also disruptive to the plot, occupying long filler scenes that do nothing more than waste time that is already scarce in a film, and that could have been used on something else more interesting; like Pen Pen watching TV, Pen Pen eating a sardine, etc. Without going any further, both 2.22, 3.33 and 3.0+1.01 begin with a long filler scene of her hitting on her. Well, to be honest, the 3.33 one is more Asuka, but this abortion is still out there fucking and singing.
It would not be an exaggeration to say that discussing why this character exists is much more interesting than any other debate that can be created about these films. I still think about it. However, the ending of 3.0+1.01 gives a good clue: the character was created solely and exclusively to stay with Shinji. I can only imagine that Anno made this tired of the fandom shipping and the arguments over who Shinji should stay with, so he decided to end the matter by creating his own ideal waifu with all the fetishes he likes in a woman to end it. with this. It's disgusting, but considering we're talking about a Japanese, totally possible.
It's surreal coming from the man who harshly criticized the use of anime as escapism and the excessive female objectification and sexualization in it, but it's the only semi-decent explanation I can think of. Basically, he is what is called a mascot character in literature. That would explain why this character never shows doubts, nor any kind of internal conflict, or why he is a better Eva pilot than Asuka and Rei themselves. It is also very revealing about the quality of the Rebuilds: creating a self-insert OC just to be the partner of the protagonist or another main character is the quintessential trait of all bad fanfiction.
However, among all this tsunami of disqualifications, I also have to say something positive: spending three movies giving hope to the shippers only to have Shinji be cuckolded simultaneously by Rei and Asuka in the last one and end up with a character with which had zero development (before 3.0+1.01 I didn't even know its name) is a true trolling masterclass, worthy of the best of ball pumpers. Only a true emperor of evil would have come up with such a twisted and at the same time perfect way to screw over a large part of the fandom. I give you my tens, Anno.
THE ANTI-UNIVERSE OF ANTI-NARRATIVE:
Of all the new concepts that Anno brings up at the last minute from the place named after his last name, none stands out more than the "anti-universe." Or, as I like to call it, the "anti-good writing." Basically because it perfectly represents all the problems of the rebuilds and their script. In the final stretch of 3.0+1.01 we have the last-minute revelation of a quantum plane of existence capable of turning imagined worlds into reality and changing this through Lilith, which cannot be understood by the human mind (wow, WHAT CONVENIENT!) and whose existence has never been mentioned or even hinted at in the entire franchise until CONCIDENTLY the aforementioned last third of the film.
In other words, a gigantic Deus Ex Machina created in an improvised way to avoid repeating End of Evangelion and forcing a happy ending where Shinji creates an ideal universe for each character (although that is questionable, as we will see later). And it is far from being the only one: the spear of Cassius, the Eva of Infinity, the key of Nebuchadnezzar, the Book of Life, and so on. None of these concepts are integrated into the plot in an organic and natural way, but rather they arise spontaneously at its convenience when it needs it. Except for the new "Super Berserker Mode" of the Evas, which is simply a power-up to sell figurines.
As I said before, if at least this were an alternate universe separate from the original anime, all this bombardment of concepts pulled out of the ass would be a little better justified. But the revelation that everything is a cycle and we are in the same universe as the original work only makes it even worse, generating countless inconsistencies about why they never mentioned this or never used that (what's the point of the seeds of life If you can create universes simply by imagining them?). Although without a doubt, the worst of all these new concepts is "the curse of Eve."
Here we have a new concept with very strong repercussions completely launched, which is not even an explanation in itself, it does not answer anything and to make matters worse, the same films contradict each other several times. Needless to say, this is a cheap excuse for the three main characters not to grow up and continue sexualizing 14-year-old girls after the most gratuitous timeskip ever seen. And speaking of timeskip, putting such a long one in the middle of the story is a first-time writing error. If you are writers, never do that: the bigger the time jump, the more things you will be forced to explain, since the less you do it, the more plot holes will form as a result.
And of course, here it explains little to nothing of what happened these 14 years. Like where Nerv got such a tremendous base from, if in 3.33 it seemed that together with Rei and Kaworu it was made up of four people. Or how they have gotten such an army of pseudo-Evas, especially when these are supposed to be extremely expensive (wow, and SEELE with all her unlimited resources was barely 9 in EoE). Or worse yet, how Kaji managed to stop Almost Third Impact (seriously, the name couldn't be stupider). None of these questions are answered at any time. Obviously because they can't do it.
Evangelion has always been characterized by leaving things up to the public's interpretation, but here I feel that they are vilely taking advantage of it so as not to have to give any kind of explanations. And in the case at hand, do not even pay attention to contradictions. Like Touji and Kensuke got on Unit 01 and that doesn't stop them from being 28 after the timeskip. Or that Mari appears to be 14 despite looking like an adult in Gendo's photos and flashbacks, plus the fact that Evas, by simple logic, could not exist back then.
The height of absurdity is when near the end of 3.0+1.01 the "unexpected" revelation occurs (actually we all saw it coming) that everything is a cycle and we are facing a reboot of the original timeline, of which only Kaworu seems to be conscious. He let them guess without giving them any clues how many times Kaworu mentioned or even hinted at such a thing in the original series. Needless to say, nothing is ever explained about it: Who created that cycle? (Adam? Lilith? The First Ancestral Race? Hideaki Anno's last name?) For what purpose? How does it work? How long does it last? Why is Kaworu the only one who remembers him? Do these remakes make sense?
THE DEATH OF A STYLE:
Fortress-cities folding in on themselves. Designs and constructions oscillating between the nineties, the utopian and the cyberpunk. Meshes of flesh and blood animated with the souls of the dead fighting with classical music in the background. A mysterious and ambiguous lore where aliens, technology and conspiracies mix with gnostic, cabalistic elements and the most esoteric aspects of Christianity (did the History Channel predict Evangelion?). Minimalist posters moving quickly between frames. Monochrome backgrounds flashing aggressively (bad luck if you were epileptic). So consistent with its themes that the A.T. fields themselves. They were an allegory of the hedgehog's dilemma (I'm not making this up, Kaworu himself says it in chapter 23).
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The sum of all these factors is what allowed Evangelion to build an absolutely unique identity, the one that allowed people to say "hey, that's an Eva!". Starting in 3.33, all that is lost to disappear in 3.0+1.01 in favor of giant spaceships, mechanical mechas made of pure CGI, battles full of colored lights, multiverses and time loops. I'm not saying these elements are bad in and of themselves, but I've already seen a thousand mecha stories with these. For that, I start watching any of the versions of Gundam or Macross. I could also complain about the boring shots without audiovisual language and always using the same color palette, but to be fair, that is an endemic evil of current anime.
And like any bad remake, 3.0+1.01 can't help but pay homage to several scenes from the original work, completely failing to understand the point of said scenes. As an example, we have Ritsuko shooting Gendo for no reason other than to pay homage to End of Evangelion, ignoring that the context between both scenes is very different. Furthermore, here they never explain the relationship that exists between the two, so the scene makes no sense; especially for those who never saw the original series, who will also find mentions of facts that these films have never shown or bothered to explain.
Even worse is when they try to pay homage to the iconic battle between Asuka and the Eva Series. Not only because of the total absence of the graphic violence and choreography of the original, but because what makes that fight so remembered is its emotional component, since it is preceded by a narrative catharsis in which Asuka discovers that the Her mother's soul was always in Unit 02, in addition to being marked by the constant tension of knowing if she will be able to finish the fight before the Eva's energy supply runs out. Here the Evas never run out of energy (why do they need the power supply, then?), so there is no such tension.
In the original fight Asuka may not be shooting 1387945 Evas with a super cannon larger than her as she falls through an... interdimensional hole?; But there you feel every blow, you can appreciate every movement in detail, and the dramatic tension in crescendo only improves the result. If this were a shonen, the logical thing is that Asuka would win. After all, her character arc has been wrapped up in a climactic way. Unfortunately, this is Evangelion. When the Evas Series manage to cause a mortal wound with the pseudo-spear of Longinus and the energy counter reads zero, the outcome is already decided. What happens next is horrific (Asuka's enemies are cruel to her even after she is dead), and just as horrifying are Yūko Miyamura's screams and Miki Nagasawa's performance as Maya announcing that Asuka is dead. In the Rebuilds there are no performances anywhere near that level.
End of Evangelion will be as dark and uncomfortable to watch as you want, but it is a film where all those responsible put their souls into achieving the best possible result, both on a technical and artistic level.
and well, I think that for today I have already downloaded too much, an apology for the large amount of text, I will make a second part at another time because I have so many things to comment on... anyway, I hope you have a good day/afternoon/night or when you read this .