Gifts for people who drive

This is my last attempt for awhile. *Do Not message or add me just to unfriend me or ghost me. * Greetings future partner ❤️ I'm still searching for you. I have to be honest and say that I am losing hope trying to find you.Please be somewhere. I want my search for a partner to be over. I'm seeking adventure in my life with someone I can call a forever partner. I'm tired of the loneliness and the sheltered lifestyle that I've lived. It would mean a lot of you could read through this post so that I could make sure we are compatible. Even if we start off as friends that would be fine.
Here's to new beginnings and new connections. PLEASE make sure you READ through the WHOLE POST also please be respectful when messaging me * *If you're the type to be impatient, block, or ghost easily, then save both of us the trouble and DO NOT message me! I'm not trying to come off as mean but I'd much rather you not message me if you're the type of person to do that. If something isn't working just let me know. We're all adults.
Greetings, I am seeking a long term relationship monogamous with the end goal being matrimony. I am not one for playing around and being used casually as it doesn’t suit me personally. Ideally I'd prefer a man that has his life already in place so that I can be able to share life with him and for him to take care of me. I would expect my future man to have a fiscally stable job and be able to support me and our future family. I wouldn’t be opposed to being a housewife. There are few reasons why I would like to work or work part time: 1) Being abandoned with nothing, 2) I want to feel fulfilled and not bored. Happy to discuss possible dynamics, I'm flexible. I would love a synergistic partnership where we are both able to mold our minds and fill our hearts with warm affection. I will be there to support you throughout your journey and celebrate every moment with you. I want you to be proud of you just as you are with me. I want to show you that you are truly cared for and appreciated by gestures of love such as massages and other forms of entertainment. I would expect the same from you as well. Even if we are both working adults we can still make our relationship work in the best way possible. I have seen this come out well for people who are dedicated and willing to make their relationships work. For a strong relationship to occur I would expect effective (transparent) communication from you. If you are going to be busy just be honest and let me know you won’t be able to talk to me.Also, if you need your space both mentally and physically let me know. I understand that we all have our lives to attend to but it is incredibly important for people in a relationship to be transparent when circumstances arise in a timely manner in order to avoid future conflict. If this relationship isn’t going to work I would expect you to tell me and not ghost or block me before giving me a reason why. We are all adults so I would expect nothing but maturity. Starting out I don’t want the pressure of sex to be pushed onto me. I’d rather let time tell in all of its glory.
Now onto my true introduction
My name is Angie and I'm from Georgia in the United States. I've been lonely for quite some time and find it hard to find a soulmate in IRL. What I'm looking for is someone who I can connect with and have wholesome conversations with. I want to be able to treat my future soulmate well just as much as they do me. The biggest part of a long lasting relationship is the ability to communicate openly without worry. I'd love it if my significant other has a dark sense of humor and continues to crack me up non-stop. As cheesy as it may sound I long for those late night calls and cute texts. I want for us to drive out the very best in each other; become our support system. A little bit about me is that I grew up in Florida and not too long ago moved to Georgia. I'm currently in college to become an RN but I'm also passionate about cosmetic chemistry and nutrition so I may seek to build my own business in the future. I'm passionate about science and theoretical applications especially within the medical field. I'd appreciate it if my partner is open minded about varying topics and welcomes healthy conversations. Appearance wise I'm open to seeing if we have a connection and feel as long as you are well groomed and practice basic hygiene you are good. Although, I must say that attraction is key in a relationship so I will have to go off on that as well. To add on, I enjoy playing video games, exercising (I've been slacking off lately), cooking and baking (vegan), playing board games, reading, exploring nature, playing sports (basketball and soccer) for fun, and trying new experiences. I hope to save up and travel someday. It would be nice for my partner to be able to set up our travel itinerary.
My Physical Description:
I am a black woman who’s twenty five years old (almost 26 in December) with Afro-Carribean, Japanese and Swedish ancestry. I’d still consider myself black presenting since that’s more along the lines of what I appear as phenotypically. I have dark brown curly hair (Mainly 3c type curls) and brown eyes. I am 5 '4 on the thicker spectrum (not at all obese but thick boned and have thunder thighs). I am trying to exercise more to become fit. I used to weight lift when I was younger but since then have lost lean muscle mass. Having a partner that is willing to work out together sometimes is rather rewarding. A man who has drive and appeal is incredibly sexy. I would also like to point out that I am curvy and noticeable in certain aspects (I’ll leave it up to you to decide).
*You have to be MINIMUM 21 to date me *
If distance will be a problem and you aren't willing to make it work then DON'T MESSAGE ME!!
If you will be too busy to pursue a relationship then DO NOT contact me!! * *Again, No ghosters or blockers!! Seeking a person who seeks a relationship with God and/or is open to one Must be free from venerial diseases and must be willing to get tested(will discuss) Bonus points if you're vegan Ideally I would like someone that is taller than me (I’m 5’4) I prefer a man that is fit or trying to be. I'd prefer someone who is fiscally stable and able to support the both of us* A big red flag for me is smokers. It isn't good for your health nor is it sexy to me.* It's important for me to point out that I want children in the future and need someone who may want that as well. If you're interested in how I look and want to know more about me, message me. Although I don’t make it a huge deal, I do prefer White and East Asian men. But I do love all types of men and welcome them. As stated before I emphasize communication and would prefer you to be honest and say if something is wrong instead of ghosting or blocking without stating the reason. Fair warning if I can be socially awkward sometimes and don't know what to talk about so please be patient with me as I'm learning to be better conversation wise

• soliciting multiple prostitutes (I hacked into his whatsapp and saw he was paying on average $200 for different women)
• left me at the house on my own 70% of the time, he’d go out with his friends to sell c*ke and hang out with anyone and everyone
• have sex with another woman at a party with the door open and some acquaintances saw, yet no one told me until about a year after
• act like I don’t exist in public, yelling and dissing me and making me feel embarrassed in front of other people
• stayed at hotels and had friends and females stay with him (I found out by driving to a hotel parking lot one night cause I had a gut feeling and sure enough his car was there, told me the next morning he stayed by a friends house but then admitted to it after I told him what I saw)
• going out a lot and to events without me, having house parties at his fathers house without me
• embarrassing me by flirting with other girls online and in person
• dismissed my anxiety and told me to get over it because everyone has it (I literally could not catch a breath)
• moved on from me a day after we broke up, he got with this 17 year old chick who doesn’t have a job and goes to the club a lot, she’s not even a citizen from here (no hate to her, but I guess younger girls are easier to manipulate because he cheats on her and she probably doesn’t know)
• let other females diss and embarrass me in front of him, and continued hanging out with those females
• got into a high speed chase with police for selling weed (he got a suspended sentence)
• told me he doesn’t love me any more but wanted to live with me in my apartment because he doesn’t have a job where he can transfer from a bank account (he’s a c*ke dealer)
• When we were out together he would leave me places on my own, l'd feel embarrassed when people would ask me why he'd leave me
• We took molly in a hotel room and I had overdosed and he left me in the room

We broke up in September 2022. I don’t love him anymore but I have hatred towards him after finding more things out. I wouldn’t ever want to be with him now anyway. He’s currently in prison as he was under investigation and was caught with two bricks (2 kgs) of c*caine, an unlicensed gun, other drugs, and cash. He’s awaiting trial and has been on remand since February 2024. I later found out that before they caught him he was on the run for 4 months. I think I dodged a huge bullet there. I’m so embarrassed I dated him.

i dont even know why im talking about this theres no point and it doesnt matter nothing matters. im just so doomed and trapped in everything i do all i ever hear is how wrong i am and how i dont do enough and im not saying imthe second coming of jesus i know im pitiful ijust wish that isnt all anyone ever had to say about me. ifeel so debilitated and so inhibited and i try i try so hard but i already dont give a fuck if i live sometimes all i can do “trying” wise is make myself life untilthe next day so no one else grieves. fhats all i can do but itfeels like everything i do is just wrong because i do it i can never win
people ask me to share how i feel but if i do then they misunderstand it or make judgments about me or use it against me or share it with othersor call me dramatic but if i dont then im not putting in effort to be communicative?
i try to do nice things like cook for others and itslike all my wrongdoings are pointed out throughout the process and no one wants what i make for them, i try to get people gifts that they have on record said liked but now they dont like them anymore for x reason and suddenlg anyonewho does is bad, i try to share things ithink we could both like and then no one cares/i feel like they dont so inever say anything again and then its myfault for not trying? im to,d everyones trying to meet me where i am but i never follow suit?
no one understands how grueling anyof this is and to them its just im not trying but if i bring it up ill justbe faced wirh a response something like a “so what, thatswhat you should be doing”
if i show any ounce of emotion its a testament to why i cantbe independent befause i “dont know how to regulate myself” but if i dont show any emotion im told i should and i must otherwise it cant be trusted of me either.. every “right” thing i do feels like a given and minuscule but then im told everything wrong i do so easily.. from what i eat, so then i dont eat at all, then im told i should eat.. i panic staying in a room because if i dont go downstairs ill be in trouble for not going downstairs, if i go downstairs and have a poor reaction because im overstimulated or terrified someones going to tear me apart then im in trouble for that too, and if i do go and im fine its what shouldve happened anyway and then ill be drained, incapable to do anything else, and then everyone is wondering why i cant do anything else
it all sounds stupid on paper inever doubt fir a moment that i or my feelings are stupid i Know im stupid i just feel this way regardless. which makesme just feel worse, because it isnt that serious and yet im still just this fucking weak bitch who feels this way?
theyll say im not in troubke but they dont understand how anything and everything they say feels that way and im not, maybe no one is not, built to be justcriticized all them time. im not built to be told im doing nothing, always, when im trying my hardest. i dont know what else to do other than apologising for being such a fucking mistake, but then thats an issue too. i offer no one to pay for me in any regard whether it be gifts or i compensate for favors or i say dont get me food/do anything at all, but then im told that i shouldnt do that either. i feel so damned if i do damned if i dont and for some reason that is just ruining my life more than everything else. i am such a waste and i feel like one. what can i do, literally what can be done, other than be anxious about every move im making and its consequences? what can i do other than run away, beg no one does anything for me, pray everyone forgets about me? or the other thing i probably shouldnt say here. i dont know. i just dont know. with or without this i have enough problems because my day to day fucking sucks enough and my brain is trying to kill me so i dont think thatd change anything about my constitution. but ligood lord what can i do except suffer? and if thats my only option why is accepting that im nothing so bad, if everyone else tells me? and why is wanting the hell to stop even worse?

• soliciting multiple prostitutes (I hacked into his whatsapp and saw he was paying on average $200 for different women)
• left me at the house on my own 70% of the time, he’d go out with his friends to sell c*ke and hang out with anyone and everyone
• have sex with another woman at a party with the door open and some acquaintances saw, yet no one told me until about a year after
• act like I don’t exist in public, yelling and dissing me and making me feel embarrassed in front of other people
• stayed at hotels and had friends and females stay with him (I found out by driving to a hotel parking lot one night cause I had a gut feeling and sure enough his car was there, told me the next morning he stayed by a friends house but then admitted to it after I told him what I saw)
• going out a lot and to events without me, having house parties at his fathers house without me
• embarrassing me by flirting with other girls online and in person
• dismissed my anxiety and told me to get over it because everyone has it (I literally could not catch a breath)
• moved on from me a day after we broke up, he got with this 17 year old chick who doesn’t have a job and goes to the club a lot, she’s not even a citizen from here (no hate to her, but I guess younger girls are easier to manipulate because he cheats on her and she probably doesn’t know)
• let other females diss and embarrass me in front of him, and continued hanging out with those females
• got into a high speed chase with police for selling weed (he got a suspended sentence)
• told me he doesn’t love me any more but wanted to live with me in my apartment because he doesn’t have a job where he can transfer from a bank account (he’s a c*ke dealer)
• When we were out together he would leave me places on my own, l'd feel embarrassed when people would ask me why he'd leave me
• We took molly in a hotel room and I had overdosed and he left me in the room

We broke up in September 2022. I don’t love him anymore but I have hatred towards him after finding more things out. I wouldn’t ever want to be with him now anyway. He’s currently in prison as he was under investigation and was caught with two bricks (2 kgs) of c*caine, an unlicensed gun, other drugs, and cash. He’s awaiting trial and has been on remand since February 2024. I later found out that before they caught him he was on the run for 4 months. I think I dodged a huge bullet there. I’m so embarrassed I dated him.

This will mostl likely be my last attempt in trying to find someone for awhile. * Do Not message me just to ghost or block me! Think it through before you message me!! I don't want to get emotionally hurt again.*
Greetings future partner ❤️ I'm still searching for you. I have to be honest and say that I am losing hope trying to find you.Please be somewhere. I want my search for a partner to be over. I'm seeking adventure in my life with someone I can call a forever partner. I'm tired of the loneliness and the sheltered lifestyle that I've lived. It would mean a lot of you could read through this post so that I could make sure we are compatible. Even if we start off as friends that would be fine.
Here's to new beginnings and new connections. PLEASE make sure you READ through the WHOLE POST also please be respectful when messaging me * *If you're the type to be impatient, block, or ghost easily, then save both of us the trouble and DO NOT message me! I'm not trying to come off as mean but I'd much rather you not message me if you're the type of person to do that. If something isn't working just let me know. We're all adults.
Greetings, I am seeking a long term relationship monogamous with the end goal being matrimony. I am not one for playing around and being used casually as it doesn’t suit me personally. Ideally I'd prefer a man that has his life already in place so that I can be able to share life with him and for him to take care of me. I would expect my future man to have a fiscally stable job and be able to support me and our future family. I wouldn’t be opposed to being a housewife. There are few reasons why I would like to work or work part time: 1) Being abandoned with nothing, 2) I want to feel fulfilled and not bored. Happy to discuss possible dynamics, I'm flexible. I would love a synergistic partnership where we are both able to mold our minds and fill our hearts with warm affection. I will be there to support you throughout your journey and celebrate every moment with you. I want you to be proud of you just as you are with me. I want to show you that you are truly cared for and appreciated by gestures of love such as massages and other forms of entertainment. I would expect the same from you as well. Even if we are both working adults we can still make our relationship work in the best way possible. I have seen this come out well for people who are dedicated and willing to make their relationships work. For a strong relationship to occur I would expect effective (transparent) communication from you. If you are going to be busy just be honest and let me know you won’t be able to talk to me.Also, if you need your space both mentally and physically let me know. I understand that we all have our lives to attend to but it is incredibly important for people in a relationship to be transparent when circumstances arise in a timely manner in order to avoid future conflict. If this relationship isn’t going to work I would expect you to tell me and not ghost or block me before giving me a reason why. We are all adults so I would expect nothing but maturity. Starting out I don’t want the pressure of sex to be pushed onto me. I’d rather let time tell in all of its glory.
Now onto my true introduction
My name is Angie and I'm from Georgia in the United States. I've been lonely for quite some time and find it hard to find a soulmate in IRL. What I'm looking for is someone who I can connect with and have wholesome conversations with. I want to be able to treat my future soulmate well just as much as they do me. The biggest part of a long lasting relationship is the ability to communicate openly without worry. I'd love it if my significant other has a dark sense of humor and continues to crack me up non-stop. As cheesy as it may sound I long for those late night calls and cute texts. I want for us to drive out the very best in each other; become our support system. A little bit about me is that I grew up in Florida and not too long ago moved to Georgia. I'm currently in college to become an RN but I'm also passionate about cosmetic chemistry and nutrition so I may seek to build my own business in the future. I'm passionate about science and theoretical applications especially within the medical field. I'd appreciate it if my partner is open minded about varying topics and welcomes healthy conversations. Appearance wise I'm open to seeing if we have a connection and feel as long as you are well groomed and practice basic hygiene you are good. Although, I must say that attraction is key in a relationship so I will have to go off on that as well. To add on, I enjoy playing video games, exercising (I've been slacking off lately), cooking and baking (vegan), playing board games, reading, exploring nature, playing sports (basketball and soccer) for fun, and trying new experiences. I hope to save up and travel someday. It would be nice for my partner to be able to set up our travel itinerary.
My Physical Description:
I am a black woman who’s twenty five years old (almost 26 in December) with Afro-Carribean, Japanese and Swedish ancestry. I’d still consider myself black presenting since that’s more along the lines of what I appear as phenotypically. I have dark brown curly hair (Mainly 3c type curls) and brown eyes. I am 5 '4 on the thicker spectrum (not at all obese but thick boned and have thunder thighs). I am trying to exercise more to become fit. I used to weight lift when I was younger but since then have lost lean muscle mass. Having a partner that is willing to work out together sometimes is rather rewarding. A man who has drive and appeal is incredibly sexy. I would also like to point out that I am curvy and noticeable in certain aspects (I’ll leave it up to you to decide).
*You have to be MINIMUM 21 to date me *
If distance is an issue and you aren't willing to commit then DON'T MESSAGE ME!!
If you will be too busy to pursue a relationship then DO NOT contact me!! * *Again, No ghosters or blockers!! Seeking a person who seeks a relationship with God and/or is open to one MUST be free from venerial diseases (must be willing to get tested) Bonus points if you're vegan Ideally I would like someone that is taller than me (I’m 5’4) I prefer a man that is fit or trying to be. I'd prefer someone who is fiscally stable and able to support the both of us* A big red flag for me is smokers. It isn't good for your health nor is it sexy to me.* It's important for me to point out that I want children in the future and need someone who may want that as well. If you're interested in how I look and want to know more about me, message me. Although I don’t make it a huge deal, I do prefer White and East Asian men. But I do love all types of men and welcome them. As stated before I emphasize communication and would prefer you to be honest and say if something is wrong instead of ghosting or blocking without stating the reason. Fair warning if I can be socially awkward sometimes and don't know what to talk about so please be patient with me as I'm learning to be better conversation wise

• soliciting multiple prostitutes (I hacked into his whatsapp and saw he was paying on average $200 for different women)
• left me at the house on my own 70% of the time, he’d go out with his friends to sell c*ke and hang out with anyone and everyone
• have sex with another woman at a party with the door open and some acquaintances saw, yet no one told me until about a year after
• act like I don’t exist in public, yelling and dissing me and making me feel embarrassed in front of other people
• stayed at hotels and had friends and females stay with him (I found out by driving to a hotel parking lot one night cause I had a gut feeling and sure enough his car was there, told me the next morning he stayed by a friends house but then admitted to it after I told him what I saw)
• going out a lot and to events without me, having house parties at his fathers house without me
• embarrassing me by flirting with other girls online and in person
• dismissed my anxiety and told me to get over it because everyone has it (I literally could not catch a breath)
• moved on from me a day after we broke up, he got with this 17 year old chick who doesn’t have a job and goes to the club a lot, she’s not even a citizen from here (no hate to her, but I guess younger girls are easier to manipulate because he cheats on her and she probably doesn’t know)
• let other females diss and embarrass me in front of him, and continued hanging out with those females
• got into a high speed chase with police for selling weed (he got a suspended sentence)
• told me he doesn’t love me any more but wanted to live with me in my apartment because he doesn’t have a job where he can transfer from a bank account (he’s a c*ke dealer)
• When we were out together he would leave me places on my own, l'd feel embarrassed when people would ask me why he'd leave me
• We took molly in a hotel room and I had overdosed and he left me in the room

We broke up in September 2022. I don’t love him anymore but I have hatred towards him after finding more things out. I wouldn’t ever want to be with him now anyway. He’s currently in prison as he was under investigation and was caught with two bricks (2 kgs) of c*caine, an unlicensed gun, other drugs, and cash. He’s awaiting trial and has been on remand since February 2024. I later found out that before they caught him he was on the run for 4 months. I think I dodged a huge bullet there. I’m so embarrassed I dated him.

• soliciting multiple prostitutes (I hacked into his whatsapp and saw he was paying on average $200 for different women)
• left me at the house on my own 70% of the time, he’d go out with his friends to sell c*ke and hang out with anyone and everyone
• have sex with another woman at a party with the door open and some acquaintances saw, yet no one told me until about a year after
• act like I don’t exist in public, yelling and dissing me and making me feel embarrassed in front of other people
• stayed at hotels and had friends and females stay with him (I found out by driving to a hotel parking lot one night cause I had a gut feeling and sure enough his car was there, told me the next morning he stayed by a friends house but then admitted to it after I told him what I saw)
• going out a lot and to events without me, having house parties at his fathers house without me
• embarrassing me by flirting with other girls online and in person
• dismissed my anxiety and told me to get over it because everyone has it (I literally could not catch a breath)
• moved on from me a day after we broke up, he got with this 17 year old chick who doesn’t have a job and goes to the club a lot, she’s not even a citizen from here (no hate to her, but I guess younger girls are easier to manipulate because he cheats on her and she probably doesn’t know)
• let other females diss and embarrass me in front of him, and continued hanging out with those females
• got into a high speed chase with police for selling weed (he got a suspended sentence)
• told me he doesn’t love me any more but wanted to live with me in my apartment because he doesn’t have a job where he can transfer from a bank account (he’s a c*ke dealer)
• When we were out together he would leave me places on my own, l'd feel embarrassed when people would ask me why he'd leave me
• We took molly in a hotel room and I had overdosed and he left me in the room

We broke up in September 2022. I don’t love him anymore but I have hatred towards him after finding more things out. I wouldn’t ever want to be with him now anyway. He’s currently in prison as he was under investigation and was caught with two bricks (2 kgs) of c*caine, an unlicensed gun, other drugs, and cash. He’s awaiting trial and has been on remand since February 2024. I later found out that before they caught him he was on the run for 4 months. I think I dodged a huge bullet there. I’m so embarrassed I dated him.

• soliciting multiple prostitutes (I hacked into his whatsapp and saw he was paying on average $200 for different women)
• left me at the house on my own 70% of the time, he’d go out with his friends to sell c*ke and hang out with anyone and everyone
• have sex with another woman at a party with the door open and some acquaintances saw, yet no one told me until about a year after
• act like I don’t exist in public, yelling and dissing me and making me feel embarrassed in front of other people
• stayed at hotels and had friends and females stay with him (I found out by driving to a hotel parking lot one night cause I had a gut feeling and sure enough his car was there, told me the next morning he stayed by a friends house but then admitted to it after I told him what I saw)
• going out a lot and to events without me, having house parties at his fathers house without me
• embarrassing me by flirting with other girls online and in person
• dismissed my anxiety and told me to get over it because everyone has it (I literally could not catch a breath)
• moved on from me a day after we broke up, he got with this 17 year old chick who doesn’t have a job and goes to the club a lot, she’s not even a citizen from here (no hate to her, but I guess younger girls are easier to manipulate because he cheats on her and she probably doesn’t know)
• let other females diss and embarrass me in front of him, and continued hanging out with those females
• got into a high speed chase with police for selling weed (he got a suspended sentence)
• told me he doesn’t love me any more but wanted to live with me in my apartment because he doesn’t have a job where he can transfer from a bank account (he’s a c*ke dealer)
• When we were out together he would leave me places on my own, l'd feel embarrassed when people would ask me why he'd leave me
• We took molly in a hotel room and I had overdosed and he left me in the room

We broke up in September 2022. I don’t love him anymore but I have hatred towards him after finding more things out. I wouldn’t ever want to be with him now anyway. He’s currently in prison as he was under investigation and was caught with two bricks (2 kgs) of c*caine, an unlicensed gun, other drugs, and cash. He’s awaiting trial and has been on remand since February 2024. I later found out that before they caught him he was on the run for 4 months. I think I dodged a huge bullet there. I’m so embarrassed I dated him.

• soliciting multiple prostitutes (I hacked into his whatsapp and saw he was paying on average $200 for different women)
• left me at the house on my own 70% of the time, he’d go out with his friends to sell c*ke and hang out with anyone and everyone
• have sex with another woman at a party with the door open and some acquaintances saw, yet no one told me until about a year after
• act like I don’t exist in public, yelling and dissing me and making me feel embarrassed in front of other people
• stayed at hotels and had friends and females stay with him (I found out by driving to a hotel parking lot one night cause I had a gut feeling and sure enough his car was there, told me the next morning he stayed by a friends house but then admitted to it after I told him what I saw)
• going out a lot and to events without me, having house parties at his fathers house without me
• embarrassing me by flirting with other girls online and in person
• dismissed my anxiety and told me to get over it because everyone has it (I literally could not catch a breath)
• moved on from me a day after we broke up, he got with this 17 year old chick who doesn’t have a job and goes to the club a lot, she’s not even a citizen from here (no hate to her, but I guess younger girls are easier to manipulate because he cheats on her and she probably doesn’t know)
• let other females diss and embarrass me in front of him, and continued hanging out with those females
• got into a high speed chase with police for selling weed (he got a suspended sentence)
• told me he doesn’t love me any more but wanted to live with me in my apartment because he doesn’t have a job where he can transfer from a bank account (he’s a c*ke dealer)
• When we were out together he would leave me places on my own, l'd feel embarrassed when people would ask me why he'd leave me
• We took molly in a hotel room and I had overdosed and he left me in the room

We broke up in September 2022. I don’t love him anymore but I have hatred towards him after finding more things out. I wouldn’t ever want to be with him now anyway. He’s currently in prison as he was under investigation and was caught with two bricks (2 kgs) of c*caine, an unlicensed gun, other drugs, and cash. He’s awaiting trial and has been on remand since February 2024. I later found out that before they caught him he was on the run for 4 months. I think I dodged a huge bullet there. I’m so embarrassed I dated him.

i have been keeping a list of recurring jokes / inside jokes in the office and i have a lot, things i think the writers had as inside jokes, and i knowww i'm missing bunch. please contribute!
here's what i have so far: im listing the joke and then (the episodes). sorry my formatting is all over the place it's a working document

1. Jim hurting Phyllis w soccer ball: 5:22 dream team -the convict (3:9)
   
2. cotton swab hurts Andy: The incentive ep where he gets a butt tattoo (8:2) Cafe disco when Kelly is gonna pierce his ear (5:27)
   
3. Oscar and the hardwood floors : -when dwight shoots the floor (7:24) -when they do the espresso tasting and redo the office (9:11)
   
4. “Stay out of this you” -season 3 michael scott and Andy sales episode -early season Halloween michael has a cutout of himself -s4 EP 8 - money part 2 —- 2:51
   
5. Naming types of clothes -(3:22): in Victoria’s Secret michael keeps asking angela if e wants a t back or a .... -(3:3) when Dwight goes behind Michael’s back and talks to jan and asks if she got a teddy camisole t back - the coup
   
6. upturned broom w a bucket for a head - instead of new boss, Stanley (beach day!) (3:24) Old vacuum cleaner that’s broken for manager - Pam on dwight in the coup (3:3)
   
7. Do you need us for any of this?” JIM to michael in an office meeting —- crime aid when hes describing how the Springsteen tickets seem too good to be true And “a head of an egret, with the body of a...””-- fun run
   
8. Kevin & Dwight with fireworks End of the ___ EP Right before Pam & Jim’s wedding - Kevin asks about the fireworks
   
9. Dwight giving rousing communism speech season 6:3 - when Jim is the manager and they’re putting beans on everyone’s faces and dwight tries to get everyone to rise up When he’s public speaking giving the award (2:17)
   
10. “Why are you limping” michael in season 6 EP 9 - michael limps after the slap Andy in where dwight shoots the floor and his ear is ringing (7:24)
    
11. Also Kelly piercing Andy’s ear? Cafe disco & niagra? kelly andy dance-off AND ear pierce? (5:27) /// (6:4)
    
12. YouTube being an entity that can film things Product recall: “and then YouTube gets a hold of it” s3 EP 21 The roast of michael scott - make sure youtube comes down to tape this (5:15)
    
13. actually letting the air out of the tires to get people’s attention. -dwight to Phyllis - 5:5 -michael to everyone (3:20)
    
14. michael saying something a lot to make people think it: 6:16 - he keeps saying manager to get jo to make him manager ???; when he's flirting w the bar manager when she's coming in to buy a printer he keeps saying ____ to make her think sex ?
    
15. Michael falling asleep unexpectedly in the car Pam & Jim’s wedding EP #1 - driving dwight (6:4) When Daryl is drivin holly to Nashua and he screams “was I saying anything interesting?” Not really (5:6)
    
16. Who is it michael? Who is it? Who? Who?” - Pam to michael. the lover (6:7) “Where dwight? Where?” It seems like you already know where —- Oscar to dwight (5:12)
    
17. Jim : I just need more time “I can stop this, I just need a week, maybe two” 6 : 9 double date Also Jim: after their honeymoon trying to get Pam to not go into Michael’s office with the gift. Can I think about it over the weekend? (6:7)
    
18. “I NEED COMPLETE SILENCE!!!” Andy doing DDR : s6 EP 17 -8:10 D’Angelo doing his juggling routine - (7:23)
    
19. Kevin sitting on you will kill you the delivery part 2: s6 EP 18 —- I don’t want anyone to die “just don’t let him sit on you” EP where michael is santa / Jesus (6:13)
    
20. michael talking about stevie wonder -benihana christmas "are you telling me stevie wonder doesnt love his wife because he doesn't know what she looks like?" (s3:11) when he burns his foot - would you have left stevie wonder? no we love stevie wonder (2:12)
    
21. michael not sleeping in a hotel room: 6:5 niagra - dwight has a room 5:8 business trip - the concierge sleeps in the room
    
22. "i'm not like you pam" angela to pam - 3:13 erin to pam - michael's last dundies (7:21)
    
23. pam's mom and michael (4:14) "who are you writing" your mom michael dates her mom
    
24. pam being obsessed w new chairs (4:14) chair model the surplus
    
25. i was just walking by your desk -andy about dwight in 3:13 ~23 minutes -also when jim gives pm the house "i got peepers like an eagle"
    

-Its too dayum difficult to get an American Express credit card. If I share my personal experience after providing them with my bank statement, my past three month salary slips, my ITR fillings they still asked for two more proofs of income. Its too big a hassle for a card half of India wont accept. I get it you get referrals and gifts and all. But honestly its like luring kids into Omni with toffee.
AmEx is like the Amway of credit card world. Its better to opt for other cards than this. For SmartEarn the minimum income is 4.5 LPA. I was 20 my first salary was 14k and HDFC offered me Moneyback with 40k limit still grateful for that. Amex has one thing and one thing only. Its name.
-Cred is fine. People need to stop dissing on it. I know people who have won free TV sets via Cred. Yesterday I made two bill payments got like Rs. 12 sometimes I get 1. The whole point of credit cards was to make life easier and rewarding. People need to chill out. Pay your bills and relax not every aspect of our being shall earn us rewards. Those with credit cards are already getting better offers and deals that should be enough.
The main motive with Cred should always be easy bill payments. Fast and reliable. Thats its. Also to those who shall come up with Cheq or Mobikwik or HDFC RBL Cards. Its simple not worth it. Not everyone has an account in HDFC I personally got it closed. Pay through your cards and relax with the bills.
-People make a big deal of conversion ratios, partner points. Booking Accor hotels, flights. The prices for those are already ramped up. So no big deal, if you try booking through a good travel agent you would get a better deal. Im surprised all these credit card enthusiasts never talk about. Also I always wonder how these people go on vacation this much. I dont get the time to simply do it maybe my bad.
I personally have seen that HDFC SmartBuy and Axis Grabdeals sometimes offer higher rates for stuff than others. So it really isnt worth the extra points if the prices have gone high. Tried this with Myntra. You could see for yourself and you shall see the difference.
-No one bank or credit card issuer sucks. Everyone make mistakes. Happens . Move on. You do what best gets you started. No need to follow on in others footsteps or get influenced by others.
-Simple cards are the best. Straightforward rewards no siyapa.
-Swipe, tap, enjoy. Its a tool to make life manageable and easy. Not a game we have to play on repeat.
-MoneyBack sucks but it was a good start for many.
-Comparing what you have to be and give to het Infinia it doesn’t matter. It’s a super premium card for the elites. It doesn’t matter how good it is when most of us cant get it.
-Also a-lot of people ask this rate my credit card collection on this sub. Buddy you have it. Are you happy.? If you are stay that way. You don’t need validation from strangers. If you are not ask for suggestions. I think many are showing off many simply want opinions its fine. What suits you. Just sharing my stuff.

• soliciting multiple prostitutes (I hacked into his whatsapp and saw he was paying on average $200 for different women)
• left me at the house on my own 70% of the time, he’d go out with his friends to sell c*ke and hang out with anyone and everyone
• have sex with another woman at a party with the door open and some acquaintances saw, yet no one told me until about a year after
• act like I don’t exist in public, yelling and dissing me and making me feel embarrassed in front of other people
• stayed at hotels and had friends and females stay with him (I found out by driving to a hotel parking lot one night cause I had a gut feeling and sure enough his car was there, told me the next morning he stayed by a friends house but then admitted to it after I told him what I saw)
• going out a lot and to events without me, having house parties at his fathers house without me
• embarrassing me by flirting with other girls online and in person
• dismissed my anxiety and told me to get over it because everyone has it (I literally could not catch a breath)
• moved on from me a day after we broke up, he got with this 17 year old chick who doesn’t have a job and goes to the club a lot, she’s not even a citizen from here (no hate to her, but I guess younger girls are easier to manipulate because he cheats on her and she probably doesn’t know)
• let other females diss and embarrass me in front of him, and continued hanging out with those females
• got into a high speed chase with police for selling weed (he got a suspended sentence)
• told me he doesn’t love me any more but wanted to live with me in my apartment because he doesn’t have a job where he can transfer from a bank account (he’s a c*ke dealer)
• When we were out together he would leave me places on my own, l'd feel embarrassed when people would ask me why he'd leave me
• We took molly in a hotel room and I had overdosed and he left me in the room

We broke up in September 2022. I don’t love him anymore but I have hatred towards him after finding more things out. I wouldn’t ever want to be with him now anyway. He’s currently in prison as he was under investigation and was caught with two bricks (2 kgs) of c*caine. He’s awaiting trial and has been on remand since February 2024. I later found out that before they caught him he was on the run for 4 months. I think I dodged a huge bullet there. I’m so embarrassed I dated him.

• soliciting multiple prostitutes (I hacked into his whatsapp and saw he was paying on average $200 for different women)
• left me at the house on my own 70% of the time, he’d go out with his friends to sell c*ke and hang out with anyone and everyone
• have sex with another woman at a party with the door open and some acquaintances saw, yet no one told me until about a year after
• act like I don’t exist in public, yelling and dissing me and making me feel embarrassed in front of other people
• stayed at hotels and had friends and females stay with him (I found out by driving to a hotel parking lot one night cause I had a gut feeling and sure enough his car was there, told me the next morning he stayed by a friends house but then admitted to it after I told him what I saw)
• going out a lot and to events without me, having house parties at his fathers house without me
• embarrassing me by flirting with other girls online and in person
• dismissed my anxiety and told me to get over it because everyone has it (I literally could not catch a breath)
• moved on from me a day after we broke up, he got with this 17 year old chick who doesn’t have a job and goes to the club a lot, she’s not even a citizen from here (no hate to her, but I guess younger girls are easier to manipulate because he cheats on her and she probably doesn’t know)
• let other females diss and embarrass me in front of him, and continued hanging out with those females
• got into a high speed chase with police for selling weed (he got a suspended sentence)
• told me he doesn’t love me any more but wanted to live with me in my apartment because he doesn’t have a job where he can transfer from a bank account (he’s a c*ke dealer)
• When we were out together he would leave me places on my own, l'd feel embarrassed when people would ask me why he'd leave me
• We took molly in a hotel room and I had overdosed and he left me in the room

We broke up in September 2022. I don’t love him anymore but I have hatred towards him after finding more things out. I wouldn’t ever want to be with him now anyway. He’s currently in prison as he was under investigation and was caught with two bricks (2 kgs) of c*caine. He’s awaiting trial and has been on remand since February 2024. I later found out that before they caught him he was on the run for 4 months. I think I dodged a huge bullet there. I’m so embarrassed I dated him.

• soliciting multiple prostitutes (I hacked into his whatsapp and saw he was paying on average $200 for different women)
• left me at the house on my own 70% of the time, he’d go out with his friends to sell c*ke and hang out with anyone and everyone
• have sex with another woman at a party with the door open and some acquaintances saw, yet no one told me until about a year after
• act like I don’t exist in public, yelling and dissing me and making me feel embarrassed in front of other people
• stayed at hotels and had friends and females stay with him (I found out by driving to a hotel parking lot one night cause I had a gut feeling and sure enough his car was there, told me the next morning he stayed by a friends house but then admitted to it after I told him what I saw)
• going out a lot and to events without me, having house parties at his fathers house without me
• embarrassing me by flirting with other girls online and in person
• dismissed my anxiety and told me to get over it because everyone has it (I literally could not catch a breath)
• moved on from me a day after we broke up, he got with this 17 year old chick who doesn’t have a job and goes to the club a lot, she’s not even a citizen from here (no hate to her, but I guess younger girls are easier to manipulate because he cheats on her and she probably doesn’t know)
• let other females diss and embarrass me in front of him, and continued hanging out with those females
• got into a high speed chase with police for selling weed (he got a suspended sentence)
• told me he doesn’t love me any more but wanted to live with me in my apartment because he doesn’t have a job where he can transfer from a bank account (he’s a c*ke dealer)
• When we were out together he would leave me places on my own, l'd feel embarrassed when people would ask me why he'd leave me
• We took molly in a hotel room and I had overdosed and he left me in the room

We broke up in September 2022. I don’t love him anymore but I have hatred towards him after finding more things out. I wouldn’t ever want to be with him now anyway. He’s currently in prison as he was under investigation and was caught with two bricks (2 kgs) of c*caine. He’s awaiting trial and has been on remand since February 2024. I later found out that before they caught him he was on the run for 4 months. I think I dodged a huge bullet there. I’m so embarrassed I dated him.

I am neha ( 26 f ) , I am here to vent and get some suggestions or maybe even a real friend . This is a story of how I ruined my love life and destroyed the man who meant everything to me . We grew up in Coimbatore , i first met my boyfriend when I was in 11th grade , I actually saw him in a video , it was a Facebook video made by his friends , one of his friend proposed a girl , so they made a video of it , he was there in it too . He is tall , above 6ft , he looked ok , normal , a bit weird too with his specs and curl hair . He didn’t stand out , after few days I saw in a local chat place , he was with his friend , all sweaty , they came from gym . I recognised him immediately though. I saw him sneakily , idk why , after going home I sent him a request to his Insta . We started talking the same night , he said he saw me too , we connected way too fast , he was very funny and practical, we became best friends very soon , we almost spoke daily , in that following year we became so close, there wasn’t anything sexual , we just talk about our day and our lives daily , then he got into a relationship with a girl , I liked her too , life was so easy and fun back then , after we got into college , I Started to date a guy in my college , but we didn’t stop talking , nothing changed between us , after going to college we started getting drunk and smoking up , it was all new and we all did it almost everyday in first year , it was pretty fun . The guy I was with that time , didn’t really smoke up that much , he got drunk but he didn’t smoke pot that much , but the rest of us gathered everyday to smoke pot and play carrom . We both even meet at night to just smoke up and listen to music . At the end of the first year , one day he called me one evening and told me that he wanted to meet me , he sounded very low , I was with my my boyfriend and his friends that time but I left there immediately,booked an auto and Met him at a usual place near an IT park , we drink coffee and smoke cigarettes there usually.he was already there when I went in , he saw me and smiled but that looked very sad , he told me that his girlfriend kissed someone , a distant cousin of her actually , she kissed him in a moment and texted her girlfriend about it , she mentioned that she regrets it very much , I can’t stand it , I don’t know what to do , I feel nauseous, stuff like that . He showed the screenshots , he didn’t talk much he just smiled but that killed me . I was so angry on her , I didn’t even know what to do to make him feel better at that moment, I said she is not worth it , don’t worry , things like that . He didn’t talk about it after that , he changed the topic and he just sat there for 30-40 mins just smoking thinking about something. We speak almost daily and I know everything about him , he told me when they first had sex , we speak about everything, just not anything sexual to each other , when I saw him like this , I was feeling only rage , I was so angry on her , I don’t understand why she kissed some other guy , after getting into that relationship he was very loyal , I know how loyal he was , he even got a tattoo of her initials , but when he knew about this kiss , it made him so sad I guess . After 2 hours , we went home . I called her as soon as I went home , i scolded her so much , she started crying and told me that it was a mistake, she sounded very regretful too , she cried so much , I couldn’t bring myself to be mean after that .but that night i couldn’t sleep , my ex called me all night but I didn’t pick his call , I kept texting him , we used to text in Snapchat daily , I kept sending him texts and he texted me back to , he said he is going to get drunk and pass out , I also felt that’s better , after some days she even cut her hand , like scratches with knife on wrists , she was very regretful too , then somehow they didn’t break up , he wanted to after that but she didn’t let him , but gradually it got ok , but after this we started to speak and meet more frequently than before , I started to drop him in my college , both of our colleges are in same road , we started going in one vehicle daily. Mostly I drove , we speak all the time about nothing , even when we were going on my scooty , we just make fun of people in road , we laughed , had fun . One day he even pressed my breasts accidentally, side of my breast . I started neglecting my ex , that guy I dated that time , after few months , people started to notice , but still we didn’t care . (I actually come off from a well doing family , my family has enough money but my parents have a very unsuccessful marriage, they don’t even speak to each other , I have a younger sister and elder sister . My elder sister is married , my younger sister difference is 3 years . My parents doesn’t speak to each other , my mom openly says that they are together only for the kids . ) I loved being with him , he made me feel safe , comfortable and it’s always warm when I’m with him . We smoked pot all the time though , it was so fun , we even bunked college went to room and just smoked pot and watched anime all day . One day my ex boyfriend and his friends were in Ooty and they wanted me to come , I said I’ll come with him , I can’t come alone , and I asked him to come . We rolled some joints and started to go in his bike , we went a beautiful ride , stopped and smoked up in between, after we reached there I went with my ex boyfriend. We all smoked up that night got drunk , he usually doesn’t talk that much , but all of us were drunk and it was chill , some of my friends like him some don’t , but it’s all chill . We stayed in a tent stay there , that night I was with my ex , he wanted to make out , we kissed and did some stuff but I just felt restless and distracted, I kept thinking about him and my ex was a drunk too , it didn’t turn me on , after some time he passed out . I went out and went to his tent to see him if he is asleep , but he wasn’t there , then I started to look for him and I found him near the fire place , he was smoking up there alone with a phone in his hand , he was just singing this song 7 years by Lucas I think , he was singing along with a joint in his hand , he saw me coming , smiled but he didn’t stop singing, I can see him feeling even little embarrassed, but he looked so happy and free . I sat down there started to smoke up with him . After sometime I asked him why haven’t even kissed even once , I just asked him in a fun way but he got all serious all of a sudden , he saw me straight in the eyes and told me that he would love to kiss me , I literally felt butterflies in my lower tummy , my hips felt all tight too , idk , I still remember everything though . I kissed him in an instant, I kinda rushed in and kissed him, it felt magical . We kissed for a long time , we just kissed , nothing else . But I loved it , after sometime we separated, he saw me smiled and said I tasted sweet and bitter with weed taste . But my heart was beating so fast that time , I wanted to make out with him right there , I’ve felt horny before but he was the only guy made me feel like this , I tried to kiss him again but he stopped me and told me im drunk and asked me to go sleep . Next morning they asked me to go with them but my mind was fully on that kiss , I came back to cbe in his bike , we didn’t talk anything for the first time I just hugged him on the way back , it was nice too . I thought about plans to break up with my ex , after he dropped me home I kept thinking about the kiss , things got normal after a few days , we were like before but we started to flirt a bit , I started to call him baby and it gradually became very intimate . One day in a movie I kissed him again and he kissed me back too , we started making out bit by bit , it developed into a place where he started to grope me while im driving , I enjoyed every bit of that , I broke up with that guy I was with but he was still with that girl . Around final year first semester end they broke up too . We had intercourse the next day , it was amazing , I loved everything about him and the best thing is he is my best friend too . We rented a place for us by college end , we had sex every single day , it was the best , I loved staying with him . After this there was covid and we had to stay in our place , for one whole year I lived with him happily, he never let me down even once , he was already very caring from beginning but after we got committed , he really did treated me like a princess . He didn’t speak much but his actions were most considerate , we both worked remotely and having the time of our life , two years went by , I was happy and fullfilled , at the end of third year he quit his job and tried to get a different better job with extra good pay , 3 months passed by , one day few friends of mine from my work visited our place , they told me about opportunity to work in chennai for a month , I took it and went to chennai for a month , he dropped me to bus and sent me off to chennai . We spoke daily but not that much , I went out with my friends daily got drunk , just having fun . Some of my friends think my boyfriend is beneath me , one even said that I deserve better , she said he didn’t even get a job in three months joked and asked me whether I am the one who’s paying rent , actually he never asked me rent or money , he always paid for everything , but that time when they were joking I didn’t defend him , I still couldn’t believe that I didn’t say anything . In that week I met a guy , he came with my friends , he flirted with me when I was there , after I went back to PG I got a text from this guy , he got my number from my friends it seems . After some texts I responded and we started texting ,i liked the attention I think idk , I was talking to my boyfriend daily too , but somehow he noticed that I am not ok , he asked me about it and I said it was work issue and I am tired , 3^rd weekend I met that guy alone , he wanted to have a drink and I went , I slept with him that night , to be honest the sex wasn’t good , when he got inside me I felt darkness , I swear . Idk why I did it , after sex that guy slept in a second , I saw him lying down and I felt like killing myself , I left to my pg in midnight , I booked a cab and went back . I saw my snap notifications from him but I couldn’t open it , I blocked that guy’s number , I went to pg , cried myself to sleep . Next morning I spoke to my boyfriend , told him that I got cold and resting today , he told me that he got a job as a business manager for a US IT firm , he sounded so happy and told me that he called yesterday night to tell me this . I was crying so hard when he was on the phone , at that moment I swear I even fogot the face of that I slept with , he asked me to get rest and I hung up . I couldn’t talk to him , I felt so guilty and ashamed , as I was thinking this I get a notification my swiggy that he placed order to my pg , he bought soup . I broke down , it was like everything is telling me how big mistake I made , suddenly my thought went to that day he told me about his ex’s kiss , I can see that sad smile . I decided not to tell him and love him more and more , he had his birthday in 15 days I wanted to do something for him . When I came back from chennai , he picked me , he was so happy to see me , he spoke about his new job to me on the way , he was like a child , maybe cause he missed me for a month , I can see that he is so happy like silly child just to see me , after going home I had sex with him , I even rimmed him and I kinda liked it , it was the best sex we had , I felt alive and also very guilty . I treated him better and better to ease my guilt , but this made him very happy , I arranged a small party with my sister ,his friends and my mom .the day before his birthday we got drunk he asked me why I am not being adamant like before , ‘enna kadhal ha ‘ (joking sayin I am so in love) he joked about how afetr five years we can get super rich and start a family , I melted hearing all this .i promised myself that I will never let him down . but ha ha This is why I think karma is a bitch , at the noon of his birthday I got a text from that guy saying that he is thinking about that night . He heard the notification took the phone to pass it to me , he just saw the phone simply , just a glance and he just stopped and opened the text , I was blowing up balloons opposite of him , I saw his face and my heart sank , he came closer and gave me the phone , he didn’t speak anything , I opened my phone in a panic , saw the text and I saw him , he asked me ‘ so you slept with some guy ? ‘ , I didn’t reply , my whole mind got blank , I felt like I was gonna faint , he just saw me and said why . Of all these years I knew him I never saw him cry , but now his voice was shaking , he just asked me ‘ yen ‘ (why in tamil) . I saw tears on his eyes , I can see his eyes becoming lifeless in a matter of minutes , I tried to hug him but he just moved away , no matter how much we fight , when I hug him , he gets all cute and lovely , but he just moved away in an instinct . He then came forward hugged me tightly , he said ‘ sorry ‘ . I still don’t know why he said sorry , but that sounded so weak to me , he is my everything and I hurt him , I know everything about him and I still fucked up . He hugged me for some more time , I knew this warmth might be the last thing . After few mins , he rubbed his eyes in my dress , saw me smiled the same way . But it felt more like he is laughing at himself , I watched my 6 ft man walking out of the room , I just stood there alone , and I felt very cold , I remember that cold everyday , evening people came for the party and he got ready and cut the cake , fed me the first piece , my mom and sister was there too , he behaved very good , spoke with my family , but I can see that he is broke , but he still made it through the night , I went to speak with him that night , but he said he can’t . he said ‘ please I can’t ‘ . I choked hearing his voice , he went to terrace , I didn’t sleep at all that night , I walked around our little one bhk apartment , I smoked two packs of cigs that night , I went to check on him in the terrace by 4 , he was sleeping there on the floor , he hugs himself in sleep and its so cold , I cried watching him , just one day ago he was being silly like a kid talking about future family , now he is there alone , heartbroken . Morning usually he makes coffee and rolls one , I made coffee and rolled one , waited for him to come down . He came down saw me and smiled , but its not the cheerful smile , it just hurt so bad watching him like that , he drank the coffee , smoked up with me , even told me its good. Then he got ready , I cooked but he said he can’t eat , he is not hungry , that morning was so silent , he cheers up with he sees me , he was my biggest fan , now he left home with just saying bye . I got a text from him that aftrn asking me to move back to my mom’s if possible , I was dead . I couldn’t say no , I hurt him , he didn’t even scold me , he even requested me , I can only say yes . I asked him that I want to stay one more night , he said ok like always . That night I asked him to cuddle with me , he said ok , he wanted that too it seems , we just hugged in silent , he slept off quickly , he always told me that when I sleep with him it makes him stressfree and he gets a good night sleep . He was asleep on my breasts , I saw him sleeping and I couldn’t stop my tears , realising that this is the last time , I made a stupid mistake , but everything felt unimportant now , I saw him sleeping and I kissed him on his cheek , must have whispered sorry a 100 times , our four years relationship came through my mind , I realize that he made sure I was happy in every way he knew , I proposed him , I made him fall for me , now I broke his heart . I didb’t sleep that night too , morning I dozed off , when I woke up he wasn’t there, he made juice for me and left for work . I packed some of my stuff and went to my mom’s . when I stepped out of our little home , I broke down and cried . I went home and cried , I told my mom we fought , but my sister knew something was up , she tried to ask him but he said it was a small fight , I confessed to her that night , I still remember seeing her confused look , she is a gen z kid , but even she gave me a look of confusion , she didn’t understand how I could do that , she liked my boyfriend very much , she was almost proud of him . But when she knew I cheated on him , she felt disgusted I think . Our sister bind kind of broke too that night . My life was dull , I missed him every second , I missed talking to him , I missed his smell , everything . I just focused on work , two months went by with no contact . I saw him near IT park at our spot one day, he looked like he was sick , he lost weight , his eyes are dry , he looked so pale . I saw him from a distance and I couldn’t believe my eyes , my baby looked so weak and sick , he was having a coffe and smoking a cig alone at the place we used to sit . My eyes teared up watching him , he looked so lonely . None of my friends knew we broke up because I cheated , he specifically asked me not to say anything to anyone . I didn’t speak to him that day , I couldn’t . I was full with guilt . After going home I called his friends and asked how he was and they said that they lost all contact with him and he is ghosting everybody . I broke him and also made him alone , I seriously considered killing myself but I was a coward . After a month , when I was in office , my mom got a diabities issue and fainted , my sister called him in a hurry , he came immediatiely and admitted mom in hospital , when I came there I saw him with a plastic cover with insulins for my mom . After my elder siter came , he left , he asked me to call with updates . Before leaving he asked me why I cheated , he said “ is it because I am not satisfying you “ or “ you wanted a emotial support “. when he said that , I just stood there , I can see his face , hiding a humiliation , I never had a sex issue with him , I loved being with him , but my baby asked me this , I felt ashamed . I couldn’t face him , I just stood there , he said never mind and left . I stood there seeing him leave ,but I didn’t give up , I started texting and snapping so much and somehow I made him talk to me normally , but his eyes has lost its color, he looks like he is tired of everything . After few days we both got drunk and alone , I kissed him as soon as I got the chance , he kissed me back too , usually when he kisses , he hold me ears , looks me in the eyes and kiss me , he did the same out of the habit , as soon as our eyes locked , he bursted out in tears , I truly felt how much this man loved me and how much I hurt him , he wanted to do more but he stopped himself , when he burst into tears, my heart completely broke , I hate myself so much , I hate my friends for fucking up my mind , I hate that guy . My man is gettting punished for giving everything to me , its been a year , he changed , he looks lean , unhealthy , I even think his hair is falling , almost like a zombie . I would glady kill myself for him , I just want him to be happy , I destroyed the only person I love , I see how devastating this can get for him, he looks so weak , I can’r accept it . I should’ve defended him when they joked about him . Its all my fault , its been a year and I still can;t go back to him , I can’t imagine another guy to raise my kids , I want him . Help me .

It's kind of pathetic to say, but at 16 years old, I'm starting to realize I've either wasted or lost all the potential I've ever had in life. I don't think I'm capable of living a happy life where I'll ever feel satisfied. I know this sounds very much like teenage angst but since I was young, I've always felt this sense of impending doom and grief when I think about my future.
I think I was 8 years old when I contemplated ending my life for the first time. I was being both physically and sexually abused by my mother and another relative while my father was aware of everything and stayed silent about all of it. The only memories of my childhood I have are ones of the cold bathroom floor my mom used to beat and force me to sleep in. Not only that, but I was very terribly bullied and isolated at school and wasn't ever allowed to leave the house unless it was to a family member's house every so often. At school, I was miserable and hiding in bathroom stalls. At home, I was even more miserable and sleeping on the bathroom floor.
Even after the bullying and physical abuse ended, I struggled to make friends for years and only now have started talking to others on a regular basis. Before this, I tended to shove my head into books and pretend the characters were my companions. There have been times where I wouldn't speak for weeks. One, because my relationship with my family is destroyed and I refuse to stay in the same room as them. Two, because others avoided me and felt so uncomfortable by my presence that I never spoke with others.
My situation has greatly improved since then but recently I've been realizing how much my childhood and living situations have ruined my chances to be a normal human being. I feel so isolated and alone and like a disgusting vile monster wearing a human suit and trying to belong. I feel like life has no choice but to end terribly for me — girls who grow up like me typically end up dead in ditches, addicted to substances, homeless, or all of the above. I have no friends who I speak to regularly, no family members I can rely on, and I'm not intelligent or capable enough to work up for an education that would fix the state of my life. I don't know what to do with myself. I've done everything to try to change whatever's wrong with me.
I've tried to change my behaviour and stop being socially awkward but my phoniness drives people off even more. I've tried to change my appearance and developed severe anorexia in hopes that maybe my body was the reason why I couldn't connect with others. I've tried to study my ass off so others could at least respect me. But I'm too stupid and lack diligence to work hard. I don't know what to do with myself and I don't know how to fix the mess that's my life. The only solution I can think of is to fast things forward and end my life already. I just feel so lost.

Lately I've been noticing my (30sF) rapport with a coworker (30sM) has been evolving. At first, I just saw him as a shy man who knew a few people in the office so I started talking to him to get to know him more. I personally think I am kind of goofy/ non-serious so my default is to just try to make the other person laugh with dumb jokes or talk about irreverent hypothetical. It seemed like it was good because he started talking more with other coworkers, which is great, it sucks feeling left out so I was happy he was able to talk to more people. He's very funny and I personally find him quite charming and attractive but I don't feel like it's right to pursue an office relationship.
Then I kept noticing things or instances where it seemed like he might like me a bit more than just coworkers? Here they are:

1. I noticed when he talks to me, he really kind of looks deeply into my gaze. Like he held down the eye contact, but I just kind of brushed it off because it seemed he talked with everyone like that but I'm not sure since I don't have other peoples POVs.
   
2. When I was at the kitchen and talking to someone he touched the upper part of my arm to gently move walk past me, but I feel like he held it longer than I thought a normal oops gotta squeeze by you move is. Actually I don't even know if coworkers typically touch people on their upper arms to move people.
   
3. In the beginning I talked to him about random stuff in the mornings and he heard I was the same fan as his football team and he got really excited. Then a few days later, he was talking to another person and I was just walking by to get some water when he noticed me nearby and mentioned that he and I had the same football team, bringing me into the conversation. Could just be friendly?
   
4. We went to lunch and one other coworker offered to drive along with me. He decides to get in my car and sat in the passenger seat. When we got the food and needed to go back to the office to eat (because the place didn't have a designated place to sit and eat) I had to give him my food to hold because I couldn't drive and hold a sandwich and both times during the food exchanges giving it to him and getting it back from him, I noticed he grazed my fingers with his fingers. Maybe I'm just bad a grabbing food.
   
5. He notices when I am gone from the office and the next time I'm back he says he's happy I'm back. Seems like a friendly response?
   
6. I said I never had some certain foods before and the one day he said he had a surprise for me and he apparently bought it for me to try it. But I don't know if that is specifically for me because he allowed other people to try it too.
   
7. I have another male coworker who loves to play devil's advocate over trivial things and so I like to just pretend to be his debate partner or anything just to rile him up because I think it's funny. And the initial male coworker made a comment saying he thinks this guy is in love with me. Not sure if he was being a little jealous there or if I'm thinking he's jealous because I'm not sure if he likes me?
   
8. Calls me over when I am walking to my cube to have a chat.
   
9. Anytime I'm in a group conversation he comes over right next to me.
   
10. He eventually tells me about personal things of his life that I'm pretty sure no one else knows about because it wouldn't come up in regular conversation in an office setting.
    
11. He bought me a drink when we were out with coworkers. I jokingly made a bet with him on something dumb and when I was right he bought us both drinks for me winning.
    
12. End of one night he gave one woman side hug but gave me a full hug.
    
13. He's always looking at me when something funny is happening or if he makes a joke. Or maybe I'm just over thinking it?
    

Honestly typing this all out has got me more confused because I feel like this can totally be friendly and I'm just overthinking it. He's fun to talk to but I am afraid asking him straight up because I feel like then it just becomes super awkward. Firstly, am I just imagining this all because if I am not then is asking him outright the only way to figure this out? Is there a more subtle way without potential making the office environment potentially awkward? Thanks!
tl;dr I am having trouble discerning if a male coworker has crush on me but most importantly how do I even navigate bringing it up without making it awkward? Is it possible to just stay good friends?

Hello Everyone. This is 100% a true story.
I thought this would be a good story to share here as it deals with getting petty revenge on someone who was being transphobic and a horrible person. This is a long story but the ending is worth it.
This story takes place back in 2020 and was just reminded of it by one of my best Friends lets call her "Hannah". Hannah and I had a mutual friend, lets call him Zack. I at the time was just starting to come out as trans. This plays a part later.
Zack and I were friends after I meet him throw an EX, the EX was a good man but I am the type of person that does not do well being friends with EXs but was trying because this EX was a good person. This in the end also I keep talking to Zack and at time thought he was a good guy.
Anyway it was late in fall when Zack brought up moving into together due to I was having a hard time with my family and only had a dorm to live in. During this time he also brought up that he had a friend, Hannah, that was also looking for a place to live as her home life was not great either. I said I would have to her first before I said yes to anything. Hannah was on the same page as me and wanted to meet me first too.
So one day Invited them both over to the dorm I was living in, as if anything went wrong the College I was at had great police (had meet many of them during the time I was at college) this made me feel safer meeting new people. Hannah and Zack came over and me and Hannah hit it off well to the point you would have thought we had been friends for years. There were many times her and I would hang out without Zack, which he never liked. Red flag right there. Due to this I started to see the cracks in Zack's shell.
He was very passive of Hannah to almost boyfriend level. Which got worries after I came out as Transgender. Red flag number 2. He would also try to one up me and say things underhanded about me being trans. Now I am a huge werewolf geek and the underhanded things would be like "I will never be an alpha" or shit like that. Now I never called myself an alpha or anything like that. He also said that I would never have a man's mindsight. I never told Hannah any of this because I wanted to stay her friend and do to my trust problems thought she would take his side so that is all my fault.
One night I was talking to Hannah not sharing everything but told her Zack was pissing me off. She had known him longer then I did. She said that it could be do to his religious background and that could be why he was being a ass. That is when she opened up to me about something.
Turned out they where Friends with benefits. Zack was always wanting to make things more then that but Hannah had been hurt bad by an EX, like almost killed. So she did not trust getting back into any relationship. But felt she was safe with him and thought of slowly building up to a relationship. However she also spilled all the tea on him in bed, and I mean all the TEA!
So lets jump forward a few months to Hannah's Birthday. Zack wanted to host it the first night and then she would spend the next night with me. Hannah was going a hard time with family during this time so we planned a Birthday weekend for her. Turns out Zack invited her over for night before so she would be over one night without me so they could be the Birthday *GIGGITYY*. Well as many people know there is something that happens to most women once a month. Yes, Hannah was on her period. To her defense she did not know what Zack was planning for the night she thought he was just being nice because she got into a fight with her family.
So the next day comes around and they pick me up as I did not have a car. Everything seemed off as Hannah's mood was not normal. I wanted to ask what was up but also thought it was because of the fight with her family so I just wanted to make her happy. The day goes on and we are playing her fav video game. She went to bed early which I thought was odd as the two of us are night owls. I asked Zack what was going on. He said nothing but I could tell he was lying but dropped it.
The next day we get to mail in our city as planned and well Zack was doing something and it was just Hannah and I alone. That is when she told me what was going on between them. Apparently Zack was mad because Hannah did not SLEEP with her the night before I showed up. I was pissed, but then she keep going and he keep pushing and begging for it. to the point that when she said she was on her period he just said "THEY COULD PUT A TOWEL DOWN".
That was it for me I was done playing nice to Zack and started to think of ways to tell him how much of a pig he was. I am the type of person where three stracks your out. Hannah and I are huge nerds and you could say she is some where between punk and goth. So we told Zack we where going to Spencer's. Zack said he was going to go to another store as he hated this store. You see in the frount of Spencer's is a nerd, punk and goth best dream, as for the back of the store is full of sex toys and other adult themed things. Knowing this I told Hannah to pick out something she wanted for her birthday anything, and I would get it for her.
Well Hannah was looking at new pricings and wallets I headed to the back of the store to get some goodies for Zack. I payed for the stuff all without Hannah knowing. Best part the store has black bags that you can't see throw due to the things they sell. After I walked up to Hannah and I bought the things she wanted all to her protest. So she told me she would by lunch witch I agreed too because as friends we hate to feel like we are using each other even on holidays.
We left the store and went to the food court and ordered food. Once we sat down Hannah texted Zack where we were. That is when she looked at the large bag I had gotten and she asked me what I had gotten. I handed the bag and told her it was for Zack. The grin on her face was the best thing that I have seen. You see Hannah is also a very petty person and she very much approved of what I had gotten for Zack.
Zack showed up some time later and we planned to go back to his house so she could her car and her stuff to come to my place for the night. That is when the "gift" was given to Zack. I was putting Hannah's stuff in her car for her and wish I could have seen his face when he first opened bag.
You see when I am hurt I get petty but if you upset someone close to me I get PETTY. In the bag he found a large bag of candy and a few lollypop DICKS. But it gets better, I also got him a female blow up doll. There was also two cards. the first said "Congrats on your new girlfriend" which I signed alone and the other said "suck a mountain of dicks" which we both signed.
The next thing I know Hannah is walking out with the biggest grin on her face. With him storming after her when he saw me he said I was just mad that I would never be a "true man". Hannah turned on her heels but before she could do anything I yelled back "he would never be bigger then my pinky finger". He looked so mad and red. Hannah got in her car, we drove off and never looked back.
This may have been to far but I regret nothing.
Hannah says it was the best birthday gift anyone has ever gotten her due to his face he made when he saw all his new goodies. Hannah and I are still great friends to this day and know we have each others backs on anything.

Hey guys, I'm a 24-year-old guy who recently graduated from college. I've been working as an academic editor for about a year and a half for a university remotely, and I found I'm very passionate about writing and editing.
However, I'm also a high functioning autistic who prefers to spend most of the time alone. I don't have children or significant other, but I don't even know if I'm really interested in having one given the freedom I have as a single guy. I also don't drive, but I've made my life situation work by relying on ride-sharing apps and public transportation. I save a lot of money because I don't have a car payment.
I do have friends who I play Dungeons & dragons with online once or twice a week, but I tend to stick to myself most of the other time because I found I don't really like people. I have faced a lot of rejection in my life in every social environment I go to, from high school to college, so I've gotten to the point where I would just prefer to live life alone.
Is there anything wrong with this mindset? Am I a loser because I tend to deviate from societal norms? I still play video games, Dungeons & Dragons, have no wife and kids, don't drive, but I'm hard-working, passionate about making a difference in society with my work, pay taxes, and I'm fully supporting myself.

Before I make anyone upset, that’s not my intention and I’m just speaking on what I seen.
I’m a step parent but I’m 100% not taking Mother’s Day away from BM and I don’t mean wanting SK at the house on that day, I mean expecting a gift, expecting kids to to not want to be with BM, etc. I don’t expect a Happy Mother’s Day, because I am not her mother. I don’t expect my partner to have this magical day for me because I help with his kid, I’m just a bonus adult in her life. To me it’s like people who have pets expecting a Mother’s Day gift or celebration when they don’t have kids yet. I get it if you’re one of those people ( I love my animals and consider them my babies but not enough to want to be celebrated for keeping my pets alive). I’m not hurt or even feel a pinch of sadness that my SK or partner didn’t get me something for Mother’s Day. ( well I did get something for Mother’s Day but not for SK, we have a kid of our own).
Not saying that you shouldn’t be acknowledged but it’s okay to sit some things out.
I know everyone’s situations are different though, like my dad isn’t my biological dad but he’s been in my life since I was born and he’s always gotten gifts and has been celebrated for Father’s Day but my other step dad who’s only been around the past 5 years isn’t going to get anything because, it’s just different.
Maybe there should be a step parent day but I really was so confused on how many people were hurting their own feelings on Mother’s Day by expecting a kid they’ve barely known to want to spend it with them.

So, I cheated on my boyfriend, yes that was my mistake, feel free to judge me personally, but this post is not about that.
TLDR; I ruined the life of a guy I was cheating with and he wanted to ruin mine
Mid of January, I (23M) met this guy (let’s call him D, 35M) on Grindr. I told him straight away that I have a boyfriend (let’s call him F, 45M), so we thought it was just going to be a one-off thing. My boyfriend was visiting his family for a month at that time, a good 12 hours flight from where we are. I lied to him that my boyfriend is okay with me meeting someone else behind his back as long as it didn’t become anything serious. Actually, my boyfriend told me that I’m free to meet anyone else so long he didn’t know, but I’m sure he didn’t mean that as he told me this in a fight.
A was everything my boyfriend wasn’t. F and I were on a rough patch, and communication always became a dead end. He was intimate, and communicative. He desired me and didn’t make me feel lonely in the relationship. Moreover, D wanted to do some sexual things that F didn’t want to do with me. The closer we were, the more intimate we became. Drunk with rose-tinted glasses, I started saying pillow talks that we’ll get married and started naming our children. D paid for almost everything as I was between jobs.
A bit of backstory. D was not originally from this country (Ireland), neither do I nor F. D was here on a study visa, and his visa is about to expire. He met someone almost 2 years ago that broke his heart, and he was in a terrible mental state since, taking medications for anxiety and depression. Last year around December, he took a healing trip around Europe and met this other guy (let’s call him G, 50+M). They met in a beautiful country in the Mediterranean (although G is from another country), so D wanted to move to that country so he could be closer to G.
Anyway, because he was with me and he thought we'd be together, he refused this job (he didn’t get the offer but got an interview for it), and applied to a university (in a course he didn’t want) just so he can renew his visa. He also urged me to break up with F, but I wasn’t sure. F eventually returned, and I said I wanted to be separated from him for a while (in my mind, I didn’t know if D would be able to stay here), and left his place the next morning to D’s place. That day, I ended things with D, because my heart feels very burdened, and I felt like I made the wrong choice. I went back to F’s place.
D then continued to bomb my phone with messages, saying he couldn’t believe this was happening. Eventually, he begged me to meet him one last time for a breakfast to talk things through, and I agreed. I met him in a quite fancy restaurant (for me at least), with flowers, a card, etc. In the end, I melted and when he asked me if we can try this one more time, and he’s willing to be “the guy I’m cheating with”, I foolishly agreed. This was mid February.
From then, he has been trying his best to win my heart, taking me on dates, etc. My mind told me that I should just go with D because 1) he’s come out, and F hasn’t, 2) he loves PDA, while F can’t, and 3) D wants to marry me, while F is already married to a woman. F has been separated from his wife for a few years now, can’t divorce her for many reasons, one of which is because he had children with her. He lives full time with me, even though when his family visited he had to hide me and our things which hurt me in the past.
Anyway, even with all that, I just can’t shake off this wrong feeling. So by the end of March, after D being all jealous the whole month, I broke it off with him. The reason I just realized now: all those feelings that I love with D, I want it from F. And ever since he returned mid February, he’s been nothing but that, so I felt content.
Since we live in the same town, I met D every once in a while accidentally, like in a bus or in a hospital. I have told all these stories to my good friend (let’s call him K, 24M) from work, who had met D but not yet F at that point. I also didn’t come clean to F.
One day, about 3 weeks ago, K told me that he wanted me to go with him and his date to a gay club (he wasn’t feeling safe, and this is after their private lunch). I said yes, because I had nothing to do that day. He then told me that D is coming as well (I forgot if K invited him first or D invited himself before me when he asked K for a gay club recommendation). I had a bad feeling, but eventually said fuck it, what’s gonna happen?
D and I met there. It was awkward, but as the drinks started to take effect, and I started to become tipsy, he asked me if we wanted to “have fun for tonight and forget the next morning”. I agreed. We did have fun dancing (no sex) that night, and he came back to my place, not with the intention to have sex at all (at least from me). Me, still tipsy, was asked by him what happened between us, and one thing led to another… Still no sex, but he came to the conclusion that I manipulated him (love bombing). He asked me if this is true. With the evidence in front of me, I said yes, even though in hindsight, that was never my intention.
From the beginning, I wished that the relationship between me and him was just a hookup, or FWB at best. When romantic feelings started to develop, I genuinely thought that I wanted to be with D. Never once did I think I wanted to play with his feelings or life. But the actions that I did, that he described, is manipulation. So that’s why I said yes.
He got really angry, and threatened me with many things. I was having a panic attack, but he ended that night saying that he forgave me and that he won’t do anything that will harm me. Later on, he texted me that he thinks I have a mental illness (which I also think I have, but I’m still waiting for the diagnosis (my next appointment with a psychiatrist)).
I had forgotten about him, until last week when F left the apartment to buy some groceries in a suspicious manner. I was working from home that day, so I was too busy to worry. I did ask him after about half an hour, and he said he’s gonna come back soon, but I again became preoccupied with work and I didn’t realize he'd been gone for 1.5 hours. I then started to worry that maybe F met with D (something that D has threatened me with as he knows where we live and where F works), so I texted K. He told me to go check, because maybe it was not related and F is in an unrelated danger. But before I left the apartment, D said he’s going to return my stuff.
By then, I knew they met, and lo and behold when I was about to go downstairs I saw them coming upstairs together.
After letting D in, he unpacked his bag and showed F stuff related to us, pictures, gifts. He then unloaded his anger, saying that I ruined his life by manipulating him, that I’m selfish, and that I didn’t regret what had happened so I’m mentally ill. F at this point was trying to calm D down, fearing our safety (bless him). Then, after D left, F and I had the talk.
Basically, F knew from about a week before that. He just focused on trying to calm D, and asked D to not let me know that he’d known because “he didn’t want to see me ashamed in front of him (F)”. D, who’s really set on ruining my life back, didn’t care. But, it was fine for a couple of days, I apologized and put in effort to fix the relationship.
Until D suddenly rang me that he’s outside and he wanted to talk. That day, I just started working, and K was coming over to work together from home for a couple of days. He came in, and told me to pay back what I owe him (around 5kUSD) because he applied to the college because of me. I said yes, and he was about to leave. I went to K (who was in another room closer to the front door avoiding all these because I told him to), and without realizing I said “what the fuck” to him. I also thought it was not loud, but maybe because the situation made the apartment quiet, me and K think D heard. Either that, or he was just really angry, he already left the front door but he barged in again before F could close the door and punched me in the face.
He punched me again a few times on my arms, chest and side belly, until F tried to stop him. I didn’t punch him back, but I did almost kick him because he didn’t let me go. He pushed me back, and F almost fell and hit his head if not for K saving him. F then told me to move away for a bit. I called the police at this point, in case he went berserk. F was recording everything from the get go (voice, legal). Honestly, up until this point, I’m still on the fence about going through with this and going to the police. I also sent about 1kUSD to D while F was trying to calm him down.
The three of us then talk again. D told me that he was looking for me around the city today, and that I was lucky he didn’t see me because he “didn’t know what he’d be doing to me if he saw me, either to punch me and humiliate me in front of many people, or to throw me under the bus”. Now, I was (am) genuinely scared. He also told us that he has been having more severe mental issues, couldn’t eat or sleep, shaking, almost fainted at work. He had to take a higher dose of his medications for anxiety and depression. He left, I was having a quick chat with F that I called the police and he told me not to press charges in case this makes D goes ballistic, and queue the police come (just about 15 seconds after D left the apartment). I believe the police saw his back.
Eventually I didn’t press charges, the police took note of what was happening and a quick background story, and they told me to block him. I’ve blocked him and told my friends to not block him but hide their social media posts from him.
F is in a bad situation now. In the morning after and every morning after that, he was his normal self, caring and all, but after he comes home from work he’s been quiet and stressed. I believe this is partially him trying to process everything and him worrying that D will make another issue, specifically with him at work, and that he’ll be found out that he’s gay. F asked me to run away to a different city just to avoid D if anything were to happen again, but when I asked if he still wanted to try and make this work he said yes.
Honestly, I don’t know what to do.