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Alternative un-jumbling game to try out
2024.04.08 19:25 lasertown Alternative un-jumbling game to try out
Hi Spelling-bee'ers, wanted to share my love for unjumbling and anagramming words here. I got really into scrabble and spelling bee last year, and decided to create a single player bananagram-type game. Try it out and let me know what you think!
https://skillexplosion.com/games/letteracy/
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https://skillexplosion.com/games/letteracy/
2023.12.08 03:40 Whitedoe25 I don’t know what healthy anger looks like. I’m very sensitive to people being angry at me.
I’ve been thinking a lot about my ex and his anger. He was never physically violent nor yelled at me. He had a lot of resentment towards me that came out in a lot of criticism, sometimes snapping at me. I grew up with a mother who flies off the handle when she’s really upset, so anger isn’t the greatest emotion for me to be exposed to from someone. My ex was adamant that his anger meant he cared.
After breaking up for a bit, I texted him angrily confronting him with his hurtful behavior. He saw that as me still having feelings. He was right, but I always thought it wasn’t the best way to start off the relationship again. Anyway, we did, and these are instances of his anger that I feel weren’t fair, but I’d like to hear what others think:
• One time we had a pretty rough discussion. We both felt uncomfortable. He ended up shutting down completely and stopped talking as we were walking together. I asked him to talk to me when he feels like he can explain what’s going on. He texted me the next day explaining how he felt and asked for us to talk on the phone. I was upset and it took me a while to respond. When I did, his phone was off, which made me more upset. Once he reappeared I was on the way to meeting a friend. I told him I had 20 minutes to talk. He didn’t want to. Next time we saw each other he said he was furious at me for not wanting to talk to him and saying I only have 20 minutes. Keep in mind after seeing my friend and calming down I did call him and we had a nice talk. I asked him when we met about his phone being off and said he was at work and didn’t want to deal with what was going on between us.
• Another time during conflict we agreed to meet the next day to start resolving things. I texted him saying I’m uncomfortable and upset and wouldn’t like to meet. He decided that he didn’t want to talk to me for a few days until we met up. I asked him to talk on the phone or keep in touch via text till we meet but he said he’s angry and doesn’t want to pretend things are okay anymore. When we broke up he confirmed that he did this to punish me.
• After we broke up I sent him a letter expressing my emotions, which I had tried doing face to face but he had stood up and left mid conversation because he was getting angry. Not the first time he had done that. He asked me to meet. I told him I think it’s not a good idea. He got angry. He did this the first time we broke up too. We had known each other for two months and he was really angry I wouldn’t meet up with him to break up. His anger feels controlling to me. He was adamant in that he learned long ago that he should never apologize for his feelings. This came after I had expressed how his anger hurt me. He also implied it’s a double standard that I was upset at him for being angry at me when I had texted him in anger.
So, help me unjumble this. Am I too sensitive to anger or was he just bad at understanding boundaries? He was generally upset at me for being busy and not being there for him when he needed me. His anger brewed under the surface till he couldn’t take it anymore.
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After breaking up for a bit, I texted him angrily confronting him with his hurtful behavior. He saw that as me still having feelings. He was right, but I always thought it wasn’t the best way to start off the relationship again. Anyway, we did, and these are instances of his anger that I feel weren’t fair, but I’d like to hear what others think:
• One time we had a pretty rough discussion. We both felt uncomfortable. He ended up shutting down completely and stopped talking as we were walking together. I asked him to talk to me when he feels like he can explain what’s going on. He texted me the next day explaining how he felt and asked for us to talk on the phone. I was upset and it took me a while to respond. When I did, his phone was off, which made me more upset. Once he reappeared I was on the way to meeting a friend. I told him I had 20 minutes to talk. He didn’t want to. Next time we saw each other he said he was furious at me for not wanting to talk to him and saying I only have 20 minutes. Keep in mind after seeing my friend and calming down I did call him and we had a nice talk. I asked him when we met about his phone being off and said he was at work and didn’t want to deal with what was going on between us.
• Another time during conflict we agreed to meet the next day to start resolving things. I texted him saying I’m uncomfortable and upset and wouldn’t like to meet. He decided that he didn’t want to talk to me for a few days until we met up. I asked him to talk on the phone or keep in touch via text till we meet but he said he’s angry and doesn’t want to pretend things are okay anymore. When we broke up he confirmed that he did this to punish me.
• After we broke up I sent him a letter expressing my emotions, which I had tried doing face to face but he had stood up and left mid conversation because he was getting angry. Not the first time he had done that. He asked me to meet. I told him I think it’s not a good idea. He got angry. He did this the first time we broke up too. We had known each other for two months and he was really angry I wouldn’t meet up with him to break up. His anger feels controlling to me. He was adamant in that he learned long ago that he should never apologize for his feelings. This came after I had expressed how his anger hurt me. He also implied it’s a double standard that I was upset at him for being angry at me when I had texted him in anger.
So, help me unjumble this. Am I too sensitive to anger or was he just bad at understanding boundaries? He was generally upset at me for being busy and not being there for him when he needed me. His anger brewed under the surface till he couldn’t take it anymore.
2023.12.08 03:39 Whitedoe25 I don’t know what healthy anger looks like. I’m very sensitive to people being angry at me.
I’ve been thinking a lot about my ex and his anger. He was never physically violent nor yelled at me. He had a lot of resentment towards me that came out in a lot of criticism, sometimes snapping at me. I grew up with a mother who flies off the handle when she’s really upset, so anger isn’t the greatest emotion for me to be exposed to from someone. My ex was adamant that his anger meant he cared.
After breaking up for a bit, I texted him angrily confronting him with his hurtful behavior. He saw that as me still having feelings. He was right, but I always thought it wasn’t the best way to start off the relationship again. Anyway, we did, and these are instances of his anger that I feel weren’t fair, but I’d like to hear what others think:
• One time we had a pretty rough discussion. We both felt uncomfortable. He ended up shutting down completely and stopped talking as we were walking together. I asked him to talk to me when he feels like he can explain what’s going on. He texted me the next day explaining how he felt and asked for us to talk on the phone. I was upset and it took me a while to respond. When I did, his phone was off, which made me more upset. Once he reappeared I was on the way to meeting a friend. I told him I had 20 minutes to talk. He didn’t want to. Next time we saw each other he said he was furious at me for not wanting to talk to him and saying I only have 20 minutes. Keep in mind after seeing my friend and calming down I did call him and we had a nice talk. I asked him when we met about his phone being off and said he was at work and didn’t want to deal with what was going on between us.
• Another time during conflict we agreed to meet the next day to start resolving things. I texted him saying I’m uncomfortable and upset and wouldn’t like to meet. He decided that he didn’t want to talk to me for a few days until we met up. I asked him to talk on the phone or keep in touch via text till we meet but he said he’s angry and doesn’t want to pretend things are okay anymore. When we broke up he confirmed that he did this to punish me.
• After we broke up I sent him a letter expressing my emotions, which I had tried doing face to face but he had stood up and left mid conversation because he was getting angry. Not the first time he had done that. He asked me to meet. I told him I think it’s not a good idea. He got angry. He did this the first time we broke up too. We had known each other for two months and he was really angry I wouldn’t meet up with him to break up. His anger feels controlling to me. He was adamant in that he learned long ago that he should never apologize for his feelings. This came after I had expressed how his anger hurt me. He also implied it’s a double standard that I was upset at him for being angry at me when I had texted him in anger.
So, help me unjumble this. Am I too sensitive to anger or was he just bad at understanding boundaries? He was generally upset at me for being busy and not being there for him when he needed me. His anger brewed under the surface till he couldn’t take it anymore.
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After breaking up for a bit, I texted him angrily confronting him with his hurtful behavior. He saw that as me still having feelings. He was right, but I always thought it wasn’t the best way to start off the relationship again. Anyway, we did, and these are instances of his anger that I feel weren’t fair, but I’d like to hear what others think:
• One time we had a pretty rough discussion. We both felt uncomfortable. He ended up shutting down completely and stopped talking as we were walking together. I asked him to talk to me when he feels like he can explain what’s going on. He texted me the next day explaining how he felt and asked for us to talk on the phone. I was upset and it took me a while to respond. When I did, his phone was off, which made me more upset. Once he reappeared I was on the way to meeting a friend. I told him I had 20 minutes to talk. He didn’t want to. Next time we saw each other he said he was furious at me for not wanting to talk to him and saying I only have 20 minutes. Keep in mind after seeing my friend and calming down I did call him and we had a nice talk. I asked him when we met about his phone being off and said he was at work and didn’t want to deal with what was going on between us.
• Another time during conflict we agreed to meet the next day to start resolving things. I texted him saying I’m uncomfortable and upset and wouldn’t like to meet. He decided that he didn’t want to talk to me for a few days until we met up. I asked him to talk on the phone or keep in touch via text till we meet but he said he’s angry and doesn’t want to pretend things are okay anymore. When we broke up he confirmed that he did this to punish me.
• After we broke up I sent him a letter expressing my emotions, which I had tried doing face to face but he had stood up and left mid conversation because he was getting angry. Not the first time he had done that. He asked me to meet. I told him I think it’s not a good idea. He got angry. He did this the first time we broke up too. We had known each other for two months and he was really angry I wouldn’t meet up with him to break up. His anger feels controlling to me. He was adamant in that he learned long ago that he should never apologize for his feelings. This came after I had expressed how his anger hurt me. He also implied it’s a double standard that I was upset at him for being angry at me when I had texted him in anger.
So, help me unjumble this. Am I too sensitive to anger or was he just bad at understanding boundaries? He was generally upset at me for being busy and not being there for him when he needed me. His anger brewed under the surface till he couldn’t take it anymore.
2023.12.08 02:52 Whitedoe25 I don’t know what healthy anger looks like. I’m very sensitive to people being angry at me.
I’ve been thinking a lot about my ex and his anger. He was never physically violent nor yelled at me. He had a lot of resentment towards me that came out in a lot of criticism, sometimes snapping at me. I grew up with a mother who flies off the handle when she’s really upset, so anger isn’t the greatest emotion for me to be exposed to from someone. My ex was adamant that his anger meant he cared.
After breaking up for a bit, I texted him angrily confronting him with his hurtful behavior. He saw that as me still having feelings. He was right, but I always thought it wasn’t the best way to start off the relationship again. Anyway, we did, and these are instances of his anger that I feel weren’t fair, but I’d like to hear what others think:
• One time we had a pretty rough discussion. We both felt uncomfortable. He ended up shutting down completely and stopped talking as we were walking together. I asked him to talk to me when he feels like he can explain what’s going on. He texted me the next day explaining how he felt and asked for us to talk on the phone. I was upset and it took me a while to respond. When I did, his phone was off, which made me more upset. Once he reappeared I was on the way to meeting a friend. I told him I had 20 minutes to talk. He didn’t want to. Next time we saw each other he said he was furious at me for not wanting to talk to him and saying I only have 20 minutes. Keep in mind after seeing my friend and calming down I did call him and we had a nice talk. I asked him when we met about his phone being off and said he was at work and didn’t want to deal with what was going on between us.
• Another time during conflict we agreed to meet the next day to start resolving things. I texted him saying I’m uncomfortable and upset and wouldn’t like to meet. He decided that he didn’t want to talk to me for a few days until we met up. I asked him to talk on the phone or keep in touch via text till we meet but he said he’s angry and doesn’t want to pretend things are okay anymore. When we broke up he confirmed that he did this to punish me.
• After we broke up I sent him a letter expressing my emotions, which I had tried doing face to face but he had stood up and left mid conversation because he was getting angry. Not the first time he had done that. He asked me to meet. I told him I think it’s not a good idea. He got angry. He did this the first time we broke up too. We had known each other for two months and he was really angry I wouldn’t meet up with him to break up. His anger feels controlling to me. He was adamant in that he learned long ago that he should never apologize for his feelings. This came after I had expressed how his anger hurt me. He also implied it’s a double standard that I was upset at him for being angry at me when I had texted him in anger.
So, help me unjumble this. Am I too sensitive to anger or was he just bad at understanding boundaries? He was generally upset at me for being busy and not being there for him when he needed me. His anger brewed under the surface till he couldn’t take it anymore.
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After breaking up for a bit, I texted him angrily confronting him with his hurtful behavior. He saw that as me still having feelings. He was right, but I always thought it wasn’t the best way to start off the relationship again. Anyway, we did, and these are instances of his anger that I feel weren’t fair, but I’d like to hear what others think:
• One time we had a pretty rough discussion. We both felt uncomfortable. He ended up shutting down completely and stopped talking as we were walking together. I asked him to talk to me when he feels like he can explain what’s going on. He texted me the next day explaining how he felt and asked for us to talk on the phone. I was upset and it took me a while to respond. When I did, his phone was off, which made me more upset. Once he reappeared I was on the way to meeting a friend. I told him I had 20 minutes to talk. He didn’t want to. Next time we saw each other he said he was furious at me for not wanting to talk to him and saying I only have 20 minutes. Keep in mind after seeing my friend and calming down I did call him and we had a nice talk. I asked him when we met about his phone being off and said he was at work and didn’t want to deal with what was going on between us.
• Another time during conflict we agreed to meet the next day to start resolving things. I texted him saying I’m uncomfortable and upset and wouldn’t like to meet. He decided that he didn’t want to talk to me for a few days until we met up. I asked him to talk on the phone or keep in touch via text till we meet but he said he’s angry and doesn’t want to pretend things are okay anymore. When we broke up he confirmed that he did this to punish me.
• After we broke up I sent him a letter expressing my emotions, which I had tried doing face to face but he had stood up and left mid conversation because he was getting angry. Not the first time he had done that. He asked me to meet. I told him I think it’s not a good idea. He got angry. He did this the first time we broke up too. We had known each other for two months and he was really angry I wouldn’t meet up with him to break up. His anger feels controlling to me. He was adamant in that he learned long ago that he should never apologize for his feelings. This came after I had expressed how his anger hurt me. He also implied it’s a double standard that I was upset at him for being angry at me when I had texted him in anger.
So, help me unjumble this. Am I too sensitive to anger or was he just bad at understanding boundaries? He was generally upset at me for being busy and not being there for him when he needed me. His anger brewed under the surface till he couldn’t take it anymore.
2023.11.29 18:01 Puzzleheaded_Tree290 Can someone help me to understand terminal lucidity?
This is going off information that might be a little outdated by now. But what I'm reading, mainly, is that terminal lucidity occurs with things like Alzheimer's because the brain causes a burst of energy before death where it basically tries to access any bits of information left over and that's how some patients regain their memory. It's theorised currently that Alzheimer's doesn't actually destroy memories or their neurons but instead, jumbled up the pathways to access them and before death, your brain gradually shuts down and only the most vital parts are kept active and the pathways sometimes become... unjumbled? Or in other words, the braking system on your brain goes after it gets to a critical stage and everything comes rushing back at once.
It's confusing. On the other hand, people working in hospice have said they don't know what causes it. I thought that diseases like Alzheimer's can destroy memory, can they not? Making it literally impossible to recover them by conventional mean? I just hate to constantly hear people being compared to machines. I had a bad experience recently where someone tried to compare me to a "biological robot and a product of natural selection, that can't accept that it's just a machine."
I felt so dehumanised. I'm not a fucking machine, I'm a human being. But anyways, I really don't know how to explain terminal lucidity and which explanation is correct. They do say that there probably is a physical explanation that we just haven't discovered yet. Are there any particularly remarkable cases of it occuring? I know Anna Katherina for example, never spoke until about an hour before her death. It's intriguing but I genuinely hope it's not all brain based, I want to be more than my brain.
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It's confusing. On the other hand, people working in hospice have said they don't know what causes it. I thought that diseases like Alzheimer's can destroy memory, can they not? Making it literally impossible to recover them by conventional mean? I just hate to constantly hear people being compared to machines. I had a bad experience recently where someone tried to compare me to a "biological robot and a product of natural selection, that can't accept that it's just a machine."
I felt so dehumanised. I'm not a fucking machine, I'm a human being. But anyways, I really don't know how to explain terminal lucidity and which explanation is correct. They do say that there probably is a physical explanation that we just haven't discovered yet. Are there any particularly remarkable cases of it occuring? I know Anna Katherina for example, never spoke until about an hour before her death. It's intriguing but I genuinely hope it's not all brain based, I want to be more than my brain.
2023.11.29 06:33 Whitedoe25 I don’t know what healthy anger looks like. I’m very sensitive to people being angry at me.
I’ve been thinking a lot about my ex and his anger. He was never physically violent nor yelled at me. He had a lot of resentment towards me that came out in a lot of criticism, sometimes snapping at me. I grew up with a mother who flies off the handle when she’s really upset, so anger isn’t the greatest emotion for me to be exposed to from someone. My ex was adamant that his anger meant he cared.
After breaking up for a bit, I texted him angrily confronting him with his hurtful behavior. He saw that as me still having feelings. He was right, but I always thought it wasn’t the best way to start off the relationship again. Anyway, we did, and these are instances of his anger that I feel weren’t fair, but I’d like to hear what others think:
• One time we had a pretty rough discussion. We both felt uncomfortable. He ended up shutting down completely and stopped talking as we were walking together. I asked him to talk to me when he feels like he can explain what’s going on. He texted me the next day explaining how he felt and asked for us to talk on the phone. I was upset and it took me a while to respond. When I did, his phone was off, which made me more upset. Once he reappeared I was on the way to meeting a friend. I told him I had 20 minutes to talk. He didn’t want to. Next time we saw each other he said he was furious at me for not wanting to talk to him and saying I only have 20 minutes. Keep in mind after seeing my friend and calming down I did call him and we had a nice talk. I asked him when we met about his phone being off and said he was at work and didn’t want to deal with what was going on between us.
• Another time during conflict we agreed to meet the next day to start resolving things. I texted him saying I’m uncomfortable and upset and wouldn’t like to meet. He decided that he didn’t want to talk to me for a few days until we met up. I asked him to talk on the phone or keep in touch via text till we meet but he said he’s angry and doesn’t want to pretend things are okay anymore. When we broke up he confirmed that he did this to punish me.
• After we broke up I sent him a letter expressing my emotions, which I had tried doing face to face but he had stood up and left mid conversation because he was getting angry. Not the first time he had done that. He asked me to meet. I told him I think it’s not a good idea. He got angry. He did this the first time we broke up too. We had known each other for two months and he was really angry I wouldn’t meet up with him to break up. His anger feels controlling to me. He was adamant in that he learned long ago that he should never apologize for his feelings. This came after I had expressed how his anger hurt me. He also implied it’s a double standard that I was upset at him for being angry at me when I had texted him in anger.
So, help me unjumble this. Am I too sensitive to anger or was he just bad at understanding boundaries? He was generally upset at me for being busy and not being there for him when he needed me. His anger brewed under the surface till he couldn’t take it anymore.
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After breaking up for a bit, I texted him angrily confronting him with his hurtful behavior. He saw that as me still having feelings. He was right, but I always thought it wasn’t the best way to start off the relationship again. Anyway, we did, and these are instances of his anger that I feel weren’t fair, but I’d like to hear what others think:
• One time we had a pretty rough discussion. We both felt uncomfortable. He ended up shutting down completely and stopped talking as we were walking together. I asked him to talk to me when he feels like he can explain what’s going on. He texted me the next day explaining how he felt and asked for us to talk on the phone. I was upset and it took me a while to respond. When I did, his phone was off, which made me more upset. Once he reappeared I was on the way to meeting a friend. I told him I had 20 minutes to talk. He didn’t want to. Next time we saw each other he said he was furious at me for not wanting to talk to him and saying I only have 20 minutes. Keep in mind after seeing my friend and calming down I did call him and we had a nice talk. I asked him when we met about his phone being off and said he was at work and didn’t want to deal with what was going on between us.
• Another time during conflict we agreed to meet the next day to start resolving things. I texted him saying I’m uncomfortable and upset and wouldn’t like to meet. He decided that he didn’t want to talk to me for a few days until we met up. I asked him to talk on the phone or keep in touch via text till we meet but he said he’s angry and doesn’t want to pretend things are okay anymore. When we broke up he confirmed that he did this to punish me.
• After we broke up I sent him a letter expressing my emotions, which I had tried doing face to face but he had stood up and left mid conversation because he was getting angry. Not the first time he had done that. He asked me to meet. I told him I think it’s not a good idea. He got angry. He did this the first time we broke up too. We had known each other for two months and he was really angry I wouldn’t meet up with him to break up. His anger feels controlling to me. He was adamant in that he learned long ago that he should never apologize for his feelings. This came after I had expressed how his anger hurt me. He also implied it’s a double standard that I was upset at him for being angry at me when I had texted him in anger.
So, help me unjumble this. Am I too sensitive to anger or was he just bad at understanding boundaries? He was generally upset at me for being busy and not being there for him when he needed me. His anger brewed under the surface till he couldn’t take it anymore.
2023.10.24 11:51 Aggressive-Plan-183 Suffering through mocks - derivatives
 | I am not really sure about the significance of the options pool and who its disadvantages. submitted by Aggressive-Plan-183 to CFA [link] [comments] Says here it dilutes management share value in the first conclusion answer; but I do not even know what answer to conclusion two is trying to convey - "we do not simply just add the option pool to calculate diluted share value...lol wut? Can anyone unjumble this topic simply? https://preview.redd.it/vd0yzlneh4wb1.png?width=1004&format=png&auto=webp&s=8f6e8b1fd4aac412097f6b3006b92e9f2d1d612c |
2023.10.08 10:40 rayofsunshine16 How I have helped my DPDR - a (75%) success story
Hey guys, I have suffered from chronic DPDR for about 2 years now. It started after a concussion I got then turned chronic after a traumatic event with my abusive ex boyfriend. I have C-PTSD , anxiety and depression, am a 29 year old female who is a full time server and student in Canada.I truly had no idea what was going on - life felt 'buzzy' and 'blurry' and my thoughts felt so far away from me. I woke up and was so scared the day it began. It was like a 180 shift where my life ended. If someone told me I'd write this story even 4 months ago I'd burst into tears because I truly thought it would last forever. I have started feeling about 75% better.. some days better than others but there is real progress (finally).
I use to search reddit and YouTube for hours in hopes of cures and hope and often left feeling really stressed and defeated. So I decided to come back to this very thread and give some anecdotal how to's.
I cut out alcohol and drugs - I have pretty bad social anxiety so leaning on beers and partying has always helped me loosen up and feel like I am bonding with people. Unfortunately in the morning I would have SUCH bad DPDR that I'd call in sick for work and sometimes have panic attacks for days. It was really bad. It got to the point where even two beers would make it happen in the morning. I decided to go sober about 2 months ago and this alone has really helped as well as my anxiety and depression. This is a work in progress of course because not socializing is hard for me, too. But im confident in learning the skills to do so... even if its from scratch. im a server so I can socialize at work to help me practise. I use to take bentos for anxiety and the rebound anxiety would cause an episode so now I dont take those either.
I started Zoloft - This was an unexpected route. I know medication is not for everyone, and sometimes it doesn't work for people, but for me it did. This alone has helped my depression DRASTICALLY and slowly my chronic DPDR is turning into ... episodes of DPDR. usually triggered by something.
Working out - I do yoga twice a week and have started running. I saw a therapist on Tik Tok say that doing 20 mins of cardio helped her immensely so I started or at least go for a walk or something, and even if I dont want to... I feel at least 20% better than before. and some days I feel so high and happy and energetic. its wild dude. once you start it gets easier too. I really dont say this lightly because I use to not be able to leave my bed and now I am working out 3/4 days a week. this is something to build up to and also I truly think my Zoloft has helped me get this motivation.
Time alone and lots of time to relax - One thing I was doing before was trying to live normally while in complete survival mode. I have given myself the time to rest lately, be alone, process, journal, have time to breathe and exist in my body without this shame around having to be normal again. I accepted that right now I just am NOT normal or feel normal. and thats okay. My therapist told me to work on the basics - take care of yourself, do school, do work. I have made healing a full time job. I know some people may not be able to do this but I ask you to challenge that thought. I use to try to work more to spend that money on things like food or vacations whilst still in dissociation mode. I now work less and take my days off to fully embrace my relaxation. DPDR happens because you're brain is in fight or flight for too long and needs to shut off areas (paraphrasing the science). so you need that space to relax and let ur body know it can. I also would prioritize sleep. like 8 hours every night or else id get an episode lol. fr its so annoying but im my body's bitch now and I do what she needs to feel safe.
Locating Triggers - This took me a while to figure out. basically the whole two years lol. Everyone is different and will have different triggers. Mine were emotional conversations, especially around my ex, childhood trauma or truly just deep conversation for a long period of time. Drinking, caffeine, fights with loved ones, long days at work. I learned to curate my life around these triggers. I got SO curious about them, my mind and my emotions. I really listened to myself and my needs. In time I learned them. They may not be clear right now but once you start paying attention. Like I had chronic DPDR but some things made it more 'intense'.
Self Talk Affirming I am Safe - This might sound corny but it really helps. And let me start off by saying that before my antidepressants my inner dialogue was fucking horrendous, like the meanest things to my self all day long. Now I am able to watch a thought come up.. and not react the same way. I can watch it and be like oh shit dude thats intense lets redirect this. Specifically when my DPDR comes up.. I use to panic, and go down a spiral of how my life will never be normal and im stuck like this forever. Now I have began reciting things I have learned online about the disorder. 'I am safe in my body' 'this is a normal reaction to the stressful events ive had in my life' 'my body is on my side and just trying to protect me' This won't last' 'im not going crazy this is just a defence mechanism'. at first I didnt believe it but over time I did.
On that.. Learn Alot - I spent a long time researching and talking to therapists and a lot of people dont know what the fuck this is or how to help. I went on YouTube and found some informational videos and some creators who KNOW what this is and gives helpful information. This convinced me I was not going into psychosis.
Here are some links to some vids.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZV1-BMQEgG4&t=3542s
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gUsB_56IVPc&t=2172s
Cut out Caffeine and have less sugar - Im not a huge health nut or anything but as a woman I have sensitive blood sugar so when it would spike.. then crash.. BAM an episode (along with anxiety). Also, when I have more than a few sips of coffee It happens too lol. It makes sense though because our nervous systems are so sensitive right now. This might be a hard one but im telling ya it helps.
Breathe and mediation : legit I never noticed that I do not fucking breathe. I have to remind myself to at times and un tense my body, too. Meditation helps me too. One time I meditated for an hour straight and the DPDR was gone : 0 then an hour later it came back lol. but theres something to it. I dont do that enough but I am trying to!
Work on general anxiety or trauma - There is usually a root cause to your DPDR whether it be a traumatic event, or abuse, or generalized anxiety thats just too much. Ive been to a few therapists and some help, some didnt. I did my own kind of healing like through podcasts and books and close friends to vent to. This can help 'unjumble' your mind and give you some relief in every area.
Also I am going to try EMDR with a therapist who specializes in DPDR in my area. so thats exciting. Can update you all on that.
If you're a woman track your cycle - before my period my DPDR was the worst and this time during my ovulation time I literally was NOT dissociating. SO AMAZING. this just helps to know where you're at so you can go easy on yourself or have some clarity as to why you feel awful.
Blue Light- As ive spent about 45 mins writing this out I started to dissociate lol. this happens when I stare at my computer screen for way too long writing a paper or reading notes for school. A creator online said this could trigger an episode so something to think about. I got blue light glasses so seeing if that helps.
Final Thoughts : I thought my dissociations would end with one or two things, a few therapy sessions or a pill. Ill tell you now that this is a bit of work. This forced me to look at all areas in my life. It may seem straight edge or too strict but honestly I sat there and waited for a year of my life and nothing happened. I started making changes and things began to happen. I am proof there is hope. Theres still some way to go but to have some hope and evidence is enough to keep me going after being so obscenely depressed over this. Take care of yourself. Make space for your healing. Be curious, cut your shame spirals and know you aren't alone. truly truly truly.
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I use to search reddit and YouTube for hours in hopes of cures and hope and often left feeling really stressed and defeated. So I decided to come back to this very thread and give some anecdotal how to's.
I cut out alcohol and drugs - I have pretty bad social anxiety so leaning on beers and partying has always helped me loosen up and feel like I am bonding with people. Unfortunately in the morning I would have SUCH bad DPDR that I'd call in sick for work and sometimes have panic attacks for days. It was really bad. It got to the point where even two beers would make it happen in the morning. I decided to go sober about 2 months ago and this alone has really helped as well as my anxiety and depression. This is a work in progress of course because not socializing is hard for me, too. But im confident in learning the skills to do so... even if its from scratch. im a server so I can socialize at work to help me practise. I use to take bentos for anxiety and the rebound anxiety would cause an episode so now I dont take those either.
I started Zoloft - This was an unexpected route. I know medication is not for everyone, and sometimes it doesn't work for people, but for me it did. This alone has helped my depression DRASTICALLY and slowly my chronic DPDR is turning into ... episodes of DPDR. usually triggered by something.
Working out - I do yoga twice a week and have started running. I saw a therapist on Tik Tok say that doing 20 mins of cardio helped her immensely so I started or at least go for a walk or something, and even if I dont want to... I feel at least 20% better than before. and some days I feel so high and happy and energetic. its wild dude. once you start it gets easier too. I really dont say this lightly because I use to not be able to leave my bed and now I am working out 3/4 days a week. this is something to build up to and also I truly think my Zoloft has helped me get this motivation.
Time alone and lots of time to relax - One thing I was doing before was trying to live normally while in complete survival mode. I have given myself the time to rest lately, be alone, process, journal, have time to breathe and exist in my body without this shame around having to be normal again. I accepted that right now I just am NOT normal or feel normal. and thats okay. My therapist told me to work on the basics - take care of yourself, do school, do work. I have made healing a full time job. I know some people may not be able to do this but I ask you to challenge that thought. I use to try to work more to spend that money on things like food or vacations whilst still in dissociation mode. I now work less and take my days off to fully embrace my relaxation. DPDR happens because you're brain is in fight or flight for too long and needs to shut off areas (paraphrasing the science). so you need that space to relax and let ur body know it can. I also would prioritize sleep. like 8 hours every night or else id get an episode lol. fr its so annoying but im my body's bitch now and I do what she needs to feel safe.
Locating Triggers - This took me a while to figure out. basically the whole two years lol. Everyone is different and will have different triggers. Mine were emotional conversations, especially around my ex, childhood trauma or truly just deep conversation for a long period of time. Drinking, caffeine, fights with loved ones, long days at work. I learned to curate my life around these triggers. I got SO curious about them, my mind and my emotions. I really listened to myself and my needs. In time I learned them. They may not be clear right now but once you start paying attention. Like I had chronic DPDR but some things made it more 'intense'.
Self Talk Affirming I am Safe - This might sound corny but it really helps. And let me start off by saying that before my antidepressants my inner dialogue was fucking horrendous, like the meanest things to my self all day long. Now I am able to watch a thought come up.. and not react the same way. I can watch it and be like oh shit dude thats intense lets redirect this. Specifically when my DPDR comes up.. I use to panic, and go down a spiral of how my life will never be normal and im stuck like this forever. Now I have began reciting things I have learned online about the disorder. 'I am safe in my body' 'this is a normal reaction to the stressful events ive had in my life' 'my body is on my side and just trying to protect me' This won't last' 'im not going crazy this is just a defence mechanism'. at first I didnt believe it but over time I did.
On that.. Learn Alot - I spent a long time researching and talking to therapists and a lot of people dont know what the fuck this is or how to help. I went on YouTube and found some informational videos and some creators who KNOW what this is and gives helpful information. This convinced me I was not going into psychosis.
Here are some links to some vids.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZV1-BMQEgG4&t=3542s
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gUsB_56IVPc&t=2172s
Cut out Caffeine and have less sugar - Im not a huge health nut or anything but as a woman I have sensitive blood sugar so when it would spike.. then crash.. BAM an episode (along with anxiety). Also, when I have more than a few sips of coffee It happens too lol. It makes sense though because our nervous systems are so sensitive right now. This might be a hard one but im telling ya it helps.
Breathe and mediation : legit I never noticed that I do not fucking breathe. I have to remind myself to at times and un tense my body, too. Meditation helps me too. One time I meditated for an hour straight and the DPDR was gone : 0 then an hour later it came back lol. but theres something to it. I dont do that enough but I am trying to!
Work on general anxiety or trauma - There is usually a root cause to your DPDR whether it be a traumatic event, or abuse, or generalized anxiety thats just too much. Ive been to a few therapists and some help, some didnt. I did my own kind of healing like through podcasts and books and close friends to vent to. This can help 'unjumble' your mind and give you some relief in every area.
Also I am going to try EMDR with a therapist who specializes in DPDR in my area. so thats exciting. Can update you all on that.
If you're a woman track your cycle - before my period my DPDR was the worst and this time during my ovulation time I literally was NOT dissociating. SO AMAZING. this just helps to know where you're at so you can go easy on yourself or have some clarity as to why you feel awful.
Blue Light- As ive spent about 45 mins writing this out I started to dissociate lol. this happens when I stare at my computer screen for way too long writing a paper or reading notes for school. A creator online said this could trigger an episode so something to think about. I got blue light glasses so seeing if that helps.
Final Thoughts : I thought my dissociations would end with one or two things, a few therapy sessions or a pill. Ill tell you now that this is a bit of work. This forced me to look at all areas in my life. It may seem straight edge or too strict but honestly I sat there and waited for a year of my life and nothing happened. I started making changes and things began to happen. I am proof there is hope. Theres still some way to go but to have some hope and evidence is enough to keep me going after being so obscenely depressed over this. Take care of yourself. Make space for your healing. Be curious, cut your shame spirals and know you aren't alone. truly truly truly.
2023.10.03 22:24 jjbeannerton Is this a bad idea
I [19TransM] and my partner [20M] are now entering a LDR due to college. I've never been strictly monogamous and we've been talking more lately about maybe having a threesome or opening up the relationship because I think the idea of watching him fuck someone else is extremely hot. He doesn't like the idea of sharing me with someone dominant, but is okay with us both dominating someone or me and another being submissive. However I want to go beyond threesomes even and maybe video call as he hooks up with other people. I am demisexual so I wouldn't really want to go sleep with other people but he isn't, but feels bad and selfish that he wouldn't want me to sleep with other people (even though I don't want to either). He has been monogamous all of his life and in his last relationship, experienced someone so controlling, he couldn't even think that someone else was attractive lest it becomes a huge fight. However he is willing to try and he wants to explore. Both of us are bisexual too and want to explore those aspects together as he's never been with a Cis man and I've never been with a Cis woman. I know we're young but I know I've found my person and he feels that way too. But I don't want to lose him because of this. I'm scared because if he was poly, I wouldn't be jealous since love isn't a limited resource and I would be with him no matter what. However since he's monogamous, a little part of me fears that being close in distance with another person and being physical might lead to feelings and if he doesn't want to be poly at that point, it would be rough. Are we too young to try ethical non-monogamy or threeesomes? We've both been deep into bdsm and this isn't our first sexual relationship or long term relationship. But I worry that it's something that we'd be in over our heads in. I'm in my second year of college and he's in his third. I know this post is very all over the place but I don't know how to unjumble my mess and explain things properly.
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2023.09.10 13:16 ss_tim Bought a PHEV car but lost on the best way to charge and which tariff to go on
Hi all,
I’ve recently bought a 2021 Volvo XC40 T5 which is a PHEV. This is the first time I’ve had a part electric car so I’m brand new to the world of charging and I was wondering if someone could help unjumble the information online and steer my thinking.
The things I’m trying to work out are:
Just a few additional bits of information:
Any help would be much appreciated!
Tim
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I’ve recently bought a 2021 Volvo XC40 T5 which is a PHEV. This is the first time I’ve had a part electric car so I’m brand new to the world of charging and I was wondering if someone could help unjumble the information online and steer my thinking.
The things I’m trying to work out are:
- As the battery is small (10.7kWh), I currently charge it using a socket with the charging cable going out the window - obviously in the winter, this will leak heat out the house so can’t continue. Is it worth getting a proper wall box or would an outdoor socket suffice?
- If it is a proper wall box, are there any recommendations - I’m with Octopus and they recommend a few - Ohme / Wallbox but they may not be the latest and greatest.
- Energy Tariffs - I’m with Octopus on their standard tariff but I think I should switch to their intelligent one which - it says that it works with compatible cars/chargers so I guess that’s a timer mechanism but also gives 6 hours of cheap electricity for the whole house - so if I had an outdoor socket, technically that electricity should be at the lower rate. I’m probably missing something here - happy for someone to correct my thinking?
- Any other recommendations / strategies in making the most out of this XC40 PHEV - especially when to drive pure electric / hybrid and where - I’m unsure whether it makes a difference on motorways to press the ‘hold charge’ button to stop the engine using the battery at high speeds or just let the car work it out itself.
Just a few additional bits of information:
- I drive about 12-16 miles a day so I need to charge the car every night but a few times a month I travel further out 100-150 miles each way
- I have a SMETS2 smart meter
- I have a driveway to park the car
Any help would be much appreciated!
Tim
2023.09.04 02:14 ThrowAwayEnd03 Oslsjendncnxn
I ammmm making amends. My mental health is amazing lately. So Im making amends for the past 3 years where it was clearly in the shit. I cut myself off from everyone and isolated myself out of fear and paranoia. I was on antidepressants that weren't good for me and I didn't even realise because I'd never had them before, I honestly didn't know the 'right' way for them to work. They made me paranoid and scared. So I cut off everyone and everything. So even though people did what they did, it seemed so much worse in my head. My own head was working against me. I regret my isolation, but I don't regret trying to protect myself from perceived threats. Life is also emotionally easier without social media, or constant connection tbh. I feel less overwhelmed. I still have worries that maybe Kate, or Jess will try accessing my stuff again, but I feel reassured that I have done everything possible to deter them. I have deleted most social media, most of my accounts and seriously curtailed information of myself available. I even properly reported them to the Police, even Kate, and despite my initial troubles with the Police their warning seemed to have worked... that I know of. I became so stressed I tried to end my life, because it seemed no matter how I asked... it didn't matter. I didn't matter. I couldn't be upset, angry, sad, happy, excited, remorseful, regretful, embarrassed, lonely or any personal feeling in an environment I could control.
Journalling has really helped. I started 3 years ago. Originally it was journalling for my therapist and family so they could understand what I was feeling and thinking because I had trouble verbally communicating it. Now I do it for just me. It helps me unjumble my thoughts and sort through my feelings. I can see how I felt one day and compare it to how I feel today. I can identify my patterns and the times I feel 'down'. It is cathartic. Many times I even write what I want my ex to know, because I can't tell her and I don't want to bury what I think about her because she was an integral part of my life for 10 years. Bec doesn't even know this Reddit, but it feels like there is a chance for her to know how she made me feel and how I feel about her, and it makes it easier.
So I am making amends. Well, not really amends. But I am apologising to those that I feel I emotionally drained over the past 3 years by not being present emotionally or physically for them. They supported me so carefully and lovingly, while I was incapable of doing the same for them. Through all my suicide attempts they stuck by me when others could not (nor should they have felt obligated). Mental health is important. Depression, especially sudden onset and traumatic depression is... awful and difficult. I feel awful for refusing help from so many people just because I was embarrassed, ashamed and emulating terribly isolating behaviours in a misguided attempt to protect myself. I cared more about people knowing about my depression than just accepting they know and accepting their help. I want them to know how grateful I am. I was so very very lucky despite my insistence with thinking I wasn't.
These anti depressants are so much better. Even with all the stuff with Gabby going on, I am still relatively calm and non reactive. I'm not having urges to just 'disappear' any more or pretend it's not happening. I'm not avoiding people or the subject of it. I even had a joke about it yesterday with my Mum. It doesn't seem so insurmountable like it did with Kate or Jess. She can't hurt me any more.
I'm so happy I have the people I have, even when for a long time I couldn't even be grateful for them. I didn't even see them. Just myself. They protected me and all I did was withdraw, isolate and ignore. I shut myself off from everyone to protect myself and it was selfish. They gave me so much and I gave nothing back. If I had killed myself it wouldn't have just been about me. I'd have hurt people I care about. I'm so sorry for putting them through that and not even being able to be aware of anything outside of myself and my paranoid obsession with trying to erase myself from existence.
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Journalling has really helped. I started 3 years ago. Originally it was journalling for my therapist and family so they could understand what I was feeling and thinking because I had trouble verbally communicating it. Now I do it for just me. It helps me unjumble my thoughts and sort through my feelings. I can see how I felt one day and compare it to how I feel today. I can identify my patterns and the times I feel 'down'. It is cathartic. Many times I even write what I want my ex to know, because I can't tell her and I don't want to bury what I think about her because she was an integral part of my life for 10 years. Bec doesn't even know this Reddit, but it feels like there is a chance for her to know how she made me feel and how I feel about her, and it makes it easier.
So I am making amends. Well, not really amends. But I am apologising to those that I feel I emotionally drained over the past 3 years by not being present emotionally or physically for them. They supported me so carefully and lovingly, while I was incapable of doing the same for them. Through all my suicide attempts they stuck by me when others could not (nor should they have felt obligated). Mental health is important. Depression, especially sudden onset and traumatic depression is... awful and difficult. I feel awful for refusing help from so many people just because I was embarrassed, ashamed and emulating terribly isolating behaviours in a misguided attempt to protect myself. I cared more about people knowing about my depression than just accepting they know and accepting their help. I want them to know how grateful I am. I was so very very lucky despite my insistence with thinking I wasn't.
These anti depressants are so much better. Even with all the stuff with Gabby going on, I am still relatively calm and non reactive. I'm not having urges to just 'disappear' any more or pretend it's not happening. I'm not avoiding people or the subject of it. I even had a joke about it yesterday with my Mum. It doesn't seem so insurmountable like it did with Kate or Jess. She can't hurt me any more.
I'm so happy I have the people I have, even when for a long time I couldn't even be grateful for them. I didn't even see them. Just myself. They protected me and all I did was withdraw, isolate and ignore. I shut myself off from everyone to protect myself and it was selfish. They gave me so much and I gave nothing back. If I had killed myself it wouldn't have just been about me. I'd have hurt people I care about. I'm so sorry for putting them through that and not even being able to be aware of anything outside of myself and my paranoid obsession with trying to erase myself from existence.
2023.08.06 07:12 rethinkr The Devil Comes at Night (2023) Spirituality, Horror and Race issues [SPOILERS]
It was revealed on the cassette tape recording of young posessed Mason, that Ben’s family was integrating with white people, and the demon didn’t like this, so placed the curse. This would make the demons racist, right: they want to divide. This is an intriguing take, because you dont have to be possessed to be racist, yet the ones who are possessed commit racism intentionally, with a percieved purpose connected to a grand plan of dividing humans and taking their gaze away from unity, equality, solidarity and society (and also eternal life).
So it isn’t as much a film about race as it is about perceptions of racism, and paranoia, trauma brought on by a mixture of real experiences and popularized race theory. This toxic mix of real vs exponential is what causes the experience of racism, because it employs trauma to retranslate interactions through the lense of paralyzed victimhood. (True Horror when any paranoia of division or demonization is self perpetuating)
This film achieved that but didnt make it easy to untangle the chaotic cross-purpose messages. Very easy to get it wrong.
One issue though is the deconsecration of the housechurch: it wouldnt have worked if not by Ben himself, as if anyone could walk into a church and take away its sanctity. And if it does work like that, as it does in this film, then surely anyone can reconsecrate it just as fast and kill the bad guys that way easily once theyre inside.
Also why did the AA friend open up about Jack in an authentic way if Jack wasnt his own boxing teacher? He said to Mason at the final confrontation that he wasn’t a good guy, and this was connected to cheating at boxing. He even tells Amy a half-truth about his boxing and then apologizes and tells the full story- about hurting people badly. Incongruency is: how does Mason find out about Jack if Jack is the AA guy’s teacher and not Ben’s? And if he gets intel through demons then surely they could also let Mason know the AA guy isn’t Ben, and not to bother with Jack but find something the AA guy cares about personally.
Overall a good film but it ends up replicating the same stereotypes it tries to address, Baddies: devil & white man, Goodies: god, black man & woman.
There are good horror elements, but the message takes a while to unjumble when spirituality and popularized victim stances are intertwined. If you got a clear mind it can be done without reinforcing the disunity and inequality that is the darn aim of those phantom demons!
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So it isn’t as much a film about race as it is about perceptions of racism, and paranoia, trauma brought on by a mixture of real experiences and popularized race theory. This toxic mix of real vs exponential is what causes the experience of racism, because it employs trauma to retranslate interactions through the lense of paralyzed victimhood. (True Horror when any paranoia of division or demonization is self perpetuating)
This film achieved that but didnt make it easy to untangle the chaotic cross-purpose messages. Very easy to get it wrong.
One issue though is the deconsecration of the housechurch: it wouldnt have worked if not by Ben himself, as if anyone could walk into a church and take away its sanctity. And if it does work like that, as it does in this film, then surely anyone can reconsecrate it just as fast and kill the bad guys that way easily once theyre inside.
Also why did the AA friend open up about Jack in an authentic way if Jack wasnt his own boxing teacher? He said to Mason at the final confrontation that he wasn’t a good guy, and this was connected to cheating at boxing. He even tells Amy a half-truth about his boxing and then apologizes and tells the full story- about hurting people badly. Incongruency is: how does Mason find out about Jack if Jack is the AA guy’s teacher and not Ben’s? And if he gets intel through demons then surely they could also let Mason know the AA guy isn’t Ben, and not to bother with Jack but find something the AA guy cares about personally.
Overall a good film but it ends up replicating the same stereotypes it tries to address, Baddies: devil & white man, Goodies: god, black man & woman.
There are good horror elements, but the message takes a while to unjumble when spirituality and popularized victim stances are intertwined. If you got a clear mind it can be done without reinforcing the disunity and inequality that is the darn aim of those phantom demons!
2023.07.17 05:17 luckytron New Terran Refugee (Pt - 26) : An NOP fanfic
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New Terran Refugee (Pt - 26) : An NOP fanfic
Thanks to u/SpacePaladin15 for letting people write fanfics.
This is just a fanfic of course.
Imma keep it real, I’ve been listening to Love Shack Trigger a lot, it might’ve fueled some of the wacky/innuendo filled moments in the last chapters.
I’m not sorry.
It WILL happen again.
It’s not a threat.
It’s a promise.
Memory transcription subject: Tayla, Venlil Widow
Date [standardized human time]: October 20, 2136
Jorge leaned against the wall and yawned loudly under his helmet as I looked for the keys in my bag, which, given that it currently held several cans of soda, was much harder than it had any right to be.
No… Nope… That’s a flyer… My credit chit…
…My credit chit again…
I brayed under my breath, just about ready to spill my bag on the floor.
There!
“Well, I don’t know about you, but I’m totally beat.” Jorge contorted his back and gave of a series of loud pops, I pulled out my keys just as he followed that with a long and loud shuddering growling grunt.
Th-that grunt sounded like some of the n-noises he gave off in my ‘dream’ at the town’s station! The keys slipped from my paw and onto the floor.
All I could do was to steady myself with the wall as I desperately kept the blooming off my face.
“Don’t worry I’ll get them, clearly you’re way more tired than I am.” He set down the plant and dropped down into all fours in front of me, giving me a whole new angle to look at him from. Stars above! I knew then and there that that would make its way into another dream.
The moment didn’t last though, soon he stood up with the keys in his claw.
“Oh. ¿Your legs are getting sore too?” He gestured at his own legs then spoke. “I guess your hindpaw isn’t helping any either.” He gestured broadly at my unsteady legs, I angled my head to get a better look at them, they were trembling slightly.
I patted one of my legs with my free paw.
“W-Well, m-my legs are OK! And my hindpaw is fine, really Jorge…” I pushed myself off the wall to get my point across to him better. “I…”I’m glad we spent the day together like this, even if things got stressful for a while. “I’m glad we got the things you needed, I-I´m just sorry everyone back in town was…”
“Don’t.” He let out his breath slowly. “Don’t be sorry, that’s on them, not on you.” He turned to focus on the door and opened the lock, resting his claw on the grip at the middle of it.
“You… You’ve been nothing but wonderful Tayla.”
“B-but I… I tried to… you know…”
“I do. But you’ve changed. If you hadn’t, you wouldn’t even begin to feel bad about anything that happened there in town.”
“…Thanks Jorge. Y-you’re too kind.”
He ‘nodded’, nudged the door open and stepped aside to grab the plant, I went in first.
Jupryn was standing a few steps away from the [kitchen] door, a steaming mug of something in one of her paws and a groggy look on her face.
She yawned.
“Hi Taaahhh” Her free paw went up to her face, where she began rubbing wakefulness back into herself. “Hi Tayla.” Her focus shifted up and behind me, she held herself a little more sharply, and began speaking in a curter tone. “Jor-” A jolt of wakefulness coursed through her, leaving her mouth agape in surprise.
“Ok seriously. ¿Why is everyone so surprised I’m lugging a plant around?” Jorge huffed. “I know I’m human but… whatever.” He started walking into the [kitchen], stopping just short of it for a moment, he turned his still covered face towards me. “I’ll take a shower and get back up in a bit, just a heads up.”
Jorge left before the memory of me interrupting his cleaning routine caused my face to bloom heavily. Jupryn, however, saw it fully.
“Tayla.” She swallowed dryly. “Why? By all the stars. Why did you buy that?”
“I-It’s for… He doesn’t… I… Hold on…” I closed the door behind me, just in case. Jupryn kept her focus on me impatiently.
“Jupryn, he needed flowers for a rite of remembrance. A-and well, we just stumbled onto that flower shop and, he can’t read our language.” I paused to unjumble my thoughts. “He doesn’t know what that plant does. But… he was so happy to find it, it looks the closest by far to the one used in his rite.”
“At least tell me you made it to the train station before peak claw…”
“You walked through town with that during Peak Claw? All the way from Galeridge Chemist’s?”
“W-well, we couldn’t just go to the market during peak claw.” I held up the bag that had the Strayu in it. “And I wanted to get back with the Strayu before it got too late so we couldn’t just wait around.”
Wait a moment.
I shot her a curious look, she fidgeted with the mug, flicking her tail erratically.
“The card on the pot doesn’t have that shop’s name on it… How do you know about it?”
Jupryn stiffened and motioned for me to follow her to the couch.
I did, leaving my bags on the low table; Waiting for her to talk. She put down the mug, it was just steaming water, and sat beside her own bag; She reached into her bag taking out a small orange striped pouch, the same color as the pot, as well as a small spoon.
“I go there s-sometimes.” She scooped a tiny amount of the leaves into her mug and started stirring. “This helps w-with the nightmares. Makes them much less frequent.”
“Why not go to a clinic or tell a doctor or something?”
“I almost did, when I was still being discharged back in the capital, but… one of the exterminators from another raided colony who was also in the same ward as me, he also had nightmares, he was further along in the discharge process and had gotten his prescription already, he just had to stay for a while to make sure he got into the routine of taking his medicine.”
Jupryn shuddered and wiped a tear that had formed in one of her eyes.
“I watched as he started to just… I don’t know, he just wasn’t all there anymore. He used to play and watch tv with the others, he’d talk and laugh even if there was still some pain in him, he was even flirting with one of the nurses.” She paused for a bit. “But by the time he was discharged he’d just sit all the time in front of the TV, the orderlies just sat him down there and he wouldn’t move until they dragged him off to another appointment or to bed. At least he had family come and get him when he was discharged…”
“I didn’t want to end up like that, I know it’s selfish, but I lied, I lied all I could, that I’d have nightmares about f-falling or ship f-failures instead of about the raid. Th-that I couldn’t wait to see V-Venlil Prime. Th-that I didn’t miss my home.”
“Eventually I was discharged with no prescription needed, I drifted from job to job for [many years], then around [two years] ago someone mentioned Galeridge and I got the idea to come here to repay Glim, I was hoping to bump into you in town, but that never happened and all I could remember was your name from his stories, instead I found that shop, I was desperate for anything that wasn’t a liquor bottle or a prescription that could help me sleep so I went in; You can guess the rest from there.”
“Oh Jupryn…” I went to sit beside her. “You’ve more than repaid Glim already, even before meeting me, you don’t owe us anything. Do you understand?”
She flicked an assent to me, I went in for a hug and held her for a while.
“Thanks Tayla…” She spoke softly as we separated from the hug. Her mug had stopped steaming, she drank it with a slight grimace leaves and all, in one long gulp. “H-hey, it’s pretty late for me too. Can I… stay in the guest room?”
“Sure Jupryn. Don’t worry about your mug I’ll clean it for you.” I got up and lead her upstairs. “Did my kids give you any trouble?”
“Those two? No, never.” She chuckled. “Well, Talim didn’t want to go to sleep at first but I managed to get him to settle down.”
I opened the door to the guest bedroom, it was small as ever, something didn’t sit right in my stomach.
“Hey Jupryn…” I gestured at my room. “Why don’t you sleep in my room for tonight? I can sleep here later.”
“Are you su-”
“I’m sure Jupryn.”
With that I led her all the way to my room and helped her settle into bed, I was halfway into explaining how to work the blind’s controller when I realized she was fast asleep. I exited quietly, checking into each of my kid’s rooms before going down.
Talim was splayed all over his bed, mouth wide agape and tongue lolling out. Taylee meanwhile was sleeping much less wildly.
I resisted the urge to nuzzle them as I didn’t want to wake them up yet.
I plodded down the stairs, collected the stuff in the main room and proceeded to clean Jupryn’s mug in the [kitchen] as well as stored away the cans of soda that Jorge had purchased.
The house was quiet.
I managed to wait for a whole [4 minutes] in the [kitchen] before restlessness got the better of me and I descended into the basement.
I peeked around the privacy screen Jorge had improvised to see that he was asleep in his bed, his head fur was still gleaming with wetness and a damp towel was hanging from one of the racks;To my disappointment, he had clothed himself fully before laying down, probably before even leaving the bathroom. The plant we bought was right next to his bed.
He must have been much more tired than we both thought.
I looked longingly at the small space that formed between one of his arms and his body. I could see myself fitting in there perfectly, nestling into his warmth; He could easily hold me with both arms snuggly against him…
I let out a small sigh, my feelings were completely out of control, and dimmed the lights before going upstairs.
I went into the guest bedroom and curled up tight.
I let myself drift off slowly into a restful sleep.
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Thanks to u/SpacePaladin15 for letting people write fanfics.
This is just a fanfic of course.
Imma keep it real, I’ve been listening to Love Shack Trigger a lot, it might’ve fueled some of the wacky/innuendo filled moments in the last chapters.
I’m not sorry.
It WILL happen again.
It’s not a threat.
It’s a promise.
Date [standardized human time]: October 20, 2136
Jorge leaned against the wall and yawned loudly under his helmet as I looked for the keys in my bag, which, given that it currently held several cans of soda, was much harder than it had any right to be.
No… Nope… That’s a flyer… My credit chit…
…My credit chit again…
I brayed under my breath, just about ready to spill my bag on the floor.
There!
“Well, I don’t know about you, but I’m totally beat.” Jorge contorted his back and gave of a series of loud pops, I pulled out my keys just as he followed that with a long and loud shuddering growling grunt.
Th-that grunt sounded like some of the n-noises he gave off in my ‘dream’ at the town’s station! The keys slipped from my paw and onto the floor.
All I could do was to steady myself with the wall as I desperately kept the blooming off my face.
“Don’t worry I’ll get them, clearly you’re way more tired than I am.” He set down the plant and dropped down into all fours in front of me, giving me a whole new angle to look at him from. Stars above! I knew then and there that that would make its way into another dream.
The moment didn’t last though, soon he stood up with the keys in his claw.
“Oh. ¿Your legs are getting sore too?” He gestured at his own legs then spoke. “I guess your hindpaw isn’t helping any either.” He gestured broadly at my unsteady legs, I angled my head to get a better look at them, they were trembling slightly.
I patted one of my legs with my free paw.
“W-Well, m-my legs are OK! And my hindpaw is fine, really Jorge…” I pushed myself off the wall to get my point across to him better. “I…”
“Don’t.” He let out his breath slowly. “Don’t be sorry, that’s on them, not on you.” He turned to focus on the door and opened the lock, resting his claw on the grip at the middle of it.
“You… You’ve been nothing but wonderful Tayla.”
“B-but I… I tried to… you know…”
“I do. But you’ve changed. If you hadn’t, you wouldn’t even begin to feel bad about anything that happened there in town.”
“…Thanks Jorge. Y-you’re too kind.”
He ‘nodded’, nudged the door open and stepped aside to grab the plant, I went in first.
Jupryn was standing a few steps away from the [kitchen] door, a steaming mug of something in one of her paws and a groggy look on her face.
She yawned.
“Hi Taaahhh” Her free paw went up to her face, where she began rubbing wakefulness back into herself. “Hi Tayla.” Her focus shifted up and behind me, she held herself a little more sharply, and began speaking in a curter tone. “Jor-” A jolt of wakefulness coursed through her, leaving her mouth agape in surprise.
“Ok seriously. ¿Why is everyone so surprised I’m lugging a plant around?” Jorge huffed. “I know I’m human but… whatever.” He started walking into the [kitchen], stopping just short of it for a moment, he turned his still covered face towards me. “I’ll take a shower and get back up in a bit, just a heads up.”
Jorge left before the memory of me interrupting his cleaning routine caused my face to bloom heavily. Jupryn, however, saw it fully.
“Tayla.” She swallowed dryly. “Why? By all the stars. Why did you buy that?”
“I-It’s for… He doesn’t… I… Hold on…” I closed the door behind me, just in case. Jupryn kept her focus on me impatiently.
“Jupryn, he needed flowers for a rite of remembrance. A-and well, we just stumbled onto that flower shop and, he can’t read our language.” I paused to unjumble my thoughts. “He doesn’t know what that plant does. But… he was so happy to find it, it looks the closest by far to the one used in his rite.”
“At least tell me you made it to the train station before peak claw…”
“You walked through town with that during Peak Claw? All the way from Galeridge Chemist’s?”
“W-well, we couldn’t just go to the market during peak claw.” I held up the bag that had the Strayu in it. “And I wanted to get back with the Strayu before it got too late so we couldn’t just wait around.”
Wait a moment.
I shot her a curious look, she fidgeted with the mug, flicking her tail erratically.
“The card on the pot doesn’t have that shop’s name on it… How do you know about it?”
Jupryn stiffened and motioned for me to follow her to the couch.
I did, leaving my bags on the low table; Waiting for her to talk. She put down the mug, it was just steaming water, and sat beside her own bag; She reached into her bag taking out a small orange striped pouch, the same color as the pot, as well as a small spoon.
“I go there s-sometimes.” She scooped a tiny amount of the leaves into her mug and started stirring. “This helps w-with the nightmares. Makes them much less frequent.”
“Why not go to a clinic or tell a doctor or something?”
“I almost did, when I was still being discharged back in the capital, but… one of the exterminators from another raided colony who was also in the same ward as me, he also had nightmares, he was further along in the discharge process and had gotten his prescription already, he just had to stay for a while to make sure he got into the routine of taking his medicine.”
Jupryn shuddered and wiped a tear that had formed in one of her eyes.
“I watched as he started to just… I don’t know, he just wasn’t all there anymore. He used to play and watch tv with the others, he’d talk and laugh even if there was still some pain in him, he was even flirting with one of the nurses.” She paused for a bit. “But by the time he was discharged he’d just sit all the time in front of the TV, the orderlies just sat him down there and he wouldn’t move until they dragged him off to another appointment or to bed. At least he had family come and get him when he was discharged…”
“I didn’t want to end up like that, I know it’s selfish, but I lied, I lied all I could, that I’d have nightmares about f-falling or ship f-failures instead of about the raid. Th-that I couldn’t wait to see V-Venlil Prime. Th-that I didn’t miss my home.”
“Eventually I was discharged with no prescription needed, I drifted from job to job for [many years], then around [two years] ago someone mentioned Galeridge and I got the idea to come here to repay Glim, I was hoping to bump into you in town, but that never happened and all I could remember was your name from his stories, instead I found that shop, I was desperate for anything that wasn’t a liquor bottle or a prescription that could help me sleep so I went in; You can guess the rest from there.”
“Oh Jupryn…” I went to sit beside her. “You’ve more than repaid Glim already, even before meeting me, you don’t owe us anything. Do you understand?”
She flicked an assent to me, I went in for a hug and held her for a while.
“Thanks Tayla…” She spoke softly as we separated from the hug. Her mug had stopped steaming, she drank it with a slight grimace leaves and all, in one long gulp. “H-hey, it’s pretty late for me too. Can I… stay in the guest room?”
“Sure Jupryn. Don’t worry about your mug I’ll clean it for you.” I got up and lead her upstairs. “Did my kids give you any trouble?”
“Those two? No, never.” She chuckled. “Well, Talim didn’t want to go to sleep at first but I managed to get him to settle down.”
I opened the door to the guest bedroom, it was small as ever, something didn’t sit right in my stomach.
“Hey Jupryn…” I gestured at my room. “Why don’t you sleep in my room for tonight? I can sleep here later.”
“Are you su-”
“I’m sure Jupryn.”
With that I led her all the way to my room and helped her settle into bed, I was halfway into explaining how to work the blind’s controller when I realized she was fast asleep. I exited quietly, checking into each of my kid’s rooms before going down.
Talim was splayed all over his bed, mouth wide agape and tongue lolling out. Taylee meanwhile was sleeping much less wildly.
I resisted the urge to nuzzle them as I didn’t want to wake them up yet.
I plodded down the stairs, collected the stuff in the main room and proceeded to clean Jupryn’s mug in the [kitchen] as well as stored away the cans of soda that Jorge had purchased.
The house was quiet.
I managed to wait for a whole [4 minutes] in the [kitchen] before restlessness got the better of me and I descended into the basement.
I peeked around the privacy screen Jorge had improvised to see that he was asleep in his bed, his head fur was still gleaming with wetness and a damp towel was hanging from one of the racks;
He must have been much more tired than we both thought.
I looked longingly at the small space that formed between one of his arms and his body. I could see myself fitting in there perfectly, nestling into his warmth; He could easily hold me with both arms snuggly against him…
I let out a small sigh, my feelings were completely out of control, and dimmed the lights before going upstairs.
I went into the guest bedroom and curled up tight.
I let myself drift off slowly into a restful sleep.
2023.05.27 16:30 AstralWeekss I have tried to reach this goal, and failed, many times. Today, I finally got there.
Brain fog started going away around the 5 week mark. I started noticing how much easier it was for me to understand and absorb knowledge. I didnt have to read and reread, or unjumble my brain like I used to. And the sleep, oh the sleep. Not waking up in the middle of the night parched, only for any liquids I try to consume making me vomit. No more spinning rooms, no more feeling like an ice pick got me right in the back of my skull. No more deleting texts in the morning because I’m too ashamed to read what I had sent.
My last relapse was when I reached 55, and I immediately started over. I was so close, and now I’m here. So reddit, can I please get a nice?
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