A time for us violin score

Mostly just need to vent.
So my table has one large mission as the main arc, but currently focused on an integral smaller mission within the larger mission. Main mission cannot be completed without this second one.
My table got a bit derailed tonight when a PC forgot about the mini mission (despite that being the whole previous hour….a bio break and short rest for for the in game characters made them whoosh forget that & they showed up at our next location super aggro and demanding my npc lead them to character needed for the main mission.
I tried to get them back on track, mentioning that that character wasn’t there. Why were they at this building (hint hint) and one poor PC tried to speak up but no one was listening.
I knew my npc had a hook to make him instant friends with a PC, so when they finally asked about a character involved with the mini mission I started my 3 sentence paragraph to give needed information. I wasn’t 6 words into my statement & this PC interrupted me and shoved my npc and yelled at him for being sexist (he was calling the 3rd character a rude teachers pet, which is probably the nicest adjectives you could use for this character) I pivoted and tried to have my npc mention the reason they were there and this 3rd character being involved…nope a 2nd pc PICKS UP MY NPC AND STARTED THREATENING THEM IN THEIR OWN HOME
I had to stop the table and remind them everyone was a good aligned character. They just walked into someone’s home, were welcomed nicely, the npc introduced themselves but they didn’t introduce themselves, they started demanding stuff and the got rightful defensive and now he’s being attacked….well my 2 PCs said I made a very unlikable npc and said they wouldn’t change anything.
Okay. Who am I to show horn them into a path. They then guns blazing go into the room with the actual bad guy…no planning or plan…per my module she’s to instantly cast fireball. I stopped the session before she cast anything. I ran the damage and the two PCs closest if they didn’t pass their saving throw would be on death saves…..I don’t want to do that, but I am mad they are being so aggressive.
This is only session 2 and they weren’t this aggressive the first session. Our previous campaign I wasn’t the DM and this group was really murder hobo-y but everyone was on board (it was Shrahd) and the setting more lent itself to that. But even then our DM then would complain we didn’t ask questions or talk to NPCs or try anything other than hit first and go oops we needed that person later.
Frustratingly the main aggro PC is our former DM.
I have talked to him already. He apologized. And promised to let me finish speaking when characters are talking. Especially when it’s obvious I’m reading something prepared (probably important if I wrote it down)…but his advice was to have us “reset” back to when they came inside, but I don’t want to do that.
As sorta frustrated as I am, that’s part of dnd. Having your characters go their path. I’m just not sure how to get them back on track. I want to punish them for going so fast into this, but I know if attack them with this 3rd character then they’ll attack back and probably not hold back and leave the campaign if their character died start of session 3. (I’ve invested $300 into this module and really want to see atleast some of it through) I did metagame warn them that they’re level 3 and they need to start thinking about that before they go attacking everyone they meet. (The npc they shoved and nearly fought was a level 13 wizard…they weren’t going to win that fight).
Guess I’m also frustrated that I’m the only female in the group and they attributed alot of negative female connotations to the one sentence my npc said (called him catty, b**chy, rude, annoying, petty) when they knew the person they were meeting was a part of a known evil organization. But no how dare my nice, welcoming npc not like the evil organization character….when I asked that in the session debrief I was told it was “how I presented him” with my one sentence…I think next time I would stop them and say “let me finish what he was saying before you take that action” but I’m not sure that would have changed anything.
Just sad that I don’t think this group is the right group for this campaign and I’m so invested in the story.

US-OH Some context: I’m not planning on moving out anytime soon. So the repair may not even be done for some years. Of course unless they evicted us but as of now, I’ve not heard anything in regards to that. Also, this screen in particular has NOT been damaged once let alone twice to my knowledge. Unless my landlord had a conversation with my ex who lives at the home and had him pay for it + didn’t provide an invoice that I can look back on + I wasn’t home when they replaced it twice, im completely unaware of the other two times this screen has been damaged and repaired. Now, we have had a window screen repaired once. This was a different screen, and was also broken prior to moving in. A year and a half after living there they replaced it and had us pay for it. When I noted I could prove it was actually not just broken but completely out of the frame when I was asked to pay for it, I was ignored. Whatever. I paid the $40 and went about my day.
Can they ask me to pay for it now? Is that not what a security deposit is for? I plan on calling tomorrow but I know I’m already on thin ice with them. I just don’t understand how they can ask me to pay for a move out repair when I’m not moving + they have $650 for repairs for when the time comes.

I’m afraid my bf cheated on me. He (27) is from France and I (23) am from the USA. We met in the Dominican Republic where we were both working at the time. We were together for a little over a month before he went back to France. We are still together and message everyday. There was another French girl in DR with us, and I’m afraid they had sex one night. I think this bc I saw them talking a lot together, and sitting close while they were both drunk. One night I was already in his bed when he got back from the club, and I heard she and him talking (in French so I couldn’t understand). But he came in the room where I was laying in his bed, and then he left for about an hour before coming back and sleeping. I know she was waiting outside for him. They are friends so it’s possible he just went to her room and they hung out. But I recently followed her on Instagram and I noticed he liked a lot of her photos from a long time ago… meaning he went through her whole page. I also got an infection (down there) that I think might’ve been an STD. (It’s okay now) I love him and he talks about the future a lot, and I believe he loves me. But now that we are long distance I think about that night a little too often, and I see the French girl here in DR a lot too, and she is friendly. Do you think he cheated? If so, should I confront him or ask her? If it was just the one time I don’t know if it’s worth losing him.

I completely take ownership of everything that led to the break up. I was not able to give her commitment as I didn’t had a job nor I had got into a decent college. I asked her for some time, but she refused. I still love her a lot. She says that she has moved on. She was the happiest person when I got into a college. She called me and asked whether I got the college and all. She was very very happy. She has blocked me , but sometimes she calls me and lectures me about performing well in college. During calls, she says things that we used to talk, while we were in relation. Sometimes we just talk for long and she will hung up the call abruptly.
Is there any chance for us to get back together?

I've been having a rough time for a while now. Recently my mom and I were evicted after a 2 year long battle against our landlord. We've lived in that apartment for 7 years, and we packed it all away in a couple days.
Eight months ago I broke up with my partner of three years. The break up was messy. I was very manic during that time bc of my medication and weed usage. It ended in us saying terrible things to each other. We met up a month ago and a week after that. He said he had had a good time and how he'd see me soon.
Other than that, nothing has been going on in my life. My mom and I have a complicated relationship. We've reached an understanding in recent years but she was a very busy unavailable parent. I was abused a lot by her and other family members.
My sibling and I (she's one year older than me,) share a similar relationship with one another. She was a terrible sibling and abused me a lot too.
My mom and I are at an extended stay hotel. I have no money. All I do is lay down all day. I've lost many of my passions and interest. I used to be an artist with hopes of becoming a video game designer. Ever since the break up and the months leading up to it, life has been surreal.
I just don't know who I am.
My mom talks down to me and often takes a pratical approch to dealing with my problems. It makes me feel small. When I forget things she wants me to do she attacks my age, my lack of responsiblitiy, how much she works. I just want my old life back with my ex.
When we saw eachother after all that time apart, I felt so strange. It felt like I had a reason to get up and leave the house.
I don't have that in any other aspect of my life.
I feel to guilty about my mom paying for everything. She even gives me spending money depsite us not being finacially in the best place.
When I don't take care of myself she gets really upset, its always been that way. She never sees it though. She thinks shes being reasonable despite shouting, shaking, getting in a threating range. She just wants to help me in a way that'll work. It doesn't though.
I feel like a bum and I'm very lonely. I don't know what to do.
My mom and I got into an argument an hour ago outside the hotel. She started berating me about my age, how I did nothing she asked of me for the day (I did all but one), how she works and goes to college and..., I just checked out. I'm never confrontational, yet historically thats when my family usually gets the most upset/ starts hitting.
She thinks everything is disrespect. Theres no winning.
I have a job lined up. They're a new bakery that was hiring. They told me I'd start a month ago but the open date keeps getting pushed back.
Everyday I feel pointless, and theres my mom reminding me.
I wish I had some friends.

So, I haven't seen anyone else post about this, maybe I'm the first, I don't entirely know how long this has been going on, but about 2 and a half hours ago, I came across a ship by the moniker of "the Devil's Galley", a sloop, surprisingly not a galleon. Both me and my friend haven't had the greatest experience with encountering players in the past, so we were wary as it began to approach. We were currently docked, unloading our treasure to the Morrow's peak outpost, trying to get as much of it off our deck before what I was certain would be a barrage of cannon fire. What I didn't expect was voice hollering through the trumpet "Ay! You chill? I got a gift if your chill!". Obviously confused, me and my friend stopped and just looked at eachother, almost like "you heard that right? I'm not just hearing things?". As if to answer, the captain of the sloop hollered again "Yo, if your chill fire a single cannon shot!". Curiosity is more powerful than capitalism, as it took not 2 seconds for me to hear a single cannon shot fire from our ship, as my friend simply said "screw it, what's the worst that can happen?". I was ready to blast this captain at the slightest hint of us getting tricked, but the ship remained anchored, quite a distance from our own. We finally finished unloading our loot, and went back to my ship, greeted by the captain, just... emoting on our deck. They just stopped, pointed said "left a row boat docked to your ship..." and leaped off the side of the deck into the water, yelling "UNTILL WE MEET AGAIN!!" Not gonna lie, until the sloop had sailed off into the literal sunset, like a perfectly timed escape, I thought we were tricked. Whoever that was, thank you for the 7 chests and like, metric ton of loot you left! That small interaction kinda restored my faith in the community side of this game! All that aside,has anyone else encountered this ship, or its captain? I would love to reach out to her and ask if this was the only time she did this, and why it was done in the first place....
Edit: I FOUND IT, AND I GOT A PIC BEFORE I HAD TO LOG OFF, YES! Unfortunately, the captain was no where to be found, maybe looting the island? Anyways, captain, I hope I meet you again!

I’m still relatively new here. I’m in the process writing my whole story because I want folks here to have context as I talk about my experiences. But it’s taking a long time. My first drafts are a jumbled mess that need constant editing. I think it reflects how much I got fucked up. Anyway, I want to participate, so I’m starting with this.
I’m here because it’s the only place that makes “that which did not make sense” make sense to me. I need your opinions to find out if I’m correct in my assumption that my story is a BPD scenario.
I wouldn’t allow myself to feel anger towards my (suspected) pwBPD. Not because I’m a fool, but because she’s still nice, but probably not really.
I was suddenly discarded in February. It was weird. The ostensible devaluation took place in the span of 36 hours. I couldn’t fucking believe it. But in the following weeks, despite her trying to cut me out, she was also super nice. Acted like she would listen, trying to show me that she cared and how much this sucks. But she will only listen. She refuses to talk about what happened. She tried at first because when we re-established contact, I really put the screws to her. But her responses were esoteric, contained non-sequiturs and just didn’t make sense at all. Since then, I’ve seen some anger, but she has always apologized unprompted. She continues to try to be kind even though it’s clear that she has blown the whistle on the relationship. She said initially she wanted to be friends but would understand if I didn’t. But a lot of what has followed strongly resembles push-pull; though she maintains that there’s “no chance we’re getting back together”. I don’t care anymore. I literally caught myself singing along to the Taylor Swift song last week, even though I’m not much of a fan.
So, anger. I wouldn’t let myself feel it because it felt misplaced. I directed it at myself for a while, then realized that it didn’t make sense. Then I directed it at “the sky” for a bit. Now I’m letting it land on her. When I say “land on her”, I mean in my mind. I promise I’m not saying mean things to this poor girl. She isn’t also saying any to me. If I’ve endured any abuse in this situation, it’s simply lovebombing/manipulation. I’ve yet to experience her wrath. But I know it exists. She told me stories during the “100% trust” phase that gave me a chill or two. Some of the experiences I’ve read here have taught me how ridiculously lucky I am to have not seen the flip side of the “idealization coin”.
But I am mad at her. Angry as fuck. She came after me so hard. Chased me down. Studied me. Mimicked me. Denied the mimicry. Continued to mimic after the call-out. I was fine. I had actually just recently come to peace with life after a lot of upheaval. I’m getting angrier as I come to understand that she likely sniffed that out. But I’m determined to not let it consume me. If I can reasonably confirm that this is a BPD scenario, then I would never let my anger fly at her. It would hurt the two of us, and everyone we surround ourselves with.
But I have to let myself be angry with her. Even if she’s still “sweet”. Clearly, she’s not sweet like someone who’s trying to become your lover. That part is over. But now I see a woman who is in her own head, doing the gymnastics, who is actually decent at being civil. But it’s not for me, it’s for her. I want to meet her in the middle, but since I’ve perceived that she split on me, I don’t know what to do. But independent of any advice or inspiration I’ve received over the past few months, I’ve told myself that I’m allowed to be mad at her. I can feel anything I want to feel. It’s my perfect right. As long as I don’t abuse someone, I can think my own thoughts at home.
I worry that anger is poisonous and transmits to others. I don’t want to entertain it, but at the end of the day, I have to believe I’m allowed to be mad at her.
Whatever she’s going through is hers. Since she won’t talk about what we went through together, I’m allowed to be mad. I hate that I still have compassion for her. I want to be indifferent, which is how she mostly seems to me at the moment. But for now, if I get mad at her in a moment, I let it happen. and then I let it go. A cycle of my own. Which makes me empathize with this woman whom I care about. Hopefully for not much longer.

I've known 35f(1) and 35f(2) since we were in high-school and 29NB since maybe 2019 (they have been dating 35f(2) for maybe 8ish years). We planned a friends trip to my parent's house on the other side of the US from us. They're well-to-do with an awesome desert home and they love my friends (they helped pay for all of us to come out) so I was really looking forward to having a great time with my pals. However, I started to notice some issues after one of them (35f(2)) snapped at me for putting her on the spot while trying to get her cookie she ordered back from my folks who didn't know it was her's.
They would walk off without me A LOT but always waited for eachother. They wanted to take pictures with eachother but not with me (pretty sure my mom was the only one who took pictures of me with them). Multiple times they stepped on my feet to create a conversation circle which basically pushed me away from them everytime. There were times when I'd try to join in on a joke and they all stopped laughing and got very quiet. Sometimes I did feel seen or included but it was maybe a third of the trip and I get the feeling they may have been talking about me behind my back since the way they were acting was so clique-ish when I was around.
They pointed out they were put-off by the fact I didn't get a to-go box for these tacos from this nice restaurant we visited in northern Mexico because they thought the waiter was upset I was being wasteful (somehow the tacos had no flavor and were weirdly chewy which made me nauseous but I genuinely tried to be polite about it). When I apologized to my friends for it, 35f(1) said "don't apologize to me, apologize to the waiter." (They believed the waiter may have been poor and this act made me seem entitled.) I'm sure there were other things about me that bothered them but they haven't said anything to me. I think I was also clearly more upset, irritable and sad as time went on as a result of their avoiding me which only made things worse.
In the past when I've confronted them about things, they minimize things and get upset/ mad with me for bringing up issues and sometimes will tell me it never happened the way I remember. I've traveled with both 35f(1 and 2) in the past and I know what it's like when things feel healthy and comfortable and this was not it.
I think an important thing to note here, too, is that I was pregnant and dealing with intense nausea during the trip so I couldn't always be around them but I obviously take 0 offense to them having a good time without me the few times I couldn't join...it's the times I was around that got to me. I also have reason to believe I may be on the spectrum though I've never been diagnosed. I guess I'm wondering how to navigate this with them? How to I approach them about this?
tl;dr- It felt as though my friends acted like they were in a clique without me while vacationing at my parent's place. How do I talk to them about it?
edit: fixed some paragraph issues to make this more legible

Lido 84 is, so far, my favorite restaurant in Italy. I had their 9-course "History" menu with the "Rigatoni Cacio e Pepe en Vessie" added two weeks ago. In terms of taste, it truly stands out from many other good restaurants, not only in Italy but around the world. I can't wait to go back and try their other tasting menus.
The only dish I wasn't a fan of on the menu was the "Pennoni Pasta and Sea Urchins." I've had much better taste of sea urchin in the past, and the texture of the pasta wasn't quite what I expected. It was a bit like a sticky panne-shaped dough that was still hard in the center.
With that being said, I did have some experiences that I would like to share:

1. Lido 84's remote location presented a bit of a challenge. I left early from Limone sul Garda, arriving at the restaurant gate 20 minutes before my reservation time at 7:30 pm. But the gate was still closed. Before I could ring the bell, a kind man, I believe a neighbor, informed me that they only open at or after 7:30 pm. This was a surprise, but I later learned online that it might be a cultural difference. Arriving too early at Italian restaurants can sometimes be seen as rude (please correct me if it is wrong).
   
2. Lido 84 offers non-alcoholic pairings for their menus, and while some were interesting creations, I felt they didn't always enhance the flavor of the dishes themselves.
   
3. Mine was delicious, but at a nearby table, I heard the staff yell "Stop!". They were trying to prevent the guests from eating their "Rigatoni Cacio e Pepe en Vessie." The staff explained that the chef didn’t approved of the dish and would send back and remake it after tasting a sample taken from their "vessie." I understand the chef can't taste beforehand since the opening of the "vessie" is part of the presentation, but it was a bit comical nonetheless.
   
4. The wait times between some courses were quite long, with the longest exceeding 20 minutes. I overheard conversations between staff and other tables mentioning that there might be some new staffs in the kitchen, which could explain the delays. However, this was not something I've typically encountered at fine dining restaurants.
   
5. After finishing our shared "main" dessert, we sat for over 10 minutes and paid the bill, preparing to leave. However, the staff stopped us and apologized, explaining they had forgotten to serve our final dessert course. This lapse did detract a bit from the professionalism of the experience. It's doubtful that the service lapse was the reason they didn't earn their second Michelin star, as the food itself was certainly worthy of the recognition.
   

I would like to add a last note that Lido 84 reservations for weekdays are quite easy to snag. Just be sure to be on the website when they open!

Well I guess that I have to start somewhere, so why not the end! I’ve been disowned for the umpteenth time by my parents (or rather by my mum because over the years, Dad has just learned to go along with whatever she says out of duress!) This has all been as a result of my having visited them in Hay ( a 700 kilometre round trip might I add) because my Dad’s brother passed away this week and it was Mother’s Day. I thought that I’d go to show my condolences and to wish my mother and sister who also lives there a happy Mother’s Day and bring them all some hand made gifts, I’m a bit sentimental like that.
I have taken to the craft of making pebble art. The gift that I made for my mother was of an image depicting my family with my parents, my sister and I and my brother who’s passed away, as he is handing my mum a bunch of flowers. I made one for my dad depicting he and my Nan (his mother) fishing at their favourite fishing spot; my Nan passed away just last month as well and I thought it’d be a nice gesture, then I gave my sister one as well with a quote about sisters being joined by the heart.
The first day, Friday, that my husband, daughter and I came there was okay. It always is especially when I’ve not seen them for six months or more! We catch up, mum talks about her very many health conditions, she then complains a little bit about everything and everyone but it’s not over the top at this point because she and my dad are kept busy opening gifts and seemingly happy to see us! But we had decided before coming that we were going to stay in separate accommodation for the weekend with the knowledge that things with my mother usually go sour very quickly! And if we’re not having to stay at their home when it does then we can at least retain some mental stability throughout our trip! This would normally be a point in which I’d let out a bit of a chuckle or if I’m texting or writing a social media post, that I’d add the LOL at the end of that statement, simply due to the stupid realisation that unfortunately it is so very true that it’s almost comical, remembering in my mind the very many times that her very predictable unstable behaviour kicks in at around the 24 hour mark and doesn’t often dissipate until well after we’ve left if not months later! I have no clue as to why I’m still surprised by this occurrence?! Perhaps it’s because it is so unbelievably erratic and shocking to anyone that witnesses it that still even now it’s hard not only to watch unfold but to believe!
But sadly as a result of these personally flips, she lashes out in anger, she can become nasty and callous, her comments are cold and uncaring, she can become physically aggressive, and the damage done during these times can be hard to ever overcome, especially if she aims any comment or remark at you! It is during these times that you know in your soul that she has not a single care for you, not an ounce, and that the only attention or compassion shown towards you as her child or friend is one of obligation out of her need to keep up appearances with those who are still weaved in her web of “social media” deception! She wouldn’t dare lift a finger for anyone in person! But just the fact that we pre decided to obtain alternative accommodation was possibly one of the triggers I was already prepared would set her off, as we would usually choose to stay with her and dad in their spare room over crowded with belongings of the past and present, not unlike the rest of their home.
With this alone, one would see that she has an overwhelming need to retain old memories, be them bad or good. She still literally keeps every ounce of clothing I’ve ever passed on to her since well before I had children which was 27 years ago! Looking in her wardrobe, there are outfits there I remember her wearing when I was a teenager! Her bathroom still retains the $2 gifts (still in their packaging) that us kids bought for her from school Mother’s Day stalls, and the Mary Kay makeup I used to steal when I was attending high school!
Her kitchen still holds the Amway cookware she purchased for hundreds of dollars before I can remember! And to make matters worse, even some of the food in her pantry is from supermarkets no longer operating! Over the years, her hoarding has been a bit of a thorn in dad’s side, having lived a life of drifting from house to house, town to town, moving around as often as they have, having to cart it all along with them and something us kids (myself, my brother and sister) have always found funny to pick on her about, but in writing this, it is easy to see that her need to keep the past fresh in her mind and under her nose is a sickness all In itself.
Whilst we were visiting, we visited my sister in her little unit. It’s like walking back into the 70s and equally as much as a step back in time like my mother’s house! My sister has been diagnosed with schizophrenia which when first diagnosed was apparently drug induced, however; going from the lifestyle we were forced to live as the children to my parents and their lifestyle choices plus my brother and I having been diagnosed with conditions and disorders of our own, putting the puzzle pieces together as to how we’ve all accumulated mental health diagnoses isn’t that difficult taking into consideration that neither one of my parents exerted any kind of maternal instincts at all! And not even as us kids have grown and struggled through our lives, we had always been told by them that once we turned 18 we’d no longer be their “problem” anymore!
My sister’s name is Julie. She moved in with my mum and dad after one of her countless admissions to the psychiatric hospital in Bendigo, having absconded from their independent living facility which is meant to be a monitored introduction back into society after a mental health admission, but she always left before she gave the chance for them to find her accommodation that wasn’t with her abusive ex husband and 4 children.
Sitting down with her in her home, hearing all about the time she’s lived in Hay both with and near my parents, how our mum would bail her up sometimes (which had happened recently) even physically, how she’s thrown dishes at her and how she abuses her denying her food for being overweight on a daily basis… how she calls her fat and crazy… there’s literally a Myriad of abuse in all its forms being dished out to Julie, and yet, because she has nowhere else to go, like the situation my brother was in living with them on and off before he passed away (under questionable circumstances in my opinion) she has no choice but to endure it… and it saddens me to hear about it all let alone see it going on right before my eyes! Especially when the exact same denigrating comments about being useless, overweight, a waste of a life and criticism about the way she’s living her life, the choices she’s making and what she chooses to eat etc etc was also drilled into my brother by my parents and whispered to all that they spoke too for many many years before by brother lost his life.
I know through my own experience having lived with her that her poisonous mouth can lead a person to questioning your mere existence, your reason for living and remove all self esteem in a single spat with her! In 2013 I took an overdose due to a gross level of mental health issues and past trauma which I couldn’t deal with. My parents were living with us at the time and my youngest daughter exhibited some challenging behaviours… my mum found it difficult to cope with her however she made no attempt at patience or compassion and so in a fleeting moment she’s said to my daughter “if I was your mother I would’ve killed myself a long time ago!”
Wow! Just WOW! The above mentioned examples of how toxic my mother is… after only explaining to you the very tip of the iceberg in these few paragraphs, even I am second guessing writing this at all, and I’m finding it hard to fathom how I can rehash the past and get into more detail about the really bad situations! Not to mention, go into my life right from childhood until now with her and my father which is yet to come!
Writing this down, whether I share it here or not is going to be a huge journey for me that’ll take a lot of courage and open some really raw emotions… bring back old memories that I’ve suppressed and disassociated myself from… there will undoubtedly be many trigger points that I will go into which some people might become affected by, including me, but mine is a life that was, is and continues to be a challenge day in and day out… it’s something I’ve had to survive, a life and reality that I still struggle so much with but least attempt to cope with and in some way, I hope that my story will be able to shine a light on just how the importance of love, attention, affection and nurturing in our childhood really do mould the person we eventually become…

My uncle passed away recently, and i’ve missed some work. my junkie brother disappeared and left his two children in my care. my pipes just busted in my kitchen and the plumber put me on a payment plan. my family is in no position to help me. i am usually okay financially. i am honestly just going through a rough patch. 2 months ago, i was making care packages, handing them out to the homeless in my city. today, im the one that needs that help. I have an amazon wishlist with necessities & food to help us get by, i have paypal & cashapp. anything can help. even if you can order some groceries through walmart or something , im not too sure how to set up an amazon fresh registry or even if you can. if you can’t help that’s okay too, just please pray for me. the food bank near me is always done passing out food by the time i get out of work, so that isn’t an option. and i can’t afford to keep missing work. i’m only 23, i turned 23 last month. i feel like im so close to burning out. so if you can help, thank you so much. to everyone: thank you for reading. i hope u have an amazing day.

Nagresign na ako sa US startup company na 'to dati pero hinabol nila 'ko. Although junior FE dev lang, maayos talaga 'kong magwork. More than 2 years na rin kasi experience ko.
I really like my boss, he removed my time tracker & allowed me to work on whatever task I wanted. Kaso nakafocus s'ya sa paghahanap ng investors ngayon.
Kaya yung nagma-manage sa projects, yung BE dev. He's been micromanaging me for 3 weeks na. I've also been working more than 8 hours a day (of course not coding continuously)
Tatlo lang kami sa engg team, including my FS lead.
I only earn $880/month, mas malaki pa sahod ko sa previous work complete with benefits.
I don't have fallback/other jobs & I know it's difficult to get another opportunity, pero I'm miserable everyday.
How can everyone praise my work all the time & he still finds a way to make me feel I'm lacking and irresponsible?
So I'm sending my resignation again on Friday.

Hi, I’ve been thinking about setting up a pc sometime in the next two months. I want to use it mainly for work but at the same time still play games like Elden Ring in FHD or HD.

What will you be doing with this PC? Be as specific as possible, and include specific games or programs you will be using.

A lot of coding, and playing games like Elden ring on the side.

What is your maximum budget before rebates/shipping/taxes?

1500-2200

When do you plan on building/buying the PC? Note: beyond a week or two from today means any build you receive will be out of date when you want to buy.

In 2-3 months

What, exactly, do you need included in the budget? (ToweOS/monitokeyboard/mouse/etc)

A full engronmic setup, I also plan to use it as a personal server.

Which country (and state/province) will you be purchasing the parts in? If you're in US, do you have access to a Microcenter location?

Canada

If reusing any parts (including monitor(s)/keyboard/mouse/etc), what parts will you be reusing? Brands and models are appreciated.

Maybe my current keyboard. It is a simple microsoft work keyboard

Will you be overclocking? If yes, are you interested in overclocking right away, or down the line? CPU and/or GPU?

No, maybe down the line both CPU and GPU

Are there any specific features or items you want/need in the build? (ex: SSD, large amount of storage or a RAID setup, CUDA or OpenCL support, etc)

I don’t really know what features I need as of now but for storage. 1TB SSD is fine with 32GB RAM. A RAID setup will be appreciated

Do you have any specific case preferences (Size like ITX/microATX/mid-towefull-tower, styles, colors, window or not, LED lighting, etc), or a particular color theme preference for the components?

LED lighting

Do you need a copy of Windows included in the budget? If you do need one included, do you have a preference?

No

Extra info or particulars:

My friends and I've been playing for the last few days and caught up the best that I can as a F2P(but I wanna buy some passes to see if it's worth it later).
My biggest issue is the getting gold. In hindsight, I did spread the early gold really thin with leveling up early characters, useless artifacts, leveling multiple R weapons, etc. The issue that I have is how little gold you get for doing the other content. I had some luck with getting "gold" dungeons, one where you hunt the gold goblins and the other where you break the chests. Between my 3 times getting those gates, I think I got a total of 7k gold, if that.
As part of the issue, getting gold from the achievements and other rewards also aren't as much as you should get.
I haven't played much gacha games but I've seen my friends play it and I don't remember if either of us have played any where getting the regular currency is one of the hardest things to do in the game. If you don't have any issue with getting gold from the content, please let me know what I'm missing or not understanding

How do I get fulfilled in Christ? How do I get peace and joy reading the Bible? Every single day I worry about salvation, I have major anxiety and stress, a porn addiction, a drug addiction, I’m depressed, and every time I try to develop my relationship with God more it feels like I am doing ALL the work. How do I surrender to Christ? I’ve heard multiple times it’s a daily choice. I get that, but isn’t Jesus supposed to give us strength to do that? I’m weary and burdened despite what Matthew 11:28-30 says. I’m constantly overthinking, doubting, and struggling to do anything God related. I truly hate it. I keep going back to drugs, porn, masturbation, etc. I am fulfilled for a few hours at least there, but I am just miserable when I read the Bible. I feel like a POS when reading it, I’m only convicted, I feel no love. I’m scared to talk to God a lot because I feel he is mad at me, I enjoy things that are not sinful but most things I enjoy are sinful. I’m so tired, exhausted, drained, etc. What do I even do anymore? I want to be on fire for God but I can’t do this. I’m lazy when it comes to that. I never feel a real connection and am doing it out of obligation rather than love because I fear punishment. I’m so lost in my walk with Christ.

I just wanted to share an experience I felt was strange. I’ve been insured with GEICO for 2 years now and enrolled in their DriveEasy program to save money on my policy while in college. I just graduated and have been watching my DriveEasy score drop from good to average over the years and not fully understanding why (I’m a pretty sane and chill driver, and tried to follow the tips suggested to no avail). So I started looking into how this could impact my GEICO policy, and after reading unfavorable experiences, I thought I’d rather unenroll from their program now and lose my discount.
After chatting with an agent who said my policy would be updated within 10-15 minutes, I received this message! I just think it’s completely wild that I’m locked in to providing them with all my driving data. I guess it’s time to shop around. I wish I never enrolled in the DriveEasy program in the first place.
“Thank you for contacting GEICO.
We received your request to unenroll in the DriveEasy program. I sincerely apologize, upon review the participation in the DriveEasy program is required as a condition of your policy. We would be unfortunately unable to offer you a policy that did not require the DriveEasy program. If you would like to cancel the current policy simply reply to this email with the date you would like the coverage to end and we would be happy to close out the policy on your behalf.
I am sorry for any inconvenience this may cause.”

I had neuropsychological testing done recently after realizing that I have a lot of ADHD-like symptoms (as in, all 9 of the inattentive symptoms and maybe half of the hyperactive/impulsive symptoms) and they’ve been getting me in a lot of trouble at work. There are definitely issues outside of work too, but since I live alone it doesn’t really affect anyone else.
The neuropsychologist told me that my symptoms support ADHD diagnosis, but she’s unsure because I tested in the normal range on most of the cognitive tests and did better in school than would be expected of someone with untreated ADHD. But I think that’s complicated by the fact that I was the kid in school who could do well on tests without studying, and my mother also confirmed that I was very inconsistent (to say the least) about doing homework and got off task all the time.
After the testing, I got referred to a therapist to get some help with the symptoms. I told the therapist about the stuff I’ve been told off for at work and my history of said symptoms (not mentioning the testing or my ADHD suspicions at first), and without pause she asked if I’ve ever been tested for ADHD. I checked my therapy chart later and it looks like she listed F90.9 which I think is one of the ICD-10 codes for ADHD (do therapists typically diagnose in the US?)
I do have a regular appointment with my PCP coming up where I’ll definitely ask about other potential things that could be causing ADHD-like symptoms, but do you guys think it would be a good idea to get another opinion from a specialist?

Hi everyone! I was just diagnosed with fibromyalgia in March and was prescribed duloxetine then. I had a two month follow up with my rheumatologist recently. It was a virtual visit and the actual time with the doctor lasted less than 15 mins. I shared with her that the duloxetine helped at first, but in the last couple weeks I have noticed increasing pain returning. She asked if I would be interested in taking gabapentin to which my response was “I don’t know” so she went ahead and prescribed it and told me we could check in a month from now.
I left that appointment feeling like I should have advocated for myself more, but I don’t even know what to ask for. I knew nothing about fibromyalgia before being diagnosed. This sub has been really helpful, but there is so much to learn.
So my question is: What are things you wish you knew when you were first diagnosed with fibromyalgia??? Whether it be lifestyle changes, things to ask your doctor, medications, gadgets etc. I looked through this sub for posts like this and didn’t see any recently, so I figured it would be helpful for all us newbies!
PS. If anyone has opinions on the situation that led me to this question, feel free to share! I haven’t started taking the gabapentin yet and after reading some people’s reviews on here, I’m a little hesitant.

I've been hearing this for a LONG time, practically my whole life now, and it's one of the stupidest things I've ever heard. As a millennial, many of us are complaining about "feeling old" or having this and that pain. What they don't realize is they're no different than the people before them, and just like them, they are doing nothing to correct the problem by staying healthy, active, and taking care of their body. Doing so makes such a huge impact on your life in so many ways that there really is no excuse to do nothing.
My granddad is 85 and he still goes out hunting on a regular basis and spends a lot of time doing physical activities because of it. If he was sitting around all day he'd never be able to do what he does and statistically wouldnt be here.
There's a reason why people who are active see the doctor less, take less meds, have less mental health issues, are happier, and just live longer. It all starts with you, us. Don't let people who have been sitting around for most of their life tell you things get bad at a certain point. Just because it did for them, doesn't mean it has to for you. Don't do what they did and take control. Prove them and everyone else wrong and then pass it on to others so they can experience a better life as well.

The novel begins September 3, 2006, a Sunday. In "physical time," our reality, Andre Agassi played and lost his final match of his career. Steve Irwin, the croc hunter, would die the following day from a stingray's three barbed venomous spinal blades puncturing his heart. Senator Barak Obama was still denying he was intending to run for President (he would announce in February 2007.) The number 1 song in America and the UK is Sexyback by Justin Timberlake. Egypt warned of Palestinian terror attacks against Israelis vacationing in Sinai. Charlie Sheen turned 41. 200 Taliban are killed in a major battle in Kandahar, Afghanistan. Iraqi leaders announce the capture of the #2 leader of Al Qaeda. Europe's space agency purposely crash-lands a lunar probe into the moon.
In short, nothing, on balance seems to have happened in the world that has any particular world-historical or even US-historical import. Just a day. Even searching back 4 extra days from September 3 - since we are told that the man viewing the art installation is now on his fifth straight day in the museum - nothing all that *important* seems to have happened on any of those dates, the way saying a novel is starting on June 6, 1944, or (obviously) September 10, 2001, or July 16, 1945 or November 22, 1962 would be of course trying to tell us something.
Q: why is Delillo's purpose (is there one?) for telling us this specific date? Why is it important that the man is there on September 3, 2006 watching this: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a31q2ZQcETw over and over.
Q: who is the man? Delillo himself? Just a random unnamed character? Is it definitely Finley and Elster who are the two men who come into the room? The description of the older man "long white hair braided at the nape" [p.7, Scribner] certainly seems to suggest it is Elster, described in Ch. 1 as a man "with silvery hair, as always, was braided down into a short ponytail." If it is definitely them, what does it mean they attended a museum show together? Anything?
This is not the first Delillo novel to open with a scene where a movie, and anonymous characters' responses to watching it, is central to the narrative - Players opens with a movie being shown on a plane that is basically a silent movie of a terrorist machine-gun attack on waspy golfers, only accompanied by a pianist (yes a pianist) in the airplane bar filling in the suspense with improvised show tunes - and it is not the first to open with an examination of an art installation - Underworld, after the fantastic baseball game section - opens at Klara Sax's airplane bomber art installation commune. But this opening seems to introduce two characters obliquely, and of course only if you've paid close attention to the description of Elster's hair could you think back to it being him, perhaps.
"The nature of the film permitted total concentration and also depended on it." "The less there was to see, the harder he looked, the more he saw." [p.5, Scribner]
Q:Who is this person watching and why should we care?
Q: Did the opening sequence provide you any insight other than , perhaps, confusion? Something other than "what the hell did I just read?" What? Does your reaction to the opening sequence change when you know (if you did before this post) that the Psycho installation was and is real?
Moving on to Chapter 1 [p. 17, Scribner], we learn that we are on Day 10 of a 12-day period of time that relates the initial relationship between Elster and Finley. Finley, who is probably in his early to mid-30s and 73-year-old Elster are spending time at Elster's house in the desert to record a one-take movie of Elster's testimony of what it was like to serve in an administration that went to war under less than honest circumstances.
Our narrator is Jim Finley, a documentary filmmaker who has made exactly one film about Jerry Lewis's telethon appearances - Lewis, a "rampaging comic" to whom Elster would merely be a "straight man." [p.27] Elster, who Finley also describes as "not a man who might make space for even the gentlest correction," [p.22] is a non-political theorist being brought in to an administration to provide narrative to their war. I've seen references to him being based on Paul Wolfowitz, the political scientists who became Deputy SecDef in the Bush II Administration who famously nearly swallowed his comb to wet it to comb his hair in an image that likely sealed his fate in D.C. as unserious and ridiculous who was then shuffled off to the World Bank, but would Delillo ape the man AND mention him in the narrative? If so, that seems clumsy.
Q: Do you even take Elster serious as a character or believable as a "brain" behind the narrative of an administration going to war? A man who speaks in bad koans and aphorisms like "Time becomes blind." [p.23] and who reads Louis Zukovsky into the night? (Zukovsky famously worked on an epic poem called "A" for over almost 50 years, finally finishing it a few years before his death in 1978.)
Finley tells us: "To Elster, sunset was human invention, our perceptual arrangement of light and space into elements of wonder." [p.18, Scribner]. Elster has come to the desert to seek - something - we know not what and are not told definitively - but his narrative of what his role was in Washington was to create a interpretation of the "closed world" for the "plotters, the strategists" [p. 28] and ends up delivering to Finley what I think Finley was after - the cynical idea that Elster was giving form and shape to the government's bullshit narrative - "The state has to lie. There is no lie in war or in preparation for war that can't be defended. We went beyond this. We tried to create new realities overnight, careful sets of words that resemble advertising slogans in memorability and repeatability."
Q: Is Elster ultimately right? Did the country have a "shadowy need" [p.34] for such a narrative? See, for instance: "Let's roll." [probably in reality, "Let's roll it" referring to a beverage cart to break into the cockpit.]
"Shock and awe." "Global War on Terror" "Slam dunk" "WMDs" "The Surge" And perhaps most infamously "Enhanced Interrogation Techniques"
At the ends of the chapter, we get what counts as a cliffhanger in this slim novel: Elster's adult daughter would be coming for a visit, Jessie who was "otherworldly" [p. 36].

I had a situationship for a couple of months. I'm too old for this shit but it broke me inside out. I feel so empty. Devastated. Betrayed.
I met this guy online. He just came out of a long-term relationship and naiindintihan ko kung hindi pa siya ready magmahal ng ulit ng buo. Habang ako, never been in a relationship.
First few weeks, sweet na agad siya. About a month passed, he said he loves me. I only said I like him in return though. But I would thank him for making my days better. He made me feel so special. I felt seen. For the first time, finally.
Am I getting love bombed? Maybe he's just confused? Missing his ex? That's what I assumed.
Weeks passed again, I noticed he was getting distant. I had a hunch but I just shrugged it off. I trust him. I wouldn't jump into conclusions and wait for his explanation. He's probably just busy. I respect his personal time.
He was losing interest. I felt that but tried to deny it.
Hanggang wala nang chats. In another call. Online pero walang reply. I spent nights worrying if he was doing fine.
The once long sweet messages turned into a one-word reply. He went cold. Baka busy lang. Or may problem.
I asked him multiple times if he was okay. If we were okay. And he doesn't want to talk anymore, he could just let me know. He said I was only overthinking things.
I thought about asking if we should end 'us', instead of me waiting for him everyday, wondering what went wrong. Even though I like him a lot. At natutunan ko na siyang mahalin. Slowly.
Then the day finally came where he said it. That we should only stay as friends. Umiwas na lang daw siya because I gave him mixed signals. I couldn't reciprocate his feelings. I failed to give him assurance. He said I only made him feel like a friend. And rejected him too many times. I thought I was clear when I said I like him. Or maybe that wasn't enough.
Yes, I'm at fault, I admit it. Yun nga lang, for me, his love was too early. And we lacked communication. I failed to return his energy.
He's easy to love. He's a nice guy. He's got a warm personality. And I like him a lot. Perhaps I'm just emotionally unavailable. I remember telling him I'm still emotionally unstable though.
I also found out that he was already talking to another girl while still talking to me. My hunch was right. I felt betrayed. Still keeping me when there's already someone else.
I was in shock. I can't even eat without vomiting. Pati pagtulog. My body is upset.
I wonder how he felt nung time na hindi ko naiparamdam sa kanya na gusto ko din siya. I already apologized about that.
I feel so empty. Beyond sad.
Though I know we were bound to end due to our different perspectives about love, I was still in shock. All I could do was cry.
I had so many plans for us. I was saving up planning to fly to him and break the distance. Spend time with him even just for a few hours. I was only waiting for summer to end. But it won't happen. Not anymore.
People change. Feelings fade.
He wanted a fast-paced relationship while I wanted a slow-burn.
You see, we view love differently.
To me, love is like fire.
Falling in love too soon would only burn faster, just like how fire instantly turns dried leaves into ashes.
I wanted to take my time to know him deeper. All of his fears and desires. To be able to love him in the right ways he deserved. Sana.
I was still warming up to him during those times he said he loved me. To give him a love that lasts. I wanted to keep the fire burning for the both of us. Sana.
Despite everything, I still like him. I miss him. My baby.
He stirred up a mcflurry in my heart.
And maybe, just maybe, when the universe allows, I'd be able to find someone who shares the same values as I do.
I hope you don't mind the typos. I'm sick and sleep deprived.
And please, if ever, don't post this on social media. I just want to get this off my chest.
(I know I'm such a fool for gaslighting myself)