I’m compiling a list, and it’s starting to make sense.
🎶I know all the lyrics to all the albums from my childhood, and had to learn it’s not socially acceptable to sing an entire song from start to finish in polite conversation.
🧐I don’t do anything “like a gentleman” (that’s a joke I make in 12-step meetings because I can’t drink “like a gentleman.”). If I like something, I can’t stop thinking about it. My cat, Perla, for instance.
🧶When I don’t have a knitting or crochet project on hand I want to gnaw off my own arm.
👣I have to think about what my body is doing whenever I go down stairs. I have no idea if anyone can tell, but I’m so scared of falling.
⏳Again with 12-step meetings: can social interactions just be about taking turns? I can listen so much better if I know I’ll have a turn eventually, or if I don’t, it’s because it didn’t come around to me yet. And they’re 1 hour long. And they start on time, so reliably.
📏Rules that don’t make sense shouldn’t exist, but otherwise, people should follow the rules. I should write them.

Where would yall rank TLOP if it still didn’t have Saint Pablo? Without Saint Pablo, the half of the album after wolves all feels like it quickly loses focus. The album would probably go down like 4 spots in my ranking. It’s interesting that Fade was the last song like I wonder what his vision was for that being the closer

Little backstory: my friend and i have known each other ther for about 10 years. Our parents used to date but it didnt work out. We decided to remain friends and her mom would claim i was another one of her children. It never really felt like it but i figured my expectations were too high
Close to 3 years ago my partner and i moved in with said friend and her husband. Less than a month before the lease was up, she told me she had decided to move back in with her mom. My partner and i werent expecting this and were not in the financial position to pretty much go anywhere. Semi-luckily, her mother-in-law offered us a room to rent in her house. Id been told stories about how crazy she was but we were desperate
Things go okay for awhile. My friends dad ends up moving in too and we end up sharing a bathroom. We ended up having to set boundaries with him and basically said if you keep overstepping, youll have to start paying for your own toilet paper (which he never bought)
He ended up throwing a massive hissy fit and was yelling up and down the hallway. My partner and i locked ourselves in our room and kept quiet, but we could hear our “landlord” agreeing with him and practically egging him on
We ended up going on facebook to express that we felt unsafe and why. The first post was kept hidden but the second didnt default like i thought it would. Landlord saw and got upset. My friend also saw and had a panic attack because even though we didnt name anyone, and multiple people lived there, she knew it was about her dad.
Landlord went and told her dad that we had purposely given her a panic attack. He started storming around the house again in a rage and was threatening to “rip those bitches necks off” nothing came of it as he left the house but we were terrified.
The landlord ended up kicking us out but that was whatever because we no longer felt safe and planned to leave soon anyway
While packing, we needed to get more boxes and my dad decided to take us out to lunch. The landlord entered our room and took pictures of it and posted them on facebook, tagging us and complaining how we had left it in such horrible conditions (we were moving, of course it was messy!) she also tried saying we abandoned our cat with no food or water. He had both and we had only been gone for 4 hours!
This whole time i had been texting my friends mom, trying to get her to help with the situation, but she did nothing. Then she tried blaming us for not trying to to have a sit down conversation with everyone.
She had space but didnt offer us a place to stay. Whatever her house she can decide who lives there
We ended up moving into my dads backyard and lived in a tent for a good while until his live in landlord took pitty on us and cleaned out another room
Living there wasnt easy as there were a lot of drugs around. My dad doesnt use but had moved into his friends place to help him gain some mental stability. There was plenty of yelling and slurs being called out but things somehow worked out by the time we moved out
Part way, we thought we may have been getting kicked out as my dad had been. This was before we could find a place so we had asked if we could stay with friend and her mom for a bit. She said her landlord wouldnt like it but she hadnt even bothered to ask him.
A corworker of mine id only known for a few months told me she was trying to figure out us staying with her family of 5 in a 2 bedroom (different story) but someone id known for a decade and claimed to be family couldnt be bothered and told me to buy a house with my finacially unable dad
My friend doesnt know the whole story about how her dad threatened to kill us but she knows enough. Shes mentally unwell so she told me to not tell her until she was ready. Shes never asked for the rest of it.
Her family now keeps trying to act like everything is normal and nothing ever happened. I dont want them in my life anymore but i dont know how to confront them about it. I simply avoid hanging out with them anymore and give lame excuses. My friend keeps bringing up her mother in law and dad and it makes me panic everytime
I recently proposed and she said yes! Theres a group chat my now fiancée posted in in excitment with all the people i want to avoid, including the friend and her mother. She asked if she could post about it on facebook. I told her to wait and she later asked again and i ignored it. Turns out she posted about it anyway. I havent even posted about it! All my friends and possibly family i only talk to on Facebook got to find out from this woman i dont even want a relationship with anymore
Idk this post is long so some details were left out but im frustrated af. I need to talk to them but im worried about my friends mental health. I dont like her much anymore but that doesnt mean i should be a dick. But im also being a dick by not saying anything

Like there’s gotta be millions of bands with billions of albums, so how do people keep track of what they listen to and what the best are? I’ve listened to about 50 bands’ entire, or most of their discography, and if one of their songs played, I probably couldn’t tell you the name of it 😭. So how are mfs listening to hundreds of bands and able to remember them so well?

A couple months ago, I finally decided to take the dive into Prince and explore his whole catalog -- that's a longer story, but the fact that like 80% of the songs are about sex and romance and half of the catalog is slow songs had put me off for a while.
But I'm so glad I did, because among all that are truly profound message pieces like "The Rainbow Children" and "Live 4 Love" (and beyond that, I could go on a different tangent about how Prince doesn't get enough credit having talked about social justice).
But to keep it contained, I'm currently listening to "Live 4 Love - Early Version" on loop, and I just have to gush with people I know will also appreciate it. The first 6 minutes of the song are good, but the song keeps keeping itself from really taking off. Every time it's about to drop, Prince intentionally deflates the energy and repeats the words "live for love" over and over. He truly wanted that to be the message of the song.
And then in the last minute and a half or so, the song reaches this peak that even the album version never quite made it to, and in the lyrics, he's basically saying, "What, you think this song ain't fire? I bet you're vibing on it right now." And I so fucking am.
Since this was an alt-take that was only released recently, this song might have actually escaped some of y'all's notice, so have the Spotify link.
As an aside, a few weeks ago, before I had finished Prince's catalog, my BF had made some comment about how Prince "couldn't rap." I'm assembling a list of songs like this ("Acknowledge Me" is in there, too) to show how wrong that is. Other suggestions welcome!

In theoretical physics, "Closed Timelike Curves" (CTCs) are one of the most controversial features of modern physics. They provide a legitimate solution for time travel, which sounds paradoxical, right? However, in quantum physics, these paradoxes can be resolved, making these CTCs consistent with Einstein's theory of relativity.
In episode 4 of the series Godzilla: Singular Point (GSP), Professor Li conducts an experiment named the "Ashihara Cascade." It uses the Archetype to refract the "Original Photon" that enters, then releases a "Future Photon" while simultaneously creating an "Anti-Photon" to cancel out the "Original Photon" to ensure the *property of time and the law of energy conservation. Therefore, at any given moment, both the "Original" and "Future" Photons exist, which is a CTC that quantum physics has theoretically proven for a long time.
Thus, when Professor Li places four Archetype crystals in a closed loop, light from the future is "borrowed" to the past and is reintroduced into the Archetype to continue the process. The "Photon" is extracted and reintroduced, generating more "Anti-Photons." This process repeats until the crystal cannot withstand the increasing amount of "negative" energy, causing it to explode.
Sound familiar? This is also how Godzilla Ultima performs its Atomic Breath. It fires a "CTC molecular laser beam" as explained in our previous post. The only difference is that Godzilla Ultima can withstand the overlapping of countless (with an unknown limit) laser beams, creating an extremely powerful CTC laser without any harm.

• The Paradox of Self-Fulfilling Prophecy - an event in the future creates consequences that affect the past, leading to the creation of that event without the need for an initial cause. This is known as Steven Hawking's "Chronology Protection Conjecture," which hypothesizes that the accumulation of quantum fluctuations around a CTC would destabilize spacetime and destroy the time machine

I am just the translator, the original article is here: TÍNH CHẤT CƠ BẢN CỦA ARCHETYPE: KHÚC XẠ PHOTON

Place of Origin: ancient Egypt ( from inside the house of the pharaoh) (Moses writes the first 5 books of the Old Testament/Bible) ( adoption of Moses is a fake alibi as to explain why Moses comes from inside the house of the pharaoh)

• (YHWH) Yahweh means I AM, God Yahweh, or substituted God I AM; you’ve been fooled into believing that you are the “ God of the Bible” or rather the “ god of the Bible”, “ god I AM” . ( but more on that later)

Exodus 3:14 God replied to Moses, “ I Am Who I Am . Say this to the people of Israel: I Am has sent me to you.”
I AM has sent me to you, or substituted , I sent my self.
( online bible : biblehub.com ( with various versions of the bible)

• If the Old Testament/Bible is not true, then it is a book of sorcery (more on that later). ( and not even the Jewish religion believes in the New Testament)

Psalm 103:1
Bless Jehovah, O my soul; And all that is within me, bless his holy name.
Put simple, God does not need you to bless God.( But more on that later)
Before trusting anything from ancient Egypt, first trust God.
Taking in to consideration, a rational prayer would be prudent:

God, if the Old Testament is not true, I do not believe in it, amen.
God, if the New Testament is not true, I do not believe in it, amen.
God, if the Old Testament is true, I believe in it, amen.
God, if the New Testament is true, I believe in it, amen.

The Old Testament/Bible is not true, if you’re having trouble telling, there is the rational prayer.
Ignorance always says its correct, praying in a rational manner there is no error.
And no offense, but this prayer also applies to your religion, even if its not based on the Old Testament/Bible, just substitute the name of your religion.
Amen = so be it.
Who told you, you cant pray in a rational manner, someone from inside the house of the pharaoh?
2 Chronicles 7:13
13 When I shut up the heavens so that there is no rain, or if I command the locusts to devour the land..."
The fraud Bible boasts of causing drought, drought, which is really bad; I kindly ask you to pray in a rational manner.
Proverbs 3:5
Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding.
According to this verse, not even the clergy understands.
Raise your hand clergy if you accepted this Old Testament/Bible book without reading it all first, if you taught this book without reading it all first.
How are you suppose to assess this Bible book and evaluate it's validity if you don't use education, they are trying to manipulate you; ancient Egypt is trying to manipulate you. And you're going to have to excuse me but, a book from inside the house of the pharaoh asking you to not understand is not normal. Please realize that it says in the Bible book that you do not understand, it is not a little game, it is not a little joke. Consider it for a second, what if it what the Pharaoh who asked you to not understand. What is the extent of the manipulation, usually people join those cults since they are children. A religious book asking people to not understand it typical of cults.
And I hope you understand that God does not need you to bless God.
That should be enough to prove the Bible false, I ask you kindly to share the article, it is very important, the rest of the article are other points of interest, you are welcome to read it at your leisure. Drought is not good.
Other prudent rational prayers:
God, I do not believe in any religion that is false, amen.
God, I believe in you, amen.
God, I do not accept anything from religions that are false via sorcery or blasphemous prayers, amen.

God, I do not accept anything via sorcery or blasphemous prayers, amen.
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The original Old Testament is written without vowels, and contains no vowels; this means that technically the original Old Testament does not say God, but G-d ( God written without vowels). The Old Testament is just a book of sorcery, and is not based on God. I repeat, the original Old Testament is written without vowels and is not based on God.
You cannot say it is based on God, because the original Old Testament does not say God, it says G-d; if others added vowels to the derived copies of this Bible book, it would make it a blasphemous book ( but not only that, it would also be a book of sorcery as well).

The original Old Testament contains no vowels or punctuation and cannot be read, the original Old Testament was interpreted; so an interpreted book from inside the house of the Pharaoh says: G-d says to not understand, cause drought and destroy plants. And this book is being given to children. The Old Testament/Bible is not based on God and is false.
So technically, the original Old Testament which is written without vowels or punctuation doesn’t say anything.
Adding vowels and punctuation to the original Old Testament/Torah scroll makes it invalid.
The original Old Testament/Bible is not based on God, but G-d, therefore, the Old Testament/Bible is false. God and G-d are not the same thing.
A little denial is normal, but it is obvious that God does not need you to bless God. Praying in a rational manner there is no error.
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Share the article link, educate, suggestions, groups on social media( facebook), news stations( a story where the Pharaoh tricks people into causing drought is of interest to the public. I ask news stations to be impartial, I remind you, the Church is separate from the State).
If this were a fictional movie, you would have already seen it at the box office, I know you love fictional movies.
You can call it “Mummy 4 the time I loved drought and complained about it, a lot.
You played with a book from inside the house of the Pharaoh, that’s what happened.
Feel free to share the article with your local church, and not so local church ( email, Instagram message, facebook message).
Copy and paste the following to share article:
S.O.S MOST IMPORTANT NEWS RIGHT NOW!! Article “Origin of the Bible”, Bible False, originally from ancient Egypt, from inside house of pharaoh. RESPONSIBLE for DROUGHT. EMERGENCY.
share article,
make it viral
( paste article link here)
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Please don’t be the typical cult, if a book is false, then it can be proved false, there is the rational prayer.
Important Message: Discovery Bible originally from inside the house of the Pharaoh. I repeat, Discovery Bible originally from inside the house of the Pharaoh. Bible False, Important. Contact the Church. Drought is not a laughing matter. The destruction of plants is not a laughing matter.
If the Old Testament/Bible were false, how long should it take to be known. Drought is not good.
Note: Is it valid to pray in a rational manner? That’s a rhetorical question, of course it is valid to pray in a rational manner.
If you say no, it is not valid to pray in a rational manner, who benefits? Only corruption.
Bonus:
Prayer( as mentioned before, not even the Jewish religion believes in the New Testament, the New Testament is not validated by the Jewish Religion):
God, if the New Testament is true, then Jesus is the son of God, amen.
According to this prayer, you cant accuse one of anything.
I declare the Old Testament/Bible void and obsolete; it should take a year, plus or minus for it to be known. Someone “famous” ties their shoe and everyone knows in 5 days. If the Bible were false, how long should it take to be known. Drought is not good. Dec/15/2020.
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Note: Apocrypha books, unvalidated books added to the Roman Catholic Bible.
Prudent prayer: God, if the Roman Catholic Bible is not true, I do not believe in the Roman Catholic Bible, amen.

A peaceful protest would be good, the Roman Empire and ancient Egypt should be exposed for their corruption.
Note: The religion of Islam ( Abrahamic religion, but not validated by the Jewish religion) is based on the Old Testament, if the Old Testament is false, then the religion of Islam is false.
The Mormon religion/book of Mormon, is an Abrahamic religion, but is not validated by the Jewish or Christian religion.
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If the Old Testament/Bible turned out to be false, what is the protocol, what is the plan? Is it to continue to cause drought due to a book from ancient Egypt? So there is no plan by the Church, that is not very responsible of the Church. Contact the Church, pray in a rational manner.

This is nothing personal, people sometimes make mistakes. If by error, you accidentally joined a false religion, how are you going to separate yourself from such false religion? Very simple, a simple prayer:
God, I do not believe in any religion that is false, thank you.

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It would be good to make a Religion that is based on God.
God refers to the Creator of Life and the Universe.
This Religion based on God is not an Abrahamic Religion, and is not based on the Old Testament.
The word God is not exclusive of Judaism ( Old Testament G-d) or Christianity.
It would be good to make a Religion that prays and gives thanks to God, God is good.
It would be good to have a place to share good things, a place to share friendship.
No Religious book should promote the destruction of plants or cause drought.
God, I believe in you, thank you.
Creator of the Universe and Life, I believe in you.
God forgives us.
I ask God for forgiveness.
I thank God.

-Theology refers to the study of God.( Theology is not exclusive of Judaism or Christianity).
I ask Theologians to be impartial, not understanding is not accepted in Theology. There is the rational prayer.
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It’s a not common case, this prayer should not offend you:
God, I do not believe in any religion that is false, thank you.
Amen = so be it. thank you = thank you
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This is an S.O.S, the Bible turned out to be false and from ancient Egypt, responsible for drought.
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Whenever people think of IVE, they immediately think of Wonyoung and Yujin and even now with all the other members being popular, people still name Wonyoung and Yujin as the "defining" members. Personally I think it's Leeseo. Leeseo has this uniquely deep vocal tone that adds a special charm to all of IVE's songs and helps give it their signature sound. One of the reasons IVE is able to do drastically different sounds from Love Dive to After Like to I Am to Heya and still sound like "IVE" is because of that distinctly deep vocal tone Leeseo brings in. Also everyone talks about IVE's facial chemistry and recently Leeseo has been going viral for how much she looks like every other member minus Rei. If you take Leeseo out of the group, the members look mismatched but with Leeseo in it, their facial chemistry is so harmonious.

The liner notes for Tigerlily list Natalie as having played vibraphone on the album, but I cannot for the life of me hear it on any of the songs. Does anyone know what track(s) she played vibraphone on?

as someone who was introduced to hip hop through eminem at a fairly young age, i think i can talk about diff phases of my life and who were my favs over the years

eminem - as being from india , my first albums were MMLP and MMLP2 and then the rest, i liked eminem at that time because of his fast flows and the overly graphic lyrics but as time moved on and his discography dwindled , i haven't heard em in a while
j cole and k.dot - this was in my intospective phase so i always looked for songs which had either a deep meaning or it was teaching something about life and they were and still are goats in that respect. good kid, m.A.A.d city , has such introspective cuts along with bangers and the same can be said for 2014 forest hills drive . both were and still are my go to albums when i am in that mood. mr morale and the big stepppers and off season were also great
as i have listened to more music , i have passed the sentiment "oh, you listen to commercial music , so your taste must be horribe"

i have found new gems in ds2 by future, drip harder by gunna and lilbaby, utopia by travis scott
but also i recently fell in love with artists like pusha t and JPEGMAFIA and danny brown and lupe
daytona , its almost dry, drill music in zion, scaring the hoes and quaranta are my new go to albums
so tell me about your phases ??

Just listened to Tusk for the first time. Wow. What an awesome album
Honey Hi, Walk a Thin Line, Tusk, Over and Over, Angel, AND Sara
What a fire album. It’s so cohesive and each song is an absolute banger
So far Ive listened to Rumors, Future Games, Self-Titled ,and Tusk!

Since System can't agree on a collaboration style for new songs, why don't they

1. Remake the best songs from Scars and the best songs from Serj in the System style as a double album? Scars of the Dead?
   
2. Do a covers album? Metro is an amazing song. So many great System AI covers out there. I am sure that the real thing would be even better
   

Or at least add some Scars, solo or covers to their live performances to keep things fresh?

I currently (40M) had my ex (35F) completely destroy our relationship while I was working out of town for a few months. This happened a year ago and wish I had these stories as a resource while going through it. I have just started to use Reddit and been reading the experiences of others here and have decided to share my story in hopes it will maybe help others. That way some good may come from some of the worst times of my life.
A little backstory for context for the story and insight to some of the decisions I made. When I turned 30 I left the major city in my Province (it is like a state if you are an American) because buying just a simple house is over a million dollars and I don't make near enough to afford that. My goal was to move to somewhere more rural to buy a house, meet someone, get married and have a child or two. It was my only dream I had and believed I could attain it. I lived out in the bush on my step dads property in a run down trailer I bought so I could save money for the first 3 years. I had my dog but the loneliness of living in the middle of nowhere had got to me. By then I had saved a fair amount of money, so I decided to move into the town. It was nice, it cut my commute down by 40 minutes, I had started to make a few friends and no longer felt so isolated. It was through my friends I met my future ex. Let's call her Kali. She had a long term boyfriend when we first met. Their relationship ended a couple of years after meeting her and we started dating a few months after.
We mostly had a great relationship for the next 4 years. The only thing was it was on again off again. She would dump me after I did anything really special for her for a week and beg me to take her back. It was like clockwork. I used to think it was because of her depression and that she didn't believe she deserved to be truly happy. Nowadays I actually think she might have been cheating the whole time and just felt guilty about it when I did nice stuff for her but I will never know the truth. I don't care what the reality is anymore anyway, Time has a funny way of making stuff like that irrelevant. We did have one bigger break of about 5 months. When it happened I took time off work to travel in my RV the whole time. From spring to summer. I really didn't like the town I lived in and decided to use that time to check out the rest of my Provence to figure out where I wanted to restart my life. She was basically the only reason I stayed for so long. I did have a decent job and family close by but most people I met there were not good people. Lots of drug users, liars, and general scumbags. I had only a few real friends there. After I got back and had decided where I was going to move to she had decided she wanted me back. She begged me to stay and be with her. She told me that she wanted to get serious. We started making real progress about getting married, having kids and looking at buying a house. Everything was coming up Milhouse and I couldn't be happier. So You can probably guess this is when my tale becomes interesting for you and life got real bad for me.
My career is seasonal. I work from spring to the end of fall and can go on unemployment insurance or find work. My dad had asked if I could help on his farm breeding horses that winter when I had still planned to leave my town. I had promised him that I would because it would give me a place to stay before people in my field of work would be looking for employees. This had been agreed upon before me and Kali had got back together. Now I have always been a man of my word. It's something I take great pride in. I have always hated liars. I don't mind a little embellishment to make a story more fun or if two people's stories are different as long as they both believe that was how the events happened. Everyone remembers things slightly off. She was upset that I had intended to keep my word to my dad but I had every second weekend off. The town my dad is in was only a 2 hour drive. So I told her I would be back twice monthly for weekends and that it would only be for 4 months. For the first two months everything seemed fine. During this time I started to look at rings to pop the question and booked an expensive spa for two days in May to propose. There was only one weird thing that happened during the first two months. On one of my visits she confided in me that her brother's wife had cheated on him and that their newborn baby was most likely not his. I was shocked that she not only knew but didn't plan to tell him. She said she didn't want to tell him for fear of breaking up the family. I told her that he has the right to know and that she was being a bad sister by knowing and not telling him. I also informed her if he found out she knew and didn't say anything that he would most likely kick her out of his life. She made me swear I wouldn't tell him. Even though I thought it was wrong I did agree to not say anything. It did get me wondering how she could not only not tell him but stay friends with someone that could do that to her brother. I think that's when I started to question her morals. The third month she asked that I didn't come out because she was "sick". I told her I didn't care, I could still come out and take care of her. She convinced me that she didn't want me to come so I just worked on the farm instead. I switched weekends so I could come out the next instead of in two weekends. The weekend she was "sick" her phone was off the whole time, lasting into the week. She told me her phone went through the washing machine. She was actually on a bender but I didn't learn that till later.
So I head out the following weekend. As soon as I arrive I start getting super sketchy vibes. I was already weirded out about the stuff with her brother and ghosting me for 4 days as we talked/texted multiple times a day normally. At first she acts great to me, cooks me steak and we go out to the bush to have a fire in the snow. At the fire she really started drinking heavily. She then mentions a guy she had been hanging with lets call him Brad. So alarm bells start going through my head. We go back to her house and she keeps drinking. I wanted to keep a clear head so I only had three beers all evening. She put her phone down unlocked because of how drunk she was and I took it to the bathroom with me to look up texts between them. I felt so guilty for doing it at first but once I see the text between the two of them the guilt is replaced with rage. I go to her room to confront her and she breaks down. First, how dare I go through her phone, this never would have happened if I would have broken my promise to my dad, nothing really happened between them, blah, blah, blah. I was furious and drove off. She blows up my phone the whole time. I don't answer. Ten minutes after I left her mother called me. She lives at her moms house. I took the call and her mom said she is freaking out and has harmed herself. I decide to go back and she has a bandage wrapped around her arm. Her mom hid all the sharp objects she could find. She was having a full on panic attack and begs me to not leave. I told her I would stay if she told me the truth. She admits to hooking up with him one time just that last weekend when she asked me not to come out. It kind of matches the messages and I believe her. I stay there till she falls asleep. Once she does I send Brad a text saying that she has a boyfriend with some screen shots of our conversations me and her have had that week. I was about to drive back to the farm when the dude called her phone. I pick up the call and tell him I am her boyfriend. He asks if that was a joke and I assure him it is not. He said he didn't know and actually apologized. I tell him that I'm pissed but if he didn't know I couldn't blame him. I should have asked him more questions but I was tired, not thinking straight and just wanted to go back to the Farm even though it was two am by this point. I get home and crash. Turned my ringer off because I know once she wakes up she will start calling like crazy. After getting the horses in for the night I decided to look at my phone for the first time all day. Around thirty missed calls and a ton of texts. I decide I need another day before I talk to her. Now while the whole day all I can think about is that it was just one time, she seems to be genuinely remorseful about it, how I'm 39 and really want children before I get too old. I took a call from her the next day on Sunday in the morning. She is still wasted. She hadn't stopped drinking since I was there Friday. We talk and I tell her that I am really upset but am willing to give us another chance. I still was in love with her and wanted to have kids, get married and buy a house with her. It was the dream I felt I worked so hard for. She was so happy I took her back and swore to me nothing like this would ever happen again. Basically I was a fool lol.
So I decided on my next set of days off to borrow my stepdads summer home on the river so we can have the place to ourselves. I grab food that she loves so I can cook her dinner and try to make it very romantic. I want to rekindle my love with her so I wanted to go all out on an amazing weekend. I pick her up and she is already a little drunk. I kind of wanted to hang sober but I don't wanna mess up with her so don't say anything thinking we can do a sober day when I take her out to go shopping and dinner the next day. When we get there she gets hammered. Kali had brought a big of bottle fireball on top of a bunch of white claws. I again didn't really drink that night. Once she was drunk and tired I carried her to the bed. As Kali is in my arms she looks up at me and says in slurred words "I don't know why you even felt threatened by Joe" I ask "what did you just say?". "I don't know why you even felt threatened by Brad" she replied. I put her to bed and my mind starts racing. Now her ex before me has a really close name to the one she said first but I also know she has a friend named Joe I only met a couple of times. They were not close or even hung out but were more like acquaintances. I go in her purse to look at her phone again but the battery is dead and I can't find her charger. I have an Iphone so I can't charge it up to look. I didn't sleep that well that night with everything going on in my head. I woke up at 6 am to her being very loud on the phone. I went out to the living room and she had drank all the booze left over from the night before. I ask her who she was on the phone with and she tells me an uber to leave. I ask why is she going to leave? Kali tells me she is upset that I tried to get into her phone. Guess I didn't put it back in her purse. Must have been out of sorts and forgot. I tell her I can drive her once I go to the washroom and get some clothes on. I go to do that, come out of the washroom to see Kali has already left. She was so drunk that she had left half her stuff behind. I decided to have breakfast before bringing her stuff to her house. After breakfast I packed her stuff into my SUV and noticed it had snowed that night. I could see her footprints out into the driveway. While Dropping off her stuff I noticed there were no footprints leading to her house, so I tried calling Kali. No answer. I left her stuff in the snow and decided to drive by her brothers and sisters house to see if there were footprints going into any of their houses but there were none. I sent her a nasty text about knowing she didn't go home, to go be with Brad or Joe or whoever and never call me again. It was a lot more profane than that but that's the gist of it. Cleaned up the house my stepdad lent me and back off to the farm yet again. The next day she blows up my phone and again I wait another day to talk to her. She tells me that she went home but I know that can't be true from the snow, but she says I must have been mistaken. She apologizes for getting drunk and leavening and that she is going to stop drinking after her birthday in two weeks. She has rented a hotel in the town I'm in for her birthday and wants to spend it with me. I agree just because I have to know the truth and want to look at her phone to make sure I am not crazy. She had gaslit me to the point I was questioning what I saw with my own eyes. A couple of days later I decided to send Joe a message on Facebook to see if he would give me the truth. I get a text from her telling me not to bug her friend and that she is embarrassed. I apologize and tell her I am excited about her birthday soon.
The weekend of her birthday comes so I go to meet her at the hotel. She brought her sister and other friend along. It actually is a really fun time. The girls did coke the first night into the second evening. I don't really like it but I figured she can let loose especially if she is going to stop drinking after her birthday. I also knew by Saturday night that they would all crash hard so it would give me time to look at her phone so I could know the truth. As I mentioned the weekend was really fun so I felt bad about going into her phone yet again. I did it anyway and my whole world came crashing down. Now I figured that I would maybe see Brad or Joe texts and Facebook messages. Seemed like Brad was done but Joe and her were totally hooking up. I also found out that she had slept with 3 other guys. I also saw she was using coke all the time now. She did it maybe three times a year when we dated but now it was every weekend. It looked like she started using regularly right before I left for the farm. Joe helped get it for her too, out of all the guys he was the one she hung with the most. Turns out he was also a meth head who was trying to quit for her. She also went to his house the morning she left the other weekend to hook up and buy coke. I was floored. I just staired and took screen shots till the early morning. I decided I wasn't just going to dump her but I wanted to ruin her life not realizing she was already doing that all by herself but hindsight is 20 20. So I started coming up with a plan of what I was going to do. I woke up the next morning and acted like everything was fine and went back to the farm. I was still so upset and didn't want to harm myself or others so had a family friend take my firearms for a while. I don't think I would have used them on myself or others but I knew I wasn't thinking clearly and didn't want them in my house while I was like that.
I didn't have to see her till I moved back because the next set I had off I had tickets for a concert in the city I used to live in. During that time all I thought about was how I was going to do something to ruin her life. I came up with some small things but my main plan was to pretend like we were fine and ghost her when my contract was up with my boss next winter. I had promised him another year after kali and I had gotten back together. Just typing it out makes me look back and cringe that I was so crazy. When I went to the city for the concert I told my best friend, my brother and a few others my plan. No one liked it and thought I should just go no contact, cut her straight out of my life. That probably was the smart thing to do but emotion was clouding my judgement. Also you all would get this story. They even informed me that because I would be lying to her, that I would be compromising my morals and turning into a worse person they didn't recognize. I either didn't see it that way or care. I have a hard time recalling what my brain was thinking during that time. All seems like a haze now that it's been a year. I think I was really upset that my dream and all I had worked for was ruined. A friend later said I may have been in love with the dream and not her. Maybe that's the reason I kept up all this insanity.
My time on the farm had come to an end and I was moving back to the town me and my ex lived in. I was set with my plan, excited to implement it and have what I considered just. But you know what they say of the best laid plans. My ex wanted to go to hang at her brothers as a welcome home party. I went but ended up drinking. Heavily drinking, to the point of black out. I don't remember much from that night but have had it recounted for me. I woke up in the drunk tank. Guess I couldn't lie and play it cool then huh? The story I was told later is, while at her brothers I had gotten drunk and loud. Kept waking up the new baby and we were asked to leave. So we caught a cab and I confronted her in the cab but all I could do was call her a lying, cheating, whore on repeat. She got upset and ran into the house locking me out. I had a bunch of my stuff in her house so I went to the door and demanded she let me in. All the while still only referring to her as the aforementioned 3 words. She told me to leave but my jacket and wallet were inside. It was below freezing at night still and probably wouldn't have made it home in the state I was in. I then kicked in her door to keep calling her LCW and grab my stuff. She was on the phone to the police, so I was taken away by them. One of the lowest points in my life. It still brings me so much shame to this day but it is what happened and I am not going to sugar coat it. I never laid a finger on her and I am so happy that I hadn't. Laying hands on women in that way is one of the scummiest things a man can do. I had to go back to her house once they let me out because my stuff was still there. I apologized to her mom who had been at her boyfriends that evening promising to repair the door for her. Kali begged me to talk to her and like an idiot I didn't just leave. I told her I saw everything and she only admitted to Brad and Joe. Lying about them and the others the whole time. Even when I brought up the screen shots she still couldn't come clean. I left just shaking my head. There is still a ton to this story but this is long enough. I could do a part 2 if there is interest. Catching you folks up to where I am now and the messed up things that happened in between.

This weekend, Ajax Budokan invited Kodokan 9th dan and former head of the Tokyo Police dojo, Michio Fukushima Sensei, to conduct a 4 hour clinic for Kodokan Goshin Jutsu. It was open to yellow belt and higher, though the majority consisted of Yudansha. My senseis had the honour of demoing the kata, as Fukushima Sensei's health did not permit presenting each technique multiple times, though he did show some of the finer details, demo mechanics, and gave comments as to what was good and displayed what could be fixed. He also talked about older versions of the techniques and how/ why they have been changed. Regretfully, it totally slipped my mind to film during the seminar, as there was a lot of good information, translated (and left untranslated) by the interpreter.
Some General Notes on Fukushima Sensei Fukushima Sensei on multiple occasions mentioned how one should carry themselves and move, more specifically he talked about how he usually sees toris get away with bad shisei as uke's attacks are generally to kind or passive, and that if they genuinely attacked, most toris would be off balance. Additionally he mentioned that a lot of IFJ competition now is power judo, where the technical aspects are replaced for brute force and speed.
The main note he makes is to keep the knees alive (slightly bent and bouncy like a spring), and that most novices have a tendency to straight leg their kata. He also made it a great point to explain the logic of the waza in the kata and how the kuzushi is created. Other important details he talked about were that uke shouldn't be a limp noodle once his attack is over, that tori should keep good sabaki (unclear if sabaki was short hand for tai sabaki as he also stated tai sabaki on different occasions (the details were paraphrased by the translator)), and the usage of rotation from the hips to maintain proper balance (tai sabaki). Additionally, he talked about things relating to karada (the body) and some anecdotes (such as stories about judoka such as Michigami, Isao Okano, and Nagaoka if I was hearing correctly, though I don't speak Japanese, only somewhat familiar with it), which were left untranslated or paraphrased sadly.
Emphasised details in the kata (not explanations or descriptions of how to do a technique) and my experiences (FYI Sensei mostly used the Tomiki names for the waza Tori applied)
Attacks when held

1. Ryote dori - my partner and I (both new to this kata for the most part) went in on this one and struggled as we didn't see the detail of thumb in hand for the lock (blind leading the blind, though we later worked near a kind pair after this who helped check more closely as they were experienced in the kata)
   1. Yahazu (hook shape for hand) is very important to direct uke's arm
   2. You aren't pulling the arm away to free it, you are pushing your elbow forward which pressures uke's arm
   3. Te gatana to the uto (point between uke's eyes)
   4. When applying the lock (te gatame), make sure to rotate uke's hand such that the fingers are pointing up
   5. When applying the lock, take the uke's arm in the direction perpendicular to the line made by his feet
2. Hidari eri dori - I particularly liked this one, though my uke was confused the first few times as he kept trying to apply waki gatame.
   1. Tori must grab underneath uke's hand on the lapel when stepping back
   2. When grabbing uke's hand to break the grip and apply the lock (kote hineri), tori should have his thumb in between uke's thumb and fingers, and to take the uke's arm in the direction perpendicular to the line made by his feet
   3. Uke should try to maintain jigo tai rather than lean so the lock is applied cleanly
   4. Tori's hand should not be limp when delivering the strike
3. Migi eri dori - I couldn't get kote gaeshi to work properly, will have to practice and ask my sensei about it later, same with my partner
   1. Tori should maintain a upright posture as uke pulls him forward, and use the landing of his foot to drive his hand for the uppercut to uke
   2. Tori should try to keep uke's hand attached to his centerline as he makes tai sabaki
4. Kata ude dori - My uke was very stiff, so applying the initial lock to him proved difficult, though he claims he felt it. I found this kata easy to remember as the legs go left right left right (step, step, tai sabaki, kick, then lead with the right for the lock)
   1. You are kicking with the side of the foot
   2. The step before the kick pivot around so your feet are almost parallel
   3. For waki gatame, you should be standing inside his feet, near parallel to the line perpendicular to his feet
5. Ushiro eri dori - I had experience with this one as sensei had taught during some free time a while back
   1. The parry with the arm was stated to also be the preferred way to receive punches, though take that as you will (though it is a common method in karate as well)
   2. The strike should be to the suigetsu (solar plexus)
   3. Trap uke's hand with your head so that it can't wiggle all over the place when applying the lock
6. Ushiro jime - My partner and I both had a tendency to lift the shoulder off after spinning out, will have to work on that. I will be honest, had I known this escape, I probably would have come out of an incident a few years back (before I started Judo) rather unscathed as I was jumped and then kicked on the ground by a person who was quite a pain.
   1. The attack and initial defence are identical to that of katame no kata, following which tori rotates out
   2. Keep pressure with your shoulder until your grip has been changed
7. Kakae dori - We didn't have enough mat space to finish the throw without running into other groups, but the technique is surprisingly effective. Though I couldn't initially find out how to do the armlock and had to ask my sensei about it, now it's pretty easy.
   1. Rotate the arm away from you (clockwise from your perspective) and pull uke's arm into you
   2. During the initial stomp, straighten up and raise your arms to loosen uke's grip

Attacks when at a distance - I got less time to try these in general as I wanted my partner to get a feel for them as they are a bit more complicated and he is less experienced

1. Naname uchi - this was a fun situation, it shows how a little bit of atemi can be used to setup a randori waza, and Fukushima Sensei complimented my senseis' performance saying that it was better than the current text book
   1. Te gatana is used to redirect the strike
   2. Osoto otoshi is performed
   3. Pushing the arm through is important to create the kuzushi necessary for the waza
2. Ago tsuki - I didn't actually get a chance to try this one more than once as my partner struggled with it, he kept applying a shoulder lock by pushing on the elbow without the redirect with the thumb up (shoulder is still sore)
   1. when directing uke's attack up and away, do not lean back as then you are unstable
   2. Use yahazu to direct uke's elbow toward his ear
   3. As uke will not like this use the moment after releasing the elbow lock to throw him forward in the direction perpendicular to his feet.
3. Gammen Tsuki - My partner really liked this one, I can see the uses as I've used similar entries when messing around with strikes + judo with this partner as I have a bit of karate experience
   1. Uke is meant to do a break fall, thus tori needs to get out of the way after releasing the choke
   2. Uke should realistically be aiming for where tori's uto would be if he did not evade
4. Mae Geri - this was a relatively easy one to grasp, but quite a bit of practice is needed before a full force kick can be considered
   1. Rotate ukes foot outwards so that it is not easy for him to rotate in to escape
   2. In the original, tori would lift uke's leg high but many ukes ended up injured from hitting their heads, so now tori just pushes back
5. Yoko geri - My sensei has introduced this one at the dojo before as well, though he prefaced it with about a minute of just practicing a side kick. My partner (who suffers from light knee pain) couldn't kneel during the finish
   1. The use of the te gatana to redirect the kick in the direction it is going, very similar to karates low block
   2. During the finish tori creates a void for uke to be thrown but in real life tori would throw uke onto his knee

Attacks with weapons - I understand people dislike these (reasonably in some cases), but I've found them to be useful points to explore
Attacks with a knife - Sensei Fukushima mentioned how despite my senseis making it look easy
Both my partner and I have practiced these quite a lot (I was the only one who was taught it by sensei but we practiced it on our own time), so not as many personal notes. Though I don't have a good experience so my brain switches to serious and my heart rate increases despite the fact that I know these are fake weapons.

1. Tsukkake
   1. The elbow should be pushed forward (I've actually experimented with this in the past by asking uke to try to stab me as I applied the defence, and we've found after the initial push and strike, tori is in a relatively good position, be it to run away or finish the kata)
   2. Push the locked up arm up and towards uke, then guide him to the ground
2. Choku zuki - I struggled to apply the waki gatame, I'm guessing it was control of the wrist that was the problem, this form is relatively straight forward and makes sense
   1. The strike should not be a boxer style punch, but more like the first punch in szkt
   2. uke should not go limp
   3. when moving away from uke, take him perpendicular to the line between his feet
3. Naname Zuki - Personally I think this form is cutting it close in many regards, but the control tori has is quite surprising
   1. Don't grab the blade from the sharp edge

Attacks with a jo - PSA, no matter how much you trust your uke, mistakes happen (especially with such a solid weapon) so remain vigilant to mitigate damage

1. Furi age - this was a relatively easy technique to grasp as it is an application of O soto gari setup with a palm strike to the chind
   1. Tori should enter as soon as uke begins to raise his arm, almost a preemptive entry
   2. Tori strikes at the ago (chin) with a palm strike, then places his hand on the throat for the throw
2. Furi oroshi - My partner leant into the swing and wacked me on the forehead, it could've been worse but it just grazed the outer layer as I saw the jo come closer after my initial retreat and attempted to turn out of the way. Both a PSA for tori and uke. Tori do not keep your eyes off uke, and uke please don't lean into a swing, you are horribly off balance, and you make it harder for tori to read. Also uke don't speed up when you 2 are learning (I don't know why my partner chose too...)
   1. Do not hop back onto one leg and then towards uke with the other, it leads you to have bad posture
   2. Better to make a big retreat than get hit
   3. 2 strike, one ura ken (back fist), followed by knife hand push
   4. Uke's swing should be at a diagonal
3. Morote zuki - I didn't get to practice this one as my partner was taken a bit aback after the previous incident and couldn't get the steps right for this one. Fukushima Sensei mentioned something along the lines of how a judoka was faced with a juken and couldn't figure out what to do, and thus this form was created to address that.
   1. Tori shouldn't be rowing the jow away to shake throw uke
   2. The arm puts pressure on uke's arm forward
   3. Tori should be trying to angle the jo down towards himself after the initial grab

Attacks with a gun - I struggled with all of these, but I think the principles are relatively sound. Though in real life, I'd most likely give up my valuables. Fukushima Sensei emphasised hip rotation in these movements, as he says that you want to direct the gun away without moving your feet, which is what uke would be seeing when looking at your pocket.
Always make sure to begin your defence after uke is clearly focused on checking your pockets, never when his focus is directly on you

1. Shomen Zuke
   1. Grab the barrel of the gun thumb up
   2. During the disarm, push the gun's muzzle to face towards him
2. Koshi Gamae - I kept getting the second hand wrong and thus the barallel was pointed towards me in the final attack, will need to work on that
   1. Grab the barrel of gun initially with the thumb down with your right hand, and push the gun so that it is horizontal after turning left, then grab the gun from below with your right
   2. make sure to not point the gun at yourself when hitting with the butt
3. Haimen Zuke - this is quite a dangerous move in theory, but also one of the more likely ones
   1. Wrap uke's arm with your arm, but make sure to direct the muzzle up with the free arm
   2. [uke] should let go of gun, as this is a hard breakfall

Overarching and repeated themes in the kata

• The use of yahazu to direct the arm rather than grips
• Keeping uke's hand connected to your centerline when applying kansetsu waza
• te gatana is a useful tool to redirect and or strike the opponent quickly
• During the gun portion, always rotate the gun off your centerline, so that even if it does fire, it doesn't penetrate too deep
• Control the gun by the muzzle
• most finishes are done by guiding uke perpendicular to the line in between his feet
• Do not directly oppose an opponents force
• Maintanence of balance at all times and moving from the hips is key
• Uke should attack meaningfully
• Action reaction is used quite a lot to first lock uke up towards his face, so that when he pushes back he is easily lead away

Overall, it was quite a good event, and I learned a lot. This kata isn't the most realistic with the attacks (though apparently a few people I know have used the ryote dori attack shockingly), but what I've learned so far is relatively sound, hopefully some time soon I can convince my partner to do some live resistance sparring with some gear on (which I have done with the knife portion with a plastic knife). Fukushima Sensei had a lot to say, as he was actively discussing his experiences and koshiki no kata after the seminar with another Japanese speaker, and I hope to be able to attend another one of his classes again someday.
Here are some videos featuring Michio Fukushima from a few years back, both where he was actively demoing, and where he had a slightly more corrective position.
https://www.facebook.com/watch/?v=1253474818155243
https://youtu.be/VKgdMJS9eck?si=bGMemLfG9aquAHr1

Not dragging the iconic choices of Human Nature and Bedtime Story, in fact my most streamed Madonna song is the LUSCIOUS GODLY Bedtime Story. But I do wonder, if M really used this as a redemption album with successful RnB singles like Secret and Take A Bow, potentially how huge will this era be riding off the 7 week #1 of Take A Bow?
3rd single - Forbidden Love is a missed #1 riding HOT on the heels of Take A Bow ft Babyface. Lyrically and music video story could also be a continuation of Take A Bow.
4th single - Don't Stop is such a smooth and easy bop to end the singles run, a total vibe that is no brainer for radio. Honestly could see it being being Top 3 on the charts. Apparently it was a summer radio hit in Brazil!! And some american radio stations didn't like Human Nature so they played this instead.
If this era exploded, there's also no doubt in my mind You'll See will chart higher in that same year because that song is pure PERFECTION.

Hear ye, the word which the LORD speaketh unto thee, O’ House of God. Thus saith the LORD, ‘you have learned the ways of the heathen, dismayed by the signs of heaven, just as the heathen are dismayed by the WORD of the LORD. For, your customs are in vain, as one cutteth a tree out of the forest, only to lay it waste. Behold, the workman of your house uses an axe, fashioning it in harlotry, decking it with silver and gold, fastening it with hammer and nails, that it moveth not. You claim to be upright, but speak not as such, your deeds are full of scorn, and you cannot enter MY HOUSE, ALL ISRAEL. You should be afraid, because you do evil in my sight, neither do you do good.’ There is no other like you my LORD, thou art great, and thy NAME is mighty. Who would not fear thee, Master of the Universe? There is no other like you. Neither king, queen, prince or pastor, for, they all fall short of thee, and the priest shall come unto me, and know thy WORD is LOVE. For, they are altogether, both pastor and priest, brutish and foolish, their doctrines are scorn and full of vanity. Silver is spread onto their plate, gold has become their entrails, crimson red, pale blue and leaven white is their clothing, and they are all working for cunning men, lying in deceit for riches and recognition. But, the LORD is the true GOD, for, He is living, an everlasting KING, and at His wrath ye shall tremble, and ye shall not be able to abide His indignation. Thus, even ye shall say God has made heaven and earth, but, ye shall perish from the earth, and from under heaven. For, He hath made the earth by His power, He hath established the world by His wisdom, and hath stretched out the heavens by His discretion. When He uttereth his voice, there is a multitude of waters in the heavens, and He causeth the vapors to ascend from the ends of the earth, He maketh lightnings with rain, and bringeth forth the wind out of His treasures. For, His voice will shout, in the coming of our Lord, the WORD, Jesus Christ, a multitude of nations will hear Him, and He will cause those in folly, to descend to the depths of the earth, like ashes in a smoldering fire. The two horns will break, the false prophet is brutish in his knowledge of death, and every founder is confounded by the graven images they made, and the image of the beast is molten and false, for, there is no life in it, or them and the words they speak. They are vanity, the work of errors, for, their way has become desolate, and in the time of their visitation, they shall perish in their covenant made with death. The portion of God’s Son is not for them, neither from former nor new, did they walk the path of their inheritance, for, the LORD bears the Name of the righteous, a song they will hear no more. Gather up thy wares, inhabitants of Mystery Babylon. For, thus saith the LORD, ‘I will sling out the inhabitants of the land at this once, and will distress them, that they may find it so.’ Woe is me for my burden, my words bring me grief. For, she was once my place of refuge and calm, truly I am grieved, my GOD, but I must bear this burden in praise that I am saved. The church has been spoiled, cords have been broken and children have strayed, and they are not His anymore. The tent cannot be stretched, and the curtains have been drawn shut, none to enter forevermore. For, the pastors and priests have become brutish, and have not sought the LORD, therefore they shall not prosper, and all their flocks shall be scattered, from hill to mountain, valley and ravine. Behold, the Judge cometh, and a great tumult bear down on them, and in the far north country of the land, shall the Bride hide from the den of dragons, and be spared of the desolation to come. My LORD, the way of man is not himself, and the church has fallen prey to Satan, directing their steps. Correct me, my GOD, judge me, without anger, lest thou bring me to naught. For, you will pour out your fury on the harlot, and all the earth shall see, that you are the ONE TRUE GOD. Amen. Hear ye now, what the LORD saith, ‘come forth and come out of her my people, from the mountains and hills, valleys and ravines, hear my voice.’ Hear ye, kingdoms of the world, foundations of earth and sea, for, the LORD hath controversy with His people, they have become harlots in His sight, and He will plead to her for His Bride in violence and spoil. He saith, ‘O my people, what have I done unto thee? And, wherein have I wearied thee? You testify against me!’ For, He had brought you out of Israel, sent forth into the nations as a witness, redeemed by the blood of His Son, His servants have been wearied and worn in keeping you straight, but, you have digressed and adorned yourself with jewels and gems, gold with brazen silver and purple cloth, adorning yourselves like kings in place of the true living KING. Serving Baal cloaked in riches, consulting with demons in place of righteousness, your doctrines are but filth to Him, leaven in the lump as tears fall from the face of Jezebel. God requires, justice, love, mercy, humility and steadfast trust in His ways, but, you have treaded self-serving commandments of men, that bring desolation to His House. The nations hiss at you, and your love for them has been forgotten. The LORD is not pleased, and in His infinite wisdom, the rod of justice shall come down for correction, for, He hath appointed this, and the time is at hand. They will be measured for their wickedness they have brought into His house, and they are an abomination to Him, for, their scantness has polluted the whole body therein. The balance has been weighted towards harlotry, for, the body is made up of many members, and if one has become wicked, the whole lot is full of scorn and deceit. For, the rich men thereof are full of violence, and the inhabitants thereof have spoken lies, and their tongue is deceitful in their mouth, and the body must be made anew in violence and persecution. Therefore, the LORD will make thee sick in your sin, smiting them across thy foreheads and hands, desolation to come for the abomination you have brought into His house. Thou shalt eat, but not be satisfied, and the harlot shall be cast down in place of thee, delivered unto Satan by the sword of righteousness, the BRANCH. You shall reap what you have sown. He will remove the anointing oil from thee, no longer a sweet wine once poured on the altar of love, and thou shall thirst forevermore, for, the statuettes of the LORD shall remain, and the works of Jezebel shall be known to all the nations, because you have walked in her ways, and He will make thee desolate, as a reproach for His remnant to come. This is the word for the LORD.

It was an overcast morning in late spring, the kind of day where you can't decide if it's going to pour rain or clear up. The weather was perfectly indecisive, much like my feelings about the intricate details that had consumed the last several months of planning this monumental event. You see, the wedding was set to be held at the grand yet somewhat clichéd 'Whispering Willows' event hall. The name alone should give you an idea of the kind of pretentious place it was, with its overly manicured gardens and staff who wore constant, painfully forced smiles.
The day started with me waking up at exactly 6:30 AM, as I had meticulously planned. My schedule was packed with all the banal but necessary activities that precede a wedding: a light breakfast of exactly two boiled eggs and a slice of whole wheat toast (no butter), a shower that I timed to last no longer than seven minutes to conserve both water and time, and a session of silent meditation where I tried to find some semblance of peace amidst the chaos.
By 10:00 AM, I was at the venue, ensuring every napkin was folded in a precise bishop's hat fold, not the Dutch crown fold that the staff had mistakenly started with. I corrected this with a slight twitch of irritation. As I roamed the venue, I checked off trivial things on my checklist: the placement of the 150 meticulously chosen floral centerpieces, the angle of the 200 chiavari chairs (which I adjusted from 90 to 85 degrees to encourage more intimate conversation), and the volume of the background classical music (which should be exactly 40 decibels, no more, no less).
Around 11:47 AM, as I was verifying that each of the 250 champagne flutes was free of smudges and positioned 2.5 inches from the edge of the reception tables, Eric, my college friend, approached me. His presence was as sudden as it was unnecessary at that moment. He wore a suit that was one shade too dark for the daytime event, and his tie was asymmetrically knotted.
"Hey," Eric started, clearing his throat while I pretended not to notice the new watermark he had just put on one of the pristine flutes with his thumb. "Can we talk a sec?"
I glanced at my watch, noting that this unscheduled conversation was eating into the 12 minutes I had allocated to inspect the DJ's equipment setup. But Eric had that look — the kind where you know you're about to be dragged into a conversation you didn't schedule or want.
"Sure, Eric," I said, masking my annoyance with a tone flatter than the soda left out from last night's rehearsal dinner.
He pulled me slightly aside, right near the painstakingly positioned ice sculpture of Cupid, which was now melting at an anticipated rate of 0.5 inches per hour, a detail I noted with a frown.
"You're, uh, coming off a bit strong with all this," Eric muttered, gesturing vaguely at my clipboard and then at the surrounding spectacle of my own design. "It’s your big day, man. You should relax. You're too... I don’t know, edgy?"
I stared at him, the words 'too edgy' echoing in my mind like a bad song on repeat. Too edgy? I was merely ensuring that the event adhered to a standard that would prevent any future nightmares about a less-than-perfect wedding day.
"Thanks for the input, Eric," I said, my voice as dry as the unseasoned chicken I had vetoed from the menu last week. "I’ll take that under advisement."
He nodded, seemingly relieved to have dispensed his wisdom, and wandered off to undoubtedly commit more fingerprints to glass surfaces.
Returning to my checklist, I noted the time of Eric’s interruption and adjusted my schedule, allowing 30 fewer seconds at each remaining task to make up for lost time. The rest of the day proceeded in a blur of similarly thrilling activities: verifying the pH level of the water in the vases to ensure optimal flower freshness, triple-checking the seating chart to avoid the disastrous potential of Aunt Marge sitting next to Cousin Larry, and discussing the viscosity of the gravy with the caterer to ensure it poured smoothly without being too watery.
By the time the actual ceremony started, I had recalibrated the entire event down to the second, all while pondering Eric's words. Too edgy? Perhaps, but in a world full of chaos, I was the master of wedding logistics, turning what could have been an eventful and vibrant day into a perfectly planned, substance-lacking sequence of timed events.
And so, as I stood there, exchanging vows in a ceremony that was timed to coincide with the exact moment the sun was highest in the sky (for optimal lighting, naturally), I couldn't help but reflect on Eric's advice. Maybe he was right; perhaps I could have been less edgy. But then again, the day went off without a hitch, exactly as planned, right down to the last, predictable, perfectly unremarkable minute.
My friend Eric has been with me since we were kids, we grew up on the same street actually. Is he wrong for doing this?

I'm looking for the name of an artist I listened to in the 90s, from a CD I stole from my sister. He was bluesy-sounding, a white guy, never really got mainstream popular. I would confuse him with Harry Connick Jr (Another of my sister's preferred artists.) He was a young musician when he broke onto the scene. I just have the one line stuck in my head. "Oh it's killing me." It was a heart break song. His voice was DEEP. You wouldn't expect it from him.
For some reason the song "Bad to the bone" is also playing in my brain at the same time. I think the 'bad' part must've been from an album he did, but it wasn't a cover of that song either.
I remember the album cover was a blueish/purplish (I think) color. I seem to remember him playing Madison Square Gardens on the TV, but I could be wrong there too.
I would classify him as bluesy rock. Maybe "adult alternative" at the time?

for example I want to find the lyric of Makin' it Mine (bc98 t10), I search the game name and the singer SHY GUYS, but didn't find the lyrics, so do you know how to find it? Or there isn't lyric for the song on the internet?

I got the chance to interview a band I really like over the weekend and one of them mentioned an album by a band whose name they forgot. Whole album is a hardcore record sung from the perspective of a six year old having a temper tantrum, songs about demanding stuff form their parents, songs about being jealous of other kids going on holiday stuff like that. He think they where called something like 'I am six' or 'baby six' or something like. I would ask him directly but I know he's not really active on any social media and I wouldn't want to be a pest and ask another one of the band mates to ask on my behalf. any info would be appreciated